I still find myself coming back to emilys videos. She was a force to be reckoned with. So sad she passed away. But she really did fight right to the end.
she helps us put thing in pespective even though passed I have TBI cant ok (i as a nuse) but i have no memoy anymoe so i keep epeating Emily and its helps me
Same . Been watching her older videos before getting really ill and now to these where it’s getting harder and harder for her . I came to love them both so much. What an amazing couple and an amazing person Emily was . She is missed for sure and I wish Aisha would come on even just once to let us all know how she’s getting on now .
@@kimwillis4269 I just love how inspiring both her and Aisha are. They really do/ did live life to the fullest. I think about Aisha often. She is a real original woman.
Agree, they are part of my family! yesterday my 10 year old son asked if we had heard from Emily and that he thinks about her everyday. We are in Australia xx
Sadly I didn’t come across this channel until after Emily passed away. I wish I had found it before because this was one heck of a women with an amazing partner. They both showed such strength, love and commitment throughout their videos. These two people touched my heart and I’m sorry that Emily didn’t have more time to live her life. I am extremely sorry for her loss and I wish her partner all the best as she continues her life to the best of her ability. She deserves to find some peace and happiness after what she has been through. She was one hell of a loving partner and a shining example of what love looks like ❣️
That Chicken Purse Chick Everyone let’s help @emilyhayward.pt fight!! The ribbon for melanoma is black! Let’s take a selfie wearing black on June 8th 2018 and Tag Ellen! With the hashtag #ellenhelpemilyfight! It would be awesome!! Let’s do it!!!!!!!!!!!
That Chicken Purse Chick slight correction. They are the strongest "people" Not only the strongest women. These two have so much dignity for such young people.
Plz see this. ADVICE! Set up a means of communication now. Simple hand gestures for immediate communications. Dint mean to be a downer. But if your speech gets hard, communication will be difficult. As for everything alse. Live your life. Spend your time as you wish. Whike we will worry about you, think about you, and wish to know how you are doung, we are secondary. We can patiently wait. And I cant talk for everyine else, but I for one, would rather you spend the moments cuddled up with your love. Or laughing. Or absorbing natures beauty, than to be vlogging. Unless of course vlogging is what you want to do at that moment. We will not feel slighted. You are not obligated!!! You are only obligated to be as happy as humanly possible in the moment. Much love being sent your way. I wish I knew the answer. Hugs to both you beautiful ladies!
20 days later you were gone 😞 and this morning they lay you to rest, but your fighting spirit and inspiring soul live on in those of us who came to love you. 💜 Rip Emily, we miss you.
20 days, only 20 day before Emily passed, she lived her life fully till she passed not many of us could have managed the amount of cancer she had all through her body to keep fighting like she did! I think it was her fight and her live for her wife, family and friends, the bravest woman ever! RIP beautiful girl xx
Please DONT reply to any comments I think I can speak for every single one of your UTube fans, we don’t expect any replies we only want to show our love and support for you both. You both concentrate on each other and re energising our Emily. We can wait for vlogs, no hurry and keep any future ones plain and simple whenever you vlog again no need to entertain as we are not here for entertainment pet xxx
I feel the same way. I love the vlogs so much Emily. I feel like you and Aisha are people I actually know in real life. But absolutely take your time and vlog when it’s right. Love from the US in Indianapolis. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Ladies, we’d be happy if you literally got on camera for five seconds and waved-we totally understand the need to put yourselves first-and of course we’re going to still enjoy the blogs. We will never turn our backs on on you and remember that you do not have an expiration date, beautiful, strong, INSPIRATIONAL Emily ❤️❤️ Aisha, you are so beautiful inside and out and it shines through!
Not only does Aisha still love you- WE ALL STILL LOVE YOU too! ♥️ You have a lot of us praying and rooting for you. We pray for strength and miracles where God (or whomever you choose believe in) sees fit. Miracles do and can happen; and you are a miracle already. Finding lovely Aisha was also a miracle, she’s amazing truly. Praying for strength and peace for all of you today and always. Xo 😘
You never forget someone like Emily. I’ve never known anyone with so much bravery and determination. You just know that if she’d not had bloody cancer she would have achieved anything she set her mind to. It’s testament to her that people still pop back to remember just how amazing she was in her battle. F**k cancer.
Glad you're out of hospital, Emily 💛 You guys put a video up when you want to. Don't feel any pressure to to have to update us. I was a little annoyed with how many people were asking for updates, when your IG/Facebook posts clearly requested that people respect your time off of social media while Em was in hospital. I know it's because people care and want to know how she's doing. But if you were one of those people, stop! Caring means you respect what they ask and respect their time away, as and when they need it. We need to be patient and wait for any updates - when they're ready, not when we want it. Much love to you both 💕💕💕
Rachel B •Farmiga Fan• Yes. We have all come to care for them from a far but people need to remember that Emily is a real person going through cancer with a real wife, parents, siblings, longtime friends who must be having a tough time navigating this difficult time. Never feel the pressure to keep us posted but remember we are thinking of you and hoping for the best❤ You have been very open with us but that may become too difficult emotionally and physically and everyone would understand your desire for a little privacy. Use your energy to enjoy your life that is more important than vlogs. Selfishly I'd like a quick instagram update once in a while if possible. Thinking of Emily but also Aisha and all your family💜
Karen Segal Don't think that was lecturing. Totally agree with the first post. Hadn't noticed others asking for updates because I had been looking for new posts. I read the post that they were in hospital and other than wishing them the best had not looked at the post again. Emily has been lucky to have been doing well for so long that it is easy to forget her condtition and prognosis. Vlogs make us feel like we are involved in people's lives but we are still strangers. If we are sad about the situation it important to remember the people actually in her life.
Ensuring Seamlessness I agree with you this absolute tragedy is private, and that there is a clear line to whats for family and the closest of course. And that subscribers of course cannot and should not "demand" or expect anything, wheter its wanting updates or answers its totally irrelevant, its selfish and have nothing to do with compassion but more of something else..Also I think Emily and Aisha have been very clear and certain about what to share for the public and not.However this all doesnt mean you cant feel very very sad and compassionate, even if you havent met the person irl. I was totally blown away by Emilys personality when I first watch one of these videos, and are very effected by her situation and for real feel so incredibly very sad for her and her relatives. I have been crying. Because of the unfairness, this vibrant girl, struggling so very hard and with such dignity and good spirit, hardly ever even complain despite the situation, always caring for others, still its getting worse and it breaks my heart, simply because I like her so much. From the very beginning Emily wanted to share her struggle through this horrible experience with people, known or unknown, so I guess she doesnt mind feeling the love from so many people, even if unknown to her. Btw, so called celebrities are "normal" people too, they get illnesses and other shit too. I believe in compassion to one another, famous or not, doesnt matter, we are all just humans.
It's very hard to look at these latter vlogs with Emily deteriorating.... I know people succumb to cancer every day but Emily brought us into her life and her struggle through her vlogs so comprehensively that we felt that we knew her personally.... which we did because she was so sincere and open about her life and welcome us into it. How could we be anything other than gutted to see her slipping away after such a brave battle. Such a lovely beautiful girl x.
❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤗🤗. Naturally and intelligently, I knew that things would eventually take a turn. So all I can think to say is simply ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤗🤗. Hearts and hugs to you both. You both are loved immensely. I’m a survivor and I’ve never been as strong as either of you. No matter the outcome, I am SO much of a better person for having bared witness to a fraction of your journey. Hayward - Hasan ladies, you’ll always be loved.
Amazing...you both are amazing. Many prayers are coming your way. Do not worry about filming. You need to do what gives you peace. Just spend time with those you love and know that all of us, and there are many, are praying daily and look forward to hearing from you but only when you feel like it. God Bless you🌿🌸🌿🌷🌿🌸🌿🌷🌿🌸🌿🌷🌿🌸🌿🌷🌿🌸🌿🌷🌿🌸🌿🌷💕
The support Aisha gives you is phenomenal. I'm sorry things have gotten worse. My heart hurts for you, but I'm still hopeful. I'll keep you both in my thoughts and prayers. I want to do more, but that's all I can do. ❤
Aisha gave her several more months than she maybe wouldn’t have had. By her amazing support and positivity. No matter how bad things got she was ALWAYS at her side. Like a rock. Listen.....she always says..”we decided”. “Let’s”. I appreciate it so much.
Emily don't you dare worry about updating us or question whether or not we will be enjoying these videos. We are here for you. Not the editing but just to be updated on how you are. You and Aisha are so lovely and my prayers and thoughts are always with you. Please don't worry about us. We'll be here when you're ready
It may sound clichéd or whatever, but *you are my hero.* And it's not something I often say to anyone, nor something I keep telling all the people who fight cancer. No. You, just you. The way you handle all this... it's beyond words.
You can see in her last few videos before her death she had really declined she had trouble talking and concentrating. I was hoping so badly that she would beat it I miss her so much. The love between these two was so strong
Oh Emily and Aisha my heart is breaking for you. You both looked so tired. Emily I can see your really suffering and your struggling to find the words and them not coming.... I’m actually crying 😢 right now and am gutted to see Emily that the usual twinkle in your eyes wasn’t there. Be at peace in the knowledge that you’re surrounded by love from Aisha, your friends, your family and not to forget us fellow followers... we love ya too the moon and back! God bless you Emily.... Try to stay strong don’t give up yet sweetheart xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Vikki Jones I agree. I really struggled to watch the vlog You can see the light is fading, and I know its hard for us but can only imagine how hard it is for them. I pray that it's an easy journey home when the time is right, and pray for so much strength and peace for them.
shelley burns how kind of you too, you two are just too kind. I really wonder why she sometimes bothers making these blogs. She just seems to attract, drama queens, self centered idiots and narcissists. I can't believe what I read on here sometimes , I really can't , let alone Emily reading it
I can’t thank you enough ladies for having the energy and courage to update us. You have had a terrible time and although we were desperate to know how you were , i and I am sure everybody else wanted to give you the space and privacy you both needed. If you still enjoy vlogging we will love to hear from you no matter how short or “ unfancy “ they will be. If you find it too much then don’t feel you have to do it for our sakes. This is about you and what you need to feel supported. I wish there was something we could do to make you feel better Emily and Aisha but if not then I hope you can feel the love and positive vibes heading your way. If only a hug could cure all ..... or maybe a Nando’s?
While the news isn't good, I'm so glad to hear from you. I'm glad you saw a counselor just to check in with a professional. I've honestly never had so much love for two people I've never met. If I lived nearby, I would be dropping by meals, homemade chicken soup and doing anything I could to help. Believe me, I've thought about flying out there from the states if only to meet you extraordinary women just once. It's like wanting to meet a current day Ghandi. EMILY...would you consider teaching Aisha to vlog and edit for you? It's a selfish request but I'm so invested in you that it would break my heart to lose touch during this time. In the meantime, rest as much as you need, try to do something everyday to bring that beautiful smile back to your face for an hour and continue loving your amasing wife. It's not over until the fat lady sings, sweetheart, and I don't plan to sing anytime soon. ; ) AISHA...you're an angel. You always have that beautiful smile on your face. You're so compassionate, loving, a natural caretaker and wise beyond your years. I would love to see you return to school to become a crisis counselor working with cancer patients and their families. And while you're somewhat shy, I myself would pay over £100 to hear you share your wisdom. And I'm 52! Have you ever watched a TEDTalks on RUclips? That could be you sharing your journey and wisdom. That's all far in the future to consider and perhaps discuss with Emily. In the meantime, keep being you and taking such great care of "our" Emily. Sending lots of love to you, sweetie.
Allyson M your comment is so beautiful I am crying as I watch this because I have never seen Emily so weak looking. I feel so darn bad and I wish that I could take all this away from her. I am also a seasoned woman lol (almost 50 but not quite) but I just feel so bad about this terrible disease is taking out our love ones by the masses.❤😭
Allyson M I wonder if Aisha is under enough pressure without learning to vlog though, when my Dad had Cancer it was exhausting and time consuming, this is their precious time together so maybe we should let them just be and if we only get a few more vlogs ever, maybe we should just be happy with that? 🤔
It says a lot about Emily when people around the world who haven’t even met her in person are grieving the loss of her life. It’s like losing a member of your family. That’s how much this journey of Aisha and hers has pulled on each of our heartstrings ❤️
I just watched the true meaning of love in a few short minutes. I am praying for a miracle and I've got others praying too. It's no coincidence you were there to show that Dr she was very wrong, we do not have expiration dates. Please rest and relax and enjoy each other.💞
Well that just blows!! I love you guys. I would completely understand if you guys no longer wanted to do videos! Life is short and precious.. your true fans will always be here. Take Care guys.
Emily was such a strong person.. last few videos it is evident she is starting to transition. Tiredness, aphagia, slurred speech, low pressure, altered state of consciousness are all signs. RIP.
My sister Clare told me she was following an amazing woman and I told her that I was too - guess what - it was you! we were both following you unawares and both think you are inspiring and wonderful. Aisha is a rock and you're both so brave. Low days are very hard, bless you always,xx Clare and Jane xx
This is more than RUclips. This is more than a vlogger and her followers. This is real life and we, who have come to know you through the honest sharing of your lives, have grieved and raged over your cancer, have rejoiced in your marvelous love with Aisha, have hoped with you and continue to hope for more and more days of life and love for you....you are that sweet young couple ‘just down the road’ two incredible women of courage and strength, and we love you Emily and Aisha. Time for all of us is precious and for you two all the more so. Whatever gives you pleasure, whatever you love, spend your time doing those things. We are now and will always be in your corner regardless of whether you vlog or not. I hope you find some delight and comfort in knowing that people around the world are thinking of you fondly and holding you in prayer and hope and light. Anita
You Two have generously shared your precious time together with us, we have all come to love you as well & I hope you feel everybody’s love through these responses back to you. I don’t think anybody is expecting you to respond back to anyone as you have done this via your vlogs, please stay positive & DO NOT feel obligated in anyway you Two to vlog kisses & hugs to you both 💓💓💓xxx
This video makes me so sad. The difference between the last video I watched and this video is so drastic. Keep fighting, Emily. I pray that a miracle is headed your way soon.
Just watched this again now and it's so obvious in hindsight that darling Em was fading... her speech and concentration were poor and she was very tired. At the time I assumed that it was pain/morphine related but obviously it was the beginning of the end. I'm still just in disbelief 😢💔 me and fifty thousand others I guess xxx
I didn't see it before but now that she has passed I see she deteriorated fast and was fading away. She was so strong until the end. I think she knew these were her last days..bless her ❤
Em, the best part of this video is at the end when you say "and my speech is getting shitty" followed by that signature, cheeky grin 😁😁😁 You're still you, Emily, no matter what xxx
Em and Aisha, I'm a primary school teacher round the corner in Orpington. If you need anything please just give me a shout - food, shopping buddy, a lift somewhere or a stranger to talk to, I'm here for you :)
We love you both very much. My life has been dictated with mental health issues for 5 years Emily but you have given me the fight as a 52 year old man to get up and face each day and you have made a difference to my life. I wish i could give you a big hug and say thank you but I send one over the air waves. Thank you Emily for helping me get my life started in going forward again. xxxxxxxxxxx
Wow, that's exactly what these two incredibly strong Ladies have done to me, too. I'm suffering from physical and mental chronic illnesses, but your strength and positivity dealing with such a situation has really been a kick in the ass for me (in the most positive sense!) to keep fighting also.
Sean Batley Thank you Sean for putting into words what I'm thinking too. I'm your age and also going through depression and anxiety. Emily is so do strong and I feel I have to get up and smile, cause what the h... do I have to worry about! Thank you for putting life into perspective ❤️
Same sentiment for me too. Depression and anxiety for years. Then I found Aisha and Emily, these two girls really taught me a lot and gave me a boot in the ass. How do you thank someone enough for this. These ladies mean everything to me. Xx
I wouldn't DREAM of expecting "fancy vlogs" or some kind of reply when I show support! I've never really commented, but I felt compelled to wish you NOTHING but the BEST & to tell you how powerful & inspiring both you, & your love for one another are.❤❤❤❤
My lord. This is emotional. You can see how Emily is trying so hard to communicate but her brain won't let her. You can see the frustration in her eyes. I'm proud of your determination and strength. I love you ❤❤❤❤
It's really upsetting to see the deterioration from the previous video to this. I think this is the first time- 20 days from death- that she genuinely comes across as someone who is ill. What an immensely powerful person she was physically and mentally.
Ash AGREED and THANK YOU. Please don't worry about us, Emily and Aisha. You've given us SO MUCH. But please focus on YOU now. I think some people here have lost perspective and are viewing this channel as some kind of a reality TV show. Some of the comments are stressing me out a little. Please use this time to rest and be with loved ones. And bless you for all the joy and hope and positivity you've shared with us. You've both changed my life for the good. 💕
So to be totally honest that was hard to watch .. but ... that smile at the end made it so much better , the strong Emily is still there . If love and heartfelt wishes could heal you then you would live for a thousand years . So many of us are cheering you on Emily . Do things at your own pace and we will be here waiting . Much love to you both 😘 xxxx
Oh honey, it's so hard to see you like this. Thank you for letting us know; it's weird, but thousands of "strangers" are really invested in your life, and I know I'm not the only one who's been so worried about you the last few days. Aisha, you are so wonderful, truly a rock for Emily. Unfortunately with the number of tumors you have and the type and location, this kind of occurrence is to be expected. As Aisha says in the video, it's a miracle that you are alive at all. My wish for you is for more miracles. I am sending both of you huge hugs and much love, your fan in Seattle, Rozzella.
Thank you so much for the update. I was worried sick the past few days, checking your social media compulsively for any news. I think I speak for everyone here and on Instagram, that you brighten our days every time you post a picture or a video. I didn't think it's possible to love someone I don't even really know, someone who lives so far away from me and whom I'm never going to meet. But I love you, ladies, with all my heart, and you're in my prayers every day. There's no doubt in my mind that you will power through this situation, like you did in the past without fail. Stay strong and stay together.
Oh my poor darlings!!... I so wish I could grant you a miracle.... please stay strong, and love and laugh together every day you have left together. Sending you both so much love, and prayers for you both to have comfort and peace.Stay strong. And keep up the fight!!....❤️❤️
Lovely words, they will never meet us, but they have a place in our hearts. When you got tongue tied Emily , your smile came back, we al care about and love you so much, you have come into our hearts and if love can beat this, you have this won. Rest and keep your body well fed, Aisha is a great wife, love love you 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🇦🇺🇦🇺🌹🌹🌹🐨🐨🐨❤️❤️
Thank you for the replies, everyone! Truth be told, I've been married for almost 4 years and in a strong, loving relationship for almost 10, and yet here I am, taking lessons from you, Aisha dear, on how to be a good, caring wife, offering unwavering support to my spouse through ups and downs. I've never called anyone "couplegoals" before, until now. I'm so glad we got the chance to "meet" through youtube, I wish I could make your life better like you've made mine.
You two girls are an inspiration. In a world full of narcissistic self obsessed selfie driven superficial people you and your love stand out like a shining beacon. Whilst fools are undergoing surgery to make their backsides bigger or thighs thinner you go through all this crazy horror with a dignity and humour which puts us all to shame. I am a R.N and have been for a fair few years now and it's people like you two that I have been privileged to look after who have made my career both a joy and a heartbreak. People like the two of you stay in my heart forever. You literally make every day worthwhile and cancel out the negative complainers and aggressive imbeciles with their sense of entitlement (sorry, but you get the picture!!). Sending you all my love, hope, prayers and all the positive thoughts I can conjure to the both of you 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
burned flowers I do understand what you're saying but can only go by what I've seen at work over the years. My main point is what Em went through in a attempt to save her life and what dangerous procedures some go through in order to correct what is what they perceive as a problem. Totally unnecessary and an insult to the brave souls like Em ( RIP).
Oh yeah things like removing ribs really annoy me! If it puts your life in danger just for cosmetics I really don't stand by that. But something like a nose job can really change someones life.
She had a complete absence in the vlog, this was when I actually believed she would pass away, it was odd but she always made it unbelievable she was so so ill x
Take solace in the thought that even beyond all of the comments, there are people all over the world waking up and going to sleep praying for you Emily. You show resilience every single day just by being yourself, not by the amount of videos made. I lost my dad at a very young age from a stage 4 brain tumor. He survived only 2mths post diagnosis. Watching your videos makes me smile...it reminds me of just how incredibly precious life is, and the value of loving those around you so strongly each and every day. Keep fighting beautiful girl Xxxx
Abit of a shock seeing you like this, seeing you struggle with your speech, but look how far you have come, and you are strong think of it as abit of a blip, go girl go, sending you both gentle hugs and hope we see ya again soon love to you both xx
20 days after this vlog she passed away. Heartbroken. Will always keep watching for inspiration for the rest of my life. I miss you precious girl.... well you were an adult but I'm old enough to be your mum so I thought of you as a daughter which made it even harder to cope with the loss. Just such a beautiful soul, a true warrior and an inspiration to people all over the world, of all ages and be they healthy or well everyone got so much from watching your vlogs. You were a well loved young woman, we have lost a real jewel. Peace xxx
Updating IG might be easier girls. Videoing is just so time and labour intensive and we don’t need y’all worrying about that. My heart is hurting for you. You’re both strong - one day at a time. Xxxxxxx
Dear Sweet Girls, Please know that you have so many people that are behind you and wishing you the very best. Just concentrate on each other, for the both of you are what’s most important!!! Sending love from Chicago USA
You are an absolute angel, Aisha. So loving and empathetic. Obviously this was beyond hard for Emily but it had to be absolutely heartbreaking for you, too.
Although this update is heartbreaking to watch, the love between you both is still incredible. It's hard to believe I can care so much about 2 ppl I have never met in person. I do tho. I love you both and I am thinking about you guys often. ❤️
I’m sad, but I watch this video and can see the true love and compassion that Aisha and you have for each other. This is an incredibly difficult journey that the two of you are on and it is that - that makes me sad. I’m just one of your many followers - that has found inspiration and oddly I feel a friendship with you and Aisha. I find hope love and enormous strength watching you. Thank You for teaching me things I never knew and sharing your story. You owe us nothing. LOVE your family - your friends ~ live for Emily ~ laugh for Emily ~ I just love everything about the beautiful person you are. ✌🏻🤟🏻💋💋💋💋
sheraine zeffrienne yes, I cried when I saw she was admitted to hospital on Sundays update & today, it is not fair , in shock at the rapid deterioration x
This was a hard watch 💔 I’m just so glad you and and Aisha have pulled though yet again, you’ve both been at the back of my mind for the past few days! I think it’s a great idea that you’re putting vlogs to the side to concentrate on each other 💕 sending so much love!
Rest on beautiful ANGEL. The videos you left behind are helping us cope with our loved ones who are battling this horrible disease. To Emily's family and friends, my cousin was diagnosed and told their isn't anything else they can do to help him fight bone cancer. I'm utilizing these videos to continue in prayer and remember someone else who fought this fight. 💪🏾🙏🏾💔
Kiddo...got so much love for you...if only love could make you better, this little community would have you cured. Stop and smell the flowers, kiss your beautiful missus, eat the choc, love with every breath, and know every second you are thought of, you are prayed for, you are loved. Keep tearing the arse out of life Em...big hooj hot sweaty cant cope with this weather love to you and Aisha xx
Shit ...I don't know what else to say. You don't deserve this. I'm shocked. Why is it the most beautiful people who make this world a place worth being have these horrific things happen. It's so hard to have any faith in anything .and on top of it all you have these amazing attitudes. You two blow me away. I'm older than you both but I hope to one day have the grace, courage, and wisdom I see in you.
These two beautiful ladies are teachers and an excellent example of how to fully embrace "LIVING each day until the end". Their unwavering love and positivity is the wonderful lesson we can learn from Em and Aisha. Bless them!
You don’t know me, and I don’t know you, but I love you. And I want you to know that getting to know you through this channel has been a joy, despite the circumstances. I lost my mother in April, and I just had no idea the trials cancer puts people through before then. I so admire your bravery and realistic but positive outlook. It is wonderfully refreshing, and you’ve moved and educated so many people. I’m sorry you feel awful and that you’re scared and none of this is in any way fair. Nothing any of us say will make that better, but do know that you have changed us for the better. I wish the best for you and your loved ones. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.
Kate Y Your sentiment and closing words made me think of this and how it fits Emily perfectly..."Because I [know] you, I have been changed for good." I'm in awe of how I've learned so much from Emily and continue to do so. The link to the song from Wicked: ruclips.net/video/TZ0pXUb5jVU/видео.html
This is terribly sad, Aisha is such a rock, she is so stoic & strong. Both those girls truly meant to be together. As Aisha says 'we power through this together'
Also, please do not worry about replying! You are giving us all this amazing opportunity to be educated on the real life effects of cancer... that in its self is incredible and so selfless of you both! You don’t have to do this... your both amazing and I can’t Thank you enough. One day we will beat cancer. And it’s vlog channels like yours that help educate everyone, and inspire people to become cancer researchers and nurses and doctors. Keep fighting em, you have 48K + of love and prayers coming your way!❤️
everytime I see one of Emily Haywards video thumbnails on my feed, reality really hits. the reality of cancer is so sad, it capitalizes on the unfairness of the precious gift of life. RIP Emily, I look up to you.
My heart hurts to hear this news even though I think I knew after seeing the last vlog that this was coming. I'm in the US and have been following you for many months now, struggling myself with whether I should keep watching, knowing that most likely, these videos will end once you're either too sick to make them, or you're no longer here on Earth. I struggled with whether it is OK for me to follow this channel, while knowing that even though you're both so positive and strong, I am watching someone die, something I've never really done. I was there at the end of my grandmother's life for her last breaths, but I didn't watch her go from healthy through her decline from cancer. I decided that this channel shows how to live with dignity, love and respect, and also ultimately will most likely show how to die with dignity love and respect. I know you don't know me personally, as well as most of your viewers, but I hope you can feel that you are loved. We are on this journey together. You are never alone. Aisha is never alone when she has her moments of sadness and fear of the end of Emily's life. We all feel the same. We pray for a miracle for you, and we believe that you already are a miracle. Much love, from half a world away!
Please don't feel you need to answer to anyone. We know that this battle takes all of your time and energy. Update when you can. We are all praying and sending positive vibes and love. Aisha: You rock as a caregiver! Take care of yourself. Em: It is heartbreaking to watch you struggle. We are holding you in our hearts tenderly. Peace.
So sorry to see this change in Emily’s condition. It reminds me of a young lady called Charlotte Eddes who suffered with a Brain Tumour. She also did vlogs of her cancer journey. My thoughts as always are sent to you both at this very tough time ❤️
A young lady called So phia who was 16 lost her battle last week. I wish this horrible disease didn't excist. I hope for a miracle for Emily and for peeweetoms also. I hate cancer so much! Its hell on earth. Good bless Emily and Ashia and all who are touched by this soul destroying desease.
I followed her as well -- such a sweet young lady. My brother is struggling with cancer, which leads me to these channels. The strength in these folks is just amazing.
Oh Emily, no wonder you are like this, your body is dealing with so so much. Terminal cancer is horrible, I have seen lots of my close loved ones fighting and when their decline begins, it hits hard and stuns people. You are such a strong woman, it will be driving you nuts to not be able to do what you wish you could. Please rest easy, it is part of the process and whilst accepting it may feel like giving up, it's not. We love you Emily, from me to you, I hope that the coming days and weeks are as bearable as they can be. Much love to Aisha as well, it can't be easy for her either.
We've never met or talked, but I truly love both of you girls. I say "girls" because I am 53, and you two are about my son's age. Please know the impact that you both have made on so very many people. I consider it an honor that you share your lives with us. The amount of courage and strength and love you both have is awe inspiring. I will be praying for you both.
Dear Emily and Aisha, My wish for you is that you would PLEASE forget about the vlogs....we all can see how much harder things are getting for you both at the moment. Every moment you have is precious and you don't need to be spending time thinking about, or editing vlogs. We all love you unconditionally and are not here to be "entertained" by fancy vlogs. I, and I hope everyone else, wants you to live the rest of your life doing things that bring you joy. You both shine a bright light of strength and positivity on the lives of every person your journey touches. My heart breaks that such lovely souls have to endure this. Sending BIG love from Carol in Australia. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I am mentally trying to heal you...imagining that every cancerous cell in your body is dying! The white healing light of the Holy Spirit is embracing you and squeezing out what should not be...making you perfect and healthy in every way! Amen! Everyone repeat this and believe for Emily! I believe in miracles!
I've never commented on a RUclips video before but I've been following your journey for months and feel compelled to let you know that no matter what happens, your determination and positivity will live on through others, including myself, for years to come. Thank you for sharing it with us. You are making this world a better place. Sending you both lots of love. ❤️
Thank you for the update!! I've been wondering how you've been doing all weekend!! Please don't feel bad that your vlogs won't be like they used to be. You have to take this time for yourself and Aisha and the people you love! Stay strong, Emily, we're all rooting for you!! ❤️❤️
You two have to be THE most beautiful couple in the whole world, Emily your strength and determination never ever fails to amaze me, and Aisha, your love and devotion for Emily is breathtaking....sending you both massive hugs and keep fighting, everyone is behind you both ❤️❤️❤️
Good to see you both ....praying for you Emily....Aisha is a wonderful support to you ....@Aisha....you are such a wonderful calming presence. @emily....please dont feel that you have to vlog regularly ....you must put yourself first ....lots of love
Do we expect fancy vlogs - "NO!", Do we expect you to be bright happy and chipper every time - "No!"...…. ------- What we do expect Emily is - for you to look after You and for the two of you to be their for each other Aisha is amazing and loves you.... make the most of how you feel every day and just know that when you are feeling low that if you close your eyes and just imagine the strength of 48k plus subscribers all sending strength and loads of love your way - this is what we want for you to just feel loved and that you are in our thoughts - Love to you both Emily and Aisha xx
It hurts to see you suffering, if there would be something we can do for YOU... because you gave so much! Today I went to the Gym (for the first time Since February) and thought of you. I am happy I found you on RUclips... Love you both, Vanessa
My heart hurts so much seeing you feeling so sick. Aisha is so awesome, you guys are so lucky you've found each other. Wish you all the health and strenght in the world.
I've just noticed I've written "feeling" instead of "seeing". But it really feels like we're there with you guys, I wish I could hug you both. I hope you can feel the support, even if it's not much.
Thank you both for going to the trouble of making these videos when it's clear you are both going through a very rough time. I have nothing but respect. Having lost a parent to a cancerous brain tumour I know the very difficult journey it is and how exhausting it is. Thank you for the update, I almost felt selfish watching it knowing the effort it took you both. Much love xxxx
Oh Em and Aisha. My heart breaks for you that you are going through this. You are so sweet and thoughtful to do this vlog to update us. I hope you truly know how loved and cherished you are by your lot. You’ve defied the odds so far and I believe you will continue to do so. Prayers and love are powerful. ❤️🙏🏻Your lot doesn’t expect replies. You give SO MUCH of yourself in these vlogs.
I can't imagine having the strength to make an update like this, in everything they're going through they're still updating us and I hope everybody appreciates it as much as we should. The comments in her videos are so lovely, I hope they give them both a lift whenever they need it. I think about them a lot and I'm so hoping that the doctors are wrong. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
U BOTH have handled this battle with such Honor & Bravery & Courage I'm in absolute awe of U2. . . Emily. . . the pace @ which U've so bravely fought has been nothing short of. INSPIRATIONAL and I want U2 kno I love U for that. Aisha. . . the way U've been there 4 Emily day in & day out, encouraging & supporting her w/ Ur PERFECT LOVE through-out this struggle is a glowing example of what UNSELFISH LOVE looks like and I want U 2 kno Ur my hero Much love and blessings 2U2
I still find myself coming back to emilys videos. She was a force to be reckoned with. So sad she passed away. But she really did fight right to the end.
she helps us put thing in pespective even though passed I have TBI cant ok (i as a nuse) but i have no memoy anymoe so i keep epeating Emily and its helps me
Same . Been watching her older videos before getting really ill and now to these where it’s getting harder and harder for her . I came to love them both so much. What an amazing couple and an amazing person Emily was . She is missed for sure and I wish Aisha would come on even just once to let us all know how she’s getting on now .
I come back and watch them often 😭
@@kimwillis4269 Emily was an incredibly strong and intelligent girl. Breathtaking bravery.
@@kimwillis4269 I just love how inspiring both her and Aisha are. They really do/ did live life to the fullest. I think about Aisha often. She is a real original woman.
I don't think you'll ever know how much love there is out here for you two xxx
Jo Cannon ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Love you both 💞 i’m praying for continued peace and strength during this difficult time xoxo
Jo Cannon. Amen, so true.xx
So true ❤️ My husband and I send love to you both from Australia xxx
Agree, they are part of my family! yesterday my 10 year old son asked if we had heard from Emily and that he thinks about her everyday. We are in Australia xx
Sadly I didn’t come across this channel until after Emily passed away. I wish I had found it before because this was one heck of a women with an amazing partner. They both showed such strength, love and commitment throughout their videos. These two people touched my heart and I’m sorry that Emily didn’t have more time to live her life. I am extremely sorry for her loss and I wish her partner all the best as she continues her life to the best of her ability. She deserves to find some peace and happiness after what she has been through. She was one hell of a loving partner and a shining example of what love looks like ❣️
Kimmarie D. Very well said...
Kimmarie D. Yeah I wish I found it before she passed.. when did she pass??
Mckina Artis Sadly about a month ago.
Kristi Martinez thanks for the response
Same here
The strongest women I know! Bless you both.
That Chicken Purse Chick Everyone let’s help @emilyhayward.pt fight!! The ribbon for melanoma is black! Let’s take a selfie wearing black on June 8th 2018 and Tag Ellen! With the hashtag #ellenhelpemilyfight! It would be awesome!! Let’s do it!!!!!!!!!!!
That Chicken Purse Chick slight correction. They are the strongest "people" Not only the strongest women. These two have so much dignity for such young people.
Plz see this. ADVICE! Set up a means of communication now. Simple hand gestures for immediate communications. Dint mean to be a downer. But if your speech gets hard, communication will be difficult.
As for everything alse. Live your life. Spend your time as you wish. Whike we will worry about you, think about you, and wish to know how you are doung, we are secondary. We can patiently wait. And I cant talk for everyine else, but I for one, would rather you spend the moments cuddled up with your love. Or laughing. Or absorbing natures beauty, than to be vlogging. Unless of course vlogging is what you want to do at that moment. We will not feel slighted. You are not obligated!!! You are only obligated to be as happy as humanly possible in the moment.
Much love being sent your way. I wish I knew the answer. Hugs to both you beautiful ladies!
Very smart comment
Janice Ellis ty
Great idea. Along the same idea you could write a few things in marker to point to them. They might come in handy.
Amen.
20 days later you were gone 😞 and this morning they lay you to rest, but your fighting spirit and inspiring soul live on in those of us who came to love you. 💜 Rip Emily, we miss you.
And we love you still ♡♡♡
20 days, only 20 day before Emily passed, she lived her life fully till she passed not many of us could have managed the amount of cancer she had all through her body to keep fighting like she did!
I think it was her fight and her live for her wife, family and friends, the bravest woman ever!
RIP beautiful girl xx
Still looking miss you Angel god bless xx
Still Miss you Em, keep coming back to see you again.
You have made the world, my world a better place. Continued love for you and Aisha ❤️
What a lovely thing to say. My heart is breaking right now to see Emily so low xxx
Oh no Em and Aisha. Sad news and hard to watch video, but thank you for updating us. Was good to see you both.
It was difficult to watch but I was so relieved to see them both
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RIP Emily Jane Hayward Hassan † (July 16, 1993 - June 26, 2018) (aged 24) you will truly be missed and my prayers go out to you and your family.
She would be 29 now like my youngest daughter is .. I miss her and I think I loved her too 😢
Please DONT reply to any comments I think I can speak for every single one of your UTube fans, we don’t expect any replies we only want to show our love and support for you both. You both concentrate on each other and re energising our Emily. We can wait for vlogs, no hurry and keep any future ones plain and simple whenever you vlog again no need to entertain as we are not here for entertainment pet xxx
Diana Murray agreed !!
Anwen xxx
Never Been so invested in 2 people before. You my love are incredible. ❤️
I feel the same way. There's so much love between them. I was constantly checking for an update whilst she was in the hospital. Truly, amazing women.
I feel the same way. I love the vlogs so much Emily. I feel like you and Aisha are people I actually know in real life. But absolutely take your time and vlog when it’s right. Love from the US in Indianapolis. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
The more of Emily’s channel I watch, the more I realise just how amazing Aisha is. I hope she’s doing OK.
She now has a son
She is on Instagram
Aww that’s lovely. He will bring her the joy that she deserves.
Ladies, we’d be happy if you literally got on camera for five seconds and waved-we totally understand the need to put yourselves first-and of course we’re going to still enjoy the blogs. We will never turn our backs on on you and remember that you do not have an expiration date, beautiful, strong, INSPIRATIONAL Emily ❤️❤️ Aisha, you are so beautiful inside and out and it shines through!
Not only does Aisha still love you- WE ALL STILL LOVE YOU too! ♥️ You have a lot of us praying and rooting for you. We pray for strength and miracles where God (or whomever you choose believe in) sees fit. Miracles do and can happen; and you are a miracle already. Finding lovely Aisha was also a miracle, she’s amazing truly. Praying for strength and peace for all of you today and always. Xo 😘
You never forget someone like Emily. I’ve never known anyone with so much bravery and determination. You just know that if she’d not had bloody cancer she would have achieved anything she set her mind to. It’s testament to her that people still pop back to remember just how amazing she was in her battle. F**k cancer.
Glad you're out of hospital, Emily 💛 You guys put a video up when you want to. Don't feel any pressure to to have to update us. I was a little annoyed with how many people were asking for updates, when your IG/Facebook posts clearly requested that people respect your time off of social media while Em was in hospital. I know it's because people care and want to know how she's doing. But if you were one of those people, stop! Caring means you respect what they ask and respect their time away, as and when they need it. We need to be patient and wait for any updates - when they're ready, not when we want it. Much love to you both 💕💕💕
Rachel B •Farmiga Fan• Yes. We have all come to care for them from a far but people need to remember that Emily is a real person going through cancer with a real wife, parents, siblings, longtime friends who must be having a tough time navigating this difficult time. Never feel the pressure to keep us posted but remember we are thinking of you and hoping for the best❤ You have been very open with us but that may become too difficult emotionally and physically and everyone would understand your desire for a little privacy. Use your energy to enjoy your life that is more important than vlogs. Selfishly I'd like a quick instagram update once in a while if possible. Thinking of Emily but also Aisha and all your family💜
Lecturing in comments always comes out kinda arrogant although i agree with you
Karen Segal Don't think that was lecturing. Totally agree with the first post. Hadn't noticed others asking for updates because I had been looking for new posts. I read the post that they were in hospital and other than wishing them the best had not looked at the post again. Emily has been lucky to have been doing well for so long that it is easy to forget her condtition and prognosis. Vlogs make us feel like we are involved in people's lives but we are still strangers. If we are sad about the situation it important to remember the people actually in her life.
❤ Amen and thank you. I agree.
Ensuring Seamlessness I agree with you this absolute tragedy is private, and that there is a clear line to whats for family and the closest of course. And that subscribers of course cannot and should not "demand" or expect anything, wheter its wanting updates or answers its totally irrelevant, its selfish and have nothing to do with compassion but more of something else..Also I think Emily and Aisha have been very clear and certain about what to share for the public and not.However this all doesnt mean you cant feel very very sad and compassionate, even if you havent met the person irl. I was totally blown away by Emilys personality when I first watch one of these videos, and are very effected by her situation and for real feel so incredibly very sad for her and her relatives. I have been crying. Because of the unfairness, this vibrant girl, struggling so very hard and with such dignity and good spirit, hardly ever even complain despite the situation, always caring for others, still its getting worse and it breaks my heart, simply because I like her so much. From the very beginning Emily wanted to share her struggle through this horrible experience with people, known or unknown, so I guess she doesnt mind feeling the love from so many people, even if unknown to her. Btw, so called celebrities are "normal" people too, they get illnesses and other shit too. I believe in compassion to one another, famous or not, doesnt matter, we are all just humans.
Forget the videos, concentrate on looking after each other ❤️❤️❤️ xx
Fairly Vague YES, this. ❤❤❤
It's very hard to look at these latter vlogs with Emily deteriorating.... I know people succumb to cancer every day but Emily brought us into her life and her struggle through her vlogs so comprehensively that we felt that we knew her personally.... which we did because she was so sincere and open about her life and welcome us into it. How could we be anything other than gutted to see her slipping away after such a brave battle. Such a lovely beautiful girl x.
❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤗🤗. Naturally and intelligently, I knew that things would eventually take a turn. So all I can think to say is simply ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤗🤗. Hearts and hugs to you both. You both are loved immensely. I’m a survivor and I’ve never been as strong as either of you. No matter the outcome, I am SO much of a better person for having bared witness to a fraction of your journey. Hayward - Hasan ladies, you’ll always be loved.
Amazing...you both are amazing. Many prayers are coming your way. Do not worry about filming. You need to do what gives you peace. Just spend time with those you love and know that all of us, and there are many, are praying daily and look forward to hearing from you but only when you feel like it. God Bless you🌿🌸🌿🌷🌿🌸🌿🌷🌿🌸🌿🌷🌿🌸🌿🌷🌿🌸🌿🌷🌿🌸🌿🌷💕
The support Aisha gives you is phenomenal. I'm sorry things have gotten worse. My heart hurts for you, but I'm still hopeful. I'll keep you both in my thoughts and prayers. I want to do more, but that's all I can do. ❤
Aisha gave her several more months than she maybe wouldn’t have had. By her amazing support and positivity. No matter how bad things got she was ALWAYS at her side. Like a rock. Listen.....she always says..”we decided”. “Let’s”. I appreciate it so much.
Emily don't you dare worry about updating us or question whether or not we will be enjoying these videos. We are here for you. Not the editing but just to be updated on how you are. You and Aisha are so lovely and my prayers and thoughts are always with you. Please don't worry about us. We'll be here when you're ready
It may sound clichéd or whatever, but *you are my hero.* And it's not something I often say to anyone, nor something I keep telling all the people who fight cancer. No. You, just you. The way you handle all this... it's beyond words.
You can see in her last few videos before her death she had really declined she had trouble talking and concentrating. I was hoping so badly that she would beat it I miss her so much. The love between these two was so strong
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This video is the true definition of love.
Oh Emily and Aisha my heart is breaking for you. You both looked so tired. Emily I can see your really suffering and your struggling to find the words and them not coming.... I’m actually crying 😢 right now and am gutted to see Emily that the usual twinkle in your eyes wasn’t there.
Be at peace in the knowledge that you’re surrounded by love from Aisha, your friends, your family and not to forget us fellow followers... we love ya too the moon and back! God bless you Emily.... Try to stay strong don’t give up yet sweetheart xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Vikki Jones how kind of you
Vikki Jones I agree. I really struggled to watch the vlog
You can see the light is fading, and I know its hard for us but can only imagine how hard it is for them. I pray that it's an easy journey home when the time is right, and pray for so much strength and peace for them.
shelley burns how kind of you too, you two are just too kind. I really wonder why she sometimes bothers making these blogs. She just seems to attract, drama queens, self centered idiots and narcissists. I can't believe what I read on here sometimes , I really can't , let alone Emily reading it
Made me cry like I was losing someone I knew. She is so positive and special.
Angela Montenegro aaaah...poor you , bless your heart
She had stopped smiling a couple of videos before this. Breaks my heart.
I can’t thank you enough ladies for having the energy and courage to update us. You have had a terrible time and although we were desperate to know how you were , i and I am sure everybody else wanted to give you the space and privacy you both needed.
If you still enjoy vlogging we will love to hear from you no matter how short or “ unfancy “ they will be. If you find it too much then don’t feel you have to do it for our sakes. This is about you and what you need to feel supported.
I wish there was something we could do to make you feel better Emily and Aisha but if not then I hope you can feel the love and positive vibes heading your way. If only a hug could cure all ..... or maybe a Nando’s?
While the news isn't good, I'm so glad to hear from you. I'm glad you saw a counselor just to check in with a professional. I've honestly never had so much love for two people I've never met. If I lived nearby, I would be dropping by meals, homemade chicken soup and doing anything I could to help. Believe me, I've thought about flying out there from the states if only to meet you extraordinary women just once. It's like wanting to meet a current day Ghandi.
EMILY...would you consider teaching Aisha to vlog and edit for you? It's a selfish request but I'm so invested in you that it would break my heart to lose touch during this time. In the meantime, rest as much as you need, try to do something everyday to bring that beautiful smile back to your face for an hour and continue loving your amasing wife. It's not over until the fat lady sings, sweetheart, and I don't plan to sing anytime soon. ; )
AISHA...you're an angel. You always have that beautiful smile on your face. You're so compassionate, loving, a natural caretaker and wise beyond your years. I would love to see you return to school to become a crisis counselor working with cancer patients and their families. And while you're somewhat shy, I myself would pay over £100 to hear you share your wisdom. And I'm 52! Have you ever watched a TEDTalks on RUclips? That could be you sharing your journey and wisdom. That's all far in the future to consider and perhaps discuss with Emily. In the meantime, keep being you and taking such great care of "our" Emily. Sending lots of love to you, sweetie.
I'm from the states also and have thought the same thing.
Allyson M your comment is so beautiful I am crying as I watch this because I have never seen Emily so weak looking. I feel so darn bad and I wish that I could take all this away from her. I am also a seasoned woman lol (almost 50 but not quite) but I just feel so bad about this terrible disease is taking out our love ones by the masses.❤😭
Allyson M such a heartfelt & wonderful comment, i feel as you do. Dear,dear Girls.❤️❤️🕊
I wish I had written this because I agree with absolutely everything you've said here.
Allyson M I wonder if Aisha is under enough pressure without learning to vlog though, when my Dad had Cancer it was exhausting and time consuming, this is their precious time together so maybe we should let them just be and if we only get a few more vlogs ever, maybe we should just be happy with that? 🤔
It says a lot about Emily when people around the world who haven’t even met her in person are grieving the loss of her life. It’s like losing a member of your family. That’s how much this journey of Aisha and hers has pulled on each of our heartstrings ❤️
I just watched the true meaning of love in a few short minutes. I am praying for a miracle and I've got others praying too. It's no coincidence you were there to show that Dr she was very wrong, we do not have expiration dates. Please rest and relax and enjoy each other.💞
Well that just blows!! I love you guys. I would completely understand if you guys no longer wanted to do videos! Life is short and precious.. your true fans will always be here. Take Care guys.
Emily was such a strong person.. last few videos it is evident she is starting to transition. Tiredness, aphagia, slurred speech, low pressure, altered state of consciousness are all signs. RIP.
Oh em seeing you quite out of it is heartbreaking but your strength is absolutely inspiring! Keep fighting girl, your amazing! ❤️
I also believe in miracles. Sending, as always, love and prayers from Houston.
My sister Clare told me she was following an amazing woman and I told her that I was too - guess what - it was you! we were both following you unawares and both think you are inspiring and wonderful. Aisha is a rock and you're both so brave. Low days are very hard, bless you always,xx Clare and Jane xx
Jane Patel I had the same happen with my friend Emma :)
This is more than RUclips. This is more than a vlogger and her followers. This is real life and we, who have come to know you through the honest sharing of your lives, have grieved and raged over your cancer, have rejoiced in your marvelous love with Aisha, have hoped with you and continue to hope for more and more days of life and love for you....you are that sweet young couple ‘just down the road’ two incredible women of courage and strength, and we love you Emily and Aisha. Time for all of us is precious and for you two all the more so. Whatever gives you pleasure, whatever you love, spend your time doing those things. We are now and will always be in your corner regardless of whether you vlog or not. I hope you find some delight and comfort in knowing that people around the world are thinking of you fondly and holding you in prayer and hope and light. Anita
I am in awe of the strength and positivity of the two of you - I think you are both amazing ❤️
Anwen I love your channel! It makes my heart full that you watch this channel, and support Emily and Aisha. I just knew you were a good egg. ❤️
Miss Krystyna awww that’s so lovely of you to say - thank you ♥️
You Two have generously shared your precious time together with us, we have all come to love you as well & I hope you feel everybody’s love through these responses back to you. I don’t think anybody is expecting you to respond back to anyone as you have done this via your vlogs, please stay positive & DO NOT feel obligated in anyway you Two to vlog kisses & hugs to you both 💓💓💓xxx
This video makes me so sad. The difference between the last video I watched and this video is so drastic. Keep fighting, Emily. I pray that a miracle is headed your way soon.
yes, absolutely heartbreaking.
This is not good. Can see weight loss and general deterioration.
Just watched, bawling.. praying for a miracle.
Much love to you both.
Just watched this again now and it's so obvious in hindsight that darling Em was fading... her speech and concentration were poor and she was very tired. At the time I assumed that it was pain/morphine related but obviously it was the beginning of the end. I'm still just in disbelief 😢💔 me and fifty thousand others I guess xxx
I didn't see it before but now that she has passed I see she deteriorated fast and was fading away. She was so strong until the end. I think she knew these were her last days..bless her ❤
Em, the best part of this video is at the end when you say "and my speech is getting shitty" followed by that signature, cheeky grin 😁😁😁 You're still you, Emily, no matter what xxx
Claire Connatty YES. That smile was awesome. I loved it. 😊
TheErinnF 😁😉❤
Em and Aisha, I'm a primary school teacher round the corner in Orpington. If you need anything please just give me a shout - food, shopping buddy, a lift somewhere or a stranger to talk to, I'm here for you :)
well thought off
your students are lucky to have such a lovely, thoughtful and generous teacher. ❤️
So kind of you.
Youre so kind stay blessed
MissPrincessPancake So sweet of you 🙂👍xx
Never seen a channel with such lovely comments its the best
chantelle smith yes heartwarming but sad at the same time x
We love you both very much. My life has been dictated with mental health issues for 5 years Emily but you have given me the fight as a 52 year old man to get up and face each day and you have made a difference to my life. I wish i could give you a big hug and say thank you but I send one over the air waves. Thank you Emily for helping me get my life started in going forward again. xxxxxxxxxxx
That's beautiful, Sean.
Phenomenal. This is what Emily has done for so many. She is such a light.
Wow, that's exactly what these two incredibly strong Ladies have done to me, too. I'm suffering from physical and mental chronic illnesses, but your strength and positivity dealing with such a situation has really been a kick in the ass for me (in the most positive sense!) to keep fighting also.
Sean Batley Thank you Sean for putting into words what I'm thinking too. I'm your age and also going through depression and anxiety. Emily is so do strong and I feel I have to get up and smile, cause what the h... do I have to worry about! Thank you for putting life into perspective ❤️
Same sentiment for me too. Depression and anxiety for years. Then I found Aisha and Emily, these two girls really taught me a lot and gave me a boot in the ass. How do you thank someone enough for this. These ladies mean everything to me. Xx
I wouldn't DREAM of expecting "fancy vlogs" or some kind of reply when I show support! I've never really commented, but I felt compelled to wish you NOTHING but the BEST & to tell you how powerful & inspiring both you, & your love for one another are.❤❤❤❤
My lord. This is emotional. You can see how Emily is trying so hard to communicate but her brain won't let her. You can see the frustration in her eyes. I'm proud of your determination and strength. I love you ❤❤❤❤
It's really upsetting to see the deterioration from the previous video to this. I think this is the first time- 20 days from death- that she genuinely comes across as someone who is ill. What an immensely powerful person she was physically and mentally.
Don't you worry about anyone else now. Just concentrate on yourself. That's an order! lots of love 💜
Ash AGREED and THANK YOU. Please don't worry about us, Emily and Aisha. You've given us SO MUCH. But please focus on YOU now. I think some people here have lost perspective and are viewing this channel as some kind of a reality TV show. Some of the comments are stressing me out a little. Please use this time to rest and be with loved ones. And bless you for all the joy and hope and positivity you've shared with us. You've both changed my life for the good. 💕
So to be totally honest that was hard to watch .. but ... that smile at the end made it so much better , the strong Emily is still there . If love and heartfelt wishes could heal you then you would live for a thousand years . So many of us are cheering you on Emily .
Do things at your own pace and we will be here waiting .
Much love to you both 😘 xxxx
I have watched this video about 5x already. It’s so heartbreaking to see Emily struggling to live! What a warrior
Oh honey, it's so hard to see you like this. Thank you for letting us know; it's weird, but thousands of "strangers" are really invested in your life, and I know I'm not the only one who's been so worried about you the last few days. Aisha, you are so wonderful, truly a rock for Emily. Unfortunately with the number of tumors you have and the type and location, this kind of occurrence is to be expected. As Aisha says in the video, it's a miracle that you are alive at all. My wish for you is for more miracles. I am sending both of you huge hugs and much love, your fan in Seattle, Rozzella.
I hate cancer for this reason, it’s completely unpredictable. I love ❤️ you both:) God bless you and take it one day at a time🙏
20 days left, and she's still as beautiful as ever. RIP Angel
Thank you so much for the update. I was worried sick the past few days, checking your social media compulsively for any news. I think I speak for everyone here and on Instagram, that you brighten our days every time you post a picture or a video. I didn't think it's possible to love someone I don't even really know, someone who lives so far away from me and whom I'm never going to meet. But I love you, ladies, with all my heart, and you're in my prayers every day. There's no doubt in my mind that you will power through this situation, like you did in the past without fail. Stay strong and stay together.
Marzipan Lady What a lovely comment. Thank you for saying what is in my heart, also. God Bless you.❤️
Oh my poor darlings!!... I so wish I could grant you a miracle.... please stay strong, and love and laugh together every day you have left together. Sending you both so much love, and prayers for you both to have comfort and peace.Stay strong. And keep up the fight!!....❤️❤️
Lovely words, they will never meet us, but they have a place in our hearts.
When you got tongue tied Emily , your smile came back, we al care about and love you so much, you have come into our hearts and if love can beat this, you have this won.
Rest and keep your body well fed, Aisha is a great wife, love love you 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🇦🇺🇦🇺🌹🌹🌹🐨🐨🐨❤️❤️
Thank you for the replies, everyone! Truth be told, I've been married for almost 4 years and in a strong, loving relationship for almost 10, and yet here I am, taking lessons from you, Aisha dear, on how to be a good, caring wife, offering unwavering support to my spouse through ups and downs. I've never called anyone "couplegoals" before, until now. I'm so glad we got the chance to "meet" through youtube, I wish I could make your life better like you've made mine.
I was worried, too, but am taking “patience” lessons from you both. ❤️
You two girls are an inspiration. In a world full of narcissistic self obsessed selfie driven superficial people you and your love stand out like a shining beacon. Whilst fools are undergoing surgery to make their backsides bigger or thighs thinner you go through all this crazy horror with a dignity and humour which puts us all to shame. I am a R.N and have been for a fair few years now and it's people like you two that I have been privileged to look after who have made my career both a joy and a heartbreak. People like the two of you stay in my heart forever. You literally make every day worthwhile and cancel out the negative complainers and aggressive imbeciles with their sense of entitlement (sorry, but you get the picture!!). Sending you all my love, hope, prayers and all the positive thoughts I can conjure to the both of you 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
Idk if they're fools that get cosmetic surgery, these things can really affect your mental health if you dislike a part of your body.
burned flowers
I do understand what you're saying but can only go by what I've seen at work over the years.
My main point is what Em went through in a attempt to save her life and what dangerous procedures some go through in order to correct what is what they perceive as a problem. Totally unnecessary and an insult to the brave souls like Em ( RIP).
Oh yeah things like removing ribs really annoy me! If it puts your life in danger just for cosmetics I really don't stand by that. But something like a nose job can really change someones life.
burned flowers
Totally agree!!! Have a good day.
Kate H 👏👏👏👏
She had a complete absence in the vlog, this was when I actually believed she would pass away, it was odd but she always made it unbelievable she was so so ill x
Take solace in the thought that even beyond all of the comments, there are people all over the world waking up and going to sleep praying for you Emily.
You show resilience every single day just by being yourself, not by the amount of videos made.
I lost my dad at a very young age from a stage 4 brain tumor. He survived only 2mths post diagnosis.
Watching your videos makes me smile...it reminds me of just how incredibly precious life is, and the value of loving those around you so strongly each and every day.
Keep fighting beautiful girl Xxxx
Abit of a shock seeing you like this, seeing you struggle with your speech, but look how far you have come, and you are strong think of it as abit of a blip, go girl go, sending you both gentle hugs and hope we see ya again soon love to you both xx
20 days after this vlog she passed away. Heartbroken. Will always keep watching for inspiration for the rest of my life. I miss you precious girl.... well you were an adult but I'm old enough to be your mum so I thought of you as a daughter which made it even harder to cope with the loss. Just such a beautiful soul, a true warrior and an inspiration to people all over the world, of all ages and be they healthy or well everyone got so much from watching your vlogs. You were a well loved young woman, we have lost a real jewel. Peace xxx
Updating IG might be easier girls. Videoing is just so time and labour intensive and we don’t need y’all worrying about that. My heart is hurting for you. You’re both strong - one day at a time. Xxxxxxx
Dear Sweet Girls, Please know that you have so many people that are behind you and wishing you the very best. Just concentrate on each other, for the both of you are what’s most important!!! Sending love from Chicago USA
You are an absolute angel, Aisha. So loving and empathetic. Obviously this was beyond hard for Emily but it had to be absolutely heartbreaking for you, too.
Although this update is heartbreaking to watch, the love between you both is still incredible. It's hard to believe I can care so much about 2 ppl I have never met in person. I do tho. I love you both and I am thinking about you guys often. ❤️
I feel the same, Kris.
I’m sad, but I watch this video and can see the true love and compassion that Aisha and you have for each other. This is an incredibly difficult journey that the two of you are on and it is that - that makes me sad. I’m just one of your many followers - that has found inspiration and oddly I feel a friendship with you and Aisha. I find hope love and enormous strength watching you. Thank You for teaching me things I never knew and sharing your story. You owe us nothing. LOVE your family - your friends ~ live for Emily ~ laugh for Emily ~ I just love everything about the beautiful person you are. ✌🏻🤟🏻💋💋💋💋
What a beautiful comment. xoxo
I agree beautiful!
Beautifully said hun ♥️
You have spoken for those of us who are at a loss for words when we see you lovely ladies are hurting/shaken by progression
we are all going to have each other through this and em and aisha xx
Anyone else crying?
sheraine zeffrienne yes, I cried when I saw she was admitted to hospital on Sundays update & today, it is not fair , in shock at the rapid deterioration x
me too..going through all that radiation too. It is cruel. We can now hope for a miracle.
Yes. Can't even stop.
It's impossible not to .
Lovely girl this and Aisha is a one off too!! Gud thoughts coming your way x x
This was a hard watch 💔 I’m just so glad you and and Aisha have pulled though yet again, you’ve both been at the back of my mind for the past few days! I think it’s a great idea that you’re putting vlogs to the side to concentrate on each other 💕 sending so much love!
I wish you will be ok soon.
Rest on beautiful ANGEL.
The videos you left behind are helping us cope with our loved ones who are battling this horrible disease.
To Emily's family and friends, my cousin was diagnosed and told their isn't anything else they can do to help him fight bone cancer. I'm utilizing these videos to continue in prayer and remember someone else who fought this fight. 💪🏾🙏🏾💔
Aisha can give us update herself if you are ever unable to speak, look how well she did today, thinking of you both xxx
Kiddo...got so much love for you...if only love could make you better, this little community would have you cured.
Stop and smell the flowers, kiss your beautiful missus, eat the choc, love with every breath, and know every second you are thought of, you are prayed for, you are loved.
Keep tearing the arse out of life Em...big hooj hot sweaty cant cope with this weather love to you and Aisha xx
Nic Kew perfectly said!! That was awesome and so so sweet and true!💜
Perfectly said, I 😍 this comment. Xxxxxxx
LOVE THIS!
Em, I still just watch these every now and then. Miss you and love you x
We don't need u to respond guys ...I'm a stage 4 surviver ad triver. ...I love to both .....micerals happen everyday. ..Don't give up...😇
I love u both...u sound like me after a few glasses of vino. ....big hugs my 2 baby girlsxx
Ooh it´s so good to see your face again dear Em! You are such a fighter! Love you both girls...Take care and fight sweetheart!
You poor baby miss you xxxx
Shit ...I don't know what else to say. You don't deserve this. I'm shocked. Why is it the most beautiful people who make this world a place worth being have these horrific things happen. It's so hard to have any faith in anything .and on top of it all you have these amazing attitudes. You two blow me away. I'm older than you both but I hope to one day have the grace, courage, and wisdom I see in you.
These two beautiful ladies are teachers and an excellent example of how to fully embrace "LIVING each day until the end". Their unwavering love and positivity is the wonderful lesson we can learn from Em and Aisha. Bless them!
I feel the exact same way..
You don’t know me, and I don’t know you, but I love you. And I want you to know that getting to know you through this channel has been a joy, despite the circumstances. I lost my mother in April, and I just had no idea the trials cancer puts people through before then. I so admire your bravery and realistic but positive outlook. It is wonderfully refreshing, and you’ve moved and educated so many people. I’m sorry you feel awful and that you’re scared and none of this is in any way fair. Nothing any of us say will make that better, but do know that you have changed us for the better. I wish the best for you and your loved ones. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.
Kate Y Your sentiment and closing words made me think of this and how it fits Emily perfectly..."Because I [know] you, I have been changed for good." I'm in awe of how I've learned so much from Emily and continue to do so.
The link to the song from Wicked: ruclips.net/video/TZ0pXUb5jVU/видео.html
Kate Y Beautiful.
This is terribly sad, Aisha is such a rock, she is so stoic & strong. Both those girls truly meant to be together. As Aisha says 'we power through this together'
Also, please do not worry about replying! You are giving us all this amazing opportunity to be educated on the real life effects of cancer... that in its self is incredible and so selfless of you both! You don’t have to do this... your both amazing and I can’t Thank you enough. One day we will beat cancer. And it’s vlog channels like yours that help educate everyone, and inspire people to become cancer researchers and nurses and doctors. Keep fighting em, you have 48K + of love and prayers coming your way!❤️
We are all praying for the both of you. All 50,000 of us love you!
everytime I see one of Emily Haywards video thumbnails on my feed, reality really hits. the reality of cancer is so sad, it capitalizes on the unfairness of the precious gift of life. RIP Emily, I look up to you.
My heart hurts to hear this news even though I think I knew after seeing the last vlog that this was coming. I'm in the US and have been following you for many months now, struggling myself with whether I should keep watching, knowing that most likely, these videos will end once you're either too sick to make them, or you're no longer here on Earth. I struggled with whether it is OK for me to follow this channel, while knowing that even though you're both so positive and strong, I am watching someone die, something I've never really done. I was there at the end of my grandmother's life for her last breaths, but I didn't watch her go from healthy through her decline from cancer. I decided that this channel shows how to live with dignity, love and respect, and also ultimately will most likely show how to die with dignity love and respect. I know you don't know me personally, as well as most of your viewers, but I hope you can feel that you are loved. We are on this journey together. You are never alone. Aisha is never alone when she has her moments of sadness and fear of the end of Emily's life. We all feel the same. We pray for a miracle for you, and we believe that you already are a miracle. Much love, from half a world away!
Andrea Morin this is a beautiful comment
Tiger Gray Thank you, just from my heart.
Please don't feel you need to answer to anyone. We know that this battle takes all of your time and energy. Update when you can. We are all praying and sending positive vibes and love. Aisha: You rock as a caregiver! Take care of yourself. Em: It is heartbreaking to watch you struggle. We are holding you in our hearts tenderly. Peace.
So sorry to see this change in Emily’s condition. It reminds me of a young lady called Charlotte Eddes who suffered with a Brain Tumour. She also did vlogs of her cancer journey. My thoughts as always are sent to you both at this very tough time ❤️
I also followed charlotte... She was great... Miss her
That was so bloody sad. Seeing her mother grieve and Charlotte so insecure about herself (when she was a beaut) was horrible.
A young lady called So phia who was 16 lost her battle last week. I wish this horrible disease didn't excist. I hope for a miracle for Emily and for peeweetoms also. I hate cancer so much! Its hell on earth. Good bless Emily and Ashia and all who are touched by this soul destroying desease.
Jacqueline Mama I was on her channel last month. I figured she was okay. Thats absolutely shit, hate seeing young people’s lives ruined like this.
I followed her as well -- such a sweet young lady. My brother is struggling with cancer, which leads me to these channels. The strength in these folks is just amazing.
Oh Emily, no wonder you are like this, your body is dealing with so so much. Terminal cancer is horrible, I have seen lots of my close loved ones fighting and when their decline begins, it hits hard and stuns people. You are such a strong woman, it will be driving you nuts to not be able to do what you wish you could. Please rest easy, it is part of the process and whilst accepting it may feel like giving up, it's not. We love you Emily, from me to you, I hope that the coming days and weeks are as bearable as they can be. Much love to Aisha as well, it can't be easy for her either.
StephieAck so well said, and comfort to you as well for all you’ve seen ❤️
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StephieAck I
We've never met or talked, but I truly love both of you girls. I say "girls" because I am 53, and you two are about my son's age. Please know the impact that you both have made on so very many people. I consider it an honor that you share your lives with us. The amount of courage and strength and love you both have is awe inspiring. I will be praying for you both.
Dear Emily and Aisha,
My wish for you is that you would PLEASE forget about the vlogs....we all can see how much harder things are getting for you both at the moment. Every moment you have is precious and you don't need to be spending time thinking about, or editing vlogs. We all love you unconditionally and are not here to be "entertained" by fancy vlogs. I, and I hope everyone else, wants you to live the rest of your life doing things that bring you joy. You both shine a bright light of strength and positivity on the lives of every person your journey touches. My heart breaks that such lovely souls have to endure this. Sending BIG love from Carol in Australia. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Carol Carol Love this comment. Yes. ❤
I am mentally trying to heal you...imagining that every cancerous cell in your body is dying! The white healing light of the Holy Spirit is embracing you and squeezing out what should not be...making you perfect and healthy in every way! Amen! Everyone repeat this and believe for Emily! I believe in miracles!
I've never commented on a RUclips video before but I've been following your journey for months and feel compelled to let you know that no matter what happens, your determination and positivity will live on through others, including myself, for years to come. Thank you for sharing it with us. You are making this world a better place.
Sending you both lots of love. ❤️
Thank you for the update!! I've been wondering how you've been doing all weekend!! Please don't feel bad that your vlogs won't be like they used to be. You have to take this time for yourself and Aisha and the people you love! Stay strong, Emily, we're all rooting for you!! ❤️❤️
That smile is worth a thousand words. Much love and prayer from Spokane, Washington, USA.
You two have to be THE most beautiful couple in the whole world, Emily your strength and determination never ever fails to amaze me, and Aisha, your love and devotion for Emily is breathtaking....sending you both massive hugs and keep fighting, everyone is behind you both ❤️❤️❤️
Ensuring Seamlessness... very beautifully put ♥️
Good to see you both ....praying for you Emily....Aisha is a wonderful support to you ....@Aisha....you are such a wonderful calming presence.
@emily....please dont feel that you have to vlog regularly ....you must put yourself first ....lots of love
Do we expect fancy vlogs - "NO!", Do we expect you to be bright happy and chipper every time - "No!"...….
------- What we do expect Emily is -
for you to look after You and for the two of you to be their for each other Aisha is amazing and loves you.... make the most of how you feel every day and just know that when you are feeling low that if you close your eyes and just imagine the strength of 48k plus subscribers all sending strength and loads of love your way - this is what we want for you to just feel loved and that you are in our thoughts - Love to you both Emily and Aisha xx
It hurts to see you suffering, if there would be something we can do for YOU... because you gave so much! Today I went to the Gym (for the first time Since February) and thought of you. I am happy I found you on RUclips... Love you both, Vanessa
My heart hurts so much seeing you feeling so sick. Aisha is so awesome, you guys are so lucky you've found each other. Wish you all the health and strenght in the world.
I've just noticed I've written "feeling" instead of "seeing". But it really feels like we're there with you guys, I wish I could hug you both. I hope you can feel the support, even if it's not much.
Thank you both for going to the trouble of making these videos when it's clear you are both going through a very rough time. I have nothing but respect. Having lost a parent to a cancerous brain tumour I know the very difficult journey it is and how exhausting it is. Thank you for the update, I almost felt selfish watching it knowing the effort it took you both. Much love xxxx
Beautiful, sweet Em! I pray that you soon find your strength again. 🖤
Oh Em and Aisha. My heart breaks for you that you are going through this. You are so sweet and thoughtful to do this vlog to update us. I hope you truly know how loved and cherished you are by your lot. You’ve defied the odds so far and I believe you will continue to do so. Prayers and love are powerful. ❤️🙏🏻Your lot doesn’t expect replies. You give SO MUCH of yourself in these vlogs.
Maureen Harzinski "Your lot". Aww, we are her and Aisha's lot. ❤️❤️❤️
I have watched 3 times just to take it in. And what I keep coming back to is that beautiful grin right at the end. That is Emily.
I can't imagine having the strength to make an update like this, in everything they're going through they're still updating us and I hope everybody appreciates it as much as we should. The comments in her videos are so lovely, I hope they give them both a lift whenever they need it. I think about them a lot and I'm so hoping that the doctors are wrong. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
That was extremely hard to watch.....X
Laura B I totally agree. Breaks my heart
Sadly only just came across this channel.. Brought me many emotions.. Emily's spirit will always live on in apart of us all.. ❤️❤️❤️
U BOTH have handled this battle with such Honor & Bravery & Courage I'm in absolute awe of U2. . .
Emily. . . the pace @ which U've so bravely fought has been nothing short of. INSPIRATIONAL and I want U2 kno I love U for that.
Aisha. . . the way U've been there 4 Emily day in & day out, encouraging & supporting her w/ Ur PERFECT LOVE through-out this struggle is a glowing example of what UNSELFISH LOVE looks like and I want U 2 kno Ur my hero
Much love and blessings 2U2