Your honest sharing of delusions really helps me to realize that my own terrifying delusions are in-fact not reality, which is very reassuring! Thank you.
My most common delusions are that I have HIV or cancer or some kind of illness that even doctors don't know how to treat, I also think that people put acid or poison in my food and also I am sooo scared of animals because I think that they are demons who are spying on me. I have many others extreme delusions. I also experience hallucinations, I see flies that aren't here and also I see polar lights sometimes. Funny thing is that I also heard moon talking to me. I hear many voices in my head all the time, some bad some good- I call them personalities. I also think that I experience dissociation? Idk, I sometimes forget who I am and where I am and everything feels like a video game-not real.I am 23 years old and I started to experience these symptoms just a few months ago but I am already on antipsychotics. They do help but only like 50%. So my doctor wants me to stay at psych ward to start a more complex treatment since my symptoms are pretty strong. Life with schizofrenia is very hard. Its an everyday battle cause sometimes it gets very overwhelming.
My daughter hasn’t been diagnosed with anything yet but her mental health team are thinking schizophrenia . She has daily delusions. Her delusions range from severe paranoia ( that the government is watching her , or magpies are spying on her for the government) , hearing a voice that talks to her pretty negatively all the time and she has episodes of seeing and feeling bugs crawl on her. She also has a fear of smelling bad . She is on the antipsychotic Quetiapine . So far this has slightly lessoned the episodes but it’s heartbreaking to see her so distressed. I’m sending you hugs from Scotland.
I have all of these issues and then it becomes real because I decided to approach the situation and then it's permanent with them..also feel like I stink...tons of deoderrant need of someone to tell me I'm ok but then feel like they are stuck with me 😢I can't handle it and the weirdest is knowing something before it happens like the other day I was listening to music everything was normal I had a thought of my cuz and I should take his binoculars back..and shit u not hee showed up and asked for his binoculars...and this happens quite often..and I haven't showered in a month I clean myself but I don't take a whole shower I have PTSD and wen ppl are doing things to us and we've had traumatic experience from it because it was real some body did put stuff in my shampoo and I lost half my hair .., and I've taken pic and video to prove just to my self I'm not wrong and now I have ppl harrassing me and I can't figure out if this is real I feel like it is and I havet figured it out yet I moved here to Sonya Ontario from Detroit Michigan and 10 years ago and my mom has passed away one year ago today well today was the day we buried her and I have absolutely nobody left so I have no family that cares or friends I'm trying to make fun things to do things behind my back and I find a lot of distress in these people and I ain't trying for a good reason for the last year I also got a new dog that is a big handful and everybody's telling me I should get rid of them is that and everything cleaning my neighbors but he's a German shepherd and people are scared of them and he's aggressivehe viciously Burns and all that good stuff but I like it because there is nothing one person in my home that's stolen from me that's treating me wrong or anything because you won't let anybody in and at first I thought it was bad but you know what like it's been an amazing for me and but I also have been experiencing this without showing anything and like I used to be a huge fanatic for like making sure my whole routine was taken care of and I've always got stuff to use and then I always end up like jumping around something else because like I just don't have anything any motive to do so even if I have an appointment like I still I just make it happen like I put it on my you know and it's not good for your body to do that and then I'm going to fear of living with and then the dog pee on the side of the bed so I can clean it with vinegar and lemon juice smell good stuff and got the smell away and everything and just having a fear of like being dirty and that people can tell and see and like I tried to clean myself like but I miss showering and I miss doing these things and like I had some episodes where people came to my house while I was in the shower and turned on my stove twice in a row and I don't know how to get past that right like if they're just like waiting for me to put down my garden is what I feel like and as soon as my guards down and then something's going to happen with the dog and he's been like there for me and when that happens like to have my back right and I just don't know I'm having to say that they're trying to get him away from me and I was told right to my face that I'm someone sent me I'm going to make sure you do not have that dog I promise you the dungeon do anything to anybody nothing happened but like all it takes in a small town this is someone to tell someone one thing and then like call the police or something and boom like you know what I mean they believe it it's been very stressful and no last night I yelled at my neighbor and I feel awful about it and I don't even want to go say sorry because she probably doesn't even have anything to do with me and it was just I heard something that they had said and I thought that it was something more and now I feel awful like I just woke up and I feel terrible and I feel like it was like maybe an episode cuz I didn't sleep for a couple days and I thought those people 27 choice yesterday the dog was barking and everything like they were throwing yourself at the door so these things so it's like a mixture of these things happening and then my mind taking it a little bit further or two right and but it's been a little bit more in-depth than that and that's why I started watching these videos and it was very thankful to click on yours becausecan you make extreme sense and it was very random that I clicked on yours and I wasn't going to listen to anything about this and I can't believe it like but it's hard to because there's so much more about our brain and like what could be happening it could be so many things and I've been misdiagnosed for years so I've always been very very depressed and anxious and insecure and I should know about it I've never seen myself that way and now I look at myself and I know some of my teeth and I'm freaking look like hell and I'm just like what has happened to me in the last couple years like and I just don't even look the same anymore and I feel like people are scared of me and didn't think I stink like they don't want to talk to me I just had a severe insecurities and like I have nobody to tell me different and and if I do I don't believe them and then when they tell me the truth I don't want to hear it either I don't want to hear it I'm actually very grateful wasted many years thinking what people are telling me now and it was the opposite way around right so I don't know maybe you have any answers to get back to me and don't be wonderful if anybody does please thank you
I have a schizophrenic friend whose main delusion is becoming invisible against his will. I’m not mentally ill, but I’ve felt and still feel “invisible” a lot, so that would likely be my delusion too, if I had schizophrenia. He usually gets this delusion when they change his meds and he gets hospitalized. Whenever I go visit him while he’s psychotic, he tells me that he’s happy because I have “a special vision” that allows me to see him and therefore he feels safe. I know he might sound stupid to most people, but I can consider his trust one of my biggest accomplishments in life!
My mum started getting delusions from the age of 72. She is now 80 and this is ongoing. She does not recognise them as delusions and insists it is all real. Neighbours are attacking her in her flat with laser technology - they are etching scary faces on brick walls where they know she walks - following her in her car and popping out of junctions in front of her and encouraging false allegations. She accused a nurse of assaulting her with a needle - accused one man of date raping her and another of indecent exposure. I seem to be the only person in the world she trusts - everyone else is in on it. She lives ok otherwise - it is like some kind of game to her and she likes to stay one step ahead of them and thwart their schemes. She even thinks my g/f who she has never met could be part of it. I try to be sympathetic and it is a shame she will not accept any kind of medical help. At least you KNOW you are suffering from a clinical condition - my mum thinks it is all real.
My ex boyfriend is the same way. He is completely convinced he's being tortured by the police with microwave weapons. He has so many crazy false memories. He thinks I own the music industry, among other things. I don't want to go along with it, because I feel like it feed into his delusions.
Thank you ! You are educating many of us who care and love individuals who live with schizophrenia as you. My son's psychosis moments we very similar to yours. He too wanted to live in the forest in a tent to flee the crowds and live in isolation . He too experienced deep anxiety over neighbors talking about him,coworkers poisoning his food and sabotaging his vehicle. People breaking in to our home though all door locks were changed and cameras set up to his request. Not leaving the home for nearly a year due to anxiety and delusions. Medication has greatly helped, took nearly two years find the med combination that settled his psychosis. Also, a therapy dog has helped tremendously. One lingering issue is not showering for months, changes cloths regularly, but brushing teeth and bathing are a struggle. Listening to this video is educational and heart touching.please know your are a great teacher and helping many of us to understand what it is like living with schizophrenia. ❤❤❤
Thank you Cynthia! that means so much to me! 🥹 and thank you for sharing, I hope everything continues to get better for you and your son. I can tell he has a caring mother and thats a big help in recovering I find. have nice Sunday! 💚
OK this was interesting one. My bf has a lot of this symptoms, especially he set up a camera infront of the door. Brushing teeth and shower I sometimes need to ask him. Also he changes clothes a lot and are obsessed with using to much deodorant. Always ask me if he smells bad? Sometimes it's like he goes into his own world and I can't connect with him when I try to talk. He just ignore me. He is also delusional sometimes when we having a conversation like he feel I attack him when I'm not. It's very difficult and it's like caring for a child. He never make dinner. Barly anything at home. He me er wa t to talk about his health when I ask him and shuts down. Also anger outburst. I also noticed his tone of voice changes depending on person he is with. He is very good at masking. Can this be the answer? I thought first bipolar but I'm not sure now it's gotten worse with age
I relate so much to the neighbor delusions. I thought I was being harassed by neighbors who were a part of a noise campaign by the CIA. I thought I was a "targeted individual" and my hallucinations played into that. They thought I was treatment resistant until they tried me on Invega and now everything is basically gone. It was such a miserable experience. I can't believe how stressed I was. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. You're not alone. I hope things get better for you!
i have the same delusion with my neighbors. they do it on purpose! and i must be so quiet that i barely exist bc otherwise they will take revenge .. 😭😄 haha it's awful to feel such paranoia for years no matter where you live. the moon thing sounds terrifying! :(
sad to hear you also have this delusion, it really makes you behave weird in your own home... 😔 and yes the moon thing was terrifying, glad I havent had anything like that since. thank you for watching! 💚
While watching your video I remembered RUclips channel that’s called “Living well with schizophrenia”. The creator of the channel, Lauren, has schizoaffective disorder and recently she (onboard with her psychiatrist, psychologist and keto-coach) started her keto journey that goes surprisingly well. IN NO WAY I suggest you to start keto but maybe it will be interesting for you to check out her videos. Lauren is talking a lot about the reduction of her symptoms (and the doctors are not concerned about her health as well) so I though that maybe if you are treatment resistent, something like this might help. Also keto seems to help really well with easing symptoms of diabetes, which is also nice. Once again, I don’t want this to look like I give you an advice of any sort, because I don’t know your situation and your struggles fully and I am not educated about keto either. So I guess it’s just a recommendation of a very nice RUclips channel 😊 Hope you won’t find my message rude or intrusive, because I wish you all the best in the world❤
haha funny that you mention that! I started doing keto again after a big break from it this Christmas and I do feel better eating a ketogenic diet, I get slightly more energy and it has been much easier to lose the weight. and don't worry I don't find it intrusive I realize that it comes from a good place. have a nice weekend and thank you for watching and commenting! 💚
I know how it feels, I have bipolar and co-ocurring ocd..I also have delusions. So hard you just believe them as truth.. so hard to get out of their grasp. But we are trying 😊❤
its really interesting but these types of paranoid delusions is apparently a very western symtom, people from other cultures usually have different types of delusions that are more moulded depending on the culture, religion they're from and so on! very interesting! 🥰
Thanks for sharing Kimberly. My most frequent delusion was ‘thought broadcasting’ - believing others were ‘in’ my mind or could read my thoughts. Did you ever experience anything like that?
Hi! and thank you for watching. and yes, I do struggle with thought broadcasting from time to time. mostly that others can read my thoughts. but it has become much more easy for me to disregard these delusional thoughts over time. 😊
I've had similar. Especially the conspiracy. I started feeling recently that people/family noticed my triggers and they would use it against me to drive me crazy 😣 😁
I had no idea that other people suffered from these delusions too! I didn't realise they were delusions until I saw this video about the neighbours, I'm constantly creeping around my flat and scared to make noise
I had this behavior until I processed some of my trauma stuff. And it was paranoia bc of Anxiety /social anxiety. But these episodes lasted not as long as in psychotic ways. And it went away without medication
When my schizophrenia was new I had a lot of communication through walls. At times I would try to get away from the madness by leaving. I thought it worked. I haven't had that style of communication through walls in decades.
I've had sczhiphrenia for 43 years, they only delusion I ever had was 26 years years ago when I thought I was a member of the royal family!!! Wth was I thinking. I then had another psychosis 9 years later, but glad to say after 3 weeks in a psyche ward I've been stable and psychosis free for 18 years. Work life balance plenty of exercise and sleep. And keep taking the meds
I really wish I was as brave to do what you do and be so open about myself. I just hope you know how very strong you actually are. There really should be a television series where people who have schizophrenia are more accurately portrayed. I distrust a lot of people as well. I tend to believe I am always judged or people are thinking terrible things about me. I think this is just from the negative experiences I had as a child. I do have a funny story about a neighbor. When I used to smoke, I had to go outside. I always thought this neighbor was laughing or talking about me. We never really met until our neighborhood flooded. He said to me that he "knew" I probably thought he was strange. So he was actually worried about what I was thinking about him that whole time. I admitted that I thought he was thinking the same about me. We had a good laugh about it.
oh thank you! and I agree, I wish they portrayed schizophrenia in a more accurate way in tv but as of yet I don't think I have seen much of it (if at all). funny story, I find that most people are so consumed by their own anxiety and thought about themselves that they most often don't actually think of us they way we think they do... but of course thats hard to think of in the moment, especially in psychosis or strong anxiety. I glad you had a laugh at it! again thank you for your lovely comment and for watching! 💚
i used to get angry in my delusions but only use my words but man was i excessive yea but a lot of bad things i thought could happen well the doctors told me it was schizophrenia. i used to think i had like a chip in my head though but that just resembles how perfect i can be with calling out whos bad and who isnt. turns out i was right and they actually did go do bad things. i just felt like i was being picked on when i would get angry now a days im just getting delusions that are trying to keep me quiet about it all used to think someone was listening in on my thoughts but thats been the most recent i felt like i was slipping but im getting better
Thank you for being so honest, real and vulnerable. I totally relate to the neighbour one. I get really upset and think my neighbours have turned on their pigeon scarer even after I told them that the noise bothers me. It’s more that I get obsessed about it and use it as an excuse not to record my singing because the noise would be in the background.
I relate to all of this so much. Neighbors can be such a challenge... They're almost never *actually* like the delusions make them seem, but they are random people who do have their own random weird habits sometimes. They're just very nosy in my neighborhood. They like to stare. Granted, my appearance is strange, so it's not terribly surprising. But I just can't stand being looked at. It makes me really paranoid. This wouldn't matter, if not for the fact that I'm really into fitness and I run 5 miles most days. Sometimes I get paranoid that they're going to call the police on me for no reason. Other random people walking past freaks me out, too - at least, men do. I'm always worried I'm going to get attacked. I have legitimately had people throw stuff at me from their car window, or sometimes men pull over and try to convince me to get in the car, so it's really hard for me to separate my psychotic symptoms from like... a "healthy wariness" of others. I just want to be left alone so I can run in peace. The one about feeling like you probably smell bad is a big one for me too. It's so embarrassing that I've never told anyone about it.
I also really relate to being so wary of others, and like you say, especially men. Thank you for watching and sharing with me. I hope you have a nice day! 💚
love u schizoaffective bipolar here and can relate to the delusions and heightened fear and paranoia that were brought out experiencing them while living alone. thank you for being vulnerable here with us. i hope this disorder could one day be more understood or better portrayed in media for the public. may this help those seeking information from real people. with schizo delusions and hallucinations. ,
Hi Kimberly, you look fantastic! Thank you for sharing and making us aware of some of the things you have struggled with. Kim, you have friends....please think of me as your far away friend. Have a great weekend and I look forward to your next video
thank you Pam! 🥹 I definitely will think of you as a friend, and have a great weekend too, hopefully there will be a vlog coming on Sunday maybe, depends if I have time to edit it! ❤️
I want you to know that I feel how hard this must be for you, sharing all of this. This is so very personal and you being vulnerable with these struggles and nuances that are still bothering you, is so so so very brave. Your sharing may not be helping many people, but it is helping enough people. Thank you!
When I was florid about 15 yrs ago I had microphones under the shingles on the backside of my shed. Not inside the shed or inside the house, but outside under the shingles. So not only do delusions not make sense, they also don't make sense. lol. Hang in there, you are doing a fine job bringing awareness to the many.
Hello Kimberly! Thank you for sharing what your delusions are like. I find them interesting that there seems to be some common ones among schizophrenics like being watched/spied on, worrying about body odor, etc. Funny enough, i actually experienced the paranoia about body odor during my teen years. It was playing into my anxiety about my hygiene and appearance to others at the time. These were also some very hard years of my life personally. And, I have a strong suspicion my father had paranoid schizophrenia, but went undiagnosed his entire life. I grew out of these delusions somehow. I truly believe the only reason my delusions didn't develop into the full blown disorder, is because i never drank alcohol or did any drugs. And thankfully, i started paying attention to my nutrition and my sleep as i got older. But schizophrenia has always fascinated me, as i see so much of my poor tortured Dad in the disease. And so funny when you mentioned the FBI! Being from Sweden, thats quite a unique delusion for you to have. It is a quite common delusion for the ones in the US. Now I'm curious to know if the FBI's negative reputation is something recognized all over the world..
Hi! and thank you for watching! 🥰 these paranoid delusions I apparently a very western type of symtom when it comes to schizophrenia. schizophrenic symtoms tend to look different depending on what religion and culture you come from. its very interesting! as for the FBI thing, yes id say they do have somewhat of a negative reputation here as well. delusions can really be bizarre and not make any sense at all. 😂 Again thank you for watching and have a nice Sunday! 💚
Thank you for sharing Kimberly. ❤ Sharing our inner most vulnerabilities is no easy thing to do. ❤ Just to reassure you, that you are a beautiful person, and your inner beauty radiates outwards. It's always a pleasure watching your videos, I can't believe for one second you could annoy anyone. 🙂 Neighbours if anything tend to show displeasure by making loud noises, playing loud music etc. and consistently so. If you aren't experiencing anything like this you have nothing to worry about. 🙂 Thing is time alone, is time on one's hand to get trapped in internal thoughts, and if we are vulnerable, feeling down etc. our thoughts tend to fixate around the negatives in our current life, which is why it's always nice to have positive people around who can distract and highlight all the positives that we tend to forget. 🙂I think it's also important to remember that your Dad was far from perfect and one can be easily triggered because of that. ❤ Kimberly I hope this has found you in a good place and lifted your spirits some. 🙂I find it very difficult to understand how you haven't met your significant other yet. You are doing everything right, it has only got to be a matter of time... Much love and respect to you, keep up the good work. 🙂
Thank you so much for making this video 😊. I also suffer with psychosis and paranoia. It is really difficult at those times but, like you, if I am not experiencing psychosis, I feel, and I think I seem, pretty normal. Thank you for normalizing it 😊. I will be watching your other videos.
Very honest videos. It’s been a privilege to watch them Kimberly. People are only scared of serious mental illnesses because they don’t understand them. I include myself in this, I lost a friend (had to cut contact with him) because he traumatised me when he was undergoing an episode of psychosis - I wish a: I understood more so that I wouldn’t have been so frightened and knew how to help, and b: he have been more honest about his illness so I could have known what to expect should he become unwell. Once we can understand, we are no longer scared and can help.
Thank you so much for sharing. My son is currently in hospital with psychosis that they think might be schizophrenia. He's been there just over 5 months and believes he is fine and that there is nothing wrong with him. It is so hard to know what to say to him, and so hard to watch him struggle. Listening to you talk about your experiences gives me hope that one day he will have some understanding of what's happening for him. I'm sorry that your delusions can be so frightening and wish you all the very best in managing your symptoms and finding joy along the way.
Thank you so much for watching and I wish both you and your son the absolute best! And I hope he'll be better soon, schizophrenia really is a hard illness to deal with but with the right support it is possible to live a perfectly good life too. 💚
Thank you for sharing your experience with delusions. It strikes me how isolated one may become as a result, particularly with the accompanying paranoia. so it is almost therapeutic to do these vlogs? How brave you are!
thank you! 🥰 and yes, I do find it therapeutic to do vlogs and videos, its a hobby that keeps me doing something when I have energy to do so and it also feels creative in a way that I like! ❤️
I experience similar ideas, I’m scared to say what exactly because I know they can see this message. I wish you the best with your mental health and I love your channel ❤
I would think that the celebrity were playing a video game and I was the player and they were making me move and walk. I also thought people could hear my thoughts and I thought a big star in the sky was a camera watching my every move like the Truman show. I had many more!! I used to walk all day around the town. I am now medicated and have not had any symptoms in many years.
Hello Kimberly, thank you for having the courage to share your experiences, I have very similar Delusions about the FBI watching me and I also struggle with feeling I have a chip in my arm and I can be tracked by FBI and doctors, I wish you the best and everyone suffering with schizophrenia, it can be a lonely road so it’s nice to hear other people who know what it’s Ike to deal with this horrible ilness
Hi! thank you for watching and commenting. and I agree, this illness can definitely make you feel very alone and in my case scared too. I hope you're doing better now and I wish you well too! 💚
thanks so much for sharing it really helped me come to terms with my delusions and having psychosis or schizophrenia seeing how similar the patterns are with what im new to experiencing
Thanks so much for sharing Kimberly, its all so personal, I really appreciate your courage and honesty. I think it is needed, that people know what goes on with your and others struggles with skizophrenia. It's also heart breaking to have to go through these things, but I feel there is a lot of hope, and you have really progressed. I deal with severe anxiety and PTSD and the feeling of never fitting in, but thats nothing compared to what you go through, with the hallucinations. I truly appreciate you sharing all your struggles. Hope this week is really good for you! Hugs from MaryAnn 🤗💜❤❤🩹
Thank you Mary Ann! 💚 sad to hear you also struggle with mental health issues, I hope your doing better. Just wanted to say that you are the subscriber of mine that has gotten the most "hearts" from me here below the comments according to RUclips analytics. thank you for your continued support! hugs! 💚🤗❤️
Damn beautiful swedes! Also, this was a really interesting video. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences! I do not personally suffer with this illness - however I can certainly relate to a lot of these examples as I do experience some very odd thoughts, usually brought on by periods of intense stress. I’d be interested to know about how you first got diagnosed and any perhaps red flags you had before that with regards to mental health if you are inclined to share & have not already made a video on this topic. I am very interested in at what age it tends to come on for people and also what a first episode perhaps has been like. Again, thank you for the wonderfully insightful content and I hope you have a great day. ❤
Oh thank you! I do believe I have made a similar video like that, schizophrenia usually tends to come on I early adulthood (20s-30s) I also go into my first episode on my second video here on my channel. 😊 Have a great day too and again thank you for the kind comment. 🥰
Thanks for sharing! This is really helpful for people who aren’t even formally diagnosed with Schizophrenia since everyone lives with delusions about the world and themselves. I urge you to look into Buddhist psychology - maybe even visit a Buddhist temple in Sweden. There are fantastic virtual resources by Ajahn Sumedo (an American monk trained in Thailand) from the Amaravati Buddhist Monastery (a monastery in England) channel here on RUclips.
Hi, I have very similar delusions about my neighbours, the police investigating me, and body odour. Don’t think I’ve seen someone so similar to me! It’s been a very difficult couple years. I try to keep busy by working from home. Luckily I have a flexible employer so it makes life easier. It gives me something to focus on now that I’m stable-ish on medication. Have you thought about something similar? 🙂
Hi! im glad your doing better now! I wish I had some kind of qualifications for some kind of remote job where I could work mostly from home but I don't... I havent actually thought much about that road actually so im not sure where to even begin. 😊 thank you for watching! 💚
Maybe you have the symptoms because of toxoplasmosis (the delusion with smelling like catp**** and that the cat is spying on you may indicate that, this parasite causes the brain to be upset). The doctors have a test for toxoplasmosis, in my region every pregnant woman gets tested for toxoplasmosis, as it can have bad consequences for the baby. So the test is pretty basic. There's no cure/treatment for toxo but at least you'd know then, if this was/is causing some problems. Best wishes! ❤
Hi thank you! I have done all the blood test during the evaluation and I have also done a CT scan and things like that so there shouldn't be anything like that. I trust my doctors did the proper procedure before putting the diagnosis. thank you for watching and commenting! have a nice day! 💚
i have olfactory and auditory hallucinations apperantly. i believe that i smell bad , i sense horrible smells and i hear and see people talking about like how hot it is or how bad it smells, and i believe it's all because of me. but at every doctor that i've been with says that i don't smell. it is so frastruating. i sometimes ask my groupmate it i have a bad smell and she even sniffed me and said i smell just fine even like nothing at all. idk can schizophrenics only experience only one kind of delusions and hallucinations like mine ?
I also have delusions about smelling bad but you need to meet certain criteria to be diagnosed with schizophrenia, im not sure what those are on the top of my head but I think you need to have negative symtoms as well. but I could be wrong, I'd speak with a doctor, they usually know best.
@@Kimberly_Viktoria thank you for you attention. Yes i do experience some negative symptoms as well, tho doctor said that i have psychosis but didn't diagnose me yet🙃 thank you again 🫶🏻
@@laladoingwhatiwanna9489 I do also believe there’s a time aspect to the diagnosis, the doctors must see that the psychosis are reoccurring I think! Here in Sweden the doctors can’t put a schizophrenia diagnosis before 6 months of symptoms. Hope you feel better soon 💚
Hello Kimberly. Thank you very much for sharing your experience with such honesty and clarify. I’ve been feeling more and more of over the last year that I might have negative schizophrenia symptoms. However I also have a chronic illness, ME/CFS. Long story but research shows similarities between schizophrenia and me/cfs. I was wondering if you also have any me/cfs symptoms like post-exertional malaise (feeling very exhausted when you do much) or exercise intolerance? Thank you
@@Kimberly_Viktoriathank you Kimberly for your kind reply. ME = ‘Myalgic Encephalomyelitis’ and CFS = ‘Chronic Fatigue Syndrome’. In ME/CFS patients have less blood than normal. So when they try to exercise, their body gives up much more quickly than in a healthy person and they become ill for a period. Interestingly I found a paper from 1938 which showed that schizophrenics had 12 percent less blood than normal - that’s very similar to me/cfs. More recently a researcher called Michael maes has found elevated inflammatory markers in both conditions. It’s a weird one. I’m wondering if some people with ME/CFS develop schizophrenia because things like lower blood flow to brain affect their brain function leading to schizophrenia presentation. Long Covid in its most severe form is also the same as ME/CFS
@@me-cfs-strategiesforhealing thank you for explaining! Im not really sure actually if I need to recover more from exercise since I don't know what to compare it with. But this is a very interesting hypotesis I think! I have however (at least to my memory) had some times where I needed more rest than my peers, but i'm not sure if this could be the cause or if its just been me having a low social battery. 😊
@@Kimberly_Viktoria My pleasure Kimberly. I think there is something going on between ME/CFS and schizophrenia that the mainstream medical profession hasn't caught up with yet. My channel is about ME/CFS research. On July 10th, I will have a video about this topic. Your videos are really helpful. A lot of what you are saying mirrors my life. I am trying the carnivore diet now by the way. Quite a few people recover from serious mental illness on it like bipolar. Also came across a woman who recovered from hallucinations. I know it sounds a bit crazy but there are interesting stories online if you have a google.
If you are interested search RUclips for 'Shawn baker, Valerie, carnivore 40 years mental illness reversed' for the story of someone who recovered from hearing voices
I have a problem with people looking inside my home from the streets. Kind of OCD that I have to look that they look inside or not and if they do then I think why? 😅 I got this bugged by it that close the curtains. Now people think I’m a big weirdo, some hacker, a drug dealer or anything in between. Hahaha 😂😢. I have had three psychosis got diagnosed with Schizophrenia and also Autism. Which one is it? 😅
Its difficult for many reasons but one being that not everything is in your mind entirely. You and a neighbor maybe always going out to walk your dogs at the same time for example. How many times does it need to happen until it is no longer considered a coincidence? Its this setup but with everything and then your individual "delusions" are placed on top of it. To me everything is a setup, not everything is a delusion, but you can be made to feel absolutely horrible.
As a sufferer myself, I think I understand. with your rational mind, you can think “Well, that’s just a set of coincidences - nothing to worry about.”, but you still feel paranoid anyway, because your irrational mind is thinking “What if it isn’t coincidence?”. I have a security light at the back of my house that, for three nights in a row, went on at the exact moment I put my head down on my pillow. It was just a cat roaming in my garden setting the light off, I’m sure. (I’d witnessed this happening at other times) But you can imagine how that made my paranoia go wild, trying to figure out how “they” knew the exact moment I put my head down to go to sleep. It’s quite funny when I think back on it. But it just shows, coincidences do happen!
@@emotown1 To me even when you find a basic underlying reason for the coincidence it is the truth but not the whole truth. You putting up the security light, having the desire to go to sleep at that specific moment and the cat deciding to cross your yard at that specific moment, the thoughts that we're crossing your mind, and your bodies physical reactions to the thoughts are a setup. I didn't used to see things this way so no hate if you don't think the same. I bet it was an incredible relief when you saw it was a cat!
@@mckennasweda3614 When I saw that cat there was a part of me that went "It's going to be okay." But it still took me quite a while to actually feel okay about it. If that makes sense. Anyway, I don't really have a point, just relating something that happened. I've had far worse psychotic delusions at other times. Thinking that the neighbour must be planting video cameras in my bedroom and getting a live feed of me in my bed, waiting for my head to hit the pillow, then using a laser or tight-beam infra red to set off my security light from over the fence ... is one of my less elaborate delusions. I know - I'm like the James Bond of paranoid delusionals. Lol. Anyway, take care of yourself, in this coincidence-laden realm.
this also depends on the person, some have better insight than others and this can of course affect the way you're able to take care of yourself. I usually need some extra help but I also am able to live alone.
I watched horror films and smoked cannabis as a teenager. Then I got the illness. I don't watch horror films anymore. Except X-files if it counts. X-files have some paranormal and mental illness topics. Sometimes it feels bad now because I miss 90s when I watched it with a healthy mindset. Now watching X-files isn't the same but I think it's a good thing. Now I don't take Hollywood seriously. 🤔
sad to hear! I used to watch a lot of horror films before and I try to sometimes but it's not really the same as before... thank you for watching! also love you're recent shorts! 🥰
It’s astonishing just how frequently cannabis is involved in psychosis and schizophrenia. I also had several cannabis induced psychotic episodes as a teenager. A study showed that 50% of all psychosis in Amsterdam, and 30% in London, is due to high potency cannabis consumption. The public, and teenagers in particular, need to get far more educated about the enormous mental health risks of cannabis consumption. I’m glad these conversations are increasingly happening and awareness is on the up, but feel far more still needs to be done. Sharing stories like ours is so important in this.
I have question for you. It's more related to the video you made about losing your twenties. I feel the same. I also had psychosis and have BPD and I feel like my life is doomed by mental illness and I've been busy just surviving. While my peers get pregnant, go abroad, get engaged, get married, graduate. How do you deal with the comparison? I have suicidal thoughts that's how I deal with it but I'm sure you have a better method
Hi! one of my sisters has BPD so I know some things about it, sad to hear you can relate, I have very similar thoughts to you about feeling doomed or even left behind by peers. I have planned a video talking about this but haven't had the energy or mental energy more likely to film it yet as its something that get me very emotional to think about... as for how to deal with it, I sadly don't have any good methods yet. im still trying to figure this one out... thank you for watching I hope you have a nice week and take care of yourself! 💚
I think you can reach all these milestones and still be miserable. And there will still be frustration on the other end. It‘s about how you can make your own life fulfilling and set your own standards for it since not everyone is dealt the same cards in life.
Have you tried or RUclipsd the Ketovore diet? There are studies that it helps. I grew up with my mom diagnosed with schizophrenia and I wish she was still alive so I could try to help her with the Ketovore diet.
Hej Kimberly! Har du hört om nya Karxt medicinen? Den ska tydligen förbättra kognitiva symptom och verka på ett annat sätt än att blocka dopamin receptorerna som dom gamla medicinerna gör. Verkar ändå finnas hopp för att dom kommer framåt med medicinutvecklingen!
Hej! nej, jag har faktiskt inte hört om den medicinen, tack för infon, ska kolla upp detta. alltid skönt att veta att vetenskapen gör framsteg när det kommer till behandlingen av schizofreni. tack! 🥰
I think this is mostly a misconception to a degree, it can of course be hard to convince someone in psychosis that what they have is a delusion but definitely not impossible, especially if the person is aware of their illness.
Do you willingly get admitted in a facility while in psychosis, or does someone have to force you into it. Are you violent when psychotic. And do you have a higher dosage of medications when in psychosis, and how soon do you have recovery from psychosis. Thanks a lot. Trying to understand Psychosis of a family member hence the 5 questions.
depends if the person is considered a danger to themselves or not if they're forced into a hospital but you can also go willingly to get help. and yes you usually get a higher dose of meds if its needed during active psychosis. recovery is very individual sadly so I can't give a time frame. and no you are usually not violent when psychotic thats rare. no worries hope this helps! 💚
@@Kimberly_Viktoria Thanks so much Kimberly. Your speech, tone of voice, presentation and pauses etc are so soothing to the ears. So i understand delusions in themselves whih happen in psychosis is itself termed psychosis and when you are out of psychosis you dont have or believe in those delusions right? Or some can go on believing their delusions even when out of psychosis (with respect to schizophrenia). Thanks
it really varies from person to person but I don't think I have spoken to many who have worked full-time jobs without medications for longer than a few months. and by then they have usually become very ill with psychosis . but some can be symtom free for some time while working and then the psychosis gets triggered again by stress or other things. I haven never been without meds when trying to work part-time and I would definitely not recommend trying...
Kimberly, hvis du orker å lese norsk, anbefaler jeg deg å lese denne. Du kommer til å få mange aha-opplevelser og lære masse om deg selv: Inn i katastrofelandskapet - erfaringer fra basal eksponeringsterapi.
Chinese traditional medicine addresses blood defeciency and ways of healing with food,acupuncture abd herbs.For example they miggt talk about heart blood deftmicexy or licer blood deficincy and distinct causes and effects, i.e panic attacks related to liver blood defeciency and can be relieved by eating Hot roasted Chestnuts.I bouggt some of a stand in the city when a panic suddenky hit me and it worked,I attended to my city brief bussibess and wnt home to relax and recharge. My adrenals were probably a little depleleted due to the energy and focusing charge provided by a specific anti fungal drug that is no longer available, others are, and they were helpful for me in overcoming the brain fog from CFS and episodes of permeability,porosity of personal boundaries that come with the territory of overtiredness, sensory overload,emotional depletion and experiences of depersonalization if one becomes really rired over a long period. Tine out,deep rest,and use of restful prayer,good food,supportice, but non demanding family, and one miracously becomes radiantly alive again. Yes, I believe there is much to learn
I have schizoaffective disorder and struggle with delusions every day. It's so nice to know I'm not alone
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Your honest sharing of delusions really helps me to realize that my own terrifying delusions are in-fact not reality, which is very reassuring! Thank you.
thank you! that really makes it worth it for me to post videos like this, knowing they might help someone! ❤️
My most common delusions are that I have HIV or cancer or some kind of illness that even doctors don't know how to treat, I also think that people put acid or poison in my food and also I am sooo scared of animals because I think that they are demons who are spying on me. I have many others extreme delusions. I also experience hallucinations, I see flies that aren't here and also I see polar lights sometimes. Funny thing is that I also heard moon talking to me. I hear many voices in my head all the time, some bad some good- I call them personalities. I also think that I experience dissociation? Idk, I sometimes forget who I am and where I am and everything feels like a video game-not real.I am 23 years old and I started to experience these symptoms just a few months ago but I am already on antipsychotics. They do help but only like 50%. So my doctor wants me to stay at psych ward to start a more complex treatment since my symptoms are pretty strong. Life with schizofrenia is very hard. Its an everyday battle cause sometimes it gets very overwhelming.
Sad to hear that, I hope the treatment will work better for you than the antipsychotics. good luck and thank you for watching and sharing! 💚
My daughter hasn’t been diagnosed with anything yet but her mental health team are thinking schizophrenia . She has daily delusions. Her delusions range from severe paranoia ( that the government is watching her , or magpies are spying on her for the government) , hearing a voice that talks to her pretty negatively all the time and she has episodes of seeing and feeling bugs crawl on her. She also has a fear of smelling bad . She is on the antipsychotic Quetiapine . So far this has slightly lessoned the episodes but it’s heartbreaking to see her so distressed. I’m sending you hugs from Scotland.
oh thank you! im sending you a hug as well and hope your daughter recovers soon too. 💚
I have all of these issues and then it becomes real because I decided to approach the situation and then it's permanent with them..also feel like I stink...tons of deoderrant need of someone to tell me I'm ok but then feel like they are stuck with me 😢I can't handle it and the weirdest is knowing something before it happens like the other day I was listening to music everything was normal I had a thought of my cuz and I should take his binoculars back..and shit u not hee showed up and asked for his binoculars...and this happens quite often..and I haven't showered in a month I clean myself but I don't take a whole shower I have PTSD and wen ppl are doing things to us and we've had traumatic experience from it because it was real some body did put stuff in my shampoo and I lost half my hair .., and I've taken pic and video to prove just to my self I'm not wrong and now I have ppl harrassing me and I can't figure out if this is real I feel like it is and I havet figured it out yet I moved here to Sonya Ontario from Detroit Michigan and 10 years ago and my mom has passed away one year ago today well today was the day we buried her and I have absolutely nobody left so I have no family that cares or friends I'm trying to make fun things to do things behind my back and I find a lot of distress in these people and I ain't trying for a good reason for the last year I also got a new dog that is a big handful and everybody's telling me I should get rid of them is that and everything cleaning my neighbors but he's a German shepherd and people are scared of them and he's aggressivehe viciously Burns and all that good stuff but I like it because there is nothing one person in my home that's stolen from me that's treating me wrong or anything because you won't let anybody in and at first I thought it was bad but you know what like it's been an amazing for me and but I also have been experiencing this without showing anything and like I used to be a huge fanatic for like making sure my whole routine was taken care of and I've always got stuff to use and then I always end up like jumping around something else because like I just don't have anything any motive to do so even if I have an appointment like I still I just make it happen like I put it on my you know and it's not good for your body to do that and then I'm going to fear of living with and then the dog pee on the side of the bed so I can clean it with vinegar and lemon juice smell good stuff and got the smell away and everything and just having a fear of like being dirty and that people can tell and see and like I tried to clean myself like but I miss showering and I miss doing these things and like I had some episodes where people came to my house while I was in the shower and turned on my stove twice in a row and I don't know how to get past that right like if they're just like waiting for me to put down my garden is what I feel like and as soon as my guards down and then something's going to happen with the dog and he's been like there for me and when that happens like to have my back right and I just don't know I'm having to say that they're trying to get him away from me and I was told right to my face that I'm someone sent me I'm going to make sure you do not have that dog I promise you the dungeon do anything to anybody nothing happened but like all it takes in a small town this is someone to tell someone one thing and then like call the police or something and boom like you know what I mean they believe it it's been very stressful and no last night I yelled at my neighbor and I feel awful about it and I don't even want to go say sorry because she probably doesn't even have anything to do with me and it was just I heard something that they had said and I thought that it was something more and now I feel awful like I just woke up and I feel terrible and I feel like it was like maybe an episode cuz I didn't sleep for a couple days and I thought those people 27 choice yesterday the dog was barking and everything like they were throwing yourself at the door so these things so it's like a mixture of these things happening and then my mind taking it a little bit further or two right and but it's been a little bit more in-depth than that and that's why I started watching these videos and it was very thankful to click on yours becausecan you make extreme sense and it was very random that I clicked on yours and I wasn't going to listen to anything about this and I can't believe it like but it's hard to because there's so much more about our brain and like what could be happening it could be so many things and I've been misdiagnosed for years so I've always been very very depressed and anxious and insecure and I should know about it I've never seen myself that way and now I look at myself and I know some of my teeth and I'm freaking look like hell and I'm just like what has happened to me in the last couple years like and I just don't even look the same anymore and I feel like people are scared of me and didn't think I stink like they don't want to talk to me I just had a severe insecurities and like I have nobody to tell me different and and if I do I don't believe them and then when they tell me the truth I don't want to hear it either I don't want to hear it I'm actually very grateful wasted many years thinking what people are telling me now and it was the opposite way around right so I don't know maybe you have any answers to get back to me and don't be wonderful if anybody does please thank you
I have a schizophrenic friend whose main delusion is becoming invisible against his will. I’m not mentally ill, but I’ve felt and still feel “invisible” a lot, so that would likely be my delusion too, if I had schizophrenia. He usually gets this delusion when they change his meds and he gets hospitalized. Whenever I go visit him while he’s psychotic, he tells me that he’s happy because I have “a special vision” that allows me to see him and therefore he feels safe. I know he might sound stupid to most people, but I can consider his trust one of my biggest accomplishments in life!
oh wow he must really trust you as his friend! glad to now he has you. thank you for watching and I hope you're both doing well! 💚
You are very brave. Thank you for sharing the reality of living with schizophrenia.
Thank you Holly! 🥰
My mum started getting delusions from the age of 72. She is now 80 and this is ongoing. She does not recognise them as delusions and insists it is all real. Neighbours are attacking her in her flat with laser technology - they are etching scary faces on brick walls where they know she walks - following her in her car and popping out of junctions in front of her and encouraging false allegations. She accused a nurse of assaulting her with a needle - accused one man of date raping her and another of indecent exposure. I seem to be the only person in the world she trusts - everyone else is in on it. She lives ok otherwise - it is like some kind of game to her and she likes to stay one step ahead of them and thwart their schemes. She even thinks my g/f who she has never met could be part of it.
I try to be sympathetic and it is a shame she will not accept any kind of medical help.
At least you KNOW you are suffering from a clinical condition - my mum thinks it is all real.
My ex boyfriend is the same way. He is completely convinced he's being tortured by the police with microwave weapons. He has so many crazy false memories. He thinks I own the music industry, among other things. I don't want to go along with it, because I feel like it feed into his delusions.
Thank you ! You are educating many of us who care and love individuals who live with schizophrenia as you.
My son's psychosis moments we very similar to yours. He too wanted to live in the forest in a tent to flee the crowds and live in isolation . He too experienced deep anxiety over neighbors talking about him,coworkers poisoning his food and sabotaging his vehicle. People breaking in to our home though all door locks were changed and cameras set up to his request.
Not leaving the home for nearly a year due to anxiety and delusions.
Medication has greatly helped, took nearly two years find the med combination that settled his psychosis. Also, a therapy dog has helped tremendously.
One lingering issue is not showering for months, changes cloths regularly, but brushing teeth and bathing are a struggle.
Listening to this video is educational and heart touching.please know your are a great teacher and helping many of us to understand what it is like living with schizophrenia.
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Thank you Cynthia! that means so much to me! 🥹 and thank you for sharing, I hope everything continues to get better for you and your son. I can tell he has a caring mother and thats a big help in recovering I find. have nice Sunday! 💚
Thank you, Kim ❤️ I wish the best for you,too!
OK this was interesting one. My bf has a lot of this symptoms, especially he set up a camera infront of the door. Brushing teeth and shower I sometimes need to ask him. Also he changes clothes a lot and are obsessed with using to much deodorant. Always ask me if he smells bad? Sometimes it's like he goes into his own world and I can't connect with him when I try to talk. He just ignore me. He is also delusional sometimes when we having a conversation like he feel I attack him when I'm not. It's very difficult and it's like caring for a child. He never make dinner. Barly anything at home. He me er wa t to talk about his health when I ask him and shuts down. Also anger outburst. I also noticed his tone of voice changes depending on person he is with. He is very good at masking. Can this be the answer? I thought first bipolar but I'm not sure now it's gotten worse with age
I relate so much to the neighbor delusions. I thought I was being harassed by neighbors who were a part of a noise campaign by the CIA. I thought I was a "targeted individual" and my hallucinations played into that. They thought I was treatment resistant until they tried me on Invega and now everything is basically gone. It was such a miserable experience. I can't believe how stressed I was. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. You're not alone. I hope things get better for you!
thank you! sad to hear you can relate but glad you have found a treatment that works for you! sending you a virtual hug! 🥰
@@Kimberly_Viktoria Thank you! *hugs*
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i have the same delusion with my neighbors. they do it on purpose! and i must be so quiet that i barely exist bc otherwise they will take revenge .. 😭😄 haha it's awful to feel such paranoia for years no matter where you live.
the moon thing sounds terrifying! :(
sad to hear you also have this delusion, it really makes you behave weird in your own home... 😔 and yes the moon thing was terrifying, glad I havent had anything like that since. thank you for watching! 💚
While watching your video I remembered RUclips channel that’s called “Living well with schizophrenia”. The creator of the channel, Lauren, has schizoaffective disorder and recently she (onboard with her psychiatrist, psychologist and keto-coach) started her keto journey that goes surprisingly well.
IN NO WAY I suggest you to start keto but maybe it will be interesting for you to check out her videos.
Lauren is talking a lot about the reduction of her symptoms (and the doctors are not concerned about her health as well) so I though that maybe if you are treatment resistent, something like this might help. Also keto seems to help really well with easing symptoms of diabetes, which is also nice.
Once again, I don’t want this to look like I give you an advice of any sort, because I don’t know your situation and your struggles fully and I am not educated about keto either.
So I guess it’s just a recommendation of a very nice RUclips channel 😊
Hope you won’t find my message rude or intrusive, because I wish you all the best in the world❤
haha funny that you mention that! I started doing keto again after a big break from it this Christmas and I do feel better eating a ketogenic diet, I get slightly more energy and it has been much easier to lose the weight. and don't worry I don't find it intrusive I realize that it comes from a good place. have a nice weekend and thank you for watching and commenting! 💚
I know how it feels, I have bipolar and co-ocurring ocd..I also have delusions. So hard you just believe them as truth.. so hard to get out of their grasp. But we are trying 😊❤
sad to hear you can also relate but as you said: were trying! 🥰❤️
I’m just curious why delusions are mostly about being watched, spayed on or being poisoned or killed and not about something opposite
its really interesting but these types of paranoid delusions is apparently a very western symtom, people from other cultures usually have different types of delusions that are more moulded depending on the culture, religion they're from and so on! very interesting! 🥰
I had a brief psychotic episode when going through menopause... A horrible experience, so I really feel for you. You are so brave 😍
Thanks for sharing Kimberly. My most frequent delusion was ‘thought broadcasting’ - believing others were ‘in’ my mind or could read my thoughts.
Did you ever experience anything like that?
Hi! and thank you for watching. and yes, I do struggle with thought broadcasting from time to time. mostly that others can read my thoughts. but it has become much more easy for me to disregard these delusional thoughts over time. 😊
I've had similar. Especially the conspiracy. I started feeling recently that people/family noticed my triggers and they would use it against me to drive me crazy 😣 😁
I had no idea that other people suffered from these delusions too! I didn't realise they were delusions until I saw this video about the neighbours, I'm constantly creeping around my flat and scared to make noise
I had this behavior until I processed some of my trauma stuff. And it was paranoia bc of Anxiety /social anxiety. But these episodes lasted not as long as in psychotic ways. And it went away without medication
Me too. But I grew up with a rageaholic.
When my schizophrenia was new I had a lot of communication through walls. At times I would try to get away from the madness by leaving. I thought it worked. I haven't had that style of communication through walls in decades.
thank you for sharing! 😊
I've had sczhiphrenia for 43 years, they only delusion I ever had was 26 years years ago when I thought I was a member of the royal family!!! Wth was I thinking. I then had another psychosis 9 years later, but glad to say after 3 weeks in a psyche ward I've been stable and psychosis free for 18 years. Work life balance plenty of exercise and sleep. And keep taking the meds
Thank you for sharing and the advice! 🥰
I feel u i still have embarrassment and shame over delusions appreciate u being confident enough to share ur experience
Thank you so much! 😊
I really wish I was as brave to do what you do and be so open about myself. I just hope you know how very strong you actually are. There really should be a television series where people who have schizophrenia are more accurately portrayed. I distrust a lot of people as well. I tend to believe I am always judged or people are thinking terrible things about me. I think this is just from the negative experiences I had as a child. I do have a funny story about a neighbor. When I used to smoke, I had to go outside. I always thought this neighbor was laughing or talking about me. We never really met until our neighborhood flooded. He said to me that he "knew" I probably thought he was strange. So he was actually worried about what I was thinking about him that whole time. I admitted that I thought he was thinking the same about me. We had a good laugh about it.
oh thank you! and I agree, I wish they portrayed schizophrenia in a more accurate way in tv but as of yet I don't think I have seen much of it (if at all). funny story, I find that most people are so consumed by their own anxiety and thought about themselves that they most often don't actually think of us they way we think they do... but of course thats hard to think of in the moment, especially in psychosis or strong anxiety. I glad you had a laugh at it! again thank you for your lovely comment and for watching! 💚
i used to get angry in my delusions but only use my words but man was i excessive yea but a lot of bad things i thought could happen well the doctors told me it was schizophrenia. i used to think i had like a chip in my head though but that just resembles how perfect i can be with calling out whos bad and who isnt. turns out i was right and they actually did go do bad things. i just felt like i was being picked on when i would get angry now a days im just getting delusions that are trying to keep me quiet about it all used to think someone was listening in on my thoughts but thats been the most recent i felt like i was slipping but im getting better
sorry to hear that... I wish you well! and thank you for watching! 💚
Thanks Kimberly! I always enjoy your videos! ❤
thank you! 🥹💚
Thank you for being so honest, real and vulnerable. I totally relate to the neighbour one. I get really upset and think my neighbours have turned on their pigeon scarer even after I told them that the noise bothers me. It’s more that I get obsessed about it and use it as an excuse not to record my singing because the noise would be in the background.
thank you for watching and sharing! 💚
I relate to all of this so much.
Neighbors can be such a challenge... They're almost never *actually* like the delusions make them seem, but they are random people who do have their own random weird habits sometimes. They're just very nosy in my neighborhood. They like to stare. Granted, my appearance is strange, so it's not terribly surprising. But I just can't stand being looked at. It makes me really paranoid. This wouldn't matter, if not for the fact that I'm really into fitness and I run 5 miles most days. Sometimes I get paranoid that they're going to call the police on me for no reason. Other random people walking past freaks me out, too - at least, men do. I'm always worried I'm going to get attacked. I have legitimately had people throw stuff at me from their car window, or sometimes men pull over and try to convince me to get in the car, so it's really hard for me to separate my psychotic symptoms from like... a "healthy wariness" of others.
I just want to be left alone so I can run in peace.
The one about feeling like you probably smell bad is a big one for me too. It's so embarrassing that I've never told anyone about it.
I also really relate to being so wary of others, and like you say, especially men. Thank you for watching and sharing with me. I hope you have a nice day! 💚
love u schizoaffective bipolar here and can relate to the delusions and heightened fear and paranoia that were brought out experiencing them while living alone. thank you for being vulnerable here with us. i hope this disorder could one day be more understood or better portrayed in media for the public. may this help those seeking information from real people. with schizo delusions and hallucinations. ,
Thank you for watching and yes I hope so too. Have a nice day! 🥰
Your hair is so lovely like that, with the tendrils framing your face so nicely. You're a complex and lovely lady, thank you for sharing!
Hi Kimberly, you look fantastic! Thank you for sharing and making us aware of some of the things you have struggled with. Kim, you have friends....please think of me as your far away friend. Have a great weekend and I look forward to your next video
thank you Pam! 🥹 I definitely will think of you as a friend, and have a great weekend too, hopefully there will be a vlog coming on Sunday maybe, depends if I have time to edit it! ❤️
I want you to know that I feel how hard this must be for you, sharing all of this. This is so very personal and you being vulnerable with these struggles and nuances that are still bothering you, is so so so very brave. Your sharing may not be helping many people, but it is helping enough people. Thank you!
Oh thank you so much! 🥰
When I was florid about 15 yrs ago I had microphones under the shingles on the backside of my shed. Not inside the shed or inside the house, but outside under the shingles. So not only do delusions not make sense, they also don't make sense. lol. Hang in there, you are doing a fine job bringing awareness to the many.
You are so brave to openly talk about this! I am so impressed by your strength!
thank you! 💚
Hello Kimberly! Thank you for sharing what your delusions are like. I find them interesting that there seems to be some common ones among schizophrenics like being watched/spied on, worrying about body odor, etc. Funny enough, i actually experienced the paranoia about body odor during my teen years. It was playing into my anxiety about my hygiene and appearance to others at the time. These were also some very hard years of my life personally. And, I have a strong suspicion my father had paranoid schizophrenia, but went undiagnosed his entire life. I grew out of these delusions somehow. I truly believe the only reason my delusions didn't develop into the full blown disorder, is because i never drank alcohol or did any drugs. And thankfully, i started paying attention to my nutrition and my sleep as i got older. But schizophrenia has always fascinated me, as i see so much of my poor tortured Dad in the disease. And so funny when you mentioned the FBI! Being from Sweden, thats quite a unique delusion for you to have. It is a quite common delusion for the ones in the US. Now I'm curious to know if the FBI's negative reputation is something recognized all over the world..
Hi! and thank you for watching! 🥰 these paranoid delusions I apparently a very western type of symtom when it comes to schizophrenia. schizophrenic symtoms tend to look different depending on what religion and culture you come from. its very interesting! as for the FBI thing, yes id say they do have somewhat of a negative reputation here as well. delusions can really be bizarre and not make any sense at all. 😂 Again thank you for watching and have a nice Sunday! 💚
Thank you for sharing this, I suffer from this as well. I know many others have probably said this but I feel less alone. ❤️
thank you! 🥹
I'm really happy you uploaded! Thank you for making my day
oh thank you! ❤️
Thank you for sharing Kimberly. ❤ Sharing our inner most vulnerabilities is no easy thing to do. ❤ Just to reassure you, that you are a beautiful person, and your inner beauty radiates outwards. It's always a pleasure watching your videos, I can't believe for one second you could annoy anyone. 🙂 Neighbours if anything tend to show displeasure by making loud noises, playing loud music etc. and consistently so. If you aren't experiencing anything like this you have nothing to worry about. 🙂
Thing is time alone, is time on one's hand to get trapped in internal thoughts, and if we are vulnerable, feeling down etc. our thoughts tend to fixate around the negatives in our current life, which is why it's always nice to have positive people around who can distract and highlight all the positives that we tend to forget. 🙂I think it's also important to remember that your Dad was far from perfect and one can be easily triggered because of that. ❤ Kimberly I hope this has found you in a good place and lifted your spirits some. 🙂I find it very difficult to understand how you haven't met your significant other yet. You are doing everything right, it has only got to be a matter of time... Much love and respect to you, keep up the good work. 🙂
thank you for your kind comment John! 💚
Thank you so much for making this video 😊. I also suffer with psychosis and paranoia. It is really difficult at those times but, like you, if I am not experiencing psychosis, I feel, and I think I seem, pretty normal. Thank you for normalizing it 😊. I will be watching your other videos.
Thank you for your lovely comment and support! 🥹💚
Thank you for sharing
No need to be shy or feel guilty ❤
Thank you! 💚
Very honest videos. It’s been a privilege to watch them Kimberly. People are only scared of serious mental illnesses because they don’t understand them. I include myself in this, I lost a friend (had to cut contact with him) because he traumatised me when he was undergoing an episode of psychosis - I wish a: I understood more so that I wouldn’t have been so frightened and knew how to help, and b: he have been more honest about his illness so I could have known what to expect should he become unwell. Once we can understand, we are no longer scared and can help.
Thank you! I think understanding is the key to compassion here. 💚
Thank you so much for sharing.
My son is currently in hospital with psychosis that they think might be schizophrenia. He's been there just over 5 months and believes he is fine and that there is nothing wrong with him. It is so hard to know what to say to him, and so hard to watch him struggle.
Listening to you talk about your experiences gives me hope that one day he will have some understanding of what's happening for him.
I'm sorry that your delusions can be so frightening and wish you all the very best in managing your symptoms and finding joy along the way.
Thank you so much for watching and I wish both you and your son the absolute best! And I hope he'll be better soon, schizophrenia really is a hard illness to deal with but with the right support it is possible to live a perfectly good life too. 💚
Thank you for sharing your experience with delusions. It strikes me how isolated one may become as a result, particularly with the accompanying paranoia. so it is almost therapeutic to do these vlogs? How brave you are!
thank you! 🥰 and yes, I do find it therapeutic to do vlogs and videos, its a hobby that keeps me doing something when I have energy to do so and it also feels creative in a way that I like! ❤️
You so so brave doing these videos. Keep up the good work!
thank you! 💚
We have the EXACT same delusions. Every single one. Wow.
I experience similar ideas, I’m scared to say what exactly because I know they can see this message. I wish you the best with your mental health and I love your channel ❤
thank you! and thank you for sharing the little you feel comfortable with. 🥰💚
I love horror movies/series,rock/metal music. It helps me a lot. I live in USA ,Florida. But I wish I was living in Norway.
Me too! If you like metal I recommend the Swedish bands Avatar and Sabaton! :)
@Kimberly_Viktoria Thanks I will check them out now.
I believe the one about the moon telling you whwr to do is a command hallucination. Thanks for sharing!
Oh i didnt know that was a thing! Thank you! 😊
I would think that the celebrity were playing a video game and I was the player and they were making me move and walk. I also thought people could hear my thoughts and I thought a big star in the sky was a camera watching my every move like the Truman show. I had many more!! I used to walk all day around the town. I am now medicated and have not had any symptoms in many years.
Heck yeah, I feel you on the criminal minds bit. Thank you for being open enough to share this.
Hello Kimberly, thank you for having the courage to share your experiences, I have very similar
Delusions about the FBI watching me and I also struggle with feeling I have a chip in my arm and I can be tracked by FBI and doctors, I wish you the best and everyone suffering with schizophrenia, it can be a lonely road so it’s nice to hear other people who know what it’s Ike to deal with this horrible ilness
Hi! thank you for watching and commenting. and I agree, this illness can definitely make you feel very alone and in my case scared too. I hope you're doing better now and I wish you well too! 💚
thanks so much for sharing it really helped me come to terms with my delusions and having psychosis or schizophrenia seeing how similar the patterns are with what im new to experiencing
Thank you, i'm happy my video has helped in any way. 🥰
I have had similar experiences. Thank you for sharing.
@@KhaneticsJ Thank you for watching! 🥰
Rlly helped me not freaked out about my delusions tyyy ❤❤❤
oh wow thank you this made my day!! 💚💚
Thanks so much for sharing Kimberly, its all so personal, I really appreciate your courage and honesty. I think it is needed, that people know what goes on with your and others struggles with skizophrenia. It's also heart breaking to have to go through these things, but I feel there is a lot of hope, and you have really progressed. I deal with severe anxiety and PTSD and the feeling of never fitting in, but thats nothing compared to what you go through, with the hallucinations. I truly appreciate you sharing all your struggles. Hope this week is really good for you! Hugs from MaryAnn 🤗💜❤❤🩹
Thank you Mary Ann! 💚 sad to hear you also struggle with mental health issues, I hope your doing better. Just wanted to say that you are the subscriber of mine that has gotten the most "hearts" from me here below the comments according to RUclips analytics. thank you for your continued support! hugs! 💚🤗❤️
@@Kimberly_Viktoria Awwww, thats so nice! I have to say you help me a lot with my own issues. Hugs to you again! and hearts! 🤗❤💜💜💜
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Damn beautiful swedes! Also, this was a really interesting video. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences! I do not personally suffer with this illness - however I can certainly relate to a lot of these examples as I do experience some very odd thoughts, usually brought on by periods of intense stress. I’d be interested to know about how you first got diagnosed and any perhaps red flags you had before that with regards to mental health if you are inclined to share & have not already made a video on this topic. I am very interested in at what age it tends to come on for people and also what a first episode perhaps has been like. Again, thank you for the wonderfully insightful content and I hope you have a great day. ❤
Oh thank you! I do believe I have made a similar video like that, schizophrenia usually tends to come on I early adulthood (20s-30s) I also go into my first episode on my second video here on my channel. 😊 Have a great day too and again thank you for the kind comment. 🥰
You look stunning by the way ❤
thank you! 🥹❤️
Thanks for sharing! This is really helpful for people who aren’t even formally diagnosed with Schizophrenia since everyone lives with delusions about the world and themselves.
I urge you to look into Buddhist psychology - maybe even visit a Buddhist temple in Sweden.
There are fantastic virtual resources by Ajahn Sumedo (an American monk trained in Thailand) from the Amaravati Buddhist Monastery (a monastery in England) channel here on RUclips.
thank you! 💚
Off topic but you are extremely pretty, literally an angelic face❤hope I'm not being too weird lol, great video as well😊
Thank you! That's so kind of you o say! 🥹 ❤
I can relate to a lot of your anxietys
I get alert and sometimes angry when I hear my neighbors yell or make noise. I think it's towards me.
sad to hear...
Hi, I have very similar delusions about my neighbours, the police investigating me, and body odour. Don’t think I’ve seen someone so similar to me! It’s been a very difficult couple years.
I try to keep busy by working from home. Luckily I have a flexible employer so it makes life easier. It gives me something to focus on now that I’m stable-ish on medication.
Have you thought about something similar? 🙂
Hi! im glad your doing better now! I wish I had some kind of qualifications for some kind of remote job where I could work mostly from home but I don't... I havent actually thought much about that road actually so im not sure where to even begin. 😊 thank you for watching! 💚
I think the full moon one is called intrusive thoughts
thank you for sharing.. ive had the same symthoms. hugs
thank you for watching! hugs 💚
I myself was diagnosed with schizophrenia and thought my thoughts were being controlled by randy Rhoads
thank you for watching and sharing! I hope you're doing better now! 💚
‘And if you disliked it give it a thumbs down’ that made me laugh 😂
haha thank you! 🥰
Thanks a lot for sharing
Thank you for watching! 💚
Maybe you have the symptoms because of toxoplasmosis (the delusion with smelling like catp**** and that the cat is spying on you may indicate that, this parasite causes the brain to be upset). The doctors have a test for toxoplasmosis, in my region every pregnant woman gets tested for toxoplasmosis, as it can have bad consequences for the baby. So the test is pretty basic. There's no cure/treatment for toxo but at least you'd know then, if this was/is causing some problems. Best wishes! ❤
Hi thank you! I have done all the blood test during the evaluation and I have also done a CT scan and things like that so there shouldn't be anything like that. I trust my doctors did the proper procedure before putting the diagnosis. thank you for watching and commenting! have a nice day! 💚
i have olfactory and auditory hallucinations apperantly. i believe that i smell bad , i sense horrible smells and i hear and see people talking about like how hot it is or how bad it smells, and i believe it's all because of me. but at every doctor that i've been with says that i don't smell. it is so frastruating. i sometimes ask my groupmate it i have a bad smell and she even sniffed me and said i smell just fine even like nothing at all. idk can schizophrenics only experience only one kind of delusions and hallucinations like mine ?
I also have delusions about smelling bad but you need to meet certain criteria to be diagnosed with schizophrenia, im not sure what those are on the top of my head but I think you need to have negative symtoms as well. but I could be wrong, I'd speak with a doctor, they usually know best.
@@Kimberly_Viktoria thank you for you attention. Yes i do experience some negative symptoms as well, tho doctor said that i have psychosis but didn't diagnose me yet🙃 thank you again 🫶🏻
@@laladoingwhatiwanna9489 I do also believe there’s a time aspect to the diagnosis, the doctors must see that the psychosis are reoccurring I think! Here in Sweden the doctors can’t put a schizophrenia diagnosis before 6 months of symptoms. Hope you feel better soon 💚
Hello Kimberly. Thank you very much for sharing your experience with such honesty and clarify. I’ve been feeling more and more of over the last year that I might have negative schizophrenia symptoms. However I also have a chronic illness, ME/CFS. Long story but research shows similarities between schizophrenia and me/cfs. I was wondering if you also have any me/cfs symptoms like post-exertional malaise (feeling very exhausted when you do much) or exercise intolerance? Thank you
Hi! i don't know what ME/CFS stands for? I do however get very tired after doing to much but I don't have exercise intolerance I think. 🤔
@@Kimberly_Viktoriathank you Kimberly for your kind reply. ME = ‘Myalgic Encephalomyelitis’ and CFS = ‘Chronic Fatigue Syndrome’.
In ME/CFS patients have less blood than normal. So when they try to exercise, their body gives up much more quickly than in a healthy person and they become ill for a period. Interestingly I found a paper from 1938 which showed that schizophrenics had 12 percent less blood than normal - that’s very similar to me/cfs. More recently a researcher called Michael maes has found elevated inflammatory markers in both conditions.
It’s a weird one. I’m wondering if some people with ME/CFS develop schizophrenia because things like lower blood flow to brain affect their brain function leading to schizophrenia presentation.
Long Covid in its most severe form is also the same as ME/CFS
@@me-cfs-strategiesforhealing thank you for explaining! Im not really sure actually if I need to recover more from exercise since I don't know what to compare it with. But this is a very interesting hypotesis I think! I have however (at least to my memory) had some times where I needed more rest than my peers, but i'm not sure if this could be the cause or if its just been me having a low social battery. 😊
@@Kimberly_Viktoria My pleasure Kimberly. I think there is something going on between ME/CFS and schizophrenia that the mainstream medical profession hasn't caught up with yet. My channel is about ME/CFS research. On July 10th, I will have a video about this topic.
Your videos are really helpful. A lot of what you are saying mirrors my life.
I am trying the carnivore diet now by the way. Quite a few people recover from serious mental illness on it like bipolar. Also came across a woman who recovered from hallucinations. I know it sounds a bit crazy but there are interesting stories online if you have a google.
If you are interested search RUclips for 'Shawn baker, Valerie, carnivore 40 years mental illness reversed' for the story of someone who recovered from hearing voices
I have a problem with people looking inside my home from the streets. Kind of OCD that I have to look that they look inside or not and if they do then I think why? 😅 I got this bugged by it that close the curtains. Now people think I’m a big weirdo, some hacker, a drug dealer or anything in between. Hahaha 😂😢. I have had three psychosis got diagnosed with Schizophrenia and also Autism. Which one is it? 😅
Its difficult for many reasons but one being that not everything is in your mind entirely. You and a neighbor maybe always going out to walk your dogs at the same time for example. How many times does it need to happen until it is no longer considered a coincidence? Its this setup but with everything and then your individual "delusions" are placed on top of it. To me everything is a setup, not everything is a delusion, but you can be made to feel absolutely horrible.
As a sufferer myself, I think I understand. with your rational mind, you can think “Well, that’s just a set of coincidences - nothing to worry about.”, but you still feel paranoid anyway, because your irrational mind is thinking “What if it isn’t coincidence?”. I have a security light at the back of my house that, for three nights in a row, went on at the exact moment I put my head down on my pillow. It was just a cat roaming in my garden setting the light off, I’m sure. (I’d witnessed this happening at other times) But you can imagine how that made my paranoia go wild, trying to figure out how “they” knew the exact moment I put my head down to go to sleep. It’s quite funny when I think back on it. But it just shows, coincidences do happen!
@@emotown1 To me even when you find a basic underlying reason for the coincidence it is the truth but not the whole truth. You putting up the security light, having the desire to go to sleep at that specific moment and the cat deciding to cross your yard at that specific moment, the thoughts that we're crossing your mind, and your bodies physical reactions to the thoughts are a setup. I didn't used to see things this way so no hate if you don't think the same. I bet it was an incredible relief when you saw it was a cat!
@@mckennasweda3614 When I saw that cat there was a part of me that went "It's going to be okay." But it still took me quite a while to actually feel okay about it. If that makes sense. Anyway, I don't really have a point, just relating something that happened. I've had far worse psychotic delusions at other times. Thinking that the neighbour must be planting video cameras in my bedroom and getting a live feed of me in my bed, waiting for my head to hit the pillow, then using a laser or tight-beam infra red to set off my security light from over the fence ... is one of my less elaborate delusions. I know - I'm like the James Bond of paranoid delusionals. Lol. Anyway, take care of yourself, in this coincidence-laden realm.
Lastly how much insight do you have during psychosis. Can you do your routine and or stay alone and care for yourself during psychosis?
this also depends on the person, some have better insight than others and this can of course affect the way you're able to take care of yourself. I usually need some extra help but I also am able to live alone.
@@Kimberly_Viktoria Thank you so much for these answers. Very grateful. You are a kind person
no worries! have a nice day and I wish you well! @@Richer159
I feel people are conspirrenting against me to
sad to hear that. 😕
I have been dellusional for 5 months now, when will it ever go? 😢
Do you take meds? 😔
I watched horror films and smoked cannabis as a teenager. Then I got the illness. I don't watch horror films anymore. Except X-files if it counts. X-files have some paranormal and mental illness topics. Sometimes it feels bad now because I miss 90s when I watched it with a healthy mindset. Now watching X-files isn't the same but I think it's a good thing. Now I don't take Hollywood seriously. 🤔
sad to hear! I used to watch a lot of horror films before and I try to sometimes but it's not really the same as before... thank you for watching! also love you're recent shorts! 🥰
@@Kimberly_Viktoria Thanks! Creating is good for my mental health 😊
It’s astonishing just how frequently cannabis is involved in psychosis and schizophrenia. I also had several cannabis induced psychotic episodes as a teenager. A study showed that 50% of all psychosis in Amsterdam, and 30% in London, is due to high potency cannabis consumption. The public, and teenagers in particular, need to get far more educated about the enormous mental health risks of cannabis consumption.
I’m glad these conversations are increasingly happening and awareness is on the up, but feel far more still needs to be done. Sharing stories like ours is so important in this.
@@Boz-mj8qu Thank you for sharing! These days I don't use any drugs or alcohol. Didn't do anything good for me.
If someone has schizophrenia and they smoke cannabis will it make their schizophrenia worse?
I have question for you. It's more related to the video you made about losing your twenties. I feel the same. I also had psychosis and have BPD and I feel like my life is doomed by mental illness and I've been busy just surviving. While my peers get pregnant, go abroad, get engaged, get married, graduate. How do you deal with the comparison? I have suicidal thoughts that's how I deal with it but I'm sure you have a better method
Hi! one of my sisters has BPD so I know some things about it, sad to hear you can relate, I have very similar thoughts to you about feeling doomed or even left behind by peers. I have planned a video talking about this but haven't had the energy or mental energy more likely to film it yet as its something that get me very emotional to think about... as for how to deal with it, I sadly don't have any good methods yet. im still trying to figure this one out... thank you for watching I hope you have a nice week and take care of yourself! 💚
I think you can reach all these milestones and still be miserable. And there will still be frustration on the other end. It‘s about how you can make your own life fulfilling and set your own standards for it since not everyone is dealt the same cards in life.
very true! 💚@@SeriNe-fj9gh
Have you tried or RUclipsd the Ketovore diet? There are studies that it helps. I grew up with my mom diagnosed with schizophrenia and I wish she was still alive so I could try to help her with the Ketovore diet.
I have tried the keto diet before but didnt notice any difference in my psychotic symtoms really. But I lost weight with it. 😊
Hej Kimberly!
Har du hört om nya Karxt medicinen? Den ska tydligen förbättra kognitiva symptom och verka på ett annat sätt än att blocka dopamin receptorerna som dom gamla medicinerna gör. Verkar ändå finnas hopp för att dom kommer framåt med medicinutvecklingen!
Hej! nej, jag har faktiskt inte hört om den medicinen, tack för infon, ska kolla upp detta. alltid skönt att veta att vetenskapen gör framsteg när det kommer till behandlingen av schizofreni. tack! 🥰
Honest question. I thought if one has delusions, they could not be convinced they are delusions?
I think this is mostly a misconception to a degree, it can of course be hard to convince someone in psychosis that what they have is a delusion but definitely not impossible, especially if the person is aware of their illness.
Hi you are brave.
i woke up this morning thinking the devil was tormenting me ….
Do you willingly get admitted in a facility while in psychosis, or does someone have to force you into it. Are you violent when psychotic. And do you have a higher dosage of medications when in psychosis, and how soon do you have recovery from psychosis. Thanks a lot. Trying to understand Psychosis of a family member hence the 5 questions.
depends if the person is considered a danger to themselves or not if they're forced into a hospital but you can also go willingly to get help. and yes you usually get a higher dose of meds if its needed during active psychosis. recovery is very individual sadly so I can't give a time frame. and no you are usually not violent when psychotic thats rare. no worries hope this helps! 💚
@@Kimberly_Viktoria Thanks so much Kimberly. Your speech, tone of voice, presentation and pauses etc are so soothing to the ears. So i understand delusions in themselves whih happen in psychosis is itself termed psychosis and when you are out of psychosis you dont have or believe in those delusions right? Or some can go on believing their delusions even when out of psychosis (with respect to schizophrenia). Thanks
@@Richer159 it depends for me delusional thoughts tend to linger a little afterward but usually lessen with time.
My neighbours keep beeping their car horns at me
sad to hear that... 😔
Have you ever watched the movie mean girls
yes! but it was a long time ago if you mean the original one, I haven't seen the new one 😊
Can schizophrenics work and be successful for say 9 months at a stretch without medications, and get psychosis after 9 months ?
it really varies from person to person but I don't think I have spoken to many who have worked full-time jobs without medications for longer than a few months. and by then they have usually become very ill with psychosis . but some can be symtom free for some time while working and then the psychosis gets triggered again by stress or other things. I haven never been without meds when trying to work part-time and I would definitely not recommend trying...
@@Kimberly_Viktoria Thank you so much. You look lovely
thank you! 💚@@Richer159
Please excuse spelling mistakes, tiny keyboard, long fingernails, have hit c mea t v etc.
i have paranoia too
sad to hear that! :(
yea stuff is scary😁
definitely! 😳
Hello! Are you Swedish? My mom was from Sweden
@@susanbeckham7236 yes! 😊
I'm interested to know, is there someone else living with you to confirm that non of these noises are actually not happening?
@@catherinemarsh5453 for the first years I had a partner who I could check with but now I live alone except for my cats 😊
Kimberly, hvis du orker å lese norsk, anbefaler jeg deg å lese denne. Du kommer til å få mange aha-opplevelser og lære masse om deg selv: Inn i katastrofelandskapet - erfaringer fra basal eksponeringsterapi.
Tack jag ska kolla upp den! 😊
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What country are you from? A Scandinavian one?
@@OutragedPufferfish sweden! 🇸🇪
@@Kimberly_Viktoria That's what I thought, but I decided to not ask it, just in case it's Denmark or Norway after all ☺️ Good channel 😊😊😊
@ thank you! ☺️
Chinese traditional medicine addresses blood defeciency and ways of healing with food,acupuncture abd herbs.For example they miggt talk about heart blood deftmicexy or licer blood deficincy and distinct causes and effects, i.e panic attacks related to liver blood defeciency and can be relieved by eating Hot roasted Chestnuts.I bouggt some of a stand in the city when a panic suddenky hit me and it worked,I attended to my city brief bussibess and wnt home to relax and recharge. My adrenals were probably a little depleleted due to the energy and focusing charge provided by a specific anti fungal drug that is no longer available, others are, and they were helpful for me in overcoming the brain fog from CFS and episodes of permeability,porosity of personal boundaries that come with the territory of overtiredness, sensory overload,emotional depletion and experiences of depersonalization if one becomes really rired over a long period. Tine out,deep rest,and use of restful prayer,good food,supportice, but non demanding family, and one miracously becomes radiantly alive again. Yes, I believe there is much to learn
is the world a cruise ship going through space?
Starkt att du vågar vara öppen med sånt!
tack! tog ett tag bara. 😊
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Look out, look out. They'll take your license away!
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no thank you.
@@Kimberly_Viktoria why not?
i'm an atheist. @@thefunson8087
@@Kimberly_Viktoria why?
@@thefunson8087because sufferers do not need more delusions
i’m being accused of being with someone for a minuscule amount of money…it’s almost like the accuser has no idea about the actual circumstance