When I tried to talk to my mom about my sexual abuse from my brother (who later committed suicide), she blamed me for breaking up the family. I tried later to tell her how much that hurt, and she shouted, "Stop talking!" I knew at that point that I couldn't have my parents in my life. I call her once in a while, but I cut the emotional ties. I know I'm healing because I was a severe skin-picker (excoriation disorder) for 35 years, diagnosed with OCD for that. It just fell away one day, no kidding. I don't know how OCD just suddenly stops. Before that I had done hard-core counseling about all members of my family, energy work, and had a couple of brutal kundalini awakenings. Life has been getting better, slowly.
Welcome fellow light worker. My brother did the same to me. I wish he’d cross himself over, but he’s so utterly oblivious and in complete denial he won’t. Boy will his crossing be a bitch though! It’s made for a hell of a healing journey that’s including a brutal Kundalini awakening for the past 5+ years (getting better though). The day all attachment to our relationship suddenly dissolved I was set free. And this was a few years after all the rage I carried had dissolved (working with a wonderful hypnotherapist). I couldn’t really begin to heal until both my parents were dead.
You are the only you 🫶 Im happy that you know your worth now & continue to heal. I also had my OCD just disappear, it happened after I cut ties with my sister (I still have work to do because it was hard for me to type the words ‘my sister’ dangit LoL) But I do know why-shes never apologized or even talked about all she put me through since my very 1st memory & im 49 now. Yet she claims to be a Lightworker while being judgmental to all around her. I’m not sure I would have figured that out had I not replied to your comment💛 This was supposed to be a comment about how my ocd went away also. Now I know I need to go write or type & let it flow on paper so I can continue to heal🙏 This is why I’ve been watching/listening to Christina Lopes for years. Connecting to others in the comments like this also helps us-im Grateful for this : ) Wishing you the best Always~Sending love & light 🙏
Things I learned from this Vd Don't run away from anything that triggers you. Triggers are best friends.They give u the opportunity to heal the inner wounds. Connect with the feminine. Feel the emotions and release them. Feminine is the healer. Boundaries are sacred. We should have healthy boundaries with people even after we heal. Lightworkers intentionally choose difficult childhoods because they r so powerful and they want to stop generational traumas and wounds and repetitive toxic patterns
Thank you so much. I released my parents from childhood sexual abuse. I moved away to live by the sea, not to run away but to feed my soul and heal. I initially felt guilty for putting that distance but I don't anymore. I'm beginning to finally heal at age 58.
I was definitely not born into my soul family. I felt like the black sheep in my original family, then lost one parent to cancer and the other emotionally to mental illness, and lived with extended family, Ironically with someone who thought she was a light worker, but was actually very abusive and was a narcissist. By that time I saw the bullshit for what it was and I was starting to come into my power. I left at 18 and never looked back. Hung onto my roots with my dad and brother for a while, but my father passed and I started believing my brother when he showed me who he was. So here I am, finding my soul tribe, mostly in the yoga community 💜 I definitely believe I had those experiences so that I could master healing by healing myself.
Thank you so much! 2 days I made the decision to remove my parents from my life for the reason you discussed!! I choose to remove myself from this contract and love myself.
@@justjules6975 awe, sweet, better late than never. I'm claiming my 40 years of self destruction cleared and claim victory with all the other amazing beings here❤️🌈⭐
I deeply thank you and the woman who asked the question. This message has helped me greatly. I’m still angry that my parents didn’t provide a safe environment for me to grow up in. My mother still likes to believe that I had an ideal childhood. I’m sure that she has her own childhood trauma.
I stopped talking to my mother for almost 2 yrs because she was putting me down. She had never treated me like that in my life. All the way up to my 30's, I was like her golden child, it wasn't until she disapproved of my parenting skills that her actions changed towards me. I was a working single mother, maybe that's it, it was my divorce and I was diagnosed with a few things, she started to call me crazy, and instead of understanding I needed rest and healing, she was resentful that I slept a lot, after a very stressful marriage. Instead of taking my side, she believed what my daughter said about me, I was a single working mother and she wanted me to parent the way my mother patented us, but I couldn't because mom was always home and disabled but I had to work full time. Working 16 hrs a day sometimes to afford Xmas and clothing or what have you. She would call me lazy for sleeping after work, I worked 3rd shift and sometimes 1st shift too. Or she would say I was a bad mother because of the way I did things because I worked. And I use to shop for her and clean her house because she was sick and nothing I did was good enough, after staying away from her for almost 2 yrs she did treat me better.
My best friend and I always knew we were from the same soul-family. She said;" You are my sister and I am your sister. You don´t belong to your evil family, you belong to me, and I love You, I know You, I accept You" I love her for this, it helped me when I had a hard time coping and could not love my birth family.
Loads of love to all who have gone through trauma in their lives. 💜 It is really tough to go through the healing process, yet it's worth it. An analogy of 'youngling of any bird coming out of an egg' could be given to understand healing one's wounds. May all empaths and highly sensitive people achieve their well-deserved healing, so they can rejoice and help/inspire others to heal. ☺🙏🏼
I refer to my traumatic childhood as BootCamp. My mother was the drill sergeant. My wounds introduced me to loving people. The treasure of the 2nd half of life has been breathtaking. I divorced my family. Thank you, Christina. I still have haunting memories but I'm able to say "no" and they leave me alone.
I finally decided it was time to go no contact with my mother. I like the term divorced. I am 44 years old and am now starting to realize I can begin my life. MY LIFE. I am a daughter of a narcissistic mother who was a "covert" manipulator and a narcissistic step-father who sexually molested me throughout my childhood. I mentioned it to her a few times, and finally when I was 18, she stated "I stayed because I needed someone to provide for us, I couldn't afford you on my own". I should have figured it out then, but it's been a long road. Boot camp explains my childhood very well. Shut up, don't speak unless spoken to, you are worthless and do everything wrong... blah blah blah. She made me diet, exercise, punishments were cruel. Beatings sometimes. Breathtaking indeed to finally be free to be me, to not have anxiety with every phone call/text, to not be put down. I'm glad you are able to find your tribe!
I really love these new videos. I hope by your recently Instagram post on changing over to storytelling, this is where you are going. This type of video seems more feminine vs the masculine outline format. I love both. Anytime I find myself alone while walking and I see a man, I become hyper vigilant. It triggers me every time. My molestation is a wound that seems to always cycle back around. My molester died of the Covid Delta variant. My guides brought him to me. It was hard. They showed me he was molested by a man when he was a baby and never remembered it. Only in seeing that, could I have any kind of forgiveness. Life is never black or white. You are a beautiful soul Christina. Your work heals both up close and at a distance. Much love to you.
I’ve made great progress with my father … in fact I’m neutral and compassionate now . Working on mom… I didn’t expect to have healing to do there but have realised I do , so working on it .
I thought my issues were with my mom. After I worked through that, stuff came up with my dad that I didn't think about, but I realized later that there was a LOT there as well. Funny how I focused on my mom, maybe because she was more "obvious" haha. Wishing you well on your journey
THANK YOU for saying out all these things about sexual abuse from "parents". THANK YOU. It is the most difficult thing to acknowledge ,that it is what it is, not to mention saying it . It's like being dirtied within forever, unclearably, unwashably, because of what they did , without any hope of ever getting clean, ever getting rid of this horrible "energy". I've always felt, that I have no right to live, because of what they did (and because of not being able to protect myself, even though I was very little, I blamed myself in my feelings for it) . I felt that no matter what I do, I remain dirtied through them, and I have nothing at all, nothing to build my life on. I don't know if anybody understands it, but I just wanted to say it out, write it out.
That's a good thing...at least you were able to say it and write it. You're well on your way to healing now. I'm 73 yrs old and I finally able to writeThe Poem....5 yrs old ago. Wasn't a dry eye in the room at the Reading..now, I'm doing wkshps with Youth....😘 Keep going...God blessed you so that you can be a blessing to someone else...trust me! 🤔
@@patriciaburton5279 Thank you for your comment 💜🌷 Reading it is helping me now a great deal, perhaps you don't even know how much 💗.... but then again, maybe you do know , as you've been through the same, one way or another. I'm 51, I spent all those years in this self-imposed prison of forced silence, thinking, feeling I was the worst of the worst, and I had no right to exist at all, not to mention speaking. Iam making baby steps towards it now, yeah at 51, I am learning tó speak and walk on my own right. Thank you again for writing the comment, it is important, it is healing, it is helping to see each other as well , ín our authentic truth, ín our power, as such. 💐💙🦋🐛💗🌷
@@sanjahoffman4833 Thank you 🏵️💮 so much, your kindness is coming through 🌷💙 I really needed to find and read your comment this morning. Thank you. It is helping, it is a nice gift🎁🌞🌋💖( the little volcano pic got there accidentaly , but then I decided to leave it there, as when one starts to speak their authentic truth, it's first just little by little, like the few rocks and mourmour coming out of of a volcano before the eruption, but then after a while it really starts going, and brings out all the magma from the depth of (one's inner) Earth tó form new land. This little volcano picture reminded me of this 💖🌋as words erupt from the heart ) 🏵️💮🌷🐻💜💛💗
I kid you not but you keep answering questions I pose to my spirit guides and validating messages I receive. Yesterday I journaled a question....what does it mean to be healed? I have received great understanding about my childhood trauma which has calmed a lot of internal flairs and triggers but when I receive more clarity about my trauma, it still triggers me, & I knew I was not healed fully. So I asked above Q and also accepted that perhaps my wounds would be with me for some time / all my life. Can I also add that the Mother wound is also what I'm looking for healing for.... What I'm receiving now listening to this is: Validate your own trauma....fully validate your your trauma to fully heal...don't compare, don't look around , kneel in a crunching position and fully validate your personal trauma... Enkosi ( thank you)
I called my step father out in a letter in 2010. This abusive behavior produces insecurity and we’re always wanting to please others. It’s why a lot of us have taken on the masculine male role. No one protected us, not even our parents.
EMDR is a great way to heal trauma. It allows you to process the trauma emotionally, physically and then neutralizes it into memory. Please look into it if talking about it makes you shake or cry.
I feel every bit of this in my bones, and my soul is a given here. I've only recently embarked on a spiritual healing journey. Six years, actually, but discovered Christina about three years ago. This shit MATTERS. Personally I have absolutely no logical business in my blood family. They're embarrassed by me. I'm "too much". But I can remember as a child saying to myself "this shit ends with me" and I've stuck with that. My daughters are warriors. One is actually adopted legally as an adult, and even looks like us. I've said for years that blood amounts to jackshit. To my other daughter, I have told her that her genetic contributor had nothing more to do with her than to help create her physical structure.
Thanks for ur comment, I’ve been struggling a lot with guilt because my bio father is like u said “just someone who only contributed genetically” and blood doesn’t mean anything. It’s just hard for me to let go because of guilt and grief that it didn’t have to be this way.
Thank you! Im having my son listen to this. My 36 year-old son has Lyme, Babesia (tick-borne illnesses) and had meningitis, several TBIs, and mold toxicity. His mind is healing, but is on antibiotics and other meds to detox from these horrific symptoms. He’s going to a neuropsychologist who is working with him, but at home, he thinks everyone is getting ahead except him. He says he has no friends (he has some, but they change) and his family has dissolved (He has cousins his age that have families, and he’s never been able to hod down a job, but we didn’t know he had these illnesses in his brain. When you mentioned that your family doesn’t have to stay your family, I told him that he doesn’t have to compare himself to his family, an he has a soul family. I have a soul family, myself. These are people that I connect with on a soul level, and I’m looking for more!
Thank you so so much Christina! I didn’t remove myself from a family that allowed and protected my father who sexually abused me. He passed 21 years ago with things unresolved. I feel like I’ve finally let my anger towards him go. It was after I found out his father was sexually abusive too. I’ve been dealing with rage towards my mom because we were very close (so I thought) until I told her of my father’s sexual abuse. She told me to move on and denied it happened. I don’t wish her Ill but I cut ties with her last October. She’s not doing well right now and is in fact having breast cancer surgery today. I dreamt of her all night. I honestly wish I could quit caring completely. Sometimes I feel I have because I feel almost numb but then my dreams or a memory tell me different. How do I make the rage go away? I would kill for my children and I can’t forgive that she didn’t do anything but kiss his ass until he died. She had money and she had family and options to leave. She chose him
I so sorry that you had to go through this my dear. I am sending you lots of love and light ❤️🙏 Everyone in our life is playing a role that is given to them in order to understand who we are! So this life is happening for us! Your mom and dad played different roles and even though it was toxic, it is still a lesson. It is important to understand that it is just a lesson and it is nobody's fault! You can choose to forgive everyone ( for your own good my dear and that is the only way you can heal and come out of this lesson). They are responding or choosing a response based on their consciousness level that they are at. So your mother will respond as per her consciousness level and it is nobody's fault. You deserve to be healed and happy my dear. Even if your mother does not understand your pain, still your pain is true and what you have been through is not right. You are loved and cherished by the divine ❤️. Forgive me for giving this unsolicited advice if doesn't resonates with you
Oh wow, this is ME. I cut ties with my parents (mother and sexually abusive stepfather) in October of 2021. My mother also battled breast cancer last year. I was discarded at 18 (20 years ago) after I told my mom the year before (as I was of age) and she went back to him and they're still together after 20 years of knowing, of charges being laid and dropped (at her request). I went back after trying to make it on my own, to try and prove my love to my mom by shutting up and pretending. Feel the rage. You're allowed to be mad. I had to manifest a lot of my parent's patterns to be able to have compassion towards them and feel okay. I know that my mom is on her own path, and its just as hard as my own and how much she has to delude everyone that her life is perfect. That is something I refuse to carry anymore. I have also come to the conclusion that I would only let my mother back into my life is if she stopped with the facade (of EVERYTHING) that everything is perfect and okay and come with full acceptance of what has happened. She's not there yet and I don't need her to be there for me to feel okay. Much love!
Wow Christina! You just put on words my thoughts about this subject of healing difficult family relationship and/or relationship in general! That completely make sense! Thanks so much! 💕🐇💫
What a refreshing insight, when I first started teaching that we don't always come into our soul family for growth, I was met with strong hesitation by many other mediums. I said nope how can we expect to grow if we always incarnate with family members? We're not meant to only help ourselves we're to come to help others. ❤❤
I felt guilty for very long time because I had to remove my narcissistic mother from my life. Even after I healed (actually I'm still healing) I don't have the need to have her in my life. And often the society doesn't understand this and makes it even harder, saying: she gave you birth and she is your mother. Well, even if she is my mother, I don't have to keep her in my life and experience the same patterns and toxic behavior. Thank you for this video!
Divine bless you Christina. Thank-you for sharing your sessions here on youtube. I appreciate it immensely. I have learnt great things from your content. I am so grateful. Thankyou 😊
I love how you are so focused. You go in one direction, then in another, but you always come back on the main track. Very pleasant to follow your reasoning. Lots of good advices along the way. Thank you!
My ex came back to me few days ago ❤️ i got help from a Relationship Restorer Dr Willock who was able to mend back my broken relationship and make my ex to come back and beg. For a second chance. He can bring your ex back, and he also do a lot of work also like financial problem, and court case, etc
Thank you for helping me positively set boundaries with my mom and other members of my family! I have spent so much time running away and now trying to work on response to my triggers! What a great perspective! Thank you! Wish I could go to one of your retreats! It’s on my manifesting list of desires and believe it will happen when it’s the right time! Thanks!
I absolutely love the way you explain everything. You've helped me so much over the last two years, I'm sharing this video in hopes the people who need to hear this will watch it.
I just realized I was still holding onto anger and sadness from nobody protecting me from my abuse. I think because my mother was working to raise me and my 2 sisters and my dad wasn't really in the picture I felt like I shouldn't blame her. I guess i was suppressing that. but I'm releasing that tonight. Thank you.
Yesss, my mother unfortunately lived in bad times and country for lightworkers, after her death, she left me a gift and I can really appreciate this video ❤
Great video Christina!! I feel like I've worked through the trauma I have from the sexual abuse I endured growing up...I have absolutely forgiven & actually have so much love for my abuser & healed that part of it. What I find so much more difficult is the part my mother played. She basically acted as though it was my fault & then told me to keep my mouth shut. My mom & i have grown a lot since then. & for the 1st time in our lives we have a really good relationship. The trauma I have from her response to the abuse is the 1 issue i still deal w. Its difficult to navigate & im still learning how. Maybe I just heal the wounds she inflicted through her response & thats just as much as I can do???
Beautiful teaching. And powerful! Although sitting in meditation has proven very difficult for me, I excel at guided meditation. And working with transpersonal hypnotherapists has allows me over time to heal traumas so completely there’s no more emotional charge. No matter how you access your inner world, learning to heal what I call soul separation (when your buttons get pushed) will change your life! Thank you Christina for all your wisdom and support.
I was relating to each topic . Suddenly I came to this Chanel today . May be it’s a connection universe wanted me to get clear vision about my childhood trauma and to get a clear picture about soul family and biological family . Thank you so much for this video . I would like to do more research on it .
Yes, you need to heal to the point where you can regulate your triggers. You control the triggers when they come to us, so they no longer control your life. You recognize your triggers for what they are and reframe in the moment.
I dunt have childhood trauma... Has a great life. Then at 32 my dad went off the rails and nearly lost everything after watching his father die.... That's my adult child trauma.... To watch the man that man u who u are, fall to pieces and the family fall apart
That girl is so lucky to be working with you. What you said it always makes sense. My first Iowa Aska ceremony taught me that I am supposed to heal this maternal line that I am a part of. I have never heard that it could be a different soul family not biological family
The mayority of families are complex and disfunctional. Not only the ones of "lightworkers" The souls that are coming in now are no different from the rest, the difference is in the new parents who don't know how to set boundaries and are not like the parents of before who were weigh more authoritarian
I have given birth five times and love your no their not taking any shit....my sons and daughter takes no messing ! They have friends too. Its a very clear cenergy when we have to let go.
My energy and my light affects those that are in experiencing the same that you may say are still asleep so to speak and I know that when I’m around them, whoever they may be it’s normally strangers they can feel that and they don’t know why they’re feeling it and then they’re frightened of you or they actually get angry with you and I find myself in times where I’m really sensitive Not knowing how to deal with that but walk away from it as quickly as possible, depending on how much I can tolerate if that given moment. There are people out there who are deliberately hurting other people because they don’t know how to deal with their own internal pain and that pisses the shit out of me and I have been told in numerous times and it’s always from spiritual people that anger is unnecessary when it comes to these people that you have as long as you understand why they’re doing it it’s all OK and I don’t believe it is OK for another human being to treat you negatively simply because they’re not comfortable in your presence …
It's so helpful Chris... Thank you. 💚💚A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders... Mine is not as severe as sexual abuse, but it's more around acceptance. There's this deep emotional loneliness that makes me keep pleasing my blood family at the expense of my dreams. I'm always the topic of brutal gossip in the blood family. And almost everything I do is seen with the lens of misunderstanding. They don't do it intentionally. They just really don't understand me. I know what I've to do now. Letting things just be instead of forcing. They're awesome humans, catering to animals. Like you said, I'm just going to check up on them. Commitment. Without letting them torture me mentally and emotionally. OK let's see.
I let go of my narcissistic mum and grandmother almost three years now they put me down a lot in my life I am so much happier without them I love them however I know they are not good for me so I love them from afar
As a parent, my oldest daughter has ghosted me since February and will not talk to me . I have no idea what is going on except that I feel so hurt. She has decided that her boyfriend and his parents are her family now. I wish I knew what was going on. I realize I just need to let go and work on self. Losing a child like this is so painful.
I have been struggling with this since I cut off connection with my brother (very toxic and EXTREME). I chose to heal myself (I actually was in the 2021 AWAKEN class) and stopped interacting with him and catering to his needs. My mother has been begging me to reconnect again, I have told her that I am working on me first. Your advice to allow the relationship back in and check up every once in a while, I am going to try this, but, maybe next month...
I released the connection with my abusive mother in ceremony and offered quantum relief for any guilt she may carry around my extreme childhood traumas last year... them last week I got highly triggered while in a short relationship with a person who has an engorged solar plexus. Thought I healed that shit last year. Apparently not, though....
Dear Christina, Thank you for this video.! Do you have more suggestions and books to recommend for releasing my biological family's traumas that I carry in my "backpack"?
My question is if we go by how reincarnation works, when I make it to the hangout room I can choose to be a spirit guide or just move on to another spiritual plane?
I heard so many times forgiveness means be with the person same as nothing ever happened. And if you move away it means you are not healed . Please make video on what is healing and what is forgiveness.
Thank you so much for sharing Christina! Very much needed. Sharing on my channel. And yes in kids these days 🤣 seen so many hilarious videos of these age of Aquarian kids now and oh my yeah they little old souls that nothing is getting by them. They come out the womb tapped in now. Some of the looks on these infants face when the adults are trying to do some silly trick you know they thinking "'cuse me yeah I dont think so" 🤣🤣🤣💜💜💜
Dear Cristina , you are amazing !! I ve being following u ! You helped me a lot !!!! You can not imagine ! Thank you 💜.I started an energetic path ten years ago so you can imagine all the things i' ve being trhough and i being doing Shadow work since last year, AND then Ayahuasca wich showed me a lot of information, like child abused, and the scary deep Shadow of the Univers, wich Is me also, but right now i being felling like every thing i used to follow, teachers, spiritual teachings, one gay that im almist dure he was muy twin flame Is literally folling apart, like if I was being deceived, do u feel something like that in the Energy right now!! And the sensation Is like if I was doing everything the way wrong ...i now that It wasnt wrong but still everything Is falling .Any advice? Thanks 💜
Hi beautiful beautiful Christina. First of all thank you so so so much for everything you are doing for the world. I am learning so much from your videos. I have so many more questions, i am not sure when exactly I spiritually awakened, and where i am right now. I watched the video about it bit still not sure lol. Universe was bringing me to spirituality little by little at a time over so many years and i went into the rabbit whole(as u said) last 2 months sense i found your videos. And i am so very greatful. I am not sure what exactly i have to heel bit i can feel there are things. Anyway, DO YOU HAVE A ONE TIME ONE ON ONE CLASS choice? I couldn’t find it in your website. And ARE YOU GOING TO VISIT LOS ANGELES ANYTIME? I would love to join your meeting in person. And again thank you so much♥️♥️♥️
Namaste my soul family🙏 Yes I was born in a family which is not my soul family... very toxic family My family and relatives...they all gave me very hard time ... until last year...before my awaken time My greatgrandmother..my grandmother ...my mother and her siblings ...they all have narcissist traids (i am kind of psychologist) Also my father and my only baby sis have codependency issues... but my grandfather is kind of an empath...who loved me and cared about me much Also i had kind of sexual abuse when i was a child...around six or seven maybe...but not exactly the worst kind...cause the abuser is also a child...that young boy was gone long time ago very poorly..his family was our housemaids...his mother and his sisters... I dont have that much wound about my sexual abuse...but what truama i had was with my mother and father Now...i have healed and i totally forgive my parents also my little sis...which is still trying to heal her codependency issues Since i was awaken...especially after my kundalini awakening...last december 2021...i started healed and forgive my mother and also my late father who was enabler for my mother... But the rest...like my relatives and my surroundings...my fake friends and..toxic people...they all just gave me annoying ecperiences... so i dont have to forgive cause i had no trauma from them... just learned how toxic people can be worthless ...i learned lesson that who i am not which is what i need to learn So...i leave them as where they are...no love no hate...just still annoying and try to avoid as much as i can...i don't care about them anymore...to be honest But i try to gave them compassion ...still can't though
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I love you Christina thank you so much for this. I needed to hear this. Thank you ssoooooo much.
When I tried to talk to my mom about my sexual abuse from my brother (who later committed suicide), she blamed me for breaking up the family. I tried later to tell her how much that hurt, and she shouted, "Stop talking!" I knew at that point that I couldn't have my parents in my life. I call her once in a while, but I cut the emotional ties. I know I'm healing because I was a severe skin-picker (excoriation disorder) for 35 years, diagnosed with OCD for that. It just fell away one day, no kidding. I don't know how OCD just suddenly stops. Before that I had done hard-core counseling about all members of my family, energy work, and had a couple of brutal kundalini awakenings. Life has been getting better, slowly.
❤️ You are loved and valued. You deserve to be heard.
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Welcome fellow light worker. My brother did the same to me. I wish he’d cross himself over, but he’s so utterly oblivious and in complete denial he won’t. Boy will his crossing be a bitch though! It’s made for a hell of a healing journey that’s including a brutal Kundalini awakening for the past 5+ years (getting better though). The day all attachment to our relationship suddenly dissolved I was set free. And this was a few years after all the rage I carried had dissolved (working with a wonderful hypnotherapist). I couldn’t really begin to heal until both my parents were dead.
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You are the only you 🫶 Im happy that you know your worth now & continue to heal.
I also had my OCD just disappear, it happened after I cut ties with my sister (I still have work to do because it was hard for me to type the words ‘my sister’ dangit LoL)
But I do know why-shes never apologized or even talked about all she put me through since my very 1st memory & im 49 now. Yet she claims to be a Lightworker while being judgmental to all around her.
I’m not sure I would have figured that out had I not replied to your comment💛
This was supposed to be a comment about how my ocd went away also. Now I know I need to go write or type & let it flow on paper so I can continue to heal🙏
This is why I’ve been watching/listening to Christina Lopes for years. Connecting to others in the comments like this also helps us-im Grateful for this : )
Wishing you the best Always~Sending love & light 🙏
Things I learned from this Vd
Don't run away from anything that triggers you. Triggers are best friends.They give u the opportunity to heal the inner wounds.
Connect with the feminine. Feel the emotions and release them. Feminine is the healer.
Boundaries are sacred. We should have healthy boundaries with people even after we heal.
Lightworkers intentionally choose difficult childhoods because they r so powerful and they want to stop generational traumas and wounds and repetitive toxic patterns
Thank you so much. I released my parents from childhood sexual abuse. I moved away to live by the sea, not to run away but to feed my soul and heal. I initially felt guilty for putting that distance but I don't anymore. I'm beginning to finally heal at age 58.
My biological Family are strangers to me all my life...now I know why..Thank you
💕Love, Light, and Healing💕
I was definitely not born into my soul family. I felt like the black sheep in my original family, then lost one parent to cancer and the other emotionally to mental illness, and lived with extended family, Ironically with someone who thought she was a light worker, but was actually very abusive and was a narcissist. By that time I saw the bullshit for what it was and I was starting to come into my power. I left at 18 and never looked back. Hung onto my roots with my dad and brother for a while, but my father passed and I started believing my brother when he showed me who he was. So here I am, finding my soul tribe, mostly in the yoga community 💜 I definitely believe I had those experiences so that I could master healing by healing myself.
Thank you so much! 2 days I made the decision to remove my parents from my life for the reason you discussed!! I choose to remove myself from this contract and love myself.
I hope you are young so you have a life of peace ahead of you xx❤️
We are in this together Amy!! We got this
@@ARA-ee9yr thank you ❤️ yes we are!
@@justjules6975 awe, sweet, better late than never. I'm claiming my 40 years of self destruction cleared and claim victory with all the other amazing beings here❤️🌈⭐
@@amyiseman8430 I’m 58 and yes better late than never xx❤️🙏
I deeply thank you and the woman who asked the question. This message has helped me greatly. I’m still angry that my parents didn’t provide a safe environment for me to grow up in. My mother still likes to believe that I had an ideal childhood. I’m sure that she has her own childhood trauma.
I stopped talking to my mother for almost 2 yrs because she was putting me down. She had never treated me like that in my life. All the way up to my 30's, I was like her golden child, it wasn't until she disapproved of my parenting skills that her actions changed towards me. I was a working single mother, maybe that's it, it was my divorce and I was diagnosed with a few things, she started to call me crazy, and instead of understanding I needed rest and healing, she was resentful that I slept a lot, after a very stressful marriage. Instead of taking my side, she believed what my daughter said about me, I was a single working mother and she wanted me to parent the way my mother patented us, but I couldn't because mom was always home and disabled but I had to work full time. Working 16 hrs a day sometimes to afford Xmas and clothing or what have you. She would call me lazy for sleeping after work, I worked 3rd shift and sometimes 1st shift too. Or she would say I was a bad mother because of the way I did things because I worked. And I use to shop for her and clean her house because she was sick and nothing I did was good enough, after staying away from her for almost 2 yrs she did treat me better.
My best friend and I always knew we were from the same soul-family. She said;" You are my sister and I am your sister. You don´t belong to your evil family, you belong to me, and I love You, I know You, I accept You"
I love her for this, it helped me when I had a hard time coping and could not love my birth family.
I had the same exact conversation with my soul friend.
@@marisavillalpando9032 😍
I just severed my soul sister relationship because she became verbally abusive.
Thank you ♥️Yes, my mother was an amazing woman but so wounded herself that she could not protect me or my siblings 😢👌🏽
I'm still working on my inner child.
Loads of love to all who have gone through trauma in their lives. 💜 It is really tough to go through the healing process, yet it's worth it. An analogy of 'youngling of any bird coming out of an egg' could be given to understand healing one's wounds.
May all empaths and highly sensitive people achieve their well-deserved healing, so they can rejoice and help/inspire others to heal. ☺🙏🏼
Our conditioning is "you've to work really hard to heal". Healing is the capacity of the feminine energy.
I refer to my traumatic childhood as BootCamp. My mother was the drill sergeant. My wounds introduced me to loving people. The treasure of the 2nd half of life has been breathtaking. I divorced my family. Thank you, Christina. I still have haunting memories but I'm able to say "no" and they leave me alone.
I finally decided it was time to go no contact with my mother. I like the term divorced. I am 44 years old and am now starting to realize I can begin my life. MY LIFE. I am a daughter of a narcissistic mother who was a "covert" manipulator and a narcissistic step-father who sexually molested me throughout my childhood. I mentioned it to her a few times, and finally when I was 18, she stated "I stayed because I needed someone to provide for us, I couldn't afford you on my own". I should have figured it out then, but it's been a long road. Boot camp explains my childhood very well. Shut up, don't speak unless spoken to, you are worthless and do everything wrong... blah blah blah. She made me diet, exercise, punishments were cruel. Beatings sometimes. Breathtaking indeed to finally be free to be me, to not have anxiety with every phone call/text, to not be put down. I'm glad you are able to find your tribe!
An amazing book that I just read is "Healing the Fragmented Selves of Trauma Survivors
Overcoming Internal Self-Alienation" by Janina Fisher.
Can't, stop loving you, christina you helping so much freely
I really love these new videos. I hope by your recently Instagram post on changing over to storytelling, this is where you are going. This type of video seems more feminine vs the masculine outline format. I love both.
Anytime I find myself alone while walking and I see a man, I become hyper vigilant. It triggers me every time. My molestation is a wound that seems to always cycle back around. My molester died of the Covid Delta variant. My guides brought him to me. It was hard. They showed me he was molested by a man when he was a baby and never remembered it. Only in seeing that, could I have any kind of forgiveness. Life is never black or white.
You are a beautiful soul Christina. Your work heals both up close and at a distance. Much love to you.
That is an amazing story, thank you for sharing
I’ve made great progress with my father … in fact I’m neutral and compassionate now . Working on mom… I didn’t expect to have healing to do there but have realised I do , so working on it .
I thought my issues were with my mom. After I worked through that, stuff came up with my dad that I didn't think about, but I realized later that there was a LOT there as well. Funny how I focused on my mom, maybe because she was more "obvious" haha. Wishing you well on your journey
@@gojiberry7201 … thank You… wishing you the same . God bless !
THANK YOU for saying out all these things about sexual abuse from "parents". THANK YOU. It is the most difficult thing to acknowledge ,that it is what it is, not to mention saying it . It's like being dirtied within forever, unclearably, unwashably, because of what they did , without any hope of ever getting clean, ever getting rid of this horrible "energy". I've always felt, that I have no right to live, because of what they did (and because of not being able to protect myself, even though I was very little, I blamed myself in my feelings for it) . I felt that no matter what I do, I remain dirtied through them, and I have nothing at all, nothing to build my life on. I don't know if anybody understands it, but I just wanted to say it out, write it out.
I see you & hear you. You are so worthy of healing & worthy of enjoying life. Blessings 💜☮️💜
That's a good thing...at least you were able to say it and write it. You're well on your way to healing now. I'm 73 yrs old and I finally able to writeThe Poem....5 yrs old ago. Wasn't a dry eye in the room at the Reading..now, I'm doing wkshps with Youth....😘 Keep going...God blessed you so that you can be a blessing to someone else...trust me! 🤔
@@patriciaburton5279 Thank you for your comment 💜🌷 Reading it is helping me now a great deal, perhaps you don't even know how much 💗.... but then again, maybe you do know , as you've been through the same, one way or another. I'm 51, I spent all those years in this self-imposed prison of forced silence, thinking, feeling I was the worst of the worst, and I had no right to exist at all, not to mention speaking. Iam making baby steps towards it now, yeah at 51, I am learning tó speak and walk on my own right. Thank you again for writing the comment, it is important, it is healing, it is helping to see each other as well , ín our authentic truth, ín our power, as such.
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@@sanjahoffman4833 Thank you 🏵️💮 so much, your kindness is coming through 🌷💙 I really needed to find and read your comment this morning. Thank you. It is helping, it is a nice gift🎁🌞🌋💖( the little volcano pic got there accidentaly , but then I decided to leave it there, as when one starts to speak their authentic truth, it's first just little by little, like the few rocks and mourmour coming out of of a volcano before the eruption, but then after a while it really starts going, and brings out all the magma from the depth of (one's inner) Earth tó form new land. This little volcano picture reminded me of this 💖🌋as words erupt from the heart )
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@@andread.4665 🌋 Love the magic that flowed when you just went with this! We're all on this journey 💫🌷🐛🦋.
May we all find our way 🤍🕊️🤍
I kid you not but you keep answering questions I pose to my spirit guides and validating messages I receive. Yesterday I journaled a question....what does it mean to be healed?
I have received great understanding about my childhood trauma which has calmed a lot of internal flairs and triggers but when I receive more clarity about my trauma, it still triggers me, & I knew I was not healed fully. So I asked above Q and also accepted that perhaps my wounds would be with me for some time / all my life.
Can I also add that the Mother wound is also what I'm looking for healing for....
What I'm receiving now listening to this is: Validate your own trauma....fully validate your your trauma to fully heal...don't compare, don't look around , kneel in a crunching position and fully validate your personal trauma...
Enkosi ( thank you)
I called my step father out in a letter in 2010. This abusive behavior produces insecurity and we’re always wanting to please others. It’s why a lot of us have taken on the masculine male role. No one protected us, not even our parents.
EMDR is a great way to heal trauma. It allows you to process the trauma emotionally, physically and then neutralizes it into memory. Please look into it if talking about it makes you shake or cry.
I feel every bit of this in my bones, and my soul is a given here. I've only recently embarked on a spiritual healing journey. Six years, actually, but discovered Christina about three years ago. This shit MATTERS.
Personally I have absolutely no logical business in my blood family. They're embarrassed by me. I'm "too much". But I can remember as a child saying to myself "this shit ends with me" and I've stuck with that. My daughters are warriors. One is actually adopted legally as an adult, and even looks like us. I've said for years that blood amounts to jackshit. To my other daughter, I have told her that her genetic contributor had nothing more to do with her than to help create her physical structure.
Thanks for ur comment, I’ve been struggling a lot with guilt because my bio father is like u said “just someone who only contributed genetically” and blood doesn’t mean anything. It’s just hard for me to let go because of guilt and grief that it didn’t have to be this way.
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Thank you! Im having my son listen to this. My 36 year-old son has Lyme, Babesia (tick-borne illnesses) and had meningitis, several TBIs, and mold toxicity. His mind is healing, but is on antibiotics and other meds to detox from these horrific symptoms. He’s going to a neuropsychologist who is working with him, but at home, he thinks everyone is getting ahead except him. He says he has no friends (he has some, but they change) and his family has dissolved (He has cousins his age that have families, and he’s never been able to hod down a job, but we didn’t know he had these illnesses in his brain.
When you mentioned that your family doesn’t have to stay your family, I told him that he doesn’t have to compare himself to his family, an he has a soul family. I have a soul family, myself. These are people that I connect with on a soul level, and I’m looking for more!
Thank you so so much Christina! I didn’t remove myself from a family that allowed and protected my father who sexually abused me. He passed 21 years ago with things unresolved. I feel like I’ve finally let my anger towards him go. It was after I found out his father was sexually abusive too. I’ve been dealing with rage towards my mom because we were very close (so I thought) until I told her of my father’s sexual abuse. She told me to move on and denied it happened. I don’t wish her Ill but I cut ties with her last October. She’s not doing well right now and is in fact having breast cancer surgery today. I dreamt of her all night. I honestly wish I could quit caring completely. Sometimes I feel I have because I feel almost numb but then my dreams or a memory tell me different. How do I make the rage go away? I would kill for my children and I can’t forgive that she didn’t do anything but kiss his ass until he died. She had money and she had family and options to leave. She chose him
I so sorry that you had to go through this my dear. I am sending you lots of love and light ❤️🙏
Everyone in our life is playing a role that is given to them in order to understand who we are! So this life is happening for us!
Your mom and dad played different roles and even though it was toxic, it is still a lesson. It is important to understand that it is just a lesson and it is nobody's fault! You can choose to forgive everyone ( for your own good my dear and that is the only way you can heal and come out of this lesson). They are responding or choosing a response based on their consciousness level that they are at.
So your mother will respond as per her consciousness level and it is nobody's fault.
You deserve to be healed and happy my dear. Even if your mother does not understand your pain, still your pain is true and what you have been through is not right.
You are loved and cherished by the divine ❤️. Forgive me for giving this unsolicited advice if doesn't resonates with you
@@abiramipoobalasingam5131 Please don’t apologize and thank you xx❤️🙏
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Oh wow, this is ME. I cut ties with my parents (mother and sexually abusive stepfather) in October of 2021. My mother also battled breast cancer last year. I was discarded at 18 (20 years ago) after I told my mom the year before (as I was of age) and she went back to him and they're still together after 20 years of knowing, of charges being laid and dropped (at her request). I went back after trying to make it on my own, to try and prove my love to my mom by shutting up and pretending.
Feel the rage. You're allowed to be mad. I had to manifest a lot of my parent's patterns to be able to have compassion towards them and feel okay. I know that my mom is on her own path, and its just as hard as my own and how much she has to delude everyone that her life is perfect. That is something I refuse to carry anymore.
I have also come to the conclusion that I would only let my mother back into my life is if she stopped with the facade (of EVERYTHING) that everything is perfect and okay and come with full acceptance of what has happened. She's not there yet and I don't need her to be there for me to feel okay.
Much love!
@@SamanthaFule Thank you❤️ I’m so so sorry you lived that too🥺 xx❤️
I feel like she's able to take more esoteric spiritual ideas and make them more grounded and understandable
This is by far the BEST video Christina has. This is less of a video and much more of a conversation.
I’m always blown away by how you’re living.your.purpose. ❤️
Wow Christina! You just put on words my thoughts about this subject of healing difficult family relationship and/or relationship in general! That completely make sense! Thanks so much! 💕🐇💫
What a refreshing insight, when I first started teaching that we don't always come into our soul family for growth, I was met with strong hesitation by many other mediums. I said nope how can we expect to grow if we always incarnate with family members? We're not meant to only help ourselves we're to come to help others. ❤❤
I felt guilty for very long time because I had to remove my narcissistic mother from my life. Even after I healed (actually I'm still healing) I don't have the need to have her in my life. And often the society doesn't understand this and makes it even harder, saying: she gave you birth and she is your mother. Well, even if she is my mother, I don't have to keep her in my life and experience the same patterns and toxic behavior. Thank you for this video!
It is actually because she is your mother , she is meant to love and protect you. Harming your own child is the mother of all crimes.
Divine bless you Christina. Thank-you for sharing your sessions here on youtube. I appreciate it immensely. I have learnt great things from your content. I am so grateful. Thankyou 😊
I love how you are so focused. You go in one direction, then in another, but you always come back on the main track. Very pleasant to follow your reasoning. Lots of good advices along the way. Thank you!
My ex came back to me few days ago ❤️ i got help from a Relationship Restorer Dr Willock who was able to mend back my broken relationship and make my ex to come back and beg. For a second chance. He can bring your ex back, and he also do a lot of work also like financial problem, and court case, etc
Thank you for helping me positively set boundaries with my mom and other members of my family! I have spent so much time running away and now trying to work on response to my triggers!
What a great perspective! Thank you! Wish I could go to one of your retreats! It’s on my manifesting list of desires and believe it will happen when it’s the right time! Thanks!
I absolutely love the way you explain everything. You've helped me so much over the last two years, I'm sharing this video in hopes the people who need to hear this will watch it.
I just realized I was still holding onto anger and sadness from nobody protecting me from my abuse. I think because my mother was working to raise me and my 2 sisters and my dad wasn't really in the picture I felt like I shouldn't blame her. I guess i was suppressing that. but I'm releasing that tonight. Thank you.
Yesss, my mother unfortunately lived in bad times and country for lightworkers, after her death, she left me a gift and I can really appreciate this video ❤
Every time I watch one of your videos I learn something that changes myself.
Thankyou have a beautiful week
Great video Christina!! I feel like I've worked through the trauma I have from the sexual abuse I endured growing up...I have absolutely forgiven & actually have so much love for my abuser & healed that part of it. What I find so much more difficult is the part my mother played. She basically acted as though it was my fault & then told me to keep my mouth shut. My mom & i have grown a lot since then. & for the 1st time in our lives we have a really good relationship. The trauma I have from her response to the abuse is the 1 issue i still deal w. Its difficult to navigate & im still learning how. Maybe I just heal the wounds she inflicted through her response & thats just as much as I can do???
Beautiful teaching. And powerful! Although sitting in meditation has proven very difficult for me, I excel at guided meditation. And working with transpersonal hypnotherapists has allows me over time to heal traumas so completely there’s no more emotional charge. No matter how you access your inner world, learning to heal what I call soul separation (when your buttons get pushed) will change your life! Thank you Christina for all your wisdom and support.
Wow!!! This was beautiful and gentle. More of these live q&a videos please!! Totally different energy ❣️⭐️💃 ty Christina, you are an earth angel
I was relating to each topic . Suddenly I came to this Chanel today . May be it’s a connection universe wanted me to get clear vision about my childhood trauma and to get a clear picture about soul family and biological family . Thank you so much for this video . I would like to do more research on it .
Yes, you need to heal to the point where you can regulate your triggers. You control the triggers when they come to us, so they no longer control your life. You recognize your triggers for what they are and reframe in the moment.
As usual, Christina, perfect timing! Thank you!
I so needed to hear this!!! Thank you so much Christina!!!❤️
I dunt have childhood trauma... Has a great life. Then at 32 my dad went off the rails and nearly lost everything after watching his father die.... That's my adult child trauma.... To watch the man that man u who u are, fall to pieces and the family fall apart
I'm going to check up on you every once in awhile ❤️ you are awesome 🥰
Thank you Christina, this makes sense. Let us resolve to not pass on the abuse we learned. Love you dear friend.
That girl is so lucky to be working with you. What you said it always makes sense. My first Iowa Aska ceremony taught me that I am supposed to heal this maternal line that I am a part of. I have never heard that it could be a different soul family not biological family
The mayority of families are complex and disfunctional. Not only the ones of "lightworkers"
The souls that are coming in now are no different from the rest, the difference is in the new parents who don't know how to set boundaries and are not like the parents of before who were weigh more authoritarian
I have given birth five times and love your no their not taking any shit....my sons and daughter takes no messing ! They have friends too. Its a very clear cenergy when we have to let go.
Thanks Christina, great video and perfect timing 🥰🌌☯️🫂🌟 blessings 🙌🏻
My energy and my light affects those that are in experiencing the same that you may say are still asleep so to speak and I know that when I’m around them, whoever they may be it’s normally strangers they can feel that and they don’t know why they’re feeling it and then they’re frightened of you or they actually get angry with you and I find myself in times where I’m really sensitive Not knowing how to deal with that but walk away from it as quickly as possible, depending on how much I can tolerate if that given moment.
There are people out there who are deliberately hurting other people because they don’t know how to deal with their own internal pain and that pisses the shit out of me and I have been told in numerous times and it’s always from spiritual people that anger is unnecessary when it comes to these people that you have as long as you understand why they’re doing it it’s all OK and I don’t believe it is OK for another human being to treat you negatively simply because they’re not comfortable in your presence …
Thank you, beautiful soul Christina. This video meant a lot to me💫💜
It's so helpful Chris... Thank you. 💚💚A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders... Mine is not as severe as sexual abuse, but it's more around acceptance. There's this deep emotional loneliness that makes me keep pleasing my blood family at the expense of my dreams. I'm always the topic of brutal gossip in the blood family. And almost everything I do is seen with the lens of misunderstanding. They don't do it intentionally. They just really don't understand me. I know what I've to do now. Letting things just be instead of forcing. They're awesome humans, catering to animals. Like you said, I'm just going to check up on them. Commitment. Without letting them torture me mentally and emotionally. OK let's see.
Love and being grateful for all what you shared, Christina ❤️✨
Gratitude Christina🦋
I let go of my narcissistic mum and grandmother almost three years now they put me down a lot in my life I am so much happier without them I love them however I know they are not good for me so I love them from afar
Thank you so much for this crystal clear information, sending you Gratitude 🙏🙏
Thanks Christina, powerless mothers explained.
Goodness!! This hit on so many issues for me. Thank you!
Speechless! My shadow work during my spiritual awakening.🕊
I absolutely loved this! I've been working on this very thing and you made me understand it a lot better. Thank you!!!
Thank you so much, Christina and Team! Lots of Love, Jaden XXXOOO
Thank you Christina!! This is great
Hi Christina, can u please make a video on how we can see and/or sense aura, and how can we heal & cleanse auras ??
Great idea
As a parent, my oldest daughter has ghosted me since February and will not talk to me . I have no idea what is going on except that I feel so hurt. She has decided that her boyfriend and his parents are her family now. I wish I knew what was going on. I realize I just need to let go and work on self. Losing a child like this is so painful.
Wow, full of gems… thank you for sharing ❤️
I always and still do feel like an alien in my family.
I mean these people are dysfunctional, like the Constance's on Seinfeld.
thank you Christina. there was so much information and so many questions answered for me Wow🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
The Gift, was such a powerful book. I need to re read that literature just because
My mother encouraged my defiance and my loudness towards people's abuse
This came at just the right time for me.
I have been struggling with this since I cut off connection with my brother (very toxic and EXTREME). I chose to heal myself (I actually was in the 2021 AWAKEN class) and stopped interacting with him and catering to his needs. My mother has been begging me to reconnect again, I have told her that I am working on me first. Your advice to allow the relationship back in and check up every once in a while, I am going to try this, but, maybe next month...
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Beautiful work’ Christina….
sending sooo much luv’ to u and to all… 💫🌎❤️
Thank you.. I loved how she stressed on integrating inner child and feminine entry healing.. I'm still wondering how and where to begin..😊❤
I released the connection with my abusive mother in ceremony and offered quantum relief for any guilt she may carry around my extreme childhood traumas last year... them last week I got highly triggered while in a short relationship with a person who has an engorged solar plexus. Thought I healed that shit last year. Apparently not, though....
You’re a gift Christina
This is so much needed thank you for your energy and healing wisdom
Love from a growing RUclipsr 💕
Interesting and incredible information and thank you for who you are, a bright healing light for women ..
Dear Christina, Thank you for this video.! Do you have more suggestions and books to recommend for releasing my biological family's traumas that I carry in my "backpack"?
Love this ♥️ just what I needed to hear 🙏🏼
There's a whole lot I can say but I think two words will sum it all up, Thank You!
Love you for this ✨️💛
Well this video definitely hit what I needed to hear.
Oh my God! .... I feel seen and known as I know myself... Thank you
My question is if we go by how reincarnation works, when I make it to the hangout room I can choose to be a spirit guide or just move on to another spiritual plane?
I heard so many times forgiveness means be with the person same as nothing ever happened. And if you move away it means you are not healed . Please make video on what is healing and what is forgiveness.
Thanks Christina ✨
Thank you so much for sharing Christina! Very much needed. Sharing on my channel. And yes in kids these days 🤣 seen so many hilarious videos of these age of Aquarian kids now and oh my yeah they little old souls that nothing is getting by them. They come out the womb tapped in now. Some of the looks on these infants face when the adults are trying to do some silly trick you know they thinking "'cuse me yeah I dont think so" 🤣🤣🤣💜💜💜
Thank you for your energy and wisdom 💜
So many gems, thank you ❤❤
Love it! Thank you!
Love you Christina thank you
Just found you. I absolutely love your knowledge 🎉
Thank you for these words🙏
Oh how good and true. Thank you.
Dear Cristina , you are amazing !! I ve being following u ! You helped me a lot !!!! You can not imagine ! Thank you 💜.I started an energetic path ten years ago so you can imagine all the things i' ve being trhough and i being doing Shadow work since last year, AND then Ayahuasca wich showed me a lot of information, like child abused, and the scary deep Shadow of the Univers, wich Is me also, but right now i being felling like every thing i used to follow, teachers, spiritual teachings, one gay that im almist dure he was muy twin flame Is literally folling apart, like if I was being deceived, do u feel something like that in the Energy right now!! And the sensation Is like if I was doing everything the way wrong ...i now that It wasnt wrong but still everything Is falling .Any advice? Thanks 💜
Hi beautiful beautiful Christina. First of all thank you so so so much for everything you are doing for the world. I am learning so much from your videos. I have so many more questions, i am not sure when exactly I spiritually awakened, and where i am right now. I watched the video about it bit still not sure lol. Universe was bringing me to spirituality little by little at a time over so many years and i went into the rabbit whole(as u said) last 2 months sense i found your videos. And i am so very greatful. I am not sure what exactly i have to heel bit i can feel there are things. Anyway, DO YOU HAVE A ONE TIME ONE ON ONE CLASS choice? I couldn’t find it in your website.
And ARE YOU GOING TO VISIT LOS ANGELES ANYTIME? I would love to join your meeting in person. And again thank you so much♥️♥️♥️
Best video yet
Namaste my soul family🙏
Yes
I was born in a family which is not my soul family... very toxic family
My family and relatives...they all gave me very hard time ...
until last year...before my awaken time
My greatgrandmother..my grandmother ...my mother and her siblings ...they all have narcissist traids (i am kind of psychologist)
Also my father and my only baby sis have codependency issues...
but my grandfather is kind of an empath...who loved me and cared about me much
Also i had kind of sexual abuse when i was a child...around six or seven maybe...but not exactly the worst kind...cause the abuser is also a child...that young boy was gone long time ago very poorly..his family was our housemaids...his mother and his sisters...
I dont have that much wound about my sexual abuse...but what truama i had was with my mother and father
Now...i have healed and i totally forgive my parents also my little sis...which is still trying to heal her codependency issues
Since i was awaken...especially after my kundalini awakening...last december 2021...i started healed and forgive my mother and also my late father who was enabler for my mother...
But the rest...like my relatives and my surroundings...my fake friends and..toxic people...they all just gave me annoying ecperiences...
so i dont have to forgive cause i had no trauma from them...
just learned how toxic people can be worthless ...i learned lesson that who i am not which is what i need to learn
So...i leave them as where they are...no love no hate...just still annoying and try to avoid as much as i can...i don't care about them anymore...to be honest
But i try to gave them compassion ...still can't though