I understand Francis. I can relate to your words, and situations. I glad you are able to express and share. Im in solitude. I rarely leave this apt. I've destroyed my life in so many ways.. i lost everything i had, and my job, friends, relationship. Caused serious mental illnesses, and physical as well. Depression is so debilitating... i struggle to stay alive. I have suicidal thoughts alot, and always ruminate on my mistakes I've made, that's destroyed me. I appreciate you're rants, pls don't look at yourself as weak because of complaining. I do it too..! It's how we feel.. Thanks Francis ✨️
i too was a stutterer actualy i think we have alot in common because i also used to be at the edge of society and rather kept myself locked away than engage in social activities wearing black 24/7 idk why but at some point in my mid twenties i snapped and became a bitch everyone laughed about and i started to accept it - i became a weak stuttering guy who was not realy stuttering but it was enough to be seen as awkward. i accepted the fact i was a outsider and i accepted that i was weird and i tried to actively hide it and the best way i could do it was laughing and smiling at every shit someone gave me (that i mean with becomming a bitch) because i couldnt actualy handle the situations.. smiling became a mechanism to mask my uncertainty suddenly i became popular LOL the stuttering slowly faded away and now i have meetups with people almost every day... i run a small discord group with friends from along the country and we also meet RL ever once in a while it is to the point it is to much for me to handle and i rather want to be locked away again but i just dont allow it even if i grave it but this also created massive problems because people did shit on me all the time so i slowly started to grow balls and actively talk back in a way that would net me respect this process im in rn and it confuses alot of old friends because they dont know me like im now which causes a bit of problems aswell they say "i changed" and i try to find a balanced way to tell them "im not your gover anymore but please dont cancel the friendship" TLDR; just be who you are.. if you stop beeing who you are you will create other problems that need to be fixed i my case i think why the stuttering went away was because i felt so worthless and lost my face that i thought others didnt have any expectation of me anymore so i actualy stopped caring which ultimately ended the stuttering (its so ironic)
If you ever feel like you need someone to talk to, hit me up here. I'll respond to your messages. It seems like you're going through a lot. I can't do much for you, but I can listen if you're feeling alone.
Life is pain, make that pain your calling to all past you's who pushed to make it this far. This is our time. One day that will change but don't put that burden on you. Past and regret. Future is worry. right now is only moment you truely have be happy. live for this moment, because it will pass. Fight for that happiness because it is not cheap. Enjoy the small things life gives you. It could ALWAYS be worse. ALWAYS. We all make mistakes. This journey was literally made for you so keep taking the punches, we are 4 billion years into the movie of life and we aren't stopping soon, so be your superstar, love what you can give to the world and yourself. You deserve it man❤ New moments, new changes. Past is past, no change, only thing to do is learn. live with inspiration and love rather than fear and regret. I am another you from alaska❤ standing with you out here. Together we are strong❤
You seem super intelligent, you'll do well in life it's just rough at the moment. I was trapped in the cycle of poverty for awhile. So I was like I'm going to start building websites again and doing web dev work, the only thing that has ever paid me well (at times.) It took me a few months of 4-5 interviews and rejections a week before I found a good job and I had pretty much given up when I did. Now I have money but life is still pointless and boring.
@@Francis_UD well look at it this way, I think the average IQ in the USA is like 70 lol... so even at a 100 you still have a nice edge over the general populace.
Please don't kill yourself, you said that you are gonna jump in front of a train, that sounds painful man. I do watch your videos and i always liked your honesty. I still remember you being my 7th subscriber on my channel.
Here I am again, watching your video, empathising with you, feeling sorry for what you had to go through, while also looking at my life being similar... I have no words to describe the serendipitous nature of reality. A random set of events lead to a random set of outcomes, this includes genetic disorders like Trisomy 21 and whatnot. Just a simple mistake in cell division in reproduction can literally lead to a human being born with a lifetime of painful and pathetic existence. They suffer and suffer like a dog that cries for its life due to starvation, for a simple mistake none of their parents made, it just happens out of nowhere. Though one can argue in that area in certain ways. I think the only inspiration is the Holy Bible, brother. It is the only source of truth because it is the word of God. KJV all the way! I hope your condition improves, if not I pray to God for providing strength for you! Your videos really help me by reminding the stupidity of life that is.
I understand Francis. I can relate to your words, and situations. I glad you are able to express and share. Im in solitude. I rarely leave this apt. I've destroyed my life in so many ways.. i lost everything i had, and my job, friends, relationship. Caused serious mental illnesses, and physical as well. Depression is so debilitating... i struggle to stay alive. I have suicidal thoughts alot, and always ruminate on my mistakes I've made, that's destroyed me. I appreciate you're rants, pls don't look at yourself as weak because of complaining. I do it too..! It's how we feel..
Thanks Francis ✨️
Your channel is pure gold.. thanks for sharing your ideas.. they are helpful
I'm too flattered. Just a random netizen with some grumpy attitude.
You’re a legend man, so honest. I feel the same things as you brother. All I can say is I’m right here with you
i too was a stutterer actualy i think we have alot in common because i also used to be at the edge of society and rather kept myself locked away than engage in social activities wearing black 24/7
idk why but at some point in my mid twenties i snapped and became a bitch everyone laughed about and i started to accept it - i became a weak stuttering guy who was not realy stuttering but it was enough to be seen as awkward. i accepted the fact i was a outsider and i accepted that i was weird and i tried to actively hide it and the best way i could do it was laughing and smiling at every shit someone gave me (that i mean with becomming a bitch) because i couldnt actualy handle the situations.. smiling became a mechanism to mask my uncertainty
suddenly i became popular LOL
the stuttering slowly faded away and now i have meetups with people almost every day... i run a small discord group with friends from along the country and we also meet RL ever once in a while it is to the point it is to much for me to handle and i rather want to be locked away again but i just dont allow it even if i grave it
but this also created massive problems because people did shit on me all the time
so i slowly started to grow balls and actively talk back in a way that would net me respect
this process im in rn and it confuses alot of old friends because they dont know me like im now which causes a bit of problems aswell they say "i changed" and i try to find a balanced way to tell them "im not your gover anymore but please dont cancel the friendship"
TLDR;
just be who you are.. if you stop beeing who you are you will create other problems that need to be fixed
i my case i think why the stuttering went away was because i felt so worthless and lost my face that i thought others didnt have any expectation of me anymore so i actualy stopped caring which ultimately ended the stuttering (its so ironic)
I feel lost too in this shitty lifestyle I was forced to experience
Completely understandable & relatable. Doing so much learning so much yet still overeducated & underpaid. Jibai sh*t life indeed..
If you ever feel like you need someone to talk to, hit me up here. I'll respond to your messages. It seems like you're going through a lot. I can't do much for you, but I can listen if you're feeling alone.
Hey man, you got some time?
@@Haadi42 I'm at work so I'll probably be slow to respond for the next few hours, but yeah man, what's up?
Life is pain, make that pain your calling to all past you's who pushed to make it this far. This is our time. One day that will change but don't put that burden on you. Past and regret. Future is worry. right now is only moment you truely have be happy. live for this moment, because it will pass.
Fight for that happiness because it is not cheap. Enjoy the small things life gives you. It could ALWAYS be worse. ALWAYS.
We all make mistakes. This journey was literally made for you so keep taking the punches, we are 4 billion years into the movie of life and we aren't stopping soon, so be your superstar, love what you can give to the world and yourself.
You deserve it man❤
New moments, new changes.
Past is past, no change, only thing to do is learn.
live with inspiration and love rather than fear and regret.
I am another you from alaska❤ standing with you out here. Together we are strong❤
You seem super intelligent, you'll do well in life it's just rough at the moment. I was trapped in the cycle of poverty for awhile. So I was like I'm going to start building websites again and doing web dev work, the only thing that has ever paid me well (at times.) It took me a few months of 4-5 interviews and rejections a week before I found a good job and I had pretty much given up when I did. Now I have money but life is still pointless and boring.
bro the human condition means the altimate boss in all things is the giant fundament of all humanity
I'm too flattered man. I don't suppose I have a high level of iq, Maybe just over 100. Quite a normie.
@@Francis_UD well look at it this way, I think the average IQ in the USA is like 70 lol... so even at a 100 you still have a nice edge over the general populace.
Please don't kill yourself, you said that you are gonna jump in front of a train, that sounds painful man. I do watch your videos and i always liked your honesty. I still remember you being my 7th subscriber on my channel.
Will try my best not to.. there's no 100% guarantee though.
@@Francis_UD your right! 👍
Turn up volume
Here I am again, watching your video, empathising with you, feeling sorry for what you had to go through, while also looking at my life being similar...
I have no words to describe the serendipitous nature of reality. A random set of events lead to a random set of outcomes, this includes genetic disorders like Trisomy 21 and whatnot.
Just a simple mistake in cell division in reproduction can literally lead to a human being born with a lifetime of painful and pathetic existence. They suffer and suffer like a dog that cries for its life due to starvation, for a simple mistake none of their parents made, it just happens out of nowhere. Though one can argue in that area in certain ways.
I think the only inspiration is the Holy Bible, brother. It is the only source of truth because it is the word of God. KJV all the way! I hope your condition improves, if not I pray to God for providing strength for you!
Your videos really help me by reminding the stupidity of life that is.
Born too early to have gene modification to fix all the health issues
There’s no point
同感っす。ヽ(；▽；)ノ
gerardo get a job....