Maybe all the people who feel the same should team up ? We might just be weird enough that it is just normal :) I find it in fact really hard to get to know people. I have so many things that interrest me and actually motivates me but not finding people who support that is a real shame because not getting any feedback at all sucks up most of the energy. (just my experience)
Im starting in 10th grade after the summer, in a new school. I really hope that im gonna meet someone with the same interests as me. Not having any goth friends makes me feel like i am missing out on sooo much fun...
Katrine Kaersvang well even if you don't. Find people that accept you and enjoy that you have different tastes than them. Maybe you will open a whole new genre/subculture up to someone.
Thank you for sharing your heartbreak. When I was 16 I saw this guy and thought he's the one... yeah dramatic. We cared for each other but eventually drifted apart. I was so crushed. 16 years later, I still think of him now and then. He had a kick ass name too, Sterling.
That was really beautiful even though it had a painful ending. He sounded like an awesome person. Sidenote, your stories are really eye-opening. And they also make me realize that the people who had the best teenage years were teens in the 90s 😂 Our era is terrible, lemme tell you.
We felt everything. No phones to use as buffers. I'm guilty of that today. When I feel anxious or bored, I'm on my phone. Back then we were each others entertainment, muses, confidants, sources of information. You had to work to make a connection and it wasn't as easy as sending out a text or posting a status. You called their house or physically had to go there so things were more meaningful. Davey lived in Port Jefferson which was a good 25-30 minutes from my house in Ronkonkoma at the time and our friends drove so over the course of an entire summer we probably only physically saw each other no more than 10 times at most.
+Angela Benedict Awww... There is really nothing more beautiful when it comes to building friendships - when people actually communicate and put effort into becoming closer and showing appreciation for each other. I am happy you lived that, and I feel for you when you did not. Throughout high school, let's say 80% of my communication with friends was through technology, because really that is what everybody wanted. "Hanging out" was rare. But gladly I have a couple of good memories. Not gonna lie, I love technology, but whenever I go out, I want to talk to people... And instead everybody decides to be on their phones 😂 There was a time at a school trip where everybody was on their phones during dinner. Our teacher took a picture and it was hilarious 😂 Also, thank you for taking the time to reply to my comment, it means a lot to me. I have been watching your videos a lot ever since I found your channel and you are a really adventurous and kind personality! Thank you for teaching me about the gothic subculture as well! Your videos have helped a lot!💜👑
Aaaa why can't we have these kind of things now? I live in a deadbeat town where my older cousin and I are the only goths...clubs are hours away...guess I'll just cry listening to the cure XD
Wow. The passion, the feeling, the general emotion and joy you felt was intense. Like really intense. I know it hurt bad in the end, losing something so rare and unique always does, but considering how you felt about it when it was happening, this is one of those times where it was better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.
You speak so beautifully. This made me cry. It's such a sad story. It's insane to me that you did all of that at 16! It sounds like a movie haha. The most exciting thing I did at 16 was probably watch the new sponge bob episode or something like that 😂😂
I remember being in 7th grade in 2004 when 311 released their version of Lovesong and I loved it. The channel called Fuse played it all the time and once I searched it online and found the original version. That google search opened up a whole new world for me lol
I have to thank you for all these stories! I have a book I'm writing called Black Rabbit that's about a mystery surrounding a goth club, and you really are my biggest source of inspiration for that
Awe man, you're bringing so much shit back for me here! The pre-club jitters (ya guys get 'em too!), the walk-in, the social butterflying, the smoking, the losing yourself on the dance floor, feeling like you're home and this is your tribe, the butterflies in your chest when the new hottie caught your eye and HELD IT! Post-club cawfee and a smoke or ten hehehe. Ahhhh.
Your storytelling is so engaging. It brings me right back to my suburban goth youth and all the feelings that came with it. I love hearing stories other goths who stay connected to their past!
A couple of minutes in i remembered watching this the first upload but i love the story so much I stayed anyway. It makes me long for all of it even though i feel too old to have it. I'm 23 but like half of my high school friends are married with children and a dramatic teen movie romance feels so past my day.
Joyce Adams, dude you're super young. It doesn't have to be quite as dramatic being that you might be able to actually visit your beloved. If you go to a club you might actually find new friends who enjoy similar things as you, and maybe that one girl/boy who drives you insanely happy! Good luck!
Joyce Adams I thought I was the only one that felt too old to enjoy pretty much anything, especially romance! Responsibilities pretty much killed my hope for a worry-free social life or romance. Going to each others' apartments does not feel the same as going to the movies and sharing a soda. It just lost all its fun after 18, am now about to turn 21
VenusLullaby. it feels like we just grew up too fast. and meeting someone at a concert or party then having fun doing everything we could rather then just always being at each others apartments feels kind of high school
Joyce Adams Where I live 23 year old are considered almost like kids. 99% of them live with their parents and don't even think of having kids lol actually even many 30-35 year old women live with their parents and it's considered perfectly normal here.
@@angelabenedict BTW "lovesong" and "how soon is now" are two of my favorite songs, they just capture so much emotion I can just imagine how much they mean to you I also associate music with situations in my life as well
I understand that feeling. There's a love I had some years ago for 3 months and still to this day it seems perfect and affects me. here's hoping he may pop up again for you if you'd like it ♥
You really are a great storyteller. It made me think of past moments in my life, where I also associate music with the memories. I could definitely, completely get how you felt. Thank you for sharing! I was always more on the outskirts of the goth "community" in high school. I'm disabled, and was one of only two in the whole school. So I already felt like I stuck out hard core. I didn't want someone from a group I admired to think I was "playing" a role. But I definitely felt the connection. I graduated in '94 and immediately started going to clubs that played some of the music. Sadly, where I grew up in NW Florida, there just wasn't much. We'd have "goth night" or "80s night" at a mainstream club, but that was it. But it was SOMETHING. And all the clubs were at least "18 to party, 21 to drink". So when I graduated from high school, I felt my wings spread in a big way.
Thank you :) I'm happy to hear that you were finally able to be yourself. I use to live in SW Florida from 89-94 and can definitely attest to the fact that there was nothing going on. All we had were born again Christians, fields, teen pregnancies and neighbors calling police out of sheer boredom.
I really loved listening to this story you shared.. I love how you still smile when you talk about him. We all have that one someone who got away its bittersweet. Also its sounds awesome to be a teen in the 90s.
I just wanted to say thank you so much for making these videos. As a goth loner I can't tell you how cathartic and enjoyable these storytime videos of yours are. I've never had any goth friends but I love hearing others' stories about their experiences. If you ever write a book about your experiences I would gladly purchase it, keep up the good work!
I watched the video Angela. The video brought back memories to me. I went to my first club when I was 21. I met beautiful wonderful people there. In different ways I did experience a broken heart. The pain was unbearable. I want to thank you for sharing a very heart warming story. As for myself, I find the best medicine to any broken heart is kindness of beautiful words spoken to someone. Have a beautiful day or evening.
People tend to have the wrong idea about Goths. Goths are not afraid to love and love harder. No matter how long or short. Thank you for sharing your story. Your love was really. Your story about The Smiths How Soon is Now is what The Cure Pictures of You is to me and my high school love. Thanks for sharing.
Loving someone from a completely different world and to make the decision to break up because it wont never really works, oh yes, I know what this means. But if the time, which you had with this guy, was so much memorable than it feels like a piece of yourself is dying or went with him. Good to know that others also have stories like that.🖤
Old video made new, again. I do love this story! I have gone back and re-watched the original a time or two. Haha no more digging through old videos :) Thank you for the share.
I miss the 90's. Going to industrial/goth clubs and hanging out with friends was the best. 20 years later I am a grandfather and my long black hair is now short and salt and pepper but I still feel the same inside. weird how that happens. Oh, and by the way How Soon Is Now is also inextricably connected to someone I once loved very very much.
Your story time videos make me so happy yet so depressed; because I don't have any real friends. I don't have a group to hang out. Hell, my relationship with my boyfriend is going to shit, too. I feel so alone. I feel as if there are no real places to meet teens my age anymore... I don't meet anyone new in school, and I don't have social media. Without those.. I'm cut off from everyone.
I loved this. Nostalgic and heartbreaking, felt like I was reading a novel and so desperately want to find out what happens next. Sigh. These goth boys will never know what they put us through haha🖤
How I met my boyfriend was very similar to you and Davey. I’d seen him before but we met officially on Halloween night, at a party, and were instantly drawn to each other, talking about music the whole time. I’d never met anyone else who was as passionate about it. He kissed me for the first time, quite dramatically in the dark, on New Year’s Eve. I remember watching this video when I was a bit younger and yearning for something like this. It’s strange watching it now, knowing I’ve found that thing I used to daydream about. We left university yesterday and he moved back to his home town, hours away from me. I know it’s not forever, but I miss him dearly.
This is so cute the way you talk about things like this. Hence the subscribe for all around. Reminds me when I saw my first crush at a Metallica concert. He was up on stage though.
I hang out with the 30 and 40 year old Goths at my local club! Some are even in their 60's Goths forever!!! We had My Life in the Thrill Kill Kult play here this summer! I remember getting excited about music too like that!
I'm not goth. Nor know too much about it. But I love your videos. Especially the ones about Magick. You keep it interesting and don't act so fake. Thanks for being awesome.
Wow, I'm glad that my late night episode of insomnia lasted longer than usual. This story hit my feels like a ton of bricks, especially about repeating the kiss like a record that fills everything around you with that fast and intense rush of euphoria like nothing else. This reminds me so much of a girl I got involved with who(finally) told me she was married-after I was already reeled in the ocean too far to save, of course. A failed relationship is a lot like a death-the person you lost may still be alive, but that magical aura you longed for, in that particular moment in time, is gone forever. Fuck, I'm about to cry. 😫 #LateNightThoughts #WhenItHitsTooClose
Angela : I just discovered your tube last night . I am not really into goth although I think black clothes look cool . Since discovering your posts last night , I find that the thing I really enjoy about listening to your blogs are your stories . You are a master storyteller ; you have an instant instinct of knowing what to tell & what to skip-----you should write a novel . Seriously . I hope you meet an amazing man someday . Vic
I was 19 then, the music I listened to non stop was higher love by DM (not very goth but yeh!). I was dating a goth guy a bit younger. I wasn't so goth but I was dressed in black all the damn time, like a Cure kind of style. It was so in love, and so scared as well. Thank you for reminding me of those good times =)
Awesome story! Remembering that, after work, around 9ish pm Fridays, I would get dress up in the lunch room bathroom. Then head out to find buy some Barlow & James six pack wine coolers. Drive around a neighborhood by the Club. Head out quick before cover charge at 10pm And be nice and buzz by 11pm to start dancing.... Miss the 90s at our Alternative Dance club venue.
this story brought me back to a summer ...it was august he was a skater and i was the most confused child ever ,we used to talk for hours,we staid up all night just to talk to each other .. it didn't lasted long but it felt real ,it felt like my own 80s movie, i remember that i used to listen to the song nothing gonna stop us now by starhip ...it was good time ,and i havent felt this way for somebody since .
He lives in Manhattan. We've spoken on and off throughout the years online and a few times over the phone but haven't physically seen each other since.
lol for me it wasn't the club where my (mostly) Goth music listening life began but my cousin's friend's house. She was a hardcore metal head that also listened to Goth, I was a bit of a more melancholic child who heavily listened to grunge, hip hip/rnb, oldies, & anything 80's at the time. When I get to that studio (room with bathroom and kitchen) Ohhohohoh, it was a craze of emotions! I see at least 12 alternative/Gothic looking young women and men between the ages of 19 (me) and 25! It was awkward but amazing at the same time! OK if you've seen dirty dancing, think baby when she helps the guy take the water melons lol. everyone is either dancing, smoking some funny trees, or in deep conversations. My cousin goes straight to the guy who invited her, which was her ex boyfriend and I'm there just standing not knowing what to do lol. A guy finally approaches me, (thankgoodness) and I had someone to talk to all night lol. Oh sweet sweet memories! Thanks for reminding me of my first night of discovering what I was Angela!
I FUCKIN LOVED this story!!! out here in L.A. back in 98/99 when I finally was old enough to get into clubs, Clockwork Orange out in Hollywood was the place to go. they had 3 rooms, an industrial room, a goth room, and the huge 80s/new wave room. Every time I hear How Soon Is Now? it takes me back to those days when I had met my first girlfriend and everything was new and exciting .
The Smiths are my favourite band, always will be. Those songs were my life growing up in the 80's. Such a lovely story, sad how it ended. I envy those young love days. A really good kiss meant everything and kept you floating on air all week until your next meet up. Love Song is a lot of couples "song" I would imagine, it is just perfect. I think I may have seen a similar video to this before? Bonus points for Lords Of The New Church too 😋
We reconnected on a site called LiveJournal in 2003, lost touch and then again on FB about a year or so ago. He moved back to the general area after college but we never saw each other since. Even though we don't live that far from one another.
Yea, it's always hard to really "reconnect" with someone in that situation, but kinda cool to see where they are in life. See if they've changed over the years. Some people never change, and others are hardly recognizable.
Hi Angela, I loved listening to your story. Thank you very much for sharing it. I was just curious, have you ever spoke to him recently, and if not would you ever speak to him now?
Holy shit these are so interesting to watch because I’m from Long Island and literally live 10 minutes from stony brook. I went to rocky Point but am currently living in Miller place. I love hearing about all this. Are these places still around??
Ah man. Just wanna hug ya. Wish I could give you my shoulder. I wonder if you ever gave us bad boys a chance, like the ruff and muscular type that were into beer runs, The Misfits, The Exploited, Black Flag, you know, stage diving, ripped jeans, and black Chucks?
I would not have left you for uni. A chance at love the way you describe is profoundly rare, even rarer with someone as beautiful as you. I miss my goth years.
I was born in this year and I swear you look the same age as me, I really need to upgrade my skincare routine or something lol 😅 You look beautiful ma’am and I love your energy 🖤🖤🖤
I love this story. I was born in '92 and wish I had been born sooner haha. Do you ever see Davey anymore? If he came back, do you think it would be the same?
We're friends on Facebook. I spoke to him just before making this video. it was the first time we had a phone conversation in many years and we kind of reminisced on how fun things were back then.
Thank you. I had an influx of a really large amount recently and I'm being asked a lot of questions covered in previous videos in the comments to my new videos. I figured a re-upload of older videos would help answer some questions.
My favorite besides pretty in pink which I've seen 100 times was, Say anything. And of course my friends and I all were obsessed with dirty dancing and Grease. My group of girls and a few guys would drive around and sometimes go to clubs underage, raves, then we would end up at the diners smoking cigarettes and drinking coffee until very late in the evening sometimes, late into the next day. It's kind of funny, I have been acting and have done a little print work in my 20s. I actually was in a little Hollywood movie called Rave on. I played a psychedelic drugged out dancer.lol
I felt heartbroken many guys & gals , I wasn't out and didn't had confidence than now I been out and confidence now days dating is not as important today's world. I wish could back in the 90s .
smoking and drinking coffee in a diner damn south park didn't joke around
It's shocking how accurately those goth kids are depicted.
could u watch my vids and help me
William Graham I was a goth kid in Ohio and it was the same.
William Graham "punks they keep telling me how they are going to over throw the system, but they keep drinking beer and smelling like cigs"
I WAS THINKING THE SAME THING
Heart break. The unfortunate side effect of the Goth life. We love hard and hurt harder. 😭
Legit crying here
yes but it's messed up when a Goth breaks a goths heart =(
You tell the best stories. You should write a book! I know it'd be a bestseller!
Something about temporary love makes it so poetic. Like I know you’ll leave me but it doesn’t even matter as long as you love me now..💔🖤
Your words just gave me chills.
makes me wish I had friends lol
Why don't you have friends?
Makes sense. You'll find your social circle :)
Maybe all the people who feel the same should team up ? We might just be weird enough that it is just normal :) I find it in fact really hard to get to know people. I have so many things that interrest me and actually motivates me but not finding people who support that is a real shame because not getting any feedback at all sucks up most of the energy. (just my experience)
Same I can't make friends because nobody seems to like me...
friendships are getting shallower and shallower :// or well, I guess people are*
everytime I watch her videos I wanna go to the 90s😅😅 the modern goth scene is more uptight than my Catholic highschool
People are older now in their 30s/40s/50s but they are the same and still look youthful.
Im starting in 10th grade after the summer, in a new school. I really hope that im gonna meet someone with the same interests as me. Not having any goth friends makes me feel like i am missing out on sooo much fun...
Katrine Kaersvang well even if you don't. Find people that accept you and enjoy that you have different tastes than them. Maybe you will open a whole new genre/subculture up to someone.
Elizabeth C yeah, that would actually be awsome.
dude I know how you feel but think about it as a chance to "recruit" more people to our wonderful subculture
Thank you for sharing your heartbreak. When I was 16 I saw this guy and thought he's the one... yeah dramatic. We cared for each other but eventually drifted apart. I was so crushed. 16 years later, I still think of him now and then. He had a kick ass name too, Sterling.
This is such a cute story >.
I'm happy you liked it!
you still look heartbroken over him 😭 go find him!!!! go to himmm!!!
🤣🤣🤣 I don't think her husband would like that.
You're a great storyteller
I wanna hear all your stories...so I can see into your innards
.... was that intentionally dark, or was this a mere poor selection of words?
Uh, the first one...sounds better I guess
shes sexy af
That doesn't sound creepy at all. lol
@SehenaFalconi: I've been told that I'm *endearingly* creepy.
Kinda like Karloff but sexier....;-j
That was really beautiful even though it had a painful ending. He sounded like an awesome person.
Sidenote, your stories are really eye-opening.
And they also make me realize that the people who had the best teenage years were teens in the 90s 😂 Our era is terrible, lemme tell you.
We felt everything. No phones to use as buffers. I'm guilty of that today. When I feel anxious or bored, I'm on my phone. Back then we were each others entertainment, muses, confidants, sources of information. You had to work to make a connection and it wasn't as easy as sending out a text or posting a status. You called their house or physically had to go there so things were more meaningful. Davey lived in Port Jefferson which was a good 25-30 minutes from my house in Ronkonkoma at the time and our friends drove so over the course of an entire summer we probably only physically saw each other no more than 10 times at most.
+Angela Benedict Awww... There is really nothing more beautiful when it comes to building friendships - when people actually communicate and put effort into becoming closer and showing appreciation for each other. I am happy you lived that, and I feel for you when you did not.
Throughout high school, let's say 80% of my communication with friends was through technology, because really that is what everybody wanted. "Hanging out" was rare. But gladly I have a couple of good memories. Not gonna lie, I love technology, but whenever I go out, I want to talk to people... And instead everybody decides to be on their phones 😂 There was a time at a school trip where everybody was on their phones during dinner. Our teacher took a picture and it was hilarious 😂
Also, thank you for taking the time to reply to my comment, it means a lot to me. I have been watching your videos a lot ever since I found your channel and you are a really adventurous and kind personality! Thank you for teaching me about the gothic subculture as well! Your videos have helped a lot!💜👑
Aaaa why can't we have these kind of things now? I live in a deadbeat town where my older cousin and I are the only goths...clubs are hours away...guess I'll just cry listening to the cure XD
Awww I miss those years. Just driving around feeling like they would never end. Everything so intense. Best times ever.
Wow. The passion, the feeling, the general emotion and joy you felt was intense. Like really intense. I know it hurt bad in the end, losing something so rare and unique always does, but considering how you felt about it when it was happening, this is one of those times where it was better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.
You speak so beautifully. This made me cry. It's such a sad story. It's insane to me that you did all of that at 16! It sounds like a movie haha. The most exciting thing I did at 16 was probably watch the new sponge bob episode or something like that 😂😂
I remember being in 7th grade in 2004 when 311 released their version of Lovesong and I loved it. The channel called Fuse played it all the time and once I searched it online and found the original version. That google search opened up a whole new world for me lol
I have to thank you for all these stories! I have a book I'm writing called Black Rabbit that's about a mystery surrounding a goth club, and you really are my biggest source of inspiration for that
That sounds like a really interesting book! I'd love to read it :)
Awe man, you're bringing so much shit back for me here! The pre-club jitters (ya guys get 'em too!), the walk-in, the social butterflying, the smoking, the losing yourself on the dance floor, feeling like you're home and this is your tribe, the butterflies in your chest when the new hottie caught your eye and HELD IT! Post-club cawfee and a smoke or ten hehehe. Ahhhh.
Your storytelling is so engaging. It brings me right back to my suburban goth youth and all the feelings that came with it. I love hearing stories other goths who stay connected to their past!
i love watching ur videos bc it’s like a fun goth sleepover where we talk about boys and music omggg
A couple of minutes in i remembered watching this the first upload but i love the story so much I stayed anyway. It makes me long for all of it even though i feel too old to have it. I'm 23 but like half of my high school friends are married with children and a dramatic teen movie romance feels so past my day.
Joyce Adams, dude you're super young. It doesn't have to be quite as dramatic being that you might be able to actually visit your beloved. If you go to a club you might actually find new friends who enjoy similar things as you, and maybe that one girl/boy who drives you insanely happy! Good luck!
Joyce Adams I thought I was the only one that felt too old to enjoy pretty much anything, especially romance! Responsibilities pretty much killed my hope for a worry-free social life or romance. Going to each others' apartments does not feel the same as going to the movies and sharing a soda. It just lost all its fun after 18, am now about to turn 21
VenusLullaby. it feels like we just grew up too fast. and meeting someone at a concert or party then having fun doing everything we could rather then just always being at each others apartments feels kind of high school
Joyce Adams Where I live 23 year old are considered almost like kids. 99% of them live with their parents and don't even think of having kids lol actually even many 30-35 year old women live with their parents and it's considered perfectly normal here.
You are such a good storyteller. I hope you write a memoir or several - I would definitely buy and read them!
You are one of the best storytellers ever. This should be a movie. Thank you.
Hmm, I wonder if we can make that happen.
@@angelabenedict BTW "lovesong" and "how soon is now" are two of my favorite songs, they just capture so much emotion I can just imagine how much they mean to you I also associate music with situations in my life as well
I understand that feeling. There's a love I had some years ago for 3 months and still to this day it seems perfect and affects me. here's hoping he may pop up again for you if you'd like it ♥
I also tie all my memories with certain songs I listened to over the years.
You really are a great storyteller. It made me think of past moments in my life, where I also associate music with the memories. I could definitely, completely get how you felt. Thank you for sharing! I was always more on the outskirts of the goth "community" in high school. I'm disabled, and was one of only two in the whole school. So I already felt like I stuck out hard core. I didn't want someone from a group I admired to think I was "playing" a role. But I definitely felt the connection. I graduated in '94 and immediately started going to clubs that played some of the music. Sadly, where I grew up in NW Florida, there just wasn't much. We'd have "goth night" or "80s night" at a mainstream club, but that was it. But it was SOMETHING. And all the clubs were at least "18 to party, 21 to drink". So when I graduated from high school, I felt my wings spread in a big way.
Thank you :) I'm happy to hear that you were finally able to be yourself. I use to live in SW Florida from 89-94 and can definitely attest to the fact that there was nothing going on. All we had were born again Christians, fields, teen pregnancies and neighbors calling police out of sheer boredom.
Thank you, Angela. That was touching, and so poignant that I doubt I could even watch it again.
I really loved listening to this story you shared.. I love how you still smile when you talk about him. We all have that one someone who got away its bittersweet. Also its sounds awesome to be a teen in the 90s.
I just wanted to say thank you so much for making these videos. As a goth loner I can't tell you how cathartic and enjoyable these storytime videos of yours are. I've never had any goth friends but I love hearing others' stories about their experiences. If you ever write a book about your experiences I would gladly purchase it, keep up the good work!
I watched the video Angela. The video brought back memories to me. I went to my first club when I was 21. I met beautiful wonderful people there. In different ways I did experience a broken heart. The pain was unbearable. I want to thank you for sharing a very heart warming story. As for myself, I find the best medicine to any broken heart is kindness of beautiful words spoken to someone. Have a beautiful day or evening.
People tend to have the wrong idea about Goths. Goths are not afraid to love and love harder. No matter how long or short. Thank you for sharing your story. Your love was really.
Your story about The Smiths How Soon is Now is what The Cure Pictures of You is to me and my high school love.
Thanks for sharing.
This video hits so close to home for me. Who knew these heart strings could still be plucked...
You're such an amazing story teller I still think about your stories days after watching your videos
Loving someone from a completely different world and to make the decision to break up because it wont never really works, oh yes, I know what this means. But if the time, which you had with this guy, was so much memorable than it feels like a piece of yourself is dying or went with him. Good to know that others also have stories like that.🖤
This is my first time hearing this story from you I'm fucking crying :((
Aw, I'm sorry!
This is an ageless love story that I think everyone relates to at one point in their life.
that was so incredibly heart-felt and emotional. thank you for sharing that
Such a cute story!
IT'S ANGEL NIGHTMARE!!!!!
Angel! :D
Old video made new, again. I do love this story! I have gone back and re-watched the original a time or two. Haha no more digging through old videos :) Thank you for the share.
I miss the 90's. Going to industrial/goth clubs and hanging out with friends was the best. 20 years later I am a grandfather and my long black hair is now short and salt and pepper but I still feel the same inside. weird how that happens. Oh, and by the way How Soon Is Now is also inextricably connected to someone I once loved very very much.
Your story time videos make me so happy yet so depressed; because I don't have any real friends. I don't have a group to hang out. Hell, my relationship with my boyfriend is going to shit, too. I feel so alone. I feel as if there are no real places to meet teens my age anymore... I don't meet anyone new in school, and I don't have social media. Without those.. I'm cut off from everyone.
I loved this. Nostalgic and heartbreaking, felt like I was reading a novel and so desperately want to find out what happens next. Sigh. These goth boys will never know what they put us through haha🖤
damn the end of this got me crying in the club :,)
Favorite video by you ever these personal stories are great and the smiths "how soon is now" is one of my favorites!
How I met my boyfriend was very similar to you and Davey. I’d seen him before but we met officially on Halloween night, at a party, and were instantly drawn to each other, talking about music the whole time. I’d never met anyone else who was as passionate about it. He kissed me for the first time, quite dramatically in the dark, on New Year’s Eve. I remember watching this video when I was a bit younger and yearning for something like this. It’s strange watching it now, knowing I’ve found that thing I used to daydream about. We left university yesterday and he moved back to his home town, hours away from me. I know it’s not forever, but I miss him dearly.
This is so cute the way you talk about things like this. Hence the subscribe for all around.
Reminds me when I saw my first crush at a Metallica concert.
He was up on stage though.
Haha!! I'm so sorry, I didin't mean to laugh but that was an unexpected twist lol.
I hang out with the 30 and 40 year old Goths at my local club! Some are even in their 60's Goths forever!!! We had My Life in the Thrill Kill Kult play here this summer! I remember getting excited about music too like that!
I'm not goth. Nor know too much about it. But I love your videos. Especially the ones about Magick. You keep it interesting and don't act so fake. Thanks for being awesome.
Wow, I'm glad that my late night episode of insomnia lasted longer than usual. This story hit my feels like a ton of bricks, especially about repeating the kiss like a record that fills everything around you with that fast and intense rush of euphoria like nothing else. This reminds me so much of a girl I got involved with who(finally) told me she was married-after I was already reeled in the ocean too far to save, of course. A failed relationship is a lot like a death-the person you lost may still be alive, but that magical aura you longed for, in that particular moment in time, is gone forever. Fuck, I'm about to cry. 😫 #LateNightThoughts #WhenItHitsTooClose
I was a junior in HS in '96. I was deep into metal, Manson and Typo O Negative. Still am!!
I am a sucker for 80's style love stories. This got me so bad.
This story so cute, yet sad cause it takes me back
I was born in 1996
I was DJing at Goth Clubs in 1996 :-)
I met my wife in '96 :-)
I wasn't even planned in 1996
Angela that was so touching and I loved your story.
Angela : I just discovered your tube last night . I am not really into goth
although I think black clothes look cool . Since discovering your posts last night , I find that the thing I really enjoy about listening to your blogs are your stories . You are a master storyteller ; you have an instant instinct of knowing what to tell & what to skip-----you should write a novel . Seriously . I hope you meet an amazing man someday . Vic
I was 19 then, the music I listened to non stop was higher love by DM (not very goth but yeh!). I was dating a goth guy a bit younger. I wasn't so goth but I was dressed in black all the damn time, like a Cure kind of style. It was so in love, and so scared as well.
Thank you for reminding me of those good times =)
How soon is now has a special place in my heart as well. Thank you for sharing
You sold your soul for rock and roll *evil laugh* Now your only fear is growing old....
Great song :-)
Awesome story! Remembering that, after work, around 9ish pm Fridays, I would get dress up in the lunch room bathroom. Then head out to find buy some Barlow & James six pack wine coolers. Drive around a neighborhood by the Club. Head out quick before cover charge at 10pm And be nice and buzz by 11pm to start dancing.... Miss the 90s at our Alternative Dance club venue.
Awe, this is a beautiful story.
Thank you for sharing. 💜💔
awwww I love your stories, this one soo much xx
this story brought me back to a summer ...it was august he was a skater and i was the most confused child ever ,we used to talk for hours,we staid up all night just to talk to each other .. it didn't lasted long but it felt real ,it felt like my own 80s movie, i remember that i used to listen to the song nothing gonna stop us now by starhip ...it was good time ,and i havent felt this way for somebody since .
Had to watch this twice. Gotta admit, it made me tear a little. Whatever happened to that guy Davey?
He lives in Manhattan. We've spoken on and off throughout the years online and a few times over the phone but haven't physically seen each other since.
lol for me it wasn't the club where my (mostly) Goth music listening life began but my cousin's friend's house. She was a hardcore metal head that also listened to Goth, I was a bit of a more melancholic child who heavily listened to grunge, hip hip/rnb, oldies, & anything 80's at the time. When I get to that studio (room with bathroom and kitchen) Ohhohohoh, it was a craze of emotions! I see at least 12 alternative/Gothic looking young women and men between the ages of 19 (me) and 25! It was awkward but amazing at the same time! OK if you've seen dirty dancing, think baby when she helps the guy take the water melons lol. everyone is either dancing, smoking some funny trees, or in deep conversations. My cousin goes straight to the guy who invited her, which was her ex boyfriend and I'm there just standing not knowing what to do lol. A guy finally approaches me, (thankgoodness) and I had someone to talk to all night lol. Oh sweet sweet memories! Thanks for reminding me of my first night of discovering what I was Angela!
I FUCKIN LOVED this story!!!
out here in L.A. back in 98/99 when I finally was old enough to get into clubs, Clockwork Orange out in Hollywood was the place to go. they had 3 rooms, an industrial room, a goth room, and the huge 80s/new wave room. Every time I hear How Soon Is Now? it takes me back to those days when I had met my first girlfriend and everything was new and exciting .
The Smiths are my favourite band, always will be. Those songs were my life growing up in the 80's. Such a lovely story, sad how it ended. I envy those young love days. A really good kiss meant everything and kept you floating on air all week until your next meet up. Love Song is a lot of couples "song" I would imagine, it is just perfect. I think I may have seen a similar video to this before? Bonus points for Lords Of The New Church too 😋
You're a captivating storyteller!
ya... CHARMED introduced me to HOW SOON IS NOW (The Smiths)
You always rock, Miss Angela
I was also 16 years old in 1996... that was a damn good time to be a teenager, especially with the music scene
Right! It really was the perfect time to be that age
You tell a good story girl. Sorry to about your loss.
I feel this but with weezers only in dreams. Love your videos btw
Great story. Have you every reconnected with him? Find him on social media? It's strangely interesting to look back at the loves of our youth.
We reconnected on a site called LiveJournal in 2003, lost touch and then again on FB about a year or so ago. He moved back to the general area after college but we never saw each other since. Even though we don't live that far from one another.
Yea, it's always hard to really "reconnect" with someone in that situation, but kinda cool to see where they are in life. See if they've changed over the years. Some people never change, and others are hardly recognizable.
Hi Angela,
I loved listening to your story. Thank you very much for sharing it. I was just curious, have you ever spoke to him recently, and if not would you ever speak to him now?
I haven't seen him since I was a teenager despite us both living in NY. We've actually have spoken online and on the phone as well.
Such a nice wee story!
This actually got me to cry towards the end
Holy shit these are so interesting to watch because I’m from Long Island and literally live 10 minutes from stony brook. I went to rocky Point but am currently living in Miller place. I love hearing about all this. Are these places still around??
This would make for an interesting romantic movie tbh.
Btw: Shout out to you from someone who also grew up in Long Island!
Fellow Long Islander!
Can we get more story time from your teen days 🖤
My latest video is 🖤
I'm so sorry 😢💔 you are the best
I like your storys.
I wish I had a nice goth love story like that.
Do you have a video on your skin care regimen? You look amazing!
i hope he can find someone who loves him as much as you loved him
Ah man. Just wanna hug ya. Wish I could give you my shoulder. I wonder if you ever gave us bad boys a chance, like the ruff and muscular type that were into beer runs, The Misfits, The Exploited, Black Flag, you know, stage diving, ripped jeans, and black Chucks?
I'm from the Sayville area. You look familiar. Hell yeah, local youtubers!
Nice! I'm in Bohemia, that's a walk from Sayville.
it feels like I've
have seen this video before
I would not have left you for uni. A chance at love the way you describe is profoundly rare, even rarer with someone as beautiful as you. I miss my goth years.
Ah, the summer of 1996. I got back together with my ex. Love it!
I was born in this year and I swear you look the same age as me, I really need to upgrade my skincare routine or something lol 😅 You look beautiful ma’am and I love your energy 🖤🖤🖤
Technically, Davey and I could have been your parents!
I love this story. I was born in '92 and wish I had been born sooner haha. Do you ever see Davey anymore? If he came back, do you think it would be the same?
We're friends on Facebook. I spoke to him just before making this video. it was the first time we had a phone conversation in many years and we kind of reminisced on how fun things were back then.
@@angelabenedict That's awesome! The old friendships and relationships are always so special.
I wish i had friends to hangout with lol
Wow that is so sad! Like I get that out are happy and married to Stewart now but I still feel really bad for you old self that lost Davy...
Where is the shirt from? I love it !!
Thank you! It's actually a vintage dress. You can see the find in one of my thrift store hauls.
nice story..but was it a repeat?
Thank you. I had an influx of a really large amount recently and I'm being asked a lot of questions covered in previous videos in the comments to my new videos. I figured a re-upload of older videos would help answer some questions.
I thought this story sounded very familiar... I was planning to ask the same question if I didn't see an answer to it in the comments :-)
My favorite besides pretty in pink which I've seen 100 times was, Say anything.
And of course my friends and I all were obsessed with dirty dancing and Grease. My group of girls and a few guys would drive around and sometimes go to clubs underage, raves, then we would end up at the diners smoking cigarettes and drinking coffee until very late in the evening sometimes, late into the next day. It's kind of funny, I have been acting and have done a little print work in my 20s. I actually was in a little Hollywood movie called Rave on. I played a psychedelic drugged out dancer.lol
I felt heartbroken many guys & gals , I wasn't out and didn't had confidence than now I been out and confidence now days dating is not as important today's world. I wish could back in the 90s .
Oh god. I have the tingles and it’s fucking intense.
Angela, have you heard The broken bottles song, Gothic Chicks ?