i come back here every couple years and it’s sad to see that nothing has changed. she’s still struggling so much and she needs to seek professional help and learn to just get over it. getting over something doesn’t necessarily mean forgetting but moving past and becoming a stronger person, learning to deal with the triggers that cause the chaos that causes people to continue to relapse in whatever it is they’re dealing with. i used to be allot like this and finally realized my negative thoughts and mindset was just attracting more of that negativity and i had to learn to rewire my brain and mindset to a more positive way of thinking and things in life just started dramatically changing for me in positive ways because that’s what i was attracting. it’s not easy work but damn it beats being stuck in this cycle over and over! love to you Shanny, you don’t have to continue feeling this way, you can change it❤
Sweetheart. It’s time for treatment. I say this with love and experience. YOU are the only person who can save your own life. Please, please, do it. Jesus loves you. Fight for this beautiful life that he gave you. ❤
Shanny, you need to be the person that little girl needed. I know for a fact that you would 1000000% protect a child at all costs. Be that person for yourself. You are STILL that little girl that deserved to be protected, loved and respected. And you STILL deserve that. Tomorrow is a new day, beautiful 🫶❤
Shanny. Inpatient treatment seems scary but recovery is a really hard road to walk all by yourself. We all want to see you fight and win against this and you deserve good things in your life.
It is an addiction. You are addicted to bulimia. It's what numbs the pain for you. Like all addictions, it doesn't last. It's a cycle. Treat it as though it were heroin. Treat it like it's a threat at the level of fentanyl. It might be worse than that at this point. I do NOT want a video of Danny telling us that you are gone and how broken he would be. 95% of us have nothing to do with reddit. You don't deserve this. Ask God to take the pain away and believe that he will do that for you. 💖💖💖
Stop protecting everyone else! Protect yourself plz. Stop getting “better” for us. Do it for you! Start getting selfish. It quite frankly doesn’t matter if they’re good or bad people. You need to only think about you for once
Shannon it is never too late for you to have a family, there will always be kids out there who need a loving home and 2 wonderful parents like you and Danny. There's always time.
Its never too late to start over. Im 41 and just getting sober for real this time/for me and its sooooo scary, especially dealing with the trauma i tried to numb and forget about. I always wanted to help everyone but I now realise that it was me i needed to help first. Always try to be yourself, you are what matters and when you feel better about yourself you will start to care less about what others think as you will know and appreciate the real you. Sending big hugs and positive vibes ❤
Until you get help, real inpatient help, this is going to be your life. ED is always just under the surface, in your head. While in it, we don't live. We don't have anything outside the ED. My entire family and friends ALL know to watch me for the signs that I may be in relapse even though it's been many years since I did that. You HAVE to go inpatient Shanny. You have to. PLEASE Baby.
Shanny I love you. But it genuinely upsets me coming on here and seeing people being hateful towards others suggestions for you. What are we supposed to do other than suggest things for you dear? We can’t hug you like we want, but we can express our concerns and I really don’t see people being hateful. Honey you had a heart attack. These people saying you need to go inpatient are not being mean to you. they are so so worried about you babe. Shanny you really are at the point of life or death…and we all love you so much. But some of the people in these comments are being so hostile and it’s clear that your best interest isn’t at heart. Because honest truly you need to be monitored, your vitals need to be checked and monitored routinely. You could still be a mom hon, go to intensive therapy or inpatient or something. But doing what you’re doing now doesn’t seem to be working babe. And this comes from a place of a lot of love. I just don’t want to log on here and see a tribute video soon. We may not know you like you say we need to to share our feelings but I feel like you’ve shared so much with us that we know part of you. And at least part of you is screaming for help. Honey go get help 😢❤️🫶🏻
@@lizabethfeig1705I’ve said this to her so many times, only to have her lash out at me in videos, to the point I just stopped watching. This is actually the first time I’ve come to check on her in a few years, and I see nothing has changed. 🤷🏼♀️
Do not get caught in shame. It is not your fault. None of it is your fault. I know it still hurts, and at the same time, it is over. I know it doesn't stop it from affecting you now, but you did the best you could then, and you are doing the best you can now. I know how much infertility hurts. But somehow, our lives have value. It's so hard when we can't raise kids when it's all we want, but somehow, we have to find a way to raise ourselves, to treat us as those children we desire, to love and care for them, to hold compassion. You are the child who needs love and support. By caring for yourself, you are mothering. In some supernatural way. You can be a mother without being one physically. I know it's not the same, but it really does mean something. You were that child that needed protection, and you didn't have it, and now all you can do is somehow try to do that for yourself. Be that amazing mother you are in how you treat others and how you treat yourself. And have compassion for yourself as you would that child who wasn't protected. I also want to say that I know the haters hurt you, but they are such a minority and it really is not about you. I can tell you honestly, I have never and will never look at some reddit bashing you, a person that these people don't know. It baffles me that people get so obsessed with someone online and treat them as some vague figure to criticize and despise. You are an actual person with an actual story. Real, good people are not obsessing over your every little slip-up or mistake. It's actually ridiculous that people spend time destroying people online. It is literally narcissistic and abusive behavior. These people are hurting and sick. It's not about you. I know it's painful, but it isn't personal, even if they act like it is. They are using you as the justification for their wrath, but they are ultimately destroying themselves, giving themselves over to darkness, do not let them take you down with them. I adore you. You are not condemned for your pain.
Inpatient therapy - can’t imagine why you don’t do this - go to the meadows in Arizona and get better for the rest of your life . They can teach you to function in life . Remuda ranch used to be a separate facility that saved my life and now it’s a part of the meadows.
@catherinemitchell3721Peer support in a confidential setting is what makes inpatient recovery more helpful in most cases than going it alone again and again with your body taking a beating every time. We are not therapists, nor family; as much as we love Shanny, we can't fill those spaces. Shanny, so many of us want to see you strong. To launch into 40 with a new start trying things you haven't before....give things we have suggested a chance. We are still here, honey, because it worked for us.. You're still here because you're stubborn Lol You are precious Treat yourself as such. Think of that little girl in your childhood video. What would she want for you? ❤❤ I'm speaking only of your relapse. I don't GAF about reddit whatever happened there.
Can’t imagine why you’re judging her for not doing it. This isn’t your life. I’m happy it was helpful to you, but you don’t get to tell her what to do. 1:05
You guys (Catherine and weeping willow) aren’t helping her either. At all. Why are you guys all attacking people that are saying this? Its true. Sometimes the truth isn’t what we want to hear. Shanny is really sick. She does need help. “It won’t work for me” comes from a place of denial for getting better. That’s ED talking. Shanny now more than ever needs someone to step in, she had a heart attack…do you realize she could die at any moment…?? Do you actually care about her? Because this is not how you show it.
Exactly ! I didn't even meet my husband until he was 40 years old. He's 51 and we just bought a farm with our 6 year old! I get that birthing natural children has a window, but being and becoming a parent can happen at any age.
Go outside. Go ride a bike. Go look at something beautiful in nature. Get some sun. You must get out of your head. Volunteer. Find a part-time job. Internet drama isn't what matters in this life. Sing songs, your voice is AMAZING! Go for a hike. Look at the changing leaves on the trees. From one clinically depressed person to another, GO OUTSIDE.
Yes, outside often, get exercise doing things you LOVE, drastically reduce or STOP social media use altogether (ideal it seems) and get long-term intensive therapy to address trauma background and build positive self-esteem and self-awareness. For herself, not for anyone else or to show us online.
Shanny is on the cusp of being fully agoraphobic. Don't you get that? Being outside might lower YOUR blood pressure and brighten YOUR mood, but it doesn't do that for people like Shanny. Her trauma and behaviours won't be rectified with a camping trip and a brisk walk- she's very ill. She needs real help at this point- and that means nothing that might retraumatize her or make her mood worse, or deter her from seeking help. This isn't a fleeting low mood or minor depression. Again, don't you get that? have you not been listening to her? Perhaps one day she'll build exercise into her recovery, but it's not therapeutic if you're doing things only to please outdoorsy extroverts who think walking is the cure for everything. I'm sorry, but I'm sick of oversimplifications of complex illness and this all too prevalent obsession with nature as therapy.
She needs to go to a facility at this point period. If her vitals are that bad like you’re claiming then she need to be routinely monitored throughout the day.
Like I say? Shanny nearly died. She knows, and we all know, she's in bad shape. And yes, I think intensive inpatient is her best option, but you can force, badger or bully her into it. That is straight up controlling and guaranteed to fail, and it's not your place because you're a stranger on the internet, not her family.
Go look at every single one of my comments. Not one has been rude. Just because people suggest something she doesn’t want to hear doesn’t mean it’s rude. I don’t see one person on here that suggested inpatient being ugly towards her. But I see a lot of people jumping down others throats for just suggesting inpatient treatment. Do you guys actually want Shanny to get better? Because being hostile and rude to legitimate and genuine suggestions is not it. If she’s surrounded by people like that in real life it’s no wonder she’s still so so sick.
I really think inpatient help sould help significantly and i understand not wanting to go ive been there ❤ you have to do anything to stop this cycle before its too late ❤ im so sorry you are hurting
Please advocate for inpatient treatment and then long term supports. Make lasting change for yourself because you do deserve it but you need to truly understand that. Cognitive behavior therapy could also be helpful if consistent. Wishing you all the best Shanny
CBT is NOT very effective for long term complex chronic mental illnesses and trauma is my experience and understanding. It is very effective for short term mild anxiety and depression. Again this is my experience and understanding. CBT is normally prescribed for a matter of weeks (6 weeks in the UK) this doesn't touch the sides when your mental illnesses have lasted decades and you are juggling multiple diagnosis and complex trauma. It is like putting a sticking plaster on a deep wound. Short term benefit. Long term it doesn't touch it. My experience personally is it teaches you coping skills to mask pain rather then address pain. The success of that doesn't last
You will just get told you are bullying her! This is crazy. I genuinely love Shanny but some of her fans are clearly not wanting her to get better. It’s so obvious they love the entertainment
@@User2h76wwj4 I truly hope and want for her to get better. I hope she knows she can get better with dedication to proper multi-fascited professional help.
@@User2h76wwj4yep. Been going on for years. I finally gave up and this is the first time I’ve checked on her in a few years. I see absolutely nothing has changed. And am I the only one who remembers Danny’s video, basically cussing everyone out and telling us how “wrong” we were? And how she’s better w out going to treatment, etc? I’ve always wondered if he feels like he should apologize for that, because I definitely feel like he should.
@@Badfishtooo 10000% agree with you. I think this whole situation is beyond childish and immature and it’s crazy to me that nobody with a brain has stepped in and said ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.
I'm deeply sorry you are going through this. It's so hard to go on after childhood trauma. Some people will never understand. I know how hard it is to endure a relapse and all the thoughts that go along with it. Your life has a purpose, Shanny. You cannot know how many people you have helped. Please, hang in there. So many people love you.
I’ve been falling heavily back into old habits too (OCD), and I journaled in the time I was doing better. I made a list of coping skills in that time and read some of those journal entries. I see that version of me as a mentor and example of what I can do. It’s so so hard but at least motivated me again to set little goals. I’ve also been learning so much about trauma lately and it’s been so eye-opening and validating. You deserve so much self-compassion. I can’t imagine how hard it is while dealing with outside opinions. Sending you all the love. ❤️❤️❤️
I suffer from ocd as well. Its so fucking hard. Mine is real event ocd btw. Its been 5 years i think. All I do is try to keep myself busy and not ruminate. I'm having compulsions even now. But yeah not ruminating is actually beneficial in the long run. I hope we can free ourselves from ocd.
Awe hun, I know you want to be a mom. There are thousands of children,teens, babies praying for homes in foster care. Never rule that out when you’re ready! Who cares about spreading your DNA when somebody would just want to be loved now. Just think about it. ❤
Your life will NOT be over at the age of 40! (Believe me - I'm 42) 😉 You can still have kids, be there for others and have a beautiful life! Love from Germany, Shannen! ❤❤❤
i miss my little self too. she was so sweet so innocent so shy and now i feel like im an awful monster. i have addictions, i hurt people. and when i see pictures of my little self it makes me so sad. she didnt deserve to go through what she went through. when i see her i cant even believe it was actually me. im sorry little girl, i love you
You were such a gorgeous kid (and now a gorgeous adult). I can relate to you SO MUCH about the self blame and asking “what happened”? It’s so difficult, but you need to accept that this HAPPENED, you did what you could back then to SURVIVE, and you’ve come out alive with a STORY TO TELL. I’ll say it until I’m blue in the face: you are an inspiration. You are a wonderful person and you try so hard (though I wish you’d care more about yourself than you do others-it’s a great quality to have BUT YOU NEED TO FIND BALANCE). I’m so proud of you for uploading this video. That alone proves how much of a bad ass you are 🙌🏻
@@catherinemitchell3721 Tough love? Also inpatient is an option she's never tried, so... if you want to save your life then wouldn't you do anything possible?
@@kristyn4088 Again,you are entitled to your opinion; but Shanny has free will.She,and she alone has to make & live with whatever decisions she makes."Inpatient treatment " is NOT a cure all. It can be extremely traumatising...
Shanny has mentioned before that they can't afford inpatient. It isn't all about whether she wants to be well, it's also about whether it is feasible given the restrictions around access!
I haven’t watched any of your videos in a while, but I think of you every day. This just popped up on my notifications and I had to watch. Shanny your videos have helped me want to heal and get better. I’ve been purge free for a really good amount of time, a lot of it is thanks to you! YOU DESERVE HEALING! YOU CAN DO IT! But like many have said I think inpatient would be the best place for you right now. I know it’s hard and you’ve been through so so much but the little girl in you, and the grown woman in you deserve to be happy and healthy and FREE! I too do not want to lose you! You can have the happy life, healing and getting healthy is HARD AND SCARY BUT YOU CAN DO IT! sending you all the love and prayers!
I think it would be a great idea for you to stop sharing it on RUclips. I genuinely believe it is detrimental to your health. I watched you many, many years ago -- back when I was actively bingeing and purging. I started at 15 years old. I honestly don't know when I stopped, but it has been years now. I felt like it would never end. When I stopped watching ED content and surrounding myself with other ED-related material, it certainly helped. I'm almost 40 now. It's so, so sad to know that some of the people who struggled back when I did still are.
When was your last inpatient stay? As a psych nurse and recovered anorexic, inpatient is the only thing that works. This is an addiction and outpatient never works. If it’s been a while since inpatient it’s time to go back.
I really feel like you have C-PTSD. You're stuck in trauma and using Bulimia to cope. You've had many further traumas in adulthood and you have not been able to fully develop the skills to manage the emotions in the moment and afterwards. It just keeps re-traumatising you. I have C-PTSD and I know that it is extremely difficult to cope with. I've been doing EMDR and it's completely changed my life. Even if you don't have C-PTSD specifically, you have a lot of trauma and EMDR is made to treat trauma. I feel that while ever you are stuck in your trauma, Bulimia is going to be a major issue. It's a band-aid on deeper underlying issues that haven't been processed. I do think that it would be extremely beneficial for you to focus on yourself fully for a change. Don't put your energy in to YT videos for us. Do it for you. We want you to be well and happy. I feel like if you need to share things with us, you might consider doing a private insta account that has only real supporters and friends following, where you can get the kind of genuine help and kindness you need, and, put everything else on hold. Your fun TikTok is of course an exception if you can do nice things for yourself that make you happy and you want to share. Coming up to 40 is a time of reflection. I turned 40 at the end of last year and i can honestly say that making the choice to live for my own happiness and do what I needed to do, has made me happier than I've ever been. Therapy helped that a lot, of course, but that choice was also my own. I chose my therapist and she's helped me to finally put to rest decades of traumatic events. Finally processing it and making my brain file it in the correct place so it can't bother me anymore. You are loved and I truly hope that you can see your worth when you look at the wonderful, kind little girl who grew up to be a wonderful, kind, funny, so talented, generous, spirited, strong and determined adult. 💜💜
I love you Shanny ...if you do decide to leave...Oh my GOD i will miss you HONEY...I WISH YOU WOULD ADDRESS YOUR HYPERSENSITIVITY..STAY AWAY FROM COMMENT...LEARN TO PUT BARRIERS AROUND YOURSELF TO KEEP IT OUT NEGATIVITY ATTRACT NEGATIVE...YOU ARE A SPECIAL SPECIAL LADY❤... NOBODY LOVES HARDER THEN HUMANS LIKE YOU...I SURROUND YOU WITH THE PURE WHITE BRIGHTNESS OF LOVE...❤️❤️❤️❤️😊
There is no time limit on grief (something I recently learned), and the stages are not linear. I'm sorry you're hurting so much. My cat just reached out to pet you on the phone! ❤
Considering your other diagnosis of schizo-affective disorder, which you must be under a regular mental health team follow-up for, I am surprised that they have not stepped in i.e. if your are vomiting, then you are probably not absorbing your antipsychotic medication and thus it is inevitable you will end up with a full-blown psychotic episode that needs urgent treatment. You must get in touch with them to tell them about your ED relapse, as they can help with this too - you have a dual diagnosis that must be taken into consideration.
I'm 48 now and I can't tell how many times I have relapsed. Be proud for the days, weeks, months you have mastered without doing it. Each day we get the change to start fresh. ❤ And please, stay away from stuff that hurts you. You don't have to read mean/angry messages!
If you want to open up and tell everyone how you feel about politics, religion and the world, then go for it. You will get backlash for it, because when it comes to politics your opinions and support have actual consequences for others. I think you know that saying openly that you support Trump would be a terrible idea, but maybe you feel you can explain that view somehow? I'd be really interested to know what could motivate you to vote for such a terrible person.
I’m guessing that she does support trump because people afraid of being open about it are usually conservative. I’ve always loved that shanny was never about politics, religion or any of that because it creates such evil /: I know she’s Mormon and I’m heavily against that being a gay person myself but it doesn’t bother me because I feel like shanny doesn’t push it or spread hate. Unfortunately if she starts spreading dangerous speech about politics I will have to unsubscribe
You can be a great mommy for little shanny & who knows someday for another child & for your birds of course🥺❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹 Lots of healing for you and everyone hurting, we love you so much, you got this💪🏻🥺❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹✨️
Hey Shanny! I just had a dream about you! It's okay Shanny. If you can get back on the wagon in the past you can do it again! It's okay to slip up, as long as you get back up. Would it be helpful to either get rid of the videos or see them with Danny? It sounds like you've got multiple triggers going on. You've also been under a lot of stress and yes a traumatic situations. It might help while you aren't in a safe place to keep these videos away? It's nice to revisit the past as long as it's not triggering us. I don't have an eating disorder so I can't possibly understand the magnitude of what you are going through. I am someone who has dealt with self-heal which isn't the same thing but I am sure has similar qualities and relapses. I've definitely relapsed myself on that end as of recent but it's getting better. I know I don't watch your videos a ton but I do support you. I would also encourage you to not read what reddit says. Easier said that done.
It makes me so sad to see you still suffering so badly from your childhood, unfortunately our childhood affects us so much, my self confidence is still broken because of my childhood and it's not easy to change it. I realise my words wont affect you but still telling you that you are beautiful and and amazing and that you are worth it, you deserve joy, freedom, life.
Shanny, you are a good person. I know the struggle you have with ED is hard on you. You must do all you can to work through your past and put in in the past. You can’t do this alone. You need the people close to you to be part of your treatment. The type of treatment you get must be the type you want whether it is inpatient, intensive outpatient or any other form. I hope you are talking with your Therapist if you have one. Include Danny at the right time. You deserve to be free of your addiction and happy. I have been an Addiction Counselor and I am aware how difficult it is to be in a constant fight for survival and normalcy. You can have the life you want if you seek the treatment that you feel will hep you confront your past trauma that are the source of all your difficulties. You are never alone as long as one person cares about you and your faith no matter what form that takes. You are loved and cared about by all of us who support your efforts to heal.
Hi,Shanny.People that dont have an eating disorder dont understand what you are going thru.I had a relapse about a year ago.Everytime i see my oncologist he keeps on asking me if iam over my eating disorder.I even have had a therapist tell me that my eating disorder was a choice.There are so many people,docters out there who are so ignorant!!!!!Please dont stop trying.I need you to be strong!!!!!
Oh honey, I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. You’re a beautiful soul and I love you. Praying for you and what you…💜🤗❤️ And I would say “you be you” on your videos and if it gets too hard, leave. But let that decision be yours not anyone else’s. Love you.
@EDucating Shanny~I don’t know much about ED but a lot of people are saying that maybe you should go into in-patient treatment for it. I’m not sure that you could swing it or not. Take care.,,,💜
Sending so much love from the universe. I am about to turn 40 as well, and have been having a lot of these types of moments as well. It's really effing hard. I couldn't even imagine having so many other people, especially people I don;t know, analyzing my life and every move. I do it enough to myself, and I say this with sincerity from my own experience, that removing the aspect of being a public person is something to consider. I know you use this platform to help people and yourself, but it's hard to stay away from the line of thinking when it is out there, tempting you to be triggered this way. I have more concise thoughts, but it's hard to discuss this as a one way comment, and not a chat. Anyhow, you are loved, you are worthy, and you are beautiful inside and out.
Shanny, my heart is so sad to see you struggling as deeply as you are right now. You are sincerely a beautiful person.... I have been with your channel since the beginning. Many years ago, you grew your channel by tens of thousands, when you used to post almost daily videos with a set, weekly plan: Motivational Monday, Topic Tuesday, Wednesday ED update, Q&A Thursday, and Fun Friday! You did that on your channel for a long time, and it was GREAT!! It would be wonderful if you could go back to some type of regular format, when you feel stronger and are in a better "place". Love you, and I will be praying for you. {Hug}! ❤️ Bethanne
Don't give up. This is your life, so be who you want to be. If this isn't who you want to be, then do better, but don't give up!! You've helped many people, and you will continue to do so.❤
That little girl…….. she’s still in there. Hold her. Heal her. Tell her it was not her fault. This might seem strange, but it’s just an idea. Stand in front of a mirror and picture her. When you can see her, talk to her. Tell her everything you wish she would have heard then. I’m no therapist, but it could help. Stay strong. We love you, and you’ve got this. 💙🦋🩵
Hi shanny, we've been watching since 2018. Im proud of you for posting this, and for trying to stay away from the toxicity. You still are that little girl, youre a good person, and you know who you are inside. Thats worth more and more important than any video you could make to prove it, and prove it to the internet at that. I know im some rando giving my unwarranted opinion but i think one of the best things to try is to be yourself as unapologetically as possible. You dont need to keep worrying so much about what your audience wants, what anyone online wants to see, because there will always be people you cannot please. I think you should go back to what you wanted to do a while ago, making your channel be more than just EDs, making content that makes you happy and makes you feel like yourself. I dont know anything about your real life off camera but i know from what we've watched throughout the years youve always seemed the most yourself when youre sharing things you love. Silly videos, challenges, reactions, day in the life, art and music, videos with danny. I think especially now in recovery again its more important than ever to remind yourself what you love to do and why, and find all those reasons again that youve wanted to get better. We love you and we're here for you. - frank
Shanny I feel you. I feel and think the same about myself in terms of the ED stuff. For real. What happened to the little me? After all those years eating disorder shit, shouldn't I for God's sake be done with ED? The other things you have to go through I am so sorry for you. I feel with you. You are loved. I am here for you.
You are an incredibly strong woman shanny. None of this is your fault. You are a kickass fighter. Hate to see upset and crying. I wish i could hug you right now. Really hope you feel better soon. You are a beautiful person. You don't need or deserve to be picked apart. Love you and what you stand for. I believe you and believe in you
I've been stuggling too. I'm so sorry this is how things have been for you. It breaks my heart. I've followed on and off for several years now. I dont know your full story, but ive always related a lot to your videos and it has meant a lot to me. Thank you for opening up as much as you have. Please dont let rude people hold you back ❤
Politics...yikes. I tend to see political views as answers to particular questions, and we may not even have found those answers, yet. I mean, we can't have with so much fear and anger out there. I think we need to get back to basics: human to human. Sending love.
Its very brave to share when you are this vulnerable hun. To let people see the truth of what you are going through. I relate to getting older thinking this is my life?! Where I am now?! It is hard suffering for so long -decades and trauma. I love you. You don't know me but in quite a real way I know you (following your journey since it first began and sharing many things in common -bpd, bulimia, childhood trauma, sexual abuse, depression, anxiety, ptsd, vaginismus, am also bi and Christian) I know you and I love you xxx
Oh Shanny, I just want to give you a massive warm hug. Your existence is always valid, regardless of where you are at in life💕 It's something I've been struggling with due to my chronic illnesses. Lately, I've come to a realisation of, if I don't think others should suffer and are valid of care and love, why then would I spend my energy into doing the opposite for myself. You deserve to take up space for yourself and give your beautiful caring love to yourself. I know it's soo hard, it's something I'm starting to do with therapy but I know you can get there. You can always be the mum of your childhood self 🌷 You are such a beautiful soul who deserves all of the healing and peace 💕🕊 Love you soo much beautiful 🌹💕
lets just keep recovering because EDs are not going away anytime soon and you can still educate those on long terms effects and show your journey to the other side! i still have hope for you. keep praying and going to therapy. guard your heart and stop purging before your body gives out. love you shannon ruclips.net/video/dHg50mdODFM/видео.htmlsi=Muqv0TiyGP1jB3JM
You went back to a place where to had control....Huggs Tomorrow can be different if you want it to be ...And if not tomorrow the next day ...Be kind to you ..
I love you Shanny! You are in my thoughts and I’m sending all the good vibes I can. You have such a generous and kind heart 💜 if there is anything we can do to help you, please reach out! With everything you give and do for your community and friends, you have our support and love. Stay strong!!!
Stay strong, Shanny. You've got this. Watch what brings you good memories, avoid what doesn't. Don't let age throw you into a panic, easier said than done I know. You can't change the past, and what happened to you was out of your control. Do not blame yourself and try not to think about a redo on anything, because we can't. I'm so sorry about everyone calling it and no one being surprised, and what ED is doing to you. But I'm cheering you on for the surprise. I'm cheering you on to find a new safe space, a new comfort zone to fall into when things happen. I wish everyone could be supportive, or just keep their mouths shut. You have soo many supporters, we just need to hear from them only. I wish we could all filter that out. We love you and want nothing but the best for you ❤you are such a caring person who wants nothing but the best for everyone else. We want that for you! Stay strong
For my current MA I have three classes this semester so have missed your Saturday livestreams because of heavy college work requirements I do on Saturday after my gym workouts.
my mum is a natural family planning practiotioner. there are women inthe 40's all the time getting pregnant. im 37 with a 1 year old. its never too late and there is other options too x you can beat this ❤
I'm sorry for you feeling so miserly. I wish there's a magic pill to fix everything. And yes it's a bummer when you going to bee ok a little while and then you breaking down. And you know what? It's ok! You have been suffering so much and most of it is because you feel guilty and have sorrow for not be "normal" successful life. As you watching the others around you getting successful. And you hate yourself and guilt for it. I don't suffering the same as you do. But I also have alot of what I call a shadow side. So what I can try to give you a tips. And it's about you need to find a way to start to love yourself. Jesus loves you, but you need to love yourself. And that's the hardest part to get better. I think you can do it. I believe you can do it. Stay in there beautiful Unicorn Shannin 💖✨
Look in the mirror lovely Shanny and she'll be right there, that sweetheart little girl with the good heart. We all love her. Please do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself right now ♡
I feel really silly asking this but is there a way to message you? I wasn’t sure if you are okay with being messaged and if so if there is a way? I promise I only have kind words. I have my own story/struggle and I was wondering if maybe you’d be interested in talking. I’m so sorry you are dealing with this ❤
Healing isn't a straight-line. Healing doesn't come with a deadline you need to reach in a certain amount of time. It takes years. It's not just a snap of the finger quick fix.
💚 ❤️ You got this, sweetie! I'm a 100% true Christian ✝️ I believe God does things for a reason. Hunni, I'm here if you just need to ask questions? Or vent. I suffer from a thyroid issue to where I can't gain wait. I got down, too, 90lbs. I know kinda what you're going through. From this day, my BPD has taken me back to when I was 16 years old with an ex... ptsd is horrible as well... It's going to all work it's self out. Pray pray.. I'll pray for you and your husband. God's never going anywhere, and it's nice to vent to him and thank him. Bless you, sweetheart 🙌
Numbers and mention of weight can be super triggering to people with EDs. Since Shanny has one as do many of the people watching her vids, I kindly ask for you to not include numbers in your responses. Thank you so much. 😊
Sweet Shanny I hope you get to read this ❤❤ Theres a saying that goes "Do not give permanent feelings to temporary people" Others opinions should not change your opinion of yourself. God as called us to Love one another,he did not call us to impress them or make them aprove of us. . I know how toxic the internet can be. I know its difficult when you're an empath and you feel such a strong responsibility to help others but please put yourself first. We can't pour from an empty cup. Surround yourself with those who love and a except you, and will also be honest with you when it matters the most. Honesty does not equal cruelty. Those 2 things should Never be synonymous with each other especially when it comes to Ed, mental health and addiction. Examine yourself and see if there is a change that you need to make that you haven't yet tried. No one can say whether impatient would be better for you other than yourself and the professionals in your life. But somthing different may be what is needed. When it comes to being you and expressing the things that you are passionate about you should not have to edit yourself for anyone. People should either love you for who you are or they can move on. You can be the kindest person in the world but someone will still not like you. I know exactly how it feels want to be love and accept you for who you are. The thing is you are loved and accepted by the people that matter. Be you and say how you feel because the people that matter won't mind and the people that do mind don't matter !! Sending you love,prayers and support ❤❤❤
i come back here every couple years and it’s sad to see that nothing has changed. she’s still struggling so much and she needs to seek professional help and learn to just get over it. getting over something doesn’t necessarily mean forgetting but moving past and becoming a stronger person, learning to deal with the triggers that cause the chaos that causes people to continue to relapse in whatever it is they’re dealing with. i used to be allot like this and finally realized my negative thoughts and mindset was just attracting more of that negativity and i had to learn to rewire my brain and mindset to a more positive way of thinking and things in life just started dramatically changing for me in positive ways because that’s what i was attracting. it’s not easy work but damn it beats being stuck in this cycle over and over! love to you Shanny, you don’t have to continue feeling this way, you can change it❤
Sweetheart. It’s time for treatment. I say this with love and experience. YOU are the only person who can save your own life. Please, please, do it. Jesus loves you. Fight for this beautiful life that he gave you. ❤
Shanny, you need to be the person that little girl needed. I know for a fact that you would 1000000% protect a child at all costs. Be that person for yourself. You are STILL that little girl that deserved to be protected, loved and respected. And you STILL deserve that. Tomorrow is a new day, beautiful 🫶❤
She seems stuck as a child emotionally and has not developed her identify as an adult with healthy self-care skills. This can be done.
@@louise8752Childhood SA stunts you enotionally. It's not that simple.
Shanny. Inpatient treatment seems scary but recovery is a really hard road to walk all by yourself. We all want to see you fight and win against this and you deserve good things in your life.
Time to check yourself in for treatment. Please get help.
It is an addiction. You are addicted to bulimia. It's what numbs the pain for you. Like all addictions, it doesn't last. It's a cycle. Treat it as though it were heroin. Treat it like it's a threat at the level of fentanyl. It might be worse than that at this point. I do NOT want a video of Danny telling us that you are gone and how broken he would be. 95% of us have nothing to do with reddit. You don't deserve this. Ask God to take the pain away and believe that he will do that for you. 💖💖💖
If only it were that simple.
@@dragonsky799 I dont mean it to sound as though it would be easy. It won't be. I believe in her and that she has the strength to get well.
Stop protecting everyone else! Protect yourself plz. Stop getting “better” for us. Do it for you! Start getting selfish. It quite frankly doesn’t matter if they’re good or bad people. You need to only think about you for once
Shannon it is never too late for you to have a family, there will always be kids out there who need a loving home and 2 wonderful parents like you and Danny. There's always time.
I agree with you accept for the part about time. Sorry, but there's just not "always time". Life goes fast, and time runs out.
Its never too late to start over. Im 41 and just getting sober for real this time/for me and its sooooo scary, especially dealing with the trauma i tried to numb and forget about. I always wanted to help everyone but I now realise that it was me i needed to help first. Always try to be yourself, you are what matters and when you feel better about yourself you will start to care less about what others think as you will know and appreciate the real you. Sending big hugs and positive vibes ❤
Until you get help, real inpatient help, this is going to be your life. ED is always just under the surface, in your head. While in it, we don't live. We don't have anything outside the ED. My entire family and friends ALL know to watch me for the signs that I may be in relapse even though it's been many years since I did that. You HAVE to go inpatient Shanny. You have to. PLEASE Baby.
Shanny I love you. But it genuinely upsets me coming on here and seeing people being hateful towards others suggestions for you. What are we supposed to do other than suggest things for you dear? We can’t hug you like we want, but we can express our concerns and I really don’t see people being hateful. Honey you had a heart attack. These people saying you need to go inpatient are not being mean to you. they are so so worried about you babe. Shanny you really are at the point of life or death…and we all love you so much. But some of the people in these comments are being so hostile and it’s clear that your best interest isn’t at heart. Because honest truly you need to be monitored, your vitals need to be checked and monitored routinely. You could still be a mom hon, go to intensive therapy or inpatient or something. But doing what you’re doing now doesn’t seem to be working babe. And this comes from a place of a lot of love. I just don’t want to log on here and see a tribute video soon. We may not know you like you say we need to to share our feelings but I feel like you’ve shared so much with us that we know part of you. And at least part of you is screaming for help. Honey go get help 😢❤️🫶🏻
YES. THIS.
@@lizabethfeig1705I’ve said this to her so many times, only to have her lash out at me in videos, to the point I just stopped watching. This is actually the first time I’ve come to check on her in a few years, and I see nothing has changed. 🤷🏼♀️
Do not get caught in shame. It is not your fault. None of it is your fault. I know it still hurts, and at the same time, it is over. I know it doesn't stop it from affecting you now, but you did the best you could then, and you are doing the best you can now.
I know how much infertility hurts. But somehow, our lives have value. It's so hard when we can't raise kids when it's all we want, but somehow, we have to find a way to raise ourselves, to treat us as those children we desire, to love and care for them, to hold compassion. You are the child who needs love and support. By caring for yourself, you are mothering. In some supernatural way. You can be a mother without being one physically. I know it's not the same, but it really does mean something. You were that child that needed protection, and you didn't have it, and now all you can do is somehow try to do that for yourself. Be that amazing mother you are in how you treat others and how you treat yourself. And have compassion for yourself as you would that child who wasn't protected.
I also want to say that I know the haters hurt you, but they are such a minority and it really is not about you. I can tell you honestly, I have never and will never look at some reddit bashing you, a person that these people don't know. It baffles me that people get so obsessed with someone online and treat them as some vague figure to criticize and despise. You are an actual person with an actual story. Real, good people are not obsessing over your every little slip-up or mistake. It's actually ridiculous that people spend time destroying people online. It is literally narcissistic and abusive behavior. These people are hurting and sick. It's not about you. I know it's painful, but it isn't personal, even if they act like it is. They are using you as the justification for their wrath, but they are ultimately destroying themselves, giving themselves over to darkness, do not let them take you down with them.
I adore you. You are not condemned for your pain.
Inpatient therapy - can’t imagine why you don’t do this - go to the meadows in Arizona and get better for the rest of your life . They can teach you to function in life . Remuda ranch used to be a separate facility that saved my life and now it’s a part of the meadows.
Mcclean hospital is a top notch center for borderline disorder . Get your family to pitch in and spend your money 💴 n getting better for real .
Great for YOU.But why you think you're an authority on someone else's life is beyond me...
@catherinemitchell3721Peer support in a confidential setting is what makes inpatient recovery more helpful in most cases than going it alone again and again with your body taking a beating every time. We are not therapists, nor family; as much as we love Shanny, we can't fill those spaces.
Shanny, so many of us want to see you strong. To launch into 40 with a new start trying things you haven't before....give things we have suggested a chance. We are still here, honey, because it worked for us.. You're still here because you're stubborn
Lol
You are precious
Treat yourself as such.
Think of that little girl in your childhood video. What would she want for you?
❤❤
I'm speaking only of your relapse. I don't GAF about reddit whatever happened there.
Can’t imagine why you’re judging her for not doing it. This isn’t your life. I’m happy it was helpful to you, but you don’t get to tell her what to do. 1:05
You guys (Catherine and weeping willow) aren’t helping her either. At all. Why are you guys all attacking people that are saying this? Its true. Sometimes the truth isn’t what we want to hear. Shanny is really sick. She does need help. “It won’t work for me” comes from a place of denial for getting better. That’s ED talking. Shanny now more than ever needs someone to step in, she had a heart attack…do you realize she could die at any moment…?? Do you actually care about her? Because this is not how you show it.
I'm 40. I know several people who are our age who are just now starting families. Go in patient and get better! It's not too late.
Exactly ! I didn't even meet my husband until he was 40 years old. He's 51 and we just bought a farm with our 6 year old! I get that birthing natural children has a window, but being and becoming a parent can happen at any age.
Go outside. Go ride a bike. Go look at something beautiful in nature. Get some sun. You must get out of your head. Volunteer. Find a part-time job. Internet drama isn't what matters in this life. Sing songs, your voice is AMAZING! Go for a hike. Look at the changing leaves on the trees. From one clinically depressed person to another, GO OUTSIDE.
Yes, outside often, get exercise doing things you LOVE, drastically reduce or STOP social media use altogether (ideal it seems) and get long-term intensive therapy to address trauma background and build positive self-esteem and self-awareness. For herself, not for anyone else or to show us online.
Shanny is on the cusp of being fully agoraphobic. Don't you get that? Being outside might lower YOUR blood pressure and brighten YOUR mood, but it doesn't do that for people like Shanny. Her trauma and behaviours won't be rectified with a camping trip and a brisk walk- she's very ill.
She needs real help at this point- and that means nothing that might retraumatize her or make her mood worse, or deter her from seeking help. This isn't a fleeting low mood or minor depression. Again, don't you get that? have you not been listening to her?
Perhaps one day she'll build exercise into her recovery, but it's not therapeutic if you're doing things only to please outdoorsy extroverts who think walking is the cure for everything.
I'm sorry, but I'm sick of oversimplifications of complex illness and this all too prevalent obsession with nature as therapy.
She needs to go to a facility at this point period. If her vitals are that bad like you’re claiming then she need to be routinely monitored throughout the day.
Like I say? Shanny nearly died. She knows, and we all know, she's in bad shape. And yes, I think intensive inpatient is her best option, but you can force, badger or bully her into it. That is straight up controlling and guaranteed to fail, and it's not your place because you're a stranger on the internet, not her family.
Go look at every single one of my comments. Not one has been rude. Just because people suggest something she doesn’t want to hear doesn’t mean it’s rude. I don’t see one person on here that suggested inpatient being ugly towards her. But I see a lot of people jumping down others throats for just suggesting inpatient treatment. Do you guys actually want Shanny to get better? Because being hostile and rude to legitimate and genuine suggestions is not it. If she’s surrounded by people like that in real life it’s no wonder she’s still so so sick.
I really think inpatient help sould help significantly and i understand not wanting to go ive been there ❤ you have to do anything to stop this cycle before its too late ❤ im so sorry you are hurting
I just don’t want anything to happen to her. I am worried about her.
Please advocate for inpatient treatment and then long term supports. Make lasting change for yourself because you do deserve it but you need to truly understand that. Cognitive behavior therapy could also be helpful if consistent. Wishing you all the best Shanny
CBT is NOT very effective for long term complex chronic mental illnesses and trauma is my experience and understanding. It is very effective for short term mild anxiety and depression. Again this is my experience and understanding. CBT is normally prescribed for a matter of weeks (6 weeks in the UK) this doesn't touch the sides when your mental illnesses have lasted decades and you are juggling multiple diagnosis and complex trauma. It is like putting a sticking plaster on a deep wound. Short term benefit. Long term it doesn't touch it. My experience personally is it teaches you coping skills to mask pain rather then address pain. The success of that doesn't last
You will just get told you are bullying her! This is crazy. I genuinely love Shanny but some of her fans are clearly not wanting her to get better. It’s so obvious they love the entertainment
@@User2h76wwj4 I truly hope and want for her to get better. I hope she knows she can get better with dedication to proper multi-fascited professional help.
@@User2h76wwj4yep. Been going on for years. I finally gave up and this is the first time I’ve checked on her in a few years. I see absolutely nothing has changed. And am I the only one who remembers Danny’s video, basically cussing everyone out and telling us how “wrong” we were? And how she’s better w out going to treatment, etc? I’ve always wondered if he feels like he should apologize for that, because I definitely feel like he should.
@@Badfishtooo 10000% agree with you. I think this whole situation is beyond childish and immature and it’s crazy to me that nobody with a brain has stepped in and said ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.
I'm deeply sorry you are going through this. It's so hard to go on after childhood trauma. Some people will never understand. I know how hard it is to endure a relapse and all the thoughts that go along with it. Your life has a purpose, Shanny. You cannot know how many people you have helped. Please, hang in there. So many people love you.
😢 I'm so sorry you are going through this. You deserve to be happy and healthy 💜
I’ve been falling heavily back into old habits too (OCD), and I journaled in the time I was doing better. I made a list of coping skills in that time and read some of those journal entries. I see that version of me as a mentor and example of what I can do. It’s so so hard but at least motivated me again to set little goals. I’ve also been learning so much about trauma lately and it’s been so eye-opening and validating. You deserve so much self-compassion. I can’t imagine how hard it is while dealing with outside opinions. Sending you all the love. ❤️❤️❤️
I suffer from ocd as well. Its so fucking hard. Mine is real event ocd btw. Its been 5 years i think. All I do is try to keep myself busy and not ruminate. I'm having compulsions even now. But yeah not ruminating is actually beneficial in the long run. I hope we can free ourselves from ocd.
NOW is the TIME to get STRONG and fight for your LIFE! Only YOU can help yourself!!!!❤❤❤
Awe hun, I know you want to be a mom. There are thousands of children,teens, babies praying for homes in foster care. Never rule that out when you’re ready! Who cares about spreading your DNA when somebody would just want to be loved now. Just think about it. ❤
Your life will NOT be over at the age of 40! (Believe me - I'm 42) 😉 You can still have kids, be there for others and have a beautiful life! Love from Germany, Shannen! ❤❤❤
i miss my little self too. she was so sweet so innocent so shy and now i feel like im an awful monster. i have addictions, i hurt people. and when i see pictures of my little self it makes me so sad. she didnt deserve to go through what she went through. when i see her i cant even believe it was actually me. im sorry little girl, i love you
You were such a gorgeous kid (and now a gorgeous adult). I can relate to you SO MUCH about the self blame and asking “what happened”? It’s so difficult, but you need to accept that this HAPPENED, you did what you could back then to SURVIVE, and you’ve come out alive with a STORY TO TELL. I’ll say it until I’m blue in the face: you are an inspiration. You are a wonderful person and you try so hard (though I wish you’d care more about yourself than you do others-it’s a great quality to have BUT YOU NEED TO FIND BALANCE). I’m so proud of you for uploading this video. That alone proves how much of a bad ass you are 🙌🏻
Oh Shanny.. I’m so sorry. You’re so strong. I love you.🩵
She’s been 30 to more years of miserable eating disorder and suffering is she ever gonna get better
She does not fully WANT to get better or she would go inpatient. She has to truly truly want to get better, to get better. It feels safe to be sick
this. 😢 ^^^
@@emilys4235 Projection 🤔?( How do you KNOW?And how does your comment help?)
@@catherinemitchell3721 Tough love? Also inpatient is an option she's never tried, so... if you want to save your life then wouldn't you do anything possible?
@@kristyn4088 Again,you are entitled to your opinion; but Shanny has free will.She,and she alone has to make & live with whatever decisions she makes."Inpatient treatment " is NOT a cure all. It can be extremely traumatising...
Shanny has mentioned before that they can't afford inpatient. It isn't all about whether she wants to be well, it's also about whether it is feasible given the restrictions around access!
I haven’t watched any of your videos in a while, but I think of you every day. This just popped up on my notifications and I had to watch. Shanny your videos have helped me want to heal and get better. I’ve been purge free for a really good amount of time, a lot of it is thanks to you! YOU DESERVE HEALING! YOU CAN DO IT! But like many have said I think inpatient would be the best place for you right now. I know it’s hard and you’ve been through so so much but the little girl in you, and the grown woman in you deserve to be happy and healthy and FREE! I too do not want to lose you! You can have the happy life, healing and getting healthy is HARD AND SCARY BUT YOU CAN DO IT! sending you all the love and prayers!
I think it would be a great idea for you to stop sharing it on RUclips. I genuinely believe it is detrimental to your health. I watched you many, many years ago -- back when I was actively bingeing and purging. I started at 15 years old. I honestly don't know when I stopped, but it has been years now. I felt like it would never end. When I stopped watching ED content and surrounding myself with other ED-related material, it certainly helped. I'm almost 40 now. It's so, so sad to know that some of the people who struggled back when I did still are.
When was your last inpatient stay? As a psych nurse and recovered anorexic, inpatient is the only thing that works. This is an addiction and outpatient never works. If it’s been a while since inpatient it’s time to go back.
She refuses to try any inpatient treatment centers at all. She has never done an inpatient stay outside of an ER visit.
*hugs* I'm sorry you're struggling so badly.
What is the point of this channel? It's like groundhog day for 10 years. Same thing, over and over. "Shit or get off the pot" as they say.
Big hugs to you, sweet shanny. Please don't give up; you are loved!!!
I really feel like you have C-PTSD. You're stuck in trauma and using Bulimia to cope. You've had many further traumas in adulthood and you have not been able to fully develop the skills to manage the emotions in the moment and afterwards. It just keeps re-traumatising you. I have C-PTSD and I know that it is extremely difficult to cope with. I've been doing EMDR and it's completely changed my life. Even if you don't have C-PTSD specifically, you have a lot of trauma and EMDR is made to treat trauma.
I feel that while ever you are stuck in your trauma, Bulimia is going to be a major issue. It's a band-aid on deeper underlying issues that haven't been processed.
I do think that it would be extremely beneficial for you to focus on yourself fully for a change. Don't put your energy in to YT videos for us. Do it for you. We want you to be well and happy. I feel like if you need to share things with us, you might consider doing a private insta account that has only real supporters and friends following, where you can get the kind of genuine help and kindness you need, and, put everything else on hold. Your fun TikTok is of course an exception if you can do nice things for yourself that make you happy and you want to share.
Coming up to 40 is a time of reflection. I turned 40 at the end of last year and i can honestly say that making the choice to live for my own happiness and do what I needed to do, has made me happier than I've ever been. Therapy helped that a lot, of course, but that choice was also my own. I chose my therapist and she's helped me to finally put to rest decades of traumatic events. Finally processing it and making my brain file it in the correct place so it can't bother me anymore.
You are loved and I truly hope that you can see your worth when you look at the wonderful, kind little girl who grew up to be a wonderful, kind, funny, so talented, generous, spirited, strong and determined adult. 💜💜
I love you Shanny ...if you do decide to leave...Oh my GOD i will miss you HONEY...I WISH YOU WOULD ADDRESS YOUR HYPERSENSITIVITY..STAY AWAY FROM COMMENT...LEARN TO PUT BARRIERS AROUND YOURSELF TO KEEP IT OUT NEGATIVITY ATTRACT NEGATIVE...YOU ARE A SPECIAL SPECIAL LADY❤... NOBODY LOVES HARDER THEN HUMANS LIKE YOU...I SURROUND YOU WITH THE PURE WHITE BRIGHTNESS OF LOVE...❤️❤️❤️❤️😊
There is no time limit on grief (something I recently learned), and the stages are not linear. I'm sorry you're hurting so much. My cat just reached out to pet you on the phone! ❤
Considering your other diagnosis of schizo-affective disorder, which you must be under a regular mental health team follow-up for, I am surprised that they have not stepped in i.e. if your are vomiting, then you are probably not absorbing your antipsychotic medication and thus it is inevitable you will end up with a full-blown psychotic episode that needs urgent treatment. You must get in touch with them to tell them about your ED relapse, as they can help with this too - you have a dual diagnosis that must be taken into consideration.
Shanny, please avoid triggers. Your childhood is a sure-fire trigger.
I'm 48 now and I can't tell how many times I have relapsed. Be proud for the days, weeks, months you have mastered without doing it. Each day we get the change to start fresh. ❤ And please, stay away from stuff that hurts you. You don't have to read mean/angry messages!
If you want to open up and tell everyone how you feel about politics, religion and the world, then go for it. You will get backlash for it, because when it comes to politics your opinions and support have actual consequences for others. I think you know that saying openly that you support Trump would be a terrible idea, but maybe you feel you can explain that view somehow? I'd be really interested to know what could motivate you to vote for such a terrible person.
I’m guessing that she does support trump because people afraid of being open about it are usually conservative. I’ve always loved that shanny was never about politics, religion or any of that because it creates such evil /: I know she’s Mormon and I’m heavily against that being a gay person myself but it doesn’t bother me because I feel like shanny doesn’t push it or spread hate. Unfortunately if she starts spreading dangerous speech about politics I will have to unsubscribe
❤️🇺🇲TRUMP🇺🇲❤️
IN GOD I TRUST...❤️🌎❤️
@@velvet_nothing_4633 He's not terrible honey...Your just ignorant... Who could possibly think that your opinion matters...
@@karenwencke5511 He's racist, homophobic, transphobic and misogynistic. Are those things you are okay with?
@@karenwencke5511Karen, I seriously encourage you to use some critical thinking skills
You can be a great mommy for little shanny & who knows someday for another child & for your birds of course🥺❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹 Lots of healing for you and everyone hurting, we love you so much, you got this💪🏻🥺❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹✨️
I am so sorry you are going through this. I can definitely relate. I am in a relapse myself.
Hey Shanny! I just had a dream about you! It's okay Shanny. If you can get back on the wagon in the past you can do it again! It's okay to slip up, as long as you get back up. Would it be helpful to either get rid of the videos or see them with Danny?
It sounds like you've got multiple triggers going on. You've also been under a lot of stress and yes a traumatic situations. It might help while you aren't in a safe place to keep these videos away? It's nice to revisit the past as long as it's not triggering us.
I don't have an eating disorder so I can't possibly understand the magnitude of what you are going through.
I am someone who has dealt with self-heal which isn't the same thing but I am sure has similar qualities and relapses. I've definitely relapsed myself on that end as of recent but it's getting better.
I know I don't watch your videos a ton but I do support you.
I would also encourage you to not read what reddit says. Easier said that done.
It's been so many years like get help
always sending you strength and love ♡
I'll always support you and won't leave, and Jesus never leaves either. Please get in patient help, sister 🙏 I Love you.
It makes me so sad to see you still suffering so badly from your childhood, unfortunately our childhood affects us so much, my self confidence is still broken because of my childhood and it's not easy to change it. I realise my words wont affect you but still telling you that you are beautiful and and amazing and that you are worth it, you deserve joy, freedom, life.
Shanny, you are a good person. I know the struggle you have with ED is hard on you. You must do all you can to work through your past and put in in the past. You can’t do this alone. You need the people close to you to be part of your treatment. The type of treatment you get must be the type you want whether it is inpatient, intensive outpatient or any other form. I hope you are talking with your Therapist if you have one. Include Danny at the right time. You deserve to be free of your addiction and happy. I have been an Addiction Counselor and I am aware how difficult it is to be in a constant fight for survival and normalcy. You can have the life you want if you seek the treatment that you feel will hep you confront your past trauma that are the source of all your difficulties. You are never alone as long as one person cares about you and your faith no matter what form that takes. You are loved and cared about by all of us who support your efforts to heal.
Wow, are we still doing this? Go to inpatient, for Gods sake. I think you like this, tbh.
Praying you feel better. Im so sorry you're going through this.
Hi,Shanny.People that dont have an eating disorder dont understand what you are going thru.I had a relapse about a year ago.Everytime i see my oncologist he keeps on asking me if iam over my eating disorder.I even have had a therapist tell me that my eating disorder was a choice.There are so many people,docters out there who are so ignorant!!!!!Please dont stop trying.I need you to be strong!!!!!
Oh honey, I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. You’re a beautiful soul and I love you. Praying for you and what you…💜🤗❤️ And I would say “you be you” on your videos and if it gets too hard, leave. But let that decision be yours not anyone else’s. Love you.
@EDucating Shanny~I don’t know much about ED but a lot of people are saying that maybe you should go into in-patient treatment for it. I’m not sure that you could swing it or not. Take care.,,,💜
I’m so proud of you baby! You have been going through so much and I know that you can do this and whatever else you want to accomplish! I love you! ❤
Sending so much love from the universe. I am about to turn 40 as well, and have been having a lot of these types of moments as well. It's really effing hard. I couldn't even imagine having so many other people, especially people I don;t know, analyzing my life and every move. I do it enough to myself, and I say this with sincerity from my own experience, that removing the aspect of being a public person is something to consider. I know you use this platform to help people and yourself, but it's hard to stay away from the line of thinking when it is out there, tempting you to be triggered this way. I have more concise thoughts, but it's hard to discuss this as a one way comment, and not a chat. Anyhow, you are loved, you are worthy, and you are beautiful inside and out.
I'm turning 40 at the end of the next month. I'm a little scared.
Shanny, my heart is so sad to see you struggling as deeply as you are right now. You are sincerely a beautiful person.... I have been with your channel since the beginning. Many years ago, you grew your channel by tens of thousands, when you used to post almost daily videos with a set, weekly plan: Motivational Monday, Topic Tuesday, Wednesday ED update, Q&A Thursday, and Fun Friday! You did that on your channel for a long time, and it was GREAT!! It would be wonderful if you could go back to some type of regular format, when you feel stronger and are in a better "place". Love you, and I will be praying for you. {Hug}! ❤️ Bethanne
Don't give up. This is your life, so be who you want to be. If this isn't who you want to be, then do better, but don't give up!! You've helped many people, and you will continue to do so.❤
I sorry you are going through this, but I will never stop supporting you ❤❤❤
That little girl…….. she’s still in there. Hold her. Heal her. Tell her it was not her fault. This might seem strange, but it’s just an idea. Stand in front of a mirror and picture her. When you can see her, talk to her. Tell her everything you wish she would have heard then. I’m no therapist, but it could help. Stay strong. We love you, and you’ve got this. 💙🦋🩵
Hi shanny, we've been watching since 2018. Im proud of you for posting this, and for trying to stay away from the toxicity. You still are that little girl, youre a good person, and you know who you are inside. Thats worth more and more important than any video you could make to prove it, and prove it to the internet at that.
I know im some rando giving my unwarranted opinion but i think one of the best things to try is to be yourself as unapologetically as possible. You dont need to keep worrying so much about what your audience wants, what anyone online wants to see, because there will always be people you cannot please. I think you should go back to what you wanted to do a while ago, making your channel be more than just EDs, making content that makes you happy and makes you feel like yourself. I dont know anything about your real life off camera but i know from what we've watched throughout the years youve always seemed the most yourself when youre sharing things you love. Silly videos, challenges, reactions, day in the life, art and music, videos with danny. I think especially now in recovery again its more important than ever to remind yourself what you love to do and why, and find all those reasons again that youve wanted to get better.
We love you and we're here for you.
- frank
Recovery is never a one way street, there can be ups and downs but its never too late to get back on track :)
Shanny I feel you. I feel and think the same about myself in terms of the ED stuff. For real. What happened to the little me? After all those years eating disorder shit, shouldn't I for God's sake be done with ED? The other things you have to go through I am so sorry for you. I feel with you. You are loved. I am here for you.
You are an incredibly strong woman shanny. None of this is your fault. You are a kickass fighter. Hate to see upset and crying. I wish i could hug you right now. Really hope you feel better soon. You are a beautiful person. You don't need or deserve to be picked apart. Love you and what you stand for. I believe you and believe in you
Im sorry you are struggling so much shanny, please dont give up
Sending love and hugs to you! Love you, Shanny!
Please do inpatient, Shanny. You can recover and get better. It’s never too late. ❤
Sweet Shanny, pursue your dreams ! Life is nowhere near over at 40. You´ve been able to get better before, don´t give up now
I want to hug you ❤ Love you so much , you are incredibly strong.❤
All my love Shanny, youre not alone. I’m struggling how i ended up here too.. But i’m happy youre still here♥️ gives us more chances to keep trying
I've been stuggling too. I'm so sorry this is how things have been for you. It breaks my heart. I've followed on and off for several years now. I dont know your full story, but ive always related a lot to your videos and it has meant a lot to me. Thank you for opening up as much as you have. Please dont let rude people hold you back ❤
Politics...yikes. I tend to see political views as answers to particular questions, and we may not even have found those answers, yet. I mean, we can't have with so much fear and anger out there. I think we need to get back to basics: human to human. Sending love.
Its very brave to share when you are this vulnerable hun. To let people see the truth of what you are going through. I relate to getting older thinking this is my life?! Where I am now?! It is hard suffering for so long -decades and trauma. I love you. You don't know me but in quite a real way I know you (following your journey since it first began and sharing many things in common -bpd, bulimia, childhood trauma, sexual abuse, depression, anxiety, ptsd, vaginismus, am also bi and Christian) I know you and I love you xxx
Praying for you. Jesus loves you so much. ❤❤❤
Oh Shanny, I just want to give you a massive warm hug. Your existence is always valid, regardless of where you are at in life💕 It's something I've been struggling with due to my chronic illnesses. Lately, I've come to a realisation of, if I don't think others should suffer and are valid of care and love, why then would I spend my energy into doing the opposite for myself. You deserve to take up space for yourself and give your beautiful caring love to yourself. I know it's soo hard, it's something I'm starting to do with therapy but I know you can get there. You can always be the mum of your childhood self 🌷 You are such a beautiful soul who deserves all of the healing and peace 💕🕊 Love you soo much beautiful 🌹💕
♥️♥️❤️🩹❤️🩹♥️♥️🙏🏻🫂 love and strong prayers sweetheart. You’re not alone in this struggle🫶🏼
Love Kimberly
lets just keep recovering because EDs are not going away anytime soon and you can still educate those on long terms effects and show your journey to the other side! i still have hope for you. keep praying and going to therapy. guard your heart and stop purging before your body gives out. love you shannon ruclips.net/video/dHg50mdODFM/видео.htmlsi=Muqv0TiyGP1jB3JM
You went back to a place where to had control....Huggs Tomorrow can be different if you want it to be ...And if not tomorrow the next day ...Be kind to you ..
Precious Shanny...just sending hugs🥺💜💞..I've been there- and sometimes still fall back.Deep breathes darlin...YOU are loved xxx🌻💖
I love you Shanny! You are in my thoughts and I’m sending all the good vibes I can. You have such a generous and kind heart 💜 if there is anything we can do to help you, please reach out! With everything you give and do for your community and friends, you have our support and love. Stay strong!!!
Hang in there, go easy on yourself. And remember, hurt people hurt people… ❤
Stay strong, Shanny. You've got this. Watch what brings you good memories, avoid what doesn't. Don't let age throw you into a panic, easier said than done I know. You can't change the past, and what happened to you was out of your control. Do not blame yourself and try not to think about a redo on anything, because we can't.
I'm so sorry about everyone calling it and no one being surprised, and what ED is doing to you. But I'm cheering you on for the surprise. I'm cheering you on to find a new safe space, a new comfort zone to fall into when things happen.
I wish everyone could be supportive, or just keep their mouths shut. You have soo many supporters, we just need to hear from them only. I wish we could all filter that out.
We love you and want nothing but the best for you ❤you are such a caring person who wants nothing but the best for everyone else. We want that for you! Stay strong
For my current MA I have three classes this semester so have missed your Saturday livestreams because of heavy college work requirements I do on Saturday after my gym workouts.
my mum is a natural family planning practiotioner. there are women inthe 40's all the time getting pregnant. im 37 with a 1 year old. its never too late and there is other options too x you can beat this ❤
Dear Shanny, you need a break. Come see me in Idaho.
Honey you had heart attack. You need to go to hospital for treatment.
People cannot judge because they are blinded by their own flaws!
I'm sorry for you feeling so miserly. I wish there's a magic pill to fix everything. And yes it's a bummer when you going to bee ok a little while and then you breaking down. And you know what? It's ok! You have been suffering so much and most of it is because you feel guilty and have sorrow for not be "normal" successful life. As you watching the others around you getting successful. And you hate yourself and guilt for it. I don't suffering the same as you do. But I also have alot of what I call a shadow side. So what I can try to give you a tips. And it's about you need to find a way to start to love yourself. Jesus loves you, but you need to love yourself. And that's the hardest part to get better. I think you can do it. I believe you can do it. Stay in there beautiful Unicorn Shannin 💖✨
be strong sweet shan be strong!!
Shanny hang in there thinking of you ❤️ you deserve peace from your pain. I pray for your happiness ❤ love your videos
Please stay strong, dear one… for me.
Look in the mirror lovely Shanny and she'll be right there, that sweetheart little girl with the good heart. We all love her. Please do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself right now ♡
can you try to be nicer to yourself? obviously you are still hurt. please remember YOU ARE HERE YOU ARE KIND AND BEAUTIFUL ❤ YOUR ALIVE REMEMBER THAT
I love you so much, Shanny
I feel really silly asking this but is there a way to message you? I wasn’t sure if you are okay with being messaged and if so if there is a way? I promise I only have kind words. I have my own story/struggle and I was wondering if maybe you’d be interested in talking. I’m so sorry you are dealing with this ❤
youve done it before you can do it again!!! progress is progress no matter how big or small
Sending you love my angel ❤
Healing isn't a straight-line. Healing doesn't come with a deadline you need to reach in a certain amount of time. It takes years. It's not just a snap of the finger quick fix.
💚 ❤️ You got this, sweetie! I'm a 100% true Christian ✝️ I believe God does things for a reason. Hunni, I'm here if you just need to ask questions? Or vent. I suffer from a thyroid issue to where I can't gain wait. I got down, too, 90lbs. I know kinda what you're going through. From this day, my BPD has taken me back to when I was 16 years old with an ex... ptsd is horrible as well... It's going to all work it's self out. Pray pray.. I'll pray for you and your husband. God's never going anywhere, and it's nice to vent to him and thank him. Bless you, sweetheart 🙌
Numbers and mention of weight can be super triggering to people with EDs. Since Shanny has one as do many of the people watching her vids, I kindly ask for you to not include numbers in your responses. Thank you so much. 😊
I am not MIA for weeks up until now, I missed the Saturday streams due to college work, I made a point of looking for you on RUclips today.
Sweet Shanny I hope you get to read this ❤❤ Theres a saying that goes "Do not give permanent feelings to temporary people" Others opinions should not change your opinion of yourself. God as called us to Love one another,he did not call us to impress them or make them aprove of us. . I know how toxic the internet can be. I know its difficult when you're an empath and you feel such a strong responsibility to help others but please put yourself first. We can't pour from an empty cup. Surround yourself with those who love and a except you, and will also be honest with you when it matters the most. Honesty does not equal cruelty. Those 2 things should Never be synonymous with each other especially when it comes to Ed, mental health and addiction. Examine yourself and see if there is a change that you need to make that you haven't yet tried. No one can say whether impatient would be better for you other than yourself and the professionals in your life. But somthing different may be what is needed.
When it comes to being you and expressing the things that you are passionate about you should not have to edit yourself for anyone. People should either love you for who you are or they can move on. You can be the kindest person in the world but someone will still not like you. I know exactly how it feels want to be love and accept you for who you are. The thing is you are loved and accepted by the people that matter. Be you and say how you feel because the people that matter won't mind and the people that do mind don't matter !! Sending you love,prayers and support ❤❤❤
Good to see you again but sorry youre struggling.