this is what losing a best friend feels like.

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  • Опубликовано: 12 сен 2024
  • hi i know this is a bit different from my usual videos,
    but today is my close friend's 20th birthday. it's been 2 years without him and i wanted to share this painting of him on Mt. Kiltepan, Sagada with you guys. If you're wondering what I wrote around the canvas, it's a poem written by him back in 2nd grade called Heaven. :)
    tell your friends you love them & check up on them from time to time. stay safe everyone and i'll see you in my next video. ♡
    i know the lighting sucks, but i would usually paint late in the night or through the am
    edit: hi, for anyone saying i’m using this video for “clout” and that it’s “evil”, that’s not the case at all. i made this video for his family, because they wanted to share it with all his friends and family during his death anniversary. unfortunately, it was cancelled due to covid. so, i decided to post it on my channel. i had no idea it would blow up or any of that sort.
    music: now that you're gone by lewis ross ( • Lewis Ross - Now That ... )
    i pretty much listened to these songs on repeat too: • Video
    • FINNEAS - I Lost A Fri...

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  • @petaleish
    @petaleish 4 года назад +12584

    you can see the sun dies and the moon rises...

    • @silverplayz9703
      @silverplayz9703 4 года назад +8

      I see

    • @hehehehe6530
      @hehehehe6530 4 года назад +72

      - R E N T L E S S Ś H A I M A- it’s hard to reply because it’s just so soulful and idk empowering

    • @norafila83
      @norafila83 4 года назад +32

      It's a new beginning

    • @yasmintyb
      @yasmintyb 4 года назад +2

      petaleish ً yea

    • @pigsbrain7324
      @pigsbrain7324 4 года назад +17

      petaleish ً sigh.... I feel the nights to be too short.. I just don’t want the mornings to come

  • @vuf7624
    @vuf7624 4 года назад +11398

    My sister lost her friend due to cancer, it's been a tough time for her, she cries at least everyday, she's only 6 years old.

    • @thatonecandor
      @thatonecandor 4 года назад +1427

      The fact that she's only 6 makes me sad even more knowing her friend was way too young and she's way too young to not be happy 💔

    • @gold-7710
      @gold-7710 4 года назад +407

      damn, this one made me cry

    • @sarastonebell9053
      @sarastonebell9053 4 года назад +295

      Thats so sad.. She was so young and that just makes it even more sad.. 😞

    • @mrtomu2230
      @mrtomu2230 4 года назад +76

      Oh no;__;

    • @vuf7624
      @vuf7624 4 года назад +114

      Yeah it’s been a hard time for her family, we are trying to help them.

  • @catfivesixonetwothreefour6653
    @catfivesixonetwothreefour6653 4 года назад +1549

    Why did I already start crying when she was taking the plastic off the canvas

  • @hoemeyou9834
    @hoemeyou9834 4 года назад +314

    My best friend left me a letter after he took his own life. He wrote "I'm not dead. I'm just gonna travel into a place that actually I have no idea about. We travel a lot together, without plans because you said unplanned things are the most wonderful. Now, I'm traveling alone, I hope that you'll find a strength to keep on traveling without me. I love you so much. You're like a baby sister to me, im sorry that I left... though I know that you hate people who leaves. I hope you find someone you can run into at midnight when you can't sleep. I will watch you forever, guide you forever, be with you forever.
    I'm with papa!"

    • @denizzzakell
      @denizzzakell 3 года назад +8

      I cried whilie reading this. I hope he is okay. Rip 🤍

    • @mariasophiaculaban
      @mariasophiaculaban 3 года назад +4

      this is so sad that I cried my eyeballs out

    • @demensia_
      @demensia_ 3 года назад +7

      This made me cry , I hope you're ok now , even thinking about living without my best friend makes me scream and u lost yours I am very sad for you , take care

  • @caukicaukicauki
    @caukicaukicauki 4 года назад +2538

    It reminded me a lot to IU’s song “8”, she lost two friends who committed suicide and she sings about sunset as a moment when time frozes and she relives their memories together

    • @hmm.5982
      @hmm.5982 4 года назад +123

      she lost 3 friends 😔😔😔

    • @SierraSl
      @SierraSl 4 года назад +7

      😢😢

    • @xing9524
      @xing9524 4 года назад +36

      Three friends :'((

    • @meizhenn_
      @meizhenn_ 4 года назад +15

      This song is so good ;-;

    • @h4zel.com1
      @h4zel.com1 4 года назад +2

      Yah 😭💔

  • @maggiepeers7582
    @maggiepeers7582 4 года назад +2259

    I lost my best friend Raven, he killed himself, he did it over 2 weeks ago, I'm still broken

    • @melitaalmazor8106
      @melitaalmazor8106 4 года назад +120

      I’m so sorry 💜 it must really hurt. I hope you find someone to talk to, or a way of relieving yourself. Don’t lose hope

    • @ifesjournal
      @ifesjournal 4 года назад +56

      I’m really sorry for your loss, I hope you feel better. I know I probably sound really annoying, but I believe Jesus heals, and if you’d just reach out to Him and ask if He’s there, He’ll show Himself and help you with what you’re dealing with. Jesus loves you and I pray that things get better for you 💓💓
      “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.”
      ‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭5:7‬ ‭NLT‬‬
      www.bible.com/116/1pe.5.7.nlt

    • @fellanefnaf3960
      @fellanefnaf3960 4 года назад +26

      May he rest in power and peace..

    • @rejoyce555
      @rejoyce555 4 года назад +40

      im so sorry for your loss.. hearing these stories make me remember how people would feel if i committed suicide, which i attempted last night but luckily im still here..

    • @repent.
      @repent. 4 года назад +11

      OH MY GOSH. I'm so sorry! You'll make it through, don't worry! 🥺❤️

  • @dreamybeats4531
    @dreamybeats4531 4 года назад +3987

    I haven’t lost anyone. Yet The comments make me really grateful my friends and family are safe! I’m sorry for everyone’s loss! :(

    • @irelyneasterling2311
      @irelyneasterling2311 4 года назад +22

      I agree, and I'm apparently the 100th person that does too!

    • @tabinarahman5428
      @tabinarahman5428 4 года назад +1

      yea same

    • @dywsliws
      @dywsliws 4 года назад +4

      that day will come

    • @uMaud
      @uMaud 4 года назад +6

      😅 On a less sad note for my part:
      I never really lost my own best friend, I just realised she wasn't a good friend and I had to cut off with her for my and my current best friend mental health.
      But I think I'm starting to realise my current bestie might feel like she's slowly loosing me, as I'm isolating myself more and more, so I (again) feel bad for not being as present, supportive and cheerful as I used to because she honnestly deserves the best.

    • @lilyHussey
      @lilyHussey 4 года назад

      It's hard....

  • @ifmmm
    @ifmmm 4 года назад +1889

    it's sad to see people go because the suffering leaves them to grow onto us...

    • @hycraut
      @hycraut 4 года назад +1

      It’s sad, we gotta keep it inside tho, not publish it on the internet

    • @marimationsowo
      @marimationsowo 4 года назад +4

      Hycraut wdym?

    • @TheAngelHero
      @TheAngelHero 4 года назад +42

      Hycraut we all cope in different ways, this person decided to make something to remember and honor their friend’s life so please be respectful

    • @marimationsowo
      @marimationsowo 4 года назад +4

      The Angel Hero i agree

    • @ifmmm
      @ifmmm 4 года назад +11

      @@TheAngelHero I second that. I genuinely believe that if it makes you happy and it lets you be free, then do it (if it's safe).

  • @user-zq8um4qq9o
    @user-zq8um4qq9o 4 года назад +3043

    I love how the comment section turned into a small therapy for people so tell their stories, truly beautiful.
    I am so sorry for anyone who lost someone. I am happy to say that i don't have a story to share. Stay strong y'all

    • @Ruby-ov1rn
      @Ruby-ov1rn 4 года назад +15

      For a second I thought you were making fun of them, well said👍

    • @itzcrystalzz
      @itzcrystalzz 4 года назад +10

      I lost my baby sister on like her 3rd day of life

    • @and-lj9vv
      @and-lj9vv 4 года назад +7

      I can't take you seriously with our picture on the side!!! hahaha! ok back to being sad... :(

    • @user-zq8um4qq9o
      @user-zq8um4qq9o 4 года назад +5

      @@and-lj9vv hahahah sorryy

    • @M4DD1.X
      @M4DD1.X 4 года назад +7

      @@itzcrystalzz I'm so sorry that happened ❤

  • @domainii7089
    @domainii7089 4 года назад +2569

    I genuinely don’t know why people dislike stuff like this

    • @rarayas5088
      @rarayas5088 4 года назад +47

      They don't dislike the video
      They dislike her

    • @daciatorres7855
      @daciatorres7855 4 года назад +17

      Maruchanえみ but why though?

    • @rarayas5088
      @rarayas5088 4 года назад +49

      @@daciatorres7855 I used to be a hater of a small animation youtuber maybe not all think the same but I think it can be because they do the same things as her and want to get recognized just like her and instead of working they try to bring her down with them

    • @victoriasloan8370
      @victoriasloan8370 4 года назад +6

      ikr!

    • @aciddecay
      @aciddecay 4 года назад +28

      Maybe the video is too sad and they dislike just the idea of sad videos idk

  • @leahholliday547
    @leahholliday547 4 года назад +2767

    I lost my best friend as well. She wasn’t human but she was my best friend. She was my dog and I lost her in January. It has been really really tough. 🕊1-16-20🕊

    • @b3lla322
      @b3lla322 4 года назад +43

      Ik exactly what ur going through my dogo was my best friend too... tmrw is his 1 year mark 5-26-19 I promise u eventually it’ll get better.💕🥺

    • @kfjat4429
      @kfjat4429 4 года назад +13

      7-09-16. Forever in my heart, Buck.

    • @vanillahibiscus486
      @vanillahibiscus486 4 года назад +15

      I lost my cat back in 2018 and it still hurts so bad. I'm sorry for your loss..💚

    • @lisalinkeln9300
      @lisalinkeln9300 4 года назад +8

      I lost my dog too... Just 2years ago 💔 forever in my heart Roy

    • @sammy-2650
      @sammy-2650 4 года назад +9

      Lost my cat 1-17-20 by an car accident. I wish her only The best in heaven❤

  • @cynthia-6927
    @cynthia-6927 4 года назад +2646

    I lost my bestfriend to Suicide April 29 2019 and my birthday is May 29. He loved to draw, he loved to be creative, he was such a kind soul. He was my bestfriend for 8 years and I don't have a lot of friends, he was the only one that knew exactly everything about me and when he killed himself..it was like he killed a part of me. I don't blame myself one bit because I was the one that warned everyone in his life soo many times, his family and close friends. But they didn't take his depression like an illness. What he did killed a part of me yes, but it changed me for the better. I don't take people for granted, my relationship with my family and friends are deeper now, I care and show love in a whole different level now and it also showed me how strong I am. A few months later, 10 February 2020 I lost my beloved aunt due to an aggressive form of cancer. It took 3 weeks from when she got sick to her last breath.. but I am still going strong for my family, for my aunt, my bestfriend and most importantly myself. I choose life over anything.

    • @malakbnessa139
      @malakbnessa139 4 года назад +74

      Literally, I can't stop crying, I know very well what you're feeling right now ,I'm sorry for that ,God blessed you, stay strong❤❤

    • @nyct0ph1liaa9
      @nyct0ph1liaa9 4 года назад +43

      I'm crying for you. I'm so sorry... 😔

    • @cynthia-6927
      @cynthia-6927 4 года назад +37

      @@nyct0ph1liaa9 Life can be so cruel but it can also be beautiful.. and we all have that individual power to choose how we want to see life as and how to move on. Thank you for your compassion

    • @charadreemurr9081
      @charadreemurr9081 4 года назад +26

      I’m pretty young. Only 12 years old, but I’m sorry.

    • @cynthia-6927
      @cynthia-6927 4 года назад +16

      Chara Dreemurr Thank you! Take care of yourself❤️

  • @averivaughn6678
    @averivaughn6678 4 года назад +635

    The dislikes are from people who can’t stand to see her sadness.

    • @birdtabloid1704
      @birdtabloid1704 4 года назад +1

      They are just people who don't care

    • @martynauranowska5809
      @martynauranowska5809 4 года назад

      They just think that if they hurt someone and the person would feel bad they'd be less sad (idk if you understand)

    • @birdtabloid1704
      @birdtabloid1704 4 года назад

      @@martynauranowska5809 well that's just stupid if you don't like it don't press anything
      You don't need to make someone feel upset especially after reading the title

  • @minifinchy811
    @minifinchy811 4 года назад +953

    I lost a friend due to a bike accident, he was hit by a car riding his bike. He was also my hockey teammate and I think about him almost everyday.

    • @izzzyglizzy
      @izzzyglizzy 4 года назад +7

      Im so sorry 😔

    • @vernicyy9280
      @vernicyy9280 4 года назад +6

      my best friend died a slow, painful death. but at least he was with me the whole time.
      ✨🕊1972-2018🕊✨

    • @grakatacc
      @grakatacc 4 года назад +4

      Finchy I’m praying for you, God bless. ❤️

    • @ivyiel3631
      @ivyiel3631 4 года назад +1

      I- I'm so sorry to hear that

    • @rawwr2927
      @rawwr2927 4 года назад +1

      Sorry for your lost

  • @velvet1834
    @velvet1834 4 года назад +2053

    *The dislikes are from people crying that they didn’t see it was the dislike button.*

    • @noctluccae
      @noctluccae 4 года назад +7

      70 dislikes and u have 80 likes now haha u r true

    • @ikutie5685
      @ikutie5685 4 года назад +10

      They have no heart

    • @user-ro9ed9lc7v
      @user-ro9ed9lc7v 4 года назад +17

      It's called Mislikes

    • @ave7949
      @ave7949 4 года назад +4

      this comment is used way too much like maybe they disliked it because, well.... *maybe they didn’t like it that’s the whole point of the dislike button*

    • @Idontknow_418
      @Idontknow_418 4 года назад +5

      W- what are you doing here human pikachu

  • @mial9648
    @mial9648 4 года назад +374

    All the dislikes are from people who were crying too hard and missed the like button.
    Sending love ❤️ stay strong people

    • @brookevoltattorni3108
      @brookevoltattorni3108 4 года назад +5

      I don't know how someone could honestly dislike this video, that's what i like to think happened hopefullyyyy~~! :D

    • @whathappenedtoearth6495
      @whathappenedtoearth6495 3 года назад

      Nah they're just narcissists Mia L

  • @PurpleKim97
    @PurpleKim97 4 года назад +2977

    This reminds me of my childhood friend 11 years ago. She died of cancer. She was loved by so many people, her family, her friends. She had everything she needed but she wasn't able to do something what she really wanted. It really hurts.

    • @klikklock
      @klikklock 4 года назад +54

      I’m sorry, let’s believe she helps paint the sun. Whenever you see the sky, think of her.

    • @shreyashi9397
      @shreyashi9397 4 года назад +10

      Ah..this is very sad to hear....😶☹️

    • @kathleenacosta4200
      @kathleenacosta4200 4 года назад +3

      😢😢

    • @wandersonsynn5343
      @wandersonsynn5343 4 года назад +10

      Same. It was 2018, my bestfriend died cause of cancer, I don’t know why I didn’t want to face the truth that she have cancer and keep wiping it off and say maybe she is sick and she have some other illness losing her hair, I was numb at her funeral and couldn’t think anything else, since I already bursting out tears when the teacher announced the news at class.

    • @soph.22
      @soph.22 4 года назад +5

      StrongGirlCrush my aunt died of cancer last December. I miss her so much and this video just brought me to tears. I know what it feels like to loose someone you love. I also lost my godmother in March of 2019. It really sucks and hurts.

  • @kirstyhutchinson7171
    @kirstyhutchinson7171 4 года назад +436

    I lost my dad to cancer 2 months ago, I feel heartbroken. To anyone who’s going through the same thing, just know people are there for you at all times, I know your doubting it. I’m there.

    • @marianafarias7928
      @marianafarias7928 4 года назад +8

      I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my dad 3 months ago so I know what you're going through

    • @daniella4673
      @daniella4673 4 года назад +6

      same mine died this year on january 5th

    • @yo_9499
      @yo_9499 4 года назад +4

      @belle rip 😔 my dad went to buy milk 4 years ago

    • @funky2121
      @funky2121 4 года назад +1

      @@yo_9499 That Is sad 😔✋-

    • @awkwardambivert7874
      @awkwardambivert7874 4 года назад +2

      I felt this,, I also my lost ny dad 3 months ago and it really sucks and I miss him everyday. All I have is my mom and I don't know what to do if I lose her too.

  • @chilenayrarafrann7896
    @chilenayrarafrann7896 4 года назад +4384

    My close friend overdosed last August and yeah, it’s really hard to listen to some music or watch some movies with sobbing and I know I’ll probably never truly move forward, this pain and grief is probably something I’ll always live with and I’m fine with it, my grades are still good and i still laugh but there’s also that emptiness when I achieve stuff bc all I can think is ‘would she be proud of me??’ This video is truely gorgeous and my heart is with all of those who have lost a dear friend, it’s hard but trust me everyday gets easier to breathe and to get out of bed. Some days you will fall back into bed and cry and that’s fine, we all fall back sometimes but we must learn to stand up and dry our tears. We can’t let life’s moments pass us by 💕💕

    • @mariaalqudah2373
      @mariaalqudah2373 4 года назад +52

      I really needed to read that..... Thanks😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔

    • @jaybonn5973
      @jaybonn5973 4 года назад +19

      This is the kind of that death can cause not a falling out.

    • @Pillow-talking
      @Pillow-talking 4 года назад +26

      You're such an inspiration. I can't imagine being that strong had I been in a similar situation. God bless🌻

    • @lifeasatree3999
      @lifeasatree3999 4 года назад +15

      Chilenayrara Frann my brother died and yes I understand what you’re saying completely you still laugh and live life but with the emptiness you can’t really replace

    • @Chloe-nr2uw
      @Chloe-nr2uw 4 года назад +9

      You're such a good best friend!Yes she is very proud of you watching you from above.Don't let anybody down,please continue and stay strong!love you,tpwk!

  • @Nani_1
    @Nani_1 4 года назад +503

    The way that blue paint is dripping on the canvas it’s like tears

  • @Hyunlyn69
    @Hyunlyn69 4 года назад +1911

    I lost my best friend to suicide.
    He was an amazing person, he was very shy and I still remember his smile when he got to know my other friends, I miss seeing his eyes sparkle when he would tell me about astronomy or something funny that happened. He was going to surprise me by coming to illinois to visit me. I didn’t deserve him, he was an angel. He was there for me when I needed him most, he supported me, he made me laugh, he was a part of me.
    It’s been a year. I have moments where I know he’s with me and I’m thankful for that. His birthday was a couple of months ago. I miss you, Alex. 💜
    Edit: You’re all very sweet and deserve the whole world, I hope you all are happy and thriving. 💗

    • @deaddez7913
      @deaddez7913 4 года назад +55

      He sounds like he’s an amazing person :)

    • @toxicflatulence9437
      @toxicflatulence9437 4 года назад +55

      I am back! (I'm just trying to make you happy)

    • @Hyunlyn69
      @Hyunlyn69 4 года назад +19

      Desu R He was, thank you 🥺

    • @Hyunlyn69
      @Hyunlyn69 4 года назад +34

      Alex Lol, I appreciate the thought.

    • @cansusel4273
      @cansusel4273 4 года назад +42

      Don't think that you don' t deserve him. Of course you do. You have a high opinion of him. You are loving him. That shows youre deserving him. I bet your best friend was loving you too. My English may not be so good, sorry for that. Be good 👋🏻

  • @Sugiiboo
    @Sugiiboo 4 года назад +1854

    Loosing a best friend is the worst thing ever. I lost my best friend(bf at the time aswell) do to cancer, i wasnt allowed to go to his funeral neither was able to, i wished i could've said ily one more time. I made his wish and kept on going for music, kept on living, depression hit me for a while cause i didnt know who to lean on after that. I was able to keep on going because of some friends, but there is never a second were i dont miss him.
    Alot of love to everyone who is having a hard time ❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @ransxx875
      @ransxx875 4 года назад +21

      I’m sorry for your loss❤️

    • @macyproductions9523
      @macyproductions9523 4 года назад +21

      Same, I lost my childhood best friend due to leukemia.

    • @fartuunfarah9607
      @fartuunfarah9607 4 года назад +9

      Rip😭❤️❤️

    • @qstros
      @qstros 4 года назад +8

      Macy Productions I’m so sorry💔

    • @Lolbroekbe
      @Lolbroekbe 4 года назад +5

      Prays fore hime

  • @citrus8884
    @citrus8884 4 года назад +1025

    I’m so sorry. I only have 1 person in the world, my best friend and I can’t imagine living without her.

    • @emmahart1549
      @emmahart1549 4 года назад +13

      Yeah, my best friend was in Japan when covid came along and now she's trapped in Japan until 2021. Everything is rather bleak now.

    • @emmahart1549
      @emmahart1549 4 года назад +7

      I can't imagine living without her forever though

    • @agnesgabriele6502
      @agnesgabriele6502 4 года назад +16

      Be happy about having this person in your life. I have some friends, but none of them is a real close friend. I'm always thinking about what to say or to do. I really like them and they like me but I think I need them more then they need me and I am never 100% comfortable with them.

    • @leafychu7991
      @leafychu7991 4 года назад +2

      Same, Citrus. My best friend is the only person that really cares about me, I care about her to

    • @luna_4721
      @luna_4721 4 года назад +1

      Same... My life truly depends on my two best friends

  • @elizavenne511
    @elizavenne511 4 года назад +836

    Didn’t know a painting could tough my heart like that😔

    • @Sara-of9zh
      @Sara-of9zh 4 года назад +3

      I feel you

    • @Sophie_89
      @Sophie_89 4 года назад +3

      I fell you too..

    • @pradeepkumarmahto3531
      @pradeepkumarmahto3531 4 года назад +4

      Touch

    • @aandvea
      @aandvea 4 года назад +2

      Piyusha Mahto shut up

    • @makaylaunique
      @makaylaunique 4 года назад +3

      それは N3PTŪNĒ ‘ no they actually helped me i didnt understand what they meant until i saw their comment

  • @elianaw2583
    @elianaw2583 4 года назад +267

    reminder, to everyone- even when it feels impossible, the sun still rises. nothing hurts more than you hurting yourself. please be easy on you, you’re amazing inside and out and you deserve the best. everything happens for a reason. it will be ok. i promise. keep your chin held high👑 you can do this.

    • @RB20071
      @RB20071 4 года назад +1

      good try???

  • @sabiealdover
    @sabiealdover 4 года назад +1517

    coincidental that this gets recommended to me. a close friend of mine died just earlier in march, and i miss her dearly. i miss her, so so much. we had been classmates for 4 years. we were going to graduate to senior high together this may. the last week before our classes were suspended due to the virus was the week we said our final goodbyes. her wake, her last mass, the very last time we saw her. i feel sad a lot, i mourn a lot, but i am learning to heal, too. i remember her in all the small, beautiful things that i see. i remember her in sunrise, in the sunset. in purple skies (her favourite colour was purple). in songs that she covered and let me hear (everglow by coldplay will never be the same again), and in movies we loved together (i can't watch black panther without missing her). it hurts, to only have memories; to only have what was; to only have what might have been, but she still brings me happiness in those small ways. she was an angel to many during her short time on this earth, and i gain comfort in the fact that she will forever be an angel, up there in the skies. she's a star. she will always be a star to me. i love you, b.

    • @itsmehoney9468
      @itsmehoney9468 4 года назад +53

      I'm SO sorry to hear that, I hope that you are recovering. you seem like an amazing person and doesn't deserve this. But God is there and will help you, believe in yourself. If you need any company I'm more than happy to help. may God bless you ♥️

    • @jelly.cupzzz
      @jelly.cupzzz 4 года назад +16

      I'm happy you're learning to heal. 💜

    • @guisanteelvenus
      @guisanteelvenus 4 года назад +28

      This comment made me cry, I feel so sorry about you, all my support dear stranger

    • @castrophee7279
      @castrophee7279 4 года назад +9

      I’m so sorry for your loss, I pray that god is with you in this sad time in your life and that all your memories of her will soon bring you happiness instead of pain💜😇

    • @avie103
      @avie103 4 года назад +10

      I’m not crying your crying 😢

  • @AutumnRusso
    @AutumnRusso 4 года назад +1561

    *sending virtual hugs to everyone who lost someone* 🤗💓

    • @Sanjana-pd3ob
      @Sanjana-pd3ob 4 года назад +4

      Thank you it means a TON 😊

    • @moonflower3097
      @moonflower3097 4 года назад +2

      ^~^
      > >
      Ty for da hug, these replies remind me of all the friends i have. I move alot because of personal stuff, and i never had a friend that i would have as a friend forever. But i have some people online as friends atleast =3

    • @jenztopia
      @jenztopia 4 года назад +2

      Air hugs :D

    • @wassserechweinnn45
      @wassserechweinnn45 4 года назад +2

      Thank you so much!♡♡♡ It means a lot for me😊🤗 Btw I wanna send a virtual hug for you too!❤❤

    • @lilyh0207
      @lilyh0207 4 года назад +3

      Thanks 💖

  • @desireeshayne7479
    @desireeshayne7479 4 года назад +381

    I lost my best friend before we even start college. We both applied for the same course but she shifted. It’s okay for me because not all the time we’ll be together. We started to drift away when first semester in college started. I blamed myself for what happened to us (which by the way was not good). She messaged me that she needed the space to grow, so I let her. But to be honest, I didn’t take it lightly. It felt like I’ve just gone from break-up, but this is much worse than break-up because you lost someone dearly. What hurts me is that she’s with her new friends. I know that I should be happy for her. I just can’t help but to think that that should be me, with her. Laughing at my- our silly jokes. she outgrown me, I should grow too.
    If you ever find this message, I’ll still be here, I’m always available whenever you need me. Silently supporting you. Whenever you find yourself lost. You’ll know where to find me

    • @hansikarose51
      @hansikarose51 4 года назад +23

      Hey. It’s OK. I guess it’s not the same thing that you’re going through but
      One of my best friends I’ve known my whole entire life and our parents have known eachother their whole entire life starts being really rude all of a sudden. She became really insensitive and she acted like she didn’t want to be my friend anymore. Set a true realize that we were drifting apart. And then I realize they had no real friends that really did care about me at all. We still talk every day but she’s just rude to me and she doesn’t even try to be nice. I feel so alone right now knowing I have absolutely no one. I’ve never gone through a loss of someone but it feels like a loss right now. I cry every day thinking about how alone I feel and how we have no true friends. I guess the only one I had was her and now she’s drifting apart. I hope this stage ends that I hope she’s back to herself again I don’t know when it will. Right now, the comments section is the only place I have....

    • @desireeshayne7479
      @desireeshayne7479 4 года назад +13

      Gucchi Monkey hey we got each other’s back. Sometimes talking to a stranger is much more better than those people you know. No judgement at all, and that’s the beauty of being a stranger 💜 hope you’re doing okay tho 😊

    • @gudetamacafe1032
      @gudetamacafe1032 4 года назад +5

      y'all are going to get through this I know you are stronger than that , u grow every single day and just sharing this you are brave enough , believe in yourself there are people out there for you ❤️ that's what I tell myself to cope with life every single day when even the simplest is hard to do..hope this helps others like me 🖤

    • @saf.081
      @saf.081 4 года назад

      @@gudetamacafe1032 that's true

    • @robertaformenti7227
      @robertaformenti7227 4 года назад +5

      Hey, i'm really sorry for your story....well i think it will happen the same to me....my only best friend is starting to drifting away, she never amwser at my messages and when i write to her she always say that shes busy but then i see that shes chatting in the class group with all my classmates that kinda hates me....
      I always been there for her but its like i dont exist for her, everytime she says that shes busy but if u are that busy that u cant talk with you best friend then who are u going to talk to? Im feeling like im alone and i cant say my feelings to anyone.

  • @nimuemae623
    @nimuemae623 4 года назад +624

    I want him back... I'd do literally everything. He was my best friend for over three years and my partner for half of the time. I was never without him.
    But I hurted him so hard... I'm so sorry I can't describe it.
    I still love him, but I made him lose his trust in me...
    This video made me cry really bad. So please, everyone who reads this, do it how she's saying in the description, show your friends your love and be honest to them.

    • @Ana-mw3iv
      @Ana-mw3iv 4 года назад +11

      I'm so sorry to read this.. I don't know what I'd do without my best buds..just know wherever he is he loves you as much as you do.. 💓

    • @skyadolescent3175
      @skyadolescent3175 4 года назад +7

      You are not alone

    • @deki2928
      @deki2928 4 года назад +1

      im so sorry

  • @shin6985
    @shin6985 4 года назад +152

    It looks like the canvas is crying too with the paint dripping down...

  • @NeverLiveToRegret
    @NeverLiveToRegret 4 года назад +502

    I've lost my best friend due to a car accident last august. I am concerned that I will lose my parents one day but oh boy, nothing prepares you for that one call. That call that you would have NEVER expected in lifetime. That call that would change life forever. I thought I would be the first to pass away but life is unpredictable. I was the one who called the other friends to tell them, and again, it's one thing to handle your pain, but another to "cause" pain to others because it's you who tell them. I have so much love and gratitude for her and she was the best what could've happened to me.
    I feel so sorry for all of you who have gone through grief. Life isn't fair at all. But we can just feel happy for the fact that we could have spent time with them,no matter how much of a time.
    Amo, ich lieb'dich.

    • @goldfinch907
      @goldfinch907 4 года назад +9

      I’m so sorry, while I’m lucky to have never lost a friend, I can’t imagine how horrible it is. ❤️ I hope you are doing well. I am not really good at giving people support or anything, but I hope you feel better soon. ❤️

    • @lenabellacinderella2049
      @lenabellacinderella2049 4 года назад

      I am haunted. My birthday is in August and last August I didn’t have a birthday. Oof. And sorry for your loss... I lost my bestie from just not hanging out anymore. We just lost each other...

    • @goldfinch907
      @goldfinch907 4 года назад

      @@lenabellacinderella2049 That's how I lose most my friends sadly, we just slowly drift apart.

    • @talithamenting788
      @talithamenting788 4 года назад

      I also lost my best friend 2 years ago. I was too the one that had to tell my other friends in person. It was the most hardest thing i had ever done in my life. Is still think of that one day every day.
      I'm so sorry for you.

    • @NeverLiveToRegret
      @NeverLiveToRegret 4 года назад

      @@talithamenting788 i am sorry for you, too.
      And I do think about it every day. And I guess it will never really "go away" but slowly we can learn to live with it.

  • @hehfhfhfhffhrelqpslwkwkakek
    @hehfhfhfhffhrelqpslwkwkakek 4 года назад +299

    I didn’t lose my friend, I lost my grandma. She raised me, while my mother couldn’t take care of me, she was there. She thought me to walk, to talk, to count. I did everything with her, she taught me everything I know. I lost her two years ago the day before my birthday, August 17th. She was put on that life control thing until the 19th, and then died. I miss her so much. You never know what you have until you lose it. It’s cliche but true.. I got so mad at her all the time. When she said “I love you” I said “I love you too” but I didn’t mean it. Because I said in my head that I’d see her tomorrow. That I’d greet her tomorrow. But she wasn’t there. That was the last thing I said to her. I love you. But I didn’t even mean it. I wish I meant it, I wish I treated that like it was the last I love you I’d say. I wish I knew.

    • @Rahaf-xk1cu
      @Rahaf-xk1cu 4 года назад +3

      Im sorry for your loss, stay strong

    • @jendeukiebear48
      @jendeukiebear48 4 года назад +2

      Sorry for your lost🖤

    • @sm1le_b1g
      @sm1le_b1g 4 года назад +2

      Sevetta Delgado I feel you so bad

    • @lauren-qp1we
      @lauren-qp1we 4 года назад +3

      Whenever this happens, we all wish we had known. But they are watching you, seeing you grow to be older, don't let their death stop you from being you. It may take a while but, the love you have for them now will make them happy

    • @mibkle
      @mibkle 4 года назад +2

      I’m sorry for your lost. My grandmother was the one who raised me, too. My ex best friend told me to get over my grandmother’s passing..

  • @robynbridge
    @robynbridge 4 года назад +4015

    if anyone dislikes this video i’m gonna *throw hands* this is beautiful 🥺☁️

    • @triciarose6501
      @triciarose6501 4 года назад +13

      im so happy that no one disliked :((

    • @kgtsu
      @kgtsu 4 года назад +36

      there's one that disliked, y'all wanna raid 😌

    • @Melody_Bird
      @Melody_Bird 4 года назад +33

      I guess i got a couple hands to spare

    • @hiyaitsmoriah
      @hiyaitsmoriah 4 года назад +13

      alright, im ready to attack and make them feel the wrath of my chinelas

    • @aleciaguilbeau1980
      @aleciaguilbeau1980 4 года назад +9

      omg someone disliked ATTACK

  • @katelynsummerlove6365
    @katelynsummerlove6365 4 года назад +549

    I lost my sister when i was 6. She was 9. She was all i had at that time. My sister, my best friend, my family, my everything. I'm glad it happened when i was so young and couldn't really understand. I can't imagine loosing her later in life. My prayers to all the people that are going through that kind of phase right now. Stay strong. You are loved and people need you. We love you❤️

    • @rowan6955
      @rowan6955 4 года назад +21

      I almost lost my older sister. Because she was suicidal and had depression. It hurt for me and her. It was the worst year. Having to keep a smile on knowing every thing was falling apart. Parents arguing and me having to grab my tablet so my sister could call the suicide hotline. She doesn't have it today or she just doesn't talk about it. My bestfriend doing perverted things to me (this was only last year). I'm an outcast and probably will always be. Im young but it hurts to think about the past. I'm sorry that happened to you.(╯︵╰,)

    • @lisamarie137
      @lisamarie137 4 года назад +8

      @@rowan6955 u okay now? Can I help?

    • @zannatulsneha2400
      @zannatulsneha2400 4 года назад +10

      @@rowan6955 I think you and your sister should listen to and read the lyrics of the song "Don't Leave Me" by BTS. Believe it or not, their songs and the meanings and messages behind it has saved many lives. I have recovered from a slight depression I had before it got worse after listening to their songs as well!
      And no, I'm not promoting them or anything, I'm not forcing you either. It's just something that worked for me and many other people. So, I suggest you and your sister to try listening to some of their songs as well
      And please don't forget to let me know how you thought of it

    • @zannatulsneha2400
      @zannatulsneha2400 4 года назад +7

      @@rowan6955 And please, do not ever call yourself an outcast. You're important like anyone else. Everyone is unique, special and beautiful in their own ways. They just need realise it

    • @katelynsummerlove6365
      @katelynsummerlove6365 4 года назад +2

      @@rowan6955 ohhh i hope everything turns out ok:( im so sorry to hear that.

  • @itzjustelli1129
    @itzjustelli1129 4 года назад +466

    Why am I watching this?
    Oh right, cuz I feel like Im losing my BestFriend...

    • @---qm4go
      @---qm4go 4 года назад +32

      If you feel like you're losing your best friend, try talking to her about your insecurities or hers/his. It will really help. I lost my best friend, my soulmate because I did not talk with her, have a heart to heart conversation. All relationships needs talk and trust. These two is the most important thing in a relationship. Be it love or friendship. Remember, do not do anything that you will regret. Let me tell you, it fcking hurts.

    • @itzjustelli1129
      @itzjustelli1129 4 года назад +9

      萱狼之 Thanks.... and hope you stay safe during this pandemic. Dont lose hope!

    • @crazyvarun319
      @crazyvarun319 4 года назад +6

      Same 3 of them

    • @cassandrablake4503
      @cassandrablake4503 4 года назад +2

      I lost her already.

    • @kchehe
      @kchehe 4 года назад +5

      I lost my best friend.
      It was almost our 5th year anniversary and a week before my birthday.
      We were kinda losing touch anyways. And at least she’s happier with her new friends.
      But at least she’s not completely gone like others so I’m grateful.
      And if you can’t fix your friendship, maybe it wasn’t meant to be. It’s easier to let go sometimes then to try fix or hold on to them. I’m sorry if I’m being rude or a bit careless to your feelings.
      Hope everything works out for you guys.

  • @matiasrijofilipe
    @matiasrijofilipe 4 года назад +54

    I was diagnosed with Leukemia. And my best friend told me when I came to the first class on 1 grade,she said she felt so happy that I was good and healthy, now I know that I always count on her. She is my savior and my hope that I’m here right now. Healthy and relieved that the leukemia as passed away. When I saw this video I now that when she moves to a different city or country I will paint a poem that she written on 4 grade. Its called the roses are you. Best and the most beautiful human being in my life.

  • @ericdtrt4260
    @ericdtrt4260 4 года назад +3238

    i never thought watching a painting timelapse would bring tears to my eyes shucks. your feelings reached me. i can't imagine waking up each day knowing someone who i became so close with leave for a life time. ghaaad why is this making me so emotional geez hahaha

    • @misty56770
      @misty56770 4 года назад +16

      Eric VIncent Dotarot same here. I’m not a big crier, but I’m bawling right now.

    • @Ouiamsart
      @Ouiamsart 4 года назад +2

      Eric VIncent Dotarot same

    • @xo.thevoid
      @xo.thevoid 4 года назад

      ebby same

    • @MochWochi
      @MochWochi 4 года назад +9

      Yeah it really sucks, staying up all night wondering what you did wrong, and wishing you could go back and change how things happened but you cant....... there gone forever... and that's really the worst part of it. I was writing this through tears so sorry if I spelled snyhting wrong.

    • @skyemishuku4415
      @skyemishuku4415 4 года назад +2

      huhu bro its gon be aight

  • @ericwilliams8371
    @ericwilliams8371 4 года назад +64

    I love how you included his backpack. I lost my friend Lauren when she fell while rock climbing almost exactly one year ago. When you lose someone, you remember pieces of them vividly like their hair, their eyes, where their locker was, etc. One of her possessions I can picture so well is her backpack. I was jealous of her because she had that backpack for all of high school (I think), but I went through three backpacks in high school! Lauren, I miss you so much and even though you didn’t live long enough to solve the global warming crisis by becoming an environmental engineer, you inspired me and thousands of other people to have your same attitude and drive for life :) 💚

  • @bobthebuilder3392
    @bobthebuilder3392 4 года назад +727

    for the sadness should not carry on, but should not be forgotten either :]

  • @nightlife1578
    @nightlife1578 4 года назад +358

    I lost 12 family members in the spam of 2 months and I want everyone in the comments to know that your loved one will never be forgotten sending love and prayers and I hope one day you'll be able to think of your loved one and it not be so painful anymore ❤️❤️❤️
    Edit: Thank you everyone for your love and support though I am in pain I still think it's very important to spread love. Be safe everyone❤️

    • @rainingtacos7693
      @rainingtacos7693 4 года назад +8

    • @scaravsstt
      @scaravsstt 4 года назад +34

      Oh my fucking god i'm so sorry that hapened to you, please be strong ♥️

    • @nesrin1116
      @nesrin1116 4 года назад +11

      I'm sorry

    • @doyoulikejazz6659
      @doyoulikejazz6659 4 года назад +11

      Be strong, I’m sorry this happened to you. ❤️❤️

    • @vidia2649
      @vidia2649 4 года назад +7

      I'm so sorry this happened, sending loves and hugs to you❤ you can get thru this ❤❤

  • @itsbritneybitch8426
    @itsbritneybitch8426 4 года назад +1275

    Ik how it feels, I made friends w/ a girl who was depressed. She got better, we became bffs, then something happened at school.....the next day I didn’t see her, and it continued....so I when to her house and saw her dad a mum yelling at her for being lesbian. So I slapped them and took her to my place. She asked for a shower and that’s the last time I saw her perfect smile.....

    • @ria4330
      @ria4330 4 года назад +40

      She commit suicide?

    • @kaoshiyuki
      @kaoshiyuki 4 года назад +92

      Oh my gosh, that must've been horrible for you... I'm so sorry

    • @buggies
      @buggies 4 года назад +35

      Did she commit suicide?...

    • @jgoh662
      @jgoh662 4 года назад +63

      im so so sorry. i cant even begin to imagine how awful that must be. sending love and prayers...

    • @christelmoya7957
      @christelmoya7957 4 года назад +13

      So sad 😢

  • @flyeon9429
    @flyeon9429 4 года назад +237

    I’m sorry to everyone who lost someone, I just hope the good memories can comfort you.

    • @zahiraaaaaaaa
      @zahiraaaaaaaa 4 года назад +7

      Better memories with them makes me feel worse. Everyone is different, right? I mean, I haven’t really experienced losing a friend, but I have experienced losing other people I love. I’m sorry if any of you have lost someone you loved, cared about, someone who brighten them up when they feel low.
      - much love, Zahira.

  • @lillaw5257
    @lillaw5257 4 года назад +148

    Dear stranger,
    I hope you’re all doing alright! I know times can get tough but I know that you’ll get through them. You might feel worthless and sad sometimes and that’s completely alright. You might burst out crying and that’s completely alright . I believe in you, stranger, even if you don’t believe in yourself.
    Stay strong
    Love from Angel

    • @nyct0ph1liaa9
      @nyct0ph1liaa9 4 года назад +1

      I'm not as sad anymore thanks to you... god bless you

    • @lillaw5257
      @lillaw5257 4 года назад +1

      - Aurliax - I’m happy I was able to help ^^

    • @lucialopez-ibor7607
      @lucialopez-ibor7607 4 года назад +1

      Thank you

    • @yoonlie4911
      @yoonlie4911 3 года назад +1

      Thanks, Angel❤️

    • @lillaw5257
      @lillaw5257 3 года назад

      @Jennifer Huckabay stay strong ❤️

  • @minyoonca5187
    @minyoonca5187 4 года назад +559

    My best friend has killed himself only a little over two months ago.. i feel your pain.. he was the only reason why I was alive and he was my everything but now he’s gone... ( I’m sorry for my bad English I’m from Austria...)

    • @ermida8588
      @ermida8588 4 года назад +40

      I hope that you are doing ok :(.

    • @cafe_noir8996
      @cafe_noir8996 4 года назад +35

      * virtual hug * 💕

    • @hehehehe6530
      @hehehehe6530 4 года назад +21

      That’s horrible. I’ll give you something to live for. Idk what but please. Stay with us 💞

    • @stephanie-nm3pr
      @stephanie-nm3pr 4 года назад +2

      Me trying to understand this comment: 👁👄👁

    • @zoemartinez2438
      @zoemartinez2438 4 года назад +9

      I'm so sorry 😔

  • @Leonardomgabriel
    @Leonardomgabriel 4 года назад +92

    I lost my bestfriend too, to suicide, that is kind of how we met, both in the hospital because of suicide we were suppose to be better at least I got better but right when he had the chance to get out of the house he run in front of a train. He was missing for 2 weeks before the police could connect the dots. It gave me hope that he was just wandering but no, he was gone the day he got missing. I was the last person to talk to him. I miss him so much

    • @melitaalmazor8106
      @melitaalmazor8106 4 года назад +2

      I’m so sorry 💜💜 It must have hurt like a bitch and it probably still does. I hope you found a way to be okay. I wish you the best 😔😔

    • @Leonardomgabriel
      @Leonardomgabriel 4 года назад +1

      @@melitaalmazor8106 yeah and when I watched this video I started crying in my kitchen floor :')

  • @erinphillips5341
    @erinphillips5341 4 года назад +362

    I know that losing a friend relationship wise isn’t as bad as physically but seriously this video made me remember all the time me and my ex bff spent together and actually made me cry my eyes out.

    • @fallenhyakuya2272
      @fallenhyakuya2272 4 года назад +6

      I'm exactly in the same situation:(( since I read the title of the video it started hurting for some reason, though I'm glad she can express her feelings through such beautiful art

    • @jungwonloml
      @jungwonloml 4 года назад

      Same, but I'm glad we're Nutt friends anymore. She was very toxic

    • @BitterJoyXx
      @BitterJoyXx 4 года назад +1

      Same 🤧

    • @limabeans5430
      @limabeans5430 4 года назад +4

      I know how you feel, but it still hurts too. I had a best friend that had severe depression and he said a lot of things towards/about me that I really didn't like. I tried my best to stay strong through it all but the emotional pain got to be too much. So I confronted him about it and we both decided that we'd be better off strangers rather than friends. It still hurts though, thinking about all the fun memories we had together. And how we won't make anymore.

    • @sho_iiii_
      @sho_iiii_ 4 года назад +1

      Same. I knew a friend since I was seven, befriended her when I was eight and recently we kinda just stopped being friends. I’m sad, but it was for the best probably because she was becoming very toxic. Even after we stopped being friends she continued to try and make life hard for me and my other friends just because she hates all of us now.

  • @oliviazito8636
    @oliviazito8636 4 года назад +43

    I remember this one girl..she was the first friend I have ever made in school. We were in Kindergarten all the way to 2nd grade until I moved schools. She always suffered from some type of breathing problem, and was always sent to the hospital to be hooked up on machines. When I looked her name up online not so long ago, it appeared that she had died the year after I had left to my new school.
    The doctor told her that she wasn’t gonna live for long, so instead of her suffering she removed the breathing mask when nobody was around. Basically committing suicide before actually dying. She was only 9 years old, but goddam without her I would have been alone for my first 2 years of school with her.

    • @fionarutledge
      @fionarutledge 4 года назад +1

      That little gir was so strong to be able to do that.

    • @levisteacup_
      @levisteacup_ 4 года назад +1

      omg...hope she rests in peace..she was so brave and strong..😢❤

  • @elaine3990
    @elaine3990 4 года назад +402

    Who hated this video?
    SHE LOST HER BEST FRIEND

    • @genesislopez6840
      @genesislopez6840 4 года назад +14

      Maybe they think she is doing it for attention but shes not 😔

    • @sarahjavid4600
      @sarahjavid4600 4 года назад +10

      @@genesislopez6840 how could she be doing it for attention it makes mo sense 😔 ( not you but the people who disliked )

    • @lejla5314
      @lejla5314 4 года назад +6

      Haters ofc...

    • @dewdrop1169
      @dewdrop1169 4 года назад +15

      This might be weird but, there's people who lost a someone and feels really bad, so they get mad because this remembers them their lost and well... they dislike. I do not explain myself well, but every person is different and in my case sometimes that's how I feel like with situacions that are so hard for me. I'm not english native, hope you get it.

    • @yurialpizar7172
      @yurialpizar7172 4 года назад +2

      Did her friend die?

  • @ambar.nicole
    @ambar.nicole 4 года назад +767

    IM SO SORRY TO EVERYONE WHO HAS LOST SOMEONE THEY LOVED OR CARED ABOUT 🥺😭stay strong

    • @rainingtacos7693
      @rainingtacos7693 4 года назад +1

    • @s_eclipse6282
      @s_eclipse6282 4 года назад +7

      I lost my friend Lilly due to a Car crash thank you for that lovely message stay strong it helps me who lost Lilly love you so much Lilly as I'm writing this im crying hard it's very hard to lose her

    • @Alex-sj4sq
      @Alex-sj4sq 4 года назад

      Tysm

    • @pedrogoncalves6662
      @pedrogoncalves6662 4 года назад

      I lose everyone I love😭😔

    • @rihamelkholi7514
      @rihamelkholi7514 4 года назад

      I am sorry for myself

  • @lauratan8847
    @lauratan8847 4 года назад +412

    hey. I don't want to act like I know how you feel, because one thing's for sure, grief is different for every person. I lost my friend a year ago and up until now, I still feel like she's not gone. I see her in flowers that bloom when I step out of our door, I see her in the scorching sun. She was very fond of sunflowers and she's the type of person who brings light to everyone around her. I miss her hugs everyday. I miss her beautiful smile. I miss her angelic voice. One thing is that, pain doesn't go away, we only learn how to adapt to it and feel less hurt each time. Stay strong. Do stay strong. Lots of love.

    • @hibbyak
      @hibbyak 4 года назад +4

      ❤️🌻

    • @xg0thic960
      @xg0thic960 4 года назад +3

      this is beautiful

    • @elviraekenback7249
      @elviraekenback7249 4 года назад +11

      I already cried, but this comment made me cry more. (What is wrote sounds stupid-)

    • @oliviahancock2274
      @oliviahancock2274 4 года назад +5

      I lost my best friend to Suicide three years ago and she was our sunflower girl too. Radiant and kinder and funnier than anyone I know. So smart and talented. I wish beautiful people like our friends had stayed.

    • @sanjanarx4641
      @sanjanarx4641 4 года назад +2

      i cried at this comment, it is so beautiful

  • @777q
    @777q 4 года назад +86

    I haven’t lost a friend yet but my cousin did pass away from cancer when she was around 11 or 12. The sad thing is I never really got time to hang out with her...she came over to my house once and we had fun and talked a bit, I just wished I could have hangout with her more when she was here....it’s been about what 2-3 years since then and I still think about her to this day.
    edit: I just lose a aunt yesterday from a overdose of alcohol and I pretty sure were going to here funeral at Friday since she live far away and we have to travel far. She was a great aunt and mom to her children. Now here daughter’s daughter’s won’t have a grandma no more...I’m sad since she was like the best aunt u would probably want tbh. I wish she was still here and I could see her at least one more time.

    • @thevipblink8571
      @thevipblink8571 4 года назад +3

      **virtual hug**

    • @s_eclipse6282
      @s_eclipse6282 4 года назад

      I have a very close cousin who has not died but i have a bff who i lost named Lilly because a car crash

  • @sriontimaitra6804
    @sriontimaitra6804 4 года назад +32

    I lost one of my best friends to a seizure earlier this year, a couple of days after New Year. Funnily enough, your painting reminded me of a time he made me and some of our other friends walk through a nature reserve at midnight to watch fireworks from the top of a hill in London. The sky was full of colours, just like it is here. I miss him everyday. Thank you for sharing your pain and healing with us.

    • @sotiria9477
      @sotiria9477 4 года назад

      I am sorry:"( hope you are feeling a bit better now, he is proud of you

  • @lorelikesthings
    @lorelikesthings 4 года назад +275

    I know this barely scratches the surface of what it’s like to lose someone, but I’m very sorry. I’m not going to say I know what it feels like to lose someone, because I don’t. But I do know what it feels like to lose family, and it’s very hard. Again, I’m sorry for your loss, and I’ll say it, even though I know how meaningless those words can be

    • @emiliealban1000
      @emiliealban1000 4 года назад +1

      I just lost my best Friend and they meant a Lot even though it was not meant for me❤️❤️

    • @jello3171
      @jello3171 4 года назад +6

      The worst of all this lose , when it comes from that best friend , after years and years of being together over 6 years , she just left like nothing happened between us , it's not related but it feels exactly like you lost someone so important, when you'll never be able to see each other or talk again tho we're still alive somewhere, it's just feels like a death , huge part of me felt like dead after that time, I'm sorry, I loved you, thank you and please, never think or remember me again,
      RIP for every soul that left and its being is important for someone 💜

  • @shigari_kun
    @shigari_kun 4 года назад +87

    Just the thought of loosing my best friends seems so scary...
    I'm so sorry for your loos, stay strong and I truly wish you the best

    • @mrittwikaduttagupta2835
      @mrittwikaduttagupta2835 4 года назад +3

      I was thinking the same thing. I can't imagine the World without my best friends. Even though they aren't in my life everyday because of long distance, I cannot imagine my life without them. We meet at most twice a year, but I wouldn't trade out that time for anything in this World.

  • @carzy_s.9274
    @carzy_s.9274 4 года назад +44

    While watching this it reminded me of the time when my two bestfriends and i got into a fight over a stupid small thing and we literally ignored each other for like months and everytime i see them together and happy without me just hurts... I sometimes try to fix things but it just ends with them pushing me away further...
    I sometimes cry myself to sleep and blame myself for everything..
    and this one time one of my ex bestfriends literally told me that they’re better without me....
    We eventually apologised to each other and became friends again but it doesn’t feel the same anymore... it doesn’t feel real anymore...i just hope that they’re both happy and safe...

    • @lucialopez-ibor7607
      @lucialopez-ibor7607 4 года назад +2

      I hope you feel better soon

    • @jenniferrincon7973
      @jenniferrincon7973 4 года назад +3

      This is happening to me, exactly the same thing but more recent. I don’t know what to do but it hurts so much. This video was in my recommended and I was so hurt/shocked/offended by it haha, but I kinda needed to read these comments especially yours. But as bad as the situation is I’m glad someone understands what I’m going through

    • @carzy_s.9274
      @carzy_s.9274 4 года назад +2

      Jennifer Rincon i hope you’re okay now

    • @carzy_s.9274
      @carzy_s.9274 4 года назад +1

      Lucía Lopez-ibor i’m okay now we actually talked about it and are trying to move on and forget the past and start again..

    • @levisteacup_
      @levisteacup_ 4 года назад +1

      the same thing is happening to me..and we're still in the ignoring stage..and i know she never was my friend..cause like i tried so many she didn't i tried so many times to talk like best friends and she replied to me like a stranger..it kinda breaks my heart...but i know she doesn't deserves me..and if she's fine without me..ik i will be fine without her...she even said that "we were never best friends or even friends" like what..i have been friends withher for 7 years..

  • @poclgbtanddisabledlivesmat2254
    @poclgbtanddisabledlivesmat2254 4 года назад +543

    When I was 6 years old my best friend drowned in a river not long before my birthday. I remember my 7th birthday it all felt so wrong. My mum says I even wrote him on the invite list to my party. It was just automatic. Losing him almost 10 years ago is something I still struggle to get over. I'm 15 now and there's a lot of feelings I know I don't understand that can be rooted back to my child hood, with losing a friend and having a topsy-turvy home life too. They always say with time you'll heal but I can tell you that you don't. That pain carries with you especially since I was so young and we were so close when it happened that I've never set my feelings straight. When people ask why I'm sad I just say "I've loved and I've lost. Nothing new". All you can do is be brave and stomach it, knowing there's nothing you can do.
    I don't have many memories from when I was 6 years old but I do remember when my dad told me that he had died, I remember where I was and what I was wearing and what i was doing. I also remember setting off balloons at school in his memory; but balloons fly away and eventually pop so I also remember feeling like it was so pointless, like "well 100 yellow balloons won't bring him back".
    I understand how hard it is. In fact, I'm crying right now because I'm thinking about it again.
    I'm 15 and I cry about something that happened 9 years ago. I cry regularly and what hurts me most is that I don't believe in a God anymore, I just believe in solid peace. I hope he's in peace along with your friend that you have also lost. It hurts me because we can only believe, no one knows what comes after all this, and that's what's so hard about death; leaving/letting go. Because to let go is to accept that it's all over, what they were is all over and for nothing except pain and sorrow.
    But it gets better, you heal but you will still hurt. I'm not going to sit here and tell you that you don't feel hurt because you will and I want you to know it's normal to still hurt even after lengths of time and don't tell yourself your feelings aren't valid because they are. You're allowed to hurt; it's the only way to heal.

    • @ellesherlock
      @ellesherlock 4 года назад +14

      I'm only 10 but I'm crying even looking at your comment XD

    • @elchinitofeliz1699
      @elchinitofeliz1699 4 года назад +2

      U need a psychologist

    • @animalistic.
      @animalistic. 4 года назад +8

      Elle Playz Not the time to Put XD rn

    • @ellesherlock
      @ellesherlock 4 года назад +2

      @@animalistic. Sorry....

    • @ellesherlock
      @ellesherlock 4 года назад +2

      @@animalistic. btw how do you have 117 subs and u don't have any videos yet I make videos and I only have 8😭

  • @carrot777
    @carrot777 4 года назад +209

    this makes my heart ache so much. i lost my friend to dark and sad thoughts last year and he was so young. he was the sun on a dark day, the light in the night, the one who would smile and make you smile on a bad day. i miss you so much damien. i hope they’re treating you well up there and that you are happy and free from all the people who told you those rude and messed up words. we love and miss you so much damien...

    • @carrot777
      @carrot777 4 года назад +6

      Helena Iik i’m so sorry to hear about your loss and i send you all good wishes and good luck. my deepest sympathy goes out to you. i hope that you are doing well and hope your friend can guide you and help you through life. i hope you are surrounded with love and good memories of your friend. my heart goes out to you and i hope with every ounce of sunshine that you are doing well for yourself. i’m sending healing and comforting hugs to you, your friend, and all the people your friend knew and loved. take care helena and remember that no darkness lasts forever, so a new day and a new light will bring new opportunities. 💜💜

    • @carrot777
      @carrot777 4 года назад +4

      Helena Iik glad i can help out ☺️ i hope you have an amazing day and that you take care! remember that you are special, precious, cared for, and loved. best of wishes! enjoy every moment of the past, the present, and the future. you are a star that is unique and can do anything! remember to love yourself and my best wishes go out to you. good luck!! ☺️💜💜

    • @moonflower3097
      @moonflower3097 4 года назад +3

      @@carrot777 oh wow.....my story isnt that relatable but i had a friend too..
      I met them at the park, they were twins brother and sis. The sister turned out to be one of the best friends i ever had and so was her brother. (I actually kinda liked him, he also liked me back) but one day my mom told me we were moving to somewhere because of personal stuff. I cried so much on that day. After i moved I never had saw them again, i hope someday in the future ill find them once again.

    • @carrot777
      @carrot777 4 года назад +2

      Moon flower i’m so sorry to hear about that. let’s hope that in the future you can contact them and continue your friendship. i wish you the best of luck to find your friends and that everything will be good when you can contact them again 🥺 i hope that you and your friends are doing well and are happy. i wish you good luck, happiness, and good fortune for the future! remember to keep on dreaming because dreams are the gateway to our reality! good luck and i hope you find your friends!! 💜☺️☺️

    • @sudiptaabhattacharya7105
      @sudiptaabhattacharya7105 4 года назад +2

      I lost one of my closest friends just 2 months earlier. Tomorrow will be exact 2 months since she has passed away. She too was 17 and hanged herself because of dark and sad thoughts because of some toxic people in her life! She will always be in my heart and I pray for her always.

  • @tsu6912
    @tsu6912 4 года назад +809

    I lost my best friend when I was in 2nd grade. It all started when one day at school she told me that she is gonna have to change schools. And I was very sad and she was sad too. She stayed with us(class) for a few days before she left. And one time when I came to class I saw she wasn't there and I knew she had already left. Because I came late to school. :( But when I entered the class it was very quite. And my homeroom teacher was standing at the front. So I just walked to my seat and sat down. I asked one of my friends what's going on. And she said that the teacher is going to tell us something. And the teacher said "since everyone is here I would like to say something." She said it was about our friend. And everyone was curious who is that _friend_ . And she said that (my bff) died. When I first heard that I was shocked. She told everyone the story. It's when it was her first day of her new school. And she used a transport to get there(a school van). And while the driver was driving there is a big truck behind them who drove full speed. And then it crashed. The van was kinda flipped. And there were students who had been injured. But my friend didn't survive. The next morning they have burned her. And collect her ashes. And let it go in the sea. And then everyone in my class prayed including me. I am now a prep student. And this is my first year of high school. And yet I will never forget about her. :(
    Edit: Thank you guys so much! All your nice and positive comments means a lot to me! I realized that some of you were about to cry. But don't worry at least my friend is in a better place now... I just wanna say that I really appreciate all your lovely comments! And also thank you for the likes! Stay safe everyone!
    💛💛💛

    • @angelaluisiana6629
      @angelaluisiana6629 4 года назад +16

      Thus is so sad :'(

    • @vidrovszki
      @vidrovszki 4 года назад +16

      I'm so sorry❤️

    • @kalila701
      @kalila701 4 года назад +18

      Awh..that so sad :,(
      I'm so sorry about your lost..
      I just wish your best friend is in peace now..
      I hope you the best of luck!
      Just stay strong and never give up on anything
      And I'm pretty sure your best friend is smiling in the clouds watching over you

    • @tsu6912
      @tsu6912 4 года назад +3

      @@kalila701 Thank you so much :)

    • @tsu6912
      @tsu6912 4 года назад +6

      Thank you all ♥️

  • @lucasscheider7808
    @lucasscheider7808 4 года назад +22

    This made me remember when I was about to start highschool. But 2 days before school starts, I was so excited especially my uncle. He was excited to see me grow and I made a promise that I will ace everything. But he passed away... It broke my heart. I became so depressed, I was still young and naive then. Yes... I achieve what I wanted, I made him my motivation. My uncle became my bestfriend. Someone who I can lean on with my problems. He is the reason why my talents developed, Because of his support on what I thought I couldn't do. Many people praised me with my talent... But soon enough, It felt empty. Everyone said, They envied me. I became popular, By my singing, dancing, art, and studying... But they haven't seen me broken down into tears before. They thought I was happy, and cheerful. But deep inside I was empty.
    And yes... I attempted suicide before... But my friends opened my eyes especially my teachers. Soon enough my teachers talked to me on whats wrong, because they heard me broke down in one of the bathroom stalls. I told them everything... And one thing that I realised.
    Suicide is never the answer. I was naive at that time. My brain kept me thinking that it was the end of e world. But it actually isn't. You have your family, friends, people there for you. Before you do anything rash. Think about it. Is this really the end? Am I really giving up? What would everyone think about when I die? If you feel that you are alone. Talk to someone, that knows how to give you advice.
    Because in the end of the day... There is hope. This is what life is. It is filled with so much hardship that we should face. Because they are obstacles, Yes sometimes we will hit rock bottom. But we should know how to climb back. Because you always have a chance to get back up to your own fit. You learn from your mistakes.
    Stay safe everyone~

    • @mag2094
      @mag2094 4 года назад +2

      I am so glad you achieved your goals and found a person to talk to

  • @mystixxo
    @mystixxo 4 года назад +34

    "Happy 20th Birthday, Luis
    We miss you everyday 🤍" Hit me hard, I'm really sorry, I've never lost a friend before, but it's probably really hard..

  • @19mp11
    @19mp11 4 года назад +784

    This is weird.. Its in my recomended, and my two best friends decided during quarantine that they were enough for eachother and didnt need me and my other two friends... Our 7 year long friendship has fallen apart, and i miss them so much. I just wish them the best of luck and move on cuz i still have my Two other friends that i care about a lot more than anything. Hope everyone is safe :)

    • @agathaplayziez4953
      @agathaplayziez4953 4 года назад +23

      stay strong, i hope you're okay 💪✨ i feel you, i had this one best friend three years ago and i trust her really much, but one day she started treating me as if i'm nonexistent. she would ignore me and avoid questions about me, and- yeah we stopped talking to each other. thankfully, i have found new friends who were there for me! :)

    • @19mp11
      @19mp11 4 года назад +11

      @@agathaplayziez4953 yeah, im ok! And i also hope you are ok. People can sometimes be tough. 💕🥺

    • @makenzie6515
      @makenzie6515 4 года назад +8

      I'm going through the same thing and all I do is cry and it sucks

    • @19mp11
      @19mp11 4 года назад +6

      @@makenzie6515 it's ok to cry and feel that way, don't be afraid to reach out to someone, to a cousin, teacher, mom, dad or someone you trust. And just so you know nothing lasts forever, it will eventualy go away (the sadness). ❤️❤️❤️Stay strong! 🥺❤️❤️

    • @nuzeee_k
      @nuzeee_k 4 года назад +2

      Ya I just lost my 2 of bffs yesterday 😧
      They decided they r enough and I don't need 😢

  • @alexandrasanaei5640
    @alexandrasanaei5640 4 года назад +190

    3 years ago I lost my best friend and my soul mate I had a stupid fight and I listen to my parents didn't talk two years went by and I found out from my friend who lives in London she was killed in car crash all because a guy on drugs who had a suspended licence drove that day and now I live with the pain and I have to live with the fact that we never made up and I will never see her again and the day she died is the day a part of me died and everyday I wish it was me and not here I suffer with depression and anxiety and ptsd and this is one thing I struggle with everyday it's so hard but what you did was beautiful

    • @krplum22
      @krplum22 4 года назад +32

      I’m so sorry, but please think about her in a good way, think that she looks after you, and that sometime after this life you can see her again. Life is so so unfair, but we can’t change it. Stay strong and live your life because you’re still here and people around you love you. May she Rest In Peace.

    • @artist_innerbright_arts3693
      @artist_innerbright_arts3693 4 года назад +7

      💔💔💔💔😟I'm so sorry

  • @skybright9447
    @skybright9447 4 года назад +3

    "Verily, with great hardship comes ease"

  • @kiarradutchak4351
    @kiarradutchak4351 4 года назад +491

    Now I didn’t lose anyone to passing away, but I had a best friend for 5 years (to now) and she’s become depressed (diagnosed by a doctor) and she was slipping away from me. I was always there to comfort her. She was replaced and she just couldn’t let go of that other friend. She got over it eventually and started expressing herself to me more often (she has trust issues) a new student came to our school and they became very close. She and I weren’t too close until basketball season. We came close then but there was one thing that bothered me. My best friend started telling her things instead of me. She had only known her for about 2 months and I told her it was upsetting. We kinda stopped hanging out and became distant. We joined a 4-h club to have better reasons to hang out. Later she quit on me. I only joined to be in it with her and I’m not aloud to quit. In school we both realized our friendship was dying, we did our best to search up how to save it but never actually did anything. Remember the girl who replaced her? Yeah, she ran back to her and ditched me for her (she did have a crush in her for 2 years though) and not just that, no no, she took the newer girl to completely replace me. Now it seems like we just pretend to even be friends. If you read that whole rant thank you

    • @melitaalmazor8106
      @melitaalmazor8106 4 года назад +27

      Maybe she wasn’t worth it. Don’t lose hope yet ok? You will find someone just right to be your best friend. Hang in there 💜

    • @queenlizs
      @queenlizs 4 года назад +9

      ah,, same this is happening to me rn but with my online bestfriend,, her ex recently came back to her and since she was inlove with her they're trying to make a healthy relationship,, i really am happy for her but it really feels like she's replacing and we've been really distant lately to the point she wanted distance to our whole friend group :(

    • @nyct0ph1liaa9
      @nyct0ph1liaa9 4 года назад +8

      I read this whole thing.. sometimes I'm sad or mad and I honestly dont know why.. I'm not gonna get closing into my life story because it doesnt matter. God bless your heart.

    • @kiarradutchak4351
      @kiarradutchak4351 4 года назад +1

      @@nyct0ph1liaa9 hey,share with me! sorry im seeing this late but im gonna listen (well read ig) and it does matter.

    • @kiarradutchak4351
      @kiarradutchak4351 4 года назад +1

      @@queenlizs its okay. if they arent there for you,they shouldnt be. let the bad ones go even if you learn from them theres a time limit and extension to how much you learn

  • @thesundaygist5019
    @thesundaygist5019 4 года назад +36

    I teared up just reading the title. I could never imagine having to lose my soulmate ever. She's my hope, my pillar. It has only been three years but throughout those years, I've pulled my shit together with her. I think I could never have enough memories with this person. I love her so much yet I am never vocal with my feelings. Omygosh, I'm tearing up.

    • @lillylove2210
      @lillylove2210 4 года назад +1

      I don't know if this counts but I still means something to me
      I have an online best friend I couldn't imagine losing her
      She understands me more than my own family
      She's the best thing that's happened to me I couldn't imagine losing her and the fact that we still have to meet someday, and if that day never comes just brings floods from my eyes

    • @thesundaygist5019
      @thesundaygist5019 4 года назад

      @@lillylove2210 awe I hope you both meet each other some day ✨

  • @alirosenbusch151
    @alirosenbusch151 4 года назад +82

    I almost lost my cousin and best friend. She was in the hospital for a month and a half I was in fifth grade and so was she. I would try ro visit her as much as possible. They thought she was lying, but little did they know she would have left us if she did not get to the hospital when she did. Im glad she is still here.

  • @suggamumma9003
    @suggamumma9003 4 года назад +10

    she's so pretty inside out, deserves genuinely so much in life.

  • @rainyflowwunevilable
    @rainyflowwunevilable 4 года назад +144

    my baby sister might go back to her dad tomorrow and i’m really sad because it’s toxic over there and i’ve been so attached to her. these past 4 months have been happier because of her and all my other siblings always go away with their dads. i’m really sad pls pray for me.

    • @hellow.yellow9673
      @hellow.yellow9673 4 года назад +4

      God's with you. God bless you 💕

    • @mariedunphy1450
      @mariedunphy1450 4 года назад

      *prays for u*

    • @jendeukiebear48
      @jendeukiebear48 4 года назад

      I had the same situation but i was in your case your baby sister.But luckly the court decided that it is the best if i stay with my mom☹💛I'll pray for u🖤🖤💚

  • @SlaySami
    @SlaySami 4 года назад +39

    That painting speaks emotions, it's like a calming silence, but that like drowning feelings you get when you are unhappy, or sad. It says help me find courage and continue, but also a wonder of an unknown future. It's beautiful and so painfully honest 💓

  • @asdfghjk4877
    @asdfghjk4877 4 года назад +1387

    Can i just voice out my thoughts? I like how it started all blue, thinking of blue reminds me of many things water thats endless ( water has memory - frozen 2) all the memories she had with this bestfriend, blue may also represent some sadness imo and those tear drop like thing hit me hard idk why so suddenly. Then i saw the colors yellow orange the making of a sunset or sunrise it just reminds me of how things end and start, but we will forever remember those days i hope the youtuber sees this but idk its too long and wordy it might not get noticed in the comment section but if you read this stay strong and know that your feelings has reached someone like me who has went throught the same thing :))
    IDK WHY IM CRYING AAAAA
    edit thank you to the 500+ ppl that liked and understood what i said and thankfully my message was noticed have a great day everyone stay strongg

    • @Cyrease
      @Cyrease 4 года назад +13

      The frozen reference get outttt OMG 🥺

    • @umientropyart5847
      @umientropyart5847 4 года назад

      2

    • @ecstaticoranges3497
      @ecstaticoranges3497 4 года назад +4

      But water doesn’t have memory 🥺

    • @Cyrease
      @Cyrease 4 года назад +8

      Ecstatic Oranges you stop that right now, yes it does

    • @anniemaried
      @anniemaried 4 года назад +1

      i’m literally sobbing too

  • @jerami.ad06
    @jerami.ad06 4 года назад +709

    Literally, I lost a Friend a few hours ago. A very very best friend.
    ---
    Sometimes I wonder if the FBI Is really watching me through my phone.
    Edit: thanks for the likes guys.. Ya'll legit made me smile today..
    I'm still tryna move on without my friend but don't worry, I'm doing alright..
    Thank you all very much...-

    • @thesupplyofpower
      @thesupplyofpower 4 года назад +37

      I‘m so sorry for you, it will all be fine I promise! Have a good day/night

    • @mihriyam4078
      @mihriyam4078 4 года назад +17

      I'm so sorry I hope you will feel better later

    • @kchehe
      @kchehe 4 года назад +15

      I’m so sorry for your lost. I hope everything becomes better soon.
      And I was wondering the same thing. When I had issues with my friend, I didn’t search up or watch anything about it. But my RUclips recommendations were filled with how to fix friendship “therapy” videos.
      When I fully lost her as a friend, it was filled with hating best friend videos.

    • @jerami.ad06
      @jerami.ad06 4 года назад +4

      @@kchehe thank you very much
      &I hope you get better soon.
      Gotta move on in this cold world :`(

    • @felicityjuckes6152
      @felicityjuckes6152 4 года назад +9

      Im so glad you can still make jokes after everything that has happened!

  • @jadyn9988
    @jadyn9988 4 года назад +580

    To anyone who has lost anyone close: God will get you through this. HE’S ROOTING FOR YOU!!!

    • @joudyh
      @joudyh 4 года назад +14

      i lost my 2 bestfriends today. i have 1 left. please help me i have no one to talk to i wanna cry but im around people please tell me what to do i wanna disappear i just want to die right now in this bed im sitting on

    • @jadyn9988
      @jadyn9988 4 года назад +12

      eunxoiia I know it’s hard, I get it. Even though I my friend didn’t pass away me and her had a separation for a while. You don’t realize how much you need them til they’re gone. (Luckily me and her are friends again).
      But you have a huge purpose in life even if it’s not clear and you feel like you want to die. God has made you for a reason, and although it doesn’t seem like it, He is working out everything. I will be praying for you. The best of luck to you❤️

    • @chloelevi9829
      @chloelevi9829 4 года назад +1

      @@joudyh hey, we can talk about it anytime. You can dm me on insta @pabloturkey8. Don't worry, I'm here for you please don't feel alone I'm sorry.

    • @joudyh
      @joudyh 4 года назад +2

      @@jadyn9988 thank you so much. i needed that.

    • @joudyh
      @joudyh 4 года назад +2

      @@chloelevi9829 i would love to talk to you but my parents banned me from having online friends. infact, they banned me from talking to my online friends i already had. im so sorry. i would talk to you if i was able to acces the real world. im so sorry

  • @ellescorner2824
    @ellescorner2824 4 года назад +182

    This is beautiful Ciara, an image expresses a thousand words.

  • @ih8mylife110
    @ih8mylife110 4 года назад +644

    this made me emotionally cry cause my aunt also died not too long ago cause of the stupid coronavirus

    • @CiaraGan
      @CiaraGan  4 года назад +134

      my condolences :( i hope you're getting by and staying safe 😔❤

    • @miraculousdanibug3543
      @miraculousdanibug3543 4 года назад +45

      I h8 my life I’m so sorry My Great Grandpa died from Corona too his funeral was yesterday ❤️😢

    • @louizelapira169
      @louizelapira169 4 года назад +40

      @@miraculousdanibug3543 glad yall still have funerals. in our country theyd straight up burn dead bodies.

    • @miraculousdanibug3543
      @miraculousdanibug3543 4 года назад +18

      knythd kzohqz oh no I’m so sorry😢 I watched a livestream I didn’t actually go because I have asthma and they say it’s not good to go out because of Cornavirus

    • @miraculousdanibug3543
      @miraculousdanibug3543 4 года назад +4

      knythd kzohqz Also where are you from?

  • @lynagamer2918
    @lynagamer2918 4 года назад +43

    My best friend of 7 years messaged me and said " i don't want to be your friend anymore, o found better friends and i don't need you," i said " what about our 7 years of friendship" she said "and? Idc lol"
    I cried for a week 😭
    I've been noticing that she has been talking to me less but i wasn't expecting that 😭
    edit : i'm sorry for who lost their best friend by passing away may they rest in peace
    and if you lost your best friend by losing friendship i'm also sorry
    it's been a year since she sent me that message and it also was on my birthday ,i'm still sad about it everyday and i can't ferget about her at all and no i have no friends and i'm always alone

    • @mag2094
      @mag2094 4 года назад +3

      I’m sorry about that but just remember everything must come to an end and she finished her chapter of your friendship and you must to but never forget

    • @veelinqs
      @veelinqs 4 года назад +3

      Oml im so sorry i Hope you find better friends ❤

    • @y0vg0tm33
      @y0vg0tm33 4 года назад +1

      It's the same for me..

    • @levisteacup_
      @levisteacup_ 4 года назад +4

      you didn't lose her.....she lost you❤...you are a queen....and you deserve the world and not friends like that

    • @lynagamer2918
      @lynagamer2918 4 года назад +1

      @@levisteacup_ thanks 💗

  • @sujamsa
    @sujamsa 4 года назад +21

    My best friend died in a car crash, a day before my birthday I found out. Everything I see reminds me of her. Me and her had a pact when we were little, we were going to do 2 years of whatever university.. then go to Paris and go to fashion school and launch a fashion business.. we’d travel to London, France..but, looks like we won’t be able to. The day I found out, I was with my older brother and my mum getting my brothers license so we could drive to Edmonton for my birthday.. it was supposed to be happy, then I saw the words “RIP Mandla” and I felt everything hit me. It’s so hard to bare, when all I want to do is cry and move on but I just can’t get the ‘moving on’ part down. I’m afraid I’ll forget her if I move on, that I’d be betraying her, and I don’t want to do that.

    • @lucy.2087
      @lucy.2087 4 года назад +2

      I'm so sorry for your loss. You lost an amazing person in your life. Although I don't know you, I think your friend would be proud of you for moving on and striving to achieve your own dreams. If it makes you happy, it's bound to make her happy too :)

    • @goldfinch907
      @goldfinch907 4 года назад +1

      I am so sorry for your loss. I feel like your friend wouldn’t be betrayed if you moved on, I actually feel like she would want you to move on and do your best. ❤️

    • @linahasse5903
      @linahasse5903 4 года назад +1

      JoChi Kuo I am so so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what it’s like to loose your best friend but I think she would want you to move on. I am sure she’s watching you and will be so proud when you move on and are happy again.

  • @cheesecake3112
    @cheesecake3112 4 года назад +16

    i’m so scared i’m gonna lose my friends physically

  • @xandrabuan
    @xandrabuan 4 года назад +38

    One of my closest friend died about 2 years ago. He used to teased and pissed me off but I know that he still cares for me. This video of yours makes me miss him so much. How I wish that he will be here when I turn 18 years old :((

  • @ebjdas8075
    @ebjdas8075 4 года назад +3

    It's so sad that you never realise how much you love somebody until they dissapear.....

  • @basmalamustafa7244
    @basmalamustafa7244 4 года назад +24

    So I am from Syria... i lost my friend... The bomb exploded in front of her house. It was and still is something I can't get over it.

    • @jenztopia
      @jenztopia 4 года назад +2

      I'm really sorry 😭💔

    • @lucykuda7573
      @lucykuda7573 4 года назад +1

      losing a friend feels bad, war feels worse, losing a friend during the war is the worst

  • @moontreasure5443
    @moontreasure5443 4 года назад +80

    It's one of those things that you'd never ever imagine would ever happen. I know how it feels like to lose a best friend, it happened to me too. During late 2018, I lost one of my dearest best friends to a car accident. It's already been a year now but I still can't help but cry whenever I think of her. I just hope that one day when I think of her, I could smile without tearing up. ♡
    It's really hard accepting that someone will not be there with you for the remainder of your life. It's unfortunate, but we'll all have to leave someday. Sometimes, things like these makes us appreciate the little good things in life. The warmth and happiness you feel when laughing and sharing great moments with your loved ones means a whole lot. But when you suddenly lose a close one you begin to reminisce the heart filled times with them. Those are the memories we've got to hold onto. Just because they are gone, doesn't mean that we can't be happy without them. We should live a long happy life for them because they weren't able to. Let's make them proud! 💞

    • @therryem9646
      @therryem9646 4 года назад +2

      You are so right. One day you will be able to think of her without crying which doesn't mean you don't care anymore. You just healed. I know this because I've lost my brother 3 years ago and it was the worst thing that happened to me at my young age until now. It takes a lot of time to heal but it's worth fighting and letting yourself heal as in letting yourself cry and letting everything out. I'm sure you'll make it through

    • @moontreasure5443
      @moontreasure5443 3 года назад

      @@therryem9646 I'm sorry for replying late, I am sorry for your loss, I hope you're doing well now :)
      And thank you for your comforting words, 2 years now but I think I'm doing well ♡

  • @sol206
    @sol206 4 года назад +92

    everything will soon fall into place, just hold on.

  • @syidaz3643
    @syidaz3643 4 года назад +2

    Personally, i feel like no one will ever heal from losing best friends.
    It hurts not being appreciated, it hurts to always be the last option and it hurts to not be anyone's priority. It hurts so much when you lose someone that you'll never be able to see again. But it also hurtsa lot to see someone drift apart, still around you but you no longer feel the same love you received before. It hurts. And they're happy while you're alone feeling fucked up for feeling your feelings.
    I lost mine, now they're just strangers that i used to know.

  • @esterkleimmann8221
    @esterkleimmann8221 4 года назад +15

    It's so especial how she even paints her friend... this is a masterpiece

  • @karo7628
    @karo7628 4 года назад +131

    me 20 seconds into the video: starts crying because i would hate to loose my best friend

    • @slxw_bxnny
      @slxw_bxnny 4 года назад +2

      Karebear SAME 😭😭

    • @missbunny9568
      @missbunny9568 4 года назад +1

      same i just can imagine myself falling apart when its happend we're friend for almost 10 years and im 16 i cant live without her

    • @jelicaorlic6339
      @jelicaorlic6339 4 года назад

      Your lucky you still have one

  • @juliedickinsonporter6401
    @juliedickinsonporter6401 4 года назад +26

    I could never imagine what it would be like to loose my best friend as she is the only one that I truly connect with. I know that even if they are not here, they would want you to look back with happy memories and not tears. Hopefully it will get easier for you over time.

  • @yoimiya2558
    @yoimiya2558 4 года назад +2

    Aw man i feel bad for everyone who lost their bestfriends 💕
    Most of my childhood i never had true "friends" they always call me names and such they talk behind my back and more.. But now i meet someone who was feeling the same way she used to take out her anger to me but she slowly realized what she was doing now we usually talk everyday but when online school came we dont talk that much, we play games with each other, now i am happy to meet someone like her. I truely am grateful to have such an amazing best friend. Again, i am sorry to people who have lost their best friend, i hope you feel better soon :)

  • @stressednspicy2945
    @stressednspicy2945 4 года назад +87

    One of my friends died in a surgery last november. He was a really nice guy and we became a little bit close because he was trying to win my best friend's heart. He went into the surgery fully knowing that he might not make it out alive. It was hard on our whole batch since he was that one guy who everyone' s friends with. I can't imagine what you felt or feeling right now but just know that at least they' re happy now.

  • @patirhine9014
    @patirhine9014 4 года назад +17

    i honestly cried to this, i cant imagine losing my very best friend. it must be really hard for you but i hope you will feel ok someday. i can't stop crying to this tbh, you have a very good talent and a very nice heart!

  • @spky-go7kp
    @spky-go7kp 4 года назад +15

    One of my best friends has a disease which reduces his life expectancy to his mid 20's if he's lucky. It's one of my worst fears losing him and it hurts so much knowing that our time is running out. I can only pray that there will be a cure that can help him soon.

  • @vinodhinijs4399
    @vinodhinijs4399 4 года назад +6

    idk why this popped up in my recommendations, and oddly I felt everything. the painting, the vibe, the heartbreak and everything. cause I used to have a few bestfriends,and for some reason I failed to notice that over the years they've moved on and became bestfriends w each other without me, it hurts but I tell myself that I have to move on. I keep thinking back to when we were together and all. sure it isn't as hurtful as what you're going through rn, but I. idk it still hurts and I dk

  • @6thorb367
    @6thorb367 4 года назад +53

    I have long had a strong desire to leave. I felt bad, I felt like I had no goal. School bored me, my parents didn't understand the problem I was having. The people in my class made fun of me. It was not real harassment, since they said it behind my back, but I could hear them. It had hurt me more than I really accepted... But I was lucky to have two friends, two real friends, on whom I could count. And I knew if I tried to leave, it would hurt them too much. It's the one and only thing that really holds me back, even today. So I can't imagine if I had to lose just one of them...
    Sorry for bad english.

    • @miety111
      @miety111 4 года назад +3

      Never leave your friends, please. My best friend abandoned me and now I feel so wrong... I can't hold the pain anymore

    • @6thorb367
      @6thorb367 4 года назад +1

      @@miety111 I would never leave them by myself... Sadly, I will probably move in a new house...

    • @miety111
      @miety111 4 года назад +1

      @@6thorb367 I'm sorry to hear that

  • @Minminisanidiot
    @Minminisanidiot 4 года назад +142

    so everyone was sharing their story so i decided to share mine too
    i actually have a few
    trigger warning: suicidal thoughts and self harm, anxiety, depression
    first close best friend i had was in grade 9-11 we ended up clicking so fkn quick, and we were inseparable ever since. we didnt leave each other's sides, the typical soulmate type friendships you can say. we knew each other like the back of our hands and we knew each others secrets inside out, we knew how to help each other out nad we consoled each other, bombarded each other with love until we were forced to feel better. but the thing is that, at that time, i personally wasnt, but my best friend was struggling with extremem anxiety and depression. i remember her having panic attacks but at the time i was 13 and i had never experienced any anxiety attacks so i didnt know what they were like (oh how life decided to gift me with anxietty literally after her)
    she used to have crying sessions, panic attacks nervous breakdowns everything
    and through all of that , i researched day and night trying to figure out how to console her, be by her side, help her through all this
    i distinctly remember this one time where she was suicidal (or she said that she was) and she said that she'd cut herself one day.i consistently stood by her, no matter what i knew i didnt wanna leave her side. i told her to draw patterns, you know i tried my best, but..
    about 1 month after she admitted that she was self harming, she started to distance herself from me. i ofcourse being an overthinker i wanted to confront her so i did
    i texted her, called her, she wasnt at school for days on end, and that put a pit in my heart. i began worrying about her so much and trying to contact just a n y contact any form of contact (i have tears in my eyes right now oh my god)
    the next day, she comes to school, and infront of the entire school assembly she goes "i never wanted you as a friend in my life, you were a good passtime, and now that im bored you can go"
    i b r o k e down. i cried and i angrily confronted her the typical, "but i held on to you, never let you go, i was so worried, please why are you doing this," shit like that. no response. didnt even bat an eye, shrugged her shoulder and left
    i remember crying for 3 days straight because i couldnt function, i thought we were close, i thought we were okay *werent we"?
    i thought i was your best friend, i thought i was your second half what happened
    never got my asnwer, a week later after a lot of crying, sobbing my eyes out, feeling like my soul being ripped apart, i finally gained enough confidence to get up
    and when i did, she texted me and went "im sorry i said whatever i did i want you back as my bestfriend. lets forget whatever happened and move on" i was furious. i wrote the typical angry lettter with perfecct punctuation, and everything
    the only thing she replied was "nevermind then"
    the lack of communication between us was so prominent, it was like every f u c k i n g time i tried to confront her she backed off
    after that i started to slowly realise how much i put in the friendship, i stayed up entire nights for her and she wouldnt even attend my calls sometimes, i literally would be desolate trying to contact her and she would shrug me off, she would act up so much in rage and in anger, and return a day later "im so sorry i was acting like a bitch" and when i tried to cofront her she would argue so much *oh wow im criyng now*
    just, slowly i tried to get better, but the amount of attachment i had with her, it took me a good few weeks to regain myself, it was like in that friendhsip i had completely forgotten my own existence, my own soul was screaming for help while i ignored myself and helped her
    i remember one day after we broke off our friendship, i didnt eat the entire day because i felt sick and used to my stomach, i felt drained, and soulless. i felt like i was a tissue paper, used nad thrown away, it hit hard and it hurt so much,, after that was when the anxiety attacks started, i wanted to self harm, and i did one day, like just out of self anger i ran my nails down my arm and two huge cuts appeared, i remmeber freaking out and my body shaking as i saw the blood drip down my arm, at the time i didnt feel anything i was so numb, me trying my best to get hold of bandaids to cover it so my mom didnt notice that her daughter was breaking apart inside, i covered my arm fully, and it hurt s o much, my body had given up on me after being used so badly. it felt for a month like my existence was useless, that i was tired of existing, she tried to contact me so many times adn that just made the healing process even harder for me, becuase i wanted to get away but she pulled me back. eventually i did regain myself, but even today, rn im just thinking about how she could do that to e, when all i ever did was adore her and literally give my all to her
    im gonna stop typig now because my neck is wet with my tears now

    • @RP9_rp9
      @RP9_rp9 4 года назад +34

      I just read everything, and hun I’m so sorry. It will get better

    • @chloerose5999
      @chloerose5999 4 года назад +13

      I’m so sorry. I self harm as well, and it’s really rough. I mostly stopped self harming when my parents took my blade but now I dig my nails into my palms until they bleed and it’s terrible. You’ll get through it though, we all will.

    • @rizapotencia9191
      @rizapotencia9191 4 года назад +3

      Yeah it's true sometimes friends grow without us I don't to tell it but I hope that you will be OK and had nicer friends
      - from this this account because this is my mom's account

    • @kias1293
      @kias1293 4 года назад +7

      I had problems like this too, and what I understood with this kind of friends is they are too depressed and too into their pain that they don't see what others do for them, it's not your fault, it's her/his fault. I'm sorry I shouldn't be that direct, but I really think like this after experiencing it myself. And what's worse is that they made me had depression. I was mentally ok before meeting them, and of course they wouldn't see or admit it. And I'm sorry again, but they are too selfish, they are too focused on their sadness that they don't care about others. I don't hate them, I pity them bc I've recovered after leaving them and they are still the same, not moving on at all. You can be sad and depressed but hurting others won't make you feel better. When you finally see the truth you will only regret that you didn't treat people as they deserved, when I was in your situation I didn't hurt anyone, I avoided people bc I didn't want to hurt them, I would always think if I did something bad to people around me, I would always think about others bc I didn't want them to end like me,nevertheless some depressed people(I met many of them,for example they could tell bad things to me but I couldn't) are like a contagious sickness and I really hate this kind of people.they are like poison, they are the difinition of goxic people.

    • @celindraaa
      @celindraaa 4 года назад +3

      Im so,so sorry for everything you've been through.
      I've been through something similiar,but i got thrown away like i was nothing because this "friend" considered me too depressed,and funny thing is that im medically diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I still havent fully recovered,even though its been a full year now.
      But at least,i found amazing people that are helping me a lot,and im sure that you will too!
      Please,never loose hope.
      Even if maybe it seems all useless now,in the future youll see that it really wasnt.
      What im trying to say is that you need to never give up. That feeling will go away,someday.
      Its not gonna be easy,at all,but if you try and try you will make it,and it will absolutely be worth it.
      Ily,please keep doing your best.💕💕

  • @maryyvonnegaurana897
    @maryyvonnegaurana897 4 года назад +249

    awe:(( losing a best friend is never easy i experienced it too but i opened my heart and mind, i stayed with God. i allowed myself to be positive and to recieve another great person in my life. stay positive ate ciara!! 💓 God has plans for you

  • @doggolover2174
    @doggolover2174 4 года назад +37

    I have just lost a friend unexpectedly. She just texted me and another friend ‘I have blocked you and we are not friends anymore’ she then unblocked us for a minute and said ‘Something has happened to me and I don’t feel like being friends’
    I’m upset,very upset but as long as she is happy I’ll be alright.
    Our friendship has lasted 2017-2020 we bonded over shows like Steven Universe. I never saw this coming.
    I have lost a friend
    I have lost some light
    I’m gushing with tears
    I need some more light
    But no one can you replace you
    Not even a kite
    - Dizzii Star 28/06/20
    It means losing a friend is losing some light. The kite part might not make sense but it rhymes lol
    I’ll miss you.

  • @Kkori.
    @Kkori. 4 года назад +442

    Well that basically sums up my whole life story
    At first she was the most innocent person ever
    But as time goes
    She learns more bad and good things
    And now
    She's corrupted and I'm still hurting cuz of it
    She's someone that will say your deepest secrets that you told her and black mail you just because she wants to win an argument (a snitch I think?)
    She's spoiled
    She's selfish
    She keeps everything to herself
    She never let's you get any attention
    She loves attention
    She gets whatever she wants cuz shes the bigger sibling ( she has a 3yr sis)
    And she has a better love life then me
    I guess im just not there...
    for her im just one of her many "friends"
    But to me she's my first ever "true" friend
    I miss her old self

    • @sakurahimari3627
      @sakurahimari3627 4 года назад +12

      😢

    • @andreaomandam1494
      @andreaomandam1494 4 года назад +32

      SAMEEE YOU'RE LITERALLY DESCRIBING MY EX BESTFRIEND👁️👄👁️

    • @irem-ve8vi
      @irem-ve8vi 4 года назад +12

      That's my ex bff

    • @tabinarahman5428
      @tabinarahman5428 4 года назад +11

      thats sad i hope she turns back to her old self

    • @vyoous
      @vyoous 4 года назад +8

      This was me and my friend, I soon lost his trust, he called me mean words, and soon our friendship lost meaning as he went on to someone else. I had been left in the shadows, surrounded by my family and friends, I was sad for a few weeks, then i started recovering.

  • @captjakeh1646
    @captjakeh1646 4 года назад +26

    I feel the weight of emotions in this art. I can't hold my tears. 😢

  • @ciara2837
    @ciara2837 4 года назад +21

    I lost someone I had known for 8 years 2 months ago. We weren't super close and I hadn't talked to her since we both quit the track team in 2018, but it still hit me so hard knowing the pain she was going through. I'm glad she's in a better place with her dad. Its not easy but it gets easier every day.
    We miss you girl

  • @disnamed8165
    @disnamed8165 4 года назад +5

    I lost my friend recently to suicide... this truly inspires me so much, I could feel my friends presence next to me when I started to watch this video, so thank you... I'm grateful that your video made her come back to me, even if it was just for a few minutes, I'm so grateful for just feeling her energy around me, thank you for making that happen...I know the pain that happens when you lose a friend, you feel so depressed...so useless...so guilty... or, at least that's what I felt.... just, again, thank you, I know your friend is looking at you from heaven, and they are proud of you for being strong, and so are we

    • @sm1le_b1g
      @sm1le_b1g 4 года назад +2

      Dis Named I’m so sorry for your loss. Btw are you a Directioner?🥰

    • @disnamed8165
      @disnamed8165 4 года назад +1

      @@sm1le_b1g thank you, and yes, I am a Directioner....and an ARMY too

  • @blacktangotwiceikonvelvetx2047
    @blacktangotwiceikonvelvetx2047 4 года назад +472

    to the one person who disliked this video : fuck you

    • @wandersonsynn5343
      @wandersonsynn5343 4 года назад +18

      Maybe they face through the same thing and this remind them of what happened, don’t just say this, they have feelings

    • @pawskiiowo
      @pawskiiowo 4 года назад +4

      -Ann Harper- why are people watching the video then...you can already guess what it’ll be about just by reading the title.

    • @francescabailey7550
      @francescabailey7550 4 года назад +4

      Maybe the person thinks of seeing the dislike button as sad and like button happy.

    • @bottle.
      @bottle. 4 года назад +14

      There is a dislike button fora a reason, every human has the right to dislike or like a video, so dont be rude.

    • @cracker_playz6456
      @cracker_playz6456 4 года назад +1

      Fuck you too