Check out Benjamin Tod on instagram, @benjamintodmusic. We're slowly getting our catalog of field recordings on Spotify - follow us on there. open.spotify.com/artist/7t78CwAbQIA6DKAKUKBYgl?si=tfpp2IA4QNq5wYqr6Jfw4w
I am so grateful you are adding these to Spotify, I've always wished you would so I can easily listen to them in the car on the long drive to work. Just followed you on there. Please add the "The Mountain" rendition by Benjamin Tod to the Spotify page as soon as you get the time. (It's a pain playing youtube videos while driving, especially in a stick). Thank you so much for all that you do.
Please upload all of these sets onto Spotify! I, along with 99% of your listeners prefer your live spontaneous recordings versus studio recordings. Much more raw and beautiful. I feel like we’ve all been waiting for this moment. Thank you!!
I'm from Rockcastle county Kentucky .....I achieved 2 yrs sober yesterday and I'd like for Ben to know he's been a major part of my sobriety .....you can move mountains with your lyrics brother keep it up and I thank you sir
@@zachbradley9464 from interviews I've seen with him he definitely doesn't seem like the type to do it any other way than his own. Its part of what makes him special. Maybe Ashley Mae's way every now and again though 😂
My son became an addict after going through Hurricane Katrina. Then he was diagnosed with lung cancer in his 20's which they wouldn't treat until he got clean. He's been clean and cancer free for 6 years now and recently married a wonderful lady. Keep hope alive.
40 years old, wife and kids asleep inside, me enjoying my morning smoke and coffee, sobbing like a baby. This man is special. I'm sorry and thankful for everything I've ever done. Ben puts that feeling in words. Every. Damn. Time.
It sure hit my front door son you got what it takes I wish I had away to get your address I wrote a litte song I been honor if you would take a look at it I ture beliveyou are one to sing it
@@RaymondThompson-rz4hj his name is Jeremy, I miss him everyday.. I became a widow at 29 years of age.. He took his life while under the influence.. He called me at 4:01am crying telling me he loves me so much over & over.. I just wish he loved himself. I wish I could take his place at the very least. The cops didn’t take my pleading seriously.. they were 5 hours too late getting to him 💔 I don’t want to be here without the love of my life, we were supposed to die hand in hand 50 years from now.. nobody deserves to die alone thinking death is their only way out. He was so perfect, he’s now become the entire sky when i look at it. I am patiently awaiting my time to make it home to the spirit world so I can feel his warm embrace. I simply am not here anymore, whatever spark I had within me, he took it with him, on that horrifying nightmare of a day that my life has now become 💔 I’m going on for the sake of our children, trying to be the best mother I can be. I never knew this level of pain existed. I hope I can make him proud but I can’t even leave bed without him.. He was my absolute everything.. My soulmate, the love of my life.. If they ever invent a Time Machine, I know the first place I’m going. I just miss my bestfriend 😢 I don’t want this life or even to be in this world if he’s not in it.. but our boy/girl twins are all I have left of their amazing heavenly father, he exists now only in my memories, and in my heart. He showed me Benjamin Tod a month before he died right after I saved him from another suicide attempt. Now his music and interviews are all I listen to. My beloved husband.. why did you leave our beautiful family. I’m so lost he was always home to me.. I just want to go home💔 kisâkihitin nînapem.. which means I love you my husband, nîya osâw pîyesîw, my Golden Thunderbird, his spirit name which was given to him during a sweatlodge ceremony, we are so spiritually connected I got my name osâw pîyesîw iskwêw or Golden Thunderbird Woman, as Indigenous Cree people this is a very sacred moment for us, and we got it 4 days before our wedding.. On august 4th, 2018. We have 4 matching tattoos, one of which is eachothers initial on our ring finger because it’s believed that vein leads straight to one’s heart. 💜 I feel him everywhere.. and I want to go home to my husband, if I didn’t have our children I’d be buried beside him right now.. If you knew him you’d understand how magical he is.. heart of pure gold. Our wedding video got quite a lot of new views after he passed away.. you can find it on Facebook quite easily or it’s on my IG: paige.ashliegh if you’re interested.. My 6’5” beautifully gorgeous husband.. inside & out. A smile so contagious.. that I’ll never see again. I slept beside his casket when it was time to bury the love of my life.. I never thought I’d have to kiss his cold lips goodbye.. But as he always said it’s never goodbye, it’s see you later 💜 please Creator wrap nothing but love around my husband.. wherever he is I pray he’s found peace 💜🪶 my baby love.. My gentle giant😢💜 I wish this was a nightmare I could wake up from.. Be kind & hold those you love close, because you just never know.. 💔 I’d give my life for him.. I’d take his place in a heartbeat if possible.. there’s no words to describe this type of pain. One relapse after almost a decade long of being clean off drugs & he’s gone from me & my children’s life forever. I’m sorry for the long comment.. I just have no one, no parents, no siblings.. I only had him & now our twins. I don’t know how to go on without him, I can’t accept the fact that he’s gone.. So I won’t, it’ll be like we just went awhile without seeing each other 🕊️💜 I can’t wait for that day.. I’m not scared of death.. I’m scared of not living my life without him.. and until it’s my turn, I don’t know if I’ll ever be happy again.. Time doesn’t heal all wounds.. that is a lie people tell themselves.. and it might work for some but it doesn’t work for me.. depression is no joke & now that I’ve reached his level of depression I understand why he felt the need to leave this realm. 🕊️😢💜
This song has changed my life. Been fighting alcohol for years. Living like a tramp. Hopping trains/hitching. Close to a month sober. Thank you Benjamin.
I was cleaning out a box tonight and found a folder of recipes from my daddy, who passed away in 2009. He struggled with depression and alcoholism, which ran in the family. The recipes must've come from the period after he got sober and ran a soup kitchen because they start like "16 cups pinto beans". He talked about measuring the water for rice by how far it came up his arm when he stuck it in the giant stockpot. That was the happiest I ever saw him. I'm grateful that he stayed sober and kept trying to help people, even though it got hard at times. He is much missed.
Who woulda thunk ben went from hitchin rides on freight trains, to drivin a deisel on his own chunk of land?! You deserve it man ! Congrats on your growth. Now thats outlaw.
Funny I was thinking the same thing, I went through nearly the same exact thing. I was a piece of shit junkie back in Portland, I was a real wretch. I cleaned my shit up and moved to the mountains of Bonner, MT 3 years back. I own my own business now, I drive a cummins, and this land has redeemed my soul. I started listening to Ben so so long ago, it’s interesting the parallels, he can say what I don’t even have the ability to articulate.
@@drue6360 I feel hopeless but I'm not a junky, I have habits and vices but not in the condition you described yourself in, if I stay away from alcohol I'm fine, issue is , well a lot of issues but my child support I pay, even with decent paying jobs there's really no way to support myself independently after the state gets its cut. I never was a social one so those old friends aren't around to bunk with. I'm married now and trying to save it but she has unaddressed mental health issues and I can't fix her without her wanting to fix herself. It's becoming very unhealthy for us and not to sound selfish but it is really taking its toll on me. If I decide I can't take it anymore then that puts me homeless, I could eat, shower I suppose and make it with a safe place to park. I'm so frustrated, I feel like I'm getting screwed out of my chance, I'm almost there , I've been wanting a sawmill and do firewood on the side with that, and I'm like right there and it's being snatched out from under me because I can't get her to address her issues and try to get better. I'm about to turn 40 and it has been up and down for better part of 15 years for me now and I thought I was on the uphill swing! I was sure she was the one, a supporter and stable, I've known her since highschool, I'm learning you don't really know know someone until you are with the 24/7 . I'm just rambling, I always want to hear how someone made it and see if there is something in their story I can use. I feel like time is running out and I keep losing chances. I worry about everything, I'm worried about her, the future, homelessness again for me. At what point do say homelessness in the winter is better than dealing with your current situation. You can always start over but I'm tired, tired of starting over
@@ericbest9562 You're 39, so much life ahead of you. I left a marriage in my late 30's (twenty-some years later we're still good friends, but the change was the right course to take). I'm not saying you should do the same, just that your comment reached my heart and I'm sending a prayer for peace and finding your way forward. Reach out to a local mental health agency to get support for your wife and to talk with someone who has resources and new ideas - shared housing maybe? You mention health and you sound like you have a lot going well, good work and dreams. Things do change, often for the better if we stay focused and honest with each other.
My brother took his life recently, the first verse of this song absolutely broke me. I feel like we were both in the same boat; starting new jobs, providing for our families and struggling to be there for our people when they needed us. I knew he had has his demons, we talked about it, but I’m sitting here four days removed just barely making it. I’m going to work just to escape the reality that he’s not here anymore. I don’t know that this comment will accomplish anything more than to let me vent my emotions. But if you read this, you matter to someone
I'm in the same place, except I may be your brother in this rendition.... I don't know how to say this Arlen but I've been in a dark mind space and was ready to turn my lights out, your words just jolted me back from my darkness, my demons, reminding me that my wife and newborn baby girl would never understand if I were to just check out forever, so I'll keep fighting, thanks to your words, I'll keep holding on. Thank you for bearing your truth and your pain. I needed it
@@jaredseay Hang tough brother. Focus on that family of yours and on anyone or any thing that needs help round you. It's good medicine to get out of your own troubles and focus on others when possible
@@drakeelliott5079 That's completely fair! I'm not super familiar with Nicholas, but I love what I know. I've always considered Benjamin to be the modern-day Townes, his songs are on that level. Helluva compliment!
This gentleman is something else. He grabs ahold of something deep inside of you and brings it out to play. But remember my friends he who labels which is best, may be missing the point and all the rest. Just something to keep in mind. Agape love my friends.
Oh those damned long nights when every stupid statement, mistake and regret decides to show you that they are indeed as much a part of you as the joys and fond memories. Perhaps moreso.
@@DerKaiserBrazil in bad times it is good for the soul to help others. Embrace forgiveness for those that have tresspassed against you, ask forgiveness for those you have tresspassed against, be easy on yourself while you are at it. We all have done regretable things but there is good work to be done. Think on what it is you actually believe about spirituality, religion because the sooner you become comfortable with not living forever the sooner you are free to truly appreciate all of creation.
Quite excited for that album and how it compares to his last ones I gotta say! Chords and lyrics below as always folks! Feel free to correct me if I've got a word wrong here and there Standard tuning, no Capo C is played as C/G (alternating bass), but noted as C below for reasons of clarity That F is sometimes played as an Fsus2 (x3301x), throw it in here and there as you like Cadd9 330010 Verses C Cadd9 Am / F C / C Cadd9 Am / F C Chorus Am G C / Am G C Outro C Cadd9 Am / F C [Verse 1] I'm thinking tonight of my entire life as a whole Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control Alone and forsaken by everyone I've ever known Hell I've even abandoned myself some years ago [Chorus] And I'm hardly holding on In the dark before the dawn [Verse 2] Oh I'm living clean, oh I'm getting redeemed on this land But it ain't what you think, it's the toil of a much braver man Lately I weep at the strangest things we understand Oh like every new line that's defined on the back of my hand [Chorus] And I'm hardly holding on In the dark before the dawn [Verse 3] Don't call it religion when I seek salvation inside Oh it's just surrendering on yourself to this life And man, it gets lonely seeing the spite in their eyes Before they walk away being blinded by any old lie [Chorus] And I'm hardly holding on In the dark before the dawn [Outro] I'm thinking tonight of my entire life as a whole Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control
The comment sections of every single one of your songs proves how much love and strength you have given so many people. You very well may be the greatest singer-songwriter of all time.
Another fantastic video by @GemOnVHS, I have found so many great artists, but Benjamin Todd will always hold a special place in my heart. Keep singing brother, keep helping us heal.
Gems on vhs is how I got into Ben/ldsb and now I've spun down the rabbit hole of this dark folk music and Ive found tons of new artists! Gems on vhs is the best YT channel out there!
@@mykelbukey1235 same thing here saw a random video pop up in suggested I believe it was green eyed girl, but I was hooked from the first video. Their songs touch my soul and they have ways to express in words emotions I can't describe. Nice to meet a fellow fan.
Thank you Mr. Tod for that dose of all natural pure music medicine . my soul sang harmony with that one. Your in a good place there in Muhlenberg County . its special . I live just east of Nashville but did take a trip up to Beaver Dam one evening to hear Tyler Childers and the late great John Prine . there was like a magical mist in the air that night that I feel blessed to have experienced.
thank you ben, i’m speechless. lyrics: i’m thinking the night of my entire life as a whole oh and what it might mean if i ever get back in control alone and forsaken by everyone i’ve ever known hell i even abandoned myself some years ago and i’m hardly holding on in the dark before the dawn oh i’m living clean oh i’m getting redeemed on this land but it ain’t what ya think it’s the toil of a much braver man lately i weep at the strangest things we all understand oh like every new line that’s defined on the back of my hand and i’m hardly holding on in the dark before the dawn don’t call it religion when i seek salvation inside oh it’s just surrendering yourself to this life and man it gets lonely seein the spite in their eyes before they walk away being blinded by any old lie and i’m hardly holding on in the dark before the dawn i’m thinking the night of my entire life as a whole oh and what it might mean if i ever get back in control
This man has a phenomenal ability to put life as a whole into gentle yet piercing lyrics, all while having the composure and thoughtfulness to actually give people hope and solid, life changing advice. He's like a evangelist preaching the teachings of a lost generation, but without all the bullshit. A man-crush of epic proportions, no doubt.
The way Benjamin Tod puts feelings into thoughts and then to words and then ultimately into such meaningful songs is second to none….. and I mean none.
Ben is hands down the best songwriter and singer alive. Seen him live and it was the best show I've ever been to. His songs are so deep and impacted full of truth
I never ever thought i'd get back in control. I found myself walking up early with the birds singing and not being annoyed and then in awe of the sunrise to the point of weeping. That was something I never expected to result from getting clean, but it did. If I can you can. Just find something to believe in and don't let go. NA helped me. There are people that genuinely want to help you. I promise you with my entire soul your future self will thank you.
Man, this stuff is getting too relatable. Always the highlight of my day when I see what this man delivers (and does it ever deliver). Grateful for Gems to capture these moments in time. I always feel like I’m there, and I’m the one filming, but that’s only because of the raw intimacy that’s shown. All love.
There's no amount of thanks I can give in this world to properly express my gratitude for Ben and his art. I would probably be gone without it. At the very least I fear what kind of man I would've become.
All I can even say, is wow... much needed song for my life right now. I'm from a small town in Kentucky and drugs, fishing, hunting, and music, is about all we had... I really do thank God for Ben and his music. It's saved me many times
I know Benjamin caters to us alcoholics and substance abusers. His music is comforting to take in on a daily basis no matter what mode our minds are in. What impresses me is his ability to give us all hope while still pouring out his soul on a song that isnt necessarily a positive one. He is doing what I wish I could do. I think i speak for alot of us lost dogs out here.
The first verse makes me relate to his struggle The second gives me jealousy and guilt that he's on his way and that I'm about to finish at least this next drink while I listen in shame But the third gives me hope as all his songs do. I want to promise myself ill seek salvation tomorrow but once the days work is done its hard to resist. And I hope I will. But thanks Benjamin for inspiring me when I listen. You and Townes give me peace.
The shame and guilt will kill us. Everytime. Just do better tomorrow and try to stay sober. I've been there, but it took time behind bars to get there. Keep your chin up.✌️🇺🇸
This is Sierra Ferrell's arrangement of "The Mountain." Benjamin explained this in an interview and mistakenly said she was credited in the description. Lets fix that @GemsOnVHS
I don't know what life is right now, divinely inspired, repetitive chaos, or a dang simulation, but whatever it is brought me to this man's songs tonight and now I feel less alone
From KY here. I've been off heroin for 28 days and can't wait to see Ben live. I won't be chasing dope so I can actually travel to see him now! I can't wait to tell him thanks for getting me through with his music.
Ill never forget listening to a bluegrass pandora radio station some years ago and one of his songs came on and had me crying like a baby and Ive been a fan ever since. He's an absolutely amazing musician
I’m glad to see this dude winnin he deserves it. He’s probably one of the best song writers out there and will be remembered as such. I swear since I first found “using again” it’s felt like he is singing about my life in real time. Every song since Just fits my struggle so well. It gives me hope that if he is dealing with a disastrous life like me and is able to succeed then hopefully I can to. Godspeed to all of us fighting the good fight knowing the world is against us.
Thank you miss Ashley mae and Ben. Music for the soul. Coincidence in how well the lyrics fit the time in mine and I'm sure several others lives. I'm glad your clean Ben. And you write about it. Thankful for y'all
Somehow, Ben encapsulated a universal truth about all of us. He never ceases to tell us all that we're all the same in a lot of ways. Thank you for our truths
Absolutely Sublime Ben, watching you grow as a Songsmith from humble Days of Busking to Your slice of the American Dream and Growing as A Man ... I must say this Elder music Man is Proud of You ! And will continue to support Your Career & Dreams. Bravo My Lil' Brother❗🙏🇺🇸💪
After listening to 5 of your songs this is where your music bent my muse. He was a deep and dark man’ who lived south of the Bronx He colored it cold’ lived it colder -- To music that feeds the muse. -- I’ve lived a treasured life. No golden spoon in my mouth but closer to the gold than to the draw of poverty and to the often bad decisions that are more rampant I suspect in the crowd that have nots might experience more of.. Thanks for music that inspires, enlightens, humbles and humanifies.
This song rings to me.. I’m not sure if many quite understand what you mean about seeking salvation inside, and seeing the spite in the eyes of people that get blinded by the lies of culture.. Brilliant.. I like to believe that there are more like us out there that see the world the way you and I do. But when I heard this song I felt a lot less lonely. It would be pleasing to cross paths with individuals like us more often. I believe Ben is one of the many fallen angels here on earth to call lost souls to a higher place. Cheers to Ben for creating a timeless masterpiece. And congratulations on your meaningless success. I occasionally appreciate my own.😂
I have my girl pregnant and this channel is one of the few things that keeps me sane right now. And he's one of my favorite artists I discovered through this channel. I feel blessed. :')
You’ll be fine man. Having a kid is one of the best things to ever happen to me. Worth all of the shit that comes with it! Just help your girl as much as you can, I helped mine plenty and still wish I would’ve helped more.
This song gives me Hope. I've been on a journey of solitude, as I walk across America. Sharing Light, so others don't see the darkness I saw for 20 years.
Another amazing song. First time I heard "Using Again" I broke down and cried like a baby sobbing. Only song I ever heard that put my exact thoughts to words. Thank you Ben and Gems.
I remember seeing Lost Dog Street Band in Oregon years back .. man what a show ! Was also fortunate enough to be able to sit down and chat for a minute with Benjamin And his wife Ashley. Some solid people right there .
This is the most powerful song I've ever heard. Benjamin- Thank you for making this song, brother. You nailed it. Congratulations on your success, and congratulations on making the best choice of all--life! "This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live." -Deuteronomy 30:19
"I'm thinking the night of my entire life as a whole... Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control." As someone who's been hardly holding on for far too long...this hit me hard in the chest.
The song is incredible. The writing in the description is incredible. The sound of a Cummins turbo diesel engine is incredible. I'm pretty confident that Benjamin and I are long lost brothers.
Every word is so poetic and personal. His song writing is what people say my poetry is. To connect with each person in a way that is so raw and soulful.
This man is real he’s not fake like so many people out there. He doesn’t hide his demons . It takes a real man to live in truth even if it exposes your faults and failures however addition Is a sickness that so many out there are too quick to judge a persons character on but i think that only says something about the character of the person doing the judging. Benjamin music is soothing to the ears and the soul for me because I can relate to both addiction and suicide and Mr Tod I have yet to hear one song of yours that I didn’t like which is a first for me. Please keep doing what your doing and that’s writing real songs that are real damn good and that’s an understatement. Thank you for your music and the stories you tell through them
It’s amazing that he doesn’t really gain national attention. But that might just be part of the game when your own all of the rights to your own music and you don’t sell your soul to advertisers. God Bless Benjamin and Ashley Mae.
I remember the first song I ever heard of his .. it was captivating , raw & the realest truth I've ever heard in a song ! Literally it felt like time stood still & so many emotions flooded my entire being ! : Using Again Benjamin Tod " Music is truly the universal language, & when it is excellently expressed how deeply it moves our souls. " - President David O. McKay
You released this around my time got diagnosed with Cancer, and I find it just 3 months after he died the day before Father's Day, an old freight/rubber tramp to another truly thank you for this.
I saw a printmaking on the back of this dude's jacket that said Lost Dog Street Band in a convenient store here in Corpus Christi,Texas. So, I looked up the band, and man, Benjamin Tod has some deep lyrics. You have a walking advertisement walking down here in the deep South Texas area amigo. Man, thank you for your music. God bless you and your band.
The way BT tells stories trough songs is just amazing. No matter 2 chords or 10 I could listen to him singing for hours. As a guitarist myself, It’s something that changed also my perspective in music writing: sometimes good lyrics and an incredible voice do not need too much guitar, it’s magical as it is.
What a perfect truth of a song this is. Ben. I cried my eyes out when I saw you live finally. It was one of the most amazing shows I've ever seen. Please keep speaking truth and helping others in your life. You're a Buffalo, one of a dying breed of ppl that actually understands life and how we as individuals, affect others around us. I couldn't begin to describe how much your music has meant to me as a growing person over all these years. You've helped me grow and I'm sure a ton of others. Be proud of that
I’ve never had one person read my soul in the form of a song quite like you Ben. I scream your songs and let the tears go. Thank you, you’ve decreased my cost in therapy.
I'm thinking tonight of my entire life as a whole Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control Alone and forsaken by everyone I've ever known Hell i even abandoned myself some years ago And I'm hardly holding on In the dark before the dawn Oh I'm living clean oh I'm getting redeemed on this land But it ain't what you think its the toil of a much braver man Lately I weep at the strangest things we understand Oh like every new linе that's defined on the back of my hand And I'm hardly holding on In thе dark before the dawn Don't call it religion when I seek salvation inside Oh its just surrendering all of yourself to this life And man it gets lonely seeing the spite in their eyes Before they walk away being blinded any old light And I'm hardly holding on In the dark before the dawn I'm thinking tonight of my entire life as a whole Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control
Check out Benjamin Tod on instagram, @benjamintodmusic. We're slowly getting our catalog of field recordings on Spotify - follow us on there. open.spotify.com/artist/7t78CwAbQIA6DKAKUKBYgl?si=tfpp2IA4QNq5wYqr6Jfw4w
I am so grateful you are adding these to Spotify, I've always wished you would so I can easily listen to them in the car on the long drive to work. Just followed you on there. Please add the "The Mountain" rendition by Benjamin Tod to the Spotify page as soon as you get the time. (It's a pain playing youtube videos while driving, especially in a stick). Thank you so much for all that you do.
Hello from quebec love you all
You are in my ears everyday 😍👌
Congrats I've got 5 months
Please upload all of these sets onto Spotify! I, along with 99% of your listeners prefer your live spontaneous recordings versus studio recordings. Much more raw and beautiful. I feel like we’ve all been waiting for this moment. Thank you!!
I'm from Rockcastle county Kentucky .....I achieved 2 yrs sober yesterday and I'd like for Ben to know he's been a major part of my sobriety .....you can move mountains with your lyrics brother keep it up and I thank you sir
all my kin is from Rockcastle. Keep it up, cousin.
Hell yeah Jessica! 3 years myself and glad to be here, glad you’re here ✌🏼
One day at a time!
Congratulations
Bless up
Benjamin Tod is a god damn national treasure. I hope he never stops making music.
Hell yes
Well said
I hope he never stops doing it his way
I hope he never stops doing it his way
@@zachbradley9464 from interviews I've seen with him he definitely doesn't seem like the type to do it any other way than his own. Its part of what makes him special. Maybe Ashley Mae's way every now and again though 😂
My son became an addict after going through Hurricane Katrina. Then he was diagnosed with lung cancer in his 20's which they wouldn't treat until he got clean. He's been clean and cancer free for 6 years now and recently married a wonderful lady. Keep hope alive.
40 years old, wife and kids asleep inside, me enjoying my morning smoke and coffee, sobbing like a baby. This man is special. I'm sorry and thankful for everything I've ever done. Ben puts that feeling in words. Every. Damn. Time.
This is it right here! Well said!
what I would give too have my kids and wife asleep inside...miss it deeply....
Amen brother
He’s the epitome of an artist. Not the “artist” so many claim to be, in current times. A true warrior poet
It sure hit my front door son you got what it takes I wish I had away to get your address I wrote a litte song I been honor if you would take a look at it I ture beliveyou are one to sing it
This man nails life every time he opens his mouth and sings.
I was going to comment but you summed it up perfectly.
@@pageluvva kkkkkkkkkkk
That he does,every word is true
Every now and then you hear exactly what you need to exactly when you should. Thanks for this song 🫡
Facts for sure!
Ben - “I have been trapped inside this song for a couple of weeks now.”
Me - “I will be trapped inside this song for more than a couple years now.”
No doubt!
Damn true. Same.
Still stuck on it and still my favorite brother..
For anyone reading this who also deeply relates to Benjamin's lyrics, hang in there... We got this!
Let's all make it to the dawn
My husband didn’t make it out of the dawn 💔 depression won.. our 2 year old twins will never know their daddy.. I miss my bestfriend..💔 😢
@@PaigeAshliegh 😢
@@RaymondThompson-rz4hj his name is Jeremy, I miss him everyday.. I became a widow at 29 years of age.. He took his life while under the influence.. He called me at 4:01am crying telling me he loves me so much over & over.. I just wish he loved himself. I wish I could take his place at the very least. The cops didn’t take my pleading seriously.. they were 5 hours too late getting to him 💔 I don’t want to be here without the love of my life, we were supposed to die hand in hand 50 years from now.. nobody deserves to die alone thinking death is their only way out. He was so perfect, he’s now become the entire sky when i look at it. I am patiently awaiting my time to make it home to the spirit world so I can feel his warm embrace. I simply am not here anymore, whatever spark I had within me, he took it with him, on that horrifying nightmare of a day that my life has now become 💔 I’m going on for the sake of our children, trying to be the best mother I can be. I never knew this level of pain existed. I hope I can make him proud but I can’t even leave bed without him.. He was my absolute everything.. My soulmate, the love of my life.. If they ever invent a Time Machine, I know the first place I’m going. I just miss my bestfriend 😢 I don’t want this life or even to be in this world if he’s not in it.. but our boy/girl twins are all I have left of their amazing heavenly father, he exists now only in my memories, and in my heart. He showed me Benjamin Tod a month before he died right after I saved him from another suicide attempt. Now his music and interviews are all I listen to. My beloved husband.. why did you leave our beautiful family. I’m so lost he was always home to me.. I just want to go home💔 kisâkihitin nînapem.. which means I love you my husband, nîya osâw pîyesîw, my Golden Thunderbird, his spirit name which was given to him during a sweatlodge ceremony, we are so spiritually connected I got my name osâw pîyesîw iskwêw or Golden Thunderbird Woman, as Indigenous Cree people this is a very sacred moment for us, and we got it 4 days before our wedding.. On august 4th, 2018. We have 4 matching tattoos, one of which is eachothers initial on our ring finger because it’s believed that vein leads straight to one’s heart. 💜 I feel him everywhere.. and I want to go home to my husband, if I didn’t have our children I’d be buried beside him right now.. If you knew him you’d understand how magical he is.. heart of pure gold. Our wedding video got quite a lot of new views after he passed away.. you can find it on Facebook quite easily or it’s on my IG: paige.ashliegh if you’re interested.. My 6’5” beautifully gorgeous husband.. inside & out. A smile so contagious.. that I’ll never see again. I slept beside his casket when it was time to bury the love of my life.. I never thought I’d have to kiss his cold lips goodbye.. But as he always said it’s never goodbye, it’s see you later 💜 please Creator wrap nothing but love around my husband.. wherever he is I pray he’s found peace 💜🪶 my baby love.. My gentle giant😢💜 I wish this was a nightmare I could wake up from.. Be kind & hold those you love close, because you just never know.. 💔 I’d give my life for him.. I’d take his place in a heartbeat if possible.. there’s no words to describe this type of pain. One relapse after almost a decade long of being clean off drugs & he’s gone from me & my children’s life forever. I’m sorry for the long comment.. I just have no one, no parents, no siblings.. I only had him & now our twins. I don’t know how to go on without him, I can’t accept the fact that he’s gone.. So I won’t, it’ll be like we just went awhile without seeing each other 🕊️💜 I can’t wait for that day.. I’m not scared of death.. I’m scared of not living my life without him.. and until it’s my turn, I don’t know if I’ll ever be happy again.. Time doesn’t heal all wounds.. that is a lie people tell themselves.. and it might work for some but it doesn’t work for me.. depression is no joke & now that I’ve reached his level of depression I understand why he felt the need to leave this realm. 🕊️😢💜
Thanks bro, you too
This song has changed my life. Been fighting alcohol for years. Living like a tramp. Hopping trains/hitching. Close to a month sober. Thank you Benjamin.
I was cleaning out a box tonight and found a folder of recipes from my daddy, who passed away in 2009. He struggled with depression and alcoholism, which ran in the family. The recipes must've come from the period after he got sober and ran a soup kitchen because they start like "16 cups pinto beans". He talked about measuring the water for rice by how far it came up his arm when he stuck it in the giant stockpot. That was the happiest I ever saw him. I'm grateful that he stayed sober and kept trying to help people, even though it got hard at times. He is much missed.
Sounds like a wonderful man.
Condolences my friend…! I rue the day 😔
Who woulda thunk ben went from hitchin rides on freight trains, to drivin a deisel on his own chunk of land?! You deserve it man ! Congrats on your growth. Now thats outlaw.
Deserved!!!!!!
Funny I was thinking the same thing, I went through nearly the same exact thing. I was a piece of shit junkie back in Portland, I was a real wretch. I cleaned my shit up and moved to the mountains of Bonner, MT 3 years back. I own my own business now, I drive a cummins, and this land has redeemed my soul. I started listening to Ben so so long ago, it’s interesting the parallels, he can say what I don’t even have the ability to articulate.
@@drue6360 and i agree with the parallels. every damn song feels like its describing my life and my past. Dude is a legend songwriter
@@drue6360 I feel hopeless but I'm not a junky, I have habits and vices but not in the condition you described yourself in, if I stay away from alcohol I'm fine, issue is , well a lot of issues but my child support I pay, even with decent paying jobs there's really no way to support myself independently after the state gets its cut. I never was a social one so those old friends aren't around to bunk with. I'm married now and trying to save it but she has unaddressed mental health issues and I can't fix her without her wanting to fix herself. It's becoming very unhealthy for us and not to sound selfish but it is really taking its toll on me. If I decide I can't take it anymore then that puts me homeless, I could eat, shower I suppose and make it with a safe place to park. I'm so frustrated, I feel like I'm getting screwed out of my chance, I'm almost there , I've been wanting a sawmill and do firewood on the side with that, and I'm like right there and it's being snatched out from under me because I can't get her to address her issues and try to get better. I'm about to turn 40 and it has been up and down for better part of 15 years for me now and I thought I was on the uphill swing! I was sure she was the one, a supporter and stable, I've known her since highschool, I'm learning you don't really know know someone until you are with the 24/7 . I'm just rambling, I always want to hear how someone made it and see if there is something in their story I can use. I feel like time is running out and I keep losing chances. I worry about everything, I'm worried about her, the future, homelessness again for me. At what point do say homelessness in the winter is better than dealing with your current situation. You can always start over but I'm tired, tired of starting over
@@ericbest9562 You're 39, so much life ahead of you. I left a marriage in my late 30's (twenty-some years later we're still good friends, but the change was the right course to take). I'm not saying you should do the same, just that your comment reached my heart and I'm sending a prayer for peace and finding your way forward. Reach out to a local mental health agency to get support for your wife and to talk with someone who has resources and new ideas - shared housing maybe? You mention health and you sound like you have a lot going well, good work and dreams. Things do change, often for the better if we stay focused and honest with each other.
My brother took his life recently, the first verse of this song absolutely broke me. I feel like we were both in the same boat; starting new jobs, providing for our families and struggling to be there for our people when they needed us.
I knew he had has his demons, we talked about it, but I’m sitting here four days removed just barely making it. I’m going to work just to escape the reality that he’s not here anymore.
I don’t know that this comment will accomplish anything more than to let me vent my emotions. But if you read this,
you matter to someone
I'm in the same place, except I may be your brother in this rendition.... I don't know how to say this Arlen but I've been in a dark mind space and was ready to turn my lights out, your words just jolted me back from my darkness, my demons, reminding me that my wife and newborn baby girl would never understand if I were to just check out forever, so I'll keep fighting, thanks to your words, I'll keep holding on.
Thank you for bearing your truth and your pain. I needed it
Thanks for the reminder 🙏
@@jaredseay Hang tough brother. Focus on that family of yours and on anyone or any thing that needs help round you. It's good medicine to get out of your own troubles and focus on others when possible
Sorry about your brother, man, much love to you, you got this
Just over 2 years my little brother at 31 took his life....I understand my friend everyone matters
Listening to Tod for 4 years plus now and I’ve finally made my mind up. Greatest songwriter of all time.
Close, but let us not forget about Townes Van Zandt!
I want to agree but Like Benjamin always says it's his best friend Nicholas Ridout. The two of them are the greatest I've ever heard.
@@drakeelliott5079 That's completely fair! I'm not super familiar with Nicholas, but I love what I know. I've always considered Benjamin to be the modern-day Townes, his songs are on that level. Helluva compliment!
This gentleman is something else. He grabs ahold of something deep inside of you and brings it out to play. But remember my friends he who labels which is best, may be missing the point and all the rest. Just something to keep in mind. Agape love my friends.
@@heathkish6901 Or Leonard Cohen…
Absolutely haunting. Ben has a voice like no other.
Agreed brother
Oh those damned long nights when every stupid statement, mistake and regret decides to show you that they are indeed as much a part of you as the joys and fond memories. Perhaps moreso.
Exactly my friend, as many good as bad statements and moments we will take with us for the rest of our lives ...!
Magnifico my friend
@@DerKaiserBrazil in bad times it is good for the soul to help others. Embrace forgiveness for those that have tresspassed against you, ask forgiveness for those you have tresspassed against, be easy on yourself while you are at it. We all have done regretable things but there is good work to be done. Think on what it is you actually believe about spirituality, religion because the sooner you become comfortable with not living forever the sooner you are free to truly appreciate all of creation.
@@American-Dragon well said.
@@dancom3207 ... Exactly my friend, what you said is exactly what the Master Jesus Christ taught us !🇩🇪🇧🇷🇺🇲🙋🏻♂️
In BT's grasp of his guitar, there's a profound intimacy, and his songs, like timeless whispers, resonate deeply.
Quite excited for that album and how it compares to his last ones I gotta say!
Chords and lyrics below as always folks! Feel free to correct me if I've got a word wrong here and there
Standard tuning, no Capo
C is played as C/G (alternating bass), but noted as C below for reasons of clarity
That F is sometimes played as an Fsus2 (x3301x), throw it in here and there as you like
Cadd9 330010
Verses C Cadd9 Am / F C / C Cadd9 Am / F C
Chorus Am G C / Am G C
Outro C Cadd9 Am / F C
[Verse 1]
I'm thinking tonight of my entire life as a whole
Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control
Alone and forsaken by everyone I've ever known
Hell I've even abandoned myself some years ago
[Chorus]
And I'm hardly holding on
In the dark before the dawn
[Verse 2]
Oh I'm living clean, oh I'm getting redeemed on this land
But it ain't what you think, it's the toil of a much braver man
Lately I weep at the strangest things we understand
Oh like every new line that's defined on the back of my hand
[Chorus]
And I'm hardly holding on
In the dark before the dawn
[Verse 3]
Don't call it religion when I seek salvation inside
Oh it's just surrendering on yourself to this life
And man, it gets lonely seeing the spite in their eyes
Before they walk away being blinded by any old lie
[Chorus]
And I'm hardly holding on
In the dark before the dawn
[Outro]
I'm thinking tonight of my entire life as a whole
Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control
Fairly certain that when he says "I'm thinking the night" I think it's actually "I'm thinking tonight". Thats just what I hear so I could be wrong.
@@Jon_And307 tonight makes more sense
Thank you for this!
Is there a new album coming out ?
@@irishsailor9181 Thankfully, the 23rd of September. Greatly looking forward to it!
The comment sections of every single one of your songs proves how much love and strength you have given so many people. You very well may be the greatest singer-songwriter of all time.
He really can’t help but write a gut wrenching, beautiful song
If hopeful pain had a sound it would be Benjamin Todd.
Another fantastic video by @GemOnVHS, I have found so many great artists, but Benjamin Todd will always hold a special place in my heart. Keep singing brother, keep helping us heal.
Glad you enjoyed it
@@GemsOnVHS not even going to lie this is the highlight of my day! Kinda star struck not going to lie. Haha have an awesome day!
Gems on vhs is how I got into Ben/ldsb and now I've spun down the rabbit hole of this dark folk music and Ive found tons of new artists! Gems on vhs is the best YT channel out there!
@@mykelbukey1235 same thing here saw a random video pop up in suggested I believe it was green eyed girl, but I was hooked from the first video. Their songs touch my soul and they have ways to express in words emotions I can't describe. Nice to meet a fellow fan.
Ben's music helped me through a rough couple of years after I lost my dad to cancer glad I found him in the rabbit hole
I know lost my dad in 2019 my nest friend
How many times is one dude going to make me cry. His music and lyrics always hit hard.
I cheated on my wife and have abused alcohol. I’ve lost nearly everything but her and am at my lowest but this song gives me such hope. Thank you
Well at least you still have her. That's more than I can say
Be disagreeable son. Be a disagreeable person. Best advice I ever heard at a show
Thank you Mr. Tod for that dose of all natural pure music medicine . my soul sang harmony with that one. Your in a good place there in Muhlenberg County . its special . I live just east of Nashville but did take a trip up to Beaver Dam one evening to hear Tyler Childers and the late great John Prine . there was like a magical mist in the air that night that I feel blessed to have experienced.
thank you ben, i’m speechless.
lyrics:
i’m thinking the night of my entire life as a whole
oh and what it might mean if i ever get back in control
alone and forsaken by everyone i’ve ever known
hell i even abandoned myself some years ago
and i’m hardly holding on
in the dark before the dawn
oh i’m living clean oh i’m getting redeemed on this land
but it ain’t what ya think it’s the toil of a much braver man
lately i weep at the strangest things we all understand
oh like every new line that’s defined on the back of my hand
and i’m hardly holding on
in the dark before the dawn
don’t call it religion when i seek salvation inside
oh it’s just surrendering yourself to this life
and man it gets lonely seein the spite in their eyes
before they walk away being blinded by any old lie
and i’m hardly holding on
in the dark before the dawn
i’m thinking the night of my entire life as a whole
oh and what it might mean if i ever get back in control
This man has a phenomenal ability to put life as a whole into gentle yet piercing lyrics, all while having the composure and thoughtfulness to actually give people hope and solid, life changing advice. He's like a evangelist preaching the teachings of a lost generation, but without all the bullshit.
A man-crush of epic proportions, no doubt.
Their music has been a constant companion since I discovered it some years back on this channel. Thank you Gems for putting this out there.
thank you
The way Benjamin Tod puts feelings into thoughts and then to words and then ultimately into such meaningful songs is second to none….. and I mean none.
Ben is hands down the best songwriter and singer alive. Seen him live and it was the best show I've ever been to. His songs are so deep and impacted full of truth
I never ever thought i'd get back in control. I found myself walking up early with the birds singing and not being annoyed and then in awe of the sunrise to the point of weeping. That was something I never expected to result from getting clean, but it did. If I can you can. Just find something to believe in and don't let go. NA helped me. There are people that genuinely want to help you. I promise you with my entire soul your future self will thank you.
Having one hell of a day and all i can do is listen and cry. What keeps me up now breaks me down every time. I good cry never hurt anyone i suppose
I do need to go inside this grocery store though so im trying to dry it up lol
Man, this stuff is getting too relatable. Always the highlight of my day when I see what this man delivers (and does it ever deliver). Grateful for Gems to capture these moments in time. I always feel like I’m there, and I’m the one filming, but that’s only because of the raw intimacy that’s shown.
All love.
This man can do no wrong. Absolutely gut wrenching music... real country shit.
I'm a recovering addict and his music has seriously touched every corner of my soul
There's no amount of thanks I can give in this world to properly express my gratitude for Ben and his art. I would probably be gone without it. At the very least I fear what kind of man I would've become.
Preach on, I couldn’t have said that any better
All I can even say, is wow... much needed song for my life right now. I'm from a small town in Kentucky and drugs, fishing, hunting, and music, is about all we had... I really do thank God for Ben and his music. It's saved me many times
This song brings tears to my eyes.
I know Benjamin caters to us alcoholics and substance abusers. His music is comforting to take in on a daily basis no matter what mode our minds are in. What impresses me is his ability to give us all hope while still pouring out his soul on a song that isnt necessarily a positive one. He is doing what I wish I could do. I think i speak for alot of us lost dogs out here.
Don't give up the fight man it gets better it gets easier.
@@gmod8033 Thank you for your kind words. All the best to you and yours
The first verse makes me relate to his struggle
The second gives me jealousy and guilt that he's on his way and that I'm about to finish at least this next drink while I listen in shame
But the third gives me hope as all his songs do. I want to promise myself ill seek salvation tomorrow but once the days work is done its hard to resist. And I hope I will.
But thanks Benjamin for inspiring me when I listen. You and Townes give me peace.
Don’t feel guilty for having a beer after a hard days work mate …. It’s all good in moderation ✌🏼🫡
The shame and guilt will kill us. Everytime. Just do better tomorrow and try to stay sober. I've been there, but it took time behind bars to get there. Keep your chin up.✌️🇺🇸
If I ever get sober it’ll be because of BT... his music just speaks to me
Stay strong my friend
Damn if this ain't relatable idk what is I drink a bottle and next day I swear it off then pick it up again the next night
Love the music and love Kentucky. I keep telling my wife we need 50 acres in Kentucky and to forget all about Illinois
I just came back to this song and to write that same message. Guess I haven't changed my opinions much in 7 months! I'll see me again in the future
There's nothing like a new Benjamin Tod song to turn a shit day around! Thank you Ben and the Gems On VHS crew! You all rock! 🤘
This is Sierra Ferrell's arrangement of "The Mountain." Benjamin explained this in an interview and mistakenly said she was credited in the description. Lets fix that @GemsOnVHS
I don't know what life is right now, divinely inspired, repetitive chaos, or a dang simulation, but whatever it is brought me to this man's songs tonight and now I feel less alone
His writing is incredible, his delivery impactful
This song live will go straight through your soul.. Dallas Texas a night I’ll never forget
From KY here. I've been off heroin for 28 days and can't wait to see Ben live. I won't be chasing dope so I can actually travel to see him now! I can't wait to tell him thanks for getting me through with his music.
Ill never forget listening to a bluegrass pandora radio station some years ago and one of his songs came on and had me crying like a baby and Ive been a fan ever since. He's an absolutely amazing musician
God's blessings to you Ben, in the event you read these. Praying for mercy and goodness to fill your days.
From a California boy. This guy is one of the best artists ive ever come across. So thankful to find him
Benjamin…I know it is often hard to stick around, but we need you man. This is a (another) beautiful song. Thank you.
I’m glad to see this dude winnin he deserves it. He’s probably one of the best song writers out there and will be remembered as such. I swear since I first found “using again” it’s felt like he is singing about my life in real time. Every song since Just fits my struggle so well. It gives me hope that if he is dealing with a disastrous life like me and is able to succeed then hopefully I can to. Godspeed to all of us fighting the good fight knowing the world is against us.
Godspeed brother
"This life may be sad, but it is always beautiful." Couldn't have said it better myself. Thank you for existing Ben.
Brother I love you so much. I truly hope verything is going great for you. You are legendary Benjamin Tod. Thank you Lord for this legend.
Thank you miss Ashley mae and Ben. Music for the soul. Coincidence in how well the lyrics fit the time in mine and I'm sure several others lives. I'm glad your clean Ben. And you write about it. Thankful for y'all
Man this dude wails it. Just raw, honest, life. The world needs more storytellers like him.
Been shedding lots of tears to this guy's music lately. Shit really hits home.
One of the greatest voices out there today.. Benjamin Tod should be out there with the big names of country..
God damnit. He did it again. This man literally never ceases to amaze me.
Its 3/22/2024 and this is the best music I've heard in my 52 years on this earth.
Somehow, Ben encapsulated a universal truth about all of us. He never ceases to tell us all that we're all the same in a lot of ways. Thank you for our truths
Lately I weep at the strangest things we understand.
Hit home hard. I often will tear up over things most laugh at.
Thanks to Ben and his music. I finally feel like I'm not alone in this life and on this planet. Thank you for everything Ben.
Absolutely Sublime Ben,
watching you grow as a Songsmith from humble Days of Busking to Your slice of the American Dream and Growing as A Man ...
I must say this Elder music Man is Proud of You ! And will continue to support Your Career & Dreams.
Bravo My Lil' Brother❗🙏🇺🇸💪
Been with you sober and been with you sleeping in the cemetery thousands of miles from home, always kept me from being alone WHILE being on my own
After listening to 5 of your songs this is where your music bent my muse.
He was a deep and dark man’ who lived south of the Bronx
He colored it cold’ lived it colder
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To music that feeds the muse.
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I’ve lived a treasured life. No golden spoon in my mouth but closer to the gold than to the draw of poverty and to the often bad decisions that are more rampant I suspect in the crowd that have nots might experience more of..
Thanks for music that inspires, enlightens, humbles and humanifies.
This song rings to me.. I’m not sure if many quite understand what you mean about seeking salvation inside, and seeing the spite in the eyes of people that get blinded by the lies of culture.. Brilliant.. I like to believe that there are more like us out there that see the world the way you and I do. But when I heard this song I felt a lot less lonely. It would be pleasing to cross paths with individuals like us more often. I believe Ben is one of the many fallen angels here on earth to call lost souls to a higher place. Cheers to Ben for creating a timeless masterpiece. And congratulations on your meaningless success. I occasionally appreciate my own.😂
I have my girl pregnant and this channel is one of the few things that keeps me sane right now.
And he's one of my favorite artists I discovered through this channel. I feel blessed. :')
You’ll be fine man. Having a kid is one of the best things to ever happen to me. Worth all of the shit that comes with it! Just help your girl as much as you can, I helped mine plenty and still wish I would’ve helped more.
Youre so fortunate. Wish i could have a kid. Or 20.
She ain’t “your girl” no more brother she’s your woman and the mama of your child
When crickets hide beneath the corners Thinking of the things we bury I love You’re music
This song gives me Hope. I've been on a journey of solitude, as I walk across America. Sharing Light, so others don't see the darkness I saw for 20 years.
Another amazing song. First time I heard "Using Again" I broke down and cried like a baby sobbing. Only song I ever heard that put my exact thoughts to words. Thank you Ben and Gems.
Bless up brother
I’m struggling right now, and Benjamin gets me through the aches and shakes.
I remember seeing Lost Dog Street Band in Oregon years back .. man what a show ! Was also fortunate enough to be able to sit down and chat for a minute with Benjamin And his wife Ashley. Some solid people right there .
Just straight up, good ole, punch u in the heart strings country music with a tinge of reality that this world sorely needs
Love this song
You speak for my Soul, God Bless you Benjamin....❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🤗
This is the most powerful song I've ever heard. Benjamin- Thank you for making this song, brother. You nailed it. Congratulations on your success, and congratulations on making the best choice of all--life!
"This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live."
-Deuteronomy 30:19
"I'm thinking the night
of my entire life as a whole...
Oh and what it might mean
if I ever get back in control."
As someone who's been hardly holding on for far too long...this hit me hard in the chest.
The song is incredible. The writing in the description is incredible.
The sound of a Cummins turbo diesel engine is incredible.
I'm pretty confident that Benjamin and I are long lost brothers.
Every word is so poetic and personal. His song writing is what people say my poetry is. To connect with each person in a way that is so raw and soulful.
looking forward to seeing this grow to 1M+ views. Such a great voice and lyricist
This man is real he’s not fake like so many people out there. He doesn’t hide his demons . It takes a real man to live in truth even if it exposes your faults and failures however addition Is a sickness that so many out there are too quick to judge a persons character on but i think that only says something about the character of the person doing the judging. Benjamin music is soothing to the ears and the soul for me because I can relate to both addiction and suicide and Mr Tod I have yet to hear one song of yours that I didn’t like which is a first for me. Please keep doing what your doing and that’s writing real songs that are real damn good and that’s an understatement. Thank you for your music and the stories you tell through them
I’ve been struggling with the loss of my dad. I just want to say thank you for doing what you do.
I’m hardly holding on, but just might make it through today because of this song….. thank you Ben
A thumbs up just doesn't do this song justice. Thank you for "spending some weeks with it". Well worth it. Thank you.
It’s amazing that he doesn’t really gain national attention. But that might just be part of the game when your own all of the rights to your own music and you don’t sell your soul to advertisers. God Bless Benjamin and Ashley Mae.
I remember the first song I ever heard of his .. it was captivating , raw & the realest truth I've ever heard in a song ! Literally it felt like time stood still & so many emotions flooded my entire being !
: Using Again Benjamin Tod
" Music is truly the universal language, & when it is excellently expressed how deeply it moves our souls. "
- President David O. McKay
The best song ever written, period.
You released this around my time got diagnosed with Cancer, and I find it just 3 months after he died the day before Father's Day, an old freight/rubber tramp to another truly thank you for this.
I missed my chance to see him a few weeks ago and I am so upset. His voice, his songs, his message, his vibe everything is just so beautiful.
I saw a printmaking on the back of this dude's jacket that said Lost Dog Street Band in a convenient store here in Corpus Christi,Texas. So, I looked up the band, and man, Benjamin Tod has some deep lyrics.
You have a walking advertisement walking down here in the deep South Texas area amigo. Man, thank you for your music. God bless you and your band.
once again, you guys production quality will proprably challenge every studiorecording of this. stellar job!
I really needed this today, Benjamin Tod always has the music for the soul.
I played this 7 times in a row. Gonna keep going too.
The way BT tells stories trough songs is just amazing. No matter 2 chords or 10 I could listen to him singing for hours. As a guitarist myself, It’s something that changed also my perspective in music writing: sometimes good lyrics and an incredible voice do not need too much guitar, it’s magical as it is.
What a perfect truth of a song this is. Ben. I cried my eyes out when I saw you live finally. It was one of the most amazing shows I've ever seen. Please keep speaking truth and helping others in your life. You're a Buffalo, one of a dying breed of ppl that actually understands life and how we as individuals, affect others around us. I couldn't begin to describe how much your music has meant to me as a growing person over all these years. You've helped me grow and I'm sure a ton of others. Be proud of that
Man's music can give you chills and steal the words out of your soul
I’ve never had one person read my soul in the form of a song quite like you Ben. I scream your songs and let the tears go. Thank you, you’ve decreased my cost in therapy.
I'm thinking tonight of my entire life as a whole
Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control
Alone and forsaken by everyone I've ever known
Hell i even abandoned myself some years ago
And I'm hardly holding on
In the dark before the dawn
Oh I'm living clean oh I'm getting redeemed on this land
But it ain't what you think its the toil of a much braver man
Lately I weep at the strangest things we understand
Oh like every new linе that's defined on the back of my hand
And I'm hardly holding on
In thе dark before the dawn
Don't call it religion when I seek salvation inside
Oh its just surrendering all of yourself to this life
And man it gets lonely seeing the spite in their eyes
Before they walk away being blinded any old light
And I'm hardly holding on
In the dark before the dawn
I'm thinking tonight of my entire life as a whole
Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control