What Happened on YOM KIPPUR? | My Miscarriage Story | Orthodox Jewish Mom (Jar of Fireflies)

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  • Опубликовано: 6 окт 2021
  • In this video, I tell you the story of what happened on Yom Kippur. It a story of pregnancy loss as I had a miscarriage start shortly after Yom Kippur began. I will tell you the story of the entire pregnancy with a focus on Yom Kippur when the miscarriage occurred. I will talk to you about how Yom Kippur affected my pregnancy loss including the fasting. I will wrap up the video by telling you some things that I am grateful for from this experience and talk about how we can be thankful for anything based on my beliefs as an Orthodox Jewish Mom.
    Hello and welcome! My name is Chana, I’m married to my best friend, and we have three wonderful children together. We also happen to be Orthodox Jews and we homeschool our kids. This video is a sneak peek into our daily lives :) You can see how this particular Jewish homeschool mom sets up her days, rolls with the punches, and gets it all done. Thanks for watching!
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  • @jaroffireflies
    @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +469

    I forgot to mention in this video, but there is no shiva for a miscarriage. Thank you all for listening to my story.

    • @gilyashar
      @gilyashar 2 года назад +22

      And no funeral. Very emotionally hard for a pregnant woman. I knew someone in Israel who had a stillborn and in her pain insisted on a funeral.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +57

      @@gilyashar just to clarify stillborn babies are buried in Jewish cemeteries.

    • @catherinepalmer4812
      @catherinepalmer4812 2 года назад +23

      @@jaroffireflies so so sorry for your loss. I love watching your videos and I think you are an inspiring mum. Sending love from the UK ❤️

    • @winkydstanaccount5003
      @winkydstanaccount5003 2 года назад +21

      Oh I'm so sad for you. :( May God send you all of the healing xxxxxxxxxxx

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +9

      @blackcandy thank you so much

  • @CatFromFL
    @CatFromFL 2 года назад +37

    I am almost 70. My first 2 pregnancies resulted in miscarriages. They were some of the lowest days of my life. I know exactly the profound sadness especially when they are desired pregnancies. I still remember the emotions I experienced. I then went on to have 2 healthy children who are everything a mother could want their children to become. Having kids doesn’t negate the pain of miscarriages. Many people think otherwise. So gentle kind hugs from one mom to another. I pray you never experience this again.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +6

      Thank you so much Catherine! You said it so perfectly, thank you for sharing your wisdom. I appreciate you and your kind and thoughtful words. I’m so sorry for your losses, sending you love and hugs!

    • @libbyadler9360
      @libbyadler9360 Год назад +2

      I am 70 and also had two miscarriages back to back before I had children. There was a real sense of loss. I could not carry on a conversation without crying. And most people did not really understand.

  • @dozergetscrafty
    @dozergetscrafty Год назад +10

    So many hugs. I lost a child at 22 weeks. It was the hardest time in my life. 4 years later i was blessed to be pregnant again. He was born at 23 weeks. And after 6 months in the nicu we were able to bring him home. He will be 7 in October. Im not religious but i do believe in G.od and i firmly believe his big brother was and is still watching over him. ❤

  • @julsjewels3185
    @julsjewels3185 Год назад +4

    I had two ectopic miscarriages and could no longer bear anymore children. I almost died the second time. 1996 was sad for me and I laid it all out to God. One year to the date we welcomed my son through adoption. God gave us th strength to move forward. I still think about my two babies. I know I will see them in Heaven.

  • @kristinesharp6286
    @kristinesharp6286 2 года назад +92

    Your husband sounds like a great guy asking you what he needed to do for you and the kids throughout all that went on. He really stepped up.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +16

      He’s a great guy, I’m so very lucky to have him

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +9

      @@erikcripe6192 he’s doing like I am, sad but healing.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +6

      @@erikcripe6192 thank you so very much we appreciate that

  • @oxymom2002
    @oxymom2002 2 года назад +163

    So many of us can personally understand the sorrow of your loss. I am so very sorry and know that your arms feel so empty right now. May your precious baby’s memory be a blessing. 💜

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +8

      Thank you so much Theresa, I appreciate your kind words

  • @kendalllane9145
    @kendalllane9145 2 года назад +54

    I’m holding you in my heart, Chana. I had a miscarriage two weeks ago, and it has been the most difficult experience of my life. I’m so sorry for your loss, and grateful that you shared your experience and feelings with us. ❤️

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +2

      Oh Kendall I am so very sorry for your loss! Sending you love and hugs and prayers of comfort! That is so very difficult. There are groups that meet in different areas if you need people to talk to in a safe space

  • @sandrawallace1001
    @sandrawallace1001 2 года назад +61

    Oh, my dear. I am not Jewish but I am a woman who has been down this road. I remember telling a young woman I worked with years later who had also miscarried that as close as she and her husband were, a miscarriage is something that really, only another woman can fully understand. And we also understand that it's OK to mourn, to cry, then to pray a lot and pick up our feet and keep stepping into the next day and the next. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +8

      Thank you so much Sandra fro your kind and encouraging words. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you hugs and love

  • @staceyjohnson2929
    @staceyjohnson2929 2 года назад +68

    Oh honey, I didn't want to guess.. but I saw it in your eyes. I have had two miscarriages, and I've been a nurse on a high risk pregnancy unit, and I recognized the look in your eyes. I also noticed that you wore black for a few episodes. I felt it in my soul. I was with you in spirit, and continue to be. Many prayers.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +4

      Thank you Stacey! I appreciate you!

    • @staceyjohnson2929
      @staceyjohnson2929 2 года назад +6

      @@jaroffireflies I was also the type that took alot of tests and watched the pregnancy tests get darker. It's such a state of anxiety. But I relate so much. I had my kids young, so it's been 15-20 years since I went through all this, but the feeling is still close to the surface even after all this time.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +9

      @@staceyjohnson2929 my first loss was soooo long ago and it never goes away. I feel you. Hugs!

  • @gillianc8106
    @gillianc8106 Год назад +8

    I know that this was last year now, and you may not even get this message, but I just wanted to say I’m so sorry for your loss. Your words about your child never knowing a moment without you holding them were so beautiful, and I hope that thought brings you some comfort whenever you’re looking back on your miscarriage. I’m glad you had (and have) such a caring community and the love of your family around you. Best wishes to you and the rest of your beautiful Jar of Fireflies.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  Год назад +4

      Thank you so much Gillian 💜 I’m happy to say that I gave birth over the summer to a wonderful baby boy ❤️

    • @gillianc8106
      @gillianc8106 Год назад +1

      @@jaroffireflies I saw that, and I’m so happy for you all. ☺️ I love watching your videos while I’m going about my day. They have such a feeling of peace and joy about them, and the world needs more of both. Best wishes from Scotland - I hope you’re having a lovely week.

  • @pattymorrison9921
    @pattymorrison9921 2 года назад +126

    When you said that your baby had only known being held by his momma, that really touched my heart. It gave me comfort, to realize my 3 angel babies knew I loved and wanted them. I'm thankful to God for my son I was able to carry to term. Prayers and positive thoughts from S.E.FL.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +7

      Thank you Patty! And I am so sorry for your losses! Hugs and love to you my dear!

    • @brucheweinberger6863
      @brucheweinberger6863 2 года назад +1

      Another comforting thought for me was this was too my child, only that I didn't birth and that child will be greeting me in heaven after I die. I sort of imagining someone that looks exacyly like me.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад

      @@brucheweinberger6863 that is comforting

    • @carolnahigian9518
      @carolnahigian9518 Год назад

      i toolost one Baby- so SAD

  • @nancyellen8496
    @nancyellen8496 Год назад +8

    I am so sorry for your loss. I had several miscarriages many years ago but finding your story today, on my 79th birthday, I remember how painful and heartbroken that left me. Back in the day there were even fewer women to talk to about the trauma. Quite frankly, after reading your story I realize right at this moment that I have never dealt with the grief or worked through processing any of it. Thank you for sharing with us what happened to you. My tears atm remind me there is work to be done beginning now. B'H. May the healing begin. Blessings to you and your family.

  • @martinelanglois3158
    @martinelanglois3158 7 месяцев назад +3

    I know it's been two years (watching in 2023) but I'm sending you lots of love. What a strong woman you are. 💚

  • @UU-mt4wv
    @UU-mt4wv 2 года назад +87

    Dearest Chana, all of my sympathies, thoughts and prayers go out to you and your husband too! I can only imagine how hard it must have been.. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this hardship with us.. I feel like too many women go through it but don't feel like they can talk about it or feel ashamed. I am struggling a bit with what to say, as I am Christian and I really don't wanna say something wrong or something that you don't find comfort in. But I strongly believe that you are God's beloved daughter and that your Baby is now safe in the arms of our Heavenly Father. You are gracious and strong.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +14

      Thank you for your kind words. What you said was perfect and I appreciate you.

  • @kimberly27285
    @kimberly27285 2 года назад +13

    What you said about holding your baby it’s entire life was beautiful. I’m so sorry for your loss. May G-d bring you and your family comfort during this time of mourning.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад

      thank you so much Kimberly. I am so glad those words resonated with you.

  • @lindsayberry8749
    @lindsayberry8749 2 года назад +67

    So incredibly sorry for your loss. You’re right… this topic needs to be talked about more. Thinking of you and your family and will continue to. ❤️❤️

  • @BellzyBellz
    @BellzyBellz 2 года назад +66

    As soon as I saw the first few clips with the candles, I knew what this is about. I am so sorry for your loss! My heart goes out to you and your family. Take care! :)

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +9

      Thank you Isabela, I really appreciate you. Ya, It's I don't know ironic maybe that I had just recently shared that about why I light so many candles.

    • @amypearsall
      @amypearsall 2 года назад +1

      @@jaroffireflies Which video was that, where you explain about the candles?

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      @@amypearsall I can’t remember exactly , I was just answering a lot of questions in videos the few weeks before the holidays

    • @elizabethanne6361
      @elizabethanne6361 2 года назад +1

      What is the reason for the candles?

    • @LeaSonnenscheinTrier
      @LeaSonnenscheinTrier 2 года назад +2

      @@elizabethanne6361 I think - a candle for every loved one that has passed away.

  • @saucyspice1
    @saucyspice1 2 года назад +12

    It’s very brave for you to talk about such a deeply personal experience

  • @sbrown6070
    @sbrown6070 2 года назад +13

    You're so brave to speak about such a terrible experience. Thank you for your honesty, and I truly respect your desire to help others. You're so positive! Just love you to pieces.

  • @baileyschindler9270
    @baileyschindler9270 2 года назад +3

    Chana, sending lots of thoughts, prayers, and love your way. I’m so sorry for your loss. Your videos are always such a joy to watch.

  • @samanthal562
    @samanthal562 2 года назад +18

    My heart goes out to you Chana. Sending you all my love and prayers. G-d is so good He will heal and get you through this. I know how you feel I've been through it too. Wish I could give you a bug hug 🤗

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Thank you so much for your kind words Samantha, you are so kind. I am so sorry that you experienced this also, sending you love and hugs!

  • @theblessedmum6683
    @theblessedmum6683 2 года назад +5

    Aww Chana! I honestly cannot imagine how you are feeling, my heart really aches for you and I can see how difficult it was for you to do this video ((hugs)). I am praying for you and your family xxx

  • @couturehelvetica1261
    @couturehelvetica1261 2 года назад +12

    Hey Chana,
    I'm so sorry to hear this happened.
    My heart goes out to you and your family.
    I applaud you for sharing this. I agree - miscarriage is a taboo subject, and one which can perpetuate and amplify the trauma. I cannot possibly imagine how much courage is requires to be open like this, but I wanted to let you know it is very much appreciated!
    I hope you and your family continue to heal and get all the help, prayer and comfort you need.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +4

      Thank yo so much! I appreciate your kind and supportive words

  • @bezawitseyoum597
    @bezawitseyoum597 2 года назад +4

    Sending lots of thoughts, prayers, and love your way. I’m so sorry for your loss

  • @jennifer_u
    @jennifer_u 2 года назад +3

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending you lots of love 💕

  • @jerymia2911
    @jerymia2911 2 года назад +12

    I'm sorry for your loss. I appreciate your openness on such a tough topic.

  • @cynthiamoseley6446
    @cynthiamoseley6446 Год назад +1

    Sorry for your loss thank you for sharing this with us.

  • @Janella_Ice_Ice_Baby
    @Janella_Ice_Ice_Baby 2 года назад +2

    Ohhhhh Chana.....I'm so so sorry to hear this. You're clearly **such** a strong woman, but what a lot that all has to be for your heart to process. Hugs and prayers for you and your family! ♥️♥️

  • @michelled.1758
    @michelled.1758 2 года назад +12

    I did think it was something like that, its so traumatic to go through. My heart goes out to you as I know how it feels as it’s happened several times for me and the devastation of it goes very deep. No matter the timing. Blessings to you Chana and may Hashem give you the desires of your heart. Much love ❤️

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Thank you so much Michelle. I am so sorry that you dealt with this also. Sending you love and hugs

  • @annasewell8686
    @annasewell8686 2 года назад +5

    🥺 I'm praying for you and your family Chana. Huge hugs to you 💔❤❤💖💖

  • @sbme1733
    @sbme1733 2 года назад +2

    All my sympathies. Kudos for speaking about your loss. I also think it’s important. BTW, I am a long time watcher and haven’t commented prior, but I so enjoy your videos and you sharing your life and faith. Again, my sincere condolences. ❤️

  • @lindseybearden8914
    @lindseybearden8914 2 года назад +1

    I’m so so sorry for your loss! Thank you for being so raw and telling your story! Praying for you and your family

  • @sharonl3327
    @sharonl3327 2 года назад +3

    You and your family are in my thought and prayers. You inspire me with your bravery. I cried watching this video, but loved it just the same. I was raised to keep your emotions to yourself and always put on a smiling face and everything is always perfect. Your willingness to discuss your feelings and put them out there for all is inspiring. Thank you.

  • @juliecorby7794
    @juliecorby7794 2 года назад +7

    I'm sorry about your loss, my prayers are with you

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Thank you so much Julie. I appreciate you.

  • @mkabs19
    @mkabs19 2 года назад

    I’m so so sorry for your loss. You are incredibly brave and so strong! And thank you for that insight at the end.. helped me more than you know

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад

      Thank you for your kind words Michelle, and you are so very welcome! I am so happy you heard what you needed!!!

  • @debstrout1844
    @debstrout1844 2 года назад

    Thank you for sharing such a difficult topic with us. I know it had it's difficult moments for you so that made this more precious to hear of your experience. Prayers for you and yours.

  • @jackandpicklesvlogs
    @jackandpicklesvlogs 2 года назад +7

    My heart is with you and unfortunately, I know how it feels. Sending love, prayers and a huge hug, My Tichel Sister. ❤

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Oh I am so sorry you went through this too! Sending you love and hugs! Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate you

  • @coastalfarmhouse1820
    @coastalfarmhouse1820 2 года назад +10

    I’m so sorry. You are brave to share something so personal but you will help others with your experience.

  • @sarawatson6224
    @sarawatson6224 2 года назад +2

    Hugs, Channa. I’ve been there too. My heart aches for you. Praying that God’s peace, that surpasses all understanding, will comfort you and your family during this devastating loss. Sending all the love and light to you, friend. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • @mackenzieb2218
    @mackenzieb2218 2 года назад +1

    I'm so so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being so vulnerable and raw.

  • @marilynryan7822
    @marilynryan7822 2 года назад +33

    I’m so very sorry for your loss. Prayers for healing - the physical and mental. 🙏🏻😔 My son and DIL just miscarried their first child. I’ve miscarried several myself. Blessings on you and your family.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +3

      Thank you for your kind words Marilyn. My heart goes out to your daughter and her husband and of course you at this time. I am so sorry for your losses. Sending love and hugs

    • @janesiskind9467
      @janesiskind9467 2 года назад

      I am so sorry. Do the kids know? My mom had several miscarriages but we never knew. We just knew she was chronically sad. She shared when I bled at 10weeks. We prayed together and a miracle happend! You are in my prayers.

  • @NicSullivan15
    @NicSullivan15 2 года назад +4

    Thank-you for sharing this with us Chana, as a mother of two who also has high risk pregnancies and has had multiple miscarriages I appreciate others telling their story. Sending you lots of love from the rainy UK xxx

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Oh Nicole I am so sorry you went through this also! Sending you love and hugs. Thank you for your kind words

    • @NicSullivan15
      @NicSullivan15 2 года назад

      @@jaroffireflies xxx

  • @kendramickelson4902
    @kendramickelson4902 2 года назад

    Thank you for sharing your story. I am so very sorry for your loss. Hugs and Prayers to you and your family!

  • @rinnywee
    @rinnywee 2 года назад

    Oh my dearest Chana, firstly thank you for sharing with us. This took incredible strength and you are so courageous. I am certain to be joining everyone here in sending you so much love, light, blessings and strength - to you and your whole family. You are such an incredibly kind soul, and that comes through in all your videos, and it is why you are so loved. If I may (with your blessing of course), I would like to light a candle for you and your baby and to pray in my faith to ask that healing and peace and love surround you and embrace you. As always, much love, light and blessings to you all. xx

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Thank you so much Erin! I really appreciate you

  • @marisamanning9355
    @marisamanning9355 2 года назад +7

    I absolutely admire you for your bravery in sharing about this difficult time. I know by sharing your story you are helping other women share theirs! My deepest condolences to you and your family. God certainly is love and I pray you will feel that love everyday. ❤️

  • @laulutar
    @laulutar 2 года назад +3

    I'm so sorry you had to experience this! I lost my first pregnancy at 10 weeks, so I got off relatively easily too ❤️ I'm so glad you've got lots of support, especially when times are tougher then usual.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Thank you and I’m so sorry for your loss! Sending you love and hugs

  • @8AmazingAcres
    @8AmazingAcres 2 года назад

    Thank you for being so open, I cried watching this because I know the pain you're going through and I'm sending you all the love in the world.

  • @NatBenHarte
    @NatBenHarte 2 года назад

    I am so sorry to hear this news. I have had 3 myself and you're right - each one is so different (mentally, physically, and spiritually). Thank you for taking time to share this. It's so common, but still taboo in some ways. I pray you are able to take comfort in knowing the one who has numbered the hairs on your head sees you and grieves with you - just as all of us do as well. Your loss is our loss. And when when brighter days come we will celebrate with you as well. Sending love to you from Arkansas!

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Thank you so much for your kind words. I am so sorry for your losses Natalie! Sending you love and hugs

  • @debra333
    @debra333 2 года назад +5

    Hi, dear Chana. I'm so sorry you have gone through this heartbreaking loss. I appreciate the directness with which you discussed and shared your story. Please know that you're in my heart. Hugs.🫂💙💔

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Thank you so much for your kind words Debra

  • @risenandreturning
    @risenandreturning 2 года назад +3

    I admire your spiritual strength which holds fast in good times and hearbreaking times. It just so happens, I needed that reminder today. So even in your great pain, you have lifted others spiritually. Thank you for sharing your life and faith. Blessings upon you and your wonderful family.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +2

      Thank you so much for those kind and encouraging words Denise ❤️

  • @JG-gb3lm
    @JG-gb3lm 2 года назад +2

    Awww 😢 There are no words that can adequately express how I feel… All I can say is that our thoughts are with you at this extremely emotional time. Much love to you 💖 xxx

  • @rebeccanichol
    @rebeccanichol 2 года назад +1

    I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. You're very brave to share. You're so right to say that we don't know what the good is yet. Sometimes it can be harder to live not knowing. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband at this sad time. May God bless you and your beautiful family, those on earth and those already in heaven.

  • @lynneanthony168
    @lynneanthony168 Год назад +4

    Oh Chana, I'm so very sorry for your loss. I have also had a miscarriage but I didn't even know I was pregnant. My heart goes out to you knowing how much your baby was planned and loved so much. My baby was gone before I knew about him or her. And here we are awaiting the birth of a new baby!! Much peace and love to you and wishes for a smooth delivery. x

  • @allisongrace9317
    @allisongrace9317 2 года назад +6

    My heart breaks for you and your family. You are helping so many other women by posting this video, thank you❤

  • @adecorativepurpose
    @adecorativepurpose 2 года назад +1

    I am so sorry for your loss.

  • @Jelena.Derosa
    @Jelena.Derosa Год назад +2

    I feel your pain.. i was crying watching this, thinking back. I had a miscarriage over a year ago, 3 months before I got pregnant again with our beautiful daughter Eliyana. I made a video about my experience and the most amazing response about what happens to a baby that was miscarried, given by a rabbi. It gave me so much strength and peace. It’s hard to lose a baby at any stage, but like you said G-d is always good & everything he allows to happen is. B’H

  • @ashextraordinaire
    @ashextraordinaire 2 года назад +5

    Chana, my heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing with us and for trusting your audience. So glad that your family and your community are supporting you and helping you through the grief. And even though you are one of the most upbeat and optimistic women I've ever seen, miscarriage isn't an easy experience, and I wish you comfort and healing.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад

      Thank you so much for your kind and supportive words. I really appreciate you!

  • @notsogreatreset4476
    @notsogreatreset4476 2 года назад +15

    Ah, the part about trying to keep a happy face for your kids really got me tearing up. You are a good mama. I think it is great you have such deep faith and and a place you can go for support and answers. The rabbi and your husband sound like really great men. I am so glad you have them for support. 💜

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Thank you so much. I’m very lucky for the people in my life

  • @ashleyricks7701
    @ashleyricks7701 2 года назад +1

    Oh Chana I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I recently found your channel and your quiet mind and positivity helps me. Thank you for being an amazing person and I wish you strength and peace for you to bear the grief of loss. I know how overwheled and helpless you can feel after a miscarriage, having experienced it myself.

  • @debbiec4224
    @debbiec4224 2 года назад

    So sorry for your loss. Prayers for healing. Thank you for sharing. I know how hard it was for you to share this. ❤️

  • @ixchelkali
    @ixchelkali 2 года назад +3

    I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby, so sorry that this happened, sorry for your pain. Thank you for being willing to talk about it publicly; I think that took courage. I haven't gone through that, so perhaps hearing your story will help me to be more understanding. Please be especially kind and gentle to yourself as you grieve. Sending you love and hugs. Wishing you peace, comfort, and strength.

  • @lindseymarcum7147
    @lindseymarcum7147 2 года назад +6

    Oh precious sister, I too have suffered through several miscarriages. I applaud you for sharing your story so bravely, I think it’s a great service to other women to be open about miscarriage and I was crying as you told your story and I thought about my own miscarriage stories as well. I pray peace and healing over you and your family.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад

      Thank you so much Lindsey. I am so sorry for your losses. Sending you love and hugs

  • @colleendobsondatum3643
    @colleendobsondatum3643 2 года назад

    So sorry for your loss for you and your family! I enjoy learning form you! I want to get you a hug! Hope you feel better! Good luck to y[up future . Thank you for sharing.💙💜

  • @liagnikrap4642
    @liagnikrap4642 2 года назад +2

    Thank you for sharing this with your online family Chana. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Its very strange how you can feel such warmth and affection for someone you have never met in person.
    You have a lovely family and I love Monday's and Thursdays when you release your videos.
    Keep sharing your life with us, it's great being part of it.
    Love from Gail 🇬🇧 England UK

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад

      Thank you so much for your kind and supportive words Liag

  • @patricianadasi1233
    @patricianadasi1233 2 года назад +6

    Dear Chana,
    I'm so increadibly sorry for your loss😢. Sending you lots of love, and remember, Your Baby is looking down to you, and smiling❤.
    You're amazingly strong!❤

  • @karenmiller6088
    @karenmiller6088 2 года назад +9

    Losing a baby is heartbreaking. I am so sorry you experienced this loss. Take the time to mourn and let things settle is important. Blessings to you sister. Many of us have been through this as well. You are not alone and each person mourns differently. Our hearts and tears go out to you mamma.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад

      Thank you so much Karen, I appreciate your kind words. Thank you

  • @mjbelko9443
    @mjbelko9443 2 года назад +2

    Thank you for your beautiful perspective. I'm so sorry for your loss.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад

      You are so welcome and thank you so much

  • @findingjayagain
    @findingjayagain 2 года назад

    Oh sweetheart! I am so sorry to hear this, it takes such courage and strength to deal with such terrible news, let alone sharing it with us. You are an inspiration. Know that you and your family are in my heart, thoughts and prayers. Stay strong, lovely!

  • @viktoriahavas8511
    @viktoriahavas8511 2 года назад +11

    I’m so sorry for your miscarriage. I think you are absolutely right, we don’t talk about miscarriage nearly enough and it happens to many of us. We do need to help you each other going through life, which can get hard. I love the expression baruch Hashem and your reflection on it.
    take good care of yourself.

  • @SonyasPrep
    @SonyasPrep 2 года назад +11

    😭So emotional to watch you speak about this. You are so strong and brave to talk about this and I am sure this video will help so many. I struggled with infertility and miscarriage in my first 6 years of marriage and it was so hard to go through that time alone. It was definitely not talked about which made it so very isolating. Even when I briefly spoke about my struggles to conceive in my Q&A video it took a lot out of me. You are amazing!! Wishing you only happy times from here on out ❤️.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +3

      Thank you so much Sonya! I am so sorry that you went through that. I also dealt with infertility (I was told I couldn't have kids before I got married). It is so hard and so lonely. I am always here for you if you want to talk. Thank you for sharing and sending you love and hugs!

    • @SonyasPrep
      @SonyasPrep 2 года назад +1

      @@jaroffireflies likewise Chana

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад

      @@SonyasPrep 💜💜💜

  • @elaineparker6986
    @elaineparker6986 2 года назад +1

    Oh Chana, I'm so 😞 for your loss. Thank you for sharing this very personnel thing. As you set the tea light holder on the mantel I knew. Just know you and your family are in my prayers.

  • @gingersnapp9188
    @gingersnapp9188 Год назад

    Thank you for being real with your RUclips family. I have no words but I feel love for you and prayers!

  • @sharonreinblatt9790
    @sharonreinblatt9790 2 года назад +6

    So sorry for your loss. May your memory of this child be a blessing. Your sentiment of have held this child their entire life is beautiful.

  • @chanahminuk8485
    @chanahminuk8485 2 года назад +4

    Oh, Chana, I am so sorry for your loss. This happened to me seven years ago after several years of not being able to get pregnant. At the time, I told very few people. Thank you for sharing your story.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад

      thank you so much Chanah. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending love and hugs even though its been years, the pain is real

    • @chanahminuk8485
      @chanahminuk8485 2 года назад

      @@jaroffireflies Thank you for your love and hugs. (I send you more of the same.) May Hashem send comfort and blessings to you and your family.

  • @JusticeEnlow
    @JusticeEnlow 2 года назад

    I am so sorry for your loss

  • @lorelairose229
    @lorelairose229 2 года назад

    I am so sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you. Thank you for speaking on this topic, it is one we need to speak about more. Blessings for you and your family.

  • @cristinasperandio503
    @cristinasperandio503 2 года назад +6

    Many prayers and understanding to you and your husband. Having had 3 Angel babies it's extremely important to know it's not your fault. It's wonderful that you talked about this openly because someone here needed to hear it. Blessings to you for that.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Thank you :) And don't worry, I know it is not my fault.

    • @christinebarone2829
      @christinebarone2829 2 года назад +2

      Thank you for pointing that out. I have blamed myself for this happening to me. It has taken a Long Time to move past this thought.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      @@christinebarone2829 I’m so very sorry Christine 💜

  • @tiagorman1553
    @tiagorman1553 2 года назад +3

    Dear Chana, thank you for sharing your experience, although difficult sharing your sorrow is a positive step toward healing. I too have had a multiple miscarriages and am so happy I was able to have my daughter. It’s never easy but becomes more so as we each share our experiences.
    My prayers are with you and your family.🙏

  • @lesleywhite6285
    @lesleywhite6285 2 года назад

    Oh Chana! I am so so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story with us and being so vulnerable.
    I’m praying for your healing right now and sending hugs all the way across the Pacific from Australia.
    🤗🙏🏻.

  • @roseyc.5846
    @roseyc.5846 2 года назад +1

    Chana, my heart hurts for your loss; I'm so very sorry. That had to be such a difficult thing to go through..so many emotions. I do understand how serious the Yom Kippur fast is. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Thank you so much for sharing this personal part of your life with us. As always, I look forward to each and every one of your videos, in both good, happy times and sad ones, as well. I hope your fortunate times will far outnumber the lesser ones. I think you're an absolutely amazing wife and mother; I hope all things go well in the future. I pray you receive all the strength you need to heal. Many blessings. 🙏 Rosemarie 💖

  • @luvsjudy
    @luvsjudy 2 года назад +3

    Wishing You Strength In These Difficult Days And Hoping That With Time, Peace Will Heal And Comfort Your Heart…Your Family And You Are In My Thoughts And Prayers…

  • @tinas8085
    @tinas8085 2 года назад +4

    Love and prayers for you and your husband. I've lost a few myself and it's so hard. I'm open too and in being open, it's 🤞 going to lessen the stigma around it. Here in New Zealand at 7pm tonight we have a global wave of light for baby and infant loss. I will light my candle and add prayers for you. ❤️ 🕯️

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +2

      Thank you so much! I’m so very sorry for your loss. Sending prayers of peace and comfort. Thank you for your prayers

  • @themaddiemads
    @themaddiemads 2 года назад

    I read the title and my heart just sank, I am so sorry your loss. I haven't been through this myself, and can't even imagine what you're going through, but I am sending you and your family so much love. I commend you for talking about it too, and I know it will help others going through similar experiences.

  • @luvmy2pugs1
    @luvmy2pugs1 2 года назад +1

    I am so sorry for your loss ♥️ I appreciate you talking about this. I never knowingly experienced a miscarriage. I have known people who have and never say to them I know how you feel. I hope by talking about this, more people will know the right way to support someone who has had a miscarriage. Hugs!

  • @lindsaya7733
    @lindsaya7733 2 года назад +4

    Oh Chana… I am so sad about your sweet one. You are such an amazing mother and so strong to speak about your loss here. While I haven’t had a miscarriage, I have been in emotional positions where people definitely say the ‘wrong thing’, so I will just send love your way. Know I am thinking of you and your husband and your beautiful family. ❤️❤️❤️

  • @AndreaD.
    @AndreaD. 2 года назад +22

    I’m sorry for your loss. I went through a miscarriage after a rape in college. It truly was an answered prayer for me. I was not sure what I was going to do with my life before it. My children are adults now & have heard my story so that they can understand women better and support them through anything like this.

    • @bathshuaspooner8553
      @bathshuaspooner8553 2 года назад +7

      I’m so sorry this happened to you. Sending love to you

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +7

      Sending hugs and love to you! Thank you for sharing your story

  • @seashell64b59
    @seashell64b59 2 года назад

    Sending prayers to you and your family. I'm so very sorry for your loss. I love your take on this...especially the par of Thank God. It says it all. It covers everything from goid to bad to in between. Many blessing to you sweet lady. Stay strong.

  • @becsackville6446
    @becsackville6446 2 года назад

    Sending love and hugs to you and your family right now. Will light a candle and send some blessings your way. Take care beautiful Chana xx

  • @Jewgirl2911
    @Jewgirl2911 2 года назад +3

    Baruch HaShem
    That was such a beautiful testimony and I love how you defined your child’s life - “they only knew your love and warmth and they were held by you their entire life” (paraphrasing)
    Thank you for being so open and raw and vulnerable - I am blessed by your testimony.
    I would ask one thing; as I’ve not ever experienced a miscarriage, what could one say to someone who hasn’t been through it? My heart breaks and I cry too for you - but what could I say?
    I will say this, I’m so sorry for your loss and I’m praying for you.
    May HaShem bless you and keep you, comfort you and give you shalom.
    Blessed are You, O Lord, G-d of compassion, who comforts the bereaved and shares sorrow with Your creation.
    Shalom and blessings.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +3

      Thank you for your kind words 💜to answer your question, there really isn’t much you can say. Just let them know you are there for them. A thoughtful comforting gift of a meal or a chocolate bar or something would likely be very appreciated.

  • @lizhumble9953
    @lizhumble9953 2 года назад +8

    “i would have to say the words outloud.” I know this feeling so much that it made me tear up for you. Every loss is different, but I know that pain. I am praying for you in this time.

  • @barbaranielsen2888
    @barbaranielsen2888 Год назад +2

    Thank you for having the courage to speak about this personal loss! Your honesty and candid words are so inspiring. Life is very difficult, sometimes! Our heavenly Father is near us and provides for us, especially during these times! Your words are bring comfort and healing to others now! May G_d bless you and keep you in his grace!

  • @missmerrily4830
    @missmerrily4830 2 года назад +1

    Bless you Chana, that must have been so hard to share with us, and thank you for managing to do so. I do agree that it's a good thing to speak openly about miscarriage. Your pain was painful to watch. Life does happen, but it's so difficult sometimes. It's a special privilege to have you share your sorrows with us as well as your joys. My heart goes out to you.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Thank you so much for your kind and supportive words. I appreciate you

  • @coopie624
    @coopie624 2 года назад +14

    My heart breaks for you, Channa. I can’t even imagine your pain, but G-d knows and will carry you through this time. ❤️🙏

  • @margierodgers688
    @margierodgers688 Год назад +3

    I’m so very sorry for the loss of your child. I can’t say that I know what you’re going through because I’ve never had a miscarriage. Thank you for being so real with us. My heart is broken for your loss. Love ❤️ you.

  • @gailresko8315
    @gailresko8315 2 года назад

    Thank you for sharing about your loss. Your video was, as always, beautiful. You're absolutely right that we need to share our losses to help us heal. God bless you and your family.

  • @amandaraymond3045
    @amandaraymond3045 2 года назад

    Thank you for sharing this with us. Sending prayers and virtual hugs to you ❤

  • @amyferrill770
    @amyferrill770 2 года назад +4

    I had 5 miscarriages, so I totally understand what you are going through. (hugs) I am so sorry. It's very painful, emotionally and physically. I eventually was able to use those experiences to help others with pain and suffering. And yes, grieving is tough. Thanks so much for being open and honest You are not alone.

    • @jaroffireflies
      @jaroffireflies  2 года назад +1

      Thank you for your kind and supportive words. I am so sorry for your losses. Sending you love and hugs!

    • @amyferrill770
      @amyferrill770 2 года назад

      @@jaroffireflies I'm glad you have supportive friends. It will help your healing a LOT! If you ever just need to chat, PM me. I'm a good listener.

  • @fionajocher2531
    @fionajocher2531 2 года назад +7

    Chana, thank you so much for having the courage to tell your story I've never had the opportunity to share about my two miscarriages and I am also a verbal processor so their story is buried deep within my soul. Somehow as you shared I felt a stirring of healing. Ha Shem has blessed me with 6 beautiful children yet still I feel the loss of knowing two more. Thank you for describing your journey to synagogue seeking to honour HaShem's call to fast despite your sorrow. Such a beautiful picture of the psalmist words
    "Adonai is a strong tower, the righteous run into it and are saved."
    Baruch Ha Shem!

  • @hannahsmith8800
    @hannahsmith8800 2 года назад +1

    I'm so so sorry for your loss and I admire your strength to talk about it. I've not had to experience what you have and so will not even try to say anything 'right' but I hope you can see from the amount of comments on here, just as your baby was held in the utmost care and love by you so you are being held by all of us, near and far, as you continue to process this xx

  • @chrissaharmon2612
    @chrissaharmon2612 2 года назад

    Thank you for sharing. Your spirit shines so brightly!