I loved it. It was v sweet to see bebe Brittanys growth! Weirdly, I recognize a lot of your old videos and I’m realizing I’ve seen you on RUclips longer than I thought!
I love it. It makes me wish I had footage of myself. An old friend showed me chat conversations from 20 years ago and .. 'who's that girl?! Me?! No waaaay!' lol. The closest I have to seeing my old cringey self, is all the stuff I wrote on LiveJournal, or my old email correspondences (I kept a lot). This is delightful. Thanks for sharing.
Wow Brittany really said let me confront my humanity and fallability head on so I can better display myself to my audience and understand myself better and we absolutely love that. Like this is giving major permission for others to be genuinely human vibez and I stan (just thought I'd say that b4 full consumption)
I almost died from the cringe but I survived 😅 Happy to use myself as the example of failure and growth. It's been a very lovely sharing it with all of you! Thanks for watching the cringe ♡
Speaking on the child abuse video, yesterday I took my daughter to a new dental clinic to establish care as we just moved states & a sign in capital explained that besides your child's first visit, parents cannot go back there at all. When I told the woman that I wasn't comfortable with that and asked her if they make exceptions, she looked at me like I was crazy and said "Why? Does she have bad anxiety?" & I replied "No, I just care about her safety & wellbeing and I don't just trust anyone." I explained that I'd be fine with sitting out in the waiting room if there was a camera I could watch of her room and if not we'd have to find another dentist. Luckily I got along great with the actual dentist and she saw that I didn't hover around her or my child during the visit causing them both anxiety but just sat quietly in the corner. I'm serious, until my daughter is old enough to physically have a smidgen of fighting off a grown adult, she will never be in another's care without me besides school.
@@BrittanySimon Thank you! They can give me all of the weird "You're crazy woman!" Looks all they want, I don't give a shit. My girl comes first & just because you're in a uniform, wear a badge, or hold a title doesn't mean you won't go there. I'm also very age appropriate when it comes to sex ed & her curiosity but my daughter knows everything and without shame. She has all of the facts and proper names of body parts. She knows about good touches & bad. I also never hesitate to tell her what is OK or not, as abuse (whether it's emotional or physical) can sometimes walk a fine line. I try to take each & every opportunity I can to protect her and keep her safe while still giving her space to foster independence. Again though, until my child is old enough to be able to fight off an attack, she will not be alone without me. Nor will she get to sleepover somewhere else. Not happening. I'd do anything for that girl.
I am the same way! My mother was the same with me. I feel like Brittany Simon really has a wonderful perspective of that. There’s nothing wrong with keeping your children under your watch, especially when they’re young. I always tell myself that no matter what anyone thinks I know I am not harming my child I am ensuring that they won’t be in any danger.
You bring a calming sensation to my life, whether it's from a phone call or watching your many YT videos. I feel less alone as a human with wild thoughts, interests, and views on things. I don't come to you for help but a sense of stability within my rapid changes and growth in my own life, because not too many people I know or meet are interested in radically changing or learning for themselves. Thank you for this beautiful video, the time, and spoons it took to make this. Get some well deserved rest ❤️
I am honored! I am so lucky to meet people and for you all to share your time with me is such a blessing! PS. I slept like the dead last night after I posted. It was some of the best sleep! 👌
Balance is not being in the middle, rather it is in the details. Very interesting Brittany. I think your levels system is a great contribution to social philosophy and a great take on the attainment of happiness.
Girl, this is BALLSY. Big ups on you for being able to look back at this in the public sphere and talk through your past. I think so many of us who have seen any level of growth have these moments. Thankful Livejournal isn't around anymore for people to see this version of me. LOL
Actually watching someone learn from their past and grow and evolve in front of you is pretty damn amazing. Thank you for being so transparent and honest about where you started and how you came to be where you are. Its very insightful and i appreciate who you are as a human
I rewatched this just now while cooking and i just felt immense nostalgia. Like towards the end, how you reflect on what you went through and what it meant for the present you. I cried with you when past brittany spoke about the baby who was killed by his parents and I felt the melancholy with the video where you spoke about how suicide ideations are in us. Your philosophical view on life gives me so much comfort because it doesn't feel like an end all be all unless we put that pressure on ourselves. I've never felt leftist or full out conservative and I genuinely don't even know where I stand on The Levels but I might start to look into it more seriously. Thank you for all the discussions you have on your channel. I hope you never leave youtube (unless you have a change in life and focus on a baby, a house etc.) I've already thanked you before but you truly are a comforting youtuber and you've taught me so much.
I recently learned I am Neurodivergent, and it made so much sense. It’s put a lot of my life into a new perspective. I’ve mourned what could’ve been for me had I had my diagnosis sooner and gotten treated at a young age, and have accepted what’s past. I finally feel like I have it in me to take this journey on and figure it out. I’ve always had these big questions and way of thinking differently, but saw it as a weakness. You’re helping me realize it’s a strength, and I need to accept who I am and dive deeper into it. Thank you very much for sharing this. I agree that you made the video. This one is it, Brittany. You might not be a superhero like you dreamt of as a kid, but you’re changing the lives of people who need it and want it. And you’re creating a really interesting community along the way. So so so happy I found your channel. 💓
@@BrittanySimon I just thought you really deserved to know how your content is helping others. It's clear you're very passionate about your work, and you deserve to be hyped up!!
Seeing someone working out their values and growing is so interesting and I feel really valuable during a time in culture where you can't change, you need to be perfect now. Thank you for this. I'm sure it was both stressful and cathartic. I haven't documented my life like you have, but I have kept up my super cringy comics I made in my teens and early twenties. I like to remind myself of where I once was
you know i think i'm fully on board with the levels now after this. also, early brittanies remind me so much of me which is not necessarily a great thing but seeing you now and how well-spoken, reflective, and stable you are gives me so so much hope 🤍 this was definitley my favourite podcast episode so far 🤍🤍🤍
How DARE the teenagers cuss at each other! Thanks for doing this. Every version of you was really cute and i’m happy they lead you to the person you are now. This is a beautiful exploration of growth. it’s a youtube coming of age story. congrats on being so cool
I have been watching you probably since I was a freshman in high school.. maybe even middle school. You are who made me feel so comfortable in my sexuality and be my true authentic self. Your message has always been a great one but being able to see you back then to now is absolutely amazing. Watching you grow. I also didn’t think bisexual was an option and spent up until 24 years old telling myself I can’t be bi. You have always been a safe place for me. Thank you.
I know how difficult it can be to share past selves, for sure, but this is so beautiful. You seemed to always be a beautiful person. This really feels like you being a parent to your past self, which I think is healing. I know it's healing for me to watch. A pivotal moment for me was looking at my past self, knowing that my brain wasn't (and isn't lol) fully developed and loving myself as that person. It really is such a beautiful journey thru all the pain and the understanding of that pain. I feel like I come from a place of having done really immoral things (I had Trisha vibez, raised w/ no values, having to develop my own from scratch) or witnessing folks I love do immoral things,, which is where I developed my understanding for the darkest parts of humanity. I share the trait of being able to bear witness to any human that sits with me, but not having many capable of doing the same. Anyways, I can't wait to finish this tomorrow. There's so much love pouring from this video, it's a little hard for my fearful heart to take in, but that's a good thing probably! I hope you have a really great day! You deserve that, you deserve to be selfish (preserve self and energy) when you need to be, and baby Brittany is awesome :)
I’m kinda early into this video, but I loved seeing the old you. And the empathy you showed for the abused kid, who was tragically murdered was honestly beautiful. 💕 I think it’s awesome you are being so vulnerable and are showing how you’ve grown and changed over the years.
I admire your ability to look back and reflect on your past. I have been making RUclips videos and other content since I was about 11. It can be so gut wrenching to look over our past selves.
It's crazy to see how much someone can change, both for the worse and better, in the span of two hours. This was definitely one of my favorite episodes yet!
I see so much of my young self in your young self and it really gives me hope. A lot of my past thought patterns, feelings, and attitudes definitely stemmed from shame of who I truly was and am, and I think it’s way more common than people like to admit to act out like that in order to repress things you feel like you can’t express at the time. Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and sharing your journey with us. ❤️
It’s dope you have all this footage of yourself to reflect back on. That’s one reason I live journaling too. I get excited to look back on it 10 years from now.
I’ve been a silent viewer for a while. I find the levels so interesting and watching your growth/progression through the small lens of these videos is beautiful! Thanks for sharing :)
🥰Thank you! I'm still kinda exhausted from going through my past selves but also comforted by how much I've grown😅 It was a journey! Thank you for sitting through it!
I appreciate how much empathy and appreciation you have for past Brittany! It's beautiful to bear witness to your growth. Thanks for sharing your journey with us!
Commenting for the ol algorithm, but also to say that I’m not even fifteen minutes in and I’m already so impressed with your willingness to be so transparent with us about your journey. Showing these past versions of yourself and talking about them with us is something that I think a lot of people couldn’t do. I honestly don’t think there’s a single RUclipsr out there that serves up realness quite like you do, and it’s always so inspiring to see. Over the years you have helped me with my bdsm journey, my borderline journey, and now on a more complex journey of the self and of enlightenment. Basically, you’re the shit girl! Keep up the awesome work. I really ought to sign up for a call one of these days just so that I can talk your ear off outside of the comments section haha 😂
This video, and the one of you cooking ramen in your camper, are my two comfort videos that I always find myself coming back to. It's a weird nostalgia for someone else's life.
Thank you for this video of the levels and using yourself as the example. It is helping me see my own growth. Watching you helps me bring myself back to my core self. Instead of getting all up in my head about shit. You help me find peace. I have introduced my friend to you and it has helped us both. It is so awesome to have someone else to talk about the levels with! We hold ourselves way more accountable for our own actions now. It's a process, but your levels have changed my life, truly. Thank you so much xo
I love thisss 😭😭😭I love how this showed the way our thoughts, opinions, and beliefs change over time, but who we actually are doesn't really change. And how it always takes going through cringey phases to gain the wisdom we have today. 💓💓💓 Much love
I got so much secondhand embarrassment from this bc I see my younger self in yours. But I also felt so much love for both your younger self and mine! Thanks for this.
I have no idea why but this was extremely helpful to me. I’ve always found your videos comforting but as someone who’s still trying to figure everything out it was really special to watch you grow 💕
This video is so beautiful to me, the radical acceptance you have of your past self and everyone in the world and life itself is incredible. I love hearing how other people think and your view of life really is beautiful
The amount of times I screamed at my screen “yes!!” Because I’m hearing you, I’m listening. Wow. Brittany, always pushing me to learn more about myself and my identity. Thanks for being awesome.
This was so intriguing to watch, I don’t know the path I’m on now but I feel like I’ve followed you on so much of this journey ( in the video and in real time throughout the years) that in a way I’ve been making these breakthroughs with you. I think I’ve made a comment similar to this before ages ago, but you’ve always impacted me and the way I go about my life. And not in the sense that i agree with every opinion and belief you’ve voiced, but more that I find your drive to understand yourself and push for knowledge and thinking critically really inspiring. So thank you, and thank you for sharing this deep dive into your perspective I think it’s cool to have such distinct moments and examples how you’ve changed and also how you haven’t changed. I wish I had the ability to look back at myself like this.
One thing I enjoy about watching your videos, among many other things, is that sometimes I hear you explain something I've felt before and use the exact same phrases I used to understand it within myself. One that stuck out to me in this video is coming to a point where one isn't "inappropriately sad anymore"
Yesss! It finally came out. Its nice watching your progression of self as you grow and change. Gives me kind of a perspective on myself which helps me self-reflect where I’m at right now, as a 19 year old struggling and unsure in almost every area of my life.
Watching this I feel so much compassion for lil Britney I just wanna give her a hug❤ even when you are like she was so cringe I just see a passionate young woman with a big heart expressing her heart. Looking back on our past self is such a vulnerable thing and it takes alot of strength to share this with others let alone strangers. I hope when you see past Britney you feel empathy and love cause that was the emotions coming up in me for her, and for yourself now. We're always growing at different levels trying our best with the tools given to us. This was beautiful Brit, thanks for sharing 🥰
It’s been interesting finding your RUclips channel and seeing your journey not only with your own life but how you seem to better explain the tool system. I’ve been going through my own journey and I’m glad I found this system it helps explain things in conversation.
Thank you Brittany! Such a raw and beautiful representation of the human experience. I love listening to your content while I’m doing tasks around the house or at work. I relate so much to your journey. I cried with you. One love!
Omg I love everything about this! What a gift to see some of your past. Thank you for inviting us to know you more fully as we get a glimpse of the past Brittanys. 🙏🏼
Been watching your videos for a few weeks now and I want you to know I think you're the most interesting person I've found on RUclips, I've both enjoyed parasocially "hanging out" and just hearing your thoughts and ideas, AND have really been stirred to a lot of deep thought about my thoughts and beliefs from your own reflections on life. This video is really remarkable, to go back through your past, sit with your past selves, and see what you can learn from yourself; all while sharing that process with us to also learn and grow with. Your mental health journey is also very inspiring, long time struggler with depression/anxiety, so to see you here doing passionate work on the other side of a heavy journey gives me a lot of hope. Keep up the good work Brittany and thank you!
You know what I like about this? It shows how much someone can change and highlights how stupid cancelling ppl is. Ppl change. The degree to which ppl can change is absolutely mind blowing. Hanging onto shit ppl said 10-15 years ago is dumb. Also, I'm glad you decided to let the curls pop 😎. Going to edit this as I go. Edit 1: Ok. I hope this doesn't come off wrong, but you look phenomenal bald. It really, really suits you. Edit 2 (slightly tmi): on the subject of penetration and men dominating women, if y'all haven't tried the Amazon position, y'all are missing out. That is all. Imo, aggression is deeper (pun intended) than simply being the one who is penetrating. Edit 3: they really brought in stage to the little Mac soundtrack I'm done lmao. Closing thoughts: this was amazing. Seeing a snippet of your growth over the years is really making me ponder what I was like over the last 10-15 years. I wish I had the opportunity to watch my life like this.
Not everyone has the ability to change in such a manner that Brittany did though. It takes a special kind of person. We just need to get better at figuring out who deserves a full cancellation
59:13 I worked at a grocery store all through covid and it was both flattering and really irritating when people called me a hero, like sure I'm at a higher exposer level than most people but I'm not directly and intimately working with people who definitely have covid. I'm not a hero I'm doing a fairly easy job because I need money
It’s really awesome to see this documentation. Really shows how much people change over the years and how growth is truly possible. Thank you for sharing this with us!
It's so interesting to see how much you've changed, but also how much you haven't changed! The core of who you are and how you express yourself has always been there 😮
You gotta give some respect to the people bagging groceries, airline staff, and other service jobs. They are taking risk and dealing with some crazy freakin humans!! Glad I do not work retail anymore.
I am only about a quarter into the video but just want to send some encouragement your way! Thank you for being so vulnerable, to show the "self" that is undesirable and underdeveloped to yourself to the world is a true practice in humility and it should be something more people strive to do. Great job and thank you!
... WOW. I grew up watching the show/video you mentioned around the 30 minute mark and I felt my life complete the circle. I’ve never really put myself or beliefs “in a box” and have always looked at life from both sides. Goodness. I’m just struck that you remembered that show/video and I feel the same as you.
I really appreciate you sharing this with us. I realize it’s so nerve racking to share so much of yourself, but you’re really helping people with this. It’s comforting because we all have our own past selves, and it’s inspiring to see how much you’ve grown. I am on my own journey, and your channel is helping me learn so much about myself. Blessings and love to you, Brittany. 💓 your content is positive energy in my week.
Came from our call to watch the podcast! Love this week’s episode! Its so interesting getting to see in real time how drastically we change and stay the same.
Omg this video made me emotional. I grew up watching you, so seeing you go through your stages made me relive who I was when each video was posted. So weird and wonderful
Oof the part where u wanna help loved ones after therapy bc u realize how much dbt cbt helps etc that part I rly felt for old brit but like then realizes u can provide ppl with tools but u cannot give them the like drive to use them/change has to come from them
I'm sorry 😭 It just won't make sense sharing it, it won't impact others the same way and it's a very intense film. Most Americans won't be able to handle it. Maybe I'll talk about it one day
Been watching you Brittany since the older YT days and so glad you're here right now in this moment! Thank you so much for all your work on the levels, they really resonate with me and it's such a helpful tool I'm seeing. I've been thinking about bubbles for so long and I've def been picking up what you've been putting down. Keep up this awesome work, absolutely love it! Hi and love from Australia :)
Whoa lol I just realized as an atheist that the one person I strive to be more like is an amazing Christian woman I have known my whole life. You reminded me of this when you talked about your brother having the same values as you even though you don't have the same beliefs.
It's so comforting to hear of others, whose journeys of life exploration led them into an array of dangerous situations. The world of the twos can make you feel idiotic for such a deep sense of adventure, but it is a necessary part of life imo.
The growth is amazing! Good on you! I really relate to your way of thinking Thankyou for sharing these moments and sharing your journey. Personally it has really helped me gain some clarity.
AWWW Younger Brit is adorable... you come across like a 90/00s Hollywood valley girl somehow going through an awkward emo phase, but I'm from the UK so most American accents sound valley girl to me!
Bless you mama Simon for letting us into this past self 🙏 💛 The journey is so important and I believe that in the world of public figures or fame (idk how else to put that) it's often ignored. I really appreciate you for showing us what the journey looked like for you and how it could look for anyone. Really widens my perspective 😊
Awesome video! I appreciate you being so open with us about your past. I'm on my own journey and feeling pretty lost but it's helpful to see where other people have been vs where they are now. Happy I found you!
this video is great. it shows growth and a sense of true humility. it really shows that the seeds of todays tree was there all along. every step of exploring the world just made the plant bigger and stronger. the parts that dont hold just dies off and somtimes its painful
wow i'm SO CURIOUS about your coauthor being a four and trying to go back into being a two. I think i've been stuck at a 3/4 for a very long time, but it's impossible to suspend my disbelief enough to be a 2, it always feels like i'm being asked to forget everything i've ever experienced or learned in my life-- which is frankly so annoying to me lol
Same here! Would love an episode on the mysterious coauthor. I also currently believe I’ve been in three/edge of four-dome purgatory for roughly the past 6 years… Very new to Brittany’s channel so excited for the inspiration to dig deeper and hopefully come to a place of peace in the deep amounts of existential dread and pointlessness that waves over my mind on the regular.
This was so inspiring to me! It gives me hope that I can get somewhere by being on the path I've been on. That there's more understanding further down that tunnel.
Holy mother of... now I realize for how long I am watching your content/opinion/ramblings/growth. I came with the wave of people that got to know about you from TJ... time .... is a thing.
I’m SO curious what the movie is that you mention brought you into 4-ness. Movies and television shows have been super helpful to my own journey, so I’d love to know! What was it?
I really admire how you were able to put yourself out there by showing the past parts of you that you don't necessarily agree/identify as anymore. I wish all other youtubers/people in general had the ability to do this.
this makes me want to start vlogging/filming videos documentaring my life and beliefs to look back on, even if nobody will watch them, even though they'll probably be cringy within a year or two, because I'm on a significant journey (just left toxic 5 year relationship, struggling with being able to be my true self because of fears of being offensive or being rejected, struggling with intense depression/low energy, struggling with wanting to be vulnerable and connect with others but mentally, something is blocking me) thanks for doing this!
This was so interesting! Thank you so much for sharing your journey and the different stages. I am a new subscriber so I’ve been soooooo curious about your old content. I also really enjoyed watching your style and hair journey. I have so many thoughts, but mostly just wanted to say that I really appreciate your perspective, your introspection, and your willingness to be so open 💜
What a coincidence, I just went through all my journals of myself undergoing the same journey. You just look at yourself and say "hang in there, girl. You have no idea what's around the corner."
Hi Brittany! Thank you so much for this and all your videos. They make me think about how much I can change and grow and that gives me so much hope✨ I also have borderline and ptsd and I'm on my recovery path and all your content help me a lot. So thanks! Send you love from Argentina 💗
Living for the reflection. 🔥 Your younger eyes scream enthusiasts and really ready to absorb the world around you. Wise beyond your years, 16 going on 40 kind of girl. Relatable, so relatable! Spent 12 years in foster care because adults failed me. You remind me, of me, in many ways as an adult.,. Tough stuff. Thank you! For being you. 🤐👌🏽
About half an hour in, and thank you for sharing these past videos! I know it is hard to acknowledge how you were wrong in the past and I respect you so much for talking about it openly.
You've grown so much over the years. I think it's brave to post your opinions on the internet in videos, it's one thing to do it in text form, but to have your face in a video with your words attached to that - that's very breave. You look gorgeous bald! I find it interesting that your opinions have changed so much over time. I can't really relate to that, I've always known myself and been really analytical about the world, other people ,politics etc. My world has grown as my knowledge and experience has. Its really interesting to get this insight to your life and views. Thank you for sharing your growth with us.
Aww it feels so nostalgic hearing the ladies and dudes greeting. I miss that! Still anticipate it when you start a video. Lol so glad you are healthy and happy now that's obviously much more important. Just wondering what was the movie you were watching when you became a 4? Was it Waking Life? Hope you have a good day!
Man! What a journey. It made me simultaneously wish I had documented my own journey to 5, but also grateful I didn’t because dear GOD I can’t even imagine the cringe rn. But it sure would be fun 😂 Can’t wait to see your BPD journey and whatever else ya got in the works :o
When you initially spoke of the levels I did not get it, however I'm glad I I stuck with your content because I think you have fleshed out and discussed your idea better as you have produced more content after that initial video
It's so interesting watching this around the age you started making videos. I wonder where my journey is gonna go. I feel like I've already been through so much, but I guess that's how everyone feels at the most present moment. Regardless, I'm excited (and nervous!) for whatever journey I have ahead of me. As always, thank you for another great video. Also, crazy the journey your hair took during the course of this video!
I wouldn't be able, right now, to watch myself in certain times of my adolescence. Like, I'm finally not cringeing about me as a 10-13 yo girl who loved anime and wasn't interested in boys and thought i was a lesbian and didn't really understand social cues and did not know i was autistic. The real problem is when i remember of when i tried to become a "cool" girl, and go to parties, do drugs, be naked, having sex, but i was just 15. When i think about who i was trying to be, i just violently cringe. Now I'm 22 and I'm just trying to study philosophy and be at home and connect with my family and my boyfriend.
“Pull yourself together, Serena! This is no time for crying!” - Sailor Moon
I am so sorry for the level of cringe in this video! 😂😭
Humans be humaning. :)
I loved it. It was v sweet to see bebe Brittanys growth! Weirdly, I recognize a lot of your old videos and I’m realizing I’ve seen you on RUclips longer than I thought!
Interesting to see you talk about singing along and saying slurs in music and other contexts.
I love it. It makes me wish I had footage of myself. An old friend showed me chat conversations from 20 years ago and .. 'who's that girl?! Me?! No waaaay!' lol. The closest I have to seeing my old cringey self, is all the stuff I wrote on LiveJournal, or my old email correspondences (I kept a lot). This is delightful. Thanks for sharing.
@@BillyBob-jg1gq Omg isnt that insane? How long we follow people's work? I'm honored🥰
Wow Brittany really said let me confront my humanity and fallability head on so I can better display myself to my audience and understand myself better and we absolutely love that. Like this is giving major permission for others to be genuinely human vibez and I stan (just thought I'd say that b4 full consumption)
I almost died from the cringe but I survived 😅 Happy to use myself as the example of failure and growth. It's been a very lovely sharing it with all of you! Thanks for watching the cringe ♡
I agree! I feel like Brittany is the only authentic “safe space” I’ve ever seen
Speaking on the child abuse video, yesterday I took my daughter to a new dental clinic to establish care as we just moved states & a sign in capital explained that besides your child's first visit, parents cannot go back there at all. When I told the woman that I wasn't comfortable with that and asked her if they make exceptions, she looked at me like I was crazy and said "Why? Does she have bad anxiety?" & I replied "No, I just care about her safety & wellbeing and I don't just trust anyone." I explained that I'd be fine with sitting out in the waiting room if there was a camera I could watch of her room and if not we'd have to find another dentist. Luckily I got along great with the actual dentist and she saw that I didn't hover around her or my child during the visit causing them both anxiety but just sat quietly in the corner. I'm serious, until my daughter is old enough to physically have a smidgen of fighting off a grown adult, she will never be in another's care without me besides school.
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@@BrittanySimon Thank you! They can give me all of the weird "You're crazy woman!" Looks all they want, I don't give a shit. My girl comes first & just because you're in a uniform, wear a badge, or hold a title doesn't mean you won't go there. I'm also very age appropriate when it comes to sex ed & her curiosity but my daughter knows everything and without shame. She has all of the facts and proper names of body parts. She knows about good touches & bad. I also never hesitate to tell her what is OK or not, as abuse (whether it's emotional or physical) can sometimes walk a fine line. I try to take each & every opportunity I can to protect her and keep her safe while still giving her space to foster independence. Again though, until my child is old enough to be able to fight off an attack, she will not be alone without me. Nor will she get to sleepover somewhere else. Not happening.
I'd do anything for that girl.
@@Lex-tl4vm I feel ya girl! Kids are out here having to fight off the world and we gotta be there to help them!
I am the same way! My mother was the same with me. I feel like Brittany Simon really has a wonderful perspective of that. There’s nothing wrong with keeping your children under your watch, especially when they’re young. I always tell myself that no matter what anyone thinks I know I am not harming my child I am ensuring that they won’t be in any danger.
You bring a calming sensation to my life, whether it's from a phone call or watching your many YT videos. I feel less alone as a human with wild thoughts, interests, and views on things. I don't come to you for help but a sense of stability within my rapid changes and growth in my own life, because not too many people I know or meet are interested in radically changing or learning for themselves. Thank you for this beautiful video, the time, and spoons it took to make this. Get some well deserved rest ❤️
I am honored! I am so lucky to meet people and for you all to share your time with me is such a blessing!
PS. I slept like the dead last night after I posted. It was some of the best sleep! 👌
Brittany’s abject horror and cringe as she looks back at her older content made my day! We can all relate.
Thank gawd I'm not alone 😬🤣
Ikr. When she made the rape jokes I laughed WAY harder than I should have. (Bc of how absurd they were, I don’t actually think rape is funny)
Balance is not being in the middle, rather it is in the details. Very interesting Brittany. I think your levels system is a great contribution to social philosophy and a great take on the attainment of happiness.
Girl, this is BALLSY. Big ups on you for being able to look back at this in the public sphere and talk through your past. I think so many of us who have seen any level of growth have these moments. Thankful Livejournal isn't around anymore for people to see this version of me. LOL
Aw brittney, i almost cried seeing how much youve grown and i appreciate you so much as a human you have helped me and so many others grow as well
Actually watching someone learn from their past and grow and evolve in front of you is pretty damn amazing. Thank you for being so transparent and honest about where you started and how you came to be where you are. Its very insightful and i appreciate who you are as a human
I rewatched this just now while cooking and i just felt immense nostalgia. Like towards the end, how you reflect on what you went through and what it meant for the present you. I cried with you when past brittany spoke about the baby who was killed by his parents and I felt the melancholy with the video where you spoke about how suicide ideations are in us. Your philosophical view on life gives me so much comfort because it doesn't feel like an end all be all unless we put that pressure on ourselves. I've never felt leftist or full out conservative and I genuinely don't even know where I stand on The Levels but I might start to look into it more seriously. Thank you for all the discussions you have on your channel. I hope you never leave youtube (unless you have a change in life and focus on a baby, a house etc.) I've already thanked you before but you truly are a comforting youtuber and you've taught me so much.
I recently learned I am Neurodivergent, and it made so much sense. It’s put a lot of my life into a new perspective. I’ve mourned what could’ve been for me had I had my diagnosis sooner and gotten treated at a young age, and have accepted what’s past. I finally feel like I have it in me to take this journey on and figure it out. I’ve always had these big questions and way of thinking differently, but saw it as a weakness. You’re helping me realize it’s a strength, and I need to accept who I am and dive deeper into it. Thank you very much for sharing this. I agree that you made the video. This one is it, Brittany. You might not be a superhero like you dreamt of as a kid, but you’re changing the lives of people who need it and want it. And you’re creating a really interesting community along the way. So so so happy I found your channel. 💓
Omg stop😭 You're so kind!
@@BrittanySimon I just thought you really deserved to know how your content is helping others. It's clear you're very passionate about your work, and you deserve to be hyped up!!
Seeing someone working out their values and growing is so interesting and I feel really valuable during a time in culture where you can't change, you need to be perfect now. Thank you for this. I'm sure it was both stressful and cathartic. I haven't documented my life like you have, but I have kept up my super cringy comics I made in my teens and early twenties. I like to remind myself of where I once was
I love the compassion you were able to show to your past selves ❤️
They were trying their best🥰
you know i think i'm fully on board with the levels now after this. also, early brittanies remind me so much of me which is not necessarily a great thing but seeing you now and how well-spoken, reflective, and stable you are gives me so so much hope 🤍 this was definitley my favourite podcast episode so far 🤍🤍🤍
✨ This was a delight to watch.✨
I’m honored to be taken on this journey of a wonderful mosaic that is Brittany.
"We don't have racism in 2010" lolololol... Shane dawson begs to differ
How DARE the teenagers cuss at each other!
Thanks for doing this. Every version of you was really cute and i’m happy they lead you to the person you are now. This is a beautiful exploration of growth. it’s a youtube coming of age story. congrats on being so cool
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I have been watching you probably since I was a freshman in high school.. maybe even middle school. You are who made me feel so comfortable in my sexuality and be my true authentic self. Your message has always been a great one but being able to see you back then to now is absolutely amazing. Watching you grow. I also didn’t think bisexual was an option and spent up until 24 years old telling myself I can’t be bi. You have always been a safe place for me. Thank you.
😭😭 omg thank you!!! I appreciate that so much! S happy for your journey! Happy Bi-ing 😜
I know how difficult it can be to share past selves, for sure, but this is so beautiful. You seemed to always be a beautiful person. This really feels like you being a parent to your past self, which I think is healing. I know it's healing for me to watch.
A pivotal moment for me was looking at my past self, knowing that my brain wasn't (and isn't lol) fully developed and loving myself as that person. It really is such a beautiful journey thru all the pain and the understanding of that pain. I feel like I come from a place of having done really immoral things (I had Trisha vibez, raised w/ no values, having to develop my own from scratch) or witnessing folks I love do immoral things,, which is where I developed my understanding for the darkest parts of humanity. I share the trait of being able to bear witness to any human that sits with me, but not having many capable of doing the same.
Anyways, I can't wait to finish this tomorrow. There's so much love pouring from this video, it's a little hard for my fearful heart to take in, but that's a good thing probably!
I hope you have a really great day! You deserve that, you deserve to be selfish (preserve self and energy) when you need to be, and baby Brittany is awesome :)
I’m kinda early into this video, but I loved seeing the old you. And the empathy you showed for the abused kid, who was tragically murdered was honestly beautiful. 💕 I think it’s awesome you are being so vulnerable and are showing how you’ve grown and changed over the years.
I admire your ability to look back and reflect on your past. I have been making RUclips videos and other content since I was about 11. It can be so gut wrenching to look over our past selves.
It's crazy to see how much someone can change, both for the worse and better, in the span of two hours. This was definitely one of my favorite episodes yet!
I see so much of my young self in your young self and it really gives me hope. A lot of my past thought patterns, feelings, and attitudes definitely stemmed from shame of who I truly was and am, and I think it’s way more common than people like to admit to act out like that in order to repress things you feel like you can’t express at the time. Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and sharing your journey with us. ❤️
It’s dope you have all this footage of yourself to reflect back on.
That’s one reason I live journaling too. I get excited to look back on it 10 years from now.
I’ve been a silent viewer for a while. I find the levels so interesting and watching your growth/progression through the small lens of these videos is beautiful! Thanks for sharing :)
🥰Thank you! I'm still kinda exhausted from going through my past selves but also comforted by how much I've grown😅 It was a journey! Thank you for sitting through it!
COMMENTING FOR THE ALGORITHM AND CAUSE THIS IS ONE OF MY FAV VIDEOS EVER .
I appreciate how much empathy and appreciation you have for past Brittany! It's beautiful to bear witness to your growth. Thanks for sharing your journey with us!
Commenting for the ol algorithm, but also to say that I’m not even fifteen minutes in and I’m already so impressed with your willingness to be so transparent with us about your journey. Showing these past versions of yourself and talking about them with us is something that I think a lot of people couldn’t do. I honestly don’t think there’s a single RUclipsr out there that serves up realness quite like you do, and it’s always so inspiring to see. Over the years you have helped me with my bdsm journey, my borderline journey, and now on a more complex journey of the self and of enlightenment.
Basically, you’re the shit girl! Keep up the awesome work. I really ought to sign up for a call one of these days just so that I can talk your ear off outside of the comments section haha 😂
Omg Willlow! Thank you girl! Appreciate you for taking the time to watch! I needed some hardcore sleep after this went up haha
This video, and the one of you cooking ramen in your camper, are my two comfort videos that I always find myself coming back to. It's a weird nostalgia for someone else's life.
OMG! That's so lovely 😭
Thank you for this video of the levels and using yourself as the example. It is helping me see my own growth. Watching you helps me bring myself back to my core self. Instead of getting all up in my head about shit. You help me find peace. I have introduced my friend to you and it has helped us both. It is so awesome to have someone else to talk about the levels with! We hold ourselves way more accountable for our own actions now. It's a process, but your levels have changed my life, truly. Thank you so much xo
I love thisss 😭😭😭I love how this showed the way our thoughts, opinions, and beliefs change over time, but who we actually are doesn't really change. And how it always takes going through cringey phases to gain the wisdom we have today. 💓💓💓 Much love
I got so much secondhand embarrassment from this bc I see my younger self in yours. But I also felt so much love for both your younger self and mine! Thanks for this.
I have no idea why but this was extremely helpful to me. I’ve always found your videos comforting but as someone who’s still trying to figure everything out it was really special to watch you grow 💕
This video is so beautiful to me, the radical acceptance you have of your past self and everyone in the world and life itself is incredible. I love hearing how other people think and your view of life really is beautiful
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The amount of times I screamed at my screen “yes!!” Because I’m hearing you, I’m listening. Wow. Brittany, always pushing me to learn more about myself and my identity. Thanks for being awesome.
I LOVE this Brittany, so raw, so honest, I understand the cringe but good on you for embraceing it xx
This was so intriguing to watch, I don’t know the path I’m on now but I feel like I’ve followed you on so much of this journey ( in the video and in real time throughout the years) that in a way I’ve been making these breakthroughs with you.
I think I’ve made a comment similar to this before ages ago, but you’ve always impacted me and the way I go about my life. And not in the sense that i agree with every opinion and belief you’ve voiced, but more that I find your drive to understand yourself and push for knowledge and thinking critically really inspiring. So thank you, and thank you for sharing this deep dive into your perspective I think it’s cool to have such distinct moments and examples how you’ve changed and also how you haven’t changed. I wish I had the ability to look back at myself like this.
One thing I enjoy about watching your videos, among many other things, is that sometimes I hear you explain something I've felt before and use the exact same phrases I used to understand it within myself. One that stuck out to me in this video is coming to a point where one isn't "inappropriately sad anymore"
level 2 Brittany - draining
level 5 Brittany - invigorating
I appreciate this so much 💓
Yesss! It finally came out. Its nice watching your progression of self as you grow and change. Gives me kind of a perspective on myself which helps me self-reflect where I’m at right now, as a 19 year old struggling and unsure in almost every area of my life.
Watching this I feel so much compassion for lil Britney I just wanna give her a hug❤ even when you are like she was so cringe I just see a passionate young woman with a big heart expressing her heart. Looking back on our past self is such a vulnerable thing and it takes alot of strength to share this with others let alone strangers. I hope when you see past Britney you feel empathy and love cause that was the emotions coming up in me for her, and for yourself now. We're always growing at different levels trying our best with the tools given to us. This was beautiful Brit, thanks for sharing 🥰
It’s been interesting finding your RUclips channel and seeing your journey not only with your own life but how you seem to better explain the tool system. I’ve been going through my own journey and I’m glad I found this system it helps explain things in conversation.
This was an absolute ride. Truly what a journey. Thank you for documenting this, what growth.
Thank you Brittany! Such a raw and beautiful representation of the human experience. I love listening to your content while I’m doing tasks around the house or at work. I relate so much to your journey. I cried with you.
One love!
Omg, you are truly a pioneer dude. Your life was difficult for a reason absolutely. Glad you made it through. 🙏🏻
i couldn’t be more excited for a podcast omg
Omg I love everything about this! What a gift to see some of your past. Thank you for inviting us to know you more fully as we get a glimpse of the past Brittanys. 🙏🏼
Been watching your videos for a few weeks now and I want you to know I think you're the most interesting person I've found on RUclips, I've both enjoyed parasocially "hanging out" and just hearing your thoughts and ideas, AND have really been stirred to a lot of deep thought about my thoughts and beliefs from your own reflections on life.
This video is really remarkable, to go back through your past, sit with your past selves, and see what you can learn from yourself; all while sharing that process with us to also learn and grow with.
Your mental health journey is also very inspiring, long time struggler with depression/anxiety, so to see you here doing passionate work on the other side of a heavy journey gives me a lot of hope.
Keep up the good work Brittany and thank you!
You know what I like about this? It shows how much someone can change and highlights how stupid cancelling ppl is.
Ppl change. The degree to which ppl can change is absolutely mind blowing. Hanging onto shit ppl said 10-15 years ago is dumb.
Also, I'm glad you decided to let the curls pop 😎. Going to edit this as I go.
Edit 1: Ok. I hope this doesn't come off wrong, but you look phenomenal bald. It really, really suits you.
Edit 2 (slightly tmi): on the subject of penetration and men dominating women, if y'all haven't tried the Amazon position, y'all are missing out. That is all. Imo, aggression is deeper (pun intended) than simply being the one who is penetrating.
Edit 3: they really brought in stage to the little Mac soundtrack I'm done lmao.
Closing thoughts: this was amazing. Seeing a snippet of your growth over the years is really making me ponder what I was like over the last 10-15 years. I wish I had the opportunity to watch my life like this.
Not everyone has the ability to change in such a manner that Brittany did though. It takes a special kind of person. We just need to get better at figuring out who deserves a full cancellation
59:13 I worked at a grocery store all through covid and it was both flattering and really irritating when people called me a hero, like sure I'm at a higher exposer level than most people but I'm not directly and intimately working with people who definitely have covid. I'm not a hero I'm doing a fairly easy job because I need money
It’s really awesome to see this documentation. Really shows how much people change over the years and how growth is truly possible. Thank you for sharing this with us!
I already adored you, but seeing your journey laid out like this makes me love you even more! Thank you for sharing your life and growth with us❤️
It's so interesting to see how much you've changed, but also how much you haven't changed! The core of who you are and how you express yourself has always been there 😮
You gotta give some respect to the people bagging groceries, airline staff, and other service jobs. They are taking risk and dealing with some crazy freakin humans!! Glad I do not work retail anymore.
I am only about a quarter into the video but just want to send some encouragement your way! Thank you for being so vulnerable, to show the "self" that is undesirable and underdeveloped to yourself to the world is a true practice in humility and it should be something more people strive to do. Great job and thank you!
😭 now I'm at 50 min and to see the look of appreciation and pride on your face as you listen to your past self think is making me uber weepy 😆
@@nicoleslavens4934 😭😭😭😭
I'm only on the first Brittany, the straight hair had me shooketh! On to the next one...
... WOW. I grew up watching the show/video you mentioned around the 30 minute mark and I felt my life complete the circle. I’ve never really put myself or beliefs “in a box” and have always looked at life from both sides. Goodness. I’m just struck that you remembered that show/video and I feel the same as you.
I really appreciate you sharing this with us. I realize it’s so nerve racking to share so much of yourself, but you’re really helping people with this. It’s comforting because we all have our own past selves, and it’s inspiring to see how much you’ve grown. I am on my own journey, and your channel is helping me learn so much about myself. Blessings and love to you, Brittany. 💓 your content is positive energy in my week.
What an amazing and inspirational process you have gone through ❤️
this was so well put together! it really painted me a more solid picture of the levels. thank you for the work you put in 🙏
Came from our call to watch the podcast! Love this week’s episode! Its so interesting getting to see in real time how drastically we change and stay the same.
Omg this video made me emotional. I grew up watching you, so seeing you go through your stages made me relive who I was when each video was posted. So weird and wonderful
Oof the part where u wanna help loved ones after therapy bc u realize how much dbt cbt helps etc that part I rly felt for old brit but like then realizes u can provide ppl with tools but u cannot give them the like drive to use them/change has to come from them
As someone who loves movies the most, I feel totally blue balled that you didn’t name the freaking movie that got you to 4 😭
I'm sorry 😭 It just won't make sense sharing it, it won't impact others the same way and it's a very intense film. Most Americans won't be able to handle it. Maybe I'll talk about it one day
@@BrittanySimon Was it "Come and See"?
Yes Same !
Been watching you Brittany since the older YT days and so glad you're here right now in this moment!
Thank you so much for all your work on the levels, they really resonate with me and it's such a helpful tool I'm seeing. I've been thinking about bubbles for so long and I've def been picking up what you've been putting down. Keep up this awesome work, absolutely love it! Hi and love from Australia :)
Whoa lol I just realized as an atheist that the one person I strive to be more like is an amazing Christian woman I have known my whole life. You reminded me of this when you talked about your brother having the same values as you even though you don't have the same beliefs.
It's so comforting to hear of others, whose journeys of life exploration led them into an array of dangerous situations. The world of the twos can make you feel idiotic for such a deep sense of adventure, but it is a necessary part of life imo.
The growth is amazing! Good on you! I really relate to your way of thinking Thankyou for sharing these moments and sharing your journey. Personally it has really helped me gain some clarity.
AWWW Younger Brit is adorable... you come across like a 90/00s Hollywood valley girl somehow going through an awkward emo phase, but I'm from the UK so most American accents sound valley girl to me!
Bless you mama Simon for letting us into this past self 🙏 💛 The journey is so important and I believe that in the world of public figures or fame (idk how else to put that) it's often ignored. I really appreciate you for showing us what the journey looked like for you and how it could look for anyone. Really widens my perspective 😊
Awesome video! I appreciate you being so open with us about your past. I'm on my own journey and feeling pretty lost but it's helpful to see where other people have been vs where they are now. Happy I found you!
Leaving a comment for the algorithm. Just started watching you but I'm hooked already
this video is great. it shows growth and a sense of true humility. it really shows that the seeds of todays tree was there all along. every step of exploring the world just made the plant bigger and stronger. the parts that dont hold just dies off and somtimes its painful
wow i'm SO CURIOUS about your coauthor being a four and trying to go back into being a two. I think i've been stuck at a 3/4 for a very long time, but it's impossible to suspend my disbelief enough to be a 2, it always feels like i'm being asked to forget everything i've ever experienced or learned in my life-- which is frankly so annoying to me lol
Same here! Would love an episode on the mysterious coauthor. I also currently believe I’ve been in three/edge of four-dome purgatory for roughly the past 6 years… Very new to Brittany’s channel so excited for the inspiration to dig deeper and hopefully come to a place of peace in the deep amounts of existential dread and pointlessness that waves over my mind on the regular.
I'll ask them if they want to come on the channel, even just using their voice but they might not be in the headspace.
@@BrittanySimon your co author is non binary?...
@@monday2431 No. He is a he. I just sometimes say they in general for anyone♡ Not meaning to be used as a gender reference.
This was so inspiring to me! It gives me hope that I can get somewhere by being on the path I've been on. That there's more understanding further down that tunnel.
Holy mother of... now I realize for how long I am watching your content/opinion/ramblings/growth. I came with the wave of people that got to know about you from TJ... time .... is a thing.
I’m SO curious what the movie is that you mention brought you into 4-ness. Movies and television shows have been super helpful to my own journey, so I’d love to know! What was it?
Same! I don’t think it would necessarily spark “fourism” in me, I’m just so curious!!
When you find out let me know 😭
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Ah man came here to comment this!
Did you find out ?
I really admire how you were able to put yourself out there by showing the past parts of you that you don't necessarily agree/identify as anymore. I wish all other youtubers/people in general had the ability to do this.
Oh my GOD that soccer mom haircut at 40minutes 😆😆🤣🤣🤣 I love your cringe compilation, its great.
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this makes me want to start vlogging/filming videos documentaring my life and beliefs to look back on, even if nobody will watch them, even though they'll probably be cringy within a year or two, because I'm on a significant journey (just left toxic 5 year relationship, struggling with being able to be my true self because of fears of being offensive or being rejected, struggling with intense depression/low energy, struggling with wanting to be vulnerable and connect with others but mentally, something is blocking me)
thanks for doing this!
Bruhhh. The Sillyville reference😭 I'm borderline and I've always identified with Sillywhim so much.
This was so interesting! Thank you so much for sharing your journey and the different stages. I am a new subscriber so I’ve been soooooo curious about your old content. I also really enjoyed watching your style and hair journey. I have so many thoughts, but mostly just wanted to say that I really appreciate your perspective, your introspection, and your willingness to be so open 💜
What a coincidence, I just went through all my journals of myself undergoing the same journey. You just look at yourself and say "hang in there, girl. You have no idea what's around the corner."
Hi Brittany! Thank you so much for this and all your videos. They make me think about how much I can change and grow and that gives me so much hope✨ I also have borderline and ptsd and I'm on my recovery path and all your content help me a lot. So thanks! Send you love from Argentina 💗
Sending love 🥰
I really enjoyed watching past Brittany change her mind, say one thing one moment and another shortly after... She was fucking working it out!
Living for the reflection. 🔥
Your younger eyes scream enthusiasts and really ready to absorb the world around you. Wise beyond your years, 16 going on 40 kind of girl. Relatable, so relatable! Spent 12 years in foster care because adults failed me. You remind me, of me, in many ways as an adult.,. Tough stuff. Thank you! For being you. 🤐👌🏽
Your episodes get me the my work days. Love watching you ❤️
thank you for this video brittany. It made me feel less alone in figuring myself out.
I’ve really been looking forward to this video, thank you so much for sharing, love and appreciate you!
PS: the pinned usagi/sailor moon quote was absolutely the cherry on top
About half an hour in, and thank you for sharing these past videos! I know it is hard to acknowledge how you were wrong in the past and I respect you so much for talking about it openly.
You can literally see your growth through these videos. This dope
You've grown so much over the years. I think it's brave to post your opinions on the internet in videos, it's one thing to do it in text form, but to have your face in a video with your words attached to that - that's very breave. You look gorgeous bald!
I find it interesting that your opinions have changed so much over time. I can't really relate to that, I've always known myself and been really analytical about the world, other people ,politics etc. My world has grown as my knowledge and experience has. Its really interesting to get this insight to your life and views. Thank you for sharing your growth with us.
Aww it feels so nostalgic hearing the ladies and dudes greeting. I miss that! Still anticipate it when you start a video. Lol so glad you are healthy and happy now that's obviously much more important. Just wondering what was the movie you were watching when you became a 4? Was it Waking Life? Hope you have a good day!
Man! What a journey. It made me simultaneously wish I had documented my own journey to 5, but also grateful I didn’t because dear GOD I can’t even imagine the cringe rn. But it sure would be fun 😂
Can’t wait to see your BPD journey and whatever else ya got in the works :o
When you initially spoke of the levels I did not get it, however I'm glad I I stuck with your content because I think you have fleshed out and discussed your idea better as you have produced more content after that initial video
😆 "Barby Girl" playing in the back of your 1st video 😍
It's so interesting watching this around the age you started making videos. I wonder where my journey is gonna go. I feel like I've already been through so much, but I guess that's how everyone feels at the most present moment. Regardless, I'm excited (and nervous!) for whatever journey I have ahead of me. As always, thank you for another great video.
Also, crazy the journey your hair took during the course of this video!
🤣My hair journey was a whole movie
I wouldn't be able, right now, to watch myself in certain times of my adolescence. Like, I'm finally not cringeing about me as a 10-13 yo girl who loved anime and wasn't interested in boys and thought i was a lesbian and didn't really understand social cues and did not know i was autistic. The real problem is when i remember of when i tried to become a "cool" girl, and go to parties, do drugs, be naked, having sex, but i was just 15. When i think about who i was trying to be, i just violently cringe. Now I'm 22 and I'm just trying to study philosophy and be at home and connect with my family and my boyfriend.
OKAY I HAD TO COMMENT TWICE. YOU ARE SO BRAVE.
I really enjoy hearing how your brain works! Thank you so much for sharing this!
(leaving my comment for the good ol' algorithim!)