I struggled so much with thinking if I am "faking" my eating disorder, for months I was absolutely sure I just did it for attention, until one day I realized that I hadn't told anyone. I had never talked to anyone about my weight, about my self confidence problems, about body confidence... Whenever someone around me said negative things about themselves I would always excessively defend them, if someone told me about better than mine but still bad eating behavior I would always encourage them greatly that it wasn't healthy and they should get help or start more healthy thoughts, I would hold huge announcements about how important it was to be healthy and not undereat or over exercise and how much more worth everyone had than something stupid as visuals.....so who am I faking my own illness for, when I made so sure absolutely no one would suspect anything at all? I build this huge persona around myself that stood for healthy balance and self love, to hide how much i hated myself and how much i did not want to feel any of those painful feelings that back then I didn't even really realize I had because I was sooo obsessed with rules and counting. But I just barely made it to an underweight BMI you know, and I feel like I lost weight quite slowly too, since I was still eating. I was eating, and although the last few months before recovering I really decreased my calories to an unhealthy amount, already when I counted up to a healthy amount I was completely ovsessive and unhealthy about it. I don't know what I want to say, just that it's really easy to believe it when you want to blame yourself for your ED... But that what keeps you from getting help... And that's what the ED wants...and it will tell you absolutely anything it needs to successfully manipulate you.
I actually really needed this. I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa last February, but have since gained weight and no longer meet the criteria for any specific eating disorder so I constantly feel like I'm faking having a problem with food. Somehow it's really comforting to realize that I'm not.
I don't think you are faking it. if you are struggling it doesn't matter how much you weight. keep fighting as you have done til now and taking care of yourself! Stay strong!!
I feel like there's tons of stigma and stereotype about how people with mental illnesses should act. If you're not immobile because of it than no one cares. I feel like a lot of people in my generation had parents who stigmatize mental illness as just a way to get attention. Whenever I felt depressed or potentially suicidal as a middle schooler it would be looked at as dramatic. This creates a vicious cycle for why people don't want to get help, you are convinced your whole life you are making it up.
P.s.....i've had this with teachers and school counsellors too! When they swear they're confidential and can't tell anyone anything, and make you aware of boundaries but then go and talk to teachers and friends things that aren't even 'risky' or 'dangerous' etc. xox
Good video, but people with eating disorder don't usually want attention. It often is an escape or way to cope with situations or emotions. Many hide their eating disorder. I am a little frustrated that there is an assumption that ED are about attention.
I started restricting to lose weight. I can't stop now, but that's mostly because I'm not thin yet. I don't know if I'm sick or just being overly dramatic at ths point. I'm so confused.
SillyWillow me either. I think I am full my tommy is full but I am keep eating these healthy and junks foods. I want to stop it but my body wants the food
From my experience, when I told my teacher she had limitations as you said to what she can keep confidential (self harm, suicidal thoughts have to be reported) but other then that nothing should be shared with anyone. My teacher may have told the Guidence office just so I have that extra bit of support but teachers and coaches heck no! I can see the the Guidence counsellor my want to give some clarity to those people but if she didn't ask your permission, then she's got no right to. My teacher told me and asked me when/if she told someone and that was okay with me. If I was in your position, I'd report her right away. That's is sick. Horrible. I'm so sorry you've gotta go through this. Stay strong!
I feel like I'm faking it, but from what I heard, I'm not. Yet, I don't want to have an ed. I want to just have a desire to lose a lot of weight, but not be anorexic. I really just hate the label What's wrong with just wanting confidence from losing weight? It makes me feel good knowing that I'm actually accomplishing something. When I restrict, it distracts me from my worries and suicidal thoughts since I put all my focus on my weight. Idk what's wrong with just having some sort of control or coping mechanism
#KatiFAQ Great video, Kati! All your videos are so helpful. I am a recovered anorexic (3 years and counting, wohoo) and I am now dealing with a lot of anger. I am angry that I went through years of hell and it started way before I even could consciously make informed decision because I was so young. I feel like I was "given" my eating disorder and this makes me so angry. I am partly mad at my mom for contributing to my ED (she put me on restrictive diets when I was 5 and 6 years old, called me fat a lot) but I am also angry at society in general....? I don't know how to put some closure over this anger or how to get rid of it. I am mad it took me so many years to finally live my life and find my "true" personality separately from my ED and feel like someone, or something, robbed me of additional happy years I could have had. What do you think?
Thanks for another great video :) That second question reminded me of when my old school counselor told several of my friends about some of the things I had been talking to her about. Luckily my friends already knew everything so it didn't really matter (but she had no idea they did), but it's just so wrong...
3:40 so I went to my doctor to speak to her about my eating problems and how I didn't feel like I needed to eat and I didn't want to etc. And she asked me why did you start eating less. And I just didn't know why. My mom who was there with me said at the time i told her i wanted to just eat healthier but i dont remeber that. I always thought an eating disorder was because you wanted to lose weight or whatever but I didn't know you could also develop an eating disorder without an reason. If you get what I mean. I guess this was an eye opener for me. Thank you
Hey Kati, I've recently learnt how to do Mental Health First aid and I feel confident to help people who might be going through a crisis. Maybe in the future you could do a video on Mental Health First Aid. So people know what to do if they come across a situation. Thanks :) Love your videos!
Yay you are coming to Scotland!!! That's awesome. So chuffed a RUclipsr is coming to Scotland Yeah Elgin is quite far north so be prepared and wrap up warm haha ^_^ Having a meet up would be wonderful. Hope the event goes well and please keep us updated on when a meet up will be possible! :) Would definitely be up for it xx
hi katie, I've had a problem with eating for about 9 months and I don't know how to get help. I don't want people to think I'm attention seeking.im also very embarrassed to tell my perants what do I do?
Whenever I feeling really 'distressed' I now make myself vomit sometimes I will just eat to purge after.... I don't know why I started but I am just wondering if it's just another form of self-harm or something more. Thank you for your videos they helped me through a really hard patch 😊
I struggled last year with anorexia and I didn’t eat, I lost a lot of weight but still didn’t meet the BMI weight. Then my friend told me if I didn’t start working towards recovery she’d involve someone and that freaked me out and then I developed a love for food again and then started to hate myself again and started purging but now I feel like I “failed” at having an eating disorder bc I’m fine as of right now
I have been struggling with binging, restricting, and purging for the past few months and it has got me starting to self harm...im glad that hurts cause that helps a little with keeping me away from that one... but sometimes i feel like no one will take me seriously if i tell someone so i am terrified to say anything. 😒 I was on a great streak, i had purged in almost a month, but then i purged last night and i am afraid that i wont be able to stop on my own nor do i think i should have to. Also i cant just avoid the routine cause i do it in the shower to hide any possible coughing or noise. Help.
Damn I was hoping it would be the southern end of Scotland near the cities or something but it's all the way up north :( I'm in England about an hour from the border but that's like a 6 hour drive away. Maybe one day you'll venture further south! Xx
My friend believes she may be making up her disorder. She has a purpose but the purpose isn't attention but she really want to be skinny. So she knows why she started it. Is it real? Or can it be that she is just imitating some of the symptoms?
***** AHHHH you are coming to Scotland!?? That is so exciting! :) Are you going to have time to travel at all? Not that I am biased but it really is a beautiful country, I hope you get to see a bit of it! It's Elgin like the way you said it before you corrected yourself haha.It would be so great if you did a meet up XX
this actually makes me feel better, I downplayed this massively to my doctor, and didn't tell him how much I've been restricting and he now thinks I'm not showing signs of any eating disorder but i have abnormal views around food I need to address. I restrict and before I eat anything I take diet pills, if I binge I sometimes overexercise. But I don't think I have an eating disorder because I don't feel like I feel bad enough when I do eat but its only if I eat something I hadn't planned for or I didn't want to I'd feel horrible. I sometimes try to purge until my stomach hurts and I give myself a headache. However my doctor did refer me to the adolescent mental health services so I could see a psychiatrist. Do you think I need to tell the psychiatrist about this? It doesn't feel like a problem
#KatiFAQ Kati although there are a lot of people around me a lot of the time why am I most afraid of myself, I can't help it. I just get really anxious with the thoughts in my head all the time and my actions towards my body (self harm) you can't escape yourself right so what do you do? Thank you for all your videos they encouraged me to seek help from my doctor☺️
Omg I want more info on you coming over to Scotland please I would love to meet up with you you know how freaking awesome I think you are!!! I am beyond excited if I do make it up it would be a 6 and a half hour drive but so worth it please get back to me ASAP please this needs to happen hope u are ok you are always in my thoughts love you!!!
the first question was what i have been wondering for the last 2/3 years since i had around 8months of the habits non-stop of an eating disorder. But having 2of my friends suffer from it and get seriously ill i started to pull myself out. Since then i have been wondering if I'm exaggerating, that because i didn't go through such a rough experience i couldn't of been suffering. Now im the opposite from what used to eat like now ill either eat tons and feel shit after words or just not hungry for the whole day. I still have thoughts now and again that were similar to those i had in those months, im just so confused and ive just never told anyone really because im scared that if i told them they would be like thats not really an ED
my school councillor told all my teachers i'm faking everything and called my mum and said i was making everything up (i later found out she did it to someone else as well) i now have a LOT of trouble trusting people like therapist's and gives me a lot anxiety about having to talk to people about it how can i get over this? it happened over 5 years ago and is affects me.
I started restricting to lose weight and I just told myself that I would stop at the end. I want to be under weight and I don’t want to stop because I will feel like a failure and I’m scared of gaining weight. I feel like I’m just faking it for attention because I told two of my close friends but they might be close to forgetting. I want to be underweight so I will feel pretty and I’ve had a low self esteem all my life and tried to diet but failed all of them. I don’t know if I’m faking it or not, but it’s addicting to see the scale go down fast and restrict.
This is hard for me to say and I'm not sure I'm not sure that I can express it in a way that will be understood. I hope you see and respond to this. I have a strange relationship with food. When people talk about how much food there eating in a given time period or talk about eating more than 700 cal. In one meal. Or just have an argument or fight that involves food( not food prep). I freak out and have bad panick attacks. I tend to feel guilty about how much I've eaten but at the same time I worry I'm not eating properly. When I'm relaxing at home I feel I need to have both food and drink ready at hand at all times if I don't I'm not comfortable that does not mean I eat all the time just needs to be easily excesable(sp?) I sometimes like once every couple of months or when I have something important for example like psych or doctors apt. The next day I tend to binge to the point I throw up from eating to much. Do I have an ED or what?
If I tell my therapist that I binge eat will they have to tell my parents? Like does that count as harming myself or will that be covered by the patient confidentiality thing?
#katiFAQ I have no privacy with my parents especially once they found out about my depression and self harm. It makes me really frustrated and not want to talk to them about anything. I also recently found out my mom has been discretely emailing my school counselor about my issues and I just feel like I can't control anything on my own (which worsens my self harm urges) what do I do? I don't want to talk to my parents or mom about this because she's already nosy enough in my life. I just want your opinion or advice on what I should do? Thanks I love your videos you really are an inspiration!!
I have the same problems. I feel that my schizoaffective disorder must be fake, because I don't hear a ton of voices, but I get thoughts that arn't my own. My parinoia is crazy, but I just st don't know.
#katifaq I have EDNOS and I'm in a binge and purge phase. My question is why is there only one food I don't feel guilty about eating? It's pasta which is high carbs. I don't understand why I feel okay after eating them.
I think I've made up my mental illnesses all of the time (and some people in my life even tell me that) even though my psychiatrist said I was "pre-disposed" to have some of them (I don't really understand that, and I don't know how to say it in English, so sorry)
Kati, what do I do if I'm not sure if I'm faking my mental illnesses? I feel like one day things are really bad and I can't walk away from the door because I keep having to check if it's locked, I get really hard on myself, and I get really depressed but then the next day it's a lot easier and I only have to check the door once. I'm starting to think I either am faking it or have bipolar because things go from really really great and having a ton of energy to not wanting to get out of bed and having no energy. Although I'm not sure if things like ocd would get worse during the periods of depression that's what it seems like to me. I can't see a therapist because of money but I just wanted to know if there was a sure fire way to know if I'm faking it or not.
#KatiFaq Dear Kati, I hope you are doing fine! I've been pounding over a question several months (almost years) now and I'd really appreciate to hear your opinion on this: In my teenage years I've been struggling with anorexia for about 3 years. Although I've regained all the weight and even an uncomfortable lot more by now, i feel like I've never fully developed womanly features. I'm almost 19 years old and didn't have any breast growth at all. Nowadays I also suffer from severe depression and BDD which is partly linked to my distorted Body Image. Now to the actual question: What's your opinion on cosmetic surgery (in my case a breast augmentation) if the physical flaw seems to be related to a mental health problem? Do you think it would help the depression to get the main physical flaw corrected, or would it just be a quick fix?
hey, Kati what to do I do? I have recently relapsed in my self harm and Im really feel more comfortable with it. I know it is bad but there is a huge part of me that needs this so badly right now, I was just wondering would it be that bad for me to fall into my self harm for awhile just till I have the strength to stop?
Hmmm. To me if someone loses weight for attention they could develop an ed. It makes sense it could be a cry for help or a way to communicate or get compliments. Eds have to do little with food, but more with underlying issues. Still means you got a real ed.
hi Katie, I go to therapy once a week and have been thinking about wanting to see the notes that she takes after the session. While I am a minor( 17 years old), I was wondering if i can even ask for her notes. Is it okay? or am i not allowed to see her notes. I think it would be beneficial for me to see her notes and compare them with mine(because i do occasionally write thoughts towards the therapy session when done).While i know that therapists are not suppose to give opinions to their clients, I am quite mature for my age. Basically i want to know if it is a normal thing for therapists to give their notes to their clients. Thanks so much, E.Frank
Hello Ms. Morton, I know this is a video from a long time and so you might not see my comment but I recently came out to my mom about my issues with overeating and because it's been almost 4 years of struggle, I thought I should maybe see a professional but she told me that there are no meds to fix someone's eating habits so it's all about my self control. Do you still recommend seeing a doctor when you have eating issues or do you think seeing a counselor is a better idea? Thank you so much for your videos
Meag Thank you for your kindness, I’ve actually started seeing a therapist for a month now and things are getting so much better. And to your question, not really here in Japan as mental health care system is still not that great overall plus the fee for seeing a therapist isn’t covered by our national health insurance.
It’s not really “up to you” to continue seeing a school counselor for resources. They can call you out of class and if they are really an asshole they may even try to get you involuntarily committed if you don’t work with them.
#katifaq, hey kati, what will happen if I keep refusing to be weighed? I'm from the uk so I'm not sure if the answer might be different as I've heard horror stories about people being sectioned if they refused to be weighted.
KATI !,I have recently been referred to CAMH's as "urgent" as this place is like therapy I asked if I would be going alone to which the doctor said not and that its also family therapy as well as for my depression and self harm , this has upset me beacuse I really dont like talking about that kind of thing in front of my mum and dad however beacuse I am 12 im not sure if I can go alone in England ,were I live . Is it possible to have therapy alone and for free if the is what they have referred me for ?(for free) or do u have to go only with my family also will I be made to keep goimg with my family as I will be the first time I go , even when I said no to the doctor they said I had to and I felt very forced into something I didn't want to do and it made me upset and angery , please help me with my situation anyone ,or kati please
Hiya, I was referred to CAMHS as I'm also from UK, a while ago now. I had to start going with my family first, then after a few sessions my family, I was asked to go alone. I much preferred going in my own as I could open up and talk properly without my parents being there. It is good to start if with your family being there to start with tho because the therapist helps your family understand some if your issues and u get to be open and communicate as a family, but after a while if they havevt mentioned seeing u in your own just say to then that you want to talk without your parents there and in sure they will understand. CAMHS really helped me. I was so scared at first but now I'm really glad I went even tho I was referred when I was 17 and u can't go when u turn 18 so I was only there for a year : ( I hope it helps you too, good luck xx
thanks so much that answered all my questions on it , i will have more year at camhs than you and now ive herd first hand it can help im feeling calmer about it
Ok...so I have been having truble eating lately and I told one person my best friend and she told my consiler and she had me right what I eat all weekrdrd and she said I think you have a eating disorder I am going to call your mom and I talked to her and she said she won't tell my mom yet but for some resone I feel like this home eating disorder is fake but I can't stop it what do I do and do you think I have a eating disorder or do you think its just in my head ps love you and your vidios
I struggled so much with thinking if I am "faking" my eating disorder, for months I was absolutely sure I just did it for attention, until one day I realized that I hadn't told anyone. I had never talked to anyone about my weight, about my self confidence problems, about body confidence... Whenever someone around me said negative things about themselves I would always excessively defend them, if someone told me about better than mine but still bad eating behavior I would always encourage them greatly that it wasn't healthy and they should get help or start more healthy thoughts, I would hold huge announcements about how important it was to be healthy and not undereat or over exercise and how much more worth everyone had than something stupid as visuals.....so who am I faking my own illness for, when I made so sure absolutely no one would suspect anything at all? I build this huge persona around myself that stood for healthy balance and self love, to hide how much i hated myself and how much i did not want to feel any of those painful feelings that back then I didn't even really realize I had because I was sooo obsessed with rules and counting. But I just barely made it to an underweight BMI you know, and I feel like I lost weight quite slowly too, since I was still eating. I was eating, and although the last few months before recovering I really decreased my calories to an unhealthy amount, already when I counted up to a healthy amount I was completely ovsessive and unhealthy about it. I don't know what I want to say, just that it's really easy to believe it when you want to blame yourself for your ED... But that what keeps you from getting help... And that's what the ED wants...and it will tell you absolutely anything it needs to successfully manipulate you.
Def not reading this
Cristhian Fuertes then don’t lol
Cristhian Fuertes no one said u had to
I gasped when i read the last lines cus i relate so much and i never thought of that
I actually really needed this. I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa last February, but have since gained weight and no longer meet the criteria for any specific eating disorder so I constantly feel like I'm faking having a problem with food. Somehow it's really comforting to realize that I'm not.
I don't think you are faking it. if you are struggling it doesn't matter how much you weight. keep fighting as you have done til now and taking care of yourself! Stay strong!!
I feel like there's tons of stigma and stereotype about how people with mental illnesses should act. If you're not immobile because of it than no one cares. I feel like a lot of people in my generation had parents who stigmatize mental illness as just a way to get attention. Whenever I felt depressed or potentially suicidal as a middle schooler it would be looked at as dramatic. This creates a vicious cycle for why people don't want to get help, you are convinced your whole life you are making it up.
I love it when you cuss lol. #justsaying
Kati Morton is the bomb.com! Thanks to you I'm in therapy and making so much progress! You change lives
P.s.....i've had this with teachers and school counsellors too! When they swear they're confidential and can't tell anyone anything, and make you aware of boundaries but then go and talk to teachers and friends things that aren't even 'risky' or 'dangerous' etc. xox
Good video, but people with eating disorder don't usually want attention. It often is an escape or way to cope with situations or emotions. Many hide their eating disorder. I am a little frustrated that there is an assumption that ED are about attention.
my old school councillor did that with every student she dealt with. she "retired" but everyone knows why
I started restricting to lose weight. I can't stop now, but that's mostly because I'm not thin yet. I don't know if I'm sick or just being overly dramatic at ths point. I'm so confused.
SillyWillow me either. I think I am full my tommy is full but I am keep eating these healthy and junks foods. I want to stop it but my body wants the food
From my experience, when I told my teacher she had limitations as you said to what she can keep confidential (self harm, suicidal thoughts have to be reported) but other then that nothing should be shared with anyone. My teacher may have told the Guidence office just so I have that extra bit of support but teachers and coaches heck no! I can see the the Guidence counsellor my want to give some clarity to those people but if she didn't ask your permission, then she's got no right to. My teacher told me and asked me when/if she told someone and that was okay with me. If I was in your position, I'd report her right away. That's is sick. Horrible. I'm so sorry you've gotta go through this. Stay strong!
Thank you for making SOO MAANNYY things clear! I love youu♥
I wish you were in my country!!
I love your honesty and openness...it is very helpful. :)
Yayy I miss your regular Faqs!
#Q2 your counsellor is bang out of order. I wouldn't even bring it up with her I would go above her now and complain. X
"this is fucked up" really caught me off guard. I want a therapist that cuss'.
I feel like I'm faking it, but from what I heard, I'm not. Yet, I don't want to have an ed. I want to just have a desire to lose a lot of weight, but not be anorexic. I really just hate the label
What's wrong with just wanting confidence from losing weight? It makes me feel good knowing that I'm actually accomplishing something. When I restrict, it distracts me from my worries and suicidal thoughts since I put all my focus on my weight. Idk what's wrong with just having some sort of control or coping mechanism
Thank you so much for this video!
#KatiFAQ Great video, Kati! All your videos are so helpful. I am a recovered anorexic (3 years and counting, wohoo) and I am now dealing with a lot of anger. I am angry that I went through years of hell and it started way before I even could consciously make informed decision because I was so young. I feel like I was "given" my eating disorder and this makes me so angry. I am partly mad at my mom for contributing to my ED (she put me on restrictive diets when I was 5 and 6 years old, called me fat a lot) but I am also angry at society in general....? I don't know how to put some closure over this anger or how to get rid of it. I am mad it took me so many years to finally live my life and find my "true" personality separately from my ED and feel like someone, or something, robbed me of additional happy years I could have had. What do you think?
Thanks for another great video :)
That second question reminded me of when my old school counselor told several of my friends about some of the things I had been talking to her about. Luckily my friends already knew everything so it didn't really matter (but she had no idea they did), but it's just so wrong...
my school counselor keeps telling my teachers about my problems, too!!!
Your channel is lovely! Great work ^-^
3:40 so I went to my doctor to speak to her about my eating problems and how I didn't feel like I needed to eat and I didn't want to etc. And she asked me why did you start eating less. And I just didn't know why. My mom who was there with me said at the time i told her i wanted to just eat healthier but i dont remeber that.
I always thought an eating disorder was because you wanted to lose weight or whatever but I didn't know you could also develop an eating disorder without an reason. If you get what I mean.
I guess this was an eye opener for me. Thank you
Great video, we love you Katie!!!
Thank you so much for this video Kati this really helped
Elgin! I've been there before :) You were right the first time :) x
You're so cute and sweet, so when you curse, it's really funny.
Hey Kati, I've recently learnt how to do Mental Health First aid and I feel confident to help people who might be going through a crisis. Maybe in the future you could do a video on Mental Health First Aid. So people know what to do if they come across a situation. Thanks :) Love your videos!
Ur an awesome person kati
Yay you are coming to Scotland!!! That's awesome. So chuffed a RUclipsr is coming to Scotland Yeah Elgin is quite far north so be prepared and wrap up warm haha ^_^ Having a meet up would be wonderful. Hope the event goes well and please keep us updated on when a meet up will be possible! :) Would definitely be up for it xx
is it common to have eating disorder behaviours because I wanna have control over my life and emotions? can that lead to an ED?
that IS an ed
hi katie, I've had a problem with eating for about 9 months and I don't know how to get help. I don't want people to think I'm attention seeking.im also very embarrassed to tell my perants what do I do?
Can you come to Glasgow. I love your videos and the quality is great.
usually its ednos if we can stop and start
Huh?
Whenever I feeling really 'distressed' I now make myself vomit sometimes I will just eat to purge after.... I don't know why I started but I am just wondering if it's just another form of self-harm or something more.
Thank you for your videos they helped me through a really hard patch 😊
I struggled last year with anorexia and I didn’t eat, I lost a lot of weight but still didn’t meet the BMI weight. Then my friend told me if I didn’t start working towards recovery she’d involve someone and that freaked me out and then I developed a love for food again and then started to hate myself again and started purging but now I feel like I “failed” at having an eating disorder bc I’m fine as of right now
I have been struggling with binging, restricting, and purging for the past few months and it has got me starting to self harm...im glad that hurts cause that helps a little with keeping me away from that one... but sometimes i feel like no one will take me seriously if i tell someone so i am terrified to say anything. 😒 I was on a great streak, i had purged in almost a month, but then i purged last night and i am afraid that i wont be able to stop on my own nor do i think i should have to. Also i cant just avoid the routine cause i do it in the shower to hide any possible coughing or noise. Help.
Damn I was hoping it would be the southern end of Scotland near the cities or something but it's all the way up north :( I'm in England about an hour from the border but that's like a 6 hour drive away. Maybe one day you'll venture further south! Xx
My friend believes she may be making up her disorder. She has a purpose but the purpose isn't attention but she really want to be skinny. So she knows why she started it. Is it real? Or can it be that she is just imitating some of the symptoms?
***** AHHHH you are coming to Scotland!?? That is so exciting! :) Are you going to have time to travel at all? Not that I am biased but it really is a beautiful country, I hope you get to see a bit of it! It's Elgin like the way you said it before you corrected yourself haha.It would be so great if you did a meet up XX
this actually makes me feel better, I downplayed this massively to my doctor, and didn't tell him how much I've been restricting and he now thinks I'm not showing signs of any eating disorder but i have abnormal views around food I need to address. I restrict and before I eat anything I take diet pills, if I binge I sometimes overexercise. But I don't think I have an eating disorder because I don't feel like I feel bad enough when I do eat but its only if I eat something I hadn't planned for or I didn't want to I'd feel horrible. I sometimes try to purge until my stomach hurts and I give myself a headache. However my doctor did refer me to the adolescent mental health services so I could see a psychiatrist. Do you think I need to tell the psychiatrist about this? It doesn't feel like a problem
Even you explaining that some people just want attention I'm thinking oh yeah that's me
#KatiFAQ
Kati although there are a lot of people around me a lot of the time why am I most afraid of myself, I can't help it. I just get really anxious with the thoughts in my head all the time and my actions towards my body (self harm) you can't escape yourself right so what do you do? Thank you for all your videos they encouraged me to seek help from my doctor☺️
Omg I want more info on you coming over to Scotland please I would love to meet up with you you know how freaking awesome I think you are!!! I am beyond excited if I do make it up it would be a 6 and a half hour drive but so worth it please get back to me ASAP please this needs to happen hope u are ok you are always in my thoughts love you!!!
💟 your viedos x
What your thoughts Katie on eating disorders and aspergers?
Thanks Kati :-) xx
Come to Northern Ireland?! Pleeeeaaaaase? :P Xox
the first question was what i have been wondering for the last 2/3 years since i had around 8months of the habits non-stop of an eating disorder. But having 2of my friends suffer from it and get seriously ill i started to pull myself out. Since then i have been wondering if I'm exaggerating, that because i didn't go through such a rough experience i couldn't of been suffering. Now im the opposite from what used to eat like now ill either eat tons and feel shit after words or just not hungry for the whole day. I still have thoughts now and again that were similar to those i had in those months, im just so confused and ive just never told anyone really because im scared that if i told them they would be like thats not really an ED
my school councillor told all my teachers i'm faking everything and called my mum and said i was making everything up (i later found out she did it to someone else as well) i now have a LOT of trouble trusting people like therapist's and gives me a lot anxiety about having to talk to people about it how can i get over this? it happened over 5 years ago and is affects me.
I started restricting to lose weight and I just told myself that I would stop at the end. I want to be under weight and I don’t want to stop because I will feel like a failure and I’m scared of gaining weight. I feel like I’m just faking it for attention because I told two of my close friends but they might be close to forgetting. I want to be underweight so I will feel pretty and I’ve had a low self esteem all my life and tried to diet but failed all of them. I don’t know if I’m faking it or not, but it’s addicting to see the scale go down fast and restrict.
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Please help. I can't deal with life any more I really want to give up on life. I keep pushing people away and I hideous
I Hope you dont feel that way anymore ,and that you are happy ❤️
This is hard for me to say and I'm not sure I'm not sure that I can express it in a way that will be understood. I hope you see and respond to this.
I have a strange relationship with food. When people talk about how much food there eating in a given time period or talk about eating more than 700 cal. In one meal. Or just have an argument or fight that involves food( not food prep). I freak out and have bad panick attacks.
I tend to feel guilty about how much I've eaten but at the same time I worry I'm not eating properly.
When I'm relaxing at home I feel I need to have both food and drink ready at hand at all times if I don't I'm not comfortable that does not mean I eat all the time just needs to be easily excesable(sp?) I sometimes like once every couple of months or when I have something important for example like psych or doctors apt. The next day I tend to binge to the point I throw up from eating to much.
Do I have an ED or what?
If I tell my therapist that I binge eat will they have to tell my parents? Like does that count as harming myself or will that be covered by the patient confidentiality thing?
#katiFAQ I have no privacy with my parents especially once they found out about my depression and self harm. It makes me really frustrated and not want to talk to them about anything. I also recently found out my mom has been discretely emailing my school counselor about my issues and I just feel like I can't control anything on my own (which worsens my self harm urges) what do I do? I don't want to talk to my parents or mom about this because she's already nosy enough in my life. I just want your opinion or advice on what I should do? Thanks I love your videos you really are an inspiration!!
What if the purpose was to lose weight?
I have the same problems. I feel that my schizoaffective disorder must be fake, because I don't hear a ton of voices, but I get thoughts that arn't my own. My parinoia is crazy, but I just st don't know.
#katifaq I have EDNOS and I'm in a binge and purge phase. My question is why is there only one food I don't feel guilty about eating? It's pasta which is high carbs. I don't understand why I feel okay after eating them.
I think I've made up my mental illnesses all of the time (and some people in my life even tell me that) even though my psychiatrist said I was "pre-disposed" to have some of them (I don't really understand that, and I don't know how to say it in English, so sorry)
Kati, what do I do if I'm not sure if I'm faking my mental illnesses? I feel like one day things are really bad and I can't walk away from the door because I keep having to check if it's locked, I get really hard on myself, and I get really depressed but then the next day it's a lot easier and I only have to check the door once. I'm starting to think I either am faking it or have bipolar because things go from really really great and having a ton of energy to not wanting to get out of bed and having no energy. Although I'm not sure if things like ocd would get worse during the periods of depression that's what it seems like to me. I can't see a therapist because of money but I just wanted to know if there was a sure fire way to know if I'm faking it or not.
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Dear Kati, I hope you are doing fine!
I've been pounding over a question several months (almost years) now and I'd really appreciate to hear your opinion on this:
In my teenage years I've been struggling with anorexia for about 3 years. Although I've regained all the weight and even an uncomfortable lot more by now, i feel like I've never fully developed womanly features. I'm almost 19 years old and didn't have any breast growth at all. Nowadays I also suffer from severe depression and BDD which is partly linked to my distorted Body Image.
Now to the actual question: What's your opinion on cosmetic surgery (in my case a breast augmentation) if the physical flaw seems to be related to a mental health problem? Do you think it would help the depression to get the main physical flaw corrected, or would it just be a quick fix?
I started off by the urge to lose weight, is that an ED or a habit diet thing
hey, Kati what to do I do? I have recently relapsed in my self harm and Im really feel more comfortable with it. I know it is bad but there is a huge part of me that needs this so badly right now, I was just wondering would it be that bad for me to fall into my self harm for awhile just till I have the strength to stop?
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Hmmm. To me if someone loses weight for attention they could develop an ed. It makes sense it could be a cry for help or a way to communicate or get compliments. Eds have to do little with food, but more with underlying issues. Still means you got a real ed.
Hi Katie, I have a question : can someone with and eating disorder like anorexic be a disordered eater?
hi Katie,
I go to therapy once a week and have been thinking about wanting to see the notes that she takes after the session. While I am a minor( 17 years old), I was wondering if i can even ask for her notes. Is it okay? or am i not allowed to see her notes. I think it would be beneficial for me to see her notes and compare them with mine(because i do occasionally write thoughts towards the therapy session when done).While i know that therapists are not suppose to give opinions to their clients, I am quite mature for my age. Basically i want to know if it is a normal thing for therapists to give their notes to their clients.
Thanks so much,
E.Frank
#KatiFAQ is there something wrong when you need to check if what's happening is reality often?
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Hello Ms. Morton, I know this is a video from a long time and so you might not see my comment but I recently came out to my mom about my issues with overeating and because it's been almost 4 years of struggle, I thought I should maybe see a professional but she told me that there are no meds to fix someone's eating habits so it's all about my self control. Do you still recommend seeing a doctor when you have eating issues or do you think seeing a counselor is a better idea? Thank you so much for your videos
Yuri Takahashi yes yes yes!!! See a therapist, your mom is wrong.
Hey do you think so many people see therapists for this.
Meag Thank you for your kindness, I’ve actually started seeing a therapist for a month now and things are getting so much better. And to your question, not really here in Japan as mental health care system is still not that great overall plus the fee for seeing a therapist isn’t covered by our national health insurance.
It’s not really “up to you” to continue seeing a school counselor for resources. They can call you out of class and if they are really an asshole they may even try to get you involuntarily committed if you don’t work with them.
Also....sorry for commenting so much but what's the best way for me to get a journal topic to you? On Facebook, on here, or your website?? Xox
If you post it here, she'll see it :)
#katifaq, hey kati, what will happen if I keep refusing to be weighed? I'm from the uk so I'm not sure if the answer might be different as I've heard horror stories about people being sectioned if they refused to be weighted.
KATI !,I have recently been referred to CAMH's as "urgent" as this place is like therapy I asked if I would be going alone to which the doctor said not and that its also family therapy as well as for my depression and self harm , this has upset me beacuse I really dont like talking about that kind of thing in front of my mum and dad however beacuse I am 12 im not sure if I can go alone in England ,were I live . Is it possible to have therapy alone and for free if the is what they have referred me for ?(for free) or do u have to go only with my family also will I be made to keep goimg with my family as I will be the first time I go , even when I said no to the doctor they said I had to and I felt very forced into something I didn't want to do and it made me upset and angery , please help me with my situation anyone ,or kati please
Hiya, I was referred to CAMHS as I'm also from UK, a while ago now. I had to start going with my family first, then after a few sessions my family, I was asked to go alone. I much preferred going in my own as I could open up and talk properly without my parents being there. It is good to start if with your family being there to start with tho because the therapist helps your family understand some if your issues and u get to be open and communicate as a family, but after a while if they havevt mentioned seeing u in your own just say to then that you want to talk without your parents there and in sure they will understand. CAMHS really helped me. I was so scared at first but now I'm really glad I went even tho I was referred when I was 17 and u can't go when u turn 18 so I was only there for a year : (
I hope it helps you too, good luck xx
thanks so much that answered all my questions on it , i will have more year at camhs than you and now ive herd first hand it can help im feeling calmer
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Ok...so I have been having truble eating lately and I told one person my best friend and she told my consiler and she had me right what I eat all weekrdrd and she said I think you have a eating disorder I am going to call your mom and I talked to her and she said she won't tell my mom yet but for some resone I feel like this home eating disorder is fake but I can't stop it what do I do and do you think I have a eating disorder or do you think its just in my head ps love you and your vidios
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It's not fake. Can you ask your therapist to help you tell your mom again?
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Can u make your self believe that you have depression and you twist your mind into thinking you have it