healing from depression, documented. - Healing Diaries (Ep1)
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- Опубликовано: 20 сен 2024
- healing from depression, documented.
2021 was an interesting year. I experienced it all: love, joy, connection, but also betrayal, rejection, heart break, defeat, despair, and the thought of dying alone.
I was struggling with situational depression. It was not something I thought I’d ever experience but became my reality.
I wanted to share my healing journey through the healing diaries with anyone going through similar struggles in life. Please also seek professional help if you are experiencing any depressive symptoms.
Let’s start the healing diaries.
Love you, Zoe ❤️🩹
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You are literally my idol, and you are amazing, thank you, so nice, you are like the best!!!!
But you are tall. I like a tall girl.
you fucking got this zoe
I swear if you do this thing You will forget the meaning of depression Search about Islam, get to know the true religion, just try to know abut it. You will start a whole new life as if you were born again you have to know about it
❤️
Thank you for doing this documentary type of vid. I know it isn’t easy to document really hurt emotions and the struggles you’ve gone through. You’re so strong. Yet you still have time to inspire others by talking about many topics. Ily from the bottom of my heart xx
Yeah relating to something is really so comforting
@@ariesangel4815 ikr. It’s so refreshing to see. Hope y’all get better ✨✨
Never Again Be Isolated - The Michael Voris Show by Church Militant.
Going Through It
The strongest souls fight the most difficult battles. Depression is like an angry dragon that fights us. To master depression, you have to go through it. One does not defeat the angry dragon. Because you are the dragon and the depression. You slowly become one with the dragon and the depression and gain strength in going through it. I hope this helps as it helps me.
As someone who is going through my own depressed moments rn, I totally understand you. I know that healing will take me time. Ty for sharing your journey, it gave me hope for the good things that will come to me in the future. Hugs
Same and im soon gonna go to college but still depressed..... I thought it was just ur regular under pressure highschool student depression but no it still here
@UCtydxU8wmEboE_tAAtF5xAQ For someone who had and has a similar situation at home, I suggest joining online communities coz in my opinion there are two types of people who can help you out in these situations, therapists and people who have overcomed the ✨ DEPRESSION ✨ talking to these people and knowing their story meanwhile acknowledging any situation similar to yours and taking in something from their story. Believe me sharing your thoughts with anybody helps a lot. If it's something you can't share with anyone who knows you well, try talking to strangers online. I hope you get your needed help and if you want we can together takeover this comment and talk about anything you want
@Trinity M hi trinity, i hope you are doing well. I do understand what you are trying to say but the person this was replied to is very young and their family members barely provide them with any emotional or mental support, and for someone who has yet to step into their adulthood, there is a lot of possibility of changing their situation if correctly assessed.
and about your situation, even though your situation can't be overcomed (i know this word doesn't exist but my vocabulary sucks😂😂) , i hope that you have understanding and supporting people around you and maybe a possible love partner who if not change anything, helps you just a tiny bit to get through your day. And thank you for I was ignorant and didn't t consider any other possibilites in my previous comment.
Never Again Be Isolated - The Michael Voris Show by Church Militant.
@@debris703 did u overcome this depression where is this community how can we get connected to different people to know how to heal or can help get it better 😢
Zoe I just want to let you know how truly proud of yourself you should be for sharing such hard times with us you help so many with your insightful and educated words you are a wonderful person and worth everything you might not believe it but your life is so meaningful and impactful x
I 100% agree to everything you said but I can't help imagine the actual Lord Voldemort saying this
@@janing.8188 I know sometimes I regret my decision to name my account that 😂 but I’m way to lazy to change it
@@lordvoldemort1733 is it weird that the last Harry Potter movie was just on the tv (its the ads break)
Our dark Lord really had a character development 😭
@@paulaz.flaquer9570 i know I’m having a redemption arch
It's great that she specifies "situational depression". It's important because situational depression can be so different from other types of depression/mood disorders, and what works to manage one type of depression won't necessarily work for others.
Yes, I couldn't agree more. It meant so fucking much to me to see her specify that she had situational depression. As someone who's had chronic depression for decades, and will likely suffer from depression for the rest of my life, I can't express how disheartening it is to hear people talk about "how they've gotten over their chronic depression"... chronic depression is rarely something you "get over"... it's an illness you deal with for a very, very long time... usually your entire life. It's very different than other types of depression.
@@miserabletry how do you know? like have you been diagnosed or smth? im afraid i have it too :(
Exactly, I'm glad you brought that up. Also considering that we all deal with depression in different ways, not every coping method will work for everyone. It's important to look into your own interests and values to establish a solid foundation to work from everyday
Going Through It
The strongest souls fight the most difficult battles. Depression is like an angry dragon that fights us. To master depression, you have to go through it. One does not defeat the angry dragon. Because you are the dragon and the depression. You slowly become one with the dragon and the depression and gain strength in going through it. I hope this helps as it helps me.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Germany. Really need
Yes, dr.porassss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Is he on instagram?
Yes, he is dr.porassss.
Can dr.poress send to me in UK?
Zoe, you're honestly one of the greatest people that I could look up to on the Internet and I truly mean that. You're so strong you know that? I know what it's like to feel rejected and feel grief. I know what it's also like to feel happy and actually feel good about yourself. We can all try and fake a smile, everyday if we wanted to. Life can throw unexpected things and situations at us and we're told to "push through it." Sometimes we break down and feel like we can't do it or it's impossible but look where you are today. It might not be the greatest day or the brightest but you're still here. And we may not like that sometimes, sure. We may not like even being here at some moments but we were able to live through that and continue pursuing. And how did we do that? Well, don't we all start off with baby steps? Don't we all start off from somewhere broken or somewhere that needed fixing in order to be the person we are today? Depression can feel like a heavy weight on your heart and shoulders. It can come unexpectedly or cling onto you for a long time. Smiling when we don't feel like doing it hurts the most a lot of times. So I'm proud of you, zoe, and anyone else who happens to read this. We all feel like we've hit rock bottom at some point and we've all felt like no one can pull us out. That's just one of the obstacles of life that doesn't seem so fair. Happiness can be hard to obtain if you don't truly feel it inside. But I know that you'll be able to live your life the way you want and be able to express and feel true joy. Don't give up. You're strong enough for any storm even if you fall a couple times. You're worthy of feeling happy, okay? 🤍
Love this.
thank you♡
thank you x
I'm here for you 💕💕
thanx😉
Going through depression is seriously one of the most painful things someone can experience. You are so strong Zoe.
It’s just tragic how she was holding in her tears by saying ‘thank you’ so sweetly to the person on the other line. Love you Zoe! Be strong, stay strong, and we’ll overcome the challenges in life together! ❤️❤️❤️
@Chaos UN-limited wtf? She is the most realistic person I’ve seen on the internet- and wth r u doing here 💀
Going Through It
The strongest souls fight the most difficult battles. Depression is like an angry dragon that fights us. To master depression, you have to go through it. One does not defeat the angry dragon. Because you are the dragon and the depression. You slowly become one with the dragon and the depression and gain strength in going through it. I hope this helps as it helps me.
It took me more than 7 years to finally be able to have half the control over my depression. And I'm grateful now I didn't end things when I used to hate myself for not ending it sooner. Whoever's experiencing the same thing, do know that things get better, just take one baby step at a time 🧸☁️💕🦋🌼
i don’t know why but I can never stop watching mental health documentaries. They’re one of the only things that feel raw and real and as stupid as it sounds make me actually feel something. I can see someone reshape their life and it inspires me to wonder if I can do it too. i’m so proud of you for posting this video and your journey. you make others feel less alone.
it aint ever going away unless you invent brain implant chips that solve depression. instead you chose to complain
what???
@@SoScarlettItWasMaroon i meant. depression happens in the brain. your brain runs by a law "good cannot exist without bad". despite all the technological advancements and stuff given to you, you cannot be happy in the end cause the bad will cancel out the happiness. so your neutral.
the only way to break the law is by shocking certain neurons in the brain that can activate happiness, focus, energy. scientists have shocked neurons can activate mating, aggression, and happiness in mouse but im not sure when they will do humans. humans also have alot more neurons than mouse making it even more difficult.
@@IWorfare but when did I complain 😭
@@SoScarlettItWasMaroon oops sorry you didnt complain. anyways scarlett depression hurts alot and i have realized that we are still no different from other animals. animals eat each other alive out in the wild and suffer horrible deaths.
at least there is a company called "inner cosmos" that has created a brain implant chip that creates mood graphs and shocks neurons, but im not sure when they will release it. for now we will have to deal with big episodes of sadness every 2 weeks and not want to exist for half the time.
Thank you sm for doing this video, as someone who is struggling with an Ed, sh, and Depression, it is so motivating to see ppl shine light to it
Sending you love.
virtual hug
Awww this is so motivitating and I'm glad to know that you've really grown as a person and feel better!! You're so beautiful and kind and this video really showed all the hard things and complicated emotions you had to go through. You inspire me to be my best self everyday!! Love ya ❤
‘Working felt like self betrayal…’ girl, that resonated soo hard with me… That’s how I’ve been feeling at my University for the last 2 years.. I had my second to last exam today… almost had a full blown mental breakdown.. I’ve spent so much time and energy on something I feel no connection to anymore… and I know what I want, but I’ve been pushing through to finish school to get that f-ing diploma.. and now I feel like it has caused irreversible damage on my self esteeme, mental health, and dragged me too far away from my goals… hope it will get better once I get it over with… 😕😕❤️❤️❤️
I don't know how to keep going after leaving school last time. It is a scary process. I wish us both the best.
I feel you to the core. I'm currently in my second year out of three, and I feel the same. My mental and physical health are horrible, I've never felt so bad in my entire life. And the worst part is that I lost any once of passion or motivation for this degree, and every single day feels like a burden and like it keeps dragging and dragging endlessly. I'm typing this as I cry, I really don't know how to deal with this anymore 🥺
@@mariasasu8417 looking at it now that I've graduated.. I think the issue might not be school itself.. right now I have the opportunity to do whatever I want, yet I still have some.. fallbacks and lack of drive and I still find other issues to be upset about.. and the schoolwork has passed and yet my mental state has not changed too much.. but maybe I'm still burned out.. I think meditation helped me some, and I might start going to therapy.. so don't give up yet, maybe the issue isn't what it seems, graduating did help relief some stress, but there are underlying issues 🙏🏼🙏🏼
I love you. Being alive can suck sometimes, but its worth it - trust me
How did you get this sticker stuff???
@@cookie-io2gs Hello my fellow T account :)
Idk honestly its always just been in my emojis! ive only had youtube for like a month though so maybe its a new thing?
no, it’s not
@@tehr6809 Life is not worth living. We try to convince ourselves it is but in reality it's not.
@@arze868 I believe it is. I used to feel it was not, I know how its so convincing. If you need to talk please feel free to use me as a diary.
I'm 14 years old and I cry almost every day.
Because, peoples around me always bully me and called me ugly and even my family members too
They told me ugly and fat
But the day when I started to follow you I feel much confident and I decided to change myself ❤❤
Babe, when I saw this, it reminded me of myself when I went through the same things as you recently. I became aggressive, defensive, defeated and ultimately numb. I withdrew myself from everyone including my family and friends. I just need you to know that whatever you feel are validated and just take your time. Waking up each day can be a chore but it will get better soon, I promise. I am currently still in therapy and learning to open up more to my loved ones which tremendously helped.
You are precious, girl!
it takes so much courage to share this publicly. thank you for being so brave.
Yess....😊
I don't want to be that person, but is it so courageous to share a very relatable kind of sadness which isn't uncomfortable to watch in any way.. Nice living environments, clean clothes, brushed hair...this isn't rock bottom. Suffering is relative, sure, but nothing about this is unflattering in any way.
This video made me cry, and I totally felt it when you talked about having the anxiety of potentially being depressed and falling into a void 😢. this content is very meaningful and I'm happy you decided to share your healing journey
Healing from depression was one of the thoughest things in my life, it's going to take a long time and it's not going to be easy but you have to remember your motivation to do it. You got this💫
@Trinity M gosh I'm sorry, I didn't realise how I came across, should I delete the comment? I don't want people to think depression goes away always
@Trinity M it aint ever going away unless you invent brain implant chips that solve depression. instead you chose to complain
To anyone that writes hateful comments on Zoe’s videos
you monster of a person 😡This girl deserves the world💗💗
you are SO STRONG GURL sending much love , warmth and blessing to you!! let us all HEAL WE'RE IN THIS TOGETHER!! ✨✨❤❤❤🩹❤🩹
THIS was me last year, since then ive healed a lot, my parents and family has become more understanding, and im more proud of myself for going through these tough times than any other achievement AND THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT IT FELT LIKE, CRYING ALMOST EVERYDAY ,GETTING TRIGGERED OVER SMALL STUFF, ETC
Im here to tell you that it gets better💕 you will laugh without a care in the world again, you will be happy and motivated again 🌱
“Im not going to apologise to anyone” love you girl !
I suffered from depression for MANY YEARS. it’s really, really, really hard and painful. What helped me was therapy, friends and medication. The hardest thing was to cut out toxic people from my life. I don’t have contact with my family anymore. Best decision ever but also hardest.
it aint ever going away unless you invent brain implant chips that solve depression. instead you chose to complain
this is literally how my days are as a someone who heals from depression+ too. and thank you for sharing this with us zoe. you reminded me that it is normal and that im not alone. youre not alone too.
I cannot believe how much I relate to what you're going through (and I'm 23 too lol). I was doing an internship and then realized that this is not what I wanted my life to look like. I was contacted by someone for a job interview and then got rejected after my second interview when I felt like that job was going to give me an opportunity to be financially stable while doing what I love. Living by myself abroad is making everything even harder and I also suffer from cycles of binge-eating and restricting. But I'm surviving like everyone. I really love this video of yours because it makes me realize how much pressure we all put on ourselves in our twenties and the weight of disappointment and trying to find oneself. This comment is a bit late but you got this girl.
I highly appreciate that she is not showing the fake and happy side that makes you jealous but she is being herself, treating herself and gaining the energy again .Like every human .
Zoe, I can't even begin to explain how much I needed something like this right now! I've been going through a lot in life, too, i felt betrayed, lost, lonely, rejected, and unhappy too. It really feels like there are things coming your way with full force all at once and you just seem to not handle them all at once, so it exhausts you so much, mentally and emotionally! Thanks for sharing your story and creating awareness, more power to you, and to everyone struggling, hang in there, it'll get better soon, love
From the bottom of my heart, Zoe thank you for starting this series. Over the summer, I literally graduated with an associates degree and celebrated my 20th birthday but was miserable and not even present for those two events due to my on and off situational depression and the overall dissatisfaction with myself and my rate of progress in life that comes with it.
It means so much to someone like me to see you being so vulnerable and raw about all of the unexpected hiccups that’ve occurred in your life and the feeling of being ‘stuck’.
It sounds cliché, but I whole heartedly feel like I’m not alone with these issues. To know that everyone I look up to has struggled and persevered against that similar rut of emotional pain that feels like it’s gonna last forever genuinely gives me hope for myself. That a day will come where I stop feeling like this regularly.
I’ll be tuning in for the whole series~ We love you, Zoe 💕
The part where you cut the phone and starting crying, I really resonated with that. I’ve been in that situation and know how tough it is to hold back the tears and keep a normal voice.
I hope the days ahead a better and brighter.
We got this, FIGHTING GURL!
The bravery it takes to share your most vulnerable self to people is something I admire about you and I honestly deeply respect your decision to share this with people who may be going through the same thing yet we rarely believe others are and think we are alone.
Our lives are never as straight forward as everyone believes but honesty and open mindedness is what helps us to help ourselves and find the peace we deserve. Thank you for sharing that.
Your soul is beautiful and you deserve to be so very happy 🤍
This video is so therapeutic and cathartic in its rawness and simplicity… I think it’s not about whether we have painful moments in our life or not, it’s about how we overcome them and I admire your strength to first overcome all difficult situations and second to share this with other people. Your character shows through this. Thank you, looking forward to seeing more of this story.
After I watched this video, I felt less alone about my struggles. My life has been like a landslide right now for about 4-5 years. Now I understand how it feels to find people who are going through the same struggles as me.
You are a very inspiring person. Thank you so so so much for the video. I really appreciate your effort. 💖💖💖
Heyy! I was crying so bad in the bathroom, when I found this video, no i was searching for this, i remembered your channel, i had followed you thinking i will bingewatch it when i am free, and suddenly today while having a panic attack in the bathroom, i found this video, i rewatched it twice, yes I have severe attention deficiency ❤️ i just wanna say thankyou genuinely thankful for your videos
Hope you feel better soon ❤️🩹🫂
@@zoeunlimited Thankyou this made my day ❤️
Zoe, please do not cry ,u make me want to cry with you. U are so beautiful and u have a whole life ahead of you . What you need is a real friend who will stand by you , no matter what you are going through ❤️.
I’m watching this as I sit after crying after waking up knowing I’ve been battling a depressive episode, and I wanna say your doing amazing work and I feel connected to you dream to express yourself. Sending positive vibes to you. And thanks for being an inspiration
The struggle with stress eating is sth that has had me in the dumps these days. Like whenever I am entering a new level of stress and demands and my own need to prove myself, there's a seed of self doubt and coping gets difficult. Esp through food. Thank you much Zoe! Sending you lots of love
Your editing is fantastic, it’s like poetry 🤍
I’m so proud of you. Being this vulnerable online is not easy 🥺
Not only online 💓
Your so pretty i hope you know this and we are all here for you 😭❤
Zoe, thank you for sharing the journey with us. Obviously, it’s difficult to share vulnerabilities online. Hope things continue to get better for you. You’re doing great.
Omg I’m excited to watch this. The past week I’ve been severely depressed. I actually just got done crying. I cried last night till like 3am. Called into work this morning. Did stuff around the apartment then started crying. I’m very mentally exhausted with depression. It is trying to destroy everything in my life and fighting against it is fucking brutal.
Ok, time to watch xx
I had a kind of situational depression too, and i did'nt have enough money to see a therapist, so one day i promised i'll heal myself, it took me 1 year to stabilize me by my own, reading books about mental health and struggling with my anxiety, and it worked, now i have no regrets for having this kind of feelings in the past, because i know so much more things about my emotions that i did'nt know before, so i really understand you and im identified with this video, its a long journey but makes it worth, im so proud of you, thank you for sharing this documentaries with us.
You are so strong and brave. We are always here for you. Stay strong.
I really appreciate you making this video. It can be so difficult to share your pain with those close to you, let alone a large audience. I’ve been struggling for the past year with own depression and over the last month it’s escalated terribly. Seeing you share your journey helps give me hope but also puts things in perspective. I respect the hell out of your tenacity and your drive, even through the worst of it ♥️
Also can we all just admire how impeccable the editing is?? *chefs kiss*
Thank you for sharing this with us! I know it’s extremely hard to tell others about what you are struggling with or going through. I’m so glad you are getting professional help. All I can do is tell you how much you mean to all of us. You literally light up my life with your amazing content! I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I’ve felt absolutely awful about myself and I’ll just play one of your videos and I’ll feel so much better! Never lose hope Zoe! You are so much stronger than you know! We love you so so much! 💕🥹
wow, im crying. i felt like i was the only one who felt theses things, the ed, the hopeless feeling of unworthiness and the constant sadness
sadly i still hate myself, my body and my life, but this just made me realize that i still have hope to heal myself :( thank you so so so much
i am out of words, just thank you
the editing is so good.
like a real documentary❤🔥
Im grateful for your raw creative and personal vlogs. I for sure want to journal / voice note and express my feelings and doubts. I can relate for sure. What a peak into your loneliness and pain.
You've really put words to some of my own thoughts. Just know I believe it will get better after the storms
Bravooo girl.... It really needs a lot of guts to share ur personal story & suffering with everyone publicly ... GOD BLESS U ❤️
I am an avid mental health awareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my RUclips channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💚💚💚
Thank you zoe for this documentary video...it showed me that I'm not the only one that has gone through so much and im not the only person who feels like everything is only happening to me , i realise that sometimes things won't go our way of course but there will always be other opportunities that await us and that we always have control of our lives ultimately. Healing is a process that cannot be done at once for it has to completely accept and acknowledge the thoughts and feelings we are going through, this documentary taught me alot and gave me a little hope too . Sincerly thank you.💗
I've been going through the same these days.. getting rejected by my crushes.. family problems.. lacking in studies... my old friends left me..no one's trying to understand me.. but I hope all this gets better...Zoe I'm so proud of u...u inspire me sm 🌷
@Trinity M thank u sm...u took time to write sm for me...it makes me feel special... hope u have a good day/night ♡ I'll make sure to follow
Thank you for being vulnerable with us. Anxiety and depression can be crippling
For all those who don't know much about alivia, she is another inspiration who has overcome so many challenges and hardships. I am so glad you both are friends. I have seen glow up diaries of alivia and got so much improvement by it but currently am not my best self..and going to start watching this diary. Thankyou🌷
Thank you for sharing you really motivate me and I really love that you are brave enough to share this ☺️☺️
From the outside looking in, your life literally seems perfect. I know you're very open about your issues, but it's still so hard to actually recognize seemingly perfect people suffer too. Like I might sound dumb, I know. But I hope everything gets a lil better for you. And thank you for being so real with us.
As someone who is currently struggling, this video was really refreshing to see on youtube. Keep your head up💛
Zoe, you are so very impressive. You are figuring out at a very young age what most people take a lifetime to figure out. Your life is your own. Others will always have an opinion. But at the end of the day, those who have such strong negative opinions about what others do and don’t do have very strong opinions about themselves that go against how THEY really feel about their own lives. They also feel inadequate. It’s easy to project one’s feelings onto another; it takes zero effort. It’s intensely difficult to look internally and assess oneself. You are doing that. Keep going!!! You’re very wise and self-aware. You’re ahead of the game. Remember that it’s not about being perfect, it’s about being true to yourself and living your life for you. ❤️
Seeing you cry broke my heart, hope you’re doing better
Thank you for sharing this painful experience. I’m much older now, but will never forget a particular episode I had when I was about 23 and was on my own for the first time, in my own apt. I remember bawling on my bed in deep despair for hours just like you. I couldn’t stop and to this day I don’t think I have cried for as long or hard at a stretch. I’m not sure if there was a particular trigger but I do remember in those days feeling like I just didn’t want to grow up and have to become an adult. I had my first job and my own place but I just wanted to be a kid with my parents again. So it was linked more to an existential sadness and despair.
PS - I think a lot of it had to do with hormones too. Once you get past a certain age, hormones are less of an issue, but as a young female, the ups and downs can be horrific.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are SO strong and mental health really sucks a LOT, but thank you for playing a role in trying to destigmatize it. It sucks that the world tries to downplay mental health, which only makes it worse for us who suffer through it. I know exactly what you're going through and thank you so much for sharing your experience. Rooting for you!!!!
I m going thru a rough patch atm, and the rawness this video has it just made me feel like i m never alone and idk theres comfort in knowing that other people struggle with shit too. I cannot expect life to be a candy store where everything's pretty, and its a hard pill to swallow. Still i m gonna try my best, not fucking give up, cz its fucking my life.
To also those who feel hopeless, i just wanna say there will come opportunities that will drag u from where u are and u can be the creator of them. Idfk how but this is where self love comes and matters the most. U have to be ur friend not a goddamn critic.
Sending y'all warm hugs
you have no idea how much this helps me, seeing someone who i truly don't know, having shitty days like me... makes me feel like i'm not the only one dealing with this. thank you for showing this to us.
I really understand you Zoe, I'm also going through depression and I never thought that you are actually struggling because you seem so happy and you're like my favorite person to watch when I'm feeling down, but I realized that I also put on a "happy face" but inside I'm really not okay and when you were crying it also makes me want to cry. I hope you are working on yourself and hope it gets better, I hope it all works out for me and I really want my depression to get better but I don't know when to start.
zoe, i lived most of my adolescence in a black hole, i recently started a recovery period for myself, out of all the times i tried to get out it all went wrong, this is as far as i've come, it's not even perfect but it's so much better to what I lived, it still makes me crazy that you have started to go out on the street, you are one of my motivations, I love the way you express yourself and you try to improve :
been with you since the very begining because i found you so very relatable ever since your 4 video. lots of love zoe, youre the best
You don’t know how much I needed this video right know
As a person who is always seen as happy energetic I'm really not like that sometimes I literally cry for hours and rn I have depression but I'm kinda healing sometimes I forget I have depression and idk I'm kinda proud of myself for coming this far and I'm still getting better
im a immature high schooler myself but the one who has only admired you for all ur courage and efforts to make a life, a good life. you make me want a good life, work hard and live for myself.. u make me understand that being alone is ok. u never need a whole gang of freimds who will never be for u,but instead a small circle..who can make u feel good about yourself, zoe u are my inspiration,ur journey is always incredicable and i really learn a lot practical things from you
thank you for showing so much honesty when you could have very well kept all this hard part of your life hidden. i'm sure it will help a lot of people to realize that it's okay not to be always happy. and that even your deepest sadness can end some day, and sun shine on your life again. it's always cheerful to see that we're not alone, and mustn't be easy for you to open up about this, so thank you for sharing, this will definitely help a lot of people i'm sure
Healing is an really amazing and important journey. Always keep yourself strong and adore yourself. Just beleive in yourself, and you will finally find yourself in a better version
You are so incredible and so brave to share your story. Sharing let's others know that they are not alone and that it's okay to be in a situation but important to acknowledge and handle it. Thank you for sharing. Reminds us that even the greatest people, meaning you, also have real human emotions and struggles. Stay strong 💜 you've helped me so much.
Thank you so much for that video. You are really brave to share such emotions with a large audience. I'm currently struggling from depression and can't tell anyone about it. I am glad i found your channel recently. Your videos make me feel better, as if I am not lonely. Please continue to film your videos, and take care of yourself.
I really struggle with my depression right now and this video made me feel less alone with my emotions. Thank u so much
Thank you so much for making this I've been stuck in the same loop for almost a year and a half because of depression and my hasn't been progressing ever since i want a way out and i think this series will help me get out of this circle
I really appreciate you making this
My life*
it aint ever going away unless you invent brain implant chips that solve depression. instead you chose to complain
Zoe, you got this. I can somehow relate to this. Not long ago I was in a cycle of deppresion and non-stop binge eating because I wasn't able to feel happy in my school ( bullying) , and was constantly having major stress due to academic and family expecatations. Eventually, I had to drop out of the private school that I was attending, and move to a public school. Hence, I was feeling very disappointed in myself and guilty because my parents's money spent on me was a waste for the past years I have attended this school. I am still battling with depression and I am still trying to accept who I am. But sending out the love and support you need. It is ok to be not ok, and I am very proud of you for sharing your story. Take care Zoe, and as time goes by, everything will get better. :)
Thank you, thank you for doing this, ty for this posts, as much as a lot of dumb people dont care, they envy you for all your achievements, I went through the same things but in school.. its so so hard. you dont know how much you truly inspire your supporters, I cant express my self of how inspired I am and how relatable I am to this video because there are not enough words. you will be my favourite youtuber. influencer. guide. youre an angel this helped so many of us ty from the bottom of my heart 💗
Thank you for being brave to share your personal struggles, Zoe. I couldn't be more proud of you and many of us who had to go through and make out of this rut. You are a wonderful human being and you share so much knowledge to the world! I've learnt a lot from you, and I'll keep doing so. Take your time for yourself if you need to!
Thank you Zoe for making this series it’s been making me feel better because I’m failing school because I’m always moving this is my 11th time moving and my education has been going down , family members committing suicide, and losing weight I sometimes want to start my life all over again and get better. Sometimes I just want to disappear and never exist everyone go through a lot. This whole week has been awful one time I was in class and out of nowhere I started to cry and I wish I could go back and change everything it’s like your wearing a mask and try to hide acting like nothing is wrong and everything is perfect when it really isn’t. Stay strong Zoe we can go through this together💜🫶✨
I only recently realised I have depression. I got diagnosed with anxiety only and went on SSRIs just over a year ago. Watching this is making me realise how sad I was and how much I was crying before the medication until watching this video rn. Its very validating. Ty Zoe x
I can say that I went through the same situation in 2021. I felt like a lost cause, depressed, sleepless nights etc and always wished that I was not born. I understand that the problems we face will never matter to anyone else in this world. It's a hard truth that our problems are always ours, not our parents' or friends'. Hence, healing also comes from within. I am in no position to say this but we must be patient and persistent. Sometimes, when we become ourselves and be more open, people get so jealous and want to dominate us. They would do that by simply hurting us with words primarily. But the way we deal with it comes from us. Zoe, I've been watching your vlogs for a while now. All the good and bad moments you had will always motivate you and remind you to be a better version of yourself and unlock what the next chapter of life holds for you. You are a great person Zoe. Love you. ❤❤
Thank you for posting this. Your bravery has changed so many lives. You are seriously like a real life super hero💜💜 You inspire me to keep going even when mental health gets hard.
Sweetheart, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I know what you mean about having a stage in your life that just falls apart and that no matter how optimistic you try to be, disappointment always blows up in your face. Trust me, I’ve been there. When I lost my job after 5 years, not only was it the worst possible time because I found out my uncle died in a motorcycle accident a few days before but I was also feeling quite miserable with the management at my job after my supervisor got up, left abruptly and quit very unexpectedly. When I was first told that I was getting laid off permanently back in 2017, I felt like my whole world turned upside down to the point where I started feeling symptoms such as crying, getting punched in the stomach, feelings of impending doom, intense fear and panic, shakiness, light headedness, rapid heartbeat, headache, weak in my body (literally), despair, deep sadness, struggling to breathe, tight chest. Looking back on it now, I was having a horrible panic attack but I didn’t know I was having one at that time. I was so distraught and shocked by the news, I almost collapsed and fainted. I can remember feeling like I’m not good enough and how deathly afraid I was at losing a job. By the time, my brother and my mom picked me up from work, I was still crying, shaking and when we were grocery shopping, my body was in so much shock from the news that I couldn’t stand up or walk straight so I grabbed onto the shopping cart for physical support and I was struggling to control my shallow breathing.
From that day on, I started struggling with this new situation of being laid off, being unemployed and to find a new job as an autistic woman. And over the next 2 years, I’ve been updating my skills, taking special job related courses, learning how to do cold calls by email and over the phone, how to prepare for an interview and the endless job searching. By 2018, one year later, I was at my lowest point. I was a mess, thought my life was over, fell into depression, anxiety, self loathing and struggled with lack of self esteem and self worth, started doubting myself, thought that no company would ever hire me because of my autism. But then, a girl whom I befriended from cognitive group therapy started to connect with me and we started a long text chat and opening up about our experiences with depression, anxiety, etc and actually becoming very supportive and caring friends. She suffers from anxiety, agoraphobia, OCD, depersonalization and derealization which is the dissociation she struggles with and knowing that she really needed a friend just as much as I needed one. I kept on encouraging her, telling her how important she was to me and how her friendship, her understanding, her, kind, gentle soul, her loving supportive and encouragement has had a huge positive impact. She made me believe that I’m worthy of being love and that I have helped my friends and family more than I realized because sometimes I feel like nobody ever comes to me for emotional support. The fact that I was able to help her to cope with her agoraphobia, her depression and anxiety and her fear of taking new pills by checking in on her, write and send cards with encouraging, hopeful and supportive messages that I would send to her in the mail, telling her how much I loved her and that I’m always here for her. The more I got to know her, the more I started to fall deeply in love with her. I wanted to make her feel safe, loved and understood. I wanted to comfort her by holding her hand and dry her tears as a way of saying “don’t be afraid, I’m here for you”.
To be continued…
Thank you for sharing this zoe. I cried while watching this because I could relate to this so much thank you for your vulnerability
I just love you girl✨; you have no idea how you helped me. Whatever happens, I need you to remember to ALWAYS BE WHO YOU ARE ❤ and listen to your inner self because, in the end, YOU are the one living your life.
I always thought that famous people hardly got depressed!.. I mean they have everything then why???!!.. but now I understand more and more that this emotion is something that everyone feel atleast once
Zoe, You are very strong and we are proud of you.
Never dim your light for other people. Remember if other people are disappointed, it is their problem, not yours. I am also is financial services and fully understand how you felt, it is a very difficult industry.
Thank you for sharing, never give up on your healing journey ❤️
I just love you so much.
You came when I was in such a hard time.
This makes me feel not so lonely anymore
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thank you so much for sharing this, you are so brave! im in a similar situation and its eating me up from the inside out... i wish i could get help but i cant afford it and everything feels impossible. its like a cycle of feeling on top of the world and then back to crying all day and i cant escape.
Omg Zoe I needed it so much
I had childhood depression, I healed just fine but my mental health is still a mess and especially nowadays because of upcoming college entrance exam
you are like an older sister to me now guiding me through ups and downs of life I've always liked your videos about body issues, societal issues, life lessons etc but this one really touched me
I hope you keep making this kind of content in future too
wish the best for you 🙂
Hi Zoe - going thru the same thing rn and no words can describe how grateful i am to see you sharing your healing process to the public
Thank you so much Zoe for sharing your story and creating this channel in the first place! You inspire me a lot to change for the better and ill always look up to you.
I had something similar happen to me this year where a job rejection completely broke me .But the biggest learning curve in my life has been from this downfall where I questioned everything, started to seek answers from within and heal myself. Thank you for sharing your journey, made me feel like I am not the only one going through this journey ! Much peace and love to you 🤞
Thanks for this video, right now I'm so stressed and tired that I can't even cry
I wanna give you a hug 🫂
I really hope that you are happy and healthy now, u deserve to be happy Zoe you are an amazing and strong person i love you I'm here for you 🥺❤️
If I could say one thing Zoe... I used to be in this place for most of my life. But then the last 2 years, somehow (still figuring it out), Jesus has healed, fulfilled, loved me, and given me so much joy and peace it is a real MIRACLE. I don't talk of religion (I hate religion); I speak of a wonderful relationship. I tried to fulfill myself with everything until I realized Jesus is the only thing that is true and lasting. Take comfort in knowing YOUR life has purpose and goodness and YOU are loved by Jesus.💛
i cried a lot after seeing you go through all the struggles, I'm so proud of you for sharing all your bad days and struggle
we all are so proud of you ZOE...love you dear>3
Please be proud of yourself for summoning the braveness to share these moments that represent a vulnerable part of yourself with us. It’s not easy. I hope that this healing diary helps you and other people out. And just from scrolling through the comment section I can see that you already inspire so many people to save themselves from their own hurtful journey. I am also one of those and love you no matter what. I’m sure many share my feelings. Sincerely sending out love ❤️🩹