guy in vr talks about their worst day as a soldier
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- Опубликовано: 22 дек 2020
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charlie (winnie the pooh) and i (hello syrmor the cat behind the camera) talk with Struggle, an air force veteran, about their darkest memory.
photos provided by Struggle
me - / syrmors
charlie - / cmdrcharlesonline
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The fact that he’s Anakin Skywalker seems fitting
I said the same. Bobba fett wouldve fit too
Ikr
@Logan Roof ?
Not just the men... But the women... And the children!
@Logan Roof ???
This poor dude seems like he just wanted tell this story for so long but never found the right person to tell this too, until he met vr pooh bear.
Yes
GOES THROUGH A TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE THEN GOES TO VR TO TELL IT TO POOH
@Logan Roof ...tf
Honestly though I feel bad for him I feel how he does sometimes like when your out there your just a pawn sure you could say that your fighting for your freedom but are you really cause all your really doing is fighting against your will and against a lot of other people who do the same to them and you your strangers who don't have a reason to kill one another but as we do our government can just sit back and watch as they do so now I know I know it's not fair to say our government just does it for a buzz but considering the stuff they have been caught doing after all this time it's not to far to think that way because of it and people are getting tired of it me included what ever happened to putting your people first
or maybe it was made up
The fact that he is using Anakin Skywalker as his avatar while talking about his experiences as a soldier to VR Pooh Bear makes it feel more complete somehow.
ik like
Indeed
Kh4 leak
Kingdom Hearts 6 leak
Xi jinping
Let’s be real if Vader had a sit down and heart to heart with someone like pooh, the empire would’ve been gone much earlier
The empire would improve and the rebel scum would be destroyed*
💀😂
this is b4 anakin turned evil
@@gdust6579 that’s not the point be quiet thanks
@@okentrepreneur3777 anakin tried havin heart 2 heart about losing his mom and afraid of losing padme. the jedis told him to not be attached. they tried to make him less emotional. maybe if he talked to pooh instead of jedis he wouldnt have gone to the dark side.....
Anakin: "I worked in a Toys R Us"
Younglings: *profuse sweating*
*chuckcles,i’m in danger
Fucking epic comment!!!!!
Now i know why he was fired
You win best comment ever
😂😂😂😂
“The AC-130? From like Modern Warfare 2?”
“YEAH MAN”
this is gold
Bro thats literally how they peddled people into combat arms for a good 15 years, hell they probably still do
@@bigdaddygibbs251 plot twist: the government is secretly making COD games
@@lord_snaxx5117Play a demo of America's Army. Literally an FPS created and funded by the Department of Defense.
@@lord_snaxx5117 eh not so secret
@@lord_snaxx5117 Have you seen War games? Imagine COD War games
"Pretty sure he has lung cancer and just won't go to the doctor cos he can't afford it" - the American Dream, people
I'm pretty sure that's not the quote
Its close enough to the quote that it makes the same point@savageraccoon787
everytime i hear this statement made this way it reminds me how little people actually understand the rest of the world.
better to be here than 98% of the rest of the entire world bud. it aint perfect but it is THE best place to be.
@@wowitsfrostygames155I don't think that it is the best place to be. But it is one of the better ones in the world, for sure.
@@wowitsfrostygames155 Definitely not the best place to be, but def in the top 20 countries imo, just don't act like America is the best
I was in the military myself. Honestly VR chat helps a lot of us who suffer from PSTD. It is honestly like going to confession for Catholics. Only way I can explain it.
Guess talking to cartoon characters helps get the weight off
@@crimsondynamo615 free theraphy
@@crimsondynamo615nothing like hatsuni miku talking about her time in the us special forces in korea and nam and all the while cracking jokes and using area appropriate racial slurs against the commies while going on about the countless war crimes she committed and got away with
Sad that it cant just be a family member or freind in real life as you can see from the one ass hole response people judge way to easily with no real understanding and rather than try they just double down on being holier than thou ive made myself that person to talk to for all the vets i know family and freinds . I dont judge hinestpy i let it all go when the convo is done but i truly try to understand in the moment to show some degree of empathy and i find that goes a long ways i will also keep up with em drinking so that helps lol... point being more people should be like vr pooh bear and just listen
@@TheRealRusDaddywow thanks for your deep understanding for what it is that soldiers deal with. You ever sign up for a credit card when you are young and don't really know what you're doing. The military is not very different. I signed up because I was poor and needed a way out of shitty circumstances. What you don't know is that your soul and mental health take the place of financial burden. Then you get out and no one in your family can even comprehend everything you have been through, then you find a place online for vets to talk and then the comment section gets filled up with shit heads who don't know anything about serving something other than themselves
Anakin: “I felt like I was dying”
Winnie the Pooh: “🙂”
Hey it’s Xi Jinping bro
@@zenpai5998 Easy mistake to make.
@@thebatman4279 not really, both are emotionless dogs who eat all the bunny. Why are you stalking me however.
@@zenpai5998 Winnie don't eat no bunnies though.
Stalking you? 🤔
@@thebatman4279 I think he mistakes honey for bunny
The fact that the man confessed all his experience in a war towards winnie the pooh
Confess-a-bear
I wonder what that feels like talking about your experience in war with winne the pooh
Ji Xin Ping
@@Minutes_Man TELL CONFESS-A-BEAR NOW, N O W
Winnie understands war.
Glad my Cold War veteran father talked me out of signing up after 9/11. Time seems to have proven him right. “They’ll play on your patriotism, chew you and your friends up, then spit on you.”
I had a deep sympathy for this man. I heard my father cry out in his nightmares, or when he drank, about his buddies.
Your father is a great man for doing that. I know far too many people who will always talk their kids into joining the military, despite knowing the reality of it.
I've never heard of a "Cold War Veteran" before, due to the nature of a Cold War and all.
Was he in a specific hot theater?
@@MDMDMDMDMDMDMDMDMD My father volunteered for the draft in 1958. Originally, he was assigned to 3rd Army, 82nd Airborne, but then changed to Army Admin and then Army Intelligence/DIA/CIA joint Ops. Anyone in the know will understand when I say that after he went through basic and second eight, he trained at Fort Slocum, New York.
He served in the US Army in several theaters including the Caribbean, Central America, but mostly Southeast Asia (in active service and then as a “civilian contractor” while working at TRW Systems while still in the reserves).
Considering the span of conflicts, I think “Cold War Veteran” is more succinct.
Whatever can be said about Iraq and Afghanistan the fact is many American lives were saved by not fighting mujahideen in malls, concerts and schools
It’s not that dramatic, man. No offense to your dad, but the Cold War military was a garrison force. At least post 9/11 you would’ve been able to do your job as a soldier, guaranteed. Now, you’ll live the rest of your life wondering if you could’ve ever lived up to it because you puss’d out.
everything else aside, he’s an amazing storyteller. i can picture every scene as he’s explaining it
He sounds very intelligent.
@@PL-rf4hyhe sounds like a warcriminal who's proud of the crimes he did. He doesn't even understand that he could have NOT gone to the military.
Did you even listen to the video? @@kaivogel253
@@kaivogel253Howes the weather over there???
It’s the trauma. It imprints on you, for better or worse. -Vet from Bagram 2007
There's something morbidly comedic about the soldier's model being Anakin.
I think its fitting, cause he's a war veteran, fighting in Afghanistan where sand is present lol.
@@knox7945 And on a gunship.
I didn't really find it funny more awkward and unnecessary
@@neonblack211 but it fits because the character, specifically that rendition of the character, can identify totally with the struggle and hardship and pain.
And the whole accidentally firing on women and children thing..
Him describing all the guys in his bunk with obvious neurological disorders... Like those are literally the symptoms of lead poisoning. that's so nuts.
Yeah it’s fucked up...
But why they all had it though?
@@kianchampion9581 from breathing in lead dust from the shells being fired. He mentions they did an air quality test
@@goldenpun5592 oh thanks for replying
@Logan Roof I imagine that you haven’t done halve the work he’s done and your shitting on him for doing dangerous work and duty?
"I killed a tree and then two people under it."
There's something so sad, yet powerful about what he said here. "I killed a tree" is not a phrase many people would opt to use.
I guess it's just goes to show that being put in a situation where you are made to take a life, just makes you more aware of all the forms it takes.
I think it speaks more to the fact that by this point, he was desensitized or at least mentally trying to be desensitized to the violence he's inflicted upon others. By describing as such, makes it seek like he's less culpable of their deaths, in a way where the responsibility of what killed them doesn't lie solely on him.
@@InVinoVeratasi think he was just very humbly bragging about his double collateral kill
The way you worded this hit my soul. “All forms it takes” also what a great detail I missed as well with his wording choice being so interesting
@@TheRealRusDaddy i dont see why anyone would brag about killing people
He wasn't bragging. He was distancing himself. He didn't kill those people. The tree did.
"I felt like I owed everyone, without feeling like I owed myself anything"
I can relate to that one brother.
Respect to the other guy for letting him tell his story uninterrupted
Madddddd respect. :/
He was AFK.
Bro, respect to the lady that sat with forrest gump and listened to his life story
There were cuts so he probably talked to him but in a good way. Either way at least he listened.
I know what a good friend 🥺
Him using the Anakin avatar makes me think he’s talking about his experience in the clone wars
😳
It's probably who he feels he relates to
That’s what I was thinking
Not the younglings, Anakin
Especially with the gunship mentions
As a kid, I was told that anyone who went into the military had it made. I didn't go in the military, I was disqualified due to reasons. I felt regret. Now, I have passed four decades, and every military person I have known personally has some kind of health or mental issue. Every. Single. One. I don't know why the military breaks their soldiers so hard. We have an excellent military, but after the people get out, we fail them. I wish we could help them better, they deserve good treatment for all that they protect.
Not just the military but veterans. They make it seem like veterans are living it up rich as shit. We're not. VA care is a joke and the steps you have to take just to get any type of care of benefits are too much. The part were he mentioned about the guy having the shakes is true. Since I've been out my hands shake so much people constantly ask " what's with your hand?" Almost mocking me and they dont listen when I try to explain it.
Thats because the military markets themselves towards the poor and middle class, uses them for whatever agenda is necessary no matter how hard it breaks them mentally and physically, and then kicks them to the curb after their contract is over. American prosperity is paid with young mens blood. Thats the truth Americans need to hear and understand. Everyone is enjoying the benefits in America, does that make everyone complicit for turning a blind eye to these sacrifices? Everyone loves being the premiere country, loves having more new technology to buy, and knowing no one can stand up to us because of our indomitable military might. Being number one comes at a cost, a cold, disgusting price that is paid every day, every week, and every year. Yet I dont know how to make sense of it morally.
@@nickcox1408 No one respects when someone is sick or has issues. I don't understand this. I know that as a young person, I never knew what to say to someone. But now that I am older, I listen to people. It took me a little while to grow up and understand that it is okay not to be afraid of someone who has an ailment that can't be fixed. I remember going to school with kids who made fun of others when others were hurt. Those kids grew up, and you can bet as adults they still do that stuff. It's only when it happens to them that they want everyone to listen to their problems. As you can see, I am pretty disappointed in how people treat one another.
@@WailOfDoom Yes, our country's power is run on the blood of young people. There are some things that could change if the government changed practices, such as making guys run that burn pile which spews out chemicals and gives the soldiers cancer. I remember talking to a former military man who said they trained in some swamp land out in the eastern states, but the swamp had been a chemical dumping site for some companies before the laws changed in the 1980's or so. So these kids were running around in chemicals, breaking out in rashes, headaches, throwing up. But no one removed them from training in that site. I don't know why we put our young soldiers in unhealthy situations when we need them to be healthy in case of war? Maybe the top brass figure they are all going to die anyway? But that isn't the way to run a winning scenario.
@@BlackSeranna like dave chappelle said: it's funny until it happens to you
I was a Combat Medic in the US Army. We did our fair share of drinking, drugging and fighting. Mental health should be accepted as a disease akin to any other human disease and not stigmatized by command or society in general. Thank you for sharing and I pray you find peace within yourself.
Its a 'silent killer'
When I PCS'd to Drum my command brought me in to help me get with the program. "We want these guys hungry. We want them angry, straining at the lease, getting drunk, beating up strippers, getting in fights, tearing up hotel rooms. We want them to be killers." They made it painful for me because I wouldn't get on board with that. They don't care about you, they never did and they never will.
I feel lucky that I was a medic who got stationed at a hospital for a short while. It meant I understood medical documentation for all the shit I went through. Saved me endlessly for when I got out and applied for disability. I would always fight the brainwashing telling my battles to get shit written down when they complained their knees hurt etc. When I was depressed I made sure they had record of therapist visits, was it helpful during active duty? Fuck no, it was like complaining about my pain when I was still on fire but I had the documentation. So much of the struggle is vets without any “proof” of their service connected, all because they didn’t want to be a sickcall warrior. I remember when I found out I developed asthma from all the black mold in our old ass barracks I was completely ostracized by my entire company because I temporarily couldn’t do PT while I was figuring out medication (had adverse reactions to albuterol) and had an asthma attack during a PT test. They called me lazy and a faker. Yet prior to this I had near 300 scores It was WILD I felt incredibly alone, but I continued to stick up for myself and went to my appointments. When my NCO would make fun of me I would ask “so are you telling me I can’t go to my doctors appointment or do I have permission to leave” Eventually my direct command apologized to me, but it took over a year after my official diagnosis for them to pretend they cared, and even then it was behind closed doors. So many people that join are raised in homes without boundaries or any support, so take the abuse with familiarity and the brainwashing truly sticks with a permanence. It made me so sad to see, and I still think about some of those guys and hope they are doing well. I try not to check myself because I almost always find out someone committed suicide that I served with. I’d rather keep the blinders up and move forward or it hurts too much.
general skywalker and his therapist the chinese president.
Only legends will get this
RANDY
HANDY
Xi Ji Ziamping loves his side job.
Both working for the empire to
“War is agreeable to those who have never experienced it”
Dulce bellum inexpertis
"One countrys hero is anothers terroist" or something like that
@nashaleatpo no one asked
@nashaleatpo go away
@nashaleatpo What a pathetic excuse of a god someone who can create all but can't stop someone going in his church and shooting his followers a god too weak to control his emotions and when overwhelmed with rage he takes it out on his own creations good ol lucy had it right when he tried overthrowing the stupid bastard
VR is unironically a surprisingly good medium for storytelling. I liked that at 11:12 he was able to use body language and hand gestures to express the environment, just as you’d do if you were telling a story in real life. Helped paint a more visceral picture in my minds eye for sure.
There’s probably something to be said about the anonymity of the internet making traumatic stuff easier to speak about, paired with how VR can make a story more compelling or gripping by way of making it feel more like an in person experience.
I was one of the ground guys during the 2010-11 push into Farah and Helmand as 12B with 1-4ID. Without air support I'm not sure if I would be here. I feel for you, your story hits home. Be kind to yourself and those around you. Keep being a voice, you're on point.
I was there in 10-11. Kandahar province. On a fob near Qalat. Crazy times, brother... If I could go back in time, I would never have walked into that recruiting station. I'd have saved myself the last 11 years of depression, anxiety and near constant thoughts of "escape". I got help. Stayed in an in-patient facility for a long spell. I'm medicated to the gills and do my therapy. But I started lying the the professionals about my intrusive thoughts. I still think, nearly every day, that I can't go on feeling this way. At this point, my kids are the only reason I'm still alive. If I didn't have them, I'd have suck-started my shotgun a long time ago. Admitting to that just now has me feeling shame and remorse. Anyway, I guess I'll just keep my head down and drive on. That's what we're supposed to do, right?
@@TheKindell4 one of the best things I ever did was ditch the VA poison medicine and face myself and the demons I carry. Find a non VA doctor that does EMDR. It might help. Keep being honest with yourself, burying the truths keeps the depression and mental gymnastics alive. You can break past it but it takes time and a lot of effort. It also takes involving the folks you can trust that love you. Keep up the good fight and never give up.
@@TheKindell4 Hey man, as a young man who’s never served in war, I most certainly can’t speak to how you feel or what you’ve been through, but as a Christian who believes that you are made in the image of God I can honestly say I’m glad you’re here and you’re kids still have their father. It’s the sacrifice of men like you who keep our world from descending entirely into chaos, so thank you. Also as I mentioned before I believe you were made by God and the only way to orient ourselves (I honestly believe)correctly is to know Him and His plans for us so maybe try that on your journey? My 2 cents. All the best man.
@@SQUISHBUBBLE hate to burst your bubble squish bubble, but serving in Afghanistan in no way “keeps our world from descending into chaos”. The world would be the same, only with many more of gods children alive, had we left the country 2 months after invading instead of 20
@@reportedworm4314 As you’ll notice in my comment, if you actually took the time to read it properly, no where do I mention invading Afghanistan as the thing keeping the world from descending into chaos.. Rather I’m exalting the sacrifice of selfless men. Which actually is what keeps evil at bay anywhere and in any context in the world.
Imagine this. you are a veteran soldier telling your worst day as a soldier in a game where one is dressed like Winnie the pooh and you're dressed like Anakin Skywalker from the clone wars series
I don't know how the fuck I ended up in this video nor wtf is this channel about, but I guess Winnie the Pooh and Anakin characters lighten up the mood a bit, you know. Maybe we are seeing a therapeutic use of VR here?
Honestly it could be possible that it is easier to talk about this sort of thing in this medium. Not being face to face but still being able to gesture and talk like a human being could be therapeutic. I wouldn't know though I am fortunate enough to have never experienced anything close to what this guy did.
😂😂😂😂
It’s actually oddly appropriate coming from Anakin though.
@@silvussol8966 he killed not only the men, but the women and the children too. Because they’re like animals you know.
Ah yes, the military, “you get to go to college for free, and in exchange you give us -your mental health- everything”
And physical health. I’m all sorts of fucked up. Shoulder pain, back pain, knee pain. Yep.
Hi Dawa
Edit: Also My dad said make the military your last option due to the fact how messed up it is-
i don’t think it’s just mental health, you put everything on the line
“And your literal life as well as your morals”
Not true. Depends on what branch and what job you choose or get.
You can hear the pain in his voice when he recounts these stories. Glad he got this outlet to share his experiences.
you don't hear or see the pain of the maimed and dying civilians. Just the pity party of this reckless warcriminal
@@kaivogel253 grow up
@@Crispywithextrabuttersorry that came out garbled, can you stop deepthroating an american soldiers boot when you talk?
@@kaivogel253 Bro come on, this guys on the ground like him. Blame the guys who made the call and started the war, and who had the power to stop it.
@@haroldp.sadwood1181 everybody is to blame. If you fight in a war that was started for criminal reasons - it doesn't absolve you when you participate. Especially that guy and his crew obliterating civilian buildings regularly.
I wanna thank Syrmor for taking the time to listen to this story. Not many civilians want to hear about the messy parts of GWoT without throwing in their two cents or judging those of us that did the best we could as human beings in very inhumane circumstances. It's takes a compassionate soul to truly listen and gain some insight on how the war went down and how it affects those of us that were there and carry this weight. Big props for putting forth the time and effort to create and share this with the world. It gives an invaluable, unbiased insight into the struggles each of us in the veteran community have with what we experienced.
To Struggle: Thank you for the courage to share your story brother. Each of us carry scars on our souls from the GWoT and what we experienced. You're definitely not alone in this. Even though I was already done with my time in the service before you went in, my unit had help from your brothers in the JTAC/Gunship community in my trips overseas, they saved our asses on multiple occasions. Don't ever feel like what you did was for nothing or let the bad experiences taint the gratitude we knuckle draggers extend to you. The RoE sucked. ISIS and the Taliban being cowardly enough to use women and children as shields, or even worse sending them to carry out attacks... that especially sucked. So many of our brothers and sisters on the ground and in the air have stories where unfortunately civilians got caught in the crossfire or bad intel or poor comms led to the wrong target or simply having to make a gut call in a shit moment and seeing it go belly up and sideways. I've buried brothers in the years after our time in the war because they couldn't forgive themselves but felt too much shame to reach out. That is the worst pain in the world. Even if you never meant for this to be a tool of encouragement when you chose to share your story that day, that is what this serves as now.
To Struggle and any other veteran that may stumble across this: Keep being honest about your struggles. Keep talking about it. Peace is a precious treasure for us that sometimes we find hardest to keep in our grasp, but if the veteran community sticks together, it's easier to hold onto to. Celebrate the good memories. Celebrate the dumb shit you did with your brothers to waste time. Celebrate the memories of brothers and sisters lost, and keep diligent to do your best and be your best every day living the fullest life you can to honor the sacrifice and memories of those that no longer have the chance. Much love to you and all those in the JTAC and air support community from myself and all the other knuckle draggers of the 2nd BCT, 82nd Airborne.
thank you for your service. In time the sacrifices you’ve made will be paid in the most rewarding and meaningful way possible. I hope you have a great night or day where ever you are at. May god take care of you for taking care of the people you care about. So again thank you from me for the people who didn’t have the opportunity to say it :) have a good one brother✌️
i was really hoping Winnie the Pooh would be the one telling his war experiences
Same
LOLL ME TOO
yup
Same, but the attentive Winnie just made since lol
Story-wise Anakin Skywalker fits way better as the story unfolds. Better than a temporary laugh from "that sweet bear telling war stories"
Anakin telling us about his military experience is like him describing his most traumatic experiences in the Clone Wars
Clearly using the Anakin avatar for a reason
HE EVEN SOUNDS LIKE ANAKIN TOO
It took me 10 minutes to realize this wasn't a meme, it's not the clone wars. Just the republic.
When he started talking about how he wanted to level the building to a "dirt parking lot"
I was thinking the same thing 🤣
Just started considering military, this set me straight.
Humanity is fucked, we just keep doing this to people. He seems like a genuinely cool guy and I hope talking it out helped him.
Gotta remember how bad it used to be.
Those of us in service are never not proud of what we do. But we also bear the weight of that cost too. I feel for him. I wonder how it will be for me when I start to see the numbers of my job. I hear it's a big number too. My Sgt. and Cmdr tell me not to talk to my intel guys about what I see. Only that it will weigh on me.
So you want to have no military
ok now we have no military that's so good yay
@@itznix6962 everyone else still has a military, the US is invaded since it's now defenseless. peace is unachievable, violence is a part of human nature, it can't be stopped, even if we got rid of all weapons, it just takes one person to pick up a rock
This guy: we were literally inhaling cancer and killing people
Pooh: 😊
400th like
Oh bother.
i am the difference between 999 and 1k likes
He’s a very good listener.
@@muaddib.atreides reality can be whatever I want
Anakin: *Reflects on the horrific soul crushing reality of war.*
Pooh: :)
"That's it Anakin, remember what Disney has done"
Honestly, that boy needed someone to really TALK to. He never really had that. That's how Palpatine got his hooks in. Built trust and molded him. Pooh would be good for him.
I want to like but its at 666 and so I cant :(
Pooh himself has killed thousands of men...
@@Bloodlyshiva Is Pooh also owned by Disney?
Is this an inner-company rant, or is he just telling China all of USAF's secrets?
Feel like we're going to hear lots of these stories from Russian and Ukrainian soldiers
Why? This kind of thing happens all the time in war (I'm not trying to say it's not a big deal, I'm just saying it's not rare). Why do most people act as if Russia vs Ukraine is the only war to happen in decades and is the only war to care about?
No we won’t, because neither country has the money for fixed wing gunships. This guy’s experience is really unique
Yea I was thinking the same thing. I hope the war ends soon. Politicians killing young men for their own vanity projects should be a thing of the past
@@SwitchTF2 Money isn't a problem here. Fixed wing gunships are great against civillian militias and other forces that lack equipment, but are useless against an enemy that has anti-aircraft capabilities. Both Russian and Ukraine armed forces are quite well equipped in that department, so gunships would be simply serve as a target practice for them, if they were to be deployed.
Yeah if you speak Russian or Ukrainian. It's definitely not the same. Plus we have no idea what's really going on in this world. Wars are not wars... It's literally just soldiers fighting inside another country of people that don't want them there. That's not a war that's called an occupation.
I had a friend that had the exact same thing happen. Young stoner encouraged to go into the military. He came back completely mentally destroyed. Ended up taking his own life.
I am glad that this guy seems to be coping ok. These stories need to be told ❤
This man is extremely lucky that he was emotionally intelligent enough to have processed all this and still be alive on the other side
Maybe lucky, he's definitely strong. We're lucky to be hearing it.
A n i k a n
Woah I’ve never seen a comment that like, showed this in a way. haha I was about to make my own.
I am usually this person telling everyone horror stories. Hearing him talk about all of this just reminds me of what almost everyone who has a combat or mechanical job in the military deals with.
@@b3_w4ter85 if you think that's at all even close to what I said, you should reread what I wrote.
It is both so fitting and so sad that he’s using the clone wars skin
“Good soldiers follow orders”
@Logan Roof tf wrong with you
"The Nightmare is over ...."
Still gets to me damn
and its Anakin
He didnt know it yet, but when he joined the air force he would have the high ground
This guy has my total respect. Not just for his service, but also for taking a moment to unpack and share all of those feelings. Good on you, Struggle!
It's so nice that video games can be used just to hang out with people and talk about stuff anonymously. Life is so isolated nowadays with social media and dating apps that it's good to see people get their social needs get at least a little met on game servers.
In Afghanistan: “I don’t like sand.”
I know it’s poor taste. I suffer from PTSD too. But sometimes poor tasting jokes make light of our fallacies.
Yeah I saw this joke a mile away.
Honestly...I hate sand and M4s...those pieces of shit are so bad with sand with the malfunctions. It sucks
@@MaxC_1 "military grade" truly is a grouping built different
“It’s coarse, rough, and irritating. And it gets everywhere.”
Soldier: *Talking about his traumatic experiences as a soldier*
Winnie the Pooh: *Smiling gracefully*
Am I going to be that guy?
@@pastetatse4957 you get used to it halfway thru lol
fr tho
PTSD is like a loveless enclosed honey jar that is forgotten on the shelf for years. Sometimes you need to give it some love and let it out and share with the people you love or even strangers, em-hmph-hmph-hmph - Syrmor Winnie The Pooh
Pooh is just happy to be able to listen imo
This video hits deeply in the soul. The utter, horrible reality of war. Nobody should have to endure war. It's so awful, but our leaders will never stop sending kids out to face death and trauma. It hurts knowing that so many soldiers will never, ever be okay again.
you phrased it like people are being conscripted. in America, world's biggest war mafia, mandatory millitary service hasn't been a thing in, what, 60 years, since the Vietnam War? Americans are joining the army willingly and they do not deserve sympathy for it. they are murderers. join the army and after your tour is over go to the country where you used to murder people and tell them you did it to go to college. I'm sure they'll forgive you.
If it wasn't volunteer it would be mandatory. The economic cost of conscription is greater than a volunteer military. Most people in the military don't want to think about the fact that they are killing people. ALso you really think the Taliban isn't a volunteer force? it's volunteer force vs volunteer force....@@doktorhabilitowanystanczyk
I could listen to this guy talk about his experiences forever
“I felt like I owed.....everyone, without owing myself, anything.”
Those words hurt.
Its how I feel every day.
That almost made me cry.
how it is in life everybody feels like that once , but once you realize everybody’s opinion won’t deposit your money in the bank !
Facts bro...
@@geezotics it’s different when you’re in a combat MOS. I was an 11b that showed to my first unit with shattered hips from airborne school that I had hid. Did a ruck March my first day and had a level 3 break in both hips. Spent the next year there in a bottle contemplating suicide because I joined to fight for my brothers and I couldn’t. To me I didn’t give a fuck wether I lived or died. I contemplated suicide everyday because my friends were getting blown up and killed while I sat in the barracks unable to walk. Been out almost a year now and I still have nightmares and bad anxiety over how I feel about my buddies that fell when I was supposed to be protecting them.
This can be used as a primary resource on a kids research paper about the Afghanistan conflict in like 40 years
God damn right it can. VR is going to change the world. VR and storytelling.
@@claytonfilpo nah
@@jeffbenzos6344 it's good story telling... I dont have vR but it's a good story
Technically it probably shouldn't since the guy is anonymous and therefore it can't be proved that he was ever in the military. I mean I believe him just because his story has the ring of truth, but for research purposes there are better sources.
there is offensive language so idk
this was an incredibly opening listen just hearing him share these stories w such vulnerability
The pain they went through, physically and mentally, salute to those people
“I mean it never worked for em, but they tried” that’s a fucking soldier right there
On both sides right ?
@@giovannigonzalez6984 my best friend still loses sleep over watching elementary age children walk into crowds of civilians and blow themselves up. I'm fortunate enough to have never deployed during my service. But you need to think before you say dumb shit bruh
@@calemccartney7415 the same respect you give your military, the other side gives theirs. Its not like the US military is exactly the embodiment of all that is good and holy in the world.
Yes
@@calemccartney7415 And you're assuming that humans on the other side just don't feel? Politics aside, brains are brains, trauma and PSTD don't care what your politics are or where you live.
I love how this sounds like a story that Anakin or a clone trooper would tell. And then there's Pooh just *staring. Invested.*
I wish I had someone who looked at me the way pooh looks at anakin while he speaks😂😂😂 all jokes aside thank you for your service
10/10
kingdom hearts type beat
@@Muteki_REN Disney could seriously hide this in Kingdom Hearts 4 if they wanted to, Star Wars is inevitable now that disney owns it.
Kinda ironic thts he’s anakin lol
Loved this man's story, and I really hope he's doing well. All the best to him
I used to consider not signing up as one of my biggest regrets in life (still kind of do)
But listening to this guy talk, as a gunner, about as removed as you can be, amazing individual. And this was a guy that got fired from toys r us.
Really
Thanks dude
You are amazing for sharing
It still is for me, in 2011 I had a choice between joining the military with my friends or going to college like my parents wanted. I chose college and proceeded to dedicate myself to drinking and chasing skirt. Dropped out after 2 years of abysmal grades. Worked different “temporary” jobs while I tried to “find my passion”. Turns out I should have worked harder in college. Anyways I hang drywall and paint houses for a living now, always wish I would have joined the military instead.
I actually got into the Army in 93. It was all I wanted to do with my life; it was a family thing. But i had a grand mal seizure during basic & had to leave. I have never found anything else to do (job-wise) that has satisfied me, but i was also a single parent & where i lived, there weren't many choices. There are times when i still hate not being able to stay, THEN I listen/watch vets talk. It's highly likely I would've ended up in Croatia-Serbia. I actually got very lucky. I had a friend who ended up in Croatia; when he got back, he was never the same. I will always respect vets though.
And when the world needed him most, he returned
@@flandin_ bet
@@birbmess8148 dosent make any sense but ok
@@flandin_ he hasn’t uploaded for the last 4 months lol
Such an original comment man
@@Sovietube thank you
Anakin Skywalker explains his time in the clone wars
Wow Anakin grew a lot in walking he went from not being able to walk like a human being, to intimidatingly walking up to the Jedi Temple to slaughter them.
Good soldiers follow orders
To Winnie the Pooh lol
Meow meow meow meow meow
@@REDACTED-05 good solder follow orders
This was so heartbreaking and fascinating at the same time. Thank you for your service. I hope you’re able to heal and move on from the events that happened in your military career
These are the veterans I respect. Not every veteran is a “hero.” But these types of guys? They gave it all
Tell that soldier, as a taxpayer, he doesn’t owe me anything. I’m glad he’s home and I hope he gets the help he needs.
@Logan Roof Real edgelord here, folks.
@Logan Roof Could *you* do any better?
You all really got bamboozled by this guy. Ignore him, he's just spamming the comments to get people like you upset. What does he gain from it? I dunno but you gain nothing from feeding into his nonsense.
@Logan Roof ladies and gentlemen, we found one.
A true piece of shit.
@Logan Roof I gonna get you fucking drafted mate.
Vietnam vet interviews: Old men in person sitting on a stool, smoking.
21st century war vet interviews: Anime japanese schoolgirl.
Future is weird
It's funny because they're both really awful stories, just communicated a different way
also, that's anakin skywalker, "anime japanese" dont need to be in the same phrase
“It’s like one of my Japanese animes.”
@@Resi1ience we both know that under his darth vadar suit he’s wearing a cute little skirt and some a button up shirt.
@@thirteen_candles9806 can confirm.
was just watching the short preview when your scrolling and got hooked. hope this guy is doing better now and glad you sat there and listened to him openly. i’m sure he really needed to tell those stories without someone judging, budging in and asking questions.
Dope VR delivery of an incredible story. Great storyteller... amazing story, please elevate this, more of us need to hear my man. Cheers 🥂
"I felt like I owed everyone without feeling like I owed myself anything."
That one struck home pretty hard...
People don't give themselves enough self love or self worth. I've been there, always putting others before me to a point I would avoid interacting with people because I felt like I was wasting their time and it would be doing them a favour letting them spend time with others.
same here, these stories always get the tears running...
him being able to express that is really powerful. Its a definite sign he made progress in processing all those experiences
Cal DW What changed?
@@thelastflame64 A combination of things, it wasn't a simple "When the fire nation attacked" where I could point to one single event that made me change my outlook.
I tried to downplay the things I used to overthink, most of the time all the worst case scenarios I worried about were very very unlikely to happen and I jist got worked up over nothing.
I learned to accept that as an adult, it is upto me to decide what makes me happy and no one else is responsible for that. I am also not responsible for other people's happiness. Now that does not mean "be a dick and don't care about anyone", you should still always strive to be nice to others as that bit of niceness can really help people in day to day life BUT don't put someone's happiness solely on yourself. That's something they need to figure out for themselves and relying on someone else to be happy or make you "whole" leads to it being draining for both people.
Self worth and self love also helps a lot when it comes to dating and the types of people you let into your life. If you only love or value yourself 10%, and you date someone who gives you 20%, to you that will seem like they love you at least twice as much as you thought possible. So even if that person is toxic, lies, cheats, manipulates or is physically/emotionally abusive In reality, because they "love you" that 20% you will likely try to cling to that (this is why a lot of abuse victims stay with their abuser because they don't value themselves enough to think they deserve better). If you love yourself, respect yourself and value yourself 100% then you won't accept anything less, someone would have to show you love 100% or even more to really be worth you wanting to spend time together and build a life together and if someone was only going to show you that 20% you're not gonna get hung up on dodging that.
everyone says "AC130 ABOVE!" but no one says "how is AC130 above"
sad
Well, it's up there because it's able to generate lift with its large wings and powerful engines.
@@myachizero you beat me to it
@@phwix388 what are you trying to say lmao
I feel bad for laughing
This is really cool and honest. Thank you for making these interview videos. Really helps to hear other peoples struggles.
PLEASE DO MORE OF THIS. There are probably so many more stories like this and it’s so important to actually hear the horrible things going on in the military
This guy: gets fired from Toys r us
*Enemy AC-130 Above*
I laughed to hard at this
*begin bombing preparations*
Lmao
🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😭😭😭😭😭😭
😬
Oof.
I know this guy is speaking from his soul, but I cannot get over how perfect his avatar is for retelling war stories
right lmfao he kinda sounds like Matt Lanter too
it would've been better if it were war crimes lol /j
I REPEAT IT WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN BETTER I REPEAT
“I hate sand.” - Anakin Struggle
At first i thought it was real heavy role play
This is the greatest use of vr I’ve seen somehow combining the anonymity of vr and the relief of a heart to heart, +1 sub
Your not alone warrior wev been their we still stand together we still remember and thank you for sharing your story
This guy: taking about his horrific time as a soldier
Winnie the Pooh: **Interesting**
@Logan Roof at least he picked himself up and did something with his life lol, instead of posting troll comments in a random yt vid
@Logan Roof Watch it.
@Logan Roof obviously they don't. That's why you're here.
@Logan Roof this man has accomplished more than u ever will
Pooh: smiling as he remembers ww2 and Vietnam
100% of the people I've talked to who have worked at Toys R Us have joined the Air Force... Coincidence? I'm too old to believe in coincidences.
WARNING I am the unprettiest human YTer worldwide, but somehow I have TWO HOT RUclipsR girlfriends. Thanks for being a future subscryber, dear charles
Toys R Us is a gateway to many careers that some would consider to be unnatural...
I worked at Toys R Us once charlie so there goes your theory.
Wtf really?
Toys'R'Us seems like a crappy employer. I know them for their union busting, for one thing.
The part about how the civilian deaths affected him brought tears to my eyes , this man has pain he carrying man , any vets that open up to you man just listen and be the ears they need man make em know they appreciated and made the right choice in their situation man could be the difference between them thinking nobody cares and understands and doing something dumb to themself man they feel shit too
my ex is a VFW he kept talking about killing him self. he was too messed up to care about me in return. i thought we could have been happier together. now i feel like i could cause him to kill him self somehow. still sad that he cut me off 6 months ago and gets all this attention on facebook but i think i was the only person who he was really opened up to maybe i betrayed his trust but i felt he betrayed me deeply for some fake friends i have autism and he bullied me to get me to leave him. im realy torn up by it.... hes unreachable now.... but he didnt care how much he let me down... i thought we coulda been happy together and start a new better life together but its like he turned out to be evil and have evil druggie friends. wish there was a way to reach him but he just didnt care, he just kept telling me hed kill himself after starting Warfrog Foundation or go run off to Hawaii or disappear somewhere. he made me so sad and depressed. i pray he does not KHS
i tried to be there for him truly wen he could not be vulnerable with those other military guys or fake pothead friends who i think the fake friends in his town got him to bully me and dump me it was clear to me he had severe mental illness (i know cuz i have had and also have cptsd) and he cut me off despite that i was a real and loyal person for him. but he cared more about a public image than be seen with me a "weird" autistic girl and made fun of me for being how i am. breaks my heart over and over 😔 i tried to be there 4 a vet and it was just a disaster God help us
He's not crying about the civilians, he's crying about the Marines who died getting shot up.
I was robbed in a home invasion about three years ago around this time. On top of being robbed I was going through this horrible relationship. The depression I felt afterwards was so visceral. Nothing made me feel better for a while. This video helped me for some reason start to feel better. It was like therapy to me. Thank you and the guy you interviewed from this video. Helped me get my emotions back on track.
I feel like it’s easier to see all this happening being that he’s using Anakin
Legit
using
this is a extremely fucked joke but anakin fits what he did pretty well
@be good at live almost 1 k now
TRUE
"SCORE! They shot at us!"
Jesus, man...
Ikr?
they rarely landed on the FOB anyways. so usually nothing to worry about.
@History Aesthetics yea. Unless you roll snake eyes or a nat 1, you dont need to worry unless they are launching dozens. Which is why many MRL battalions launch 50+ through 100+ for effect and suppression.
Yea, I had to pause and process... Hella cray
@@thefunnycolors Natural ones will haunt me in the military too huh
The fact that his avatar is Anakin Skywalker and he was taken into the Air Force is just so coincidentally good
I just came back to this video after 3 years. Remember how I felt the first time, and was just as sucked into it this time. This video is fucking art.
Why isn't vr therapy a thing. I'd feel way more comfortable opening up about the shit that's happened to me with that sort of disconnect from myself
great point
It’s still pretty new & most people can’t afford it. Someday though, no doubt.
@Logan Roof bro your profile pic
@Logan Roof also why were you mean to markliplier
Million dollar ideas
Solider: gets PTSD and other sickness’s
USA Military: damn we kinda not care
Lifetime healthcare is sooo uncaring
@@wulfkriger3356 there’s no reason to be an asshole
Grandpa just recently got cancer for the 5th time because of that agent orange they exposed him to in Vietnam. Yet they still won't admit it was their fault.
@@rc59191 Sorry to hear that. I wish that wasn’t so common
@@wulfkriger3356 yeah because the VA is perfect and has never done anything wrong. also using healthcare and education, something that’s free anyway in other countries, to get people to join the military. lmao
12:07 is so deep. so many chills, it really goes to show we are just another animal, but with a conscious
"Is it weird that I don't feel anything?" This got me because I've felt this same feeling in my own life. The human experience is strange and we all process it differently. Love these videos.
Different title should’ve been: “Anakin explaining his time in the clone wars to Pooh”
Deadass bruh 😂
Disney's extended universe
Bruh "Disney Extended Universe: Anakin talks deeply to Pooh about his adventures in Clone Wars."
Guaranteed you put this and Youll have 100million views
Their gunships are legit better.
I feel like someone's about to get wooooshed
He sounds just like Anakin, physically and emotionally.
It helps that he was an aerial gunner, and ya know, anakin was the best starship pilot in the galaxy.
He definitely is one that deserves to use that avatar
He's telling what happened before he gets the high ground
No he doesn't
@@stevenhetzel6483 Bruh
Thanks for your service and your badass story. we need more stories now.
Holy shit watching this a year later gave back chills and tears such a great video
My CO told us "fuck the rules of engagement, you get yourself out alive and let me worry about the politics afterwards". That's almost an exact quote.
Pretty based tbh
He sounds like he actually cares about his soldiers, respectable.
My CO was unofficially relieved by the BCO for not doing that
Too bad you were dying for someone else's interests.
@Aaron White Rules of engagement exist to minimize civilian casualties. You know, the people who didn't sign up for all that shit.
This, unironically, needs to be mandatory viewing for basic
@Logan Roof ?
@@comradekarlvonschnitzelste8218 Just report him, he's spamming every comment.
@Logan Roof I'm sorry, what?
@Logan Roof imagine being worthless
What for to scare everyone in basic? You’re suppose to build up their confidence not destroy it
Thank you for the video. God bless you all and stay safe 💗 Thank you to all the strong people who risks their life's constantly for us.
Thank you for posting explanations for the acronyms, really quality work!
The general Anakin skin from the clone wars literally makes this a bajillion fucking times more captivating.
somehow i could see the emotion the guy had on the avatars face
It’s actually perfect because his story kind of lines up with Anakin’s in a way. Not that he turned to the dark side or anything but that he had to make some really tough calls in a war that changed him slowly without him realizing until much later.
@Booger Balls anakin Skywalker is the name of the character skin hes using
Its honestly suiting for this man
@Booger Balls Theres no way someone commenting on YT doesn't know who Anakin Skywalker is.
Imagine randomly walking in on something like that, some guy just relaying his trauma in combat to Pooh Bear, who calmly listens with a smile.
Edit : holy shit.
@Logan Roof troll moment
@Logan Roof Watch out boys we got a badass over here.
@Logan Roof Mr badass😲😐
@Logan Roof isnt your profile picture an actual baby? he didnt blame anyone not even the people shooting at him he just explained the story and his thought processes
you see waaaaaay weirder chit in vrchat
I come back to this video every 3 months or so to listen to Struggle's story. It's such a tragedy, but the fact that he keeps pushing to this day is a testament to what a fucking inspiration he is.
I come back to this video every so often as well. This is the first story I watched on this channel and its just so well told.
Forever coming back to this
Story: Dark
Winnie The Pooh for the whole video:
: )
Okay we get it, VR Chat funny aha
NOW STOP THIS STUPID JOKE
@@marco6137 relax
“That’s metal”
@@alio6051 take it easy ye
@@marco6137 what crawled up your ass today?
"is it weird that I don't feel anything?"
That fucking hit me HARD
@Modern Culture Is Doomed cuz military conditions you into saying you gonna kill people so u set up a mental block like" oh its terrorists its fine theu die" until some.fucked shit happens and it all comes back to you like killing someone with ya own hands is different from seeing said person die
@Modern Culture Is Doomed tldr you mentality block the horrific things due to a "purpose" until something like killing civs breaks that wall down
@Logan Roof no ones scared of guns numbnuts plus Walmart has guns aswell
@Logan Roof
The Marines would be perfect for you 🥰
i feel you bruh dont listen to these people who wouldnt know shit about it
I love how Winnie the pooh listens so intently. Shows you how much he cares.
Can’t imagine what that must have been like - I’m so grateful to you for your service and at the same time so sorry for all that you’ve had to experience and process. I pray you find peace.
* President of China interrogates a captured American soldier. Circa 2021 *
@Logan Roof Shut up please. What you say makes no sense.
@Logan Roof I’m going to ship you off to the military of you don’t shut up son
President of China? You mean a dictator?
Underrated comment, for those who don’t understand the reference because it’s a bit obscure. Dissenters in China call Xi Jinping Pooh because he kinda resembles him, it annoys him to the point where Pooh references are banned in China.
WHEEZING*
_"I felt like I owed everybody, without feeling like I owed myself anything"_ Man that hits hard :c
Yeh it do
Olly Wood I read that when he said it..
That's the feeling you have when you go to war. The very last thing you ever want to do is let the guy next to you down. Or be the one that can't do the mission that you've trained your entire military career to do. If you can't do the mission then what the fuck are you doing in the military? No one wants to be dead weight in a war zone. I totally get what Struggle was talking about.
Did Winnie the Pooh just jet before that part? lol
Man Symor thank you for this. I hope Charlie is doing okay. I’m glad to hear stories like this…it’s heart wrenching all around.
So much love for this man