My friend. I do not know you. I just have watched several of your videos. This struggle. Thank you for every single thing you are, as a resilient, genuine, resolved. Man. If there remains a soul on this earth who doubts that you have earned your man wings, well... never again trouble yourself with such a person.
GOD you poor sausage,I am so glad I caught up with you when you are free in 2021, I know there are issues now with fatigue but I really hope your bits are really satisfyingly wonderful! and yes a lot of people admire your courage and frankness out here.
Bless you! Yes, having my body feel this wonderful, makes all the challenges in the world so much easier to manage! Even fatigue! Thank you so much for your kind words!
Finn, after all that you've been through I still see your gorgeous light shining bright! The results that you have to show for this procedure is a corrected urethra. All the rest is background noise. Life has offered you a windy (winding) road in this situation and you've chosen to jump on with such dignity and integrity. You are a true example of how to deal with situations in the face of adversity. Your journey in life has brought you to the point where you have cultivated the strength of character and wisdom where you have the tools to deal with this, even though it feels really shaky and uncertain, at times, throughout it. I'm sorry that the medical staff were not as compassionate, kind, and caring as they should have been. This is not the right way that they should have conducted themselves. I echo your sentiments surrounding that. Keep listening to your inner guide. You are going to be alright. Love you lots xxx
Bless you lovely, yes indeed, the outcome is a fixed urethra, I think its hard to acknowledge that due to the fact that I had no issues before hand but I am trying to hold in mind that this is a good thing it was discovered now, it all happens for a reason. It does feel very uncertain right now, I have had a tough few months and i feel a bit battered, I think I had used the excitement of stage 3 to lift myself out of the blue patch i was in and now that it hasnt happened Ive sunk a bit. I do really trust in its passing though and in it being for a reason. Since living my life along spiritual lines over the last 6 years, things have always evolved n the right way and so I trust this utterly, even if I do feel pretty rubbish right now! Thank you for being such a rock and a guiding light. Much love xx
FinnTheInfinncible Sounds like intellectually you can definately see what is going on, and emotionally you are grieving for what could have been. That's understandable
Finn, although this video is over 5 years old, I found myself in tears right along with you as you described your struggles with this stage of your transition. As you know, I'm just beginning my transition journey, and I so appreciate that your videos discuss the lowlights as well as the highlights. Obviously, you came through this setback and went on to complete the final steps. But, if I didn't already know that, and had just watched this video, I would say that I see determination in your eyes and in the words you spoke, that made me know you would be successful. You are an inspiration, my friend. Thank you so much for the information, the love and the encouragement you give to so many others, like me, who still have that long journey ahead. You make it a lot less scary. 🌈❤
*hugs* I hope it all gets better quick. That's really disappointing to hear that, not only did you not get to have stage 3 but the care was bad too. Here's hoping this is your one and only bump in the road! *hugs*
Thanks my friend, I think I would have dealt with this all so much better had it not been for the hospital experience, however, whats done is done, now its time to heal, which is happening however slowly! Hugs back to you
FinnTheInfinncible I know what you mean, I've had my share of lousy hospital experiences, though nothing quite as bad as your ordeal. As you said though, what's done is done. I'm glad you're healing well, even though it's slowly.
Hey Fin. Really interesting stuff. I too am post surgery. I was very lucky and didn't have any complications and had fantastic care at hospital for all 4 surgeries. I was under the care of Dr Ralph and Dr Christopher, two great, sensitive, professional surgeons. I had my ops between 2006-2007. Interestingly a good friend of mine had Dr Grapher(not sure of exact name) and he had terrible post surgery after care on ward and on discharge. I hope you eventually have all your surgeries finished. Best of luck to you.
Thanks my friend. I am very glad to hear you have had success. The only time I havent has been with Mr Garaffa. No bedside manner at all and appalling communication. We all get there eventually eh!
So sorry you've had such a rough time of it, with both complications with surgery and rotten care. Fingers crossed things settle down soon and you can work on healing from this both physically and mentally. Thank you so much for being so open and honest about the whole surgery/transition/etc. As someone sitting waiting for the start of the surgical merry-go-round it's incredibly valuable to get such an insight into the process.
Aw Finn I'd been following you on the Finnfam page as to what had happened and i'm so sorry I can see it has greatly upset you but you are home now in your own place where you can find the peace and love to recover more and have another go later on this year at having stage three just remember this to shall pass and you will be so much better off for your next time around. much love from me and Charlie.
+Malachy Gilmour. Thank you my dear friend. I think I had just built this ending up so much that between the hospital experience and not getting stage 3 I've taken a large hit. I am just taking it gently allowing myself time to regroup. Bless you
your welcome - yes allowing yourself to regroup and work through whats happened is the best thing for it and be gentle with yourself as you've did nothing wrong as im sure you know this.
Thanks so much for your honesty here, it's really important to know about complications. You are right of course, this will pass and we will all see your smiley face again - looking forward to it! Hope you feel better soon xx
Yes indeed, there would be no point sharing if I didnt give an honest account. Thanks my friend, I am very much looking forward to feeling like my old self again
+Damian August thanks buddy, l have to share it all, no point in doing this vlogging thing otherwise! Still, l hope to be back with a perkier video soon!
Feel for ya Finn,you have been through alot these past few weeks.I understand the ups and downs of life as i have been through alot myself and what i can tell you is what helps me the most and that is the realization that there is something greater than myself,the supreme being,God,Life force,Divine love,The great spirit or Whatever you like to call it.When im having a rough time i remember this and remember i am NEVER alone and give myself permission to surrender and feel this love around me and that i can trust in this and know that i am can hand over my pain and problems to this life force and ask for it all being takem care of so that i don't feel im doing it all myself. It all sounds pretty spiritual but i think you are open to this stuff and it really helps me. Nothing is forever you will get there,sending love brother :)
Hang in there, Finn. You're a great inspiration and thank you for sharing both your highs and lows with us. Hoping for a speedy recovery and a close successful stage 3 op for you. X
Bless your heart, Finn. So sorry you're having such a difficult time. I hope that since it's been a couple of days since you posted this that by now you feel even a little better! I'll be thinking of you and sending sweet healing vibes your way.
Finn, What can l say just not good enough. Im glad your strong smart and logical enough to know this will pass and you will have your surgery with no trouble at all. Big hugs from Australia.
Hi Finn, had seen in on the Finn fam page already, but I am so sorry that you have had such a bumpy ride. After such an appalling experience it only make sense that you are somewhat shaken. Take it easy, have some hot cacao, give Lamby a hug, and hopefully your recovery will go smoothly from here
Oh Finn I'm so sorry that this has been so messed up! Seeing you all sad has me welling up I just wanna give you a big cwtch lovely! I'll cross everything that you feel better soon (or now if soon is not soon enough :-P) big loves darlin xxxxx
I just had phallo phase 1, one month ago (MLD). Urethra lenghtening is in stage 2 for me, not being able to pee through my phallus is one of my biggest fears. And this erectile device, ugh. I'm kind of not okay with having a foreign piece of something in my body for the rest of my life :/
Congrats on first stage! Yes, urethral lengthening is stage 2 here as well. Mine was fine at first, until they tried to do stage 3 and then I had issues with my urethra. I had similar concerns with the erectile device but its actually OK.
FinnTheInfinncible Oh wow, thanks for the answer, didnt think you would see my comment at all :D Yeah I had metoidioplasty a year ago and had a fistula in my urethra that had to be fixed up, so I think I'll have them in stage 2 as well. I also have an infection and necrosis on my back (donor site) 😭
Oh goodness, it's such a difficult journey isn't it! But, we do get over these complications and finally get to the end, as l have done, and so will you! And I always reply, or at least I try to ...though it sometimes takes me a while!. If your looking for more phallo stuff i have some over on my website at finlaygames.com
inspirational to all of us so sorry to hear that man but yes keep that mindset I felt your hurt by the end ugh it's sucks we have to suffer so much just to try to be happy and nothing goes right for us right away but I hope you get to the finish line Happily!!!
I saw the updates on the Finn Fam page, and was really sorry to hear what had happened. I hope you heal speedily and are able to have success and a much better hospital experience next time. The hospital I was taken to after my car accident, and given my second surgery in, wasn't exactly an ideal experience either, so I can relate. Seeing as Dante is one of my two greatest literary idols, I often think of how one of the themes of The Divine Comedy is that sometimes we have to sink to the lowest, saddest, most painful point before we can start rising up to happier, more beautiful places. After all, the only way out of that low point is up.
Its shocking how it effects you isnt it? I think its because of the level of trust that you put into hospitals and nurses and so when the care fails so utterly it really does traumatise you. Sorry you had this experience too. I agree re rock bottoms, having one got me into AA which then has given me a whole new and much happier life including finally living as the man i knew myself to be. Sometimes going back to the foundations is the best way to rebuild. Thanks my friend
Chin up dude, your further on in your transition than me your lucky to be where you are now. It will come around again not to long off. I'm always watching your videos to keep me informed and it passes the time I have to wait before I get things done myself. Hope your bladder sorts its self soon and your feeling better :) keep positive :)
Ive been wondering about you. I'm so thankful for Finn and Michelle and yes Lamby, for taking such good care of you. I might be a stranger to you but its like you are part of my family. Surgery is rarely a fun time but I had a feeling something wasn't right. May you continue to heal fully and go forward with bright thoughts of a future ... with little finn of course standing to attention in the end.. oh my... not the end.. but the.. oh never mind. Hugging you from across the Pond!! Michele
Bless you, I feel the exact same way about you all! Having so much love and support keeps me going through this journey, I am just so incredibly grateful. Thank you so very very much for your incredible kindness
FinnTheInfinncible I think that because you did it makes you even more relatable as you are willing to share your feelings with others. Keep up the good work and get better soon! X
Glad you're are back home and doing okay! Onwards and upwards despite this and hopefully this will never ever happen to you especially or anyone again!
You are such an inspiration ❤️ I know this was a long time ago but I have been watching ftm videos and watching your courage and words of advice and how you preserved through the adversity is inspiring!!
I understand completely the differences in care and how it affects not only our physical health but our emotional and spiritual health. You have amazing friends and support. Your doctor sounds absolutely incredible and a blessing. Sometimes we need to see the darkness to appreciate the light. Much love to you. Ps. My youngest (almost 16) officially and publicly came out as trans. !pride! you've helped us all the way in Canada 🇨🇦. Stay strong, stay you.
+Silver Thompson amen to that! I am full of appreciation, the love and support l have fills the gaps in the lack of care the hospital made, l am so blessed to be surrounded by wonderful people. Amazing news about your youngest, that makes me smile from ear to ear! Much love to you all, what wonderful parents you are
Sending love and light!! You are strong and you WILL get past this minor set back. 🤗🤗🤗 You are Authentic and I really appreciate YOUR honesty through your entire experience.
Aww Finn I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that, it must have been awful :( I'm glad your friends were there for you and I hope you start to feel better soon! We're all rooting for you dude!
Wish I could give you a big hug! I'm so glad you have such amazing friends that helped you out. I can only imagine how difficult it would have been if you were on your own! Yes, you're still having some troubles but it WILL get better. Things WILL improve. It just takes time and plenty of rest, and a few well deserved cries! I think it's perfectly healthy to have some moments of wallowing. Can't keep it all bottled up. Sometimes a good cry is all it takes to just refresh your brain and you'll be ready to face the world with energy. Anyway, as I commented on facebook, all good astronauts have dealt with launch delays! You just have to rest, relax and take care of yourself until your new launch day comes!
hey Finn, you are so strong, well done for keeping on!! hope you have some thing to keep you occupied through further recovery. things you enjoy? good healting vibes your way Finn
Hi my friend, thank you. Yes I have lots to keep me occupied, Im doing some colouring, its surprisingly soothing! I am also decorating my bullet journal! trying to get on with writing too
you are so strong! I just found your videos and I instantly liked you :) I hope that you will feel better very soon and I will definitely keep you in my thoughts! I'm going to binge watch your videos now :)
i just want to give you a big hug❤ thank you for sharing even the grim parts of surgery though, it's very educational. sending you thousands of good vibes!!✨✨
Sending so many healing and positive vibes to you 💚💚 absolutely horrendous. It really sounds traumatic. I'm so happy your friends were there for you. And thank you for sharing your story and for your courage. My brother is FTM and it's people like you that make all the difference. Good luck with your healing process! I know you'll get well soon 💚
oh it's been i while hello there! it is really hard to process when things like that happen, but at the end of the day everything is going to be okay. just keep your head up, keep going, u r a very strong, brave man. shit happens, but you've gone through a lot already and will cope with this! bless Finn for being with you. much love❤
It has been a while! I need to work out a way of more easily doing youtube vlog on the fly! Having the facebook page to update on though is a good back up Thank you so very much for your incredibly kind words my friend
I'm a chronic catheter user and its hell. I am currently self catheterising because nurse inflated my suprapubic catheter into my bladder wall and damaged me a lot. So painful. It sounds like you're having bladder spasms you know. That forces the urine out sometimes. I hope it calms down. Much love.
Poor you, I have newfound respect for any catheter users! Im told its the blood clot causing the spasms and irritation as blood in the urine is an irritant, it is gradually improving, slowly, but improvement at least. Much love to you too my friend
Hang on tight, Finn! I've been through my own dark hours, not with surgery or anything (my dad was really sick), and I can tell you, you're right and everything does get better even if the worst happens. Once you've hit rock bottom and all that jazz :3
+BraveEmpress so sorry to hear that my friend, hope your dad is ok now. It is hard when it's happening but makes sense when you finally come out the other side
Oh I just wanted to give you a big hug when you started tearing up. I can't imagine how exhausting this has been, but as you said yourself, it will pass. Lots of love and another hug! But not too tight, don't want you weeing on me. ;)
Sending you hugs and good vibes from over my way... hope recovery is as quick and easy for you as possible, especially after so much faffing about already!!
You're almost there man! And zero complications before now is amazing! How long has the entire process been so far? Also, did your donor site on your arms regrow hair after?
Thanks fella, I came out as trans in Jan 2012 so its been 5 years so far. In terms of lower surgery, I had stage one in august 2016. Full thickness grafts do grow hair though I do not yet have a lot on mine
finally.. bet u got loads to watch and catch up on, I've been watching ya little tidbits. it's a shame you felt "ranty" with regards aftercare, I'm like you..I want to know and I want to know now, at least ya got there in the end with info.. I used to live in a cul-de-sac... seems odd that u had no issues prior but better they fix it now, love to you sir
Lol thanks bud. It was more than just lack of info though, it was bloody shocking, I had to take a picture on my phone of my scrotum wound before the nurse would even believe I had a wound!! It was totally unbelievable. It is better its fixed though, just wish it couls have all been a little less stressful! Anyway...onwards and upwards! I have a movie marathon of yours to catch up with!!!!
FinnTheInfinncible she should have just said "I'm. it sure" than categorically deny goings on" folks never seem sure of themselves and it's frustrating, and lol well enjoy...I've got a few things this week lined up big time
Hey Finn.. So sorry you're going through this man. It definitely sounds like you just got a really nasty bladder infection, which is quite common with the insertion of Foley catheters. I hope your doctor has you on some antibiotics, and I would also double up on your vitamin C, which will naturally kill any bacteria you may have left over in your bladder. Catheters also weaken your sphincter muscles as well, which is why you've had trouble holding it in. Prayers to you man. Thank goodness it's all temporary.
Thanks so much my friend, yes I am still on antibiotics, taking the vit c too, going to crawl to the shops in a bit and get some pure cranberry juice too. This WILL pass! Just wish it would hurry up!!!! :D
Bless your heart Finn, it is so heartbreaking to hear and see you in a fragile state. But, they have solved a problem, although causing a few temporary ones, and the next time will be plain sailing. Chin up mate 👍👍
Thanks bud, I know and Im hanging on tight to that, its just been a tough few months MH wise anyway and now with this its just knocked me a bit. I think the worse thing is the lack of sleep from weeing and thats leaving me with no resources in my brain!!! Bless you fella
Sweet Finn...great big mushy HUGS! Darlin'! This is one of those "hell in the hallway" moments (You know, when God closes one door, he opens another...but it's hell in the hallway!), but with your recovery tools, sense of humor, support group, friends from all over the world, this too shall pass! Hang on to your Higher Power with both hands, and know that you are surrounded by unconditional love. Your friend Kay-ee keeps you in daily prayer!! HUGS!!!!
+friendoftherese1 that saying is one that has become a huge part of my recovery tool kit and l thank you so much for passing it on to me. I'm learning to just sit in the hallway and let it be and trust in the proccess that my HP has for me. I am so blessed my dear Kay ee!!!!!
oh Finn you poor thing. sorry to hear what happened. I'm praying things get better for you . you deserve the best. I've been wondering what was going on with you. get well soon💙💚💛💜
Oh sweetheart. Sending you warmth and love in abundance. If you ever feel like a jaunt to London for non-little-Finn reasons, let me know: the Joan Collins Suite at mine is always ready for guests. I'm right by Epping Forest too - lovely healthy strolls abound! xxx
+George Allen honey! Thank you l would absolutely love that, would be amazing to have a catch up with your lovely self! I'll even bring cheese cake! As soon as I'm well I'm there!! Xxx
I'm so sorry you had so many complications. I can tell you are traumatized. I'm sure this is the last thing you thought you'd be dealing with. And that's what makes surgery so dangerous
All surgery has complications, I knew that going into this. Unfortunately, as trans folk, we also have the added issue of stigma withon the medical profession, without that, complications would be easier to manage. Thankfully, the complications have been fixed now , my surgery is finished, and I am one very happy man!
My mum isn't transgender or anything but when her mum got cancer, my mum just got really poorly from the stress in her stomach. She couldn't hold on to pee or worse and we had to drive grandma back and fourth from the hospital 2 hours each way. So poor mum also had to wear nappies or extra padding. Pack a spare pair of pants. I would help her and all that at age 22. But I just want you to know that a lot more people have bowl issues and all that so it's really not embarrassing and I hope you can feel ok with what happened. It's hard, but we all have weak points and need extra support or extra pants 😉
Thanks so much for this kind comment. Im sorry to hear about your mum, I hope she is doing OK? I had my urethral issues sorted out in the end, took a while but thankfully I am now issue free!
Aww. Disappointed about this setback for you. Fortunately, you have amazing friends and at least one doctor dedicated to your well-being. You may not be through the woods just yet but there is light at the end of the tunnel, so to speak.
Catheters are more evil than The Joker, Hannibal, Cruella and Voldemort combined. Bar none. Still. Look beyond that ripple in timelines on what should happen when... The Finn still has his wits, his manliness, his humor, his health and his damn fucking mutton! Hang in there brother!!! I am looking forward to the day where you announce the first morning wood. You know it! Not making light of anything you are going through. But I think you understand that humor and smiles make it bearable.. to some extent... Nate
make a complaint you deserve good care. You are still here and that's what matters. there's an ftm fellow on RUclips whose phalloplasty went so wrong he basically ended up with a bag. chin up - it will happen it will just be later than you first thought x
Surgery is always a difficult choice, we have to weigh up the risks with the benefits. For me the benefits far outweighed any risks.i couldn't continue living my life the way things were and I knew, from extensive research and reflection that surgery would help that. Despite some challenges along the way I'm very pleased with how things have turned out and my life is all the better for it!
@@FinnTheInfinncible that's so great, it worked for you, but you don't have to pretend to be tough, it's ok to regret surgeries sometimes, surgeons make mistakes, they're human.
@@misakistalker I'm not pretending anything, if you watch my vlogs you'll see I speak very honestly about all the ups and downs of this journey but I have no regrets about deciding to have phalloplasty
Really want to get phalloplasty myself, but always scared of the complications. Still waiting to start my own HRT journey. Still in the therapy stage. Understanding how I've been in the closet for 35 years. Living miserable life all this time. I've never been so happy or excited to start something! EVER! Such a pain having to wait. It is funny, some lady wants boob implants and they would give her the go ahead that day. Trans person wants boobs removed, and its a long long wait, with forms to fill out, and psychological evaluations. With everyone telling you that you are wrong, or bad for wanting this in YOUR LIFE. It will be worth the wait though :D
Finn, sorry to hear about your awful experience. Take probiotics. Antibiotics mess up the system and can lead to thrush. A good probiotic ought to help with that.
i noticed a lot of trans people are gay. why would you become trans, then be gay? you couldve been straight? before your transition, did you feel as though you were meant to be a gay man? i hope i didnt word that the wrong way. just curious .. live your life :) you seem like a very fun, genuine & nice person. as a female, this FTM stuff fascinates me! clearly i do not understand because i am not trans. but i just cannot wrap my head around the idea of going thru all of this. then to be a gay man afterwards. and to look at you i would have never looked twice and questioned that ever once. you are clearly a man inside and out. incredible!
Thank you for asking a difficult question very politely. I understand your confusion but its a common mistake to link gender and sexuality as being the same thing when they are completely different entities. Firstly, you dont BECOME trans, you ARE trans. For reasons that are still not completely known, for some people, our gender doesn't match that which we are assigned at birth. This is what makes us transgender. As trans people, we have always been the gender we feel ourselves to be, I have always been a man, its just I needed to change my body to reflect that. A gay trans man could never have been straight, if said gay trans man didnt undergo gender transition he would stil be seen as female by the people around him, including the person he is dating. Knowing himself to be male, he will have always been gay and so being treated as female by their partner would be incredibly uncomfortable. This is often why trans people dont come out as gay until after they undergo transition, as then, they can date the men they have always been attracted to and be seen as the man they are by the person they are in a relationship with. Does this make sense?
It failed because you are a girl,deep down in your DNA and your skeleton. You are what the Lord made you. I am sorry to hear about your story. When I was a little girl, I wanted to be a boy because I was lonely as a girl. I had no friends. I was bullied all through school. Picked on by my mother. It was a phase.
+Rayne Kimi I'm sorry you were lonely. For me it runs much deeper than that. Gender is far more than DNA and skeleton based. As for God, he made me who I am, a trans gender man and he gave me the free will to decide what to do about that and l decided to take the step to transition even though l knew that doing so in a world that on the whole does not accept trans folk, would be hard.
Your arm is lookin great....thats been a worry for me. Seeing your arm has made me feel a whole lot better. Thanks
Thank you, yes I am both lucky to heal well and I look after myself well. I shall be doing an update vlog on my arm this week.
My friend. I do not know you. I just have watched several of your videos. This struggle. Thank you for every single thing you are, as a resilient, genuine, resolved. Man. If there remains a soul on this earth who doubts that you have earned your man wings, well... never again trouble yourself with such a person.
Such a kind comment! Thank you so much my friend
No. Thank you. Absolutely.
Man wings ? Is this a joke.
GOD you poor sausage,I am so glad I caught up with you when you are free in 2021, I know there are issues now with fatigue but I really hope your bits are really satisfyingly wonderful! and yes a lot of people admire your courage and frankness out here.
Bless you! Yes, having my body feel this wonderful, makes all the challenges in the world so much easier to manage! Even fatigue! Thank you so much for your kind words!
@@FinnTheInfinncible You are very welcome!.
Finn, after all that you've been through I still see your gorgeous light shining bright! The results that you have to show for this procedure is a corrected urethra. All the rest is background noise. Life has offered you a windy (winding) road in this situation and you've chosen to jump on with such dignity and integrity. You are a true example of how to deal with situations in the face of adversity. Your journey in life has brought you to the point where you have cultivated the strength of character and wisdom where you have the tools to deal with this, even though it feels really shaky and uncertain, at times, throughout it.
I'm sorry that the medical staff were not as compassionate, kind, and caring as they should have been. This is not the right way that they should have conducted themselves. I echo your sentiments surrounding that.
Keep listening to your inner guide. You are going to be alright. Love you lots xxx
Bless you lovely, yes indeed, the outcome is a fixed urethra, I think its hard to acknowledge that due to the fact that I had no issues before hand but I am trying to hold in mind that this is a good thing it was discovered now, it all happens for a reason. It does feel very uncertain right now, I have had a tough few months and i feel a bit battered, I think I had used the excitement of stage 3 to lift myself out of the blue patch i was in and now that it hasnt happened Ive sunk a bit. I do really trust in its passing though and in it being for a reason. Since living my life along spiritual lines over the last 6 years, things have always evolved n the right way and so I trust this utterly, even if I do feel pretty rubbish right now! Thank you for being such a rock and a guiding light. Much love xx
FinnTheInfinncible Sounds like intellectually you can definately see what is going on, and emotionally you are grieving for what could have been. That's understandable
Finn, although this video is over 5 years old, I found myself in tears right along with you as you described your struggles with this stage of your transition. As you know, I'm just beginning my transition journey, and I so appreciate that your videos discuss the lowlights as well as the highlights. Obviously, you came through this setback and went on to complete the final steps. But, if I didn't already know that, and had just watched this video, I would say that I see determination in your eyes and in the words you spoke, that made me know you would be successful. You are an inspiration, my friend. Thank you so much for the information, the love and the encouragement you give to so many others, like me, who still have that long journey ahead. You make it a lot less scary. 🌈❤
*hugs* I hope it all gets better quick. That's really disappointing to hear that, not only did you not get to have stage 3 but the care was bad too. Here's hoping this is your one and only bump in the road! *hugs*
Thanks my friend, I think I would have dealt with this all so much better had it not been for the hospital experience, however, whats done is done, now its time to heal, which is happening however slowly! Hugs back to you
FinnTheInfinncible I know what you mean, I've had my share of lousy hospital experiences, though nothing quite as bad as your ordeal. As you said though, what's done is done. I'm glad you're healing well, even though it's slowly.
Hey Fin. Really interesting stuff. I too am post surgery. I was very lucky and didn't have any complications and had fantastic care at hospital for all 4 surgeries. I was under the care of Dr Ralph and Dr Christopher, two great, sensitive, professional surgeons. I had my ops between 2006-2007. Interestingly a good friend of mine had Dr Grapher(not sure of exact name) and he had terrible post surgery after care on ward and on discharge.
I hope you eventually have all your surgeries finished. Best of luck to you.
Thanks my friend. I am very glad to hear you have had success. The only time I havent has been with Mr Garaffa. No bedside manner at all and appalling communication. We all get there eventually eh!
So sorry you've had such a rough time of it, with both complications with surgery and rotten care. Fingers crossed things settle down soon and you can work on healing from this both physically and mentally.
Thank you so much for being so open and honest about the whole surgery/transition/etc. As someone sitting waiting for the start of the surgical merry-go-round it's incredibly valuable to get such an insight into the process.
Thank you so much, it makes me happy to know my sharing helps.
Aw Finn I'd been following you on the Finnfam page as to what had happened and i'm so sorry I can see it has greatly upset you but you are home now in your own place where you can find the peace and love to recover more and have another go later on this year at having stage three just remember this to shall pass and you will be so much better off for your next time around. much love from me and Charlie.
+Malachy Gilmour. Thank you my dear friend. I think I had just built this ending up so much that between the hospital experience and not getting stage 3 I've taken a large hit. I am just taking it gently allowing myself time to regroup. Bless you
your welcome - yes allowing yourself to regroup and work through whats happened is the best thing for it and be gentle with yourself as you've did nothing wrong as im sure you know this.
I know buddy, its just one of those unfortunate things
Finn I hope you get well soon. You are so strong and amazing for sharing your experience.
Thank you my friend, I enjoy sharing it with you all, you are like my family
Thanks so much for your honesty here, it's really important to know about complications. You are right of course, this will pass and we will all see your smiley face again - looking forward to it! Hope you feel better soon xx
Yes indeed, there would be no point sharing if I didnt give an honest account. Thanks my friend, I am very much looking forward to feeling like my old self again
Hi Finn, so good to see you again. Thank you very much for sharing not only the ups but also the downs of your journey. Get well soon!
+Damian August thanks buddy, l have to share it all, no point in doing this vlogging thing otherwise! Still, l hope to be back with a perkier video soon!
Feel for ya Finn,you have been through alot these past few weeks.I understand the ups and downs of life as i have been through alot myself and what i can tell you is what helps me the most and that is the realization that there is something greater than myself,the supreme being,God,Life force,Divine love,The great spirit or Whatever you like to call it.When im having a rough time i remember this and remember i am NEVER alone and give myself permission to surrender and feel this love around me and that i can trust in this and know that i am can hand over my pain and problems to this life force and ask for it all being takem care of so that i don't feel im doing it all myself.
It all sounds pretty spiritual but i think you are open to this stuff and it really helps me.
Nothing is forever you will get there,sending love brother :)
Hang in there, Finn. You're a great inspiration and thank you for sharing both your highs and lows with us.
Hoping for a speedy recovery and a close successful stage 3 op for you. X
Bless you, thank you so very much
Bless your heart, Finn. So sorry you're having such a difficult time. I hope that since it's been a couple of days since you posted this that by now you feel even a little better! I'll be thinking of you and sending sweet healing vibes your way.
Thanks buddy, it is gradually improving, small steps forward
Finn, What can l say just not good enough. Im glad your strong smart and logical enough to know this will pass and you will have your surgery with no trouble at all. Big hugs from Australia.
What you said is perfect, thank you so much my friend
Hi Finn, had seen in on the Finn fam page already, but I am so sorry that you have had such a bumpy ride. After such an appalling experience it only make sense that you are somewhat shaken. Take it easy, have some hot cacao, give Lamby a hug, and hopefully your recovery will go smoothly from here
Ah thanks my friend, lamby has been hugged so much his fur is very ruffled :)
Oh Finn I'm so sorry that this has been so messed up! Seeing you all sad has me welling up I just wanna give you a big cwtch lovely! I'll cross everything that you feel better soon (or now if soon is not soon enough :-P) big loves darlin xxxxx
Thats so incredibly sweet, thank you so much xx
i couldnt imagine what you went through but i send you my love and all my strength to keep soldiering on.
Thanks my freind, means the world
Long time no see. Glad to see u back.
Thank you, its good to be back!!
I really admire you and look up to you. Your spirit towards life with its ups and downs really inspires me.
That is so kind and makes me smile, thank you
I just had phallo phase 1, one month ago (MLD). Urethra lenghtening is in stage 2 for me, not being able to pee through my phallus is one of my biggest fears. And this erectile device, ugh. I'm kind of not okay with having a foreign piece of something in my body for the rest of my life :/
Congrats on first stage! Yes, urethral lengthening is stage 2 here as well. Mine was fine at first, until they tried to do stage 3 and then I had issues with my urethra. I had similar concerns with the erectile device but its actually OK.
FinnTheInfinncible Oh wow, thanks for the answer, didnt think you would see my comment at all :D
Yeah I had metoidioplasty a year ago and had a fistula in my urethra that had to be fixed up, so I think I'll have them in stage 2 as well. I also have an infection and necrosis on my back (donor site) 😭
Oh goodness, it's such a difficult journey isn't it! But, we do get over these complications and finally get to the end, as l have done, and so will you! And I always reply, or at least I try to ...though it sometimes takes me a while!. If your looking for more phallo stuff i have some over on my website at finlaygames.com
FinnTheInfinncible Oh, didnt know you have a website. Thanks man, for the info and all.
Yes its a long road but its worth it 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🧬
Sending good vibes your way! Hope you heal fast
+Finn Parnell much appreciated my friend thank you
inspirational to all of us so sorry to hear that man but yes keep that mindset I felt your hurt by the end ugh it's sucks we have to suffer so much just to try to be happy and nothing goes right for us right away but I hope you get to the finish line Happily!!!
Thank you my friend, bumps in the road are to be expected with this surgery, but yes, it will be worth it in the end!!!!
It’s amazing how much of a difference it makes to have proper after care!! Hope things start getting a bit easier for ya soon. :) stay strong
Absolutely. I think its effects on recovery are so often overlooked. Thank you so much
I saw the updates on the Finn Fam page, and was really sorry to hear what had happened. I hope you heal speedily and are able to have success and a much better hospital experience next time. The hospital I was taken to after my car accident, and given my second surgery in, wasn't exactly an ideal experience either, so I can relate. Seeing as Dante is one of my two greatest literary idols, I often think of how one of the themes of The Divine Comedy is that sometimes we have to sink to the lowest, saddest, most painful point before we can start rising up to happier, more beautiful places. After all, the only way out of that low point is up.
Its shocking how it effects you isnt it? I think its because of the level of trust that you put into hospitals and nurses and so when the care fails so utterly it really does traumatise you. Sorry you had this experience too. I agree re rock bottoms, having one got me into AA which then has given me a whole new and much happier life including finally living as the man i knew myself to be. Sometimes going back to the foundations is the best way to rebuild. Thanks my friend
I'm just happy to hear that you're alright and it will hopefully pass sooner than later. I wish you all of the best!!
Thank you so much my friend
Stay strong Finn. You are one of my biggest inspirations.
Jack Mc thank you so much, you are all so amazing
Chin up dude, your further on in your transition than me your lucky to be where you are now. It will come around again not to long off. I'm always watching your videos to keep me informed and it passes the time I have to wait before I get things done myself. Hope your bladder sorts its self soon and your feeling better :) keep positive :)
Thank s my friend
FinnTheInfinncible welcome :) glad your feeling better in your latest videos it's good to see you more cheery
Ive been wondering about you. I'm so thankful for Finn and Michelle and yes Lamby, for taking such good care of you. I might be a stranger to you but its like you are part of my family. Surgery is rarely a fun time but I had a feeling something wasn't right. May you continue to heal fully and go forward with bright thoughts of a future ... with little finn of course standing to attention in the end.. oh my... not the end.. but the.. oh never mind. Hugging you from across the Pond!! Michele
Bless you, I feel the exact same way about you all! Having so much love and support keeps me going through this journey, I am just so incredibly grateful. Thank you so very very much for your incredible kindness
You're welcome, love.
Finn, so sad to see you upset. Things will get better and you will heal. Keep your chin up you inspire a lot of people. X
Thank you so much, didnt mean to break down mid vlog!
FinnTheInfinncible I think that because you did it makes you even more relatable as you are willing to share your feelings with others. Keep up the good work and get better soon! X
Glad you're are back home and doing okay! Onwards and upwards despite this and hopefully this will never ever happen to you especially or anyone again!
+Robert Therobot thanks buddy, unfortunately this happens a lot but until now I'd escaped it. Onwards and upwards indeed!
take care Finn! wish you a quick recovery!
Thank you so very much
So sorry to hear that Finn. Best of luck to you!!
Thanks my friend, its a bump in the road.....time to regroup and try again in a few months
You are such an inspiration ❤️ I know this was a long time ago but I have been watching ftm videos and watching your courage and words of advice and how you preserved through the adversity is inspiring!!
What a lovely comment, thank you so much!
I understand completely the differences in care and how it affects not only our physical health but our emotional and spiritual health.
You have amazing friends and support.
Your doctor sounds absolutely incredible and a blessing. Sometimes we need to see the darkness to appreciate the light.
Much love to you. Ps. My youngest (almost 16) officially and publicly came out as trans. !pride! you've helped us all the way in Canada 🇨🇦.
Stay strong, stay you.
+Silver Thompson amen to that! I am full of appreciation, the love and support l have fills the gaps in the lack of care the hospital made, l am so blessed to be surrounded by wonderful people. Amazing news about your youngest, that makes me smile from ear to ear! Much love to you all, what wonderful parents you are
Sending love and light!! You are strong and you WILL get past this minor set back. 🤗🤗🤗 You are Authentic and I really appreciate YOUR honesty through your entire experience.
Bless you buddy, that means the world to me, thank you
Aww Finn I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that, it must have been awful :( I'm glad your friends were there for you and I hope you start to feel better soon! We're all rooting for you dude!
I am so luck to have so much support and love from you all, thank you my friend
Love and prayers Finn. You are indeed blessed with the friends you have.
Thank you so much, i really really am :)
Wish I could give you a big hug! I'm so glad you have such amazing friends that helped you out. I can only imagine how difficult it would have been if you were on your own! Yes, you're still having some troubles but it WILL get better. Things WILL improve. It just takes time and plenty of rest, and a few well deserved cries! I think it's perfectly healthy to have some moments of wallowing. Can't keep it all bottled up. Sometimes a good cry is all it takes to just refresh your brain and you'll be ready to face the world with energy. Anyway, as I commented on facebook, all good astronauts have dealt with launch delays! You just have to rest, relax and take care of yourself until your new launch day comes!
Bless you, you are so lovely! I am now refueling for a much better lift off next time, thank you :)
you seem a bit frustrated, but I totally understand. I really hope things get better for you soon!!
I am indeed, just letting myself feel it and allowing it to pass, thanks my friend
You're very strong for dealing with this as well as you are
That is so kind thank you!
hey Finn, you are so strong, well done for keeping on!! hope you have some thing to keep you occupied through further recovery. things you enjoy?
good healting vibes your way Finn
Hi my friend, thank you. Yes I have lots to keep me occupied, Im doing some colouring, its surprisingly soothing! I am also decorating my bullet journal! trying to get on with writing too
So happy to see you❤
Thank you for sharing your stories, you are amazing and so brave. You are loved💞
Its lovely to be seen! Thank you so much for your kind words :)
Watching this in January 2021 and WOW... You've really come a long way my friend! 💖🥰
I really have havent I!!!! Thanks for sharing this journey with me
@@FinnTheInfinncible Thank you for sharing this journey with us as well! 🤗
you are so strong! I just found your videos and I instantly liked you :) I hope that you will feel better very soon and I will definitely keep you in my thoughts! I'm going to binge watch your videos now :)
Ah I love new people!!! Thank you! Grab some popcorn and a duvet....i have a lot of vids!!!!
i just want to give you a big hug❤ thank you for sharing even the grim parts of surgery though, it's very educational. sending you thousands of good vibes!!✨✨
Thank my friend, I aim to share it all, its the only honest balanced way
First time I've listened to ur vlog..ur getting thru ur struggles makes me know I can get thru mine also!
+eugenia white you can indeed my dear friend!
Sending so many healing and positive vibes to you 💚💚 absolutely horrendous. It really sounds traumatic. I'm so happy your friends were there for you. And thank you for sharing your story and for your courage. My brother is FTM and it's people like you that make all the difference. Good luck with your healing process! I know you'll get well soon 💚
Bless you! Thank you so much for your kind words
oh it's been i while
hello there!
it is really hard to process when things like that happen, but at the end of the day everything is going to be okay. just keep your head up, keep going, u r a very strong, brave man. shit happens, but you've gone through a lot already and will cope with this! bless Finn for being with you. much love❤
It has been a while! I need to work out a way of more easily doing youtube vlog on the fly! Having the facebook page to update on though is a good back up Thank you so very much for your incredibly kind words my friend
Get well soon Finn. Stay strong man, ur really cool. I'm bad at words but I really wish you all the best ♡
+Beluga Whale they were perfect words and l thank you so much
I'm a chronic catheter user and its hell. I am currently self catheterising because nurse inflated my suprapubic catheter into my bladder wall and damaged me a lot. So painful.
It sounds like you're having bladder spasms you know. That forces the urine out sometimes.
I hope it calms down.
Much love.
Poor you, I have newfound respect for any catheter users! Im told its the blood clot causing the spasms and irritation as blood in the urine is an irritant, it is gradually improving, slowly, but improvement at least. Much love to you too my friend
Hang on tight, Finn! I've been through my own dark hours, not with surgery or anything (my dad was really sick), and I can tell you, you're right and everything does get better even if the worst happens. Once you've hit rock bottom and all that jazz :3
+BraveEmpress so sorry to hear that my friend, hope your dad is ok now. It is hard when it's happening but makes sense when you finally come out the other side
Oh I just wanted to give you a big hug when you started tearing up. I can't imagine how exhausting this has been, but as you said yourself, it will pass. Lots of love and another hug! But not too tight, don't want you weeing on me. ;)
lmao!!! oh thank you that made me smile!!!
Sending you hugs and good vibes from over my way... hope recovery is as quick and easy for you as possible, especially after so much faffing about already!!
Amen to that! No more faffing! Thanks my friend
So sorry this has been so, so tough. I'm holding good thoughts for you, Finn. xox
Bless you my dear friend
Hugs mate!! Hope it gets better soon. Love from Canada!! As Always may the force be with you!!
And with you! Thanks my friend
Thanks!
BIG hug from me, wish you a good recovery, love your necklace btw ;D
Thank you , hugs are what I need lots of right now! And thanks re necklace, its the triskellion, a symbol that holds many layers of meaning for me
You're almost there man! And zero complications before now is amazing! How long has the entire process been so far? Also, did your donor site on your arms regrow hair after?
Thanks fella, I came out as trans in Jan 2012 so its been 5 years so far. In terms of lower surgery, I had stage one in august 2016. Full thickness grafts do grow hair though I do not yet have a lot on mine
Hi finn glad to see u
I was looking for u. U look amazing
Thank you so much!
finally.. bet u got loads to watch and catch up on, I've been watching ya little tidbits.
it's a shame you felt "ranty" with regards aftercare, I'm like you..I want to know and I want to know now, at least ya got there in the end with info.. I used to live in a cul-de-sac... seems odd that u had no issues prior but better they fix it now, love to you sir
Lol thanks bud. It was more than just lack of info though, it was bloody shocking, I had to take a picture on my phone of my scrotum wound before the nurse would even believe I had a wound!! It was totally unbelievable. It is better its fixed though, just wish it couls have all been a little less stressful! Anyway...onwards and upwards! I have a movie marathon of yours to catch up with!!!!
FinnTheInfinncible she should have just said "I'm. it sure" than categorically deny goings on" folks never seem sure of themselves and it's frustrating, and lol well enjoy...I've got a few things this week lined up big time
Hey Finn.. So sorry you're going through this man. It definitely sounds like you just got a really nasty bladder infection, which is quite common with the insertion of Foley catheters. I hope your doctor has you on some antibiotics, and I would also double up on your vitamin C, which will naturally kill any bacteria you may have left over in your bladder. Catheters also weaken your sphincter muscles as well, which is why you've had trouble holding it in. Prayers to you man. Thank goodness it's all temporary.
Thanks so much my friend, yes I am still on antibiotics, taking the vit c too, going to crawl to the shops in a bit and get some pure cranberry juice too. This WILL pass! Just wish it would hurry up!!!! :D
I had to pause the video towards the end just to tell you this; everything will be okay in the end Finn.
Thank you so much, your kind comments mean the world and you are so very right. Bless you my friend
Bless your heart Finn, it is so heartbreaking to hear and see you in a fragile state. But, they have solved a problem, although causing a few temporary ones, and the next time will be plain sailing. Chin up mate 👍👍
Thanks bud, I know and Im hanging on tight to that, its just been a tough few months MH wise anyway and now with this its just knocked me a bit. I think the worse thing is the lack of sleep from weeing and thats leaving me with no resources in my brain!!! Bless you fella
Sweet Finn...great big mushy HUGS! Darlin'! This is one of those "hell in the hallway" moments (You know, when God closes one door, he opens another...but it's hell in the hallway!), but with your recovery tools, sense of humor, support group, friends from all over the world, this too shall pass! Hang on to your Higher Power with both hands, and know that you are surrounded by unconditional love. Your friend Kay-ee keeps you in daily prayer!! HUGS!!!!
+friendoftherese1 that saying is one that has become a huge part of my recovery tool kit and l thank you so much for passing it on to me. I'm learning to just sit in the hallway and let it be and trust in the proccess that my HP has for me. I am so blessed my dear Kay ee!!!!!
oh Finn you poor thing. sorry to hear what happened. I'm praying things get better for you . you deserve the best. I've been wondering what was going on with you. get well soon💙💚💛💜
Thank you so much, thats so kind
Oh sweetheart. Sending you warmth and love in abundance.
If you ever feel like a jaunt to London for non-little-Finn reasons, let me know: the Joan Collins Suite at mine is always ready for guests. I'm right by Epping Forest too - lovely healthy strolls abound! xxx
+George Allen honey! Thank you l would absolutely love that, would be amazing to have a catch up with your lovely self! I'll even bring cheese cake! As soon as I'm well I'm there!! Xxx
Since the female urethra was never meant to be elongated it's my understanding that issues surrounding it are some of the biggest reasons for failure.
Yes it is the most complicated part of the surgery
Sending loads of love your way! xxxxxxxxxx This too shall pass.
Indeed, thanks my friend
I'm so sorry you had so many complications. I can tell you are traumatized. I'm sure this is the last thing you thought you'd be dealing with. And that's what makes surgery so dangerous
All surgery has complications, I knew that going into this. Unfortunately, as trans folk, we also have the added issue of stigma withon the medical profession, without that, complications would be easier to manage. Thankfully, the complications have been fixed now , my surgery is finished, and I am one very happy man!
Wow. Who would've thought?
not getting information or care does sound traumatizing. best wishes, thanks for sharing
It was surprisingly traumatising, I am pretty hardy but this really knocked me!
It's never too late to regret.
I hope you're doing fine. Sweet sweet heart :)
My mum isn't transgender or anything but when her mum got cancer, my mum just got really poorly from the stress in her stomach. She couldn't hold on to pee or worse and we had to drive grandma back and fourth from the hospital 2 hours each way. So poor mum also had to wear nappies or extra padding. Pack a spare pair of pants. I would help her and all that at age 22. But I just want you to know that a lot more people have bowl issues and all that so it's really not embarrassing and I hope you can feel ok with what happened. It's hard, but we all have weak points and need extra support or extra pants 😉
Thanks so much for this kind comment. Im sorry to hear about your mum, I hope she is doing OK? I had my urethral issues sorted out in the end, took a while but thankfully I am now issue free!
I just want to give you a big huge lizzy hug xxxx your so amazing keep ya chin up gorgeous xxxx
You are amazing! Thank you, best hug in the world xxx
Aww. Disappointed about this setback for you. Fortunately, you have amazing friends and at least one doctor dedicated to your well-being. You may not be through the woods just yet but there is light at the end of the tunnel, so to speak.
Indeed their is my friend, thank you
the stays-hard device will help
Catheters are more evil than The Joker, Hannibal, Cruella and Voldemort combined. Bar none.
Still. Look beyond that ripple in timelines on what should happen when... The Finn still has his wits, his manliness, his humor, his health and his damn fucking mutton!
Hang in there brother!!! I am looking forward to the day where you announce the first morning wood. You know it!
Not making light of anything you are going through. But I think you understand that humor and smiles make it bearable.. to some extent...
Nate
I love this comment! You are such a star, thank you for making me smile!
it's going to be okay💖💖💖💖💖
Thanks buddy, it will indeed
FinnTheInfinncible 😀💖
make a complaint you deserve good care. You are still here and that's what matters. there's an ftm fellow on RUclips whose phalloplasty went so wrong he basically ended up with a bag. chin up - it will happen it will just be later than you first thought x
Thank you, I am going to make a complaint as I know I am not the only one this has happened to and its not on at all.
I'm not trans but I had back surgery, man, I regret so bad don't let surgeon touch you
Surgery is always a difficult choice, we have to weigh up the risks with the benefits. For me the benefits far outweighed any risks.i couldn't continue living my life the way things were and I knew, from extensive research and reflection that surgery would help that. Despite some challenges along the way I'm very pleased with how things have turned out and my life is all the better for it!
@@FinnTheInfinncible that's so great, it worked for you, but you don't have to pretend to be tough, it's ok to regret surgeries sometimes, surgeons make mistakes, they're human.
@@misakistalker I'm not pretending anything, if you watch my vlogs you'll see I speak very honestly about all the ups and downs of this journey but I have no regrets about deciding to have phalloplasty
OMG, that sounds so awful
Its a tough time right now, I am holding the faith that this will all be fine in the end! Thanks for your well wishes :)
Really want to get phalloplasty myself, but always scared of the complications.
Still waiting to start my own HRT journey.
Still in the therapy stage. Understanding how I've been in the closet for 35 years.
Living miserable life all this time.
I've never been so happy or excited to start something! EVER!
Such a pain having to wait.
It is funny, some lady wants boob implants and they would give her the go ahead that day. Trans person wants boobs removed, and its a long long wait, with forms to fill out, and psychological evaluations. With everyone telling you that you are wrong, or bad for wanting this in YOUR LIFE.
It will be worth the wait though :D
Finn, sorry to hear about your awful experience. Take probiotics. Antibiotics mess up the system and can lead to thrush. A good probiotic ought to help with that.
Thank you so much :)
lift off will come dude, remember that
It will indeed
Oh, Finn, this sounds awful bless you xxx
Oh God...bladder infections are the absolute worse.You poor baby...
i noticed a lot of trans people are gay. why would you become trans, then be gay? you couldve been straight? before your transition, did you feel as though you were meant to be a gay man? i hope i didnt word that the wrong way. just curious .. live your life :) you seem like a very fun, genuine & nice person. as a female, this FTM stuff fascinates me! clearly i do not understand because i am not trans. but i just cannot wrap my head around the idea of going thru all of this. then to be a gay man afterwards. and to look at you i would have never looked twice and questioned that ever once. you are clearly a man inside and out. incredible!
Thank you for asking a difficult question very politely. I understand your confusion but its a common mistake to link gender and sexuality as being the same thing when they are completely different entities.
Firstly, you dont BECOME trans, you ARE trans. For reasons that are still not completely known, for some people, our gender doesn't match that which we are assigned at birth. This is what makes us transgender. As trans people, we have always been the gender we feel ourselves to be, I have always been a man, its just I needed to change my body to reflect that.
A gay trans man could never have been straight, if said gay trans man didnt undergo gender transition he would stil be seen as female by the people around him, including the person he is dating. Knowing himself to be male, he will have always been gay and so being treated as female by their partner would be incredibly uncomfortable. This is often why trans people dont come out as gay until after they undergo transition, as then, they can date the men they have always been attracted to and be seen as the man they are by the person they are in a relationship with.
Does this make sense?
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♡♡♡ Finn
Bless you
It failed because you are a girl,deep down in your DNA and your skeleton. You are what the Lord made you. I am sorry to hear about your story. When I was a little girl, I wanted to be a boy because I was lonely as a girl. I had no friends. I was bullied all through school. Picked on by my mother. It was a phase.
+Rayne Kimi I'm sorry you were lonely. For me it runs much deeper than that. Gender is far more than DNA and skeleton based. As for God, he made me who I am, a trans gender man and he gave me the free will to decide what to do about that and l decided to take the step to transition even though l knew that doing so in a world that on the whole does not accept trans folk, would be hard.
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I hope you are still peeing freely and getting better each day. Keep your chin up
Ian Maxwell thanks buddy. all ok so far, have the catheter out in a week then we will see!
You've lost weight
Since then or in this vlog?
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Thank goodness it all healed and now this is a distant nightmare!