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I don't think you should be embarrassed about your experience with the psych ward. It's something you needed to do and you may not be here otherwise. It might not be a high point in your life, but it' still a part of it. 😊 I think i've had depression for a long time but wasn't really diagnosed until about 5 years ago and was put on medication. I had bad thoughts at first on them and had to take time off work.I'm off the medication now but i was on them for quite a few years and it did help a bit in the lowest times. Glad it's helping for you and thanks for talking about it! Makes people know they're not alone and that sometimes people do feel this way and really struggle. ❤ i hope things get a bit better for you soon!
2020 was the peak of my life so far, It was the best and happiest year I ever had, in spite of the pandemic, since then it's been spots of good and showers of bad, bad things. I almost wrote that 2022 was the best year I had, because I thought it was only two years ago that I felt happy, time really has become so convoluded to me, 4 years ago! Either way I still live, my mother always reassures me and instead of saying it will get better or time makes it all better like most do, she always says that we can get through this, that together we can push through the hard times. Honestly I've always felt I can make it better on my own, but that is only because I've always had that support and people always tell me to talk about how I'm feeling and eventough I do it hasn't changed a bit. I have at least had the luxury of a very flexible workplace, and a boss that has a LOT of understanding, but still everything just feels gray. I'm still just in chapter 3 of Infinite Wealth because I caught myself not enjoying it as much anymore. I'd still call it one of my favorite games but I can't bring myself to play it, it's the same with LAD Ishin. I excercise quite a lot and eat healthy like people say is good, but the gray remains. BG3 is the one thing that is currently truly keeping me engaged it is the one link where i can get a sense of colour in my life. People say it's easy to feel good, "just do things that are good for you and have a positive mindset". Those people either don't care enough about themselves, the world or anyhting for that matter, or they ar in a blunt denial, a denial alike to someone being brain dead. This might be harsh wording and I'm not sure why I wrote all of this, eventhough we have completely different situations, I've buried my visit to the psych and have pretty strong opinions about mental health, but still I feel that I could relate in some ways, and... there was more but it's just so muddy I'll end it here. thanks.
Very sorry to hear what you're going through. I'm a relatively recent fan thanks to your RGG content (twitter then youtube). I think the times lately have been so rough on most of us. I can relate on on a low level with you about just not wanting to do anything. I'm at a turning point in my life where I'm struggling to find my purpose and whether it's worthwhile. But as you said it all comes and goes (good and bad days). And getting the right meds really makes a world of a difference too. Trudging through is what really matters and it's good to hear you're coming around to acceptance. It may always be there, but you're also here.
"Hard times make strong people", i passed my whole childhood felling enxiety and depression, i was diagnosed with ADHD in a really young age, people saw that as freshness of me, i didn't feel nothing i talked to nobody, i just stayed in my own little world of games and pornografy, but was until i meet Jesus in a local Church of mine (Im Christian), i've never been soo happy in my whole life i finally had friends who cared about me until i was abused by a Church "Brother", after that i was put again in that depression and loliness seeing everyone as hostile,but i decided to continue living happily,not wasting my time with sad things but knowing that a better day would come. So don't bring yourself to go into the black hole of depression, be happy that you can live another day,you can see friends and your parents again, live knowing that one day everything will pass and you will live the happiest life you ever lived.
I don't think you should be embarrassed about your experience with the psych ward. It's something you needed to do and you may not be here otherwise. It might not be a high point in your life, but it' still a part of it. 😊
I think i've had depression for a long time but wasn't really diagnosed until about 5 years ago and was put on medication. I had bad thoughts at first on them and had to take time off work.I'm off the medication now but i was on them for quite a few years and it did help a bit in the lowest times. Glad it's helping for you and thanks for talking about it! Makes people know they're not alone and that sometimes people do feel this way and really struggle. ❤ i hope things get a bit better for you soon!
2020 was the peak of my life so far, It was the best and happiest year I ever had, in spite of the pandemic, since then it's been spots of good and showers of bad, bad things. I almost wrote that 2022 was the best year I had, because I thought it was only two years ago that I felt happy, time really has become so convoluded to me, 4 years ago! Either way I still live, my mother always reassures me and instead of saying it will get better or time makes it all better like most do, she always says that we can get through this, that together we can push through the hard times. Honestly I've always felt I can make it better on my own, but that is only because I've always had that support and people always tell me to talk about how I'm feeling and eventough I do it hasn't changed a bit. I have at least had the luxury of a very flexible workplace, and a boss that has a LOT of understanding, but still everything just feels gray. I'm still just in chapter 3 of Infinite Wealth because I caught myself not enjoying it as much anymore. I'd still call it one of my favorite games but I can't bring myself to play it, it's the same with LAD Ishin. I excercise quite a lot and eat healthy like people say is good, but the gray remains. BG3 is the one thing that is currently truly keeping me engaged it is the one link where i can get a sense of colour in my life. People say it's easy to feel good, "just do things that are good for you and have a positive mindset". Those people either don't care enough about themselves, the world or anyhting for that matter, or they ar in a blunt denial, a denial alike to someone being brain dead. This might be harsh wording and I'm not sure why I wrote all of this, eventhough we have completely different situations, I've buried my visit to the psych and have pretty strong opinions about mental health, but still I feel that I could relate in some ways, and... there was more but it's just so muddy I'll end it here. thanks.
to me feeling like and talking about this isn't necessarily sad, it's a way of being that goes alongside feeling sad, happy, angry, etc.
I'm sorry for writing and sending all this. Especially if it made things worse for somebody.
Very sorry to hear what you're going through. I'm a relatively recent fan thanks to your RGG content (twitter then youtube). I think the times lately have been so rough on most of us. I can relate on on a low level with you about just not wanting to do anything. I'm at a turning point in my life where I'm struggling to find my purpose and whether it's worthwhile. But as you said it all comes and goes (good and bad days). And getting the right meds really makes a world of a difference too. Trudging through is what really matters and it's good to hear you're coming around to acceptance. It may always be there, but you're also here.
"Hard times make strong people", i passed my whole childhood felling enxiety and depression, i was diagnosed with ADHD in a really young age, people saw that as freshness of me, i didn't feel nothing i talked to nobody, i just stayed in my own little world of games and pornografy, but was until i meet Jesus in a local Church of mine (Im Christian), i've never been soo happy in my whole life i finally had friends who cared about me until i was abused by a Church "Brother", after that i was put again in that depression and loliness seeing everyone as hostile,but i decided to continue living happily,not wasting my time with sad things but knowing that a better day would come. So don't bring yourself to go into the black hole of depression, be happy that you can live another day,you can see friends and your parents again, live knowing that one day everything will pass and you will live the happiest life you ever lived.