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Quitting The Birth Control Pill one month update WARNING: Very Tmi... sorry not sorry
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Its been a rough month, I've been Living with crippling Anxiety after going off birth control and I wanted to share what was going on with me the last few weeks.
Sorry if this is kind of all over the place, it was 40 mins of me rambling on and off crying cut down to 13 minutes. I also couldn’t edit it very much because rewatching alot of it actually made me more anxious
Also surprise my period came yesterday...earlier than expected which means the Dutch hormone test I took and sent off is no longer useful and I have to redo it at the next appropriate time in my cycle UGH just have to hang in a little longer until I have some answers
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Sorry if this is kind of all over the place, it was 40 mins of me rambling on and off crying cut down to 13 minutes. I also couldn’t edit it very much because rewatching alot of it actually made me more anxious
Also *surprise* my period came yesterday (earlier than expected which means the Dutch hormone test I took and sent off is no longer useful and I have to redo it at the next appropriate time in my cycle UGH just have to hang in a little longer until I have some answers)
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No apologies needed. Ever. Everything you feel is valid.
Don’t apologise for feeling. You are human and it’s refreshing to see you being real. Makes you more relatable xo
Darling, I would definitely have your THYROID checked!! This was me when I was in my 30’s. Turned out I had/ have Hashimotos Hypothyroidism. The thyroid control EVERYTHING! God Bless you my dear! You WILL get through this!! Please messsge if you have any questions!!! I would love to help! ❤️
@@fashionablyfrancie5348 It could be a number of things. One thing you can be sure of is at 37 years female hormones change radically, not sure if it is relevant but putting it out there. In any case after being long term on oral contraceptives messes with your own hormones and it takes time to resolve.
Overall you're right in that thyroid disorder is in the top 5 undiagnosed conditions. It's variable and hard to detect and doctors tend to trivialise the symptoms.
As a solid protective move I'd go off coffee and caffeinated drinks and off alcohol. the latter is a depressant. Then you can gradually eliminate causes. But those stimulate the nervous system and if you get anxiety it's murder.
We need more openness like this on the Internet. 👏🏼 Life isn't just sequins & champagne & laughter 24x7x365. I absolutely don't think you're unhinged or insane, you're adjusting after a major hormonal change and it'll take time to settle. It's easy to say just try and ride it out, but the best you can do is to be kind to yourself throughout this adjustment process. Sending hugs 💕
Caitlin, it seem to me that you are becoming mentally stronger with every personal video you make. Do not give up. Sending you much love
Caitlin, I am so sorry you are experiencing all this. You will get through this. I have been experiencing dreadful anxiety as well lately. I think mine is being caused by the loss of quite a few close family members within a brief period of time and the idea of life being so fragile and short. BTW, I read The Happiness Project and found it helpful. I finished baby books of my four sons because of that book, they are only 35 years old!😀 I was ecstatic to see you were back on YT tonight and I said to my husband I have to go and watch my favorite YT gal tonight. Praying for you! 🫶🏻x
Hi Caitlin, 💕
OMG you are SO brave and strong to share your emotions and struggle with such honesty. I am sure we are many ho recognize what you are going trough. The anxiety about sth very unspecific rings a bell with me. That said, bet it is different for everybody and only you know how it feels for you. 🌷
I hope you feel better soon. Great that you are doing selfcare in a healthy way. Wishing you feel like yourself soon. You are an inspiration for so many people and we all cheer you on.
Sending you love and a virtual hug. ❤️🤗💕
Trust me you are not going insane… I’ve gone through this as well … crippling panic attacks .. still working through it. Day by day is the best way to go ❤
I also suffer from anxiety, it’s so horrible to have to deal with every single day! Thank you for this video Caitlin! Sending you lots of love always! xo
You are helping a lot of people here by posting this. Knowing someone else is going through the same thing provides so much relief. Anxiety is different than feeling nervous (which we all do from time to time, usually about something specific). Anxiety is so very physical. The best description I could tell others is feeling intensely uncomfortable in your own body/skin, and feeling like you have lost your old self and your ability to feel good (and being anxious that you will never get it back). I really feel like there is a hormonal component to female anxiety, but doctors here in the US rarely address or explore the issue. Remember that no matter how painful the anxiety is at the moment, a better day is around the corner. Keep pushing on to find things that help (medication, therapy, etc ). What works is different for everyone.
I also want to add:
I’ve always been a chill person.
But- when I became pregnant, I could have a panic attack for NO reason.
Hormones can be really crazy. And taking your body off of birth control after 10 years can cause some huge shifts.
You are a rational, intelligent human being. I wouldn’t be surprised if this is just your body, trying to find a natural flow after a HUGE change. That can cause some disruption.
Don’t freak out about freaking out. You’re okay. ❤❤
I had pregnancy induced panic attacks as well. Really terrifying and something that I never ever knew even existed!!!
Omg I’m glad someone else has this! I feel like pregnancy and having a baby has made me a bit crazy! I had a boy so maybe testosterone? 😮
@@tannazdolatshahi5142 I only had them with my daughter and I also had restless leg syndrome which I thought was a fake thing!
I am thankful this is on the internet. It's not unhinged and it is very relatable and helps other people click onto what could be happening to them or inspire them to get help. I am glad you mention your doctor's and therapists. You're doing what you're supposed to do. You're doing your best for you. Big hugs.
I feel you… anxiety is something else. And your descriptions were spot on. Here’s to peace ❤
I have been there and still am constantly dealing with anxiety. You are brave to talk about it and keep taking it moment by moment.
It’s horrible what is women have to go through with our hormones. I’m currently going through the menopause and it’s literally been debilitating. I had no choice but to go on HRT and am starting to see light at the end of the tunnel. Stepping away from social has really helped too. ❤
Thank you for posting this. You’re definitely not alone in how you’re feeling although I know it feels like it. I worry and feel anxious about every little thing and avoid situations and people. I work in healthcare and have been on the same ward for 6 years and not one person knows what I go through every day with the anxiety because I hide it well but inside I’m shaking constantly. You have the voice and the platform to help so many people so keep on being you and keeping it real. We need it and appreciate it.
Airhugs. Its amazing how everyone feels like this sometimes and yet we all feel ashamed and try to hide it. Im glad you shared how you felt. I do feel its hormonal. Im sorry you are going through it. I understand not wanting to go down the pills route, I was given the same choice and once I felt better, I am glad I didnt do it but there is no shame in taking them either. Take care of yourself and hope you feel better soon.
sending you virtual hugs! praying for everyone with anxiety 🙏 ... when it seems too much to bear for me, I pray to God to be in control! hope this helps...❤❤❤
Hugs to you !! You are so amazing to share the good, the bad & the ugly. It all has value and makes you so relatable.
Thankyou ❤️
I have suffered from panic attacks my whole life! I am praying for you and I know you will have better days soon! We all have those period of times where the panic attacks are worse! I do think Prozac has helped me over the years to function after my hormones changed with having children. I go through times I worried about when my next panic attack will happen. It’s all so crazy but my life at the same time! There are so many of us going through this too! Hang in there❤
Thank you so much for sharing this. I had my first panic attack in years this past weekend, and it’s really nice to feel like I’m not alone. Things will get better!
You're super sweet to update us on what is evidently a trying time for you. I am in full agreement, it really is brain chemistry from readjusting without the birth control combined with moving from your twenties to your next decade. Your body does decide to do abnormal things and it can go on for months and even half a year or more, but it subsides and comes in waves. Your appetite will change, weight will fluctuate, skin will break out and become baby smooth again. It has a mind of its own, and know this is only a temporary phase. It will pass, and the old Caitlin will be back I promise! The better news is that usually a woman's skin gets better, and you'll have less break outs too! What a relief for us make up lovers! :D
Know it's just your body, and that you're not going crazy. Truly! We always love your content, and appreciate your effort in continuing your channel! Much love 💝
Hang on in there. My assumption (not an urologist) that your hormones need to stabilise for your body to get into a rhythm. When I tried BC it took 6m to get back my stability and that was only a 60 day stint so I imagine that a longer period might take longer. Happy to chat if you need anyone 🙌🏻💜
Thank you for making this video. Ive been getting steadily more anxious since covid started. The world feels upside down and wobbly. Ive been meditating too & it defo seems to help
So sorry you are feeling this way. I used to have really bad anxiety and I realised it was related to me feeling like I was lacking meaning in my life and I’m like I wasn’t contributing enough. I remember you saying before you really like Tony Robbins, I feel listening to him always picks me up again if I’m feeling that way. Hope this passes soon 🙏🏻💛
Caitlin, hugs my love. If you’re actively making an effort and you recognize the depth of where you are, you’re not going crazy. Anxiety sucks, it’s definitely crippling and what you’re saying makes sense. I love that you’re getting so many test to get to the root of the problem. I guarantee you’re helping lots of people, and that includes me. We care far more about you than your handbags; I’m glad you shared when you didn’t have to.
I'm sorry to hear you're going through this, I can relate and it's not a fun place to be.
Hi Caitlin! Thank you for sharing these feelings, I think it’s so important that we put them always out there for the people that feel alone in this. It’s important to know that this is actually normal, there is nothing wrong with you and I’m very proud of you for going off the pill, that’s a very difficult decision but, trust me, that’s the best thing you could do for yourself. It’s very difficult for your system to go back to a self regulating pace after being on a hormone pill for a long time so just be patient with your body and understand what it’s going through. Be sure that we understand exactly what you’re going through and be thankful for the effort your body goes through to protect you. It will pass soon, I promise 🤞🏼❤️
Caitlin, it is brave of you to be so open and vulnerable-I haven’t read other comments, wanted to share my first thought. If your anxiety continues, you and your therapist should consider medication. I know you are trying to go without meds, (your decision to stop birth control pills as an example) but there are no prizes awarded for taking no meds. The probably over used example of a diabetic needing insulin and the idea that everyone accepts the med as needed could apply to you. Carefully monitored medication can change your life in a positive direction. I urge you and your therapist to consider it, and you do not owe your you tube followers an admission or an explanation!!!
Caitlin you are just human. It’s ok to feel crappy at times. It could totally be your hormones. It is hard to be a woman but it also is fabulous. You are seeing a therapist and figuring this out. But please if you need medication do not be so hard on yourself. Whatever you need. And if you need to cry, please cry. It makes sense to me. You got this. Wishing you the best. I will pray for you my love.xoxo
I know it's a difficult subject to speak about & I commend you for ur transparency, and coming unto this platform to discuss such an important topic. For many years I have experience anxiety & I do alot of praying... .. Thank you for speaking out ....I want you to know you are not alone ---- and that I will also pray for peace of mind & strength....GBU Caitlin..💜
I feel whith you!! I know exactly what you're going through. Hugs 💞
Don't try so hard to get rid of the feelings, it makes them stronger.
This is something I’ve been struggling with terribly the last few months. I used to get anxiety here and there and was for certain reasons like going in an MRI machine or being in a small elevator. Now I get it every single day out of nowhere. I really think it’s hormonal, (I’m post menopause and have a goiter on my thyroid). I’m going to see an endocrinologist. You are not alone. 1 foot in front of the other and thank you for being so brave to tell your story!! You are helping so many. Hormones plus real life things can cause so many issues. I’m here if you need somebody to talk to.
Hi Caitlin everything will be okay, thank you for sharing i think everyone have anxiety but don’t think too much , sent you warm greetings and hugs ❤
I am so sorry for you. I know what you are going through. I had a HUGE issue back in 2002. It was so hard to do anything. I wasn't scared about any one thing I was just anxious. Period. Morning, Noon and night. It never went away. I so didn't want to take medication. Then, a doctor told me...trying these extra things..meditating, book reading, momentary drugs, like xanax. That these are all like life preserves...they keep you above the water, but they don't reel you in. I started to take something and I started to work full time (I had been a stay at home mom and/or worked part time). It went away. I went off the pill, it came back, went on the pill and it went away. I have to say not to be afraid of the drugs I was SO scared to try them. I won't even take tylenol and things like that. I was terrified to try anything. However, that one little pill saved my life....truly. The doctors I have worked with state this kind of anxiety is generally chemical and so trying to find a med really has helped It is literally one of the best things I have ever done for myself. Good luck with you. I know the struggle is second by second. Also...on a good note. There is a quote by Harper Lee that I adore it is: "She was powerful, not because she wasn't scared, but because she went on, despite the Fear". That has always resonated with me. People don't know how hard things can be when you are anxious. However, it takes so much strength. You are more powerful than you know...
Thank you for sharing. I’m on IUD and it never crossed my mind that my anxiety attacks could be related to my birth control. I completely understand how you feel. I always try to rationalize my feelings to see what’s causing it but sometimes I can’t and I feel like I’m going crazy. I haven’t shared this with anyone, I have been just so afraid of being diagnosed as a crazy person. There are nights that I can’t sleep just hearing my heart beat so fast. Thank you for sharing it makes me feel like I’m not alone…
Very important to contact help. Whatever that looks like. Homeopathic, fisiotherapy, acupuncture... Just start somewhere. We all deserve help we all deserve not to go through hard periods alone.
Yes we are still with and will always be here to listen anytime ! Just hang on you will be fine
Oh Caitlin! I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I have been experiencing this the past year and I can understand everything you are feeling and describing. I honestly think there is a hormonal component to it as I suspect I'm going into perimenopause in my late thirties. I was the same as you - always had anxiety but it was manageable and about real life stuff. Now it's just anxiety about anxiety! Don't worry - you aren't going insane- that is one of the most common anxiety fears! I think it is #1 or #2. If you enjoy podcasts I highly recommend the Panic Room and The Anxious Truth - they have made me feel much less alone. I also found the anxiety app DARE (and the book) very helpful. Sending you much strength and compassion ❤️
Sorry to hear that you're going through with your anxiety and wish you the best
Thank you so much for sharing. The struggle is very real.
People who say: "Just don't worry. Choose happiness!" Literally have no idea they're talking about.
Anxiety is a liar and lies to us every single day. Anxiety likes to cry wolf and hates being ignored. It manifests in so many different ways for everyone and you're right-it's a vicious cycle of worrying about worrying.
Instead of asking myself: "Why is this happening to me?!" I take a breath and ask myself: "Why is this happening?" Then, I follow the thread. I try to trace the feelings back to their source to break the anxiety down into more manageable parts.
You're being vigilant and proactive, and everything you're doing is helpful! You got this. Keep going.💕
This just kind of blew my mind because I'm working with an acupuncturist to adjust my hormones to normal and experiencing anxiety also. For the record, I have not taken any type of contraceptive whatsoever in about 15 years. Seven+ years of wonky hormones after having a baby though. I think you're doing a really awesome job supporting yourself through this process. It can take a lot of patience and self-awareness to get past the toughest parts of healing. I pray this anxiety is just a bout of turbulence that soon clears away for smooth sailing. Best of wishes to you.
Caitlin, thank you for being so transparent. Life is tough and so many of us live with battles that are unknown to others. Sending you peace and positivity ❤
I had crippling anxiety 7 years ago 8 months after my mum passed. I went through grief which is bad enough. Oh no came the anxiety morning noon and night its horrendous. I was ashamed this what your doing now is your road to recovery its little steps that get you to the finish line, I didn't express myself like you are now, this, what your sharing is your recovery. I searched and searched to relate to someone and found a girl called wiggly girl who experienced her mental health journey. I want to give you a HUGE hug....😘😘😘❤
Im so sorry it happen to you ( I had this few years ago, because of the stress. It was very hard time, I understand what you are feeling. I stayed at home, was scared to go outside, could not be alone, I thought something bad happens if Im alone and a lot other symptoms. I went to psychologist and was on cognitive behavior therapy. I did not believe it will help, I felt sooo bad. But day by day, step by step, baby steps, I did all therapist/specialist said. And it started go away slowly. Everything will be good for sure, I know it is hard to believe now. Also it can be because of cancellation of medication, which your body is used to. But Im not a doctor, I just share with you my experience and I know how it feels and how not easy is it, but Im sure your doctors will help you. Thank you for sharing your story. Sending you a very big hug, everything will back to normal.❤
I suffer from panic attacks and depression, it was so bad at the beginning of Covid lockdown that I had to go back on meds after being off anti-depressants for almost 23 years. I think what triggered it was going on hormones to control menopause on top of lockdown. Either it had been so long since my last depressive episode or I had blocked out how bad those days were, but when it all started again I couldn't stop crying, couldn't sleep and thought I was going to have a heart attack-it was hell. Hugs to you, it is not easy, sending love to you!!
Bless you sweet Caitlin. I'm so sorry I have nothing to share. Just sending hugs and positive vibes. ❤
I deal with anxiety almost every day and I know that the fear of going crazy is real and can be frightening but it’s not an indication of a problem with your brain, mind, or sanity it’s an indication that your body is experiencing a stress response. Stay way from everything that can trigger your anxiety until you learn how to deal with
It’s doesn’t go way, you just have to learn how to leave with anxiety
You are strong person.., keep reaching for professional help ..I think that one of the best thing you can do to cope with anxiety is learning about anxiety. Sending love ❤️
Hi Caitlin- love from the Kingdom of Bahrain. I have always found your videos very inspirational in a lot of ways- esp now that you are expressing your concerns about mental health. Being a mental health specialist myself has humbly brought to places of uncontrollable vulnerability . I have suffered from post partum depression with my kids, extreme Pre- menstrual syndrome and have had a year long drug induced menopause which almost had me suicidal. Hormones are a very tricky business I tell you for us ladies but everytime I felt I was going that route of anxiety, depression and extreme anger( irritability) I focused on exercise and meditation . It worked miracles for me.
Sending all the strength your way dear- it’s a passing phase and you will be back to yourself soon❤
Caitlin, you are a beautiful soul. My anxiety and depression is closely tied to hormonal fluctuations. Mine spikes during PMS, then sometimes during my period, and again just after my period. I go from paranoia to depressed to anxious and back again, every f*^%ing month.
Sending you hugs 🤗 I fully know what you are going through. I hope you are doing a little better. Be kind to yourself
In the 80s, when I was your age, I had the same exact feelings. Back then, I didn’t have a therapist or even know about the drugs that could help. Anxiety wasn’t even a thing.
Take advantage of the medications that can help you. It doesn’t have to be permanent.
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Completely understand/ I am at 4 years and finally seeing the light and getting back to normality. I hear you though. It’s awful! I haven’t worked or really fine out. Lots of input from psych. Your not going insane. Please seek out a psychologist/psychiatrist if you have to. Please please don’t be hard on yourself. Be kind to yourself and there is always a reason for the way you are feeling. Rule out medical stuff and then try to figure out underlying issues that come out in weird ways. We are all here for you xo
Oh sweetheart I feel your pain! Literally! I don’t send prayers because ….brain! I don’t believe in that garbage, but I am thinking of you and hoping you get through this quickly. Hormones can really do a number on us! So glad you’re talking about this! Reminds people that you’re much more than a label addict! I love your fun personality and your realness! You got this babe! This too shall pass! Eat well, nap, and be around people you trust. Thanks so much for sharing!
Thank you for talking about this and pushing through with making a video despite feeling extreme anxiety. This is probably very helpful to a lot of people going through this who is feeling so isolated right now. I experienced extreme anxiety attacks more than five years ago and feeling so disconnected and isolated because no one seems to understand exactly how I was feeling. Praying you get through this soon.
You are a wonderful person. I am sorry you are struggling. I wish I could send you a hug. I have a child who is about your age who struggles with anxiety and it is very tough. It can get better. Please know you are amazing and not alone. (((HUGS)))
Several years ago I started getting migraine headaches. The headaches were debilitating to say the least and I was living in fear of the next one which in itself would bring on a headache. So I can relate to your experience of being anxious about your anxiety- I would get migraines worrying about a migraine. I am taking meds but I still have to see specialists about the cause of the headaches.
It took me about 9 months to fully adjust after going off the pill but I wasn’t suffering as you are. I hope that the tests will shine some light on what’s going on. Please know we are always thinking of you even if we don’t hear from you in awhile and some of us know exactly what you mean when you describe anxiety.
Caitlin as a person who was on birth control for a long time too, I found birth control masked my anxiety and thats not good so I wen't to counselling and honestly they helped me feel a lot more better about my decision to stop birth control and my health, i can whole heartedly say anxiety when it's bad is very much the same as the baby blues (im a mum and experienced this first hand) it can make you cry for 3 whole days, Caitlin you can do this stay strong
Hi hon, I think there are three things you need to research on RUclips. You may have the severe form of PMT which is PMDD. There are many women who go through it and it is so severe before periods. However, I think some women have managed to somewhat control it through natural treatments. I find that hormones are virtually impossible to control BUT I also don't think I have considered all the options. There is an app to monitor PMDD symptoms and it produces a graph at the end of the month so you can see when your symptoms get better or worse. That way, you can structure your life around it because you'll be able to predict how you might feel during a month. I know it's not nice to have to do that but it's better than suffering. Use those days to self-care instead and completely rest. You'll thank yourself for it. Read the reviews before downloading any PMDD app.
Also look up perimenopause. As women's bodies change so do our symptoms.
Another thing to look up is narcissistic abuse. I know you may not be keen to look this one up but it actually takes you out of your insanity. Look at the people you're surrounding yourself with and who you interact with everyday. Whether you realise it or not, they could be toxic and adding to your feelings of insanity so definitely look up this type of abuse. Know how to protect not just your body but also your mind. I hope all this helps. Sending you a big hug. 🤗
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I really relate… its like a constant feeling of high alert and dread of a formless but looming danger that never goes away. You’re always worried, always tense, always waiting for “the thing” you’ve been dreading to pounce on you even if you cant put into words what the thing is. It’s exhausting 😞
Hi babe, hugs. You are not alone. Ive experienced the same thing when I was in my early thirties. Like you, I went and got everything tested. It felt miserable that I couldn't find anything wrong. Meditation really helps but in the end what got me through was just accepting how I felt everyday. I didn't rush my body or mind to feel better. If today I felt like crap, I'd just stay home and meditate or stay in bed whatever it took. of course I still had to get out of bed to work and such but when it wasn't mandatory, I'd just do whatever I felt like. Gradually with time it went away by itself. Nature walks really helped. It took months if not almost a year or two. I forget now but at the time it felt all consuming. Just know the light is at the end of the tunnel. Listening to philosophy podcasts also helped greatly.
15 years ago when I take the first time birth control pill, I go through the same anxiety trouble and thought to become crazy. Hormones have a large influence on our mind. I can tell you, that you won't become crazy. During this time it helped me to know, that its always my life and at the end I always decide by my own. I stopped then taking the pille and take another one- this helped too. Few years ago I stopped completely birth control by pille and had a short struggle. Today I am fine and have no anxiety anymore- just the normal craziness. You will do it also 🍀 and you are not alone with your struggles.
Hi Caitlin! I just wanted to say what my cardiologist said last week: being anxious is an indicator of intelligence and sensibility. That means you are not insane. Hope you get better with therapy :)
There's a saying that I heard and I live by it now, I rather have a short life doing what I love then have a long life doing things I hate, hope you get inspired soon.
Sending you so much love Caitlin xxxx hormones can affect us woman sooooo badly….. I am 51 and went through menopause at 43. Over the next few year my anxiety was so so terrible I she on hormone therapy and anxiety meds and I feel wonderful again ❤hope you can find the right answer for you ❤😊
Hi Caitlin! Praying for you 🙏...I've experienced crippling Anxiety and it's Horrible. Thanks for Sharing ❤
I was nodding the whole time! I have suffered with panic disorder for 25 years. Since I was 28.
Last spring it got so bad I could barely leave the house. I tried therapy, thought I was going insane, my family was all worried.
I discovered Ketamine infusion treatment and it nearly cured me. I feel so much more like my old self, even better than before things went off the rails
Thank you for sharing your difficult experience. You are not going insane. Hormones unfortunately can make you feel like you do. I came to your channel for some info about piercing and stayed for your personality! For the past month, I’ve been checking your channel every day and trying to watch your older videos to pass the time. I’m staying 😊 Pills never worked for me, I was putting on weight or having periods that lasted for two weeks. After many years I decided to try IUD, mostly because of my problems with anemia. The first ten months were a nightmare, I started having cramps with my period so strong I have never experienced it before in my life! After some time, it got better. Until it stopped working and now, I’m back to square one with another IUD. No pain this time, but my hormones made me a crazy bitch for a week, then a crybaby for the next one. Now I’m having my unhappy, stressed, and exhausting period. I know it cannot last forever; we just have to survive the worst part. Stay strong!
sending lots of love! nothing lasts forever..these feelings will pass. i feel anxiety quite often and I try and distract myself from it and keep going..sometimes i have a break down every now and then. It is good that you have tried to get some help..i think that is something i have personally struggled with as i dont like talking about my struggles to a therapist as it makes me feel overwhelmed and keep it in...which is probably not helpful for myself longterm!
To balance hormones naturally and to ease the cycle rollercoaster into a kiddy ride, try Evening Primrose Oil morning and night for a month, then weekly for maintenance. Also, when you feel anxious go outside to be in nature to get grounded and do The breath techniques and/or meditation outside.
I’m so very sorry. Please stay on top of it and remember this too shall pass.
I tried birth control two separate times. It made me extremely depressed, borderline suicidal, I had debilitating headaches that made me unable to get out of bed for days and I gained ten kilograms each time. I am not taking this stuff ever again.
Hi Caitlin after I had covid this happened to me i suddenly became very anxious for almost no reason . Covid can exacerbate anxious feelings you already have it can make you feel like your going insane and you just don't know why. Have a Google there are plenty of us that have gone through the same thing. It will pass eventually. X
Trust me Caitlin you are not going crazy. Brave of you to share this. I had a major anxiety attack many years ago. Where I could not leave my house or get in my car to drive. It gets better with time and I forced myself to get back into real life. When I feel it coming on I say I can get through it and it will not kill me. Guess what it doesn’t 😂. Keep yourself busy and it WILL get better. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽………🤗🇨🇦❤️
😢 I understand in a way. I haven’t filmed in awhile. I am still obsessed with my bags but am in a weird moment and encroaching on personal topics for the public is KEY and awkward and not sure how it will help me or not. My channel is more bags not me so not sure anyone comes to my channel to hear about me vs stuff.
Aw gosh Caitlin I had been missing You ❤ sending lots of love to You, hormones seriously can cause so much havoc! 😢 then having anxiety on top too is so so hard. Hang in there girl 💪🏼 well done for always being so honest and open on here, I can’t imagine it’s been easy at all! I hope Flynny Boy is giving You lots of cuddles 🥰 sending You Hugs xxxx
I’m like the person who took a shower and had a panic attack, shits real. Sucks. I’m so sorry you’re going through this
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Yep, you pretty much described general anxiety. For me it feels like a complete conflict in your mind, but for no logical reason at all. Then I start judging myself for being so irrational (which of course makes it worse). Stick with the cognitive therapy, as well as journaling, meditation & light exercise if you can. It took several attempts for me to break through personally, initially it felt like none of it was working & I wasn’t getting anywhere. Hopefully your doctor in Sydney will come up with some answers. I really feel for you, hang in there & virtual hugs.🌺
Sounds just like me. No idea what the anxiety was about, mostly seemed like anxiety about anxiety or anxiety about not “feeling right.” I had the same thoughts about if this would land me in a psych hospital. I tried everything but felt trapped and ultimately went on an SSRI. One year later I’m better than ever! (Also tend to struggle related to my cycle and think part of it may be PMDD.)
Caitlin, support for you from miles away.
*big hugs* It does get better, there are ups and downs, slowly the ups out weigh the downs.
Caitlin, I have been concerned about you. I am so glad to see your post.
Sending you well wishes and love!
When I realized that hormones plays a primary part in a woman's brain and body changes, I understand myself better and I am more forgiving of myself now. I would feel guilty of how I think and feel and it added to my persistent worrying. I would always say I'm just a worriwart but nope I didn't know that I have been managing my stress and anxiety all these years. It does not do well to entertain your mind too much so I'm practicing relaxation techniques that works for me.
I suffer from anxiety. You seem to have free floating anxiety, which is common among women. It's important to share. I've tried to find ways to control my anxiety. I cannot meditate because I can't sit still and focus. I take medication but it only lessens it somewhat. You are not alone in this. I'm in America, and Americans don't acknowledge emotional issues as much as they should. Recently, I've been following Ryan Holiday on youtube.
It does help. Please don't think it's just you. I'm writing and listening to you at the same time. I have found that medication is helpful because you need to be able to function. The ironic thing is that we get anxious about "nothing."
I have always had panic attacks when I'm stressed- however over the last month they just happen daily for no apparent reasons, I will wake up with one , especially if i have a short nana nap.
So many of us are going through - especially the heightened feeling of mental un- wellness being at an all time crescendo you are not alone. Xx
Hey.. going through this right now, so bittersweet to see someone going through exactly the same thing as I am.. What helped you most with this? Definitely hormonal with PMDD that's not getting better in the last couple of months. Thank you for sharing this video with the world.
Hi Hon., you’re not on yr pat malone anxiety is real accept it for now & be kind to yourself. Everyday is a good day, sometimes there’s no definitive rhyme or reason “our hormones hold us to ransom” especially whilst yr body is finding it’s own natural rhythm. Sending gentle hugs, take care. 😘🙋🏼♀️💐
I think many people have a period where they have this intense anxiety. For me it was in 2018. It will get better or at least manageable given that you seem to be proactive about therapy and mindfulness. You are definitely not going insane. I hope now you shared it publicly and remove any need to “put on a face”, that you’ll feel a little more free. Hopefully it will pass soon but I am certain at least with this intensity it will pass 🙏 It’s always there for me but now it’s a mild itch instead of being a constant bitch
I dealt with crippling psychotic depression and active unaliving thoughts since I was about 7 ( when I started puberty) until my early 20s.
I went on a couple types of birth control but went of them due to them making my symptoms worse.
I do have have multiple hormonally based things wrong (and they show up in my genes including 3 for infertility and an inability to process progesterone correctly) so my ablation and the rod have smoothed things out. Unfortunately that means the ADHD is really showing itself.
Good luck to you.
I so get what you are talking about. It’s hell but it passes. Breathe slowly, exercise outside, distract yourself, don’t take any caffeine. You aren’t crazy and your brain needs some chemistry change. You will get through this, please consider medicine. You are really suffering and you can be helped. Good luck❤
Definitely understand. Surely follow through with your Healthcare providers.
Hi Caitlin, I take 1000 mg of vitamin B-12 and helps lots to keep anxiety at bay. Hope you feel better soon! 😘
Caitlin, please take care.. as you mentioned, you have been on birth control for the past 10 years. It will take abit time for your body to get used to it. Just hang in there.
I was just thinking about you earlier today! Glad to see you back & wishing u all the best in getting through this 🤞❤
I haven't gotten very far into your video so there's a chance I might edit this....Anxiety is a tricky little bitch. Sometimes, you'll have something in the very back of your mind, you don't know what it is until it decides to show itself, but that may very well be where your anxiety is stemming from. Yes, sometimes it's painfully obvious but sometimes it's not. I suffer from it to. I have meds but I only take it when it interfers with my sleep, OR if it's just so bad I want to rip my skin off and run for the hills.
Caitlin. Sending you my warmest hugs and prayers.
Lots of love to you huni 💖
Take the meds!!! I fought against everything & taking them until my 40’s. They have changed my life!! If you needed heart medication would you take it? Yes!!! It’s a real thing to need help with brain chemistry & dopamine. You can’t damage yourself trying them. I got depression from every contraceptive pill I was on. I’m very sensitive to hormone changes & how it affects my emotions. Here if you need to chat (or a coffee as I’m in Adelaide) xx
This is me every month💔, some days I am woken up by a random panic attack, it's horrible.what helps me is to track my cycle, a few days before my period I take prescribed anxiety medication to help me manage it
Hi dear, I hope you feel better soon.
I have struggled with anxiety for my whole adult life and have been on anxiety medication for the last 10 years but even with being on medication when I went through hormonal changes such as pregnancy and breastfeeding I have had to change my medication/dosage many times. I at times tired to go off medication but my chest pains were so intense it was unmanageable. I had a lot of shame and guilt about staying on medication during my pregnancies but the doctor explained that it’s a serious disorder and that the mothers health is most important and poses little risk to the baby. They wouldn’t recommend a pregnant mother who is diabetic to stop taking insulin and anxiety is no different . I know you aren’t pregnant so this doesn’t apply but if you have any shame or are stressing about going on medication than please don’t cause yourself undue torment. Do what’s best for you in your situation and try not to worry too much about your worrying.
Hope you find time to vlog in Scotland. Would love to tag along on your adventures.
I hope so too!