Citizen Soldier - Let Me Let Go (Official Lyric Video)

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  • Опубликовано: 21 окт 2024
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Комментарии • 1,8 тыс.

  • @winxfan1025
    @winxfan1025 Год назад +18

    I have never viewed someone who chooses to end their suffering as selfish. It has always caused me great pain because how completely and utterly broken must someone be to reach that point of no return. I am however selfish because I can never understand someone else's pain. No one can truly understand your pain. I am selfish in the sence that despite knowing this, I want the people I love to be here with me.

  • @rhiannoncongleton8371
    @rhiannoncongleton8371 26 дней назад +4

    "lately this life don't feel worth fighting for" is exactly what I feel lately.

  • @fairyheaven7666
    @fairyheaven7666 2 года назад +962

    This song holds so much pain and emotion. Maybe, just maybe if I showed them this song, they’d understand.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  2 года назад +179

      We hear you 🧡

    • @zoningfrombelow
      @zoningfrombelow 2 года назад +143

      Trust me... they won't. No one will ever understand the pain your enduring. It's your pain. Even though we all here went through horrible things and we are all feeling home here... even we won't understand you.
      But that is not bad. It's your own story and you decide how it will end. "It's all in your past, you need to forget it" is something we all heard. We are the heroes of our own story. All this pain is just our hero forming. Don't try to make other understand your pain, it's not worth it. They won't. Even if fighting seems impossible or maybe even nor worth it... you can either make yourself invincible... or get burried by the pain that others caused.
      Fight for yourself. You are worth it.

    • @Diablo_Demon_Of_Vengeance
      @Diablo_Demon_Of_Vengeance 2 года назад +19

      @@zoningfrombelow so True man so True and have nice day

    • @zoningfrombelow
      @zoningfrombelow 2 года назад +21

      @@Diablo_Demon_Of_Vengeance Thank you kindly. I hope you will have it 2 man. lots of love from germany

    • @pochonew5035
      @pochonew5035 2 года назад +5

      Yooo fairy tail emblem you a og my dude

  • @TheDeadRosewood
    @TheDeadRosewood 2 года назад +67

    2:25 "but you'll never know my pain or this smile I still fake" that hits hard because emotions are easy to fake

    • @burntthelegendarytaco6196
      @burntthelegendarytaco6196 2 года назад +1

      So true

    • @shawnintros6486
      @shawnintros6486 Год назад +7

      Wearing a mask of smiles is easier than explaining the wounds and scars underneath

    • @maxie2518
      @maxie2518 Год назад

      it feels that for the past two years, all my smiles have been fake
      god, when i actually say that out loud it sounds depressing as f*ck

    • @melanietietjen1027
      @melanietietjen1027 Месяц назад

      It is easy to fake.

  • @Moon-wj4jl
    @Moon-wj4jl 2 года назад +638

    "You'd never tell me I was selfish for wanting to die"
    This hits harder when your family are the ones who think that having suicidal thoughts is selfish 😢💔

    • @macywilson5245
      @macywilson5245 2 года назад +9

      Ikr?

    • @dagmarpastyrikova9193
      @dagmarpastyrikova9193 2 года назад +19

      Yeah, when I told my granny it would be better to be dead, her reaction was "Yeah, sure, just make more worrents with your funeral." I was speachless, she was serious. She was more concerned about money and what would people say than my mental health... So I know how it feels.

    • @DallasStorm43
      @DallasStorm43 2 года назад +15

      My sister said the same thing..that suicide is selfish. I really started thinking about how she felt. It is very hard when you feel this way. However, there is tons of free and low cost help out there. I did realize it is selfish because you are just thinking of you, not anyone else that may love or care about you and how upsetting it would be for them. It literally crushes the hearts of loved ones. No one is better off without you.

    • @lexiwalker7182
      @lexiwalker7182 2 года назад +16

      I think people like this are the selfish ones for expecting someone to be happy and if the person is confident to tell their family this and this is thier response they are the selfish ones for helping the family member with suicidal thoughts

    • @rayvynswillow
      @rayvynswillow 2 года назад +8

      I think most of us who listen to Citizen Soldier can feel this on a VISCERAL level. I know I've had my fair share of "selfish a**hole" comments directed my way. I am blessed to have a great support network, good friends, and AMAZING kids who remind me why I stick around, and, in the case of my daughter, will call me on my bullshit and tell me that if I WERE to go through with it, she'll go full-on "Sith Lord" and bring me back so she can kill me herself. 😂 I really LOVE that girl...

  • @hero-kun2314
    @hero-kun2314 2 года назад +1003

    If you had a friend who had suicidal thoughts tell that person this:
    "If you don't believe in yourself then believe in me. I will always care for you. If you can't love yourself then I will love you. If you can't live for yourself....then live for me"
    That's what my bro told me.

    • @inesmarouani4658
      @inesmarouani4658 2 года назад +60

      I could actually need those sentences from my friends, because they're beautiful! They would make me cry for knowing my friends love me like I love them!!

    • @carienprinsloo7388
      @carienprinsloo7388 2 года назад +30

      @Ines Marouani here are hugs from an internet friend. I've been at my lowest around this time in 2020. Steadily got myself back from the edge. Looking back, I understand why I felt so hopeless, loveless, and dead inside, and I'm not making excuses or sugar coating what I felt, thought, or did at that stage. But even though my life isn't sunshine and roses, it still is worth fighting for every day.

    • @inesmarouani4658
      @inesmarouani4658 2 года назад +17

      @@carienprinsloo7388 thank you for the hug! I also wanna hug you rn. And I can relate to those feelings a lot.

    • @hero-kun2314
      @hero-kun2314 2 года назад +11

      @@carienprinsloo7388 well said brother 👊

    • @hero-kun2314
      @hero-kun2314 2 года назад +13

      @@inesmarouani4658 to a stranger....you matter 👊

  • @aaroncotter839
    @aaroncotter839 2 года назад +419

    Your songs never fail to make me think that you can read people's minds. Whenever you release one, it's always perfect timing.

    • @JadeMarie08
      @JadeMarie08 2 года назад +26

      Exactly...they always post at the perfect time

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  2 года назад +37

      Appreciate you Aaron 🧡 Glad the music helps

    • @jesseinfamous7328
      @jesseinfamous7328 2 года назад +8

      @@CitizenSoldier Exactly you guys always post at the perfect moment in the words saids alot about what I'm going threw ❤

    • @pochonew5035
      @pochonew5035 2 года назад +3

      Man I was like this yesterday thinking of everything of my life and saying nothing was worth it I sit down looking at a bottle of pills thinking and thinking and thinking and say maybe if I hade enough courage I can do it and finally be at peace.

    • @onyxblackrose
      @onyxblackrose 2 года назад +2

      @@pochonew5035 had that feeling tonight

  • @aammiiee
    @aammiiee 2 года назад +200

    Dealing with mental health and suicidal tendencies is so hard to explain to someone who doesn't know. Your words are spoken from experience which helps people like us know we are not alone in our pain. Thank you 💜
    Your voice is beautiful 💜

    • @sweetyy5203
      @sweetyy5203 2 года назад +10

      It's like you're constantly in lose-lose situations. Trapped in your mind and not knowing the difference between you and your mind.
      Would you agree?

    • @trroxas7
      @trroxas7 2 года назад +1

      No kidding

    • @gordonmcmullan1087
      @gordonmcmullan1087 Год назад +3

      As a suicide survivor I know there's no cure for the voices inside. But everyday we live is another victory. So for all those still fighting you are not alone. We fight a different war and a different battlefield then many people. But we still stand shoulder to shoulder. Never lose hope. Even when there's none to be seen. Because it's us with the biggest hearts that suffer the most.

    • @austinbarker7552
      @austinbarker7552 3 месяца назад

      I know how you feel brother keep fighting the good fight

    • @OliviaTaylor-r2x
      @OliviaTaylor-r2x Месяц назад

      Sometimes you wonder what is there left worth fighting for I’m struggling with suicidal ideation it’s not an easy fight but if I can’t be happy I can try to make others happy feel free to vent here ❤❤❤

  • @lilith9386
    @lilith9386 2 года назад +815

    Ok I’m used to your songs hitting hard but this… this hits like a cannon ball and is so beautiful it’s insane. I love you guys so much and I’m always excited to hear what song comes next 🧡

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  2 года назад +72

      Appreciate you Lilith 🧡

    • @zajanahnapoli1688
      @zajanahnapoli1688 2 года назад +13

      His songs are amazing and he's saving so many people

    • @jordanfoster8630
      @jordanfoster8630 2 года назад +1

      Hull and then the back

    • @Myselfhuman678
      @Myselfhuman678 2 года назад +5

      @@CitizenSoldier I just can't imagine really your each words touches our heart really you a best writer and singer ❤❤❤❤

    • @Island-Girl2891
      @Island-Girl2891 2 года назад +2

      This song definitely hits alot harder than others.... 😪

  • @TheUnknownGam3r
    @TheUnknownGam3r 2 года назад +38

    "Should I feel guilty for running out of time?"
    Such a powerful line...

  • @_crimsonwxnter
    @_crimsonwxnter 2 года назад +150

    this song is just beautiful.

  • @randomdice7418
    @randomdice7418 2 года назад +68

    "If you can meet the demons inside me will you still see me the same?"
    This song is filled with emotion..it is so beautiful

  • @CattyLover98
    @CattyLover98 2 года назад +98

    Here giving applause to this band which saved me so many times, and talk the true, the reality of millions of people. Love you Citizen Soldier ♡
    Btw, today I have a music recital, hope it'll go smoothly and good.

    • @Eclipse-fw5rt
      @Eclipse-fw5rt 2 года назад +10

      Good luck with the recital! You'll do amazing!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  2 года назад +19

      Good luck with your recital 🧡

    • @renegade125anime5
      @renegade125anime5 2 года назад +8

      I also love how interactive they are with the fans. He actually reads and responds to the messages

    • @OliviaTaylor-r2x
      @OliviaTaylor-r2x Месяц назад

      Good luck with your recital hope it goes well ❤❤❤

  • @jamespruitt8590
    @jamespruitt8590 2 года назад +70

    THE HIGH NOTES, this man is the reason I wanna sing he is so inspiring

    • @GatchaDark
      @GatchaDark 2 года назад

      that's why I made a song artist name for me, its called FORGOTTEN SOU,

  • @iOfTheStormm
    @iOfTheStormm 2 года назад +70

    As the song said... people will never truly know. It's exhausting being strong all the time.
    These songs have and always will be one of the best chances people have. Please, do not stop.

  • @Elysion404
    @Elysion404 2 года назад +139

    After sixteen years I finally beat my depression and you guys are a massive part of that process. Thank you. 🖤

    • @Elysion404
      @Elysion404 2 года назад +7

      @J9B1 As cliche as it sounds, don't do it alone. For me, I never asked for help because at first I didn't think I was sick enough to need it, and then when I realised I was, I didn't want to bother anyone with my problems. I closed a lot of doors I didn't even know were open.
      Don't keep things inside. Write them out, draw them out, sing them out, do whatever you can to relieve the pressure, especially when it feels like it's going to crush you. If you have someone from your past that caused you pain, write a letter to them. You don't need to send it, just write it. Tell them how they made you feel. Tell them what they did to you.
      Get yourself a pad of post-it notes. Every day when you wake up, write down one thing you like about yourself. It can be whatever. Are you a good listener? Write it down. Are you a good athlete? Good at video games? Do you have rad taste in music? Write it down. One thing every day. Put them on a board, or a mirror. A wall. Somewhere you can see them. You'll be surprised how many good qualities you have when they accumulate.
      Is there someone in your life that you trust? Confide in them. Do you have a pet? Seek comfort in them. Go for a walk. Take pictures of everything you find beautiful, or fascinating, or even scary. Try something new every day. A new food, a new music genre, a new hobby.
      That's what I did. Slowly but surely, I started appreciating things again. Small ones at first, then larger ones, until they made up a whole picture. And now I am so fucking glad I'm alive. I'm so glad I live in this world, because it is beautiful. I truly want that for you, too. ❤️

    • @Elysion404
      @Elysion404 2 года назад +3

      @J9B1 No problem at all! I really hope you're feeling better. ❤️

    • @DreamNLego.
      @DreamNLego. Год назад +3

      IM SO PROUD OF U! ITS NOT EASY BUT U DID IT! ❤

    • @Elysion404
      @Elysion404 Год назад +2

      @@DreamNLego. ❤️❤️

    • @asiancracker839
      @asiancracker839 Год назад +1

      That is amazing. I'm sorry you struggled for so long and I hope you weren't alone. I'm so proud of you for being so strong. ❤

  • @musicalhearts2879
    @musicalhearts2879 2 года назад +142

    I’ve recently become obsessed with this band and have listened to every song, many of them becoming instant favorites. Mess of Me was the very first song I was introduced too, and it was only until recently I decided to listen to the other songs. Best decision I’ve ever made. I deal with a lot of issues, especially mentally, and somehow it’s like these songs knew actually how I felt. For once, it felt like somewhere genuinely understood me, and it just made me really happy. So thank you Citizen Soldier for making the music you do and giving a voice to those who are too afraid to speak. ❤️

    • @bakugoukatsukitheonlyrealo383
      @bakugoukatsukitheonlyrealo383 2 года назад +2

      I feel the same like I feel a stranger knows me more thin anyone I know

    • @crissakelly8358
      @crissakelly8358 2 года назад +1

      I feel the same way! This band has saved my life more than once in the last year. Suicide is not an attention thing, like alot of people tell me.. I just want all the thoughts & pain to go away.

  • @roxana049
    @roxana049 2 года назад +40

    Not even 20 sec in and I'm already crying..
    "If today was my funeral tell me what would you say".. there has been so many moments when I thought what my family would if I just let myself go.. this line, no, this whole song just hits home

  • @kellychristian4249
    @kellychristian4249 2 года назад +45

    I recently just graduated from highschool and when I was sitting there in my cap and gown I started to tear up. I've been struggling with my awful mental health since I was 7 years old. I never thought that I would hear my name called and walk across the stage, but I did. And I did so with battle scars lining my body, showing that this world has tried to break me and failed.
    So if anyone reads this, know that there are others out there with you. I am with you. When the world tries to break us, we must stand together and support each other. Have a good morning/day/evening/afternoon/night or whatever and remember that you are loved.

    • @Hutch2004
      @Hutch2004 2 года назад +7

      Why did I start to cry when I read this? It's funny a random person on the internet said something that I have been waiting to hear...when people in my life never say it
      Edit: Congratulations fellow graduate!

    • @charlesleonard7734
      @charlesleonard7734 2 года назад +3

      Congrats on Graduating from high school my fellow graduate, The day I graduated in May was the biggest moment of my life because just like you I was battle scared by the hidden fight I constantly fought against my inner demons and anxiety I felt so proud to survive so much pain to make it this point in my life and now in a few months I will be starting college.

    • @dawnmarie9369
      @dawnmarie9369 2 года назад +3

      Congratulations on graduating!! You broke my heart reading this. My son just graduated yesterday from high school also. Whatever demons you were fight you won!!! You did it!! Be proud of yourself!! I’m always here if u need a friendly ear to listen.

    • @kaydoodlesss
      @kaydoodlesss 2 года назад +1

      This is so late, but I also had the same experience. I graduated this year and as I walked on the stage, I realized I made it. Little 15 year old me never thought I’d see graduation. It was almost surreal. This world has tried to break us, but we’re stronger. Much love 🤍

  • @Grace-hg4fu
    @Grace-hg4fu 2 года назад +128

    This song gets me for 2 reasons. At 29 I've struggled with suicidal thoughts since I was 13. I've made 3 attempts, 2 of which were caught before I could hurt myself and one which I survived. I am still struggling, even more so now. Last year a few days after my birthday my little brother who also struggled with suicidal thoughts took his life. My family has been watching me so closely since then. And it hurts a bit because he was my baby brother, I don't want him gone. But I get it, and I'm both happy he doesn't have to struggle anymore and upset that my struggle is harder now. Because him dieing felt like both permission and denial.

    • @Lorea464
      @Lorea464 2 года назад +4

      I am so sorry for your loss
      I don't know what you are going through or how it feels, but I know one thing:
      Your little brother wants you to live on. Live. For the both of you❤

    • @thisisnotanalien
      @thisisnotanalien 2 года назад +5

      DONT YOU DARE GIVE UP ON YOURSELF BABYGIRL!!!!!!!!
      You are beautiful, even in your darkest, please don't give in to the darkness around you.
      I know it breaks you I know it pushes everything inside to just stop breathing, to just stop like there's a nail hammering in your chest.
      But I know I KNOW you are irreplicable, you are an incredible person and your pain will become power for you to have the strength to show others who struggle with the same things to never give up. You are beautiful, you are wonderful, you are an irreplicable light and shining star, please don't leave me don't leave this life. 💔

    • @13CatLover
      @13CatLover 2 года назад

      Im so sorry. I dont know you or what your going through but I want you to keep going because thats probably what your brother would want. Live for your brother and family.

    • @RockstarNinjaGaming09
      @RockstarNinjaGaming09 Год назад

      I've had suicide thoughts 2 weeks after COVID started I'm 14 know

    • @eleanormcgair7981
      @eleanormcgair7981 Год назад

      ❤ sending love x

  • @liabakugo9929
    @liabakugo9929 2 года назад +88

    11 days ago I tried to end it but u guys helped me I had a friend help me he came over and helped me clean my room I can't thank u guys enough if it wasn't for the both of u I wouldn't be here rn

    • @idkrandom666
      @idkrandom666 2 года назад +12

      I may not know you but I am glad your still here 🥰

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  2 года назад +16

      Glad you're better now Lia 🧡 Much love

    • @liabakugo9929
      @liabakugo9929 2 года назад +1

      @@idkrandom666 😭 I am too a lil

    • @xxstealthyboixx5045
      @xxstealthyboixx5045 2 года назад +5

      I agree with candy Union, glad you are still here, keep up the fight 💪

    • @nai5949
      @nai5949 2 года назад +5

      You are so strong. Ik that pain is like no other. Not a lot of people can understand what you are going through and that's okay. I wish you nothing but the best.❤

  • @lisafaulkner793
    @lisafaulkner793 Год назад +37

    Citizen soldier is the reason I'm still here. I was going to end my pain back in November and out of nowhere the song would anyone care started playing. I kept listening to that song on repeat and then started listening to all of the other songs and it got me through such a hard time. I'm still struggling but everyday I listen to citizen soldier.

  • @gothfoxgirlAO3
    @gothfoxgirlAO3 2 года назад +52

    Something about this song makes my insides twist, but at the same time it's a breath of relief to hear that we're not alone in this fight against our minds.

  • @ushijimawakatoshi2106
    @ushijimawakatoshi2106 2 года назад +427

    Chances are you won't see this comment, but I was a huge linkin park fan. So, citizen soldier, if this is a cry for help, this is YOUR SIGN, to get that help. And know that your songs have helped us all *so much* and we are here for you too.

    • @hendrikbezuidenhout2499
      @hendrikbezuidenhout2499 Год назад +17

      Please get this comment to the top... For any and all who need to see it.. It is needed.. Thanks OP

    • @ushijimawakatoshi2106
      @ushijimawakatoshi2106 Год назад +7

      @@hendrikbezuidenhout2499 don't thank me, make sure you thank them💕

    • @brightclaw7187
      @brightclaw7187 Год назад +1

      Wait… what happened to Linkin Park?

    • @ushijimawakatoshi2106
      @ushijimawakatoshi2106 Год назад +9

      @@brightclaw7187 Two members committed suicide, being Chester Bennington and Chris Cornell

    • @brightclaw7187
      @brightclaw7187 Год назад +2

      @@ushijimawakatoshi2106
      Oh no… that’s horrible.

  • @nicolecorsini1328
    @nicolecorsini1328 2 года назад +43

    Loved this band for a long time. Everyone keep going. YOU ARE LOVED!

  • @lexispassion718
    @lexispassion718 2 года назад +6

    *smile* because it confuses people. *smile* because it's easier than trying to explain what's *killing you inside*

  • @kindracorbridge6118
    @kindracorbridge6118 2 года назад +92

    This is absolutely beautiful!!
    I love the soft melody, it’s so different from your usual songs!!
    I can’t wait to see what other masterpieces you create!!

  • @tinyfairybeeaan3425
    @tinyfairybeeaan3425 2 года назад +17

    "You'd never tell me I'm selfish for wanting to die." This line hits so hard as someone who's almost entire family and many 'friends' have said that taking your own life is a selfish act, and it only makes my struggles worse. I love your music, and it has helped me through so much, and I just want to thank you ❤

  • @khaliltamashiianimations
    @khaliltamashiianimations 2 года назад +55

    I have no other words to say about this song but three: a beautiful masterpiece!
    Thank you once again, Citizen Soldier as usual! 🧡🌾

  • @icedragon57studios32
    @icedragon57studios32 Год назад +8

    The true best friends aren't the ones who let you let go. They are the ones who bring you back from the edge and show that you may not love yourself, and you may have demons, but there are those who care and will help

  • @benspeo9688
    @benspeo9688 2 года назад +29

    Absolute masterpiece. Thank you so much for verbalising how I feel❤️

  • @kalffhein
    @kalffhein 2 года назад +26

    If today was my funeral
    Tell me what would you say?
    Would you think less of me for
    Ending all of my pain?
    'Cause I'm so sick of trying to explain
    Would you think of me fondly?
    Like a soldier at war
    Or the coward that could not
    Let you down any more
    'Cause lately this life don't feel worth fighting for
    If you could feel what I feel
    Meet my monsters inside
    You'd never tell me I'm selfish
    For wanting to die
    You would let me let go
    You would let me let go
    You wouldn't judge me for standing
    Out here on the legde
    Knowing that nothing below could be
    Worse than what's in my head
    Yeah you would let me let go
    But you'll never know
    There's a house it's on fire
    Deep inside of my mind
    I've been stuck in the wreckage
    I was told I should hide
    There's an open window, smoke is getting high
    It's gonna tear me to pieces
    Being forced to decide
    Do I [?] like a failure
    Let it burn me alive
    Should I feel guilty for running out of time
    If you could feel what I feel
    Meet my monsters inside
    You'd never tell me I'm selfish
    For wanting to die
    You would let me let go
    You would let me let go
    You wouldn't judge me for standing
    Out here on the legde
    Knowing that nothing below could be
    Worse than what's in my head
    Yeah you would let me let go
    But you'll never know
    My pain, or see through the smile
    I still fade till it's all too late
    All I have to say
    If you could feel what I feel
    Meet my monsters inside
    You'd never tell me I'm selfish
    For wanting to die
    You would let me let go
    You would let me let go
    You wouldn't judge me for standing
    Out here on the legde
    Knowing that nothing below could be
    Worse than what's in my head
    Yeah you would let me let go
    But you'll never know

  • @PrettylittleliesYT
    @PrettylittleliesYT 2 года назад +12

    This song is SO powerful and really hit home for me. I normally don’t talk about this but this song Is truly how I felt 6 yrs ago when I tried taking my own life. To anyone out there that feels the same please know you are loved, and this is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. No matter what you’re going through just know there are others going through the same thing, but there is help out there. You are special, and you are loved, please don’t ever think you are not. When you’ve hit bottom all that’s left is to rise up. My love to Citizen Soldier for another beautiful, touching song and to everyone reading this! God Bless! 🙏🏻❤️

  • @cakecastle8148
    @cakecastle8148 8 месяцев назад +2

    I cant explain why this song hit so hard and i dont think i ever will be able to but it is a beautiful song. Makes me remember my brother and all the words i wish i could have told him

  • @ARC-0606
    @ARC-0606 2 года назад +8

    My mental health has improved so much yesterday was when it started. Like I can't even explain how it feels! I haven't felt this way for a long time. I can't even remember when I've felt this good!

  • @jeradvecellio5482
    @jeradvecellio5482 2 года назад +6

    Being a combat vet dealing with my mental health issues, you all have been my saving grace. Thank you

  • @moonzain.
    @moonzain. 2 года назад +5

    "cause lately this life don't feel worth fighting for" 💔 another relatable song from Citizen Soldier. amazing as always!

  • @melissalawson8401
    @melissalawson8401 2 года назад +3

    This, says it all. I want it at my funeral. Maybe then they would hear me. Beautiful. Thank you for giving us the words we need

  • @pedromok7
    @pedromok7 2 года назад +13

    BEAUTIFUL SONG, EXCITING... I LOVED CITIZEN SOLDIER !!

  • @scarletfokx1449
    @scarletfokx1449 2 года назад +4

    This song is a soothing balm. I really wish there was more acceptance about suicide. No one can feel someone elses pain or live with their difficulties. Their lives are their own and its not selfish to end them if they don't want to live in this world.

  • @PeachBlossomMC
    @PeachBlossomMC 2 года назад +8

    As someone who has c-ptsd and struggles with the monsters inside frequently but also struggles to express them... this song speaks to me. My soft natured personality makes people shocked when they find out i have these dark thoughts and usually the response to my feelings is an explosion at me for feeling the way that I do. Ive been following your band for a long time and you seem to always write something that speaks to me on so many levels that even my friends cannot do. Thank you for what you do and what you write... people like me need it

  • @OptimfireAwsomeness
    @OptimfireAwsomeness 2 года назад +9

    This song describes my childhood I'm 21 had an abusive father and everything in this song describes how I felt when I was younger. I love this song and I'm glad you guys made it

  • @leighferrell7354
    @leighferrell7354 2 года назад +2

    I actually survived a house fire in 2021 and lost everything including my two cats who were my best friends and ever since then so much just kept piling on and my mental health declined and then I found Citizen Soldier and they helped me see I wasn't alone in the pain and in my therapy I found refugee through music someone out there could actually understand that pain so thank you CS for doing what you do. Keep fighting the good fight and hold on. To anyone reading this you are enough and are so loved! God bless you! :) 💙

  • @ravenclawallday6213
    @ravenclawallday6213 2 года назад +12

    This might be my new favorite one of your songs....I relate to every word of it...thank you all so much....

  • @luunara7065
    @luunara7065 2 года назад +4

    This song is on repeat since yesterday! The lyrics are as true as ever and the melody hits just right. This song lives rent free in my head!

  • @CitizenSoldier
    @CitizenSoldier  2 года назад +11

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  • @rebeccaboyce9388
    @rebeccaboyce9388 2 года назад +6

    "I was taught I should hide" has been pounded in my head my whole life...now it has taken 5 yrs of counseling that has helped me to at least let some out...but my demons are still so deep within. "I'm Not Okay" is playing in my head right along with this song but fighting for my son everyday is top priority. Thank you @Citizen Soldier for your in depth music that reminds me others are with me in this fight.

    • @kacykidwell480
      @kacykidwell480 7 месяцев назад

      I find it very difficult to eat anything because still to this day my family makes it out like that's all i do. Little do they know i starve myself because of the comments they've made for as long as i can remember.

  • @Mvan09
    @Mvan09 2 года назад +17

    This is what I needed! Last week was so rough that I had a mental breakdown. I was scared of myself and I was close to hauling my butt to the hospital because of the things in my head I was going to do to myself. But I didnt, I fought and fought, and cried a whole lot. This week been okay so far, still feel like crap but thoughts of hurting myself are gone. And this song explains what I feel and I wished my family knew and didn't judge me.

    • @DallasStorm43
      @DallasStorm43 2 года назад

      I am right there with you. I did exactly what you did. I am just going to go talk with a professional. There is free and low cost help.

  • @alexalexcws
    @alexalexcws 2 года назад +6

    I first heard "I'm Not Okay" and "Would Anyone Care" a year or so ago. And have since expanded to the rest of your music. And holy crap... it's all so relatable to me, especially in a dark time in my life. I love the music, and forever will. Amazing.

  • @sapphirelord6876
    @sapphirelord6876 2 года назад +15

    It's so god dang beautiful. Hits so many emotions I can't believe it. Every song gets better and better but this has been my favorite now. It hits close to home. Again thank you.

  • @1IpswichTown
    @1IpswichTown День назад

    Your songs make me feel emotional because it makesme realise that there people out there who have depression and that it's not just me. Also I enjoy listening to your songs because they have helped me through life

  • @nai5949
    @nai5949 2 года назад +5

    It's only the first few seconds of the song and I am already in tears. So relatable. I wish I could be that happy little girl in my profile picture again 😩 keep up these amazing songs 👍

  • @jacobrohwein8483
    @jacobrohwein8483 2 года назад +4

    To the person who needs to hear this. You are beautiful, you're perfect just the way you are. You are stronger than you think and you will get through this tough time. I don't know who you are but id be sad if you weren't here anymore. So take a look in the mirror for me and just tell the person looking back at you that you love them and you have someone who believes in.

  • @applesauceisgood32
    @applesauceisgood32 2 года назад +3

    It's not just the lyrics, but the video tying it together that adds so much to the impact of the song. The subtle imagery really makes a huge difference in how hard it hits.

  • @seraph327J
    @seraph327J 2 года назад +6

    Ive never had a song make me cry before, because ive been fighting for so long, but I keep going because I have to. Your songs have shown me a new light, and words can't describe the level of gratitude. Thank you for being a voice for us broken souls.

  • @FirstKhaoProtector
    @FirstKhaoProtector 2 года назад +4

    I have never heard a song that more perfectly explains how I feel.. Thank you once again for making songs like this that help me feel less alone in my pain.

  • @sinful_darkness_emo
    @sinful_darkness_emo 2 года назад +6

    I wanna let go so bad and end all of my pain, but I’m trying to remain strong. Thank you so much for this song!! 🧡😭

    • @tq2603
      @tq2603 2 года назад

      Hi there! Thanks for sharing these thoughts!! What do you need most in/for your life?

  • @MistressAudio
    @MistressAudio 2 года назад +10

    I'm almost in tears, this is such a different vibe from you guys and it gives me the feeling that he feels triumphant and totally at peace for his decision to end. I see it as a song he sings from the afterlife after going through with it. It sounds so hopeful and even tho he presumably is dead already he's actually happy, at peace. I'm not sure if that's at all what you meant by this song, but this one has really moved me in ways almost no others of your songs have. Thank you, this was absolutely beautiful

  • @ExileOfGods
    @ExileOfGods 2 года назад +3

    Out of all the songs I’ve listened to by Citizen Soldier this immediately cut deep because that is exactly how I feel everyday. No one has been able to explain what’s going on inside my head. It hurts because I want people to understand why I’ve wanted to end my life but when they “listen” they don’t take it to heart. It’s like they only do it to save me that day (only when I ask for help) but forget this is an everyday battle that’s fought with constant anxiety and I’m always need of reassurance that I will be fine. Like today and actually right now. I’m not in a good headspace.

  • @davidpacheco268
    @davidpacheco268 2 года назад +6

    From someone who has been there and had overcome it, thank you, Citizen Soldier. Every song you write becomes a part of me so I never forget that, although I surpassed it, many aren't able to. Greetings from Portugal, hope you come here someday!

  • @heatherpastrano2564
    @heatherpastrano2564 2 года назад +1

    I know the pain of going through this but I'm better now. Now I have a family member going through this pain and I wish I could muster the courage to show them this. To show them they're not alone in this fight.

  • @totallytoaster0426
    @totallytoaster0426 2 года назад +8

    Been in a very dark spot so listening to this just hits me so hard in multiple levels
    Thank you for making this

  • @azwlfboy
    @azwlfboy 2 года назад +1

    Nathan, thank you my friend I truly appreciate you. Congratulations on your wedding. God bless

  • @baker099
    @baker099 2 года назад +4

    I just. Excuse me while I bawl my eyes out listening to this. Thank you so much for all your beautiful music. You've gotten through some of my darkest days, you help more than you know. Don't give up everyone. It gets better. I promise.

  • @amazingturtle5075
    @amazingturtle5075 2 года назад

    That's it, that's the one. It captures how it feels when you just don't care about living or any part of your own life, but the guilt of the impact you'd have on everyone you leave behind keeps you chained to living when you know you don't want to. "Let me let go" is the perfect phrasing for it

  • @mystiangel96
    @mystiangel96 2 года назад +7

    Really relates to things my therapist and I talked about this week. Much love, guys, take care of yourselves! ❤️

  • @Dillian-w6k
    @Dillian-w6k 2 месяца назад

    If I went through with it I wouldn't know the joy I get from seeing my sons smile I never thought I was worthy of such love I don't deserve it😢 he saved me ❤

  • @FrancisMillard3062
    @FrancisMillard3062 2 года назад +8

    Yet another masterpiece from a very good band that I will always listen to

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  2 года назад +1

      Appreciate that Francis 🧡

    • @FrancisMillard3062
      @FrancisMillard3062 2 года назад

      @@CitizenSoldier No, Thank you guys for making your music for people like me who suffer from mental illnesses can be found through it and find different ways of living out our stories. It is truly an honor listening to your music and being one of your many fans.

  • @brandondavis5596
    @brandondavis5596 2 года назад +1

    You’re absolutely right. I’ll never know. We’ll never know but someone knows. God has known this whole time. I didn’t commit suicide like many veterans but 3 years ago I was a homeless alcoholic. 2 years ago I put down the bottle through Jesus. Got married a year ago and my wife’s daughter accepted me as her dad yesterday. Did things that convinced me I was dead and I sounded like you. Not anymore.

  • @melodysoul6725
    @melodysoul6725 2 года назад +8

    This song has me crying so hard right now and feeling so understood, a lot of this stuff enters my head when I'm at my worst. Especially that first verse, when I think about the "what ifs" of letting go. Would they hate me for it? Would they cry? Would they understand why? Or maybe I'd be judged for not having been able to carry on.
    For those going through a tough time, like I do. You're a hero in your own right, for holding on and keeping strong, but also don't worry, you aren't a villain or a bad person for becoming weak at times, you aren't worse for it. Every bit of you is amazing, every weakness, there is no and should be no blame, but rather understanding and listening. And every strength is a celebration that you've gone farther, even by just a little, than before!
    You aren't to be judged, but to be loved and cherished.
    Thank you Citizen Solder, this band's songs are amazing, so very powerful, and help me hold on a little longer, help me cry and feel relieved that out there I'm understood. A lot of them do that! They've helped so much let out what I needed to, when I really needed it. And help explain my worst to all those that care about me. ^^
    The pain is really harsh and hard, but it gets better knowing no one is alone in being understood or heard. Someone out there will definitely get it, and/or listen. 💜

    • @bensalemomar8001
      @bensalemomar8001 2 года назад

      I'm going through a hard time of depression and your words touched my heart!
      Thank you

  • @caseywoods2968
    @caseywoods2968 2 года назад +2

    I think of life as a boomerang. You always have this place of contentment. And when good things happy you move above contentment but when the moment is over and you go back to contentment, it's the same with bad things. But no matter what happens there's always that place of contentment, its your choice on how long it takes to get back to it. But sometimes we need other people to help you and that's OK to. So no matter what happens don't let bad things make you lose focus of contentment, because that's when you lose hope of a better place. But there is, NO MATTER WHAT
    (But also, while being content you also have to keep your life moving, with a direction or purpose because that's the difference between surviving and living)

  • @Rapunzle96
    @Rapunzle96 2 года назад +5

    This song hits so close to home Im crying 😭 ♥️ i didn’t know there was a song that would say all my thoughts perfectly

  • @theblackbrazillian76
    @theblackbrazillian76 Год назад +1

    Love is not supposed to be a burden. You asked God for something, now that you have it, go to it or let go. God will help you rid yourself of that which you asked for. He gives/offers us gifts and blessings BUT He doesn't demand that we take them. You are making the struggle harder than it is. If you have a commitment to another person, keep your word for the honesty of your word is all that you have. Don't be afraid of anything! You don't need help letting go.....

  • @AndrewGraves94
    @AndrewGraves94 2 года назад +6

    I really felt this song it really made me realize how many times I wanted to end it all and yet I am still here suffering through it all. This song is beautiful and it helps me find some kind of peace with my inner demons inside my head. #FightTheGoodFight

  • @OriOri-dn3iu
    @OriOri-dn3iu 8 месяцев назад +1

    I can completely relate, having mental illness. However, i feel at the same time, i feel you have an obligation to still give hope. Even if you dont feel that at the time of writing this song, i still feel you really have to give the message of hope.

  • @Alexiety-
    @Alexiety- 2 года назад +15

    A new song! You guys always seem to post at the perfect time whenever I feel bad

  • @userrunner_lefty
    @userrunner_lefty 22 часа назад

    My life is so complicated and I have a piece of me in every song you make

  • @danielle1687
    @danielle1687 2 года назад +3

    These songs don't just hit me hard cause they make me think of myself.. They also remind me of my best friend that took his life and left me all alone.. 😢

  • @chrisflack1366
    @chrisflack1366 3 месяца назад +1

    This song let's me know it's okay to finally give up, hopefully playing this one along with "strong for someone else" everyone will be able to see and understand why it had to happen like this. It isn't that I didn't love yall, it's just that my mind beat me down till I had no choice left. If they could all see what's in my mind they would understand what I'm doing and wouldn't judge me for it, but they will never know how my mind was, I still love them though, forever and always guys until we meet again ❤❤

  • @evergreendolphin268
    @evergreendolphin268 2 года назад +4

    First time listening to this and immediately it's going on repeat. I fell in love with this song from the first verse 😍❤

  • @chillwave8809
    @chillwave8809 2 года назад +2

    This song…man It just hit me in the feels and it’s how I struggle everyday.

  • @payenappeule
    @payenappeule 2 года назад +22

    This song is absolutely beautiful just like the others, but I particularly like the things you do with your voice when it goes up- ARGH ITS AMAZING 🤌

  • @princesscrystalofthejewelw9178
    @princesscrystalofthejewelw9178 2 года назад +7

    Your songs are always so incredibly well constructed! The lyrics never fail to hit their target and they hit it hard 💚💚
    I could never call any of your songs anything but masterpieces!

  • @eavie461
    @eavie461 2 года назад +2

    Huge respect for the fact that you can switch from more heavy rock to songs like this. Damn ❤️

  • @Serenity_93
    @Serenity_93 2 года назад +4

    Can never say this enough you guys are seriously absolutely amazing and a blessing to all of us! 🧡 THANK YOU for such remarkable, beautiful songs that make us feel we aren't alone, and for giving us the songs we truly NEED! 🥲

  • @valenguzen9409
    @valenguzen9409 2 года назад +2

    This song speaks to me so much. I felt this way when my mom passed. And Everytime I think about her.... I'm tearing up so much right now. I love your music so much.

  • @maaike7133
    @maaike7133 2 года назад +12

    Damn from the first second i had goosebumps. This song is beautiful and definitely in my top 3 favorite songs of you.

  • @rieleybiondi390
    @rieleybiondi390 Год назад

    This song holds so much pain and emotion. Citizen solders and my friends is the only thing that I keeping me alive.

  • @VoidGalaxy484
    @VoidGalaxy484 2 года назад +3

    ...I haven't been able to cry (with tears) in 7+ years (since my parents smacked me for crying). I could only dissociate. This hit the right spot to spill emotion free. It hurts, but in a good, comforting, relatable way. This is gonna go in all of my ‘don't k!ll yourself’ playlists & several comfort playlists....& of course the masterlist of every Citizen Soldier song that hit a spot (/positive). 🥺💜

  • @harveymurawski6078
    @harveymurawski6078 2 года назад +1

    Your songs are therapy in themselves. They've gotten me through dark times. Thanks Citizen Soldier.

  • @JadeMarie08
    @JadeMarie08 2 года назад +4

    Earliest I've ever been...thank you guys. For everything you do. Everytime you guys post...it makes my day. Y'all saved me...more than once. Either I cry every new song or im like "This is exactly what I needed to hear" Thank you a million times over. Love you guys

  • @michael09871
    @michael09871 2 года назад

    "But youll never know my pain or see through this smile i fake" I feel this line completely.

  • @Artistmom2011
    @Artistmom2011 2 года назад +13

    I love all your songs. This one touches way too close too home since I was just suicidal not 2 weeks ago.. and still trying to climb out of that blackness. It's just something that has always ebbed and flowed in and out of my life... I deal with it but when I hear others talk about it, sing about it... it makes me wonder if they are okay. Because I know I wear masks all the time to hide how I truly feel to spare others.... I hope that music is just for music's sake... and not a mask ❤

  • @RileySmith-l4b
    @RileySmith-l4b Год назад

    "But you'll never know my pain or see through this smile I still fake, 'til it's all to late" That hits me in ways I never thought could hurt.

  • @kencenjen1
    @kencenjen1 2 года назад +6

    I love how relatable this is. Great job

  • @shaddiestpizza8949
    @shaddiestpizza8949 2 года назад +1

    I used to have this state of mind, but thanks to this band and a few friends. I no longer am in that state of mind; I'm better now, I believe. This is an amazing song (even though it brings up some memories that I'm not find of, I'm glad it did. Cus I'm never going back to all of that) love this song, and the band, ily citizen soldier!!!

  • @CalebHyperEditor
    @CalebHyperEditor 2 года назад +7

    This song was emotional and hit me I loved it a lot it’s just such a beautiful song that I can’t even describe how much I loved it I got a few tears running down after hearing it but it was amazing and it was beautiful to hear it keep it up I would love to hear the next upcoming song 🤟🏻🧡

  • @mollytubbs5619
    @mollytubbs5619 2 года назад

    Instant tears, Citizen Soldier has quickly taken over my playlist and is my number one favorite band of all time. I’ve never felt more heard.

  • @ammeraslam
    @ammeraslam 2 года назад +3

    Absolutely brilliant. Hits SO hard. The music goes perfectly with the lyrics.
    Well done guys another super song. ❤️

  • @LeviScott-k1i
    @LeviScott-k1i 10 месяцев назад

    Your music gives me a way to let out how I feel without really letting out how I feel. Thank you so much.