@sleepyhead. He probably means that they're getting simply creepy and not disturbing and weird like Kikuo's earlier work (personally I love both styles).
@@pilotitatota Despite everything, I do think that his more recent songs are also quite unique and characteristic of his. I wouldn't really use this particular song as an example, but songs like "Yami Matsuri" and "Anagura-Gurashi" have rather unique instrumentals and unsettling lyrics (not as shocking as the lyrics in say "Gomenne Gomenne" but disturbing nonetheless) and I personally welcome his more recent style that experiments more with different instruments and techniques. Then again, tastes are subjective :) (Not a native english speaker, sorry for any mistakes)
@@fabulousotaku1157 i give you the reason, after all, by that i didnt mean that i dont like his actual style, kikuos music always amazing and unique and same there, i talk spanish so, im not that good in english
"Histrionic" is a type of personality disorder! "Histrionic personality disorder is characterized by constant attention-seeking, emotional overreaction, and seductive behavior. People with this condition tend to overdramatize situations, which may impair relationships and lead to depression." according to our best friend Google. It used to be associated with actors/actresses. Fitting!
Hachi: Tha vocaloid fanbase is dying. Kikuo in Hole-dwelling: Sorry, my steel drums are too loud Hachi: I said- *Sorry I can't hear you again* (epic steel drums + accordion)
Histrionic: a personality disorder part of the Cluster B personality (Narcissism, Anti-social, etc) People with histrionic wants all attention only to themselves, so they act in odd ways. Some of them are charming, some of them are plain weird. They hate when things aren't focused on themselves, so they always have a way to circle the conversation or whatever that's happening all to themselves. These kind of people also grew up with neglectful guardians-- Anyways, Kikuo's song never fails to amaze me~
Shit I actually was diagnosed with this I remember that I'd feel like utter shit because whenever a friend had a bad experience instead of hearing I'd lie about having something similar and make it about me, I clearly lost those friends
"I am a lonely perriot" Perriot: A Male character in French pantomine, with a sad white-painted fsce, a loose white costume, and a pointed hat, Which means it was talking about the person The sounds are a accordion which must means to be French And when saying "Lonely" which means this person was lonely and wants to seek attention And yes Histrionic was a personallity disorder, I get it, which why the stage is look like a drama stage, which Histrionic causes Drama And another Yes it affects actors as well, but it's not an act, it's a DISORDER!!
I had a paper to write about histrionic personality disorder and I got to reference your song in the introduction and conclusion!! I'm very happy with it haha.
Oh my, I didn't even realize (I've had my comments off for the longest time). I'd love to share it with all of you. This made my day haha. The paper was an analysis on Abigail from the Crucible; it was for my Junior Year English class lol.
@@raincandy_UU. I can't belive this actually worked. The formatting is a bit messed up because it's a RUclips comment lol. But thank you for asking and I hope you enjoy it. It's not the best but, one of my best papers in highschool apparently. “‘Me,’ ‘myself,’ and ‘I’ still have so much to lose. How many more masks and affectations? If something is not pleasing to the eye, there is nowhere it can ever belong,” cries a miserable child under a spotlight of a grand theater (Kikuo). But the child is nothing but a representation of someone with histrionic personality disorder through a song. A child that describes the emptiness of an attention-seeking character; a song that represents characters like Abigail from The Crucible. It’s a story written by Arthur Miller that goes over the Salem Witch Trials where Abigail and a group of girls were “possessed” by the devil, seeing things that weren’t real, and accusing others of being witches. This later developed to the point where everyone else was pointing at each other and they couldn’t tell between right and wrong. But thanks to Abigail leading the girls, they were able to get their way with their extreme actions with her own need for attention, which relates to histrionic personality disorder. Histrionic personality disorder, also known as HPD, is defined as “a psychiatric disorder distinguished by a pattern of exaggerated emotionality and attention-seeking behaviors.” (French and Shrestha). Like how the word histrionic describes an “overly theatrical or melodramatic in character or style,” it describes someone doing inappropriate, overdramatic actions to gain as much attention as possible from their people. Overdramatic behaviors and actions based on their need for attention and shaped from childhood; histrionic personality disorder act as a problematic disorder within relationships, making them shallow. Throughout The Crucible, Abigail’s histrionic personality disorder fuels conflict throughout the rest of the play because of her excessive actions and her self-centered thoughts, thanks to the superstitious and religious society within Salem. These odd behaviors of Abigail’s can be explained through the many symptoms of HPD. Attention is usually significant within someone’s life because it gives them motivation and allows them to build relationships, but HPD makes that a necessity to the point that someone would do anything for it. And because of this need for attention, they often “have difficulty maintaining relationships, often seeming fake or shallow in their dealings with others.” (Casarella). They may even “threaten or attempt suicide to get attention.” (Casarella). The ones who have HPD only do these dramatic, inappropriate, or life-threatening acts for a small amount of attention, and usually doesn’t benefit them in the long run. Ethics are ignored for the pleasure of attention; the eyes of the people are the only things they need which makes them gullible and easy to manipulate. As attention and appreciation are needed in life, when it’s taken to the extreme, it makes the person seem hollow from their inadequate, theatrical behavior. Throughout the play, Abigail constantly seeks the attention of others to fulfill her goals through dramatic acts of the devil controlling them and playing tricks on them which soon leads Salem into turmoil. For example, Abigail was always the first to start screaming within the play and the rest of the girls would follow her lead, convincing the rest of the people that they were possessed. Like the time when Reverend Hale was trying to persuade Tituba into Christianity, then all the girls started confessing the dances they did and how they did rituals with Tituba. Abigail confessed, “I want to open myself! … I want the light of God, I want the sweet love of Jesus! I danced for the Devil; I saw him; I wrote in his book; I go back to Jesus; I kiss his hand. I saw Sarah Good with the Devil! I saw Goody Osburn with the Devil! I saw Bridget Bishop with the Devil!” (25). Then, the rest of the girls followed Abigail’s cries. They all followed her command because they were threatened after they had been caught dancing. Abigail asserted herself against the girls so she can get what she wants and throughout the play, she does whatever she can for everything to go her way. And the moment she’s not in the scene or somewhat ignored, she jumps up screaming and flailing to make herself act as if she can see the devil. Pretending the devil is playing tricks on Salem and only she and the other girls see them after they had been “tricked” by the devil before; now they pretend to be witnesses for the church. Thanks to the superstitious society built by religion, people believed her and didn’t ignore her cries. This made her and the girls behave irrationally and strangely to kill the people they don’t want and get the treatment they “deserve.” And they got their way, driving the rest of the plot. If this wasn’t such a superstitious town, the people would just call her crazy and leave her alone. These behaviors that Abigail portrays are particularly based on the way they perceive the world around them. Since they cannot seem to comprehend the way they are impacting others, they can only think about themselves and constantly worry about being noticed instead. Because of this focus on others’ approval, Jennifer Casarella comments, “Environmental factors that might be involved include a lack of criticism or punishment as a child, positive reinforcement that is given only when a child completes certain approved behaviors, and unpredictable attention given to a child by their parent(s), all leading to confusion about what types of behavior earn parental approval.” The environment affects the way people perceive the world. And in HPD, it plays a huge factor because they use behaviors they’ve learned and only use them to gain attention. This makes them focus on themselves more and not realize how much they’re hurting everyone else around them with their hollow acts. They only focus on others when it comes to attention. It’s as if they’re the only ones that matter. These shallow perceptions of someone with HPD are also reflected in Abigail’s character. Near the end of the movie version of The Crucible, Abigail comes up to John in jail, before he is hanged. He was trying to prove Abigail wrong, but it all turned on him because Mary Warren didn’t want to face the guilt or be killed as a witch even though she had proof that Abigail and the girls were lying. No one can trust Abigail anymore after realizing how ruined the town had become because of her and they were avoiding her, so she gets desperate, stole money, and ran to the love of her life (The Crucible, 142:09-143:14). But John did not agree to run away with her because of how she destroyed Salem by being hysterical the entire time (The Crucible, 142:09-143:14). His decline caused her to run away because he was the only one she had left and had gone through so much trouble for (The Crucible, 142:09-143:14). It’s clear that Abigail has very low self-esteem within herself because she was constantly seeking everyone else’s approval and listening to her ecstatic cries. But the moment she started being denied and ignored, she could not accept that and got so desperate she stole money from her uncle. She even constantly begged John throughout the story to be with her and when he denied it, she couldn’t accept it and go on to execute her wishes just so it could change his mind. Even in this scene in the movie, she tries to get him to do as she says, but it didn’t convince him. It shows that she only does things for herself, not considering how others might feel or react to her actions because she doesn’t know how they work. She tried to constantly accuse Elizabeth, Proctor’s wife, because she only wanted Proctor for herself. She didn’t take the time to understand who Elizabeth was to him and didn’t seem to get the idea of what his wife means to him. She doesn’t think about why John tries to save his own wife because she’s constantly fixed within her own problems, as if the world revolves around her. It’s clear that she probably doesn’t understand because the environment in Salem must’ve been so restrictive. They were very superstitious because of the church and children were often ignored because they didn’t deserve any attention. The neglect and environment throughout Salem caused Abigail only to consider herself because only people with their heart to God can survive, and the rest are sinners; that it’s every one for themselves and that truth is not actually necessary. Abigail’s inappropriate and ecstatic behaviors and selfish thoughts dependent on others’ approval, she led Salem into hell by wasting innocent lives to fulfill her wishes. She often pretended as though the Devil was all around her and made others do it with her to make herself seem believable. Often screaming, flailing, shaking, and weeping, she did these shallow acts for herself to gain everyone else’s attention, which would also be short-lived unless she continued to do it. She only did this because she liked having whatever she wanted and that was her minimal understanding of the world due to the unfair environment. She never understood anyone else and only needed them to satisfy her own needs. And so, like Abigail’s empty actions to receive nugatory attention, the child sings, “Each mask drives myself further into madness. Ah, I am just a hollow SOMETHING! … I’ll never understand!” (Kikuo).
Romaji Lyrics Saa asobou kimi to kimi to kimi to Kyou no okyaku wa dono kamen de damasou ka Yakeru you ni azayaka na uso Atama no oku kogashite uite hanete Hah Aa Kanashimi no shoo wo misete ageyou Namida wo hikarase kimi wo sasou yo Aa watashi wa kodoku na piero Miwaku no ichiya ga akereba mou aenai sa Tanoshii ureshii kai yokatta Fuan de Fuan de sa Aa Soredemo boku wa tabi wo tsuzukeyou Boku watashi ore to takusan motte Ikutsumo no kamen to kyoshoku Miryokuteki janakya doko ni mo irarenai Aa Kurushimi no shoo wo misete ageyou Chiratsuku yami de kimi wo madowasu Aa watashi wa kodoku na piero Miwaku no ichiya ga akereba owakare dakara Shinde shimaisou na no sa Kamen ga onore wo kuruwasete yuku Aa ore wa utsuro na nanika da Miwaku no ichiya ga aketemo kuretemo aketemo wakaranai no sa
please read the description of the video cause this song was not made for hanatan but for miyashita yuu's album that came out in december his vocal is extremely good too and you should definitely listen to his version as well
Me go to description Me understand that is all on japanesse Me understand that i don't understand japenesse Me going to teach japanesse to read a description
Being someone with Histrionic Personality Disorder, this hits very close to home. There's a constant need to exaggerate and perform to feel as though you can be accepted, but every attempt just hurts more.
So, I'm guessing this is about Histrionic Personality Disorder, which is a mental disorder characterized by extreme needs for attention. The lyrics say of things that can translate into "shows of sadness" which depression is common in histrionic personality disorder, or HPD. A stage performance makes a lot of sense for this, as during those you are acting for a crowd, for attention and care, which is what HPD causes you to obsess over.
Yes you are completely right. I was diagnosed with histrionic personality disorder around 2 months ago. I have loved Kikuo for years and seeing some recognition for the disorder makes me feel a bit happy. HPD has ruined my life and made it very difficult for me to function. I was getting in trouble at work and at college for my behaviors. I was very extreme. When I felt like people in the room were ignoring me I would pour soy sauce or hand sanitizer (whatever is available) in my mouth. I faked a pregnancy at one point. I would get kicked out of class for interrupting the teacher so often and trying to divert the classes attention. I exaggerated my blood disorder to make it seem like I was critically ill. All my stories were extremely dramatic. My reactions = dramatic. Sometimes I purposely hurt myself for attention - even though I really didn’t want to. It was mentally agonizing. No matter what I did. The attention was never enough. It hurt so badly I just wanted them all to look at me. I was never satisfied. It ended with me calling my friends and telling them I was going to drive into a telephone pole. I did on February 28, 2021. Instead of rewarding me with the attention that I desperately wanted from my friends, they recognized my manipulative tactics and left me. Since then I have been seeing a personality psychologist who diagnosed me with histrionic personality disorder. I also go to cognitive therapy. I have been working hard to make amends and learn how to be like everyone else. Learning how to unlearn toxic tactics of seeking attention and instead learning how to healthily communicate. There is no cure for this disorder. I will always have an unsatisable need for attention. I just have to cope better.
Kikuo : uploads early in JST to illuminate people's day Little did they know that they were also wrecking someone's sleep schedule on the other side of the world It's still awesome as always tho 👌
That part in the middle where the notes were clashing and everything. I.. it felt like I lost my voice when miku whispered. It's like she no longer exists. My voice isn't the one being heard. The chaos in my head or in that theatre isn't being seen. I no longer speak. Just that mask, and personality that the people want to see.
How does kikuo manages to make every song so unique and different from the other? Whenever im feeling like I grasped his music style he releases a new song and I'm completley brown away 💖 ily kikuo
@@jamespeter5561 it was for english, my teacher wanted us to write a short story about anything, and at the time i was listening to kikuo songs and this came on so i wrote about it😭
Oh Kikuo, their music are to the same time creepy and elegant. It's beautiful. ♡ I like me this pretty song, specially for the instrumentals like jazz tone and the Miku's voice here.
saa asobou kimi to kimi to kimi to (Now, let's play with you, with you, with you.) kyou no okyaku wa dono kamen de damasou ka? (With which masks shall we deceive today's guests?) yakeru you ni azayaka na uso (Lies, brilliant as if burning) atama no oku kogashite (scorching the inside of my head) uite hanete Hah... (floating, leaping Hah...) aa kanashimi no shoo o misete ageyou (let's put on a show of sadness,) namida o hikarase kimi o sasou yo (We'll entice you in with glimmering tears) aa watashi wa kodoku na piero (Ah, I am but a lonely pierrot.) miwaku no ichiya ga akereba mou aenai sa (For once dawn breaks on this enchanting night, I'll never see you again.) tanoshii ureshii kai yokatta (Are you having fun? Are you happy? I'm glad to hear that.) fuan de fuan de sa (I was scared so scared, you see...) aa soredemo boku wa tabi o tsuzukeyou (even so, I will continue my journey.) boku watashi ore to takusan motte ("Me", "myself", and "I" still have so much to lose.) ikutsumono kamen to kyoshoku (How many more masks and affectations?) miryokuteki ja nakya doko ni mo irarenai (If something is not pleasing to the eye, there is nowhere it can ever belong.) aa kurushimi no shoo o misete ageyou (let's put on a show of suffering,) chiratsuku yami de kimi o madowasu (I'll lead you astray in the wavering dark.) aa watashi wa kodoku na piero (Ah, I am but a lonely pierrot.) miwaku no ichiya ga akereba owakare dakara (For once this enchanting night ends with the break of dawn, I will have to say farewell.) shinde shimaisou nano sa (For it seems that 'I' am going to die!) kamen ga onore o kuruwasete yuku (Each mask drives my own self further into madness.) aa ore wa utsuro na nanika da (Ah, I am just a hollow SOMETHING!) miwaku no ichiya ga akete mo kurete mo akete mo (Because though dawn may break on this enchanting night, though dusk may fall, though dawn may break,) wakaranai no sa (I'll never understand!)
I thought your LAST upload was good, but this? God, Kikuo, this is OUTSTANDING! Especially the art and effects! Keep up the good work P.S. This gives me haunted abandoned mansion vibes-
OH MY GOD I JUST REALIZED SMTH Since someone said this song was meant to be sung by miy_yuu instead of hanatan... THE VIDEO IS LIKE THAT, JUST A THEATER WITH LYRICS APPEARING SINCE *TARINGTAJAM IS EVENTUALLY GOING TO SUB THIS VIDEOS WITH COOL GLITCHY EFFECTS JUST LIKE HE DID WITH "WOZWALD" AND "AISHITE AISHITE AISHITE"* holy shit i CANNOT *WAIT*
I interpret this as social masks. Any time I'm with someone, I'm careful about how I act, and I'm super scared people might be deceived by me "Are you having fun? Are you happy? I'm glad to hear that. I was scared, so scared, you see..." and as I care more about others, I forget about myself and forget who I am, what I truly feel so I'm "ready" to deceive anyone because this feeling of not knowing myself puts me in immense panic, it's like a self sabotage where I feel like I deserve to deceive people
Even with what I just stated here, I don't know if it's truly how I feel or if it's some generic stuff I heard. Do I truly relate to this? don't know, maybe partially
I heard the accordion and knew this was already a bop
Right?!
I love the acordion 🎶 ♡
This
Mochi Cupcake I love how anytime you hear some rough guitar riff or use something that’s on the different side you know its a bop
frrrr
_"Aah, show me a sad show..."_
The feel of kikuos songs are getting more of a normal-creepy kinda feel to it, and I'm loving it
@sleepyhead. He probably means that they're getting simply creepy and not disturbing and weird like Kikuo's earlier work (personally I love both styles).
@@fabulousotaku1157 _thumbs up_ yup, an everyday creepy thx dude
@@fabulousotaku1157 i prefer the disturbing and weird style tbh, it is more unique and characteristic of kikuo
@@pilotitatota Despite everything, I do think that his more recent songs are also quite unique and characteristic of his. I wouldn't really use this particular song as an example, but songs like "Yami Matsuri" and "Anagura-Gurashi" have rather unique instrumentals and unsettling lyrics (not as shocking as the lyrics in say "Gomenne Gomenne" but disturbing nonetheless) and I personally welcome his more recent style that experiments more with different instruments and techniques. Then again, tastes are subjective :)
(Not a native english speaker, sorry for any mistakes)
@@fabulousotaku1157 i give you the reason, after all, by that i didnt mean that i dont like his actual style, kikuos music always amazing and unique
and same there, i talk spanish so, im not that good in english
"Histrionic" is a type of personality disorder!
"Histrionic personality disorder is characterized by constant attention-seeking, emotional overreaction, and seductive behavior. People with this condition tend to overdramatize situations, which may impair relationships and lead to depression." according to our best friend Google. It used to be associated with actors/actresses. Fitting!
Damn that’s dark
is this medically diagnosed disorder
@@cirquemeister yes
@@mamanyajessie5511 mk
for example, Regina George
Hachi: Tha vocaloid fanbase is dying.
Kikuo in Hole-dwelling: Sorry, my steel drums are too loud
Hachi: I said-
*Sorry I can't hear you again* (epic steel drums + accordion)
Histrionic: a personality disorder part of the Cluster B personality (Narcissism, Anti-social, etc)
People with histrionic wants all attention only to themselves, so they act in odd ways. Some of them are charming, some of them are plain weird. They hate when things aren't focused on themselves, so they always have a way to circle the conversation or whatever that's happening all to themselves.
These kind of people also grew up with neglectful guardians--
Anyways, Kikuo's song never fails to amaze me~
I think I may have this....
@@dontgointothecloset0-05 Self-diagnosis isn't mostly accurate, so it's important to get professional help when it comes to stuff like this >
@@Koi_Kuze yeah I need help...
I guess that kind of explains the stage/theater setting type of vibe
Shit I actually was diagnosed with this I remember that I'd feel like utter shit because whenever a friend had a bad experience instead of hearing I'd lie about having something similar and make it about me, I clearly lost those friends
Everybody gangsta until Kikuo uploads
joshua hurtado no the other way around :)
LOOOL
when u wear a traditional Vietnam hat, u always right :V
And then we become more gangsta 💃✨
Y'all act like you've never heard a disturbing song before
"I am a lonely perriot"
Perriot: A Male character in French pantomine, with a sad white-painted fsce, a loose white costume, and a pointed hat,
Which means it was talking about the person
The sounds are a accordion which must means to be French
And when saying "Lonely" which means this person was lonely and wants to seek attention
And yes Histrionic was a personallity disorder, I get it, which why the stage is look like a drama stage, which Histrionic causes Drama
And another Yes it affects actors as well, but it's not an act, it's a DISORDER!!
I had a paper to write about histrionic personality disorder and I got to reference your song in the introduction and conclusion!! I'm very happy with it haha.
can u copy and paste the essay? I’d like to read it! (If it’s alr
me too! I’d love to read it!!
Waiting for 6 months rofl
Oh my, I didn't even realize (I've had my comments off for the longest time). I'd love to share it with all of you. This made my day haha.
The paper was an analysis on Abigail from the Crucible; it was for my Junior Year English class lol.
@@raincandy_UU. I can't belive this actually worked. The formatting is a bit messed up because it's a RUclips comment lol. But thank you for asking and I hope you enjoy it. It's not the best but, one of my best papers in highschool apparently.
“‘Me,’ ‘myself,’ and ‘I’ still have so much to lose. How many more masks and affectations? If something is not pleasing to the eye, there is nowhere it can ever belong,” cries a miserable child under a spotlight of a grand theater (Kikuo). But the child is nothing but a representation of someone with histrionic personality disorder through a song. A child that describes the emptiness of an attention-seeking character; a song that represents characters like Abigail from The Crucible. It’s a story written by Arthur Miller that goes over the Salem Witch Trials where Abigail and a group of girls were “possessed” by the devil, seeing things that weren’t real, and accusing others of being witches. This later developed to the point where everyone else was pointing at each other and they couldn’t tell between right and wrong. But thanks to Abigail leading the girls, they were able to get their way with their extreme actions with her own need for attention, which relates to histrionic personality disorder. Histrionic personality disorder, also known as HPD, is defined as “a psychiatric disorder distinguished by a pattern of exaggerated emotionality and attention-seeking behaviors.” (French and Shrestha). Like how the word histrionic describes an “overly theatrical or melodramatic in character or style,” it describes someone doing inappropriate, overdramatic actions to gain as much attention as possible from their people. Overdramatic behaviors and actions based on their need for attention and shaped from childhood; histrionic personality disorder act as a problematic disorder within relationships, making them shallow. Throughout The Crucible, Abigail’s histrionic personality disorder fuels conflict throughout the rest of the play because of her excessive actions and her self-centered thoughts, thanks to the superstitious and religious society within Salem.
These odd behaviors of Abigail’s can be explained through the many symptoms of HPD. Attention is usually significant within someone’s life because it gives them motivation and allows them to build relationships, but HPD makes that a necessity to the point that someone would do anything for it. And because of this need for attention, they often “have difficulty maintaining relationships, often seeming fake or shallow in their dealings with others.” (Casarella). They may even “threaten or attempt suicide to get attention.” (Casarella). The ones who have HPD only do these dramatic, inappropriate, or life-threatening acts for a small amount of attention, and usually doesn’t benefit them in the long run. Ethics are ignored for the pleasure of attention; the eyes of the people are the only things they need which makes them gullible and easy to manipulate. As attention and appreciation are needed in life, when it’s taken to the extreme, it makes the person seem hollow from their inadequate, theatrical behavior.
Throughout the play, Abigail constantly seeks the attention of others to fulfill her goals through dramatic acts of the devil controlling them and playing tricks on them which soon leads Salem into turmoil. For example, Abigail was always the first to start screaming within the play and the rest of the girls would follow her lead, convincing the rest of the people that they were possessed. Like the time when Reverend Hale was trying to persuade Tituba into Christianity, then all the girls started confessing the dances they did and how they did rituals with Tituba. Abigail confessed, “I want to open myself! … I want the light of God, I want the sweet love of Jesus! I danced for the Devil; I saw him; I wrote in his book; I go back to Jesus; I kiss his hand. I saw Sarah Good with the Devil! I saw Goody Osburn with the Devil! I saw Bridget Bishop with the Devil!” (25). Then, the rest of the girls followed Abigail’s cries. They all followed her command because they were threatened after they had been caught dancing. Abigail asserted herself against the girls so she can get what she wants and throughout the play, she does whatever she can for everything to go her way. And the moment she’s not in the scene or somewhat ignored, she jumps up screaming and flailing to make herself act as if she can see the devil. Pretending the devil is playing tricks on Salem and only she and the other girls see them after they had been “tricked” by the devil before; now they pretend to be witnesses for the church. Thanks to the superstitious society built by religion, people believed her and didn’t ignore her cries. This made her and the girls behave irrationally and strangely to kill the people they don’t want and get the treatment they “deserve.” And they got their way, driving the rest of the plot. If this wasn’t such a superstitious town, the people would just call her crazy and leave her alone.
These behaviors that Abigail portrays are particularly based on the way they perceive the world around them. Since they cannot seem to comprehend the way they are impacting others, they can only think about themselves and constantly worry about being noticed instead. Because of this focus on others’ approval, Jennifer Casarella comments, “Environmental factors that might be involved include a lack of criticism or punishment as a child, positive reinforcement that is given only when a child completes certain approved behaviors, and unpredictable attention given to a child by their parent(s), all leading to confusion about what types of behavior earn parental approval.” The environment affects the way people perceive the world. And in HPD, it plays a huge factor because they use behaviors they’ve learned and only use them to gain attention. This makes them focus on themselves more and not realize how much they’re hurting everyone else around them with their hollow acts. They only focus on others when it comes to attention. It’s as if they’re the only ones that matter.
These shallow perceptions of someone with HPD are also reflected in Abigail’s character. Near the end of the movie version of The Crucible, Abigail comes up to John in jail, before he is hanged. He was trying to prove Abigail wrong, but it all turned on him because Mary Warren didn’t want to face the guilt or be killed as a witch even though she had proof that Abigail and the girls were lying. No one can trust Abigail anymore after realizing how ruined the town had become because of her and they were avoiding her, so she gets desperate, stole money, and ran to the love of her life (The Crucible, 142:09-143:14). But John did not agree to run away with her because of how she destroyed Salem by being hysterical the entire time (The Crucible, 142:09-143:14). His decline caused her to run away because he was the only one she had left and had gone through so much trouble for (The Crucible, 142:09-143:14). It’s clear that Abigail has very low self-esteem within herself because she was constantly seeking everyone else’s approval and listening to her ecstatic cries. But the moment she started being denied and ignored, she could not accept that and got so desperate she stole money from her uncle. She even constantly begged John throughout the story to be with her and when he denied it, she couldn’t accept it and go on to execute her wishes just so it could change his mind. Even in this scene in the movie, she tries to get him to do as she says, but it didn’t convince him. It shows that she only does things for herself, not considering how others might feel or react to her actions because she doesn’t know how they work. She tried to constantly accuse Elizabeth, Proctor’s wife, because she only wanted Proctor for herself. She didn’t take the time to understand who Elizabeth was to him and didn’t seem to get the idea of what his wife means to him. She doesn’t think about why John tries to save his own wife because she’s constantly fixed within her own problems, as if the world revolves around her. It’s clear that she probably doesn’t understand because the environment in Salem must’ve been so restrictive. They were very superstitious because of the church and children were often ignored because they didn’t deserve any attention. The neglect and environment throughout Salem caused Abigail only to consider herself because only people with their heart to God can survive, and the rest are sinners; that it’s every one for themselves and that truth is not actually necessary.
Abigail’s inappropriate and ecstatic behaviors and selfish thoughts dependent on others’ approval, she led Salem into hell by wasting innocent lives to fulfill her wishes. She often pretended as though the Devil was all around her and made others do it with her to make herself seem believable. Often screaming, flailing, shaking, and weeping, she did these shallow acts for herself to gain everyone else’s attention, which would also be short-lived unless she continued to do it. She only did this because she liked having whatever she wanted and that was her minimal understanding of the world due to the unfair environment. She never understood anyone else and only needed them to satisfy her own needs. And so, like Abigail’s empty actions to receive nugatory attention, the child sings, “Each mask drives myself further into madness. Ah, I am just a hollow SOMETHING! … I’ll never understand!” (Kikuo).
Romaji Lyrics
Saa asobou kimi to kimi to kimi to
Kyou no okyaku wa dono kamen de damasou ka
Yakeru you ni azayaka na uso
Atama no oku kogashite uite hanete Hah
Aa
Kanashimi no shoo wo misete ageyou
Namida wo hikarase kimi wo sasou yo
Aa watashi wa kodoku na piero
Miwaku no ichiya ga akereba mou aenai sa
Tanoshii ureshii kai yokatta
Fuan de
Fuan de sa
Aa
Soredemo boku wa tabi wo tsuzukeyou
Boku watashi ore to takusan motte
Ikutsumo no kamen to kyoshoku
Miryokuteki janakya doko ni mo irarenai
Aa
Kurushimi no shoo wo misete ageyou
Chiratsuku yami de kimi wo madowasu
Aa watashi wa kodoku na piero
Miwaku no ichiya ga akereba owakare dakara
Shinde shimaisou na no sa
Kamen ga onore wo kuruwasete yuku
Aa ore wa utsuro na nanika da
Miwaku no ichiya ga aketemo kuretemo aketemo wakaranai no sa
please read the description of the video cause this song was not made for hanatan but for miyashita yuu's album that came out in december
his vocal is extremely good too and you should definitely listen to his version as well
Me go to description
Me understand that is all on japanesse
Me understand that i don't understand japenesse
Me going to teach japanesse to read a description
I can't read that
@@copy-rightedname google translate is free
where does it say that
@@gohan4813 google translate cant translate symbols correctly.
きくおさんのジャズっぽい曲良すぎる
確かに！私は彼の音楽が大好きで、日本語を知らない人がいないのに、その背後に暗い秘密があるのです
666 likes 😮
@@raincandy_UU. omg
かわいい声でjazzのような曲調、歌詞は少し重い
別次元の3つでも凄く好きになれる
a hard rock cover of this song would go so hard
like Zero/Butterfly With Bulletproof Wings-esque smashing pumpkins, Royal Blood, Songs For The Dead/Millionaire-esque QOTSA
「悲しい」とか「苦しい」じゃなくて「悲しみ(苦しみ)のショーを見せてあげよう」なのめちゃくちゃいいよね、自分の感情もろともショーに仕立てあげてるような、すごい魅力的🎭
2:32 !!!!! I recognize the steel drums from hole dwelling !!! It mixes really well and combines the two feelings surprisingly well, lord
yea it sounds similar
When there’s a metal drum, you know it’s a song that you’ll never stop listening to :D
Not even thirty seconds into the song and I just KNOW it’s gonna be incredible
EDIT: I WAS RIGHT
YOU WERE RIGHT
Congratulations, you're a prophet
THE INTRO WAS A BANGER
Being someone with Histrionic Personality Disorder, this hits very close to home. There's a constant need to exaggerate and perform to feel as though you can be accepted, but every attempt just hurts more.
So, I'm guessing this is about Histrionic Personality Disorder, which is a mental disorder characterized by extreme needs for attention. The lyrics say of things that can translate into "shows of sadness" which depression is common in histrionic personality disorder, or HPD. A stage performance makes a lot of sense for this, as during those you are acting for a crowd, for attention and care, which is what HPD causes you to obsess over.
Gracias, ciertamente para un hispanohablante esto es necesario xd
Yes you are completely right. I was diagnosed with histrionic personality disorder around 2 months ago. I have loved Kikuo for years and seeing some recognition for the disorder makes me feel a bit happy. HPD has ruined my life and made it very difficult for me to function.
I was getting in trouble at work and at college for my behaviors. I was very extreme. When I felt like people in the room were ignoring me I would pour soy sauce or hand sanitizer (whatever is available) in my mouth. I faked a pregnancy at one point. I would get kicked out of class for interrupting the teacher so often and trying to divert the classes attention. I exaggerated my blood disorder to make it seem like I was critically ill. All my stories were extremely dramatic. My reactions = dramatic. Sometimes I purposely hurt myself for attention - even though I really didn’t want to. It was mentally agonizing. No matter what I did. The attention was never enough. It hurt so badly I just wanted them all to look at me. I was never satisfied. It ended with me calling my friends and telling them I was going to drive into a telephone pole. I did on February 28, 2021. Instead of rewarding me with the attention that I desperately wanted from my friends, they recognized my manipulative tactics and left me. Since then I have been seeing a personality psychologist who diagnosed me with histrionic personality disorder. I also go to cognitive therapy. I have been working hard to make amends and learn how to be like everyone else. Learning how to unlearn toxic tactics of seeking attention and instead learning how to healthily communicate. There is no cure for this disorder. I will always have an unsatisable need for attention. I just have to cope better.
@@christinak6932 awe hope you're doing better :)
2:28 なんでこんなトロピカルで絶対明るい曲調にしかならなそうな楽器できくおさん独特の不気味さが出るんだ…すごすぎる…
Kikuo back at it again with the funky steel drums. Gorgeous song.
Need more of them drumm
_steel drums_
すごいボカロverも好き
映像の煙の演出いい仕事してる…
広告がシノアリスってとこも好き
合いすぎてますなぁ
それな笑
わ、私のCM、、、AGC
なんだしなんだしAGC！ってね。
俺なんて広告なかったよ！
最近のきくおさんのミクちゃんの調教ほんと好きです(好きです)
KIKUO CALLS AND WE MUST ANSWER
Kikuo : uploads early in JST to illuminate people's day
Little did they know that they were also wrecking someone's sleep schedule on the other side of the world
It's still awesome as always tho 👌
That part in the middle where the notes were clashing and everything. I.. it felt like I lost my voice when miku whispered. It's like she no longer exists. My voice isn't the one being heard. The chaos in my head or in that theatre isn't being seen. I no longer speak. Just that mask, and personality that the people want to see.
God I was high on Kikuo
You were high on Kikuo but that you can make that into a poem or something?? I like the words used
the diversity of instruments in kikuo's music amazing
"Vocaloid Ver" please tell me this is hinting to kikuohana act III....
@00 0 oh wow!! Thank you for letting me know!
@00 0 HOLY SHIT I LOVE HIM
00 0 who is Miyashita Yuu? Sorry I don't know
@@tammymisu3370 hes an utaite with a very unique voice!
愛DAEGULONGLEGS is a man voice?! Omg this will be so good!
こんな時間に…
無理しないでくださいね
でも新しい曲ありがとうございます、、、
じわりと這い、誘うような
妖しさと瀟洒な闇がとても素敵です！
This Kikuo song does not deserve to be so underrated
DUDE THE HELL IS THIS. THis shit is perfect, it just fit perfectly, this is just the kind of pv that this song could have if it was allowed damn
子供のころに、電気が消えた部屋で眠れないときの気持ちを思い出しました。
さみしさとか心細さ、後ろめたさが入った、懐かしい怖さ。
とてもすきです。ありがとうございます！
歌詞が詩みたいで、怪しい曲調ともマッチしていて
その、とにかく素敵で……今ほど語彙力の乏しさを憎んだことはないです……
About to sleep, see the notification, click. THIS IS A BOP
this is why all his fans are insomniacs. We all stop sleeping to listen to his amazing songs
How does kikuo manages to make every song so unique and different from the other? Whenever im feeling like I grasped his music style he releases a new song and I'm completley brown away 💖 ily kikuo
i used this song as inspo for a writing assignment and i got an A
what?!?!?!? what for what writing was it for
@@jamespeter5561 it was for english, my teacher wanted us to write a short story about anything, and at the time i was listening to kikuo songs and this came on so i wrote about it😭
@@beetlequake AHAHA THATS COOL
When there's only spanish captions, but you know how to speak spanish
Edit: Nevermind they only say "[Música]"
Deaf people be grooving
MUSICA I-
AHAHAHHAHA
@Madisyn Stanley (981MadStan) there weren't when the comment was made :)
There is another video of this song that has spanish subtitles
You know it'll be a bop when Kikuo pulls the accordion out
2:27
You're casually enjoying the song when suddenly... iNStAnT ChAoS
*That's Kikuo for ya!*
That’s the best part for me aha
浮いて跳ねて Hahのリズム大好き
はむすたー
アイコンが空助……
OMG MY BLIND ASS HAS BEEN READING THIS SONG AS HISTORY SINCE IT CAME OUT- IM CRYING
LMFAO
音楽って国境関係ないんやな。流石教祖カッコイイ。
うぽつです！
VOCALOIDバージョンも聴けるなんて嬉しい…！本当に素敵な曲で大好きです。
I need more vocaloid songs with accordions they're so good
Oh Kikuo, their music are to the same time creepy and elegant. It's beautiful. ♡
I like me this pretty song, specially for the instrumentals like jazz tone and the Miku's voice here.
宮下遊さんので初めて聞いた時、これは絶対きくおさんの曲だーー！！ってなった曲だ
めっちゃ好き
There will never be enough words to describe how much I love your music
この曲が1番大好きで何回もループで聞いてる...きくおさんの子達の儚い歌い方大好き...
PVの舞台の上に｢人｣が現れないのって、舞台の上では本当の｢自分｣は存在していないってことなんだろうか。
ミクちゃんの無機質で切ない声がとても合う。好き。
Kikuo is killing it with the uploads lately!!
Listening to this with headphones is such a great experience
Tout est parfait dans cette chanson. C'est magnifique ... Les voix derrière alourdissent mon cœur et le pince. La voix de Miku est si bien utiliser.
一人称バラバラなのって色々な人格を
演じてるからなのか多重人格なのか…？
kikuo is one of the most original music artists out their.
ヘッドフォンとかで聞くとほんと頭がどうにかなりそう…
そういうのが本当に好き…
早速見にいました！！！🙌✨
この怖いような引きつけるような意味がわからないようで不思議な感覚…。(語彙力)
煙の躍動感も凄い…！
好きです！😍
Listening to this with headphones is so much better
OUR GOD HAS ARRIVED. BOW MORTALS
YASSSS- you know it!
Bitch. I was bowing weeks ago lol
@@ashleymitchell7581 Forgive my simple mortal soul. 😔😔
@@bangobeep THEY WILL BE FORGIVEN AT THE ALMIGHT COST OF..............SUBSCRIBING TO KIKOU AND DELETING TIKI TOK!!!
I MEANT KIKUO
静かに歌っている感じなのに、｢あぁ｣には力がこもってる感じ、すごく好きだなぁ…
saa asobou kimi to kimi to kimi to (Now, let's play with you, with you, with you.)
kyou no okyaku wa dono kamen de damasou ka? (With which masks shall we deceive today's guests?)
yakeru you ni azayaka na uso (Lies, brilliant as if burning)
atama no oku kogashite (scorching the inside of my head)
uite hanete Hah... (floating, leaping Hah...)
aa
kanashimi no shoo o misete ageyou (let's put on a show of sadness,)
namida o hikarase kimi o sasou yo (We'll entice you in with glimmering tears)
aa watashi wa kodoku na piero (Ah, I am but a lonely pierrot.)
miwaku no ichiya ga akereba mou aenai sa (For once dawn breaks on this enchanting night, I'll never see you again.)
tanoshii ureshii kai yokatta (Are you having fun? Are you happy? I'm glad to hear that.)
fuan de fuan de sa (I was scared so scared, you see...)
aa
soredemo boku wa tabi o tsuzukeyou (even so, I will continue my journey.)
boku watashi ore to takusan motte ("Me", "myself", and "I" still have so much to lose.)
ikutsumono kamen to kyoshoku (How many more masks and affectations?)
miryokuteki ja nakya doko ni mo irarenai (If something is not pleasing to the eye,
there is nowhere it can ever belong.)
aa
kurushimi no shoo o misete ageyou (let's put on a show of suffering,)
chiratsuku yami de kimi o madowasu (I'll lead you astray in the wavering dark.)
aa watashi wa kodoku na piero (Ah, I am but a lonely pierrot.)
miwaku no ichiya ga akereba owakare dakara (For once this enchanting night ends with the break of dawn, I will have to say farewell.)
shinde shimaisou nano sa (For it seems that 'I' am going to die!)
kamen ga onore o kuruwasete yuku (Each mask drives my own self further into madness.)
aa ore wa utsuro na nanika da (Ah, I am just a hollow SOMETHING!)
miwaku no ichiya ga akete mo kurete mo akete mo (Because though dawn may break on this enchanting night, though dusk may fall, though dawn may break,)
wakaranai no sa (I'll never understand!)
3:15 this part is the best thing i could listen every life
宮下遊さんのカバーがどれほど完璧だったのかが分かる
Kikuos music tickles my insides......
2:25 HOLY-
I RECOGNIZE THOSE STEEL DRUMS FROM HOLE DWELLING!
edit: typos
BRO SAME THE FIRST TIME I HEARD THIS SONG I WAS LIKE ~_~ hmmm this sound familiar
I personally hope this becomes a series of songs on mental disorders!
きくおさんのこの曲調が大好きで…他にも玩具狂奏曲終焉とか化粧品のCMの起用曲とか…最高です✨
This song is so awesome SEGA IM BEGGING YOU TO PUT THIS IN PJSK AND MAKE WXS OR NIIGO COVER IT (we need more dark wxs songs)
i like how the blue reflections on the curtains look like faces
めっちゃ高い塔
めっちゃ猫の食卓
一瞬どうぶつの森が頭に浮かんだ
マリオのBGMも聴こえた
最高
This song probably my favorite vocals from kikuo's songs, maybe even from any vocaloid song I've heard
今更この曲の良さに気づいた
ずっと食わず嫌いして聞いてなかったけど聞けばよかった
一瞬で好きになった
やっぱりきくおさんすきだわ～
この前学校の放送で流れました！！舞台性ナニカがPV付きで聞けるなんて...
Kikuo YET AGAIN snatches my wig not even ten seconds into the song
Okay, but like, this is really classy as far as the instrumentals go for the most part and I've fallen in love with it? Like whoa.
今回も素敵な曲ですね！なんか、ちょっと切ない感じがして好きです！
soo looking forward to kikuomiku6... what an amazing lineup so far..
ほんと調教だいすきだし映像オシャレ過ぎます
英語が多いね……
海外の方まで感じてしまうきくおさんの魅力………
Yup
who wouldn't love kikuo?
I thought your LAST upload was good, but this? God, Kikuo, this is OUTSTANDING! Especially the art and effects! Keep up the good work
P.S. This gives me haunted abandoned mansion vibes-
one of my favorite songs by you
コメ欄に外国の方いたり外国の方多かったりするとちょっと嬉しくなるよね(？)
あとうぽつです
伸びてほしい…！！
reminder to check out the original, its just as amazing as this version
this song is so underrated but so good
イントロからきくお節が効いててすこ
きくおさんの曲全部好きだけどこういうジャズっぽいの本当好み…
好きすぎて泣く(？)
This song would sound so good covered by hanatan
everytging would sound good if it was covered by hanatan
OH MY GOD I JUST REALIZED SMTH
Since someone said this song was meant to be sung by miy_yuu instead of hanatan...
THE VIDEO IS LIKE THAT, JUST A THEATER WITH LYRICS APPEARING SINCE *TARINGTAJAM IS EVENTUALLY GOING TO SUB THIS VIDEOS WITH COOL GLITCHY EFFECTS JUST LIKE HE DID WITH "WOZWALD" AND "AISHITE AISHITE AISHITE"*
holy shit i CANNOT *WAIT*
Sadly, this did not happen...
However, we still have an amazing translation! Kudos to the translator.
@@artthenecromancer404 what do u mean! (: look it up, its on yt
@@artthenecromancer404 I swear I saw you earlier today
@@peepee_poopoo_fart probably from those faking disorder TT comps, I’ve been watching a lot today!
@@artthenecromancer404 Exactly, I'll see if I can find the notification from your comment and reply to you lol
LET HANATAN SING THIS AND MY LIFE IS YOURS
HANATAN SHOULD ALSO SING LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME!!!!!! IMAGINE WHAT THAT WOULD BE!
あなぐらぐらしの音っぽいの散らばってて素敵
きくおさん無しでは生きれない…
I interpret this as social masks. Any time I'm with someone, I'm careful about how I act, and I'm super scared people might be deceived by me
"Are you having fun? Are you happy? I'm glad to hear that. I was scared, so scared, you see..."
and as I care more about others, I forget about myself and forget who I am, what I truly feel
so I'm "ready" to deceive anyone because this feeling of not knowing myself puts me in immense panic, it's like a self sabotage where I feel like I deserve to deceive people
Even with what I just stated here, I don't know if it's truly how I feel or if it's some generic stuff I heard. Do I truly relate to this? don't know, maybe partially
THIS IS ACTUALLY ME CORW WERE TWINS
@@raincandy_UU. LET'S GOOOOO
@@plipploup2142 TWINS FR?!?!
can we talk about how 0:35 sounds great in earphones
Kikuo thank you so much for getting deep into the handpan. I don’t know if you’re the one playing it, but that marimba noise is just. hooh. so good.
なんというか、きくおさんの曲怖いリズム、不安も誘う曲調がすきです…(語彙力)
what a BOP and those steel drums around 2:27??? yesssss i love it
i think it is his best song
ボカロVerも味があって好き