a moment of silence for us who graduated high school in the middle of a global pandemic. no prom, no graduation and we basically missed a lot of things in our freshman year in college.
i'm terrified of going to college, but i'm so grateful that i came across this video. many people tend to over-romanticize college, but they always skip over the less desirable parts-the ones that most involve real life and why these parts are pivotal in our growth. thank you for this :).
I totally agree, with me it’s gonna be less about heartbreak over a boy but more about family and more stress over money. And I’m glad to see that the dark and dirty is involved with this video because it makes the best moments even better when she shares them. I’m super excited after this video and I’m glad I found it x
I'm currently a college freshman. This week as been the most stressful. I felt so lost, homesick, tiered, and I just missed the past so much. I wanted to see my high school friends so badly. Thank you for being real in this video. I have hope that I'll make so many new memories.
@@yastraw Hey! I'm currently a sophomore now. Freshman year was a little difficult with its adjustments and dealing with anxiety for the first time, but this year has been great. I made good friends last year that I'm closer to now. I have a great roommate and I'm currently loving my major.
This made me really sad because time flies...one day we’re going to be 50 and reminisce about these days. We’re going to laugh at silly situations that we thought were the end of the world. Enjoy life, take it easy, cherish the little moments.
As an incoming college freshman (class of 23) I am so grateful I came across your video. So bitter sweet and appreciate all the effort and knowledge you shared with the world! You’re going to do great things 🫶🏽
beautifully put together i love this, im going on campus next year and im scared but excited. im ready to grow and face the challenges,the new experiences, this new chapter.. AHHH loved this video
change is always a little scary! i’m going into my second year of college and freshman year absolutely changed my life! i met the most amazing people and made genuinely perfect memories. it was really like a movie. cherish every moment of it because it goes by so so fast! it was by far the best year of my life! i grew and changed so much as a person and gained so much life experience. of corse there were bad times, you laugh, you cry, you learn who you are. best advice is don’t let ANY boy ruin it and don’t take everything too seriously. but i guess that’s kind of what she said in the video lol anyways best of luck to you! :)
I also wanted time to pass by faster when I was younger.. now I’m 18 and in a few days I’ll be graduating high school and attending college in the fall. I don’t want to grow up lmao, but there’s nothing I can do except continuing to move forward and stay hopeful about the future
here’s a tip for the incoming/current college students: download rate my profs. it will save you from getting stuck with bad professors. i didn’t use it my first term and it still haunts me thinking abt it. I cried more than I ever had in my life 🙃
Not just use rate my professor, set up an alarm few minutes before registration. Registration is always stressful especially when the classes and professors that you want are taken.
@@Tingling10 What is worst is transfering to a school that has less options than before. Going from the option of 6 different statisitics professors with a couple of different times for each, to only having one professor option for statisitics and having to make that one time slot work in your schedule.
Oh man... My freshman year just ended and I didn't make one friend 😔 this year was so depressing. Living in a shoe box with nothing to do but study. I'm praying next year will be better idk what I'll do if it's not.
I don't know how things went in your university with Covid and stuff, but things will get better. I also don't know how is your relationship with your family, but if it is good, I suggest you enjoy it during the summer. It's a hard time but it will pass, I struggled with a similar situation last year and I was really worried about if things would ever improve or not and eventually my situation started to get better little by little, so keep in mind this was a pretty atypical year and I hope you are well!
I can tell you that it will work out, life finds a way and so will you, things that you couldn't even imagine will happen, positive things that is, and everything will be okay
When a guy is not making it abundantly clear that he wants to be with you, it's because he doesn't! Don't waste your time on guys like that! The right guy does not play games or leave you waiting and he cares about your feelings! He'll take you on dates and do things to make you happy. Don't settle!!
that makes me wanna cry. im 18 and i dont even feel like an adult. wow i still act like a 15 year old in some ways. like how i like to watch my little ponys 😥
Holy crap! I graduated from college four years ago and this popped up in my recommended section. I was able to relate to almost everything you said in ten minutes from my own freshman year experience. No semester is ever the same. It's always a new adventure. Enjoy every day of your next three years of college, Riley. Because You'll want to wish they lasted forever.
@@emilyrose715 Unfortunately, college isn’t for everyone. Many of the friends I made from my first semester didn’t return after winter break for various reasons. Transferred to a different school, flunked out for bad grades, or sought out another career that didn’t require a degree. I made many friends throughout my four years as an undergrad and still keep in touch with my five roommates from Senior year. It’s all about looking at the situation of your current semester and deciding how you chose to react to it.
it’s hard to find your people dude. it’s HARD. i don’t remember it being this hard in high school. and it’s annoying asf to feel like everyone else is connecting and having a great time but you know you shouldn’t compare yourself to everyone else but it sucks.
When it said “you are beautiful and you are enough” man I frickin cried my eyes out bc I don’t think I have heard that in yearsss I needed that so much and honestly it meant the world. My hands are shaking bc I’m crying 🥺🥺🥺🥺
That part Ashley did... I'm a freshman as well and didn't get the breakup experience, but God knows how much I relate. I'm crying right now, and I don't know who to talk to, haven't met anyone this year that I trust and it's not easy. I'm halfway through the video and I might cry more. But stay strong, love you Riley
Anyone going through problems of their own would not easily show they care for you...guy or girl. If she was stressed about some other things (finances, family, grades) and the guy was all up around her being happy and showing he loves her more than anything, she would probably let go of him the same way he did to her. No one just wakes up and say *Enough!* I don't want to see you again. To anyone who sees this, try to recognize when your partner is not happy or get more involved with personal life. I feel there's more to the relationship and personal life of this guy that we're seeing...
Also, any guy that doesn't show appreciation of you clearly wants someone better.In other words he feels like he deserves Bette than you. Don't eat false hope. Work on yourself and be the best of you. The right person would come
You make me regret that I didn't record or write down any of my emotional moments throughout hs or the first years of college. It's a beautiful thing, because you are growing. And at the same time capturing memories. When you look back, you'll be so proud. Thanks for sharing it with us
i’m going into my senior year of college with no real friends :( it’s so hard, i didn’t have a typical dreamy college experience and it was honestly miserable. I spent pretty much every day in my room alone after school ended while i watched kids in my grade go to parties and bars with their friend group. it was hard. if anyone out there experienced the same thing, ur not alone and we r together ❤️
Hey, how's it going? I know you're probably done with college now. I pray that God bless you abundantly with friends and joy and peace. Draw close to Him and He will make your paths straight. My first few days at high school were lonely. Especially lunchtime when I had nobody to talk to. I cried myself to sleep the first few nights because I didn't have any friends. And then the next day after crying to him and asking him for friends, God gave me the most amazing, precious 2 friends I could ever ask for, and they're honestly all I need. So don't be sad or disheartened because God has your back and He has a plan for your life, I promise
@@starlightakabane4686 thank you so much for sharing - i am done with college yet God has blessed me with new friends since leaving and i am so grateful. I now have a few really kind friends who also believe in God and I can't believe how much has changed in just 2 years! I am sorry to hear you went through isolation in high school but so glad God gave you some great friends later on. this comment has encouraged me so much and it means a lot that you took the time out of your day to encourage me and send me love! God bless you, He has a plan for us❤
How does one make lasting friends in college? I feel like I've tried everything I can think of but most of my friendships don't feel close. College is definitely a drag, and does not feel like the dream this video depicts it as. I'm not saying it's not realistic for you or others, but it definitely is kinda sucky for me from a social and emotional standpoint. Any advice would be great :)
This is what I’m afraid of I feel I’m fooling myself thinking college will be any different than high school in terms of having a social life. Maybe we gotta be more verbal in what we want in our friendships like relationships? I honestly don’t know I haven’t made a genuine friend since middle school
@Taylor Swift habangbuhay I don’t know.. it just happens. I feel unmotivated to talk, I lose interest as soon as I make a friend, it’s linked to my mental illness. I feel guilty and sad but I just can’t help it. The more I’m around people in person, I’m fine, but once I get home and sit alone, I feel like this need to cut off contacts.
@@bme7995 Same here, although I feel like i have cut people off in the past because of anxiety (lots of it) and circumstance. My anxiety has decreased enough, but I feel like if you don't make friends in high school it kinda sets you back for awhile. But there's always hope to make friends :)
Practice working on your socialization. Please, I know that’s a weird thing to say, but learn how to socialize normally. And understand that you should keep things light always. Your mental problems and emotional problems should not just be dumped on people you’ve known for two weeks. Keep things light keep things happy. Once you are closer confidants then it might be alright. As much a people advocate for mentally unhealthy people to speak out about their problems it’s still a natural and unnoticeable response to back away when someone shares that kind of stuff. And understand that you do not need friends to survive. You should never be looking for friends to be dependent on in one way or another. If you want friends because you want that closeness so you can work on your problems you are never going to succeed. Go to a therapist and learn to provide for yourself mentally and emotionally before you really start looking for friends again. It is not fair to the other person for you to expect them to hold onto your problems for you when you barely know them and they barely know you. If you are looking for friends for reassurance and acceptance, that is also an incorrect way of going about finding people. It is not fair to put the responsibility any of your needs on someone. You need to figure yourself out first. Be kind be friendly, check what you are saying make sure you give space fir others to speak, etc. etc. I know this all sounds very harsh but it is all what I have had to learn after years of struggling and wondering why. I was being selfish and self absorbed by expecting friends to provide for me what ever emotional needs I had. I had to wake up and get my act together. Just know you have value, no matter what, you are worth so much and others will see that. Be strong, smile, and get people talking about themselves they love that. Don’t rush things and listen to what others have to say. You got this! Hope this helps!
Thank you for exposing the truth about college. I also just finished my first year of college and it was hard, my anxiety and depression were at an all time high. I had trouble making friends. But no RUclipsrs acknowledge the hardships
i’m with you... just finished my freshman spring semester and thought i was gonna fail an important class. and i was. i finished my final with a 48% and gave up trying with that class. my final grade was a C. i cried happy tears and realized that nothing’s done until it’s done. even when it feels difficult as hell folks, keep going. everyone has their strengths and weaknesses and that’s okay. just keep moving
I’m so proud of you!! C isn’t even bad as people deem it sometimes I was afraid of failing but THANKFULLY I passed w a C which was the average grade within our classmates since it was a hard subject so I get it. Thank you for your kind words, sometimes the assignments and work get so stressful you forget you’re more than just your grades and a whole human with feelings and emotions to take care of 🫂
my freshman year i stayed in my room all year. it was super lonely. everyone’s experience is solely their own, but no one is ever alone in the ways they feel they are. i’m going into junior year now and i’ve changed a lot as a person just from looking inward and focusing on myself as a person deserving of everything rather than putting my worth into how i’m viewed through eyes that aren’t my own. i believe in all of you.
I love how vulnerable you are. By sharing your struggles you have made me feel less alone. You are so wise and I’m so proud of you. Also, everyone needs a friend like Ashley 💗
I was literally thinking about how boring my life is, this video just made me realize that there are so many people out there who are suffering and I am so privileged.
I didn't mean to say that they aren't, I always thought school problems are always worse than everything else in the world and this video just humbled me a little bit.
@@zeliagaikwad8281 suffering now...tons of friends hugs and love, will probably have a long term boyfriend next year...her life seems amazing right now honestly
@@Lucas-jh8nmit sure is a blessing to get educated but you shouldn’t deem her struggles aka LOTS of other college students struggles as “privilege” like it’s a small issue. The anxiety and stress these universities give is insane, unless you don’t go through it, you wouldn’t know. Just don’t laugh it off is all I’m saying.
riley, i don’t think u understand how inspiring you are and how helpful you have been for me, i’m gonna be starting my freshman year this coming fall and i have so many emotions going thru my head. anxiety, excitement, fear, happiness, etc. whenever i go thru those trials, i will remember your lessons and how you got thru it all with such strength. i love you and i hope to have just an ounce of your courage during my first year. thank you❤️
The one very strong thing that u need to know is the people u love doesn't always need to stay in your life for u to cherish them... Its the memory and the quality time u had that takes them with u for your whole life and thats the real juice!!!!
This made me cry. I’m going into my freshman year and I’m scared. I really hope you healed from your heartbreaks and your mental health. This was well put together and I wish you the best this upcoming year
@@AB-ps4ob its super affordable! I’m at A community college here in California and I am learning the same thing my friends at a UC & cal state are learning, my first semester professor even teaches at a Cal state college. All i had to pay was $50 just for my seat , which is way more affordable than $20,000.
People always show the highlights of their collage experiences so it’s surprising to hear the reality of what it’s really like to be a college student.
I had a really hard freshman year and at times it was hard to see other students living "the perfect life" while I bumped through mine. Thanks for helping me realize I'm not alone.
I just finished my freshman year of college as well and all of this hit so close to home. The first kiss, the heartbreak, but literally the whole video. This was so well done and felt like watching a movie almost. I love how real and honest this was, and how it’s so much more of a realistic depiction of freshman year of college compared to other videos out there
I seriously have less than 10 days until I move into my dorm and this has made me cry for over ten minutes now 😭 I really appreciate this video- thank you so much 💛💛
I finished college a year ago and it was quite the experience. I almost quit in my freshman year because I thought I was not doing well at all and it felt as if I didn't belong there. But heck, I'm so proud of myself for pulling through and getting my bachelor degree 💛 Thank you Riley for bringing us along on your journey through your first year of college, I've absolutely loved all your videos, you and your friends made me laugh a lot. You are amazing and you have done it!! Freshman year: ✅ Ashley's message is beautiful, she's an amazing friend 💛💛💛💛
I needed to see this honestly. I’m struggling mentally, physically and to b honest idk if I am cut out for college. I wanted to go straight to a UC after highschool but when COVID came, I had no money and had to go to a cc. I felt like shit bc I couldn’t understand my classes and I had no one to talk to. I’ve been struggling badly with classes and it feels like I will have to face the counselor and she will just stare at me like ‘wt heck is happening?’ I was a really good student in hs, but having to work, my dad getting COVID, my brothers needing extra support with their school (one of my brothers has ASD) and my grandma passing away from COVID really hit me hard this freshmen year. It was totally not what I wanted and not what I expected. I had to drop so many classes and I cried my heart out in a public bathroom after work. I’m afraid of seeking help bc I’m afraid of being judged and being told that someone has it harder than me. Idk. It’s just very hard and I’m loosing hope. But hopefully I can get through it and graduate. I just pray to god that I can get through this. No matter what it takes.
There’s absolutely nothing wrong in asking for help or advice or just being vulnerable . Please do it if it gets really hard to share it with just yourself. I really wish the best for you and I hope everything works out for your good. I hope you’re able to go to UC if possible but if not I hope you’re able to enjoy your present situation and see how to make the best of it because trust me there will always be something good to see in it
@@jenniferanyanwu2292 thank you❤️. I made an appointment to see my school counselor and I made it a small goal for myself that no matter how I am looked at bc of my situation, I won’t let them be the judge of my situation. It was and still is hard for me and I need to stay positive and not let my anxiety or mine or others thoughts get the best of me and my education. Thank you so much for your kind words. I hope you’re doing well.
@@emiliayang2518 yasss here’s to not letting anxiety or others thoughts get the best of you and your education! If there are words that have stuck with me and I hope they stick with you too is that nothing is inherently embarrassing unless you consider it to be. Just pause and think of that for a while. So so proud of you girl and the BIG step you’ve taken. Eventually when you realize you were bold enough to finally put your foot down and act and that this was all for you and you alone,you’ll be oh so glad you did it. Ps: I’m doing great...thanks for asking😋
I'm a junior now (fourth year) and since freshman year, college has been one of the worst, loneliest, experiences of my life so far. My mental health is shit. Idk if things will get better, but I'm not very hopeful at this point. I just want it to be over.....
I have found myself in the same position as you, wondering if things will ever get better. I promise that they do get better! There is always hope. Reach out to people for help, whether that’s friends, family, resources at school, or my personal favorite God. He is always there. Without hard times we cannot become stronger. Who knows in the future you might be able to help someone else who is going through what you have been through. Keep going, you got this!!
@@dontmindmeimjustadolphin okay that makes me feel a little better, bc i guess no one else will really have many friends either so then maybe everyone will be looking for some
You’re doing great! God is with u, and He loves you. He will never leave you. He send His son To die for u, why? Well bc we have all fallen short, but God wanted to give us a second chance and all we gotta do is accept Him in out heart and live for Him. Deny yourself get in your word and live for Him. and even if you don’t know it, there is a God out there who loves you DEEPLY. Ik how u feel, if it wasn’t for God...idk where I’ll be. Romans 5:8 New Living Translation But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners
You are definitely not the only one who feels this way. Reach out and talk about it. People will listen and be there for you. I am very proud of you that you're still going💙
Omg riley, this has been such an eye opener. Life never comes without pain but it also comes with happiness and we cant ever forget that small fact. It's the little things in life that matter and after watching this video you have made me look forward to all the little moments I will potentially experience this fall when I'm in college myself.... despite the sadness that may come with it. Thank you so much. To anyone needing to hear this... just remeber, you are gorgeous and no one can tell you otherwise. Believe in yourself and nothing can stop you from chasing your dreams. Because in the end, it is only you who can pick yourself up after you've fallen.
I'm going off to college soon and I stumbled across this video while scrolling through RUclips. I'm really afraid of being independent and what's to come. Many people tell me that I should look forward to college because I'll meet new people and they just simply leave out the bad. Thank you for sharing your experience and thank you for being real. I'm looking forward to growing as a person and learning from experiences.
I love this way you put it together, I feel like this isn’t everyone’s collage experience, this was yours and it was beautiful to watch. Everyone has their own story...and I feel like education wasn’t the main part in this, it was your life and a boy, totally enjoyed it and hope you get through college .
im crying. i've spent my entire freshman year at home and every day i wished time would pass faster so I could finally get to campus. Just yesterday my parents were talking about buying plane tickets and move-in day for this fall semester. It didn't hit me until now... it's finally happening and of course, i'm excited but this time it's for real. This time, I'll be saying goodbye. Riley thank you for this video, your words of advice, and for sharing your journey!! Everyone who is heading to college needs to see this! I needed to see this ❤❤
Riley, the quality of your content is just incredible! This hit so close to home and it probably isn't easy to show the days when you are struggling. I hope you know that this is appreciated. You did an amazing job and let your stunning, genuine personality shine through every single video in this year. I wish you all the best for the next one ❤️
as someone who is starting uni at the end of the month, moving four hours from home and going to be on my own for the first time in my life - this was maybe one of the most moving videos I have ever watched. I’m terrified, especially as someone with bad anxiety, but little videos like this are also what manage to keep that spark of excitement growing in me. because of a pandemic I missed out on a real graduation, never had a prom, spent two birthdays in quarantine, will be missing out on frosh week. but one thing you reminded me is that there will be so many experiences and things to look forward too, firsts that I won’t miss out on. thank you so much for sharing this and a piece of your story. just as you said: keep going. there are still so many great things to accomplish
I had this video saved in my files for 2 years and it's crazy that I'm coming across it now when college is next week for me. I guess this was a moment of guidance from my past self to me in the present. Im crying (class of '23)
Riley, you‘ve outdone yourself on this one. This made me feel happy and sad at the same time. I wish you all the best in the world, you are amazing. God bless you.
This was beautiful. I’m 25, I didn’t go away for school and actually I’m still in school & I can tell you this feeling will happen over and over again. So many emotions with a beautiful silver lining. This will probably happen with your first internship,your first job, and so on. The way you captured this in 10min & 28 seconds. SO beautiful & well said I have all of the feelings. 😭
Im a mom to a upcoming jr and soph in HS. They go to boarding school. When they moved, my mother said, it will never be the same. When they move out, they grow up. Its so true. Much love Riley. Maturity comes quickly.
@@sophiagrande2877 its a progressive STEAM based prep school. When you have gifted children sometimes you make sacrifices to educate them appropriately.
I have my finals tomorrow and I’m extremely stressed. This really helped me, it made me cry, that was exactly what I needed. And it made me realize that I’m enough, if I fail or not. Thank you for being you, and for being so open. ❤️
@@ashleybirchall9132 ahw thanx for asking! I passed them, and go to college now. I met the most amazing people and love school (has never happened before haha). I’m in the right place now :)
I just finished my 2nd week of my senior year of high school (class of 2025). I’ve always talked about how I can’t WAIT to go to college, but then I saw this video and it rlly made me think. I’ll be an adult, I can’t fuck around and do kid things anymore after I turn 18. I’m gonna miss everyone. My friends, my family, my dog, my Grandma, my high school teachers, my middle school teachers, my elementary school teachers, my childhood home that I am currently still living in…but you know what…im gonna live life. I’m gonna go out there and have fun before I graduate and enter the adult world. Here’s to living life guys! 🍻🍺
A lot of people are fake af freshman year of college. Everyone is coming into a brand new social environment and so many people go too far with trying to put their best foot forward that they just end up being fake. It's super common for friend groups that form early on to have falling outs after people get comfortable and drop the veneer.
You truly have a gift for telling the real story. The editing of the film, the music you choose, the words you create all are so compelling and evoke decades old memories for anyone that has experienced these moments. Keep producing, filming, editing, writing and creating the moments that you are sharing... you have a great talent. Also you are right. Certain friendships or people come into your life and never leave but most of them are only with us for a brief time.
As someone who will start college in like 3 months I don’t know what to expect from this video (I’m writing this during the ad haven’t watched it yet the crying thumbnail was intriguing tho)
@@takemetomarz Hey! thanks for asking:) its actually been 3 years!! So far college has had its ups and downs and there's definitely alot of pressure to succeed as a stem major especially since students at my college love to compare each other. Overall college wasnt as scary as I thought. life itself is scary getting older is scary as our responsibilities continue to grow but college is there to help us achieve our goals. I hope that whoever reads this knows that college isn't scary but it is serious. Work hard and do ur best because in the end all people look at are ur grades, having a good school vs social life is the key, don't overdo it but also don't slack off too much :)
This made me realize how much I grown so much throughout my freshman year even though I didn’t get my full experience I’ve become a whole completely differently person
College fresher.. I thought I would finally have some freedom go wherever I wanna go meet new people have my first kiss first breakup..just everything but thanks to the virus I never got the chance after school.. college is just my laptop.. online classes.. I am just hoping that one day this will finally be over and I will have that life that I dreamt of
Can't see our RUclips star crying 🥺 You're very strong, riley. You deserve all the success in this world. I learn so much from you! Don't cry ever again please we're here for you always and forever ❤️
Getting my first kiss and heartbreak when I was 14-15 sucked, and it wasn't something like oh just a dumb high-school relationship. But there's a part of me that is glad to have experienced that for the first time before college so that even if something like that happens and it will still undoubtedly suck, at least I'll know what's happening and have experienced it before, it will help numb the pain and not stack wayyy too much on top of stress of homework and other things in life. And I know you won't see this, but I'm gonna say I appreciate your light. From the first video I watched I could see it and I knew who you were. Your not a freshman anymore but I know you're still going through challenges and I want you to know that I understand. You can push through it, thank you for helping us on this journey. Your journey. My journey. Our journey.
This video is one of the most authentic college videos I have ever watched. Thank you so much Riley for sharing with us the real life of college. Much love from Kenya 💖💕
I am 12 years not even close to expreince any of this stuff but the fact that i still felt her soroow and pain is just remarkble so if your reading this i want to you two know you have not only made a young girls day you have inspired me in so many strong ways. And as young girl transformimg into a young lady, you HAVE ENDED MY PAIN you told me that you should be strong through whatever your goimg through and to especially be confident in your self. When i finish college i will come back to this vidoe what it again and say to myself WOW that is really what i went through and i want you to know THAT I SAY THANK YOU for these words. YOU HAVE NOT ONLY SHOWED ME STORY YOU TOLD ME A STORY THAT ONE DAY I WILL EXPREINCE!!!!!!!!
@@xdandychiggins dude i actually have transfored already and 2nd of all this comment was not meant for you. But unlike sombody i am not her to spread hate so have a great day repectfully.
@@xdandychiggins look i dont know who please go do somthing else, i am not trying to start beef so you can think your opnion and i can think mine. Now for the last i am not responding anymore and have a great day!!!!!1
You’re heartbreak literally just made me realize not to do this to myself. I just went through a really bad breakup after a 2 year relationship. I have felt the same way where I feel like I meant nothing but I have learned to just separate and move on and see what happens in the future.
I felt this video with my whole heart. I’ve been struggling this whole past year with the pandemic, graduating high school, going off to college out of state, having my first real relationship. My life got flipped upside down & I got so lost. I’m trying to find my way back to myself, but still dealing w so many things. This video was great! Hope you have a blessed day!
I graduated high school in 2021. And I only experienced the first two years of it. The second two was only online school, I had little to no friends, I couldn’t see anyone because I didn’t have a job nor money to afford a car, and I was extremely depressed. We didn’t have prom, senior walk, homecoming, or anything else high school graduates usually experience. I received my 4 year diploma though my car in a drive though… My social skills plummeted, and I noticed this when I was thrown off to college, something I really did not want to do but felt I had too because it’s what everyone else does. It’s the end of my 2nd year in college and I’ve yet to make real friends. It’s still very hard to talk to people as I was isolated for a long time. A positive of this time alone was that I was able to work on myself physically. I still keep the habit of working out like I used too everyday during quarantine. This is embarrassing to admit but I’ve yet to have a girlfriend. I’ve always wanted someone I could just be around and love. Someone who could be my best of friends but that I could share everything with. As stupid as it is, that’s my goal, to find someone who I love and who loves me for the very undeveloped mentally person that I am.
Hi Ms. Riley! I love your video. I can definitely relate to this. I was suppose to be a college freshman last year, but everything that's been happening came to me all at once last year. I feel so tired and I just want to rest. I talked to my mom about it. I told her that I wanted to take a one year break from school. I told her that I can't handle it all together last year. Everything just exhausts me. But it's not a waste. Looking back, I learned a lot about myself. It's only this break that I get to experience how it is to be just me. It's only this break that I get to know what I want and what my plans are. It's only this break that I get to be with my family for a whole year without being busy with anything. Life sure gives us ups and downs. But despite the difficult times, we must always stand up and survive. I wish you all the best Ms. Riley. I wish you success and fulfillment in life. We are strong and we can get through anything that life throws at us.
Thank you so much for this video❤️ I’m still in high school and finishing up my sophomore year in France in a month and although it’s not the same I saw a lot of the things you said and showed and managed to relate. Thank you because we got to see a different side of you that was stressed and vulnerable at times but still remained strong and put a smile on our faces ❤️ I love this video so much🥰😭 ilyyyyyyyy💕
As someone who is graduating High school in 2 days, and going to college in August. Watching this was so helpful. It gave me a comfort. I'm excited for college but I know its okay to feel conflicted. Thank you
I felt this so hard. I just finished freshman year and the social and mental health aspects ruined my academics. I didn't know it was possible to be essentially held back TWO years because of two bad semesters... oh well, it has taught me a lot. I went through overload, burnout, heartbreak, and with the pandemic, everything was online so I didn't really make any friends. through it all, i've struggled. over months of feeling hurt, unworthy, feeling like I don't belong, I started taking time to myself to enjoy my own presence. I'm learning to enjoy being alone. Freshman year has only helped me to become the person I am now. Nothing will ever be the same
I did not proceed to college this year and when that hit me, I felt my heart strings. I feel sad but I feel thankful enough to be here today, watching my schoolmates go to college. Contented with where I am now and can do things that I tend to ignore. To do a lot of processsing and feeling those emotions.
As someone who is soon going to head to college, I think this was exactly what I needed to see. That I'm not alone. I'm scared to leave behind the good memories of home and friends but excited to start a new chapter and grow as a person. Thank you for sharing your life! You are wonderful.
I am just starting my Sophomore and have been reflecting on my Freshman year, and everything you said hit really close to home. I had both my happiest moments and some of my lowest lows at college that first year and so much of the future is unknown, but that’s okay. It’s all worth it and you grow so much from both the good and the bad. Thank you so much for creating this video and sharing your experience ❤️
Very brave to post this and it demonstrates your enormous strength. I am going to make my son watch this video as he will be starting his senior year of HS and we are planning our college tours. That is what brought me to this video. One of his friend's brother just committed suicide at college and it has shaken him and his group to their core. It is a difficult time for all of you but being unafraid to reach out for help and support is critical. Thank you for making this!
I actually cried on this one🥺 oh my god that was so sad and so heartwarming, it made me learn a lot, and really think my life through for a second. Wow! i wish u the best in life Riley!! ily
I’m currently on my freshman year of college but since everything is online, I’ve never been to the actual college building neither seen any of my classmates irl which makes me feel like I’m missing all the experiences
hey :) I study in Europe and this video was on my start page. normally I don't write comments but I thought I just want to send you a little hug, some love and thank you for sharing. I felt a little bit less alone and more normal.. to see you are not the only one going through all those chapters helps a lot! this made my day, not in a funny, but honest and thankful way! thank you! :)
You are such an inspiration for me and I can guarantee that you are for all your followers! It is amazing how you share personal details of you life to people you don’t even know, and you help them IN SUCH AN INCREDIBLE WAYS! THANK YOU FOR THAT ❤️
This video hits me hard , I’m a student at school in Dubai . I’m only 16 but my life is about to change drastically because I am moving . I have lived my life with al my friends in dubai but now I’m leaving them behind and going into a place that I don’t understand . A place where I’m confused of the future . I’m only staying there for 2 years so it seems that whatever I do in those 2 years is useless . But I’m learning from this video th at my determination to move on from things is what will keep me happy . I don’t usually ask for ppl to like my stuff but it’s important I think that she knows we are listening to her and understanding her . This is also the first video I have seen and it already hooked
a moment of silence for us who graduated high school in the middle of a global pandemic. no prom, no graduation and we basically missed a lot of things in our freshman year in college.
lmao. I think we need more than a moment of silence
@@RORO-be5yc we really do 🥺
true
RIP CO ‘21 🥲. No junior year, no senior year, we’ll see about freshman year of college. At this point....idfk
@@choblgobblrr1074 sorry about that but things are getting better and you will see how freshman year is sm better :))
Okay but can we talk about this EDITING?!
God bless, Jesus loves you and died for you all
"oKaY bUt"
Ikr like how?!
It’s like a movie
@@iknowexactlywhoyouare8701it’s not even offensive chill 😂
i'm terrified of going to college, but i'm so grateful that i came across this video. many people tend to over-romanticize college, but they always skip over the less desirable parts-the ones that most involve real life and why these parts are pivotal in our growth. thank you for this :).
I totally agree, with me it’s gonna be less about heartbreak over a boy but more about family and more stress over money. And I’m glad to see that the dark and dirty is involved with this video because it makes the best moments even better when she shares them. I’m super excited after this video and I’m glad I found it x
I'm a junior and I'm so sick of it and the people.
@@sunflower9310 I hope good comes your way because no one should have to stress about affording an education.
And the hard exams 😭😭
I will be starting freshman year of college next month virtually.
I'm currently a college freshman. This week as been the most stressful. I felt so lost, homesick, tiered, and I just missed the past so much. I wanted to see my high school friends so badly. Thank you for being real in this video. I have hope that I'll make so many new memories.
Sorry abt that luv
same here. exact same😞😞
You might want to read "The Freshman Survival Guide"
how did it go for u?
@@yastraw Hey! I'm currently a sophomore now. Freshman year was a little difficult with its adjustments and dealing with anxiety for the first time, but this year has been great. I made good friends last year that I'm closer to now. I have a great roommate and I'm currently loving my major.
“I ate a lot of food today, and I’m not even hungry” yooo that made me cry🥺
Let’s just take a moment and realize how Riley just shares these stuff with us she’s amazing.stay strong
God bless, Jesus loves you and died for you all
Stay strong...growing up its hard but its beautiful as well...hugs from brazil! 🥰
@@julianafelix8808 autg
@@annyms5092 Amen 🙏🏽
ashley’s section made me cry SO HARD she’s such a good friend 😭😭
ikr
I asked riley the song in this vlog which starts at 8:05...cud u tell me what song is it..i tried to find it on RUclips but cudnt
@@vishalbhanot3510 its headlights by chase mcbride
Are you right
Frr
This made me really sad because time flies...one day we’re going to be 50 and reminisce about these days. We’re going to laugh at silly situations that we thought were the end of the world. Enjoy life, take it easy, cherish the little moments.
Yup....it goes faster and faster....these are the best days ever
To be honest that's why I dislike video like these, they make you very emotional and know u will miss those days.
Agreed. I'm almost 50 and I consider my freshman year one of the most pivotal years of my life.
enough youtube for the day I rather cry myself to sleep
Yes! Turned 50 this year and I can't believe how fast it all went! Enjoy every moment ❤️
“when something changes, it’s the end of an era, but it’s also just the beginning of another part of your life.” RILEY THAT WAS BEAUTIFUL. 😭😭
As an incoming college freshman (class of 23) I am so grateful I came across your video. So bitter sweet and appreciate all the effort and knowledge you shared with the world! You’re going to do great things 🫶🏽
beautifully put together i love this, im going on campus next year and im scared but excited. im ready to grow and face the challenges,the new experiences, this new chapter.. AHHH loved this video
God bless, Jesus loves you and died for you all
same here
@@annyms5092 Amen!
It’s not that scary
change is always a little scary! i’m going into my second year of college and freshman year absolutely changed my life! i met the most amazing people and made genuinely perfect memories. it was really like a movie. cherish every moment of it because it goes by so so fast! it was by far the best year of my life! i grew and changed so much as a person and gained so much life experience. of corse there were bad times, you laugh, you cry, you learn who you are. best advice is don’t let ANY boy ruin it and don’t take everything too seriously. but i guess that’s kind of what she said in the video lol anyways best of luck to you! :)
me spending my freshman year of college on the computer at home 👁👄👁 💻
Same🤧
Sammeee
FRR
Me too.... I haven’t met one friend all freshman year..
@@jackn7280 like I don't know how to make friends let alone online uni friends
I also wanted time to pass by faster when I was younger.. now I’m 18 and in a few days I’ll be graduating high school and attending college in the fall. I don’t want to grow up lmao, but there’s nothing I can do except continuing to move forward and stay hopeful about the future
I relate to this so much. I feel so ready and so unprepared at the same time. It's such a rush of emotions that I have trouble processing at times 😅
Same I’m 18 too and I’m graduating highschool next week it feels so surreal. I’m scared to grow up but at the same time I’m excited.
Same, as an 18 year old I miss my childhood
I’m turning 18 in 2 days 😔
@@chxhxhxjxss6894 chin up sweetie. 💖
here’s a tip for the incoming/current college students: download rate my profs. it will save you from getting stuck with bad professors. i didn’t use it my first term and it still haunts me thinking abt it. I cried more than I ever had in my life 🙃
seriously
@@anais9263 honestly this recommendation could not come at a better time for me so tysm for bringing this site up! Super helpful
@@SourStrawberrys true, I didn’t know there was a website though. My cousin only told me about the app not that there was also a website
Not just use rate my professor, set up an alarm few minutes before registration. Registration is always stressful especially when the classes and professors that you want are taken.
@@Tingling10 What is worst is transfering to a school that has less options than before. Going from the option of 6 different statisitics professors with a couple of different times for each, to only having one professor option for statisitics and having to make that one time slot work in your schedule.
Oh man... My freshman year just ended and I didn't make one friend 😔 this year was so depressing. Living in a shoe box with nothing to do but study. I'm praying next year will be better idk what I'll do if it's not.
I don't know how things went in your university with Covid and stuff, but things will get better. I also don't know how is your relationship with your family, but if it is good, I suggest you enjoy it during the summer. It's a hard time but it will pass, I struggled with a similar situation last year and I was really worried about if things would ever improve or not and eventually my situation started to get better little by little, so keep in mind this was a pretty atypical year and I hope you are well!
Me too. I hope for better things to come 😌
Hopefully now that in person classes are starting up soon again we’ll be able to meet some good friends!
hey any update?
I can tell you that it will work out, life finds a way and so will you, things that you couldn't even imagine will happen, positive things that is, and everything will be okay
When a guy is not making it abundantly clear that he wants to be with you, it's because he doesn't! Don't waste your time on guys like that! The right guy does not play games or leave you waiting and he cares about your feelings! He'll take you on dates and do things to make you happy. Don't settle!!
I needed this
Yup! You will never have to wonder or second guess how you think they feel about you.
Literally I’d you catch yourself asking yourself “Does he actually like me?” Then he’s not the one
period!!
As a married man I can say this isn't the case, my wife made the first move
I’m not ready to cry lol
Fr!!
Yeah same and it’s morning for me. I’ll be heading out to shop in like 3 hours😃
God bless, Jesus loves you and died for you all
"In some situations I found myself wondering where the adults were and that's when I realize that it's us" 😛
Honestly, that fcking scary
that makes me wanna cry. im 18 and i dont even feel like an adult. wow i still act like a 15 year old in some ways. like how i like to watch my little ponys 😥
Guys, I am 20 years old. 20. But sometimes I'm still like: "I can't do this alone. Where are my parents? MOM?"
It's nice to know I'm not the only one who feels this way.
@@flaviae.9072 same, and I’m 19. it’s terrifying sometimes
Holy crap! I graduated from college four years ago and this popped up in my recommended section. I was able to relate to almost everything you said in ten minutes from my own freshman year experience. No semester is ever the same. It's always a new adventure. Enjoy every day of your next three years of college, Riley. Because You'll want to wish they lasted forever.
You really will....I remember feeling the dread as it all came to an end....
I dont get why tho? Like are people going to a different college after a semester or just switching classes?
@@emilyrose715 indecisive people
@@emilyrose715 Unfortunately, college isn’t for everyone. Many of the friends I made from my first semester didn’t return after winter break for various reasons. Transferred to a different school, flunked out for bad grades, or sought out another career that didn’t require a degree. I made many friends throughout my four years as an undergrad and still keep in touch with my five roommates from Senior year. It’s all about looking at the situation of your current semester and deciding how you chose to react to it.
your not gorgeous, youre a 5/10
it’s hard to find your people dude. it’s HARD. i don’t remember it being this hard in high school. and it’s annoying asf to feel like everyone else is connecting and having a great time but you know you shouldn’t compare yourself to everyone else but it sucks.
When it said “you are beautiful and you are enough” man I frickin cried my eyes out bc I don’t think I have heard that in yearsss I needed that so much and honestly it meant the world. My hands are shaking bc I’m crying 🥺🥺🥺🥺
Remind yourself that everyday❤️❤️
@@QueenEm44 thanks 🥺🥺🥺💖💖💖
You are loved❤
you are GORGEOUS, fearfully and wonderfully created!! 🤍
@@rylie.2019 omg thanks so much! It meant so much! You are beautiful too
Not me crying like I met them personally... lol
1k nice
I'm with u on that 💯
That part Ashley did... I'm a freshman as well and didn't get the breakup experience, but God knows how much I relate. I'm crying right now, and I don't know who to talk to, haven't met anyone this year that I trust and it's not easy. I'm halfway through the video and I might cry more. But stay strong, love you Riley
A guy that doesn’t appreaciate you for who you are doesn’t deserve you and also thank you for making this video.
Anyone going through problems of their own would not easily show they care for you...guy or girl. If she was stressed about some other things (finances, family, grades) and the guy was all up around her being happy and showing he loves her more than anything, she would probably let go of him the same way he did to her. No one just wakes up and say *Enough!* I don't want to see you again. To anyone who sees this, try to recognize when your partner is not happy or get more involved with personal life. I feel there's more to the relationship and personal life of this guy that we're seeing...
Also, any guy that doesn't show appreciation of you clearly wants someone better.In other words he feels like he deserves Bette than you. Don't eat false hope. Work on yourself and be the best of you. The right person would come
honestly his should be a movie , it was so beautiful
That’s what I thought to 😊! This should be a Netflix series 👏🏼🙌🏼
You make me regret that I didn't record or write down any of my emotional moments throughout hs or the first years of college. It's a beautiful thing, because you are growing. And at the same time capturing memories. When you look back, you'll be so proud. Thanks for sharing it with us
agree!
You can still do it. It is never to late.
Write down everything you remember! You’ll be happy you did.
Thanks, now i will do the same, I start the next month
Can we just talk about how amazing her friends are?? Like please never leave each other we want content of you AND your friends too
*”don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened”*
I'll definitely cry because it happened so ye
@@you5692 hhehehe
I wonder who quoted that
Corny
Okay, that just makes me more sad
i’m going into my senior year of college with no real friends :( it’s so hard, i didn’t have a typical dreamy college experience and it was honestly miserable. I spent pretty much every day in my room alone after school ended while i watched kids in my grade go to parties and bars with their friend group. it was hard. if anyone out there experienced the same thing, ur not alone and we r together ❤️
Lack of mouth piece and good looks tends to do that to people
@@Halo4beatsB02 that’s so mean, why would you say something like that to someone who’s comforting others in similar situations?
Hey, how's it going? I know you're probably done with college now. I pray that God bless you abundantly with friends and joy and peace. Draw close to Him and He will make your paths straight. My first few days at high school were lonely. Especially lunchtime when I had nobody to talk to. I cried myself to sleep the first few nights because I didn't have any friends. And then the next day after crying to him and asking him for friends, God gave me the most amazing, precious 2 friends I could ever ask for, and they're honestly all I need. So don't be sad or disheartened because God has your back and He has a plan for your life, I promise
@1234ilovetaylorswift
@@starlightakabane4686 thank you so much for sharing - i am done with college yet God has blessed me with new friends since leaving and i am so grateful. I now have a few really kind friends who also believe in God and I can't believe how much has changed in just 2 years! I am sorry to hear you went through isolation in high school but so glad God gave you some great friends later on. this comment has encouraged me so much and it means a lot that you took the time out of your day to encourage me and send me love! God bless you, He has a plan for us❤
How does one make lasting friends in college? I feel like I've tried everything I can think of but most of my friendships don't feel close. College is definitely a drag, and does not feel like the dream this video depicts it as. I'm not saying it's not realistic for you or others, but it definitely is kinda sucky for me from a social and emotional standpoint. Any advice would be great :)
This is what I’m afraid of I feel I’m fooling myself thinking college will be any different than high school in terms of having a social life. Maybe we gotta be more verbal in what we want in our friendships like relationships? I honestly don’t know I haven’t made a genuine friend since middle school
@Taylor Swift habangbuhay I don’t know.. it just happens. I feel unmotivated to talk, I lose interest as soon as I make a friend, it’s linked to my mental illness. I feel guilty and sad but I just can’t help it. The more I’m around people in person, I’m fine, but once I get home and sit alone, I feel like this need to cut off contacts.
@@bme7995 Same here, although I feel like i have cut people off in the past because of anxiety (lots of it) and circumstance. My anxiety has decreased enough, but I feel like if you don't make friends in high school it kinda sets you back for awhile. But there's always hope to make friends :)
Practice working on your socialization. Please, I know that’s a weird thing to say, but learn how to socialize normally. And understand that you should keep things light always. Your mental problems and emotional problems should not just be dumped on people you’ve known for two weeks. Keep things light keep things happy. Once you are closer confidants then it might be alright. As much a people advocate for mentally unhealthy people to speak out about their problems it’s still a natural and unnoticeable response to back away when someone shares that kind of stuff. And understand that you do not need friends to survive. You should never be looking for friends to be dependent on in one way or another. If you want friends because you want that closeness so you can work on your problems you are never going to succeed. Go to a therapist and learn to provide for yourself mentally and emotionally before you really start looking for friends again. It is not fair to the other person for you to expect them to hold onto your problems for you when you barely know them and they barely know you. If you are looking for friends for reassurance and acceptance, that is also an incorrect way of going about finding people. It is not fair to put the responsibility any of your needs on someone. You need to figure yourself out first. Be kind be friendly, check what you are saying make sure you give space fir others to speak, etc. etc. I know this all sounds very harsh but it is all what I have had to learn after years of struggling and wondering why. I was being selfish and self absorbed by expecting friends to provide for me what ever emotional needs I had. I had to wake up and get my act together. Just know you have value, no matter what, you are worth so much and others will see that. Be strong, smile, and get people talking about themselves they love that. Don’t rush things and listen to what others have to say. You got this! Hope this helps!
@@madi7178 well said
the editing?!! seems like a whole damn produced documentary😩❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for exposing the truth about college. I also just finished my first year of college and it was hard, my anxiety and depression were at an all time high. I had trouble making friends. But no RUclipsrs acknowledge the hardships
“No one else can make you change, you have to want it, desperately. Then ACT.”
i’m with you... just finished my freshman spring semester and thought i was gonna fail an important class. and i was. i finished my final with a 48% and gave up trying with that class.
my final grade was a C. i cried happy tears and realized that nothing’s done until it’s done.
even when it feels difficult as hell folks, keep going. everyone has their strengths and weaknesses and that’s okay. just keep moving
I’m so proud of you!! C isn’t even bad as people deem it sometimes I was afraid of failing but THANKFULLY I passed w a C which was the average grade within our classmates since it was a hard subject so I get it. Thank you for your kind words, sometimes the assignments and work get so stressful you forget you’re more than just your grades and a whole human with feelings and emotions to take care of 🫂
my freshman year i stayed in my room all year. it was super lonely. everyone’s experience is solely their own, but no one is ever alone in the ways they feel they are. i’m going into junior year now and i’ve changed a lot as a person just from looking inward and focusing on myself as a person deserving of everything rather than putting my worth into how i’m viewed through eyes that aren’t my own. i believe in all of you.
I love how vulnerable you are. By sharing your struggles you have made me feel less alone. You are so wise and I’m so proud of you. Also, everyone needs a friend like Ashley 💗
I was literally thinking about how boring my life is, this video just made me realize that there are so many people out there who are suffering and I am so privileged.
Bruh even these college freshmen problems are privileged problems😂 this ain’t suffering
I didn't mean to say that they aren't, I always thought school problems are always worse than everything else in the world and this video just humbled me a little bit.
@@zeliagaikwad8281 suffering now...tons of friends hugs and love, will probably have a long term boyfriend next year...her life seems amazing right now honestly
Couldn't agree more, everyone has ups and downs in life and so do I and she...
@@Lucas-jh8nmit sure is a blessing to get educated but you shouldn’t deem her struggles aka LOTS of other college students struggles as “privilege” like it’s a small issue. The anxiety and stress these universities give is insane, unless you don’t go through it, you wouldn’t know. Just don’t laugh it off is all I’m saying.
I'm sobbing at 5:07 it really feels like her friend was talking to me! So that's what having a genuine friend sounds like, WOW!
Literally same tho.
about rocking that fatty?
Hugs 🥹🫂
Me when watching this: I’m-I’m-not ready for this.
4:53 is the definition of a real friend - in that one clip it is apparent that yall will forever be in each others lives!
riley, i don’t think u understand how inspiring you are and how helpful you have been for me, i’m gonna be starting my freshman year this coming fall and i have so many emotions going thru my head. anxiety, excitement, fear, happiness, etc. whenever i go thru those trials, i will remember your lessons and how you got thru it all with such strength. i love you and i hope to have just an ounce of your courage during my first year. thank you❤️
Ashley is the goal roommate, being so kind and reaching out and caring for her!!!!
The one very strong thing that u need to know is the people u love doesn't always need to stay in your life for u to cherish them... Its the memory and the quality time u had that takes them with u for your whole life and thats the real juice!!!!
This made me cry. I’m going into my freshman year and I’m scared. I really hope you healed from your heartbreaks and your mental health. This was well put together and I wish you the best this upcoming year
A moment of silence for those of us who went to community college and left with 0 friends lol
Is it that bad?I’m going to community college and when I transfer I’m worried about how is it gonna be like to make friends in college.
@@rickiannaroberts4241 yup, despite the name there’s no community in community college usually. College is better
@@Nonyah123 what's the difference between community college and college?
@@AB-ps4ob community college costs a fraction of actual college
@@AB-ps4ob its super affordable! I’m at A community college here in California and I am learning the same thing my friends at a UC & cal state are learning, my first semester professor even teaches at a Cal state college. All i had to pay was $50 just for my seat , which is way more affordable than $20,000.
People always show the highlights of their collage experiences so it’s surprising to hear the reality of what it’s really like to be a college student.
I felt that part about liking some guy... Never gonna cry about a man who won’t waste a second for me AGAIN 👏🏽
I had a really hard freshman year and at times it was hard to see other students living "the perfect life" while I bumped through mine. Thanks for helping me realize I'm not alone.
I just finished my freshman year of college as well and all of this hit so close to home. The first kiss, the heartbreak, but literally the whole video. This was so well done and felt like watching a movie almost. I love how real and honest this was, and how it’s so much more of a realistic depiction of freshman year of college compared to other videos out there
I seriously have less than 10 days until I move into my dorm and this has made me cry for over ten minutes now 😭 I really appreciate this video- thank you so much 💛💛
how did it go?
I finished college a year ago and it was quite the experience. I almost quit in my freshman year because I thought I was not doing well at all and it felt as if I didn't belong there. But heck, I'm so proud of myself for pulling through and getting my bachelor degree 💛
Thank you Riley for bringing us along on your journey through your first year of college, I've absolutely loved all your videos, you and your friends made me laugh a lot. You are amazing and you have done it!! Freshman year: ✅
Ashley's message is beautiful, she's an amazing friend 💛💛💛💛
I needed to see this honestly. I’m struggling mentally, physically and to b honest idk if I am cut out for college. I wanted to go straight to a UC after highschool but when COVID came, I had no money and had to go to a cc. I felt like shit bc I couldn’t understand my classes and I had no one to talk to. I’ve been struggling badly with classes and it feels like I will have to face the counselor and she will just stare at me like ‘wt heck is happening?’ I was a really good student in hs, but having to work, my dad getting COVID, my brothers needing extra support with their school (one of my brothers has ASD) and my grandma passing away from COVID really hit me hard this freshmen year. It was totally not what I wanted and not what I expected. I had to drop so many classes and I cried my heart out in a public bathroom after work. I’m afraid of seeking help bc I’m afraid of being judged and being told that someone has it harder than me. Idk. It’s just very hard and I’m loosing hope. But hopefully I can get through it and graduate. I just pray to god that I can get through this. No matter what it takes.
@PandaSprinkles thank you so so much. It scares me to ask for help, but your kind words encourage me to seek help. I finally know I’m not alone. ❤️
There’s absolutely nothing wrong in asking for help or advice or just being vulnerable . Please do it if it gets really hard to share it with just yourself. I really wish the best for you and I hope everything works out for your good. I hope you’re able to go to UC if possible but if not I hope you’re able to enjoy your present situation and see how to make the best of it because trust me there will always be something good to see in it
@@jenniferanyanwu2292 thank you❤️. I made an appointment to see my school counselor and I made it a small goal for myself that no matter how I am looked at bc of my situation, I won’t let them be the judge of my situation. It was and still is hard for me and I need to stay positive and not let my anxiety or mine or others thoughts get the best of me and my education. Thank you so much for your kind words. I hope you’re doing well.
@@emiliayang2518 yasss here’s to not letting anxiety or others thoughts get the best of you and your education! If there are words that have stuck with me and I hope they stick with you too is that nothing is inherently embarrassing unless you consider it to be. Just pause and think of that for a while. So so proud of you girl and the BIG step you’ve taken. Eventually when you realize you were bold enough to finally put your foot down and act and that this was all for you and you alone,you’ll be oh so glad you did it.
Ps: I’m doing great...thanks for asking😋
I'm a junior now (fourth year) and since freshman year, college has been one of the worst, loneliest, experiences of my life so far. My mental health is shit. Idk if things will get better, but I'm not very hopeful at this point. I just want it to be over.....
I have found myself in the same position as you, wondering if things will ever get better. I promise that they do get better! There is always hope. Reach out to people for help, whether that’s friends, family, resources at school, or my personal favorite God. He is always there. Without hard times we cannot become stronger. Who knows in the future you might be able to help someone else who is going through what you have been through. Keep going, you got this!!
this makes me terrified to go to college
@@dontmindmeimjustadolphin okay that makes me feel a little better, bc i guess no one else will really have many friends either so then maybe everyone will be looking for some
You’re doing great! God is with u, and He loves you. He will never leave you. He send His son To die for u, why? Well bc we have all fallen short, but God wanted to give us a second chance and all we gotta do is accept Him in out heart and live for Him. Deny yourself get in your word and live for Him. and even if you don’t know it, there is a God out there who loves you DEEPLY.
Ik how u feel, if it wasn’t for God...idk where I’ll be.
Romans 5:8
New Living Translation
But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners
You are definitely not the only one who feels this way. Reach out and talk about it. People will listen and be there for you. I am very proud of you that you're still going💙
Omg riley, this has been such an eye opener. Life never comes without pain but it also comes with happiness and we cant ever forget that small fact. It's the little things in life that matter and after watching this video you have made me look forward to all the little moments I will potentially experience this fall when I'm in college myself.... despite the sadness that may come with it. Thank you so much. To anyone needing to hear this... just remeber, you are gorgeous and no one can tell you otherwise. Believe in yourself and nothing can stop you from chasing your dreams. Because in the end, it is only you who can pick yourself up after you've fallen.
I'm going off to college soon and I stumbled across this video while scrolling through RUclips. I'm really afraid of being independent and what's to come. Many people tell me that I should look forward to college because I'll meet new people and they just simply leave out the bad. Thank you for sharing your experience and thank you for being real. I'm looking forward to growing as a person and learning from experiences.
never heard someone express what I feel so clearly. wow. a work of art.
I love this way you put it together, I feel like this isn’t everyone’s collage experience, this was yours and it was beautiful to watch. Everyone has their own story...and I feel like education wasn’t the main part in this, it was your life and a boy, totally enjoyed it and hope you get through college .
im crying. i've spent my entire freshman year at home and every day i wished time would pass faster so I could finally get to campus. Just yesterday my parents were talking about buying plane tickets and move-in day for this fall semester. It didn't hit me until now... it's finally happening and of course, i'm excited but this time it's for real. This time, I'll be saying goodbye. Riley thank you for this video, your words of advice, and for sharing your journey!! Everyone who is heading to college needs to see this! I needed to see this ❤❤
Do you know who was that 'he' riley talking about??
Riley, the quality of your content is just incredible! This hit so close to home and it probably isn't easy to show the days when you are struggling. I hope you know that this is appreciated. You did an amazing job and let your stunning, genuine personality shine through every single video in this year. I wish you all the best for the next one ❤️
as someone who is starting uni at the end of the month, moving four hours from home and going to be on my own for the first time in my life - this was maybe one of the most moving videos I have ever watched. I’m terrified, especially as someone with bad anxiety, but little videos like this are also what manage to keep that spark of excitement growing in me. because of a pandemic I missed out on a real graduation, never had a prom, spent two birthdays in quarantine, will be missing out on frosh week. but one thing you reminded me is that there will be so many experiences and things to look forward too, firsts that I won’t miss out on. thank you so much for sharing this and a piece of your story. just as you said: keep going. there are still so many great things to accomplish
I had this video saved in my files for 2 years and it's crazy that I'm coming across it now when college is next week for me. I guess this was a moment of guidance from my past self to me in the present. Im crying (class of '23)
Riley, you‘ve outdone yourself on this one.
This made me feel happy and sad at the same time. I wish you all the best in the world, you are amazing. God bless you.
everyone wants and needs a friend like ashley😭😭❤️
This is sooo good. Just finished my freshman year of college and definitely can relate.
This was beautiful. I’m 25, I didn’t go away for school and actually I’m still in school & I can tell you this feeling will happen over and over again. So many emotions with a beautiful silver lining. This will probably happen with your first internship,your first job, and so on. The way you captured this in 10min & 28 seconds. SO beautiful & well said I have all of the feelings. 😭
This was like a short movie that is actually true
Im a mom to a upcoming jr and soph in HS. They go to boarding school. When they moved, my mother said, it will never be the same. When they move out, they grow up. Its so true. Much love Riley. Maturity comes quickly.
why did you send them to boarding school? don't most strong parent-child relationship come from being together?
@@sophiagrande2877 its a progressive STEAM based prep school. When you have gifted children sometimes you make sacrifices to educate them appropriately.
@@AStupidLambIsMe ohh ok just curious
I have my finals tomorrow and I’m extremely stressed. This really helped me, it made me cry, that was exactly what I needed. And it made me realize that I’m enough, if I fail or not. Thank you for being you, and for being so open. ❤️
How did you do?
@@ashleybirchall9132 ahw thanx for asking! I passed them, and go to college now. I met the most amazing people and love school (has never happened before haha). I’m in the right place now :)
This is the most beautiful and purest thing I’ve seen in a while and thank you for that
I just finished my 2nd week of my senior year of high school (class of 2025). I’ve always talked about how I can’t WAIT to go to college, but then I saw this video and it rlly made me think. I’ll be an adult, I can’t fuck around and do kid things anymore after I turn 18. I’m gonna miss everyone. My friends, my family, my dog, my Grandma, my high school teachers, my middle school teachers, my elementary school teachers, my childhood home that I am currently still living in…but you know what…im gonna live life. I’m gonna go out there and have fun before I graduate and enter the adult world. Here’s to living life guys! 🍻🍺
A lot of people are fake af freshman year of college. Everyone is coming into a brand new social environment and so many people go too far with trying to put their best foot forward that they just end up being fake.
It's super common for friend groups that form early on to have falling outs after people get comfortable and drop the veneer.
omgosh netflix original vibes girl!!!! idk why but this gave me goosebumps
You truly have a gift for telling the real story. The editing of the film, the music you choose, the words you create all are so compelling and evoke decades old memories for anyone that has experienced these moments. Keep producing, filming, editing, writing and creating the moments that you are sharing... you have a great talent. Also you are right. Certain friendships or people come into your life and never leave but most of them are only with us for a brief time.
I love your personality! All smiles and happiness that you just spread through the screen. You’re such a great example!
As someone who will start college in like 3 months I don’t know what to expect from this video (I’m writing this during the ad haven’t watched it yet the crying thumbnail was intriguing tho)
Hey! Ik it’s been 2 years but I would love to know how you’re doing now? Any updates? ❤ good luck for everything!!
@@takemetomarz Hey! thanks for asking:) its actually been 3 years!! So far college has had its ups and downs and there's definitely alot of pressure to succeed as a stem major especially since students at my college love to compare each other. Overall college wasnt as scary as I thought. life itself is scary getting older is scary as our responsibilities continue to grow but college is there to help us achieve our goals. I hope that whoever reads this knows that college isn't scary but it is serious. Work hard and do ur best because in the end all people look at are ur grades, having a good school vs social life is the key, don't overdo it but also don't slack off too much :)
This made me realize how much I grown so much throughout my freshman year even though I didn’t get my full experience I’ve become a whole completely differently person
College fresher.. I thought I would finally have some freedom go wherever I wanna go meet new people have my first kiss first breakup..just everything but thanks to the virus I never got the chance after school.. college is just my laptop.. online classes.. I am just hoping that one day this will finally be over and I will have that life that I dreamt of
Can't see our RUclips star crying 🥺
You're very strong, riley. You deserve all the success in this world. I learn so much from you! Don't cry ever again please we're here for you always and forever ❤️
Such a sweet comment! :")
@@Ishasingh19 ❤️❤️
Can we all agreed that Riley is sweetheart I'm proud of her because I loved her vlogs
Getting my first kiss and heartbreak when I was 14-15 sucked, and it wasn't something like oh just a dumb high-school relationship. But there's a part of me that is glad to have experienced that for the first time before college so that even if something like that happens and it will still undoubtedly suck, at least I'll know what's happening and have experienced it before, it will help numb the pain and not stack wayyy too much on top of stress of homework and other things in life.
And I know you won't see this, but I'm gonna say I appreciate your light. From the first video I watched I could see it and I knew who you were. Your not a freshman anymore but I know you're still going through challenges and I want you to know that I understand. You can push through it, thank you for helping us on this journey. Your journey. My journey. Our journey.
This video is one of the most authentic college videos I have ever watched. Thank you so much Riley for sharing with us the real life of college. Much love from Kenya 💖💕
I am 12 years not even close to expreince any of this stuff but the fact that i still felt her soroow and pain is just remarkble so if your reading this i want to you two know you have not only made a young girls day you have inspired me in so many strong ways. And as young girl transformimg into a young lady, you HAVE ENDED MY PAIN you told me that you should be strong through whatever your goimg through and to especially be confident in your self. When i finish college i will come back to this vidoe what it again and say to myself WOW that is really what i went through and i want you to know THAT I SAY THANK YOU for these words. YOU HAVE NOT ONLY SHOWED ME STORY YOU TOLD ME A STORY THAT ONE DAY I WILL EXPREINCE!!!!!!!!
dude calm down lmao you haven't even transformed into a teenager yet, let alone a "young lady"
@@xdandychiggins dude i actually have transfored already and 2nd of all this comment was not meant for you. But unlike sombody i am not her to spread hate so have a great day repectfully.
@@millazemelshtern723 you posted this corny comment in a public comment section, so it’s quite literally meant for everyone 🥴 chill out bruh
@@xdandychiggins look i dont know who please go do somthing else, i am not trying to start beef so you can think your opnion and i can think mine. Now for the last i am not responding anymore and have a great day!!!!!1
@@millazemelshtern723 i sure hope you don’t respond again, your grasp on the english language is absolutely atrocious. read a book or two bruh
You’re heartbreak literally just made me realize not to do this to myself. I just went through a really bad breakup after a 2 year relationship. I have felt the same way where I feel like I meant nothing but I have learned to just separate and move on and see what happens in the future.
I felt this video with my whole heart. I’ve been struggling this whole past year with the pandemic, graduating high school, going off to college out of state, having my first real relationship. My life got flipped upside down & I got so lost. I’m trying to find my way back to myself, but still dealing w so many things. This video was great! Hope you have a blessed day!
I graduated high school in 2021. And I only experienced the first two years of it. The second two was only online school, I had little to no friends, I couldn’t see anyone because I didn’t have a job nor money to afford a car, and I was extremely depressed. We didn’t have prom, senior walk, homecoming, or anything else high school graduates usually experience. I received my 4 year diploma though my car in a drive though…
My social skills plummeted, and I noticed this when I was thrown off to college, something I really did not want to do but felt I had too because it’s what everyone else does. It’s the end of my 2nd year in college and I’ve yet to make real friends. It’s still very hard to talk to people as I was isolated for a long time. A positive of this time alone was that I was able to work on myself physically. I still keep the habit of working out like I used too everyday during quarantine.
This is embarrassing to admit but I’ve yet to have a girlfriend. I’ve always wanted someone I could just be around and love. Someone who could be my best of friends but that I could share everything with. As stupid as it is, that’s my goal, to find someone who I love and who loves me for the very undeveloped mentally person that I am.
I hope we get through the hardships in life.
Hi Ms. Riley! I love your video. I can definitely relate to this. I was suppose to be a college freshman last year, but everything that's been happening came to me all at once last year. I feel so tired and I just want to rest. I talked to my mom about it. I told her that I wanted to take a one year break from school. I told her that I can't handle it all together last year. Everything just exhausts me. But it's not a waste. Looking back, I learned a lot about myself. It's only this break that I get to experience how it is to be just me. It's only this break that I get to know what I want and what my plans are. It's only this break that I get to be with my family for a whole year without being busy with anything.
Life sure gives us ups and downs. But despite the difficult times, we must always stand up and survive. I wish you all the best Ms. Riley. I wish you success and fulfillment in life. We are strong and we can get through anything that life throws at us.
Thank you so much for this video❤️ I’m still in high school and finishing up my sophomore year in France in a month and although it’s not the same I saw a lot of the things you said and showed and managed to relate. Thank you because we got to see a different side of you that was stressed and vulnerable at times but still remained strong and put a smile on our faces ❤️ I love this video so much🥰😭 ilyyyyyyyy💕
As someone who is graduating High school in 2 days, and going to college in August. Watching this was so helpful. It gave me a comfort. I'm excited for college but I know its okay to feel conflicted. Thank you
I felt this so hard. I just finished freshman year and the social and mental health aspects ruined my academics. I didn't know it was possible to be essentially held back TWO years because of two bad semesters... oh well, it has taught me a lot. I went through overload, burnout, heartbreak, and with the pandemic, everything was online so I didn't really make any friends. through it all, i've struggled. over months of feeling hurt, unworthy, feeling like I don't belong, I started taking time to myself to enjoy my own presence. I'm learning to enjoy being alone. Freshman year has only helped me to become the person I am now. Nothing will ever be the same
I did not proceed to college this year and when that hit me, I felt my heart strings. I feel sad but I feel thankful enough to be here today, watching my schoolmates go to college. Contented with where I am now and can do things that I tend to ignore. To do a lot of processsing and feeling those emotions.
As someone who is soon going to head to college, I think this was exactly what I needed to see. That I'm not alone. I'm scared to leave behind the good memories of home and friends but excited to start a new chapter and grow as a person. Thank you for sharing your life! You are wonderful.
I am just starting my Sophomore and have been reflecting on my Freshman year, and everything you said hit really close to home. I had both my happiest moments and some of my lowest lows at college that first year and so much of the future is unknown, but that’s okay. It’s all worth it and you grow so much from both the good and the bad. Thank you so much for creating this video and sharing your experience ❤️
Very brave to post this and it demonstrates your enormous strength. I am going to make my son watch this video as he will be starting his senior year of HS and we are planning our college tours. That is what brought me to this video. One of his friend's brother just committed suicide at college and it has shaken him and his group to their core. It is a difficult time for all of you but being unafraid to reach out for help and support is critical. Thank you for making this!
I actually cried on this one🥺 oh my god that was so sad and so heartwarming, it made me learn a lot, and really think my life through for a second. Wow! i wish u the best in life Riley!! ily
how well do u wanna edit? riley:
FRICK YES.
I’m currently on my freshman year of college but since everything is online, I’ve never been to the actual college building neither seen any of my classmates irl which makes me feel like I’m missing all the experiences
this is beautiful, i’m so glad that you’re vulnerable on the internet 💗 it makes us feel truly stronger
hey :) I study in Europe and this video was on my start page. normally I don't write comments but I thought I just want to send you a little hug, some love and thank you for sharing. I felt a little bit less alone and more normal.. to see you are not the only one going through all those chapters helps a lot! this made my day, not in a funny, but honest and thankful way! thank you! :)
You are such an inspiration for me and I can guarantee that you are for all your followers! It is amazing how you share personal details of you life to people you don’t even know, and you help them IN SUCH AN INCREDIBLE WAYS! THANK YOU FOR THAT ❤️
"No matter how much it hurts, how hard it gets. You gotta keep grinding"
- Dean Winchester, Supernatural
This video hits me hard , I’m a student at school in Dubai . I’m only 16 but my life is about to change drastically because I am moving . I have lived my life with al my friends in dubai but now I’m leaving them behind and going into a place that I don’t understand . A place where I’m confused of the future . I’m only staying there for 2 years so it seems that whatever I do in those 2 years is useless . But I’m learning from this video th at my determination to move on from things is what will keep me happy . I don’t usually ask for ppl to like my stuff but it’s important I think that she knows we are listening to her and understanding her . This is also the first video I have seen and it already hooked