Why I've never had a boyfriend
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- Опубликовано: 7 ноя 2019
- Hi :') I hope you enjoy this video of what the past month of my life has been and I hope you are having an amazing day.
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I hope one day I learn how to spell “cue”. Anyway love you :,)
Morgan Adams love you❤️
Morgan Adams me too Morgan me too. 🤣😂🤣
Queue
❤❤❤
Morgan Adams love how you took pills and the. A second later you took a shot lol 😂😂❤️
*”I’m Morgan’s big sister”* - Jeffree Star
Kate Mendez I’m excited. Jeffree just waltz’s right in. I love it.
I wish Jeffree was my big sister lol
Im shook by that😂🤔
AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAH CAN'T WAIT
Right? I thought the video was over but it was just getting good!
Does she genuinely believe that she's not gorgeous, I'm confused.
IKR!!!
She’s soooooo pretty! I wish I was half as gorgeous as her.
ikr shes srsly so gorgeous
I think it’s because she’s in. LA standards are super high and unrealistic there it’s plastic capital
Joseph Aldridge lol that’s her problem, gay people love her
"When you grow up hating yourself and feeling worthless" - that one hurt
Kononekaya hurted 🥺
That one was so relatable
Same
Idk Idc r/im14andthisisdeep
That hurt 😞 😢 😭 .
Just turned 23 and have never had a boyfriend before. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one, but it's kind of comforting to know that there are other people my age who have also never been in a relationship, too.
24 and never hold hands with guy. im ok tho lol
That's ok, I'm 30 and I've never had a real boyfriend; a date? maybe, wannabe hookups? a gazillion… but a boyfriend? absolutely not! I guess I've come to terms with that though.
Virgos
Brak Eastwood Nope, Scorpio; just not focused on getting a relationship
Lily2Ivy I’m a Scorpio as well lol
Shane : Ryland
Jeffree : Makeup
Morgan : Adams
HAHAHAH OH MY GOD
All the Adam's out there come forward. Morgan needs a date with a Adam❤
hotel : trivago
Garrett: Watts
Morgan Adams omg
Honestly that “thinking nobody likes you and people who say they do are just pretending” bit hit too close to home 😔
Same
Literally
Same I was so nervous for her because I knew the feeling 😕
Same 😕
As a gay guy straight dudes will flirt with me only to be just playing with me
Ryland: “you’ve never been on a date?”
Morgan: “with a straight guy.”
Me: *has fallen for 2 gay guys before*
RELATABLE
Same 😅
Tianna Martin me toooo
Tianna Martin me too
Gay guys are really sweet.
@@achaouma4813 ikr!!!
I wish she could see how amazing her body actually is. Like she literally has the ideal body I would want.
I wish more women would realize that they are ideal and beautiful as they are.
@@ethanpoole3443 excuse me that is so precious how dare you 🥺
She has an *hourglass figure* man
I know that’s what I was thinking I would love to have her body
Ethan Poole and I wish more men would think that too.
Jeffree: I’m Morgan’s older sister
Everybody liked that
TëA weird flex but ok
Loves
Could you imagine being on a date and Jeffree Starr pops in and says shes my sis... hello, girls morning dream skip school to go back to dreamland... live it. I am DEAD.... -SPEAKING SINCERELY AS A MORTICIANS DAUGHTER
....DEAD...
this aged like milk
nobody liked that
“I’m Morgan’s big sister Jeffree Lynn, how are ya?”
IM DEAD
😂😂😭😭
Yes me too !! 😂😂😂
😂😂😂i laughed so hard😂😂
Oh my god! 🤣🤣🤣
Where is that
I’ve never related to something so much when Morgan said she’s never dated because she wanted a perfect life before dating someone so no one could take it away from her.
I love how Ryland is encouraging but also roasts her gently lol
“I’m Morgan’s big sister, Jeffree Lynn, how are ya?”
*JEFFREE LMAOO*
kae marie right😂😂😂
BYEEEE
I DROPPED MY RAMEN NOODLES
👑💎💚
LOL SAME
I love how Nate and jeffree just showed up like “hi you’re meeting the whole family on the first date”
😂❤️
My thoughts exactly !!!
Omg I was thinking about how scary that would be, like you expect THE Shane Dawson and Ryland but JEFFREE STAR and Nate as well?!?
Lol me
When?
"Anyone that does like you is pretending" My trust issues felt that
I like your name
Morgan: "You can either sit in your room and be sad forever and eat 10,000 calories a day..."
Me: *sitting in my room, depressed, covered in cheeto dust*
Morgan: "... Or you can pick your saggy ass up and figure it out."
Me: *picks up saggy ass* Whelp if u say so...
Andey Skanes praying for your heart to be healed and past hurts to be washed away 😘
Yeah the past hurts but if you dont let that go you will never love again or find yourself again. Ive been going thru things for 3 and 1\2 years because I messed things up with the love of my life but if you change yourself and do all the right things to prove and show them you can and have changed things will change for you. Ive changed completely and gave her space and I'm finally letting her so that and just taking it day by day and proving not only to myself but to her im willing to do anything for her! Love is powerful in different ways. But she's been in 2 relationships since me but she niw currently lives with me and I couldn't be happier. Because she's here and my daughter is here everyday. Yeah she can come and go as she wants because she needs to find herself again, but the thing is she's choosing to be here with me (her best friend) thru all the bad things that has happen between us. We've always been here for each other good or bad, mad or upset. She's choosing to be here with me and I'm happy and she is too
If you’re doing a Shane style series, and this is actually you slowly revealing your bf to us I will literally scream.
CrOwNePrince7 imagine they actually get together 😳😳😍
CrOwNePrince7 literally my first thought lol
omg thought so too
ID CRY
I love how into this Ryland got. He was about to invent an entire backstory for his waiter character lol
It’s not a character, it’s a lifestyle
Seriously though, who hurt you?? It breaks my heart hearing her talk about how she thinks so low of herself and how unworthy of love she feels.... she is so beautiful and seems to have a huge and caring heart
Mary loves karma sometimes, no other person has to hurt you. sometimes it is yourself that hurts you and makes you feel that way ;(
She has talked about her childhood and it is tragic, she was bullied and a lot of other stuff happened. Poor girl has a past
carly marie which video did she talk about her childhood in?
I didn’t have my first boyfriend until I was 21, lasted 7 months lol. Then got into another relationship at 22, been together 5 years this year. I never wanted one I was happy on my own, but at the same time my parents splitting up when I was young impacted me really bad, I was too scared to be in a relationship. Then when I was interested in boys, they never liked me, I got stood up etccccccc. Anyone reading this, it will happen ☺️ you’ll find the person of your dreams
“So my brother got married this past summer.”
*has heart attack thinking I missed Shane and rylands wedding*
Saaaaaaaame.
tɪk tok antidote i literally did the same thing
tɪk tok antidote Same!
tɪk tok antidote SAME
Im still confused but yeah
"I'm Morgan's big sister, Jeffree Lynn. How are ya?" SHOOOOOOOOOK
Ikr ICONICCCC
@@milagrossanchezcano2258 I literally had to rewatch it at least 3 times 😂 I'd fucking DIE in that scenario. I'm dying to see how the date goes 😭
J VanB fucking same.
The house!!!
So SHOOK
My mom: your not aloud have a boyfriend
Also my mom: Do you have a boyfriend?
Me:no?
My mom: whY NOt
Not to be that person but its Allowed*
M Kubheka I was gonna do that to oop 😭😂
SHE NEEEDS TO DATE ANDREW! They're so cute in videos together, I feel like they're made for each other
Me too they are perfect
They're both Leos
I do not believe in astrology
He probably sees her as a little sister...
@@michellealcala4929 Well.. Shane is a Cancer and Ryland is a Taurus... and their signs are very compatible but I'm just saying I respect your opinion. :)
Seeing a friend that isn't Trinity is tripping me out.
Omg... she looks like trinity tho right hahaha??
@@12mlaz She sounds like her too
Ur profile matches that comment XDD
Shane’s next series: finding Morgan a boyfriend
Only if its jeffrees gate keeper
Haha
Nadia Wineski a 100 part series
IM JOKING
Hugeeeee intervention!
😂
I wonder if Morgan actually realisez how attractive she is
Can we just talk about how pretty she looks in this video
jeffree is like straight up protecting morgan now he’s just “hi i’m jeffree, morgan’s big sister”
I wish I had her life. In what world do you go on a first date and Jeffree Star comes OUTTA NOWHERE to grill your date?! Morgan's world. Lucky girl lol
cherry berry no spoilers ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh shouldn't have read anything agh
cherry berry honestly same, just jeffree looking out for you on your first date like “lemme do a security check”
XxKazxX xoxo its not a spoiler. Just watch the last seconds of the video after “to be continued”
Plot twist: Morgan ends up dating the camera guy
that would be so funny but also so cutee :D
Andrew? Sorry can't let it go.
Juan Cortez Muro no one cares stop commenting
@@teakash4590 ahhhh, i wish
who's this other camera guy tho
Omg this girl is literally me....in 23 years old and never had a boyfriend
Just turned 23 and in the same boat. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one, but it's kind of comforting to know that there are other people my age who have also never been in a relationship, too.
conspiracy theory I feel with our generation being the way that it is....it’s becoming more common and I’m sure with anything someone feels like they are alone in this but there is people going through the same thing you are...no matter what your going through
You are not alone, I think it’s generational. I have 3 nieces your age and they are all solo so far. I think it’s a lot healthier than the desperate way I lived my life.
Aesthetically AnARMY I’m single and I’m freakin 30 lol. I’ve dated in my early 20’s but the struggle is real when you get older.
Cheers to us finding soulmates! ✨🍻
Bruh... saaammmme 😅
morgan is actually such a cool person and she’s so pretty inside and out, it’s easy to say “i wish she saw this,” but honestly i just hope she continues to seek valuation not from others, but from herself.
“I have never had a bf.”
THE gatekeeper: *am I a joke to u?*
Bognar Evelin only the real understand this comment
I'm dead
Lmao
Can someone explain to me please
BAHAHAHA
She’s the whole package so I seriously don’t understand how she’s still single
True
Agreed!
True
Even the booty’s on point! 19:07
Trish Elliott
So true! She’s drop dead gorgeous and hilarious, what guy wouldn’t want her
Plot twist: Morgan ends up marrying the cameraman who filmed her first date...
Who the cameraman?
Didn’t ryland film it tho 💀😭
Hannah Stevens this is not alabama
@@elisem4642 lol😂
Andrew
“Oh he’s a hugger” 😂 lol I could feel the awkwardness through the screen
Omg Jeffree acting like her dad shaking his hand. I’m dead
ahahha
Righttt
"Im morgans big sister"
We stan honestly
xamigox THAT WAS AWESOME! and so unexpected!
As a 21-year-old with no romantic past to speak of, I stan 🙌
Ayy! Same boo, same 👋
To all the singles out there: Enjoy you're single life as long as possible, you'll be in a relationship sooner than you think missing the times you were single without having relationship problems
So true. Grass is always greener on the other side, people in relationships think they crave single freedom and the single folk think they crave a perfect picture relationship.
Plot twist
The guy she dates is the security guard for Jeffrees house
OMG 🤣🤣
The bowling guy?
Never thought of it that way
Mickie Colven OMG HAHAHA
YUSSSSS
I love how Jeffree introducing himself as morgans older sister
lool
this made burst out laughing 💀
Jeffree is protective. I want him to shield me from the horrors of the world.
that was kinda adorable
What min
I'm 28 going on 29 and never had a boyfriend.
Them: Do you have a boyfriend?
Me: No
Them: Are you serious,oh that's so sad.
Me: .....
Them: Well men are trouble Lisa your better off
Disney65Fan I’m almost 24 and never even been kissed and I have a family wedding in August, can’t wait for questions from family members! 🙃
Am I the only one who ships her with Andrew
ok but at the end when jeffree said “i’m morgan’s big sister” i lost it
Same
When she said "my brother got married this past summer" I literally thought she was spilling tea on Ryland and Shane's secret wedding or something. WTF is wrong with me lol
Me Tooooo
I was like umm SHANE?!?!?!?!
Sameee lol
Girl sameeeeeee
You're not alone
Morgan has always been my favorite. She’s got a bright soul.
Meanwhile, incels still be like "Uhhh, females have it so easy on the dating market". No, it's surprisingly easy to never date a soul in your life, no matter who you are. Anyone can miss out on love, or even do so voluntarily, we aren't all in need of love to live. Nor are most of us desperate enough to want any kind of relationship, as if it's a trophy.
Or want someone decent..
Ryland: "I don't even know what your type is"
Morgan: "Me Either"
I felt thatttt
I want you to meet my son
Dude same
SAAAAAAAAAMMME MEE!!!!!
I’m like three seconds in and she’s already talking about wombats
Tabby Despacito 😂😂😂
Everyone else here is like "I'm too unconfident to have a relationship" or "I'm not ready" or "nobody likes me" or "my relationships never work out".. But does anyone else just not want a relationship? Like- I have never in my life felt the need or want for a boyfriend or girlfriend. When my friends try to set me up with people, I make excuses. When they ask me who I like, I lie or say "nobody"... I'm only 15, but still.. Is that normal?
15 too! I personally find the concept of having a "need" for relationship weird, because to me that sounds a little bit too forced. I like to think that love and relationships should come naturally and a person shouldn't 'need' a partner. Just my opinion, though:)
Yes, very normal! There is no "correct time frame" for any of that. It'll happen when it's the right time for you. You're not weird, nor are you wrong! You're doing the right thing, you're not giving in to peer pressure from people, you're doing what feels right to you! You're the only person who knows your heart and what's best for it. You're young and have lots of time to figure out what you feel, who you are, and what you want, or don't want. Just focus on loving yourself 💜💜💜
Morgan: I understand. I am 19 years old and I've never had a boyfriend or been on a date. I've always stuck to myself and dealt with insecurity issues since I was very young. Despite the fact of what all of your viewers and subscribers may say (you have a new one with me!) it is very hard to find security with yourself and admire your own body when your mind tells you something completely different. Nonetheless, you are a very beautiful person, despite being unique and not typical to how normal society feels a woman should look. Never change yourself for somebody else, find someone who appreciates you for the way that you are which is a beautiful and amazing woman who is funny, genuine, and caring. I see you as a wonderful role model.💗
Jeffree:I’m Morgan’s Big sister
Everyone: YAAAAAAASSSSS
I literally died when Jeffree showed up!
We STAAAAN!
Morgan is actually really pretty, I don't think she gives herself enough credit for that. She's really funny and relatable as well, which are great qualities.
👆This! 👆
Right? She's beautiful and actually has a sense of humor. And is genuine which is super rare these days. She'll find someone. Hope they are as genuine as her and their friend group.
Thanos Slap I agree 💯
Coming from a Lesbian, she is hot as fuck.
Yes this is so true
I was literally on a rant a minute ago about why I never had a bf and this is the first thing on my recommended. Uhm OK FBI agent. You can chill now 😂😂😂😂
Ok it’s driving me crazy she talked about her nails and getting them done... but they aren’t done
Kinsey Muller I literally scrolled through comments to see if I was the only one 😅🤦🏻♀️
@@krystinasalcedo9067 Maybe you should express yourself more respectful
@Ryan maybe you should stop being an effing Karen
SHE REALLY JUST HIT US WITH A “Part 2 coming soon”
Shane has taught her well
I know right! not cool! 😁
I hope it's not Garrets "coming soon". We need that part 2 like tomorrow.
Dario Pauro right! im like on the edge of my seat right now!😳
Yeah she said on Twitter there’s a part 2
I can't be the only one who thinks that she is literally on a date with a straight version of Garrett
So fucking true
I thought the same thing 😂
Hahahhaa yeeessss 😂😂
I was about to comment it
Omg- I laughed so hard because I see it nowwww
you did not just say find someone on craig’s list
So glad I'm not the only one,I feel you Morgan. Literaly 20 years old and never had a boyfriend. It's not that guys don't want me,I actually get hit on a lot,but those are not my type of guys. Either I don't have contact with the guy I like or it's that he's taken (I'm not the type of girl that would even try to do something with someone who is in a relationship)...
Can enyone relate? 😕
👏👏 yes!!
same 😩
Including being the same age YES!!! especially not having contact with the guy. It sucks when everyone around seems to effortlessly 🤦🏾♀️
Yup all of this
It’s so important to be picky girl! So many guys are trash
Ahhhhh jeffree “hi I’m Morgan’s big sister” that’s goals
I don't believe you
It’s so sad that Morgan feels self conscious, she’s literally GORGEOUS and her body is goals honestly.
Seriously
*person is gorgeous*
Society - "lmao you can be gorgeous but you're not allowed to know it yourself"
Jazzy 66
Same here! 💕
PierceTheSkye _
Literallyyy
@@natalied3523 well I'm sure you're gorgeous 😁
The “weird uncles from Texas and the relatives from Canada” really hit home
Ryland taking this whole experience as such a serious acting assignment is cracking me up 😂😂😂
Morgan: Ive Never Had A Boyfriend
*jeffree’s gatekeeper enters chat*
lauren williams bahaha that took me a second!
HAHAHAHAAHHAAHA I peed myself
Oh my god 😂😂
Imagine Jeffree being the gatekeeper to his gatekeeper
Omg I forgot about that
"I've never been on a date"
"never??"
"with a straight guy"
Love Two and a Half men. ? watch This video ruclips.net/video/hKU5717a5TQ/видео.html funny
S-A-M-E! ISTG
Lol
Tokir Ahmed no it’s like a inside joke??
I know I’m like seven months late to this, but Ryland is such a good big brother to Morgan, it’s so sweet and I love seeing their relationship.
I never had a boyfriend or a girlfriend and I never got married and I’m 30 years old woman and I never got pregnant and I don’t have no children or babies because all I want is friends so I don’t have to worry about breaks up and stuff and I don’t have Ex’s and I’m free todo what ever I want 😃
“When you grow up really hating yourself and really feeling worthless, and you don’t believe that there’s anyone in the entire world that could possibly like you” hit me hard
same its so close to home for me
Same, this hits so fucking hard.
My exact thoughts
Oh God, if this isn't me🙄
Same ;( and it doesn’t matter how many guys chase after you, you still believe the same crap..
She doesn’t even know how beautiful she is and that makes me really sad..☹️
Right she's stunning
Absolutely gorgeous,, but confidence is built with words of encouragement. I just hope that one her confidence is restored 😔😔
Yaas she is sooo beautiful 🙌
Cause you didn’t tell her how beautiful she was.
Why doesnt Morgan just date Andrew, he seems to be a great guy and they would make a great couple 😻
bruuuuh every time anyone has ever liked me my immediate reaction is "why tho???" and i don't trust it cuz i see no reason for anyone to want anything to do with me
Morgan: “So my brother got married this past summer”
Me: Immediately thought Ryland and Shane got secretly married
Sameeee
Jennifer C yea😂 I literally stopped
Austin Adams is their older brother
@@ebwbau8036 not available anymore..... LoL 😂
Lol me too
i don't understand how morgan doesn't have a boyfriend, she's so attractive and funny and everything
S T probably because she didn’t like to put herself out there, like she said, she closed herself off. She’s so many great things she just had to let herself get out there and be at least a little vulnerable
It's the same way with me, you don't find a boyfriend if you sit always alone home 😂 but fr I friendzoned so many dudes without knowing because I am such a "bro", maybe she is the same way 😂
Because her body is not great according to our society standards. I am saying this because almost 11 guys rejected me before I found true love.
cat moocow well she does look great and I love her but I’m just saying what people really think when it comes to bigger picture
nida nida I guess the truth is maybe we’re only thinking this because society makes us believe that men only like a particular look or whatever. Because I get told I’m too thin and because I work out I tend to lose my curves :( so I get insecure because men I know usually like women with curves... also I’ve been cheated on by my old partner with a girl who was bigger than me and curvier than me... so really, it depends on the guy
Sean: I have a degree in geography
Morgan: So LiKe RoCkS ..
28 and still never had a boyfriend 👋 this is so relatable 😂
Nessalaine oh my god me too aye sis!
Wassup, 29 and no prospects over here 👍
Saame, about to turn 29
Nessalaine 🙋🏻♀️🙋🏻♀️🙋🏻♀️
27!
When Jeffree said, "I'm Morgan's big sister." I felt that.... the intimidation.
Yasss
Can I be your boyfriend I love to be your friend give me a call my name is David I love a beautiful queen like yourself thank you give me this opportunity and Deuce myself I'm very single and looking for someone to spend my life with can you be that match thank you once again you have a beautiful day and a beautiful smile
@@scottimuta489 tf
Scott Imuta stfu
@@EzioTheProphet I'm sorry you had to witness that our Lord and savior
Morgan: I've never been on a date.
Ryland: Really??
Morgan: With a straight guy.
I WAS DYINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
😂😂😂
Your profile pic is cute
@@nataliehunt8624 i-
Gregory Patterson same
Gregory Patterson omg that’s the first thing I fucking thought I just came down to the comments to see if anyone else said anything about it like literally he’s straight Garrett without glasses!
You look so good!! Just healthier in all aspects. You’re glowing. I’m so happy that you’re finally loving yourself even a fraction as much as I love you!! ❤️❤️❤️
Didnt she get her nails done. Then her nails arnt done. Im confused
Thank you!
“I’ve never been on a date.”
“NEVER?”
“... with a straight guy.”
I don’t know how and or why but I felt that
Olising literally me though
Lol thats mee
Me because my first boyfriend was gay 😂🖐️
Lmao same my middle school boyfriend turned out to be gay lmao
Went out with the only openly gay dude in my high school 33 years ago.
I died when Jeffrey Star came out in the end and introduced himself as her big sister 😂🤣😂🤣
soo divine with this coloured wig ;)
lmao, this big sister can crack a whip boi 😂😂😂
Jeffre star is a guy
TACKYYARD 0 Jeffree star doesn't mind being called he or she.
“I’ve never been on a date...with a straight guy” 😂😂
Morgan seriously thank you for making this video. I’m in the same boat and I’m 28. I’m just now starting to understand what it means to love myself
is anyone going to talk about how she said she was going to find someone on craigslist
is anyone going to talk about how she told someone ELSE, that she was going to find someone off EBAY????????
My ex used to have sex with people off of craigslist. *puke*
Shes gonna find a serial killer
@@hannmar pretty sure that was a joke lol
@@DreamItCraftIt idk man im just surprised she didnt say dark web as another one of her options
“Trying to find someone on Craigslist-“
No girl, no
I know even my husband even before I read this comment to him was like, no girl.
🤣
Lmao, did we all go, "CRAIGSLIST?!"
Uh - did she say EBay as well? Like... the Electronic Bay? EBAY?
I panicked when she said that. lol We want you to live, Morgan! lol
wait did anyone else notice that her nails magically undid themselves the day of the date what
You are so gorgeous 🙌🏼 and honestly the most relatable influencer - which is so refreshing. Keep doin you boo and thank you for the inspiration ❤️
For real thought you were gonna go on a date with Jeffree's gate security gaurd
Polly Goad maybe this IS the gate guy?!?! Since Jeffree is there? That would be awesome.
She actually needs to 😂
i was waiting
Polly Goad OH MY GAWD!! You & JS⭐️’s bodyguard would be adorable together frans or buddies either one lol
Jeffree: im morgan’s big sister
But he looked like an overprotective Dad.
hahaha true !!!!!!
can you imagine how intimidated her date mustve been LOL
I totally feel you girl. I've been struggling with my body image my whole life. When I meet new people, I feel really self-conscious. But you need to learn how to love yourself! Love youuuu
OMG what is your lighting setup because it's PERFECTION
Also thank you for sharing your story! It takes real guts and I love following your journey.
I like how Ryland does a spin every time he comes into the frame.
When she said “my brother got married” I thought she meant Ryland. 😂
I forget that she more than one brother
yeah I was like Wh
Same
XD
I panicked for a second
I love Ryland advises and the way he expresses himself.
Breaks my heart you think of yourself this way, your beautiful and have an amazing personality. You deserve to be happy!
“You’ve never been on a date???”
“Not with a straight guy”
LMFAO
No one:
Jeffree: Hi, I’m Morgan’s big sister, Jeffree Lynn. How are ya!
loool
Damn didn’t know it would get this many likes😂
Morgan, thank you for making videos about this aspect of your life, i felt like only a few people struggled with this stuff and seeing you overcome this has inspired me to do the same! thank you