Going through a difficult time. Tried reconnecting with a therapist who I paid well, in cash, for a year. Because of the difficult situation, I asked if there was a sliding scale. She wanted nothing to do with me except to refer me out. I don't have the strength to explain my whole history again, or the trauma, or the abuse. Now I also feel a mixture of hurt and distrust, like I will say this on this video comments but probably not aloud. It's of course logical that the therapist is earning a living, not conducting philanthropy, but she also knows my history, my situation, and that married as I am that there are points that are no joke damaging. I feel very much rejected. I tell myself that she must not be the great therapist I thought her to be if she would throw away a well paid year of counseling and diligent cash payments only because I am asking to pay, but slightly less because on my end, a very controlling spouse has found ways to manipulate me financially. I have 2 health insurances, both that have good coverage. She will not accept either - just pushes me away. It all makes my heart and head hurt. Worse than anything, I feel very small. Thank you for the very helpful podcast.
@@rachelklein2319 I'm sorry for what your going through. Look out different therapists. Sometimes it can take awhile to connect with the right one. Don't put too much pressure on yourself. Take care.
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Going through a difficult time. Tried reconnecting with a therapist who I paid well, in cash, for a year. Because of the difficult situation, I asked if there was a sliding scale. She wanted nothing to do with me except to refer me out. I don't have the strength to explain my whole history again, or the trauma, or the abuse. Now I also feel a mixture of hurt and distrust, like I will say this on this video comments but probably not aloud. It's of course logical that the therapist is earning a living, not conducting philanthropy, but she also knows my history, my situation, and that married as I am that there are points that are no joke damaging.
I feel very much rejected.
I tell myself that she must not be the great therapist I thought her to be if she would throw away a well paid year of counseling and diligent cash payments only because I am asking to pay, but slightly less because on my end, a very controlling spouse has found ways to manipulate me financially.
I have 2 health insurances, both that have good coverage. She will not accept either - just pushes me away. It all makes my heart and head hurt.
Worse than anything, I feel very small.
Thank you for the very helpful podcast.
@@rachelklein2319 I'm sorry for what your going through. Look out different therapists. Sometimes it can take awhile to connect with the right one. Don't put too much pressure on yourself. Take care.