Gabe! I hope you’re still doing well. I made my one year on May 12. I haven’t been wanting to use subs/opiates but instead seeking something to help me feel better mentally. I feel depressed. I just started Wellbutrin for anxiety/depression. It’s helped with anxiety but I’ve been feeling very depressed since starting. I have no physical motivation and don’t care to do much of anything. Also don’t care to. I kinda feel like I missing something. Anywho, take care of yourself. And thank you for keeping these videos up for people to go back and take advice from and learn.
So, I just want to thank you! I had my one year Feb 28 and I watched your videos every single day for the first few months. I literally would "wake up" from my insomnia and watch your video for the day I was on. It felt like I had a friend or accountability partner to walk the journey with me. Nobody and I mean nobody could understand what I was going through. I'm so grateful for you and your videos. Thanks again!
The depression is finally lifting for me, will be 14 months March 4th..it's a miracle. Gabe. Thank you so much for your videos. Love in Christ. Can't wait to meet you in heaven. :)
I’m at 2 years and I still feel the same way as I did at 1 year. You made a good point with this video. It’s so easy to glorify sobriety when you’re in active addiction. Addicts look at sobriety like some magical state of consciousness where you shit rainbows and wake up every day ready to go kick ass at work. Nah…it’s just regular old life. But, I must say, not being a slave to buprenorphine kicks ass.
@@komrad51st I was on it for 5 years. It’s tough man. I struggle with depression still and my weeks are like a rollercoaster…some days are good and some are shit. I’m starting to wonder if I’ll ever be normal again. It gets better as time goes on but fuck, it couldn’t go much slower. Hang in there man
@@khaledon6369 do you think mines would be shorter since I’ve been using for 1/12 years ? I also ended up taking oxy for 9 days after I was stressing would that delay my recovery ? I still felt the sub paws even after I took the oxy it barely helped
@@khaledon6369 and also how long did all your physical symptoms last ? Like the body being uncomfortable & anxiety that makes you tremble ? I’m worried bro does it get better for you daily or weekly ?
@@komrad51st My physical symptoms lasted for a few months. I didn’t sleep at all really for the first month and the second month I slept maybe an hour or two each night. The third month I started to get at least 4 hours of sleep a night, didn’t have much anxiety and had no restless legs FINALLY…RLS was the worst part for me. I think once you’ve been on sub for a year or more it’s gonna be a tough journey. Hopefully it doesn’t last as long for you but everyone is different. I also relapsed with oxy for awhile the first time I got off sub and it definitely hit the reset button for me. Definitely try to stay away from all opioids. I used Kratom occasionally to get some sleep during the first few months of sub withdrawal but if you use that keep it minimal. I know it’s not very encouraging to hear some of this but just know that I’m still very grateful to be clean now and life does get better. Hope everything gets better for you. Oh, and I forgot to mention…using psilocybin mushrooms has helped me immensely in the recovery process. Just a thought.
Congrats brother! 1 year is huge, and you may be struggling, but your struggling and not turning back to opiates. That is incredible and shows the strength of your character. You inspire me on every single video you make. I am still on target for my 5/29 jump date and I sincerely appreciate your honesty during your process. Every single video prepares me better and solidifies my resolve to slay this beast. I may not understand how difficult this will be, but I know one thing...I will not give up, I will not surrender. You planted this seed in my brain and I plan to water that seed every damn day, until my dying breath. Thank you Gabe. Thank you.
Bryan Holm -You have the mindset of a man ready to get off this crap once and for all! Thank you very much for your support man. 5/29 is on my calendar and I’ll be thinking and praying for you. God bless
Learning to deal with life after substances is an art hahahhaha. A lot of people need to change their lives not Just getting off the drugs. Getting off the drugs is the easy part to me. Find a support group maybe, I know when I am around other people in recovery it’s very inspiring. A gratitude practice can do wonders. I’ve been doing a gratitude practice for the last two years and it helps me heaps and bounds. Hang in there Gabe! It takes a lot of work to get well. Xo Be easy on yourself and remember to do self care. Being a dad, husband, worker and human we can forget about ourselves. I take a low dose 1.5mgs and consider it my mental health drug Hahahhaha. When I came off Suboxone and the first time I was off for about a year and 10 months and I really struggled. When I got on again at a really low dose it was very helpful for me. Maybe it’s something I’ll keep doing who knows only time will tell. It takes the body a long time to balance itself out from Suboxone that is a fact.
-Thanks for your comment! I really do appreciate your encouragement. It truly is a whole lifestyle change. It’s not about quitting something. It’s so much more than just that isn’t it. Thanks again and God bless you!
Welp, 1 year clean. It is indeed cool, but it seemed way more exciting 6 months ago haha. The real win here is the indifference I feel about it. I don't think about pills, being clean isn't a daily struggle, it's just normal. I don't really care, I actually say it's nothing to even celebrate. I shouldn't have been using in the first place. But getting out of addiction is a huge accomplishment, it seemed impossible to me for so long. But it is possible, but very difficult and it goes on and on and on. But it's so worth it!
Congratulations Gabe. I am so so soooooooo happy for you! God bless you! ✝️. Yes you are right. Suboxone/Subutex sucks and getting off is so so hard. But so doable. And sooo worth it. You are a light showing its possible. Keep strong. Here something I've been thinking hard on. Time IS going to pass. We need to make a decision. Do we want to be in the same place next year or do we want to see something completely different in our life in the next year.
I've been off for 160 days today. I'm not depressed, I've never wanted or had the urge to take it again, or any opiates for that matter. I'm not depressed, but sometimes I just feel blah, especially recently because I got laid off from my job 2 months ago, and I've been going through the process, of getting a new job and training for a pretty stressful job. The stress has just been beating me down, and I think that's a big reason for me feeling the I feel sometimes.
I know exactly what you're feeling man, I was off for a year and was feeling that way and I ended up relapsing. Just keep going man you will get through this with the Lord's help. Unfortunately I'm just now quiting once again, on day 3 again.
Andrew Mann -Oh man, I talk to a far amount of people who got anywhere from 6 months to 5 years clean that r now back trying to get off again. But all that matters is your on day 4 now right? Or maybe 3 idk? Anyway, u know the road ahead. U know what must be done to beat this crap and u know u have it in you! God bless you and stay in touch if you’d like.
Andrew Mann Stay disciplined Andrew... I know you can get and stay clean this time... mind over matter! It's a good life. I'm 130+ days clean now and not looking back to that deathly crutch. Just to think about reusing is death to me buddy. I know my family now. I missed out on way too many yrs of worry and just mental anguish of using and everything that goes with it. God Bless you. You've done it before and can kick its ass again - for good this time forever! Take good care.
Congrats and very good job buddy! God has blessed you my freind for what you've done for the rest of us out here and that all that are still hanging in there. I feel kinda the same... I lost count of days about a month ago. But yes thinking about it I'm on day....131 clean and will be one yr soon too. Time does fly. Im down too most of the time but that's normal for me now but it's 100% better than using!! If that makes since. Your. Being Normal buddy that's how we feel being clean now... no crutch!,, and all the other headache crap. God Bless broth life is good!
Tod Harper -Man I’m so happy for you! It’ll be over a year before you know it. And I’ll be over 2 years before I know it. Your support had meant so much to me. You being on here, encouraging, making your presence known, letting folks (and me) your still clean.... all that means so much! God bless you
I was on subs for a little over 2 yrs, I quit in 2019 for a year but then relapsed in 2020 for that year because I met the wrong people and once I took one after being off it for a year, it feels like your first time again and the the hook was set...but for the new year I did tell myself, screw this, I'm done with this crap, I miss feeling normal...(again) so I'm on day 8 no sub today and I'm not looking back, the gabbepentin and marijuana helps alot but it feels like I'm somewhat starting to come out the worse of it, I just can't wait till I hit that 30 day mark because that's when you can begin to sleep normal and feel somewhat normal again but Happy New Year! And best of luck to those trying to quit, you can do it!!! Will Power!!!
Totally agree about the acute w/d symptoms not being as bad compared to life after. Withdrawals was my worst fear for years while on suboxone. My emotions and lack of brain function was very hard for me to cope with after detox from suboxone I wasn’t prepared. I used kratom to help with these symptoms and it did help me get through those symptoms. Almost 5 months later it’s been a journey and yes I’m very very very grateful to be off suboxone and kratom and it has been completely worth it for me. For people contemplating using suboxone long term Please be aware there are side effects to taking it long term that providers don’t talk about. Just do your research before before thinking long term suboxone is the answer. ❤️
Lab Girl -So proud of you! As I’m reading this it just hit me hard for some reason. I’m seriously so proud! I’m proud that you off Kratom too! This comment of yours is going to help others. It’s inspirational! I’m honored to have you commenting on my channel. God bless you
Seriously Gabe you should consider looking into podcasting You've got the voice and the attitude for it. You may not realize it yourself, but ask the people here that watch and listen to you. Ask them what they think about you doing a podcast, and I think you'll be surprised my friend. I really, really do. You've got the kind of voice where if someone where searching the dial and stumbled upon you they would say "hey that's Gabe". I'm telling ya dude you've got something special that could have mass appeal on a bigger format for those struggling. I've never taken a suboxone in my life but I still watch your videos, so what does that tell you about your appeal? Do it bro! Build it and they will come! You could call it "Gabbing with Gabe About Recovery". 😄👍
1 year brother! you have that one in your back pocket to reflect on when times get tough. Dont forget how blessed you are man, if you are anything like me, i was knocking on death's door using drugs. Hell man, you have a little one, a purpose greater than yourself.
TropicalFruitLoops -Thats right! I’m blessed beyond what I deserve. I was definitely on my way to an early death. I was extremely fortunate a few times as well. Thank you for your support
Hope you’re doing okay man thinking about you. Looking forward to your next video. I’ve been depressed as all shit recently too. It comes in waves. Stay strong there are people who love you. Find joy in that
Congratulations on a year, that is huge! I have been doing fasting with keto refeeds and semen retention lately and it is almost completely eliminating any Paws.
I lost about 10 pounds coming off Suboxone. Some say the acute withdrawl is pretty bearable and others say it's the worst.. it goes back and forth. You think it's over for a day or two then it comes back full force..
Just keep with it dude. Ive been 4 months clean after 10 years and its still rough. Its all about keeping the mind busy for me. Its so hard to find the energy to do things to keep your mind at bay but you just gotta keep going. Keep fighting the good fight. I find suboxone disgusting now and try to turn people away from any type of long term use. This drug is meant for short-term use and works wonderfully as that. We need more focus on solutions rather than bandaids. My thoughts on the crappy feelings after suboxone is that suboxone works as a painkiller + anti anxiety so our bodies are so used to having sub to help with endorphine, dopamine n serotonin production. Now that the helper(sub) is gone, it takes time for those systems to regulate. The problem is the lack of energy to go work out, or do something similar, that would in turn help with the PAW. Hey man, you keep going strong; Ill keep going strong..... everything will be alright. Just gotta keep moving forward
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Methadone or suboxone! Take it at your on risk! Cause I promise it's pure hell to get off! I'm 100 days off methadone, and my whole body hurts, can not sleep,no energy, with bad anxity! Do yourself a favor and don't do it.
Gabe! Congratulations on your year free from opiates! You are truly an inspiration! Thank you for sharing your experience and allowing us to accompany you on your journey. I pray for you on a nightly basis my friend. God is proud of you Gabe, and so am I. If I could, I would give you a huge embrace. Not only for your victory, but also to let you know I care about you. If your mental health getting to you, and you need to get out of the “RUclips spotlight” for your own sanity, do it! You can’t pour from an empty cup. You have to help yourself before you can help others. I will miss you, and other’s will too, but I want you to succeed just as badly, if not more, than you want us too. James 4:8 “Draw close to God, and he will draw close to you.” If you need time to do that, do it! Matthew 5:3 “Happy are those conscious of their spiritual needs...” I will support you in your efforts, physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. Maybe after this pandemic bull crap is over, we can meet up and get a coffee together. I could use a hiatus myself...... Ok man, I’m rambling on. Last thing, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF GABE MCCALL! (I hope I spelled that right...)
Russell Fultz -Love your comment as always brother! It’ll be interesting how long I actually stay away from RUclips. I have no idea. I could literally make a video tomorrow or nothing in a month? I’m very spur the moment (impulsive) so we will see. I might just let u guys into more insanity with the next chapter of my life? I’d like to make more videos about certain topics and stuff but only when I’m feeling up to it. Draw near to God and God will draw near to you... it’s been the theme for the last few weeks for me. I’m even watching Tim Conway preach a mini series on just that. What’s amazing... I’m still struggling at drawing near to God right now. There is a wall, or iron between us it feels like. Just like getting off this suboxone though... I’ll never give up drawing near to God. It’s a rough season, but whatever God is up to I’m just gonna keep on going. I do need to be obedient though. I have been struggling big time in that department. Keep praying for me. It means so much that u do pray for me regularly. Your support means so much to me as well. I thank you sir! I’d love to have that coffee someday
Woo goo! Let’s go out to chubby cheese’s...! Oh wait. We can’t 😷🙄😩 but massive congrats! Really. What you did most ppl can’t do. It takes a lot. Btw I know you think these videos suck and are bad but I see them as what you are truly feeling. The irritability, the depression, the confusion and just feeling hopeless sometimes. It’s very helpful that you are truthful about the various subjects you bring up every video. And thank you for sharing, a lot of people would feel lost because they think they’re the only ones dealing with this and no one understands them and how they feel about everything. Just having that in common brings hope. So thank you for sharing and keeping it real.
musicguy20 -Thanks man. I’m glad I documented everything the way I did. It was hard, I didn’t always want to do it.... but I did it. It’s real, and now I can go back and see my true mental state in these videos years from now. Thanks so much for your support!
Gabe McCall I think it might be therapeutic for people who have addiction problems to record themselves so they really do see who they are and have become. And maybe it will help them change forever and keep them off drugs and stuff? Just an idea ☺️
Props brother, you made it this far and you're gonna keep trudging along, me too. It's so hard to make that final personal decision to jump, but I agree with your advice to others to just get it DONE. If you're ever going to jump, the pain will come... so might as well dive in and get the process rolling before more of your years are lost.
I woke up one day and said I’m done. Had over 100 strips left. Flushed them and dived in. Best decision I’ve made. Fuck that shit. Also didn’t taper down. Looking back I should have oh well
How did you feel jumping off? What my did you take? And how do you feel 3 years later? I’m 3 weeks on subs and I’m ready to taper down I don’t want to be on subs for years or go through paws for years he’ll no!!!!! I hope to hear from you.
@@svtkilr tbh it was fucking hell! Months of feeling bad absolutely no sleep. But I couldn’t go back to living the other way. It was during covid so I wasn’t working that was the good thing.
@@blankwhite6163 damn that’s crazy bro! What were you on prior to getting on subs? How many years were You on subs and what Mg? How’s your quality of life now 3 years later ?
@@svtkilr I was taking mostly Vicodin but really any type of downer. Except for the real hard shit. I was on I think 5 MG of subs. I wasn’t taking a lot. I was on subs for a couple years. I noticed I got sick very often though. And I would get sick for long periods of time. My life is better I’m not chained to a drug. I can finally face my family without shame. Drop for jobs without worrying. I did a lot of research before jumping off them. What vitamins I need and tips and tricks. I would not recommend cold turkey! You gotta be really sick of this shit and stick to it and wean off them. It’ll be hard at first cuz when I tried weaning body aches got to me and for me I wasn’t strong enough to say no so I had to just cut it off. I wish I never took subs that was just as bad as the pills.
@@svtkilr I also wanna mention I had anxiety and depression way before I got hooked on anything and now I deal with it sober so life is ok. I have a good job and a little family even on hard days it beats being a drug addict… also I’m able to save money now 😂
Way to freaking go Gabe !!!!!!!!!!! Coming up on 9 months here soon for me .Thank you so much for your videos as always so proud of you 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳
Gabe thank you and your followers for continuing to support me through this it means the world to me. Congratulations on one year that is truly amazing. You’ve helped so many people through there own journey. Remember V for victory buddy.
I agree, I'm on over 9 months no subs and STILL going through it. This thing is hard, I didn't sleep at all last night and have to go to work soon, It's one of the worst feelings when you have to be social while kicking subs. I haven't told my boss because I would get a "what's subutex" comment...... This detox sucks
Joe M -Man, being social whole kicking this crap is seriously sooooo hard. I don’t wanna get out of bed half the time. Then go sell stuff and try and get new accounts? F that! Obviously I know and feel your pain. It’ll get better and we will absolutely eradicate this crap from our lives. Keep going my friend.
Still clean, April 13th was last dose, and I am getting depressed but I tell myself you been through way more and been on subs way longer than my 3 month suboxone use after a year use of opiate pill abuse. I wish you could be happy for this vid, just the amount of time you use suboxone the harder the transition is back to reality
You don’t have to wake up sick or go through that at least, I remind myself how horrible the withdrawals are, I was on 100 mgs of methadone for 20 on top of other things, I did that cold turkey, well day 25 I thought I might go crazy and took Kratom it helped a lot, I did that for 4 months, I didn’t really even notice when I stopped Kratom all at once, I just couldn’t sleep hardly I just thought it was still from the methadone, it probably was, hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life, I didn’t really feel bad until like day 5, it takes so long
Gabe McCall I’m done! I been taking suboxone for about two years, and I’m just ready to stop taken them. Everything you said about finding you again is what I ready to do....
Gabe McCall I don’t think about it as far as how long.... I just know I don’t want none of it anymore..... The time has come it’s time for change, and I’m woke....
Cindy’s Journey -Thank you Cindy! And I know I always say this but thanks so much for your continued support. It really means a lot. You have been here watching me and I just wanna say thank you from the bottom of my heart. God bless you.
I take a tiny piece once a month. Because my mental peaks out then I’m good. I think God and I have not been doing well either but this corona bs had made it 3x as hard.
Prototype 176708 -This coronavirus crap is absolutely making stuff harder in my opinion. U know, I can’t tell you how much your support had meant to me through this whole thing. U have been here since the beginning and that seriously means sooooo much! You keep fighting this crap and you will completely eradicate it from your life. God bless you
Gabe McCall thanks brother! It has been so hard and all this political bs and life has just made my addiction look like a just 1 tiny puzzle piece. I don’t deny it but c mon I am a good person and so are you. Life is just so complicated now :/ God bless you too! Things will get better!!!!!
Jumped off at 2mg. Sucks for a few weeks but it's nowhere near as bad as heroin or any other opiates. And your mental stability had a whole lot to do with how hard the paws hit you. You were o optimistic in the beginning. Now not so much. Hang in there buddy.
Gabe just say “Serenity now!! Serenity now” just joking kinda. Almost two months for me but Congrats on a year man that’s effin awesome for real. 7 months was the longest right? You almost doubled that man! Keep it up Gabe! If getting and staying clean was easy we wouldn’t be overcomers we would be sub users
Ryan Downs Lol! Serenity now!.... insanity later! Nearly 2 months for yourself? That’s awesome brother! I appreciate your support more than you know brother!
This is exactly why it’s so hard for me to come off this time. The PAWS lasted about 18 months, and it’s brutal. Just knowing what I went through really keeps me from jumping. I just tried a treatment center. They didn’t know what they were doing when it came to Suboxone detox, and I ended up leaving 8 days into it. There were quite a few first timers who kept telling me to be more positive, and just being expected to feel a certain way got to me. One girl, asked me. “ Do you think you may feel better in a day or two?” I just wanted to laugh. It’s a hard program to begin with, but doing 16 hours a day was just too much for me to handle while detoxing. They taper you down to 2 milligrams in 5 days, then get you out of detox. Once in residential, you can’t even get Clonidine. It was all sorts of messed up. I should have known better than to go.
You may just simply need to take a low dose of a mood stabilizer even if you are low on the bipolar spectrum. Just a thought from hearing u talk about that subject in your family history in other videos.... Praying for God's blessing on you to fully restore your mind 💖
Evan Anderson -My email address is gabemccall49@gmail.com hit me up anytime and I’ll get back. Sometimes quickly and sometimes it takes me a couple days. But I’ll get back to you
Gabe McCall haha, good comment back!!! Oh I'm sorry I apologize, I'm sorry again, I mean apologize. ... that's. Great. U can tell some people r feeling better cause of needing to remind us of our pronunciation and words hahaha! Oh I'm sorry again to Kcmo... I'll go have a drink myself:) not!
One year is a great accomplishment. I think it’s time to consider that you may have some mental health needs separate from your Suboxone withdrawal and opiate use disorder. Please - explore some mental health support in the form of counseling or possible medication - - get closer to God if you will. You may be recording a completely different video a few months down the road.
Jessica Herrling -Thank you very much. I am exploring some other things. I know I definitely have some metal health issues. I never wanted to confront them in the past but I’m definitely gonna now. I got a counselor they have actually told me to go get checked out. Thank u for your support
I know the place your in, however I’m gonna throw a suggestion .. weightlifting.. if you get great runners high, start lifting weights. Or at home body workouts. Love your videos man and have been inspired by saying atleast TRY TO QUIT!
Gabe! I hope you’re still doing well. I made my one year on May 12. I haven’t been wanting to use subs/opiates but instead seeking something to help me feel better mentally. I feel depressed. I just started Wellbutrin for anxiety/depression. It’s helped with anxiety but I’ve been feeling very depressed since starting. I have no physical motivation and don’t care to do much of anything. Also don’t care to. I kinda feel like I missing something. Anywho, take care of yourself. And thank you for keeping these videos up for people to go back and take advice from and learn.
So, I just want to thank you! I had my one year Feb 28 and I watched your videos every single day for the first few months. I literally would "wake up" from my insomnia and watch your video for the day I was on. It felt like I had a friend or accountability partner to walk the journey with me. Nobody and I mean nobody could understand what I was going through. I'm so grateful for you and your videos. Thanks again!
How are you doing today ? I hope better.
The depression is finally lifting for me, will be 14 months March 4th..it's a miracle. Gabe. Thank you so much for your videos. Love in Christ. Can't wait to meet you in heaven. :)
I’m at 2 years and I still feel the same way as I did at 1 year. You made a good point with this video. It’s so easy to glorify sobriety when you’re in active addiction. Addicts look at sobriety like some magical state of consciousness where you shit rainbows and wake up every day ready to go kick ass at work. Nah…it’s just regular old life. But, I must say, not being a slave to buprenorphine kicks ass.
How long were you on suboxene ? I was on it for 1/12 years on and off I still feel like shit 7 months after
@@komrad51st I was on it for 5 years. It’s tough man. I struggle with depression still and my weeks are like a rollercoaster…some days are good and some are shit. I’m starting to wonder if I’ll ever be normal again. It gets better as time goes on but fuck, it couldn’t go much slower. Hang in there man
@@khaledon6369 do you think mines would be shorter since I’ve been using for 1/12 years ? I also ended up taking oxy for 9 days after I was stressing would that delay my recovery ? I still felt the sub paws even after I took the oxy it barely helped
@@khaledon6369 and also how long did all your physical symptoms last ? Like the body being uncomfortable & anxiety that makes you tremble ? I’m worried bro does it get better for you daily or weekly ?
@@komrad51st My physical symptoms lasted for a few months. I didn’t sleep at all really for the first month and the second month I slept maybe an hour or two each night. The third month I started to get at least 4 hours of sleep a night, didn’t have much anxiety and had no restless legs FINALLY…RLS was the worst part for me. I think once you’ve been on sub for a year or more it’s gonna be a tough journey. Hopefully it doesn’t last as long for you but everyone is different. I also relapsed with oxy for awhile the first time I got off sub and it definitely hit the reset button for me. Definitely try to stay away from all opioids. I used Kratom occasionally to get some sleep during the first few months of sub withdrawal but if you use that keep it minimal. I know it’s not very encouraging to hear some of this but just know that I’m still very grateful to be clean now and life does get better. Hope everything gets better for you. Oh, and I forgot to mention…using psilocybin mushrooms has helped me immensely in the recovery process. Just a thought.
I appreciate your honesty.
9 months in and by now I expected to feel "normal" this video reassured me that it takes time and the brain is slow to heal.
love your honesty
Good work. 1 yr and no relapse. Fantastic. My 1 yr was on 3/14/20. At the height of withdrawal I was spending more time in prayer. Every day. 😎
-Thanks brother! Congrats to you as well!
It’s crazy how much weight you’ve lost since your first videos!!
Your a new man! God Bless my brotha!
Congrats brother! 1 year is huge, and you may be struggling, but your struggling and not turning back to opiates. That is incredible and shows the strength of your character.
You inspire me on every single video you make. I am still on target for my 5/29 jump date and I sincerely appreciate your honesty during your process. Every single video prepares me better and solidifies my resolve to slay this beast.
I may not understand how difficult this will be, but I know one thing...I will not give up, I will not surrender. You planted this seed in my brain and I plan to water that seed every damn day, until my dying breath.
Thank you Gabe. Thank you.
Bryan Holm -You have the mindset of a man ready to get off this crap once and for all! Thank you very much for your support man. 5/29 is on my calendar and I’ll be thinking and praying for you. God bless
Hey my friend, just letting u know I’m thinking about you and your jump. U go take your life back! God bless
Congrats bro. God bless🙏
Learning to deal with life after substances is an art hahahhaha. A lot of people need to change their lives not Just getting off the drugs. Getting off the drugs is the easy part to me. Find a support group maybe, I know when I am around other people in recovery it’s very inspiring. A gratitude practice can do wonders. I’ve been doing a gratitude practice for the last two years and it helps me heaps and bounds. Hang in there Gabe! It takes a lot of work to get well. Xo Be easy on yourself and remember to do self care. Being a dad, husband, worker and human we can forget about ourselves.
I take a low dose 1.5mgs and consider it my mental health drug Hahahhaha. When I came off Suboxone and the first time I was off for about a year and 10 months and I really struggled. When I got on again at a really low dose it was very helpful for me. Maybe it’s something I’ll keep doing who knows only time will tell. It takes the body a long time to balance itself out from Suboxone that is a fact.
-Thanks for your comment! I really do appreciate your encouragement. It truly is a whole lifestyle change. It’s not about quitting something. It’s so much more than just that isn’t it. Thanks again and God bless you!
Gabe McCall 🥰🥰🥰
Welp, 1 year clean. It is indeed cool, but it seemed way more exciting 6 months ago haha. The real win here is the indifference I feel about it. I don't think about pills, being clean isn't a daily struggle, it's just normal. I don't really care, I actually say it's nothing to even celebrate. I shouldn't have been using in the first place. But getting out of addiction is a huge accomplishment, it seemed impossible to me for so long. But it is possible, but very difficult and it goes on and on and on. But it's so worth it!
Congratulations Gabe. I am so so soooooooo happy for you! God bless you! ✝️. Yes you are right. Suboxone/Subutex sucks and getting off is so so hard. But so doable. And sooo worth it.
You are a light showing its possible. Keep strong. Here something I've been thinking hard on. Time IS going to pass. We need to make a decision. Do we want to be in the same place next year or do we want to see something completely different in our life in the next year.
Casey Jayde -Thank you very much for all your support! I hope your doing well. God bless
I've been off for 160 days today.
I'm not depressed, I've never wanted or had the urge to take it again, or any opiates for that matter.
I'm not depressed, but sometimes I just feel blah, especially recently because I got laid off from my job 2 months ago, and I've been going through the process, of getting a new job and training for a pretty stressful job. The stress has just been beating me down, and I think that's a big reason for me feeling the I feel sometimes.
Congrats to you brother from another mother!
I know exactly what you're feeling man, I was off for a year and was feeling that way and I ended up relapsing. Just keep going man you will get through this with the Lord's help. Unfortunately I'm just now quiting once again, on day 3 again.
Andrew Mann -Oh man, I talk to a far amount of people who got anywhere from 6 months to 5 years clean that r now back trying to get off again. But all that matters is your on day 4 now right? Or maybe 3 idk? Anyway, u know the road ahead. U know what must be done to beat this crap and u know u have it in you! God bless you and stay in touch if you’d like.
Andrew Mann Stay disciplined Andrew... I know you can get and stay clean this time... mind over matter! It's a good life. I'm 130+ days clean now and not looking back to that deathly crutch. Just to think about reusing is death to me buddy. I know my family now. I missed out on way too many yrs of worry and just mental anguish of using and everything that goes with it. God Bless you. You've done it before and can kick its ass again - for good this time forever! Take good care.
Congrats and very good job buddy! God has blessed you my freind for what you've done for the rest of us out here and that all that are still hanging in there. I feel kinda the same... I lost count of days about a month ago. But yes thinking about it I'm on day....131 clean and will be one yr soon too. Time does fly. Im down too most of the time but that's normal for me now but it's 100% better than using!! If that makes since. Your. Being Normal buddy that's how we feel being clean now... no crutch!,, and all the other headache crap. God Bless broth life is good!
Tod Harper -Man I’m so happy for you! It’ll be over a year before you know it. And I’ll be over 2 years before I know it. Your support had meant so much to me. You being on here, encouraging, making your presence known, letting folks (and me) your still clean.... all that means so much! God bless you
Congrats Gabe, 1 year is great. Your body and mind have rewired. You and me and people like us will always be addicts and we need to respect that.
DA S -Appreciate all your support man! Thank u!
I was on subs for a little over 2 yrs, I quit in 2019 for a year but then relapsed in 2020 for that year because I met the wrong people and once I took one after being off it for a year, it feels like your first time again and the the hook was set...but for the new year I did tell myself, screw this, I'm done with this crap, I miss feeling normal...(again) so I'm on day 8 no sub today and I'm not looking back, the gabbepentin and marijuana helps alot but it feels like I'm somewhat starting to come out the worse of it, I just can't wait till I hit that 30 day mark because that's when you can begin to sleep normal and feel somewhat normal again but Happy New Year! And best of luck to those trying to quit, you can do it!!! Will Power!!!
Totally agree about the acute w/d symptoms not being as bad compared to life after. Withdrawals was my worst fear for years while on suboxone. My emotions and lack of brain function was very hard for me to cope with after detox from suboxone I wasn’t prepared. I used kratom to help with these symptoms and it did help me get through those symptoms. Almost 5 months later it’s been a journey and yes I’m very very very grateful to be off suboxone and kratom and it has been completely worth it for me. For people contemplating using suboxone long term
Please be aware there are side effects to taking it long term that providers don’t talk about. Just do your research before before thinking long term suboxone is the answer. ❤️
Lab Girl -So proud of you! As I’m reading this it just hit me hard for some reason. I’m seriously so proud! I’m proud that you off Kratom too! This comment of yours is going to help others. It’s inspirational! I’m honored to have you commenting on my channel. God bless you
Seriously Gabe you should consider looking into podcasting You've got the voice and the attitude for it. You may not realize it yourself, but ask the people here that watch and listen to you. Ask them what they think about you doing a podcast, and I think you'll be surprised my friend. I really, really do.
You've got the kind of voice where if someone where searching the dial and stumbled upon you they would say "hey that's Gabe". I'm telling ya dude you've got something special that could have mass appeal on a bigger format for those struggling. I've never taken a suboxone in my life but I still watch your videos, so what does that tell you about your appeal?
Do it bro! Build it and they will come! You could call it "Gabbing with Gabe About Recovery". 😄👍
Jeffrey B -Appreciate that man! Thanks for watching and thanks for your kind words.
what a f nightmare just remembering that stuff....i stopped counting after one year brrrrrrrr i always ask myself who the f was that guy!!
1 year brother! you have that one in your back pocket to reflect on when times get tough. Dont forget how blessed you are man, if you are anything like me, i was knocking on death's door using drugs. Hell man, you have a little one, a purpose greater than yourself.
TropicalFruitLoops -Thats right! I’m blessed beyond what I deserve. I was definitely on my way to an early death. I was extremely fortunate a few times as well. Thank you for your support
Hope you’re doing okay man thinking about you. Looking forward to your next video. I’ve been depressed as all shit recently too. It comes in waves. Stay strong there are people who love you. Find joy in that
Congratulations on a year, that is huge! I have been doing fasting with keto refeeds and semen retention lately and it is almost completely eliminating any Paws.
Bark -Excellent! Whatever helps. It’s amazing how much diet helps. Glad your doing better man.
I lost about 10 pounds coming off Suboxone. Some say the acute withdrawl is pretty bearable and others say it's the worst.. it goes back and forth. You think it's over for a day or two then it comes back full force..
Congratulations on one year that’s actually really awesome!! Xo
Just keep with it dude. Ive been 4 months clean after 10 years and its still rough. Its all about keeping the mind busy for me. Its so hard to find the energy to do things to keep your mind at bay but you just gotta keep going. Keep fighting the good fight. I find suboxone disgusting now and try to turn people away from any type of long term use. This drug is meant for short-term use and works wonderfully as that. We need more focus on solutions rather than bandaids.
My thoughts on the crappy feelings after suboxone is that suboxone works as a painkiller + anti anxiety so our bodies are so used to having sub to help with endorphine, dopamine n serotonin production. Now that the helper(sub) is gone, it takes time for those systems to regulate. The problem is the lack of energy to go work out, or do something similar, that would in turn help with the PAW. Hey man, you keep going strong; Ill keep going strong..... everything will be alright. Just gotta keep moving forward
Methadone or suboxone! Take it at your on risk! Cause I promise it's pure hell to get off! I'm 100 days off methadone, and my whole body hurts, can not sleep,no energy, with bad anxity! Do yourself a favor and don't do it.
Kevin Wrye -Preach it brother!!!
Gabe keep on keepin on make video it shows were not the only crazy ones dealing with paws.
Eric 3085 -Will do my friend! Thank you so much for your support!
🙏☝️🙏✔️ one year down, one day at a time. Congratulations sir 🎉🙏🙏🙏😁
Gabe! Congratulations on your year free from opiates! You are truly an inspiration! Thank you for sharing your experience and allowing us to accompany you on your journey. I pray for you on a nightly basis my friend. God is proud of you Gabe, and so am I. If I could, I would give you a huge embrace. Not only for your victory, but also to let you know I care about you. If your mental health getting to you, and you need to get out of the “RUclips spotlight” for your own sanity, do it! You can’t pour from an empty cup. You have to help yourself before you can help others. I will miss you, and other’s will too, but I want you to succeed just as badly, if not more, than you want us too. James 4:8 “Draw close to God, and he will draw close to you.” If you need time to do that, do it! Matthew 5:3 “Happy are those conscious of their spiritual needs...” I will support you in your efforts, physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. Maybe after this pandemic bull crap is over, we can meet up and get a coffee together. I could use a hiatus myself...... Ok man, I’m rambling on. Last thing, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF GABE MCCALL! (I hope I spelled that right...)
Russell Fultz -Love your comment as always brother! It’ll be interesting how long I actually stay away from RUclips. I have no idea. I could literally make a video tomorrow or nothing in a month? I’m very spur the moment (impulsive) so we will see. I might just let u guys into more insanity with the next chapter of my life? I’d like to make more videos about certain topics and stuff but only when I’m feeling up to it. Draw near to God and God will draw near to you... it’s been the theme for the last few weeks for me. I’m even watching Tim Conway preach a mini series on just that. What’s amazing... I’m still struggling at drawing near to God right now. There is a wall, or iron between us it feels like. Just like getting off this suboxone though... I’ll never give up drawing near to God. It’s a rough season, but whatever God is up to I’m just gonna keep on going. I do need to be obedient though. I have been struggling big time in that department. Keep praying for me. It means so much that u do pray for me regularly. Your support means so much to me as well. I thank you sir! I’d love to have that coffee someday
Congrats on the year bro ❗💯👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍
You’re so far man keep a good attitude you’re my inspiration right now. Thank you for that.
from the heart, brother
always from the heart
Respect!
Man hope everything is still well I am 3 years in its rough I no stay with it
And big CONGRATULATIONS on your 1 year! You are doing a lot better than what you may feel.
Woo goo! Let’s go out to chubby cheese’s...! Oh wait. We can’t 😷🙄😩 but massive congrats! Really. What you did most ppl can’t do. It takes a lot.
Btw I know you think these videos suck and are bad but I see them as what you are truly feeling. The irritability, the depression, the confusion and just feeling hopeless sometimes. It’s very helpful that you are truthful about the various subjects you bring up every video. And thank you for sharing, a lot of people would feel lost because they think they’re the only ones dealing with this and no one understands them and how they feel about everything. Just having that in common brings hope. So thank you for sharing and keeping it real.
musicguy20 -Thanks man. I’m glad I documented everything the way I did. It was hard, I didn’t always want to do it.... but I did it. It’s real, and now I can go back and see my true mental state in these videos years from now. Thanks so much for your support!
Gabe McCall I think it might be therapeutic for people who have addiction problems to record themselves so they really do see who they are and have become. And maybe it will help them change forever and keep them off drugs and stuff? Just an idea ☺️
Props brother, you made it this far and you're gonna keep trudging along, me too. It's so hard to make that final personal decision to jump, but I agree with your advice to others to just get it DONE. If you're ever going to jump, the pain will come... so might as well dive in and get the process rolling before more of your years are lost.
Jon W -Thanks man! I obviously agree 100% with your comment too. That’s really my thinking with getting off suboxone. Appreciate your support
I woke up one day and said I’m done. Had over 100 strips left. Flushed them and dived in. Best decision I’ve made. Fuck that shit. Also didn’t taper down. Looking back I should have oh well
How did you feel jumping off? What my did you take? And how do you feel 3 years later? I’m 3 weeks on subs and I’m ready to taper down I don’t want to be on subs for years or go through paws for years he’ll no!!!!! I hope to hear from you.
@@svtkilr tbh it was fucking hell! Months of feeling bad absolutely no sleep. But I couldn’t go back to living the other way. It was during covid so I wasn’t working that was the good thing.
@@blankwhite6163 damn that’s crazy bro! What were you on prior to getting on subs? How many years were
You on subs and what Mg? How’s your quality of life now 3 years later ?
@@svtkilr I was taking mostly Vicodin but really any type of downer. Except for the real hard shit. I was on I think 5 MG of subs. I wasn’t taking a lot. I was on subs for a couple years. I noticed I got sick very often though. And I would get sick for long periods of time. My life is better I’m not chained to a drug. I can finally face my family without shame. Drop for jobs without worrying. I did a lot of research before jumping off them. What vitamins I need and tips and tricks. I would not recommend cold turkey! You gotta be really sick of this shit and stick to it and wean off them. It’ll be hard at first cuz when I tried weaning body aches got to me and for me I wasn’t strong enough to say no so I had to just cut it off. I wish I never took subs that was just as bad as the pills.
@@svtkilr I also wanna mention I had anxiety and depression way before I got hooked on anything and now I deal with it sober so life is ok. I have a good job and a little family even on hard days it beats being a drug addict… also I’m able to save money now 😂
congrats on the 1 year and as for the rest, at the very least, you're being honest! keep up the good work!
heather xx -Thank you for your support!
Way to freaking go Gabe !!!!!!!!!!! Coming up on 9 months here soon for me .Thank you so much for your videos as always so proud of you 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳
Kristin robertson -Thank you for your continued support! And congrats on 9 months! But seriously, your support means so much! Thank you!
Congratulations on 1 year bud!!
Gabe thank you and your followers for continuing to support me through this it means the world to me.
Congratulations on one year that is truly amazing. You’ve helped so many people through there own journey.
Remember V for victory buddy.
Lab Girl -Thank you as well! Your support means so much to me! Thank you for that
I agree, I'm on over 9 months no subs and STILL going through it. This thing is hard, I didn't sleep at all last night and have to go to work soon, It's one of the worst feelings when you have to be social while kicking subs. I haven't told my boss because I would get a "what's subutex" comment...... This detox sucks
Joe M -Man, being social whole kicking this crap is seriously sooooo hard. I don’t wanna get out of bed half the time. Then go sell stuff and try and get new accounts? F that! Obviously I know and feel your pain. It’ll get better and we will absolutely eradicate this crap from our lives. Keep going my friend.
This was my favorite video
Still clean, April 13th was last dose, and I am getting depressed but I tell myself you been through way more and been on subs way longer than my 3 month suboxone use after a year use of opiate pill abuse. I wish you could be happy for this vid, just the amount of time you use suboxone the harder the transition is back to reality
You don’t have to wake up sick or go through that at least, I remind myself how horrible the withdrawals are, I was on 100 mgs of methadone for 20 on top of other things, I did that cold turkey, well day 25 I thought I might go crazy and took Kratom it helped a lot, I did that for 4 months, I didn’t really even notice when I stopped Kratom all at once, I just couldn’t sleep hardly I just thought it was still from the methadone, it probably was, hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life, I didn’t really feel bad until like day 5, it takes so long
Congratulations on 1 year...i once heard it doesn't get better, it gets different
Hey congrats man!
ok rock -Thank you for your support!
Congratulations! I am one week into recovery, and need some info on how to get though this.....
Tracy Pearson good for you! What’s up?
Gabe McCall I’m done! I been taking suboxone for about two years, and I’m just ready to stop taken them. Everything you said about finding you again is what I ready to do....
Tracy Pearson -It’s a long road but so worth it. Your going to feel again!
Gabe McCall I don’t think about it as far as how long.... I just know I don’t want none of it anymore..... The time has come it’s time for change, and I’m woke....
@@tracypearson4233did you make it off of the subs?
Congratulations on your One Year Clean Time Gabe!!! That is so Awesome! You are an Inspiration to us All!!!♥️
Cindy’s Journey -Thank you Cindy! And I know I always say this but thanks so much for your continued support. It really means a lot. You have been here watching me and I just wanna say thank you from the bottom of my heart. God bless you.
4mnths for me bro and I feel you
Us addict go through depression .guilt.we think answer to happyness is a substance. The days were your withdrawl free are unbelievable.
I take a tiny piece once a month. Because my mental peaks out then I’m good. I think God and I have not been doing well either but this corona bs had made it 3x as hard.
Prototype 176708 -This coronavirus crap is absolutely making stuff harder in my opinion. U know, I can’t tell you how much your support had meant to me through this whole thing. U have been here since the beginning and that seriously means sooooo much! You keep fighting this crap and you will completely eradicate it from your life. God bless you
Gabe McCall thanks brother! It has been so hard and all this political bs and life has just made my addiction look like a just 1 tiny puzzle piece. I don’t deny it but c mon I am a good person and so are you. Life is just so complicated now :/ God bless you too! Things will get better!!!!!
CONGRATULATIONS
Blank White -Thank you very much!
being sober and dealing with life on lifes terms is hard thats why we took drugs in the first place lol.
Are you indulging in IPA's??R you a connoisseur of imports?
-I am a connoisseur of sparkling water. lol... I really am though
Jumped off at 2mg. Sucks for a few weeks but it's nowhere near as bad as heroin or any other opiates. And your mental stability had a whole lot to do with how hard the paws hit you. You were o optimistic in the beginning. Now not so much. Hang in there buddy.
Awesome. I’m 2-1/2 years off subs now and it’s so worth it to break free from that slavery. How long u been off it now?
@@gabemccall3523is bobby still with us is the question now 🥇
Gabe just say “Serenity now!! Serenity now” just joking kinda. Almost two months for me but Congrats on a year man that’s effin awesome for real. 7 months was the longest right? You almost doubled that man! Keep it up Gabe! If getting and staying clean was easy we wouldn’t be overcomers we would be sub users
Ryan Downs Lol! Serenity now!.... insanity later! Nearly 2 months for yourself? That’s awesome brother! I appreciate your support more than you know brother!
hoochie mama? lol
This is exactly why it’s so hard for me to come off this time. The PAWS lasted about 18 months, and it’s brutal. Just knowing what I went through really keeps me from jumping. I just tried a treatment center. They didn’t know what they were doing when it came to Suboxone detox, and I ended up leaving 8 days into it. There were quite a few first timers who kept telling me to be more positive, and just being expected to feel a certain way got to me. One girl, asked me. “ Do you think you may feel better in a day or two?” I just wanted to laugh. It’s a hard program to begin with, but doing 16 hours a day was just too much for me to handle while detoxing. They taper you down to 2 milligrams in 5 days, then get you out of detox. Once in residential, you can’t even get Clonidine. It was all sorts of messed up. I should have known better than to go.
Dude my relapse put me right back in withdrawal, take my advice NOT WORTH IT!
Be careful guys I was 34 days off subs and slipped up and I’m paying the price now
Robert Worton -Hope your doing ok now bro. I just saw your comment.
Good job man ,how long were you on sub?
-6 years total between 2 separate programs. 12 years on opiates/opioids
You may just simply need to take a low dose of a mood stabilizer even if you are low on the bipolar spectrum. Just a thought from hearing u talk about that subject in your family history in other videos.... Praying for God's blessing on you to fully restore your mind 💖
Yay yay 1 year yay!!!!!!😭 WHATS your job what do you do for a living
Thank you! I’m a salesman.
Congrats I can’t wait til that day comes for me
Paper Chasing -U put in the time and it’ll be here before u know it. It’s yours for the taking. Thank you for all your support as well.
How long where you on Subs
Hi Gabe, how long were you on Suboxone for? Thx
Paul Deol I was on it for 4 years this go around. I was addicted to opiates/opioids for about 12 years total.
Hey man how do I get a hold of you?
Evan Anderson -My email address is gabemccall49@gmail.com hit me up anytime and I’ll get back. Sometimes quickly and sometimes it takes me a couple days. But I’ll get back to you
Thanks man I'll be getting a hold of you soon
Drinking game click on a random Gabe video and take a drink every time he says sorry or apologizes
Don't forget about when he says "this sucks" or "this video sucks" lol.
Kcmo 27 -You guys r gonna get trashed! Lol! Unless you drink sparkling water?
Gabe McCall haha, good comment back!!! Oh I'm sorry I apologize, I'm sorry again, I mean apologize. ... that's. Great. U can tell some people r feeling better cause of needing to remind us of our pronunciation and words hahaha! Oh I'm sorry again to Kcmo... I'll go have a drink myself:) not!
Dude this is soberity video lol
One year is a great accomplishment. I think it’s time to consider that you may have some mental health needs separate from your Suboxone withdrawal and opiate use disorder. Please - explore some mental health support in the form of counseling or possible medication - - get closer to God if you will. You may be recording a completely different video a few months down the road.
Jessica Herrling -Thank you very much. I am exploring some other things. I know I definitely have some metal health issues. I never wanted to confront them in the past but I’m definitely gonna now. I got a counselor they have actually told me to go get checked out. Thank u for your support
You don’t laugh sometimes? I haven’t laughed so hard in a long time, the depression does linger for a long time
I'm jumping in may. Sorry for being g negative
I know the place your in, however I’m gonna throw a suggestion .. weightlifting.. if you get great runners high, start lifting weights. Or at home body workouts. Love your videos man and have been inspired by saying atleast TRY TO QUIT!
Joe Cataneo -Appreciate the advice! And I appreciate your kind comment. God bless
Congratulations... This video sucks! Loved it.
Day 12 can’t sleepppppp!!!!!!!!!!
Theres things i havent told u but been illuding too, im gaaayabe. We see lol jk
Tylor Upson -Lol! Dang I wanted it to be a surprise!