Severe depression is genuinely terrifying because your mind turns against you and you are thinking of ways to not exist and that is dark and scary to experience. Truly the worst thing to experience that dread and not know where it will take you, it’s the fear
I was very depressed and Jesus healed me. Had suicidal thoughts for some time and I felt like I couldn’t get out. I was also diagnosed with Major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. He got me out of it and I’m not perfect but I have a working brain now and feel much happier than I was. God bless u I hope he finds you❤
I really feel the voice trembling as she speaks. I feel it in my throat as well. It's not easy to speak about this subject without crying or bring vulnerable. Kudos to her!
I’ve been struggling with depression for 10 years. It comes and goes sometimes and can come on out of nowhere with no warning and for no particular reason. A few months ago, I came off of medication and seeing a therapist. I did very well for several months on my own and I started to think maybe I could deal with it on my own. Then, about two weeks ago, my depression flared up out of nowhere and caught me by surprise. I now have an appointment with a Dr and may need to be on medication again. Realizing I needed to get help again felt like a punch in the gut. I felt like a failure. I struggle with depression because I just want to be normal. I don’t want to deal with it and I hate that it affects those around me, especially my husband. Listening to this felt like a light at the end of the tunnel. Gave me hope when everything seems bleak❤
@pleasevoteBlue I can relate 100 percent. I’m in my 60’s and I have been dealing with depression most of my life. My thoughts are this….. THIS TEDX video is one year old. you replied one day ago- I’m here one year later too.🧐We never give ourselves enough credit when dealing with mental health issues. But with what you just wrote you have know idea How much you have helped me.I could only pray that something in here helps you because after all your here for you not me. God bless.🙏🏾
Wow that sounds exactly like what happened to me. I was on it for 12 years and then thought I would try to get off; didn’t feel anything super off at first but now the depression is hitting me like a million bricks. I’m scared I feel like I can’t go through this again.
Acceptance is key; surrounding yourself with people who understand that you're not mad or bad but you are who you are. Keep on fighting; it always gets better.
Do not try to gaslight yourself. It does not get better. Just learn to live with it and try to get as comfortable ae possible. It's the only solace you'll ever get
I know how you feel. I myself have suffered from depression for years. Would make a Video of my own story but i am on a 18-hour busride haha. Only we sufferers understand each other. There is no point to talk about it much with the so-called normal people. When you wake up early hours in the morning and feel a surge of despair...just think that there is a Mari in the world who often feels the same. I dont know you but i will pray for you now ❣️
I'm 25 and I've had severe depression since 19 years old, all those years I literally did nothing to try and get better and now I'm so behind and unskilled in life I don't know if I'll ever manage to catch up to my peers. If you're reading this, please try and get help before it's too late. It worsens if you don't treat it. Please don't lose any more years of your life.
You're still young. U can do something. I'm 40 and have struggled with major depression. Since age 5. My 1st suicide attempt was at age 6. Agoraphobia came in my early teens and the last 4 years I've been bedbound because of depression. I am not obese I'm simply glued to my bed because of depression Please get the right medicine, walk everyday and drink lots of water. You have plenty of time. Even I have some time.
@@mel...syou absolutley have time. Go at your own pace and remember your life matters just as much as anyone else’s. You are 40. You are in the prime of your life! Just know this stranger on the internet has chronic depression and I am also cheering for you. And for us.
I have struggled with mental illness and my mental health since I was a kid. Before I even knew what those terms were. After years of depression, anxiety, and even an attempt to take my life, I never thought I would be able to live without psych medications. I clung to them because it was the only thing that made my mind quiet, but it also made me a zombie. Microdosing has given me control of my mental health for the first time, and they essentially gave me my life back.
I’ve been researching on psychedelics and it’s benefits to individuals dealing with Anxiety, Depression, ADHD and from my findings, they really work and I’ve been eager to get some for a while but its been difficult to get my hands on them.
The Trips I've been having really helped me a lot. I’m now able to meditate and I finally feel in control of my emotions and my future and things that used to be mundane to me now seem incredible and full of nuance on top of that I'm way less driven by my ego and I have alot more empathy as well
@ohmakure4716 I feel the same way too. I put too much on my plate and it definitely affects my stress and anxiety levels. I am also glad to be a part of this community.
No one has described Depression better than this. I can feel the pain in her voice. My recovery after 2 years of depression started by acknowledging that I have a problem. If you’re going through it now, I wish you the best, don’t give up.
Thank you ❤. My last episode is already 2 years on and I can’t seem to get out of it. I am so ashamed that I have a good situation, a loving husband, no extreme financial problems, a wonderful flat near a beautiful park with a lake, and still some days can’t shower nor eat. I haven’t tried accepting much less allowing me to feel this way… maybe that’s exactly what I need
@melina paixao82 hang in there,I been living with and feeling like Angelica described almost 100 percent. I have been going through this for most of my life, and I’m 64 yo. Your very fortunate that you have the support of family and friends, many of us do not. That is extremely important in recovery of people like us with mental health issues. Being embarrassed and ashamed of my mental health WAS normal feelings and part of the process. Not no more, I am open book to anyone willing to listen but a lot of times I have to go out and find that. there’s a reason I’m watching this Ted talk from a year ago, (and reading the comments) because for me that’s part of my recovery or what some of us Call tools, and in my tool box I have many that I have collected through out the years, I just need to use them more often. Good luck to you and your family.❤
on disability because of it. i never get more than a couple of days before it returns, full force. nearly 30 years, now, and a childhood full of inexplicable sadness even before that. it has put everything i've ever wanted well out of reach. that last one is without a doubt the worst trigger of them all. by all normal societal definitions, i am an abject failure. and i will not let myself forget it. and i don't know who else has this experience with their mental illness, but i don't have good days. i feel hopelessness constantly. the best days i get are simply ones where the hopelessness is slightly milder. that's the best it ever gets.
Alex you are not alone ...trust me I can relate to what you spoke here ....so we all are sailing in the same boat and fingers crossed we will get over it
Same here except for I’m not on disability. My new philosophy I am clinging to is absurdism. Look up “life is absurd Albert Camus” and maybe it’ll bring you some strange peace… (you know, in case the above person’s prayers to an almighty God don’t help you.)
@@wasupman2284 @nmg389 @AT46TF4 only just saw all your messages now. just wanted to say thank you for your kind words. i hope these words find you in reasonable spirits. keep fighting, friends.
Thank you so much for representing us and for the helpful and useful information Angelica. I’ve been battling since I was a child. I’m 30 years old now … this has been helpful.
This meant so much to me to hear you speak of your symptoms and your strength. I have recently been diagnosed with clinical depression and I’m still working through the reality of it/accepting it and some of things you’ve said that you’ve thought are the same thoughts I’ve had. Thank you for speaking on this!
Thank you for this speech and sharing this. I didnt know that I was dealing with depression & anxiety all these years since I was a kid. I've always wondered why I am always feeling depressed and now in my 30s, I have spent the past 6-7 years trying to get better after a few mental break downs. I always tried to mask it by joking or pretending to be happy now its too hard to hard the other older I get. I sometimes now overshare my thoughts when they are extreme and I sometimes beat myself up mentally doing it thinking im crazy and such a mess. Listening to you really helps me understand depression more, that its real and find out ways to be okay with it. Also being okay to express it to others because its hard when people do not know what I/we are going through. Thank you!
Thank you for this. I’m 18 and my dark cloud developed at 13. Just came out of nowhere…… but this is very insightful I’m going to try to accept myself and my illness more.
Thank you for this. I often totally forget the acceptance and allowance part of it. I just feel angry and sad that I am going through it - again! I guess I have to allow for that, too and just get on with functioning through it and resting when I need, because depression is a very real energy sapper.
This is the most honest and relatable video on depression I have ever watched. Thank you so much Angelica for sharing your story and providing hope that it is possible to get out of this rut or at least adapt to it. Your journey gave me so much strength to keep pushing forward.
You worded this amazingly. I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember and was diagnosed when I was 13. I try so hard to ignore that diagnosis and tell myself that everyone is just like me, but I knew deep down something always made me feel separated and different from others. I related so much to the thoughts of feeling too privileged and weak to be this way. I can’t ever figure out what went wrong and why it is I feel this way-some things can be obvious contributors , but other times I feel like I’m the best I’ve ever been and wonder if I’m just lazy or ungrateful. It’s so hard to constantly battle these thoughts and feel like I can’t express my feelings without someone viewing me as less or trying to hospitalize or medicate me. I try telling myself if I’ve done something before then I can do it again, even when sometimes it feels like the cycle never ends and I don’t have the strength this time. I hope everyone who relates can keep growing and maintain or find their motivation. Because despite everything, life is beautiful and there are so many things you don’t want to miss.
This young lady is brilliant! It took me many, many years to understand what the bad feelings were (clinical depression), start working on it and me and come up with ways to manage it. She did this relatively quickly. It rarely goes away, but having ways of coping is extremely helpful. This was a very powerful speech. Thank you!
Psychedelics have the potential to make a significant impact on mental health issues like anxiety and depression. They've been incredibly helpful for me personally.
Medicine for mental health could help others. When I took medicine for depression, it made me feel like I was meditating a bit. My head felt very at peace and calm. The chatter in my head lessened
@@learner4375 I had the same thought too. I'm close to 10 years of being on treatment and I'm not sure if I'm gonna stop anytime soon. I've had many, including my own family, who told me to stop but it doesn't make sense to me because the treatment allows me to function and be productive. The first time I took meds, I had the best sleep ever. Like greengre4689 said, head feels calm and the chatter lessened. There were times that I went a day without the meds because I couldn't get some in time. I really felt the effects even if it's just a day of missing it. I'm dependent on it. There's pros and cons. It's up to you to decide. Just make sure whatever you decide, it's not someone else that forced you to make that decision. Advocate for yourself ❤
I've struggled with clinical depression my whole life. I've tried therapy and medication, and they do give me a brief moment of relief, but then my mind clouds over again and I just stop. My friends and family, and even my previous therapist, tell me that I just need to get out of the house and start eating properly: that I just need to DO these things. But, it feels like I physically can't. It is just so debilitating and perpetual, and it's also really scary. I'm scared my future will be affected by my inability to get out of bed and I'm scared I'll never be able to be happy.
hey, don’t catastrophize thinking that you will never be happy. just focus on today, start with VERY small steps- steps that require negligible effort and build upon them, slowly. Daily affirmations would be your fuel to do so. Have faith in yourself and it’ll be okay!
I understand. It’s so hard to even get out of bed and in my case I sleep terribly so I can’t even escape through sleep, just lying there feeling agitated and desperately low and if I get up I can’t concentrate so i get in bed
Oooh I can relate. I can tell you as someone who is much older: do what it takes to find what gives you feelings of inner joy and deep satisfaction. Make those your priorities in life to make life worth living. It will pay off.
Its all in the head and thats the fact howsoever you try to neglect that. Just accept it. Your negative thoughts are not letting you sleep there is no other reason at all. Just force you to be positive, by force means really force yourself, let the negative thoughts come in just casually drift them away, forget whatever happened in the past. Its fine you were not able to sleep earlier doesn't matter for weeks, months or years, accept it, because negatives thoughts were overpowering you but from now onwards, from today onwards just let them come you are ready to say no to them. Force yourself to talk to your favourite ones howsoever dull you feel talking to them. Negative feelings want you to be alone so that they can conquer you. Don't let their wish fulfill. Stay with your family, stay with your loved ones, howsoever weird you feel. Trust me this is the only way to overcome your fear and the problem. There is no other way. Don't fight the surrounding fight your thoughts ,atleast give it a genuine try you will soon realise how miraculous this thing is you don't need any medicine at all.
I’m here because I been having one of the worst depressions I’ve ever had. I feel so low. My eyes are bloodshot from tears. My status is like an open wound that’s infected. It takes alot just to put on a mask. I’m barely holding on. I do feel safe from myself currently. The thought of just not feeling or being nothing crosses my mind but not acting on it as I’ve had bipolar disorder most of my life and I’m 45 now. I don’t have anyone to talk to about my problems and it gets lonely. I keep telling myself that I’ll be okay and just to think positive but when I do, I feel like I’m lying to myself and masking myself from myself. Ughh 😞 I just want to get better and feel alive again. Thank you for the video.
You are so brave ❤ I know the struggle thank you for “you’ve gotten better from this before you’ll do it again” when I was 18 I went to clinical depression back at it again 😢
PTSD, Anxiety, complex trauma, and depression has been impairing a lot of people around the world and researchers have proven that mind manifestation (microdosing) has been of great help to us, I was struggling for years but now I'm more creative and productive. You see psychedelics does a lot more good than harm and I feel there’s more to it we’re yet to discover. Albovegateway gave me a shot at life after so many years.
I have come across a few positive comments on RUclips and some articles online about microdosing psilocybin,any help on how to reach out to albovegateway?
Put your faith in Jesus. He is alive and He still saves. He saved my life and made me new. I survived suicidal attempts, was hospitalized and on life support. For over 20 years I battled with depression, anxiety, insomnia, low self esteem until Jesus delivered me of all of the demons that were trying to steal, kill, and destroy my life. If you are struggling with mental illness, call onto Jesus! HE HEALS! He completely healed me and made me new. Repent of your sins and ask for forgiveness. He will give it to you. God loves us so much. He doesn’t wish to see any of us perish. Time is running out! Please call on Him, ask to be born again, in Jesus name. He will come soon, and every knee will bow to our almighty King! He who died on the cross for our sins and was then resurrected. Jesus Christ is King!
Watching this on a Friday afternoon. Knowing I will be on the couch the next 50 hours. Alone. First ever depression episode at 42 already lasting 12 weeks. I need answers but getting none.
Hope gets better for anyone struggling with. It can be hard but can also pass and hopefully will for you and it's worth trying to make things better even if doesn't seem like is sometimes.
Very similar story and approach. Years later, it has provided me with the early awareness of signs and symptoms to use the coping skills ive developed, and the strength to trust myself to act in my best interest even with suicide always on my mind.
Yup :// been living with it for years. No situation triggered it. Just hit me out of nowhere. I’m determined to beat it… there is a root cause we just have to find it
This one story of Angelica had literally helped too much of mine and make me more identifiable of my condition of how it's come or why it's there probably this is mental illness ....and this all helps me to get out of my shell. Once again thanks to you much u the genuine lady ❤
@kelseymathias3881 great answer... I keep trying,.. it doesn't work at all. No words can express. I'm in a very dark place right now. ... its very scary for me. I don't like this suffering. No one can ever believe. .. the decision and mistakes I've recently done. ... They all say... No way!! You did that?... why.?? It's that bad.
@kelseymathias3881 tnx for replying. Yes... hoping for us.!🙏 .... I've talked to a psychologist. He even said,.. my situation is devastating, and not only with the many losses and the trauma , I have to suffer from the stress, anxiety, insomnia and severe depression. ..... Sometimes, too much is unbearable. I'm struggling moment by moment. How about you? Are you able to go outside, do things? How about hobbies or friends? .. I don't want to see or talk to any friends, I'm isolating and I hate it. Depression really sucks!😫
@@klanderkal Hi klanderkal, yeah, it's unbearable..Hard to function. .I am barely able to go outside...I try to take short walks....been told they help with mood, but I haven't noticed any benefit. I see few people for only a few minutes....the isolation is so painful, but being around people doesn't help. Like you I struggle moment by moment. Yeah, it all really sucks.
Well spoken. Help and Support is paramount in depression. It's too hard but we should never quit and give up. To persist and be resilient is the way to carry on. Without hope all seems lost, but difficult times prepare for strong individual. Learn to love and appreciate life regardless of depressive pessimistic thoughts. It's something we need to learn to live along and no one might understand the pain and struggle. But that's okay. Infact never complain just share love,kindness and compassion for everything around. Keep self busy with things and you'll feel helped and relieved a bit by your actions that will bring some hope back perhaps.
Put your faith in Jesus. He is alive and He still saves. He saved my life and made me new. I survived suicidal attempts, was hospitalized and on life support. For over 20 years I battled with depression, anxiety, insomnia, low self esteem until Jesus delivered me of all of the demons that were trying to steal, kill, and destroy my life. If you are struggling with mental illness, call onto Jesus! HE HEALS! He completely healed me and made me new. Repent of your sins and ask for forgiveness. He will give it to you. God loves us so much. He doesn’t wish to see any of us perish. Time is running out! Please call on Him, ask to be born again, in Jesus name. He will come soon, and every knee will bow to our almighty King! He who died on the cross for our sins and was then resurrected. Jesus Christ is King!
I really am privileged and feel really guilty about being depressed. Most of the times i feel ashamed and embarrassed to tell people that i am on meds and don't have motivation to do anything. Dammm that worthless feeling is painful.
This is so helpful because it focuses on the present/ intention and taking it day by day. What do I need right now? How can I invite gentleness into my life and how can I show that to myself?
I'm a non diagnosed, medically neglected, ethnic minority, unemployed, undeveloped,unsupported,unhappy British woman approaching my 30s with no life quality and ideating suicide each day. Yet I pretend all is well. I'm not here to boast but to say that acting fine can indeed be done. In an ideal world every one would care for one another's well-being but since this is reality, and especially as an ethnic minority who is already marginalised, you have to pretend all is well.
The thing you said abt intentionality really hit home. Ive never seen a doctor to get diagnosed but I know I have dark days and episodes that once almost led me to giving up completely. But nowadays im feeling better especially when i tell myself im doing a certain something for myself. Everyday i try to go to work earlier and I tell say that im doing it for myself and it makes me feel better.
Always if nothing else, try to act in your best interest, whatever that can mean, even if it's simply not acting on thoughts (suicide, etc) during bad epidodes
The thing is… depression has likely been a part of the human condition since before recorded history. It’s now both stigmatized and popularized under “mental illness.” I’ve lived with it in its recognizable “clinical” form for more than 50 years. I can agree - somewhat - with her three-step plan, but it’s also somewhat a surrender to a cycle that defies “plans.” I’ve been under the cloud for the last few days. I suppose that’s why I ended up here. Thanks for your insights.
This is very helpful. I have been living with depression all my life and I have just gone into a downward trajectory. I think that the menopause can be exacerbating the depression 😢
I'm suffering clinical depression after car accident broke my pelvis I'm. Suffering post traumatic stress and it's crippled me mentally doctors are no help
Going Through It The strongest souls fight the most difficult battles. Depression is like an angry dragon that fights us. To master depression, you have to go through it. One does not defeat the angry dragon. Because you are the dragon and the depression. You slowly become one with the dragon and the depression and gain strength in going through it.
As a fellow spiritual person, I'm just assuming you are, I've found that there is GREAT wisdom in balance between the spiritual route, as well as the 3D route (as much as I hate pharmaceuticals). This isn't medical advice, but I will say this, in case it helps. Go for the path that feels most balanced to you. As someone who's lived life on the edge for ages, trying to cope with my childhood trauma, I've found that the balanced route is the one to take, to find some semblance of normalcy in today's world, whatever that means for you. If of course you don't live in a city, and you're in a heavily nature filled area/town/country/continent already, then your path will probably be different. I speak as a city dweller. ❤
La depresión, aunque estés medicada, t impide levantarte d la cama. Al punto d no poder llegar al consultorio del psicólogo y al psiquiatra. Gracias a Dios ahora lo puedo hacer online... Así q no seguí mirando el video porq si hacía tantas cosas, no entiendo, con todo respeto, q tipo d depresión tenia.
True.. I don't understand how she can do things.... I cannot do anything. I've lost everything. I cannot go outside . Or do anything at all. Hope you are better. 🙏
When shadows grow long and hope starts to fade, And the weight of the world feels endlessly laid, You’ve walked through the fire, you’ve stumbled and tried, Yet no peace has come, only tears you’ve cried. But have you yet called to the One unseen, To the Maker of stars, where mercy leans? If faith feels distant, just take this chance, Close the door softly, step into the dance. Say, "God, if You’re there, hear my broken plea, I’m lost in this darkness, come rescue me. If You exist, show Your mercy today, Heal this burden, and light my way." In the quiet, a whisper might brush your soul, A warmth in the cold that starts to console. And should He answer, you’ll never forget, The love that surrounds, the peace in the debt. So in your struggle, remember this vow, When life overwhelms and you don’t know how: Seek the divine, with heart open wide, For in your asking, He walks by your side.
Severe depression is genuinely terrifying because your mind turns against you and you are thinking of ways to not exist and that is dark and scary to experience. Truly the worst thing to experience that dread and not know where it will take you, it’s the fear
This hit me hard when I read your comment it’s exactly what’s it’s like absolutely terrifying to experience the worst time of my life
@@HelenPerkins-z6y It’s the worst
@@HelenPerkins-z6y How are you doing now?
@@HelenPerkins-z6yHow are you doing now?
I was very depressed and Jesus healed me. Had suicidal thoughts for some time and I felt like I couldn’t get out. I was also diagnosed with Major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. He got me out of it and I’m not perfect but I have a working brain now and feel much happier than I was. God bless u I hope he finds you❤
I really feel the voice trembling as she speaks. I feel it in my throat as well. It's not easy to speak about this subject without crying or bring vulnerable. Kudos to her!
I wholewholeheartedly agree .
Same
You can manage the depression but some cannot
I’ve been struggling with depression for 10 years. It comes and goes sometimes and can come on out of nowhere with no warning and for no particular reason. A few months ago, I came off of medication and seeing a therapist. I did very well for several months on my own and I started to think maybe I could deal with it on my own. Then, about two weeks ago, my depression flared up out of nowhere and caught me by surprise. I now have an appointment with a Dr and may need to be on medication again. Realizing I needed to get help again felt like a punch in the gut. I felt like a failure. I struggle with depression because I just want to be normal. I don’t want to deal with it and I hate that it affects those around me, especially my husband. Listening to this felt like a light at the end of the tunnel. Gave me hope when everything seems bleak❤
@pleasevoteBlue I can relate 100 percent. I’m in my 60’s and I have been dealing with depression most of my life. My thoughts are this….. THIS TEDX video is one year old.
you replied one day ago- I’m here one year later too.🧐We never give ourselves enough credit when dealing with mental health issues. But with what you just wrote you have know idea
How much you have helped me.I could only pray that something in here helps you because after all your here for you not me. God bless.🙏🏾
Wow that sounds exactly like what happened to me. I was on it for 12 years and then thought I would try to get off; didn’t feel anything super off at first but now the depression is hitting me like a million bricks. I’m scared I feel like I can’t go through this again.
I relate to you so much ❤
@@nataliahanson6779 Me too. It’s unbelievable.
@@Anyoneoutthere89 I am glad I am not alone 😔
Hugs to you as you go through your own process 🫂
Acceptance is key; surrounding yourself with people who understand that you're not mad or bad but you are who you are. Keep on fighting; it always gets better.
Do not try to gaslight yourself. It does not get better. Just learn to live with it and try to get as comfortable ae possible. It's the only solace you'll ever get
B.s
10 years still waiting to get better
What a generic response.....
This is not the key.
She is so honest and brave. I cried listening to her. I'm going through exactly the same thing. I thank her for her messages.
I know how you feel. I myself have suffered from depression for years. Would make a Video of my own story but i am on a 18-hour busride haha.
Only we sufferers understand each other. There is no point to talk about it much with the so-called normal people.
When you wake up early hours in the morning and feel a surge of despair...just think that there is a Mari in the world who often feels the same. I dont know you but i will pray for you now ❣️
@@mtamela1855i like your comment ❤❤❤ really only sufferers can understand us
I cried too 😫
Ahhhh yes. A successful person who can afford to be depressed. I can relate 🙄
I'm 25 and I've had severe depression since 19 years old, all those years I literally did nothing to try and get better and now I'm so behind and unskilled in life I don't know if I'll ever manage to catch up to my peers. If you're reading this, please try and get help before it's too late. It worsens if you don't treat it. Please don't lose any more years of your life.
25 isn't too late. It's never too late.
Are u getting better
You're still young. U can do something. I'm 40 and have struggled with major depression. Since age 5. My 1st suicide attempt was at age 6. Agoraphobia came in my early teens and the last 4 years I've been bedbound because of depression. I am not obese I'm simply glued to my bed because of depression
Please get the right medicine, walk everyday and drink lots of water.
You have plenty of time. Even I have some time.
@@mel...syou absolutley have time. Go at your own pace and remember your life matters just as much as anyone else’s. You are 40. You are in the prime of your life! Just know this stranger on the internet has chronic depression and I am also cheering for you. And for us.
Ketamine
I have struggled with mental illness and my mental health since I was a kid. Before I even knew what those terms were. After years of depression, anxiety, and even an attempt to take my life, I never thought I would be able to live without psych medications. I clung to them because it was the only thing that made my mind quiet, but it also made me a zombie. Microdosing has given me control of my mental health for the first time, and they essentially gave me my life back.
I’ve been researching on psychedelics and it’s benefits to individuals dealing with Anxiety, Depression, ADHD and from my findings, they really work and I’ve been eager to get some for a while but its been difficult to get my hands on them.
The Trips I've been having really helped me a lot. I’m now able to meditate and I finally feel in control of my emotions and my future and things that used to be mundane to me now seem incredible and full of nuance on top of that I'm way less driven by my ego and I have alot more empathy as well
I was having this constant, unbearable anxiety due to work stress. Not until I came across a very intelligent mycologist. He saved my life honestly
His name is *DR Adolf Petter*
@ohmakure4716
I feel the same way too. I put too much on my plate and it definitely affects my stress and anxiety levels. I am also glad to be a part of this community.
To all the people with clinical depression...you people are survivors❤
Thank you for saying that
No I'm gonna die. I can not fight with depression anymore
No one has described Depression better than this. I can feel the pain in her voice. My recovery after 2 years of depression started by acknowledging that I have a problem. If you’re going through it now, I wish you the best, don’t give up.
Are you fully recovered now?
Thank you ❤. My last episode is already 2 years on and I can’t seem to get out of it. I am so ashamed that I have a good situation, a loving husband, no extreme financial problems, a wonderful flat near a beautiful park with a lake, and still some days can’t shower nor eat. I haven’t tried accepting much less allowing me to feel this way… maybe that’s exactly what I need
@melina paixao82 hang in there,I been living with and feeling like Angelica described almost 100 percent. I have been going through this for most of my life, and I’m 64 yo.
Your very fortunate that you have the support of family and friends, many of us do not. That is extremely important in recovery of people like us with mental health issues.
Being embarrassed and ashamed of my mental health WAS normal feelings and part of the process. Not no more, I am open book to anyone willing to listen but a lot of times
I have to go out and find that. there’s a reason I’m watching this Ted talk from a year ago, (and reading the comments) because for me that’s part of my recovery or what some of us
Call tools, and in my tool box I have many that I have collected through out the years, I just need to use them more often. Good luck to you and your family.❤
@@Louiepr60 im dying inside and live in complete sadness. I'm struggling so much!
Don’t give up ❤❤❤❤❤
on disability because of it. i never get more than a couple of days before it returns, full force. nearly 30 years, now, and a childhood full of inexplicable sadness even before that. it has put everything i've ever wanted well out of reach. that last one is without a doubt the worst trigger of them all. by all normal societal definitions, i am an abject failure. and i will not let myself forget it. and i don't know who else has this experience with their mental illness, but i don't have good days. i feel hopelessness constantly. the best days i get are simply ones where the hopelessness is slightly milder. that's the best it ever gets.
Alex you are not alone ...trust me I can relate to what you spoke here ....so we all are sailing in the same boat and fingers crossed we will get over it
Same here except for I’m not on disability. My new philosophy I am clinging to is absurdism. Look up “life is absurd Albert Camus” and maybe it’ll bring you some strange peace… (you know, in case the above person’s prayers to an almighty God don’t help you.)
I can resonate with everything with u. I live in complete sadness daily and its exhausting. I hate living like this, the person I am
@@wasupman2284 @nmg389 @AT46TF4 only just saw all your messages now. just wanted to say thank you for your kind words. i hope these words find you in reasonable spirits. keep fighting, friends.
Same here... No good days.
Thank you so much for representing us and for the helpful and useful information Angelica. I’ve been battling since I was a child. I’m 30 years old now … this has been helpful.
This meant so much to me to hear you speak of your symptoms and your strength. I have recently been diagnosed with clinical depression and I’m still working through the reality of it/accepting it and some of things you’ve said that you’ve thought are the same thoughts I’ve had. Thank you for speaking on this!
You are not alone. We will fight this battle and win
Me too im living in torment. How r u coping? Its exhausting
Thank you! I now feel that I am not the only person dealing with depression
You're definitely not the only person. ❤ We're all in this together.
Thank you for this speech and sharing this. I didnt know that I was dealing with depression & anxiety all these years since I was a kid. I've always wondered why I am always feeling depressed and now in my 30s, I have spent the past 6-7 years trying to get better after a few mental break downs. I always tried to mask it by joking or pretending to be happy now its too hard to hard the other older I get. I sometimes now overshare my thoughts when they are extreme and I sometimes beat myself up mentally doing it thinking im crazy and such a mess. Listening to you really helps me understand depression more, that its real and find out ways to be okay with it. Also being okay to express it to others because its hard when people do not know what I/we are going through. Thank you!
Thank you for this. I’m 18 and my dark cloud developed at 13. Just came out of nowhere…… but this is very insightful I’m going to try to accept myself and my illness more.
Thank you for this. I often totally forget the acceptance and allowance part of it. I just feel angry and sad that I am going through it - again! I guess I have to allow for that, too and just get on with functioning through it and resting when I need, because depression is a very real energy sapper.
This is the most honest and relatable video on depression I have ever watched. Thank you so much Angelica for sharing your story and providing hope that it is possible to get out of this rut or at least adapt to it. Your journey gave me so much strength to keep pushing forward.
You worded this amazingly. I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember and was diagnosed when I was 13. I try so hard to ignore that diagnosis and tell myself that everyone is just like me, but I knew deep down something always made me feel separated and different from others. I related so much to the thoughts of feeling too privileged and weak to be this way. I can’t ever figure out what went wrong and why it is I feel this way-some things can be obvious contributors , but other times I feel like I’m the best I’ve ever been and wonder if I’m just lazy or ungrateful. It’s so hard to constantly battle these thoughts and feel like I can’t express my feelings without someone viewing me as less or trying to hospitalize or medicate me. I try telling myself if I’ve done something before then I can do it again, even when sometimes it feels like the cycle never ends and I don’t have the strength this time. I hope everyone who relates can keep growing and maintain or find their motivation. Because despite everything, life is beautiful and there are so many things you don’t want to miss.
I feel guilty when I’m happy, I sometimes want to cry when I feel like I can breathe again.
This young lady is brilliant! It took me many, many years to understand what the bad feelings were (clinical depression), start working on it and me and come up with ways to manage it. She did this relatively quickly. It rarely goes away, but having ways of coping is extremely helpful. This was a very powerful speech. Thank you!
Psychedelics have the potential to make a significant impact on mental health issues like anxiety and depression. They've been incredibly helpful for me personally.
I've been looking to try some recently, but I can't find anywhere to source.
doc.coby is your guy. The best shrooms and psychedelics guy I know.
He's on instgram??
Yes
I had my first experience with golden teachers, it was really great.
Thank you angelica and Ted x ,great recovery tools for anyone like us dealing with depression. Wish you well in your journey.
Medicine for mental health could help others. When I took medicine for depression, it made me feel like I was meditating a bit. My head felt very at peace and calm. The chatter in my head lessened
My doctor told me I may become dependent on the medicine.. now I'm a bit scared should I take it or not.
@@learner4375 I had the same thought too. I'm close to 10 years of being on treatment and I'm not sure if I'm gonna stop anytime soon. I've had many, including my own family, who told me to stop but it doesn't make sense to me because the treatment allows me to function and be productive. The first time I took meds, I had the best sleep ever. Like greengre4689 said, head feels calm and the chatter lessened.
There were times that I went a day without the meds because I couldn't get some in time. I really felt the effects even if it's just a day of missing it. I'm dependent on it.
There's pros and cons. It's up to you to decide. Just make sure whatever you decide, it's not someone else that forced you to make that decision. Advocate for yourself ❤
I've struggled with clinical depression my whole life. I've tried therapy and medication, and they do give me a brief moment of relief, but then my mind clouds over again and I just stop. My friends and family, and even my previous therapist, tell me that I just need to get out of the house and start eating properly: that I just need to DO these things. But, it feels like I physically can't. It is just so debilitating and perpetual, and it's also really scary. I'm scared my future will be affected by my inability to get out of bed and I'm scared I'll never be able to be happy.
hey, don’t catastrophize thinking that you will never be happy. just focus on today, start with VERY small steps- steps that require negligible effort and build upon them, slowly. Daily affirmations would be your fuel to do so. Have faith in yourself and it’ll be okay!
I understand. It’s so hard to even get out of bed and in my case I sleep terribly so I can’t even escape through sleep, just lying there feeling agitated and desperately low and if I get up I can’t concentrate so i get in bed
Oooh I can relate. I can tell you as someone who is much older: do what it takes to find what gives you feelings of inner joy and deep satisfaction. Make those your priorities in life to make life worth living. It will pay off.
Sometimes It's feels like my soul is trapped in body. It’s struggling to leave but I don’t have enough guts to let it go and make it free😢
I feel you ❤️🩹
Literally that
@@xcozyk 😓
Its all in the head and thats the fact howsoever you try to neglect that. Just accept it. Your negative thoughts are not letting you sleep there is no other reason at all. Just force you to be positive, by force means really force yourself, let the negative thoughts come in just casually drift them away, forget whatever happened in the past. Its fine you were not able to sleep earlier doesn't matter for weeks, months or years, accept it, because negatives thoughts were overpowering you but from now onwards, from today onwards just let them come you are ready to say no to them. Force yourself to talk to your favourite ones howsoever dull you feel talking to them. Negative feelings want you to be alone so that they can conquer you. Don't let their wish fulfill. Stay with your family, stay with your loved ones, howsoever weird you feel. Trust me this is the only way to overcome your fear and the problem. There is no other way. Don't fight the surrounding fight your thoughts ,atleast give it a genuine try you will soon realise how miraculous this thing is you don't need any medicine at all.
@@arthgupta2817 thanks❤️I'm gonna make it
I’m here because I been having one of the worst depressions I’ve ever had. I feel so low. My eyes are bloodshot from tears. My status is like an open wound that’s infected. It takes alot just to put on a mask. I’m barely holding on. I do feel safe from myself currently. The thought of just not feeling or being nothing crosses my mind but not acting on it as I’ve had bipolar disorder most of my life and I’m 45 now. I don’t have anyone to talk to about my problems and it gets lonely. I keep telling myself that I’ll be okay and just to think positive but when I do, I feel like I’m lying to myself and masking myself from myself. Ughh 😞 I just want to get better and feel alive again. Thank you for the video.
@@rVillanueva1111 how are you doing now?
You are on point.i get goosebumps with your admission to chronic depression. Sheri from Omaha Nebraska depression
You are so brave ❤ I know the struggle thank you for “you’ve gotten better from this before you’ll do it again” when I was 18 I went to clinical depression back at it again 😢
I needed to hear this.
I'm experiencing overwhelming depression today.
I feel numb.
i hope you are feeling better today!
"I am an expert in my personal story."🙏🏾
This really helped me a lot 😢😢 have been struggling with severe depression and somatic ocd this year, please pray 🙏 for me.
PTSD, Anxiety, complex trauma, and depression has been impairing a lot of people around the world and researchers have proven that mind manifestation (microdosing) has been of great help to us, I was struggling for years but now I'm more creative and productive. You see psychedelics does a lot more good than harm and I feel there’s more to it we’re yet to discover. Albovegateway gave me a shot at life after so many years.
I have come across a few positive comments on RUclips and some articles online about microdosing psilocybin,any help on how to reach out to albovegateway?
Is he on instagram?
@@tamicahardina980 yes, you can look him up.
Put your faith in Jesus. He is alive and He still saves. He saved my life and made me new. I survived suicidal attempts, was hospitalized and on life support. For over 20 years I battled with depression, anxiety, insomnia, low self esteem until Jesus delivered me of all of the demons that were trying to steal, kill, and destroy my life. If you are struggling with mental illness, call onto Jesus! HE HEALS! He completely healed me and made me new. Repent of your sins and ask for forgiveness. He will give it to you. God loves us so much. He doesn’t wish to see any of us perish. Time is running out! Please call on Him, ask to be born again, in Jesus name. He will come soon, and every knee will bow to our almighty King! He who died on the cross for our sins and was then resurrected. Jesus Christ is King!
Red flag, scammer alert…
Watching this on a Friday afternoon. Knowing I will be on the couch the next 50 hours. Alone. First ever depression episode at 42 already lasting 12 weeks. I need answers but getting none.
What kind of answers are you looking for? Willing to help if I could.
Me too 😢
Will you contact me lm struggling too on the settee all day 😢
@@Louiepr60how do we get out of things horrendous depression????
She’s able to work and read a book, that’s more than some can do when deeply depressed
Exactl
It's important to check in with yourself. Thank you for sharing. Very brave!
Wow. When she talked about "Allowance" and what that is and means, she helped me.
Hope gets better for anyone struggling with. It can be hard but can also pass and hopefully will for you and it's worth trying to make things better even if doesn't seem like is sometimes.
Very similar story and approach. Years later, it has provided me with the early awareness of signs and symptoms to use the coping skills ive developed, and the strength to trust myself to act in my best interest even with suicide always on my mind.
Yup :// been living with it for years. No situation triggered it. Just hit me out of nowhere. I’m determined to beat it… there is a root cause we just have to find it
not always it has a root... sadly
@@harmony4537 it’s an issue with the brain
This one story of Angelica had literally helped too much of mine and make me more identifiable of my condition of how it's come or why it's there probably this is mental illness ....and this all helps me to get out of my shell.
Once again thanks to you much u the genuine lady ❤
Accepting this makes you GOAT . you are not alone there are millions who suffers in silence.
I wept through this entire video.
Why can’t i explain my pain to others?
Unless they've had depression, there's no way for them to imagine the mental....and physical pain of the illness. It's soul-crushing.
@kelseymathias3881 great answer... I keep trying,.. it doesn't work at all. No words can express.
I'm in a very dark place right now. ... its very scary for me. I don't like this suffering. No one can ever believe. .. the decision and mistakes I've recently done. ...
They all say... No way!! You did that?... why.??
It's that bad.
@@klanderkal I'm the same...feel all my decisions are wrong....very hard to function normally...wishing better days for us
@kelseymathias3881 tnx for replying.
Yes... hoping for us.!🙏
.... I've talked to a psychologist.
He even said,.. my situation is devastating, and not only with the many losses and the trauma , I have to suffer from the stress, anxiety, insomnia and severe depression.
..... Sometimes, too much is unbearable. I'm struggling moment by moment. How about you? Are you able to go outside, do things? How about hobbies or friends?
.. I don't want to see or talk to any friends, I'm isolating and I hate it.
Depression really sucks!😫
@@klanderkal Hi klanderkal, yeah, it's unbearable..Hard to function. .I am barely able to go outside...I try to take short walks....been told they help with mood, but I haven't noticed any benefit. I see few people for only a few minutes....the isolation is so painful, but being around people doesn't help. Like you I struggle moment by moment. Yeah, it all really sucks.
I feel so heard and understood. This explains what’s been going on with me for a long time, thank you ❤
Well spoken. Help and Support is paramount in depression. It's too hard but we should never quit and give up. To persist and be resilient is the way to carry on. Without hope all seems lost, but difficult times prepare for strong individual. Learn to love and appreciate life regardless of depressive pessimistic thoughts. It's something we need to learn to live along and no one might understand the pain and struggle. But that's okay. Infact never complain just share love,kindness and compassion for everything around. Keep self busy with things and you'll feel helped and relieved a bit by your actions that will bring some hope back perhaps.
I feel better after listening to this. There is very useful information that I live by.
Thank you for this Angelica❤
I needed this today. Thank you for sharing. ❤
Put your faith in Jesus. He is alive and He still saves. He saved my life and made me new. I survived suicidal attempts, was hospitalized and on life support. For over 20 years I battled with depression, anxiety, insomnia, low self esteem until Jesus delivered me of all of the demons that were trying to steal, kill, and destroy my life. If you are struggling with mental illness, call onto Jesus! HE HEALS! He completely healed me and made me new. Repent of your sins and ask for forgiveness. He will give it to you. God loves us so much. He doesn’t wish to see any of us perish. Time is running out! Please call on Him, ask to be born again, in Jesus name. He will come soon, and every knee will bow to our almighty King! He who died on the cross for our sins and was then resurrected. Jesus Christ is King!
Amazing!!! You are a true advocate for mental health. Thank you for sharing your story ☺️🙌
Loved this. Her story and advice. Thank you.
Go Angelica! I love this for you so much!
I really am privileged and feel really guilty about being depressed. Most of the times i feel ashamed and embarrassed to tell people that i am on meds and don't have motivation to do anything. Dammm that worthless feeling is painful.
Well done - keep spreading the word 🙏🏼☮️
So grateful for this experience 💜
I love this. I was diagnosed earlier this year
This is so helpful because it focuses on the present/ intention and taking it day by day. What do I need right now? How can I invite gentleness into my life and how can I show that to myself?
Angelica, thanks for sharing
My son killed himself. Mental pressure and damage are something we all struggle with
The world must already find a way to treat this cursed disease in a way that will eliminate it forever!
My last most depressive episode was 2019, now it has come back in 2023 September in a new country altogether
I'm a non diagnosed, medically neglected, ethnic minority, unemployed, undeveloped,unsupported,unhappy British woman approaching my 30s with no life quality and ideating suicide each day. Yet I pretend all is well. I'm not here to boast but to say that acting fine can indeed be done. In an ideal world every one would care for one another's well-being but since this is reality, and especially as an ethnic minority who is already marginalised, you have to pretend all is well.
I’m going through the same thing…but we have to stay strong!
I wonder how you are doing 🌻🪻🌺🌸🌼
Don't give up! ❤
The thing you said abt intentionality really hit home. Ive never seen a doctor to get diagnosed but I know I have dark days and episodes that once almost led me to giving up completely. But nowadays im feeling better especially when i tell myself im doing a certain something for myself. Everyday i try to go to work earlier and I tell say that im doing it for myself and it makes me feel better.
I can’t do hardly any of this stuff in a depressive episode, 99% of these activities are out of question on my bad days sadly
Always if nothing else, try to act in your best interest, whatever that can mean, even if it's simply not acting on thoughts (suicide, etc) during bad epidodes
Bad days? Thats all i have cant remember good days
The thing is… depression has likely been a part of the human condition since before recorded history. It’s now both stigmatized and popularized under “mental illness.”
I’ve lived with it in its recognizable “clinical” form for more than 50 years. I can agree - somewhat - with her three-step plan, but it’s also somewhat a surrender to a cycle that defies “plans.”
I’ve been under the cloud for the last few days. I suppose that’s why I ended up here.
Thanks for your insights.
❤ I suffer too Gel....it sucks.....zoloft, clonazapam just to function and still dark clouds.....good for you though 👍
You are so brave. And I know you sharing will help many. thank you so much. Your awesome
Your a great person!! Stick in there!!!
This is very helpful. I have been living with depression all my life and I have just gone into a downward trajectory. I think that the menopause can be exacerbating the depression 😢
I'm suffering clinical depression after car accident broke my pelvis I'm. Suffering post traumatic stress and it's crippled me mentally doctors are no help
Ahhh so proud of you!!!!!❤
I love this! The practical steps actually seem doable and realistic, thanks ❤
Going Through It
The strongest souls fight the most difficult battles. Depression is like an angry dragon that fights us. To master depression, you have to go through it. One does not defeat the angry dragon. Because you are the dragon and the depression. You slowly become one with the dragon and the depression and gain strength in going through it.
Thank you so much for sharing 💖
Thank u for making this on my birthday too
I really needed to hear this, thank you so much for sharing ❤️
I always feel like it's not if i do it, but only when.
Smile from your stomach. It helped me tremendously.
Hoory!! You’re so brave ❤❤
Why this didn't get 10 million views?!
its very recent
If i dont have depression then i dont know what…
3 years of pain and i have no idea what to do
Thank you Angelica ❤❤❤❤
Estou atualmente em uma grande crise... Não consigo trabalhar e estou com muita vergonha 😢A culpa é inevitável
Calling friends! As if you have any after this illness has taken everything
Good points! Thank you❤️
Wonderful talk!
Beautifully done very brave of her
I also have clinical depression. I was thinking about trying microdosing on psychedelics to help "unlock" my brain. What do you guys reckon?
Antidepressants are far more effective once you find the right one
depends on your history and psychological state, if you're prone to psychosis it's probably a bad idea but who knows maybe it will help
Does it help permanently or you have to keep taking the drugs?
As a fellow spiritual person, I'm just assuming you are, I've found that there is GREAT wisdom in balance between the spiritual route, as well as the 3D route (as much as I hate pharmaceuticals). This isn't medical advice, but I will say this, in case it helps. Go for the path that feels most balanced to you. As someone who's lived life on the edge for ages, trying to cope with my childhood trauma, I've found that the balanced route is the one to take, to find some semblance of normalcy in today's world, whatever that means for you.
If of course you don't live in a city, and you're in a heavily nature filled area/town/country/continent already, then your path will probably be different. I speak as a city dweller. ❤
Thank you ❤❤❤
La depresión, aunque estés medicada, t impide levantarte d la cama. Al punto d no poder llegar al consultorio del psicólogo y al psiquiatra. Gracias a Dios ahora lo puedo hacer online...
Así q no seguí mirando el video porq si hacía tantas cosas, no entiendo, con todo respeto, q tipo d depresión tenia.
True..
I don't understand how she can do things.... I cannot do anything. I've lost everything.
I cannot go outside . Or do anything at all. Hope you are better. 🙏
Now that I have acknowledged, accepted and allowed my depression, what do I do next? How do I get rid of depression?
Thank you!
Proud of u
When shadows grow long and hope starts to fade,
And the weight of the world feels endlessly laid,
You’ve walked through the fire, you’ve stumbled and tried,
Yet no peace has come, only tears you’ve cried.
But have you yet called to the One unseen,
To the Maker of stars, where mercy leans?
If faith feels distant, just take this chance,
Close the door softly, step into the dance.
Say, "God, if You’re there, hear my broken plea,
I’m lost in this darkness, come rescue me.
If You exist, show Your mercy today,
Heal this burden, and light my way."
In the quiet, a whisper might brush your soul,
A warmth in the cold that starts to console.
And should He answer, you’ll never forget,
The love that surrounds, the peace in the debt.
So in your struggle, remember this vow,
When life overwhelms and you don’t know how:
Seek the divine, with heart open wide,
For in your asking, He walks by your side.
Mam ....that accceptance reallly works...thanks a lot❤️❤️
Thank you for this. ❤
Thank u
Im 47...bipolar depression fr 35 years... Have tried everything....
Hearing this after trying to suicide 2x in a month... gives hpoe, and perspective
You have to stay strong
Remember God is with everyone 😊
Such a great share...Thank you...🙏
Thankyou 💜 🙏