i so so so appreciate your honesty, in talking about your experience with your family and with how much life fucking sucks. it really feels our society has just become more and more detached from reality in recent years, shifting into this fantasy world where everything is always sunshine and rainbows. and it's not!!! our world is a complete fucking disaster in so many ways and it's so maddening to see so many people with their heads in the sand. sending you so much love 💓💞
I'm sorry this is happening to you. I had a friend face a manic episode and it was not fun to say the least. You can only do what you can and you certainly are not the bad guy when you hit the limit. I hope your sister gets better.
i've literally never related to a video more. i'm currently living within occupied palestine, halfway through an animation degree (that i can't afford), unemployed, dealing with a fractured household & numerous other things. and you're right, being alive fucking sucks!!! i'm watching distant loved ones & my people try to survive through a genocide & i'm supposed to just.. send in job applications/create "art." it's insane. thank you so much for your honesty about your family. i wish you & your loved ones nothing but the best. i really do hope & pray we all collectively get through this!!!
I had a very similar family experience to yours, and it also kind of eclipsed as the new year started. The difference is, I do have resentment towards the elderly family member I now have to take care of, as they mistreated me as a child. The situation seemed insurmountable; every little effort from me was met with hostility, to the point when I cried multiple times a day just to let it all out. I came to the same realization, though, -- that I don't have to pause my life, that it may even be the worst desicion I could make for myself. I found a job, get put of the house more and am finally able to breathe. This month started off on a low note, but I can feel myself healing every day, building healthy boundaries, respecting my own feelings. Everything is just a lesson it seems, so I wish you good luck. Respect your experiences, learn and move on. ❤
I wish you good luck as well! I know we can get through this, and I hope we can both remember that as things progress. I'm hoping your life continues to get lighter and lighter
@@NeidaTeresa thank you! I wish you the best as well. 😊 Hope your sister gets through this rough patch safely, and that the year only gets better for the both of you from now on.
i enjoy hearing u talk i think we are bestie neighbors in another lifetime i’m so sorry that this is happening to you i relate to you regarding this dilemma of building a role for yourself outside of your role in the family in ur twenties but for a totally diff reason being strict saudi muslim household man this shit sucks
I’m so sorry you’re dealing with such a difficult time right now. I’ve been on your side of a manic episode/being The Family Fixer (oldest and only daughter vibes 😩) and I’ve also been the one having a mental health moment of crisis. Being The Fixer is always hard because sometimes you have to just let shit play out however it’s gonna go for YOUR OWN self- preservation and the guilt that initially comes with it EVEN THOUGH you’re aware it was the only and right thing to do. I’m here if you need a third party to vent to. Love you down and pray things move more positively for you going forward. Also sending love to your sister, because I get what she’s going thru & know how healing support can be.
@@NeidaTeresa You’re more than welcome. You’ll come out on the other side of this not only stronger, but also wiser. Often times, we are so caught up in the chaos that we don’t see the lesson The Universe is trying to teach us. Recognizing your feelings of guilt, allowing yourself to feel it, and then accepting how you feel could be what you’re supposed to learn here. Caring for yourself is NEVER an act of selfishness in a negative sense. If you’re not caring for yourself, you simply can’t effectively help anyone else, no matter how much you want to. You’re so much stronger than you believe you are, dear one. Of that I’m certain.
I cannot even imagine the fear you both felt when you called for help and instead go another road block. It’s not fair the burdens some people have to take on, but just know that you are such a light in your sisters life and you should be so so proud of yourself for all you have overcome ❤
I'm on record as not seeing what the big deal with streamers is, but as your video went on, I kept finding little busywork things to do alongside you instead of stopping the video to get up and moving on. I like your energy. I found your channel because ACOTAR rant reviews are my guilty pleasure, and you stood out because you're able to balance intellect and emotion and aren't ashamed to admit when you stan things, but you're centred and focusing your sunshine with a laser beam. Life sucks! My foster-dad died a bit over a year ago. He was the first person I ever really trusted, which is still a very small number. But when he died it was like something in me broke. I got this sense of like, "Nobody's coming to rescue you. You're on your own now." And since then I've focused as much as possible on being an artist and making money off the things my disability leaves open to me. I feel bad for not being an informed citizen, not going to protests, not fundraising, not... anything. Because I'm the only one left to dig myself out of poverty, or my brain says so, so almost every minute not spent on taking care of myself or my family is spent working. In terms of mental health, a support group for people who have family or friends with bipolar disorder would probably help a lot. There will be other people who know the codependent tango. If you dial 2-1-1 on your phone, that's the hotline for community and social service resources. It should be local to you, and they'll be able to tell you if your area has a mobile mental health crisis team or something similar that's a good alternative to police. Even if the police ARE there, it can help to have someone trained to liaise with the cops who can help advocate for you.
I felt exactly the same when my dad passed away. I'm really truly sending you luck in diggin yourself out of poverty because WOW does it suck to not be able to care for yourself while others in the world so easily can. Also thank you for the 211 tip! I think I'll call them in the morning even just to see who I might be able to call if we ever need support for my sister again in the future.
I'm gonna go ahead and complain. Before I complain I love your videos. Im sorry life is rough. My step-dad is dying and we used to be really close. We stopped speaking for awhile when he relapsed. He kept reaching out to me and I brushed it off now he's dying from stage four cancer. Idk how to feel. It's complicated and weird. I was fucking devasted by the news. He's the closest thing I've ever had to a dad and now he's dying. We're getting closer again but it's horrible because it's only going to make his death so much worse. My abusive biological father has gone blind and I feel the obligation to him now. I'm fucking mad I can't just ignore him. It's difficult to unpack all of this and I don't want to do it.
I see your complaint and I'm holding space for you in this difficult time. I hope you can find some mental and emotional peace, even as you grapple with what's happening to your father(s).
ik this is coming from a random stranger but im sorry that this happened to you. i dont have any experience of dealing with family members that go through manic episodes, so i obvious cant empathize with what youre going through. but i hope things are slowly looking up, and that youre taking care of yourself/ have people looking out for you. the part where you said that people need to talk more about how just life sucks in general. hollllyyy shit i felt that to my core. as someone whos still not in the workforce its kind of terrifying looking at the state of the world rn. its justs a very frustrating/depressing/confusing/daunting time to be alive in general right now. and im glad that youre talking about it because i never knew i needed to hear more ppl just complaining about the world in general lol.
i so so so appreciate your honesty, in talking about your experience with your family and with how much life fucking sucks. it really feels our society has just become more and more detached from reality in recent years, shifting into this fantasy world where everything is always sunshine and rainbows. and it's not!!! our world is a complete fucking disaster in so many ways and it's so maddening to see so many people with their heads in the sand. sending you so much love 💓💞
I'm sorry this is happening to you. I had a friend face a manic episode and it was not fun to say the least. You can only do what you can and you certainly are not the bad guy when you hit the limit. I hope your sister gets better.
i've literally never related to a video more. i'm currently living within occupied palestine, halfway through an animation degree (that i can't afford), unemployed, dealing with a fractured household & numerous other things. and you're right, being alive fucking sucks!!! i'm watching distant loved ones & my people try to survive through a genocide & i'm supposed to just.. send in job applications/create "art." it's insane.
thank you so much for your honesty about your family. i wish you & your loved ones nothing but the best. i really do hope & pray we all collectively get through this!!!
I had a very similar family experience to yours, and it also kind of eclipsed as the new year started. The difference is, I do have resentment towards the elderly family member I now have to take care of, as they mistreated me as a child. The situation seemed insurmountable; every little effort from me was met with hostility, to the point when I cried multiple times a day just to let it all out. I came to the same realization, though, -- that I don't have to pause my life, that it may even be the worst desicion I could make for myself. I found a job, get put of the house more and am finally able to breathe. This month started off on a low note, but I can feel myself healing every day, building healthy boundaries, respecting my own feelings.
Everything is just a lesson it seems, so I wish you good luck. Respect your experiences, learn and move on. ❤
I wish you good luck as well! I know we can get through this, and I hope we can both remember that as things progress. I'm hoping your life continues to get lighter and lighter
@@NeidaTeresa thank you! I wish you the best as well. 😊 Hope your sister gets through this rough patch safely, and that the year only gets better for the both of you from now on.
i enjoy hearing u talk i think we are bestie neighbors in another lifetime i’m so sorry that this is happening to you i relate to you regarding this dilemma of building a role for yourself outside of your role in the family in ur twenties but for a totally diff reason being strict saudi muslim household man this shit sucks
It does suck! But I hope it can get better (I have to hope in order to survive). Thank you for commenting! I'm sending love
I’m so sorry you’re dealing with such a difficult time right now. I’ve been on your side of a manic episode/being The Family Fixer (oldest and only daughter vibes 😩) and I’ve also been the one having a mental health moment of crisis. Being The Fixer is always hard because sometimes you have to just let shit play out however it’s gonna go for YOUR OWN self- preservation and the guilt that initially comes with it EVEN THOUGH you’re aware it was the only and right thing to do. I’m here if you need a third party to vent to. Love you down and pray things move more positively for you going forward. Also sending love to your sister, because I get what she’s going thru & know how healing support can be.
Thank you for this! I always love reading your comments and I appreciate this one so much
@@NeidaTeresa You’re more than welcome. You’ll come out on the other side of this not only stronger, but also wiser. Often times, we are so caught up in the chaos that we don’t see the lesson The Universe is trying to teach us. Recognizing your feelings of guilt, allowing yourself to feel it, and then accepting how you feel could be what you’re supposed to learn here. Caring for yourself is NEVER an act of selfishness in a negative sense. If you’re not caring for yourself, you simply can’t effectively help anyone else, no matter how much you want to. You’re so much stronger than you believe you are, dear one. Of that I’m certain.
I cannot even imagine the fear you both felt when you called for help and instead go another road block. It’s not fair the burdens some people have to take on, but just know that you are such a light in your sisters life and you should be so so proud of yourself for all you have overcome ❤
Thank you so much, I really appreciate this
You really killed me with the Sock enby misogynist representation
I'm on record as not seeing what the big deal with streamers is, but as your video went on, I kept finding little busywork things to do alongside you instead of stopping the video to get up and moving on. I like your energy.
I found your channel because ACOTAR rant reviews are my guilty pleasure, and you stood out because you're able to balance intellect and emotion and aren't ashamed to admit when you stan things, but you're centred and focusing your sunshine with a laser beam.
Life sucks! My foster-dad died a bit over a year ago. He was the first person I ever really trusted, which is still a very small number. But when he died it was like something in me broke. I got this sense of like, "Nobody's coming to rescue you. You're on your own now." And since then I've focused as much as possible on being an artist and making money off the things my disability leaves open to me. I feel bad for not being an informed citizen, not going to protests, not fundraising, not... anything. Because I'm the only one left to dig myself out of poverty, or my brain says so, so almost every minute not spent on taking care of myself or my family is spent working.
In terms of mental health, a support group for people who have family or friends with bipolar disorder would probably help a lot. There will be other people who know the codependent tango.
If you dial 2-1-1 on your phone, that's the hotline for community and social service resources. It should be local to you, and they'll be able to tell you if your area has a mobile mental health crisis team or something similar that's a good alternative to police. Even if the police ARE there, it can help to have someone trained to liaise with the cops who can help advocate for you.
I felt exactly the same when my dad passed away. I'm really truly sending you luck in diggin yourself out of poverty because WOW does it suck to not be able to care for yourself while others in the world so easily can. Also thank you for the 211 tip! I think I'll call them in the morning even just to see who I might be able to call if we ever need support for my sister again in the future.
I'm gonna go ahead and complain. Before I complain I love your videos. Im sorry life is rough. My step-dad is dying and we used to be really close. We stopped speaking for awhile when he relapsed. He kept reaching out to me and I brushed it off now he's dying from stage four cancer. Idk how to feel. It's complicated and weird. I was fucking devasted by the news. He's the closest thing I've ever had to a dad and now he's dying. We're getting closer again but it's horrible because it's only going to make his death so much worse. My abusive biological father has gone blind and I feel the obligation to him now. I'm fucking mad I can't just ignore him. It's difficult to unpack all of this and I don't want to do it.
I see your complaint and I'm holding space for you in this difficult time. I hope you can find some mental and emotional peace, even as you grapple with what's happening to your father(s).
ik this is coming from a random stranger but im sorry that this happened to you. i dont have any experience of dealing with family members that go through manic episodes, so i obvious cant empathize with what youre going through. but i hope things are slowly looking up, and that youre taking care of yourself/ have people looking out for you.
the part where you said that people need to talk more about how just life sucks in general. hollllyyy shit i felt that to my core. as someone whos still not in the workforce its kind of terrifying looking at the state of the world rn. its justs a very frustrating/depressing/confusing/daunting time to be alive in general right now. and im glad that youre talking about it because i never knew i needed to hear more ppl just complaining about the world in general lol.
Thank you so much
I'm sorry the last weeks have been so rough for you. I hope things will stay calmish for now. Sending love❤
I hope so too! Your love is felt and received :)))