Shanny, I have to say I'm so proud that you were able to admit and acknowledge that you have been feeling like you didn't want to fully recover. That is not somthing that is easy to admit to yourself, let alone others. In any program, the 1 step is to admit you have a problem and that you are not in control. Aftet all you can not address's and work on somthing you are not able to admit is an issue, and you HAVE🎉! That's something to celebrate. I do have a small request if possible as I would love to follow along. If it's possible to add a warning at the beginning or wherever you feel is appropriate when you are discussing ED behaviors or the amount of times a day? I know it would be helpful to myself and others. This is your channel, so please don't think I'm telling you what to do as we are all responsible for our own triggers. I know you care deeply for all of us and wanted to ask with all the love and respect in the world. Not out of judgment at all, but truely, because I want to be here to support you and being prepared for that may help myself and others as well. Sending prayers and Love. You got this girl !!❤❤
A few years ago you saved my life. I don’t subscribe anymore to avoid any possible triggers but I just wanted to check back and say thank you. I am 4 years in to recovery and now I can be here for my children. Thank you so much for the gift you gave us. Please get well again for us, you can do it.
Shanny, I feel like it is a step to acknowledge that you don’t want to get better and you know why you don’t want to get better, seriously self awareness is huge. I also wanted to say, you don’t have to tell us (or anyone besides a therapist I would suggest) until you are completely ready to. I’m so proud of you. You are loved.
You’re awesome. I went through the worst of it when I was 15. I’m 30 now and breastfeeding. I’m eating a lot of fats and meats and all of the things I’ve always been afraid of to breastfeed my son and I literally don’t think this would be possible if it wasn’t for you, I watched you when I was young and I watch you off and on now. I have had relapses but haven’t since my pregnancy and birth. I’m on an eating plan and I’m following it and then some and gaining weight and watching my body change. Watching you has helped me and I’ll just say I’m not even sure if I would’ve been here if 20 year old me wouldn’t have found you.
i love that mantra you did during the trigger food/fear food series "just because you could, doesnt mean you should". it actually helps my wife a lot with her binge eating! you know what works for you and lets do it again to completion!! look at that beautiful rainbow board and maybe it keep it out so you can see it throughout the day
I love you so much, Shanny! You inspire me to try to figure out my reason why I don't want to fully recover. I don't know why yet. But I'll try to figure it out. I'm stumped!
Hey chicky 😊 Ive never left a comment on any of your videos before but ive been here, watching from the shadows, silently sending you much love, prayer and positivity. Im typing this from my hospital bed tonight. A mental health/ ED crisis landed me here 5 days ago. I just wanted to say .... well, to be honest, I don't even know what I want to say. Ever feel so mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted that even finding words is overwhelming? Yeah. That's me tonight. But ... I want to say that I am so freaking proud of you in this moment and that im rooting for you. It takes a lot of courage and strength to do this stuff. You've done it before so you know you CAN do it. I believe in you!! ❤
With all the love and respect you are owed. Get professional outside help. I say this as someone who is struggling with a similar mindset of I can do it myself if I try hard enough, but the last few months I realized as strong as I am God put other humans around us so we have help when we can't do it ourselves. RUclips is great to have a community but because we have no control over what you do and that's a safety net for dysfunction because we can take what we want and leave the rest. YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THIS AND STRONG ENOUGH TO GET HELP TO MAKE YOUR RECOVERY LAST.
if you're unable to speak to your therapist, you can try writing her a letter and emailing it or handing it to them in person. i did that with a traumatic and difficult to talk about Thing i couldn't start a conversation about, and the letter made talking a lot easier.
Please know that my girlfriend and I have been big fans of you and your channel, for a few years. We love you and follow all your progress. That is also why we were really shocked when you almost died, twice! And both my girlfriend and I say that you really don't have the "luxury" of putting this off or taking your time for it. YOU DON'T HAVE TIME ANYMORE! Sorry to be so harsh. It is THAT urgent. And know that you are SO worth it, and we all, especially Danny and your mother will miss you SO MUCH! You have to STOP this behavior, right now. Just think about when Danny would die, how awful would you feel, how much that would hurt. Now realize that he will feel the same pain and despair. We both bag you, to stop this behavior, Lots of love, Leon and Judith
Also, also, journaling your progress can help any sort of mental struggle. I also know the feeling of not wanting to become fully better. Lots of people struggle with this, so you're definitely not alone. EDs come from a lot of shame, guilt, grief, and pain. It can take so much work to kick the roots of an ED out, and so many people just don't have the tools, strength, and capacity to recover fully. Regardless of the reasons why, just acknowledging them is a great step in the right direction. I'm proud of you for going to therapy for this issue! That is huge. I hope you are able to work on it and that this does help you process whatever it is you're dealing with 💜
I'm sorry how are you getting this comparison? One person can't even admit she has an ED let alone seak help for it. While Shanny is admitting her flaws and getting professional help. Just because it's not inpatient doesn't mean she's not taking accountability. You're free to your opinion but it's not an accurate comparison.
I have bipolar, ADHD, and PTSD. It is SO DAMN HARD. I have been diagnosed with BPD in the past. I understand a lot of what you’re going through. I’m not sure why some of us are cursed with such horrible mental illness. Some people have really difficult physical disabilities though. Life is hard.
Can you write down why you don't want to get fully better? Just for yourself if it is helpful to you. Sometimes writing can be a lot easier than saying it out loud. Maybe paint a picture of why. It might help to get it out in some way. (I don't know much, I've just painted how I've felt before and it helped me.)
Hey Shanny. I'm sorry you've been doing bad again, but I'm glad that you're still trying to keep going. Trauma and mental illness are always so hard to deal with, but because of the fact that you are still making plans to recover from the lows and the relapses also shows your desire to live despite also feeling in the moment that you don't want to continue living. Life is really hard, and everything can be so overwhelming. Wishing you the best. I'm not Christian, but I am Pagan, so I am still sending you prayers and hope from my faith and spirit 💜
Your budgie is so cute . I love birds. One of my best friends is a hen . Keep going, dear. One day at a time. You are very brave in a very hard situation. No matter how many times you fall, as long as you get up one more time, you are winning. Keeping you in prayer❤
This poem really helps me when i struggle maybe itll help you ❤️ When things go wrong, as they sometimes will, when the road you're trudging seems all uphill, when the funds are low and the debts are high, and you want to smile but you have to sigh, when care is pressing you down a bit - rest if you must, but don't you quit. Life is queer with its twists and turns. As everyone of us sometimes learns. And many a fellow turns about when he might have won had he stuck it out. Don't give up though the pace seems slow - you may succeed with another blow. Often the goal is nearer than it seems to a faint and faltering man; Often the struggler has given up when he might have captured the victor's cup; and he learned too late when the night came down, how close he was to the golden crown. Success is failure turned inside out - the silver tint of the clouds of doubt, and when you never can tell how close you are, it may be near when it seems afar; so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit - it's when things seem worst, you must not quit.
First off, your little Budgie is sooo cute! Second of all, you've absolutely got this Shanny 💪❤ An idea for the thing you're not able to speak out loud yet...would it help to write it down so you could show Danny and your new therapist? Recovery is always a very personal journey and as unique as the person suffering. You can and will do it again!! Sending love and healing vibes ❤ Xxx
Shanny, you do not know what works. If you did, you wouldn’t be neck deep in your ED 25 years later. You have not “done it” 5 times. You have just taken 5 short breaks. This is actually insane. You’re seeing the therapist and have this knew “why don’t I want it,” idea, because you’ll do and say anything to put off going to inpatient.
You can do it Shanny, I believe in you. You are a precious soul, strong, worthy, loving, creative, funny and you deserve all the good things in the world. Only you know what works for you and you can do it!!!❤❤❤
Hi Shanny 🌻So lovely to see you.I am here with you.Please just keep trying...I have been there.I was in my 40s before I truly began recovery from severe & enduring Anor*.It took years,but I can honestly say it's worth it.Sending love & strength to you💓🧡💚💜
I'd love videos like that. I haven't been diagnosed with an eating story, but my story is a little different. I'd love to share it and the positive negatives all that. ❤
Shanny, I left you a message once thanking you for talking to me on an Instagram live you did. I was in a DV situation and you talked to me . I was wondering if you ever got my thank you for that? Sending you prayers, love, and hugs. Yes only you knows what works for you. It’s kind of like my Grief problem. I can’t fully escape it, and when it comes on it’s a valley of highs and lows. I’m older than you so i understand you saying you felt like your depression symptoms feels like it’s getting worse. Mine feels the same way. I don’t know how I can be helped with the loss of my Mom. I’ll admit I’ve been anoxeric maybe after losing Mom. I might eat too much cake sometimes. But I don’t purge. Mostly my appetite is not a lot because I’m going through personal problems. My main point is my Grief is painful like your ED was. Sending you a lot of love. And Light. ❤❤❤
Would you consider getting a team of professionals such as a doctor, therapist, maybe pharmacist and nutritionist? And the EDA meetings, would you maybe do those again? Maybe it would be worth asking your doctor about this as well. I just feel like you need a little extra help this time Shanny. And I respect your decision to make your own bodily choices but I hope you understand that we genuinely care about you. I do feel like some of the comments I read on your last video were a bit condescending and rude. I think this just goes back and forth because I’m now seeing it here the other way around. However I think we all have the common thought of wanting you to get better. That’s the bottom line is that we all want to see you do this. And I guess I’m a far away concerned person for you 😢 it makes me sad but I understand it’s you that has to want this. I just hope you can really open up and let yourself get the help you deserve this time. We are all just really concerned for you dear! ❤️
Honestly? I think some people just have ableist ideas about who is "deserving" of a platform and that's what's behind the negative comments. That, and feeling powerless in our own lives. (Because don't we all.) Sending love and faith.
STOP LOOKING SO FREAKING CUTE SAHNNY 😍 Glad to see another video from you. I'll watch it later as a lil treat! Been watching your old videos and loved the decluttering videos! Very relatable and I got a lot out from them. Honestly selfishly I'd love more decluttering videos 🤭 Please take care, you bring so much beauty into this world Shanny, you're one of the good ones ❤
I will always and forever be rooting for you and support you. Remember to give yourself grace hun. ❤ Always proud of you no matter what. If you ever need anything let me know. I will msg you on insta.
Yeh you dont want to get better. Thats the eating disorder keeping its claws in you. It serves a function and without it you loose your cruch. Im the same. I know i need to recover and its not just ED iv got addictions as well and i know its killing me but i keep doing it and i have all the shame and im letting everyone down and failing my kids and all this crap but i keep doing it so im just a shit person. All the bad thoughts!! ugh!
Thank you for your support! Join along if you’d like! ❤❤❤
Shanny, I have to say I'm so proud that you were able to admit and acknowledge that you have been feeling like you didn't want to fully recover. That is not somthing that is easy to admit to yourself, let alone others. In any program, the 1 step is to admit you have a problem and that you are not in control. Aftet all you can not address's and work on somthing you are not able to admit is an issue, and you HAVE🎉! That's something to celebrate. I do have a small request if possible as I would love to follow along. If it's possible to add a warning at the beginning or wherever you feel is appropriate when you are discussing ED behaviors or the amount of times a day? I know it would be helpful to myself and others. This is your channel, so please don't think I'm telling you what to do as we are all responsible for our own triggers. I know you care deeply for all of us and wanted to ask with all the love and respect in the world. Not out of judgment at all, but truely, because I want to be here to support you and being prepared for that may help myself and others as well. Sending prayers and Love. You got this girl !!❤❤
A few years ago you saved my life. I don’t subscribe anymore to avoid any possible triggers but I just wanted to check back and say thank you. I am 4 years in to recovery and now I can be here for my children. Thank you so much for the gift you gave us. Please get well again for us, you can do it.
This vid made me consider recovery
Shanny, I feel like it is a step to acknowledge that you don’t want to get better and you know why you don’t want to get better, seriously self awareness is huge. I also wanted to say, you don’t have to tell us (or anyone besides a therapist I would suggest) until you are completely ready to. I’m so proud of you. You are loved.
You’re awesome. I went through the worst of it when I was 15. I’m 30 now and breastfeeding. I’m eating a lot of fats and meats and all of the things I’ve always been afraid of to breastfeed my son and I literally don’t think this would be possible if it wasn’t for you, I watched you when I was young and I watch you off and on now. I have had relapses but haven’t since my pregnancy and birth. I’m on an eating plan and I’m following it and then some and gaining weight and watching my body change. Watching you has helped me and I’ll just say I’m not even sure if I would’ve been here if 20 year old me wouldn’t have found you.
i love that mantra you did during the trigger food/fear food series "just because you could, doesnt mean you should". it actually helps my wife a lot with her binge eating! you know what works for you and lets do it again to completion!! look at that beautiful rainbow board and maybe it keep it out so you can see it throughout the day
Shanny you are such a ray of light even when you're feeling dark. Keep going! ❤
KIWI is so cute!
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I love you so much, Shanny! You inspire me to try to figure out my reason why I don't want to fully recover. I don't know why yet. But I'll try to figure it out. I'm stumped!
Hang in there Shanny, you can recover again. You are strong. You got this! I love you. ❤❤❤❤
Hey chicky 😊
Ive never left a comment on any of your videos before but ive been here, watching from the shadows, silently sending you much love, prayer and positivity. Im typing this from my hospital bed tonight. A mental health/ ED crisis landed me here 5 days ago. I just wanted to say .... well, to be honest, I don't even know what I want to say. Ever feel so mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted that even finding words is overwhelming? Yeah. That's me tonight. But ... I want to say that I am so freaking proud of you in this moment and that im rooting for you. It takes a lot of courage and strength to do this stuff. You've done it before so you know you CAN do it. I believe in you!! ❤
With all the love and respect you are owed. Get professional outside help. I say this as someone who is struggling with a similar mindset of I can do it myself if I try hard enough, but the last few months I realized as strong as I am God put other humans around us so we have help when we can't do it ourselves. RUclips is great to have a community but because we have no control over what you do and that's a safety net for dysfunction because we can take what we want and leave the rest. YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THIS AND STRONG ENOUGH TO GET HELP TO MAKE YOUR RECOVERY LAST.
if you're unable to speak to your therapist, you can try writing her a letter and emailing it or handing it to them in person. i did that with a traumatic and difficult to talk about Thing i couldn't start a conversation about, and the letter made talking a lot easier.
Please know that my girlfriend and I have been big fans of you and your channel, for a few years.
We love you and follow all your progress. That is also why we were really shocked when you
almost died, twice! And both my girlfriend and I say that you really don't have the "luxury" of putting this off or
taking your time for it.
YOU DON'T HAVE TIME ANYMORE!
Sorry to be so harsh. It is THAT urgent. And know that you are SO worth it, and we all, especially Danny and
your mother will miss you SO MUCH! You have to STOP this behavior, right now. Just think about when
Danny would die, how awful would you feel, how much that would hurt. Now realize that he will feel the
same pain and despair. We both bag you, to stop this behavior,
Lots of love,
Leon and Judith
I'm so proud of you! You got this, babe! I loved seeing you, Kiwi!
You got this! Eds are so tricky, I feel similar to you. I believe in you, even if you stumble keep going. Never give up girl. ❤❤❤❤
I am so proud of you!!! Sending you lots of love and hugs.
Also, also, journaling your progress can help any sort of mental struggle. I also know the feeling of not wanting to become fully better. Lots of people struggle with this, so you're definitely not alone. EDs come from a lot of shame, guilt, grief, and pain. It can take so much work to kick the roots of an ED out, and so many people just don't have the tools, strength, and capacity to recover fully. Regardless of the reasons why, just acknowledging them is a great step in the right direction. I'm proud of you for going to therapy for this issue! That is huge. I hope you are able to work on it and that this does help you process whatever it is you're dealing with 💜
You will overcome this love! Take it one step at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time. You are seen and heard and we will stand by you ❤
I'm so proud of you!
SO PROUD OF YOU!!! You can do this ❤
She sounds just like eugenia with how accountable she really is.
Just a different version of it. 🤷
I'm sorry how are you getting this comparison? One person can't even admit she has an ED let alone seak help for it. While Shanny is admitting her flaws and getting professional help. Just because it's not inpatient doesn't mean she's not taking accountability. You're free to your opinion but it's not an accurate comparison.
Well they both have a severe ED…
Shanny is the responsible version though.
I have bipolar, ADHD, and PTSD. It is SO DAMN HARD.
I have been diagnosed with BPD in the past.
I understand a lot of what you’re going through. I’m not sure why some of us are cursed with such horrible mental illness. Some people have really difficult physical disabilities though.
Life is hard.
I LOVE your presence here!! You have my support forever and for always, no matter what Shanny! Sending you SO much love! P.S. Kiwi is DARLING! :)
Anyone else screaming CLEAR ur throat throughout this whole video lol best of luck tho u got this❤
Yeah I have noticed as I have aged I don't notice the BDO as much anymore, but oh the bi polar loves to soar. I am 47. You've got this
So proud of you 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 you CAN do this. I’ve been in therapy for 7 years now and saved my life.
We love you , and you’ve got this! You can do it!
Can you write down why you don't want to get fully better? Just for yourself if it is helpful to you. Sometimes writing can be a lot easier than saying it out loud. Maybe paint a picture of why. It might help to get it out in some way. (I don't know much, I've just painted how I've felt before and it helped me.)
Hey Shanny. I'm sorry you've been doing bad again, but I'm glad that you're still trying to keep going. Trauma and mental illness are always so hard to deal with, but because of the fact that you are still making plans to recover from the lows and the relapses also shows your desire to live despite also feeling in the moment that you don't want to continue living. Life is really hard, and everything can be so overwhelming. Wishing you the best. I'm not Christian, but I am Pagan, so I am still sending you prayers and hope from my faith and spirit 💜
Keep going Shanny!! You got this♥️
Your budgie is so cute . I love birds. One of my best friends is a hen . Keep going, dear. One day at a time. You are very brave in a very hard situation. No matter how many times you fall, as long as you get up one more time, you are winning. Keeping you in prayer❤
Yay I believe in you !!
I will always support you! Kiwi is so cute. Give him a kiss for me.
Thank you! And I will ❤️🦜🥰
@@EDucating_Shanny💚💚💚
This poem really helps me when i struggle maybe itll help you ❤️
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
when the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
when the funds are low and the debts are high,
and you want to smile but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit - rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns.
As everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a fellow turns about when he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow - you may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than it seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up when he might have captured the victor's cup;
and he learned too late when the night came down,
how close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out - the silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
and when you never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems afar;
so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit - it's when things seem worst, you must not quit.
I love this! Thank you! ❤❤❤
Hang in there Shanny, you have recovered before, you can do it again. I'm cheering you on. You can do this. God bless you and your recovery.
Glad to see you are doing better!!!!
❤️🙏🍀 Rooting for you as always. Please stay away from that evil website. Glad you're feeling more hopeful.
Thank you! I will 😊😊😊❤❤❤
Good job Shanny, you can do this 🫶. Im here cheering you on and trying to work on myself too. Lots of love prayers and strengh from Sara 🙏💖
First off, your little Budgie is sooo cute! Second of all, you've absolutely got this Shanny 💪❤ An idea for the thing you're not able to speak out loud yet...would it help to write it down so you could show Danny and your new therapist? Recovery is always a very personal journey and as unique as the person suffering. You can and will do it again!! Sending love and healing vibes ❤ Xxx
Shanny, you do not know what works. If you did, you wouldn’t be neck deep in your ED 25 years later. You have not “done it” 5 times. You have just taken 5 short breaks. This is actually insane. You’re seeing the therapist and have this knew “why don’t I want it,” idea, because you’ll do and say anything to put off going to inpatient.
Never stop trying everyone goes to their own pace
You can do it Shanny, I believe in you. You are a precious soul, strong, worthy, loving, creative, funny and you deserve all the good things in the world. Only you know what works for you and you can do it!!!❤❤❤
Hi Shanny 🌻So lovely to see you.I am here with you.Please just keep trying...I have been there.I was in my 40s before I truly began recovery from severe & enduring Anor*.It took years,but I can honestly say it's worth it.Sending love & strength to you💓🧡💚💜
Always here on your side Shanny. ❤
I'm doing this with you, shanny. Let's get back on track! You're so strong!
pretty parakeet Shanny!!👀
I'd love videos like that. I haven't been diagnosed with an eating story, but my story is a little different. I'd love to share it and the positive negatives all that. ❤
I adore you. And I am so proud of you.
I adore YOU! Thank you, love. For everything ❤
Shanny, I left you a message once thanking you for talking to me on an Instagram live you did. I was in a DV situation and you talked to me . I was wondering if you ever got my thank you for that?
Sending you prayers, love, and hugs. Yes only you knows what works for you. It’s kind of like my Grief problem. I can’t fully escape it, and when it comes on it’s a valley of highs and lows. I’m older than you so i understand you saying you felt like your depression symptoms feels like it’s getting worse. Mine feels the same way. I don’t know how I can be helped with the loss of my Mom. I’ll admit I’ve been anoxeric maybe after losing Mom. I might eat too much cake sometimes. But I don’t purge. Mostly my appetite is not a lot because I’m going through personal problems. My main point is my Grief is painful like your ED was. Sending you a lot of love. And Light. ❤❤❤
Would you consider getting a team of professionals such as a doctor, therapist, maybe pharmacist and nutritionist? And the EDA meetings, would you maybe do those again? Maybe it would be worth asking your doctor about this as well. I just feel like you need a little extra help this time Shanny. And I respect your decision to make your own bodily choices but I hope you understand that we genuinely care about you. I do feel like some of the comments I read on your last video were a bit condescending and rude. I think this just goes back and forth because I’m now seeing it here the other way around. However I think we all have the common thought of wanting you to get better. That’s the bottom line is that we all want to see you do this. And I guess I’m a far away concerned person for you 😢 it makes me sad but I understand it’s you that has to want this. I just hope you can really open up and let yourself get the help you deserve this time. We are all just really concerned for you dear! ❤️
I promise that if you stay in therapy long term people will stop suggesting inpatient.
Not unless she actually makes an improvement which doesn’t seem possible given that she only goes to therapy sporadically.
@@LauraGoddard-i8xYeahhh that’s a trend I’ve noticed too. It’s very typical bipolar behavior.
I would know because I’m bipolar myself. 🫠
Honestly? I think some people just have ableist ideas about who is "deserving" of a platform and that's what's behind the negative comments. That, and feeling powerless in our own lives. (Because don't we all.) Sending love and faith.
You actually don’t know what works best for you because you have never recovered.
You’re so strong, Shanny.🩵
Thank you sweet girl! ❤❤❤
Great job baby girl I got your back and I know you can do this! I believe in you so much! I love you so much!
STOP LOOKING SO FREAKING CUTE SAHNNY 😍 Glad to see another video from you. I'll watch it later as a lil treat! Been watching your old videos and loved the decluttering videos! Very relatable and I got a lot out from them. Honestly selfishly I'd love more decluttering videos 🤭 Please take care, you bring so much beauty into this world Shanny, you're one of the good ones ❤
*Shanny ooops
@@Alexandraincognito that series might just come back one day! 😜
@@EDucating_ShannyYes pleaaase! 😁
@@Alexandraincognito 😏
Isn’t your husband utterly exhausted?
Nope I’m so happy to be her support and husband and to see her grow stronger and stronger everyday! ❤
@@danhaskell1090You are special person!!! I mean, Shanny is too but wow, y’all are really meant to be together!
I will always and forever be rooting for you and support you. Remember to give yourself grace hun. ❤ Always proud of you no matter what. If you ever need anything let me know. I will msg you on insta.
You got this💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻🥳🥳🥳❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹✨️
Thank you!! ❤
Every day is a fresh start! Believe in yourself.🤍
Yeh you dont want to get better. Thats the eating disorder keeping its claws in you. It serves a function and without it you loose your cruch. Im the same. I know i need to recover and its not just ED iv got addictions as well and i know its killing me but i keep doing it and i have all the shame and im letting everyone down and failing my kids and all this crap but i keep doing it so im just a shit person. All the bad thoughts!! ugh!