2:08 My band teacher when i was in middle school was amazing. He always made time for our questions and was really sweet. Everybody loved him. He was better than my dad will ever be.
Little sister living like an older sister is to real, most of these vents are so true to me and tbh life kinda stinks rn and it’s been like that ever since covid broke out.
for real, i swear to u, all my siblings call me: YOUR SO F*CKING SPOILED!? whenever i just dont wanna help them for once. then when i start crying because if stress the only one i can call is my older sister, if i tell my mom, lifes just worse cause she then will tell everyone. i love my dad, and older sister. my oldest sister , my brother, and mom just don’t love me. 10+ ruined my life.
@@staryneptun3 I’m the oldest but my siblings are so spoiled.. like they get everything I want.. and my 7yo sister has and iPhone 14.. I only have a 12. I mean I’m grateful.. but not too my parents..
I will think abt being a parent but i have a fear that they will ended up just like their mother was when she was young i dont want them to be like me.
That one about feeling uncomfortable with the way your dad touches you… I felt that, DEEP. One day I was in the kitchen, my mood already bad because I was doing something I hate when he suddenly came up from behind to hug me. I told him to “stop it” or “knock it off” multiple times, but he didn’t. Then suddenly I felt his hand in the back pocket of my pants so, on instinct, I elbowed him in the stomach. He scolded me for it and when I tried to explain my POV or why I didn’t find it okay for him to just do that it escalated into basically everyone around me trying to tell me my father was right. They’re trying to tell me I “shouldn’t have yelled at him like that” or he’s my “father, he wouldn’t ever do anything like that to his kids” and that I “overreacted”. Since then (a year ago) I never really dared to voice my likes or dislikes because I’m scared it might escalate again… I truly hate it…
I'm the oldest I'm the third parent. I've changed diapers, made bottles, cleaned shit off the wall, kissed their scraped knees and stayed up at night until they feel asleep ever since I was 7.
Been there.. but hey, I didn't do all that, I was still a "kid" myself... And I'm sure thats why my siblings called me mom for a period of time before I stopped hanging around as much.
Same but I’m the youngest so I haven’t needed to do diapers and shit off the wall 😅 My parents arnt really around so I have to take care of my older brother but when my parents are home they yell and scream and have a temper and this happened ever since I started year 1
My anxiety is so bad. I never had anxiety attacks but always have panic attacks. The panic attacks can be so bad to the fact that I'm violently shaking over a small thing. One of my panic attacks was so bad I almost fainted.
I grew up in a family where I had to defend myself growing up, well I never really defended myself i just stood there and listened to them screaming at me and I just let my tears fall. and I think 'why do my parents never defend me?' and I get angry at myself for not defending myself. I didn't defend myself when I was called a crybaby not even when someone almost pushed me in a garbage bin. and that whenever someone screams at me i always think 'im so pathetic why do I let my tears flow out like that?'. Today when my dad was screaming at me, they escaped, my tears and my dad started going on about how much of a useless kid I am and if I could actually fall down on my knees and cry yea... That shit hurt. I didn't fall down tho I just kept standing as my tears fall down from my cheeks, my mom was right there and then it hit me 'why do my parents never defend me?' , my mom tried to stop my dad but my dad said that my mom knows nothing and she's stupid to take my side, yea then my mum shut up. Why doesn't anyone stand up for me?
@@kuromisanuwuhey! you aren’t useless and I can’t relate to this situation, but I want you to know that someday it will get better and you’ll be okay. ❤ You aren’t a crybaby you have every right to cry.
I recently moved to another country and I was doing great with the label “new kid” because everyone was interested in me and listened to the things I say and wanted to be friends. The fame faded away over time and people started forgetting about me. I never made friends that talked to me other than asking me to draw something or teach them English. At one point I got bullied and then got told it was “just a joke” and the girl expected me to be her friend after shaving away at my mental health for 4 months. Now I “have it figured out” but I just sit at my desk drawing every lunch break. Kinda lonely and miss my friends
Vent here❤❤❤ i love you guys. Not sexually I vented to my sis she talked to me didnt tell no one and it cured my depression and now im one month clean .I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!❤
For anyone who needs to hear this: I love your hair or your lack of I love your forehead I love your eyebrows I love your eyelashes I love your eyes I love your ears I love your nose I love your cheeks I love your mouth I love your laugh I love your teeth I love your chin I love your neck I love your shoulders I love your chest I love your arms I love your hands I love your tummy I love your hips I love your thighs I love your knees I love your shins I love your feet (not in that way.) I love your moles/marks I love your scars I love your voice I love what you do I love your personality I love you on your good days I love you on your bad days I love you when you when you wear makeup I love you when you don’t wear makeup. I love your skin I love you when you’re sad I love you when you’re mad I love you when you’re happy I love you when you hate me I love you when you love me I love you when you forget me I’m proud of you for getting some sleep I’m proud of you for trying to sleep I’m proud of you for waking up I’m proud of you for getting up I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth I proud of you for tending toward your braces I’m proud of you for doing your hair I’m proud of you for washing your face I’m proud of you for doing skin care I love you for doing your makeup (if you wear it) I’m proud of you that you got out of your room I’m proud of you for getting dressed I’m proud of you for eating breakfast I’m proud of you for being clean I’m proud of you for trying to be clean I’m proud of you for being alive I’m proud of you for being a good friend I’m proud of you for trying to be I good friend I won’t judge you for your looks I won’t judge you from your race I won’t judge you for your life I won’t judge you for your family I won’t judge you for your past/childhood I won’t judge you for your body I won’t judge you for your tears I wont judge you for your age I won’t judge you for your sexual orientation I wont judge you for your gender I wont judge you for your money I won’t judge you for where you come from I won’t judge you for your language You aren’t ugly You aren’t too fat You aren’t too skinny You aren’t annoying You aren’t mean You aren’t evil You aren’t crazy You aren’t weird You aren’t worthless You aren’t scary You aren’t selfish You aren’t too feminine You aren’t too masculine You aren’t too young You aren’t too old You aren’t disgusting You aren’t a doormat You aren’t a toy You aren’t a monster You are beautiful You are pretty You are handsome You are kind You are cool You are everything you want to be You aren’t perfect, nobody is, but you are perfect in my eyes I wont judge you for anything Im so proud of you I love you. ❤ (Btw I didn't write this. Feel free to copy and paste this onto another video :D)
I’m always crying and night sm. Listening to these TikToks bc I relate so bad and my grandpa died when I was 6 and my grandma just died Thursday this week. Then my aunt passed a couple months before.
Sometimes the teachers don’t make it any better sometimes it’s just music that zones them out and gives them peace and quiet and makes them feel like they’re free family issues and my mother and father always fight not like physically word like I didn’t know it could mess u up and make you scared whenever someone raises their voice and I get it because every time I yell or my parents yell at them, I flinch and think there yelling at me and it’s mentally fucked me up
that feeling when your best friend made plans with someone else and you think “why does my life surround them and depend on them ALL the time and all they can say is ‘my parents think you’re my only friend, like ofc not’” so you see them and you just end up rotting in your room, always being called the lazy, stupid child. before, my best friend and i got invited to the mall and she didn’t have a ride. i offered. one of the people didn’t know me and i was just introduced as “the neighbor”. the rest of the day just felt…. different.
when I do have school, I do get anxiety attacks a lotttt.... but I don't have many friends that know about it; when I get anxiety attacks I crack my fingers, bite my lips, shake my leg, look around weirdly. so many things. but only on or two people know how to help me with it and I love them so much for that!
i’m the oldest child. i always get yelled at for everything and i do al the work around the house and my sisters say i’m so spoiled. i cuddled them to bed and sang lullabies when my parents fought. i made sure they had a better childhood than i ever did. i comforted them after they got hit. i did everything i could for them. and it hurts to see your parents say “i raised you well” when your sister does something but the problem is they didn’t raise them. you did.
And also is life like switched for me bc my mom is the nice and had a HORRIBLE CHILDHOOD and my dad...idk he nice 50%of the time and I love him but he's mean..
me and my best friend were really close over the summer, we had sleepovers and hung out 24/7. now were in 6th grade and we've been really distant, when I talk to her, another one of our friends come and she walks away. i wish it could go back to normal. I want to have a relationship with god but ik ive say bad stuff and have had intrusive thoughts but...hes the only one who cares anymore, except for my boyfriend which my dad won't even let me have and gets mad whenever I talk about him. i wish i was pretty like her...maybe theyd like me better.?
I'm jealous of little girls at the park the way the laugh giggle and play with their dad's its not fair how come they get to have a nice dad and I didn't and now he wants to be one he was always there but never there emotionally or mentally I Hate My Dad
im in the same situation. I just crie to myself all the time and ask myself why i can't have a "dad joke" type of dad. Like all my friends get and how much there dads just have pure love for them like that. Mine loves drugs, alchohal, and gambling.
One time, I got in trouble in a class specifically with a male teacher. Keep in mind that he’s really tall, has a deep voice, and could probably make someone cry if he yelled hard enough. My dad is also really tall and has a deep voice, when I got in trouble my parents would yell at me and now I hate when I get in trouble cause I think the same thing would happen aka me getting in trouble and/or getting spanked. My parents say that they “dont” abuse me. Apart of me believes them, and the other doesn’t. If your Mexican you’ll know that stupid is a cuss word in Spanish (or I have just been told that as a lie) but anyways I said my sister called me stupid and my dad got mad at me for saying it. He did the classic yelling at me and it scared me so badly I started ugly crying (I was like 6-8 years old and I never knew that it was a cuss word in Spanish) my dad marches to my room and as I’m crying there my dad forcefully turns me over and starts spanking me. Now every time I say stupid I think I’m gonna get spanked again. I want to run away, I want to scream, I want to cry, but I know if I tell them my feelings it will never go well..
For me it wasn't the English teacher it was my math teacher she was amazing. She always was excited to see me and always talked to me and actually cared. She was the only person who noticed how bad it got.I love her.
2:11 My 5th period science teacher would always tell me he was proud that i did good on quizzes/tests bc i used to fail his class and i cried every time in the bathroom when i leave to go to 6th period bc my dad would beat me if he knew i was failing yet my science teacher js encouraged me even when i was failing and he was prob the reason i enjoy school more now (i hate every other period except his)
I get yelled everyday by my family "oh your suppose to be a better a *perfect* sister! You don't have a right to be bi or like with so much black you don't have anxiety , we do love you!" . ..that's my life I have...anger issues, social anxiety, trust, depression, SH, ADHD , autism ...yet i ...was slapped by my own mother at 7\, been bullied since I came to school now high school , I tell my grandpa not to slap me but I cant protect myself I want my siblings not to die when they grow up like me I will do it but I want their life a better not ruined crapy childhood I'm 15 yet I'm broken like hell yet I smile And make jokes to hide my pain that I'v always had.
Nothing's as great as parents who don't believe in mental health issues bc it's always the phones or the friends, it's always the bed or the boyfriend or literally anything else they could say to keep from admitting that somewhere along the line they fucked up.
7:11 I am in 2 AP classes and I know for a fact I’m the dumbest in them. I’m too smart for the normal kids, too dumb for the smart kids. The suckiest part is I’m a “Gifted and Talented” kid. This means that I can do the work correctly, but I can’t see it the same as others do. Like a dumber child prodigy. Another sucky part is I struggle with my mental health because I have BPD and Bipolar, making everything so sucky. I don’t know if I can do it anymore but I need to stay on earth. If J asks me if I’m okay again tomorrow idk what I’ll do because she can’t know the truth abt me struggling. I also can’t handle opening up to anyone because of the trust issues I gained from my parents. I hate it.
2:34 yk, my parend are divoresed bc of me, my dad told me, all the fights they had all the getting mad at me was my foult, my brother is now sad. and they made my dark circle of depression even bigger
8:02 i can relate because whenever i tell my parents that i hate talking to people, they keep on telling me that "you need to stop complaining and deal with it." They dont understand that its not easy to make friends in middle school. (I FUCKING hate 7th grade.)
15:56 is horrifying im so sorry for all of these people i hope you are having a wonderful day/night i hope you are feeling well and if you aren't that's totally fine i hope you have eaten/drank anything and if you tried im so proud of you i hope you feel loved and if not im here for you i hope you dont hurt yourself but if you do its ok i hope you have something to make you feel comfortable i hope you are safe i hope you are able to take care of yourself i hope you have someone to talk to i hope you can get through this and i love you all❤❤🩹
We’re all mentally ill. Even my friend, who has what most people think is the perfect life, struggles. Everyone is nice to her, which in retrospect, seems amazing, right? Well, even the jerks, the creeps, the kids who try to *touch* the other girls, act nice to her. She doesn’t know who to be friends with. She doesn’t know what to do.
For anyone who needs to hear this: I love your hair I love your forehead I love your eyebrows I love your eyelashes I love your eyes I love your ears I love your nose I love your cheeks I love your mouth I love your laugh I love your teeth I love your chin I love your neck I love your shoulders I love your chest I love your arms I love your hands I love your tummy I love your hips I love your thighs I love your knees I love your shins I love your stretch marks I love your feet (not in that way.) I love your moles/marks I love your scars I love your voice I love what you do I love your personality I love you on your good days I love you on your bad days I love you when you when you wear makeup I love you when you don’t wear makeup. I love your skin I love you when you’re sad I love you when you’re mad I love you when you’re happy I love you when you hate me I love you when you love me I love you when you forget me I’m proud of you for getting some sleep I’m proud of you for trying to sleep I’m proud of you for waking up I’m proud of you for getting up I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth I proud of you for tending toward your braces I’m proud of you for doing your hair I’m proud of you for washing your face I’m proud of you for doing skin care I love you for doing your makeup (if you wear it) I’m proud of you that you got out of your room I’m proud of you for getting dressed I’m proud of you for eating breakfast I’m proud of you for being clean I’m proud of you for trying to be clean I’m proud of you for being alive I’m proud of you for being a good friend I’m proud of you for trying to be I good friend I won’t judge you for your looks I won’t judge you from your race I won’t judge you for your life I won’t judge you for your family I won’t judge you for your past/childhood I won’t judge you for your body I won’t judge you for your tears I wont judge you for your age I won’t judge you for your sexual orientation I wont judge you for your gender I wont judge you for your money I won’t judge you for where you come from I won’t judge you for your language You aren’t ugly You aren’t too fat You aren’t too skinny You aren’t annoying You aren’t mean You aren’t evil You aren’t crazy You aren’t weird You aren’t worthless You aren’t scary You aren’t selfish You aren’t too feminine You aren’t too masculine You aren’t too young You aren’t too old You aren’t disgusting You aren’t a doormat You aren’t a toy You aren’t a monster You are beautiful You are pretty You are handsome You are kind You are cool You are everything you want to be You aren’t perfect, nobody is, but you are perfect in my eyes I wont judge you for anything Im so proud of you I love you. (Btw I copy and pasted this so feel free to do the same. :D)
7:26 one time on the bus this kid was calling me and all my friends fat (which i am very very very insecure about along with my other friend) and i was in a horrible mood when i got home and my mom made it worse because she was being rude, and she asked "why are you in such a bad mood?" i explained the whole story and she didnt care.
2:33 its how my dad and dad's wife make me feel because one time they told me I was a mistake to the family and that I was fucking born a failure (IM NOT FUCKING JOKING THIS WAS MY CHILDHOOD AND IT IS STILL HAPPENING)
As a younger sibling, its so unfair. Everyone just assumes you have it better. Like NO you don't know the house hold or what they're going through, I cook dinner, I clean the house, I wash dishes, I wake my older sister up for school, my room stays spotlessly clean, while my older sisters room is dirty, she never does chores with me, and whenever I'm doing this stuff she's sitting on her phone laughing at RUclips shorts, or hanging out with her friends. Its so unfair. Stop assuming house holds, not saying older siblings don't got through the same thing, I'm saying that its different for everyone.
I always say to my friends and family nothings wrong but then when I’m alone or at school and I start having that throat thing I start with a panic attack
When enjoying school turns into having no motivation. Going about your day turns into holding back tears. A regular meal turns into packets of gum. Talking to friends turns into sitting silently in the corner. Feeling proud turns into feeling useless. Not wanting to sleep turns into just wanting to close your eyes and escape reality. Showering every day turns into neglecting personal hygiene. Feeling happy turns into feeling alone. I’m sorry if you relate. Somebody out there cares more than you could ever imagine, one day this will be over and life will be great again. ❤❤
When you were picky as a child and had mental breakdowns in the middle of dinner after being forced to eat something I don’t like. Being videoed of my mental breakdown in front of my whole family, trapped in the kitchen no way out getting yelled at. And going to a thing called “food school” were i would try new things. “Why do you eat everything in food school but not any wear else”- parents. maybe cause I can cry in front of you, have mental breakdowns, scream break things use my anger issues to help me some how. but not in front of our random group of strangers. And the fact to videoed it and make the 3 “teachers” and the other kids watch it. I’m literally a teenager. I can’t wear makeup. “Don’t blame your mood on yr period yr fine just take some pepto or whatever” do don’t say your toe hurts if you just stubbed it real hard because i know your faking it just like im faking my SH. I can’t even trust anyone besides my friends. Because i know my therapist will tell you everything I’ve said my friends are now my therapist. Thank for being ther. Oh wait never mind you weren’t. And now because of you im stuck to my friends so much. “It’s the middle of summer you can’t wear long sleeves, no hoodie, no sweatpants. It 98 degrees outside” thanks for you hoodie and extra pants Annalise. I’m sorry i fell in love with you. Those were almost my last words. I’m so glad they weren’t because if it wasn’t for you my dad would be freaking out wondering you made me kill myself. Sorry dad, uno reverse. If im dead it’s because of you. I am having to much anxiety and ptsd rn. I don’t feeling good sorry about all the mistakes. My hands are very Shakey and i just feeling like cutting. Ty for reading this all, ilysm Annalise have a good day!
Ever since I turned 10 me and my mom never agreed on and she hates the sound of crying so I have learned to cry in silence today is the first day I have cried with my full voice but I was talking to someone and they made me realize how my mom sees me as a burden or as her kid and why should I be quiet if she is the one who made me cry and she thinks my silent cry are crocodile tears bc of how much I cry😁☝️
I've always been the therapist friend. I've struggled for the past few years bc my uncle (very important to me) khs, the next weekend my childhood friend SA'd me and tried to rape me, then my nana died, my life went downhill for years, finally got better And I was proud... I thought I was free and then I lost my BFF and my life started falling apart, it's all gotten too much to handle and I haven't told anyone how I'm really thinking. I've been thinking of ending it all. I had a plan and I was supposed to be gone on my 16th birthday but I stuck around to chance it... I wish I hadn't. I don't want to leave but it's too much. I'm tired of never being heard unless it's what they want said, I'm tired of being ignored, rejected, outcast, different, ugly, fat. I want the good life. I want my parents to love each other or respect each other, I want ppl to love me for me, I want ppl to know my pain and I don't want to hide it anymore but they don't HEAR ME. They don't even see me. I've been thinking about it a lot and I've been considering ending it soon but I'm scared. But I feel like I'm not supposed to be here, I don't want to exist after high school, I don't want to grow up. I missed my childhood, I didn't even get one, it's not fair. I can't grow up this fast, what about my dreams?? What about my feelings? I've been lost and for the first time in years, someone saw me. They actually saw me, and now everyone can see me. I feel embarrassed and pathetic.. My new bus driver opened up to me one day and we gradually started talking and after I lost my BFF, I went into a self isolation. I cut off my other friends and even avoided my favorite places bc I couldn't think. My bus driver noticed. He saw me and he reached out. It was like he could see and feel all my pain. He's so nice to me and he's always talking to me. And ever since he first spoke to me about my personal life, all my teachers and friends have gotten interested too. It makes me feel upset. I feel like everyone is pitying me, idk if I'm ugly or just pathetic. And anytime someone compliments me or my work, I still feel unappreciated and not good enough, I feel like I don't deserve the compliments but I deserve more recognition. I feel a deep sense of unease and confusion, I never know what's going on. My emotions are so out of place and nothing is helping it. But the moment he saw me, I felt my world shatter. He told me things, complimented me, he made me feel like I could finally breathe and i appreciate him so much for that... I'm so fucking messed up. I don't deserve the life I have or the air I breathe. I'm tired of hating myself and loving myself all the time, it never lasts and I truly resent myself. I wish I was better.
None of my friends really like me. I’m always they’re for them but I can never tell them I’m struggling too, they just don’t care about me. I try my hardest to be the best person I can be for them because I want to help. One of my friends I was theyre every step of the way helping the when they were doing SH. Always defending her telling her to call me or text me when she felt like she would do it. Reminding her I’m here for her and typing a the longest essay. She posted something about her “best friend” she met 2 weeks ago. And it said she was the reason she’s still they’re but the girl she had just met didn’t even know what was going on. I just feel really alone. The one time my friend invited me on vacation, my other friend got mad. She said, “me and ______ are closer, why did she pick you.” To my face, she also said, “I’m gonna be really mad at you and hold a grudge against you for a long time” anyway, she’s good with the friend that invited me but she has had me blocked for 3 weeks and ignored me. She also tells people all my secrets and makes up the past trauma she said she had about other girls. And lies constantly to me. I don’t if I can keep doing this. If anyone has gone through please help.
I just found out a girl from my class who used to be my best friend is talking shit about me behind my back. We arent even friends anymore and we drifted apart and after all the times I used to forgive her she just kept doing it. And even now that I thought she had changed and I finally felt good that even though we werent friends we thought about eachother as good people. What the fuck did I do for her to treat me like that REPEATEDLY. And it's not just me. They talk worse about my current best friend. She used to be bullied at school and she is insecure about people leaving her. I feel like im the only one who understands her and I love her very much. What did she ever do to them? They talk shit about her and she just tries so hard to be kind to everyone and feel good enough. So why the fuck are those girls (my ex bff and another friend I used to have) doing this to us? Why are they being fake and pretend to be nice to us? And even though I should be the one doing that to her from all the shit she used to do to me. But I kept forgiving her. So what gives her the right to treat us like that when WE should be the ones being bitches towards her? I feel like shit because I don't understand why people can be so cruel for no fucking reason. Maybe because she is blonde with blue eyes and just thinks she is better than us so she can be mean. Okay we may not be as pretty as her but just please stop giving me a hard time when you are not even a part of my life. Mind your own shit. Edit: I just realised how long this is and I'm really sorry if you read all that
10:56 bro why is that so trueee my mother is like “when I was 10 I stoped crying” like bro YOU KICKED ME TO THE GODAMN FLOOR FROM THE MF STAIRS Edit: even tho she is never really here anymore and treats me like shit I’ll still love her, and that is my toxic trait, loving people who hate me😐🙂↕️
The fact that I trained myself to cry only out of one eye to hide it then be silent about it for 11 years and this is the first time saying anything about it……. :/
who else is living off of these videos?
me 100%
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Nah, I recently QUIT. just back to it again.
Me.
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I will never understand why the strangers in the comment sections of these playlists are more supportive than our parents
Same. I'll take it though. It's been a while since anybody at least pretended to know me enough to try. :)
@IndigoCrow-s3k I'm so sorry ml, I hope your okay and stop watching theses. I hope you get better ❤
I know, people on the Internet are more understanding then anyone :/ it's so sad. I hope your ok tho! ❤
Same:)
2:08 My band teacher when i was in middle school was amazing. He always made time for our questions and was really sweet. Everybody loved him. He was better than my dad will ever be.
I hope your relationship with your dad got better, and I hope you never have to deal with daddy issues because that sh1ts kinda dumb❤
Reminds me of my history teacher. He's really enjoyable, but it makes me sad that he's more caring and supportive than my dad will ever be. ❤
Little sister living like an older sister is to real, most of these vents are so true to me and tbh life kinda stinks rn and it’s been like that ever since covid broke out.
I'm so sorry enjoy your life go out have fun dont stay home and clean up please, enjoy your life because you never know when it's going to end❤
for real, i swear to u, all my siblings call me: YOUR SO F*CKING SPOILED!? whenever i just dont wanna help them for once. then when i start crying because if stress the only one i can call is my older sister, if i tell my mom, lifes just worse cause she then will tell everyone. i love my dad, and older sister. my oldest sister , my brother, and mom just don’t love me. 10+ ruined my life.
@@staryneptun3 I’m so sorry I’ll keep u in my prayers✋🩷
I'm so sorry that u relate. Just know that your family/friends/ME loves you. If u ever need to vent, ttm!
@@staryneptun3 I’m the oldest but my siblings are so spoiled.. like they get everything I want.. and my 7yo sister has and iPhone 14.. I only have a 12. I mean I’m grateful.. but not too my parents..
I want yall to promise to be the better teacher/parents/people in the future generation please..
I will think abt being a parent but i have a fear that they will ended up just like their mother was when she was young i dont want them to be like me.
@@khaulahfauzolazim7534 that is why, we dont want them to be like us, we alrd experienced it then we should not pass it to our children..
@@imfiy_ i know im just afraid im doing smt wrong for my children.
@@khaulahfauzolazim7534 im sure you will not.., we experienced parent know better
@@imfiy_ yea just gonna need some time to think
I don’t normally hug people but my friend gave me a hug earlier before I left and I didn’t know I needed that.
POV: having to cry silently so you don’t wake your family
I felt that.
this proves that everyone has problems yet it still makes us feel like we aren’t perfect x
That one about feeling uncomfortable with the way your dad touches you… I felt that, DEEP.
One day I was in the kitchen, my mood already bad because I was doing something I hate when he suddenly came up from behind to hug me.
I told him to “stop it” or “knock it off” multiple times, but he didn’t.
Then suddenly I felt his hand in the back pocket of my pants so, on instinct, I elbowed him in the stomach.
He scolded me for it and when I tried to explain my POV or why I didn’t find it okay for him to just do that it escalated into basically everyone around me trying to tell me my father was right.
They’re trying to tell me I “shouldn’t have yelled at him like that” or he’s my “father, he wouldn’t ever do anything like that to his kids” and that I “overreacted”.
Since then (a year ago) I never really dared to voice my likes or dislikes because I’m scared it might escalate again…
I truly hate it…
I used to have anxiety attacks and my best friend would be there telling me everything would be ok, now were not friends anymore
Same here.
Im so sorry, both of yall deserve better. I hope God makes a change in ur lives and makes u the best you will ever be, 🙏 ❤️
same here too
I'm the oldest I'm the third parent. I've changed diapers, made bottles, cleaned shit off the wall, kissed their scraped knees and stayed up at night until they feel asleep ever since I was 7.
Same but 6 😭
same,i get it
Been there.. but hey, I didn't do all that, I was still a "kid" myself... And I'm sure thats why my siblings called me mom for a period of time before I stopped hanging around as much.
Same but I’m the youngest so I haven’t needed to do diapers and shit off the wall 😅
My parents arnt really around so I have to take care of my older brother but when my parents are home they yell and scream and have a temper and this happened ever since I started year 1
My anxiety is so bad. I never had anxiety attacks but always have panic attacks. The panic attacks can be so bad to the fact that I'm violently shaking over a small thing. One of my panic attacks was so bad I almost fainted.
I'm so sorry I really hope with all the love in my heart that you no longer get panic attacks, find someone you can talk to about it ❤
@@Nebula-vl3iz Thank you ❤❤
Out of curiosity can you tell me the difference? I've had outbreaks like this before and I wanna identify them.
@@Certified_Chaos I think anxiety attack is easier to hide maybe?? And anxiety attack is longer
@@Kassy69 so I'm guessing it was a panic attack I had
Everyone can vent here
I grew up in a family where I had to defend myself growing up, well I never really defended myself i just stood there and listened to them screaming at me and I just let my tears fall. and I think 'why do my parents never defend me?' and I get angry at myself for not defending myself. I didn't defend myself when I was called a crybaby not even when someone almost pushed me in a garbage bin. and that whenever someone screams at me i always think 'im so pathetic why do I let my tears flow out like that?'. Today when my dad was screaming at me, they escaped, my tears and my dad started going on about how much of a useless kid I am and if I could actually fall down on my knees and cry yea... That shit hurt. I didn't fall down tho I just kept standing as my tears fall down from my cheeks, my mom was right there and then it hit me 'why do my parents never defend me?' , my mom tried to stop my dad but my dad said that my mom knows nothing and she's stupid to take my side, yea then my mum shut up. Why doesn't anyone stand up for me?
@@kuromisanuwuhey! you aren’t useless and I can’t relate to this situation, but I want you to know that someday it will get better and you’ll be okay. ❤ You aren’t a crybaby you have every right to cry.
I recently moved to another country and I was doing great with the label “new kid” because everyone was interested in me and listened to the things I say and wanted to be friends. The fame faded away over time and people started forgetting about me. I never made friends that talked to me other than asking me to draw something or teach them English. At one point I got bullied and then got told it was “just a joke” and the girl expected me to be her friend after shaving away at my mental health for 4 months. Now I “have it figured out” but I just sit at my desk drawing every lunch break. Kinda lonely and miss my friends
i’m hungry. i’m starving. i’m basically killing myself at this rate.
@KitKat-100 🫂🫂🫂 it will get better i promise you. I understand your struggle, you are not alone. I belive in you, you can get through this 🫶/p/gen
This videos make me cry
Its the feeling when you think your life is hard but realize there are people who gave it worse than you
ugh i hate that i cry over these things all the popular girls cry over petty things
Bro that first video honestly had me tearing up bc why is it true
too real
Vent here❤❤❤ i love you guys. Not sexually
I vented to my sis she talked to me didnt tell no one and it cured my depression and now im one month clean .I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!❤
the first one hit me like a full blown truck. I remember exactly feeling like this.
1:50 I felt this on another level
My dad said I was being dramatic when I had an anxiety attack after being locked in a dark room after getting in trouble.
For anyone who needs to hear this:
I love your hair or your lack of
I love your forehead
I love your eyebrows
I love your eyelashes
I love your eyes
I love your ears
I love your nose
I love your cheeks
I love your mouth
I love your laugh
I love your teeth
I love your chin
I love your neck
I love your shoulders
I love your chest
I love your arms
I love your hands
I love your tummy
I love your hips
I love your thighs
I love your knees
I love your shins
I love your feet (not in that way.)
I love your moles/marks
I love your scars
I love your voice
I love what you do
I love your personality
I love you on your good days
I love you on your bad days
I love you when you when you wear makeup
I love you when you don’t wear makeup.
I love your skin
I love you when you’re sad
I love you when you’re mad
I love you when you’re happy
I love you when you hate me
I love you when you love me
I love you when you forget me
I’m proud of you for getting some sleep
I’m proud of you for trying to sleep
I’m proud of you for waking up
I’m proud of you for getting up
I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth
I proud of you for tending toward your braces
I’m proud of you for doing your hair
I’m proud of you for washing your face
I’m proud of you for doing skin care
I love you for doing your makeup (if you wear it)
I’m proud of you that you got out of your room
I’m proud of you for getting dressed
I’m proud of you for eating breakfast
I’m proud of you for being clean
I’m proud of you for trying to be clean
I’m proud of you for being alive
I’m proud of you for being a good friend
I’m proud of you for trying to be I good friend
I won’t judge you for your looks
I won’t judge you from your race
I won’t judge you for your life
I won’t judge you for your family
I won’t judge you for your past/childhood
I won’t judge you for your body
I won’t judge you for your tears
I wont judge you for your age
I won’t judge you for your sexual orientation
I wont judge you for your gender
I wont judge you for your money
I won’t judge you for where you come from
I won’t judge you for your language
You aren’t ugly
You aren’t too fat
You aren’t too skinny
You aren’t annoying
You aren’t mean
You aren’t evil
You aren’t crazy
You aren’t weird
You aren’t worthless
You aren’t scary
You aren’t selfish
You aren’t too feminine
You aren’t too masculine
You aren’t too young
You aren’t too old
You aren’t disgusting
You aren’t a doormat
You aren’t a toy
You aren’t a monster
You are beautiful
You are pretty
You are handsome
You are kind
You are cool
You are everything you want to be
You aren’t perfect, nobody is, but you are perfect in my eyes
I wont judge you for anything
Im so proud of you
I love you. ❤
(Btw I didn't write this. Feel free to copy and paste this onto another video :D)
i cried reading this
Ty
@@Alex-123-19h
Omg I can’t tell u how much I need this comment❤❤😭😭 Thank you!!!!
@@Madison.loves.horses Ofcc!! Your welcome
Y’all I love watching these but they make me cry every single time 😢😢
11:32 this is the realest thing i’ve seen today.
Almost relapsed and it’s getting worse. It was during school too.
I’m always crying and night sm. Listening to these TikToks bc I relate so bad and my grandpa died when I was 6 and my grandma just died Thursday this week. Then my aunt passed a couple months before.
Sometimes the teachers don’t make it any better sometimes it’s just music that zones them out and gives them peace and quiet and makes them feel like they’re free family issues and my mother and father always fight not like physically word like I didn’t know it could mess u up and make you scared whenever someone raises their voice and I get it because every time I yell or my parents yell at them, I flinch and think there yelling at me and it’s mentally fucked me up
the one that hurt me so bad is the enjoy elementary one..knowing that this one elementary ruined my whole life
2:42 is so true, it hurts. I miss elementary school
Its wierd but they feel comforting 😢😅
that feeling when your best friend made plans with someone else and you think “why does my life surround them and depend on them ALL the time and all they can say is ‘my parents think you’re my only friend, like ofc not’” so you see them and you just end up rotting in your room, always being called the lazy, stupid child. before, my best friend and i got invited to the mall and she didn’t have a ride. i offered. one of the people didn’t know me and i was just introduced as “the neighbor”. the rest of the day just felt…. different.
3:09 this to man I do this every time-
when I do have school, I do get anxiety attacks a lotttt.... but I don't have many friends that know about it; when I get anxiety attacks I crack my fingers, bite my lips, shake my leg, look around weirdly. so many things. but only on or two people know how to help me with it and I love them so much for that!
i’m the oldest child. i always get yelled at for everything and i do al the work around the house and my sisters say i’m so spoiled. i cuddled them to bed and sang lullabies when my parents fought. i made sure they had a better childhood than i ever did. i comforted them after they got hit. i did everything i could for them. and it hurts to see your parents say “i raised you well” when your sister does something but the problem is they didn’t raise them. you did.
of topic but sturniolo tripletss sound was there, thats actually crazyyy😻😻
What time????
Honestly school for me is kinda like freedom... but also it makes me self conscious it makes me cry that im not ...perfect 🙂
And also is life like switched for me bc my mom is the nice and had a HORRIBLE CHILDHOOD and my dad...idk he nice 50%of the time and I love him but he's mean..
me and my best friend were really close over the summer, we had sleepovers and hung out 24/7. now were in 6th grade and we've been really distant, when I talk to her, another one of our friends come and she walks away. i wish it could go back to normal. I want to have a relationship with god but ik ive say bad stuff and have had intrusive thoughts but...hes the only one who cares anymore, except for my boyfriend which my dad won't even let me have and gets mad whenever I talk about him. i wish i was pretty like her...maybe theyd like me better.?
2:42 this is so real, i nearly attempted because of middle school.
I'm jealous of little girls at the park the way the laugh giggle and play with their dad's its not fair how come they get to have a nice dad and I didn't and now he wants to be one he was always there but never there emotionally or mentally
I
Hate
My
Dad
im in the same situation. I just crie to myself all the time and ask myself why i can't have a "dad joke" type of dad. Like all my friends get and how much there dads just have pure love for them like that. Mine loves drugs, alchohal, and gambling.
@@Mewhenidonthavetiktok we got something to relate to my dad is like that too
One time, I got in trouble in a class specifically with a male teacher. Keep in mind that he’s really tall, has a deep voice, and could probably make someone cry if he yelled hard enough. My dad is also really tall and has a deep voice, when I got in trouble my parents would yell at me and now I hate when I get in trouble cause I think the same thing would happen aka me getting in trouble and/or getting spanked. My parents say that they “dont” abuse me. Apart of me believes them, and the other doesn’t. If your Mexican you’ll know that stupid is a cuss word in Spanish (or I have just been told that as a lie) but anyways I said my sister called me stupid and my dad got mad at me for saying it. He did the classic yelling at me and it scared me so badly I started ugly crying (I was like 6-8 years old and I never knew that it was a cuss word in Spanish) my dad marches to my room and as I’m crying there my dad forcefully turns me over and starts spanking me. Now every time I say stupid I think I’m gonna get spanked again. I want to run away, I want to scream, I want to cry, but I know if I tell them my feelings it will never go well..
For me it wasn't the English teacher it was my math teacher she was amazing. She always was excited to see me and always talked to me and actually cared. She was the only person who noticed how bad it got.I love her.
Omg the second to last one freaked me out
8:33 this is so sad omg bro
0:04 so real i feel so left out
2:11 My 5th period science teacher would always tell me he was proud that i did good on quizzes/tests bc i used to fail his class and i cried every time in the bathroom when i leave to go to 6th period bc my dad would beat me if he knew i was failing yet my science teacher js encouraged me even when i was failing and he was prob the reason i enjoy school more now (i hate every other period except his)
I get yelled everyday by my family "oh your suppose to be a better a *perfect* sister! You don't have a right to be bi or like with so much black you don't have anxiety , we do love you!" . ..that's my life I have...anger issues, social anxiety, trust, depression, SH, ADHD , autism ...yet i ...was slapped by my own mother at 7\, been bullied since I came to school now high school , I tell my grandpa not to slap me but I cant protect myself I want my siblings not to die when they grow up like me I will do it but I want their life a better not ruined crapy childhood I'm 15 yet I'm broken like hell yet I smile And make jokes to hide my pain that I'v always had.
Nothing's as great as parents who don't believe in mental health issues bc it's always the phones or the friends, it's always the bed or the boyfriend or literally anything else they could say to keep from admitting that somewhere along the line they fucked up.
2:50 I feel the same I just got into middle and I just hate being judged and being made fun of but in elementary I never had any problems
after seeing the way parents treat our generation i’m actually learning and becoming a good future mum .
If i ever get kids.. I'll treat them the way they never did.
The first one was so relatable
I haven't cried in a while and I still didn't cry much, but I feel a bit better now that I did
7:11 I am in 2 AP classes and I know for a fact I’m the dumbest in them. I’m too smart for the normal kids, too dumb for the smart kids. The suckiest part is I’m a “Gifted and Talented” kid. This means that I can do the work correctly, but I can’t see it the same as others do. Like a dumber child prodigy. Another sucky part is I struggle with my mental health because I have BPD and Bipolar, making everything so sucky. I don’t know if I can do it anymore but I need to stay on earth. If J asks me if I’m okay again tomorrow idk what I’ll do because she can’t know the truth abt me struggling. I also can’t handle opening up to anyone because of the trust issues I gained from my parents. I hate it.
2:34 yk, my parend are divoresed bc of me, my dad told me, all the fights they had all the getting mad at me was my foult, my brother is now sad. and they made my dark circle of depression even bigger
You are loved. Always remember that ❤❤❤
1:50 was true relatable.then the next day they call it a “small fight”
@@TaliaAssem you ok sweetie?
@@Yourmummy666 I’m trying
@@TaliaAssem that's ok that's all you need to do. I'm so proud of you. You wanna talk about anything ?
@@Yourmummy666 I rlly don’t wanna say this but I need help. I tried k***ing myself last night
@@Yourmummy666 I feel like k**Ling myself.
8:02 i can relate because whenever i tell my parents that i hate talking to people, they keep on telling me that "you need to stop complaining and deal with it." They dont understand that its not easy to make friends in middle school. (I FUCKING hate 7th grade.)
im scared to have kids cuz i dont want to mess them up
15:56 is horrifying
im so sorry for all of these people
i hope you are having a wonderful day/night
i hope you are feeling well and if you aren't that's totally fine
i hope you have eaten/drank anything and if you tried im so proud of you
i hope you feel loved and if not im here for you
i hope you dont hurt yourself but if you do its ok
i hope you have something to make you feel comfortable
i hope you are safe
i hope you are able to take care of yourself
i hope you have someone to talk to
i hope you can get through this and i love you all❤❤🩹
0:05 this one is so real that it hurts..
i said one question wrong in class. started crying and thinking i did everything wrong and people would laugh at me.
Off topic, but ilysm, I wish i was there for you, i could give you a big hug right now..
We’re all mentally ill. Even my friend, who has what most people think is the perfect life, struggles. Everyone is nice to her, which in retrospect, seems amazing, right? Well, even the jerks, the creeps, the kids who try to *touch* the other girls, act nice to her. She doesn’t know who to be friends with. She doesn’t know what to do.
For anyone who needs to hear this:
I love your hair
I love your forehead
I love your eyebrows
I love your eyelashes
I love your eyes
I love your ears
I love your nose
I love your cheeks
I love your mouth
I love your laugh
I love your teeth
I love your chin
I love your neck
I love your shoulders
I love your chest
I love your arms
I love your hands
I love your tummy
I love your hips
I love your thighs
I love your knees
I love your shins
I love your stretch marks
I love your feet (not in that way.)
I love your moles/marks
I love your scars
I love your voice
I love what you do
I love your personality
I love you on your good days
I love you on your bad days
I love you when you when you wear makeup
I love you when you don’t wear makeup.
I love your skin
I love you when you’re sad
I love you when you’re mad
I love you when you’re happy
I love you when you hate me
I love you when you love me
I love you when you forget me
I’m proud of you for getting some sleep
I’m proud of you for trying to sleep
I’m proud of you for waking up
I’m proud of you for getting up
I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth
I proud of you for tending toward your braces
I’m proud of you for doing your hair
I’m proud of you for washing your face
I’m proud of you for doing skin care
I love you for doing your makeup (if you wear it)
I’m proud of you that you got out of your room
I’m proud of you for getting dressed
I’m proud of you for eating breakfast
I’m proud of you for being clean
I’m proud of you for trying to be clean
I’m proud of you for being alive
I’m proud of you for being a good friend
I’m proud of you for trying to be I good friend
I won’t judge you for your looks
I won’t judge you from your race
I won’t judge you for your life
I won’t judge you for your family
I won’t judge you for your past/childhood
I won’t judge you for your body
I won’t judge you for your tears
I wont judge you for your age
I won’t judge you for your sexual orientation
I wont judge you for your gender
I wont judge you for your money
I won’t judge you for where you come from
I won’t judge you for your language
You aren’t ugly
You aren’t too fat
You aren’t too skinny
You aren’t annoying
You aren’t mean
You aren’t evil
You aren’t crazy
You aren’t weird
You aren’t worthless
You aren’t scary
You aren’t selfish
You aren’t too feminine
You aren’t too masculine
You aren’t too young
You aren’t too old
You aren’t disgusting
You aren’t a doormat
You aren’t a toy
You aren’t a monster
You are beautiful
You are pretty
You are handsome
You are kind
You are cool
You are everything you want to be
You aren’t perfect, nobody is, but you are perfect in my eyes
I wont judge you for anything
Im so proud of you
I love you.
(Btw I copy and pasted this so feel free to do the same. :D)
7:26 one time on the bus this kid was calling me and all my friends fat (which i am very very very insecure about along with my other friend) and i was in a horrible mood when i got home and my mom made it worse because she was being rude, and she asked "why are you in such a bad mood?" i explained the whole story and she didnt care.
The dad ones……..😭
0:50 this is so real and the reason most of my mental breakdowns happen
ive just reilized that i have been haveing panic atacks in class without even knowing and i crazy i am
00:05
uh oh we getting to relatble with this one
(Minus the therapist)
0:35 i just burst out crying my dad has anger issues and has a bad relationship with my siblings ……
2:33 its how my dad and dad's wife make me feel because one time they told me I was a mistake to the family and that I was fucking born a failure
(IM NOT FUCKING JOKING THIS WAS MY CHILDHOOD AND IT IS STILL HAPPENING)
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The second one is so true…
As a younger sibling, its so unfair. Everyone just assumes you have it better. Like NO you don't know the house hold or what they're going through, I cook dinner, I clean the house, I wash dishes, I wake my older sister up for school, my room stays spotlessly clean, while my older sisters room is dirty, she never does chores with me, and whenever I'm doing this stuff she's sitting on her phone laughing at RUclips shorts, or hanging out with her friends. Its so unfair. Stop assuming house holds, not saying older siblings don't got through the same thing, I'm saying that its different for everyone.
Love you all, please PLEASE stay safe and be good to yourself
Love yall
I feel so bad bc of the first one. My lil sister was 5 and had no dad for Father’s Day. So my dad came and celebrated with her. She’s 6 now
I always say to my friends and family nothings wrong but then when I’m alone or at school and I start having that throat thing I start with a panic attack
When enjoying school turns into having no motivation. Going about your day turns into holding back tears. A regular meal turns into packets of gum. Talking to friends turns into sitting silently in the corner. Feeling proud turns into feeling useless. Not wanting to sleep turns into just wanting to close your eyes and escape reality. Showering every day turns into neglecting personal hygiene. Feeling happy turns into feeling alone.
I’m sorry if you relate. Somebody out there cares more than you could ever imagine, one day this will be over and life will be great again. ❤❤
i think 8:44 was from solitare (the alice osman book) idk thou but its way to relatable
0:58 same bcs the oldest sibling is a boy so ofc I clean barley get attention and has clinical depression...
I relate to the family issues one
When you were picky as a child and had mental breakdowns in the middle of dinner after being forced to eat something I don’t like. Being videoed of my mental breakdown in front of my whole family, trapped in the kitchen no way out getting yelled at. And going to a thing called “food school” were i would try new things. “Why do you eat everything in food school but not any wear else”- parents. maybe cause I can cry in front of you, have mental breakdowns, scream break things use my anger issues to help me some how. but not in front of our random group of strangers. And the fact to videoed it and make the 3 “teachers” and the other kids watch it. I’m literally a teenager. I can’t wear makeup. “Don’t blame your mood on yr period yr fine just take some pepto or whatever” do don’t say your toe hurts if you just stubbed it real hard because i know your faking it just like im faking my SH. I can’t even trust anyone besides my friends. Because i know my therapist will tell you everything I’ve said my friends are now my therapist. Thank for being ther. Oh wait never mind you weren’t. And now because of you im stuck to my friends so much. “It’s the middle of summer you can’t wear long sleeves, no hoodie, no sweatpants. It 98 degrees outside” thanks for you hoodie and extra pants Annalise. I’m sorry i fell in love with you. Those were almost my last words. I’m so glad they weren’t because if it wasn’t for you my dad would be freaking out wondering you made me kill myself. Sorry dad, uno reverse. If im dead it’s because of you. I am having to much anxiety and ptsd rn. I don’t feeling good sorry about all the mistakes. My hands are very Shakey and i just feeling like cutting. Ty for reading this all, ilysm Annalise have a good day!
are you okay?
@@fristfrostphighting I wish. Are you ok?
@@Asthmara yeah, I just want to make sure people on vent videos are okay, I really hope things turn around for the better :]
@@fristfrostphighting thank you. Have a blessed day wherever you’re at 🫶❤️
Lol the sad venting tiktoks and then TDP shows up 😭
1:40 is so true
I'm sorry I hope u have a good day 💋🎀
I'm not but thank you ❤❤
the first one is so fvking true
8:30 i nearly cried. My best friend has been SAed before. Literally one of the worst things someone can go throughh.
shes leaving me for her again..
6:35 Hyunjin in the background
Ever since I turned 10 me and my mom never agreed on and she hates the sound of crying so I have learned to cry in silence today is the first day I have cried with my full voice but I was talking to someone and they made me realize how my mom sees me as a burden or as her kid and why should I be quiet if she is the one who made me cry and she thinks my silent cry are crocodile tears bc of how much I cry😁☝️
4:53 not even trying to brag but this couldn’t be me I legit scream “idc what u think” internally
2:47 so real I’m in middle now and I got told I look like the goose girl from chicken little.. I already hate my buck teeth wtf Waylon.
I've always been the therapist friend. I've struggled for the past few years bc my uncle (very important to me) khs, the next weekend my childhood friend SA'd me and tried to rape me, then my nana died, my life went downhill for years, finally got better And I was proud... I thought I was free and then I lost my BFF and my life started falling apart, it's all gotten too much to handle and I haven't told anyone how I'm really thinking. I've been thinking of ending it all. I had a plan and I was supposed to be gone on my 16th birthday but I stuck around to chance it... I wish I hadn't. I don't want to leave but it's too much. I'm tired of never being heard unless it's what they want said, I'm tired of being ignored, rejected, outcast, different, ugly, fat. I want the good life. I want my parents to love each other or respect each other, I want ppl to love me for me, I want ppl to know my pain and I don't want to hide it anymore but they don't HEAR ME. They don't even see me.
I've been thinking about it a lot and I've been considering ending it soon but I'm scared. But I feel like I'm not supposed to be here, I don't want to exist after high school, I don't want to grow up. I missed my childhood, I didn't even get one, it's not fair. I can't grow up this fast, what about my dreams?? What about my feelings? I've been lost and for the first time in years, someone saw me. They actually saw me, and now everyone can see me. I feel embarrassed and pathetic..
My new bus driver opened up to me one day and we gradually started talking and after I lost my BFF, I went into a self isolation. I cut off my other friends and even avoided my favorite places bc I couldn't think. My bus driver noticed. He saw me and he reached out. It was like he could see and feel all my pain. He's so nice to me and he's always talking to me. And ever since he first spoke to me about my personal life, all my teachers and friends have gotten interested too. It makes me feel upset. I feel like everyone is pitying me, idk if I'm ugly or just pathetic. And anytime someone compliments me or my work, I still feel unappreciated and not good enough, I feel like I don't deserve the compliments but I deserve more recognition. I feel a deep sense of unease and confusion, I never know what's going on. My emotions are so out of place and nothing is helping it. But the moment he saw me, I felt my world shatter. He told me things, complimented me, he made me feel like I could finally breathe and i appreciate him so much for that... I'm so fucking messed up. I don't deserve the life I have or the air I breathe. I'm tired of hating myself and loving myself all the time, it never lasts and I truly resent myself. I wish I was better.
I stopped feeling happy at 5 or 6..I am starting to realize how messed up that was
3:14 js made me cry 😢
0:07 it really the situation that i am..
None of my friends really like me. I’m always they’re for them but I can never tell them I’m struggling too, they just don’t care about me. I try my hardest to be the best person I can be for them because I want to help. One of my friends I was theyre every step of the way helping the when they were doing SH. Always defending her telling her to call me or text me when she felt like she would do it. Reminding her I’m here for her and typing a the longest essay. She posted something about her “best friend” she met 2 weeks ago. And it said she was the reason she’s still they’re but the girl she had just met didn’t even know what was going on. I just feel really alone. The one time my friend invited me on vacation, my other friend got mad. She said, “me and ______ are closer, why did she pick you.” To my face, she also said, “I’m gonna be really mad at you and hold a grudge against you for a long time” anyway, she’s good with the friend that invited me but she has had me blocked for 3 weeks and ignored me. She also tells people all my secrets and makes up the past trauma she said she had about other girls. And lies constantly to me. I don’t if I can keep doing this.
If anyone has gone through please help.
my dad told me yesterday that he want me to get better because he wants his happy girl back. Not the quiet, standoffish person I am now.
I just found out a girl from my class who used to be my best friend is talking shit about me behind my back. We arent even friends anymore and we drifted apart and after all the times I used to forgive her she just kept doing it. And even now that I thought she had changed and I finally felt good that even though we werent friends we thought about eachother as good people. What the fuck did I do for her to treat me like that REPEATEDLY. And it's not just me. They talk worse about my current best friend. She used to be bullied at school and she is insecure about people leaving her. I feel like im the only one who understands her and I love her very much. What did she ever do to them? They talk shit about her and she just tries so hard to be kind to everyone and feel good enough. So why the fuck are those girls (my ex bff and another friend I used to have) doing this to us? Why are they being fake and pretend to be nice to us? And even though I should be the one doing that to her from all the shit she used to do to me. But I kept forgiving her. So what gives her the right to treat us like that when WE should be the ones being bitches towards her? I feel like shit because I don't understand why people can be so cruel for no fucking reason. Maybe because she is blonde with blue eyes and just thinks she is better than us so she can be mean. Okay we may not be as pretty as her but just please stop giving me a hard time when you are not even a part of my life. Mind your own shit.
Edit: I just realised how long this is and I'm really sorry if you read all that
10:56 bro why is that so trueee my mother is like “when I was 10 I stoped crying” like bro YOU KICKED ME TO THE GODAMN FLOOR FROM THE MF STAIRS
Edit: even tho she is never really here anymore and treats me like shit I’ll still love her, and that is my toxic trait, loving people who hate me😐🙂↕️
1:37 nooo wait Ik it’s a cartoon but I actually feel so bad 😢😢😢
The fact that I trained myself to cry only out of one eye to hide it then be silent about it for 11 years and this is the first time saying anything about it……. :/
2:40 i did enjoy elementary while i did i just started school and I'm now in middle school and i already hate it
middle school destroyed me ever since i moved in the middle of 5th I've never made friends.
0:48 why is this so true 😢