MY BIGGEST DELUSION 🫠 - I have had the same delusion for a year now - Living with Schizophrenia
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- Опубликовано: 29 апр 2023
- Hi!
Just a short rambling about my soon to be one year old delusion, this is currently my biggest delusion that I struggle with daily. Living with schizophrenia means recurring psychosis which include delusions and hallucinations so I thought (quite randomly) I could talk a little about one of my biggest and hardest delusion that I have experienced...
Hope my video can bring some insight to what delusions can look like when you have schizophrenia.
Thank you for watching me ramble! ❤️
contact: kimberlyhallberg95@outlook.com
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Dear Kimberly,
I am so sorry you struggle with this. I can only imagine how hard it must be for you...
I thikn you are incredibly brave for trying to live your life normaly despite these thoughts and feelings.
It sounds a bit like you are having intrusive thoughts. These are the thoughts that come to our mind against our will, or intrude our consciousness, and sometimes can be very persistant and hard to get rid of. In fact, the more you try to get rid of them, the more persistent they become. So, in order to regain your life, maybe you should try this: 1. Relabel - reckognize the thought/ feeling when it appears and call it what it is - an intrusive thought/feeling (I am having a thought that I smell bad. It is an intrusive thought I already had xx times before) 2. Reattribute - attrubute it to your illness (This thought is a symptom of my mental illness). 3. Refocus - this is the most important step, refocus your attention on something else while still having these thoughts and anxiety they provoke (if you are in town try to focus on your surroundings - what you can see or hear. If you are for example with your sister, focus on the conversation you are having). It is very important to not give into these thoughts - do not seek reassurance or self reassurance, and especially do not avoid things - it will only make these thoughts stronger and your world smaller. Ride thorugh anxiety and if you realy succeed to focus on something else, the anxiety will begin to subside.
This is called Four step method and it is from the book BRAIN LOCK. The method was developed for people wiht OCD but maybe it can help you with your problem, so maybe give this book a chance.
I wish you all the luck and hope you find peace soon.
oh wow thank you! i'm going to copy this into a document so I can re-read it when needed! 😮 Im also going to look up that book, really thank you! ❤
You are welcome.
And also, I find that humour is a very potent antidote for fear and anxiety so, if it is not too painful for you, try to joke a bit with it - for instance sing your fear on a silly melody or say it out loud in a funny voice or write a funny story about it. Everything is easier when we can laugh a bit about it 😊
@@pianno55 haha thank you I will try it! 😊💚
@@pianno55 You have great advice! I will look for that book too. Another good book is The Happiness Trap which deals with our brains and how to rewire them. Thanks!
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Hello lovely! I'm sorry you're going through this difficult experience.
I am 25 and have incontinence issues due to an eating disorder. I also have schizoaffective. I would like to let you know something -
I did wet myself and have other incontinence in public. And a very kind lady came over to me, introduced herself and offered me her jacket to wrap around my waist. Everybody was rushing past, but they gave us space. Even if what you fear happens, there are kind people who will help you, and the others will move on with their day.
I wonder if image rescripting would help you. You describe your fear happening and then change the script so that something positive happens, and you repeat that to yourself as often as needed, or until you see the good thing as a real possibility and the fear becomes less scary. A therapist can be a helpful guide through rescripting where possible!
Take care always!
thank you! and wow how kind of that lady, really makes me think a little different about it..? 🤔 I hope you're doing good and I will talk with my therapist this week about my issues but thank you for the kind comment and sharing your experience with me! 🥹❤
I remember at one point in my life whenever I was in public I could hear people talking negatively (gossiping) about me. I honestly thought it was real until a Chinese construction company came to my country to build a hotel and I got a job there. Whenever I passed a group of Chinese men I would hear the usual negative comments about me in fluent English. This is when I realized that something may be wrong with me. I never took medication or went to a doctor for the condition, but thank goodness I eventually grew out of it.
glad to hear you grew out of it, I wonder what could have caused it? thank you for watching and commenting! 😊
@KimberlyHallberg Looking back, I think it may have been a combination of Family history and diet that caused it. I grew up eating 90% fruits and vegetables and 10% meat. When I switched to 90% meat and 10% fruits and vegetables I noticed a huge change for the better. My anxiety reduced significantly, while my depression and negative thoughts are virtually nonexistent.
@@khalillevarity8663 oh wow, its amazing how much our diet can have an effect on us!
First off, I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this!! It’s fantastic you have the insight to know what’s likely and what’s not, but having dealt with issues myself, I know as well as you that knowing does NOT prevent the “feeling” part from persisting ://
But also: YOUR NEEDS/PROBLEMS/SUFFERING IS EQUALLY AS IMPORTANT AS ANYONE ELSE’S!! I lingered with feelings of serious depression for so long because I felt like it wasn’t important enough to seek - or receive - help because I WAS able to muddle through my day. And sadly, there is a bit of truth to it: many healthcare systems do turn a blind eye to people until they are in crisis/at the end of their rope. But that’s not how it should be. I eventually had to start advocating loudly for myself, and insisting that my healthcare providers fully understood that I was not doing OK.
As for tips:
- So, back in high school/college, I suffered immensely with a panic disorder: I was deathly afraid of vomiting. I think it sprouted from a time in third grade when I threw up in front of our large church, and my dad dragged me down the aisle and I vomited through entire aisle. It didn’t embarrass me at the time, but it stuck with me and reared its ugly head later. Through high school and college I had a hard time sitting through things like class, weddings, funerals, awards ceremonies, because of the fear that I would throw up. It centered a lot around people thinking I was gross/disgusting/disruptive. It was my own personal hell at times, some days having multiple full blown panic attacks, and other days were like one long low grade panic attack.
Eventually, as I gained independence in college, it started to get a bit better. I think feeling autonomous and in control of my life helped me feel less anxious all around, but the phobia still severely limited me when it came to: taking large classes in auditoriums, going to events and performances, etc. The funniest part of it was….I’d thrown up ONE TIME since 3rd grade! But as everyone here probably knows full well, anxiety does not operate rationally lol.
One day, though, the phobia just….went away and never came back. But it wasn’t by magic! This part reminds me of the other commenter here who said she has a fear of wetting herself in public - but that when it actually happened, a sweet lady helped cover her and take her to a safe spot!
So, I was dating my then-boyfriend, later-husband. We were at my mom‘s house, making pizzas. Well, Something gave me food poisoning I guess, because halfway through the movie we were watching, I felt the feeling I dreaded for so long: I was about to puke. I rushed to the bathroom, and… I’ll spare you the details, but suffice it to say it started coming out both ends. I was mortified! My mom’s house was small, and obviously her and my boyfriend rushed to check on me.
And idk. That experience DID SOMETHING in me. Something about having my worst nightmare come true….only to find that the person I most wanted to be attracted to me was not only NOT grossed out, but was solely concerned for me, was very very healing. I still struggled with anxiety off and on for years (mostly went away after realizing I wanted to transition, and beginning testosterone for that), but almost never about vomiting. Now, it’s been nearly a decade since I’ve had a panic attack :)
To sum this up: I guess the advice is to maybe think about how your worst fear actually coming true could open up a whole new world for you. What would happen if you did smell bad? What’s the worst that could happen from that? Alternatively, what’s the best that could happen? Would you find that the people around you - friends, family, but also strangers - are more kind, helpful, and welcoming than you ever imagined? Or maybe, you would find how little people actually notice or care about things like that going on. So while I hope your worst nightmare, with this does not come true, if it does….maybe that’ll be the key to freeing you from it!
- Second tip is a bit sillier lol: you know how sometimes friends support a friend with cancer by having a party where everyone shaves their head? Well… Do you have any friends who could help you test what people would act like if somebody stinky got on the train, passed them by, etc.? Not YOU being stinky, but…your friend 😅 Maybe if you witnessed someone who you knew was stinky get on a train, you could observe from a safe vantage point how others react. Do they wrinkle their nose out of instinct and then move on with their day? Do they even notice? Does anyone say anything? Or, the friend could do the test around your mutual friends: does anyone tell them they do smell?
It’d have to be one of those friends, who is bold and brash and silly, and not afraid to make a fool of themselves with silly dances and bad karaoke haha. Also, I can see how this test could backfire: it wouldn’t be helpful if all it did was make you more closely, analyze strangers, facial expressions, or made you feel like your friends told them they’d they stink - but for some reason, wouldn’t tell you specifically because they’re all conspiring against you. So yeah, this advice may be great or horrible for you specifically lol.
- My third tip is one I use more to deal with ADHD issues, like severe rejection sensitivity, but I think it could be applied to ANY situation where we need perspective on how others might perceive/react to us: think about how YOU would feel/react if someone else smelled bad. What if a stranger passed you on the train and smelled truly horrible - what would you think? Would you judge them, laugh at them? Or would you feel compassion for them, recognizing they may be dealing with things so difficult that their bathing took a backseat, or dealing with health issues outside their control that cause them to have an odor? If it were your friend, how would you react? Would you pull them aside and tell them? Would you say nothing so as not to make them feel bad - but ignore the smell and have a good time with them, with zero judgment about something as inconsequential and transient as a bad smell?
I have a strong feeling, you would never judge or mock anybody for how they smell, whether friend or stranger. If my hard experiences have taught me nothing else, they’ve taught me that many people are a lot kinder than we expect them to be. And people who WOULD mock or judge? Well, who would even want to be in their good graces anyways???
In case that tip doesn’t make much sense, I’ll give an example of it in the exact way that I’ve used it: If a dear friend leaves me on red, and I start to feel like maybe they secretly hate me, I bring to mind all of the times I have left people on red, and recalled the legitimate excuses that had nothing to do with that person. Or if a friend has to reschedule lunch last minute and I feel a tidal wave of rejection coming on, I think about a time when I had to reschedule on a different friend - did it mean anything about my care for them, or how much I genuinely wanted to have lunch? Not at all! So, if I can imagine how I would feel or react, or even better, if I can call to mind a specific time that I have been on the other side of the equation with somebody, it’s much easier for me to leave room for people thinking/behaving that same way towards me. It makes it feel more possible.
Anyways. I’m actually at work and should probably get back to, y’know, working lol. I hope this comment wasn’t too rambling. You’re a really insightful, pleasant, and kind person and I love your channel!!
oh wow thank you for this comment! 🥰 you do have some great tips so thank you for those. and as you say, I wouldn't comment or treat someone else badly for smelling bad, I haven't really thought about it from that angle before, perhaps im just to consumed by the anxiety that I forget that most people probably wouldn't treat me any different as well... again thank you for your comment and tips! have a great weekend! ❤
I have had similar thoughts or anxiety. Makes me not want to go to work or school. And it's difficult when I have had to give presentations to a class. Also bad memory and scattered thoughts made it very uncomfortable to talk to people on subjects. People probably thought I was stupid or lazy.
sad to hear you also struggle with this, and I can also relate to felling scattered and feeling like I sometimes come of as stupid... thank you for your comment! 🥹❤
Good Morning Kimberly. You are such a beacon of strength and dignity in the face of such horrific trials and tribulations. You are a hero to me! Keep fighting and I will pray that someday there will be a medication or a device that will keep you from living this kind of hellishness. You don't deserve it and neither does anyone who struggles with paranoid schizophrenia. My youngest sister does and my father did. That's what brought me here to you. Peace be with you today and every day and let it be the overarching feeling for most moments of your life.
thank you, that so kind of you to say! 🥰 have a nice weekend! ❤
I think it's great that you can confide in us about your personal struggles. I don't think I could be as brave as you are.I have some delusional types of thinking at times that people are staring at me because I'm so ugly. I know that its probably not true but it still bothers me. My psychologist tells me to yellto myself STOP whenever these thoughts occur. This doesnt work all the time but it does work at least 50% of the time. I love your vlogs and I think you are doing a great service for those people that suffer also but are not as articulate as you are in expressing their feelings. My psychologist also told me if you can rationalize the problem like you do it isn't really delusional but more obsessive thinking. I wish you all the best!
thank you holly! ❤ I will talk with my therapist or nurse this week and see if there is anything they can help me with this. thank you holly and have a nice week! 🥹❤
I does like when my IBS manifests only when surrounded by many people and in public and I also believe that there is a fowl smell coming from me and I blame myself when I hear children crying or people caughing.
sad to hear! 😔 I wish you well, anxiety can be really hard to deal with, especially around big crowds...
You are an amazing person and so strong for fighting these delusions / symptoms everyday 🥹🫶🏾
I’ll pray for your full recovery ❤️🩹 ✝️
oh thank you! ❤
One thing i hate about this disorder is the negative thoughts, compulsions, and beliefs that the person has about themselves. I agree that it's an anxiety that is turned up to 100. And exposure therapy is probably the best way to get rid of it. Even if you did smell bad, what do you expect to happen? Are people going to confront you? Will they shame amd shun you in public? Chances are that they wouldn't. With anxiety, its important to remember that it's just wild conspiracy theories about yourself, lol. Conspiracies have no basis in truth or fact. I used to have real bad plane anxiwty-worried that it would crash, or have an emergency mid flight. But i read a great book about it from an author whonsuffered the same anxiety on planes. He said something like, "think of all the planes around the world, that DON'T crash....its almost all of them, right? So chances are, you are safe on your flight as well" It also helps to remember that im actually in more danger driving a car in traffic, but i do that every day. And once i finally escape the crazy drivers in my city, im actually glad to be in the air on a plane lol!
thank you for the advice! I have also heard that anxiety is "conspiracy theories" about ourselves, really like that comparison! again thank you for all of your comments! have a nice day! 🥰❤
I have fears of smelling bad and pooping myself in public. I tend to shove the ideas away.
sad to hear you also struggle from similar thoughts 😔
Buy some lady tena light incontinence pads for extra reassurance. ( there are cheaper brands). Many woman suffer with weak bladder/leakages etc and the pads help to keep dry and fresh they may just give you that little bit of reassurance.
thank you for the tip! 😊
Thank you for sharing! I wish I had an idea to help. I feel that people are thinking that I’m ugly and strange. I think they are looking at me behind my back. Paranoid delusions are really hard. I hope you can find peace soon ❤
thank you! ❤
Sending lots of love! So sorry this has continued. ☹️ I encourage you to call the nurse. You are just as important as anyone else and you deserve to get help through this. -Shawna from California ❤
Thank you Shawna! ❤️
I'm so sorry you struggle with this. I wish we had better understanding of the brain and how delusions and paranoid thoughts come about and how to deal with them. You are a beautiful person and deserve to live your life to the fullest. You are not taking too much--I believe people diagnosed with serious mental health conditions deserve better support. Weekly therapy is not too much to ask. Praying you start finding a solution to help you with your delusion. I love how you share your experience. We learn so much from you. Thank you, Kimberly. You are beautiful in every way.❤
oh thank you Jean! 🥹 I really hope it will subside soon, I have an appointment with my therapist on the 4th so I will see if she has any ideas. have a nice week! ❤
Thank you very much for sharing with us. You are a brave gril.Hope you get well soon. May God help you. We are all with you.
thank you! have a great week! 💖
Hi Kimberly, Yay! we got to see you twice this week! First of all, you are not disgusting. It is amazing how powerful our brains are...we know that what we are thinking is just silly and tell ourselves to stop thinking that way...but that is easier said than done most times. Don't let what others might think stop you from moving forward because I guarantee you they are not thinking the way you think they are. Thank you for being so open and honest with us and I wish you nothing but the best trying to figure this out. Have a fantastic week...and get out there and go for little walks and enjoy the outdoors!
thank you pam! 🥹 and you right, I do believe most people are busy with their own most of the time but as you say, its easier said that done to not think about it.. thank you for commenting pam and have a nice sunday! ❤❤
jag har inte en psyksjukdom men tror ändå att jag luktar illa även fast jag vet att jag inte gör det, speciellt om någon ”hostar” nära mig i affären. och jag kämpar med det fortfarande, stå på dig gumman. Jag är helt utbränd och har fått konstiga symtom efter att jag blev utbränd.
I had the same delusion while I was an inpatient in the psychiatric unit. I was convinced that I had heard a guy say, "His whole room should be a shower." It was not very pervasive, in my case, however. The first time I was an inpatient, I was on Risperdal, and it made me piss my bed in my sleep. That was the only time it happened. It was embarrassing, though. I have Paranoid Schizophrenia, too. But when I first contracted psychosis, I received a diagnosis of Disorganized Schizophrenia. The former diagnosis, according to literature, has a better prognosis.
I am sorry to hear you have endured this delusion. I hope you have been feeling better since the time this video was posted.
thank you! sad to hear you have also struggled with this type of delusion, I'm currently waiting for my healthcare contact to call me regarding this one and I hope they can help me 🙃 again thank you for watching and commenting, have a nice weekend! 💖
I was doing acting work and had constant nightmares I was on set asleep naked so for over a year now I have to wear under clothing I'd be comfortable with on set in if I didn't have clothes.... It's getting to the nitty gritty but that person suggesting act like you had those problems... But you can fool your brain I'd say... 2 pairs of undies carry one of those tiny bottles of perfume around... Anyway I also had the same dilusion you have about smell for years... for me almost 20 years ago but it went away over time... You'll sress about something else ha never ending...
thank you! I really hope it will go away with time and as you say; I will probably stress over something else soon (hopefully) 😂❤
@@KimberlyHallberg yes I have other reaccuring things that go away come back then go away again... Annoying but I have schizophrenia so what do you do ha good luck!
I really understand you Kimberly. I have a constant conversation in my head between my paranoia (the way I look and people think of me) and my rational mind trying to rationalise these thoughts. It's hard and definitely doesn't make me want to be around people. But I really think Anja's four step method sounds great... Doctors mostly want to increase medication which then leads to side effects.... But maybe you can find a different anti anxiety med.... Wishing you all the best.... Much love💕
thank you aria and I will definitely sty here method but I will also call my nurse tomorrow to see what she thinks. thank you for your comment! 🥹❤️
That sounds like a good plan Kimberly. Btw do you know a good chat forum or place where people can share their experiences with schizophrenia with each other? Thanks so much 😊
@@ariahathaway5517 yes I do! forum.schizophrenia.com/ this is an international schizophrenia forum for people with the illness! ❤
Thanks so much Kimberly... I'll definitely check it out. I think it will be nice to share experiences and tips with others... Thank you 🙂
@@ariahathaway5517 no worries! ❤
Hi Kimberly. Thanks for sharing with us this frustrating issue you are going through! I had a few thoughts about it. Do you remember when you first noticed this anxiety around your body odor? Did something happen that day? I wonder if this is more a self-esteem issue than the paranoia. I have had similar issues around my being around other people and feeling totally like they all hate me and I dont belong anywhere. I found something that after years of this that seems to help. I might not explain it well, but it has to do with self-talk. How we talk to ourselves is super important and Ive had to retrain my brain to not be so negative about myself. Took a very long time, but my anxiety is better now when it comes to being around other people. I will never be perfect with it. I think some good ideas are the ones where you spray yourself with cologne. Personally I wouldnt put a lot on, maybe put a sweet smell on your wrists and you can just take a whiff of it when you feel the anxiety coming on. I wonder if your meds are interfering with your sense of smell. I know there are times where I think there is a real stink around me, in my apt, and its nothing in it really or outside, and I dont know what the hell it is then finally it goes away. But I am a migraine sufferer and I know that sense of smell can go way off. Ive come to believe that there is an answer to every problem.. I neer used to believe that but I have seen it proven, so I try not to get upset when I do get upset, if you know what I mean. Give yourself a big hug and a pat on the back, because youre doing all the right things to help yourself. So sad your therapist coudlnt help you with this. Dont beat yourself up! You are a very intelligent, creative, lovely woman. I think you can figure this out! And you can always work on your self-esteem and just say to yourself F*** those people if they think I smell! LOL Okay not telling you what to do! You'are in my heart and prayers! 🤗💕🌺
thank you! 💚 and yes, something did happen, I had a psychotic episode while I was going grocery shopping where I thought I smelled like cat pee and hear people "talking" about me (im not sure if they really did), and ever since then this has followed me... thank you for the advice and have a nice sunday 🥹❤️💚
@@KimberlyHallberg Thanks! And when I say stuff its just my opinion, not thinking you have to believe it. LOL 😍💜
Thinking you have an offensive odour is ideas of reference which is a type of delusion, I get it too but I think when people are laughing, they're laughing about me, people on their phones are texting about me, someone gets up and moves I think it's because of me, even a hand gesture, I think it has a hidden meaning, it's hard to live with
the thought that people are laughing is also something I have dealt with before, really hate that one 🫠
@KimberlyHallberg Yeah, it causes a lot of paranoia and anxiety, but ever since I was told it was ideas of reference that gave it a name, it helped a bit because I could do some research on it
@@eggcouncil629 yes. Im definitely going to do some research on it myself! have a nice day! 😊
Your concerns are valid, call your nurse! Just because it's not an emergency doesn't mean it's not important. It stops you from doing things you would normally do, so that's important enough to look into. Don't give up, ask for help!
thank you and I will! ❤️
This used to happen to me a lot. I’m sorry you have to go through this. Just wear good quality perfume and body care products and try to let it go.
Thank you! 🥰
Hey, just my two cents: maybe it could help to find out whether your paranoia (in general) and obsessive thinking about different subjects have roots in your past. I remember you mentioned you had a difficult past.
I don‘t know if you‘ve ever heard of schema therapy, but I think it‘s brilliant in that it helps you see what kind of assumptions about the world/ thinking and behaviour patterns you learned as a response to concrete situations you experienced that were difficult for you etc.
Digging into the past is not everyone‘s cup of tea but it can help to understand where the past may be responsible for how we think and act in the present.
I wish you all the best and a big break at least from these tormenting thoughts! 🌼🌸💗
Hi! thank you! and no I haven't heard about schema therapy before, I do have a therapist but we don't really talk about my past much but it is most likely affecting the way I live, sadly. thank you for your tip and advice! have a nice Wednesday! 💚
hi KimberlyI also have anxiety and obsessive thoughts which makes the act of leaving my house a constant challenge and sometimes an impossibility🥲 I think this will never be completely cured from me but finding a good psychiatrist who I can trust, appropriate medication and therapy which I feel comfortable with helped me improve my situation. I truly admire your openess!!!
thank you for watching and sharing! I wish you well! 💚
Hi Kimberley, are you still dealing with this delusion? Hope you are better
Hi! sadly yes but it is getting better and I have an appointment with someone for CBT next week! 🥰💚
You look so great 🥰😁
thank you! ❤️
I thought that was me hearing the duck quack 😊
Haha sorry! 😊
Do you have a Therapist or Counselor you could talk to about this delusion? I use grounding thoughts when I am having issues with delusions. I think of things kinda like a pro/con list instead it is a delusion/reality list. I experience thought broadcasting fears. So when I am interacting with people and that delusion pops up I have to concentrate on thinking that they are reacting to my body language and what I am saying, and not to my thoughts during that time (because they can't hear my thoughts, only I know my thoughts). Also it would be good to confront your fear from it's first occurence in your life. When did it occur originally, what where you thinking and feeling. Were those thoughts and feelings based in reality or delusional fear based thoughts? Try to get to the root of your fears and confront those thoughts and emotions! Reality thinking v.s. delusional thinking. Ground your thoughts and take the irrational ones captive if you can. I hope you are successful in overcoming these delusions. As long as you are continuing to confront these thoughts you are experiencing progress! God Bless you and keep going! Love to you and your pretty cat! ❤😊
thank you! 💖 I will look up grounding thoughts and see if I can use it next time. thank you for your help and for watching! have a nice week 💚
Do you shower using a loofah? Maybe scrubbing yourself with shower gel will help
No I don’t but thank you for the tip! 😊
paranoia right?
i have ONE paranoid thought that i have had many years too. i just think everyone is looking at me. that i am always the center of attention and people on the street, shopping malls, etc - everyone is looking at me and think i am so so so ugly. that's my paranoia. and i kinda have it .even when i don't have psychosis. i always feel like someone is looking at me. observed.
must be so hard to feel you smell like urine. you think it started because you once peed yourself, or is it just a random thought you suddenly got ? i always wonder where paranoia comes from. somehow WE create it, even though we don't- you know what i mean? ... if we could get rid of it - we would :/
Oh that sounds awful! 🙃 And no, I haven't peed myself as an adult its just a thought that came someday... really wished you could just turn the paranoia off... 🫠
I'm in a mental hospital and one of the new patients is a demon sent to kill me I'm so fucking scared
sorry to hear that but I'm certain its most likely not a demon...
Any tips on what to do? 🫠
Distract yourself from it. Brain will always find enemies, if it's not the police, it can be something else like smelling bad. As long as you're having fun you'll forget about your worries and enjoy yourself.
@@vagabond9180 thank you for the advice! 🥰
I also have these inrusive thoughts and feelings that feel real, but I know they are no, but I still believe them and I have anxiety and fears because of these thoughts. My psychiatrist told me that I have OCD. So in my case its OCD. Maybe you are experencing something similar. People with OCD also asks other people often about their delusion being real. It is called ‘reassurance seeking’ in OCD. And your brain always tries to convince yourself that it is real. Definitely talk to your therapist or psychiatrist about it!
@@AgnesBalla9602 thank you! I will contact my nurse on Tuesday hopefully! ❤
OCD sometimes called the ‘doubting disease’ beacuse you always doubt your thoughts and feelings.
EMDR.
om du luktar illa, som du tror, när durshade du senast då? och om du nyligen durshade så vet du att du inte kan lukta illa!!!!
My personal advice: put in place measures you’d put in place if you REALLY WERE INCONTINENT AND SMELLED BADLY, this could maybe help your brain. So, basically, take a long shower with a lot of soap, then put deodorant and perfume on and then use a pad for incontinent ladies. Of course you don’t need any of that, but a part of your brain thinks you do. So, maybe, if you behaved if those were really your problems, that part of your brain will feel appease and secure and will allow you to go out! I mean, it’s worth a try, what do you think?
thank you for the advice! 💚will definitely try some of it 🤔
@@KimberlyHallberg try everything, trust me. It will be a pain at first, but might pay off. I’m chronically ill and it happens in the past that I vomited in the street, which was painful and disgusting. At a point, I was so scared of vomiting, that going out was a challenge, until I equipped myself with a plastic container to vomit in, cleaning swipers that smelled of mint and a banana to take the taste of vomit away while simultaneously helping my upset stomach. Worked like a charm and I almost never threw up again, since part of the problem was the stress caused by the fear of throwing up! 😅😅
@@thecreativebusiness1316 oh wow! glad to hear it worked! 🥰 thank you! ❤
@@KimberlyHallberg hope it helps! Let me know if it does! 🥰
@@thecreativebusiness1316 thank you and I will! 🥰