Thank you, everyone for the kind words. I am beyond honored to share my story. If anyone has a question they want to ask I'll be more then happy to answer. Just know I appreciate that you have listened to my long ass story so so much.
I'm Ven's wife. It's been a real pleasure hearing all your guys's kind words and condolences. It's been, to say the least, an incredibly arduous trial for him. You can only do so much sometimes, and every day I get to help him and live life by his side watching him heal and grow is such a privilege. I'm so touched someone reached out to him for this interview. Thank you so much Azael for giving him the platform he deserved to tell his story. Much love to you all.
I think I speak for all my fellow Juggalos when I say you got our best wishes and thanks for not only all your husband did, but what you continue to do, I know it can be really difficult and scary even just caring for people who have gone through trauma, sometimes you wonder if anything your doing actually has an impact because the trauma overshadows it and makes everything you do and say to help seem so miniscule, but it really adds up in the long run
Darth is a very good friend of mine, met him playing DnD. He’s very brave, honorable, and a loving person. Watching this made me cry, watching a great friend be in so much pain. Even though we are stares apart and I can’t do much, I try to give my love and support in any way I can. But you and no one else deserves to go through that pain, and I truest wish the best and all the happiness for you.
@@darthvendar6841 of course, I know this a troubling thing for you. But I’m so proud of you for this, I really am. As a friend I truly wish the best for you and all the happiness
@@darthvendar6841 you’re a very brave man. You were in the Boy Scouts I’m proud of another fellow ex scout use his first aid skills you saved lives man!!!!!!
"i'm just a guy" "You're a pretty damn good one." Fuck. As if my heart didn't already bleed enough hearing this man recall that day... You're a gem Azeal, and so is this man. Bless you both.
@@mileselon1339 Mines an abuse tale, but people can be extremely great, yet some do take that chance and... I just need to do this. I don't think there will ever be an end to this. And there is no cherry on top.
I have to say, I absolutely despise how quickly horrendous events are forgotten about. For the worst shooting in U.S. history, I never even heard about it until last year, and even then it was from a random recommended video.
to me it's sad because of how quickly it's forgotten due to the fact we are living in an age where civil unrest is at it's peak and so many horrible things happen on a weekly basis that it's becoming more desensitizing when it happens so people don't react as strongly as they should, not to mention we sadly live in an era where sub-human filth like Alex Jones exist (I'm sorry but if you think all these shootings happening lately are "false flags" and use other people's suffering to spread your conspiracy theories you aren't worthy of being called human to me since you lack the basic human trait of empathy, especially when the conspiracies are about the DEATHS OF CHILDREN) who will always care more about their profits than actual lives, what pisses me off more about these tragedies is that the families of the victims may never see justice done or, in the case of said filth mentioned above, not even being able to get compensation for the lies and slander someone spread about them because of the filth's greed, after he knew he was going to lose in the lawsuit against him for the shit he said about Sandy Hook he froze his bank accounts so he didn't have to pay out and it was totally allowed to happen so they saw nothing from that and were actually in the hole after their own lawyer fees from my understanding of what happened during that trial
The pain in his voice has me in tears, nobody should ever have to go through shit like this. May Eric rest in peace, he may be gone but he is not forgotten. I wish the best for Ven and his wife.
he spoke so beautifully about something so ugly. if the people in charge would get off their asses, listen to survivors and the families and friends of victims, and DO SOMETHING about it, we wouldn't be have to be having these conversations. we wouldn't be mourning elementary schoolers.
We should just ban all the guns. It's definitely the tools fault and not the deranged people that cause these tragedies, or the general failure of our government, or increasing rates of mental illness, or our increasingly disconnected and dehumanized society, nope definitely just the guns fault.
My parents were at the concert. As a 11 year old boy it was terrifying to see my parents come home with blood on them. Luckily they survived. But still. My 11 year old self was not ready for that at all
VR is one of the best things to have been invented. Giving people the ability to completely immerse themselves in a different reality and actually talk to people face to face. I’m sure for those who have social anxiety, this is the dream situation to actually talk about their feelings. I’m sure it’s saved countless of lives
You can hear the pain in his voice, ven you are a trooper for talking about this right after a mass shooting. and Azael thank you for giving ven a platform to tell their story.
I was there I saw this man trying to help. And now I see him exactly the same as me. I lost 1 of my friends also, and I was devastated by it. I know how he feels.
As someone who lives in Vegas hearing about this shooting back in 2017 was truly heartbreaking! Hearing Ven's experience makes me realize what it was truly like for the people there. My heart goes out to not only Ven but everyone who had to go through it!
Hey man, I'm so sorry this happened to you. And to think people didn't believe you, sent you death threats, and people forgot about it so fast...You're strong. You helped the wounded. You did your best. And all your friends who died that year, they'd be proud of you. I hope that it gets easier, I hope that the officials do something about gun violence. In the meantime, everyone in the comments is here for you. ❤️
It's not about gun violence it's violence as a whole, guns are just a tool, insane fucked up people who seek to hurt others will always exist, I don't know what the answer is, and I won't act like I do, I don't think anyone really does, the best we can do is get better at preventative measures and procedure for the potential issues I guess, I hate seeing people use this shit to push their own agendas if it's not guns are the problem it's they're trying to take away our guns dur, or oh Bill gates, seriously humans are fucked
Politicians really do need to formulate something effective rather than just regulating law abiding citizens. It's so sad to see the same types of things keep happening and politicians peddling the same garbage that doesn't even work. Many of these tragedies could have been prevented. There were eyes on the people before a shot was ever fired. And yet, nothing was done, gun control doesn't work, and taking away the rights of law abiding citizens is not the answer. I don't want to trivialize the trauma of people who have survived. I cannot even fathom how it feels. But gun control is not the answer.
@@SadToffee First of all, nobody was even talking about gun control in this thread. Secondly, I think it's intellectually dishonest to criticize a solution, and then not offer a solution of your own.
My mom lives in Vegas and also worked on the strip the day this happened. The things she saw, the stories she’s told me are unbelievable. Her and her coworkers actually thought through the panic that there was a shooter in every building. And the building she works at (which I will not name) is incredibly hard to evacuate everyone. With some customers and the staff they barricaded themselves in a room for hours. Only when they saw the news did they come out. On her way home, she drives by the airport which was used by people to run on the air runway to escape. She saw people there, crying, panicking. The people that were there have some insane trama that hopefully they can get over in the future. Something has to be done about these types of mass shootings, or it’s gonna happen again.
I could literally feel my heart break while watching this. My friends and family know me for not crying at anything, usually. But this made me WEEP. It pains me to know that such absolutely horrible things happen in this world. I hope you’re doing very well, and I wish you the best.
May those children... those children who will never have a first kiss, those children who will never have their own children, their own job(s), their own life, was taken away for an unknown messed up reason. One of the deputies (i believe) there, he lost his own daughter. It's hard to think about, but that could've been anyone. If it were years back, that could've been you, they could've chosen another school, or a workplace, or even a shelter for people. He had no known reason to do it. Please, if you aren't okay, don't do what these people, these child killers, family destroyers, enraged adults, as your taking away something that can never be given back. Thanks for reading my comment, I know I have no say to this but- I felt like I had to say something.
Having to go through that ordeal was bad enough. BUT ACCUSING A VICTIM OF BEING FAKE OR THAT THE MASS SHOOTING WAS POLITICALLY MOTIVATED IS DISGUSTING AND DEGENERATIVE!
@@sillykot9970 it was one fucking shooter. Don't armchair theorist me a guy who was actually there and tell me there was multiple shooters when I know for a fact there was only one direction the shots were coming from.
I.....just....wow. I don't even know where to begin. The raw emotion in his voice is chilling, powerful, and moving. I can't even begin to understand what it's like to have lived through a single percent of what this man has experienced. I've never lost a friend to any of the things he described. But just from hearing him talk....I want to give him a hug and tell him everything is going to be okay, even if it isn't true. There's too much going on in this country that's counterintuitive to human life and positive mental health. Zen, keep moving forward, keep telling your story, hopefully this video will help spread more awareness. If you haven't found a good therapist yet, I hope you find one soon. PTSD is really hard to beat even with therapy, but at least it helps with it. I'm happy you survived to tell your tale. Keep on living, you survived for a reason and that's to bring awareness to topics like this, to tell the world and this country to stop being blind to reality and DO SOMETHING. Thank you again for your story. And Thank you Azeal for giving him the platform for it.
It's Ven but yes I did find a good therapist and it has done me wonders in allowing me to function. Somedays I struggle but that's the rollercoaster of life
@@darthvendar6841 Good, I'm glad to hear that. And yes, there are gonna be good days and bad, but you gotta roll with each. Just know you can always reach out to your spouse and friends if you're ever having a really bad day. Lots of hugs to you man.
I love how in this horrible moment you had these three people who did very different things, but they can all be seen as heroes. “When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, ‘Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.” -Mr Rogers
Just hearing his voice hit me hard, I haven’t cried in a while but this genuinely made me on the verge of sobbing, the end hit me harder than truck basically. I wish nothing but the best for Ven, he’s a really strong man and absolutely no one deserves to go through that pain.
Thank you for giving a voice to this brave individual. He took ownership of the situation and saved lives. But no one expects to have to make that choice. Much love to everyone involved in this. It can be very difficult to come to a final resolution. People's minds are trained to remember details they find important. You cannot remove these details from the person without removing pieces of their self. Getting past the mental conditioning your body puts you through during PTSD is impossible. It becomes your whole body and mind - changed, to alert for predators, like our evolution dictates. And we have many ways to escape this, but nearly all are completely useless for continuing to progress as a person. So many with PTSD commit suicide. Just randomly, 3 months later, 2 years later, 15 years later. You've got to carry that weight a long time.
The part where he said "I'm just a guy." I felt that hit my soul. I could never imagine having to go through everything that he's been through. It really makes our everyday struggles look like nothing. This man is a legend and deserves a better America. One where he doesn't have to dread the next shooting on the news. From those 57 minutes of him pouring out his soul to us... I can tell that he is a hero that helped out the best that he could with what he was throw into. It was sink or swim and he swam the best that he could. He did better than what most of us could have done in that situation. Survivors guilt is something that happens a lot in these types of events and those people deserve all the love they can get. They deserve it all the help they can get. There is so much to be said that is unsaid.
I just went and watched the video of you telling your story at the vigil. I have never been in a traumatic experience like you have, Ven, and I hope never to. But hearing the pain in your voice, seeing you relive every moment in your eyes, seeing you try not to cry, it hurts to know someone who was just doing your job would have to feel that. Know you are loved and that this terrible experience does not define who you are. What defines you is that you are a good person. Rest in peace Eric. Rest in peace to the over 60 who lost their lives. Rest in peace to the hearts and souls of the survivors and families of those who were lost.
Gosh I'm embarrassed even thinking about how people can compare how composed I am 5 years ago 3 days after the shooting and now. But thank you so much for all your kind words.
@@darthvendar6841 listen man. Having to relive that cause of recent events can cause composure to be worthless. Dont feel emberassed to feel. Just be kind to yourself. I cant really say much more than that cause I dont know how to say it any other way, but losing your composure a bit is warranted when you have gone through something like that. All I can say is, dont let it define you, dont let it feedback onto you, and be kind to yourself.
I can only imagine what it was like to be there. I am an armed Security guard for the last 7 years. I have been at events where shootings have occurred and people have died, luckily usually we were able to do something in those situations because these assholes where within range and we were equipped to do our job and fought back. I still struggle with the people I couldn't protect. *I wrote this comment 10 minutes in.*
When you are done. I'd like to say it is so difficult for me sometimes to recognize while it is my job to help and protect it is not my fault that they died. And I can't blame myself. I still struggle knowing that is true.
I commend Darth for having to talk about this traumatic experience, you my guy deserve a medal of bravery. I don’t think anyone that just sees the horror on TV could really understand the trauma that comes with an experience with you. Darth I really respect you and the story you have told.
I wish you nothing but the best, Ven. You put yourself in harms way to help others, you were willing to lose your life to save others, and you deserve respect and recognition for it. What you did is more than most, and is incredibly honorable. I genuinely hope you can find a way to heal, and to overcome the trauma from that terrible day, you deserve to have peace. The world is a better place with you in it, Ven.
it feels so cliché and empty to just say "im sorry" to someone who lives through this but i dont know what else to say. Darth, you were a torch in the night for so many people and so many were able to go home and live on because of you. You're a true hero and everyone should admire your bravery. Thank you for your service and I hope whatever therapy you're doing is helping you.
I’ve seen this video before but just hearing it today at the end and him saying "He was a good guy, I was a nobody from nothing…. Who'd done nothing." And him just breaking down crying literally shot through my heart man. It makes you think the shit we go through on this planet, why the hell are we here? To learn lessons? It’s possible, but to go through the worst shit you could ever go through I just hope whatever Gods plan is, it’s absolutely worth it.
It makes me sad knowing that I forgot about this Las Vegas Massacre too. It honestly makes me cry. It makes me feel bad. I remember seeing the headlines on the news about the Las Vegas Massacre years ago, and the victim's stories on CNN. Then the Robb Elementary School Shooting just yesterday. I'm so sorry Ven, and to everyone to was impacted by this nightmare of a massacre. I couldn't imagine what it was like. It's made me more open-minded to it all. You're all good people, and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. Thank you.
This guy chose to act when he had no duty. He was being paid a fraction of the cops pay to be there and he chose to stay and help under no oath or obligation. He could have said “I quit” and fled when the cop said “Do your job!”. Very commendable and I hope he is able to process this
I feel like this deserves to be said, this man went through so, so much, i can only watch and almost cry at this mans suffering, and then people tell him he's a liar? Wow, that is just- honestly what has humanity come to? I am so sorry for you Ven and i hope you and your family live a happy and long life because this is just sad. Thank you, for being there for people when they needed someone the most. You dealt with all these things and still had the braveness, courage and strength to risk your own life for others, if we were all like you this world would be so much better, live long my friend. Live long.
I'll never forget when this happened... I'm Canadian and was in Canada when it happened but it still shook me to my core and makes me emotional to hear stories from that night. Breaks my heart to hear about all these shootings just next door in a country I also love
Here is a list of all the people I could find, hopefully if the world remembers the fallen, we can mitigate the tragedies: Hannah Ahlers Heather Alvarado Dorene Anderson Carrie Barnette Jack Beaton Steve Berger Candice Bowers Denise Salmon Burditus Sandy Casey Andrea Castilla Denise Cohen Austin Davis Thomas Day Jr. Christiana Duarte Stacee Etcheber Brian Fraser Keri Galvan Dana Gardner Angela Gomez Rocio Guillen Charleston Hartfield Chris Hazencomb Jennifer Irvine Nicol Kimura Jessica Klymchuk Carly Kreibaum Rhonda LeRocque Victor Link Jordan McIldoon Kelsey Meadows Calla Medig Sonny Melton Pati Mestas Austin Meyer Adrian Murfitt Rachael Parker Jennifer Parks Carrie Parsons Lisa Patterson John Phippen Melissa Ramirez Jordyn Rivera Quinton Robbins Cameron Robinson Tara Roe Smith Lisa Romero-Muniz Christopher Roybal Brett Schwanbeck Bailey Schweitzer Laura Shipp Erick Silva Susan Smith Brennan Stewart Derrick Taylor Neysa Tonks Michelle Vo Kurt Von Tillow Bill Wolfe Jr. I am sorry if any of this is inaccurate. I regret I do not have enough time in my schedule to do sufficient research and verify the names of this list. You are not some nobody, I cannot speak for the rest of your life, but you did this. Azeal is right, your a damn good one, and people like that are hard to find. I hope I have helped, at least just a little. I wish I could do more.
God bless those people's souls may they rest in peace. I hope they find happiness among the angels and their loved ones who passed on before them. (Sorry about my name and profile picture I know it isn't suitable for something like this so sorry)
after listening to the entire story, while I was reading this comment, I couldn't think of anything but the list keeps on going. So many families won't get their husbands, wives, sons, or daughters back. May these souls and their families find some peace, because I know that most are still broken and will be for decades after this tragedy.
Words can't describe this; I've listened to many stories posted here. I've never been so mentally crushed to hear this, and I know I will never truly feel this pain. I am at a loss for words. Just saying, "sorry this had to happen," minimizes this horrible event, but I cannot stop crying just thinking about how unbearable it must be to live every day with that horrific trauma. Nobody deserves this pain. I felt like I needed to say something about this since I don't want this to just be another video I watched this one night while gaming.
I’ve gotta say, this is the first story that’s actually kinda fucked me up after hearing it. I can’t even imagine how it feels for Darth to have been in such a horrific event. I really do hope that something is done sooner or later to start trying to prevent this stuff from happening all the time. Darth, if you’re reading this, you did amazing. Not only at telling this story and conveying your emotion, but you put your life on the line to help others during this tragedy. I have the utmost respect for you, and anyone else who was a victim of this massacre. I wish you the best man
The only thing I can see would have stopped this was security that was ex military. Security that could recognize muzzle flash and had the proper tools to deal with a threat at such a long range. Even extremely strict gun control wouldn't have worked here. Dude acted completely normal for a long time and was loaded with cash he would have had the money to go through any loop hole or just obtain the weapons on the black market
@@Grognarthebarb ,,Strict gun control wouldn't have worked here'' is such a dumb argument. It's the equivalent of saying ,,Well robbers are gonna steal this jewlery anyways, look at all their equipment and planning, so like why bother locking it up, let's just leave it on the table here'' - literally. But people for some reason just assume that it would have happened anyways - and it doesn't matter which shooting is talked about, it's always the same argument. But you know what ? Gun control WORKS in the rest of the world, as always, there is data showing that, but nah. Stop acting like the US is some special place different from the rest of the world enough, that things proven to work in the rest of the planet can't work there. How many dead people and dead children will it take to finaly do something about the problem ? How many dead bodies will it take to snap you guys out of this conforting lie you are telling yourself ? Is there even a limit ?
@@milokojjones like your whole comment still ignores the fact that no matter what country this guy lived in he had the cash to legally or illegally do whatever he wanted. This is specific to this case but for all the others I have other arguments. People forget that the largest mass killing at a school happened on the 1930s in the states when a dude packed a bunch of explosives into the basement of a school and thankfully only 1/3 of it went off.
@@Grognarthebarb So what ? We should do nothing ? It still the same argument - as I said before ,,Why bother locking things up when thiefs are gonna find a way to steal the stuff anyways ?''. Regardless, even for these things you mentioned, there are ways to limit and prevent these - for example, concrete blocks were installed in places where people gather so that cars can't be used to run crowded people over. Similarly, if you have well funded and well trained firefighters ( and the buildings follow safety regulations ) arsons are much less deadly ( so are car crowd hits ). Bombs are problematic, as they are on a comparable level of deadliness per time using, but even they have their problems - explosives, especially reliable ones are quite hard to make and it's often very sus, so there is a chance the people making them will be discovered prior to their attacks. I'm also rather sure that resources which can be used to create explosives are regulated in one way or another. Going back to gun regulations, the point of these is not to get rid of guns, but to lower the accessibility to them for the general public. Which means, that getting a gun is much harder - Sure the shooter may have money to buy the weapons on black market, but not everyone is going to go through the work to get a gun illegaly. Likewise, not everyone has connections to get guns from the black market and since their holding of a gun would be illegall, there is a higher chance that they could be discovered or caught before they are able to do anything. Once again, gun regulations and strict gun ownership laws work for the rest of the world. There is a reason why the wikepedia site for mass shootings lists individual events for the other countries in the world, while the US tab lists statistics for how many people die yearly in mass shootings in the US. So let me ask again, how many dead bodies does it take ? What's the limit ?
I have never seen an active look at survivals guilt in its full until this. What a moving story. I love this channel and the ability to share important stories across the world in a way like this for people to feel safe to talk in vr. It’s the best way of anonymity interviewing
I lived in Vegas at the time of this. In the housing developments off the South end of Las Vegas boulevard. About 5 block South of the venue, I think. Maybe 5-10mins of driving in traffic. Vegas was somber but unified during this. Hospitals and blood donation centers were overflowing with blood donors. They were even sending mobile blood collection to some businesses to collect blood and I donated a double dose along with a lot of others. Multiple people at my place of work had friends or family that were there and that didn't make it. A couple of the employees themselves were physically present and there was one engineer that came to work the next week like nothing had happened. Probably still in shock. I don't think he told anyone that he had been there when the shooting started. He completely snapped a few days later, cussed out his boss, peeled out in the parking lot, damaged vehicles, and led the cops on a car chase for a good 45mins. Even wrecked his own car and stole a car from someone at a stoplight to keep going. I was a really crazy time, and it was even crazier because nobody had any idea, and don't have any solid logical idea, as to why the shooter did this. The whole city had an air of tragedy about it and no good answers to give the victims, families, and concerned citizens. The best conclusion I can come to is that this is what evil is, what it manifests like.
Your channel is amazing. Thanks for providing a medium for these raw, compelling stories of the human condition. I knew that VR has a place in today’s society. Didn’t exactly picture it this way
@@darthvendar6841 Maybe. It sure didn't sound easy for you, friend. I hope that you recover from this and continue your life with your fiancé a happier man. I respect you immensely for speaking this composed and even though you broke down, it's heartbreaking. I understand, man. Well wishes for your future jobs in Houston.
@@gravelrun4028 we got married and we still live in Vegas. But we are getting our own place soon. I'm very happy and I am glad that life gets better despite the hardship I faced.
Despite making me cry, I appreciate this story being shared. I think Ven is incredibly strong and courageous man for sharing his story in this capacity. Me and my husband grew up in Reno, he had been to Vegas a few times. I went to Vegas once in the aftermath of the shooting. My hubby’s best friend got us tickets to see Markiplier live when he was doing the “You’re Welcome” tour. When this shooting happened before then, my husband had a very vivid dream that he was at the Vegas concert during the shooting. He said it felt very terrifying, and real. Last year we moved from Northern Nevada to the Portland, OR area and unfortunately gun crime is an issue here. About a month ago, husband got shot at during a drive by while he was driving. Got very lucky, bullet bounced off the car, no damage, he wasn’t hit. He calls me immediately after and for some reason he makes it sound like he just witnessed it, later I find out he was in shock at the time he called me. Later on he comes home, bear hugs me and I could literally feel it. Everything. The fear he felt.. the sadness.. The thought of ‘this is it I’m going to die.’ I think it is still important to go outside and such but I understand a lot of peoples fear now. I have mental issues and trauma in my past but not from experiences like this. Hearing the pain in Ven’s voice also reminded me of the same pain I’ve heard in my husband’s voice when he told me about his past. I’ve heard this tone of voice and pain from my partner a few times and it’s the worst thing when you feel like you don’t know how to help. I refuse to watch any mainstream TV news media coverage of tragedies like this. Reason because these tragedies always get turned into some political BS to distract the masses. Experiencing one of these tragedies 1st hand, having to see the media, and worse being labeled part of a conspiracy.. it all sounds like a nightmare. I can’t stomach news coverage of tragedies like these anymore, they sicken me and fill me with hate and rage.
I normally listen to these stories while at work or driving to places cause I love listening to stories. I caught myself nearly breaking down at my desk. Such an awful event, but told by such a strong individual. I want to show sadness for Ven, but I will instead feel power. He survived and did everything in his power to save lives and still live on with the trauma. As always, thank you Azeal for allowing this voice to be heard.
You are a hero, plain and simple. Additionally, can’t be entirely certain, but that woman at around 14:00 minutes is alive and well. She’s got her own story in some documentary I watched about the same event.
I have only just gotten through the first 5th of this video. I can hear the absolute heartbreak in Darth’s voice. The fact this even has to be covered, after so much violent history…My heart aches for those who are victims, alive or dead. And the fact history keeps repeating, at faster and more threatening levels……I wish I could explain the amount of terror I feel. And that’s just hearing what everyone else has to say. I can’t imagine how scary it is for survivors. And Darth, I can’t emphasise how brave you are for sharing your perspective. I hope you’re doing ok. I hope everyone is right now.
Hearing these people puts things into perspective. What you're doing is gods work in letting people who've experienced real horror be heard. The way the news does it is honestly disgusting because they just sensationalize it but here, it's intimate, it's personal, it's *real*. And Vendar, just know that you are a trooper and while few can relate to what you've experienced just know that your voice is heard and for those of us who hear it, our heart goes out to you and we thank you for having the courage to speak like this. These are hollow words on the other side of the screen but you're stronger than most and I wish you nothing but the best of fortunes in spite of all the bad.
My heart and mind are shattered after hearing this. You are a STRONG human being, Ven, and I’m so sorry these political fucks keep hurting you time and time again. And unfortunately you’re right about the public forgetting about it, I JUST NOW am hearing about this a whole 7 FUCKING YEARS. But I don’t want to end this off on a negative note, so please, keep staying strong, you have a whole lot of people who side with you. Much love
Darth, people like you are the reason people like me, when I was a kid, wanted to join the Army. When I was a kid, I wanted to protect everyone, to such an extent I wanted to be in the Army. I wanted to be a support gunner for a tank division. My ultimate objective was, one day, to be dropped off at a location to defend. What I wanted was to be in a position to protect everyone. I wanted to be in a position so our entire army could go home to be with their families. I wanted to become just like that guy in Beachhead 9000, to be the front line so no one else would ever have too again. You are far braver for having to endure then I'll ever be. Thank you for your bravery. I'm sorry for your loss and your pain, but you, sir, are truthfully braver for talking to us, then I'll ever be. You rock!!!
I would say I feel his pain, but nobody can go through more pain than such a traumatic experience. it will warm my heart and everyone's heart when the U.S. finally finds a way to stop all these shootings for good
It happens all over and not just shooting, stabbings, bombings,etc. It's sad to say but people are people and there's always bound to be some more fucked than others. And everyone endures their own pain and suffering can't be measured in mass scale because how much everyone suffers from what they go through differs. People are complex like that, yet somehow we choose to be so naive at times despite our complexities
@@russianbigbird4161 I agree, but I also think that there can be improvements. And that some of them might never commit a crime if it was easier to get decent, competent help before it is too late. I think that things can be better. Maybe not great, but hopefully still better. I believe that most people can be helped to lead a somewhat normal life, if they receive the attention and the care they need. It just needs to be taken seriously and seen as more of a priority. Not to mention the global injustice and inequality of wealth. If people have to suffer real bad, it's no wonder that some of them break and turn into terrorists or things like that. There are some genuinely bad people, but also many bad fortunes that drive people to make terrible mistakes.
@@phoenix72999 yeah, funding is a big issue honestly, it's so common for people really struggling with mental health disabilities to be in the middle of getting help then all of a sudden funding is cut, and they're just left to deal with it on their own
At the very beginning of the video, Darth’s voice just sets in stone the grave tone of the video. Also, Azeal, you are truly a blessing to these people suffering from this ptsd and trauma.
Hi Darth. I know this video came out awhile ago, so idk if you’ll even see this, but on the off chance you do I just want to say thank you for talking about this. It’s one thing to go through it, it’s another to revisit it willingly. Im a first responder in a major Texas metropolitan area and I see horrible things every week. I’ve seen people literally torn apart from car accidents. I’ve held the hands of spouses as they watch the most important person in their life die from a medical emergency. I’ve had to tell mothers their children are dead and listen to their screams. I’ve seen all of that and more, but I cannot imagine the horror you have been through. I know that no matter how many people you helped and saved, it’s the ones that didn’t make it that probably stay with you the most. No matter how many people you save, it never feels like enough if even one of them doesn’t make it. But I want you to know you made a difference. You didn’t fix EVERYTHING and save EVERYONE, because there’s no eventuality where you could have, no matter what you did. No one could have. You aren’t responsible for the ones who didn’t make it, the shooter is. But you sure as shit are responsible for the ones that did make it. It will likely never feel that way, but it’s the truth. People are alive today because of you. I know that doesn’t make the pain stop, though. In a way, you made a bargain with the universe that day: in order for many people to live, you chose to take on the burden of loss for those that died. That is the heaviest burden of all and I think it speaks to the love you have for your fellow human beings deep inside you. But you don’t have to carry that burden if you don’t want to. There will never be a time where this isn’t part of you, but there is a future where you don’t feel so responsible for things that were out of your control. I want you to know that you aren’t nobody. You are you, and you matter so much more than you think you do. And so does your pain. I see you. I see your pain. You aren’t alone. I know I’m an internet stranger, but as a fellow Texan millennial, I would love to chat some time. We never have to speak about this if you don’t want to, but I’d love to play some games or just chill on discord some time. This isn’t pity or charity, you legit just seem like a cool dude. Take it or leave it, up to you my friend 🙂 be well
My friend I read the comments to this video at least once every day. And I have to say reading yours brought tears to my eyes. I would love to talk to someone who understands the pain and burden I just can't seem to let go off. And I think you are a pretty chill guy as well. I am on Azeals Discord server and I would not mind talking or chatting at all. Though I do feel I probably wouldn't quite be as interesting as you a person who performs acts of heroism as part of your job.
dude i have no idea how you can listen to these stories and not cry at the end Azeal. this had me tearing up. i hope he gets help for his trauma and lives his best life from here on out. that all his friends would have wanted.
Ven, I'm only now seeing this video, and maybe you're not checking the comments at this point (which I'd completely understand). You are a hero. You're a good man. You have changed my life; your story has encouraged me to live in service of others. Your story has convinced me to be more honest, convicted, and willing to help. Thank you. Azael, thank you for making this interview happen. This was incredible
It's amazing to know there are people out there like you Azeal. It's always one thing that atleast makes some feel better even a little is a good listener. And you are one, I hope that both of you are doing okay and wish all the best luck to you
The real tragedy is that I’ve never heard of the Las Vegas Massacre until now. I’m so sorry you had to go through such a terrifying and traumatic experience Darth. Doubly so for the fact that you had to endure angry internet lunes and having your experience be forgotten in the tide of “breaking news” and “current events”.
Thank you for exposing the world to such stories, I came across your YT channel through the Leadhead collab you two did and I'm really glad to have been able to discover it. I've seen several of your videos already, and not only do you have a really good instinct for which ones to pick, you also give a variety of different perspectives a big stage to tell their personal stories and I think it's one of the best uses of this platform I've seen on the internet.
I really hope one day that these sorts of massacres are never heard from again, these sorts of things break people. There's no telling the Trauma and PSTD people get from these sorts of things. It is so depressing listening to this, hearing that this stuff happened while I was safe in my home. This whole country deserves better, Humanity as a whole deserves Better.
man your a hero not just a guy you made me cry because of your story and there needs to be more people like you in the world your the most selfless most amazing person i have heard of, you stayed strong when others couldn't i didn't know that event was that bad i kinda just look over stuff like that, i see now how sad it is there arn't any words to describe how disappointing shootings are and how useless they are there isn't any thing i can say that will make you feel better but im sorry for your loss 😞
Darth you are a fucking unit any lesser person wouldn't have made it as far as you you keep marching to that peaceful and happy life you so goddamn deserve
this wasn't the first the video on your channel that made me tear up and one point or another, but damn, it's definitely the first to make me actually cry, when Darth, understandably so, broke down near the end... it broke my heart, i couldn't keep my own tears back. this man has been through so much shit, the worst or most of it apparently in a one year timeframe, so much shit that no ones deserves to go through, yet he was still brave enough to share his story with you, with me, with everyone who watched it, this is definitely one of the best interviews you've done. not that there's really any ranking or anything, they're all their own story, but just hearing his story pulled on me in some different way. Maybe it's because i share a similar mindset when it comes to how senseless and PREVENTABLE tragedies like this are. Maybe it's because of his bravery to let himself be open, and vulnerable, about a topic that im sure he never want's to think about and remember. Maybe it's a combination of both, and other factors. all i know is i really enjoyed listening to his story. not because of how tragic it is, but because of how *real* it is. (not saying any other interviews are fake or anything btw
@@darthvendar6841 i know the videos a year ish old, im glad you still see these though, and i hope youre doing okay, as best as you can at least. ^^ happy (late) thanksgiving, if you celebrate that.
pain for surviving when others didn't, that pain is real and it hurts so badly. It hurts even more when the very cause of your pain happens over and over again. I hope you have a happy life.
came to this video after seeing your other video that posted recently. really appreciate you sharing your stories with us. I hope with each passing day you can heal a little more from the trauma you suffered from and wish you nothing but good luck and health in the future.
Sending virtual hugs to Darth and his family. You are not a nobody. You are a message to all that they can survive traumatic and terrible events like you. You did the best you could and many more would probably be dead if not for you.
I have an unbelievably hard time crying (physically difficult for me to cry), but you better fucking believe that I was tearing up the entire time. I have nothing but respect for you Darth, and I don't know how to express my disgust for those accusing you of blatant lies and threatening you. Stay strong...
It never really leaves you. You just live with it like a weight on your shoulder. Sometimes it's lighter then others. Other times it is a burden. But that's life. i'm just so glad and relieved how positive everyone is being with me and how few people are spewing hate at me. It's been a long time since I experienced that.
I think about that shooting every time I've gone to events since then, and my heart breaks every time a new shooting happens. It feels like we're so helpless when there are bigger people in charge that get to make the final say.
Dude, I thought this vid was going to be like others where they just chat but in like the first 15 seconds after hearing his voice... This vids definitely going to hit places hard, and I haven't even watched it yet.
God bless this man. He is so compassionate and brave. nobody deserved to go through what they did on that day, especially not him. I wish you the best Darth.
I remember this shooting pretty vividly, particularly because I had just started learning to make music at the time, so a concert shooting this deadly just upset me like nothing ever had. At the time I took my limited knowledge of music and wrote a tribute piece to the tragedy, and while I admit regretfully that it isn't particularly good musically, it's still very important to me. That being said, hearing it from someone who was really there changes your perspective a great deal, and I'm so glad you've given Darth a place to share his story, and I'm yet again just so incredibly upset that people actually think that it's all a coverup to take away their guns or something.
My parents were supposed to go to that concert. They got stuck in traffic on their way there from the cheap hotel a bit away. They were late that third day and figured to just hang out around. They did not hear about it until I called them distressed and they found out. It was so scary but so relieving to hear my mothers and fathers worried voice once they heard my shaken voice. It was the scariest time I had ever thought of my parents.
My cousin was there I remember the absolutely panic I felt he survived but he won't ever talk about it all and before that another cousin and her veteran husband were both at the Roseburg Oregon Umpqua college shooting her husband had to go to inpatient because he already had PTSD from getting blown up in Iraq
I’m not one to cry listening to stories like this, but this one made me sob a little I can’t even lie. I could never even remotely imagine the horror this man went through
Thank you, everyone for the kind words. I am beyond honored to share my story. If anyone has a question they want to ask I'll be more then happy to answer. Just know I appreciate that you have listened to my long ass story so so much.
It was a pleasure and an honor my man, thanks again.
@@Azeal no I'm the one who is honored. You do amazing work and I hope you have an amazing life.
My condolences to your freinds.
@@dooogeo1041 thank you. I know we are just anonymous people online but I appreciate the words so much
stay strong man, you deserved none of that
I'm Ven's wife. It's been a real pleasure hearing all your guys's kind words and condolences. It's been, to say the least, an incredibly arduous trial for him. You can only do so much sometimes, and every day I get to help him and live life by his side watching him heal and grow is such a privilege. I'm so touched someone reached out to him for this interview. Thank you so much Azael for giving him the platform he deserved to tell his story. Much love to you all.
Ven has been through some awful things.
Tell your husband that he is not and will never be alone.
He is a amazing guy
I think I speak for all my fellow Juggalos when I say you got our best wishes and thanks for not only all your husband did, but what you continue to do, I know it can be really difficult and scary even just caring for people who have gone through trauma, sometimes you wonder if anything your doing actually has an impact because the trauma overshadows it and makes everything you do and say to help seem so miniscule, but it really adds up in the long run
I wish nothing but the best for you two! I hope that Ven will be able to fully heal from this horrible event!
Darth is a very good friend of mine, met him playing DnD. He’s very brave, honorable, and a loving person. Watching this made me cry, watching a great friend be in so much pain. Even though we are stares apart and I can’t do much, I try to give my love and support in any way I can. But you and no one else deserves to go through that pain, and I truest wish the best and all the happiness for you.
Thank you... I know we talk all the time but I appreciate this so much.
@@darthvendar6841 of course, I know this a troubling thing for you. But I’m so proud of you for this, I really am. As a friend I truly wish the best for you and all the happiness
I sure that, as little it seem to you, your support is very valuable and presious to him. Thank you for the support you gave him and still giving him.
@@darthvendar6841 you’re a very brave man. You were in the Boy Scouts I’m proud of another fellow ex scout use his first aid skills you saved lives man!!!!!!
He appeared in a RUclips video discussing traumatic event. Give him in inspiration point if your the dm.
You can hear the trauma in this man’s voice. Thanks Azael for giving people like this man a voice so others can hear it as well.
I just saw your said that dude is the embodiment of PTSD.
cant wait for them to get joe's story
@@idothingssometimes6772 is this really the time my man
@@hampter5356 its 2022 yes it is
@@idothingssometimes6772 not here man, not here.
"i'm just a guy"
"You're a pretty damn good one."
Fuck. As if my heart didn't already bleed enough hearing this man recall that day...
You're a gem Azeal, and so is this man. Bless you both.
i know this was like the cherry on top of a tear soaked cake
He really is a good man.
Believe me. This isn't the first time. Hopefully I can tell you and everyone else around here. They need it.
@@thatkreigsman3421 what exactly do they need the cherry on top?
@@mileselon1339 Mines an abuse tale, but people can be extremely great, yet some do take that chance and... I just need to do this. I don't think there will ever be an end to this. And there is no cherry on top.
I have to say, I absolutely despise how quickly horrendous events are forgotten about. For the worst shooting in U.S. history, I never even heard about it until last year, and even then it was from a random recommended video.
I didn't hear about it till now. Really sickens me how certain things just fall through the cracks as they do.
They get dropped as soon as they can't be used to push political shit. They move on to the next thing. Its horrendously shallow.
to me it's sad because of how quickly it's forgotten due to the fact we are living in an age where civil unrest is at it's peak and so many horrible things happen on a weekly basis that it's becoming more desensitizing when it happens so people don't react as strongly as they should, not to mention we sadly live in an era where sub-human filth like Alex Jones exist (I'm sorry but if you think all these shootings happening lately are "false flags" and use other people's suffering to spread your conspiracy theories you aren't worthy of being called human to me since you lack the basic human trait of empathy, especially when the conspiracies are about the DEATHS OF CHILDREN) who will always care more about their profits than actual lives, what pisses me off more about these tragedies is that the families of the victims may never see justice done or, in the case of said filth mentioned above, not even being able to get compensation for the lies and slander someone spread about them because of the filth's greed, after he knew he was going to lose in the lawsuit against him for the shit he said about Sandy Hook he froze his bank accounts so he didn't have to pay out and it was totally allowed to happen so they saw nothing from that and were actually in the hole after their own lawyer fees from my understanding of what happened during that trial
@@LeonClaw88 I didn't hear it until now, either, and I agree with you
Dude it was all over the news and social media how did you not hear
The pain in his voice has me in tears, nobody should ever have to go through shit like this. May Eric rest in peace, he may be gone but he is not forgotten. I wish the best for Ven and his wife.
Fellow V1nce I see nice
@@SlightlyCringe yeah
I agree
only a shooter should go through this any one who is a good person like ven yeah your right
he spoke so beautifully about something so ugly. if the people in charge would get off their asses, listen to survivors and the families and friends of victims, and DO SOMETHING about it, we wouldn't be have to be having these conversations. we wouldn't be mourning elementary schoolers.
I never thought I had that good of a voice. But thank you so much. I hoped to share this message with as many as possible.
We should just ban all the guns. It's definitely the tools fault and not the deranged people that cause these tragedies, or the general failure of our government, or increasing rates of mental illness, or our increasingly disconnected and dehumanized society, nope definitely just the guns fault.
@@darthvendar6841 I’m so sorry you had to go through this… You did a great job at speaking about such a horrible situation
@@darthvendar6841 I feel so sorry for you. You were so calm throughout this even though you were talking about a horrible thing. You did a good job.
You do not know how much I agree with you
My parents were at the concert. As a 11 year old boy it was terrifying to see my parents come home with blood on them. Luckily they survived. But still. My 11 year old self was not ready for that at all
Glad to hear your parents made it out alive. I'm sorry that you guys had to go through that.
Holy shit, I wish the best for them. That must have been horrific to witness
That's a terrifying ordeal... I'm sorry you had to go through that.
Damn glad to hear they are ok, my parents went to Las Vegas 4 days before the concert started
VR is one of the best things to have been invented. Giving people the ability to completely immerse themselves in a different reality and actually talk to people face to face. I’m sure for those who have social anxiety, this is the dream situation to actually talk about their feelings. I’m sure it’s saved countless of lives
You can hear the pain in his voice, ven you are a trooper for talking about this right after a mass shooting. and Azael thank you for giving ven a platform to tell their story.
I was there I saw this man trying to help. And now I see him exactly the same as me. I lost 1 of my friends also, and I was devastated by it. I know how he feels.
You saw me!?
As someone who lives in Vegas hearing about this shooting back in 2017 was truly heartbreaking! Hearing Ven's experience makes me realize what it was truly like for the people there. My heart goes out to not only Ven but everyone who had to go through it!
Hey man, I'm so sorry this happened to you. And to think people didn't believe you, sent you death threats, and people forgot about it so fast...You're strong. You helped the wounded. You did your best. And all your friends who died that year, they'd be proud of you. I hope that it gets easier, I hope that the officials do something about gun violence. In the meantime, everyone in the comments is here for you.
❤️
It's not about gun violence it's violence as a whole, guns are just a tool, insane fucked up people who seek to hurt others will always exist, I don't know what the answer is, and I won't act like I do, I don't think anyone really does, the best we can do is get better at preventative measures and procedure for the potential issues I guess, I hate seeing people use this shit to push their own agendas if it's not guns are the problem it's they're trying to take away our guns dur, or oh Bill gates, seriously humans are fucked
Thank you so much my friend.
Politicians really do need to formulate something effective rather than just regulating law abiding citizens. It's so sad to see the same types of things keep happening and politicians peddling the same garbage that doesn't even work. Many of these tragedies could have been prevented. There were eyes on the people before a shot was ever fired. And yet, nothing was done, gun control doesn't work, and taking away the rights of law abiding citizens is not the answer.
I don't want to trivialize the trauma of people who have survived. I cannot even fathom how it feels. But gun control is not the answer.
I agree with you
@@SadToffee First of all, nobody was even talking about gun control in this thread. Secondly, I think it's intellectually dishonest to criticize a solution, and then not offer a solution of your own.
My mom lives in Vegas and also worked on the strip the day this happened. The things she saw, the stories she’s told me are unbelievable. Her and her coworkers actually thought through the panic that there was a shooter in every building. And the building she works at (which I will not name) is incredibly hard to evacuate everyone. With some customers and the staff they barricaded themselves in a room for hours. Only when they saw the news did they come out.
On her way home, she drives by the airport which was used by people to run on the air runway to escape. She saw people there, crying, panicking.
The people that were there have some insane trama that hopefully they can get over in the future. Something has to be done about these types of mass shootings, or it’s gonna happen again.
I could literally feel my heart break while watching this.
My friends and family know me for not crying at anything, usually. But this made me WEEP. It pains me to know that such absolutely horrible things happen in this world. I hope you’re doing very well, and I wish you the best.
Thank you. These kind words mean so much to me.
Random thought: Crying through a VR headset must really suck. Like imagine the insides just getting full of tears.
Yep...
May those children... those children who will never have a first kiss, those children who will never have their own children, their own job(s), their own life, was taken away for an unknown messed up reason. One of the deputies (i believe) there, he lost his own daughter. It's hard to think about, but that could've been anyone. If it were years back, that could've been you, they could've chosen another school, or a workplace, or even a shelter for people. He had no known reason to do it. Please, if you aren't okay, don't do what these people, these child killers, family destroyers, enraged adults, as your taking away something that can never be given back. Thanks for reading my comment, I know I have no say to this but- I felt like I had to say something.
Thank you for writing this comment.
This is a great comment
It’s like the people who do this are trying to get American gun freedom taken away by ruining their lives.
Holy crap 114 likes O_O
@@itshuntress6131
Correction you have 123 likes
But yeah how do even processes a loss like that or any other events like it.
this is just sad, i feel so bad for this guy because he had to go through that, no one should have to go through that
Having to go through that ordeal was bad enough. BUT ACCUSING A VICTIM OF BEING FAKE OR THAT THE MASS SHOOTING WAS POLITICALLY MOTIVATED IS DISGUSTING AND DEGENERATIVE!
YEA!!😤😤
Yeah. But as our politicians have come to act about these tragedies. "Can't let a good tragedy go to waste"
@@sillykot9970 no we saw his body a quick google search solves that
@@sillykot9970 it was one fucking shooter. Don't armchair theorist me a guy who was actually there and tell me there was multiple shooters when I know for a fact there was only one direction the shots were coming from.
@@sillykot9970 your literally in the comment section of my interview
I.....just....wow. I don't even know where to begin. The raw emotion in his voice is chilling, powerful, and moving. I can't even begin to understand what it's like to have lived through a single percent of what this man has experienced. I've never lost a friend to any of the things he described. But just from hearing him talk....I want to give him a hug and tell him everything is going to be okay, even if it isn't true. There's too much going on in this country that's counterintuitive to human life and positive mental health.
Zen, keep moving forward, keep telling your story, hopefully this video will help spread more awareness. If you haven't found a good therapist yet, I hope you find one soon. PTSD is really hard to beat even with therapy, but at least it helps with it.
I'm happy you survived to tell your tale. Keep on living, you survived for a reason and that's to bring awareness to topics like this, to tell the world and this country to stop being blind to reality and DO SOMETHING.
Thank you again for your story. And Thank you Azeal for giving him the platform for it.
It's Ven but yes I did find a good therapist and it has done me wonders in allowing me to function.
Somedays I struggle but that's the rollercoaster of life
@@darthvendar6841 Good, I'm glad to hear that. And yes, there are gonna be good days and bad, but you gotta roll with each. Just know you can always reach out to your spouse and friends if you're ever having a really bad day. Lots of hugs to you man.
I love how in this horrible moment you had these three people who did very different things, but they can all be seen as heroes.
“When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, ‘Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.” -Mr Rogers
Just hearing his voice hit me hard, I haven’t cried in a while but this genuinely made me on the verge of sobbing, the end hit me harder than truck basically. I wish nothing but the best for Ven, he’s a really strong man and absolutely no one deserves to go through that pain.
I'm sorry. I know my story is overwhelming
Thank you for giving a voice to this brave individual. He took ownership of the situation and saved lives. But no one expects to have to make that choice. Much love to everyone involved in this. It can be very difficult to come to a final resolution. People's minds are trained to remember details they find important. You cannot remove these details from the person without removing pieces of their self. Getting past the mental conditioning your body puts you through during PTSD is impossible. It becomes your whole body and mind - changed, to alert for predators, like our evolution dictates. And we have many ways to escape this, but nearly all are completely useless for continuing to progress as a person. So many with PTSD commit suicide. Just randomly, 3 months later, 2 years later, 15 years later. You've got to carry that weight a long time.
Thanks you for giving people a platform azeal, and for the man who told the story thank you for telling your story.
Yeah
The part where he said "I'm just a guy." I felt that hit my soul. I could never imagine having to go through everything that he's been through. It really makes our everyday struggles look like nothing. This man is a legend and deserves a better America. One where he doesn't have to dread the next shooting on the news. From those 57 minutes of him pouring out his soul to us... I can tell that he is a hero that helped out the best that he could with what he was throw into. It was sink or swim and he swam the best that he could. He did better than what most of us could have done in that situation. Survivors guilt is something that happens a lot in these types of events and those people deserve all the love they can get. They deserve it all the help they can get. There is so much to be said that is unsaid.
I just went and watched the video of you telling your story at the vigil. I have never been in a traumatic experience like you have, Ven, and I hope never to. But hearing the pain in your voice, seeing you relive every moment in your eyes, seeing you try not to cry, it hurts to know someone who was just doing your job would have to feel that. Know you are loved and that this terrible experience does not define who you are.
What defines you is that you are a good person.
Rest in peace Eric. Rest in peace to the over 60 who lost their lives. Rest in peace to the hearts and souls of the survivors and families of those who were lost.
Gosh I'm embarrassed even thinking about how people can compare how composed I am 5 years ago 3 days after the shooting and now.
But thank you so much for all your kind words.
@@darthvendar6841 listen man. Having to relive that cause of recent events can cause composure to be worthless. Dont feel emberassed to feel. Just be kind to yourself. I cant really say much more than that cause I dont know how to say it any other way, but losing your composure a bit is warranted when you have gone through something like that.
All I can say is, dont let it define you, dont let it feedback onto you, and be kind to yourself.
I can only imagine what it was like to be there. I am an armed Security guard for the last 7 years. I have been at events where shootings have occurred and people have died, luckily usually we were able to do something in those situations because these assholes where within range and we were equipped to do our job and fought back.
I still struggle with the people I couldn't protect.
*I wrote this comment 10 minutes in.*
When you are done. I'd like to say it is so difficult for me sometimes to recognize while it is my job to help and protect it is not my fault that they died. And I can't blame myself. I still struggle knowing that is true.
I commend Darth for having to talk about this traumatic experience, you my guy deserve a medal of bravery. I don’t think anyone that just sees the horror on TV could really understand the trauma that comes with an experience with you. Darth I really respect you and the story you have told.
I am deeply sorry for this man he had a terrible year and it ended with this. I hope in recent times his life is better.
Incredibly and as impossible as it seemed at some points, it did indeed get better. Years of therapy later.
@@darthvendar6841 Glad to hear that man. Hang in there, for myself im glad im still here. I hope you feel the same many times a year
I wish you nothing but the best, Ven. You put yourself in harms way to help others, you were willing to lose your life to save others, and you deserve respect and recognition for it. What you did is more than most, and is incredibly honorable. I genuinely hope you can find a way to heal, and to overcome the trauma from that terrible day, you deserve to have peace.
The world is a better place with you in it, Ven.
You're making me cry... thank you so much.
it feels so cliché and empty to just say "im sorry" to someone who lives through this but i dont know what else to say. Darth, you were a torch in the night for so many people and so many were able to go home and live on because of you. You're a true hero and everyone should admire your bravery. Thank you for your service and I hope whatever therapy you're doing is helping you.
I’ve seen this video before but just hearing it today at the end and him saying "He was a good guy, I was a nobody from nothing…. Who'd done nothing." And him just breaking down crying literally shot through my heart man. It makes you think the shit we go through on this planet, why the hell are we here? To learn lessons? It’s possible, but to go through the worst shit you could ever go through I just hope whatever Gods plan is, it’s absolutely worth it.
i lost my faith in god after this event, but i deeply appreciate your sentiment regardless
@@darthvendar6841 Of course and I don’t blame you, dude. Glad you made it out of that mess.
It makes me sad knowing that I forgot about this Las Vegas Massacre too.
It honestly makes me cry. It makes me feel bad. I remember seeing the headlines on the news about the Las Vegas Massacre years ago, and the victim's stories on CNN. Then the Robb Elementary School Shooting just yesterday.
I'm so sorry Ven, and to everyone to was impacted by this nightmare of a massacre. I couldn't imagine what it was like. It's made me more open-minded to it all. You're all good people, and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.
Thank you.
This guy chose to act when he had no duty. He was being paid a fraction of the cops pay to be there and he chose to stay and help under no oath or obligation. He could have said “I quit” and fled when the cop said “Do your job!”. Very commendable and I hope he is able to process this
I feel like this deserves to be said, this man went through so, so much, i can only watch and almost cry at this mans suffering, and then people tell him he's a liar? Wow, that is just- honestly what has humanity come to? I am so sorry for you Ven and i hope you and your family live a happy and long life because this is just sad. Thank you, for being there for people when they needed someone the most. You dealt with all these things and still had the braveness, courage and strength to risk your own life for others, if we were all like you this world would be so much better, live long my friend. Live long.
I hope everything gets better for you this doesn't deserve to happen to anyone
I'll never forget when this happened... I'm Canadian and was in Canada when it happened but it still shook me to my core and makes me emotional to hear stories from that night. Breaks my heart to hear about all these shootings just next door in a country I also love
Here is a list of all the people I could find, hopefully if the world remembers the fallen, we can mitigate the tragedies:
Hannah Ahlers
Heather Alvarado
Dorene Anderson
Carrie Barnette
Jack Beaton
Steve Berger
Candice Bowers
Denise Salmon Burditus
Sandy Casey
Andrea Castilla
Denise Cohen
Austin Davis
Thomas Day Jr.
Christiana Duarte
Stacee Etcheber
Brian Fraser
Keri Galvan
Dana Gardner
Angela Gomez
Rocio Guillen
Charleston Hartfield
Chris Hazencomb
Jennifer Irvine
Nicol Kimura
Jessica Klymchuk
Carly Kreibaum
Rhonda LeRocque
Victor Link
Jordan McIldoon
Kelsey Meadows
Calla Medig
Sonny Melton
Pati Mestas
Austin Meyer
Adrian Murfitt
Rachael Parker
Jennifer Parks
Carrie Parsons
Lisa Patterson
John Phippen
Melissa Ramirez
Jordyn Rivera
Quinton Robbins
Cameron Robinson
Tara Roe Smith
Lisa Romero-Muniz
Christopher Roybal
Brett Schwanbeck
Bailey Schweitzer
Laura Shipp
Erick Silva
Susan Smith
Brennan Stewart
Derrick Taylor
Neysa Tonks
Michelle Vo
Kurt Von Tillow
Bill Wolfe Jr.
I am sorry if any of this is inaccurate. I regret I do not have enough time in my schedule to do sufficient research and verify the names of this list. You are not some nobody, I cannot speak for the rest of your life, but you did this. Azeal is right, your a damn good one, and people like that are hard to find. I hope I have helped, at least just a little. I wish I could do more.
This seems accurate you even got Erick there
God bless those people's souls may they rest in peace. I hope they find happiness among the angels and their loved ones who passed on before them.
(Sorry about my name and profile picture I know it isn't suitable for something like this so sorry)
@@dankmemeboi7252 actually it means more because it came from someone like you who still took this very seriously
after listening to the entire story, while I was reading this comment, I couldn't think of anything but the list keeps on going. So many families won't get their husbands, wives, sons, or daughters back. May these souls and their families find some peace, because I know that most are still broken and will be for decades after this tragedy.
Words can't describe this; I've listened to many stories posted here. I've never been so mentally crushed to hear this, and I know I will never truly feel this pain. I am at a loss for words. Just saying, "sorry this had to happen," minimizes this horrible event, but I cannot stop crying just thinking about how unbearable it must be to live every day with that horrific trauma. Nobody deserves this pain.
I felt like I needed to say something about this since I don't want this to just be another video I watched this one night while gaming.
I’ve gotta say, this is the first story that’s actually kinda fucked me up after hearing it. I can’t even imagine how it feels for Darth to have been in such a horrific event. I really do hope that something is done sooner or later to start trying to prevent this stuff from happening all the time. Darth, if you’re reading this, you did amazing. Not only at telling this story and conveying your emotion, but you put your life on the line to help others during this tragedy. I have the utmost respect for you, and anyone else who was a victim of this massacre. I wish you the best man
The only thing I can see would have stopped this was security that was ex military. Security that could recognize muzzle flash and had the proper tools to deal with a threat at such a long range.
Even extremely strict gun control wouldn't have worked here. Dude acted completely normal for a long time and was loaded with cash he would have had the money to go through any loop hole or just obtain the weapons on the black market
@@Grognarthebarb ,,Strict gun control wouldn't have worked here'' is such a dumb argument. It's the equivalent of saying ,,Well robbers are gonna steal this jewlery anyways, look at all their equipment and planning, so like why bother locking it up, let's just leave it on the table here'' - literally.
But people for some reason just assume that it would have happened anyways - and it doesn't matter which shooting is talked about, it's always the same argument. But you know what ? Gun control WORKS in the rest of the world, as always, there is data showing that, but nah. Stop acting like the US is some special place different from the rest of the world enough, that things proven to work in the rest of the planet can't work there.
How many dead people and dead children will it take to finaly do something about the problem ? How many dead bodies will it take to snap you guys out of this conforting lie you are telling yourself ? Is there even a limit ?
@@milokojjones I guess you forget that people run cars into crowds and build bombs. Light building on fire.
@@milokojjones like your whole comment still ignores the fact that no matter what country this guy lived in he had the cash to legally or illegally do whatever he wanted. This is specific to this case but for all the others I have other arguments. People forget that the largest mass killing at a school happened on the 1930s in the states when a dude packed a bunch of explosives into the basement of a school and thankfully only 1/3 of it went off.
@@Grognarthebarb So what ? We should do nothing ? It still the same argument - as I said before ,,Why bother locking things up when thiefs are gonna find a way to steal the stuff anyways ?''.
Regardless, even for these things you mentioned, there are ways to limit and prevent these - for example, concrete blocks were installed in places where people gather so that cars can't be used to run crowded people over. Similarly, if you have well funded and well trained firefighters ( and the buildings follow safety regulations ) arsons are much less deadly ( so are car crowd hits ). Bombs are problematic, as they are on a comparable level of deadliness per time using, but even they have their problems - explosives, especially reliable ones are quite hard to make and it's often very sus, so there is a chance the people making them will be discovered prior to their attacks. I'm also rather sure that resources which can be used to create explosives are regulated in one way or another.
Going back to gun regulations, the point of these is not to get rid of guns, but to lower the accessibility to them for the general public. Which means, that getting a gun is much harder - Sure the shooter may have money to buy the weapons on black market, but not everyone is going to go through the work to get a gun illegaly. Likewise, not everyone has connections to get guns from the black market and since their holding of a gun would be illegall, there is a higher chance that they could be discovered or caught before they are able to do anything.
Once again, gun regulations and strict gun ownership laws work for the rest of the world. There is a reason why the wikepedia site for mass shootings lists individual events for the other countries in the world, while the US tab lists statistics for how many people die yearly in mass shootings in the US.
So let me ask again, how many dead bodies does it take ? What's the limit ?
You’re a hero! Thank you for all you did for them! I’m sorry and devastated by the loss of your friends. May you find peace in time. ❤
it's been a long journey but i think im getting to the peace i always wanted
Thank you for letting people have their voices here. My heart breaks for this poor man. I wish him all the best for his life.
I have never seen an active look at survivals guilt in its full until this. What a moving story. I love this channel and the ability to share important stories across the world in a way like this for people to feel safe to talk in vr. It’s the best way of anonymity interviewing
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It weighs heavy on the soul
I lived in Vegas at the time of this. In the housing developments off the South end of Las Vegas boulevard. About 5 block South of the venue, I think. Maybe 5-10mins of driving in traffic. Vegas was somber but unified during this. Hospitals and blood donation centers were overflowing with blood donors. They were even sending mobile blood collection to some businesses to collect blood and I donated a double dose along with a lot of others. Multiple people at my place of work had friends or family that were there and that didn't make it. A couple of the employees themselves were physically present and there was one engineer that came to work the next week like nothing had happened. Probably still in shock. I don't think he told anyone that he had been there when the shooting started. He completely snapped a few days later, cussed out his boss, peeled out in the parking lot, damaged vehicles, and led the cops on a car chase for a good 45mins. Even wrecked his own car and stole a car from someone at a stoplight to keep going. I was a really crazy time, and it was even crazier because nobody had any idea, and don't have any solid logical idea, as to why the shooter did this. The whole city had an air of tragedy about it and no good answers to give the victims, families, and concerned citizens. The best conclusion I can come to is that this is what evil is, what it manifests like.
Your channel is amazing. Thanks for providing a medium for these raw, compelling stories of the human condition. I knew that VR has a place in today’s society. Didn’t exactly picture it this way
That's the goal, thanks so much :)
I've been through a school shooting. I hate to talk about it in person, but Darth here has made me comfortable sharing just that.
The more you tell your story the easier it gets.
@@darthvendar6841 Maybe. It sure didn't sound easy for you, friend. I hope that you recover from this and continue your life with your fiancé a happier man. I respect you immensely for speaking this composed and even though you broke down, it's heartbreaking. I understand, man. Well wishes for your future jobs in Houston.
@@gravelrun4028 we got married and we still live in Vegas. But we are getting our own place soon. I'm very happy and I am glad that life gets better despite the hardship I faced.
This man is a hero. I'm glad he is alive.
Yes he is.
I'm glad to be here
Thank you so much Azeal for giving people someone to talk to and giving them a way to share their stories.
It is my passion :)
5 minutes in and this is already so intense. Man I wanna hug this guy.
Despite making me cry, I appreciate this story being shared. I think Ven is incredibly strong and courageous man for sharing his story in this capacity. Me and my husband grew up in Reno, he had been to Vegas a few times. I went to Vegas once in the aftermath of the shooting. My hubby’s best friend got us tickets to see Markiplier live when he was doing the “You’re Welcome” tour. When this shooting happened before then, my husband had a very vivid dream that he was at the Vegas concert during the shooting. He said it felt very terrifying, and real. Last year we moved from Northern Nevada to the Portland, OR area and unfortunately gun crime is an issue here. About a month ago, husband got shot at during a drive by while he was driving. Got very lucky, bullet bounced off the car, no damage, he wasn’t hit. He calls me immediately after and for some reason he makes it sound like he just witnessed it, later I find out he was in shock at the time he called me. Later on he comes home, bear hugs me and I could literally feel it. Everything. The fear he felt.. the sadness.. The thought of ‘this is it I’m going to die.’ I think it is still important to go outside and such but I understand a lot of peoples fear now. I have mental issues and trauma in my past but not from experiences like this. Hearing the pain in Ven’s voice also reminded me of the same pain I’ve heard in my husband’s voice when he told me about his past. I’ve heard this tone of voice and pain from my partner a few times and it’s the worst thing when you feel like you don’t know how to help. I refuse to watch any mainstream TV news media coverage of tragedies like this. Reason because these tragedies always get turned into some political BS to distract the masses. Experiencing one of these tragedies 1st hand, having to see the media, and worse being labeled part of a conspiracy.. it all sounds like a nightmare. I can’t stomach news coverage of tragedies like these anymore, they sicken me and fill me with hate and rage.
Holy shit even I teared up. It was sad to watch a man cry knowing I'm unable to even say "I'm sorry" to him
It's alright man. Sometimes I just need to cry for a moment.
This is sad to know that there are people like this out there who don't have help or anyone to talk to
I normally listen to these stories while at work or driving to places cause I love listening to stories. I caught myself nearly breaking down at my desk. Such an awful event, but told by such a strong individual. I want to show sadness for Ven, but I will instead feel power. He survived and did everything in his power to save lives and still live on with the trauma. As always, thank you Azeal for allowing this voice to be heard.
Holy shit. I feel so sorry for this man. All my feels go to him. God bless his soul.
No one should ever go through this no matter what happens. Life is so cruel. He is super brave talking about this today.
He is one of the best of us.
@@Azeal you give me far too much praise.
I was just a guy who did what he could.
You are a hero, plain and simple.
Additionally, can’t be entirely certain, but that woman at around 14:00 minutes is alive and well. She’s got her own story in some documentary I watched about the same event.
REALLY? What documentary?
Pls share
This is the most powerful interview Ive seen in a long time. Incredibly moving and this story needs to reach more people.
I have only just gotten through the first 5th of this video. I can hear the absolute heartbreak in Darth’s voice. The fact this even has to be covered, after so much violent history…My heart aches for those who are victims, alive or dead. And the fact history keeps repeating, at faster and more threatening levels……I wish I could explain the amount of terror I feel. And that’s just hearing what everyone else has to say. I can’t imagine how scary it is for survivors.
And Darth, I can’t emphasise how brave you are for sharing your perspective. I hope you’re doing ok. I hope everyone is right now.
5 years of therapy later I'm doing okay. Hearing such kind words from people like you brings tears to my eyes.
Hearing these people puts things into perspective. What you're doing is gods work in letting people who've experienced real horror be heard. The way the news does it is honestly disgusting because they just sensationalize it but here, it's intimate, it's personal, it's *real*. And Vendar, just know that you are a trooper and while few can relate to what you've experienced just know that your voice is heard and for those of us who hear it, our heart goes out to you and we thank you for having the courage to speak like this. These are hollow words on the other side of the screen but you're stronger than most and I wish you nothing but the best of fortunes in spite of all the bad.
My heart and mind are shattered after hearing this. You are a STRONG human being, Ven, and I’m so sorry these political fucks keep hurting you time and time again. And unfortunately you’re right about the public forgetting about it, I JUST NOW am hearing about this a whole 7 FUCKING YEARS. But I don’t want to end this off on a negative note, so please, keep staying strong, you have a whole lot of people who side with you. Much love
Thank you my friend
Darth, people like you are the reason people like me, when I was a kid, wanted to join the Army. When I was a kid, I wanted to protect everyone, to such an extent I wanted to be in the Army. I wanted to be a support gunner for a tank division. My ultimate objective was, one day, to be dropped off at a location to defend. What I wanted was to be in a position to protect everyone. I wanted to be in a position so our entire army could go home to be with their families. I wanted to become just like that guy in Beachhead 9000, to be the front line so no one else would ever have too again. You are far braver for having to endure then I'll ever be. Thank you for your bravery. I'm sorry for your loss and your pain, but you, sir, are truthfully braver for talking to us, then I'll ever be.
You rock!!!
I just broke down after he said “people shouldn’t be dying. Not for this.”
I would say I feel his pain, but nobody can go through more pain than such a traumatic experience. it will warm my heart and everyone's heart when the U.S. finally finds a way to stop all these shootings for good
I mean it's not just a singular country issue
It happens all over and not just shooting, stabbings, bombings,etc. It's sad to say but people are people and there's always bound to be some more fucked than others. And everyone endures their own pain and suffering can't be measured in mass scale because how much everyone suffers from what they go through differs. People are complex like that, yet somehow we choose to be so naive at times despite our complexities
@@russianbigbird4161 I agree, but I also think that there can be improvements. And that some of them might never commit a crime if it was easier to get decent, competent help before it is too late.
I think that things can be better. Maybe not great, but hopefully still better.
I believe that most people can be helped to lead a somewhat normal life, if they receive the attention and the care they need. It just needs to be taken seriously and seen as more of a priority.
Not to mention the global injustice and inequality of wealth. If people have to suffer real bad, it's no wonder that some of them break and turn into terrorists or things like that.
There are some genuinely bad people, but also many bad fortunes that drive people to make terrible mistakes.
@@phoenix72999 yeah, funding is a big issue honestly, it's so common for people really struggling with mental health disabilities to be in the middle of getting help then all of a sudden funding is cut, and they're just left to deal with it on their own
At the very beginning of the video, Darth’s voice just sets in stone the grave tone of the video. Also, Azeal, you are truly a blessing to these people suffering from this ptsd and trauma.
Hi Darth. I know this video came out awhile ago, so idk if you’ll even see this, but on the off chance you do I just want to say thank you for talking about this. It’s one thing to go through it, it’s another to revisit it willingly. Im a first responder in a major Texas metropolitan area and I see horrible things every week. I’ve seen people literally torn apart from car accidents. I’ve held the hands of spouses as they watch the most important person in their life die from a medical emergency. I’ve had to tell mothers their children are dead and listen to their screams. I’ve seen all of that and more, but I cannot imagine the horror you have been through. I know that no matter how many people you helped and saved, it’s the ones that didn’t make it that probably stay with you the most. No matter how many people you save, it never feels like enough if even one of them doesn’t make it. But I want you to know you made a difference. You didn’t fix EVERYTHING and save EVERYONE, because there’s no eventuality where you could have, no matter what you did. No one could have. You aren’t responsible for the ones who didn’t make it, the shooter is. But you sure as shit are responsible for the ones that did make it. It will likely never feel that way, but it’s the truth. People are alive today because of you. I know that doesn’t make the pain stop, though. In a way, you made a bargain with the universe that day: in order for many people to live, you chose to take on the burden of loss for those that died. That is the heaviest burden of all and I think it speaks to the love you have for your fellow human beings deep inside you. But you don’t have to carry that burden if you don’t want to. There will never be a time where this isn’t part of you, but there is a future where you don’t feel so responsible for things that were out of your control. I want you to know that you aren’t nobody. You are you, and you matter so much more than you think you do. And so does your pain. I see you. I see your pain. You aren’t alone.
I know I’m an internet stranger, but as a fellow Texan millennial, I would love to chat some time. We never have to speak about this if you don’t want to, but I’d love to play some games or just chill on discord some time. This isn’t pity or charity, you legit just seem like a cool dude. Take it or leave it, up to you my friend 🙂 be well
My friend I read the comments to this video at least once every day. And I have to say reading yours brought tears to my eyes. I would love to talk to someone who understands the pain and burden I just can't seem to let go off. And I think you are a pretty chill guy as well.
I am on Azeals Discord server and I would not mind talking or chatting at all. Though I do feel I probably wouldn't quite be as interesting as you a person who performs acts of heroism as part of your job.
dude i have no idea how you can listen to these stories and not cry at the end Azeal. this had me tearing up. i hope he gets help for his trauma and lives his best life from here on out. that all his friends would have wanted.
Ven, I'm only now seeing this video, and maybe you're not checking the comments at this point (which I'd completely understand). You are a hero. You're a good man. You have changed my life; your story has encouraged me to live in service of others. Your story has convinced me to be more honest, convicted, and willing to help. Thank you.
Azael, thank you for making this interview happen. This was incredible
I try to check the comments as often as I can. I am always honored by the kind words.
Thank you, Ven, for the insight.
It's amazing to know there are people out there like you Azeal. It's always one thing that atleast makes some feel better even a little is a good listener. And you are one, I hope that both of you are doing okay and wish all the best luck to you
Thank you for sharing your story.
The real tragedy is that I’ve never heard of the Las Vegas Massacre until now. I’m so sorry you had to go through such a terrifying and traumatic experience Darth. Doubly so for the fact that you had to endure angry internet lunes and having your experience be forgotten in the tide of “breaking news” and “current events”.
Thank you for exposing the world to such stories, I came across your YT channel through the Leadhead collab you two did and I'm really glad to have been able to discover it. I've seen several of your videos already, and not only do you have a really good instinct for which ones to pick, you also give a variety of different perspectives a big stage to tell their personal stories and I think it's one of the best uses of this platform I've seen on the internet.
I really hope one day that these sorts of massacres are never heard from again, these sorts of things break people. There's no telling the Trauma and PSTD people get from these sorts of things. It is so depressing listening to this, hearing that this stuff happened while I was safe in my home.
This whole country deserves better, Humanity as a whole deserves Better.
bless you. we watched it live, you lived it. grateful for you to be here to share with us.
man your a hero not just a guy
you made me cry because of your story and there needs to be more people like you in the world
your the most selfless most amazing person i have heard of, you stayed strong when others couldn't
i didn't know that event was that bad i kinda just look over stuff like that, i see now how sad it is there arn't any words to describe how disappointing
shootings are and how useless they are
there isn't any thing i can say that will make you feel better but im sorry for your loss 😞
We appreciate you so much Azeal, letting people share their stories and have these videos reach hundreds if thousands of people is truly unbelievable.
Your not a nobody. Your a hero. You helped save lives. Anything anyone else says is irrelevant.
Darth you are a fucking unit any lesser person wouldn't have made it as far as you you keep marching to that peaceful and happy life you so goddamn deserve
he sounds like he's on the verge of tears. Im so, so sorry.
I was... it's hard to relive these horrific moments. But it's important to tell others about what happened.
Bless your soul azeal, you give people who’s voice should be heard, the choice for it to be heard, a chance they deserve. Your truly a great human.
this wasn't the first the video on your channel that made me tear up and one point or another, but damn, it's definitely the first to make me actually cry, when Darth, understandably so, broke down near the end... it broke my heart, i couldn't keep my own tears back. this man has been through so much shit, the worst or most of it apparently in a one year timeframe, so much shit that no ones deserves to go through, yet he was still brave enough to share his story with you, with me, with everyone who watched it, this is definitely one of the best interviews you've done. not that there's really any ranking or anything, they're all their own story, but just hearing his story pulled on me in some different way. Maybe it's because i share a similar mindset when it comes to how senseless and PREVENTABLE tragedies like this are. Maybe it's because of his bravery to let himself be open, and vulnerable, about a topic that im sure he never want's to think about and remember. Maybe it's a combination of both, and other factors. all i know is i really enjoyed listening to his story. not because of how tragic it is, but because of how *real* it is. (not saying any other interviews are fake or anything btw
These words always make my day. Thank you my friend.
@@darthvendar6841 i know the videos a year ish old, im glad you still see these though, and i hope youre doing okay, as best as you can at least. ^^ happy (late) thanksgiving, if you celebrate that.
you can hear the pain and the dissapointed ment in his voice, breaks my heart
pain for surviving when others didn't, that pain is real and it hurts so badly. It hurts even more when the very cause of your pain happens over and over again. I hope you have a happy life.
came to this video after seeing your other video that posted recently. really appreciate you sharing your stories with us. I hope with each passing day you can heal a little more from the trauma you suffered from and wish you nothing but good luck and health in the future.
Sending virtual hugs to Darth and his family. You are not a nobody. You are a message to all that they can survive traumatic and terrible events like you. You did the best you could and many more would probably be dead if not for you.
I have an unbelievably hard time crying (physically difficult for me to cry), but you better fucking believe that I was tearing up the entire time. I have nothing but respect for you Darth, and I don't know how to express my disgust for those accusing you of blatant lies and threatening you. Stay strong...
I am so sorry man
@@darthvendar6841 don't be sorry, you're the one that had it hardest. Funny enough though, I'm actually a girl (my pfp confuses people a lot)
poor guy sounds like he's still in shock about this horrible experience. Best wishes for him and his family/friends
It never really leaves you. You just live with it like a weight on your shoulder. Sometimes it's lighter then others. Other times it is a burden.
But that's life. i'm just so glad and relieved how positive everyone is being with me and how few people are spewing hate at me. It's been a long time since I experienced that.
@@darthvendar6841 that's great to hear man, hope you'll be able to recover someday fully:)
I love your work and want you to keep on going, thank you for every one on this channel promoting this stuff.
I think about that shooting every time I've gone to events since then, and my heart breaks every time a new shooting happens.
It feels like we're so helpless when there are bigger people in charge that get to make the final say.
Dude, I thought this vid was going to be like others where they just chat but in like the first 15 seconds after hearing his voice... This vids definitely going to hit places hard, and I haven't even watched it yet.
God bless this man. He is so compassionate and brave. nobody deserved to go through what they did on that day, especially not him. I wish you the best Darth.
Thank you
I remember this shooting pretty vividly, particularly because I had just started learning to make music at the time, so a concert shooting this deadly just upset me like nothing ever had. At the time I took my limited knowledge of music and wrote a tribute piece to the tragedy, and while I admit regretfully that it isn't particularly good musically, it's still very important to me. That being said, hearing it from someone who was really there changes your perspective a great deal, and I'm so glad you've given Darth a place to share his story, and I'm yet again just so incredibly upset that people actually think that it's all a coverup to take away their guns or something.
Do what matters most to you, and thank you for the kind words to him 🧡
I appreciate the kind gesture regardless
The amount of rage building inside me as I listen to him recount how people sent him death threats or said he's lying about his traumatic experience.
My parents were supposed to go to that concert. They got stuck in traffic on their way there from the cheap hotel a bit away. They were late that third day and figured to just hang out around. They did not hear about it until I called them distressed and they found out. It was so scary but so relieving to hear my mothers and fathers worried voice once they heard my shaken voice. It was the scariest time I had ever thought of my parents.
Wow, that's intense... I'm so glad they're okay.
@@Azeal me too. Thank you
My cousin was there I remember the absolutely panic I felt he survived but he won't ever talk about it all and before that another cousin and her veteran husband were both at the Roseburg Oregon Umpqua college shooting her husband had to go to inpatient because he already had PTSD from getting blown up in Iraq
Thank you Vendar. I'm really glad I could hear your story and learn about what you and so many others have gone through. Much love
Thank you Darth for sharing your story. You are strong sir. Keep on. There are people looking up to you for strength.
Sending lots of love, Ven. I hope your OK
I'm doing a lot better
@@darthvendar6841 Glad to hear that. ❤️
I’m not one to cry listening to stories like this, but this one made me sob a little I can’t even lie. I could never even remotely imagine the horror this man went through
I'm sorry mate. No one ought to go through that.