I too have had great trouble socializing after my psychosis. It’s felt like I’ve become dumber or something since recovering from it, but people just keep telling me that no you don’t lose brain cells or anything after experiencing psychosis. It’s close to going on two years since my experience and I still have trouble with communication. Like I feel like I just don’t have much to say or to bring to the table in conversation. I used to be a social butterfly I felt, but since then I’ve become pretty quiet and I don’t like it, but that’s how it’s been. :(
Glad to say I am doing a little better :) I have become more social again and a lot less depressed than I was before. Thanks to time, meds, and getting back out there into the workforce I feel like it has helped me out in many ways.
Thank you for sharing this. I know of other people who have had similar experiences. I can imagine this experience would be quite painful and you are brave to have gotten through that experience and for sharing here. Thank you 🙏
This gave me hope, I’m in depression right now. Going in public places is really hard to do, anywhere there is people who don’t understand my experience has me feeling horrible. I’m really grateful for the videos you’ve made. Makes me feel less alone and it let’s me accept where I’ve been knowing I’m not the only one who have lived with this condition. Thank you!
the worst thing for me is not the "psychosis" itself, but the Life-wrecking effect after it happened... I lose my job and become purposeless..... no one understand me at all, I try to explain but all they thought was I sin to God and want to equalize myself to God (I had so called "Jesus pschosis" cz I think I am Jesus).... I am a preacher and the student of the words of God, but you know when psychosis hit you, you are in total chaos... you have no control of yourself, you just think that you are led by THE TRUTH and some kind of DIVINE assignment... how do you sozialize when you feel guilty all the time?
Thank you for sharing your story. I can understand why psychosis can leave a wake of destruction behind it's path. I also agree that psychosis itself is not the worse part but rather the reintegration and healing process afterwards. I am sorry to hear that your community was not more supportive of you through your process. Understand that most people are afraid of these experiences because they cannot relate or understand them. Them not trusting or accepting you has less to do with you and more to do with them. If Jesus was around today I don't think he would have judged you or chastised you but shown you love and affection. As hard as it is try not to take what others say about you personally because it's really not about you, but rather their own judgement and fear. As far as guilt goes that is something you will have to navigate within yourself. Guilt does not come from others but rather from your perception that you did something wrong, when in reality a lot of what you did was out of control. What you can control is what you do now. If your community does not accept you that is up to them, you cannot change how others perceive you or what choices they make. You have to decide what course to take. Just because you have had psychosis doesn't mean you can't be a peacher, to the contrary I think it would make you a better preacher because you can empathize better with people in difficult situations and those marginalized by society. The community you are currently in may not be the right one to preach in again. I don't know what the answer but just know that you are not alone and while your experience may have closed doors for you it does not mean that you cannot create new meaning and purpose. My channel would not exist had I not had my experience. Try looking for solutions and small goals to move towards instead of looking at the problems in your life and you will be more likely to make progress and find new purpose. I hope that is helpful, thanks again for sharing ☺️
@@justbeinghayden9451 to resconstruct my belief system about my reality is very difficult, this inner voice has been a real helper for my entire life and somehow guide me along the way, i am so dependant with that, now do i have to deny all voices comes from within? it's deemed to be extremely difficult to live without "Divine Guidance" in this world of million choices. somehow I think I had loved this "delusion/voice" as my perfect divine partner, and to know that most of your life is spent with something that is just a product of brain error is very destroying. it's like loving somebody that never been there in the first place.... it's a big betrayal...
It is hard to reconstruct our belief system that is the most difficult part of psychosis recovery. I did not get rid of my inner guidance. I still use my inner guidance and intuition to help me make decisions, but I have a different relationship with it than I did before. I have a much more grounded approach using reason more than before instead of using my intuition or trusting the universe to guide my every action. There's a time to use intuition and there's a time to use common sense and reason. That is something I had to learn. I also had to check myself on magical and fantastical thinking adopting a more grounded and practical worldview instead of hoping for magical solutions to my problems. Counseling really helped me with that but also trial and error. I don't think you need to get rid of anything just fine tune it a little based on what you have learned. It may be harder for you since of a lot what you experienced may have gone against your original worldview, Christianity, and this experience seems hard for you to rationalize or understand within the context of your religion. I'm not sure how to help you with that because I do not know enough about Christianity. But I still use my intuition and I have had validation that it is not fake because people will say how did you know that or it turned out the be the better path for me in the long run. But for a while after my psychosis I had to focus on just practical, non-magical thinking until I was able to understand the more intuitive and interpretative parts of myself again and how to incorporate them into my life in a healthy way.
I have trouble opening up about my previous psychosis to potential friends. I feel very much that they'd judge me ie will she keep on her meds, what would she be like if she came off them - would she attack me? I prefer not to talk about that particular past or my condition, but talk about my interests, learn about theirs etc, talk sometimes about my mood that day. Does anyone else like to hide away when it comes to actually opening up about your psychosis?
If you don't feel comfortable then don't share with them. There is no requirement to share with others what your experience was. I think it's important to have someone you can talk with about your experience, but you don't have to share with everyone. Only the people you feel safe with and trust.
Loved the video - this is really going to help me in the coming summer. Please make more videos on how to socialize or even make a series. In theory, you could easily make a series about just past topics you've covered.
I feel like I have recovered and I don’t take any medication but sometimes I have problems going out or being around people. I accomplished small goals like going to school and getting a part time job but now I have neither again due to my own negligence and not being able to manage time at all
The worst part is when you have to apologize for your behavior to people who don't understand and don't accept any apology cuz they are weirded out. Mine came from high dose steroids from a long hospital stay and infection. 2 months of hell.
Thank you for sharing. Yeah it can feel really dehumanizing when people just toss you to the side because they are scared or don't understand. Definitely not an easy experience to process on many levels. Wishing you the best in recovery 🙏
It got better for me. I can't promise that it will or will not get better. But what you can do is keep on trying and taking little steps towards your goal. When I did that I made slow and gradual improvement. I feel completely comfortable socializing now, I've always had some social anxiety even before psychosis, but it's nothing like what it used to be. One month is not a long time, be patient and gentle with yourself it takes time. Just know it did get better for me and for others as well. 😊
you can 100% recover from social anxiety after Psychosis i have for the most part im just dealing with the somewhat frequent micro panic attacks i get from the ptsd from the night i had Psychosis lol, but i feel myself getting better.
That is a conversation with your doctor. It depends on your specific recovery and medication you are on. The protocol changes depending on those factors.
I've found your videos regarding psychosis extremely helpful, even though I kind of already recovered. I am spanish native and I would love to if you're interested in creating spanish subtitles for your videos so they can help more people. Deep admiration for your bravery sharing your experience my best regards.
Thank you for your generosity! I will take a look to see if I can add subtitles in another language and get back to you. Glad you have found my videos helpful!
@@justbeinghayden9451 would you mind telling me what caused your initial psychosis and what caused it to happen six years later? I am on 0.5 mg of respiridone as well and have only had one episode I’m about to stop altogether.
@@johhny1759 I have some videos that go into detail about both my psychosis experiences from beginning to end. If you look under my most viewed videos you will see them, but the simple answer is psychedelics and cannabis the first time and cannabis the second time.
It sounds like something that might be worth exploring. Part of me feels that if you truly did not want to socialize you would not have watched the video and commented here. What are your thoughts on that?
@@EricCampbellUAV Okay, no worries. Well, I appreciate you voicing how you feel on the channel. I know other people out there feel the same way and don't feel comfortable voicing that. So I appreciate your honesty and sharing how you feel.
I too have had great trouble socializing after my psychosis. It’s felt like I’ve become dumber or something since recovering from it, but people just keep telling me that no you don’t lose brain cells or anything after experiencing psychosis. It’s close to going on two years since my experience and I still have trouble with communication. Like I feel like I just don’t have much to say or to bring to the table in conversation. I used to be a social butterfly I felt, but since then I’ve become pretty quiet and I don’t like it, but that’s how it’s been. :(
I'm sorry to hear that. Have you spoken with a counselor or with a mental health professional about it?
Anything change ?
has anything improved for you ??
Glad to say I am doing a little better :) I have become more social again and a lot less depressed than I was before. Thanks to time, meds, and getting back out there into the workforce I feel like it has helped me out in many ways.
@@mikecollins2371 Thats good to hear and reassuring - any further update on your journey?
Mine was all over the internet. The shame is intense and i can't face anyone, cant even go on social media 3-4 years on...
Thank you for sharing this. I know of other people who have had similar experiences. I can imagine this experience would be quite painful and you are brave to have gotten through that experience and for sharing here. Thank you 🙏
It's gonna be ok.
This gave me hope, I’m in depression right now. Going in public places is really hard to do, anywhere there is people who don’t understand my experience has me feeling horrible. I’m really grateful for the videos you’ve made. Makes me feel less alone and it let’s me accept where I’ve been knowing I’m not the only one who have lived with this condition. Thank you!
the worst thing for me is not the "psychosis" itself, but the Life-wrecking effect after it happened... I lose my job and become purposeless..... no one understand me at all, I try to explain but all they thought was I sin to God and want to equalize myself to God (I had so called "Jesus pschosis" cz I think I am Jesus)....
I am a preacher and the student of the words of God, but you know when psychosis hit you, you are in total chaos... you have no control of yourself, you just think that you are led by THE TRUTH and some kind of DIVINE assignment...
how do you sozialize when you feel guilty all the time?
how if no one will ever trust you again like before?
Thank you for sharing your story. I can understand why psychosis can leave a wake of destruction behind it's path. I also agree that psychosis itself is not the worse part but rather the reintegration and healing process afterwards. I am sorry to hear that your community was not more supportive of you through your process. Understand that most people are afraid of these experiences because they cannot relate or understand them. Them not trusting or accepting you has less to do with you and more to do with them. If Jesus was around today I don't think he would have judged you or chastised you but shown you love and affection. As hard as it is try not to take what others say about you personally because it's really not about you, but rather their own judgement and fear. As far as guilt goes that is something you will have to navigate within yourself. Guilt does not come from others but rather from your perception that you did something wrong, when in reality a lot of what you did was out of control. What you can control is what you do now. If your community does not accept you that is up to them, you cannot change how others perceive you or what choices they make. You have to decide what course to take. Just because you have had psychosis doesn't mean you can't be a peacher, to the contrary I think it would make you a better preacher because you can empathize better with people in difficult situations and those marginalized by society. The community you are currently in may not be the right one to preach in again. I don't know what the answer but just know that you are not alone and while your experience may have closed doors for you it does not mean that you cannot create new meaning and purpose. My channel would not exist had I not had my experience. Try looking for solutions and small goals to move towards instead of looking at the problems in your life and you will be more likely to make progress and find new purpose. I hope that is helpful, thanks again for sharing ☺️
@@justbeinghayden9451 to resconstruct my belief system about my reality is very difficult, this inner voice has been a real helper for my entire life and somehow guide me along the way, i am so dependant with that, now do i have to deny all voices comes from within? it's deemed to be extremely difficult to live without "Divine Guidance" in this world of million choices.
somehow I think I had loved this "delusion/voice" as my perfect divine partner, and to know that most of your life is spent with something that is just a product of brain error is very destroying.
it's like loving somebody that never been there in the first place.... it's a big betrayal...
It is hard to reconstruct our belief system that is the most difficult part of psychosis recovery. I did not get rid of my inner guidance. I still use my inner guidance and intuition to help me make decisions, but I have a different relationship with it than I did before. I have a much more grounded approach using reason more than before instead of using my intuition or trusting the universe to guide my every action. There's a time to use intuition and there's a time to use common sense and reason. That is something I had to learn. I also had to check myself on magical and fantastical thinking adopting a more grounded and practical worldview instead of hoping for magical solutions to my problems. Counseling really helped me with that but also trial and error. I don't think you need to get rid of anything just fine tune it a little based on what you have learned. It may be harder for you since of a lot what you experienced may have gone against your original worldview, Christianity, and this experience seems hard for you to rationalize or understand within the context of your religion. I'm not sure how to help you with that because I do not know enough about Christianity. But I still use my intuition and I have had validation that it is not fake because people will say how did you know that or it turned out the be the better path for me in the long run. But for a while after my psychosis I had to focus on just practical, non-magical thinking until I was able to understand the more intuitive and interpretative parts of myself again and how to incorporate them into my life in a healthy way.
@@justbeinghayden9451 thank you so much !! Love you bro
I have trouble opening up about my previous psychosis to potential friends. I feel very much that they'd judge me ie will she keep on her meds, what would she be like if she came off them - would she attack me? I prefer not to talk about that particular past or my condition, but talk about my interests, learn about theirs etc, talk sometimes about my mood that day. Does anyone else like to hide away when it comes to actually opening up about your psychosis?
If you don't feel comfortable then don't share with them. There is no requirement to share with others what your experience was. I think it's important to have someone you can talk with about your experience, but you don't have to share with everyone. Only the people you feel safe with and trust.
Loved the video - this is really going to help me in the coming summer. Please make more videos on how to socialize or even make a series. In theory, you could easily make a series about just past topics you've covered.
Thanks for the positive feedback. Glad you liked the video. Yeah I am planning on making similar videos in the future ☺️
You should do interview with people that are recovering
I have a couple of video with people who have also gone through psychosis. You can find them on my channel.
Does anyone relate to the shame of the things you said and did with people when you were unwell,like the unspokenness,stigma,people avoiding u?
They just acted like it never happened
I feel like I have recovered and I don’t take any medication but sometimes I have problems going out or being around people. I accomplished small goals like going to school and getting a part time job but now I have neither again due to my own negligence and not being able to manage time at all
The worst part is when you have to apologize for your behavior to people who don't understand and don't accept any apology cuz they are weirded out. Mine came from high dose steroids from a long hospital stay and infection. 2 months of hell.
Thank you for sharing. Yeah it can feel really dehumanizing when people just toss you to the side because they are scared or don't understand. Definitely not an easy experience to process on many levels. Wishing you the best in recovery 🙏
It’s so hard man; does it get better? I feel so awkward and quiet, mind you it’s only been about a little over a month
It got better for me. I can't promise that it will or will not get better. But what you can do is keep on trying and taking little steps towards your goal. When I did that I made slow and gradual improvement. I feel completely comfortable socializing now, I've always had some social anxiety even before psychosis, but it's nothing like what it used to be. One month is not a long time, be patient and gentle with yourself it takes time. Just know it did get better for me and for others as well. 😊
you can 100% recover from social anxiety after Psychosis i have for the most part im just dealing with the somewhat frequent micro panic attacks i get from the ptsd from the night i had Psychosis lol, but i feel myself getting better.
out of interest has it got better for you?
How long does it take to get off medication after psychosis I’ve been on medication for 7 months
That is a conversation with your doctor. It depends on your specific recovery and medication you are on. The protocol changes depending on those factors.
Thanks
Very good and useful
Good luck to you for future
Great post man. Small steps, 1 at a time, lead to big changes
Thank you for making this
Hardest thing ever in my life.
It is definitely a difficult process.
This is so incredibly valuable
I like it
I've found your videos regarding psychosis extremely helpful, even though I kind of already recovered. I am spanish native and I would love to if you're interested in creating spanish subtitles for your videos so they can help more people. Deep admiration for your bravery sharing your experience my best regards.
Thank you for your generosity! I will take a look to see if I can add subtitles in another language and get back to you. Glad you have found my videos helpful!
Thanks for this!!! 💞❤️
Happened many times ☀️🙌🏻🌟
Do you still experience psychosis and can you share what symptoms you have and what medications are keeping stable.
No symptoms and I take 0.5mg of risperidone daily.
Have you had any relapses
@@esmeraldasilver8763 I only had my two experiences of psychosis 6 years apart from each other.
@@justbeinghayden9451 would you mind telling me what caused your initial psychosis and what caused it to happen six years later? I am on 0.5 mg of respiridone as well and have only had one episode I’m about to stop altogether.
@@johhny1759 I have some videos that go into detail about both my psychosis experiences from beginning to end. If you look under my most viewed videos you will see them, but the simple answer is psychedelics and cannabis the first time and cannabis the second time.
i can but i don’t want to.
It sounds like something that might be worth exploring. Part of me feels that if you truly did not want to socialize you would not have watched the video and commented here. What are your thoughts on that?
@@justbeinghayden9451 i didn’t watch. my comment was addressing the title of it. i’m a misanthrope.
@@EricCampbellUAV Okay, no worries. Well, I appreciate you voicing how you feel on the channel. I know other people out there feel the same way and don't feel comfortable voicing that. So I appreciate your honesty and sharing how you feel.
It’s week 3 I hate it