My mother passed away 2 1/12 month ago and it’s so hard for me to believe she is gone .i cry when i wake when i sleep and when i drive it just hard .i feel your pain ❤😢
My mother died at 19 july 2023. I completly understand you and i know how you feel. I won't say "my condolences", i think the grief inside us will literally stay there forever.
My mom just went from normal walking around to being diagnosed with cancer to now on a ventilator last night in a span of 2 months I’m devastated I love my mom so much
there are no tricks to make the pain of Losing loved ones go away, it gets worse over time. so what's the point in procreation? to suffer then we die. it doesn't hit you till it happens to you, personally its the worst pain I've ever experienced Losing my mother, truth is, apart of us dies too when we lose people we love. grief works in mysterious ways, one-day your okay, then the next your not. this is what I've learnt in life, its better to not love anyone, it doesn't hurt as much.
Not sure if you remember us but you did All Stars for (at that time) Tornadoe Twisters. We shared a hotel room in Williamsburg, VA for the competition at William and Mary College. Angelia is my daughter and besides sharing rooms, sometimes we picked you up for practice. I never forgot you or your Mom. She was working as a parole officer at this time and she was sweet and caring. She was tough and took no crap from anyone whether it was protecting the people she cared about or a stranger. We are stunned to hear this. Much love to you and your family.
I lost my mom just today due to heart attack, she made and gave me food at 2 am and she was completely fine at that time and then she got heart attack on 7-8 am and died around 9 and she didn't had any past medications or anything... And I'm 18
Mom passed away just before Easter. She took her last breath in my arms and no matter how sad that was .. I was overcome with this overwhelming peace knowing that is probably what she wanted ...to die in her son's arms. Words can't express the loss of a mother. All I can say is just remember all special moments you had with her and that will lesson the pain. I found the more you keep talking about the passing of your mom helps tremendously! Get out all the tears and emotions brother! NEVER hold it in!
Nigel, you are so great in showing your heart...I am so enthralled that your Mother gave her full approval and wanted you to open up to us. I so want to express my condolences. I remember my own Mother passing of dementia, some 15 years after my Dad. She gave so much as yours obviously did. You will always be in our hearts, and so will she also be in our hearts forever. Please come to the livestream this Sunday if you can
I'm so so sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences to you and your sister and all the other persons effected by this tragedy. Love from Germany and please stay strong, one step after another, one day after another.
I know your deep deep heart ache 💔💔💔 I lost my beautiful.husband of 25 years in a horrid car crash just a year ago. My life changed forever that one second in time 🙏 I MISS HIM TERRIBLY ❣️❣️😭
Big and lots of hugs. I understand you so much. I lost my dearest mom 25,yesrs ago and still dreaming of her, want every morning to phone her, to tell her what I've achieved... She knows... Isn't she?
I lost my mom 10/15/24 .. a piece of me left when she did! But I am holding up very nicely but I get very sad when I do the things we used to do. Me and her was close she was the only one who truly understood my bestfriend. A great grandmother she will be truly missed
I still haven't dealt with losing my Mother just reading the title almost wrecked me. I won't even attempt to watch the video but want you to know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God bless you and help you deal with the loss. I hope you will join us Sunday in 4th Impact's livestream. There are many Dreamers who love your channel.
Nigel, my sincere condolences. I wish you and your sister and family, a lot of strength for this difficult time. Your mother lives on in your hearts. I send you a lot of strength from Germany.
Nigel, first I offer my deepest, most heartfelt condolences to you for your loss. Find strength in your sister and the fond memories you have from a lifetime of being with a most special person in your mother. I lost both my parents within 6 months of each other, but I cannot say 'I know how you feel' because I don't, we all feel differently inside. I can say that you are embarking on a journey that I have taken. That empty hole in your heart now is enormous, it invokes so many emotions. I am one who does not share my emotions with people, my wife never saw me cry or knew I talked with my mother nightly for 3 years after her passing. I have so much respect for you to share your tears, fears, regrets (if any), all your memories and the love you and your mother shared with everyone you can, it will help you. In time, that hole in your heart will heal, a little each day, week and month but know that it will never disappear. In time, we all smile and laugh again and you will never stop thinking about or talking about your mother. You will never stop missing her, this I know. To me that is the beauty of the journey, we suffer pain and by the grace of God and with the help of friends and even strangers, we begin the healing process which will perhaps make us stronger and better people. I approach many decisions after going outside and talking to my mother. Yes, it sounds goofy, but it helps me make what I think is the right choice in her mind. Even today, after 15 years, I still want to make her proud of me as I believe you will also. Sorry for rambling, just know that you and your sister are not alone during these uncharted times. Many people, known and unknown by you, are feeling the pain with you. Stay strong my Dreamer brother. Reaching out in times of stress fear, uncertainty and even just loneliness is never a bad thing, do not hesitate to talk with someone if you believe it will help you Nigel. *** " Father, please comfort Nigel and his sister during their time of sorrow. Be their strength, their rock and their refuge. Guide them thru the now important healing process. AMEN."***
My mother just passed away 2 hours ago after I found her on the kitchen floor. I'm devastated so I searched and found this channel. Her name was Fana Berhane born 1.1.1945 in Asmara Eritrea (East Africa) who was a loving mother to the last breath. I thank you for life mom and rip. May God forgive me that I didn’t hear you asking for help.
So Sorry for your Loss Nigel, My condolences to your family! I lost my father in 2003 from Agent Orange And the way I kept my sanity was by taking care of my mom for him, so I know it would mean the world to your mom by taking care of your sister! Loss is never an easy road, but I know your mom showed you what it means to be strong. She will always be with you she will find a way to show herself to you My mom never had butterflies around her house but after my dad passed a white butterfly comes and visits her almost every day! So much in fact we all say hi dad when we see it! she will always be around you! Stay Strong!
I’m so sorry for your loss. Please take away from this that she’s always with you and is very proud of you. She supported you 💯 percent. And now she’s your guardian angel watching over you and cheering you on every step of the way. We love you and are here to support you through this 🦋🙏🏼🕊️🫶🏼
I am the only one left from my immediate family. I've lost my mom, my dad and my two brothers, both of whom died prematurely. It is still hard for me to realize that the family I grew up with is all gone. Thankfully, I have my own family to sustain me. But every once in a while the pain just hits me out of the blue, usually because of a song that reminds me of one of them. I feel your pain, dear Nigel. I want to reach through the screen and give you a hug. Will a virtual hug be ok?
I'm so very sorry for your loss. My mother passed away in January 2020, so I know the pain. Take it one day at a time. Your mother sounds like an amazing woman. My thoughts are with you and your sister.
My mom died at the age of 57 in 1993. I believe she is my guardian angel. I will be 61 this year snd miss and need her every day. It is hard for you now, and each day it will get easier. You will remember her and smile. She will always be with you. May her memory be a blessing. 😢
Oh dear heart. I am so sorry that you and your sister are dealing with this. Know that you're in my prayers. The man you are is so much a legacy of the love and support that your Mom has gifted to you. She lives on through you. Know that her spirit will always be with you. Her love will wrap around you like a warm blanket and it will never end. The emotions you're feeling are normal. Grief is raw and often ugly, but she was, and still is, so proud of you. She would never want you to hold on to guilt about the time not spent with her. I can tell you, as a momma, that seeing your child grow and follow their dreams is a precious gift that they treasure. You mentioned the beautiful words she would say to you. When you feel ready, make a memory board for your wall of the encouraging words she gave you. On days when you need them, that board will give you peace, and loving encouragement that you need each time you read them. I know this will be hard, but let yourself feel everything so that it doesn't fester inside. Much love to you.
In December, it’ll be four years for me, and at times it hits me like it just happened yesterday. When it does, I feel like a rudderless ship, adrift in a sea of sadness; losing your Mom truly is pain on a completely different level.
Oh my God, I just found you today and reacted and commented on the video of you losing your boyfriend. I am so sorry for all your losses recently. I'm praying in my own way for your strength and pain relief (sorry for sounding like an Advil ad). My Mom is the only person left in my life and I'm terrified of that eventuality. Try to stay strong and keep doing what you are doing. It's important to not only you, but all the people you are helping right now by doing this.
Heart breaking news and I'm so sorry. I know what you're going through as I lost my mom to cancer January of 2017. She was also my best friend and for the longest time the only person I could count on. The pain never goes away but it does get a little easier with time. Stay strong and don't be afraid to grieve. You have a lot of people supporting you ♥️
Oh Nigel...I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is broken for you, and I am sending big mama bear hugs to you and your family. Your mother sounds like an amazing woman. Come spring I will plant a tree in honor of her.
I’m so sorry! This kind of grief is so deep. There are no adequate words to express my empathy for you. I found your channel recently because of your video about Todd. Recently watched your video with her sitting in the car when you missed the bus. I could see your connection and feel her love for you. 💔☮️
I feel your pain. My Mother died Jan 10 2025 and it’s hitting me hard today. It hurts to know I won’t see her at home in WV anymore or that I won’t hear her voice.
I’m so sorry Nigel! Love never dies, she is watching over you and she knew u loved her. I’ve been their and as time goes on you will remember the happy times with her. I lost my mom when I was 26 yrs old and lived in a different state. I kept saying I had to call her and never did so I never talk to her before she past. I felt guilty too, not calling her enough, etc. it haunted me and ended up going to therapy, which helped a great deal. I understand! Your very strong because you got through with Todd’s death. We are here for you. Thoughts and prayers are with you and family.
I'm so sorry to hear about your mother's passing bro my deepest condolences goes out to you and your family bro 😢 may god shower you with love and comfort during this difficult time 😇🙏
My condolences, i know what it's like to lose one. One day at a time is the key young man. Head up, keep her and the good memories in your heart, she will always be there🥀🙏
Peace to you brother Nigel..I hope you find the things in life that will comfort you during this difficult time. Your mother must have been a very special woman to mean the world to you. As the days and years pass you have so many happy times between the two of you that will always bring joy to your heart. Keep the memories alive and never be shy about expressing your love for those around you that support you, protect you and love you. May Blessing be with you and all your loved ones.
I just discovered your channel because of this video. I am so sorry for your loss, my condolences. A few days ago, my mom passed away unexpectedly and I totally understand your sadness, anger, grief, guilt, and your closeness with your mom. I totally relate to this. I was 20 when my mom died. My mom and I were so close and she was my #1 best friend. She was the reason I loved doing what I'm doing. We both have been going through depression for years because we weren't close with other people and some people are so toxic and covid. I wasn't a great person socially, and I have autism. She helped me improve my social skills and my talents, but most of the time, I was lazy. I wish I have helped her more with chores, and helping around the house, learning recipes from her, etc. Now I don't know what to do. But I'll remember the good memories of her. And I'll try to be strong. Anyway, I totally understand how you feel. I hope you are doing well. Remember the good memories you have of her. Stay strong.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom last November it was sudden and unexpected. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers ❤️. Losing someone is the hardest thing to ever experience. We couldn't afford a funeral for my mom so our family helped us put together a service for her . I just want to hug you right now. I know you're mom is so proud of the beautiful person you are now . Just hang in there it will be ok . 🫂🕊️ The night before she passed we said the same thing to each other every night I love you. I love you more . I love you most . I'm getting that tattooed along with a drawing of a butterfly she drew. I know I don't personally know you but I just wanted to say your an amazing person strong and inspiring 🫂🕊️ I will keep you in my thoughts 💞 you are not alone the pain will get better with time . but remember all the beautiful things about her . Whenever I see a butterfly 🦋 it reminded me of my mom . Even though she has passed she will always be with you in the air your breathe in the sunshine around and flowers blooming. Stay strong and know you are deeply loved and cherished by so many people 🌈
Boo... Oh my goodness. I can't even begin to fathom what you're going through. I'm so so sorry for the loss of your beautiful mother. I could tell by the pictures and videos you posted with her how so close you were. Sending you the biggest hug ever. You'll continue to feel her strength in your heart, soul and mind. She will continue to be proud of you. I promise. So much love to you boo. Love you.
Please trust in life and love. I have experienced it ( my mom passed away in June 2022) and you will experience it too, your wonderful mom and all our beloved ones who die grow into our hearts and are firmly woven into it. Mother and child are always - starting with pregnancy - a "body-and-soul-unit" and you will live and you have to live your life with joy in a new and strong way. Your mum is always, always at your side ❤️🌺🌹
I know this is late but I’m so deeply sorry for your loss 😢 I watched the video when you and your Mom missed the bus and firstly, I notice you’re wearing the bracelet she gave you. That is priceless, I know you will cherish it for the rest of your life ♥️ I loved how you both just laughed and giggled and had such a good time during a bad situation. She seemed like a really fun Mom who absolutely adored you, very beautiful too. My heart is breaking for you 💔 I will be keeping you in my prayers ♥️🙏🏼 ♥️
I feel for you man. My mum passed away last week with cancer. Its the most difficult thing to go through. You are brave to speak about your mum and how u feel.
BIG HUGSSS 💞💞💞So Sorry About Your Mom🙏🏻💛You Are Never Alone ..just Remember That .. she sounds Like Such A Great Mom .. you know You are Blessed to Have Had Her in your Life .. Talk to Her because I Believe our Loved Ones can still Hear and See Us 🤗💛You And Your Sister Hang In There 🙏🏻💞💞Hugsss and Love ☮️💟🙏🏻💞💞
Hello Nigel. First thhing I am going to say to you is Breathe! I am one who knows first hand the pain and suffering that comes with dementia and I would like to give you my sincerest condolences at your mothers passing. Your mother sounds like she was a great person who always knew what to say to her children t inspire them into being more than they thought possible within themselves, I admire her for the words and the guidance she gave you. Your mother sounds like she had the capacity of love enough for a hundred families, I admire the love and friendship you have with your mother. I say have, because she is still that much a part of you as you are still a part of her. I was the sole caretaker for my father during his last 5 years of his life, it had been known that he had it for a couple years beforre they reached out to me and asked for my help, father was getting to that point where my mother was unale to cope with the day to day onus of care for a rather large man, 6'3, whoo was at that point where he would get combative, mother only being 5'6 couldn't help him then, so I stepped in and became his nurse 24/7 all the way up till his death, we were fortunate in this because my father got to spend trhe rest of his life in the comfort of home. We spend our lives with our parents, one way or another, we hope it is like what you and your mother have, where we can be not only mother and son, but also friends all through our lives, we can support each other physically and emotionally, so many people do not have that luxury. It is said that we one day become our parents and it is almost universally a truth for most children, I can see the being that came from your mother in you, as I see the part my father played in my developement with his strong work ethic and his ability to be leveel headed in crises and while I didn't get his height, myself only being a modest 6'1, I did get those other attributes, I feel it is the attributes that you mention that will guide you through the process of grief and of getting through the trauma of dealing with the funeral arrangements and such. You are your own person, you have dreams and aspirations, do not regret the path you chose for yourself, or the time spent pursuing those dreams for yourself, even though you mother only wanted for you to be happy, those dreams you had were part and partial to that happiness, your mother would not want you to feel remorse for having spent any of that time of those dreams, she sounds like she was ultimately your biggest fan and would never begrudge you any of that time spent pursuing them. Having dealt with the disease first hand, I know how hard it is to slowly watch your loved one fade, the everyday things we all take for granted being stripped away from them, one by one, but by the same token, it is an enriching experience to help them get through the last days of their lives and I suppose the hardest part for me was the final week or so, when my father was unable to do anything for himself, he had to be spoon fed and by this time he could no longer walk or even speak all that well. I would ask him a couple times a day if he remembered me and up until that last night when he said no, I went away from that knowing that he wouldn't last a day, I was right, I woke the next morning, mother had fed him breakfast before I got downstairs and was off doing some laundry or something and I went togo change him and clean him up only to find that my father had passed on shortly before I arrived, it was at this time, when I had to inform my mother that dad had passed away that I found the hardest of all, I am still feeling the pain and anguish of that now, as tears are rolling down my cheeks. I have also recently lost my oldest sister to ovarian cancer, last spring she lost the fight to it, she died on a Wednesday and I hadn't shed a tear until I was watching 4th Impact doing their live stream that Saturday, I had asked if they could possibly sing "The Prayer" for my sister, they did, it was the best thing that could have happened to me, I sobbed for almost an hour straight, the music had unleashed my pent up tears and I felt so much better afterwards. We all process grief differently, given the nature of our being and the experiences with that person we grieve for, you will in time find peace with her passing, t may take a year, it may never happen, all I can do is hope that for you, your grief doesn't take hold of you and make you lose focus on what is really important and what is important is that you live the life that you already have mapped out, we are only given one life to live, we don't need to live the rest of it in pain. it is good that you do what you are doing, this allows for the pain to be released. I have bent your ear long enough, I hope that you can see your way through this without too much pain, though the pain never goes away, it will become less evident over time, just keep doing what you are doing, people will reach out to you like I have here, every little bit helps with the grief process. God bless and I hope you can find the happiness within your memories, remember your mother still loves you and will forever live in your heart.
Sending you millions of love and hugs ♥ ♥ ♥ She was beautiful, I couldn't believe she was your mum because she looked young enough to be your sister. You could see how proud she was when she was in the videos with you ♥ ♥ ♥ I can't watch this entire video, it's too sad and raw for me, especially since I am going through my own grief at the moment; my boyfriend's mum suddenly passed away a week before Christmas and she was like a 2nd mum to me. I just wanted to send you some love and support though. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ May she rest in peace ♥ ♥ ♥
I completely understand. I lost my mom unexpectedly almost 4 years ago. I struggle every day. I'm glad I clicked on your video. No one should lose their mom. Losing her at her young age and mine has hit hard. She was/is my best friend. I'm in therapy for my grief and loss. I hope you find peace. I'm still working on it. ❤ My heart is with you.
Sorry for your loss. I lost my Mom 2 weeks ago and nothing else even comes close. Lost my Dad on Father Day last year 2023 which was also difficult and now this 1 year later. Her loss is overwhelming and very difficult to process and cope with. It hasn't fully sunk in yet. We got along great spoke often and this is by far the lowest point ever. Things will never be the same. The pain lessens over time but you never get over it 100%. RIP Mom :-(
I am so sorry for your loss. If I wasn't in Germany but by your side I'd give you a great comforting bear-hug. Feel encouraged instead to carry on your mother's legacy. She gave you all the strength and wisdom to carry on. The strength to be yourself with pride and never let anyone stand in your way. And the wisdom to make the right decisions to reach your next goal. You might not see it now but she could go with the knowledge that you are on the right path to fulfill all your dreams. And remember, her unconditionally love for you remains in your heart forever. Her light will be with you on your life's journey. She made you the person you are, so by being who you are she will always be a part of it. Continue your channel the same way as before, which made me stick to it in the first place, and let us be part of your journey ahead. 💓 Lot's of love from Germany - Rick
Losing my mom at the age of 16 was an huge impact. Life will never be the same without her, i don't have a special bond with anyone else ever but my mom. Nobody can ever replace her
Oh, Nigel, I am so, so sorry that your heart is hurting so deeply once again. My tears right now are for you and all that you've endured. You've done so much good for so many people...more than you even know...and you are an amazing person >because of< your incredible Mom. Keep being the gentle, thoughtful, honest, compassionate, beautifully authentic person you are, and you will be honoring her by doing that. Let her memory give you strength when you feel weak and let it bring you smiles when you feel sad. I know you reacted to Disturbed's Hold on to Memories and it was difficult because you'd just lost Todd, but when you are ready, listen to it again. Please know you're in my thoughts and I hope you're able to feel some peace soon. ♡
Your mom is in a better place. God is next to her. And may the Lord give you the strength to overcome everything, and find the strength in yourself to rejoice, hope and believe. And you will meet her there, in the blooming gardens of Eternal Love. I will pray for you. From Russia...where the Shaman also lives...🙏✝
Losing my mother is the most painful heartache I've ever had 😢Rest in peace Moms ..yours and mine..Forever in our hearts 💗🕊️
My mother passed away 2 1/12 month ago and it’s so hard for me to believe she is gone .i cry when i wake when i sleep and when i drive it just hard .i feel your pain ❤😢
My mother died at 19 july 2023. I completly understand you and i know how you feel. I won't say "my condolences", i think the grief inside us will literally stay there forever.
I am crying with you. You are not alone. I lost my mom too Feb 2024
Remember that your mother always will be with you. I’m 62 years old and I have said to my 4 children that I will always be with them.
My mom just went from normal walking around to being diagnosed with cancer to now on a ventilator last night in a span of 2 months I’m devastated I love my mom so much
Peace be unto EVERYONE who’s Mom or Dad passed ❤❤❤or anyone dear to them!!
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I think people who have had both loving and caring parents are lucky to have had that
My mommy also suffered from a traumatic childhood💔 she died last month and it just feels so unfair :( she was so young. I hope our moms are happy now
there are no tricks to make the pain of Losing loved ones go away, it gets worse over time. so what's the point in procreation? to suffer then we die. it doesn't hit you till it happens to you, personally its the worst pain I've ever experienced Losing my mother, truth is, apart of us dies too when we lose people we love. grief works in mysterious ways, one-day your okay, then the next your not. this is what I've learnt in life, its better to not love anyone, it doesn't hurt as much.
Not sure if you remember us but you did All Stars for (at that time) Tornadoe Twisters. We shared a hotel room in Williamsburg, VA for the competition at William and Mary College. Angelia is my daughter and besides sharing rooms, sometimes we picked you up for practice. I never forgot you or your Mom. She was working as a parole officer at this time and she was sweet and caring. She was tough and took no crap from anyone whether it was protecting the people she cared about or a stranger. We are stunned to hear this. Much love to you and your family.
I lost my mom just today due to heart attack, she made and gave me food at 2 am and she was completely fine at that time and then she got heart attack on 7-8 am and died around 9 and she didn't had any past medications or anything... And I'm 18
Mom passed away just before Easter. She took her last breath in my arms and no matter how sad that was .. I was overcome with this overwhelming peace knowing that is probably what she wanted ...to die in her son's arms. Words can't express the loss of a mother. All I can say is just remember all special moments you had with her and that will lesson the pain. I found the more you keep talking about the passing of your mom helps tremendously! Get out all the tears and emotions brother! NEVER hold it in!
Nigel, you are so great in showing your heart...I am so enthralled that your Mother gave her full approval and wanted you to open up to us. I so want to express my condolences. I remember my own Mother passing of dementia, some 15 years after my Dad. She gave so much as yours obviously did. You will always be in our hearts, and so will she also be in our hearts forever. Please come to the livestream this Sunday if you can
thanks so much❤
I'm so so sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences to you and your sister and all the other persons effected by this tragedy. Love from Germany and please stay strong, one step after another, one day after another.
thanks so much❤
@@nigelbattle sorry too😢
I know your deep deep heart ache
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I lost my beautiful.husband of 25 years in a horrid car crash just a year ago.
My life changed forever that one second in time 🙏
I MISS HIM TERRIBLY ❣️❣️😭
Big and lots of hugs. I understand you so much. I lost my dearest mom 25,yesrs ago and still dreaming of her, want every morning to phone her, to tell her what I've achieved...
She knows... Isn't she?
I lost my mother 11/22/24, nothing feels real anymore 🙏🏼💔
I lost my mama 11/08/2024, that's why I'm here in this video
11/15/2024... it is unreal ❤
@@JupitersKiss79 yeah 💯 it's hard to accept that they are gone🥺
I lost my mom 10/15/24 .. a piece of me left when she did! But I am holding up very nicely but I get very sad when I do the things we used to do. Me and her was close she was the only one who truly understood my bestfriend. A great grandmother she will be truly missed
@ I’m so sorry for your loss and I understand completely.
I still haven't dealt with losing my Mother just reading the title almost wrecked me. I won't even attempt to watch the video but want you to know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God bless you and help you deal with the loss.
I hope you will join us Sunday in 4th Impact's livestream. There are many Dreamers who love your channel.
I'm 15. My mom died 2 months ago from cancer. The last conversation I had with her was a fight. I don't know if I can live with myself
Forgive yourself.
Even one beautiful moment with her erases all the fights you had.
I wish you all the best
Nigel, my sincere condolences. I wish you and your sister and family, a lot of strength for this difficult time. Your mother lives on in your hearts. I send you a lot of strength from Germany.
thanks so much❤
God bless you I lost my mother 2 months ago it is the hardest thing I ever had to do ❤
Nigel, first I offer my deepest, most heartfelt condolences to you for your loss. Find strength in your sister and the fond memories you have from a lifetime of being with a most special person in your mother. I lost both my parents within 6 months of each other, but I cannot say 'I know how you feel' because I don't, we all feel differently inside. I can say that you are embarking on a journey that I have taken. That empty hole in your heart now is enormous, it invokes so many emotions. I am one who does not share my emotions with people, my wife never saw me cry or knew I talked with my mother nightly for 3 years after her passing. I have so much respect for you to share your tears, fears, regrets (if any), all your memories and the love you and your mother shared with everyone you can, it will help you. In time, that hole in your heart will heal, a little each day, week and month but know that it will never disappear. In time, we all smile and laugh again and you will never stop thinking about or talking about your mother. You will never stop missing her, this I know. To me that is the beauty of the journey, we suffer pain and by the grace of God and with the help of friends and even strangers, we begin the healing process which will perhaps make us stronger and better people. I approach many decisions after going outside and talking to my mother. Yes, it sounds goofy, but it helps me make what I think is the right choice in her mind. Even today, after 15 years, I still want to make her proud of me as I believe you will also. Sorry for rambling, just know that you and your sister are not alone during these uncharted times. Many people, known and unknown by you, are feeling the pain with you. Stay strong my Dreamer brother. Reaching out in times of stress fear, uncertainty and even just loneliness is never a bad thing, do not hesitate to talk with someone if you believe it will help you Nigel. *** " Father, please comfort Nigel and his sister during their time of sorrow. Be their strength, their rock and their refuge. Guide them thru the now important healing process. AMEN."***
thanks so much❤
losing a loved one it hurts
My mother just passed away 2 hours ago after I found her on the kitchen floor. I'm devastated so I searched and found this channel. Her name was Fana Berhane born 1.1.1945 in Asmara Eritrea (East Africa) who was a loving mother to the last breath. I thank you for life mom and rip. May God forgive me that I didn’t hear you asking for help.
I’m so sorry, sending love ❤️
God loves you brother stay strong keep your head up cuz
I lost my mom in 2013 it's hard but you are not alone we all love you stay strong
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So Sorry for your Loss Nigel, My condolences to your family! I lost my father in 2003 from Agent Orange And the way I kept my sanity was by taking care of my mom for him, so I know it would mean the world to your mom by taking care of your sister! Loss is never an easy road, but I know your mom showed you what it means to be strong. She will always be with you she will find a way to show herself to you My mom never had butterflies around her house but after my dad passed a white butterfly comes and visits her almost every day! So much in fact we all say hi dad when we see it! she will always be around you! Stay Strong!
I’m so sorry for your loss. Please take away from this that she’s always with you and is very proud of you. She supported you 💯 percent. And now she’s your guardian angel watching over you and cheering you on every step of the way. We love you and are here to support you through this 🦋🙏🏼🕊️🫶🏼
thanks so much❤
@@nigelbattle You’re so very welcome love ❤️ 🦋🙏🏼🕊️🫶🏼
I am the only one left from my immediate family. I've lost my mom, my dad and my two brothers, both of whom died prematurely. It is still hard for me to realize that the family I grew up with is all gone. Thankfully, I have my own family to sustain me. But every once in a while the pain just hits me out of the blue, usually because of a song that reminds me of one of them. I feel your pain, dear Nigel. I want to reach through the screen and give you a hug. Will a virtual hug be ok?
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I'm so very sorry for your loss. My mother passed away in January 2020, so I know the pain. Take it one day at a time. Your mother sounds like an amazing woman. My thoughts are with you and your sister.
Praying for you Nigel. I think when this happens we all think of our own mothers. Our mothers raised us to be strong. Just turn to God.
She gave a good heart and that's the most important thing.
My mom died at the age of 57 in 1993. I believe she is my guardian angel. I will be 61 this year snd miss and need her every day. It is hard for you now, and each day it will get easier. You will remember her and smile. She will always be with you. May her memory be a blessing. 😢
Oh dear heart. I am so sorry that you and your sister are dealing with this. Know that you're in my prayers. The man you are is so much a legacy of the love and support that your Mom has gifted to you. She lives on through you. Know that her spirit will always be with you. Her love will wrap around you like a warm blanket and it will never end. The emotions you're feeling are normal. Grief is raw and often ugly, but she was, and still is, so proud of you. She would never want you to hold on to guilt about the time not spent with her. I can tell you, as a momma, that seeing your child grow and follow their dreams is a precious gift that they treasure.
You mentioned the beautiful words she would say to you. When you feel ready, make a memory board for your wall of the encouraging words she gave you. On days when you need them, that board will give you peace, and loving encouragement that you need each time you read them.
I know this will be hard, but let yourself feel everything so that it doesn't fester inside.
Much love to you.
I’m so sorry for your loss it is so hard to lose your mum ❤
I’m going through this now. Thank you for this.
I’m 8:36 into the video when you started crying I couldn’t continue watching I feel your pain when you think about her love it’s just pain full
My condolences brother... 💔
My mom just passed Feb 9 th 2024 she is with God our heavenly father our lord and savior Jesus Christ it’s a celebration she has no more pain
sending love
Thank you for sharing your experience and your story with your beloved mom. My mom passed away on 4/26/2024, and I don’t think I’ll ever get over it!
sending love
Stay strong!!
I feel bad☹️😓
In December, it’ll be four years for me, and at times it hits me like it just happened yesterday. When it does, I feel like a rudderless ship, adrift in a sea of sadness; losing your Mom truly is pain on a completely different level.
Oh my God, I just found you today and reacted and commented on the video of you losing your boyfriend.
I am so sorry for all your losses recently. I'm praying in my own way for your strength and pain relief (sorry for sounding like an Advil ad). My Mom is the only person left in my life and I'm terrified of that eventuality.
Try to stay strong and keep doing what you are doing. It's important to not only you, but all the people you are helping right now by doing this.
Heart breaking news and I'm so sorry. I know what you're going through as I lost my mom to cancer January of 2017. She was also my best friend and for the longest time the only person I could count on. The pain never goes away but it does get a little easier with time. Stay strong and don't be afraid to grieve. You have a lot of people supporting you ♥️
Oh Nigel, I’m so very sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family ♥️
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Oh Nigel...I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is broken for you, and I am sending big mama bear hugs to you and your family. Your mother sounds like an amazing woman. Come spring I will plant a tree in honor of her.
My deepest thoughts & prayers to you. My mom has been gone for 10 years & I am sending love & hugs to you & your siblings.
In time her memory will be such a comfort. She sounds like a wonderful person
I’m so sorry! This kind of grief is so deep. There are no adequate words to express my empathy for you. I found your channel recently because of your video about Todd. Recently watched your video with her sitting in the car when you missed the bus. I could see your connection and feel her love for you. 💔☮️
My mother passed away a little over a month ago, it is so hard. She was a wonderful mother. Love to you ❤
My mom passed this week from dementia. Watching these type of videos is helping me with my grief. It makes me feel "not alone"
I lost my mom a few days ago to cancer she took her last breathe in my arms. She was my best friend and love of my life. 😢God bless.
Sending you so much love! You will be okay I promise ❤️
@@nigelbattle thank you so much 🧡💛
Lo siento amigo..😢 ya somos dos 😔
It’s so hard my mom was a great person
I feel your pain. My Mother died Jan 10 2025 and it’s hitting me hard today. It hurts to know I won’t see her at home in WV anymore or that I won’t hear her voice.
I’m so sorry Nigel! Love never dies, she is watching over you and she knew u loved her. I’ve been their and as time goes on you will remember the happy times with her. I lost my mom when I was 26 yrs old and lived in a different state. I kept saying I had to call her and never did so I never talk to her before she past. I felt guilty too, not calling her enough, etc. it haunted me and ended up going to therapy, which helped a great deal. I understand! Your very strong because you got through with Todd’s death. We are here for you. Thoughts and prayers are with you and family.
I'm so sorry to hear about your mother's passing bro my deepest condolences goes out to you and your family bro 😢 may god shower you with love and comfort during this difficult time 😇🙏
I am so sorry for you and your families loss 😢❤
My condolences, i know what it's like to lose one. One day at a time is the key young man. Head up, keep her and the good memories in your heart, she will always be there🥀🙏
I'm breaking down my mom passed february 8 this year and this resonates too much
Peace to you brother Nigel..I hope you find the things in life that will comfort you during this difficult time. Your mother must have been a very special woman to mean the world to you. As the days and years pass you have so many happy times between the two of you that will always bring joy to your heart. Keep the memories alive and never be shy about expressing your love for those around you that support you, protect you and love you. May Blessing be with you and all your loved ones.
My condolences to you and your family!
I just discovered your channel because of this video. I am so sorry for your loss, my condolences. A few days ago, my mom passed away unexpectedly and I totally understand your sadness, anger, grief, guilt, and your closeness with your mom. I totally relate to this. I was 20 when my mom died. My mom and I were so close and she was my #1 best friend. She was the reason I loved doing what I'm doing. We both have been going through depression for years because we weren't close with other people and some people are so toxic and covid. I wasn't a great person socially, and I have autism. She helped me improve my social skills and my talents, but most of the time, I was lazy. I wish I have helped her more with chores, and helping around the house, learning recipes from her, etc. Now I don't know what to do. But I'll remember the good memories of her. And I'll try to be strong.
Anyway, I totally understand how you feel. I hope you are doing well. Remember the good memories you have of her. Stay strong.
Thank you so much!
I'm so sorry baby
I am so sorry. My prayers are with you. Big hug from Germany. 😢💔
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom last November it was sudden and unexpected. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers ❤️. Losing someone is the hardest thing to ever experience. We couldn't afford a funeral for my mom so our family helped us put together a service for her . I just want to hug you right now. I know you're mom is so proud of the beautiful person you are now . Just hang in there it will be ok . 🫂🕊️
The night before she passed we said the same thing to each other every night
I love you. I love you more . I love you most . I'm getting that tattooed along with a drawing of a butterfly she drew.
I know I don't personally know you but I just wanted to say your an amazing person strong and inspiring 🫂🕊️
I will keep you in my thoughts 💞 you are not alone the pain will get better with time . but remember all the beautiful things about her . Whenever I see a butterfly 🦋 it reminded me of my mom .
Even though she has passed she will always be with you in the air your breathe in the sunshine around and flowers blooming. Stay strong and know you are deeply loved and cherished by so many people 🌈
I said goodbye to my mum yesterday. I hope you’re doing ok. I hope there is a higher love.
Boo... Oh my goodness. I can't even begin to fathom what you're going through. I'm so so sorry for the loss of your beautiful mother. I could tell by the pictures and videos you posted with her how so close you were. Sending you the biggest hug ever. You'll continue to feel her strength in your heart, soul and mind. She will continue to be proud of you. I promise. So much love to you boo. Love you.
I am truly sorry. I pray it was peaceful.
May God bless and comfort you in your days of grief
Accept my condolences. Hold on boy. Keep the memory and love of your mother forever in your heart.
So sorry for your loss babe. If you need anything don’t hesitate to reach out.
Please trust in life and love. I have experienced it ( my mom passed away in June 2022) and you will experience it too, your wonderful mom and all our beloved ones who die grow into our hearts and are firmly woven into it. Mother and child are always - starting with pregnancy - a "body-and-soul-unit" and you will live and you have to live your life with joy in a new and strong way. Your mum is always, always at your side ❤️🌺🌹
I know this is late but I’m so deeply sorry for your loss 😢 I watched the video when you and your Mom missed the bus and firstly, I notice you’re wearing the bracelet she gave you. That is priceless, I know you will cherish it for the rest of your life ♥️ I loved how you both just laughed and giggled and had such a good time during a bad situation. She seemed like a really fun Mom who absolutely adored you, very beautiful too. My heart is breaking for you 💔 I will be keeping you in my prayers ♥️🙏🏼 ♥️
thank you love
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom 2 months ago and it's hard. Praying for you and anyone else who lost a loved one. Take it one day a time.
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I feel for you man. My mum passed away last week with cancer. Its the most difficult thing to go through. You are brave to speak about your mum and how u feel.
My deepest condolences, Nigel. Sending much love to you and your sister.
BIG HUGSSS 💞💞💞So Sorry About Your Mom🙏🏻💛You Are Never Alone ..just Remember That .. she sounds Like Such A Great Mom .. you know You are Blessed to Have Had Her in your Life .. Talk to Her because I Believe our Loved Ones can still Hear and See Us 🤗💛You And Your Sister Hang In There 🙏🏻💞💞Hugsss and Love ☮️💟🙏🏻💞💞
Hello Nigel. First thhing I am going to say to you is Breathe! I am one who knows first hand the pain and suffering that comes with dementia and I would like to give you my sincerest condolences at your mothers passing. Your mother sounds like she was a great person who always knew what to say to her children t inspire them into being more than they thought possible within themselves, I admire her for the words and the guidance she gave you. Your mother sounds like she had the capacity of love enough for a hundred families, I admire the love and friendship you have with your mother. I say have, because she is still that much a part of you as you are still a part of her.
I was the sole caretaker for my father during his last 5 years of his life, it had been known that he had it for a couple years beforre they reached out to me and asked for my help, father was getting to that point where my mother was unale to cope with the day to day onus of care for a rather large man, 6'3, whoo was at that point where he would get combative, mother only being 5'6 couldn't help him then, so I stepped in and became his nurse 24/7 all the way up till his death, we were fortunate in this because my father got to spend trhe rest of his life in the comfort of home.
We spend our lives with our parents, one way or another, we hope it is like what you and your mother have, where we can be not only mother and son, but also friends all through our lives, we can support each other physically and emotionally, so many people do not have that luxury. It is said that we one day become our parents and it is almost universally a truth for most children, I can see the being that came from your mother in you, as I see the part my father played in my developement with his strong work ethic and his ability to be leveel headed in crises and while I didn't get his height, myself only being a modest 6'1, I did get those other attributes, I feel it is the attributes that you mention that will guide you through the process of grief and of getting through the trauma of dealing with the funeral arrangements and such.
You are your own person, you have dreams and aspirations, do not regret the path you chose for yourself, or the time spent pursuing those dreams for yourself, even though you mother only wanted for you to be happy, those dreams you had were part and partial to that happiness, your mother would not want you to feel remorse for having spent any of that time of those dreams, she sounds like she was ultimately your biggest fan and would never begrudge you any of that time spent pursuing them.
Having dealt with the disease first hand, I know how hard it is to slowly watch your loved one fade, the everyday things we all take for granted being stripped away from them, one by one, but by the same token, it is an enriching experience to help them get through the last days of their lives and I suppose the hardest part for me was the final week or so, when my father was unable to do anything for himself, he had to be spoon fed and by this time he could no longer walk or even speak all that well. I would ask him a couple times a day if he remembered me and up until that last night when he said no, I went away from that knowing that he wouldn't last a day, I was right, I woke the next morning, mother had fed him breakfast before I got downstairs and was off doing some laundry or something and I went togo change him and clean him up only to find that my father had passed on shortly before I arrived, it was at this time, when I had to inform my mother that dad had passed away that I found the hardest of all, I am still feeling the pain and anguish of that now, as tears are rolling down my cheeks.
I have also recently lost my oldest sister to ovarian cancer, last spring she lost the fight to it, she died on a Wednesday and I hadn't shed a tear until I was watching 4th Impact doing their live stream that Saturday, I had asked if they could possibly sing "The Prayer" for my sister, they did, it was the best thing that could have happened to me, I sobbed for almost an hour straight, the music had unleashed my pent up tears and I felt so much better afterwards.
We all process grief differently, given the nature of our being and the experiences with that person we grieve for, you will in time find peace with her passing, t may take a year, it may never happen, all I can do is hope that for you, your grief doesn't take hold of you and make you lose focus on what is really important and what is important is that you live the life that you already have mapped out, we are only given one life to live, we don't need to live the rest of it in pain. it is good that you do what you are doing, this allows for the pain to be released.
I have bent your ear long enough, I hope that you can see your way through this without too much pain, though the pain never goes away, it will become less evident over time, just keep doing what you are doing, people will reach out to you like I have here, every little bit helps with the grief process.
God bless and I hope you can find the happiness within your memories, remember your mother still loves you and will forever live in your heart.
Be strong Nigel :(
Prayers...
Sorry for you're pain.it's awful isn't it,my mum passed 7 week's ago...everyday its sad xx hugs
My mom passed away two days ago. I am so sad too. Thank you for sharing. It helps a lot.
Sending you millions of love and hugs ♥ ♥ ♥ She was beautiful, I couldn't believe she was your mum because she looked young enough to be your sister. You could see how proud she was when she was in the videos with you ♥ ♥ ♥
I can't watch this entire video, it's too sad and raw for me, especially since I am going through my own grief at the moment; my boyfriend's mum suddenly passed away a week before Christmas and she was like a 2nd mum to me. I just wanted to send you some love and support though. ♥ ♥ ♥
♥ ♥ ♥ May she rest in peace ♥ ♥ ♥
I just donated and the heartache is bad enough without the stress of the cost.
You are loved you are brave never giv up on your self you are an amazing human being ❤
I completely understand. I lost my mom unexpectedly almost 4 years ago. I struggle every day. I'm glad I clicked on your video. No one should lose their mom. Losing her at her young age and mine has hit hard. She was/is my best friend. I'm in therapy for my grief and loss. I hope you find peace. I'm still working on it. ❤ My heart is with you.
Sorry for your loss. I lost my Mom 2 weeks ago and nothing else even comes close. Lost my Dad on Father Day last year 2023 which was also difficult and now this 1 year later. Her loss is overwhelming and very difficult to process and cope with. It hasn't fully sunk in yet. We got along great spoke often and this is by far the lowest point ever. Things will never be the same. The pain lessens over time but you never get over it 100%. RIP Mom :-(
Such a amazing human ❤
Nigel, I'm so sorry! This is such a huge loss and staggering change in your life.
I am sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family. May her soul rest in peace. 🙏
I am so sorry for your loss. If I wasn't in Germany but by your side I'd give you a great comforting bear-hug. Feel encouraged instead to carry on your mother's legacy. She gave you all the strength and wisdom to carry on. The strength to be yourself with pride and never let anyone stand in your way. And the wisdom to make the right decisions to reach your next goal. You might not see it now but she could go with the knowledge that you are on the right path to fulfill all your dreams. And remember, her unconditionally love for you remains in your heart forever. Her light will be with you on your life's journey. She made you the person you are, so by being who you are she will always be a part of it. Continue your channel the same way as before, which made me stick to it in the first place, and let us be part of your journey ahead. 💓 Lot's of love from Germany - Rick
thank you for this
I watched my mom pass tonight. I can't find the words.
My sincerest condolences.
Hey Nigel, I'm sorry for your loss! I lost my mother 9 years ago after my mom died from a heart attack.
Thank you ❤
My mother passed away Jan 19th, 2024 I am just lost
Losing my mom at the age of 16 was an huge impact. Life will never be the same without her, i don't have a special bond with anyone else ever but my mom. Nobody can ever replace her
sending love
WE ❤️ YOU DESIREE! FLY HIGH SWEET ANGEL! WE ❤️ AND SUPPORRT YOUR BABY BOY AND BABY GIRL AND WILL SURROUND THEM WITH LOVE.
I'm so sorry about your Mom. I know that pain and I wish I could lift it from you.
Oh, Nigel, I am so, so sorry that your heart is hurting so deeply once again. My tears right now are for you and all that you've endured. You've done so much good for so many people...more than you even know...and you are an amazing person >because of< your incredible Mom. Keep being the gentle, thoughtful, honest, compassionate, beautifully authentic person you are, and you will be honoring her by doing that. Let her memory give you strength when you feel weak and let it bring you smiles when you feel sad. I know you reacted to Disturbed's Hold on to Memories and it was difficult because you'd just lost Todd, but when you are ready, listen to it again. Please know you're in my thoughts and I hope you're able to feel some peace soon. ♡
Sorry for your loss. Stay strong through this hard times. Sending you strength and love from Portugal!
I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you best wishes x
Please take care of yourself!
Your mom is in a better place. God is next to her. And may the Lord give you the strength to overcome everything, and find the strength in yourself to rejoice, hope and believe. And you will meet her there, in the blooming gardens of Eternal Love. I will pray for you. From Russia...where the Shaman also lives...🙏✝
So sorry for your loss. hugs and prayers sent to you and your family.