I have tried to commit suicide 2 times and both times I have failed. My mom looks so much like her, with her gray hair, her smile, her way of talking. I've seen this entire interview crying because I can't imagine that in the future my mom will be the one giving this interview. It's hard, and I've suffered too much, but I'm grateful that no one who loves me can say that I'm gone. I will keep fighting
You’re not alone, God will always love you and be there for you. Ask God and you will receive what you ask if it’s for your good. I have found incomparable joy in Jesus and nothing in this world compares. Ask God to give you his peace and joy, that’s the void that is often felt in our hearts when we have not experienced his love. Go to a prayer group and free yourself from such thoughts… God will heal you. I will keep you in my prayers
@@geekemedia please be quiet I beg of you if you’re going act like that stop. That child was hurt and as a result that trauma impacted her. Stop trying to be insensitive.
@wolfiebby1304 I wasn't being insensitive at all. I was genuinely confused because the video says she took her own life but the comment is saying someone did this to her. As an autistic person I can't always read between the lines. I didn't realize they were talking about the therapist changing her medication until the comment right before yours.
As someone who just survived a severe suicide attempt & being on life support, this heartbreaking story helps me remember why I’m still going and fighting, despite how hard it is.
I may not know you personally, but I know that your life is far too precious to be cut short. There is a loving God, who loves you so much, that he sent his only son to die for you, so that you could be forgiven of your sins and have eternal life. The Lord Jesus Christ died for you, and he wants to have a relationship with you, he can give you a new heart with new desires and save your lost soul "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."John 3:16 "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord."Romans 6:23 If you put your faith in the saviour Jesus Christ and repent, which means to turn from your sins, you will be saved from your sins and given eternal life which is a free gift from God, and it is the greatest gift ever! Jesus said "Let not your heart be troubled: you believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also. And you know the way to where I am going I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me." Jesus can give you true peace in your heart that transcends all understanding and joy that nobody can steal from you "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14 I hope you will have true peace and joy and love in the lord Jesus Christ ✝️❤️
I lost my little sister to suicide when she was 19 and I was 24. She was my angel, the person I was closest to on this planet. Im middle aged now and the pain never goes away. I hope this lovely lady finds some peace. Perhaps all our lost loved ones are free now.
Especially considering it had information about what she wanted done with her body/last wishes. That was an important document authored specifically for her family, not the coroner.
I agree. Suicide is very taboo and uncomfortable. To be honest the police and authorities treat it like… let’s clean up the mess and keep things quiet. It’s very secretive and hush hush. I personally witness how they handle it and they handle it almost like a cover up. So it doesn’t surprise me they withheld the letter. If you look at the numbers suicides are about to become the 10th leading cause of death in the USA. “They” don’t want to publicize this.
Depression and other mental health orders are real, everyone. For those of you who like to act like it’s “selfish” to commit suicide- you have zero understand of how severe mental health disorders can be. You have no idea how unimaginably evil it is to say that. God bless you Cashleigh. You were and always will be so loved. I hope you are flying free wherever you are, safe and warm. Your mama loves you!
We need to get down to what causes depression. Depression for the un-spiritual is a demon. Demons cause emotions like unhappiness, wrath, etc. They can cause people to have problems mentally too. Thats the problem. Mental challenges just don't happen. I'm homeless. Why I don't have. Mental disorders?
@@michaelbush9603 She was raped as a child. Depression can be genetic and it can also be caused by severe trauma. You’re so selfish making it about yourself… good for you that you don’t have it
Being from a conservative black family: no one took my mental health seriously. I felt like I always needed to be defensive, I always had to protect myself or “prove” that I needed help. My family thought I was spoiled and didn’t have it that bad. I had to repress my emotions just to make it easier for others. Mental health isn’t a joke. It isn’t to be quirky or edgy. It’s real and it’s ugly and it’s terrible
Exactly the same experience but from a conservative white European family. We are all on the same boat. I sometimes feel like I will never stop treatment because the specialists are the only people who acknowledge what I tell them.
I am also from a black family. And I understand. Everyone thinks they know you and that you don’t know yourself. And that You don’t know what you’re talking about. So I understand.
@@ironfist458 How was that pulling the race card? It's true a lot of black families don't value mental health at all most of the time when SA is involved they'd rather keep it a family secret and create generational trauma. You clearly don't know what that word means because pulling the race card is only used to gain the upper hand in arguments not when explaining the trauma that comes with being raised in a black conservative household.
Unfortunately it won't. If anyone feels tortured be it by physical pain or otherwise and it will not minimize despite all efforts, it becomes unbearable.
This poor mother was a single mom who gave her four kids a loving home. This is truly sad and devastating. I can’t even imagine how heartbroken she must of felt
@@internetstranger- what’s weird is her daughter was violated and she neglected to get her the mental help she needed and the support. We love making the wrong people the victim. The daughter was the victim
@@ceceslivinglife How can you say something as disgusting as that? You are blaming her mother for not knowing a family member abused her child? She said she cut that family member off as soon as she witnessed what he did, so it is safe to assume her daughter was not saying anything when the abuse was happening and she was 8. Then she probably remembered past trauma as she got into college and experienced romantic relationships for the first time. Her mum had no power over any of that. She got her psychiatric help, and the psychiatrist gave her and adjusted her medication according to her needs, they were probably changing the medication often since she had severe side effects and no medication seemed to work. Her mum tried to help her, but unfortunately, her pain was too strong and she did not make it. Stop blaming her mum for things she could not control. She most likely blames herself enough as is for not knowing what was going to happen.
After trying my first therapist, I went to another therapist for almost 2 yrs for my depression and anxiety. It never really got better. It actually got worse. I just stopped going one day and then hit rock bottom. I can't remember how, but I came across a therapist who practiced brain spotting. She absolutely changed my life. While I still have a lot of work to put in, without her and the skills she taught me, I honestly don't know where I would be. She helped me realize and connect dots I never saw before. And she did it all over FaceTime.
Me and Cashleigh were friends in 8th and 9th grade, never super close but we texted on and off. We had a few classes together, and when I found out about her death back in December I was so shocked I just couldn’t believe it. She was such a kind and funny girl, always full of life like her mom said here. Wish I could have gotten to know her more but I’ll always appreciate the friendship we had at the time. Rest in Peace, Cashleigh. Heaven has gained another Angel.
@@RockJack-cs6vuJudging by how she looked - her father was black. Probably went to get the milk like most black fathers. Mom owned her own home and had a good job and took care of her kids... this is just an unfortunate situation.
Not getting her Cashleigh's full note until months after her passing is horrible and in this case, I agree with the mom in saying, it should be illegal.
Dude give the woman some grace. It happened to Cashleigh so her mom wanted to respect her daughter’s decisions in how to proceed. She already said she regretted it, she already tortures herself about it. Just stop.
@@SamStone1964stop judging unless you have been in those shoes. Things are a lot more complicated when your abuser is a family member or close friend. Trust me, I know from experience, unfortunately. My experience was very similar to hers minus the suicide attemps (that never crossed my mind.) I was also very young when I was abused (in my case multiple times) and like Cashleigh, my mind blocked it off for years (It is a defense mechanism.) When I became sexually active with my now husband at 19 or 20, Pandora's box opened and all the memories started flooding back. I still have flash backs to this day (and I just turned 41.) It was awful and it still affects me to this day. For some odd reason (I'm not sure if I was threatened) I didn't tell my parents or anyone while it was happening, which to this day, I don't understand. I have very loving, caring and supportive parents so they would have taken action immediately. I was a young adult when the repressed memories of what happened came flooding back. People wanted me to go to the police but I didn't want to because I did not want to cause pain to my abusers' parents. What happened to me was done, the damage was done and going to the police all those years later wouldn't have change that (plus they live in a different country.) All it would have accomplished is to cause pain to their parents and I love their parents very much so i did not want to cause them any pain. Had I been abused by strangers, it would have been a lot easier to go to the police. Because my abusers and their families were very close to mine, it changes things. Plus, maybe they changed for the better when they became adults and I didnt want to wreck their lives if that was the case. I have forgiven them but I don't forget. One day I will confront them in private. Many victims don't come forward because it is traumatizing to have to recall every detail when going to the police and/or go through a trial. Many times victims aren't believed, especially when you finally speak years later and can't recall every detail. To this day I can't recall every detail of what happened, which drives me nuts. Some things are very vivid and I'm able to recall every detail and then all of a sudden the memory stops (kind of like when you are watching a movie and then pause it so you don't know what comes next.) I'm working through everything that happened to me in therapy and that has helped tremendously. Maybe this mother did not want to cause her daughter further damage by forcing her to come forward. You have no idea how hard it is to deal with these stuff is and I hope you will never find out.
This is why paedophiles deserve life in prison/death penalty: they are murderers. They murder the innocence of a child, their blemish free future, and every potential for who they could have been without being exposed to evil. My thoughts on suicide are my own; but I will say: R.I.P lovely girl - I wish there was a way for you to finally get free 💐
unless they both consent, in my opinion but the only reason i say this is because they are immature and can't choose to have sexs, smoke, drink etc, yet its completely fine to rewire their brains into thinking lgbt is perfect. Either kids are immature and should be kept away from all those or they are mature and can be exposed to all these without consequence.
@@xxanimemixx4573what? You want a child to consent sex with an adult? LGBTQ people are real and have absolutely nothing to do with this but you crazies always find a way to bring it up.
My 20yrs old son took his life May 1 2023, sometimes the pain is unbearable until my chest hurts, right now I feel like I cannot wait to meet him again. I feel your pain.
That's how I felt having had my son taken from me and kept from me at 7. Now at 20 he's back in my life. He fights suicide and so do I. My biggest fear is something happening to him.
I'm truly sorry for your loss the only words I know to be true is he would want you to live your life time goes so fast I have no doubt you'll be together again when the day comes never to part🌈
She had never attempted before she started medication :( it’s scary how damaging the wrong meds can be, yet without trying to figure out what works, you can spiral. It’s so difficult
Crazy, right? I've recently seen a video discussing how these stimulants make people more violent and how in reality they make things worse for some people.
When you start feeling better you can start to look ahead and try to plan again.. .and you see how much you lost and how much/ work/ is ahead of you. If you aren't expecting it, it's devastating.
@@LyssieLysse Psychiatrists study the brain and its chemicals for nearly a decade before they're even allowed to diagnose a patient. Do you think you know more than them? They adjusted her medication several times because the ones she was in did not seem to work. That is just how this kind of medication goes, you do not know how it will affect your brain until you are on them. The only way to fully examine a brain is at autopsy. You have to figure out what works for you through trial and error.
@@catarinarosario9867 let's be honest medications are not an ethical method to heal people and also they don't heal, they just make you numb until enough time has passed. Yes they study brain chemistry for years, but humans haven't reached a point where they truly understand how brains work. And I think alternative methods should be used which have been found to be more effective
My bf took his life in 2020 i woke up to it and it was the worst day of my life. I have ptsd from it and i still think about it every single day. We have a daughter and she’s 4 now. It’s the hardest thing ever. I just now am getting my life together and got me and my daughter an apartment just last month, I’ve been so fucked up for years. I still am but i am trying to give my daughter a good life all on my own.
Nahhhh in all seriousness bro, that’s so nice to hear hun… 🙏🏽you’re doing very good in life. I’m proud of you and I don’t even know you dear. Godbless.
I’ve tried to commit suicide several times and I’ve been close to succeeding twice, where I had to be hospitalized. My family didn’t care and made fun of me for it, telling me I needed to learn how to deal with my problems. I wish my family was as loving as hers. Just shows that sometimes love isn’t enough. Rest in peace 🤍🙏🏽
We all go thru our young lives feeling like we are less and if she was raped or sexually abused l can understand why BECAUSE nobody does or KNOWS What happened to the perpetrator this btiful young woman had dreams of true love hopes all dashed away DOES ANYBODY REALLY CAAARE THE CRANBERRIES
@@noneyabiznessI love u. Please don’t hurt urself. We need u here. It gets better, believe it or not. I lost my son 12/22 to suicide. Troubles don’t last always ❤
I’m a clinical psychologist and it’s been so hard treating children like her through the pandemic. I’ve never been so worried about losing my teenage clients to suicide. It’s been very hard 😢
@@linda1stimp you're absolutely right. I was just talking with my therapist today about how every since the pandemic happened, I've been social stunted and I'm incredibly hyper aware around others to the point that self isolation is the only way I feel comfortable. Which is crazy because I used to hate being alone more than anything
The pandemic was and is psychological warfare for global government advancement. The Illuminati released it and guided the whole reaction through the media 5 companies control. I need to quit dragging my feet and do it.
I lost my little sister to suicide and I am still so heartbroken and traumatized, I pray that Cashleigh has found peace with all the other sweet souls who deserved better. Life is so fragile.
Hold on RIP I'm so sorry that you've lost your little Beautiful Sister. This video was for me very hard to watch because of the pain of her mother it broke my heart to see her break like that. RIP for her beautiful Daughter.
Oh man her breaking down at when she found her daughter is so incredibly hard to watch. I'm so sorry Lana. 😢💔 I admire your strength even in the midst of so much pain and sorrow
So hard to watch! I couldn't finish watching the video. My daughter is 11yrs old and is a cutter. Scares me so much! On meds! Meds make her worse! This lady is so strong!!! God Bless you and your family!!!
@@MzPuRRTy I agree that meds make people in these kind of situations worse, yet certain medical professionals will insist on taking them daily and just renew a prescription every couple of months, without doing any proper and thorough mental evaluations. All you're constantly being told is to finish the course, which is a neverending cycle. My heart goes out to everyone dealing with these types of issues, especially this lovely lady. It's terribly sad indeed 😢
Lana my heart goes out to you all… keep advocating as that will make change for her. She was a beautiful soul and your story hurts and breaks my soul. Xo
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” John 3:16 “and saying, The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand: repent ye, and believe the gospel.” Mark 1:15 “The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.” John 10:10 Jesus loves you
My son also took his own life right after his medication was changed. These psychiatrists and gp's need to be held accountable. If you Google the meds your daughter was on you will probably find suicide as one of the side effect warnings. Doctors never mention this.
My brother took his life on 31st July 2024 and we are still grieving I have forgiven him after reading what depression does to the human mind I hope now he has found peace which he craved for please pray for him to rest in peace
Thank you for this video. In 2020 I divorced after 28 years of marriage. In 2021, my youngest daughter killed herself. In 2022, I had cancer surgery. Two weeks later, my sister killed herself the same way. I have been in extreme pain but I feel like nobody understands nor cares. I feel alone in my loss. But God has truly helped me. I believe in the resurrection so I look forward to seeing them again. God bless you.
My heart breaks hearing your story, but the Lord is never far so take comfort in him. He will walk with you every step of the way, cling to him, and he will watch over you. I send you nothing but love, prayers, and condolences. May your angels Rest In Peace!🙏🏻💙🕊
I just found this today and I want you to know you aren't alone. I lost my youngest to suicide in 2010 at the age of 13 because of bullying in school. On February 24th, not quite 2 months ago, I lost his older brother to suicide at the age of 27. I never saw either one coming. Stay strong and that includes crying and whatever else. I still have their legos, and Transformers and clothes in their old closet. It's almost like a time capsule of when we were a whole family. I never imagined I would have to do it twice... God Bless you and your family.
that’s incredibly awful to go through not once but twice i pray you find prosperity this lifetime. i know you have many good memories of both of your sons. wow! ❤
A few years ago, my oldest brother attempted to take his life. He took a bottle of sleeping pills (in his truck, he's a truck driver), and then he realized his kids would be without him and we would too.. So he called 911 and saved his own life. Im so fortunate that we still have him. He's so much better now. Im sorry for your loss.
Wow, what an incredible turn of events-I’m so happy to hear your brother was able to save himself in time and that he is still with you and doing well! Wishing him continued peace and protection from the darkness that can sneak in and lie to us and make us feel so unworthy… God bless ❤️
We lost our daughter 30 days ago. It wasn't intentional. I'm so sorry for this Mama. Although our daughter only made it to 24, she did have her dream come true of having a baby and becoming a mother. Even if it was for just a short amount of time a little over a year, that was one of many things we are so grateful for. We are now in the process of fighting for guardianship and removing her from the care of my daughter's physical and mental abuser. We sure have our crosses to bear in this lifetime that's for sure. ❤ 🙏
Well, you CHOSE to make the possibility of losing a child possible when you CHOSE to breed. The problem is though, the victim is someone who never even asked to be here, who is only here for your own personal pleasure of breeding.
I deal with suicidal ideation. Knowing what it would do to my mother is a huge part of what keeps me here. I don’t know if there is any more profound grief than that of the mother of a suicide.
You're a good kid. It gets way better. the world is sunnier, on the other side of this, than you can imagine right now. I speak from experience Take good care of yourself 💜
I’m a mom of an adult child who took his own life. My life has been profoundly changed. I’m in pain daily and I cry regularly. I also feel so much guilt on why I could t stop this. Sending love to you. You are so needed and loved. Timmy s mom Forever loved 💙🕊🙏🏽💫🕯
Not sure your views on all of it but if you feel you have to release the emotions let it go. Last thing your family needs is for you to dwell in darkness. I'm sure they need you here
@@user-bq6ek7lz7hDon't know about guts.. You could also argue that it takes guts to stay alive in a state like this... For me it's just little bit of pain in exchange for the release from this disgusting existence.. What I am terrified about is somehow surviving the attempt. That would shatter me into pieces. I don't think my sanity could bear waking up in this body again after executing my attempt...
My mother committed suicide when I was 13 years old from a drug overdose. I love you and hope you know your daughter is always with you. Guiding light ❤
As a suicide attempt survivor who is still struggling with suicidal thoughts, I really can relate to your daughter's mental illness... It's a really tough challenge to survive every day as a mentally ill person that you can't even imagine what it's like...There are very few words to express them. Dear Lana, this has turned your daughter into a truly combative warrior. I am so sorry for your loss and stay healthy! I send you lots of love! ♥️
Human beings evolved to live in Matriarchal Tribes, not patriarchal marriages. Our incorrectly structured families are the root cause of your human dysfunction.
So sorry for your loss. Mamma you did all you could. May God bless you. I hope that your will be an inspiration to others. This must be a difficult journey and the support group will help you and the other family member with grief. One day at a time Lord Jesus…
Heartfelt sympathy to you. My husband committed suicide on his second attempt. It took me ten years to get over it. As a child, he was sexually abused twice, once by a neighbour, and once by a doctor. At his first attempt at 50, was hospitalized for two weeks; he too was on depression meds, followed up with his doctor regularly for 17 yrs to no avail. Do not blame yourself; it was her decision. The fact that she tried it three times shows how determined she was. Do not focus on what could have been; focus on the joy she brought in good times. Remember her for who she was, not on how she died. Love and hugs to you. 💕
When you said “It was her decision” really got to me. My best friend took his life and it completely broke me. All the “what ifs” and should have, could have, and would have” ran through my mind every day until one day I spoke to his mom and she said “There was nothing anyone could do, it was his decision”
@@BABiiB420 My heart goes out to you; may you have peace in your heart and mind. I speak very openly about it. It is not a death to be ashamed to speak of. Because I speak openly about it, I have had 2 people who lost a brother, and 3 who lost a husband open up about it. Suicide is all around us-usually defined as ‘suddenly at home’ or ‘a heart attack’. It is devastating irregardless. Focus on the good memories. How your friend died does not define his life.
I lost my daughter to suicide on December 6th, 2019. One day before my 50th birthday. You have all of my love and prayers. No one who hasn't gone through this can't comprehend how extremely tragic this is. She left 2 children and a Husband behind along with so much family. God Bless you. I am praying for you. ✝️🙏💜
@@glamsky3257she did mention it; when she and her daughter were discussing the abuse she told her they could take it to the police if she wanted. I assume she didn't want to, which is her prerogative.
This mother did amazing in this interview it was soooo fresh and she was still able to get through this interview. Mental illness is real! Prayer to the family and RIP Cashleigh. May your light continue
@@fran791 The mother is highly narcissistic. If you search the term you'll find an abundance of videos on the topic which explain the behaviour of this woman.
I lost my boyfriend who I lived with in 2010. I was 21 and he was 22. He jumped off our 4th story balcony in front of me. I wish I saw the signs. He had attempted 2 more times but said he was joking when I caught him. I somehow didn’t realise. He was such a funny and kind guy. His mum was a single mum and he was all she had and they were so close. My heart still breaks for her. Suicide breaks my heart. My sister would also not be here if it wasn’t for her kids 😢
I am so sorry. Your story saved my life today. The plans I had were very real but hearing your pain I realised this is not about me alone. I know it will never bring your beautiful daughter back. This sounds screwed up but through her passing and your sharing she has saved a life. Thank you Cashleigh
Please be strong and know that you are loved. Try to pray and know that Jesus Christ is the one who can help us through difficult situations, talk to him daily stay strong and you will one day look back and say I don’t know how I did this. Life is never easy but with God we can do it. Stay blessed dear
She was my age, she was beautiful. I’m sorry for your loss. I thought about suicide a few months ago…but seeing this video really put the aftermath of suicide into perspective.
Talk about your thoughts. You are not the only one who experiences these feelings. There is nothing to be ashamed of. Call a helpline. They have helped me in the past. Please don't make things harder for yourself. ❤
I lost my only daughter to suicide July 15, 2022. It's been incredibly difficult to cope. She was 24 and left behind a twin brother as well as an older and younger brother.
@@jojonandy682 Not everyone is religious.?! Souls,None is called to become religious, cause all are called to back into reality, through repentance and new birth. That`s good news. And nor am i religious, nor was i ever religious. And nor do i follow or believe in a religion. All religions are masons made up stories, just to keep mankind confused and busy believing all kinds of nonsenses, the most is known, that into heaven goes many ways, That is masons lie. Masons build up many ways into heaven, which are all known as religions. Search about them, for they are your enemies, they steal - destroy - kill. Masons = children of devil. John 8:44 Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it. Only through the ONLY BEGOTTEN SON OF GOD, CHRIST - can we go into heaven. John 14:6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. But there is few buts: Matthew 7:21 Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. That verse sifts out the lukewarm christians, who proudly scream out and letting others know they believe, yet they do not do so in their hearts. Christians = saved souls, who go and sins no more and until their deaths or the returning of CHRIST, are all doing daily the will of GOD: KEEP PREACH WATCH EXPOSE + being daily in a battle agents his own flesh. For every Christian must walk after the SPIRIT and not after the flesh: Romans 8:1 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. Romans 8:4 That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For no Christian are called to just believe but to be also a doer of THE WORD :James 1:23 For if any be a hearer of the word, and not a doer, he is like unto a man beholding his natural face in a glass: These are the 2 buts. Again i say, it is good news that you, dear soul, are not religious. And if we`d be to take a Christianity as a religion, then no soul be saved for real and Christ either died in vain or not at all -- that is a lie, stating that Christianity is a religion and not a reality is a lie. For it is a fact that no religion saves. Christianity do saves, for no soul becomes a Christian, until he have gotten saved, called upon the name of the lord, which proofed the needed faith to be there.
As A Survivor Of 3 Suicide Attempts, This Reminds me when it's so important to continue fighting. I was born on December 2nd, And I'm sending you all love and light.. I know there are no words to ever take away the pain of losing someone to suicide, But I'm just praying that everyone reading this Knows just how loved they are..❤️
Awww thank you that means so much !! It’s good to know that wonderful people out here like you exist and you uplift others instead of bringing them down !!! God bless you honey
My son suffers from depression, he turns 15 in Jan. Last week 2 kids committed suicide at his junior high, & a 3rd who’s on his wrestling team committed suicide on Halloween. Exactly 1 year prior a 15 yr old at his school committed suicide. 4 teens in 1 year. I’m terrified for him. I’ve barely slept the past week. He’s on meds & sees a counselor. He trusts us so he shares a lot with us, but I know the times I’ve thought of taking my life it was like two people battling. My “rational” voice & my “irrational” voice. I’ve won the battle every time, but there’s always a chance of losing. I’d like to ask you these questions because I’m hoping maybe they’ll help keep my son from taking his life these are very personal questions though, so if you don’t want ti answer I completely understand and respect that. I’m just really desperate & scared. …With your attempts, what was going through your mind? Was it an internal battle like I have in my head? Do you feel it was a controlled rational decision or do you feel like it wasn’t truly in your control (because maybe your mental health wasn’t doing well & you were Not thinking straight)?
@traybern wtf is your problem? You have no right doing that. You might not know it, But that's s disrespectful. You have no right to Say the things you did. You have no idea What I, Myself have been through nor do you know what her son has been through. That is NOT okay.
@@SamStone1964 They're not caught anyway. Did you hear that famous story where the father himself shot his 4yo daughter's abuser to get justice for her because the police just didn't care? Even if the proof was there.
I'm in my 60s and still deal with the pain of childhood abuse, sexual, physical, emotional, mental and spiritual abuse. I can understand that it was more than she could bear. She is at peace now, no more pain, no fear. You did a good job mama. Not your fault. We live in an evil world. And you're right about trying to get into therapy. It's ridiculous. I've been on a waiting list for over two years. Those of us who are survivors are living one hour at a time...one day...I've made it through another week. Medicating young people is very difficult, too often the side effects are worse than the illness. Bless you mama. Your beautiful daughter is always near...she isn't gone, she's in a lovely place and you'll be together...🌹
@@morrisonscott702 I'm doing well, thank you 🌹 I have my children and grandchildren always near...I've been blessed with a lot of love in my life. To me, that's the definition of success. They say that the best revenge is success...to me, success is the ability to love and be loved. Love is everything. It might come from my neighbor, or my chihuahua, but love is everything. 😏 I hope you have an awesome weekend 🌹 thank you for asking 💕
@@miapdx503 That's true you said 💕. I'm so glad you've people around who love and care for you that's enough. It's nice meeting with you here... where are you texting from?
I’ve tried taking my life many times, the last time I remember I was at a party when I was 19, I was in the bathroom all alone and after self harming myself/ burning, I told God if you don’t help me, I'm going to find a way to go through with this somehow. After I had told God this I heard the Holy Spirit say, hold on. I didn’t know it was the Holy Spirit at the time. So I did hold on and God showed up for me and really helped me get through these horrible thoughts/ tendencies.
Depression & mental health issues are more common than we want to admit. This story hits home in so many ways. My boyfriend took his life. My mom tried to take her life a few times. Lana, I feel your pain.
I’m very sorry for your loss. I’m 21 and I lost my 18 year old sister almost a month ago to suicide. It’s very sad and difficult but I’m doing my best to keep going one day at a time and to be there for my family. I hate that losing someone to suicide is becoming a relatable topic. I wish you the best of luck in your organization it sounds like a wonderful idea.
My heart broke when this sweet mother started crying. It came from deep within her soul, but yet she wanted not to let her emotions take over her. Because she wanted to tell about her precious daughter. I am impressed by her wanting to help others. Can't believe the family wasn't informed about the last wishes.
I attempted twice and it scarred my mom. She's constantly wondering where I'm at and how I'm doing mentally. It gets annoying but I know why she does it. I come back to this video to motivate me to keep going. Thank you for sharing your story.
i cried so hard when the mother said "if you feel like youre annoying them, keep doing it because you continuing to offer support is not going to push them to take their life" because when i was so quiet my mom asked why but i kept dismissing her in a voice where its obvious im not okay...,i was distressed...i felt bad afterwards and i never wanna show it anymore so i act like im okay...i guessed it works a bit she wont ask anymore but i also wont be mentally any better with my ocd(not properly diagnosed yet)
Please get lots of people to pray for you. I'm SO proud that you are thinking of others, and realizing the pain it would cause others. Yes, you are in pain, but at some point you will get a different perspective. You have touched so many with your bravery and the life that awaits is worth it. Pray and ask God for things -- you will get them! Hang in there. Your courage will pay off. P.S. Read a lot of inspirational books to keep your spirits up.
she's a supportive loving mom. I had none of that love or support and yet I never felt suicidal. sometimes people just have struggles so difficult that no love can save them
PLEASE protect the little ones y’all ,whether you’re a parent or not PLEASE look out for them , their little minds are so precious. Be careful who you let around your children and police what they’re soaking up and absorbing . I pray for comfort and peace for the people Cashleigh left behind . May her soul rest in Peace 💐
I lost my brother to suicide. It's extremely traumatising for the whole family. I really feel for her. I'm also so angry that they held onto her final note, and didn't tell them her wishes. How absolutely disgusting of them to do that.
@@Roma-SRyan How? They had a funeral for her and only afterwards did they give the letter, which said the wishes of what she wanted done with her body. Losing someone to suicide is extremely traumatising. Having that put on your shoulders afterwards, when it could have been avoided, is unacceptable.
Wow! Heartbreaking. Take note to the general public: PSA Sexual abuse is a soul killer. I know people know this but it can’t be said enough. It was not your fault Sis. The perpetrator bares the responsibility of their own actions. Let them. You gave very wise words of advice with the subject of suicide. You have a beautiful family Sis. I’m praying for you. I posted to my Twitter account for awareness Sis. To honor your daughter and her memory. Shalom grace and Godspeed in Jesus name. ❤ from Northern California.
I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts for many years, especially at Cashleigh’s age (I’m 32 now) and was sexually assaulted as an adult - not an identical situation to Cashleigh’s but I still feel like I can relate in many ways. I keep returning to this video. I watch RUclips all the time and this is easily one of the most powerful videos I have ever seen. I’m so struck by her mother’s love and devotion, as well as Cashleigh’s beautiful heart and spirit. I know my mother would react exactly like this if this ever happened to me… Lana, you are saving lives and honoring your daughter in such powerful way. Praying for your peace and healing until you see Cashleigh again. ❤️
You obviously have had a horrific trauma after being Sexually Assaulted. Have you got any Therapy for that pain you are feeling. I call it psychological Pain.
I have chronic depression. Suicidal thoughts are often comforting for me but I've been this way for as long as I can remember honestly. I love to sleep and hate when I wake up to see another day. I go on and off medication, my therapist sucks too, and it doesn't help with the bullying, jealousy, and harassment I get online from people who don't know anything about me. This is a beautiful planet filled with evil people. I'm so much older than Cashleigh, I wish I could have given my life to save hers; she was beautiful, and I pray for her mother's broken heart to heal
You are beautiful. Pray and push grow closer to God. This world is full of evil and ugliness but it is some beautiful an encouraging people. If you ever want to talk or vent I can be that ear out of no judgment.. @ceen2.0 praying for you.
I have romanticized suicide over 5 years but it's really hard to cope with it I'm like 38 years old which people would judge I'm laying here in bed with tears in my eyes I'm sorry about what happened to your daughter she was beautiful the only thing that keeps me away from committing suicide is knowing that it would hurt my family tremendously
💔 you know it would not just hurt your family. It would hurt God tremendously. And I'm not saying that to make you guilty... Not in the least bit. I just wanted you to know how dear you are to God's heart. In Isaiah 49 it says that God has "engraved us on the palms of his hands." I think that's literally true. Because God loved us so much that he actually became one of us. Jesus loved us enough that our sins were engraved into the palms of his hands, when he was nailed to the cross. Jesus sunk into the lowest depths of misery and condemnation for us. And God loved us enough that Jesus Christ rose from the dead, to become our faithful Savior "who always lives to intercede for us." so I just really hope you know and understand the magnitude of God's love for you. ❤✝️ "But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:8
Please, please, please, find yourself a therapist! Please do it. I know the feeling of suddenly remembering what hope is. It will change your world. So much love ❤
If you're reading this and you're feeling down or find yourself in the dumps. We are here for you. There's support everywhere. Stay strong and reach out.
I also have a daughter who went through trauma and tried suicide many times. The mental health care systems is awful and things need to be change. God bless you and your family
Go on a fast with her. Just fast a meal together and pray.. the fastest way to get to God is sacrifice.. and u can use ur body as a sacrifice (not eating).. wash ur face and anoint ur heads with a little oil and tell no one wat ur doing and I guarantee God will heal her 🤞🏿
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Your story brought me to tears! I’m so very sorry for your loss ma’am😢I lost two brothers to suicide in the same year, and that was in 1983. I lost another five of them between then and 2016. When I lost my mom (2006) I thought I was going to die from grief. Today, I still smile, and laugh and cry when I remember them, and our time together. I cannot even begin to fathom losing my son or grandchildren. I pray that GOD heals your heart, and that your daughter rests in eternal peace! You never really get over it, but with time comes acceptance, and a certain type of serenity. You rack your brain and wonder if you could have done more to prevent the tragedy, and then you…or, at least I came to understand that it was fate. Because…if it was meant to have a different outcome, it would have been different. So be kind to your wounded heart, be patient with your grief and, hold dear your daughters goodness and light! It can help to see you through each day. I know the pain is so intense (I wanted to reach through my phone and comfort you.) Such pain changes you in ways you could never imagine. You grow, and realize that the idiom ‘God never gives you more then you can bear.’ Is true. I came from a large family of 10 siblings, all but three (including myself) are living, and they all had short and challenging lives. With loss we are the ones left to suffer. Our loved ones…I’d like to believe are free of suffering and in a better place. I don’t know your faith, but what has helped over the years was to create a sacred space for my loved ones who have transitioned. An image of them, flowers, a candle where you can sit and pray for their souls. I Chose a place where I can see them and know that they are still with me in spirit! They are my ancestors now. Also, taking walks in nature! Nature is a powerful teacher, and healer! Whether at the ocean, in the mountains or hills, or groves of trees. It can be a place of solace and insight to the meaning of life and death. I hope you don’t take offense at my suggestion, because many people believe that once someone dies that that’s it. But, it has brought a lot of comfort for me. Your daughter was beautiful as are all the rest of your adult kids! I’m sure they are in a lot of pain too, so I’m sending blessings prayers of courage, and peace of mind heart to you all. The one consultation is that she no longer suffering. I’m sure she doesn’t want you or her siblings to suffer either. Wishing you all the best, 😪😕🙏🏽❤
I hope you are doing well. ‘God never gives you more than you can bear.’ , this is so beautiful, it's also a verse in the Quran, and I have it right by me, to remind myself that I am strong, and I can get through it.
I felt the same when my mom died! For 9 months I could barely get out of bed, eat, or function. I know there is no greater pain for a parent than to loss a child, but I do believe with all my heart "There is no greater pain for a child, then the loss of a parent! 💔🌹
This is honestly why I’m still here I’m afraid of causing pain to others so I try to keep myself medicated and distract myself from my thoughts and feelings rest in peace to Cashleigh
Yes I'm sorry to say but it is a cowardly thing to do. Life isn't that long, just get on with it. Time goes faster and faster the older you get, and also it's true what they say -time does have an unexpected way of healing
@@sandman.38 which part? I know there are suicidal people who don't relate to that because they are in too dark a place, but I think it remains true. One kind of generic quote I did like, if only because it sounds nicely poetic, is: "if you are going thorough hell, keep going" - Winston Churchill
Hey gal, I know how u feel but keeping things to yourself does not help ! Find a way to express, talk about it more and more so that ur body does not hold trauma ! Expel the trauma, I know it feels right to hold it in n not hurt others but ask for help, it’s our ego that won’t ask for help, won’t accept love ! There’s plenty of tools out there but go look n it may take u many years to figure life out but I promise u, once u get to the other side n understand urself, u will understand others, life.. even the painful moments make sense ! Life u preparing u for the best ! Trust the process! Understand urself first ! U first my darling ! Love urself
* My 14 year old has attempted to take her life 2 times within the last year and a half and I want to say thank you 1st off for being brave enough to share this with us and 2nd for the advice you gave at the end of this video. When I get home from work tonight the first thing I am going to do is ask how she is really doing/how she is feeling. THANK YOU *
I agree with that first comment 🙏 don't ever give up on her. And I'm not saying you _would_ ever give up on her. But at the same time... it can get tough. It's tough when someone else is going through pain that we can't see. They don't want to talk about it or theyre always discouraged. its easy to get frustrated. We just want them to get better, and we feel like they're refusing to. Because we can't see the enemy that's continually attacking them and keeping them down. I'm saying "we" because I've been on both sides of this. Never give up on her. ❤ You're really doing good for her. “See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven. What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? And if he finds it, truly I tell you, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should perish." Matthew 18:10, 12-14 ❤✝️
Thank you for being a good mom. I’ve been struggling since age 9-10, I’m turning 21 next month and I don’t think I’m gonna make it till then. No one seems to care, notice, anything. Please keep checking up on your daughter, go on mom/daughter dates, remind her how much she means to you… and how proud of her you are…
@@brookehereford9016 ❤ hey I see you. I notice you. God sees you too... and maybe this is why he brought you here today. Jesus died for you on a cross. He is not gonna let you go without a fight. ✝️❤
I’m so sorry 😢 losing a child is unimaginable pain. I lost my youngest son, he was 28 and killed in hit and run motorcycle accident. Been 5 1/2 years and the pain is still a part of me forever. God has brought me and his siblings a mighty way. My prayers are with you 🙏🏽 I know your pain, I’m living your pain. Much love to you 💖
My 17 year old son Lee hung himself in April 2020 there are no words to describe the horror and depth of grief that remains with the death of your child 😢😢I'm so sorry for your loss 😢😢❤
I lost my dear brother to suicide. Sept 2021. My mom found him as well & I was called to assist because she was having a hard time. We all miss him so so much. He was an amazing soul battling mental illness in a capitalist world. My heart goes out to you and your family.
@@NavigationForDailyLiving I am so sorry. My mother found my sister in May 2021. I understand this pain. May we all continue to heal. It is quite a process, but possible.
@@SamStone1964 I also sensed a narcissistic vibe from the mother. I might be wrong, though. There's something disturbing but I can't put my finger on it. RIP beautiful Cashleigh.
@@user-wz5ir9jl8q There are dozens of other people in the comments pointing out her narcissistic behaviour. No tears, no red face or runny nose. Making it about her. Not reporting the man who abused her child. Such a dreadful loss of a spectacular human being in Cashleigh.
I am so sorry! You and I are in a heart breaking club that no parent wants to belong to or should ever have to be in. 😢I lost my 20 year old daughter 6 & a half years ago , she died in my arms in our dining room just 2 minutes after her doctor called and told her she needed open heart surgery. God Bless you and I will keep you in my prayers, the only thing that keeps me going is that I’ll see Nicole again one day in heaven. My tears don’t come as often but sometimes the tears do flow when something or someone reminds me of her. The devastation in the wake of losing a child no matter what their age is a lifelong battle for the parent. God Bless you, Cashleigh had a beautiful gleam in her eye the way my daughter did, the world is truly a darker place without our lovely daughters in it.
Abuse is physical. Your body remembers trauma and it’s important to retrain your body physically. Sometimes it’s moving out of the place that triggers you. 🙏🏽
It is painful and I am not playing grief olympics but when your child takes their life it is a trauma that I can’t describe, the ptsd plus the grief is a pain I wouldn’t wish on anyone.
I‘m so incredibly sorry for your loss. I can’t stop crying right now because I know what I feel. I lost my beautiful daughter Michelle on January 2021. She was only 13 when she took her life…
Im scared to leave motherless children, a mom without her child. I’m scared of hurting others but I’m so hurt myself. Seeing you, your pain and love for your daughter is an awakening. I still do long for peace and quiet within my soul but I could not bare the guilt of hurting my mom. Your strength and love for your baby are precious. Thank you for this.
You are very brave to deal with your pain and not pass it onto others by taking your life. Please get lots of people to pray for you -- doesn't matter the faith or denomination. Believe in God -- He will show you signs. Read as many inspirational books as possible and learn about near death experiences and how our lives are about overcoming trials and learning. Hang in there to learn of all the good things God has for you.
My brother died by suicide years ago & it was one of the most traumatic things we ever went through as a family. It has been 20 years and it is still difficult to talk about with people. My heart breaks seeing this & i am so sorry for your loss.
I am heart broken for you. My daughter attempted to take her life at 16 and we got a miracle when she survived. The fear every single day after they survive is nothing you can explain. Every moment you are afraid they will try again and succeed. My heart aches for you. I'm praying for your healing. I talk to my kids every single say about their mental health...weather they think I'm annoying or not. I ask if they are okay. Every day i pray it's enough. God bless you mamma.
November 2018 I lost my brother to an “accidental overdose due to fentanyl.” He relapsed while in treatment. His name was Gabriel he was my best friend in the whole world; 5 years after my dad died of cancer and we both had a hard time accepting it. I had my two children he didn’t have anyone at night and it breaks my heart to think about anyone feeling that alone. My heart goes out to this family, her mom and her siblings. It was a pain I never thought I would survive. Since then I lost my grandfather the only grandparent I’ve ever known and I have never processed it because of the loss of my brother has impacted me in every aspect of my life because we only a couple years apart and literally were inseparable. Through meditation I’ve found a new was to connect with my loved ones and encourage anyone who is feeling lost overwhelmed and trapped in their grief to practice self compassion and mindfulness. Meditating and writing down thoughts and dreams have an incredible effect going forward. The last few months I’ve gained all the weight I lost after he died and have made changes to my diet and routine. I’m starting to see the light and love come through again just in last few months things are falling back in place and everyday I see my kids happy and that joy has been my driving force to not give up. I’ve started to finally break through my complex-grief. I can honestly say no one wants to take their own life. People are in pain and being isolated and alone only adds to the problems going on in our minds. Please be kind to others you have absolutely no idea what someone has gone through or is going through. Sending my love🌬️🤍🙏🏼🦋
My husband lost his brother to suicide and that was a very very long time ago and he still can hardly talk about it. I'm so sorry that you had to lose your daughter this way.
I’m so sorry for losing Cashleigh !!😢😢 I’ve been abused sexually when I was 7/8 years old ! Now I’m in my 50s not a day pass that I don’t think about it !! RIP Cashleigh ❤️❤️
Hi there. Jesus loves you and can completely heal and deliver you. Please pray to Jesus for help and visit any of the Universal Church of the Kingdom of God (UCKG) churches near you if you like and you'll receive further help. God bless you
A warrior you are a survivor you are and it must be really hard to push to continue. May allah be with you, may allah be with all of he’s children that is suffering with no way out
@@sibonisobranden5617 You don’t need to not preach to people, but instead, just offer compassion. I’m a Christian and I can say that Jesus does not “heal” everyone. This world is not perfect and there’s plenty of people that He has not healed whether physically or emotionally. You can’t expect perfection in an imperfect world. He is with us, but does not take everything from us. We can rely on Him but it doesn’t mean He’s going to take it all away. Stop offering false hope to people.
Most of my life I have struggled with severe depression and anxiety. What an awesome video you've posted here -- it has deeply touched every cell in my body. Now I find myself consumed by a lot of guilt with my mom's passing. You are one amazing mom and person. So strong. So courageous of you to share your immensely powerful story!
I have two little girls and I will do everything in my power to make sure they stay safe. I always knew I’d be hesitant to let them stay at other peoples houses, but I never really thought about the guests staying at my own house. Cashleigh’s story being shared is saving other babies from going through the same situation and I’m so thankful for her and you being brave enough to share this story. ❤
@@SamStone1964That's my big question about it too. Maybe the daughter felt so hurt and angry and hopeless that her abuser still walked freely, without anyone, including her mother, took this abuser to justice. Maybe she even still saw him, laughing and acted like nothing happened. The violence against her was not punished, like it never happened and that she worth nothing.
I too am a grieving mum and the pain and heartbreak suffering sorrow endless sobbing tears everyday, there are no words just sorrow i ache every day and all these feelings and actions are all grief, and i too want to wake up and think just all a film, i am 16 months on and i just weep, so my dear lovely lady/mum i am sending you the biggest hug i can give and wrap you in love and all my love to you and your family, i wont give any wise words , but say let all the tears flow, we love our daughters more than words can say and tears soothe , much love ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you for loving her while she was here and doing your best as a mother. My parents wouldn't shed a tear if I ended my life. My depression/mental illness is a burden to them and they have made that clear. I'm so sorry for your loss, stay strong mama, you supported her the best way you could and you're absolutely right it's extremely hard to find a therapist. And I'm so sorry what they did to you by keeping the note away, that is not fair. But please know, she would want you to be happy. I know it hurts that she's no longer here, but she is at peace and no longer has to struggle. Sending you healing and well wishes of love and a peaceful, happy, healed heart.
When I read this,I was shocked I hope you don’t let your depression/mental illness take you over, you a strong person, live your life how you wanna live it, be the boss you are and don’t let anyone take you down. Stay Strong❤️🙏‼️
@@pfair774 no problem, just stating all the facts your story really touched me🤞‼️🙏 Hope everything works out for you❤️ Just remember to stay positive & Strive on your own and be the person you wanna be💞‼️
Oh, sweet Momma, I feel your pain so very deeply. My daughter, Sarah, attempted suicide twice within 10 days in August 2021. We got to her in time the first time after we figured out where she had gone and the second time she had crashed my car into a ravine and a passerby somehow caught a glimpse of the car and called police. We had been unaware of where she had gone for about 20 hours beforehand. On July 11, 2022, her boyfriend moved out on the day before my husband and I were to go on vacation to Mexico. She seemed sad, but she had come so far, getting her own place, holding down a good job, etc. So we went to Mexico as planned. We texted back and forth and I realized she was in trouble again, but I told my husband that I was sure she would never try again while we were so far away. On our 4th day away from home, I kept trying to text and call, but no answer. Her boyfriend went over, but she had everything locked down tightly. He couldn't get in, so I called her landlord and he met the boyfriend there and they broke the door down. She had been gone several hours. She was only 27. I can still hear my scream when he called and told me the news. I should never have left her. Unbeknownst to me, she had stopped taking her meds earlier that spring. We were able to make it home the next day less than 24 hours later. The police also took her original note. I told my nephew who is an attorney that I could not make arrangements without knowing if she had any final wishes. They made a photocopy and provided it to him which he then gave to us. After the investigation was closed several weeks later, they gave me the original and kept a photocopy for their files. I am so glad I have the original that was written by her own hand and addressed to "mom". Surely the police would do the same for you, I certainly hope they would. I have "good" days and bad days, but life will never be the same. I relate to your story so much. I know how you feel, no wedding, no babies, no being beside me as I grow older.......I wish you only love and send prayers, good thoughts, whatever you believe in. You are so right, things have to change. No one should have to go through this.
I hope you know that its not your fault for leaving. From someone who’s been in the same shoes as your daughter (but today am grateful I made it and didn’t put my mom & everyone through that pain), I hid it from everyone and purposefully made it look like I was okay. I makes me sick thinking about how hard it must have been for them to believe I was ok because that’s how I made it look then for me for suddenly be in the ICU almost gone. You showed her how much you loved her and that’s what truly matters.
I think one of the positive things about social media is that people are allowed to share their truth unfiltered. This is something that is very helpful to others so that you know you aren’t alone or a mutant. I’m so sorry for the mother’s loss.
Im beyond sad to have stumbled on this video and learned the grief you feel for your beautiful angel. I was sexually molested by a family member when I was little. I blocked it, like your daughter. I remembered in high school. I was ok until I had my own kids. My youngest is my sweet angel, little girl. I love her soooo much. I cried so hard hearing you speak on what happened. I can't imagine losing a precious baby. I'm so sorry. Like your daughter, I was told to take medications. It made things worse!! I hear these stories so often, I'm convinced medications make things much much worse. I swear, what saved me is talking about it, over and over until the effects of the trauma is better understood. Moving forward is easier when things make sense. I'm sending you love, wherever you are. I believe we will be together again in the end. ❤
I have tried to commit suicide 2 times and both times I have failed. My mom looks so much like her, with her gray hair, her smile, her way of talking. I've seen this entire interview crying because I can't imagine that in the future my mom will be the one giving this interview. It's hard, and I've suffered too much, but I'm grateful that no one who loves me can say that I'm gone. I will keep fighting
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You’re not alone, God will always love you and be there for you. Ask God and you will receive what you ask if it’s for your good. I have found incomparable joy in Jesus and nothing in this world compares. Ask God to give you his peace and joy, that’s the void that is often felt in our hearts when we have not experienced his love. Go to a prayer group and free yourself from such thoughts… God will heal you. I will keep you in my prayers
Please keep fighting, please ❤🙏🏻
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I hope a person who did this to her realizes that they killed this poor girl and broke the entire family’s hearts 😞
I bet he gets away with everything Scott free
Did this to her? She committed suicide
@@geekemedia because her meds made her irrational
@@geekemedia please be quiet I beg of you if you’re going act like that stop. That child was hurt and as a result that trauma impacted her. Stop trying to be insensitive.
@wolfiebby1304 I wasn't being insensitive at all. I was genuinely confused because the video says she took her own life but the comment is saying someone did this to her. As an autistic person I can't always read between the lines. I didn't realize they were talking about the therapist changing her medication until the comment right before yours.
As someone who just survived a severe suicide attempt & being on life support, this heartbreaking story helps me remember why I’m still going and fighting, despite how hard it is.
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I may not know you personally, but I know that your life is far too precious to be cut short. There is a loving God, who loves you so much, that he sent his only son to die for you, so that you could be forgiven of your sins and have eternal life. The Lord Jesus Christ died for you, and he wants to have a relationship with you, he can give you a new heart with new desires and save your lost soul "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."John 3:16
"For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord."Romans 6:23
If you put your faith in the saviour Jesus Christ and repent, which means to turn from your sins, you will be saved from your sins and given eternal life which is a free gift from God, and it is the greatest gift ever!
Jesus said
"Let not your heart be troubled: you believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also. And you know the way to where I am going
I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me."
Jesus can give you true peace in your heart that transcends all understanding and joy that nobody can steal from you
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14
I hope you will have true peace and joy and love in the lord Jesus Christ ✝️❤️
Selfish
I lost my little sister to suicide when she was 19 and I was 24. She was my angel, the person I was closest to on this planet. Im middle aged now and the pain never goes away. I hope this lovely lady finds some peace. Perhaps all our lost loved ones are free now.
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Wow really I'm very sorry for ur loss. RIP Beautiful Angel 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹
I’m so sorry for your pain 💔
Rest in PEACE ❤❤❤
🙏🏽 PRAY TO JESUS CHRIST ✝️
Withholding the letter from her family and not even telling them it existed and then them having to get a photocopy of it is absolutely disgusting.
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I agree 🙏🏽
Agreed
Especially considering it had information about what she wanted done with her body/last wishes. That was an important document authored specifically for her family, not the coroner.
I agree. Suicide is very taboo and uncomfortable. To be honest the police and authorities treat it like… let’s clean up the mess and keep things quiet. It’s very secretive and hush hush. I personally witness how they handle it and they handle it almost like a cover up. So it doesn’t surprise me they withheld the letter. If you look at the numbers suicides are about to become the 10th leading cause of death in the USA. “They” don’t want to publicize this.
Depression and other mental health orders are real, everyone. For those of you who like to act like it’s “selfish” to commit suicide- you have zero understand of how severe mental health disorders can be. You have no idea how unimaginably evil it is to say that. God bless you Cashleigh. You were and always will be so loved. I hope you are flying free wherever you are, safe and warm. Your mama loves you!
Yes. Me my dad have he suicide in he Bel-Air car
Depression dad s chronic
We need to get down to what causes depression. Depression for the un-spiritual is a demon. Demons cause emotions like unhappiness, wrath, etc. They can cause people to have problems mentally too. Thats the problem. Mental challenges just don't happen. I'm homeless. Why I don't have. Mental disorders?
100 percent it's caused by meds, they induced SI!
@@michaelbush9603 She was raped as a child. Depression can be genetic and it can also be caused by severe trauma. You’re so selfish making it about yourself… good for you that you don’t have it
Being from a conservative black family: no one took my mental health seriously. I felt like I always needed to be defensive, I always had to protect myself or “prove” that I needed help. My family thought I was spoiled and didn’t have it that bad. I had to repress my emotions just to make it easier for others. Mental health isn’t a joke. It isn’t to be quirky or edgy. It’s real and it’s ugly and it’s terrible
Exactly the same experience but from a conservative white European family. We are all on the same boat. I sometimes feel like I will never stop treatment because the specialists are the only people who acknowledge what I tell them.
I am also from a black family. And I understand. Everyone thinks they know you and that you don’t know yourself. And that You don’t know what you’re talking about. So I understand.
Stop playing the race card.
@@ironfist458 How was that pulling the race card? It's true a lot of black families don't value mental health at all most of the time when SA is involved they'd rather keep it a family secret and create generational trauma. You clearly don't know what that word means because pulling the race card is only used to gain the upper hand in arguments not when explaining the trauma that comes with being raised in a black conservative household.
@@ironfist458How are they doing that its literally true most of the time coming from a black person
You can tell by her tears, she really loved her daughter . Poor lady, her story will help many other people contemplating suicide not to.
It's unforgivable! ☝️🔥
Unfortunately it won't. If anyone feels tortured be it by physical pain or otherwise and it will not minimize despite all efforts, it becomes unbearable.
I am sorry for her daughter loss. Wondering how did she kill herself?
Duh
This poor mother was a single mom who gave her four kids a loving home. This is truly sad and devastating. I can’t even imagine how heartbroken she must of felt
@@ceceslivinglife do you know them personally? Because your comment is really disgusting
Blk men create single mothers everywhere they go..
It probably was someone on the fathers side of the family 🤔
@@internetstranger- what’s weird is her daughter was violated and she neglected to get her the mental help she needed and the support. We love making the wrong people the victim. The daughter was the victim
@@ceceslivinglife How can you say something as disgusting as that? You are blaming her mother for not knowing a family member abused her child? She said she cut that family member off as soon as she witnessed what he did, so it is safe to assume her daughter was not saying anything when the abuse was happening and she was 8. Then she probably remembered past trauma as she got into college and experienced romantic relationships for the first time. Her mum had no power over any of that. She got her psychiatric help, and the psychiatrist gave her and adjusted her medication according to her needs, they were probably changing the medication often since she had severe side effects and no medication seemed to work. Her mum tried to help her, but unfortunately, her pain was too strong and she did not make it. Stop blaming her mum for things she could not control. She most likely blames herself enough as is for not knowing what was going to happen.
She is not lying about finding a therapist being extremely difficult
Facts
After trying my first therapist, I went to another therapist for almost 2 yrs for my depression and anxiety. It never really got better. It actually got worse. I just stopped going one day and then hit rock bottom. I can't remember how, but I came across a therapist who practiced brain spotting. She absolutely changed my life. While I still have a lot of work to put in, without her and the skills she taught me, I honestly don't know where I would be. She helped me realize and connect dots I never saw before. And she did it all over FaceTime.
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@@jenniehill4732Who is the therapist?
Me and Cashleigh were friends in 8th and 9th grade, never super close but we texted on and off. We had a few classes together, and when I found out about her death back in December I was so shocked I just couldn’t believe it. She was such a kind and funny girl, always full of life like her mom said here. Wish I could have gotten to know her more but I’ll always appreciate the friendship we had at the time. Rest in Peace, Cashleigh. Heaven has gained another Angel.
Wht abt her father
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@@RockJack-cs6vuJudging by how she looked - her father was black. Probably went to get the milk like most black fathers. Mom owned her own home and had a good job and took care of her kids... this is just an unfortunate situation.
Not getting her Cashleigh's full note until months after her passing is horrible and in this case, I agree with the mom in saying, it should be illegal.
They also knew it was information in it her parent needed
The strength it took her to speak on this after losing her daughter only 3 months ago. I hope she can find peace soon
Yet the mother didn't report the abuser to the police.
Dude give the woman some grace. It happened to Cashleigh so her mom wanted to respect her daughter’s decisions in how to proceed. She already said she regretted it, she already tortures herself about it. Just stop.
@@SamStone1964stop judging unless you have been in those shoes. Things are a lot more complicated when your abuser is a family member or close friend. Trust me, I know from experience, unfortunately. My experience was very similar to hers minus the suicide attemps (that never crossed my mind.) I was also very young when I was abused (in my case multiple times) and like Cashleigh, my mind blocked it off for years (It is a defense mechanism.) When I became sexually active with my now husband at 19 or 20, Pandora's box opened and all the memories started flooding back. I still have flash backs to this day (and I just turned 41.) It was awful and it still affects me to this day. For some odd reason (I'm not sure if I was threatened) I didn't tell my parents or anyone while it was happening, which to this day, I don't understand. I have very loving, caring and supportive parents so they would have taken action immediately. I was a young adult when the repressed memories of what happened came flooding back. People wanted me to go to the police but I didn't want to because I did not want to cause pain to my abusers' parents. What happened to me was done, the damage was done and going to the police all those years later wouldn't have change that (plus they live in a different country.) All it would have accomplished is to cause pain to their parents and I love their parents very much so i did not want to cause them any pain. Had I been abused by strangers, it would have been a lot easier to go to the police. Because my abusers and their families were very close to mine, it changes things. Plus, maybe they changed for the better when they became adults and I didnt want to wreck their lives if that was the case. I have forgiven them but I don't forget. One day I will confront them in private. Many victims don't come forward because it is traumatizing to have to recall every detail when going to the police and/or go through a trial. Many times victims aren't believed, especially when you finally speak years later and can't recall every detail. To this day I can't recall every detail of what happened, which drives me nuts. Some things are very vivid and I'm able to recall every detail and then all of a sudden the memory stops (kind of like when you are watching a movie and then pause it so you don't know what comes next.) I'm working through everything that happened to me in therapy and that has helped tremendously. Maybe this mother did not want to cause her daughter further damage by forcing her to come forward. You have no idea how hard it is to deal with these stuff is and I hope you will never find out.
This is why paedophiles deserve life in prison/death penalty: they are murderers. They murder the innocence of a child, their blemish free future, and every potential for who they could have been without being exposed to evil.
My thoughts on suicide are my own; but I will say: R.I.P lovely girl - I wish there was a way for you to finally get free 💐
unless they both consent, in my opinion but the only reason i say this is because they are immature and can't choose to have sexs, smoke, drink etc, yet its completely fine to rewire their brains into thinking lgbt is perfect. Either kids are immature and should be kept away from all those or they are mature and can be exposed to all these without consequence.
@@xxanimemixx4573what? You want a child to consent sex with an adult? LGBTQ people are real and have absolutely nothing to do with this but you crazies always find a way to bring it up.
They are indeed murderers of the soul
@@xxanimemixx4573 what??? You should get your brain checked because I can't believe you typed all that out and thought it did anything useful. 😒
How will they end up in prison if mothers like this one don't bother reporting the abusers to the police.
My 20yrs old son took his life May 1 2023, sometimes the pain is unbearable until my chest hurts, right now I feel like I cannot wait to meet him again. I feel your pain.
i’m so sorry.
ربنا يرحمه يارب ❤️
Very sorry for you…he would want you to live out your life as much as possible. Tragic happening though it was.
That's how I felt having had my son taken from me and kept from me at 7. Now at 20 he's back in my life. He fights suicide and so do I. My biggest fear is something happening to him.
I'm truly sorry for your loss the only words I know to be true is he would want you to live your life time goes so fast I have no doubt you'll be together again when the day comes never to part🌈
Withholding that letter, or at least not informing the mom what Cashleigh's wishes were is utterly unconscionable
She had never attempted before she started medication :( it’s scary how damaging the wrong meds can be, yet without trying to figure out what works, you can spiral. It’s so difficult
Crazy, right? I've recently seen a video discussing how these stimulants make people more violent and how in reality they make things worse for some people.
When you start feeling better you can start to look ahead and try to plan again.. .and you see how much you lost and how much/ work/ is ahead of you. If you aren't expecting it, it's devastating.
@@LyssieLysse Psychiatrists study the brain and its chemicals for nearly a decade before they're even allowed to diagnose a patient. Do you think you know more than them? They adjusted her medication several times because the ones she was in did not seem to work. That is just how this kind of medication goes, you do not know how it will affect your brain until you are on them. The only way to fully examine a brain is at autopsy. You have to figure out what works for you through trial and error.
@@catarinarosario9867 let's be honest medications are not an ethical method to heal people and also they don't heal, they just make you numb until enough time has passed. Yes they study brain chemistry for years, but humans haven't reached a point where they truly understand how brains work. And I think alternative methods should be used which have been found to be more effective
@@catarinarosario9867 exactly. people always try to blame health professionals. geez, they arent omniscient beings people.
My bf took his life in 2020 i woke up to it and it was the worst day of my life. I have ptsd from it and i still think about it every single day. We have a daughter and she’s 4 now. It’s the hardest thing ever. I just now am getting my life together and got me and my daughter an apartment just last month, I’ve been so fucked up for years. I still am but i am trying to give my daughter a good life all on my own.
Nahhhh in all seriousness bro, that’s so nice to hear hun… 🙏🏽you’re doing very good in life. I’m proud of you and I don’t even know you dear. Godbless.
I don’t know you but don’t give up and you’re doing great!
Congratulations on your new space ❤ safe travels to your new life 💓!
Certain types of pain never seem to go away, and often take decades to truly manifest themselves.
I’ve tried to commit suicide several times and I’ve been close to succeeding twice, where I had to be hospitalized. My family didn’t care and made fun of me for it, telling me I needed to learn how to deal with my problems. I wish my family was as loving as hers. Just shows that sometimes love isn’t enough.
Rest in peace 🤍🙏🏽
Hope you’re in a better place. How do you gain the will to continue to live?
We all go thru our young lives feeling like we are less and if she was raped or sexually abused l can understand why BECAUSE nobody does or KNOWS What happened to the perpetrator this btiful young woman had dreams of true love hopes all dashed away DOES ANYBODY REALLY CAAARE THE CRANBERRIES
Love you ❤
@@NA-wq6qg that’s very sweet, love you too fellow human 🫶🏽
@@noneyabiznessI love u. Please don’t hurt urself. We need u here. It gets better, believe it or not. I lost my son 12/22 to suicide. Troubles don’t last always ❤
Your daughter sounds like she was an awesome human being. Her memory will remain
I’m a clinical psychologist and it’s been so hard treating children like her through the pandemic. I’ve never been so worried about losing my teenage clients to suicide. It’s been very hard 😢
I think that's when my son started having issues 😢that pandemic did so much harm. Prayers to all who suffer in silence❤❤
@@linda1stimp you're absolutely right. I was just talking with my therapist today about how every since the pandemic happened, I've been social stunted and I'm incredibly hyper aware around others to the point that self isolation is the only way I feel comfortable. Which is crazy because I used to hate being alone more than anything
The pandemic was and is psychological warfare for global government advancement. The Illuminati released it and guided the whole reaction through the media 5 companies control. I need to quit dragging my feet and do it.
@@linda1stimpthought it was only me 😂😂
This world is crap anyway... 🙄
I lost my little sister to suicide and I am still so heartbroken and traumatized, I pray that Cashleigh has found peace with all the other sweet souls who deserved better. Life is so fragile.
What kind of ghetto shit name is cashleigh?)? Tf
Sorry to hear that.
Hold on RIP I'm so sorry that you've lost your little Beautiful Sister. This video was for me very hard to watch because of the pain of her mother it broke my heart to see her break like that. RIP for her beautiful Daughter.
So sorry Mika that you have also had to endure this same tragic loss! I pray that Jesus surrounds you with His sweet peace!
God bless you love
Oh man her breaking down at when she found her daughter is so incredibly hard to watch. I'm so sorry Lana. 😢💔 I admire your strength even in the midst of so much pain and sorrow
So hard to watch! I couldn't finish watching the video. My daughter is 11yrs old and is a cutter. Scares me so much! On meds! Meds make her worse! This lady is so strong!!! God Bless you and your family!!!
I couldn't take it.gona pray for her. She's so beautiful
@@MzPuRRTy
I agree that meds make people in these kind of situations worse, yet certain medical professionals will insist on taking them daily and just renew a prescription every couple of months, without doing any proper and thorough mental evaluations. All you're constantly being told is to finish the course, which is a neverending cycle. My heart goes out to everyone dealing with these types of issues, especially this lovely lady. It's terribly sad indeed 😢
Lana my heart goes out to you all… keep advocating as that will make change for her. She was a beautiful soul and your story hurts and breaks my soul. Xo
Thank you for your comment~ 🙏🏽
I literally have to read before watching.
prayers to this family❤️ I cannot watch see or hear tragic stories.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this
Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Microdosing helped me get out of the pit of my worst depressive episode, a three year long episode, enough to start working on my mental health.
Be careful everything is laced with fentanyl these days even Marijuana.
She sounds like a really good mom.
As a person who has been suffering from depression since 2008...I totally feel how Cashleigh felt..Depression is an illness...RIP sweet beautiful girl
GOD bless you 💕🙏🏾
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“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”
John 3:16
“and saying, The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand: repent ye, and believe the gospel.”
Mark 1:15
“The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.”
John 10:10
Jesus loves you
People know you dealing with depression Don't take it seriously.
I understand. 💔
My son also took his own life right after his medication was changed. These psychiatrists and gp's need to be held accountable.
If you Google the meds your daughter was on you will probably find suicide as one of the side effect warnings.
Doctors never mention this.
Hello 👋how are you doing?
Hello 👋how are you doing?
Hello 👋 how're you doing?
@@erikarivas5506 Me too, I pray for her as well.. it's nice meeting with you here erika. Where are you texting from?
They really do. They give you a pamphlet whenever you switch and think that’s enough. It’s not!
My son took his life very recently, thank you for sharing your story. I wish both of our beautiful children were here still with us.
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Sorry that happened.
Still here suffering just for you ?
My brother took his life on 31st July 2024 and we are still grieving I have forgiven him after reading what depression does to the human mind I hope now he has found peace which he craved for please pray for him to rest in peace
Stay strong
Thank you for this video. In 2020 I divorced after 28 years of marriage. In 2021, my youngest daughter killed herself. In 2022, I had cancer surgery. Two weeks later, my sister killed herself the same way. I have been in extreme pain but I feel like nobody understands nor cares. I feel alone in my loss. But God has truly helped me. I believe in the resurrection so I look forward to seeing them again. God bless you.
My heart breaks hearing your story, but the Lord is never far so take comfort in him. He will walk with you every step of the way, cling to him, and he will watch over you. I send you nothing but love, prayers, and condolences. May your angels Rest In Peace!🙏🏻💙🕊
Dear heart you are not alone!
Listen to me, the Lord will send you good people just ask him. I’m telling you ❤
I am sorry for everything that you have been through. 😔😔😔
I thank all of you for the encouragement. ❤️
I care and I am so sorry for your loss and ordeal.
…I will continue to pray.
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I just found this today and I want you to know you aren't alone. I lost my youngest to suicide in 2010 at the age of 13 because of bullying in school. On February 24th, not quite 2 months ago, I lost his older brother to suicide at the age of 27. I never saw either one coming. Stay strong and that includes crying and whatever else. I still have their legos, and Transformers and clothes in their old closet. It's almost like a time capsule of when we were a whole family. I never imagined I would have to do it twice... God Bless you and your family.
I am so sorry for all that you have been through. I hope you will always find the strength and comfort you need. ❤️🩹
I’m so sorry and praying for you…💕
Im so sorry🤍🥺
That is so cruel...I am so sorry, god bless you ❤
that’s incredibly awful to go through not once but twice i pray you find prosperity this lifetime. i know you have many good memories of both of your sons. wow! ❤
A few years ago, my oldest brother attempted to take his life. He took a bottle of sleeping pills (in his truck, he's a truck driver), and then he realized his kids would be without him and we would too.. So he called 911 and saved his own life. Im so fortunate that we still have him. He's so much better now. Im sorry for your loss.
Wow, what an incredible turn of events-I’m so happy to hear your brother was able to save himself in time and that he is still with you and doing well! Wishing him continued peace and protection from the darkness that can sneak in and lie to us and make us feel so unworthy… God bless ❤️
So happy to hear the end…
We lost our daughter 30 days ago. It wasn't intentional. I'm so sorry for this Mama. Although our daughter only made it to 24, she did have her dream come true of having a baby and becoming a mother. Even if it was for just a short amount of time a little over a year, that was one of many things we are so grateful for. We are now in the process of fighting for guardianship and removing her from the care of my daughter's physical and mental abuser. We sure have our crosses to bear in this lifetime that's for sure. ❤ 🙏
Im so sorry for your loss. I really do hope, you get guardianship of her daughter. I'm praying for you
My condolences to you n pray for you n your family n pray you get her child ❤
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I'm so sorry, I hope you get your grandbaby ❤️🙏🏼
Well, you CHOSE to make the possibility of losing a child possible when you CHOSE to breed. The problem is though, the victim is someone who never even asked to be here, who is only here for your own personal pleasure of breeding.
I deal with suicidal ideation. Knowing what it would do to my mother is a huge part of what keeps me here. I don’t know if there is any more profound grief than that of the mother of a suicide.
You're a good kid. It gets way better. the world is sunnier, on the other side of this, than you can imagine right now. I speak from experience
Take good care of yourself 💜
A mom who lose child to gun violence
I’m a mom of an adult child who took his own life. My life has been profoundly changed. I’m in pain daily and I cry regularly. I also feel so much guilt on why I could t stop this.
Sending love to you. You are so needed and loved.
Timmy s mom
Forever loved
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Same…😢😢😢
My mom doesn’t care, or my father, finding other reasons is difficult
My sister just commit suicide and she looks a lot like her. So hard to not cry. 💔 Rest in peace, Mel and Cashleigh ❤️🤍
Not sure your views on all of it but if you feel you have to release the emotions let it go. Last thing your family needs is for you to dwell in darkness. I'm sure they need you here
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I'm so sorry
People who have the will and guts to leave on thier own terms are to be admired. If you've ever tryed then you know.
@@user-bq6ek7lz7hDon't know about guts..
You could also argue that it takes guts to stay alive in a state like this...
For me it's just little bit of pain in exchange for the release from this disgusting existence..
What I am terrified about is somehow surviving the attempt.
That would shatter me into pieces.
I don't think my sanity could bear waking up in this body again after executing my attempt...
I didn't mean to watch this, but once I started I couldn't stop. Cashleigh's mom is so brave. She can't be praised enough.
Stop praising mediocre yt women who chase black men make black babies and if she had better representation she'd be here.
her mom did NOT protect her daughters mental health by going to police when it happened, she and mothers like her are GUILTY as well!
@@combatduckieI have to agree with you .
If this gorgeous woman was my mom, and I don't look like her, I would kill myself too‼
She absolutely lovely and a really involved mother. I really hope she doesn't blame herself in any way.
My mother committed suicide when I was 13 years old from a drug overdose. I love you and hope you know your daughter is always with you. Guiding light ❤
As a suicide attempt survivor who is still struggling with suicidal thoughts, I really can relate to your daughter's mental illness... It's a really tough challenge to survive every day as a mentally ill person that you can't even imagine what it's like...There are very few words to express them. Dear Lana, this has turned your daughter into a truly combative warrior. I am so sorry for your loss and stay healthy! I send you lots of love! ♥️
We're you on meds? If so, it's the meds that caused you to have SI
Human beings evolved to live in Matriarchal Tribes, not patriarchal marriages. Our incorrectly structured families are the root cause of your human dysfunction.
I’m fighting too
Jesus loves u 100%...
Stay strong, we are all here for you, can reach out to me at any given time ❤
Oh Mamma 😢. I lost my son in 2017 to suicide. He was my youngest also. Sending you light in a dark place 🌄
My heart goes out to you big hugs 🤗
I’m so sorry for your loss. ❤
I'm so sorry 🥺
I’m so sorry. May the Lord heal your heart. ❤️.
So sorry for your loss. Mamma you did all you could. May God bless you. I hope that your will be an inspiration to others. This must be a difficult journey and the support group will help you and the other family member with grief. One day at a time Lord Jesus…
Heartfelt sympathy to you. My husband committed suicide on his second attempt. It took me ten years to get over it. As a child, he was sexually abused twice, once by a neighbour, and once by a doctor. At his first attempt at 50, was hospitalized for two weeks; he too was on depression meds, followed up with his doctor regularly for 17 yrs to no avail. Do not blame yourself; it was her decision. The fact that she tried it three times shows how determined she was. Do not focus on what could have been; focus on the joy she brought in good times. Remember her for who she was, not on how she died. Love and hugs to you. 💕
When you said “It was her decision” really got to me.
My best friend took his life and it completely broke me. All the “what ifs” and should have, could have, and would have” ran through my mind every day until one day I spoke to his mom and she said “There was nothing anyone could do, it was his decision”
@@BABiiB420 My heart goes out to you; may you have peace in your heart and mind. I speak very openly about it. It is not a death to be ashamed to speak of. Because I speak openly about it, I have had 2 people who lost a brother, and 3 who lost a husband open up about it. Suicide is all around us-usually defined as ‘suddenly at home’ or ‘a heart attack’. It is devastating irregardless.
Focus on the good memories. How your friend died does not define his life.
Cashleigh you were so beautiful…may you RIP 😢
I lost my daughter to suicide on December 6th, 2019. One day before my 50th birthday. You have all of my love and prayers. No one who hasn't gone through this can't comprehend how extremely tragic this is. She left 2 children and a Husband behind along with so much family. God Bless you. I am praying for you. ✝️🙏💜
Rip 😢
I’m so sorry for you. My biggest hugs❤
I’m so sorry to hear that. That’s also the day of my birthday and it saddens me that it happened the day before yours.
My heart goes out to you on your tremendous loss.
@@jenniehill4732 Thank you very much. Xoxo
This lady has the most BEAUTIFUL soul!!! She's such an amazing momma. May God help her through all her grief.
One big question is, she did not mention anything about reporting the abuser to the police. Is it because she didn't want to report a family?
@@glamsky3257she did mention it; when she and her daughter were discussing the abuse she told her they could take it to the police if she wanted. I assume she didn't want to, which is her prerogative.
IKR she is a great mother! Many people wish they could have a caring mother like her.
This mother did amazing in this interview it was soooo fresh and she was still able to get through this interview. Mental illness is real! Prayer to the family and RIP Cashleigh. May your light continue
Why focus only on the mental illness/ there was a cause- an abuser! Let’s call out that!
So fresh and not a single tear.
@@SamStone1964 have some humility this is not the place to be edgy
The mother is disgusting for protecting the person that violated her daughter!
@@fran791 The mother is highly narcissistic. If you search the term you'll find an abundance of videos on the topic which explain the behaviour of this woman.
I lost my boyfriend who I lived with in 2010. I was 21 and he was 22. He jumped off our 4th story balcony in front of me. I wish I saw the signs. He had attempted 2 more times but said he was joking when I caught him. I somehow didn’t realise. He was such a funny and kind guy. His mum was a single mum and he was all she had and they were so close. My heart still breaks for her. Suicide breaks my heart. My sister would also not be here if it wasn’t for her kids 😢
GOD BLESS YOU AND ALL THE BROKEN HEARTS ALL AROUND THE WORLD IN JESUS CHRIST NAME I PRAY 🙏
Oh my that's terrible I'm so sorry for your loss 😞
I am so sorry. Your story saved my life today. The plans I had were very real but hearing your pain I realised this is not about me alone. I know it will never bring your beautiful daughter back. This sounds screwed up but through her passing and your sharing she has saved a life. Thank you Cashleigh
I wish you peace, love, and healing. Know that you are loved, and please reach out for help if you feel that way again.
Don’t lose hope there is more than this right now you are loved and you are important
Please, hang in there Belinda because no matter how difficult it gets it always gets better. I will include you in my daily prayers.
Belinda, I am glad her story helped you. I am sending you lots of love and good energies. Be strong please!!
Please be strong and know that you are loved. Try to pray and know that Jesus Christ is the one who can help us through difficult situations, talk to him daily stay strong and you will one day look back and say I don’t know how I did this. Life is never easy but with God we can do it. Stay blessed dear
She was my age, she was beautiful. I’m sorry for your loss. I thought about suicide a few months ago…but seeing this video really put the aftermath of suicide into perspective.
I don't know you, but you're needed in this world ❤
God loves u. Keep fighting
Talk about your thoughts. You are not the only one who experiences these feelings. There is nothing to be ashamed of. Call a helpline. They have helped me in the past. Please don't make things harder for yourself. ❤
@Venus-cd1kk We're happy you are still with us. Hope you are finding your Light in this world.
I feel you. I’m suicidal myself and that’s why I watch videos like these too. And she also was my age too.
I lost my only daughter to suicide July 15, 2022. It's been incredibly difficult to cope. She was 24 and left behind a twin brother as well as an older and younger brother.
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Oh dear, may the good Lord strengthen you..sending you warm hugs
@@jojonandy682 Not everyone is religious.?! Souls,None is called to become religious, cause all are called to back into reality, through repentance and new birth.
That`s good news. And nor am i religious, nor was i ever religious. And nor do i follow or believe in a religion.
All religions are masons made up stories, just to keep mankind confused and busy believing all kinds of nonsenses, the most is known, that into heaven goes many ways, That is masons lie. Masons build up many ways into heaven, which are all known as religions. Search about them, for they are your enemies, they steal - destroy - kill.
Masons = children of devil.
John 8:44
Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it.
Only through the ONLY BEGOTTEN SON OF GOD, CHRIST - can we go into heaven.
John 14:6
Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.
But there is few buts:
Matthew 7:21 Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.
That verse sifts out the lukewarm christians, who proudly scream out and letting others know they believe, yet they do not do so in their hearts.
Christians = saved souls, who go and sins no more and until their deaths or the returning of CHRIST, are all doing daily the will of GOD:
KEEP
PREACH
WATCH
EXPOSE
+ being daily in a battle agents his own flesh.
For every Christian must walk after the SPIRIT and not after the flesh:
Romans 8:1 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. Romans 8:4 That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
For no Christian are called to just believe but to be also a doer of THE WORD :James 1:23 For if any be a hearer of the word, and not a doer, he is like unto a man beholding his natural face in a glass:
These are the 2 buts.
Again i say, it is good news that you, dear soul, are not religious.
And if we`d be to take a Christianity as a religion, then no soul be saved for real and Christ either died in vain or not at all -- that is a lie, stating that Christianity is a religion and not a reality is a lie.
For it is a fact that no religion saves.
Christianity do saves, for no soul becomes a Christian, until he have gotten saved, called upon the name of the lord, which proofed the needed faith to be there.
Madree p, I am so sorry and may God continued to be your strength
I'm so sorry. 💔
i survived MULTIPLE suicide attempts and im only grateful to god. i didnt stop praying...
SAME HERE 🙏❤️😊
Glad your still alive!
@@KristalLuevano-fj5mvAppreciated 😃
God is a sick fuck
As A Survivor Of 3 Suicide Attempts, This Reminds me when it's so important to continue fighting. I was born on December 2nd, And I'm sending you all love and light.. I know there are no words to ever take away the pain of losing someone to suicide, But I'm just praying that everyone reading this Knows just how loved they are..❤️
Great advice, and you are loved as well. I hope you are healing well
Awww thank you that means so much !! It’s good to know that wonderful people out here like you exist and you uplift others instead of bringing them down !!! God bless you honey
@traybern What do you mean??
My son suffers from depression, he turns 15 in Jan. Last week 2 kids committed suicide at his junior high, & a 3rd who’s on his wrestling team committed suicide on Halloween. Exactly 1 year prior a 15 yr old at his school committed suicide. 4 teens in 1 year. I’m terrified for him. I’ve barely slept the past week. He’s on meds & sees a counselor. He trusts us so he shares a lot with us, but I know the times I’ve thought of taking my life it was like two people battling. My “rational” voice & my “irrational” voice. I’ve won the battle every time, but there’s always a chance of losing. I’d like to ask you these questions because I’m hoping maybe they’ll help keep my son from taking his life these are very personal questions though, so if you don’t want ti answer I completely understand and respect that. I’m just really desperate & scared.
…With your attempts, what was going through your mind? Was it an internal battle like I have in my head? Do you feel it was a controlled rational decision or do you feel like it wasn’t truly in your control (because maybe your mental health wasn’t doing well & you were Not thinking straight)?
@traybern wtf is your problem? You have no right doing that. You might not know it, But that's s disrespectful. You have no right to Say the things you did. You have no idea What I, Myself have been through nor do you know what her son has been through. That is NOT okay.
The amount of lives that can be saved by getting rid of pedos is countless.
That won't happen if we don't report abusers to the police.
@Sam Stone the police does nothing to them... pedos should be dealt with accordingly.
@@SamStone1964 They're not caught anyway. Did you hear that famous story where the father himself shot his 4yo daughter's abuser to get justice for her because the police just didn't care? Even if the proof was there.
@@SamStone1964most times nothing happens to abusers
And certain paths that teach disIike and everyone always makes excuses for.
I'm in my 60s and still deal with the pain of childhood abuse, sexual, physical, emotional, mental and spiritual abuse. I can understand that it was more than she could bear. She is at peace now, no more pain, no fear. You did a good job mama. Not your fault. We live in an evil world. And you're right about trying to get into therapy. It's ridiculous. I've been on a waiting list for over two years. Those of us who are survivors are living one hour at a time...one day...I've made it through another week.
Medicating young people is very difficult, too often the side effects are worse than the illness. Bless you mama. Your beautiful daughter is always near...she isn't gone, she's in a lovely place and you'll be together...🌹
Hi how are you doing?
I’m sorry you experienced this it’s nice to know I’m not alone 😢
@@morrisonscott702 I'm doing well, thank you 🌹 I have my children and grandchildren always near...I've been blessed with a lot of love in my life. To me, that's the definition of success. They say that the best revenge is success...to me, success is the ability to love and be loved. Love is everything. It might come from my neighbor, or my chihuahua, but love is everything. 😏 I hope you have an awesome weekend 🌹 thank you for asking 💕
@@miapdx503 That's true you said 💕. I'm so glad you've people around who love and care for you that's enough. It's nice meeting with you here... where are you texting from?
God does not want anyone to commit suicide because one cannot ask for forgiveness after they killed themselves...
I’ve tried taking my life many times, the last time I remember I was at a party when I was 19, I was in the bathroom all alone and after self harming myself/ burning, I told God if you don’t help me, I'm going to find a way to go through with this somehow. After I had told God this I heard the Holy Spirit say, hold on. I didn’t know it was the Holy Spirit at the time. So I did hold on and God showed up for me and really helped me get through these horrible thoughts/ tendencies.
Please fight and get help.. I’m praying for you
How did the voice sound pard9n my rudness
Are you the person that made the video
Depression & mental health issues are more common than we want to admit. This story hits home in so many ways. My boyfriend took his life. My mom tried to take her life a few times. Lana, I feel your pain.
I'm praying for you.
We have more in common than we "think ". 💔
Be strong
I’m very sorry for your loss. I’m 21 and I lost my 18 year old sister almost a month ago to suicide. It’s very sad and difficult but I’m doing my best to keep going one day at a time and to be there for my family. I hate that losing someone to suicide is becoming a relatable topic. I wish you the best of luck in your organization it sounds like a wonderful idea.
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I'm sorry for your loss 🙏🏾💜
(((hugs))) 💔🙏🏼🕯
I'm so sorry for your loss 🫂🫂
I’m so sorry for your terrible loss 💔
My heart broke when this sweet mother started crying. It came from deep within her soul, but yet she wanted not to let her emotions take over her. Because she wanted to tell about her precious daughter. I am impressed by her wanting to help others.
Can't believe the family wasn't informed about the last wishes.
There were no tears.
Please
I attempted twice and it scarred my mom. She's constantly wondering where I'm at and how I'm doing mentally. It gets annoying but I know why she does it. I come back to this video to motivate me to keep going. Thank you for sharing your story.
I hope you are doing better 💕 I’m so sorry to hear that
I’m happy that you never gave up. You can do it!!
Plz stay strong, life is precious and we get it Just once ❤
i cried so hard when the mother said "if you feel like youre annoying them, keep doing it because you continuing to offer support is not going to push them to take their life" because when i was so quiet my mom asked why but i kept dismissing her in a voice where its obvious im not okay...,i was distressed...i felt bad afterwards and i never wanna show it anymore so i act like im okay...i guessed it works a bit she wont ask anymore but i also wont be mentally any better with my ocd(not properly diagnosed yet)
Please get lots of people to pray for you. I'm SO proud that you are thinking of others, and realizing the pain it would cause others. Yes, you are in pain, but at some point you will get a different perspective. You have touched so many with your bravery and the life that awaits is worth it. Pray and ask God for things -- you will get them! Hang in there. Your courage will pay off. P.S. Read a lot of inspirational books to keep your spirits up.
she's a supportive loving mom. I had none of that love or support and yet I never felt suicidal. sometimes people just have struggles so difficult that no love can save them
Maybe.
You are right
God loves you all… always!!!❤
I think this mom had too much on her plate and didn't give her the proper care as possible bc she was too busy.
@@sophine7189 What a horrible, insensitive thing to say.
PLEASE protect the little ones y’all ,whether you’re a parent or not PLEASE look out for them , their little minds are so precious. Be careful who you let around your children and police what they’re soaking up and absorbing . I pray for comfort and peace for the people Cashleigh left behind . May her soul rest in Peace 💐
I lost my brother to suicide. It's extremely traumatising for the whole family. I really feel for her. I'm also so angry that they held onto her final note, and didn't tell them her wishes. How absolutely disgusting of them to do that.
Your anger is misplaced
@@Roma-SRyan How? They had a funeral for her and only afterwards did they give the letter, which said the wishes of what she wanted done with her body. Losing someone to suicide is extremely traumatising. Having that put on your shoulders afterwards, when it could have been avoided, is unacceptable.
@@Roma-SRyan be kind!
Hearing this mother with her sad and trembling voice is one of the most heartbreaking things I have ever heard. :(
As a mother
my heart is aching
I can almost feel her pain. May God be a comforter 🙏🏽💕🥺
MY EXACT SENTIMENTS 💔 & AMEN 🙏
Wow! Heartbreaking.
Take note to the general public: PSA Sexual abuse is a soul killer. I know people know this but it can’t be said enough.
It was not your fault Sis. The perpetrator bares the responsibility of their own actions. Let them.
You gave very wise words of advice with the subject of suicide.
You have a beautiful family Sis. I’m praying for you. I posted to my Twitter account for awareness Sis. To honor your daughter and her memory.
Shalom grace and Godspeed in Jesus name. ❤ from Northern California.
Thank you so very much.
It is a soul killer and there are people that want to make it legal.
Was she raped or molested? They don't have a father figure too.
@@missingmygirl_csgfe20 🙏💝💕💕
Amen beautifully said 🙏🏼 ❤
I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts for many years, especially at Cashleigh’s age (I’m 32 now) and was sexually assaulted as an adult - not an identical situation to Cashleigh’s but I still feel like I can relate in many ways. I keep returning to this video. I watch RUclips all the time and this is easily one of the most powerful videos I have ever seen. I’m so struck by her mother’s love and devotion, as well as Cashleigh’s beautiful heart and spirit. I know my mother would react exactly like this if this ever happened to me… Lana, you are saving lives and honoring your daughter in such powerful way. Praying for your peace and healing until you see Cashleigh again. ❤️
I have struggled with depression for 8 years I did try to kill myself many times. But luckily I didn,t but I got rid of the depression
I hope you've gotten rid of the suicidal thoughts
im 16 and same.. i didnt think i was going to make it to 16 but i did sadly... i hope i dont make it to 17 tho
@@xButterfly_xxxplease get help sweetie. BIG 🫂 reach out and get help and reach out to God too.
You obviously have had a horrific trauma after being Sexually Assaulted. Have you got any Therapy for that pain you are feeling. I call it psychological Pain.
I'm crying with you beautiful mum. Lost my daughter in Jan 2023 anorexia.
I have chronic depression. Suicidal thoughts are often comforting for me but I've been this way for as long as I can remember honestly. I love to sleep and hate when I wake up to see another day. I go on and off medication, my therapist sucks too, and it doesn't help with the bullying, jealousy, and harassment I get online from people who don't know anything about me. This is a beautiful planet filled with evil people. I'm so much older than Cashleigh, I wish I could have given my life to save hers; she was beautiful, and I pray for her mother's broken heart to heal
You deserve to be here don’t give up and stay away from negativity like comments online.. You are Loved ❤❤❤❤
Your life is as precious and valuable as Cashleigh’s ❤ You can make it 🙏
You are beautiful. Pray and push grow closer to God. This world is full of evil and ugliness but it is some beautiful an encouraging people. If you ever want to talk or vent I can be that ear out of no judgment.. @ceen2.0 praying for you.
hi seen you on Lamonts channel aswell. Sending you ❤
Please, stop going on line and posting. If people are bullying you there that’s the last place you need to be. Cut those toxic people out.
I have romanticized suicide over 5 years but it's really hard to cope with it I'm like 38 years old which people would judge I'm laying here in bed with tears in my eyes I'm sorry about what happened to your daughter she was beautiful the only thing that keeps me away from committing suicide is knowing that it would hurt my family tremendously
💔 you know it would not just hurt your family. It would hurt God tremendously. And I'm not saying that to make you guilty... Not in the least bit. I just wanted you to know how dear you are to God's heart.
In Isaiah 49 it says that God has "engraved us on the palms of his hands." I think that's literally true. Because God loved us so much that he actually became one of us. Jesus loved us enough that our sins were engraved into the palms of his hands, when he was nailed to the cross. Jesus sunk into the lowest depths of misery and condemnation for us. And God loved us enough that Jesus Christ rose from the dead, to become our faithful Savior "who always lives to intercede for us."
so I just really hope you know and understand the magnitude of God's love for you. ❤✝️
"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us."
Romans 5:8
Please, please, please, find yourself a therapist! Please do it. I know the feeling of suddenly remembering what hope is. It will change your world. So much love ❤
Same!
Amen and you’re so brave and courageous keep on fighting you’re worth it we need beautiful people like you in our lives ❤❤❤
@@juicydaboss418❤❤
If you're reading this and you're feeling down or find yourself in the dumps. We are here for you. There's support everywhere. Stay strong and reach out.
That means alot to me..Thank you
No you’re not. You’re not here for us. No one is you don’t know me or anyone else.
Please don't give up hope. You deserve the life that you want to live ❤️@@theonionqueen3519
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Lie all you wish, the only one you fool Is yourself.
this is absolutely heartbreaking. parents should never have to bury their children. rest in peace angel.
I also have a daughter who went through trauma and tried suicide many times. The mental health care systems is awful and things need to be change. God bless you and your family
Go on a fast with her. Just fast a meal together and pray.. the fastest way to get to God is sacrifice.. and u can use ur body as a sacrifice (not eating).. wash ur face and anoint ur heads with a little oil and tell no one wat ur doing and I guarantee God will heal her 🤞🏿
@@humbleyourself6875 who the hell are you to shove your religion down people's throats when they need it THE LEAST???
@@humbleyourself6875 religious fanatics like you are the reason why less people are coming to church
@@humbleyourself6875Thanks, but God doesn't exist. A therapist does
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So sad!! You can tell her mother was there and did everything she could & depression still won 😢
Your story brought me to tears! I’m so very sorry for your loss ma’am😢I lost two brothers to suicide in the same year, and that was in 1983. I lost another five of them between then and 2016. When I lost my mom (2006) I thought I was going to die from grief. Today, I still smile, and laugh and cry when I remember them, and our time together. I cannot even begin to fathom losing my son or grandchildren. I pray that GOD heals your heart, and that your daughter rests in eternal peace! You never really get over it, but with time comes acceptance, and a certain type of serenity. You rack your brain and wonder if you could have done more to prevent the tragedy, and then you…or, at least I came to understand that it was fate. Because…if it was meant to have a different outcome, it would have been different. So be kind to your wounded heart, be patient with your grief and, hold dear your daughters goodness and light! It can help to see you through each day. I know the pain is so intense (I wanted to reach through my phone and comfort you.) Such pain changes you in ways you could never imagine. You grow, and realize that the idiom ‘God never gives you more then you can bear.’ Is true. I came from a large family of 10 siblings, all but three (including myself) are living, and they all had short and challenging lives. With loss we are the ones left to suffer. Our loved ones…I’d like to believe are free of suffering and in a better place. I don’t know your faith, but what has helped over the years was to create a sacred space for my loved ones who have transitioned. An image of them, flowers, a candle where you can sit and pray for their souls. I Chose a place where I can see them and know that they are still with me in spirit! They are my ancestors now. Also, taking walks in nature! Nature is a powerful teacher, and healer! Whether at the ocean, in the mountains or hills, or groves of trees. It can be a place of solace and insight to the meaning of life and death. I hope you don’t take offense at my suggestion, because many people believe that once someone dies that that’s it. But, it has brought a lot of comfort for me. Your daughter was beautiful as are all the rest of your adult kids! I’m sure they are in a lot of pain too, so I’m sending blessings prayers of courage, and peace of mind heart to you all. The one consultation is that she no longer suffering. I’m sure she doesn’t want you or her siblings to suffer either. Wishing you all the best,
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Beautifully said! ❤❤❤ Thank you.
I hope you are doing well. ‘God never gives you more than you can bear.’ , this is so beautiful, it's also a verse in the Quran, and I have it right by me, to remind myself that I am strong, and I can get through it.
I felt the same when my mom died! For 9 months I could barely get out of bed, eat, or function. I know there is no greater pain for a parent than to loss a child, but I do believe with all my heart "There is no greater pain for a child, then the loss of a parent! 💔🌹
Sorry my dear . Sending you love
This is honestly why I’m still here I’m afraid of causing pain to others so I try to keep myself medicated and distract myself from my thoughts and feelings rest in peace to Cashleigh
Yes I'm sorry to say but it is a cowardly thing to do. Life isn't that long, just get on with it. Time goes faster and faster the older you get, and also it's true what they say -time does have an unexpected way of healing
@@Talisman09 This is terrible advice.
@@sandman.38 which part? I know there are suicidal people who don't relate to that because they are in too dark a place, but I think it remains true. One kind of generic quote I did like, if only because it sounds nicely poetic, is: "if you are going thorough hell, keep going" - Winston Churchill
Hey gal, I know how u feel but keeping things to yourself does not help ! Find a way to express, talk about it more and more so that ur body does not hold trauma ! Expel the trauma, I know it feels right to hold it in n not hurt others but ask for help, it’s our ego that won’t ask for help, won’t accept love ! There’s plenty of tools out there but go look n it may take u many years to figure life out but I promise u, once u get to the other side n understand urself, u will understand others, life.. even the painful moments make sense ! Life u preparing u for the best ! Trust the process! Understand urself first ! U first my darling ! Love urself
* My 14 year old has attempted to take her life 2 times within the last year and a half and I want to say thank you 1st off for being brave enough to share this with us and 2nd for the advice you gave at the end of this video. When I get home from work tonight the first thing I am going to do is ask how she is really doing/how she is feeling. THANK YOU *
you're a good mom.
I agree with that first comment 🙏 don't ever give up on her. And I'm not saying you _would_ ever give up on her. But at the same time... it can get tough. It's tough when someone else is going through pain that we can't see. They don't want to talk about it or theyre always discouraged. its easy to get frustrated. We just want them to get better, and we feel like they're refusing to. Because we can't see the enemy that's continually attacking them and keeping them down. I'm saying "we" because I've been on both sides of this.
Never give up on her. ❤ You're really doing good for her.
“See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven. What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? And if he finds it, truly I tell you, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should perish."
Matthew 18:10, 12-14 ❤✝️
Thank you for being a good mom. I’ve been struggling since age 9-10, I’m turning 21 next month and I don’t think I’m gonna make it till then. No one seems to care, notice, anything. Please keep checking up on your daughter, go on mom/daughter dates, remind her how much she means to you… and how proud of her you are…
@@brookehereford9016 ❤ hey I see you. I notice you. God sees you too... and maybe this is why he brought you here today. Jesus died for you on a cross. He is not gonna let you go without a fight. ✝️❤
@@brookehereford9016Please don’t bro ❤
I’m so sorry 😢 losing a child is unimaginable pain. I lost my youngest son, he was 28 and killed in hit and run motorcycle accident. Been 5 1/2 years and the pain is still a part of me forever. God has brought me and his siblings a mighty way. My prayers are with you 🙏🏽 I know your pain, I’m living your pain. Much love to you 💖
I'm so sorry for your loss.💔😞🤍🙏🏽My prayers go out to you and your family.
How many children do you have ? Let's count your 28 year old son because nothing can make him not be your son, not even this wicked accident.
Life so hard for young ppl now. I could not save my son either . Hugs to everyone who has lost a child 😞 and feeling this horrible pain
❤❤ stay strong mama
Oh goodness I'm so sorry...praying for you 🙏
I’m so sorry for your loss. May your son rest in peace.
Why wouldn’t they allow her the letter from her daughter? :( That’s cruel. It’s not like it was a crime that took place
My 17 year old son Lee hung himself in April 2020 there are no words to describe the horror and depth of grief that remains with the death of your child 😢😢I'm so sorry for your loss 😢😢❤
Im so so sorry :-(
I lost my dear brother to suicide. Sept 2021. My mom found him as well & I was called to assist because she was having a hard time. We all miss him so so much.
He was an amazing soul battling mental illness in a capitalist world. My heart goes out to you and your family.
@@NavigationForDailyLiving I am so sorry. My mother found my sister in May 2021. I understand this pain. May we all continue to heal. It is quite a process, but possible.
I am so, so sorry.
I'm so sorry for your loss ❤
This lady's honesty and desire to help others despite her overwhelming grief is inspiring
It's a performance for narcissistic supply.
@@SamStone1964 I also sensed a narcissistic vibe from the mother. I might be wrong, though. There's something disturbing but I can't put my finger on it. RIP beautiful Cashleigh.
@@user-wz5ir9jl8q There are dozens of other people in the comments pointing out her narcissistic behaviour. No tears, no red face or runny nose. Making it about her. Not reporting the man who abused her child.
Such a dreadful loss of a spectacular human being in Cashleigh.
Rest in Peace, Cashleigh. I hope you have found your well deserved peace
Her pain isn’t your fault though. She was hurting more than you could know. You didn’t fail her. You did everything you could.
I am so sorry! You and I are in a heart breaking club that no parent wants to belong to or should ever have to be in. 😢I lost my 20 year old daughter 6 & a half years ago , she died in my arms in our dining room just 2 minutes after her doctor called and told her she needed open heart surgery. God Bless you and I will keep you in my prayers, the only thing that keeps me going is that I’ll see Nicole again one day in heaven. My tears don’t come as often but sometimes the tears do flow when something or someone reminds me of her. The devastation in the wake of losing a child no matter what their age is a lifelong battle for the parent. God Bless you, Cashleigh had a beautiful gleam in her eye the way my daughter did, the world is truly a darker place without our lovely daughters in it.
I'm so sorry.
Abuse is physical. Your body remembers trauma and it’s important to retrain your body physically. Sometimes it’s moving out of the place that triggers you. 🙏🏽
As a bereaved mother the loss of your child no matter the cause is a pain like no other. Praying for her Mama and family 🙏🏾😔
It is painful and I am not playing grief olympics but when your child takes their life it is a trauma that I can’t describe, the ptsd plus the grief is a pain I wouldn’t wish on anyone.
I‘m so incredibly sorry for your loss. I can’t stop crying right now because I know what I feel. I lost my beautiful daughter Michelle on January 2021. She was only 13 when she took her life…
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Im scared to leave motherless children, a mom without her child. I’m scared of hurting others but I’m so hurt myself. Seeing you, your pain and love for your daughter is an awakening. I still do long for peace and quiet within my soul but I could not bare the guilt of hurting my mom. Your strength and love for your baby are precious. Thank you for this.
You are a couragous Person.
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You are very brave to deal with your pain and not pass it onto others by taking your life. Please get lots of people to pray for you -- doesn't matter the faith or denomination. Believe in God -- He will show you signs. Read as many inspirational books as possible and learn about near death experiences and how our lives are about overcoming trials and learning. Hang in there to learn of all the good things God has for you.
This had me in tears. Sending love and prayers to you mama ❤
My brother died by suicide years ago & it was one of the most traumatic things we ever went through as a family. It has been 20 years and it is still difficult to talk about with people. My heart breaks seeing this & i am so sorry for your loss.
I’m so sorry for your terrible loss 💔
My daughter committed suicide April 26th. I am still in disbelief. She was 27 and suffered for many years.
@@sharonc8993I'm so sorry. 🙏
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I am heart broken for you. My daughter attempted to take her life at 16 and we got a miracle when she survived. The fear every single day after they survive is nothing you can explain. Every moment you are afraid they will try again and succeed. My heart aches for you. I'm praying for your healing. I talk to my kids every single say about their mental health...weather they think I'm annoying or not. I ask if they are okay. Every day i pray it's enough. God bless you mamma.
November 2018 I lost my brother to an “accidental overdose due to fentanyl.” He relapsed while in treatment. His name was Gabriel he was my best friend in the whole world; 5 years after my dad died of cancer and we both had a hard time accepting it. I had my two children he didn’t have anyone at night and it breaks my heart to think about anyone feeling that alone. My heart goes out to this family, her mom and her siblings. It was a pain I never thought I would survive. Since then I lost my grandfather the only grandparent I’ve ever known and I have never processed it because of the loss of my brother has impacted me in every aspect of my life because we only a couple years apart and literally were inseparable. Through meditation I’ve found a new was to connect with my loved ones and encourage anyone who is feeling lost overwhelmed and trapped in their grief to practice self compassion and mindfulness. Meditating and writing down thoughts and dreams have an incredible effect going forward. The last few months I’ve gained all the weight I lost after he died and have made changes to my diet and routine. I’m starting to see the light and love come through again just in last few months things are falling back in place and everyday I see my kids happy and that joy has been my driving force to not give up. I’ve started to finally break through my complex-grief. I can honestly say no one wants to take their own life. People are in pain and being isolated and alone only adds to the problems going on in our minds. Please be kind to others you have absolutely no idea what someone has gone through or is going through. Sending my love🌬️🤍🙏🏼🦋
My husband lost his brother to suicide and that was a very very long time ago and he still can hardly talk about it. I'm so sorry that you had to lose your daughter this way.
Oh momma, my heart aches for you. Sending you the tightest of hugs.
She was so beautiful . I’m so sorry for your loss. I actually cried listening to this story. Just heartbreaking.
I’m so sorry for losing Cashleigh !!😢😢 I’ve been abused sexually when I was 7/8 years old ! Now I’m in my 50s not a day pass that I don’t think about it !! RIP Cashleigh ❤️❤️
Hi there. Jesus loves you and can completely heal and deliver you. Please pray to Jesus for help and visit any of the Universal Church of the Kingdom of God (UCKG) churches near you if you like and you'll receive further help. God bless you
On the hard days remember you are a warrior and survived this horrible crime. Power and peace to you. ❤
A warrior you are a survivor you are and it must be really hard to push to continue. May allah be with you, may allah be with all of he’s children that is suffering with no way out
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You don’t need to not preach to people, but instead, just offer compassion. I’m a Christian and I can say that Jesus does not “heal” everyone. This world is not perfect and there’s plenty of people that He has not healed whether physically or emotionally. You can’t expect perfection in an imperfect world.
He is with us, but does not take everything from us. We can rely on Him but it doesn’t mean He’s going to take it all away. Stop offering false hope to people.
Most of my life I have struggled with severe depression and anxiety. What an awesome video you've posted here -- it has deeply touched every cell in my body. Now I find myself consumed by a lot of guilt with my mom's passing. You are one amazing mom and person. So strong. So courageous of you to share your immensely powerful story!
God bless you, and keep you going
I'm the same and this touched me to my very soul. She's a wonderful mother I wish my mother was like her and understanding of mental health.
I had to check to see if I had it was me that wrote that.
I have two little girls and I will do everything in my power to make sure they stay safe. I always knew I’d be hesitant to let them stay at other peoples houses, but I never really thought about the guests staying at my own house. Cashleigh’s story being shared is saving other babies from going through the same situation and I’m so thankful for her and you being brave enough to share this story. ❤
Yes plz be vigilant, most abusers are family members
Yet the mother didn't report the abuser to the police.
Can’t trust anyone , not even certain fam …
@@SamStone1964That's my big question about it too. Maybe the daughter felt so hurt and angry and hopeless that her abuser still walked freely, without anyone, including her mother, took this abuser to justice.
Maybe she even still saw him, laughing and acted like nothing happened. The violence against her was not punished, like it never happened and that she worth nothing.
I too am a grieving mum and the pain and heartbreak suffering sorrow endless sobbing tears everyday, there are no words just sorrow i ache every day and all these feelings and actions are all grief, and i too want to wake up and think just all a film, i am 16 months on and i just weep, so my dear lovely lady/mum i am sending you the biggest hug i can give and wrap you in love and all my love to you and your family, i wont give any wise words , but say let all the tears flow, we love our daughters more than words can say and tears soothe , much love ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Do you realise you made the possibility of someone ending their lives possible when you chose to breed? Breeding is so cruel.
Thank you for loving her while she was here and doing your best as a mother. My parents wouldn't shed a tear if I ended my life. My depression/mental illness is a burden to them and they have made that clear.
I'm so sorry for your loss, stay strong mama, you supported her the best way you could and you're absolutely right it's extremely hard to find a therapist. And I'm so sorry what they did to you by keeping the note away, that is not fair.
But please know, she would want you to be happy. I know it hurts that she's no longer here, but she is at peace and no longer has to struggle. Sending you healing and well wishes of love and a peaceful, happy, healed heart.
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When I read this,I was shocked I hope you don’t let your depression/mental illness take you over, you a strong person, live your life how you wanna live it, be the boss you are and don’t let anyone take you down. Stay Strong❤️🙏‼️
@@pfair774 no problem, just stating all the facts your story really touched me🤞‼️🙏
Hope everything works out for you❤️
Just remember to stay positive & Strive on your own and be the person you wanna be💞‼️
@@kaahfee Thank You 💜
@@pfair774 This mother didn't shed a tear.
Oh, sweet Momma, I feel your pain so very deeply. My daughter, Sarah, attempted suicide twice within 10 days in August 2021. We got to her in time the first time after we figured out where she had gone and the second time she had crashed my car into a ravine and a passerby somehow caught a glimpse of the car and called police. We had been unaware of where she had gone for about 20 hours beforehand. On July 11, 2022, her boyfriend moved out on the day before my husband and I were to go on vacation to Mexico. She seemed sad, but she had come so far, getting her own place, holding down a good job, etc. So we went to Mexico as planned. We texted back and forth and I realized she was in trouble again, but I told my husband that I was sure she would never try again while we were so far away. On our 4th day away from home, I kept trying to text and call, but no answer. Her boyfriend went over, but she had everything locked down tightly. He couldn't get in, so I called her landlord and he met the boyfriend there and they broke the door down. She had been gone several hours. She was only 27. I can still hear my scream when he called and told me the news. I should never have left her. Unbeknownst to me, she had stopped taking her meds earlier that spring. We were able to make it home the next day less than 24 hours later. The police also took her original note. I told my nephew who is an attorney that I could not make arrangements without knowing if she had any final wishes. They made a photocopy and provided it to him which he then gave to us. After the investigation was closed several weeks later, they gave me the original and kept a photocopy for their files. I am so glad I have the original that was written by her own hand and addressed to "mom". Surely the police would do the same for you, I certainly hope they would. I have "good" days and bad days, but life will never be the same. I relate to your story so much. I know how you feel, no wedding, no babies, no being beside me as I grow older.......I wish you only love and send prayers, good thoughts, whatever you believe in. You are so right, things have to change. No one should have to go through this.
Heartbreaking. Love from one mom to another❤
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I hope you know that its not your fault for leaving. From someone who’s been in the same shoes as your daughter (but today am grateful I made it and didn’t put my mom & everyone through that pain), I hid it from everyone and purposefully made it look like I was okay. I makes me sick thinking about how hard it must have been for them to believe I was ok because that’s how I made it look then for me for suddenly be in the ICU almost gone. You showed her how much you loved her and that’s what truly matters.
I think one of the positive things about social media is that people are allowed to share their truth unfiltered. This is something that is very helpful to others so that you know you aren’t alone or a mutant. I’m so sorry for the mother’s loss.
Im beyond sad to have stumbled on this video and learned the grief you feel for your beautiful angel.
I was sexually molested by a family member when I was little. I blocked it, like your daughter. I remembered in high school.
I was ok until I had my own kids. My youngest is my sweet angel, little girl. I love her soooo much. I cried so hard hearing you speak on what happened. I can't imagine losing a precious baby. I'm so sorry.
Like your daughter, I was told to take medications. It made things worse!! I hear these stories so often, I'm convinced medications make things much much worse. I swear, what saved me is talking about it, over and over until the effects of the trauma is better understood. Moving forward is easier when things make sense. I'm sending you love, wherever you are. I believe we will be together again in the end. ❤