Fentanyl and Crystal Meth Addict interview-Kenneth
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- Опубликовано: 13 сен 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Kenneth, a fentanyl and crystal meth addict in Los Angeles. Heres a link to Kenneth’s follow up interview:
• Kenneth (follow up)
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This is Kenneth, prayer does work and all of your prayers have been unfolding amazing things in my life today with 80 days clean. Thank u all wether it was a religious prayer, positive energy or thoughts. I cant wait to come back when im ready and share what ive gotten. ❤
Love you, honey. Read Romans 8:1. You're not alone and I'm so proud of you!
Kenneth, I'm just watching this video. You posted this one month ago, I hope you're coming in at 110 days sober. I found you wonderfully articulate and interesting. Stay strong, get back to school and share that beautiful brain with the world ❤
I’ve just watched this. You’re such an amazing person. I pray you are still clean and doing well. All my love and hugs from Ireland . Love Leigh xxx
Keep going. I’m praying 🙏 for you.
Congratulations ❤ this is the best comment on the video
I went to college with Kenneth at IUPUI and he was truly an amazing person. I always wondered where he went after dropping out of school. This breaks my heart. I know that you he can get through this. If you are reading this Kenneth, I am praying for you always!!
He seems amazing and with wonderful potential. Addiction is horrible and destructive
Now that you know where he is go help him
Fuck man I’m in University right now and you have me reflecting and wondering which of my friends I’m going to see on SWUB one day
@@jimmygalpin6660 ???????????? Nice sentence, did you write in school?
Prayer does work. Pray for him.
Kenneth is literally my friend. I have been LOOKING FOR HIM! Thank you Mark. Kenneth really tries hard to get better he just is lost!! EVERYONE PLEASE PRAY FOR HIM
My heart breaks for him.
What trip looking for someone then seeing them here
@@ASHESWEALLFALLDOWN it’s actually more common than you know. Mark works in the skid row area I’m sure he could uncover many missing persons cases with this platform
Praying for him
He needs a helping hand, a friend! Please someone who knows him reach out!!!!! He is not in such bad shape, he can still be saved!!!!!! Please. Save a life someone!!!!!!!!!!
As a recovering addict, this breaks my heart. It took me until I was 62 to finally get clean. It’s been over 3 years. There IS HOPE
wow!! this comment inspires me so much. thank you for sharing. I am about to be 40, been losing decades to dope, pills, booze, depression, anxiety, addiction.....hearing that it aint over until its over truly puts fresh wind in my sails. I appreciate you.
@@michaelhoganmusicdo it for yourself, I mean get clean, do something for yourself, you deserve it! I believe you can achieve the better life.
@@michaelhoganmusic If this life long drug addict can do it, so can you! Don’t wait until you’re old like me! 🩷
Love to hear this!
Lol till 62 damn mustve done a lot of drugs.
Ken, I knew you when you were a baby.
I was friends with your mom and you moved away I believe when you were around two years old.
You, your sisters & mom visited my home briefly 13 years ago when my youngest son was a newborn.
Kenny, I want you to know that you are worth so much more than the drugs you 've taken, the bad choices, the desperation, the stealing, the sadness, the pain, the situations you've been in and the situation you're currently in.
You are worthy of love, worthy of success, worthy of happiness, and worthy of being healthy.
Watching this broke my heart for you, your family and anyone and everyone who knows you or knew you, and for everyone who is going through the pain, struggles and anguish that you're going through.
I will pray for you, cry for you, and be supportive of you.
You are so much more than you think you are.
You are a beautiful creation of God, and you are loved, needed and wanted in this world.
Please don't die.
Fight the biggest fight of your life and beat this terrible disease.
I know you don't remember me or know me, but I wish I could just hold you in my arms and be a comfort to you, for you to cry your eyes out to, to release all the built up stuff that has been bottled up inside of you for so long .
I am so sorry that you have all this pain inside of you.
It's okay to be gay and it's okay to be your true authentic self. If people cannot see past your sexuality, then they aren't worth your time or energy.
God bless you Kenny!
Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I care about you and what happens to you ❤
Not for u to die
You're not a "waste of a vessel." You're brilliant, one day at a time. You got this.
That broke my heart
🙏
Los Angeles is so so so destructive. I hope he finds a way out
Nah, he is a waste of a vessel.
This is such a great comment! ❤
"I know my purpose I just can't fulfill it" what heavy words. I am not an addict and I can't imagine the hold it has.
seriously. he's already way ahead of most of the world - knowing his purpose. He just needs to get past this and understand what it is in his makeup that causes him to self destruct. Because until he addresses why he doesn't think he's worthy of success and happiness, he will never be clean.
I've been in recovery for about 20 years and blaming you got to work at it everyday the disease really messes with you but once you get out of that Circle and work a program life can be tough but you could do it you could do it
It means a lot to hear someone say they aren't an addict but have compassion for those who are.
So heartbreaking hearing that line 🥺
The hold it has is crushing at times. I related so much to that line
I will pray for you alongside my son.... I just lost him this week to fent, and honestly, I believe in you, Kenneth you are breathing and alive. I cried and fought tears through the entire interview. We need to to do better raising our children.
I'm so sorry for your loss. 😢
😢🙏💔😰 I am so very sorry for your loss... Prayers and healing energies to you 🙏🙏❤️🙏🙏 love tara 🇨🇦
I’m so sorry Joe. My son is on the street now… he’s been struggling for 14 years. He’s just 28. 🙏🏼❤️
I am so sorry that you had to see your son leave this world, Joe
I am truly sorry that you are having to go through such a huge loss! Sending you love from Louisiana 💙
Kenneth, I’m a teacher and I cannot express to you enough how VALUABLE you would be to the education system. I’m thinking of you and praying for you. You can do absolutely ANYTHING you put your mind to. Love from DC 💛
What an angelic boy. I’m an addict,recovered, and can vouch for his statements. I hope and pray that if there is a higher power that it takes care of him, hold him and help him find his way.
What a world we live in where you can describe a drug addicted thief prostitute as "angelic" ...
@@mojojojo3141 One where critical thinking is becoming more and more common and prejudice more rare, except for your case ofc. Were people do their dilligence in order to understand addiction and once they have a full grasp of how that demon works, they show EMPATHY because It does not discriminate, it’s killed the poor, the rich, the middle class, the woman, the man, the kid. Today you could be here looking down on this kid and tomorrow you get in a car accident, you get opioids pescribed because you cant bare the pain and bam, just like that you’re on your way to his position.
@milosjovic2803 ego kills ones self slowly- I notice that you are well on your way.
LOVE IS THE KEY - WE ARE BUT ONE🙏💗🗝
@milosjovic2803 What a world where showing compassion and sympathy is ridiculed by garbage attitudes. What. A. Fucking. World. 🗑
@@mojojojo3141I agree.
This dude is so broken but it is clear his heart is so pure. Hearing his story is utterly heartbreaking and he talks like he has no idea how strong he really is. The fact he is still going and able to tell his story with such honesty is amazing. If he was able to get clean he would do wonderful things
Nobody’s heart is pure. There is no good thing that dwells in man, apart from God. Or we would not need a Savior.
@@painmt651 Shut the fuck up bro. Take your fairy tales somewhere else.
@@painmt651true, but I think what he meant was that Kenneth has such a sweet spirit, and wants so badly not to be where he is right now. He’s seeking, a great place to start, hope is not lost. I’m praying for you Kenneth, give it all to God, it’s time for a “full” surrender.
@@painmt651or you know maybe it doesn't have anything to do with the thousands of gods people have created.
Kenneth for some reason I stumbled upon this video and I will be Praying for you 🙏 you hang in there and you have a purpose God is with you
I'm not sure if Kenneth will see this comment but i must say, outof all the deep heartfelt interviews I've seen on this channel, this is the first interview that has stopped me in my tracks and brought emotional tears to my eyes. I see something special in Kenneth and i am definitely praying for his strength. I seriously hope he makes it.
I’m glad you see something I don’t !!! I see an annoying person that thinks it’s ok to snicker and laugh over stuff that’s NOT funny !! He’s a dumb kid that’s hit rock bottom but is to dumb to realize it yet. Sadly - he won’t last long
Kierra thank u for the support !! I had woke up the next day regretting the extent I had opened up and how vulnerable I was but that's selfish. I wanted to be as honest and transparent as possible
@@kennethflauding your frankness, honesty life and interview were meaningful. I wish you clarity and a better life. I hope you get trauma counselling for the rape.
@@kennethflauding you're not alone dude, 27 myself and the benzos opiates and amphetamines have ruined my life. Should be a certified youth worker by now but drugs came first and I'm in a similar situation. The benzos are the worst.. if you ever need to talk bro I'm in Australia but would love to add you and be able to speak on some app, you're not alone brother 🤍🤍
@@kennethflauding your story reminds me of my son on so many levels. Hearing you say you had to put on a totally different persona bc of where you lived- this is something my son struggles with. He feels so different and isolated he self sabotages. He started smoking weed when he was 12 with his father! He smokes everyday and has done other drugs quite a bit 😢 it comes from a place of feeling so alone and that this is all that makes him feel better (drugs)
I pray you find self worth in expressing yourself exactly how makes you feel the happiest, drugs won’t ever bring you the peace and acceptance you’re looking for. Please remember you’re worthy of true peace and happiness. I see so much of my son in your story and I truly wish the best for you ❤
I’m amazed at Kenneth’s emotional intelligence and introspection. Such rare qualities, especially in someone so young. If someone sponsors him, I have complete faith that he can become sober and make an incredible life for himself.
yeah me too
I'm addicted to soft white underbelly. These videos are hard to get through sometimes especially because I'm an ex addict and I can relate to most of the people on here. But reading the comments and seeing all the people that start go fund me's and sending prayers ita really inspiring. Mark you really are changing the world one video at a time, one picture at a time. Thanks for letting these people tell their story and bringing awareness to what's going on in the streets of the greatest country in the world
You're never an ex-addict once an on addict always an addict once an alcoholic always an alcoholic and I've been clean and sober for 20 years
Not true at all
Thank you Mark for being you and all that you do
After watching these videos you really think that is the greatest country in the world?
This kid is so bright and self aware..I hope he finds his way to the other side. I am praying for you, Kenneth!! ❤️
Well..... if he continues without wanting treatment.. he will ending like every others.
Can’t express in words how much I relate to you. Gay boy from Carolina who programmed myself to pass as straight. Started in 1999 dropping X at a rave the first time to the 2010s injecting meth and being institutionalized over and over, throwing my life away every few months. The only reason I’m alive is my sister. I went and got my masters degree in counseling. You can have your masters in special Ed. I know you can!!!! I believe in you and so will so many others. The 12 steps are a useful support group to many, but they are not treatment. They can be a helpful tool but therapy is what saved me, not the support groups. Therapy is my 4-course meal and the support groups are the parsley on my entree. You’re young. You have soooooo much time to achieve your purpose. You can do this. You have to decide you are DONE !!! Again, I believe in you! ❤
I am weeping! I can tell how smart you are. You’re referencing both 12-step model ideas and researched addiction theory. Sometimes ppl who are more intelligent struggle with the 12-steps being their only Avenue of recovery. Think of each technique, each support group, each book or audio you read/hear, every new lesson gets thrown into your recovery backpack. You don’t have to only be a 12-step success. If it’s not working after years of trying, try other avenues while maybe keeping 1 foot in that support group world. You know what you need to do. The hallucinogenic drugs are NOT FOR US!!! We don’t get to dabble in those. You know that’s what triggered your lapse so let that fascination go. You are destined for your purpose. But also, don’t get caught up in being so important. Make other ppl your focus and make them important. If May not happen the way you imagine your purpose. Make being useful to others in all areas your purpose, both in career and in every day life. Being a helpful sibling, child, friend. I know you can do this. And all that shame you feel and all that drama that is buzzing around you like a tornado ……it could be 3 months, a year, maybe less before you will barely even be affected by it. But you have to stop using. I believe in you. ❤❤
Agreed, Kenneth needs to get sick and tired, of being sick and tired.
Hey, my brothers main addiction is alcohol. You said you're alive because of your sister. How can I be the sister to my brother that she is to you, so maybe he'll stay alive for me?
parents divorced i was in grade 3, i was expelled from primary school in grade 6 and moved to my mother who stayed out of town, i started smoking cigarettes and weed, i went to see 4-5 different Psychologists for therapy afterwards and none of them could help me or should i say i just never opened up . i was expelled again in grade 10 and moved back to my home town to my father, i dropped out of high school shorty failing twice i just decided no more, im done with school, i didn't want to be that guy who was made fun of for being in grade 10 for 3 times inn a row. a few years go by an i was introduce to Crack "rocks" got addicted until my money ran out, went back to just using weed and cigarettes started saving for a motor bike to have my own transport atleast find a job, then i some how found my self addicted to Ketamine, i was at my friends house and his cousin sniffs Ketamine, he has offered if i want a line on many occasions where i declined out of my own will, one night i decided to join in and i now i was hitting Ketamine everyday to a point where tolerance was so high for the ketamine i decided to get a bag of meth from my same dealer i was buying the ketamine from. i was crushing the meth and snorting it, my money runs out again and im back square one which now has turned into smoking it with a glass pipe. im at my all time low and i mean lowest and i cant find myself putting it down and saying no and use every little bit of money that comes my way to get my fix of meth that i look forward to even though i know fully well I'm almost 30 and throwing my life away more and more with these same stupid patterns i keep repeating. i look back i can see everything that has taken place, each event that happened and its as crystal clear as this meth my puffing. I went threw alot of stuff as a very young child and it all makes sense to me as if im reading a book chapter by chapter, i know why i have all this hate inside, all this anger and sadness i was probably around 9-10 when it happened, i was treated as if MONSTER my stepmother even approaching me with a knife threatening to kill me or call the cops to fetch me i remember all of fighting between my stepmom and father about me, i knew what i did was bad but how could a 10 year old know any better? but in my head im automatically programming into my system im a Monster and what i did was horrible and i hope no one ever finds out my dark evil secret which has forced me to develop this self defense shell to shut myself off from everyone my whole life even. when my step mom moved in shortly befor all these events took place she had a 3 year old daughter, my step sister who i love dearly and we get along today even like good friends, i used to touch her sexually very inappropriately, no penetration just like foundling and touching only. but in my head pretty much grew thinking i was a rapist or child molester. i have forgiven myself and moved on for what i did i was legit 10 years old even younger, i often found myself wondering in my mind and wondering why i did those things, why did i touch my sister sexually inappropriate why did i even know what porn was for 9-10 old, then it hit me smack in the face more dark memories which i had blocked out for so long, they started to surface and it all makes sense so clearly, i remember my older brother used to touch us the same way me and my twin brother when we much younger befor mom left. i haven't told any one this befor iv kept it to myself all this time not opening up to cytologists etc. sometimes i wonder if i should speak to my parents and show them hey i find out why I'm soo messed in my head. but then i think to myself my older brother is going to look like the bad one who caused all of this? how will mom a dad react, my older brother might break down and cry and knowing he touched us inappropriately and i dont feel any anger or hate towards even though he has a part to play in this im not angry at anyone but myself for keeping this bottled up tthis, then i even get the sudden thought where did he learn it from, what if he was touch by someone when he was younger. damn this goes so far back and soo messed up sometimes i don't know if its worth talking about to them, i have become my own Psychologist and the drugs is how i self medicate and now i know i have no dark secrets to worry about I'm not a monster or sexual predator LOL.huge weight lifted off me mentally i do feel alot better being able to understand what happened .all these events that took place effected me soo badly and effect my mental health big time especially revolving around sex being a dark uncomfortable topic for me growing up, example i only lost my virginty when i was 20. i still think the damage is done im still the same person always have been cant change the past and the years iv thrown away wasted i feel better getting this off my chest but i doubt ill be happy i still have this self hate for my position im in. THANKS FOR LISTERNING TO MY STORY AND PLEASE DO GIVE SOME ADIVISE HOW CAN I MOVE FORWARD WITH THIS SISTUATION AND MY LIFE AND IMPROVE MY METAL HEALTH AND ADDICTION DISORDER.... YO KENNETH YOU GOT THIS HOMIE I BELIVE IN YOU AND U GAVE ME THE COURAGE TO TALK ABOUT MY METAL PROBLEMS AND ADDICTIONS THANK YOU FOR BEING SO BRAVE ! AND THERE NOT A THING WRONG BEING YOU EMBRACE IT MY BROTHER IS GAY AND I SUPPORT HIM FULLY AND MY WHOLE FAMILY DOES! WE ALL SUPPORT YOU
@@tanjakorevaar1354don’t EVER give up on him ❤
This is so real. Goddamn.
You’re right mark. People have gottten clean off fentanyl. I’m one of them. I was on fentanyl and carfentanil and every benzo under the sun. It can be done. I will pray for this young man.
Opiates have always been my thing. I've been on suboxone now for a few years. I can't get off of suboxone, but I keep trying
@@maggiebrooks2550 same here, I’m down to 2 mg a day so I hope soon I can be free.
Good on you! You’re an inspiration!
@@maggiebrooks2550i also get subs, it helps but sometimes i wonder if id have been better off just using them for a few weeks at a super low dose. I worry about the mental part of getting off, just the feeling of taking a piece of a sub everyday and going about my life is nice. Although im healthy and not getting high im still just as addicted as ever ya know.
@@maggiebrooks2550 How much are you on? I'm on it too, but very slowly tapering without any issues or withdrawal. I only go down a fraction at a time and don't go down again for two months. I'm on such a small dose now and hear the end is the hardest. I'm glad I have a clear mind now and don't care if it takes me two more years to finally get off of it. You can do it.
I'm an IV drug user. By the grace of God I have 4 weeks clean as of Monday! 🎉
I used to speed ball. Everytime I put the needle in my arm I would have to call my boyfriend who is 16 years clean and tell him "if I don't call you back within 10 minutes, called 911 and send them to my house. My door is open". It's a sad life. My boyfriend is 20 years older than me and he's been my rock. NOT my enabler I drew inspiration from 😅. When I first met him, I went into rehab. within three days I was back using. I put myself into a week-long detox. The very day I got out I was using. It took four years in me finally sharing about that drink that's going around that scared me enough after I shot up one day and they found me in my front yard to finally quit and now with prayer and meetings and the grace of God I'm clean four weeks.
Sorry about not using my punctuation
👍 4 weeks is a big deal. Good for you. Stick with it. And just remember…you ain’t missing nothing. I been using over 20 years now and ready to give it up. I’ve even weaned my own self down from 2 grams a day to k my using .03 for the last 10 days. I hate fentanyl. I love heroin, but the party’s over. There’s no more heroin and fentanyl doesn’t have that touch of euphoria like heroin does. You just get a lot sicker a lot faster and it doesn’t feel as nice. Ur just knocks you out.….and now with this tranq sh**!? F THAT! Yeah, you ain’t missing nothing. Keep on keeping on sister. 👍
Shit, one day is a fkn success, so 4 weeks is awesome! Keep it up 🙏
4 weeks is a miracle!🎉 I am so proud of you. It gets easier, sometimes harder again, and then easier again, u just have to push through it NO MATTER WHAT! I couldn't get 4 days nevermind 4 weeks.. it took me 7 years. I'm blessed to have 14 months ❤ Congratulations love 🎉
Congratulations love. Keep going, you're stronger than you know ♥️🙏🙏
Praise God ❤
This is the best interview, I hope he gets the help he needs. He can make a difference in so many lives.
He’s so honest- it’s refreshing!
I pray for him!!! And his recovery
Mark’s compassion brings out the best in these interviews. I wish Kenneth could see the acceptance. He is trying to resist the hold of the drugs. He is right-society doesn’t deal with addiction adequately. I so hope he can find a way out-he has so much beauty within. It was good to hear of Rebecca. I miss her.
when is Rebecca mentioned?
@@benWTL 9:00
@@benWTL Mark and Kenneth spoke about her, you must fell asleep, because they sure talked about her, mark and Kenneth said she was a great person, but self destructive!!!!!!!
😮😮kk😢gb🎉rrrtf. 🎉re
Yeah he pads their ego and aides their victim mentality. Cause the longer he keeps em talking the more content/views
The first thing I thought was this guy has incredible potential. I can just feel it in my bones. I have a feeling this is just temporary for him. He has great things to do❤
I hope so thanks
@@kennethflaudingHi, I recommend Graceland Ranch which is a sober living in a huge mansion in Agoura Hills, CA. It’s run by recovered addicts and they care more than most rehabs who are about the money. If you’re serious about getting sober they will hold you accountable and be there for you. After this interview I’m confident you could find a way to raise the money required to go. Do you feel ready to give up drugs is the thing. Housing alone won’t do it, you need to address the addiction or nothing will work.
He needs to be a model
@@DMRJ53 Fr he would be so good❤
Its so gut wrenching hearing him giving people who aren’t helping and harming him the benefit of the doubt as if they’re good people :(
@@LubberKing Yeah most of these drug addicts are monsters and deserve all the suffering that comes upon them. Some get caught up in addiction and get genuinely good people but you can tell who is who
@@DrpeprWhere did you get all your education and info about drug addiction from!??
@@LubberKing same as any victim and these people do read these comments, what would you rather be said “please give up because no one would believe you and you’re a monster in our eyes” are you serious?
If those are your opinions on these people why click on them at all? A desire to push someone to suicide?
@@LubberKing my point is why click and hear someone’s outlook on their life if you’re already going in with a closed mind and heart? What’s the point of listening?
What a beautiful, well spoken human being. He has a light in him still too that shines out. I do believe there is hope for Kenny. Bless his heart and his journey.
Kenneth, as someone who’s been an educator for the last 35 years, I know how to tell from a mile away whether someone is a born teacher. You are a BORN TEACHER, Kenneth! I am so proud of you for being brave enough to share your story, for caring so much about special needs children, for caring so much about younger gay boys who will need you - I’m just so proud of you, period! Please don’t give up; I know it’s so hard right now, and please know that I am right there with you in spirit. Please remember, you are worthy and there is nothing to be ashamed or guilty about - you are a blessed child of God and being an addict doesn’t change that at all, not one bit. I believe in you and I am PRAYING MY BUTTOCKS OFF FOR YOU!!! 🙏🙏🙏
I know, right! And the fact that he knows it is his calling...so impressive. While a lot of us still do not know what we want to do with our lives (I'm in my forties)
I relate to this a lot. I am well educated and always thought of myself as an intellectual. The drugs, however, definitely got ahold of me. I have been to AA, NA, psychiatric drug rehab, hospials, etc., and I still struggle with these things. The road is long, and I agree, it is hard. I got faith in you brother, we can do this.
Hey Anthony. I can relate to your comment alot as well. I noticed one thing that wasn't mentioned in the list of things you've tried. Assuming that opiates are the drug of choice- if not, then this won't apply. But if so...
*Please* consider MAT (Medication assisted treatment).
There's still a persistent stigma surrounding MAT, despite the fact that it's the method with the highest success rate in treating opioid addiction. And it's what I used to free myself from fentanyl's hold on me. I know I couldn't have gotten sober without MAT, and not just sober, but also capable of functioning in everyday life while not feeling unalive. Feeling normal. MAT saves lives.
Same here. I've never been homeless, but I've finally really had it for the last time. I'm actually leaving the day after tmrw. Every other time I'd already be thinking of ways to get out of it, stipulations that I had, etc. But I've been so unhappy, I lost half of a molar finally (this has been an almost 9 year rd- luckily I have just 1 misdemeanor) and I can say that I know, w absolute certainty, that I'm done. BTW, congratulations 🥰
Intelligence doesn't mean drugs can't catch you.b
I should of been dead from overdoses several times and I made it. Addiction depression and emotional issues are very hard but you can not only live but have a decent life.
@@maryshaffer5675 no shit
Oh dear Kenneth, You have more than one purpose in this world. It is so clear by watching this interview. Whether it's to be a vessel for good for those with developmental disabilities, or to bring awareness to the misunderstood issue of addiction, or anything else you feel called to do-- you have a purpose..Bless you and I will be waiting for an update.
YAAAAAAAAAA!!!! so sensitive kind polite... what we need in world... so pure... please dont corrupt yourself with your thoughts in loop!
you've got to appreciate him & his character type for HONESTY & for spontaneity--it's actually refreshing seeing someone unthinkingly say things most filter out or wouldn't say out of 'fear' . . .
I started doing drugs since my teenage. Got addicted to meth for over 23 years. Also suffered severe depression and mental health problems. It's just amazing how psilocybin mushrooms treatment saved my life honestly from meth addiction, depression and mental health problems. 6 years clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here. and mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on this planet i wish people would all realize. they could solve a lot of problems, more than just mental treatments, environmental clean up; the possibilities are endless with fungus.
Hey! Yes very sure of Dr.alishrooms. a single dose of shrooms saved me from Alcohol addiction. 6 years clean. no cravings. this doesn't sound weird to me in any way shape or form.
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms.Lsd and psilocybin are amazing teachers along its dmt mah dudes have safe trips all. Shrooms are blessings from nature.
I've done microdosing for help and it works does cut depression out its been the best remedy I've ever had psilocybin been illegal is actually a crime against humanity
Does he ship? Can he deliver to me here in Norway 🇳🇴
He has more insight than most sober people. I hope this story has a good update and i hope he’s able to see all these positive comments and know he’s not alone.
Out of all the interviews this one hits so close to the heart and home because he went to school with my niece and nephew! Kenneth we are sending you healing and guidance as we are watching your interview. You are still so young and you can beat the addiction. You have your whole life ahead of you. Whatever bad mistakes you make today, remember tomorrow you can start over again. As long as you are breathing you can fight it. Please find help and find yourself again kid. It's so sad seeing young people go through this. They need love and support and good people around them.
Praying for you Kenneth! You can do this. We are all rooting for you
I can't believe how handsome & friendly this young man is. I see nothing but potential in him to do whatever he wants that will get him far & successful in whatever that is he chooses to do. I really hope that happens for him. He seems like a really nice young man. I wish him all the luck in the world.
I started bawling when he said “I think God has a place for me.” He does - sending you so much love
I'm so heartbroken!! and Kenneth, you are in my prayers. I have a young adult son with Autism/ Psychosis, and we face daily challenges. We need people like you in the special needs field. I can hear in your voice how BIG of a heart you have. I lost my father to addiction, and I pray that you receive the proper professional help to get you through this and get better. I hope we can see a future video of you overcoming your addiction. Tell your story and accomplish your dreams of working professionally for Special Needs. Please!! don't give up. Keep fighting🙏🙏
Rooting for you Kenneth!! You've got this! God has a plan for you and you are so very capable. Can't wait for the update interview of you being sober and thriving! You can do great things.
Dear Kenneth:
Child of no less than starlight.
My heart aches in solidarity.
You have such beauty.
We, the empathetic witnesses, see you- and hold you with such kindness.
You are loved.
Through the darkness and the waves, you are loved ❤
This is beautiful and full of love ❤
What a beautiful guy. It's a shame how you can be absolutely crushed by drugs and homelessness in the most powerful and rich country on earth.
$23T in debt isn't a rich country.......$ backed by nothing isn't a rich country......mass drug addiction, whoring, and crime isn't a rich country.
@@waykiwayki facts.. people just people sounding dumb af lmao
@@waykiwayki it's actually rich if You can get away with doing all that, plus owning most of the World's Media and being able to invade any Country seen as an Enemy
@@waykiwayki forgot all the mass killing n homicides pmsl the place as cancer my friend period. Iy will go lile the Rome's did n crumble wit a bit of luck. Couldn't pay me to live there .
@@akubuirocharles3390 I that stuff is from the joos....1950s america was such a great place....70s too......all gone.
My heart breaks for this sweet soul. Sending all my love and light to you Kenneth. I'm a recovering opiate addict. Almost 8 years clean. It's possible sweetheart. Don't give up.
As an addict this is so relatable. You got this dude, I relate so hard to your story. I believe in you and I have hope for you
What a heartfelt self realization this person has. I just have such love for his spirit even though I’ve never met him. He is such a sweetheart and such an intelligent thoughtful human. Truly wish his goals come true, as hard as that journey may be.
He's higher then a damn kite in this interview. Wait until your see him as a fiend
@@TingTingalingy he is able to think straight when he is using. You have no clue how addiction works
@@sgq_.h you're a junkie apologist. With no clue about me or what addictions i may or may not have.
This is the first time I’ve watched the story of an addict and my heart truly hurts for him. No one deserves this torture. I pray this young man can break through this addiction.
I live 2 doors down from the place I first did meth. I'm 5 years clean. I have dreams often of using. Miraculously I haven't relapsed in 4 years. Tonight is a night where I wish I was using. It's hard to explain that to someone who isn't an addict. When you get clean it's great but it doesn't fix the root of the problem. I'm still hurting but I learned how to love myself without using hard drugs. Idk. I feel for Kenneth. I feel like I am a version of Kenneth. We have a lot of work to do to reach our potential. We'll get there. We can do hard things.
Sometimes it feels like there's no end to the misery, but out of the clear blue what seems like an eternity,a fog gets lifted and little by little one can get a bit of peace that will literally unleash your gateway to the right track. Then you'll know. Hold on to that feeling like grim death
If you're a struggling addict, I hope you get the help you need. Kenneth, you are not alone. Like Mark said, there is hope for you. You're not a waste of a vessel. If Kenneth doesn't see this, I hope at least one struggling addict does and knows that they're loved. From one addict to another, I love you. Recovery is possible. ❤️
Kenneth taught me something about my own humanity while I was watching this video and I’m going to take it into account and grow because of what I learned watching you. You’re not a waste, and you might not have reached your full purpose yet, but you are definitely on the way and you’ve provided a lesson to me today, so thank you Kenneth. I really hope you get well!
If you see this Kenneth, I just want you to know that I hear you, I see you, & I support you. I know your pain well. It has given me the opportunity to now work at a SUD treatment facility & devote my life to others who also share your pain. You're absolutely right; you ARE a person, & you are worthy of respect, trust, honor,& dignity. Keep pushing forward & please dont give up. You got this. ❤
I really hope he gets better, he has SO much potential. I’ll be praying for him.
I ll pray for him too 🙏🙏🙏
What a beautiful soul. So articulate and intelligent. I see him getting clean and having a beautiful life leading and helping others just like him. Praying he decides sooner than later
I'm addicted to this channel. It tears you apart but is true and genuine. All the stories are heartbreaking. Thank you for showing humanity in purest form Mark. It has changed my perception of homelessness and addiction ❤
He really helps us understand what addiction is and how it is not the person's fault.He is such a lovely soul still shining through all the crap.He knows his life purpose.I believe with the right treatment he will get clean.I notice how much people need to be listened to and release their pain.Supports needed.Compassion needed.When he gets clean he will really make a difference in this world...
It's a disease!
But with treatment available.
Well actually it IS a person's fault that they became addicted. I would like to hear more addicted people give advice to others not to even TRY drugs or alcohol, then there would be no addiction. I deal with persons on meth, and they will give up everything for a high, meanwhile destroying their bodies and minds. Bless this young man, I hope he finds his way. There are many who have so much to give to the world, ruined by drugs.
Addiction is brutal. My brother is off the rails just like this beautiful intelligent kid. It’s so hard to quit benzos and fent. Treatment has to be restructured and revamped. We need long-term inpatient treatment facilities that give people at the very LEAST a year to detox physically and mentally from the drugs AND THEN address all the trauma they racked-up during active using.
#Dagmar Ramgad 100%
And the trauma underlying it
Yup it’s the system
100%!!! Well said!
Not gonna happen, who you think creates these drug markets mane
I can see the life in your eyes Kenny! You go break through this…. I don’t know about addiction but I do know real people. I am a fellow special Ed teacher… we need people like you! Sending you love and I hope you get that God moment ❤
Edit- just watched til the end and sent up a huge prayer for you dude. I don’t usually watch the whole interviews but you drew me in. Wish I could hug you lol. Godspeed !!!
What does god say about gay people?
Kenny is gonna definitely read this virtue signaling message from you. You forgot to say in your edit to kenny: "You got this!"
@@kmlumd44 oh Scotty G. You woke up and chose hate today! Godspeed to you too.
@@CallmeMaurice717 Oh Marie Lynn shut the fuck up. Scotty G is absolutely right.
@@kmlumd44 true
As an aside, that picture you took of Kenny is model material. While I know that modeling life may be full of self doubt and other sort of toxic behaviors, I want Kenneth to know he is positively beautiful and his addiction hasn't taken that from him, I hope to see him on magazines some day.
Magazine photos, many are touched up...are a cheap imitation of who we really are.
Being a model is the very last type of job or activity this young man needs . Being flaunted and used as a model on a magazine cover is so superficial . He doesn’t even believe in himself as a person let alone an example of beauty. He should be actively on a road of recovery and sobriety . He would be perfect as a toke model of a recovered drug addict . A spokesmodel for turning your life around . A gay man who has changed his life for the better and use his story as an inspiration to help others’ . The last thing he needs is being a model in an industry that drugs are around every corner and at your disposable . He has so much going for him , I hope he can become sober and be a great “ MODEL “ of sobriety and a drug free lifestyle . Than maybe he can pursue his career as a fashion model
He’s too white to be a modern model
That's exactly what I just said to my husband. Kenneth is very photogenic. He's also a kind soul. I hope he finds true happiness.
@@louismedina8136 I love how u worded this and appreciate u taking the time, thanks
I've been approached by the industry but never had interest knowing how toxic it is and how fucked up I am. I didn't get to talk about it but if he invited me for an update is love to share my experience with eating disorder and body dysmorphia
There's still so much hope for Kenneth. With some of the other interviews on here it's really hard to see a viable path forward, but not here. Smart, thoughtful, and articulate. Hope he learns to fight harder for sobriety and MAKES IT HAPPEN! You got this!
I am balling crying, Kenneth is not that much older than me and he is someone who I would love to be friends with, he is a pure soul who has unfortunately been influenced by peer pressure and “social norms”. I pray for him and his future because if he can get through the drugs he will make a huge influence in the world.
Ugh, this poor sweet little baby, I will pray for him too 🥺 I really hope he survives and conquers his addiction one day and he can have the beautiful life he deserves. I just wanted to give him a hug the entire interview.
This young man is so genuine speaks from the heart and sounds like he’s a brilliant person and has a brilliant mind. I hope he finds his way to some sort of recovery and that he chases those dreams of his. He just needs to believe in himself and he’s absolutely right nobody chooses to be an addict they made me choose to use a drug for the first time but then after that it’s no longer a choice. It is a disease. I hope you do follow up videos of Kenneth I would love to know how he’s doing. I wish them only the best and I hope he gets to where he wants to be and uses all that potential inside himself
I love it when people take a moment to actually digest the question, "What's the most important lesson that you've learned?". Prayers out to this universe and beyond for you, Kenneth. 💛✨️
This boy breaks my heart. Kenneth you are loved. Thank you for sharing your story. People need to hear your story. You are a beautiful human and deserve to be healthy and whole
I really hope you’re helping him in any way that you can because he’s one of the few that truly does not want this life but just doesn’t know how to get out because of addiction. I really hope Kenneth will be sober one day soon and love the life he deserves ❤
“one of the few”?? the majority of addicts do not want this life.
Most addicts do not want to be addicted.
My heart breaks for this young man 💔 I just see so much pain on his face and in his voice. I pray he gets away from the drugs and gets his stuff together 🙏 because when he does he'll be a force to be reckoned with!
We are rooting for you kid. You got this!!!
No one is rooting for this dumb junkie
But Mark, didn't bleep out his privacy!!
You are a very gentle and sweet soul Kenneth. Addiction is an absolute nightmare. Gabor Mate speaks about addiction in a way that helped break my cycle. Stay strong, you are loved!
As a mother of a 19-year-old son, this just breaks my heart 😢 I wish I could hug Kenneth and just try to give him as much comfort as a mom could give a child that’s hurting. I just prayed for you and will continue to do so every day from now on. I’ve struggled with addiction too and I know how hard it is but you can overcome it. It’s not easy but you can do it. God bless you Kenneth and I pray you will be given the grace to get through your sufferings and come out alive and find meaning in them.
“un poquito” 💔💔💔💔 such a darling boy!! i don’t know you, but i love you!!! my heart goes out to you. i have faith that you will overcome this and follow your dreams xx
I can hear and feel his genuine sadness. I hope he is able to break free from the prison of his addiction and self destruction. ((Hugs))
Kenny seems like a really great guy who is super smart. He admits his wrongs he knows what he wants but struggles. He is willing to get help but slips up. I truly believe this guy will get it together and get sober and stick with it. Praying for him. You can do it Kenny. Make your own luck.
Prayers, Kenneth. You have so much potential especially to those young kids who need a loving person in their lives.
This guy has the purest heart. You can see his soul is damaged. I pray he finds the help he needs and the purpose to get sober. 🙏
Praying for you, Kenneth 🙏
The pain and sadness in his eyes and in his voice really stick out in his interview. He seems like a very smart person who has a kind and gentle way about him, and I'll pray that he can eventually find his way out of the darkness that he's trapped in. He reminds me of my cousin, also named Kenneth, but my cousin lost his battle and took his own life a few years back. Hopefully he can turn things around and fulfill his purpose in life 🙏🤞🙏
I don’t usually get emotions but this one has me in tears. I have been there buddy. It is so hard to think straightforward or even imagine how you can get clean. But there is hope. I hope you can find the inner strength to get help, call those rehabs every single day. You have to know you are worth it So so worth it. Good luck❤
I haven’t cried after watching many of these videos until watching Kevin. His heart is so pure and he is so strong, and he would be the most amazing special education teacher. My heart and prayers go out to him.
His name is kenneth...just ìncase u pray for him
Who is Kevin?
Kenneth
This is heartbreaking. I’m here to understand addiction more and say that our society desperately needs mental health support for everyone who has addictions and homelessness. Thank you for being completely vulnerable. So much compassion and hope for you.
God is with you Kenneth. I'm 3 min. into the interview. I'm from the area you are from. I'm a grandmother for many years now. And as soon as you said where you are from, God filled my heart with love. I started praying for you immediately. Then I read the heartfelt comments in the comment section of this video. I'll pray you get your God moment.
My heart absolutley breaks. What a kind soul. I hope he gets better
What a powerful interview. There is redemption out there. Please seek it. You're beautiful, educated, and have so much to offer this world!
Kenneth, age 27 was the last year that I drank and it was the hardest. I’ve been sober for 16 years. There’s a light in you and we can all see it! Sober life IS better life.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporessss
I hope he gets sober…. I bet it’s super hard! But I feel like he can do it! If you see this Kenneth, I’m wishing you the best! And you’ll feel so much better once you get past the hard parts of detoxing… it’ll be worth it in the end ❤
I want to hug you! You’re not a waste! You really touched my heart, please don’t give up. You seem like a bright person, fight this fight to heal and get sober.
xx
I can’t with this one Mark I can’t. Thank you for giving him the space to express himself, he needed this. Praying for this young man.
Same.
Kenneth, I'm little, but I am a gay man who heard your story. Im currently fighting my addictive behaviour to cope with my past trauma. I HEARD you, I KNOW your story (bc it's similar to mines),I FEEL your pain, and I LOVE you for showing me who I do not want to become. I WILL always remember you and the lessons I learned from your beautiful life filled with tribulations and heartbreaks. Thank you for being my light by showing your darkness.
"thank you for being my light by showing me your darkness' wow, powerful
@kennethflauding I felt you needed to see this man's words of love. I pray you will weather the temporary pain to permanent health, my love
This is one of the first videos of addiction where I see the pain of the addict. Kenneth knows what sobriety holds and there’s nothing worse than being loaded AND knowing the program. I’m an addict and I remember that pain. Every relapse, every return to the ER, every day with the uncontrollable DT’s and long sweaty nights that lasted for what seemed like weeks…that’s the pain he’s feeling. The God forsaken rat wheel of addiction. Yes Kenneth, it is misunderstood but not by those of us in the program. WE understand it just as you do and that’s why WE is the first word of any 12 step program. You never do it alone. Addiction made me eventually withdraw and that’s an ugly, lonely place. It’s something you have to almost physically shake off of your skin, it’s so lonely. But it’s the WE that tells our addiction to take a back seat. It’s the WE that tells the committee in our head to shut up and listen. It’s the WE that can accept the choices we used to make, are not the same choices for today. And it’s only today.
This kid has it; you have it Kenneth…so kick it in the ass and WE can be sober together! Luv you brother in sobriety ~ DW So Cal
You seem like you understand . Would you be interested in talking to me about recovery and how to go about this my mom died a couple months back it’s just me please let me know @denisewestern4139
You’re not misunderstood in AA or NA Kenneth. You’re with fellowship, you know recovery is possible. One day at a time. Praying for you
I relate a lot with you Kenneth, we have the same addictions and you’re not alone in your struggles. Thanks for sharing your story and helping me see that I’m not alone. Being a younger addict can be very lonely and often times I feel hopeless.
Definitely said a prayer for him. He has so much honesty and potential.
Kenneth seems really nice and like a good person. This is so sad because someone like Kenneth doesn’t realize his own beautiful potential. I could see him doing amazing things. Hopefully he can break the grip of addiction. We all have self-improvement journeys of our own so he is not alone. I hope his road smooths out and he has success!
This is heartbreaking. He understands the program. It’s proof addiction kills and it’s not a choice. Praying he gets back to the program and deals with underlying issues.
It’s good that Kenneth can recognise and articulate that his addiction doesn’t define him…that he’s a *good* person who has value..
Knowing that about himself will certainly keep a ray of the sun shining on him, even through the longest and darkest nights.
There’s a real lightness in Kenneth and I pray he triumphs over his addiction. It’ll be hard, considering this is complex and a neuro-chemical issue which lives in the ‘reptilian’ part of the brain where basic human survival like food, water, fun, and reproduction are ‘handled’…when the need for the high is delivered as equally as the need to survive.
Kenneth, if you’re reading this, I think you have what it takes to turn it around, and I’m wishing you well and sending love from Australia.❤✊🏽🙏🏽
Thank you so much for sharing this young mans story. Please thank him for his vulnerability. He is educating so many, myself included, when public compassion wains. His comment about how it’s so misunderstood is very helpful in re-opening the conversation with so many who have closed the door in frustration. My hope and prayer for him that he can find his way out. I know others who have. It’s not an easy journey but wanting what’s on the other side of addiction more than addiction is the key. Self-worth. 💖🙏
I love you Kenneth! Your honesty, your insight, the fact that you don't choose to blame. You are safe crying in Marks presence, and sometimes it's what we need to feel better. There is a natural "high" out there for you that will surpass any drug you can buy on the street. Your self esteem is depleted. Please do the work, you are worth the feeling of self achievement and deserve it.
Prayers for this intelligent educated and handsome young man to find his way 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Awwwwww.....
He made me cry....im so sad for him
I hope someone who loves him helps him.😢
What this man needs is someone to love him until he can love himself again. Unfortunately he may have not hit bottom yet and that must come before he will want help. Personally I had to use methadone maintenace to get off opiates. I'm still on it but have decreased my dose from 200mg to 80mg. I plan to quit very slowly as in a mg a week for the least withdrawal. I pray for this guy that he won't give up hope and will seek out help. 🙏
Good Luck with it brother. I been using heroin well over 20 years, but recently have weaned myself down, I’ve never been to rehab or on methadone or anything. The party’s over though.There’s no more heroin. It’s all fetty and now this tranq sh** is finally hitting NYC, so I don’t want no parts of it. I don’t even like it. It doesn’t have that dash of euphoria like heroin, and it doesn’t last as long. I’m sure you know. Anyway, over the last 5 - 6 weeks I been doing pretty much like you. I’ve gone from a 2 gram a day average down to .03 a day for the past 10 days. I can’t take too much of the credit as wouldn’t have been able to do this if the heroin was still good, but as it started drying up it kept getting weaker and kept buying the weaker heroin and staying away from the fetty so that helped A LOT. but now that I’m down to .03 a day, idk, maybe it’s more about the whole ritual of using or fear of missing out or something, but I just keep clinging to that last .03. Maybe it’s just something to do. Well, anyway, Good Luck to you. I wish you the best.
Kenneth I have a son the same age as you. Seeing you like this breaks my heart. Please keep trying to get help, you’re an amazing young man, you can do it. I know people who’ve kicked fetty & benzos. Please get help before you OD and break your mamma’s heart.
Prayers go out to you Kenneth! 🙏I can relate to you in so many ways ..You are stronger then this disease they call addiction! You’ve said you’ve been thru the steps before, you just need to make that first step again when you’re ready 🙏❤️💕
Beautiful soul. I will pray for you! Kenneth, your story moved me. I have struggled w/addiction for twenty years. I know your tears and some of the feelings you shared. Please don’t give up and don’t put off getting help because as you know, life is not a given. I guess I just wanted to convey my hope for you bc your share has inspired hope for me! That’s how it works, right? If only we could see ourselves how others see us! A complete stranger can see how amazing you are. Love you Kenneth, if no one has told you today. Do the work. I’m routing from afar. ❤
As someone who has been clean for 4 years now i feel Kenneths pain. Its a not so distant memory. Keep your head up my dude. He so smart. So much potential.
He has so much potential. You can feel his pain and anguish and its heartbreaking. But as a person hearing his story I still can see good in him. he is such a sweet guy. I pray he will be able to turn his life around and get help he needs.