Citizen Soldier - My Little Secret (Official Lyric Video)
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- Опубликовано: 21 окт 2024
- Victim shaming forces some to keep secrets that can be deadly.
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can you do a song about guilt from the past and its not yours to carry?
hell on earth we have a song written about that for the next record :)
Most or all your song have lyrics that hit me hard listening to u guys helps me alot thank you so much
thank you for making your music. I remember one night I was really depressed and concidering just giving up, but my boyfriend sent me "Let It Burn" and it stopped me, so thank you
Not trying to be negative but could you disable sound for subscribe animation. I want to add a lot of your songs to my playlist but that click to subscribe sound makes me feel like a beginning of an Indian youtuber video. No offense.
Listening to your music makes me forget about all my problems. Except one: having to decide which of all your songs is my favorite
Hahah yes! That means a lot. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻
I love how music can take me away. It helps me see myself and the world in a different light. So far I'm loving all their music 💖
Lol, that last one is an easy fix! All of them are favorite worthy! ;]
"If these scars could speak" is the best one for me , Addicted to this one
Mike you don’t have to choose, all of them can be your favorites :)
"Secrets are dark things.
They don't exist within the light.
They glow faintly in forgotten corners,
in mysterious mind nooks,
in our lost memory maps.
Secrets are the shadows of our soul"..🥀xx
Every song is always so relatable every word just hits so close ♡🥀xx
Beautiful 🖤🙏🏻
It is so very true
Citizen Soldier she (?) is so right citizen solder
@@shadowhawk4164 she is right and she is my little sister, she has suffered so much and I can't do anything to help all I can do is be here for her when she is ready to speak. I only know parts of her abuse the rest she hides so well
Joshua Jones I hope she gets better
"Maybe I should say something, but I'm terrified you'll put the blame on me"
It hurts to know how many people relate to this line. No one should be scared to share their story.
I am one of those people
Happens all the time.
I'm one of these people
Citizen Soldier doesn't even have a single bad song, I wonder how that is possible.
You are so kind. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻
It is so true
Because they know how it is to suffer and to fight agains your inner demon. I think thats why :)
@@Dies0Personal0Freak Yeah :)
No, they just don't know how to make bad song XD
I’ll tell you a little secret:
This won’t be the only time I listen to this masterpiece.
Hahaha thank you so much 🖤🙏🏻
That's no secret,that's a given.
same :)
Jade Clark same
I believe you! XD Love the song from the first second it started playing!
Thanks for the heart! I'm screaming right now lol
"Fight a war every day that no one sees" i can relate to that part all to well
Glad you felt it. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
All day every day. I'm not sure if there's ever an end to it all... The war just rages on and on and seems to only ever get harder...
Facts
Me2! EVERYDAY !
Reminds me of Chester :-(
The little pause at 1:33 really sells it.
"It's my little... secret."
And again at 3:17 it just *screams* hesitation, the way they don't finish it and then repeat it, it's just SO FUCKING GOOD I AM S C R E A M I N G.
It reminds me of when someone is actually going to tell a secret, they hesitate. They're hesitating to say it because revealing a secret is a hard thing to do. You never know how the person receiving said secret will react and then you get nervous and your anxiety is being thrown out the building through the roof via super cannon straight into the friggin moon all because you just told your best friend of your deepest secret. Do they still like you, do they despise your very existence? It's always a gamble when you reveal a secret.
Especially if it's incredibly personal like some kind of trauma or something similar, I think depression is a common example of that. Even though this music video is centered around victim shaming I think it still applies because depression is commonly hidden and remains a secret until it is inevitably uncovered.
Appreciate you so much. Thank you for the kind words 🖤🙏🏻
Here's to all the abuse victims 🥂
May they find relief from their pain and secrets 😔
Well said!
Thank you Savage Chronicle. Thank you form the bottom of my heart. We will someday heal from it.
A toast to all survivors out there indeed!
I am a survivor
Thank you, Chronicle MV. I found your comment at the right time. Karma will sort everything out just fine. Hope you are doing well. Stay strong out there. 💖
I'm sure you are not going to read this, but:
I found your songs when I was very sad and somehow you made me feel less alone.
I'm better now, but your songs are art to me. I identify with many, the rhythm, the voice and even the lyric videos are completely amazing.
I'm surprised you are not more famous...
I've following you for a long time, but I never comment, sorry.
*Keep it up, thank you. ♡*
We're so happy our music can do that for you. Thank you so much for the support 🖤
I am your 130 like (also i like how there music can relate with a lot of people who are in pain)
I had lost my gf a few days or so ago she came back thankfully but I first heard their song I'm not okay and it legit described how I felt when she was gone down to the dot , kept me from ending it along with a few other things
I'm surprised to!
Light work I got this in the bag 2021
A band means something to the listener when they don't even have to press play to have the song liked and saved.
And I'm one of those people with this band.
That means the world. Thank you so much 🖤🙏🏻
"I've learned to suffer silently
Fight a war every day that no one sees
It's torture always remembering
I don't want them to think I'm weak
So I bite my tongue until it bleeds" 💔❤
Glad you like the lyrics 🖤🙏🏻
I was like that when i was young cuz i just put on a face and didn't show my feelings for so long and until a few years or so im finally opening up
Those lyrics make me shiver how true those lines are
❤ I recommend checking out the song Trauma by Nathan Wagner. It makes me feel similar to how this song makes me feel.
I'm not alone..😭
Very good song. Phrase that saved my life: "I am not what has happened to me. I am what I choose to become."
Thanks for listening Garret! 🖤
@@CitizenSoldier No problem, this song reminds me of my old mindset before I broke out of it. ^^
@@garrettbrooks285 I know this is late, but how did you break out of that mindset? It seems to permeate everything, and I would love to know how to crawl out of this hole.
@@socialdeviant13 Sorry for the late response. For me it was realizing that I have the choice to stay focused on negative thoughts or focus on positives.
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For me its still very difficult to reveal all the hurt that I've been through, I try but there are some thing's I can't and I don't know if I will ever find the courage to speak of them.
There will always be people that will never understand. That go out of their way to tell you to just get over it, I wish it was as easy as that.
I know that I've said this many times but it is true.. You WILL always be the voice to those that are struggling.
You guys inspire so many.
Maybe one day if we continue to stay strong we will all be able to show our appreciation to you for all that you have done.. ♡🥀xx
Much love to you friend. You’re definitely not alone 🖤🙏🏻
@@CitizenSoldier it took me so long to figure that out, but with your help and that of my family and everyone here, I know that I'm not alone. There are days you still feel it but we are not. Thank you ♡🥀xx
I know what you mean, I still haven't opened up about everything that has happened to me, not with my therapist and definitely not with family. I might never. I suffer from ptsd from what was done to me , and it hurts that if I told people about what is torturing me, they would think less of me.
@@halomasamune2762 I do as well. I have PTSD and clinical depression from the abuse of my childhood. I've fought it for 24 years now, and every year it gets harder and harder to keep fighting because there's nobody beside me.. and I've tried to reach for help, and I've tried to talk to family and shrinks and none of them want to hear it, or they don't believe it's as bad as it is and they think I'm exaggerating how hard it is just to get up every morning... And I fall asleep at nights hoping to not wake up in the morning
@@xceryxdemurstra6323 Yeah... it's the same here. I've had issues since I was 13, I became shut off from the world cold and distant. Nobody in my families wants to hear it, cause they think my childhood was something I enjoyed. I can't even talk to my family, my therapist isn't bad, but he is under the opinion that I can choose to set down these issues like they are a bag of rocks. If it were that easy I would have done it already. I don't sleep, I have nightmares, I have to take medication to sleep and if I do sleep I nightmares feel so real... Last bad one my wife had to wake me, I had dug my fingers into my arm, required stitches.
As someone who's dealt with the stigma surrounding mental health for most of my life and a counseling student focusing on trauma, I just want to thank you for using your voice and your platform to highlight such important issues. I'm always amazed by the depth in your songs and the way you approach the topics you represent. You have given a voice and strength to so many people with your music 🖤🤍🖤
So glad it is helping. Thank you for doing what you are as well to fight for others 🖤🙏🏻
I have bipolar disorder. These songs say what I deal with every day. Makes me feel better knowing that there's people who actually get it.
It is hard to struggle with mental health, I have at the very least 4 mental health issues and 3 of them is undiagnosed and all or most of citizen soldier’s songs just help so much, I agree with you comment very much
@@CitizenSoldier Thank you!!!
This hits deep as shit when you deal with PTSD...
So glad you felt it. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
Citizen Soldier thank you for making music to get us thru the days & truly understand the lyrics. Y’all are by far the best!! Much love to y’all!
Was gonna say the same. C-ptsd is a bish to deal with. Love this song 💕
I agree.
Honestly feel that. Ive struggled for 4 years to shake this feeling of anxiety and desperation that everyday won't be a struggle, but here we are.
As someone that has been through some terrible things this song hits home.
We have too friend. We need to support eachother 🖤🙏🏻
same here man same here
@@CitizenSoldier all i have is music and the lyrics. Every single song has a story. I seem to be able to relate to them all. This isn't life to me. I was born to the devil. I literally have no one. I love so many of ur songs, like "isolate". It's true, i can only trust my ceiling..!!
I seriously love how guys have been covering so many heavy subjects recently. Most people are afraid to do this, which is understandable, so it's very nice to find a talented band capable of covering these issues well and inspiring others to move forward and help be the change. I adore these songs, the messages, the vocals and instruments and jist everything about them.
Thank you so much for the kind words friend 🖤🙏🏻
This and "Hope it Haunts You" really hits me! I'm a survivor of sexual assault, and was something I was blamed for and was told I was lying about because the person was my fiancee at the time! So I couldn't speak about it for years. I'm still working through it in therapy, but these songs definitely help. Especially when so many amazing people comment and I feel like I'm not alone. Sending love and positivity to everyone💞
No, you're not alone. Some of us have an idea of your hell and some of us know different hells, but we all know hell, and we all root for you and dare hope that someday it has no hold over you.
To not be believed about what you've been through is its own kind of trauma.
I can relate my ex husband raped me and sexually abused me song hits home I've been sexually assault 3 times
As a veteran fighting my ptsd Citizen Soldier has always made songs that I can relate to. This one is no different. There’s so many things people have to deal with but it’s not something people are able to talk with someone about. Even if it’s a therapist, friend, family, or loved one. So many people truly feel that this is their little secret. Thank you Citizen Soldier for another amazing song putting into words what so many of us are unable to find the words for
Of course friend. Stay strong. You’re not alone 🖤🙏🏻
Stay strong, you're never alone and we see you 🙏❤️
Not a veteran but coming from someone who was recently diagnosed with PTSD I very much relate. Thank you for your service and stay strong 💖
Stay strong mate your not alone on this journey.
Stay strong man. And thank you for your service
"...So I bite my tongue until it bleeds" is SUCH A GOOD LINE
I do love me some clever rhymes
🖤🙏🏻
I am 15 and I have been a victim of abuse since I was 11... I sought out help, and my screams haven't reached anyone. I connect with this song on a very deep level and your music gets be through another day. I have thought about suicide multiple times and I have several attempts on my record. You're music saved me and I want to thank you for reaching out to people in need.
Are you holding up? I can't do much, but when I was at my lowest I'd have wanted someone to ask.
@@aubreyackermann8432 yes I really needed this at this moment... thank you
@@mckenziesmith2938 any time
I hope you're doing well. 🌻💜
Hi, I’m 15 too, if you ever need help, I’ll be here, send me a message, and I’ll reply as soon as possible. If you ever need to get away, let me know, and I’ll figure something out.
This is the reason why it's so easy to talk to people on the internet. When we talk to people we know, we fear they will judge us, but when you know nothing about the other person, only knowing what they want us to call them, it's easier to say that tiny thing that's been hurting you, pushing you down, and even the things we would never admit.
As much as it would be best to talk about these things in person, to have consolation and assurance, that fear is more often than not, so over powering, we would rather suffer in silence, than to show people how weak we really are.
This community needs to support eachother through our pain 🖤🙏🏻
It’s very very true
But there are those of us who have fought the fight, and still fight it, and even though you can't always feel it, we're at your back.
Great message! Why is victim shaming accepted by society? Why is it the victim's fault? People don't choose to be abused 😩 Who agrees? ⁉️
So true. Appreciate you friend 🖤🙏🏻
From my perspective, most whom shames the innocent are the ones who does not care anyone but themselves thus I put them in the idiots category.
So yes, I agree 👍🏼
I agree
If those who are abused stand together, we'll beat those who abuse!
We can't change our past but we are able to create a future where others victims will be heard, if not by society then by us, by those who were abused!
Together we can stand strong!
I was always labeled the weak one , hiding in the cracks staying away as much as possible , living around ego , their dark is greater then yours ,their troubles are greater then yours , ive always managed to feel like a piece without the help of daily reminders .
i thought people only blamed the victim when they thought they were lying. so there are people who just blame the victim?!?!
“You always remember the past” “just forget about it”
And this song explains everything…
And my personal favorite, as someone with O.C.D.: "Stop obsessing." Dang right about "I'm terrified you'll put the blame on me," part.
The fact that you released this song about not being able to sleep at 1 AM was a premeditated decision? 😅
Also, it’s great! I love the melody!
Hahahaha you have a point 🖤🙏🏻
Jake's voice gives me goosebumps 😭 I love this so much. I can relate to this song so much. I've been diagnosed with PTSD at a pretty early age and the flashbacks usually haunt me at night making it very hard for me to sleep and when I do I always end up having really bad nightmares about my past. I'm so glad I've found this band. They've really helped me just in this short few months I've been listening to them 🖤🖤🖤
You’re the best. So glad you found us. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
*grabs your hand* You're not alone. You're part of an army of us who have fought and still fight the fight.
For me this song can go two ways. One way is someone battling memories of what someone did to them, the second, it is a battle within themselves for not being what they feel is not good enough. Absolutely love the track. Keep it going guys!!!
Well said. Appreciate you friend 🖤🙏🏻
Nailed it!!!!
Why not both at the same time?
@@adamtravis7317 true. You can feel both at the same time.
Everyone has that one secret they'll take to their graves.....
Very true!
yeah
Truth
Truee
I have many and I'm 13
i told my friend about citizen soldier
my friend: he has a hot voice actually
me @_@ you mean to tell me that this masterpiece the music the style the lyrics filled with emotions and truth that many can relate too and all you think is that the guy's voice is hot?
my friend: yeah
me: -_-
me: your not wrong but still tho @W@
Hahaha that's a great compliment! 😂🖤
Wow. I probably have people that would say the same thing. 🤣
@@CitizenSoldier I mean it is true haha
Fellow somnia
I have this on repeat right now. It makes me feel less alone. Thank you Citizen Soldier you never fail to have a perfect song for how I feel in any given moment.
I am actually speechless right now.. this song came out at the exact time as I'm battling my problems... and I absolutely love it
So glad you love it 🖤🙏🏻
I wish you luck with battling your problems man.
@@jamescrady4114 thanks man.. keep safe out there as well thanks for showing support
Just heard "Would Anyone Care" For the first time, had to check out more of there music. All I have to say is love your music and hope you guys continue.
It took me 3 years to even talk about what my abusive ex did to me, I felt exactly like this and I still can't really talk about parts of what he's done to me, 6 years on. This song describes how I feel when I could never put it to words. A beautiful song, thank you
Proud of you for speaking up. Stay strong 🖤🙏🏻
This song hit mehard as i know that im not alone with this struggle.
This is relatable to me because of what my mother has done in my past.
Much love to you friend 🖤🙏🏻
This hits too close to home. I just found this man and his wonderful voice. This group is amazing
Thank you so much friend 🖤🙏🏻
This song perfectly describes how it feels to live with ptsd
Appreciate you friend 🖤🙏🏻
*WAIT- WAIT I LOVE THIS I-*
You guys seriously are amazing- you never fail to impress me🤧✨
That means the world. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻
Citizen soldier can I find your albums on iTunes?? Because two days ago I broke up with my boyfriend and when I found your song will anyone care it really helped me.
Kati The Raven yeah it’s on iTunes just type in Citizen Soldier and you will find their songs
Skull Gamer thank you
It feels sad to think When you grow up , no one will be there for you to share your pain , its all yours....Your little Secret!
So true. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
This songs sums up my PTSD, every day I try to sleep but memories keep flooding into my brain that I cant get rid of
If you ever feel stupid...
Remember there are people who disliked this song
Hahahahaha savage!
Lol
my sensei the truth is spreading out of you
@@CitizenSoldier thanks
SAVAGE!
Thank you u just motivated me
"Seen so many things I can't unsee; I've learned to suffer silently". So powerful and so true of trauma survivors
🖤🙏🏻
I've never found a band that perfectly matched my thoughts until I found you guys, i love this band and every song is a masterpiece
Thank you so much. Appreciate that 🖤🙏🏻
This make me think of my last relationship... Hope the next one will be more joyful. God, I pray I will be fine and that he wont ever find a way to contact me again... It does haunt me at times... Afraid to love again at times... It's scary to put all your love and trust in someone else hands. It got me in pieces... Shattered... Slowly building myself up though.
Finally well I love your songs and I am thankful I can hear them. I also suffer from depression and a high case of GAD. It feels... good to know you are not alone.
All the love and please stay safe 🖤🖤
Much love to you friend 🖤🙏🏻
You will find the person to heal your soul as long as you leave yourself even the tiniest bit open to love. I found mine the same time she found hers. We had been friends for 3 years and a former friend of mine took advantage of her and was very very abusive. One day he just dumped her at my door and moved out of state. I let her stay and she slowly started opening up to me about the things that POS did to her. One day we were watching movies together and I wanted to be closer to her, but was afraid she might pull away, so I did nothing. Later that day she told me she resigned herself to never being loved. That sent my mind into action and I told her that she shouldn't give up just yet, and I kissed her. Everything clicked into place and it felt like we had been together for a lifetime. We are going strong six years later and will be married as soon as this pandemic winds down enough for our court to open. So I will tell you the same thing. Be Strong. Don't give up because your true love could be just around the corner.
@@neurotic7779 Awww your story was sad at the start then it got so adorb. I will keep on praying I end up finding my special person. I am not giving up. And who knows that person might be nearer than I think.
Thanks for sharing your story with me and congrats on your wedding to come 😊
@@neurotic7779 that just made me cry tears of happiness, there need to be more lovers like you, & I can't wait til I find mine, and I wish you and your woman the best marriage!! 💖😭🤧😍
I’ve been fighting my PTSD for 3 years now, I’m happy that this song reminds me I’m not alone
This is way too relatable. Reminds me of my own little secret. Listening to this physically hurts.
So sorry to hear that friend. Thai community is here for you 🖤🙏🏻
About 2 years ago, I lost my grandpa, my best friend to a car accident and my guardian(uncle) to pneumonia all in the course of about 4 months. I went to a therapist, tried to talk about it, I just couldn't. Then about a year and a half ago, I slit my wrist.
I was found by a security guard on the apt rooftops just in time to save, I was taken to the ER and kept there for a few days while in critical condition. I survived, and I hated myself for it.
I was closely watched over 24/7 after that incident. Not soon after, I discovered your music, it helped me cope with whatever I was feeling at the time, all the anxiety, suicidal thoughts and depression. Your songs helped me put everything I felt into words. I started talking to my therapist, I started feeling good for the first time in months. Now, even though I have such thoughts even now, it's not as bad as it used to be. I have healthy relationships with my friends, a really nice girlfriend and I just graduated as valedictorian a few months ago.
Your music was a huge inspiration for me and thousands of others like me who had experienced loss, depression and anxiety and your music gave a voice to all of us.
I owe you so much and I sincerely thank you for it.
I hope you gain a lot more success and you reach out to a lot of people who might need your music to help them cope with tough times.
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So sorry for your loss. Sending love your way friend 🖤🙏🏻
@@CitizenSoldier thx a lot mate
Whoever disliked this doesnt know a masterpiece
Thank you so much 🖤🙏🏻
Literally 0 dislikes as im commenting this.
@@ivanquintana_ Same. Just as it should be.
People who diliked itare Australians trying to like the video
No dislikes that I can see as of now.
This is how it felt after both cases of SA with the help of other students and my friends i was able to speak up.
Now im dealing with PTSD, life is hard, but knowing others understand makes it more bearable.
The fact that they reply to the comments just shows that they care. I can't think of anyone else who does this.
This song hits like a truck when you're in recovery for self-harm. Your music has helped me to come to terms with my past and I can't thank you enough for that x
Appreciate you Jess 🖤 We try to reply to all of you
I think you guys are my spirit animal.. Words that get so close to what's in my head. So far every song I have listened to resonates with my whole life. The depression, the insomnia, the anxiety.. All of it.. Right here in music.
Ikr I havent heard any other songs so relatable i dont understand how they hit it exsactly
@Lex Mewhorter, 100+% feel the same thing. I hate my existence..!!
Not many bands tackle themes like you guys do. I've never felt so listened to. People always talk about pedophilia, but don't think of online grooming as a way of being traumatized- it took me 4 years to even think of the experience as actually being traumatic. After my first therapist did absolutely nothing with my story, I thought I was just overreacting. There are so many forms of abuse, big or small. There are victims from all walks of life. Society has to see and acknowledge this. Thank you for making this.
This song is so important, I’m so happy you guys wrote it, mad respect ✊
Thank you so much!
Citizen Soldier once again writing about my life. I'm so glad I found these guys. Great work.
Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻
@@CitizenSoldier No, thank you. I really mean that you've saved me several times since I found you.
That's another song to add to my playlist that represents my life!
Thanks 💜
Even though I'm a teen living in a pop world, I always keep coming back here. No band makes songs this great!!! I genuinely love Citizen soldier. My first song ever of yours was 15 minutes of Fame and I absolutely loved it. Thank you for this song!! My list of favourites only keeps getting longer.♥️
Thanks for staying with us through it all 🖤🙏🏻
Omg you replied!!!! I absolutely love you!!! No other song is as relatable. Please never stop making music. The world's a better place with your songs.♥️🎶
Never clicked so fast in my life and never been so surprised when i saw u release a new song great as always
You’re the best. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻
I left a marriage of 18yrs where the depths of the abuse was concealed with a loving husband support a wife with a mental illness. He used my mental illness to control me beyond imagination. I keep picking up emotion baggage that I didn’t know I had. I know what you mean by little secrets because I can’t mention anything to my new husband. Thank you guys. Having that one song that relates to your life somehow soothes the pain and pour out the words that are stuck in the heart.
I understand! I was abused by people as well, both sexually, emotionally and mentally. It is hard but you are so strong!! Keep going, just like me...maybe someday all will be better.
why can't you tell your new husband?
Oh my goodness, I'm in literal tears after listening to this masterpiece. It's hard to explain what I'm feeling right now, it's a mix between being absolutely breathless and feeling like someone finally understands me.
I'm pretty sure I have moderate depression. I'm constantly surrounded in family drama, friend drama, and just drama that I don't want to be in but can't get out of (I'm not allowed to leave my house ever since this pandemic happened.) I'm not one to self-diagnose and this result is only from a few online tests I've done in secret on medical websites.
A couple weeks ago, I decided to try and get help and, possibly, get an official diagnose. I was crying when my mom found me, I was actually listening to Gunshot Lullabies. So anyways, I tell my parents, they don't believe me for anything, even when I told them that I have attempted to cut my wrists in the past with scissors, even when a couple of months before my school councilor phoned home because she though I was suicidal, which is true, and I received counselling for around 4 months. Instead, I just got asked if I was doing it for attention, they said I have nothing to be depressed about, and they criticized me when I told them some of the stuff I was depressed about (a few incidents that happened years ago that, even after talking them out, I can't let go off.) Then the next day they asked me if I was feeling depressed, and in all honesty, why would I say yes when I got called an attention seeker the day before? So of course I said no and plastered on the biggest fake smile I could muster. Then for the next couple of days, my mom, in a way, made fun of my "non-existent" depression, saying I can't be depressed but want to hurt myself and constantly, constantly popping out our private talk in public situations. Even when I recently came out to my parents as pansexual, I'm told it's normal for girls to want to experiment and that I've never dated a girl (I have online dated girls a few times, never physically dated any.) so I wouldn't know, even when I've felt this way before I knew what pansexuality was and what the "normal standards" are . Little do my parents know that sometimes when I'm in my room, I'm crying because my demons are tearing me apart. When I hold a bottle of pills longer than I should be, I'm thinking about how much I would have to take to overdose. When my own mother says I'm worthless when she's in a fit on anxiety, I'll remember it for as long as I live. The only person I feel comfortable to talk to is my best friend, I'd say we're practically sisters. It's better than having no one, but it hurts that I'm not comfortable telling my parents anything personal about myself.
I just realized how long this is, sorry for that. I just feel safe in the comment section telling my story, your music has changed my life. Whenever I get into a rut of self doubt and my demons come back to haunt me, I turn your music up real high and sing, sometimes it's just sitting on my bed crying everything out, and that quiets them down for a little bit. Thank you guys so, so much from the bottom of my heart for what you do, it's helped me and lots of others cope. Much love to you guys and God bless
Wow. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so proud of you for fighting through all this. You’re worth it. Much love to you 🖤🙏🏻
@@CitizenSoldier
You better believe I'm not going down without a fight ♡
@@fallxn_freak4174 Now that's the little piece of what society is missing. Never give up, no matter how dark it may seem. Because, the darker it is, the brighter the spark. Once more, keep fighting, and you shall make it through.
@@obsidianblade5282 Thank you, I will
@Sebastian Kolb-Davis
Thank you so much for your kind words, and I'm sorry about what happened between you and your girlfriend. God bless you
This band has helped me in my darkest days. There will never by words to express how grateful I am to these people thanks for being awesome guys
Honored we have helped. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
It hurts when you know you can't tell anyone. Yet another song that's just too damn beautiful.
Wow, you really do know how we feel.
I feel like my past is still haunting me. And that it won't let go even if I tried to fight it..🖤
Thankyou soo much Citizen Soldier❤ You really understand your fans, and we understand how you feel❤ Love youu so much ❤❤🤍
Love you back 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
I was thinking the same OwO! I think he is watching us xD but how he does it is like a dream - it's to beautiful to be true - BUT it is true!
@@Momoko_The_Sin_Of_Love ikr! Citizen Soldier is the best!! ❤ actually he should be heard on the radio. In stead of other people like rapper's. CS has the best lyrics..❣ ans so that everybody who hears it knows, that he knows what's inside of us. And that we're not alone🤍
@@xsbb_xh1106 oh yeah! You so right! He deserves more love, likes, followers! So less likes! He don't deserve this! He understand as all what not even sometimes our parents does!
@@Momoko_The_Sin_Of_Love yeahh!! Exactly! He just know whats inside in our hearts and heads. And most importantly he knows what's behind our smile 🤍 i hope he'll comes to the top of the world soon!!❤❤
Every song is a masterpiece. The best band is this world.
That means so much thank you 🖤🙏🏻
Sweet buttery jesus I love this song.
Long Live Citizen Soldier!!!
Appreciate that!
I'm so glad that RUclips recommended yall to me 3 to 4 months ago! Yall have made excellent music! Yall are just amazing! Love yall!
So glad you found us. Welcome to the family 🖤🙏🏻
same, i found them a few months ago when youtube reccomended Would Anyone Care to me
@@Nocteul RUclips for once recommended something awesome. I can't remember the song that was recommended to me though.
Every song just hits the feels so hard. They are so amazing and heartfelt and I feel each one says how one person or another feels in their lives, so many of them hit home for me. You are a truly amazing band and I hope you are around for a long time to come. Stay positive in this crazy world. God bless you all.
Thanks Stephanie! 🖤
This band helped me through a dark time in my life, and it‘s good to know their still producing incredible songs.
That means a lot. Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻
Me sobbing in corner:
Why Do All Your Songs Hit Home So Hard?!
🖤🙏🏻
There's a chance you won't see this...
I resonate so much with this song. I've been through hell and back, recently discovered something that makes sense, and overall been feeling like I need to hide my feelings and put on a mask. I love you guys. You make songs that actually matter and reach the hearts of millions. Thank you for releasing this song. It means so much to me. ❤❤❤
So proud of you for fighting. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
@@CitizenSoldier thank you. And thank you for caring for your community and taking the time to reply. It means a lot. ❤
Every song, I still battle the demons in my head. Singing along at top of my lungs is so cathartic. The relief feels so good and it’s always good to know that someone understands or has been in your shoes. You’re awesomesauce and I can only imagine how many people you’ve touched with your music and just how many have been pulled back from the edge knowing that things can get better
Haven’t heard a bad song from this band yet. Really love this one, wish I could give it more than one like.
Appreciate you so much 🖤🙏🏻
Lyrics on point, music so damn catchy, vocals to die for. I love this band so much, especially with how relatable the lyrics are, scarily
You are so kind. Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻
I’ve learned to suffer silently is the bit of the beautiful song the most and I have a really SHIT day listening to your music really help forget the world and just be in the moment
I enjoy this kind of rock based music. The type that feels like it’s telling a story instead of putting words left and right. Has a good rhythm also.
This album is literally the best album I've ever heard. So glad I found you back in the day. Very professional video too, I simply love it
That means so much friend. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻
I've been spamming listen to all your music on different platforms, your songs help to know that no one is alone in what they are feeling. I've been using your music to help calm down after I have my panic attacks.
Loving the new song!!
The edit is lit!
The music is addicting!
The lyrics are connecting to me!
A new song added, and in repeat! 😍
Another song supporting me emotionally and mentally. Hoping for more 🙏❤
So glad you’re happy with it 🖤🙏🏻
HOW DID I NOT FIND THIS BAND SOONER!!!!!!!!!!!
srsly this is a banger!! the lyrics resonate so much to people who are struggling in their lives. thank you for the music.
I know this probably isn’t the song premise but this describes perfectly how it felt when I suffered from addiction and I was afraid that everyone I know would turn their backs on me. Thank you so much for this song
Always friend. Glad you made that connection 🖤🙏🏻
Another powerful song. This is me everyday, trying to keep the memories locked away, but they're pouring through. At times I feel alone and so ashamed of what happened to me
Much love to you friend 🖤🙏🏻
@@CitizenSoldier thank you so very much. Your words are so powerful. You guys are so underrated. I'd love to see you guys live one day
i really, really love that your guys' songs are on the darker side of humans, like addiction, mental health, victim shaming, abuse, etc. because the attention to this is super important. i also love that that makes sacred hit so much harder.
I love you. You bring hope to people and ease their pain. Often, after listening to your songs, I feel better for at least a few minutes. I wrote it once before, but you always hit the right moment with new songs. Thank you, just thank you for being there.
Thank you so much for listening 🖤
"The weight of this is breaking me to keep it under lock and key"
This line really says a lot to me. Fortunately I met someone who I can unlock everything to. To everyone out there dealing with this, telling someone you trust really helps. There are people who care, silencing your pain only gives it fuel to have it build up over time.
Much love to you friend 🖤🙏🏻
I'm 51 and have major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety, social anxiety, Complex PTSD and fibromyalgia due to abuse and trauma I've dealt with since I was 3 yrs old. Some days I see myself as a victim still, some days I see myself as a Survivor. I've recently found Citizen Soldier and so many of the songs give me permission to let some emotion out, to cry instead of holding it in all of the time. If I hadn't had music (metal and hair bands) in my life as a teen, I wouldn't have made it. Music is a Universal language that connects all. You will get to a point, hopefully, where you can speak your truth. There is NO SHAME in having been abused or in dealing with mental health issues that come from that abuse and trauma.
I know how you feel and I agree may God bless us both
I found this song when I was going through a difficult night with my PTSD and it really hit me hard. I love this so much. All your songs are major masterpieces and they help me so much. Thank you for making amazing music. 😭😭🖤🖤
You are so welcome. Much love to you 🖤🙏🏻
“Suffocating in doubt all night face down” relatable asf
Glad to hear 🖤
So many years and therapists... your music is the best therapy for me. 🥰
Fun fact: This guy's music never diasappoint 👌❤
Appreciate that AresK!
can we take the time to appericate the background?
👏👏 Cheers for whoever edits theses music videos!! 👏👏👏
Your songs always seem to hit close to home. I struggled with depression for years and this song described my mentality very well. Thank you for making such great music
Glad it helps Liam. Thanks for listening 🖤
Few seconds in and I'm in love already, you guys are so creative ❤️❤️
Appreciate you so much 🖤🙏🏻
Not only do you guys make amazing,beautiful songs full of meaning....you also make some of THE best lyric videos! Thank you so much for all you do and for helping so many of us express things we otherwise could not. 🖤🤘
Of course. Much love to you friend 🖤🙏🏻
honestly you probably wont read this but this song is now my anthem cause no one listens to me about my pain my mental trauma nothing but u helped me atleast tell people what i think even if they dont believe me
My little secret would be suffering from sleep paralysis every single day for the last 2 years. I don't want to go to sleep, but after listening to you guys I feel like I can take on another round of torture. In case you read this, thank you so much, you're actually keeping me alive.
This song draws you in and makes you understand. I love it. Keep up the great work.
Thanks friend. Will do 🖤🙏🏻
I can’t believe i found This Band around Summer and I can’t get enough of your songs. Keep Rocking 🙌
I’ve been listening to this on loop for an hour now 😅. Also went on a bike ride listening to it! Best song I’ve ever heard
Thank you so much friend 🖤🙏🏻
.. I can't explain how much I appreciate the effort you guys go through to produce such quality and meaningful songs, it's just so impressive and amazing!! I love all of you so much!
And the fact that you guys go through the comments and read them and react to them, it just adds a whole other level of appreciation to this. I mean idk if reading all the comments will last for ever, so I dont wanna waste the chance to tell you this!!!
Ty!! So much!!! 💜💜💜
You all deserve that level of dedication. You mean the world to us. Much love 🖤🙏🏻
You’re the first band I’ve found that really speaks to me. Thank you. For being you.
That’s an honor to hear. Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻
This is by far the most underrated band I've ever heard