Depression Recovery
Depression Recovery
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that time that ketamine failed me
Entry XI
Immediately following my last ketamine treatment I began to crumble. It didn't have it's usual effect and I once again find myself squarely in depressions grip. Just keeping my head down while enduring this onslaught. Sorry about the incoherent nature of this video. It was difficult to make, but I felt it was important to explain what had happened in case there are others experiencing similar events, hoping they aren't alone.
The Website: depressionrecovery.org/
Feel like you're out of options? Please talk to someone now.
suicidepreventionlifeline.org/#
depressionrecovery.org/suicidal/
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post treatment check in
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Entry X: It's been five days since treatment and things are looking up. The Website: depressionrecovery.org/ Feel like you're out of options? Please talk to someone now. suicidepreventionlifeline.org/# depressionrecovery.org/suicidal/
everything happens
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Entry IX: I was completely exhausted at the time I made this video. Please forgive my absence as well as the poor quality of this video. All I can do is begin again. And I will. The Website: depressionrecovery.org/ Feel like you're out of options? Please talk to someone now. suicidepreventionlifeline.org/# depressionrecovery.org/suicidal/
Filmed Ketamine Treatment Session for Depression - Doctor Administered
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Treatment begins at 12:45 I recorded my ketmaine treatment session on January 18th, 2017. It was administered subcutaneously by my psychiatrist Dr. Terrence Early of Interventional Psychiatry Associates in Santa Barbara, CA. I wanted to document the process in order to assist in the struggle to demystify ketamine and it's effects. Ketamine, when administered in proper dosing, with professional ...
learning to accept my failures
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Sorry it's been so long again. I'll get the hang of this eventually. Feeling out of options? suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/index.shtml Unrustle your jimmies: ruclips.net/video/ygr5AHufBN4/видео.html Know Your Meme: knowyourmeme.com/memes/that-really-rustled-my-jimmies
atonement
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Entry VI: I am so very sorry for breaking my commitment to all of you. I fell prey to my own chaotic mind. I am in the process of regrouping and beginning anew. I do my best to explain what brought me here in this weeks vlog. I desperately hope I am able to restore confidence in this channel, in this project, and in me. The Website: depressionrecovery.org/
equilibrium
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Entry V Things were a little rough last week, but I've found a measure of balance. I've taken on a new project as part of the Start A Blog Challenge headed up by my friend John Muldoon and through it have gained focus and perspective. Start A Blog Challenge: startablogchallenge.com/ My new website: depressionrecovery.org/ Monthly Experiments Project: monthlyexperiments.com/
backsliding
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Entry IV: Despite ketamine's life changing effects, depression still seems to be looming nearby. It's a valuable lesson and I will be taking steps to ensure this doesn't happen again. Feeling like you're out of options? Call someone now. Please. suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
What To Expect From A Doctor Administered Subcutaneous Ketamine Injection
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Entry III While dog sitting two Airedale Terriers, I go over my first three doctor administered subcutaneous ketamine injections in detail in an effort to shed some light on the process. I discuss some of the positives and negatives of the experience. Feeling like you're out of options? Call someone now. Please. suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
begin at the beginning
Просмотров 6037 лет назад
A little about my past and I got a new desk! In case you like the desk www.autonomous.ai/smartdesk-sit-to-stand-height-adjustable-standing-desk Feeling like you're out of options? Call someone now. Please. suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ Music Credit: "Destiny Day" Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 3.0 License creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/
Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Defeated by Ketamine Treatment
Просмотров 8 тыс.8 лет назад
This will be the first in a series of weekly vlogs I'll be producing in order to document the profound change brought on by a series of doctor administered ketamine treatments. I have a major depressive disorder which has wreaked havoc on the majority of my life. Many doctors tried to alter my plight without success. It may be that what was needed was a ketamine injection and a doctor willing t...

Комментарии

  • @adamgetzendanner
    @adamgetzendanner 5 месяцев назад

    I first started IV K treatment at my local Veterans Hospital late 2020, and it changed my life. the first few sessions (3/week the 1st 2 weeks) i felt right away a difference. Like the fog on my brain had been lifted. That lasts few hrs for some, but each session i felt like that all day after i got up to i think the highest dosage, after like my first 3 or 4 treatments, i really noticed the lasting effects last a few days. then i think like week 3 & 4 we went down to 2 sessions a week since the effects started lasting a few days. some people only have to do one session a week. But I stayed at 2. The effects really are like that dark fog thats covered your brain for however long completely went away. Somehow it made me stop stressing about anything & everything. Especially the small things. i actually felt happy again. like literally not depressed. unfortunately my house burnt down. Total loss, cars & all. my 2nd session after the fire, which was the next week, i had a negative experience. Nothing bad, it was just really emotional & after it worn off that session, i was bawling my eyes out. my 12yr old son and I got trapped in the fire and the only way out was though my bedroom window.

  • @rolltidehero
    @rolltidehero Год назад

    Thank you. I lost my voice-box to a rare cancer. Then, just my luck... Due to abnormal scarring, my throat and esophagaus are completely closed, so I will never be able to even swallow, or use a prosthetic voice to talk. So it's hard to deal with the fact that I'll never be able to eat anything, drink anything, smell anything and most importantly: talk or socialize. My doctor prescribed me Ketamine 50mg/mL (60mL) Injection Solution. Since I can't swallow, he has me pull the Ketamine into the syringe and then shoot it in my mouth. I am then supposed to hold the liquid ketamine under my tongue for a few minutes so it can soak into my tongue I guess? Anyways, he didn't say what to do with it after that, so I just spit it in my feeding tube. Of course, I didn't feel anything. However, I have been studying Subcutaneous injections and nurses demonstrating it. So write before this comment, I gave myself my first Subcutaneous injection into the fat of my outer left thigh. I feel something. My fingers feel 10 years younger... Maybe because I have been dealing with neuropathy from chemo and radiation. I'm listening to you in the background as I type this. I am kinda following but I couldn't tell you what you said if you asked. I'm a 35 year old single male. I live alone with my 2 dogs who I love more than myself. My depression stems from me feeling like I am not giving my dogs the best life because I'm always sore and unmotivated. But they a fed good and I cuddle with them every night in bed. I am going to watch your video after I send this comment, because I am sure it's gonna be useful. This is probably the weirdest comment you have ever got... But I am proudly the weirdest person that you'll never know (in a good\happy way). If anyone else is curious about me or what I am going through or how I feeel if you read this comment years from now, then email me at ketamine@dgenz.com

  • @handsome_man69
    @handsome_man69 Год назад

    I've had periods where ketamine didn't work. I thought to myself "that's it" when it didn't work. But after going back to it after a year or so, it worked perfectly 100%. Don't think that just because one session didn't work, that that is it.

  • @buckstop1031
    @buckstop1031 2 года назад

    I'm on my fifth ketamine treatment. I can't tell anything different. I have suffered from depression since living the Marines in 1999. I literally tried everything but ECT. If this dies not work, ive made my mind up that I'm checking out. My depression is so severe that I don't want the pain. I hope and pray this Ketamine works.

  • @kihntagious
    @kihntagious 2 года назад

    Where are you?

  • @clausmehl8731
    @clausmehl8731 3 года назад

    The antidepressant victims dont need poisson

  • @jnewmark41
    @jnewmark41 3 года назад

    Hello......I hope you are okay.

  • @jnewmark41
    @jnewmark41 3 года назад

    Are you okay bro? I am worried b/c you vanished from your channel....

  • @jnewmark41
    @jnewmark41 3 года назад

    By the way, the "norm" is .5/kg for infusion.....LOWER doses are also effective for those who are sensitive to this medication. I had to ask my Dr to lower the dose and that was the magic for me. There is a wide range of effective doses .15 - 3.0/kg . This is important to remember b/c there is a LOT of research proving that based on our genetics,, the sweet spot for ketamine varies a lot. Don't give up if you have too intense of an experience......experiment a little.

  • @jnewmark41
    @jnewmark41 3 года назад

    Hi....it has been a long time.....are you okay? Please make a follow-up so we don't worry.

  • @sean13
    @sean13 3 года назад

    How are you now?

  • @ashleymay2850
    @ashleymay2850 3 года назад

    I just took a ketamine infusion that was quite the trip!!!! It helped the depression a lot!!!!!! But very intense experience!!!

  • @taylorh520
    @taylorh520 3 года назад

    Background Music is far too loud. Could you tune down please?

  • @annaruiz5522
    @annaruiz5522 3 года назад

    Excellent video! I’m so afraid to do this, but if I want to have any quality of life I must do this! $625.00 a session but I know it will help! I hope you’re well!

  • @sean13
    @sean13 3 года назад

    How are you doing today? Thanks for these videos!

  • @thefutureofyesterday8136
    @thefutureofyesterday8136 4 года назад

    I wonder if this fellow is okay now? 3 years ago this video was made... I have had 2 Ketamine treatments for depression and anxiety. I am in it for the long haul. I can tell a improvement in anxiety for sure and even with my depression. I have tried everything under the sun in 7 years to help myself. All I have read has been great about Ketamine but I do get infusions not injections. I think there is hope for me after all but I am very careful to not get my hopes too high. I would love some input from this guy of some sort. This video is a first that I have seen that Ketamine is not helping.

  • @CF-Warrior
    @CF-Warrior 4 года назад

    Ketamine did not a thing for me and cost a fortune! Also.. It's not effective up too 70%. It's success rate is that of around 45 to 50%.

  • @Cluless02
    @Cluless02 4 года назад

    No need to apologize - rule of behavior: you always do what you'd rather do than not, under your prevailing awareness. Judge not. By the way, I used to love rainy days - helped soothe my depression.

  • @Cluless02
    @Cluless02 4 года назад

    Standing - that's just wrong! I don't game, rather do audio recording, graphics design and writing. That's whilst going through chronic depression. Can relate to the abuse - had a nihilistic, volatile sociopathic brother. Terrified of him growing up. Can also relate to the sadness - profoundly so, lamenting the past - of what, in particular I failed in - several areas. Life's not my cup of tea - is quite literally a guilt trip. Yet, I suspect I am inherently innocent which cannot be altered. It would figure then, guilt is an illusion.

  • @Cluless02
    @Cluless02 4 года назад

    Didn't work for me at all - 1st, 2nd times. Was a fairly good trip but soon as it wore off, depression came back. Other side effect set in - flu like symptoms. Depression, for me requires real existential answers. Guilt is key to it at the base of it but to can't deny, on the outside, the "hard wired" conditions of the CNS. Guilt should be considered a primary disorder in psychology. Already attempted in 2016 - OD barbiturates, after which quit Benzos. Been in w/d since - has been a freaking nightmare.

  • @tfb6504
    @tfb6504 4 года назад

    I hope you’re ok. I did ketamine infusions and was elated. Then it didn’t, and I did another round and found no relief.

  • @tfb6504
    @tfb6504 4 года назад

    Hope you’re ok. It’s been a while since you’ve posted anything.

  • @esradogan112
    @esradogan112 4 года назад

    I start my first ketamine infusion on Thursday after 14 years of MDD and anxiety , going to start watching your video now !

  • @maryscarboro2198
    @maryscarboro2198 4 года назад

    I have depression . I have been on antidepressants, mood stabilizers, 6 months of ect and ketamine infusions with nasal spray. The infusions are hit and miss. The antidepressants (certain ones) almost compelled me into suicide ideations. Ketamine has been the best treatment so far and the higher doses work better. The nasal spray keeps me from spiraling down into the dark abyss . Reliably so. Good luck Don’t get discouraged yet, many more options to try. Ketamine is good.

  • @sean13
    @sean13 5 лет назад

    How did he administer it subcutaneously? With additional fluids? Seems like it would be better intramuscular.

    • @tyrel-fg7zf
      @tyrel-fg7zf Год назад

      Just take you klopomin why ketamin your weak

  • @sean13
    @sean13 5 лет назад

    Great Video thanks!

  • @HilarityBribo
    @HilarityBribo 5 лет назад

    This is great news! I'm trying Tdcs myself but ketamine is my last stop.

  • @redoctane13
    @redoctane13 6 лет назад

    I hope you're doing better now than the day this was filmed.

  • @Holypikemanz
    @Holypikemanz 6 лет назад

    So phony....lord.

  • @surfsmith
    @surfsmith 6 лет назад

    Brother, you are not alone. My story is acutely similar. Just went into my first infusion today suicidal going in and coming out with hope. Going to do 6 treatments. Anyone thinking about doing this treatment I will add my affirmative voice. The heaviness that I have felt in my heart and mind are not who I am. This treatment has helped me see that. The body is a heavy experience.

  • @floridadave224
    @floridadave224 6 лет назад

    I see it's been over a year since his last post, I hope he's ok and we hear something soon. My son went through the 6 treatments and now does a daily ketamine lozinge, these can be mixed at a compounding pharmacy. This has worked well for him.

  • @fang_uk
    @fang_uk 6 лет назад

    Hi John. So glad to have found your channel. Many parallels here, I look forward to going thru your archive and sharing our respective journeys together. Knowing we’re not alone and having this kind of support network out there is another important tool, so thank you for being a light.

  • @వంశీ-ఱ7ఞ
    @వంశీ-ఱ7ఞ 6 лет назад

    Love you brother, hope you’re depression free in the remaining life

  • @robertdavis3555
    @robertdavis3555 6 лет назад

    Doing my first one today. I'm an nervous as hell.. but I'm hopeful!

  • @wilburwibbles
    @wilburwibbles 6 лет назад

    Thank you for sharing this! I am going for Ketamine treatment in about two days. This was very reassuring!

  • @bansaripatel3235
    @bansaripatel3235 6 лет назад

    I have major depression since last 5 years and I am just 20 year old I lost my career and dreams my life is so pain full and I am also a reiki and crystal healer but I want to back my life 😞😞😞

  • @christinaanonymous9949
    @christinaanonymous9949 6 лет назад

    Ive been considering ketamine infusions and that’s what brought me to your first video of the actual infusion. When I looked at your channel and saw the last video is from nearly a year ago, it was very concerning. I see there are others wondering how you’re doing in the comments. My hope is maybe you’ve recovered and left this channel behind because of it.

  • @servinruben69
    @servinruben69 6 лет назад

    I wish my doctor can prescribe that treatment, im happy to hear your story

  • @hhj88k26
    @hhj88k26 6 лет назад

    Kudos to you to still keep fighting on

  • @sellsair
    @sellsair 6 лет назад

    You're kind of a chode. You have more video explaining the video, than the actual video. Tool!

  • @dragonsdreamrescue9461
    @dragonsdreamrescue9461 6 лет назад

    I hope this guy is okay.

  • @dragonsdreamrescue9461
    @dragonsdreamrescue9461 6 лет назад

    Are you okay?

  • @LoveFlatfootin1
    @LoveFlatfootin1 6 лет назад

    Are the depression symptoms worse than before the ketamine? Are you having withdrawal symptoms from not having ketamine? The last thing we need is an addiction to a drug and withdrawal symptoms.

  • @John-np2bf
    @John-np2bf 6 лет назад

    I'm about to do this, I was kind of freaked out at first but you definitely seem to be enjoying it! I'm scared and excited. Thanks for sharing!

    • @TheMsf111
      @TheMsf111 6 лет назад

      John Gregory hello how was you experience?

  • @John-np2bf
    @John-np2bf 6 лет назад

    I know very much how you are feeling. I am about to undergo treatment. I also am still dealing with the loss of a very long relationship with my ex. My depression is killing me. I'm not even able to work. This is my greatest fear. If this doesn't work, what next? I'm not doing ECT. I don't see how seizures can help the brain recover. I'm so sorry.

  • @brandonkaercher924
    @brandonkaercher924 6 лет назад

    A good friend of mine tried to committ suicide 5 times been in and out of mental health hospitals and his meds wasn't working and then they started doing the ketamine treatments here and it almost cured him and I think if it wasn't for kettamine he wouldn't be here today so keep your head up keep doing the treatments don't give up and be confident it's gonna work and good luck to you I hope the best for you and your family and God bless

  • @megangallaher5351
    @megangallaher5351 6 лет назад

    Honestly this gives me hope. I would love to try this.

  • @georgesoros8589
    @georgesoros8589 6 лет назад

    Only people with means get treated properly for their conditions. What a shame.

    • @robertdavis3555
      @robertdavis3555 6 лет назад

      It is. 10 years ago I was having a severe depression but didn't have insurance. There was a magnetic treatment option but it was around 8K at the time. I asked them if they would help and they literally laughed at me. I was able to get on a med that worked for years and now have a good job where I can pay for it. I feel you though.. .I was one of those people without means.

    • @sean13
      @sean13 5 лет назад

      George Soros go to vacation in Cambodia. Buy a vial Of k at the pharmacy. Get a nurse or doctor etc to monitor you. Inject at safe dose and see if it helps. One vial costs about $35 ( for 500 mg ). Cambodia is cheap but beautiful.

  • @Cluless02
    @Cluless02 6 лет назад

    Poor guy - I do know how it is . . . A song by Lacuna Coil "Unspoken" says it so well -

  • @Cluless02
    @Cluless02 6 лет назад

    Poor guy - I know how it is . . .