Even though views on RUclips aren't gonna be high for Christian content like this, as you can't clickbait to gain viewer retention.. I just want to mention that your content is very much needed. I cannot stress that enough. I appreciate the work you put in to your content through Christ. Thank you so much!
@@FarAwayDistance you’re always welcome, sister in Christ ❤️ As long as you make content, you’ll reach people who need to hear the message through your work with Christ! ☺️ very grateful!
Corner Room Music! I've memorized ENTIRE PSALMS with them. I also love when families have those artistic Bible verse signs all over their house. It feels like that house is literally imbued with scripture.
After my ruptured brain aneurysm and stroke. I’m at the point if I write the scriptures down on a sticky note, and place it in a paper version Bible at that location. I can remember what the scriptures are, and approximately where I placed it, I’m good. I can find my way around. A few Sabbath’s back, I made a comment during Sabbath school. I had said that God only gives his Holy Spirit, the his people that obey him. I did receive some push back almost instantly. I opened my Bible and I could remember that it was in the book of Acts. I flipped through the pages, and when I got to Acts 5:32 I raised my hand, when I was called. I stood up and quoted ……and so is the Holy Ghost whom God hath given to them, that obey him. I remembered writing it on a sticky note, I could remember it was in Acts. But remembering word for word, considering different versions like King James, New King James or N.I.V, that I can’t do. I might have had a fighting chance when I was 20 years old, but being past 60 with my personal history, I’m thankful for what I do have. I knew when I came out of my coma, I was in trouble. I’ve had to adjust my life to a new normal. Have a blessed Sabbath!
I'm younger, and I don't understand how people remember the actual numbers of verses. I mean, I can memorize a verse, but remember it was Ex.1:26 for example...
There is something that is far more important to one's Salvation & Eternal Destiny than memorizing verses from the bible. That is being in adherence & obedience to the Teachings & Commands of the Lord & Saviour, as delineated and recorded in the four Gospels.
Your teacher voice and motions are so fun, brought back a lot of Sunday school memories. You are brimming with sweetness and joy! Thank you for this video. I've been getting despondent, guilty and overly serious around Scripture reading and prayer. While respect for what is holy and sacred is important, it's also important to remember we are God's CHILDREN and our purpose is to glorify and ENJOY Him forever. Thank you for being a living example of enjoying the Lord. :)
These are some helpful tips! I found this fun song to memorize the books of the Old Testament for a college final. My professor laughed to himself when he saw me bouncing to the tune in my head and asked me afterwards about it. That really does help! Plus, when we are trying to memorize Scripture and we have it posted everywhere, it is so encouraging! I have a verse taped above my computer at work. It is one that I really want to memorize, but it is also one I need to remind myself about.
Thanks for sharing your playlist! I love finding artists who put straight scripture to music ☺️ Another great one I love is Melodically Memorizing! She has an Instagram where she posts verses and verse chunks set to melody and she has a couple albums out on Spotify ☺️ Music is definitely my favorite way to memorize 🎶 Thank you so much for this video! What great encouragement at the end 💕
I love the Bible Memory Challenge so far!! So far, I finished week 3. I love Scripture songs as well. They are powerful and helpful to memorize Scripture as well. Alongside Bible memorization and Bible studies, I enjoy listening to Todd Dulaney, who sings Scripture songs such as Revelation 4 and Proverbs 3. I love these practical tips you shared about memorizing God's word. Glory to God!
The quality and passion you put into each video is just amazing! Our God continue to bless your life, you are light girl! 🔥🙌🏾 I am grateful to discover your channel
Loved this video so so much. I am so ecstatic to start studying my bible and memorizing verses. I love what you said at the end about how this society is so focused on doing things fast. If God can take His time with us, why can't we take our time with Him? Thank you :)
When scripture is tied to an event in our lives we don't have to memorize because it takes on a deeper meaning. I prayed to the Holy Spirit a few years ago after my John 3:3 Moment with the Lord. See John 3:3 “Truly, truly, I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again. and I knew what that verse meant as it had just happened to me at a very low point in my life. Probably the lowest & the Lord lifted me up! Way up. As I cried out to the Lord, he answered my prayer in a very big way! Psalm 30:2-3 O LORD my God, I cried to You for help, and You healed me. O LORD, You pulled me up from Sheol; You spared me from descending into the Pit. and now these verses mean something to me! He is my keeper, My helper, maker of heaven & earth. Psalm 121! He must increase & must decrease John 3:30 as he has shown me my pride, my EGO=Edges God Out! The Holy Spirit prayed with me Psalm 23 & I have never forgotten it! Each day read a chapter! Each day share a verse. Each day pray & ask for understanding & guidance. In Jesus Name, Amen
Hey Becca! I would love to hear what you have to say about secular songs. Do you listen to any? And if you do, how would you choose which one to listen to?
Shane and Shane is doing the Psalm Initiative, where they are working through making a song for every Psalm and it's really helped memorization. Also rap, thanks Kanye for helping me memorize John 8:33 lol
I want to start memorising Bible verse! The main reason is because its annoying when im talking to someone about scripture and i know which Bible verses are connected to the topic we're talking about but its right on the tip of my tongue
Hi everyone quick question Has anyone ever heard of the National Sunday Law? It's where one day they'll pass a law forcing us all to go to church on Sundays but the Sabbath is on Saturday so sabbath believers will have to refuse the Sunday law and rely on god. 😇
"The best cure ..." - LOL. Actually, the best cure is being in adherence & obedience to the Teachings & Commands of the Lord & Saviour, as delineated and recorded in the four Gospels - not just reading the book, as reading only does absolutely nothing.
Hiii excelent ideas for gestures to memorize bible verses. 👏👏I always seek for ideas and motions how to teach bible verses. If You can share in a video the names of the bible like You did with EXODO. 🙏
Hi Sister Becca, this doesn't relate to the video but I need to write this out because I'm torn with no one to talk to. Hey Christian brothers and sisters. I really come here to see your thoughts and comments. Does anyone feel and think the same way I do? I have come to realize that there are queen Esther's of this world. As much as people say someone is beautiful but probably struggling with a big sin issue and most likely stuck up, prideful, conceited, and high maintenance it's not really true for all. There are Queen Esther's in this world. I say Queen Esther because she is a beautiful woman who also was very selfless and loves God, she helped people and devoted her time to go with Gods plan for her life without ever complaining her own way. As much as I don't want to let this get the best of me, to be quite honest I'm an ugly girl. I'm unattractive and I'm Asian to some it may not be such a big deal and they don't have a problem with it but I never wanted to be Filipino or Asian in general. If life can rewrite itself I would be a woman whose of Latin American, European, or Caucasian heritage. But the reality of being Filipino of being Asian forever even in heaven for all eternity that messes with my mind like I have a life sentence on prison only it's an eternal one. Beautiful people who are European, Hispanic, Caucasian can and do love Jesus and get to be themselves forever even in heaven. I hate to say this but as for me I'm ugly, I don't like my color or appearance or being Asian. I'm not that smart really not in fact I can't understand simple task right away and coworkers would always get mad with me, there's nothing interesting about me, I'm awkward and I get told I am even if I try to put my self out there and socialize. I'm boring and don't have a sense of humor. But to top it off not only am I ugly on the outside but I'm more ugly on the inside. I am selfish, full of many sins, I'm not as helpful as I should be I'm negative, lazy, not really knowing what I'm doing with my life or have goals, I say very hurtful awful things and curse, and I can't say it all here but it's real bad people tell me I may appear innocent but I'm really not and it's true my sins are awful and I'm not sweet or as selfless as I should be I'm a very rotten ugly person on the inside. And the thing is yes I am a very jealous and envious person to females I find beautiful I hate it but I try to think of them as people so my thoughts don't get clouded. There's people who are very attractive, beautiful, sexy and more fill in the blank all those adjectives and on top of that love Jesus are smart,selfless,etc yeah you get the picture. I feel awful because I'm ugly and I'm ugly on the inside and I'm dumb, boring and it sucks. My son's father even tells me I'm awkward, makes me feel dumb because I mean I am though, tells me I'm abnormal, and don't text like a normal person because I text long I'm bad at summarizing my words. I don't know how to put on makeup and even if I do I'm still ugly so 🤷. I don't have the money to dress nice and like I said even if I do I'm still not pretty so its like what then. I haven't been to many places because I'm always at home taking care of my son and my younger sisters. So people tell me I live under a rock. I'm naive, clueless, dumb I hear that alot. I have no interest or hobbies I don't know how to drive a car or have a car or live at my own place for a 23 year old and the reason I understand it now is because from a young age I hated my looks and being Filipino I hated alot of things that I pretended in my head I didn't exist that I'm not alive so I became withdrawn from it all this means if people ask me about games, video games, movies places I wouldn't have anything to talk about because only now am I really trying to start from level one as like a kid and learn hobbies and interests and do something. And sure enough because of it it's been bad A friend told me this : y eah I mean she's pretty and well your just Filipino. There's people who are not pretty but have personality, you, you have none. And you really don't know anything. I can also say I'm immature. Yeah nothing but bad things about me which I also know. It also didn't help that my son's father never liked me he toldy friend he just festishede because I'm Asian but not that he was taking me seriously. The girl he likes is so very attractive she's Mexican like him, that Latina whose very pretty, has a nice figure, pretty face, dresses in style really great style with a nice body and curves, knows how to put on makeup, is sweet, kind adventurous, has gone to many places, has many friends, knows alot about video games, movies, has alot of hobbies and overall a very interesting person. And here's the thing I'm like very jealous I don't hate her for it I'm just feeling like trash because I'm ugly, I'm ugly on the inside, I'm not interesting, I don't even know how to drive a car at 23, and yes it's my fault but I'm a very slow person too. In a way I just want to like disappear I know why he likes her because shes got the looks and she's a great person. Even though he just used me it's like I want to hide myself, because like I am a joke and the fact is I don't ever want to be me and it's screwed up but hey I get to be me forever and ever and be Asian and be Filipino and all this things I have no control over it is what it is it's a forever thing yes I am angry at God in a way. I know they go through pain too but I know I'm insensitive and still feel like it would have been better. I am jealous of this particular girl and many females I have no hate for them I don't wish them the worst again this is just the ugliness of my heart. Yes love is more then a physical attraction it goes hand in hand but what of If one is very ugly. I come to understand now that my son's father loves that girl he is physically attracted to her she's Mexican like him I'm just Filipino so it's obvious and all her qualities and personality physically intimately and they are compatible. It also made a mark on me on how if Jacob really just liked Rachel for her looks when she aged he still loved her... No one has liked me before I have grown up being called all kinds of names and ugly and my heart is bad. I know my worth isn't based on a man but I sure as heck don't want me either so it's a stab but it is what it is life. I have been willfully sinning in the area of sexual sin particularly in pornography, masturbation, and lust I've done this since I was a kid but because of being a woman now and not being beautiful just average to below, for being used and failed love attempts and heartbreak I was jealous of the girl who had the body the looks the race, the personality and to me porn and masturbation was a way for me to feel that feminity and beauty and feeling wanted having to condition my mind in being that ideal woman I wanted to be that I'm not being Latina, being pretty being smart being outspoken etc. I know I'm in willful sin and at some point I need to get it together. I'm such a loser I'm not trying to be negative but just being honest. The truth is I don't think I'll ever accept who God made me my color, my race, my personality, and looks. Even if God accepts me his love wouldn't stop me from really accepting if I did accept it's because I feel forced but not genuinely because it's a forever me. Any words would help thank you.
I know ethnicities isn't a big problem for many but it doesn't matter how much God loves me I never would have accepted that he made me Filipino and look and be this person to say I do means I'd be lying to my self and he knows that very well how hard that is knowing it's the case even in eternity I'd still be Filipino I'd still be me and everything with that it's a mistake even if God makes no mistakes. I hate having extremely strict Asian parents who tell me to clean every single day and look after my young sisters while I also look after my baby. I'm 23 I'm supposed to be living my life. I hate my asianess this ugly looks I inherited it's like a curse and I fully understand why my baby dad whose Mexican doesn't like me even my brother in law whose Mexican doesn't have this insanely strict parents. For a 23 year old I haven't lived just stayed in the house like Cinderella cleaning nonstop and even if I have work my parents find every reason to criticize about everything and I just swear to God I would never have wished it upon Him to make me Filipino to make me Asian to make me Myka I wouldn't wish it to my enemy it would be nice to live like an American girl independent and free with parents who are not so strict. Yes my baby dad did not like me because I'm ugly I'm Filipino I hate my ugly genetics I hate being Asian being Filipino and as much as I want to hate my parents for it I can't. I hate that their too strict and make me clean 24/7. This girl my son's father likes is Latina, attractive, goes to many adventures has many friends, has parents that love her and trust her enough to let her live her life. And I'm so resentful being born this ugly fucking of an Asian ching Chong girl with an ugly body I also inherited and cleaning and having parents that want me to stay all the time in the house wasting my life away in chores, in tiger parents. I hated it and honestly not even mad he used me I mean look at me no guy has ever taken me seriously not even when I was younger or when I was a kid never had any one had a crush on me. I can't say I'd ever love it just accepting but accepting is hard too.
Can you see that you are your mother? All words no meaning. You need to stop believing in the thoughts in your head. They are misleading you to destruction. Make sense?
Hi Myka! My name is Sarah and I’m a girl all the way from South Africa. I’d just like to say, I hear you, 100%. I am so so sorry that you are having to go through all this and I’m praying God will bless you!!! I won’t waste my time trying to give you advice about a situation I have never been in, (as I’m 16 and I am happy with how I look!) what I’ll do is I’ll tell you what has worked for me so far in times where I feel like ALL is lost!!! Basically I recently went through something that was really really hard!!! It was horrible, but now, I feel like I’m in the place of victory. With the help of God, I’ve won the battle! Here is how I handled it and how I’ve now left the situation feeling so glad that God put me through that rather then feeling bitter about the situation. Firstly the MOST important thing is prayer. No matter how far away it feels like God is, or how horrible your situation is, keep praying. What I made a routine (to make it easier to “force myself to pray”) was I would write in a journal every night. (I actually still do 🤣🤣) But basically what I would put in each entry is the following: 1. What happened in the day, including my thoughts, how I’m feeling, how my relationship with God is going and basically everything that’s on my mind! 2. I would write (underneath) what my prayers were. My tip for prayers is that you make sure to pray for more then one thing. For example, you could pray that you find an AMAZING husband who loves you and doesn’t care about your looks. But then, you could also pray that your baby can have and amazing day the next day!! Or that you can have help from God to accept and love yourself!! Basically just pray. Pray about anything and everything!! I promise you it helps so so much!! Then the next thing that really helped me in that time was having a strong amazing community. (Aka church) I’ll be praying for you that you can find one too!! (I suggest you do too 😉) Basically what helped me so much was the fact that I could go to church and be with people of God, each in a different season. People who were celebrating victory could share their joy, and listen to what I was going through and help me! One of my best friends was so so patient with me and I am SO grateful to God for her!! It is so important to have someone you can trust and love. I’m definitely going to be praying you find that person!! Then lastly what I did was I tried my best to look at the situation through Gods lens. Gods plan is PERFECT!! He knows exactly what he’s doing. Know that and receive it!!! Random other thing… worship music is incredible (I really recommend the song “see a victory”, it’s stunning 🤣✨) Anyways I hope this helped and also if you want to chat to me more on like Instagram or something you can find me @sarahjoychadwick (it’s private so I’ll make sure to look out for your name😉) But yeah!! I hope this helps and just know I am praying for you!!! You’ve got someone backing you up from the other side of the world 😎🥳
Sorry if my response didn’t help at all, I just wanted to say something because I can tell you’re going through a lot!! Lots of love sent your way 😭❤️❤️🙌
Hi noticed your description has GC as the church search location. I think G3 ministries church search is a better one. (GC has gone woke so def dont send anyone there).
Even though views on RUclips aren't gonna be high for Christian content like this, as you can't clickbait to gain viewer retention.. I just want to mention that your content is very much needed. I cannot stress that enough. I appreciate the work you put in to your content through Christ. Thank you so much!
Thank you so much for the encouragement!☺️
@@FarAwayDistance you’re always welcome, sister in Christ ❤️ As long as you make content, you’ll reach people who need to hear the message through your work with Christ! ☺️ very grateful!
Corner Room Music! I've memorized ENTIRE PSALMS with them.
I also love when families have those artistic Bible verse signs all over their house. It feels like that house is literally imbued with scripture.
That’s soo awesome! I have tons of their songs on the playlist☺️🙌🏻
@@FarAwayDistance They're definitely helpful!
My mom definitely does the verses-all-over-the-house thing-Her saying is: everywhere you look should be scripture :)
After my ruptured brain aneurysm and stroke. I’m at the point if I write the scriptures down on a sticky note, and place it in a paper version Bible at that location. I can remember what the scriptures are, and approximately where I placed it, I’m good. I can find my way around. A few Sabbath’s back, I made a comment during Sabbath school. I had said that God only gives his Holy Spirit, the his people that obey him. I did receive some push back almost instantly. I opened my Bible and I could remember that it was in the book of Acts. I flipped through the pages, and when I got to Acts 5:32 I raised my hand, when I was called. I stood up and quoted ……and so is the Holy Ghost whom God hath given to them, that obey him. I remembered writing it on a sticky note, I could remember it was in Acts. But remembering word for word, considering different versions like King James, New King James or N.I.V, that I can’t do. I might have had a fighting chance when I was 20 years old, but being past 60 with my personal history, I’m thankful for what I do have. I knew when I came out of my coma, I was in trouble. I’ve had to adjust my life to a new normal. Have a blessed Sabbath!
I'm younger, and I don't understand how people remember the actual numbers of verses. I mean, I can memorize a verse, but remember it was Ex.1:26 for example...
There is something that is far more important to one's Salvation & Eternal Destiny than memorizing verses from the bible. That is being in adherence & obedience to the Teachings & Commands of the Lord & Saviour, as delineated and recorded in the four Gospels.
Wow, that's so creatively genius! Have a wonderful day ahead Beca.
Your teacher voice and motions are so fun, brought back a lot of Sunday school memories. You are brimming with sweetness and joy! Thank you for this video. I've been getting despondent, guilty and overly serious around Scripture reading and prayer. While respect for what is holy and sacred is important, it's also important to remember we are God's CHILDREN and our purpose is to glorify and ENJOY Him forever. Thank you for being a living example of enjoying the Lord. :)
These are some helpful tips! I found this fun song to memorize the books of the Old Testament for a college final. My professor laughed to himself when he saw me bouncing to the tune in my head and asked me afterwards about it. That really does help! Plus, when we are trying to memorize Scripture and we have it posted everywhere, it is so encouraging! I have a verse taped above my computer at work. It is one that I really want to memorize, but it is also one I need to remind myself about.
Thanks for sharing your playlist! I love finding artists who put straight scripture to music ☺️ Another great one I love is Melodically Memorizing! She has an Instagram where she posts verses and verse chunks set to melody and she has a couple albums out on Spotify ☺️
Music is definitely my favorite way to memorize 🎶
Thank you so much for this video! What great encouragement at the end 💕
I love the Bible Memory Challenge so far!! So far, I finished week 3. I love Scripture songs as well. They are powerful and helpful to memorize Scripture as well. Alongside Bible memorization and Bible studies, I enjoy listening to Todd Dulaney, who sings Scripture songs such as Revelation 4 and Proverbs 3. I love these practical tips you shared about memorizing God's word. Glory to God!
I’m soo glad you’re doing it!!!☺️☺️
Thank you for this video!
Love yur videos! Love yur hair!
Thank you so much for this AMAZING video!!! 🥳🥳 you read my mind 🤩
I ❤ the Tips. Thank you 😇
This was so helpful thank you so much!!
Thank you for this great video! Psalm 119 is one of my favorites :) Wendell Kimbrough is another artist with great Scripture lyrics :))
The quality and passion you put into each video is just amazing! Our God continue to bless your life, you are light girl! 🔥🙌🏾 I am grateful to discover your channel
Great tips!
Thank you for sharing i Will be doing these tips with my little ones God bless
Thank you for this! My pastor puts the Psalms to music, and we sing a Psalm each week, so that definitely helps with memorizing Scripture.
I thought it started on the day you posted that video, so I’m already on week 3 hahahaha
Aww that's totally okay!!! I am SO happy you're doing it! :-)
Same boat!
Loved this video so so much. I am so ecstatic to start studying my bible and memorizing verses. I love what you said at the end about how this society is so focused on doing things fast. If God can take His time with us, why can't we take our time with Him? Thank you :)
This was so sweet, thank you so much! New sub ☺
The playlist sounds like a great idea
When scripture is tied to an event in our lives we don't have to memorize because it takes on a deeper meaning. I prayed to the Holy Spirit a few years ago after my John 3:3 Moment with the Lord. See John 3:3 “Truly, truly, I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again. and I knew what that verse meant as it had just happened to me at a very low point in my life. Probably the lowest & the Lord lifted me up! Way up. As I cried out to the Lord, he answered my prayer in a very big way! Psalm 30:2-3 O LORD my God, I cried to You for help, and You healed me. O LORD, You pulled me up from Sheol; You spared me from descending into the Pit. and now these verses mean something to me! He is my keeper, My helper, maker of heaven & earth. Psalm 121! He must increase & must decrease John 3:30 as he has shown me my pride, my EGO=Edges God Out! The Holy Spirit prayed with me Psalm 23 & I have never forgotten it! Each day read a chapter! Each day share a verse. Each day pray & ask for understanding & guidance. In Jesus Name, Amen
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Hey Becca! I would love to hear what you have to say about secular songs. Do you listen to any? And if you do, how would you choose which one to listen to?
Shane and Shane is doing the Psalm Initiative, where they are working through making a song for every Psalm and it's really helped memorization. Also rap, thanks Kanye for helping me memorize John 8:33 lol
I want to start memorising Bible verse! The main reason is because its annoying when im talking to someone about scripture and i know which Bible verses are connected to the topic we're talking about but its right on the tip of my tongue
Here’s some of my personal favorites:
Exodus 21:20-21, Leviticus 21:9 & 25:44-46, Hosea 13:16 & Luke 19:27
I got 210 scripture mastery
@FarAwayDisntace Amen. 🙏✝⛪
1:18 Thanks for the playlist lead! Do you have Zac Fitzsimmons? I love his psalms word-for-word.
Hi everyone quick question Has anyone ever heard of the National Sunday Law? It's where one day they'll pass a law forcing us all to go to church on Sundays but the Sabbath is on Saturday so sabbath believers will have to refuse the Sunday law and rely on god. 😇
“The best cure for Christianity is reading the Bible.”
-Mark Twain
"The best cure ..." - LOL. Actually, the best cure is being in adherence & obedience to the Teachings & Commands of the Lord & Saviour, as delineated and recorded in the four Gospels - not just reading the book, as reading only does absolutely nothing.
Doesn't cure mean recovering from disease?
Then you should try it.
@@juliaheisey8589 I have. It’s all bullshit.
Great🎉
i believe the headings are actually the hebrew letters of the alphabet! the psalm is an alphabetic poem / acrostic :)
Hiii excelent ideas for gestures to memorize bible verses. 👏👏I always seek for ideas and motions how to teach bible verses. If You can share in a video the names of the bible like You did with EXODO. 🙏
Hi Sister Becca, this doesn't relate to the video but I need to write this out because I'm torn with no one to talk to.
Hey Christian brothers and sisters. I really come here to see your thoughts and comments. Does anyone feel and think the same way I do?
I have come to realize that there are queen Esther's of this world. As much as people say someone is beautiful but probably struggling with a big sin issue and most likely stuck up, prideful, conceited, and high maintenance it's not really true for all. There are Queen Esther's in this world. I say Queen Esther because she is a beautiful woman who also was very selfless and loves God, she helped people and devoted her time to go with Gods plan for her life without ever complaining her own way.
As much as I don't want to let this get the best of me, to be quite honest I'm an ugly girl. I'm unattractive and I'm Asian to some it may not be such a big deal and they don't have a problem with it but I never wanted to be Filipino or Asian in general. If life can rewrite itself I would be a woman whose of Latin American, European, or Caucasian heritage. But the reality of being Filipino of being Asian forever even in heaven for all eternity that messes with my mind like I have a life sentence on prison only it's an eternal one.
Beautiful people who are European, Hispanic, Caucasian can and do love Jesus and get to be themselves forever even in heaven. I hate to say this but as for me I'm ugly, I don't like my color or appearance or being Asian. I'm not that smart really not in fact I can't understand simple task right away and coworkers would always get mad with me, there's nothing interesting about me, I'm awkward and I get told I am even if I try to put my self out there and socialize. I'm boring and don't have a sense of humor. But to top it off not only am I ugly on the outside but I'm more ugly on the inside. I am selfish, full of many sins, I'm not as helpful as I should be I'm negative, lazy, not really knowing what I'm doing with my life or have goals, I say very hurtful awful things and curse, and I can't say it all here but it's real bad people tell me I may appear innocent but I'm really not and it's true my sins are awful and I'm not sweet or as selfless as I should be I'm a very rotten ugly person on the inside.
And the thing is yes I am a very jealous and envious person to females I find beautiful I hate it but I try to think of them as people so my thoughts don't get clouded. There's people who are very attractive, beautiful, sexy and more fill in the blank all those adjectives and on top of that love Jesus are smart,selfless,etc yeah you get the picture. I feel awful because I'm ugly and I'm ugly on the inside and I'm dumb, boring and it sucks. My son's father even tells me I'm awkward, makes me feel dumb because I mean I am though, tells me I'm abnormal, and don't text like a normal person because I text long I'm bad at summarizing my words.
I don't know how to put on makeup and even if I do I'm still ugly so 🤷. I don't have the money to dress nice and like I said even if I do I'm still not pretty so its like what then. I haven't been to many places because I'm always at home taking care of my son and my younger sisters. So people tell me I live under a rock. I'm naive, clueless, dumb I hear that alot. I have no interest or hobbies I don't know how to drive a car or have a car or live at my own place for a 23 year old and the reason I understand it now is because from a young age I hated my looks and being Filipino I hated alot of things that I pretended in my head I didn't exist that I'm not alive so I became withdrawn from it all this means if people ask me about games, video games, movies places I wouldn't have anything to talk about because only now am I really trying to start from level one as like a kid and learn hobbies and interests and do something. And sure enough because of it it's been bad
A friend told me this : y eah I mean she's pretty and well your just Filipino. There's people who are not pretty but have personality, you, you have none. And you really don't know anything. I can also say I'm immature. Yeah nothing but bad things about me which I also know.
It also didn't help that my son's father never liked me he toldy friend he just festishede because I'm Asian but not that he was taking me seriously. The girl he likes is so very attractive she's Mexican like him, that Latina whose very pretty, has a nice figure, pretty face, dresses in style really great style with a nice body and curves, knows how to put on makeup, is sweet, kind adventurous, has gone to many places, has many friends, knows alot about video games, movies, has alot of hobbies and overall a very interesting person. And here's the thing I'm like very jealous I don't hate her for it I'm just feeling like trash because I'm ugly, I'm ugly on the inside, I'm not interesting, I don't even know how to drive a car at 23, and yes it's my fault but I'm a very slow person too. In a way I just want to like disappear I know why he likes her because shes got the looks and she's a great person. Even though he just used me it's like I want to hide myself, because like I am a joke and the fact is I don't ever want to be me and it's screwed up but hey I get to be me forever and ever and be Asian and be Filipino and all this things I have no control over it is what it is it's a forever thing yes I am angry at God in a way. I know they go through pain too but I know I'm insensitive and still feel like it would have been better. I am jealous of this particular girl and many females I have no hate for them I don't wish them the worst again this is just the ugliness of my heart. Yes love is more then a physical attraction it goes hand in hand but what of If one is very ugly. I come to understand now that my son's father loves that girl he is physically attracted to her she's Mexican like him I'm just Filipino so it's obvious and all her qualities and personality physically intimately and they are compatible. It also made a mark on me on how if Jacob really just liked Rachel for her looks when she aged he still loved her... No one has liked me before I have grown up being called all kinds of names and ugly and my heart is bad. I know my worth isn't based on a man but I sure as heck don't want me either so it's a stab but it is what it is life. I have been willfully sinning in the area of sexual sin particularly in pornography, masturbation, and lust I've done this since I was a kid but because of being a woman now and not being beautiful just average to below, for being used and failed love attempts and heartbreak I was jealous of the girl who had the body the looks the race, the personality and to me porn and masturbation was a way for me to feel that feminity and beauty and feeling wanted having to condition my mind in being that ideal woman I wanted to be that I'm not being Latina, being pretty being smart being outspoken etc. I know I'm in willful sin and at some point I need to get it together.
I'm such a loser I'm not trying to be negative but just being honest. The truth is I don't think I'll ever accept who God made me my color, my race, my personality, and looks. Even if God accepts me his love wouldn't stop me from really accepting if I did accept it's because I feel forced but not genuinely because it's a forever me. Any words would help thank you.
I know ethnicities isn't a big problem for many but it doesn't matter how much God loves me I never would have accepted that he made me Filipino and look and be this person to say I do means I'd be lying to my self and he knows that very well how hard that is knowing it's the case even in eternity I'd still be Filipino I'd still be me and everything with that it's a mistake even if God makes no mistakes. I hate having extremely strict Asian parents who tell me to clean every single day and look after my young sisters while I also look after my baby. I'm 23 I'm supposed to be living my life. I hate my asianess this ugly looks I inherited it's like a curse and I fully understand why my baby dad whose Mexican doesn't like me even my brother in law whose Mexican doesn't have this insanely strict parents. For a 23 year old I haven't lived just stayed in the house like Cinderella cleaning nonstop and even if I have work my parents find every reason to criticize about everything and I just swear to God I would never have wished it upon Him to make me Filipino to make me Asian to make me Myka I wouldn't wish it to my enemy it would be nice to live like an American girl independent and free with parents who are not so strict. Yes my baby dad did not like me because I'm ugly I'm Filipino I hate my ugly genetics I hate being Asian being Filipino and as much as I want to hate my parents for it I can't. I hate that their too strict and make me clean 24/7. This girl my son's father likes is Latina, attractive, goes to many adventures has many friends, has parents that love her and trust her enough to let her live her life. And I'm so resentful being born this ugly fucking of an Asian ching Chong girl with an ugly body I also inherited and cleaning and having parents that want me to stay all the time in the house wasting my life away in chores, in tiger parents. I hated it and honestly not even mad he used me I mean look at me no guy has ever taken me seriously not even when I was younger or when I was a kid never had any one had a crush on me. I can't say I'd ever love it just accepting but accepting is hard too.
Can you see that you are your mother?
All words no meaning.
You need to stop believing in the thoughts in your head.
They are misleading you to destruction.
Make sense?
Hi Myka!
My name is Sarah and I’m a girl all the way from South Africa. I’d just like to say, I hear you, 100%. I am so so sorry that you are having to go through all this and I’m praying God will bless you!!!
I won’t waste my time trying to give you advice about a situation I have never been in, (as I’m 16 and I am happy with how I look!) what I’ll do is I’ll tell you what has worked for me so far in times where I feel like ALL is lost!!!
Basically I recently went through something that was really really hard!!! It was horrible, but now, I feel like I’m in the place of victory. With the help of God, I’ve won the battle! Here is how I handled it and how I’ve now left the situation feeling so glad that God put me through that rather then feeling bitter about the situation.
Firstly the MOST important thing is prayer. No matter how far away it feels like God is, or how horrible your situation is, keep praying. What I made a routine (to make it easier to “force myself to pray”) was I would write in a journal every night. (I actually still do 🤣🤣)
But basically what I would put in each entry is the following:
1. What happened in the day, including my thoughts, how I’m feeling, how my relationship with God is going and basically everything that’s on my mind!
2. I would write (underneath) what my prayers were. My tip for prayers is that you make sure to pray for more then one thing. For example, you could pray that you find an AMAZING husband who loves you and doesn’t care about your looks. But then, you could also pray that your baby can have and amazing day the next day!! Or that you can have help from God to accept and love yourself!!
Basically just pray. Pray about anything and everything!! I promise you it helps so so much!!
Then the next thing that really helped me in that time was having a strong amazing community. (Aka church)
I’ll be praying for you that you can find one too!! (I suggest you do too 😉)
Basically what helped me so much was the fact that I could go to church and be with people of God, each in a different season. People who were celebrating victory could share their joy, and listen to what I was going through and help me! One of my best friends was so so patient with me and I am SO grateful to God for her!! It is so important to have someone you can trust and love. I’m definitely going to be praying you find that person!!
Then lastly what I did was I tried my best to look at the situation through Gods lens. Gods plan is PERFECT!! He knows exactly what he’s doing. Know that and receive it!!!
Random other thing… worship music is incredible
(I really recommend the song “see a victory”, it’s stunning 🤣✨)
Anyways I hope this helped and also if you want to chat to me more on like Instagram or something you can find me @sarahjoychadwick (it’s private so I’ll make sure to look out for your name😉)
But yeah!! I hope this helps and just know I am praying for you!!! You’ve got someone backing you up from the other side of the world 😎🥳
Sorry if my response didn’t help at all, I just wanted to say something because I can tell you’re going through a lot!! Lots of love sent your way 😭❤️❤️🙌
Why memorize scripture when the living Word is made flesh in you?
Hi noticed your description has GC as the church search location. I think G3 ministries church search is a better one. (GC has gone woke so def dont send anyone there).