I had an abortion 9 years ago and thought it was a totally normal decision to make at the time. I was a single mother and looking for love during a depressed and lonely season as a young mother after my son's father broke off our engagement and walked out on me. When I found out I was pregnant, I was so ashamed. I didn't want to have a relationship with the father, and I didn't want to end my pregancy but I felt like I couldn't raise another baby, (My son was 3 years old,) and I was ashamed and afraid of being judged for having another child with another man who wasn't my husband. I also felt like no man would ever love me or see me as worthy of being a wife if I had 2 children with 2 different men. I was working as a choir director at a church and I already felt like an outsider being a single mother. I begged my sister who didn't have children of her own at time to raise my baby- I couldn't bear the thought of having the baby and not being in the child's life and I thought I'd my sister would adopt my baby then I could just tell everyone in my community that I was purposefully having a baby for my sister and avoid their judgment. My sister cried with me - something I think about often, because she has had 3 abortions and I feel like our shared tears were proof of our hearts acknowledging the life of a child. She shared my fear- she too didn't want to be a single mother because she felt like it would be a hindrance to her finding love and sharing her own family. I went to my health clinic. My file now reads, "Patient doesn't really believe in abortion but already is a single mother in school and has two jobs and doesn't feel like she can raise another child." I wish I had encountered a Christian counselor to help me make a different decision. I did experience immense healing at a Rachel's Vineyard retreat. I still regret my decision to abort. The process was the most emotionally harmful and depressing experience of my life. Now I am married and trying to get pregnant and have experienced two miscarriages. I would do anything to go back and save the baby that I aborted 9 years ago.
Daniella, I’m so so thankful for you writing in and sharing your story. Your healing at Rachel’s retreat is a sign of God’s faithfulness. The journey leading up to an abortion and even the healing afterwards is sooo complex. Keep trusting and calling on God. We’re here for you. - Brittany
I’ve personally known Becky since childhood, and she has always been wise beyond her years. This is yet another example of how her heart and wisdom shines through in everything she does. Thanks to both of you for your courage and strength ❤
Annalisa, thank you so much for watching our episode! Becky is an amazing woman of God!! So happy to have her on this podcast journey ❤️ stay tuned. Becky tackles a hot topic for episode two, you won’t want to miss it!
Great job on the first episode of the podcast! You both articulate the heart behind the purpose of this. It’s reaching, extending a hand, loving and compassionate. Sharing the testimonies says, “I am going to get in the trenches with you because I know how to make it out and can help you.”
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I had an abortion 9 years ago and thought it was a totally normal decision to make at the time. I was a single mother and looking for love during a depressed and lonely season as a young mother after my son's father broke off our engagement and walked out on me.
When I found out I was pregnant, I was so ashamed. I didn't want to have a relationship with the father, and I didn't want to end my pregancy but I felt like I couldn't raise another baby, (My son was 3 years old,) and I was ashamed and afraid of being judged for having another child with another man who wasn't my husband. I also felt like no man would ever love me or see me as worthy of being a wife if I had 2 children with 2 different men.
I was working as a choir director at a church and I already felt like an outsider being a single mother. I begged my sister who didn't have children of her own at time to raise my baby- I couldn't bear the thought of having the baby and not being in the child's life and I thought I'd my sister would adopt my baby then I could just tell everyone in my community that I was purposefully having a baby for my sister and avoid their judgment. My sister cried with me - something I think about often, because she has had 3 abortions and I feel like our shared tears were proof of our hearts acknowledging the life of a child. She shared my fear- she too didn't want to be a single mother because she felt like it would be a hindrance to her finding love and sharing her own family.
I went to my health clinic. My file now reads, "Patient doesn't really believe in abortion but already is a single mother in school and has two jobs and doesn't feel like she can raise another child."
I wish I had encountered a Christian counselor to help me make a different decision.
I did experience immense healing at a Rachel's Vineyard retreat. I still regret my decision to abort. The process was the most emotionally harmful and depressing experience of my life. Now I am married and trying to get pregnant and have experienced two miscarriages. I would do anything to go back and save the baby that I aborted 9 years ago.
Daniella, I’m so so thankful for you writing in and sharing your story. Your healing at Rachel’s retreat is a sign of God’s faithfulness. The journey leading up to an abortion and even the healing afterwards is sooo complex. Keep trusting and calling on God. We’re here for you. - Brittany
I’ve personally known Becky since childhood, and she has always been wise beyond her years. This is yet another example of how her heart and wisdom shines through in everything she does. Thanks to both of you for your courage and strength ❤
Annalisa, thank you so much for watching our episode! Becky is an amazing woman of God!! So happy to have her on this podcast journey ❤️ stay tuned. Becky tackles a hot topic for episode two, you won’t want to miss it!
Great job on the first episode of the podcast! You both articulate the heart behind the purpose of this. It’s reaching, extending a hand, loving and compassionate. Sharing the testimonies says, “I am going to get in the trenches with you because I know how to make it out and can help you.”
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Yes I walked away from God after my first abortion because I was so ashamed of myself and I thought that God must hate me so much
My mom did too I thought I would of learned from my mom and sister but nope I failed so bad I hate that I made the hard decision I made
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Wow!! This is so good!! I'm like I feel like y'all are me and I am yall because SAME lol thank you for sharing. TRAUMA is exactly what it is! 💯
Thank you Anisa!! It’s amazing to find community that relates to these feelings. Let’s call it what it is. Thanks for supporting and sharing. ❤️
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So amazing and touches on the trauma and lies surrounding abortion like nothing else I've heard!
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