Hi, I just now seen your channel. I don't feel I have ever grieved over my Beautiful Mom and that was 1991. She was a true gift from GOD. God Bless You. I feel guilty and I feel guilty I was not with her when she passed. I was in another state. I worry she was all alone. But I have to believe GOD was right there with her.
I had no idea there was a disorder called Prolonged Grief Disorder. I have been a mess since I was 16. When Eddie died (see below). I just read the definition and it is all me. PTSD, non stop grief, social anxiety disorder, i am now a LONER, i am seriously angry, i have so much guilt and anguish, i really don't know what grief is or how to get past it but i was so VERY LOVED and it has become IMPOSSIBLE for me to really live. I worked my entire adult life but was off a few times on STD after my dad died but i went back to work. I told my shrink I am a high functioning basket case. I made myself work and I worked 60-80 hours a week while raising my son who doesnt really speak to me anymore. I have no one that loves me. My spine is crumbling and I live with pain unless I pass out at night from medication. I have had 2 spinal surgeries. One lower back then 10 months later I had a fusion in my neck from C3 thru C7. Also replaced my discs in the neck. I am left with SERIOUS nerve damage. I take a shower when I get up the guts to climb over the bathtub. Most days I want to blow my head off but i don't. Suffering is a way of life...Oh and I cannot take antidepressants. My shrink thinks I may be bipolar and apparently most folks with bipolar that cannot take antidepressants. The side effects made me nuts. I had more side effects than I can name. I hate death. death will be the death of me. i just pray nothing happens to my son. I was so loved and now I am not. Like i said they are all gone. I am alone and a loner.
I lost my brother at 17, I was 16. We were like glue. That was going on 48 years ago and I am still in shock. 1977. Then I lost my daddy in 2000 and this was more than I could bare. Then I lost my Bob in 2009. Then my mom in 2015. Everyone that loves me is gone, including my grandparents. My son I have not seen in a year and I am disabled, miserable and alone. I am so freakin HATEFUL all the time. I have zero patience and I want to get in my car and run.
Sorry for your loss I know what it's like to loose family members it's hard but I would think that they would want me to get on with my life but I have some good memories .
Queen Victoria was a prime example.
Hi, I just now seen your channel. I don't feel I have ever grieved over my Beautiful Mom and that was 1991. She was a true gift from GOD. God Bless You. I feel guilty and I feel guilty I was not with her when she passed. I was in another state. I worry she was all alone. But I have to believe GOD was right there with her.
Sorry for your loss and yes she is in God's memory
I had no idea there was a disorder called Prolonged Grief Disorder. I have been a mess since I was 16. When Eddie died (see below). I just read the definition and it is all me. PTSD, non stop grief, social anxiety disorder, i am now a LONER, i am seriously angry, i have so much guilt and anguish, i really don't know what grief is or how to get past it but i was so VERY LOVED and it has become IMPOSSIBLE for me to really live. I worked my entire adult life but was off a few times on STD after my dad died but i went back to work. I told my shrink I am a high functioning basket case. I made myself work and I worked 60-80 hours a week while raising my son who doesnt really speak to me anymore. I have no one that loves me. My spine is crumbling and I live with pain unless I pass out at night from medication. I have had 2 spinal surgeries. One lower back then 10 months later I had a fusion in my neck from C3 thru C7. Also replaced my discs in the neck. I am left with SERIOUS nerve damage. I take a shower when I get up the guts to climb over the bathtub. Most days I want to blow my head off but i don't. Suffering is a way of life...Oh and I cannot take antidepressants. My shrink thinks I may be bipolar and apparently most folks with bipolar that cannot take antidepressants. The side effects made me nuts. I had more side effects than I can name. I hate death. death will be the death of me. i just pray nothing happens to my son. I was so loved and now I am not. Like i said they are all gone. I am alone and a loner.
I hope things get better for you when I'm in a stressful situation I pray to God and he gives me peace .
I lost my brother at 17, I was 16. We were like glue. That was going on 48 years ago and I am still in shock. 1977. Then I lost my daddy in 2000 and this was more than I could bare. Then I lost my Bob in 2009. Then my mom in 2015. Everyone that loves me is gone, including my grandparents. My son I have not seen in a year and I am disabled, miserable and alone. I am so freakin HATEFUL all the time. I have zero patience and I want to get in my car and run.
Sorry for your loss I know what it's like to loose family members it's hard but I would think that they would want me to get on with my life but I have some good memories .