"Maybe it's OK, If I'm not OK; cause the one who holds the world is holding on to me. Maybe it's alright, if I'm not alright; cause the one who holds the stars is holding my whole life."
At Camp Voyager, a Jewish camp, I was having a talk with my group: Mrs. Deandra, Mrs. Bethany, Andrea, Wren, Kinsley, Katy, Emmy, Sofia, and Madelyn. We were talking about how God can use bad stuff to good things. Katy was separated from her mom and lives with her dad. If they stayed, Katy would've been in an orphanage. Mrs. Deandra has two brothers: Derek and David. David was arrested for illegal drugs for eight years. If he wasn't in jail, he would've been killed. Wren lost her grandmother when she was in 3rd grade. She'll see her in heaven. I lost my Pop in 2016 on Christmas Eve and in 2018, I lost my Aunt Rachel. She was extremely sick and Pop died of cancer. I lost my tuxedo cat, Miss Kitty in 2014. She pulled her stiches out and had trouble breathing. I'll see them in heaven.
I saw this comment on another video but I’m gonna say it again anyways. Maybe it’s ok if i’m not ok, maybe it’s alright if I’m not alright because it took God 7 days to create the universe, but it took 9 months to create you just think about it you’re very special
DD Ward... God wanted you to write it for me...and people like me who like yourself are/were moments away from the end. I used to be very suicidal my whole life through my late teens through my mid 30s but then I had this beautiful little baby boy and I almost died twice the doctor almost killed me after he was born. I had to be rushed to emergency surgery. My mom was there and she was terrified. I made it through to only have to be rushed to another emergency surgery only days later. That one I was told later that the doctor sat beside my bed through the night because she didn't think I was going to make it through the night when she spoke with me in the morning she had a very Grim prognosis for me and was very concerned which in turn scared me to death I called my older sons father and asked him if I die to please raise my new son, I had my post pastor come and pray with me because I thought I was going to die. But my son is now 10 and I haven't thought about killing or harm myself since which is huge because I've had more attempts then I can count over the span of late teens to mid 30s. I even contemplated killing myself while I was pregnant with my son. But not once since he was born until recently....in fact right before I fond that video I was thinking of the best way to keep someone safe from my dogs when entering my camper. I figured a note to not open but to call 911 and alert them that my dogs do bite so they would be able to proceed appropriately...in fact I was about to get out my diary and write letters to my boys....but then I read what you wrote and changed my mind... I will say thank you for that from my boys...I'm not sure if I'm greatful atm it's just because I've been getting hit her nonstop going on 3 months now from losing my house, my son, (he's in the hospital until early June is his projected release) really really bad deals out of desperation which I'm regretting more and more everyday I sunk everything I had into keeping a roof over our head and I'm going to lose it because the lady lied about the shape it was in and it's not going to last long it's already stranded me twice within a week and I've only had it for a month and the area I got stranded and was not a good area and I ended up having three of my tires slashed with no extra money for that it's just been stupid stuff like that almost every day for almost 3 months now I'm like I don't know what I did for my life to just go in the tubes all the sudden like this but I can't take it anymore I'm broke I have nowhere to park my RV I'm over a hundred miles from my son I can't get to him because my RV won't make it like the lady said it would it's like when do I get a break when do I get blessed here I'm trying to hold on I haven't eaten in days because my gen won't even power my microwave and I asked the guy that traded me my truck for this generator you know will it power my RV he was like sure no problem! But it doesn't even come close. Plus it only runs about 2 and a half hours on a couple gallons of gas so I can't keep my refrigerator running to keep anything to eat because it would just cost to much. But I went to church yesterday for the first time in 6 yrs and I'm trying to keep the faith that God's got this. I laid everything on the alter and left it all in God's hands. So I'm hoping and praying that His time isn't a long time because I don't want my son to not have a rood over his head and no food to eat when he gets back home or should I say back to me. We may have a roof over our head but with no where to park it and no power can't call it much of a home. But I would like to say thank you for sharing😊
hi, just wanted to share my story... I have a bio mother and grandmother whom murdered my grandmother's husband. They served 12/13 years in prison. my bio mom gave me up at seven months old. I went to live with my two sisters not knowing whether their dad was my dad because my bio mom said I wasn't. I was adopted by my "step" Momma. molested by my sister at age six, raped at 15, tried to kill myself after the rape.... got married at sixteen to divorce four months later, married again at 17, divorced again at 19 then remarried at twenty... had my first son at 21, divorced at 23, remarried at 24, had my second son then had my third at 25 I'm going to talk about something very painful for me, but I feel like God wants me to. I want everyone to realize it isn't in our time, but God's. No matter what it is... it is on his time and his time is right on time. I had a psychotic episode/break in November 2014 at the age of 25...... In April 2015 after another episode I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder bi polar type with rapid cycling. The episode in April 2015 was the worst. The doctor's said they couldn't tell my parents whether I would even come out of it then they couldn't say just how well the meds would control it or if I had another one if I would come out of it. They were terrified as was I. I had no clue what was going on with me. I never knew mental illness was real. Wow! Scroll on to 2016... still fighting. Harder than I had ever fought before just to come back.... it was a year before I could go in a store alone, drive for very long, or even be alone. It was awful and very painful for my parents to watch. If it wasn't for their strength and drive to make me better, I would have just died. And, I say that not figuratively. I was given this med and that med and try this one, no that one does this and the other one does that and before I knew it I was 60 pounds heavier and my Dad is taking away butter. I went from this optimistic, fun, loving Mom to this scared little 2 year old that can't leave her Momma's side. Fast forward to 2017... I'm on the right meds, doing so much better, but still not who I want to be yet....I am so tired at this point. I feel like a guinea pig that fell off of his wheel, broke his leg, and it grew back wrong.... ugh! Plus, there were very personal things going on in my life other than mental illness that I was trying to cope with.. and I wasn't coping so well might I add. New year equals change so I decided here goes.... I was going to quit one of my meds... the really important one... I had planned it. I was going to commit suicide. Momma would have Kevin and the boys would be with Chris. I actually thought it out. But... a big BUT.... I decided to get a job and give it a week.... well I didn't have to give it a week. It took two days and I knew my purpose.... I met my wife and Shandale changed my life. She saved my life, literally. She saved the boys from being without a mother, feeling like they weren't good enough, like I didn't love them enough to fight... saved my parents from the pain of their daughter committing suicide. Saved my life.... completely Four days... Four days! I would have been dead and gone forever only if I had done what I wanted on my time, not God's. Four days, four hours, four years, whatever the case may be, It is God's time. Not yours. Don't cut yourself short on this Earth, because life is hard. I know hard. Try not even knowing your own name for days... That's hard... come back from that... so I guess my point is this, no matter what you're going through there is always ALWAYS another way then suicide. God is right there with you, always has been and always will be.... PUSH= Pray until something happens.... don't give up like I almost did. It is almost two years later and I am so blessed with the love of my life and our three boys. It is never easy to stay alive..... But it is worth it! GOD BLESS and prayers for everyone.
I want to hug you, War Sister. It's my experience with trauma that healing comes in waves. Little by little. You think your done and then another season hits where it takes you deeper into the hurt and it becomes another wave of pain needing major healing. Your testimony is beautiful in that you are still here! You are choosing life! You are Gods and wave after wave he is capable to provide and sustain you. He is unraveling your burial cloth because you DD arent dead and he isn't done with you! Not in the least. If the old you saw you now..and if the future you could see just how close you are to your next glories and newer wineskins! You'd hear a heap of cheering going on. Heck I dont know you, and I am. I heard Christine Caine say "The degree to which we are willing to embrace the pain of recovery is the degree to which we will recover." Sometimes I get to a point where I dont know how much more I can bear. But the further we go in him...we all see the joy in his freedom and the beauty that resides as we go from one step to the next. What they all meant for harm- God will use to further his kingdom. The suffering will not have been for nothing and we can celebrate Christ and the fact that because of him none of us are where we would have been if God wasnt with us. Keep Going ♡ You are adding fuel to the passion around you!
Prayer for your life to be used by the Lord as his vessel what the Devil meant for evil God will turn around for Good you just Trust and Believe....Trauma does not Define us all Glory to God....
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This song hits deep ... so beautifully written and true
I love the Lord and he's all holding on to us. I LOVE HIS SONGS I'M NEVER FORGETTING MY FATHER. ALWAYS REMEMBER HIM HE'S YOUR FATHER AND MINE
I'm crying. Thank you for posting this. I'm facing difficulties and needed to hear this message. Growing in Christ hurts sometimes.
"Maybe it's OK, If I'm not OK; cause the one who holds the world is holding on to me. Maybe it's alright, if I'm not alright; cause the one who holds the stars is holding my whole life."
I love this song and I love we are messengers music
Finally a lyric video for this song with the correct lyrics 🤦♀️ thank you.
At Camp Voyager, a Jewish camp, I was having a talk with my group: Mrs. Deandra, Mrs. Bethany, Andrea, Wren, Kinsley, Katy, Emmy, Sofia, and Madelyn. We were talking about how God can use bad stuff to good things. Katy was separated from her mom and lives with her dad. If they stayed, Katy would've been in an orphanage. Mrs. Deandra has two brothers: Derek and David. David was arrested for illegal drugs for eight years. If he wasn't in jail, he would've been killed. Wren lost her grandmother when she was in 3rd grade. She'll see her in heaven. I lost my Pop in 2016 on Christmas Eve and in 2018, I lost my Aunt Rachel. She was extremely sick and Pop died of cancer. I lost my tuxedo cat, Miss Kitty in 2014. She pulled her stiches out and had trouble breathing. I'll see them in heaven.
IT IS OKAY TO NOT BE OKAY THE WORLD PUTS TO MUCH PRESSURE ON US SO I BELIEVE ITS BEAUTY TO NOT BE CRY OUT TO OUR FATHER IN HURT AND IN JOY
I needed this today
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Thanks to RetroFreak 83 for suggesting this song:)
@RetroFreak 83 You're welcome😊
@RetroFreak 83 I'll look into it😊
I saw this comment on another video but I’m gonna say it again anyways. Maybe it’s ok if i’m not ok, maybe it’s alright if I’m not alright because it took God 7 days to create the universe, but it took 9 months to create you just think about it you’re very special
I AM CONFIDENT IN MY FATHER HE IS HOLDING US THROUGH IT ALL
Amen
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DD Ward... God wanted you to write it for me...and people like me who like yourself are/were moments away from the end. I used to be very suicidal my whole life through my late teens through my mid 30s but then I had this beautiful little baby boy and I almost died twice the doctor almost killed me after he was born. I had to be rushed to emergency surgery. My mom was there and she was terrified. I made it through to only have to be rushed to another emergency surgery only days later. That one I was told later that the doctor sat beside my bed through the night because she didn't think I was going to make it through the night when she spoke with me in the morning she had a very Grim prognosis for me and was very concerned which in turn scared me to death I called my older sons father and asked him if I die to please raise my new son, I had my post pastor come and pray with me because I thought I was going to die. But my son is now 10 and I haven't thought about killing or harm myself since which is huge because I've had more attempts then I can count over the span of late teens to mid 30s. I even contemplated killing myself while I was pregnant with my son. But not once since he was born until recently....in fact right before I fond that video I was thinking of the best way to keep someone safe from my dogs when entering my camper. I figured a note to not open but to call 911 and alert them that my dogs do bite so they would be able to proceed appropriately...in fact I was about to get out my diary and write letters to my boys....but then I read what you wrote and changed my mind... I will say thank you for that from my boys...I'm not sure if I'm greatful atm it's just because I've been getting hit her nonstop going on 3 months now from losing my house, my son, (he's in the hospital until early June is his projected release) really really bad deals out of desperation which I'm regretting more and more everyday I sunk everything I had into keeping a roof over our head and I'm going to lose it because the lady lied about the shape it was in and it's not going to last long it's already stranded me twice within a week and I've only had it for a month and the area I got stranded and was not a good area and I ended up having three of my tires slashed with no extra money for that it's just been stupid stuff like that almost every day for almost 3 months now I'm like I don't know what I did for my life to just go in the tubes all the sudden like this but I can't take it anymore I'm broke I have nowhere to park my RV I'm over a hundred miles from my son I can't get to him because my RV won't make it like the lady said it would it's like when do I get a break when do I get blessed here I'm trying to hold on I haven't eaten in days because my gen won't even power my microwave and I asked the guy that traded me my truck for this generator you know will it power my RV he was like sure no problem! But it doesn't even come close. Plus it only runs about 2 and a half hours on a couple gallons of gas so I can't keep my refrigerator running to keep anything to eat because it would just cost to much. But I went to church yesterday for the first time in 6 yrs and I'm trying to keep the faith that God's got this. I laid everything on the alter and left it all in God's hands. So I'm hoping and praying that His time isn't a long time because I don't want my son to not have a rood over his head and no food to eat when he gets back home or should I say back to me. We may have a roof over our head but with no where to park it and no power can't call it much of a home. But I would like to say thank you for sharing😊
hi, just wanted to share my story... I have a bio mother and grandmother whom murdered my grandmother's husband. They served 12/13 years in prison. my bio mom gave me up at seven months old. I went to live with my two sisters not knowing whether their dad was my dad because my bio mom said I wasn't. I was adopted by my "step" Momma. molested by my sister at age six, raped at 15, tried to kill myself after the rape.... got married at sixteen to divorce four months later, married again at 17, divorced again at 19 then remarried at twenty... had my first son at 21, divorced at 23, remarried at 24, had my second son then had my third at 25 I'm going to talk about something very painful for me, but I feel like God wants me to. I want everyone to realize it isn't in our time, but God's. No matter what it is... it is on his time and his time is right on time.
I had a psychotic episode/break in November 2014 at the age of 25...... In April 2015 after another episode I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder bi polar type with rapid cycling. The episode in April 2015 was the worst. The doctor's said they couldn't tell my parents whether I would even come out of it then they couldn't say just how well the meds would control it or if I had another one if I would come out of it. They were terrified as was I. I had no clue what was going on with me. I never knew mental illness was real. Wow!
Scroll on to 2016... still fighting. Harder than I had ever fought before just to come back.... it was a year before I could go in a store alone, drive for very long, or even be alone. It was awful and very painful for my parents to watch. If it wasn't for their strength and drive to make me better, I would have just died. And, I say that not figuratively.
I was given this med and that med and try this one, no that one does this and the other one does that and before I knew it I was 60 pounds heavier and my Dad is taking away butter. I went from this optimistic, fun, loving Mom to this scared little 2 year old that can't leave her Momma's side.
Fast forward to 2017... I'm on the right meds, doing so much better, but still not who I want to be yet....I am so tired at this point. I feel like a guinea pig that fell off of his wheel, broke his leg, and it grew back wrong.... ugh! Plus, there were very personal things going on in my life other than mental illness that I was trying to cope with.. and I wasn't coping so well might I add.
New year equals change so I decided here goes.... I was going to quit one of my meds... the really important one... I had planned it. I was going to commit suicide. Momma would have Kevin and the boys would be with Chris. I actually thought it out. But... a big BUT.... I decided to get a job and give it a week.... well I didn't have to give it a week. It took two days and I knew my purpose.... I met my wife and Shandale changed my life. She saved my life, literally. She saved the boys from being without a mother, feeling like they weren't good enough, like I didn't love them enough to fight... saved my parents from the pain of their daughter committing suicide. Saved my life.... completely
Four days... Four days! I would have been dead and gone forever only if I had done what I wanted on my time, not God's. Four days, four hours, four years, whatever the case may be, It is God's time. Not yours. Don't cut yourself short on this Earth, because life is hard. I know hard. Try not even knowing your own name for days... That's hard... come back from that... so I guess my point is this, no matter what you're going through there is always ALWAYS another way then suicide. God is right there with you, always has been and always will be.... PUSH= Pray until something happens....
don't give up like I almost did. It is almost two years later and I am so blessed with the love of my life and our three boys. It is never easy to stay alive..... But it is worth it! GOD BLESS and prayers for everyone.
DD Ward 😭🥺 wow just wow very emotional
I want to hug you, War Sister.
It's my experience with trauma that healing comes in waves. Little by little. You think your done and then another season hits where it takes you deeper into the hurt and it becomes another wave of pain needing major healing.
Your testimony is beautiful in that you are still here! You are choosing life! You are Gods and wave after wave he is capable to provide and sustain you. He is unraveling your burial cloth because you DD arent dead and he isn't done with you! Not in the least. If the old you saw you now..and if the future you could see just how close you are to your next glories and newer wineskins! You'd hear a heap of cheering going on. Heck I dont know you, and I am.
I heard Christine Caine say "The degree to which we are willing to embrace the pain of recovery is the degree to which we will recover."
Sometimes I get to a point where I dont know how much more I can bear. But the further we go in him...we all see the joy in his freedom and the beauty that resides as we go from one step to the next. What they all meant for harm- God will use to further his kingdom. The suffering will not have been for nothing and we can celebrate Christ and the fact that because of him none of us are where we would have been if God wasnt with us. Keep Going ♡ You are adding fuel to the passion around you!
Oops I just figured out how to reply...lol I just replied to you right above you post....opps sorry
Prayer for your life to be used by the Lord as his vessel what the Devil meant for evil God will turn around for Good you just Trust and Believe....Trauma does not Define us all Glory to God....
DD Ward so ur a lesbian?
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i like this song but please do more by danny gokey dont do it know but you can when you want just sayin,
I will try to get around to it, sorry I've just been really busy over the holidays, and it feels like I have a list a mile long of songs I want to do.
@@natalyarose8128 Ok take your time im not a youtuber so i dont know how long it takes or how to do it
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