I’ve been losing weight not because I’m insecure not because of a medical condition but because of the fact that I use starvation as a type of SH and then when people tell me they wanna look like me they wanna lose weight as easily it just hurts
i do the same and ppl call me an "attention seeker" and "skinny" and "oh u gotta eat more" etc. im really sorry. jus know that idk who u r but im here for u :)
I had this friend that influence me to be mean to other's to the point I broke up with my friend since I wanted to be "cool" and I started to talk about how skinny she was but I apologize and I became friends with her. I broke up with my toxic friend
I had this friend that influence me to be mean to other's to the point I broke up with my friend since I wanted to be "cool" and I started to talk about how skinny she was but I apologize and I became friends with her. I broke up with my toxic friend
POV: your best friend wants to end it all but you are secretly struggling with the thoughts too but u don’t want to leave her alone because she needs you and you don’t want to tell her because she’s already going through so much.
I feel this so hard it hurts. I don’t know who you are or where you are, but we will get through this together. (If you’ve already gotten through it I’m so proud, but I’m proud of your strength regardless)
be honest, I'd say still make it clear that you're there for her but that you're struggling to, so you'll help how you can, but you might not always be okay to help, so maybe you could give her numbers to call/text or smth like that, like a back up? I'm def no professional tho so up to you
even if it gets worse, itll end up alright no matter what happens theres always going ti be ups and downs in our life but we have to keep moving forward and stick our head up high
I know people watch these compilations to feel something. And to trigger themselves. I hope you lovely’s get better soon and please remember, it’s not the end
@youronlyjessy_wessy As an American middle schooler, it is terrible. My school is so mean and a lot of the kids are insecure, including me. I feel like the only person in my school with common sense, I hate it. And they’re are these kids in my school who threaten to kill and hurt lgbtq+ people and furries. And my school doesn’t care about you AT ALL. And ofc the lunch is terrible, they can’t afford crap. That’s why I’ve started not eating their lunch or breakfast. Making me only eating dinner for a whole school year lmao. So yeah, American school systems SUCKKKKK
I was showing my mom that I had goosebumps that hadn’t gone away in like 5 days and accidentally showed her my arm with scars on it. I told her why I didn’t just tell her how I was feeling. I told her that she would just say it was my fault and she told me that my assumption was right, she would’ve just told me it was my fault. Now I’m addicted to sh but just hide it better and wear long sleeved shirts no matter how hot it is. I’m not even afraid of her threats anymore. She told me if she found out I was cutting again the she’d send me to a hospital. Edit: I’m doing better for anyone reading this, I’ve been meditating and I’ve stopped letting small things get to me. Life goes on and what better comeback can you have other saying you made it? So if you’re going through anything similar to me, just keep pushing, it’s ok to be vulnerable sometimes and it’s not ok to just bottle up everything till you can no longer keep going. Sh is still a problem but time is healing everything. Stay hydrated and spread the love and peace ❤️❤️❤️
Hey, it’s okay. You can always talk to me or a friend. Please don’t sh it’s not good and it’s not worth it. Ik how low life may seem rn but you have to keep on pushing, lmk if you need sm1 to talk to❤️. Your are loved by me and so many other people, you get this just stay strong ✊❤️
hey babes, if you ever feel bad please talk to me. i know maybe you won't feel like it bc no one ever rly wants to vent to a stranger on the internet, but we can js talk. I went to a hospital for a similar reason about 7 months ago. I was at the first one for 4 days. i was so scared. when I got there, they were so sweet. I lied my way out in four days and the day I got out (friday of october 27th) I went to a school dance. everyone was so nice when i got back, but the next week i was ghosted by every. single. person that i was once friends with or not ever friends with. everyone... hated me. for getting help. so then about two weeks later on november 8th i went back to the hospital. they sent me to the phsychiatric ward a second time, this time i was there for 9 days. every day I called my mom crying to take me home, but now I look back and I had really good experiences and friends from that one. the ward told me that I wouldnt be allowed to leave unless I went to residential... they told me i would be there for at most two weeks. I was there for two months. it gave me so much trauma but it saved me. I started php the day after I was discharged from residential. im crying as im writing this. im sorry you probably dont wanna hear all this. partial hospitalization program (PHP) was for another two and a half months. then i went back to school and after school every day from 4 to 7pm i went to intensive outpatient program (IOP) for about another month and a half before they kicked me out because I relapsed several times on SH and alc. I'm still struggling ofc, but ik people care about me... and I care about you. i dont know you but i care. if you need the hospital, go. it isnt scary. i promise love, dont be scared. life does get better. its a roller coaster.
I used to watch these event videos and cry myself to sleep that how ugly I was and how no one cared about me but one day I told myself no I need to do something and I’ve been doing really good recently and more happy about myself but there are still people that go through this not loving who you are can’t find the right people but know one day you will have a grateful life if you deserve it and it all will start with loving yourself ❤❤have a good day and do not pls do not think of ending yourself pls I know how it’s like please❤❤
IK it’s school that’s draining me bc when i was in 4th, 5th grade, i sparked up in the morning and i was excited for the day but once i got to middle school? i fcking hate school sm.
@@SonderMoth09 your so sweet. Thank you. I'm wish you the best of luck on your own journey to getting better. I don't need to talk about it, I just felt like I needed someone to know.
You did amazing tho, 9 months! That’s awesome, bad habits are hard to break. Whether it’s sh or biting your nails. It going to be hard to break, I promise you. It will get better.
I'm only now realizing how bad my family situation is. My sister says she 'hates me' everyday when she has a breakdown. My mom always says 'I guess I'm the villain' whenever she's stressed or makes me cry. My dad always fights with my sister and mom and gets very disappointed with me if I get lower than a B and tells me that girls with short hair are ugly and that doing well enough to pass isn't well enough. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. There's no law for when I can move out but I don't have enough money to do so. On top of that I'm bi and go by she/they pronouns but my parents r very transphobic and homophobic so no hopes for coming out. :\
omg im so sorry thats happening to you and i get it when sisters says "i hate you" and when family fights. Im so sorry you are going thru this pain you dont deserve this pain at all. I hope things get better for you and I support you. If you need someone to vent to im here for you.
Lowkey me reading that and relating to it all I just want to say, you're loved by this stranger in the internet. I get how it feels, but just know, I'm here for u :3
Fun fact I love school it’s fun, an escape. Sure some days/ most days are shit but it’s better than not knowing what to do, having no one to tell me what todo.. I need that without it I’m a mess, I mess everything up and just get depressed. But when someone tell me something I get happy no matter what. But that also makes people take advantage of me so uh ye. But I love school.
Vent: I've felt really lonely. I have lots of friends but I just don't think anyone actually cares about my feelings so I just bottle them up. My family belittles me. They constantly tease me. It could be my weight, my looks, what I'm wearing, my behaviour, something I do, my grades, anything. My parents tell me I deserve nothing I have. They have said much worse but I just feel like they'll somehow find this so I don't want to go into detail. If you read this, thank you
heyyy wannna talkk buddy? see buddy ik it may be hard i cant imagine how u feel but bottling up ur feelings is not a way right? we have to express ourseleves if we dont our feelings will burst one day right sweetie im here if u wanna share about it im so sorry ur family says that to you but hear me out okay please try to ignore them distract urself anything and u know right that someday ur gonna move out and live alone a peaceful life in ur dream apartment living ur life and when u reach there u will look back and think damn i really made it and talking about grades? love ik ur doing ur best im so proud of you lets try harder and lets chnge our lives okie? take care of yourself
my "friend" keeps bullying me and when i show a little aggressive feeling he calls me a crybaby and it happens every time, should i stop being friends with him?
My parents found out about my SH and instead of talking to me they just barged into my room took all my ‘sharp’ objects and grounded me and took my phone and stuff
I would like to have someone that will lie down with me and hold me. Cuddle with me. Sing to me and comfort me as I cry. And I can cry without stopping and without feeling ashamed or embarrased to be seen crying. And we can just stay like that for ages.
1:13 I’m actually jealous of the people that even have a good dad because as much as I might get made fun of for it , I don’t have a dad because he died and that meant my mum became so toxic it’s so hard for me to even stay and that’s why I’m really clingy to my taller friend, she isn’t even older than me but I feel safe when I’m around her
Everyone says I’m over-reacting or “they probably didn’t mean to” about what started all of this. I told my friend about my s/h and it’s like she didn’t care, the next day they just targeted me in some drama, I want to die now more than ever. I feel all they do is team up with me and their little friends that they show all of my texts to.
Y'know, it's funny that one day years ago I had a really bad day and told myself since that was the first time ever, it wouldn't repeat, but now I can't even stare myself at the mirror without hating myself for how my life's been going because I've turned into someone I promise not to become.
I feel like im allowed to vent here so... 2 years ago, my 18th birthday it was my first time out with my friends at a club! First time drinking and partying i didnt drink much...because i didnt want to ruin the night. At the time i was still trying to figure out my sexuality... i did not know if i was gay or straight at the time but one of my friends said "this place is kinda lame wanna bring your mates back to my place?" This did hurt... for him to say it was lame since i was having the rime of my life but he said hes got better music and lights and sh!t at his place, so me and my friends chilled out there and had a good time! I was going to call my mum to tell her where i was so she would not worry. I ask my friend if theres some where quite to go while i call my mum. He says "yeah! Ill take you to my room" i was cool with this untill we made it into his room and he closed the door with both of us inside... i asked him "what are you doing?" He locked the door and started to beat the sh!t out of me because he over hear/ misheard a conversation i was having with a friend, he thought i came out as gay when i really said was i wasn't sure if i was or not...the worst part of the whole scenario was no one could hear me over the music. Eventually he left me to bleed on the floor and locked me in the room over night. I came home to my mother with a birthday cake as a surprise for yesterday but i never made it home. I was bruised and cut and my dad blamed me for what happened... the fact that you read all of this just shows how a complete stranger would care more about my story then my own father...
My friend, I know the darkness can feel overwhelming. But you are not alone. I'm here for you, ready to catch you when you fall. Your storms will pass - they always do. And when the clouds part, your light will shine through once more. I see your heart, brave one. I know you're still fighting. And I'm so very proud of you. With each step, you're proving how strong you are. Keep going. Brighter days await. You have a gift for bringing joy to others. Your smile must be magical, making even babies light up. Don't ever doubt how much you matter. If the sadness starts to drag you down, please talk to me. I'll listen for as long as you need. We'll ride out the darkness together. You deserve to feel whole again - and you will. For now, just focus on holding on. One breath at a time. You've got this. And I've got you.
3:22 I relate, I can never get out of bed in the morning, I used to sleep in class, I cried a couple times and nobody noticed or cared. (I cried pretty hard too so people must’ve heard me just they prolly just don’t like me enough to ask if I’m okay.) I just want to yell at my mom for forcing me to go to school. I hate how people say “Well, you have to go weather you like it or not.” It’s stupid. I’m never in the mood for school. Other people get to stay home because *theyre* not in the mood for school while I’m never in the mood for it yet I still have to go? Like are you kidding me?! I restrict my breathing because people will think I’m trying to sniff them. I’m not, really. When I listen to music I try not to think in case people around me can hear me. I’m so sick of hearing that stupid planet song every science class. Even when I leave the classroom because it’s too loud I can still hear it. Today my teacher let me leave the class and let me come back when everyone stopped screaming that stupid song. I struggle with sleeping a lot and I stay up late *because* of school. I’ve learned how to control my anger issues because I know I’ll get scolded for it. Why can my mom just understand?? She’s nice, but she barely asks if I’m okay, that’s understandable, because I lie saying, “yes.” When I’m really not okay. I have to go to a birthday party tomorrow. I’m scared I’m gonna be too tired to go. We’re leaving at 2:00pm. So hopefully I’ll get some more sleep, there’s a downside though, I have two hours until my mom has to go to my friends house to drop me off. We’re going to jump LA, but I’m so insecure I suddenly don’t wanna go. (What I mean is I might sleep til 11-12)
i cant feel anything. its like a void in my heart, head, everywhere. i mean, i can feel emotion, but i cant. its sorta like walking on a hollow surface, you wont fall, but theres nothing underneath you. im like that hollow surface. i dont eat, not because i purposely do so, but because i forget. i cant sleep. my head hurts. everything fucking hurts.....
I watch these and just cry, I know all of these tiktok sounds and I hate the fact that the little girl I was who always said "I would never hurt myself, I'm perfect" has just disappeared, and now all I say is "I want to fucking die, I'm only 13 and ugly asf"
8:40 is the most relatable thing ever we don’t get recess anymore in middle school but we had a free period today and I walked in loops by myself watching everyone else with there friends and I would do that at recess my entire childhood because I had no one to play with and no one liked me
Feeling like the world's punching bag lately. Everywhere I turn, it's like I'm invisible or worse, everyone's actively avoiding me. It's like I'm toxic or something. No matter how hard I try to fit in, it's like I'm always on the outside looking in. The loneliness is suffocating, and it's getting worse every day. I don't know what I did to deserve this, but it feels like I'm drowning in a sea of rejection. It's like I'm screaming for help, but no one can hear me. All I want is to feel like I belong somewhere, but it seems like that's too much to ask for.
If nobody has told you recently, I love you and I'm proud of you. You are greater and stronger than you think. I hope things have gotten much better in the past 10 months :)
how is everyone? let it out. i’m here for you.💕 (sorry, forgot to say this but i quit being the therapist friend. Please vent to someone else. I’m so sorry)
I just wanna be ok. I don’t know why I’m like this and I don’t wanna live but I don’t wanna die. I just want it all to stop. I just have to act like I’m happy. I wish it would all just end.
@@artsyblob listen to me, things will get better. You may be at your worst rn, but i promise you things will get much easier. Js hang in there and build self esteem! You don’t have to act happy. Let it out. If you’re truly upset inside, it’s best to let it out. I get you. But you can get through this shit. Stay with me okay?❤️🩹
@@Melon_theLemon120no that’s not it why do people think it’s that😭 for people who have gone through an eating disorder, most likely bulimia or anorexia would get it (I used to have anorexia), drinking water with salt is basically the easiest way to make yourself throw up
i have to wear long sleeves everyday and it gets so hot at school but i know if i take it of ill be the center of attention and everyone will just star and make fun of it so then i do it more and adds more and more stress so i just pass out in class sometimes now and feel light headed a lot
I feel bad for my bsf. She has to deal with her mental health issues as well as mine. I have bpd and she's my favourite person. I hate how bad she has it when I'm having a manic episode. I love her sm and I hate that she has to deal with my shit. I'm so sorry ml x
When I was little it was using home to escape school, now it’s using school to escape home. I hate weekends especially long ones and breaks, (winter, spring, and summer especially). Low key dunno what’d I do without it.. I love everyone in it too. I’m friends with everyone and grew up with everyone there, I know everyone and everyone knows me. Honestly I see my friends as family more than my real family. It’s sad.💞
The fact that I came from schl all smiles and as soon as I stepped in the house I broke down in tears shows allot about me I was also having a mental breakdown but I’m the therapist and the funny one of the group so I went on call acted all happy for them and they didn’t even realise what’s the point
I feel so bad. The friend that ditched me was having family problems and s3Lf h@rm but was clean for a while so I was watching vent videos like this is to understand her and I couldn’t find much but now that she left I notice it like never before.
do you know how hard it is to hear your friend/guy you like joke abt how ugly you are and say he would never date you....all you can do is laugh with him but inside i was crying
Hey luv, how are you tell me about it... Im so proud of you and dont forget it im here for you and im so proud of you i understand how it feels ive been there before and its hard. But im here and i wont judge ill listen to anything you say❤️❤️
I just got kicked out of my physically abusive moms home last month, im fatherless, and now i live with my aunt who has anger issues. Im 90% sure shes gonna kick me out next week when midterm reports come out at school. This is my 12th school and im in grade 9, my last school was a cult. My mom and twin brother live in mexico and have for the last 2 years, it was awful. They have just come bacj to canada to get custody of me bc my mom wants me back. I live in a one bedroom apartment on an air mattress on the floor and my aunt is gone about 5 nights every week. Everyday i go to school worrying that they called child and family services again but also hoping they did. I know how their system works and their gonna ask all my family and family friends to take me before they put me smw else, i have godparents in calgary but the lady graduated from the cults program and her husband is suoer weird around me, i thought i was being dramatic about smt he did to me so i didnt tell anyone but yesterday i told a friend and she said that it was bad and i should tell someone. I cant live with my godparents but idk who else i can live with.
I haven’t eaten in 2 days . Everyone thinks I’m fine . I go to bed hungry , wanting just somthing for my body , but yet I give it nothing. They never ask me if I’m fine , or if I ate . They never take care of me like I do to them. Why can’t my affection be
Yk, I used to be the same. Please know that NOBODY CARES what you look like!! 💕💕 Be a kind hearted person. If you want to lose weight, please don’t starve yourself. It can cause eating disorders and many terrible things. Instead, try to walk daily if you want to loose weight badly. If you don’t want to do exercise just WALK!! I’m. Not in the position to tell you ‘you’re perfect!’ Because I don’t know you personally. But I wish you the best, and please eat something! There are people in the world who love you very much, and will be heartbroken if something bad happens to you. So, even though I’m a stranger on the internet, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! And please use this as a sign to take care of yourself better!! Wish you all the best!! Xxx 💕💕
Hey ml, are you okay? Have you eaten recently? How's your mental health? Please take care of yourself! Starving yourself isn't good. You deserve to be cared about!
My best freind left me because of girls at my school bullying me and her saying we are dating now she won’t sit next to me or talk to me and I watch these videos till 3:00am just bawling my eyes out
I cried at the first one bc when my parents find cuts on my body they get mad at me and grip my tightly and scold me, as if for my friends.. they'd comfort me..
POV: when you’ve been clean for a year, for him(or her). You thought you were finally becoming successful. Then your GPA goes from 3.3 to 3 or 2.8. Then people you thought loved you unconditionally call you a failure and start yelling at you. Memories of childhood abuse resurface from PTSD trigger. And you feel you let everyone you care for (about 7 people for me) down. You failed them. Then realizing you have the fear of failure. You overthink and the tool(s) is tempting. The guilt I had the next day when I showed my lover…. You failed everyone… how could you. The next day your screaming shit about yourself. The self hatred growing bigger.
almost 6 months idk tho i need to talk to someone but i feel like my friends don't wanna hear it and i don't want to make them mentally exhausted with my venting i feel to bad
Hi random person, I love you. I love your hair, eyes, teeth, personality, hands, body (not in a weird way), handwriting, voice, face, nose, I love you. Vent to me. Rant to me. I'll listen, I'll always listen. No matter what. I love you. This is a safe place. no judgement. Just safe place.
My ed is so bad I think I won’t make it over 14. But just thinking about it thinking about how my mum and dad will feel, my dog, I think I’m just overreacting.
Hey! I don't wanna be THAT person, but here I am. I am gonna vent and I'm sorry if this puts a lot on u!! Vent: ok so I'm getting really distant lately from my bsf of 6 years. We go to new middle schools now and shes got her period, new friends, new friend group, she has just moved on. But I've realized that she has moved on for the better. She has found a new me. "Lorelei" I just wanna be Lorelei. She gets to live the life I used to. But better. Lorelei has got everything I don't. Perfect button nose, for stomach, jawline, she's got these amazing eyes and style and I'm stuck with, well, me. I've got a million missing assignments but have the motivation to do them. My teachers. Say they notice I'm crying diff, sadder. It's bc I always have a smile on my face and shit but when u hate ur life and everything Abt urself, it's hard. And I just need a mf break. Bc I'm supposed to be the perfect person. I've always been. I'm the therapist friend, the one who's always here for y with a joke or a sarcastic remark💔 i try so hard, and even then I'm still not enough, good enough, better than Lorelei. Then ya know I'm a straight a student and all the teacher and student love me and shit but that also means I can't break. I have to be good enough. I have to never not laugh smile or crack a joke. If I'm not mailing every second I just I can't. I write stories and I act bc it helps me deal with emotions, but I'm having an identity crisis. I used to have this rlrly close friend a d I was the only one who knew she SH and had suicidal thoughts. That's bc she was in the same position I'm in now. Bc she attempted suicide but failed and I'm like BECOMING her and I'm scared. I really am.I am scared and stressed and don't know what to do. I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY SMILE AND I HATE MY BODY I JUST WANNA DIE DAMMMIT. but I can't die... Bc who will become me? I can't have anyone else live this hell, so I'll live it for them. 🖤
@@lanaforever815 SORRY THIS REPLY IS KINDA LATE- but anyways I’ve definitely gone through situations like that before, either in the past and somewhat currently, so I got some tips: 1. Find new friends. I know it can be hard, but it’s definitely important. Don’t waste your time with people who don’t enjoy your company. It might seem impossible to move on, but you’ll be able to. No one is worth this much of you, and it doesn’t matter how long you’ve known them. But finding new friends is important. Even if they’re only there for a few years, it’s worth it to move on and talk to some new people. 2. Create a routine of some sort. Creating small routines is pretty good way to help someone move on. It helps you create a new sense of normal without having to be thinking about someone all the time. Just small things like when your going to bed, or when you wake up. Even like when you’ll do certain things in your day. It’s kind of difficult to get into a routine mindset, but it’s so worth it. 3. Find hobbies you enjoy. This might just be me, but I find myself basing my personality off others commonly. One of the things I’m doing right now is looking into hobbies that aren’t based off other people. This might work in this context too, so try finding more things you enjoy and can easily do. This will once again help with moving on, as it ties more happy feelings to activities and not others. That’s all the tips I have for now, but I’ll try to keep updating!
military school sucks its harder to have time for anything to let ur emotion out if you do people bullie no matter what even if they see my wrist sometimes
Ways to improve mental health: 1.Be productive, have a busy lifestyle 2. Exercise regularly atleast 15 minutes a day 3.Developing a sense of meaning and purpose in life 4.Be curious and open-minded to new experiences. 5. Visit simple places (whether by yourself or with others) Ways to stop abuse: Let them know their treatment is affecting you. Sometimes try to give references on how they act upon you and ask them if you treated them this way, won't they also be hurt? However if they still don't plan on understanding and they're basically monsters, don't be afraid, call 911 How to stop cutting yourself: 1.Call or text a friend or play with a pet. 2.Make a warm drink, like tea or hot chocolate. 3.Take a shower or bath (make sure there aren't razors nearby). 4.Wrap yourself up in a cozy blanket and listen to soothing music 5.watch a funny show, or read a book. Remember there are many things to live for, they are: 1. Live and achieve your goals 2. Fulfill your dreams 3. Experience the life of being old 4. Learn to live by yourself 5. If you have kids in the future, try to be the best mom someone can ever have and set an example to this world of toxic parenting One last reminder Being kindhearted in this sick world is not a weakness, it's courage. Don't vent your anger out on others despite whatever you're going through. You might say, "Than what about me?" I understand that you don't deserve that AT ALL. However, remember we all are ONE, we have to live altogether. Make "people mistreating you" your biggest life lesson, instead of treating others the way you have been treated, treat others the way THEY want to be treated and set an example for humanity ❤️❤️ (Spread my comment as much as u possibly can)
Edit: Just started different SH types today. I was originally just peeling skin off until I bled with my nails. I was using scissors for a crafts project. I gave in to my intrusive thoughts. 3 cuts on my hand. Now, it's ended with multiple cuts in my hands, wrists, legs, chest, back, ankles, and feet. It's addicting. I can't seem to stop, even though it hurts and it burns. It's just....freeing. It's like I can hurt myself the way I was hurt so many times before, except this time it feels good.
I’ve been losing weight not because I’m insecure not because of a medical condition but because of the fact that I use starvation as a type of SH and then when people tell me they wanna look like me they wanna lose weight as easily it just hurts
i do the same and ppl call me an "attention seeker" and "skinny" and "oh u gotta eat more" etc. im really sorry. jus know that idk who u r but im here for u :)
@@KyeHernandes hey I’m sure you look amazing my friend ! :)
It’s the same for me and my mum thought I was sick and made me get blood tests
I had this friend that influence me to be mean to other's to the point I broke up with my friend since I wanted to be "cool" and I started to talk about how skinny she was but I apologize and I became friends with her. I broke up with my toxic friend
I had this friend that influence me to be mean to other's to the point I broke up with my friend since I wanted to be "cool" and I started to talk about how skinny she was but I apologize and I became friends with her. I broke up with my toxic friend
POV: your best friend wants to end it all but you are secretly struggling with the thoughts too but u don’t want to leave her alone because she needs you and you don’t want to tell her because she’s already going through so much.
I totally feel you. I'm so sorry. Sending love ❤
I feel this so hard it hurts. I don’t know who you are or where you are, but we will get through this together. (If you’ve already gotten through it I’m so proud, but I’m proud of your strength regardless)
be honest, I'd say still make it clear that you're there for her but that you're struggling to, so you'll help how you can, but you might not always be okay to help, so maybe you could give her numbers to call/text or smth like that, like a back up? I'm def no professional tho so up to you
It hurts to even imagine my best friend feeling this way. I love them too much and I hope they never feel this way.
Feel it
1:16
Awe, this persons dad is so sweet… my parents are basically both the mother side, but I’m so happy they’re dad is super supportive❤❤
NANA REFERENCE TOO
@@moidixmoiskisser WHO TF IS NANA
@@-_SunnyDrop_- i think it’s an anime?
@@Kaw4ii.gvtzzz oooh tyyyy!
Im honestly hitting my breaking point. I feel im reaching to an end
I promise it can get better, you will find your purpose, you will find people to live your life with. Please, stay alive for them.
even if it gets worse, itll end up alright no matter what happens theres always going ti be ups and downs in our life but we have to keep moving forward and stick our head up high
@@Obituaryyx what ups? it's all downs... it's all just leading to a bottomless pit of despair. there are no ups in my life. just downs.
i love you.
@@katiehughes1886 ??
I’m 5 days clean from cutting! That’s the longest i have went since I started doing it. :)
I’m so proud of, the start is always the hardest xx
@@RKATED thank you :) that means a lot.
YAYY!! I’m so happy!! How are you doing now?
@@bellabeanart currently 1 month clean! :D
@@Wallpaperfish good job, I’m so proud 🥹
I know people watch these compilations to feel something. And to trigger themselves. I hope you lovely’s get better soon and please remember, it’s not the end
thank you
I mean, I try to get emotion out of me. But I don’t even cry anymore. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Thanks though.
same the mental hospital doesnt even help because im right back here with my mom again.@@baffledbat
oh my god thank god i thought i was attention seeking for trying to set off a trigger😭
@@baffledbat i hope your ok and i have also trying to find out what's wrong with me to bc i can't even cry anymore
1:26 For the people who don’t understand, salt and water makes u thinner
Ohhh ok ty what abt the soap
It also makes u vomit to make u "thinner"
Ohh thank you I was so confused.
oh,, thanks. 🥰new thing,
Also having a huge amount of salt could kill you please don't try it tho
ONE WEEK, IVE BEEN CLEAN FOR ONE WEEK!!!!🎉
Proud of you 🤍
I’m so proud of you ❤ I hope you bet better and the best for you ❤️🩹
Congratulations❤❤❤❤
Good job!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I'm so proud of you!! Keep it going!!
Watching the suicide death number slowly go up is heart shattering 😢
3:37 okay i feel bad but what the fuck are these texts she sent XD
“I’ll let u come inside my 🐱”
THATS WHAT IM SAYING I WAS LOOKING TO SEE IF ANYONE COMMENTED ABOUT IT 😭
@@GCaliCatsame
I’m sorry but like She can stay blocked💀🤚
RIGHT
Crazy how like half of these TikTok’s are about school we should definitely do something to change them…
i love school.. but American school system must be bad. I saw the school lunches there nasty
@youronlyjessy_wessy As an American middle schooler, it is terrible. My school is so mean and a lot of the kids are insecure, including me. I feel like the only person in my school with common sense, I hate it. And they’re are these kids in my school who threaten to kill and hurt lgbtq+ people and furries. And my school doesn’t care about you AT ALL. And ofc the lunch is terrible, they can’t afford crap. That’s why I’ve started not eating their lunch or breakfast. Making me only eating dinner for a whole school year lmao. So yeah, American school systems SUCKKKKK
I was showing my mom that I had goosebumps that hadn’t gone away in like 5 days and accidentally showed her my arm with scars on it. I told her why I didn’t just tell her how I was feeling. I told her that she would just say it was my fault and she told me that my assumption was right, she would’ve just told me it was my fault. Now I’m addicted to sh but just hide it better and wear long sleeved shirts no matter how hot it is. I’m not even afraid of her threats anymore. She told me if she found out I was cutting again the she’d send me to a hospital.
Edit: I’m doing better for anyone reading this, I’ve been meditating and I’ve stopped letting small things get to me. Life goes on and what better comeback can you have other saying you made it? So if you’re going through anything similar to me, just keep pushing, it’s ok to be vulnerable sometimes and it’s not ok to just bottle up everything till you can no longer keep going. Sh is still a problem but time is healing everything. Stay hydrated and spread the love and peace
❤️❤️❤️
Hey, it’s okay. You can always talk to me or a friend. Please don’t sh it’s not good and it’s not worth it. Ik how low life may seem rn but you have to keep on pushing, lmk if you need sm1 to talk to❤️. Your are loved by me and so many other people, you get this just stay strong ✊❤️
I was so sad to read that at first but your edit made me smile, I'm so happy for you and I hope you will continue to heal and feel happy again. ❤
It’s ok no matter what I’m proud of you for making it this far keep pushing yourself you’ll get better soon ily ❤️🩹
hey babes, if you ever feel bad please talk to me. i know maybe you won't feel like it bc no one ever rly wants to vent to a stranger on the internet, but we can js talk.
I went to a hospital for a similar reason about 7 months ago. I was at the first one for 4 days. i was so scared. when I got there, they were so sweet. I lied my way out in four days and the day I got out (friday of october 27th) I went to a school dance. everyone was so nice when i got back, but the next week i was ghosted by every. single. person that i was once friends with or not ever friends with. everyone... hated me. for getting help. so then about two weeks later on november 8th i went back to the hospital. they sent me to the phsychiatric ward a second time, this time i was there for 9 days. every day I called my mom crying to take me home, but now I look back and I had really good experiences and friends from that one. the ward told me that I wouldnt be allowed to leave unless I went to residential... they told me i would be there for at most two weeks. I was there for two months. it gave me so much trauma but it saved me. I started php the day after I was discharged from residential. im crying as im writing this. im sorry you probably dont wanna hear all this. partial hospitalization program (PHP) was for another two and a half months. then i went back to school and after school every day from 4 to 7pm i went to intensive outpatient program (IOP) for about another month and a half before they kicked me out because I relapsed several times on SH and alc. I'm still struggling ofc, but ik people care about me... and I care about you. i dont know you but i care. if you need the hospital, go. it isnt scary. i promise love, dont be scared. life does get better. its a roller coaster.
The fact every night I’ve never cried this hard that I couldn’t breathe for 7 minutes straight
You know you can survive this. I believe in you SO YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF TOO YOU ARE GONNA BE OKAY DEAR
It will be okay. even tho I may not know who you are just remember I’m here for you ❤
I used to watch these event videos and cry myself to sleep that how ugly I was and how no one cared about me but one day I told myself no I need to do something and I’ve been doing really good recently and more happy about myself but there are still people that go through this not loving who you are can’t find the right people but know one day you will have a grateful life if you deserve it and it all will start with loving yourself ❤❤have a good day and do not pls do not think of ending yourself pls I know how it’s like please❤❤
IK it’s school that’s draining me bc when i was in 4th, 5th grade, i sparked up in the morning and i was excited for the day but once i got to middle school? i fcking hate school sm.
Girl in pieces honestly is such a good book though-
Imo it’s kinda overrated
Still good though
just started it. agggtm is even better tho
Loved that book with my whole heart, maybe it's because we understand it, and feel in some way, even if we don't completely relate to it.
The
TW
relapse after 9 months feels disgusting. I’m disgusted with myself
I relapsed today. Its ok. Were ok. Your not alone.
Want to talk about it?
@@SonderMoth09 your so sweet. Thank you. I'm wish you the best of luck on your own journey to getting better. I don't need to talk about it, I just felt like I needed someone to know.
You did amazing tho, 9 months! That’s awesome, bad habits are hard to break. Whether it’s sh or biting your nails. It going to be hard to break, I promise you. It will get better.
I know im late but don’t give up please, you just have to keep going and keep fighting
I'm only now realizing how bad my family situation is. My sister says she 'hates me' everyday when she has a breakdown. My mom always says 'I guess I'm the villain' whenever she's stressed or makes me cry. My dad always fights with my sister and mom and gets very disappointed with me if I get lower than a B and tells me that girls with short hair are ugly and that doing well enough to pass isn't well enough. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. There's no law for when I can move out but I don't have enough money to do so. On top of that I'm bi and go by she/they pronouns but my parents r very transphobic and homophobic so no hopes for coming out. :\
omg im so sorry thats happening to you and i get it when sisters says "i hate you" and when family fights.
Im so sorry you are going thru this pain you dont deserve this pain at all.
I hope things get better for you and I support you.
If you need someone to vent to im here for you.
You are loved, the community is welcoming you with open arms, you are loved ❤️
I’m so sorry for you, it sucks to have unsupportive relatives. Hope u know how others will support u no matter what ❤❤❤
Lowkey me reading that and relating to it all
I just want to say, you're loved by this stranger in the internet. I get how it feels, but just know, I'm here for u :3
real:(
5:15 I was watching this with my sister and grandma I had to walk away because I was going to f**king cry
Fun fact I love school it’s fun, an escape. Sure some days/ most days are shit but it’s better than not knowing what to do, having no one to tell me what todo.. I need that without it I’m a mess, I mess everything up and just get depressed. But when someone tell me something I get happy no matter what. But that also makes people take advantage of me so uh ye. But I love school.
Me too I don't know what the f I'm gonna do after it and I'm so anxious about the future
That’s great
For me its the opposite, since i have really bad social anxiety, every thing i do, i just overthink it and i feel like im just mentally drained now
You’re lucky to have a healthy school environment and I wish I could say the same about me 😢
@@charliedarling268exactly..
Also fellow s+c enjoyer
Vent: I've felt really lonely. I have lots of friends but I just don't think anyone actually cares about my feelings so I just bottle them up. My family belittles me. They constantly tease me. It could be my weight, my looks, what I'm wearing, my behaviour, something I do, my grades, anything. My parents tell me I deserve nothing I have. They have said much worse but I just feel like they'll somehow find this so I don't want to go into detail. If you read this, thank you
heyyy wannna talkk buddy? see buddy ik it may be hard i cant imagine how u feel but bottling up ur feelings is not a way right? we have to express ourseleves if we dont our feelings will burst one day right sweetie im here if u wanna share about it im so sorry ur family says that to you but hear me out okay please try to ignore them distract urself anything and u know right that someday ur gonna move out and live alone a peaceful life in ur dream apartment living ur life and when u reach there u will look back and think damn i really made it and talking about grades? love ik ur doing ur best im so proud of you lets try harder and lets chnge our lives okie? take care of yourself
7:22 when you get mad at they just joke about it calling you a “crybaby” or “dramatic” while saying “are you gonna cry?” Mockingly.
my "friend" keeps bullying me and when i show a little aggressive feeling he calls me a crybaby and it happens every time, should i stop being friends with him?
@@yummynuggetsfryes. Definitely. They aren’t mentally affecting you at all well. Friends should stand with you not against. I hope you do💞
I love school (because then I don't have to struggle with the stress at home)
POV: you want to end it all but can’t ….
3:43 two messages at the end are somthin😅
All of them really
The one I paused on was “god I want you so bad (romantically and sexually too)”
hey thanks for putting this together for us!! thanks for the effort!!❤️
3:42 i am sorry but WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK are those messages 💀
FR LIKE WTH?
Yeah I would have been scared if someone sent me that shit...
“let’s fuck to deftones.” 😐
FR, I WOULDVE BLOCKED THEM TOO
not me scrolling to find someone else that saw it
"I'm a bit jealous of this crocodile. Because he's dead and I'm not" *that hit hard*
My parents found out about my SH and instead of talking to me they just barged into my room took all my ‘sharp’ objects and grounded me and took my phone and stuff
I'm 1 week clean after a bad relapse!
i’m proud of you
You got this, I’m so proud of you
@@charliedarling268 thanks x it’s been 3 months and I’m happier it’s rlly nice boy having to worry abt hiding them xx
I would like to have someone that will lie down with me and hold me. Cuddle with me. Sing to me and comfort me as I cry. And I can cry without stopping and without feeling ashamed or embarrased to be seen crying. And we can just stay like that for ages.
you and me both, buddy. i just want to stay in the longest hug and pause life for a few moments, just to breathe and be free, just a bit.
dude samw
11:43 am I the only one who envys the vents and wants to hidein them but just doesn't know how
1:13 I’m actually jealous of the people that even have a good dad because as much as I might get made fun of for it , I don’t have a dad because he died and that meant my mum became so toxic it’s so hard for me to even stay and that’s why I’m really clingy to my taller friend, she isn’t even older than me but I feel safe when I’m around her
Everyone says I’m over-reacting or “they probably didn’t mean to” about what started all of this. I told my friend about my s/h and it’s like she didn’t care, the next day they just targeted me in some drama, I want to die now more than ever. I feel all they do is team up with me and their little friends that they show all of my texts to.
3:42 can we just.. talk about the texts..?
THATS WHAT IM CONCERNED ABOUT 😭
I was like 😟
Y'know, it's funny that one day years ago I had a really bad day and told myself since that was the first time ever, it wouldn't repeat, but now I can't even stare myself at the mirror without hating myself for how my life's been going because I've turned into someone I promise not to become.
That first one, that hit so freaking hard..
I feel like im allowed to vent here so... 2 years ago, my 18th birthday it was my first time out with my friends at a club! First time drinking and partying i didnt drink much...because i didnt want to ruin the night. At the time i was still trying to figure out my sexuality... i did not know if i was gay or straight at the time but one of my friends said "this place is kinda lame wanna bring your mates back to my place?" This did hurt... for him to say it was lame since i was having the rime of my life but he said hes got better music and lights and sh!t at his place, so me and my friends chilled out there and had a good time! I was going to call my mum to tell her where i was so she would not worry. I ask my friend if theres some where quite to go while i call my mum. He says "yeah! Ill take you to my room" i was cool with this untill we made it into his room and he closed the door with both of us inside... i asked him "what are you doing?" He locked the door and started to beat the sh!t out of me because he over hear/ misheard a conversation i was having with a friend, he thought i came out as gay when i really said was i wasn't sure if i was or not...the worst part of the whole scenario was no one could hear me over the music. Eventually he left me to bleed on the floor and locked me in the room over night. I came home to my mother with a birthday cake as a surprise for yesterday but i never made it home. I was bruised and cut and my dad blamed me for what happened... the fact that you read all of this just shows how a complete stranger would care more about my story then my own father...
I'm so sorry, u did not deserve this and I hope ur doing better❤❤
1:14 really relatable. Like wayy too relatable..
Tip for Sh: wear arm warmers, it covers up most ur cuts
Omg that is a lifesaver, tysm! I'm tired of always wearing long sleeves, since my entire arms are scarred.
Thanks! Ill buy some tomorrow!! 😊
11:27 11:34 showing these to my mum 🥰
@@thapar0131:)
5:44 this too real. School is acc draining.
My friend, I know the darkness can feel overwhelming. But you are not alone. I'm here for you, ready to catch you when you fall. Your storms will pass - they always do. And when the clouds part, your light will shine through once more.
I see your heart, brave one. I know you're still fighting. And I'm so very proud of you. With each step, you're proving how strong you are. Keep going. Brighter days await.
You have a gift for bringing joy to others. Your smile must be magical, making even babies light up. Don't ever doubt how much you matter.
If the sadness starts to drag you down, please talk to me. I'll listen for as long as you need. We'll ride out the darkness together. You deserve to feel whole again - and you will. For now, just focus on holding on. One breath at a time. You've got this. And I've got you.
This made me cry, thank you so much for this, have the best day ever God bless 💓
@@fluffy_ ❤️❤️🥰🥰
Thankyou. so much.
@@teecupofcement Always x. ❤️
P̶O̶V̶: you have a friend who wants to end it all 💔
I am that friend
@-DARCZZ- :(
@@Ixchel711 i'm sorry! 😖
call the suicide health line, please! 🙏🏾
3:22 I relate, I can never get out of bed in the morning, I used to sleep in class, I cried a couple times and nobody noticed or cared. (I cried pretty hard too so people must’ve heard me just they prolly just don’t like me enough to ask if I’m okay.) I just want to yell at my mom for forcing me to go to school. I hate how people say “Well, you have to go weather you like it or not.” It’s stupid. I’m never in the mood for school. Other people get to stay home because *theyre* not in the mood for school while I’m never in the mood for it yet I still have to go? Like are you kidding me?! I restrict my breathing because people will think I’m trying to sniff them. I’m not, really. When I listen to music I try not to think in case people around me can hear me. I’m so sick of hearing that stupid planet song every science class. Even when I leave the classroom because it’s too loud I can still hear it. Today my teacher let me leave the class and let me come back when everyone stopped screaming that stupid song. I struggle with sleeping a lot and I stay up late *because* of school. I’ve learned how to control my anger issues because I know I’ll get scolded for it. Why can my mom just understand?? She’s nice, but she barely asks if I’m okay, that’s understandable, because I lie saying, “yes.” When I’m really not okay. I have to go to a birthday party tomorrow. I’m scared I’m gonna be too tired to go. We’re leaving at 2:00pm. So hopefully I’ll get some more sleep, there’s a downside though, I have two hours until my mom has to go to my friends house to drop me off. We’re going to jump LA, but I’m so insecure I suddenly don’t wanna go. (What I mean is I might sleep til 11-12)
you are l o v e d.
You are enough ❤
OH when I said I suffocate myself I meant I have social anxiety.
Thank you. ♥️
@@Ninjetterfox oh lol! Np tho 🥰
I've been a month clean from SH that streak might end this weekend
U got this. Nope ur doing ok
You got this I’m so proud of you
AHH IM SO PROUD OF YOUUU
got an ad before this where they were telling pick up lines (dirty) as asmr..💀💀
😨
@@KiraJ-ru7ll I forgot about this comment. How dare you remind me 🫵🏻? /j
@@vinniewrites lol
These just keep me alive knowing I ain't alone
i cant feel anything. its like a void in my heart, head, everywhere. i mean, i can feel emotion, but i cant. its sorta like walking on a hollow surface, you wont fall, but theres nothing underneath you. im like that hollow surface. i dont eat, not because i purposely do so, but because i forget. i cant sleep. my head hurts. everything fucking hurts.....
One time I just woke up sobbing, I held in teats for two days straight so the next day I just started crying because nothing was perfect.
Im watching these again...
You know it’s bad when you start watching ‘em again
@@Azrael_Biswas fr
@@Azrael_Biswas yeah.. 😭💀
pov your best friend just died. this is not a pov this happened and i’m hurt and broken from this
I watch these and just cry, I know all of these tiktok sounds and I hate the fact that the little girl I was who always said "I would never hurt myself, I'm perfect" has just disappeared, and now all I say is "I want to fucking die, I'm only 13 and ugly asf"
8:40 is the most relatable thing ever we don’t get recess anymore in middle school but we had a free period today and I walked in loops by myself watching everyone else with there friends and I would do that at recess my entire childhood because I had no one to play with and no one liked me
Aww I’m so sorry to hear/read that. I hope things get better for you and you make some good friends. Proud of you, keep going you’re doing great💞
@@Karamel._.4life Ik im late but thank you so much it really means a lot ❤️
Feeling like the world's punching bag lately. Everywhere I turn, it's like I'm invisible or worse, everyone's actively avoiding me. It's like I'm toxic or something. No matter how hard I try to fit in, it's like I'm always on the outside looking in. The loneliness is suffocating, and it's getting worse every day. I don't know what I did to deserve this, but it feels like I'm drowning in a sea of rejection. It's like I'm screaming for help, but no one can hear me. All I want is to feel like I belong somewhere, but it seems like that's too much to ask for.
If nobody has told you recently, I love you and I'm proud of you. You are greater and stronger than you think. I hope things have gotten much better in the past 10 months :)
@@penelopee0678 wtf we have the same name..
@@penelopee0678 It hasn't gotten better btw. If anything it got a lot worse.
@@BabyGhoulslife woah thats awesome
@@penelopee0678 Ik. I never ,meet anyone with the name Penelope
how is everyone? let it out. i’m here for you.💕
(sorry, forgot to say this but i quit being the therapist friend. Please vent to someone else. I’m so sorry)
I just wanna be ok. I don’t know why I’m like this and I don’t wanna live but I don’t wanna die. I just want it all to stop. I just have to act like I’m happy. I wish it would all just end.
@@artsyblob listen to me, things will get better. You may be at your worst rn, but i promise you things will get much easier. Js hang in there and build self esteem! You don’t have to act happy. Let it out. If you’re truly upset inside, it’s best to let it out. I get you. But you can get through this shit. Stay with me okay?❤️🩹
After a year without cutting been going through a very hard time and trying to distract myself from doing it again
IM HORRIBLE AT COMFORTING PEOPLE 😭
fucking tired
venting
:
water & salt
gum
pencil sharpeners
staples
girl in peices
bracelets
hoodies
im sorry if you can relate.
sorry if this is private but i’ve been hearing a lot about water and salt what does that do
@@zoeandkylieit dehydrates you which can kill you
@@Melon_theLemon120 ohhh i’m sorry
@@Melon_theLemon120no that’s not it why do people think it’s that😭 for people who have gone through an eating disorder, most likely bulimia or anorexia would get it (I used to have anorexia), drinking water with salt is basically the easiest way to make yourself throw up
@@Catlover-yi4cw good to know and sorry for the confusion
That feeling when you don't feel happy but you're not even sure if you want to end it or not
i have to wear long sleeves everyday and it gets so hot at school but i know if i take it of ill be the center of attention and everyone will just star and make fun of it so then i do it more and adds more and more stress so i just pass out in class sometimes now and feel light headed a lot
knowing my best friend ive known since i was little tried k/lling herself alone makes me want to cry and die in a ball
I feel bad for my bsf. She has to deal with her mental health issues as well as mine. I have bpd and she's my favourite person. I hate how bad she has it when I'm having a manic episode. I love her sm and I hate that she has to deal with my shit. I'm so sorry ml x
When I was little it was using home to escape school, now it’s using school to escape home.
I hate weekends especially long ones and breaks, (winter, spring, and summer especially). Low key dunno what’d I do without it.. I love everyone in it too. I’m friends with everyone and grew up with everyone there, I know everyone and everyone knows me. Honestly I see my friends as family more than my real family. It’s sad.💞
all I want is a hug.
And istg i would hug you if i could. ❤️
I wish i could hug you so bad 😭
Sending virtual hugs ❤
*virtual hugs*
🤗 virtual hug
You got this
The fact that I came from schl all smiles and as soon as I stepped in the house I broke down in tears shows allot about me I was also having a mental breakdown but I’m the therapist and the funny one of the group so I went on call acted all happy for them and they didn’t even realise what’s the point
Hey ml, I'm so sorry this happened to you :( Being the therapist friend is pretty draining. If you ever wanna vent, I'm here for you
2:08 I got the book but my mom made me return it because she looked through it- 😀
SAME LIKE UGH
What's it abt? I'm thinking of reading it
I feel so bad. The friend that ditched me was having family problems and s3Lf h@rm but was clean for a while so I was watching vent videos like this is to understand her and I couldn’t find much but now that she left I notice it like never before.
do you know how hard it is to hear your friend/guy you like joke abt how ugly you are and say he would never date you....all you can do is laugh with him but inside i was crying
Is it getting worse for anyone else in 2024 too?
Thought I clicked this for the first time. But I’ve liked it already…poor kid
2:35 why was that funny 💀
I can’t even cry anymore I’m just numb…😐
Hey guys, if you need someone to talk to i'll be here for you. Vent away
I'm three weeks clean. Before that i was two months clean. Why did no-one tell me how hard life is.
Hey luv, how are you tell me about it... Im so proud of you and dont forget it im here for you and im so proud of you i understand how it feels ive been there before and its hard. But im here and i wont judge ill listen to anything you say❤️❤️
@@NiceeLaylaa Thanks. Life is kinda up and down right now. Like, one day I'm great and then the next I'm not.
1:14 The "YoU wErE bOrN a gIrL. kIdS tHeSe dAys wItH tHeIr sTuPiD lAbEls" Is literally my entire family..
EXACTLYY
I just got kicked out of my physically abusive moms home last month, im fatherless, and now i live with my aunt who has anger issues. Im 90% sure shes gonna kick me out next week when midterm reports come out at school. This is my 12th school and im in grade 9, my last school was a cult. My mom and twin brother live in mexico and have for the last 2 years, it was awful. They have just come bacj to canada to get custody of me bc my mom wants me back. I live in a one bedroom apartment on an air mattress on the floor and my aunt is gone about 5 nights every week. Everyday i go to school worrying that they called child and family services again but also hoping they did. I know how their system works and their gonna ask all my family and family friends to take me before they put me smw else, i have godparents in calgary but the lady graduated from the cults program and her husband is suoer weird around me, i thought i was being dramatic about smt he did to me so i didnt tell anyone but yesterday i told a friend and she said that it was bad and i should tell someone. I cant live with my godparents but idk who else i can live with.
4:20 song is hurt me by juice wrld
I haven’t eaten in 2 days . Everyone thinks I’m fine .
I go to bed hungry , wanting just somthing for my body , but yet I give it nothing.
They never ask me if I’m fine , or if I ate . They never take care of me like I do to them.
Why can’t my affection be
Yk, I used to be the same. Please know that NOBODY CARES what you look like!! 💕💕
Be a kind hearted person. If you want to lose weight, please don’t starve yourself. It can cause eating disorders and many terrible things.
Instead, try to walk daily if you want to loose weight badly. If you don’t want to do exercise just WALK!!
I’m. Not in the position to tell you ‘you’re perfect!’ Because I don’t know you personally. But I wish you the best, and please eat something! There are people in the world who love you very much, and will be heartbroken if something bad happens to you.
So, even though I’m a stranger on the internet, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! And please use this as a sign to take care of yourself better!!
Wish you all the best!! Xxx 💕💕
Hey ml, are you okay? Have you eaten recently? How's your mental health?
Please take care of yourself! Starving yourself isn't good. You deserve to be cared about!
If anyone needs to vent I’m here for you, I’ll try to comfort you anyway I can!😭
Im 1 week clean...
My best freind left me because of girls at my school bullying me and her saying we are dating now she won’t sit next to me or talk to me and I watch these videos till 3:00am just bawling my eyes out
(me finally feeling better with my body). *faints* *realizes than I genuinely haven’t eaten in a week.*
cut while watching this. thx
I cried at the first one bc when my parents find cuts on my body they get mad at me and grip my tightly and scold me, as if for my friends.. they'd comfort me..
Someone told me I was loud lmao 🙂🥲😞😔☹😢
It burns. It burns so much. I don’t even know what to think of myself anymore.
POV: when you’ve been clean for a year, for him(or her). You thought you were finally becoming successful.
Then your GPA goes from 3.3 to 3 or 2.8. Then people you thought loved you unconditionally call you a failure and start yelling at you. Memories of childhood abuse resurface from PTSD trigger. And you feel you let everyone you care for (about 7 people for me) down. You failed them. Then realizing you have the fear of failure. You overthink and the tool(s) is tempting. The guilt I had the next day when I showed my lover…. You failed everyone… how could you.
The next day your screaming shit about yourself. The self hatred growing bigger.
POV: you heard your family all talking bad about u even tho they knew you were siting right
1:35 say goodbye
?
almost 6 months idk tho i need to talk to someone but i feel like my friends don't wanna hear it and i don't want to make them mentally exhausted with my venting i feel to bad
Hi random person,
I love you.
I love your hair, eyes, teeth, personality, hands, body (not in a weird way), handwriting, voice, face, nose, I love you. Vent to me. Rant to me. I'll listen, I'll always listen. No matter what. I love you. This is a safe place. no judgement. Just safe place.
8:40 I used to do this all my elementary years 😢😞
I cut myself and I don’t really know why, for some reason it kinda feels nice and I don’t wanna get sent somewhere....
The crocodile one made me cry “because he’s dead and I’m not” 😭😭
being an only child hurts so much😂
I know I relate but just work through it u can vent here I am there for you whenever
1:17 it’s sad that both my parents act like the mom side 😟
My ed is so bad I think I won’t make it over 14. But just thinking about it thinking about how my mum and dad will feel, my dog, I think I’m just overreacting.
im 15.. im thinking abt not making it to 18 i had od 2 weeks back.. now the cuts are worse.. now im writing letters
been clean 6 months nd 12 days proud of myself
Congratulations you are doing great I’m so happy for you. Keep going ❤❤
Hey, how’s everyone feeling? Feel free to vent under this and i’ll try to respond with my best efforts!^^
Hey! I don't wanna be THAT person, but here I am. I am gonna vent and I'm sorry if this puts a lot on u!!
Vent: ok so I'm getting really distant lately from my bsf of 6 years. We go to new middle schools now and shes got her period, new friends, new friend group, she has just moved on. But I've realized that she has moved on for the better. She has found a new me. "Lorelei" I just wanna be Lorelei. She gets to live the life I used to. But better. Lorelei has got everything I don't. Perfect button nose, for stomach, jawline, she's got these amazing eyes and style and I'm stuck with, well, me. I've got a million missing assignments but have the motivation to do them. My teachers. Say they notice I'm crying diff, sadder. It's bc I always have a smile on my face and shit but when u hate ur life and everything Abt urself, it's hard. And I just need a mf break. Bc I'm supposed to be the perfect person. I've always been. I'm the therapist friend, the one who's always here for y with a joke or a sarcastic remark💔 i try so hard, and even then I'm still not enough, good enough, better than Lorelei. Then ya know I'm a straight a student and all the teacher and student love me and shit but that also means I can't break. I have to be good enough. I have to never not laugh smile or crack a joke. If I'm not mailing every second I just I can't. I write stories and I act bc it helps me deal with emotions, but I'm having an identity crisis. I used to have this rlrly close friend a d I was the only one who knew she SH and had suicidal thoughts. That's bc she was in the same position I'm in now. Bc she attempted suicide but failed and I'm like BECOMING her and I'm scared. I really am.I am scared and stressed and don't know what to do. I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY SMILE AND I HATE MY BODY I JUST WANNA DIE DAMMMIT. but I can't die... Bc who will become me? I can't have anyone else live this hell, so I'll live it for them. 🖤
@@lanaforever815 SORRY THIS REPLY IS KINDA LATE- but anyways I’ve definitely gone through situations like that before, either in the past and somewhat currently, so I got some tips: 1. Find new friends. I know it can be hard, but it’s definitely important. Don’t waste your time with people who don’t enjoy your company. It might seem impossible to move on, but you’ll be able to. No one is worth this much of you, and it doesn’t matter how long you’ve known them. But finding new friends is important. Even if they’re only there for a few years, it’s worth it to move on and talk to some new people. 2. Create a routine of some sort. Creating small routines is pretty good way to help someone move on. It helps you create a new sense of normal without having to be thinking about someone all the time. Just small things like when your going to bed, or when you wake up. Even like when you’ll do certain things in your day. It’s kind of difficult to get into a routine mindset, but it’s so worth it. 3. Find hobbies you enjoy. This might just be me, but I find myself basing my personality off others commonly. One of the things I’m doing right now is looking into hobbies that aren’t based off other people. This might work in this context too, so try finding more things you enjoy and can easily do. This will once again help with moving on, as it ties more happy feelings to activities and not others. That’s all the tips I have for now, but I’ll try to keep updating!
I’m just going numb for no reason
military school sucks its harder to have time for anything to let ur emotion out if you do people bullie no matter what even if they see my wrist sometimes
4:15 I quit it cuz of this plus my dad threatened me that he would eat me to dead 💀
Ways to improve mental health:
1.Be productive, have a busy lifestyle
2. Exercise regularly atleast 15 minutes a day
3.Developing a sense of meaning and purpose in life
4.Be curious and open-minded to new experiences.
5. Visit simple places (whether by yourself or with others)
Ways to stop abuse:
Let them know their treatment is affecting you. Sometimes try to give references on how they act upon you and ask them if you treated them this way, won't they also be hurt? However if they still don't plan on understanding and they're basically monsters, don't be afraid, call 911
How to stop cutting yourself:
1.Call or text a friend or play with a pet.
2.Make a warm drink, like tea or hot chocolate.
3.Take a shower or bath (make sure there aren't razors nearby).
4.Wrap yourself up in a cozy blanket and listen to soothing music
5.watch a funny show, or read a book.
Remember there are many things to live for, they are:
1. Live and achieve your goals
2. Fulfill your dreams
3. Experience the life of being old
4. Learn to live by yourself
5. If you have kids in the future, try to be the best mom someone can ever have and set an example to this world of toxic parenting
One last reminder
Being kindhearted in this sick world is not a weakness, it's courage. Don't vent your anger out on others despite whatever you're going through. You might say,
"Than what about me?"
I understand that you don't deserve that AT ALL. However, remember we all are ONE, we have to live altogether. Make "people mistreating you" your biggest life lesson, instead of treating others the way you have been treated, treat others the way THEY want to be treated and set an example for humanity ❤️❤️
(Spread my comment as much as u possibly can)
can someone tell me what the last one means Abt the soap? please?
That's what I'm trying to figure out too.
10:08 extremely relatable
...
I relate to all of this...
Edit: Just started different SH types today. I was originally just peeling skin off until I bled with my nails. I was using scissors for a crafts project. I gave in to my intrusive thoughts. 3 cuts on my hand. Now, it's ended with multiple cuts in my hands, wrists, legs, chest, back, ankles, and feet. It's addicting. I can't seem to stop, even though it hurts and it burns. It's just....freeing. It's like I can hurt myself the way I was hurt so many times before, except this time it feels good.