✩ asian diaspora and why i like modelling ✩

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  • Опубликовано: 31 дек 2024

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  • @mandyw.8438
    @mandyw.8438 3 года назад +253

    It's very brave of you to be open about your own childhood experience. Emotional talk makes me weak too, but that's because those issues are very near and dear to your own heart. Crying is a part of it, so don't feel ashamed for it. I love your talk about being an Asian diaspora and hope that you do more of those. Being one myself it's refreshing to hear shared issues.

  • @tairaaaO
    @tairaaaO 3 года назад +147

    Yes! I grew up in Australia in a very 'aus' neighbourhood. My mum came from the Phillipines and even went to tafe to learn English to help her get a job. Growing up I felt so out of place due to racism towards myself and my mum. I read your article you did for David Jones years ago about how Australia doesn't use enough Australian born Asian models and I completely agree. I hate how Aus uses the minority groups as a 'token' model, never as the focal point when there is so many communities built upon other cultures. Sorry to get so deep but I completely resonate with how you feel and you are a HUGE inspiration for first gen Asian Australians.

  • @MegaJAK77
    @MegaJAK77 3 года назад +90

    I think layers is a good way to describe yourself. This was a deeper layer and I hope you don't beat yourself up for being so honest and vulnerable. It's weird to have liked someone I see in a fashion magazine and now to learn about you and your interests and your history.....thank you for telling another part of your story.

  • @moirai1161
    @moirai1161 3 года назад +16

    im not a model but i felt ur pain.. especially when you talked about how your parents are unable to communicate their feelings, but at the same time they're trying their best to be good..
    :') same girl, same.. writing does feel easier. you can wallow in silence while pouring everything out at the same time.

  • @melonhanami
    @melonhanami 3 года назад +26

    I had similar struggles growing up, and I feel like the "onion" effect is the best way to describe how that kind of environment molds our personalities. I know how hard it must be to make this video, let alone talk about these things in general with that upbringing. I'm so proud of you and happy that you've been working on yourself. You are a huge inspiration and I wish you all the best!!

  • @Sasha-it2vy
    @Sasha-it2vy 3 года назад +80

    Today i'm relating with onions 😌😌😌

  • @danachiueh
    @danachiueh 3 года назад +8

    Fernanda! I think you would love the poem "Valentine" by Carol Ann Duffy -
    "I give you an onion.
    It is a moon wrapped in brown paper.
    It promises light
    like the careful undressing of love...."

  • @nitehaus5182
    @nitehaus5182 3 года назад +11

    Wow, I was expecting this to be much more lighthearted after your "Modelling is Hard" video, but I am so impressed with what you did here. Thank you for being so vulnerable and allowing us to see you as a whole person. Love you!

  • @twentyfivecents
    @twentyfivecents 2 года назад +1

    this was very brave of you to share your story. Your feelings are very relatable (I saw the list of issues and I have every one of them-). Growing up wasn’t a cake walk for me either and oftentimes the most hardworking people who are just trying to provide for their family - are the most overlooked, and disrespected citizens of their country. I hope that your career lasts even longer and that you stay prosperous. 💕🙏🏽

  • @ginnayyyy
    @ginnayyyy 3 года назад +4

    tyy for being vulnerable and sharing your story
    i'm also 1st gen and have also developed many mental health issues due to mental health stigma in the asian population (and like you mentioned....just parents not having the ability to talk about FEELINGS lol) i'm trying to process and let go multitude years of resentment...built up anger, etc..
    you are so humble and you deserve all the success and praise! common traits that i see in people that have been through so much struggle and hardship is the development of empathy, compassion, and resiliency.

  • @HigurashiMeow
    @HigurashiMeow 3 года назад +63

    Would be interesting for you to interact with Soo Joo Park. She studied Architecture in university too. The both of you are my favorite models - intelligent, cool and persistent. (◍•ᴗ•◍)✧*。
    Thank you Fernanda for taking the courage and graciousness to open up some parts of your life to us.

    • @FERNTUBEFernandaLy
      @FERNTUBEFernandaLy  3 года назад +39

      I've worked with Soojoo a few times actually! I think our age gap makes me a bit shy to open up to her more and we have different friend groups haha

  • @CeCe1066
    @CeCe1066 3 года назад +3

    It’s refreshing and very comforting to hear other stories of the Asian diaspora. Even though I’m Asian American, it’s crazy and honestly very sad to hear similar experiences from Asian Australians and other immigrant Asians. I too experience a lot of anxiety, have a very difficult time being open and vulnerable with my emotions, and I cry ALL THE TIME. I’m still trying to figure out all the “layers” of my personality and who I really am, and the one thing I’ve learned is to push myself out of my comfort zone and gain more independence.

  • @TalkingCheeseBurgerr
    @TalkingCheeseBurgerr 3 года назад +2

    You almost made me cry seeing that...there are certain things you want express but you hold back and I understood it. I understood why...I could feel the shame you feel expressing such vulnerable emotions. Its extremely tough to open up about a tough childhood especially to so many strangers on the internet but I don't think you should feel bad or ashamed because there are people, like me, who knows almost exactly how you feel. Much love and I hope we can both find our way to a healing point.

  • @myraaar
    @myraaar 3 года назад +8

    😭 I totally get the Asian diaspora you're talking about. Thank you for sharing about your mental health and your story about your family. You should definitely be so proud of yourself and I enjoy these vids you're making!!

  • @julia6424
    @julia6424 3 года назад +4

    when u mentioned meeting asian friends i remember you and yuka 😔💖 (you two are one of my fav models) its nice and brave of you to share your experiences and feelings about asian diaspora and modelling knowing that you might touch upon sensitive and personal topics aaa thank you for this video i love u 🌷

  • @0miraaa
    @0miraaa 3 года назад +1

    I got so emotional watching this as I can relate so much, but as a non-asian minority. thank you for sharing this and opening up to us! always loved the fashion-related content you share, and, now came across this topic - your channel and what you do is amazing.

  • @kaitan7583
    @kaitan7583 9 месяцев назад

    Thank you for your vulnerability and sharing your Asian Aussie experiences growing up. I totally relate. We have so much to share with the world of our migrant experiences which we are seeing more and more now.
    Do you also do any acting? You got a great look and your heart really shines through in your stories.

  • @reirap1815
    @reirap1815 3 года назад +1

    These talks feel so comfortable and warm. Idk, you give off such an honest and warm vibe. Even though it’s the first video I’ve watched from you, I feel very safe in this space!

  • @nomnomcupcakes
    @nomnomcupcakes 3 года назад +35

    wow there was so much insight in this video. YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH FERNANDA T..T I want to buy you soy milk or something hahaha
    Also, I cant believe it has been 16 episodes! Your video editing skills have become so immaculate! Watching your videos the past months have made quarantine more bearable. Thank you for all of your time, and effort in making these wonderfully thought out videos. (:

  • @louiseteomusic9428
    @louiseteomusic9428 3 года назад +1

    This is a beautiful video, would have been so difficult to share. Really admire you Fernanda, I can relate as a first generation Asian- Aus from Melbourne. Very best wishes to you for everything ❤

  • @anvy2000
    @anvy2000 3 года назад +3

    Thank you for this video

  • @nicole-sy6ch
    @nicole-sy6ch 3 года назад +1

    How brave u are for speaking about your feelings! I grew up in a family not open to this kind of talk too and at some point i recognized how detrimental this was and got into a LOT of arguments with everyone in my family because they were giving me a hard time for expressing and confronting feelings in myself and in them too that they might not have recognized in the first place had i not forced them to raise it up. A lot of tears were shed but i believe it was all worth it! Now we're more patient, and communicative and accepting of each other!

    • @FERNTUBEFernandaLy
      @FERNTUBEFernandaLy  3 года назад +1

      Oh the amount of shouting and crying I've done at home lol....
      I'm so proud of you for being able to make the first move - that's such a difficult thing to do.

  • @thatblueguy_
    @thatblueguy_ 3 года назад +3

    Hey I just wanted to say thanks for sharing your story. You a huge inspiration for all us 1st Gen Aussie out there.

    • @FERNTUBEFernandaLy
      @FERNTUBEFernandaLy  3 года назад +2

      I'm shy, but so happy to know other people relate to me!

  • @ruthieprayitno1569
    @ruthieprayitno1569 3 года назад

    fernanda i just want to tell you that i know your situation too well because i am myself a first generation american coming from a traditional background whose parents had to work very hard. i get the feeling that you love them but at the same time can't express yourself bcs their mindset is so different. i'm so proud that you can still provide for them even if you guys had miscommunication. you inspire me and hopefully some day i can do the same \(^_^)/

  • @MsKayeko
    @MsKayeko 3 года назад +1

    i think most immigrants can relate to you, i definitely can. i wish nothing but happiness for you! 💞 it’s really brave to open up about these topics. love u forever.💓

  • @nskfsr
    @nskfsr 3 года назад

    I really understand you. I and my family also refugees in Turkey. Being immigrant child is such big wreck to mental health. You're so brave to share your experience. I love you and appreciate your effort to provide money to your family.

  • @yanglu2592
    @yanglu2592 3 года назад +2

    I love ur style. Loads of love from China.😻

  • @julianeito
    @julianeito 3 года назад +8

    I'm from a 2nd generation japanese immigrant family from Brazil, and I went through similar things... like when i was growing up, people keep asking ~where are you from?~, when i was too young to know i didn't understand what they meant and i'd say ~i'm brazilian~ and when i was older i realized why they were asking... lol so i did grow up feeling a sense of alienation and inadequacy (tried hard to fit in a lot growing up), i was lucky to know good friends throughout my life though...
    I guess being from an immigrant family is more or less similar no matter where you're from, because the western/asian cultures are just so different and clashing in some aspects... lol as you said you're like an onion, a friend once said it to me, too.. i guess it comes from growing up in a family with such a different culture from your envinronment and such... you kinda have to struggle to try to fit in with the outside world and also inside your own family... lol
    Btw, i like this video and these more deep reflections you bring in, so many go through similar things and might relate to.. haha good job! btw you're so brave for speaking up!!!

    • @FERNTUBEFernandaLy
      @FERNTUBEFernandaLy  3 года назад +10

      bUt WHeRe aRe yOU rEAlLy fRoM?? I hate hearing that so much!
      I feel very similar in that most of my school friends were Vietnamese, but I wasn't Vietnamese enough despite my parents also being from there. There was a time when I thought I was half Chinese, half Vietnamese because my parents didn't really explain their roots lol
      It's very comforting to know other people experienced the same thing even if it's also a little sad that... we.. experienced the same thing.

  • @houkiboshi2128
    @houkiboshi2128 3 года назад

    Fernanda is so sweet, I've always admire you, you are amazing!

  • @kaylaxxx9658
    @kaylaxxx9658 3 года назад

    After I watched all your videos, I just wanna tell you that you are so amazing! I just stepped into the modeling industry for only half a year, I already feel that modeling is not what people think is an easy job. Your personality is really helping you to shine in this world:D All your experience makes me feel like I am not alone in this industry...for the last one thing, I will always support you!

  • @gracejuice
    @gracejuice 3 года назад

    i love the contrast between your outfit from last video and this one! the black vs white top is so cute

  • @kina1073
    @kina1073 3 года назад +1

    Thank you so much for sharing your story! As a first generation Asian American whose parents were also from Saigon, I could relate to your story a lot...it’s also super interesting to hear how modeling has a positive impact in your life! So thank you again for being vulnerable and sharing your story! It takes a lot to do that 🖤

  • @anemone7726
    @anemone7726 3 года назад +3

    Thank you for opening up and talking about your struggles. It must've taken so much for you to do that. As a long time follower of yours, I'm always so proud of your achievements and I'm cheering for you all the time. You're an amazing person, you just seem so likeable and genuinely kind so I can wish you nothing but more and more success in the future 💞

  • @moriahkirk1991
    @moriahkirk1991 3 года назад +1

    I love u so much! Thank you for opening up. We don’t know each other but you seem like such a nice genuine beautiful soul.

  • @pectoral1227
    @pectoral1227 3 года назад +2

    thank you fernanda

  • @fayeteg7807
    @fayeteg7807 3 года назад

    As someone who moved from a place where Asian was the majority, to a place where that's not the case, I relate to some things you've described. I'm glad you've made it! Being able to give back to parents is really heartwarming.

  • @simoji
    @simoji 3 года назад +3

    I can understand you. it's really hard that what you through.I hope you will always be happy on your future life❤️

  • @youtsubaboushi
    @youtsubaboushi 3 года назад +2

    Glad to hear you talking about more serious issues in these modeling-related videos!! I'm happy to hear you have found help

  • @felipe-dm6gb
    @felipe-dm6gb 3 года назад +1

    girl thank you so much for the subtitles

  • @janni1169
    @janni1169 3 года назад +19

    I think lots of people with immigrant parents can relate to the fact that most of our parents are very traditional and close minded so much so that asking for help or even needing help with your mental state in the first place is considered wrong and is always just ignored. Lots of people including myself have gotten used to their parents saying “you shouldn’t be feeling anything” and “you should be grateful for all you have because I gave everything up for you”. As a kid you’re not allowed to feel anything out of the “norm” because it’s immediately considered “bad” and all of a sudden having feelings and mental struggles makes you “crazy.” It’s so sad how something so normal can be frowned upon so much. There is definitely a stigma around depression anxiety and most mental illnesses especially when you come from different cultures and struggle being understood. No one has a completely perfect life everyone goes through rough patches. Being able to get out of a bad place is always going to be a struggle even if others have bigger problems than you, your problems are always going to be important. I’m so glad you were able to over come the obstacles in-front of you and are in a better place in your life now I know you will help inspire many people to find themselves and they’re happiness.

  • @MsBadGateway
    @MsBadGateway 3 года назад

    I came to your channel by accident and now I'm binge watching all of your videos, you're an amazing person!

  • @ClaireLow
    @ClaireLow 3 года назад

    Awww you can provide for your family the life they deserve with your modelling 💖💖

  • @Sarahqiu
    @Sarahqiu 3 года назад

    Thank you for baring your heart Fernanda ❤️ I can definitely relate to the struggles of self-identity. I know Brian and Amanda are so proud of you, even if they don’t always vocalise it. It’s really hard to bare open our hearts with our parents. But I’ve had some breakthroughs (both positive and negative) with my parents recently. I reckon our 20s are the time of big changes so I really hope you can continue to connect with them (even if it’s not always the ideal way we wish for). And I’m so glad you’ve had the opportunity to grow through modelling. Keep doing what you do, cus it’s amazing 💕

    • @user-bi3tb4sh7k
      @user-bi3tb4sh7k 3 года назад

      Hey! Just looking out but it might be best to keep names private especially if you know them personally. The internet is a scary place

  • @AliceKamiya
    @AliceKamiya 3 года назад +2

    It's interesting to hear you talk about that. I guess like most Asian kids I also share same concerns but strangely when I was younger I found it hard to be friends with other Asian kids? 🤔 I was a banana (white washed Asian) but most of the Asian kids in my neighborhood were 'more Asian' than me? So it was really hard for me to be friends with them but at the same time I wasn't white enough to be friends with the other kids? But thankfully as I grew up and meet more people, I madr friends who has a similar 'background' as I do.

  • @moida_official
    @moida_official 3 года назад

    Happy there's no dislike in this video. Nice people only.😭💖

  • @vice155
    @vice155 3 года назад +1

    thank you for opening up about yourself and your story, this is extremely valuable and brave, sending u light

  • @ziwenguan5095
    @ziwenguan5095 3 года назад

    The little thing in front of your subtitles is soooo cute!

  • @meys6310
    @meys6310 3 года назад +1

    you’re so beautiful inside and out and your videos really calm me! ^-^ Keep well 💕

  • @haniehz
    @haniehz 3 года назад

    I am so glad to hear your story luv and I wish you success p.s: I feel emotional every time I think about my problems and hardships, but I want to say don't be ashamed for it🤗

  • @odddesire
    @odddesire 3 года назад +2

    thank you for this video, I'm sure it wasn't easy to open up
    sending you lots of love and all the best for the future!

  • @thequeertelope7941
    @thequeertelope7941 3 года назад

    your hair looks so cool

  • @dalgonamilk
    @dalgonamilk 3 года назад

    so unrelated to this video (which is great btw) but i love your haircut a lot

  • @jimjim674
    @jimjim674 3 года назад +1

    love fernanda !! thanks traditional chinese sub.

  • @elenabulau3370
    @elenabulau3370 3 года назад

    Your makeup is so amazing in this video, wow

  • @jessicac3002
    @jessicac3002 3 года назад

    For the first time I feel seen. Thank you. Sending you lots of love and virtual hugs! 💖

  • @Chocobi._._.
    @Chocobi._._. 3 года назад +1

    I love you I love you I love you
    Important things have to be said thrice

  • @ei4567
    @ei4567 3 года назад +2

    First gen korean in America- I empathize with you 💘 thanks for sharing. you have always been an inspiration to me, showing me that Asian is always beautiful and defeating western culture (white) beauty standards. Thank you again

  • @Carlos-ln8fd
    @Carlos-ln8fd 3 года назад

    Thanks so much for sharing.

  • @marla0412
    @marla0412 3 года назад +1

    i love u fern

  • @OlivyaNora
    @OlivyaNora 3 года назад +3

    i love you :) ♥

  • @alfredosanchezmartinez9964
    @alfredosanchezmartinez9964 3 года назад

    You are really tender, you are a kid yet.💗

  • @anthonynguyen5855
    @anthonynguyen5855 3 года назад

    Wow amazing timing haha, I just started binging your RUclips content again to catch up on the vids! Speak of the devil 🤔

  • @aa4992
    @aa4992 3 года назад

    Love you 💚

  • @budhachandrayumkhaibam6079
    @budhachandrayumkhaibam6079 3 года назад

    0 dislikes; balanced as all things should be

  • @danielr8566
    @danielr8566 3 года назад

    Hello! Could you share what the background music is? It's beautiful. Thank you.

    • @FERNTUBEFernandaLy
      @FERNTUBEFernandaLy  3 года назад

      Journey by Tim Schaufert (thmatc.co/?l=676052EA)! I always link the music in the description box too in case there's others you're curious about 🤠

    • @danielr8566
      @danielr8566 3 года назад

      @@FERNTUBEFernandaLy Thanks so much! Hello from Toronto btw!

  • @laylag5562
    @laylag5562 3 года назад

    please do a make up video!!!♡♥︎

  • @noelleoconnor7582
    @noelleoconnor7582 3 года назад

  • @bevCh
    @bevCh 3 года назад +2

    Love u onion

  • @JL-nb3hd
    @JL-nb3hd 3 года назад +4

    Oh wow! So your parents were chinese living in vietnam? Do you know the history of it, like when and who was the first person in your family tree to come to vietnam? (I love anything history related). It's also comforting to know we share similar struggles and that it's possible to overcome >

    • @FERNTUBEFernandaLy
      @FERNTUBEFernandaLy  3 года назад +5

      My grandparents on both sides escaped the war in Guangdong somewhere and moved to Vietnam! It's a sensitive topic for my family so I haven't been able to hear the details of it.

  • @Eyedinn
    @Eyedinn 3 года назад

    I like you walk runway louis vuitton and pink hair

  • @quocdang5468
    @quocdang5468 3 года назад

    i'm from Vietnam and i guess your name called /liː/
    count days to watch your vlog, wish u always be happy :^b

  • @Jjangbunbun
    @Jjangbunbun 3 года назад

    What editing program do u use? Haha impressed

  • @winterbear5134
    @winterbear5134 3 года назад +1

    That onion thing... :D
    Shrek : NO! Layers. Onions have layers. Ogres have layers... You get it? We both have layers
    Donkey: Oh, you both have LAYERS. Oh. You know, not everybody like onions. CAKE! Everybody loves cake! Cakes have layers!

  • @あ村めいめい
    @あ村めいめい 3 года назад

    あぁー大好きだ😭

  • @-peachymons-3336
    @-peachymons-3336 3 года назад

    OMG YOU ARE VIETNAMESE??? OMGGGG

  • @avaleung424
    @avaleung424 3 года назад

    I want ur lip color omg

  • @9On9yue
    @9On9yue 3 года назад

    Hi there! Only commenting because you put a question mark after the Chinese term, but I wonder if you actually meant 偷渡,or smuggling in Chinese..or I could be completely wrong don’t mind me!!

  • @정호연-b6d
    @정호연-b6d 3 года назад

    I’m a man, but it’s nice to have a similar nose shape to me.

  • @oga9933
    @oga9933 3 года назад

    今日も可愛い🌟

  • @Ana-ml7sk
    @Ana-ml7sk 3 года назад +1

    Fernanda is a spanish name im confused

    • @FERNTUBEFernandaLy
      @FERNTUBEFernandaLy  3 года назад +2

      It's my real name! My brother has a Spanish name as well lol

    • @Ana-ml7sk
      @Ana-ml7sk 3 года назад +1

      @@FERNTUBEFernandaLy oh then is really cool that your name is in spanish im mexican! SENDING A VIRTUAL HUG FROM MEXICO!🌸

  • @lux_xzymhr
    @lux_xzymhr 3 года назад

    ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

  • @fu-ten.tora.tora.tora.senpai
    @fu-ten.tora.tora.tora.senpai 3 года назад

    😍

  • @vamp2791
    @vamp2791 3 года назад

    🥰

  • @issyogaii03
    @issyogaii03 3 года назад

    姫カットかわいい🌼

  • @nicolelamorritxdarkx6803
    @nicolelamorritxdarkx6803 3 года назад

    Te acabo de conocer y ya te amo

  • @christinalee7611
    @christinalee7611 3 года назад

  • @yehaleung3511
    @yehaleung3511 3 года назад +11

    Blessed seal providing comfort