@John Blackburn My brain doesnt make enough seritonin to begin with and it is perminently damaging my will to live. At least my meds keep me stable and sane.
I have learned that I have to lie about my mental illness. I told my father about my suicide attempt. A year later he stopped talking to me. Now he has been dead for 2 years and I will never get that back. I was at a low and I needed to take a few days off. So I told my boss the truth. Well I was driven out of a good job and had to start all over. Having bi polar is hard. I am just glad that I have my wife.
Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. I cannot tell you how heavily burdened I was and I listened to His voice , today I still carry the cross , but He gives me strength and it feels so light that I recently met a bipolar girl and decided to take her burden on too because as scripture says I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
"I don't want to kill myself, and that's manageable." I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 when I was 19. Thank you for showing people that we aren't monsters. We are loving, breathing, feelings human beings who deserve love and compassion just the same as every else.
@@Design____ByS are you saying that you've never experienced bias during a manic or depressive episode? Because making the generalized statement of "nobody thinks that" is incorrect in my experience. I have experienced that bias. I have been told that I'm crazy. You can't make a blanket statement when you don't know everyone's experiences.
My gf was diagnosed with bipolar type 1. She committed suicide not too long after. She had just started taking medication for it. It's been years and it's still very painful to think about.
the part about being scared to lose your creativity after getting help is so real. Your illness feels like it's you. I'm working through OCD and anxiety and I'm honestly scared to be left empty headed because all i know are obsesive thoughts.
Jay Kay I found out my creativity became more focused and I could focus on one thing instead of a lot of things at once, when I changed my lifestyle to deal with my bipolar . You won’t be empty headed , your full of who you are and are so special , don’t be afraid . Who are meant to be will be if you release the fear, follow your intuition in your healing with your mental state. Bless you
Hi i had obsessive thoughts, phobias high anxiety. I am much better now. It took me a long time to understand that the thoughts are thoughts not who i am. I distract myself as soon as i get the urge to think. I got therapy felt like never ending situation. Dont isolate yourself talk to the people who understand you also remember its step by step process. Its healing inside looking deep the causes. Also i took medications that helped me a lot. Took a break from stress and always stayed under positive environment. Became creative.
If you can put yourself in some creative classes where they make you super busy and help you create things its helpfull. Also for anxiety meditatiom is super helpfull. Reading books also helps in understanding also stay a little away from researching your symptoms. Hope its helpfull.
The good thing about being treated and not having obsessive thoughts is the possibility of filling up that space with books, movies, ideas, conversations, etc.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar. That's when I realized why I can feel good and then go into a deep depression. I will have all of this energy and intentions. Then I will feel so bad and depressed. I beat myself up for being depressed. I wondered 'why can't you stay happy? or 'why don't you just get up and do something?" I came to the point when I felt really energized and productive, I knew that a deep depression was going to follow. I thought that I was just doomed.
Really felt this. Especially with the part where you beat yourself up for not being able to do anything, when you've just had a period where everything went smooth! It's weird. You're not alone.
I went off lithium after taking it for 25 years because I felt I could do it. I have issues now with mood swings but am coping by living a simple lifestyle and praying everyday.
Bipolar 2 isn’t talked about enough. I can definitely relate to this especially the note on depressive episodes. They are usually longer and much harder to deal with than the manic ones which makes it so much more difficult
I also wish people knew that it is possible to be diagnosed with multiple mental disorders. My mum has Bipolar type 2 but also has a diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder.
Oh we do talk about it. But most people with mental sickness are seen as whiny, annoying, attention seeking, embarrassing, overwhelming, pathetic, and exhausting. At least from my experience with bipolar disorder is. No one listens, understands or cares. They laugh, shun, and scold at me. No one helps or cares about me. That’s the sad truth.
@@enjay5696 I always get confused with how Bipolar 1 and 2 are described because they differ from my personal experiences. I know/have met 3 people in my life who have had Bipolar 2 and they've all been hospitalised for long periods of time because of manic episodes from their teens to adult years, but internet descriptions say Bipolar 1 usually ends up with more hospital admissions as a result of mania. I feel like people blur the lines between all the types of Bipolar.
I'm a medical student, training to be a child psychiatrist. Was diagnosed with bipolar the summer before starting medical school. Mental illness runs in the family on both sides, especially with bipolar being one of the most heritable psychiatric disorders. Even going through medical school, I still have so much to learn about bipolar, and your story and my patients' stories have meant more than any of our medical lectures combined. The medical field still has a long way of humanizing and destigmatizing mental illness, especially in acknowledging our own faults and vulnerabilities as health providers, especially me. Thank you for sharing your story. Many blessings to you, your family and your partner.
@@erinan5593 I was listening to something on RUclips with Dr Ken Berry and I believe it was Dr Bright, and they were talking about taking Lugol's iodine for mental health, and upon further Google searches I also found information that said that iodine can help with bipolar, it maybe worth watching.....It can also help overall with mental health and physical health, and also some doctors are saying that, ketogenic and carnivore diets can also really help physical health and mental health, even Schizophrenia apparently, just by avoiding certain things in your diet...I find it all fascinating.
I’ve only ever experienced hypomania but dude, it’s out of control, it’s kind of fun but not in a good way, and ultimately it’s super embarrassing. Those episodes are a great way to lose friends and trigger self-hatred. Thanks for sharing your experiences.
@@verasalvador3370 I used to think that because I would have all this energy for weeks and push myself physically and hardly eat I would just naturally crash. For months. Like yeah, this is normal. Ever since my psych brought up the possibility of bipolar, I'm reevaluating so much in my life.
@@verasalvador3370 depression is made worse by the guilt you feel. It gets better if you forgive yourself and accept that it wasn't the real you in the hypomanic episode. And if you can find a book called Strictly Bipolar by Darian Leader, it's a great insight. Short but interesting.
Embarrassing ‼️ and other people don’t understand when I say that. But it’s like. I’m trying to stop all this impulsiveness and talkativeness so it sucks
Psilocybin saved my life. I was addicted to heroin for 15 years and after Psilocybin treatment I will be 3 years clean in September. I have zero cravings. This is something that truly needs to be more broadly used in addiction treatment.
Please does anyone know where I can get them? I put so much on my plate and it really affects my stress and anxiety levels, I would love to try shrooms
Any mental disease needs to be diagnosed if there is a category for every diagnosis, stereotypical behaviour could be treated, how many types of illness is there, suicide could be the result do what it takes to get rid of it, if there's therapy for it, take steps to relieve it, do you know what to do about it, ask for help⛔
i don’t know why these entitled bastards above didn’t say it to you, but bravo. your willingness to educate yourself is commendable, because a fool is not the one who doesn’t know something, but the one that doesn’t want to learn
You are the lucky one who found the right treatment and has a positive outcome. My daughter, on the other hand, was not so lucky. She had a drug resistant condition. She struggled, and tried many different meds. Had little or no improvement. She ended her life a month ago at age 28. We loved her and tried very hard to help her to find the right treatment. We failed. I am heartbroken.
I am so so sorry. I believe there is something beyond this life and if there is, your daughter is at peace wherever she is and she is so proud that you fought for her and she knows she's loved and loves you too. Hold onto that 🖤.
@@kikib8434 Thank you for acknowledging it. I did try very hard to find doctors and help for my daughter. In some states, or areas, many psychiatrists do not accept any health insurance. That added another layer of difficulty! We must change that! Mental illness is no different from other illnesses, but only more difficult to treat and cope. My heart hurts when I think about her.
@@kikib8434 I sincerely thank you for your kind words! The only comfort I feel from this tragic event is to know that my daughter is resting in peace. She is no longer in pain. The truth I drew from her struggle is that as a human, we are unable to really know how others feel unless we experience it. So, I will not attempt to interpret other people's feelings, let alone make any judgement. Thank you again!
My mum is bi-polar. It was sad to watch the mania and the inevitable depression. She's a beautiful woman and to see her suffer killed me. Thank you for this. Everyone deserves to be heard and cared for.❤ to you all.
Same here. My mum too is a patient of bipolar and she has long episodes... honestly I don't know whether it's bipolar or something else, cuz she lashes out almost every day but don't do any extreme steps like self harm or something just repeating same set of bad words for a long period of tym... well it's hard to stay with her cuz she shut herself from her children by not sharing what's and why happening to her.... it's really HARD 4 me...cuz I have been seeing her lyk this ever since I was born..
That’s so very sweet of you. My oldest daughter doesn’t see any good in me. She only speaks to me when she has to. She thinks I am always faking everything and just seeking attention. I would never make myself this miserable for attention 😢
Thank You Becca. I am the father of a man who has fought the bi polar battle since he was a child. On a day to day basis I sometimes forget the challenge bi polar presents and your video helped me to be empathetic and try harder to walk in my son's shoes. As difficult it is for the person with bi polar disease, it is also a challenge for those that love that person. Family members must be supportive, be slow to "judge" behavior and continue to learn all they can about this mental disorder.
"I don't want to kill myself, and that's manageable" Wow this hit super close to home. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when I was 17. Looking back through my childhood I had all the classic symptoms. The very low-lows, periods of mania, random explosive anger. I also ended up addicted to drugs because I was trying to find a way to cope. I am 18 months clean from heroin and I have been taking my bipolar meds as prescribed for almost 1 year. It's nice to know I'm not alone in this. 💕😊
I am really proud of you ! I have severe anxiety because of which I get 'depressive' episodes too and I can relate to how she felt- obviously I didn't have the same journey but it feels nice when people talk about these issues.
as a person who lives with bipolar.. the sentence u said "its not perfect... but i dont wanna kill myself.. its huge for me" is so true and i feel it. you are so strong and talented, and it was amazing to hear your words. I hope we both won't forget we can do anything we want even id we have bipolar. thank you!
Hi, I'm dealing with it always . I have therapy, doctors and phycologist. Very difficult at times.you know.feel Very Harsh about life now and then. Working on it 24 hours a day.😊 Hope your OK, we have to focus on good. And don't let them over do MEDS. YOU ARE YOU 😊 ✝️🛐✌️🤠👍🇺🇸💯%
why cant i stop. this has brought me to tears for so long. i feel like i break things when im manic. i break peoples trust in me, i break relationships, i break my bones a few times but by far the worst part of all of it is that i cant stop.
My sibling struggles with this. When they experienced psychosis was very eye opening for me and changed my view of the entire world. We used to say they were simply " in one of their moods." Fortunately Bipolar is not an end of the world and you can thrive just like my sibling. Much love and support to everyone suffering from this condition. You got this.
I understand my behavior when I’m manic or depressed can be undesirable to my loved ones.. but telling me to just go take my meds anytime I am in disagreement or upset is very irritating and counter productive I do take my meds everyday when I’m supposed to it’s like I’m being told to take extra doses because i experience the same emotions as them.. I understand it’s amplified at times but that’s because I am also battling alcoholism… I feel like I have to be happy all the time around everyone otherwise there will be hell to pay… it’s just hard..
The worst part is how inaccessible &/or generally crappy mental health services are in the US. We struggle just finding a decent, affordable, and accessible treatment programs and therapists. We've dealt w/ programs that have too few personnel, space is limited, and access to an actual therapist/psychologist/psychiatrist, and they simply throw drugs w/ little to no diagnostic work-up. There's also too little support for loved ones who are their support system.
I used to work in mental health and that is exactly why I left the job. The mental health services are a MASSIVE grift here. I was asked to bill for services the residents were absolutely not getting. While I was cooking dinner for 12 people, I was also helping someone with severe schizophrenia through a hallucination event....according to paperwork.
I've experienced that a large issue with Bipolar patients is the denial of the Bipolar, so HUUUGE props for your acceptance, never mind public acknowledgement and sharing of your condition and experience. I am a daughter of a mom with a 26 year Bipolar type 1 diagnosis (Im 37 yrs old) and what the hardest part of this and any other type of mental or addiction condition is, is that that this affects those around the people with the condition as much as it does the person. Much strength to anyone reading this who knows or loves someone with any mental / addiction condition.
this is a great representation of what bipolar || feels like. I wish people would stop describing it as “being really happy and really sad.” You captured the nuances perfectly. I am an artist and was terrified to lose my creativity, and I completely agree that it has improved tenfold with my medication. Thank you for being transparent and honest. :)
I've been diagnosed with bipolar type 2 and since getting on meds my life has improved 110%. I realized that before meds I was having container anxiety and panic attacks and my depression was also constant. I'm so glad more people are opening up about their mental health!
I have Bipolar 2. Thank you for your honesty. No one can understand but us. It helps to see others. The groups I have been to for Bipolar seem to have a lot of narcissists masquerading as Biploar. I withdraw like you and get scared to leave the house. Thanks for being an advocate for me
''im asking for help everyday,'' and she realises she is never ever alone is such a comforting good thing to see,learn and should be adressed more by anyone
Just a friendly reminder that everyone struggles with mental illness in different ways, even those with the same condition! Thank you, Becca, for sharing how you experience yours! To anyone who has bipolar or thinks they have it, you don't have to experience it exactly like Becca does for it to be valid. Likewise for anyone who has GAD (like me) or depression or any other mental illness. :)
Until now, I still don't know what I have appart from sévère and résistant dépression and GAD. I have been told I was bipolar, borderline, diagnostics that have been refuted by other mental health professionals, got so many terrible médication treatments... I do not know who to trust anymore.
@@lilyjane1011 I have bipolar two, and all I can say is keep trying. You will eventually find the right psychiatrist and therapist. It can take time. I had a great therapist where I used to live. It took several years to find a great therapist where I live now. Ironically, Covid helped me find mine because I was able to use Psychology Today’s mental health professionals “finder” online to look for someone anywhere in the state, not just the area I live in. Because of Covid, therapy jumped online, which just wasn’t happening on a large scale. Keep trying. Don’t give up. It’s hard, but you can get there.
Thank you for this video. When you don't feel well or you're sick the most impossible thing to do is to get help for yourself. It took more courage and strength to wait the 6 weeks to finally see a psychiatrist. My bipolar was unmanageable and my quality of life totally sucked. It's been a year now that with my psychiatrist and a combination of Prozac & Vraylar. I'm doing very well. Don't ever be afraid to ask for help. Saved my life. ❤️🙏
Ya, the education system should tell children but mental illness. *well, our education system needs to have a lot of things* I knew about myself like 10to15 days back but what actually I'm facing for maybe for 3 years but I'm still scared to ask for help and I don't know how to.
@@Not_A_Bookaholic please visit a physologist counsellor or u can also seek help from toll free no. of physologist given by government. U can google to find more details.Please seek help and don't ignore it🙏❤
I could remember several years ago I was diagnosed with ADHD. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here
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YES very sure of Dr.Burkeshroom. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today
Ive done shrooms last month in my house. It taught me how severely traumatized I was from alcohol. I healed from many mental traumas from my past and was able to forgive, let go. Shrooms to me is a remedy not a vice. I even felt more refreshed the morning after. So no hangovers. No depression mood for days. No anxiety.l now have a more calm mind
I was diagnosed aged 19 when I was in psychiatric hospital. I am 37 now. I worked and still work hard on cognitive behavioural therapy, I don’t drink, I take my meds, there are some black times still, but I’m happy I’m alive. I work as a police custody medic. I know myself well, I know when I need to ask for help. I hope people out there know that you CAN live with this. Happy and well and secretly more magical than most 😉
I am so proud of you and I cannot wait until I get to where you are in life. I'm 22, diagnosed bipolar 2 at 18, depressed since 12, and it's still just such a battle. I'm getting better but it's such a long journey of steps forward and steps back.
sila çakmak go talk to someone about it i know it’s hard at the beginning and maybe they won’t understand you. But just tell them about everything you’re feeling. And get help. Go to a doctor. You will feel so much better to talk to someone who can understand you. I know i have something mental but i don’t know what it is and i tried to tell my mom about it but she can’t understand me, i want to go to a doctor but i can’t it’s too hard to not knowing what you have and why you’re acting this way. I wish i could talk to someone and understand me and tell me what i have. Wish you the best
I was diagnosed when I was 15. This video was nice to see. I’m 23 now and getting my masters in abnormal psychology. It really makes my heart warm to see the community and positivity and sharing in the comments. I love you all and be safe :) ps: please don’t self diagnose it’s very harmful. If you’re questioning things and struggling, go see someone who can give you that diagnosis and put you on the treatment path to feeling better! If you think you have a mental illness ask for help:) and remember if you’re contemplating anything harmful seek immediate help!
@@kanwalraja466 I’m actually now pursuing my PsyD or doctorate of psychology- clinical with an emphasis in forensics. All I must say is study hard, be passionate, be ethical, do not break any code, and be and through as possible. It’s hard when I work with kids, but that’s only during my adolescent rounds. I will be working in prisons and mental institutions for those with extreme illnesses. I work with the courts a lot as a threat assessor and expert witness and am in the middle of a huge experiment/ study for my doctoral thesis. Keep your grades high. All As, be compassionate, set boundaries, and let your patients know you’re here for them and that they are the priority. As for getting into programs if you want to learn more about the educational process, I’d be more than happy to explain.
Diagnosed Bipolar 2 in December last year and medicated since October before that. Hearing other people's experiences with this really helps reaffirm that I'm doing the right thing by taking my meds and practising self care. It's easy to forget what you went through before, and you start to feel like maybe you're just being dramatic
I always suspect something but I'm scared that - once I make that psychologist/psychiatrist appointment and get diagnosed with something - it's gonna be the only thing I'll identify myself as. I'm scared that I will use that knowledge against everyone around me. (ie. getting criticized by co-worker but instead of trying to do better, I force them to understand how anxiety-inducing the task is for me). Am I the only one who thinks this way? :(
I would say you should try to see if a diagnosis is possible--once I was diagnosed I was able to get medicated and it's helped regulate things a lot. If you keep it to yourself, people can't look at you any different than before.
I get that feeling. It's what kept me from getting help for my own mental health issues in the 5 years since they started surfacing. I've been dealing with symptoms for anxiety and depression since I was 13, and 5 of those years was spent in fear of treatment. I still am, to be honest, and I think everyone's mental health journey is different; but personally, getting a diagnosis from an actual medical professional was so freeing. It's valid to feel afraid, but if you really feel like you might need more help than you're already getting, it's worth a shot. As for equating yourself to your condition and using it as an excuse to slack off, I think that's where therapy really helps. A good therapist would help catch those tendencies and help you become more aware of them and how you can deal with them in a healthy way. It's unavoidable to feel that way sometimes, but if getting a diagnosis or seeking help means that you could feel safer and more stable, go and try it out! Besides, being able to put a label on it helps people (at least, those who matter) know that you will have more off-days than the average person, and it helps them understand which is you and which is your mental illness or whichever problem you may be facing right now. :D I wish you good luck on your mental health journey! If you're really not ready for professional help, it's okay. I hope you have other coping mechanisms and support systems in place to help make things more "manageable" ^_^
This is what’s keeping me from going to get help. I know I can’t self diagnose, but I completely related to this whole video and I’ve been dealing with it since childhood. I’m 22 now.
Hey guys. I want to encourage you to get diagnosed. Please don't wait until things get unbearable. Once you get on that journey you can start finding what meds, therapists, and coping skills work for you. Also a diagnosis could help you find other people that are dealing with the same thing as you and you can learn from them. The sooner you do it the sooner you can get on track. Best wishes! ❤️
I struggled with the exact same thing. I openly told my psychiatrist about all my worries and beliefs and resistances toward this . I think that is really awesome to acknowledge. I think it’s wise as well because a lot of people could use mental illness as like an excuse when one messes up or acts a certain way to others instead of really trying to grow through the ups and downs of each individuals personalities and and struggles . Like if I needed help- using my bipolar as an excuse why I needed assistance etc. or not being able to handle a relationship and blaming it on my bipolar. Or even , being super joyful and always in the back of my head thinking “ I wonder if I seem manic or if I’m okay” . I think your conscious is recognizing you don’t want to do the wrong thing with you possibly being diagnosed with a mental illness or chemical imbalance and that is really good . I def recommend talking to psychiatrist about these worries- and your not alone. Your not gonna use your diagnoses wrong or only identify yourself with it -your going to be able to really learn a lot about yourself through the process . Don’t let the fear guide you. And also know we are human and we experience a lot of thing because of how we grew up or how we think so really find someone you can talk to to work thru everything inside. Bless you .
Wow, really well spoken. I’m currently on my journey of helping myself get to the route of my underlying mental issues that I have struggled with since very young childhood. I’m in my 30s now and it hasn’t been easy. My family handles mental health issues the same way. “She’s in one of her moods again”
Mental illness can happen to anyone, it can be from so many things like DNA, environment, other people, so on. It just needs proper care like any other illness.
I had a bipolar boyfriend once. Although I loved him deeply, I couldn't stand the constant roller-coaster so when once again he disapeared from our apartment for two weeks during another mania episode, I changed the lock on the door and sent his stuff back to his parents' house. He didn't want to be helped, refused to go to therapy or take meds. The highs were so scary and the lows... the lows were just unbearable. My heart really goes out to all the people living in such relationships, some of which can't really be walked out of. It's a Pandora box day in and day out, you never know what you will get. I guess it's different when the person actually accepts and gets treatment. I truly wish all the best to all of you suffering from this terrible illness. I hope you find your peace.
For myself I am not going to leave her because she is bipolar she deserves a chance at life without another person walking away from her I walk tall and head up high I'm proud to be with her and she will not break me but I'm trying to break the madness from her
I feel so much related to you, I am a pediatric oncologist and bipolar disorder made me loose my job, my patients and my fiancée due to a very serious suicide attempt, I was shining so bright; it was the mania. Mariana (the love of my life) does not wanna see me, I lost the best opportunities of my life so far and I also sleep all day. From the bottom of my heart I truly wish your loved ones recover soon, find their balance and all the pieces rearrange together (including a good job).
Seeking out help is so essential to dealing with bipolar illness. I began experiencing notable mood swings in college as an undergraduate. My mania and depression were fairly cyclical. This pattern continued in my working life and into my marriage. Don't wait until you leave a trail of impulsive actions, racing thoughts, alcohol use, or drug addiction to quiet a manic mind. With professional help, social support, and prescribed medication the illness can be managed.
This was a very comforting video. I have MDD and it’s really...not easy. Thank you for sharing, Becca. :) To see someone discuss this so openly and without disgust or judgment, it feels like a breath of fresh air.
Thank you for saying 'you are not alone'. I've lived with bipolar disorder for more than 40 years. My variety is Bipolar II which many consider to be less severe. This is simply not the case. Bipolar II sufferers tend to commit suicide more because the depressive episodes are so overwhelming. I've recently come out of a depressive episode. I stayed in bed all day, had no energy, contemplated suicide an awful lot. I'm lucky to have a good support network and medics who are always open to see me if I am in crisis. My greatest advise to live with bipolar is 'FIND YOUR NEUTRAL SPACE'. It may be in going out to the country and sampling nature, reading a book (persevere at it if it is hard to centre), indulge in some art. Never give in and say 'my illness defines me'. Avoid people who are not sympathetic. Always take your medication.
I sleep all day.smoke a pack of cigs per day. Have no job. Can’t keep a job. I have 2 kids and am single. I live with my parents and can’t get motivation to do anything. Bipolar is destroying me and I can’t control anything.
I feel so much related to you, I am a pediatric oncologist and bipolar disorder made me loose my job, my patients and my fiancée due to a very serious suicide attempt, I was shining so bright; it was the mania. Mariana (the love of my life) does not wanna see me, I lost the best opportunities of my life so far and I also sleep all day. From the bottom of my heart I truly wish you recover soon, find your balance and all the pieces rearrange together (including a good job).
I have bipolar 2, ptsd, adhd. I am 50. Mom is BPD. Your video hits the mark. That is basically almost how my bipolar played out. I no longer drink since 19 yrs ago. I take meds and have support. I am 50 yr old man. Not perfect but manage it ok. Thanks for sharing.
I am so thankful for you sharing your life. I believe my 25 yr old son is Bipolar and I need to get him help, but I am lost. I have tried talking to him about seeking therapy, but he refuses. I will share this video with him and pray to God he doesn't go into a rage. Thank you so much!!
I usually don’t click on these videos because acknowledging my bipolar disorder is mildly triggering for me, but hearing that you hit that absolute low point at the age of 19 really struck me, because I also hit that point at the same age. That’s when I was diagnosed. My parents and I suspected I had bipolar disorder since I was 13. My uncle has bipolar 2, we kinda connected the dots. I went to therapy and tried medications, but I wasn’t diagnosed up until I spent 5 days in psychiatric care. I finally received a proper diagnosis, Bipolar 1 disorder. It was terrifying; a final confirmation. Ever since then I haven’t quite been able to get back to working or doing anything for my future. It’s been hard to maintain relationships and find balance in my life, but the thought of being faced with suicidal thoughts or fatal burn out is absolutely terrifying. My diagnosis has altered my identity, confidence, and communication skills. Plus, I’m afraid that if I go back to normal then things will truly go back to “normal”. The good news is.. I’ve been free from suicidal thoughts for 6 months now! The longest I’ve felt free ever since I was 12. Ever since my diagnosis, it’s becoming easy for me to recognize when I’m entering an episode. It’s becoming easier everyday to identify my habits, improve, and find coping mechanisms. Even though not everyday is perfect, and I feel out of control, I’m going to keep fighting for my life. I love to see others fight this disorder. It’s always so relieving to hear I’m not alone. Thank you so much for sharing your story. 💖
You NAILED it ... I've dealt with being Type 2 for almost 15 years ... and it can STILL be like driving the struggle bus! Thank you for putting this out there, that it might help others.
Thank you for your bravery and transparency! You show the human aspect to a condition that is so misunderstood in society and the media. I’m so glad that you have found understanding and healing through therapy and awareness. Absolutely agree that asking for help is so important. Thank you for the reminder that asking for help is not a sign of weakness. I needed that reminder today and I’m sure many others do as well. Thank you for sharing your story! ❤️
When she mentions her mom having depression and her dad just "brushing it off"... that hit me a bit because if our parents would acknowledge mental health and seek the treatment it would help break the chain of suppressing and they could help their children treat any traces of it before it goes to the extreme. I often feel its difficult to really progress and heal because my parents either deny their issues or dont want to seek treatment so this has lead me to want to keep my distance for the most part because part of my issues were formed from their mental health and some of their addictions... it should be a family effort more than you do you and i do me. It affects everyone in the family.
I feel the need to respond to this. I knew Becca when she was 19 and this is hard to watch. Her parents were very supportive and patient with her. She was not an easy person to support or be patient with her. She will claim to be whatever gets her attention. Whatever is popular to be at the time, she will always claim to be that thing. It really bothered me that she spoke about her wonderful parents this way.
If I would've known this about my ex-husband, believe you me, I wouldn't of gotten married to him. He refuses to find help so myself and the kids walked away. Sorry not sorry. No one ever talks about the toll it takes on the partner & kids of the bipolar person. So glad you are finding help for yourself, young lady. I applaud you.
My husband had a break from reality about a month or so before our wedding and was almost a different person. I had no idea wtf was going on, I was in shock and thought I was going insane. We still went thru with it and he was diagnosed a few week later. He’s been basically stable for a few years now. Something strange happened in march and the psychiatrist increased one of his meds. I’ve never dealt with anything like this before and it’s been heartbreaking but he loves us and is determined and strong in regards to his illness, so we stay. Thx for the video.
im really happy you actually stayed for him. when my partner noticed i broke from reality and went to a psych ward, she decided to break away. this all happened at the beggining of the year and i still miss her to this day. she also has bipolar and i'll never know why she really left. things were going so well too... i developed some ptsd from the whole situation and now im honestly afraid to date again because of the illness.. honestly just picking up the pieces and im not sure where everything fits..
I’m 17 and think that I’m bipolar however I can’t get in too see a doctor for diagnosis. This video really helped me just to understand it more and feel less alone in my struggle so thank you for being so open it really goes a long way in helping others.
I’m 18 and I recently got diagnosed with an “unspecified mood disorder” and was told that it could turn into bipolar 2 the older I get. Bipolar is sometimes hard to diagnose in people our age and is mistaken for other things.
I thank YOU the most! Wanting to understand it....thank you! I literally will pull up a website or something and practically beg and look like a fool bc I want them to try to see WHY I just cried on the floor uncontrollably for 15min and suddenly am fine. Or why I can't just drop whatever I'm in the middle of doing and do something else. I get all outta whack at times- and yes, I'm medicated. But, that just helps LESSEN the symptoms, they aren't a magic wand to make my brain suddenly function a different way.
thankyou for sharing this, in my country Indonesia mental illness not really a concern for anybody just a few people that really get it that mental illness is serious and a person who has mental illness not a crazy people. as a person who has anxiety disorder this aint easy especially if u dont have a family who support you, it's just yourself who can handle it well. for every of you who read this.. you're doing good we're all in this together i know we can do it!!!
Becca, thank you for sharing your experience. I was misdiagnosed with Panic Disorder and Major Depression when I was 14. At 21, I remember losing control and that’s when my family helped me seek help & was diagnosed with Bipolar 2. Throughout my years, I felt like I had to make some sort of excuse to explain why I felt the way that I felt because I thought my own emotions weren’t enough. Mental health is important & I wish you all the best. Thank you.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Thank you for this. I just got back from the Dr. I've suffered years with anxiety and depression and we now think it's Bipolar. I've always known it was more and I'm really scared. Im in tears bc this all is how i feel and have felt for years. This video gives me hope.
Okay, people. I need to get it out. I have been feeling the same since I've had terrible relationship issues which then grew worse with anxiety attacks. I had medication to treat my anxiety but never could explain what I was feeling. This video accurately depicts it and to be honest, I kinda knew it within me but was afraid to admit it to myself just because how the society is here in India. Thank God RUclips for this recommendation and thank you for making this video. I've done terrible things in life. I've faced terrible things. I don't demand sympathy or apologies for either of them, but I'm glad I finally know what's wrong with me.
I've suspected that I might have bipolar II for a while but getting my mother to take me to a psychiatrist has been difficult. I think I might have the opportunity approaching now since I'm almost 18 and I'm super grateful to all the people who talk about their experiences online.
The mania, rage and even sadness can be a gift for us, especially if channeled into creative avenues. It is what makes us special, it just needs to be channeled correctly. If you are reading this and suffer from any of the mental stress sicknesses(call it what you want) I beg you to look into the Wim Hof breathing and Ice therapy. I have been doing Wim Hof breathing, my own meditation, and cold showers every day, with a few exceptions for 6 months now. I love it! It is a fun disapline to get attached to. I do not believe in medications, because if used correctly our minds are the greatest alchemists. This is just a suggestion. It is helping me and I thought it might help someone else. Much Love
I knew I’ve seen her before; bassist girl from school of rock!! also this is a very enlightening video about the reality of being diagnosed with BPD. thank you🙏🏼
BPD is not Bipolar Disorder, it's Borderline Personality Disorder. The two are often mixed up. I am diagnosed with Bipolar 2. I believe we need to change the abbreviation for Bipolar Disorder to BPDO. Just to distinguish between the two since they are very different. Bipolar is a mood disorder. BPD is a personality disorder.
This was a good video. I was diagnosed with bipolar I in my late 20s. It took a really bad episode to get the diagnosis. It wasn't until I had insurance that I was finally able to be treated properly for it. It was a long arduous trip but I made it through. I'm finally on some great medications that really help but because I have SAD, it has to constantly be adjusted seasonally. I'm relatively stable as long as I stay away from drugs and take care of my self physically as well
Short, straight and to the point. Thank you for making this video and sharing your story. It helps to fight the stigma against Bipolar D.O. and mental illness.
I feel so much related to you all, I am a pediatric oncologist and bipolar disorder made me loose my job, my patients and my fiancée due to a very serious suicide attempt, I was shining so bright; it was the mania. Mariana (the love of my life) does not wanna see me, I lost the best opportunities of my life so far and I also sleep all day. From the bottom of my heart I truly wish you all recover soon, find your balance and all the pieces rearrange together (including a good job).
This is hands down the best explanation of Bipolar 2 I have ever heard. I resonate with my own BP from watching this, especially the part about how our sobriety is very important for recovery, thank you.
As someone with bipolar, I appreciate you speaking so honestly about your experience. There's a lot of stigma around mental illness and sometimes it's hard to find someone who can relate to your experiences.
I got diagnosed young with bipolar type one with schizoaffective elements i was 19 im now 30 and been on all sorts of different meds over the last 10 years and working an unhealthy job as a chef only just starting to see myself out of the chaos. Diving in and chasing that end of the tunnel and not self sabotage and run the other way its something you have to do its not a choice its not something that just goes away and it can and will consume you one episode is capable of completing upending your life
I am so touched watching this video. She is so brave and so strong when having dealt with her bipolar II alone. It's so healing to see how amazing she's getting over it. Thank you so much for giving hope to others who may suffer from mental illness.
She describe it very well. Only people who live the same can understand. And there is no one else there willing to help you but yourself. People love you when you are useful for them and throw you when you fall into these episode of depression and mania. It is exactly and deeply that self sabotage, isolation, feel want to stray alone....... I suffer from bipolar disorder since a long time but these days it gets harder and harder. No one can imagine. It is so painful, so horrible.
Thank you for saying what is so hard for me to place in words. I'm also type two with PTSD, and with little to no support system. Quarantine also shattered alot of my support when I was beginning to have any and taking the steps to reach for help.
I'm mostly conveniently cut out from people....... and thus have no contacts, no friends no communication, and the next stage is to feel socially so alienated that you fall for people you shouldn't fall for under normal circumstances, all in all you are making me sick this way....... and then it's my fault :)
@@fredericmoresmau9194 I'm a bit confused by your comment, but I do know that there are millions of lonely people who would love your company. Choose one or more!
I have been suffering from bipolar for the past 6 years now... Sometimes ppl feel i fake myself just to seek attention.... I have already tried to commit suicide since I lost friends in the beginning... No one actually hears me... So sometimes it's really hard to cope up with anxiety... I cry alone and not let anyone know... It really hurts trust me every single time my relationship breaks because of my uncontrollable emotional outburst... I hope someday I will be able to smile like others and enjoy my life... I'm tired of taking medicines... It's so painful...
My sister has bipolar and i have dysthymia. I'm watching this to improve my knowledge in order to understand her and help her when she's down. I hope our life will be manageable
For me, I can’t take antidepressants for my bipolar. I’ve tried several different medications and they have almost all made me feel worse. It’s not for everyone but if it helps you then please keep taking the medication.
I'm on antidepressants+mood stabilizer and it's going great, best combination ever. I used to take SSRIs before getting diagnosed and it pushed me into a looong manic episode.
diagnosed with bipolar here too. thank you for sharing your story. i also tried to commit s back when i was 18. living with this is hell. i hope someday i can also get better at managing it. only upside i like is when it makes me more creative, however on the contrary more often than not it'll make me feel out of energy and just dreadful and hopeless.
I just hate the fact that when you actually manage to put your feelings into words and try to talk to someone and they just don't understand. Damn it they just don't understand like somehow the forget what English sounds like. And what am I trying to explain them.That's sad a bad feeling. The worst one.
It hurts even more when you're not the type of person to not reach out, but when you do that (especially to someone close and dear to you ) and they dont understand.
I know this feeling and I hate it. I gave them hints and tried so many times to open up to them but when I talk I would notice they're not listening or someone is gonna cut in or they're in their head and after all I've said from the heart they would just reply huh? What were you saying? Or they will suddenly remember something and talk to other people about it, cutting me off midsentence and leaving me dumbfounded and dissapointed. So I just stopped trying. It was so draining. If they don't want to listen then ok fine. It's just so unfair that when they talk I always listen and give them my full attention and listen carefully to what they're saying and try to understand them. Even sometimes when I'm doing something and they would interrupt me I would stop and give them my full attention, resulting me not finishing what I had to finish. It's just frustrating and I can't even stop doing that. I guess I don't want them to feel the way I feel because I know it's horrible even though they're unconsciously doing that to me. Or maybe I'm just horrible at saying no to them to the point that I will sacrifice anything for anyone that I care about even if I suffer. Good thing I saw that it was so toxic for me and now I know that they careless if I'm not their friend anymore so I ended it. But we're on good terms now, it's just that I will not make them my priority like before. I don't have friends now but who cares? I have God and myself. My priority now is to help myself get better because no one else will.
@@youniversalbeyoutifull2843 it takes a whole lot of strength to tell your story to a stranger but I'm glad that at least you said it out loud. I have been there and I know there are lot of people like us. I'm happy to know that you are on good terms with your friends. I would also like to tell you that in past years I realised listening and understanding is a quality and not everyone has it . I tried to reach out to people but the didn't understand me but I always try to be there when someone is trying to reach out to me every if its 3 am and you finally manage to sleep after trying for hours and take that call and listen. And for myself I started writing journals. I did that for a whole year and half and it helps me to bring my feelings out. I find it easy when I don't have someone around to talk. And ofcourse praying and running few other things I like to do to help myself. I hope this message helps you in some way.
Think it’s important for her to have noted that she has HYPOMANIA not MANIA. That’s the whole difference between type 2 and type 1. If she says she’s type 2 then it’s hypomania not mania. - from someone with bipolar 2
@@romybellalevinsohn8288 Although I'd say hypomania is a subcategory of mania. i.e. hypomania is a milder form of mania so it's not wrong to call it mania. (Also someone with bipolar 2)
"Medication to keep everything regular. Not numb, not perfect, just manageable." Well said.
ItoshiiBaka
This.
This is exactly what my medication is for me.
I agree
@John Blackburn
My brain doesnt make enough seritonin to begin with and it is perminently damaging my will to live. At least my meds keep me stable and sane.
John Blackburn dude, you’re a fucking idiot
Just diagnosed at 74. Three husbands. New diagnosis breast cancer. Plan to live my best life and bring joy to my family.
wishing u the best!
I love this!!!!! Live your best life!
Are you living?
(((hugs you)))
God bless you
I wish more ppl talked openly about mental illness, because everyone deserves help
True, it took me 15 years to face my PTSD and Agoraphobia and admit I needed help!
Anastasia Blazhenova we do
RUclips bans and censors us
100000000000%... to help we need to start by talking about it. It should absolutely not be stigmatized.
I tried in the work place a few years ago and it was used against me by supervisors. I don't think our society is ready and doesn't plan to be.
Then Stop Calling it a Mental Illness!
I have learned that I have to lie about my mental illness. I told my father about my suicide attempt. A year later he stopped talking to me. Now he has been dead for 2 years and I will never get that back.
I was at a low and I needed to take a few days off. So I told my boss the truth. Well I was driven out of a good job and had to start all over.
Having bi polar is hard. I am just glad that I have my wife.
Totally get it. I no longer disclose. Lack of empathy is hard
Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.
I cannot tell you how heavily burdened I was and I listened to His voice , today I still carry the cross , but He gives me strength and it feels so light that I recently met a bipolar girl and decided to take her burden on too because as scripture says
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
"I don't want to kill myself, and that's manageable." I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 when I was 19. Thank you for showing people that we aren't monsters. We are loving, breathing, feelings human beings who deserve love and compassion just the same as every else.
Alexandra Harr I was diagnosed at 21 and it’s interesting the similarities in experience especially with the ocd cleaning during manic episodes
Nobody thinks that...
@@Design____ByS are you saying that you've never experienced bias during a manic or depressive episode? Because making the generalized statement of "nobody thinks that" is incorrect in my experience. I have experienced that bias. I have been told that I'm crazy. You can't make a blanket statement when you don't know everyone's experiences.
Im sorry to hear that for both of you guys. Is bipolar 1 or 2 something you are born with, or something you develop?
@@Design____ByS in response to your statement, please read my comment above. Things will make much more sense.
My gf was diagnosed with bipolar type 1. She committed suicide not too long after. She had just started taking medication for it. It's been years and it's still very painful to think about.
I’m so sorry for your loss
So sorry for your loss. I understand the feeling. Take care.
May God comfort you. I’m sorry for your loss.❤
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I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending love & prayers
the part about being scared to lose your creativity after getting help is so real. Your illness feels like it's you. I'm working through OCD and anxiety and I'm honestly scared to be left empty headed because all i know are obsesive thoughts.
Jay Kay I found out my creativity became more focused and I could focus on one thing instead of a lot of things at once, when I changed my lifestyle to deal with my bipolar . You won’t be empty headed , your full of who you are and are so special , don’t be afraid . Who are meant to be will be if you release the fear, follow your intuition in your healing with your mental state. Bless you
@@flutterbylesley3731 how did you heal yourself?
Hi i had obsessive thoughts, phobias high anxiety. I am much better now. It took me a long time to understand that the thoughts are thoughts not who i am. I distract myself as soon as i get the urge to think. I got therapy felt like never ending situation. Dont isolate yourself talk to the people who understand you also remember its step by step process. Its healing inside looking deep the causes. Also i took medications that helped me a lot. Took a break from stress and always stayed under positive environment. Became creative.
If you can put yourself in some creative classes where they make you super busy and help you create things its helpfull. Also for anxiety meditatiom is super helpfull. Reading books also helps in understanding also stay a little away from researching your symptoms. Hope its helpfull.
The good thing about being treated and not having obsessive thoughts is the possibility of filling up that space with books, movies, ideas, conversations, etc.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar. That's when I realized why I can feel good and then go into a deep depression. I will have all of this energy and intentions. Then I will feel so bad and depressed. I beat myself up for being depressed. I wondered 'why can't you stay happy? or 'why don't you just get up and do something?" I came to the point when I felt really energized and productive, I knew that a deep depression was going to follow. I thought that I was just doomed.
Really felt this. Especially with the part where you beat yourself up for not being able to do anything, when you've just had a period where everything went smooth! It's weird. You're not alone.
Sums up how I'd been feeling about myself lately. Not properly diagnosed yet though. How do we get through this?
I went off lithium after taking it for 25 years because I felt I could do it. I have issues now with mood swings but am coping by living a simple lifestyle and praying everyday.
Bipolar 2 isn’t talked about enough. I can definitely relate to this especially the note on depressive episodes. They are usually longer and much harder to deal with than the manic ones which makes it so much more difficult
I also wish people knew that it is possible to be diagnosed with multiple mental disorders. My mum has Bipolar type 2 but also has a diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder.
Oh we do talk about it. But most people with mental sickness are seen as whiny, annoying, attention seeking, embarrassing, overwhelming, pathetic, and exhausting. At least from my experience with bipolar disorder is. No one listens, understands or cares. They laugh, shun, and scold at me. No one helps or cares about me. That’s the sad truth.
I feel like bipolar 2 is all that gets talked about. I rarely meet anyone with bipolar 1
@@enjay5696 I always get confused with how Bipolar 1 and 2 are described because they differ from my personal experiences. I know/have met 3 people in my life who have had Bipolar 2 and they've all been hospitalised for long periods of time because of manic episodes from their teens to adult years, but internet descriptions say Bipolar 1 usually ends up with more hospital admissions as a result of mania.
I feel like people blur the lines between all the types of Bipolar.
ClumsyLee it’s hard to categorize the human brain that’s constantly evolving
I'm a medical student, training to be a child psychiatrist. Was diagnosed with bipolar the summer before starting medical school. Mental illness runs in the family on both sides, especially with bipolar being one of the most heritable psychiatric disorders. Even going through medical school, I still have so much to learn about bipolar, and your story and my patients' stories have meant more than any of our medical lectures combined. The medical field still has a long way of humanizing and destigmatizing mental illness, especially in acknowledging our own faults and vulnerabilities as health providers, especially me. Thank you for sharing your story. Many blessings to you, your family and your partner.
@@erinan5593 I was listening to something on RUclips with Dr Ken Berry and I believe it was Dr Bright, and they were talking about taking Lugol's iodine for mental health, and upon further Google searches I also found information that said that iodine can help with bipolar, it maybe worth watching.....It can also help overall with mental health and physical health, and also some doctors are saying that, ketogenic and carnivore diets can also really help physical health and mental health, even Schizophrenia apparently, just by avoiding certain things in your diet...I find it all fascinating.
I’ve only ever experienced hypomania but dude, it’s out of control, it’s kind of fun but not in a good way, and ultimately it’s super embarrassing. Those episodes are a great way to lose friends and trigger self-hatred.
Thanks for sharing your experiences.
Some of my lows are actually caused by what I did during my hypomanic episodes
@@jazminmascorro334 mmaav
@@verasalvador3370 I used to think that because I would have all this energy for weeks and push myself physically and hardly eat I would just naturally crash. For months. Like yeah, this is normal. Ever since my psych brought up the possibility of bipolar, I'm reevaluating so much in my life.
@@verasalvador3370 depression is made worse by the guilt you feel. It gets better if you forgive yourself and accept that it wasn't the real you in the hypomanic episode.
And if you can find a book called Strictly Bipolar by Darian Leader, it's a great insight. Short but interesting.
Embarrassing ‼️ and other people don’t understand when I say that. But it’s like. I’m trying to stop all this impulsiveness and talkativeness so it sucks
Psilocybin saved my life. I was addicted to heroin for 15 years and after Psilocybin treatment I will be 3 years clean in September. I have zero cravings. This is something that truly needs to be more broadly used in addiction treatment.
Please does anyone know where I can get them? I put so much on my plate and it really affects my stress and anxiety levels, I would love to try shrooms
@Micheal Harris Is he on instagram?
@Micheal Harris Can dr.sporess send to me in OH?
Shrooms was the best trip I had. It was an amazing experience.
I don’t believe you have 0 cravings lmao
Listening to her story makes me want to educate myself more.
Do it. Look up Boderline personality disorder too.
Any mental disease needs to be diagnosed if there is a category for every diagnosis, stereotypical behaviour could be treated, how many types of illness is there, suicide could be the result do what it takes to get rid of it, if there's therapy for it, take steps to relieve it, do you know what to do about it, ask for help⛔
i don’t know why these entitled bastards above didn’t say it to you, but bravo. your willingness to educate yourself is commendable, because a fool is not the one who doesn’t know something, but the one that doesn’t want to learn
You are the lucky one who found the right treatment and has a positive outcome. My daughter, on the other hand, was not so lucky. She had a drug resistant condition. She struggled, and tried many different meds. Had little or no improvement. She ended her life a month ago at age 28. We loved her and tried very hard to help her to find the right treatment. We failed. I am heartbroken.
She failed. Stop blaming her actions on yourself.
@@ThatOneGuyWithTheEye no one failed. Everyone did their best. Mental illness is often hard af to deal with.
I am so so sorry. I believe there is something beyond this life and if there is, your daughter is at peace wherever she is and she is so proud that you fought for her and she knows she's loved and loves you too. Hold onto that 🖤.
@@kikib8434 Thank you for acknowledging it. I did try very hard to find doctors and help for my daughter. In some states, or areas, many psychiatrists do not accept any health insurance. That added another layer of difficulty! We must change that! Mental illness is no different from other illnesses, but only more difficult to treat and cope. My heart hurts when I think about her.
@@kikib8434 I sincerely thank you for your kind words! The only comfort I feel from this tragic event is to know that my daughter is resting in peace. She is no longer in pain. The truth I drew from her struggle is that as a human, we are unable to really know how others feel unless we experience it. So, I will not attempt to interpret other people's feelings, let alone make any judgement.
Thank you again!
My mum is bi-polar. It was sad to watch the mania and the inevitable depression. She's a beautiful woman and to see her suffer killed me. Thank you for this. Everyone deserves to be heard and cared for.❤ to you all.
thank you so much fo4 being so non judgemental. You should know your comment helped someone feel less dark....
Same here. My mum too is a patient of bipolar and she has long episodes... honestly I don't know whether it's bipolar or something else, cuz she lashes out almost every day but don't do any extreme steps like self harm or something just repeating same set of bad words for a long period of tym... well it's hard to stay with her cuz she shut herself from her children by not sharing what's and why happening to her.... it's really HARD 4 me...cuz I have been seeing her lyk this ever since I was born..
Avoid oil salt sugar nd eat less
That’s so very sweet of you. My oldest daughter doesn’t see any good in me. She only speaks to me when she has to. She thinks I am always faking everything and just seeking attention. I would never make myself this miserable for attention 😢
Thank You Becca. I am the father of a man who has fought the bi polar battle since he was a child. On a day to day basis I sometimes forget the challenge bi polar presents and your video helped me to be empathetic and try harder to walk in my son's shoes. As difficult it is for the person with bi polar disease, it is also a challenge for those that love that person. Family members must be supportive, be slow to "judge" behavior and continue to learn all they can about this mental disorder.
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"I don't want to kill myself, and that's manageable"
Wow this hit super close to home. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when I was 17. Looking back through my childhood I had all the classic symptoms. The very low-lows, periods of mania, random explosive anger. I also ended up addicted to drugs because I was trying to find a way to cope. I am 18 months clean from heroin and I have been taking my bipolar meds as prescribed for almost 1 year. It's nice to know I'm not alone in this. 💕😊
Congrats❤ Im pretty same
I am really proud of you ! I have severe anxiety because of which I get 'depressive' episodes too and I can relate to how she felt- obviously I didn't have the same journey but it feels nice when people talk about these issues.
This is amazing thank you for sharing 💓
girl you are doing great !! You are right, you are not alone!
Congrats girl. More strength to you ❤️
They say she’s weak but she’s so strong and brave for sharing her story and experiences + advice 💪
as a person who lives with bipolar.. the sentence u said "its not perfect... but i dont wanna kill myself.. its huge for me" is so true and i feel it. you are so strong and talented, and it was amazing to hear your words. I hope we both won't forget we can do anything we want even id we have bipolar. thank you!
Hi, I'm dealing with it always .
I have therapy, doctors and phycologist.
Very difficult at times.you know.feel Very
Harsh about life now and then. Working on it 24 hours a day.😊
Hope your OK, we have to focus on good.
And don't let them over do MEDS.
YOU ARE YOU 😊
✝️🛐✌️🤠👍🇺🇸💯%
why cant i stop. this has brought me to tears for so long. i feel like i break things when im manic. i break peoples trust in me, i break relationships, i break my bones a few times but by far the worst part of all of it is that i cant stop.
It's so true😅😅😅
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My sibling struggles with this. When they experienced psychosis was very eye opening for me and changed my view of the entire world. We used to say they were simply " in one of their moods." Fortunately Bipolar is not an end of the world and you can thrive just like my sibling. Much love and support to everyone suffering from this condition. You got this.
I have bipolar and went through this as well.
Thanks
This happened to me once. It's really hard to ever trust yourself again. Constant fear of going 'crazy' again. Feels bad
I understand my behavior when I’m manic or depressed can be undesirable to my loved ones.. but telling me to just go take my meds anytime I am in disagreement or upset is very irritating and counter productive I do take my meds everyday when I’m supposed to it’s like I’m being told to take extra doses because i experience the same emotions as them.. I understand it’s amplified at times but that’s because I am also battling alcoholism… I feel like I have to be happy all the time around everyone otherwise there will be hell to pay… it’s just hard..
The worst part is how inaccessible &/or generally crappy mental health services are in the US. We struggle just finding a decent, affordable, and accessible treatment programs and therapists. We've dealt w/ programs that have too few personnel, space is limited, and access to an actual therapist/psychologist/psychiatrist, and they simply throw drugs w/ little to no diagnostic work-up. There's also too little support for loved ones who are their support system.
I used to work in mental health and that is exactly why I left the job. The mental health services are a MASSIVE grift here. I was asked to bill for services the residents were absolutely not getting. While I was cooking dinner for 12 people, I was also helping someone with severe schizophrenia through a hallucination event....according to paperwork.
I've experienced that a large issue with Bipolar patients is the denial of the Bipolar, so HUUUGE props for your acceptance, never mind public acknowledgement and sharing of your condition and experience. I am a daughter of a mom with a 26 year Bipolar type 1 diagnosis (Im 37 yrs old) and what the hardest part of this and any other type of mental or addiction condition is, is that that this affects those around the people with the condition as much as it does the person. Much strength to anyone reading this who knows or loves someone with any mental / addiction condition.
Heyy, so I'm 15 and suspect that I maybe bipolar so could you please tell me about the diagnosis process?
this is a great representation of what bipolar || feels like. I wish people would stop describing it as “being really happy and really sad.” You captured the nuances perfectly. I am an artist and was terrified to lose my creativity, and I completely agree that it has improved tenfold with my medication. Thank you for being transparent and honest. :)
I've been diagnosed with bipolar type 2 and since getting on meds my life has improved 110%. I realized that before meds I was having container anxiety and panic attacks and my depression was also constant. I'm so glad more people are opening up about their mental health!
Just curious what meds you take for it. I am also bipolar 2.
What meds do you take? Just curious. I am also bipolar 2
I take wellbutrin for mine. It's amazing for me
I have Bipolar 2. Thank you for your honesty. No one can understand but us. It helps to see others. The groups I have been to for Bipolar seem to have a lot of narcissists masquerading as Biploar. I withdraw like you and get scared to leave the house. Thanks for being an advocate for me
I can't imagine how hard it actually must be, I send love to every bipolar out there you guys are very strong
''im asking for help everyday,'' and she realises she is never ever alone is such a comforting good thing to see,learn and should be adressed more by anyone
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Just a friendly reminder that everyone struggles with mental illness in different ways, even those with the same condition! Thank you, Becca, for sharing how you experience yours! To anyone who has bipolar or thinks they have it, you don't have to experience it exactly like Becca does for it to be valid. Likewise for anyone who has GAD (like me) or depression or any other mental illness. :)
Very well said. Much love! ♥️
Until now, I still don't know what I have appart from sévère and résistant dépression and GAD. I have been told I was bipolar, borderline, diagnostics that have been refuted by other mental health professionals, got so many terrible médication treatments... I do not know who to trust anymore.
@@lilyjane1011 I have bipolar two, and all I can say is keep trying. You will eventually find the right psychiatrist and therapist. It can take time. I had a great therapist where I used to live. It took several years to find a great therapist where I live now. Ironically, Covid helped me find mine because I was able to use Psychology Today’s mental health professionals “finder” online to look for someone anywhere in the state, not just the area I live in. Because of Covid, therapy jumped online, which just wasn’t happening on a large scale. Keep trying. Don’t give up. It’s hard, but you can get there.
Thank you for this video.
When you don't feel well or you're sick the most impossible thing to do is to get help for yourself. It took more courage and strength to wait the 6 weeks to finally see a psychiatrist. My bipolar was unmanageable and my quality of life totally sucked.
It's been a year now that with my psychiatrist and a combination of Prozac & Vraylar. I'm doing very well.
Don't ever be afraid to ask for help. Saved my life. ❤️🙏
Thank you in a country like India where people are not educated enough on mental illnesses.. it's an everyday struggle.
i can totally relate...
Ya, the education system should tell children but mental illness. *well, our education system needs to have a lot of things*
I knew about myself like 10to15 days back but what actually I'm facing for maybe for 3 years but I'm still scared to ask for help and I don't know how to.
@@Not_A_Bookaholic Hi Mahima please try to get help..maybe not even your family is going to help you with this but still go and see a psychiatrist.🙂🙂
@@Alishahaha I know it's hard..keep going for yourself.🙃
@@Not_A_Bookaholic please visit a physologist counsellor or u can also seek help from toll free no. of physologist given by government. U can google to find more details.Please seek help and don't ignore it🙏❤
I could remember several years ago I was diagnosed with ADHD. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here
Can you help me with the reliable source. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Spain. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.
YES very sure of Dr.Burkeshroom. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today
Ive done shrooms last month in my house. It taught me how severely traumatized I was from alcohol. I healed from many mental traumas from my past and was able to forgive, let go. Shrooms to me is a remedy not a vice. I even felt more refreshed the morning after. So no hangovers. No depression mood for days. No anxiety.l now have a more calm mind
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
I was diagnosed aged 19 when I was in psychiatric hospital. I am 37 now. I worked and still work hard on cognitive behavioural therapy, I don’t drink, I take my meds, there are some black times still, but I’m happy I’m alive. I work as a police custody medic. I know myself well, I know when I need to ask for help. I hope people out there know that you CAN live with this. Happy and well and secretly more magical than most 😉
I am so proud of you and I cannot wait until I get to where you are in life. I'm 22, diagnosed bipolar 2 at 18, depressed since 12, and it's still just such a battle. I'm getting better but it's such a long journey of steps forward and steps back.
What meds r u taking and how many years ?
“Happy and well and secretly more magical than most”
Amen sister.
#bipolar1
I like her energy, she is so charming and bright.
She's the bass player from School of Rock.
I could cry because of how I could exactly relate to her description of what it was like for her as a child.
sila çakmak go talk to someone about it i know it’s hard at the beginning and maybe they won’t understand you. But just tell them about everything you’re feeling. And get help. Go to a doctor. You will feel so much better to talk to someone who can understand you.
I know i have something mental but i don’t know what it is and i tried to tell my mom about it but she can’t understand me, i want to go to a doctor but i can’t it’s too hard to not knowing what you have and why you’re acting this way. I wish i could talk to someone and understand me and tell me what i have. Wish you the best
sila çakmak Aa aa türksün galiba 😅❤️
sila çakmak bi şey değil canım aslında türk değilim sadece türkçe bilmiyorum
Memnun oldum ❤️
Thanks for the insight I'm currently getting evaluated for bipolar with my therapist. It's nice to know you're not alone. 🧡
I was diagnosed when I was 15. This video was nice to see. I’m 23 now and getting my masters in abnormal psychology. It really makes my heart warm to see the community and positivity and sharing in the comments. I love you all and be safe :) ps: please don’t self diagnose it’s very harmful. If you’re questioning things and struggling, go see someone who can give you that diagnosis and put you on the treatment path to feeling better! If you think you have a mental illness ask for help:) and remember if you’re contemplating anything harmful seek immediate help!
take car dear!!!
How did u get to the masters level , good job! Please guide me how u manage ur studies with all this
@@kanwalraja466 I’m actually now pursuing my PsyD or doctorate of psychology- clinical with an emphasis in forensics. All I must say is study hard, be passionate, be ethical, do not break any code, and be and through as possible. It’s hard when I work with kids, but that’s only during my adolescent rounds. I will be working in prisons and mental institutions for those with extreme illnesses. I work with the courts a lot as a threat assessor and expert witness and am in the middle of a huge experiment/ study for my doctoral thesis. Keep your grades high. All As, be compassionate, set boundaries, and let your patients know you’re here for them and that they are the priority. As for getting into programs if you want to learn more about the educational process, I’d be more than happy to explain.
Thank you. Bringing awareness. Trying to support my Dad for over 35 years. Been hard to get him proper help and medication.
I'm so glad to finally see an accurate depiction of bipolar disorder. Thank you for this. ❤️
Diagnosed Bipolar 2 in December last year and medicated since October before that. Hearing other people's experiences with this really helps reaffirm that I'm doing the right thing by taking my meds and practising self care. It's easy to forget what you went through before, and you start to feel like maybe you're just being dramatic
I always suspect something but I'm scared that - once I make that psychologist/psychiatrist appointment and get diagnosed with something - it's gonna be the only thing I'll identify myself as. I'm scared that I will use that knowledge against everyone around me. (ie. getting criticized by co-worker but instead of trying to do better, I force them to understand how anxiety-inducing the task is for me).
Am I the only one who thinks this way? :(
I would say you should try to see if a diagnosis is possible--once I was diagnosed I was able to get medicated and it's helped regulate things a lot. If you keep it to yourself, people can't look at you any different than before.
I get that feeling. It's what kept me from getting help for my own mental health issues in the 5 years since they started surfacing. I've been dealing with symptoms for anxiety and depression since I was 13, and 5 of those years was spent in fear of treatment. I still am, to be honest, and I think everyone's mental health journey is different; but personally, getting a diagnosis from an actual medical professional was so freeing. It's valid to feel afraid, but if you really feel like you might need more help than you're already getting, it's worth a shot.
As for equating yourself to your condition and using it as an excuse to slack off, I think that's where therapy really helps. A good therapist would help catch those tendencies and help you become more aware of them and how you can deal with them in a healthy way. It's unavoidable to feel that way sometimes, but if getting a diagnosis or seeking help means that you could feel safer and more stable, go and try it out! Besides, being able to put a label on it helps people (at least, those who matter) know that you will have more off-days than the average person, and it helps them understand which is you and which is your mental illness or whichever problem you may be facing right now. :D
I wish you good luck on your mental health journey! If you're really not ready for professional help, it's okay. I hope you have other coping mechanisms and support systems in place to help make things more "manageable" ^_^
This is what’s keeping me from going to get help. I know I can’t self diagnose, but I completely related to this whole video and I’ve been dealing with it since childhood. I’m 22 now.
Hey guys. I want to encourage you to get diagnosed. Please don't wait until things get unbearable. Once you get on that journey you can start finding what meds, therapists, and coping skills work for you. Also a diagnosis could help you find other people that are dealing with the same thing as you and you can learn from them. The sooner you do it the sooner you can get on track. Best wishes! ❤️
I struggled with the exact same thing. I openly told my psychiatrist about all my worries and beliefs and resistances toward this . I think that is really awesome to acknowledge. I think it’s wise as well because a lot of people could use mental illness as like an excuse when one messes up or acts a certain way to others instead of really trying to grow through the ups and downs of each individuals personalities and and struggles . Like if I needed help- using my bipolar as an excuse why I needed assistance etc. or not being able to handle a relationship and blaming it on my bipolar. Or even , being super joyful and always in the back of my head thinking “ I wonder if I seem manic or if I’m okay” . I think your conscious is recognizing you don’t want to do the wrong thing with you possibly being diagnosed with a mental illness or chemical imbalance and that is really good . I def recommend talking to psychiatrist about these worries- and your not alone. Your not gonna use your diagnoses wrong or only identify yourself with it -your going to be able to really learn a lot about yourself through the process . Don’t let the fear guide you. And also know we are human and we experience a lot of thing because of how we grew up or how we think so really find someone you can talk to to work thru everything inside. Bless you .
Wow, really well spoken. I’m currently on my journey of helping myself get to the route of my underlying mental issues that I have struggled with since very young childhood. I’m in my 30s now and it hasn’t been easy. My family handles mental health issues the same way. “She’s in one of her moods again”
Mental illness can happen to anyone, it can be from so many things like DNA, environment, other people, so on. It just needs proper care like any other illness.
I had a bipolar boyfriend once. Although I loved him deeply, I couldn't stand the constant roller-coaster so when once again he disapeared from our apartment for two weeks during another mania episode, I changed the lock on the door and sent his stuff back to his parents' house. He didn't want to be helped, refused to go to therapy or take meds. The highs were so scary and the lows... the lows were just unbearable. My heart really goes out to all the people living in such relationships, some of which can't really be walked out of. It's a Pandora box day in and day out, you never know what you will get. I guess it's different when the person actually accepts and gets treatment. I truly wish all the best to all of you suffering from this terrible illness. I hope you find your peace.
For myself I am not going to leave her because she is bipolar she deserves a chance at life without another person walking away from her I walk tall and head up high I'm proud to be with her and she will not break me but I'm trying to break the madness from her
I feel so much related to you, I am a pediatric oncologist and bipolar disorder made me loose my job, my patients and my fiancée due to a very serious suicide attempt, I was shining so bright; it was the mania. Mariana (the love of my life) does not wanna see me, I lost the best opportunities of my life so far and I also sleep all day. From the bottom of my heart I truly wish your loved ones recover soon, find their balance and all the pieces rearrange together (including a good job).
People don't realize how strong you have to be to live with bipolar...
Seeking out help is so essential to dealing with bipolar illness. I began experiencing notable mood swings in college as an undergraduate. My mania and depression were fairly cyclical. This pattern continued in my working life and into my marriage. Don't wait until you leave a trail of impulsive actions, racing thoughts, alcohol use, or drug addiction to quiet a manic mind. With professional help, social support, and prescribed medication the illness can be managed.
This was a very comforting video. I have MDD and it’s really...not easy. Thank you for sharing, Becca. :) To see someone discuss this so openly and without disgust or judgment, it feels like a breath of fresh air.
Thank you for saying 'you are not alone'. I've lived with bipolar disorder for more than 40 years. My variety is Bipolar II which many consider to be less severe. This is simply not the case. Bipolar II sufferers tend to commit suicide more because the depressive episodes are so overwhelming. I've recently come out of a depressive episode. I stayed in bed all day, had no energy, contemplated suicide an awful lot. I'm lucky to have a good support network and medics who are always open to see me if I am in crisis. My greatest advise to live with bipolar is 'FIND YOUR NEUTRAL SPACE'. It may be in going out to the country and sampling nature, reading a book (persevere at it if it is hard to centre), indulge in some art. Never give in and say 'my illness defines me'. Avoid people who are not sympathetic. Always take your medication.
I sleep all day.smoke a pack of cigs per day. Have no job. Can’t keep a job. I have 2 kids and am single. I live with my parents and can’t get motivation to do anything. Bipolar is destroying me and I can’t control anything.
I feel so much related to you, I am a pediatric oncologist and bipolar disorder made me loose my job, my patients and my fiancée due to a very serious suicide attempt, I was shining so bright; it was the mania. Mariana (the love of my life) does not wanna see me, I lost the best opportunities of my life so far and I also sleep all day. From the bottom of my heart I truly wish you recover soon, find your balance and all the pieces rearrange together (including a good job).
My heart feels so much for this woman. I can see the pain in her eyes. Mental illness is no joke, and it’s more insidious than physical illness.
I have bipolar 2, ptsd, adhd. I am 50. Mom is BPD. Your video hits the mark. That is basically almost how my bipolar played out. I no longer drink since 19 yrs ago. I take meds and have support. I am 50 yr old man. Not perfect but manage it ok. Thanks for sharing.
I am so thankful for you sharing your life. I believe my 25 yr old son is Bipolar and I need to get him help, but I am lost. I have tried talking to him about seeking therapy, but he refuses. I will share this video with him and pray to God he doesn't go into a rage. Thank you so much!!
I usually don’t click on these videos because acknowledging my bipolar disorder is mildly triggering for me, but hearing that you hit that absolute low point at the age of 19 really struck me, because I also hit that point at the same age. That’s when I was diagnosed. My parents and I suspected I had bipolar disorder since I was 13. My uncle has bipolar 2, we kinda connected the dots. I went to therapy and tried medications, but I wasn’t diagnosed up until I spent 5 days in psychiatric care. I finally received a proper diagnosis, Bipolar 1 disorder. It was terrifying; a final confirmation. Ever since then I haven’t quite been able to get back to working or doing anything for my future. It’s been hard to maintain relationships and find balance in my life, but the thought of being faced with suicidal thoughts or fatal burn out is absolutely terrifying. My diagnosis has altered my identity, confidence, and communication skills. Plus, I’m afraid that if I go back to normal then things will truly go back to “normal”. The good news is.. I’ve been free from suicidal thoughts for 6 months now! The longest I’ve felt free ever since I was 12. Ever since my diagnosis, it’s becoming easy for me to recognize when I’m entering an episode. It’s becoming easier everyday to identify my habits, improve, and find coping mechanisms. Even though not everyday is perfect, and I feel out of control, I’m going to keep fighting for my life. I love to see others fight this disorder. It’s always so relieving to hear I’m not alone. Thank you so much for sharing your story. 💖
You NAILED it ... I've dealt with being Type 2 for almost 15 years ... and it can STILL be like driving the struggle bus! Thank you for putting this out there, that it might help others.
Thank you for your bravery and transparency! You show the human aspect to a condition that is so misunderstood in society and the media. I’m so glad that you have found understanding and healing through therapy and awareness.
Absolutely agree that asking for help is so important. Thank you for the reminder that asking for help is not a sign of weakness. I needed that reminder today and I’m sure many others do as well. Thank you for sharing your story! ❤️
How brave of you. I struggle as well. Thank you for being open and honest. You are loved.
When she mentions her mom having depression and her dad just "brushing it off"... that hit me a bit because if our parents would acknowledge mental health and seek the treatment it would help break the chain of suppressing and they could help their children treat any traces of it before it goes to the extreme. I often feel its difficult to really progress and heal because my parents either deny their issues or dont want to seek treatment so this has lead me to want to keep my distance for the most part because part of my issues were formed from their mental health and some of their addictions... it should be a family effort more than you do you and i do me. It affects everyone in the family.
I feel the need to respond to this. I knew Becca when she was 19 and this is hard to watch. Her parents were very supportive and patient with her. She was not an easy person to support or be patient with her.
She will claim to be whatever gets her attention. Whatever is popular to be at the time, she will always claim to be that thing. It really bothered me that she spoke about her wonderful parents this way.
If I would've known this about my ex-husband, believe you me, I wouldn't of gotten married to him. He refuses to find help so myself and the kids walked away. Sorry not sorry. No one ever talks about the toll it takes on the partner & kids of the bipolar person. So glad you are finding help for yourself, young lady. I applaud you.
My husband had a break from reality about a month or so before our wedding and was almost a different person. I had no idea wtf was going on, I was in shock and thought I was going insane. We still went thru with it and he was diagnosed a few week later. He’s been basically stable for a few years now. Something strange happened in march and the psychiatrist increased one of his meds. I’ve never dealt with anything like this before and it’s been heartbreaking but he loves us and is determined and strong in regards to his illness, so we stay. Thx for the video.
im really happy you actually stayed for him. when my partner noticed i broke from reality and went to a psych ward, she decided to break away. this all happened at the beggining of the year and i still miss her to this day. she also has bipolar and i'll never know why she really left. things were going so well too... i developed some ptsd from the whole situation and now im honestly afraid to date again because of the illness.. honestly just picking up the pieces and im not sure where everything fits..
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I’m 17 and think that I’m bipolar however I can’t get in too see a doctor for diagnosis. This video really helped me just to understand it more and feel less alone in my struggle so thank you for being so open it really goes a long way in helping others.
I’m 18 and I recently got diagnosed with an “unspecified mood disorder” and was told that it could turn into bipolar 2 the older I get. Bipolar is sometimes hard to diagnose in people our age and is mistaken for other things.
This is beyond relatable. My heart hurts cause this is me.
its nothing to feel bad or hurt about, you just become if anything, more beautiful and amazing so trust me don't doubt anything
Thank you for sharing this I don’t suffer from Bi polar but someone I love does so I want too get as much knowledge as possible.
I thank YOU the most!
Wanting to understand it....thank you!
I literally will pull up a website or something and practically beg and look like a fool bc I want them to try to see WHY I just cried on the floor uncontrollably for 15min and suddenly am fine. Or why I can't just drop whatever I'm in the middle of doing and do something else. I get all outta whack at times- and yes, I'm medicated. But, that just helps LESSEN the symptoms, they aren't a magic wand to make my brain suddenly function a different way.
@@moonfang9943 100 percent! We need more like this sweet soul ♡
thankyou for sharing this, in my country Indonesia mental illness not really a concern for anybody just a few people that really get it that mental illness is serious and a person who has mental illness not a crazy people. as a person who has anxiety disorder this aint easy especially if u dont have a family who support you, it's just yourself who can handle it well. for every of you who read this.. you're doing good we're all in this together i know we can do it!!!
i was just recently diagnosed and i feel like you just narrated my entire being. i’ve had a similar experience to everything. i never felt so seen
Becca, thank you for sharing your experience. I was misdiagnosed with Panic Disorder and Major Depression when I was 14. At 21, I remember losing control and that’s when my family helped me seek help & was diagnosed with Bipolar 2. Throughout my years, I felt like I had to make some sort of excuse to explain why I felt the way that I felt because I thought my own emotions weren’t enough. Mental health is important & I wish you all the best. Thank you.
Remember, you are not bad; you're not ugly or broken. You just have a condition, and like any other condition, you need the right treatment.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Thank you for this. I just got back from the Dr. I've suffered years with anxiety and depression and we now think it's Bipolar. I've always known it was more and I'm really scared. Im in tears bc this all is how i feel and have felt for years. This video gives me hope.
Agoraphobia is huge for me when the lows swing through
Me too.. couldn't pick my prescription up the other day. BPD is exhausting
Okay, people. I need to get it out. I have been feeling the same since I've had terrible relationship issues which then grew worse with anxiety attacks. I had medication to treat my anxiety but never could explain what I was feeling. This video accurately depicts it and to be honest, I kinda knew it within me but was afraid to admit it to myself just because how the society is here in India. Thank God RUclips for this recommendation and thank you for making this video. I've done terrible things in life. I've faced terrible things. I don't demand sympathy or apologies for either of them, but I'm glad I finally know what's wrong with me.
i hope you are doing well today, 2 years later
@@dinab8073 I’m doing much better today. Thank you! 😊
I've suspected that I might have bipolar II for a while but getting my mother to take me to a psychiatrist has been difficult. I think I might have the opportunity approaching now since I'm almost 18 and I'm super grateful to all the people who talk about their experiences online.
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The mania, rage and even sadness can be a gift for us, especially if channeled into creative avenues. It is what makes us special, it just needs to be channeled correctly. If you are reading this and suffer from any of the mental stress sicknesses(call it what you want) I beg you to look into the Wim Hof breathing and Ice therapy. I have been doing Wim Hof breathing, my own meditation, and cold showers every day, with a few exceptions for 6 months now. I love it! It is a fun disapline to get attached to. I do not believe in medications, because if used correctly our minds are the greatest alchemists. This is just a suggestion. It is helping me and I thought it might help someone else. Much Love
Use mania to create...Rage to do a healthy sport..Sadness to create music and to feel deeply
I knew I’ve seen her before; bassist girl from school of rock!! also this is a very enlightening video about the reality of being diagnosed with BPD. thank you🙏🏼
BPD is not Bipolar Disorder, it's Borderline Personality Disorder. The two are often mixed up. I am diagnosed with Bipolar 2. I believe we need to change the abbreviation for Bipolar Disorder to BPDO. Just to distinguish between the two since they are very different. Bipolar is a mood disorder. BPD is a personality disorder.
O m g didnt even realise!!
This was a good video. I was diagnosed with bipolar I in my late 20s. It took a really bad episode to get the diagnosis. It wasn't until I had insurance that I was finally able to be treated properly for it. It was a long arduous trip but I made it through. I'm finally on some great medications that really help but because I have SAD, it has to constantly be adjusted seasonally. I'm relatively stable as long as I stay away from drugs and take care of my self physically as well
Started a show to talk about it, and my life with it. If you’re interested. Stay well.
Short, straight and to the point. Thank you for making this video and sharing your story. It helps to fight the stigma against Bipolar D.O. and mental illness.
I feel so much related to you all, I am a pediatric oncologist and bipolar disorder made me loose my job, my patients and my fiancée due to a very serious suicide attempt, I was shining so bright; it was the mania. Mariana (the love of my life) does not wanna see me, I lost the best opportunities of my life so far and I also sleep all day. From the bottom of my heart I truly wish you all recover soon, find your balance and all the pieces rearrange together (including a good job).
This is hands down the best explanation of Bipolar 2 I have ever heard. I resonate with my own BP from watching this, especially the part about how our sobriety is very important for recovery, thank you.
4years later but never too late to see the video, thank you!
I need help
I am a teen who is experiencing bipolar
I need help...
As someone with bipolar, I appreciate you speaking so honestly about your experience. There's a lot of stigma around mental illness and sometimes it's hard to find someone who can relate to your experiences.
You are a breath of fresh air. I also am bipolar under control. Love you!😊
This is so true. Thank you.🤗🤗🙏🏽🙏🏽
This is so true. Thank you. 🤗🤗
I got diagnosed young with bipolar type one with schizoaffective elements i was 19 im now 30 and been on all sorts of different meds over the last 10 years and working an unhealthy job as a chef only just starting to see myself out of the chaos. Diving in and chasing that end of the tunnel and not self sabotage and run the other way its something you have to do its not a choice its not something that just goes away and it can and will consume you one episode is capable of completing upending your life
Started a show to talk about it, and my life with it. If you’re interested. Stay well.
I am so touched watching this video. She is so brave and so strong when having dealt with her bipolar II alone. It's so healing to see how amazing she's getting over it. Thank you so much for giving hope to others who may suffer from mental illness.
She describe it very well. Only people who live the same can understand. And there is no one else there willing to help you but yourself. People love you when you are useful for them and throw you when you fall into these episode of depression and mania. It is exactly and deeply that self sabotage, isolation, feel want to stray alone....... I suffer from bipolar disorder since a long time but these days it gets harder and harder. No one can imagine. It is so painful, so horrible.
Thank you for saying what is so hard for me to place in words. I'm also type two with PTSD, and with little to no support system. Quarantine also shattered alot of my support when I was beginning to have any and taking the steps to reach for help.
Very helpful video I’m 57 bp2 the faking being ok is so exhausting it helps to have people I can be honest with and not be questioned
*The bassist from school of rock!!*
I KNEW SHE LOOKED FAMILIAR
I'm mostly conveniently cut out from people....... and thus have no contacts, no friends no communication, and the next stage is to feel socially so alienated that you fall for people you shouldn't fall for under normal circumstances, all in all you are making me sick this way....... and then it's my fault :)
@@fredericmoresmau9194 Um... that's sad but also how does it have to do with School of Rock? Wrong reply section dude.
@@fredericmoresmau9194 I'm a bit confused by your comment, but I do know that there are millions of lonely people who would love your company. Choose one or more!
@@fredericmoresmau9194 😬 are you alright man?
I have been suffering from bipolar for the past 6 years now... Sometimes ppl feel i fake myself just to seek attention.... I have already tried to commit suicide since I lost friends in the beginning... No one actually hears me... So sometimes it's really hard to cope up with anxiety... I cry alone and not let anyone know... It really hurts trust me every single time my relationship breaks because of my uncontrollable emotional outburst... I hope someday I will be able to smile like others and enjoy my life... I'm tired of taking medicines... It's so painful...
My sister has bipolar and i have dysthymia. I'm watching this to improve my knowledge in order to understand her and help her when she's down. I hope our life will be manageable
I'm going through a bipolar II diagnosis right now and you put my own experiences into words better than I ever could
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For me, I can’t take antidepressants for my bipolar. I’ve tried several different medications and they have almost all made me feel worse. It’s not for everyone but if it helps you then please keep taking the medication.
Same with me also ! I've tried fluoxetine and sertraline in the past and they make me feel absolutely dreadful , total nauseous and ill 🤒
that’s what happened to me, prozac made me miserable but talk to a doctor about a bipolar medication or mood stabilizer. it helps a lot better.
I'm on antidepressants+mood stabilizer and it's going great, best combination ever. I used to take SSRIs before getting diagnosed and it pushed me into a looong manic episode.
same, the meds i tried made me physically ill
diagnosed with bipolar here too. thank you for sharing your story. i also tried to commit s back when i was 18. living with this is hell. i hope someday i can also get better at managing it. only upside i like is when it makes me more creative, however on the contrary more often than not it'll make me feel out of energy and just dreadful and hopeless.
I just hate the fact that when you actually manage to put your feelings into words and try to talk to someone and they just don't understand. Damn it they just don't understand like somehow the forget what English sounds like. And what am I trying to explain them.That's sad a bad feeling. The worst one.
It hurts even more when you're not the type of person to not reach out, but when you do that (especially to someone close and dear to you ) and they dont understand.
@@xlx077 I know. I understand that feeling.
I know this feeling and I hate it. I gave them hints and tried so many times to open up to them but when I talk I would notice they're not listening or someone is gonna cut in or they're in their head and after all I've said from the heart they would just reply huh? What were you saying? Or they will suddenly remember something and talk to other people about it, cutting me off midsentence and leaving me dumbfounded and dissapointed. So I just stopped trying. It was so draining. If they don't want to listen then ok fine. It's just so unfair that when they talk I always listen and give them my full attention and listen carefully to what they're saying and try to understand them. Even sometimes when I'm doing something and they would interrupt me I would stop and give them my full attention, resulting me not finishing what I had to finish. It's just frustrating and I can't even stop doing that. I guess I don't want them to feel the way I feel because I know it's horrible even though they're unconsciously doing that to me. Or maybe I'm just horrible at saying no to them to the point that I will sacrifice anything for anyone that I care about even if I suffer. Good thing I saw that it was so toxic for me and now I know that they careless if I'm not their friend anymore so I ended it. But we're on good terms now, it's just that I will not make them my priority like before. I don't have friends now but who cares? I have God and myself. My priority now is to help myself get better because no one else will.
@@youniversalbeyoutifull2843 it takes a whole lot of strength to tell your story to a stranger but I'm glad that at least you said it out loud. I have been there and I know there are lot of people like us. I'm happy to know that you are on good terms with your friends. I would also like to tell you that in past years I realised listening and understanding is a quality and not everyone has it . I tried to reach out to people but the didn't understand me but I always try to be there when someone is trying to reach out to me every if its 3 am and you finally manage to sleep after trying for hours and take that call and listen. And for myself I started writing journals. I did that for a whole year and half and it helps me to bring my feelings out. I find it easy when I don't have someone around to talk. And ofcourse praying and running few other things I like to do to help myself. I hope this message helps you in some way.
It's like you know what you are dealing with but don't know how actually to put that thing in words.
Diagnosed 4 days ago with bipolar 2..this video and you are simply amazing..thank you for sharing
Her story sounds so relatable.
I’m glad she found herself and found the courage to get the help she needs to live thru the fight it takes to be okay.
Just turn it on it's side and cellooooooo you got a bass!
Stay strong, rockstar
Is it the girl from School of Rock??
@@JaneDoe-tm2ex yes Rivkah Reyes
I had Depression for 15 Years. I have been in hospotal twice in the last 3 years. Still I can live with it better and better.
Think it’s important for her to have noted that she has HYPOMANIA not MANIA. That’s the whole difference between type 2 and type 1. If she says she’s type 2 then it’s hypomania not mania. - from someone with bipolar 2
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Just in the beginning she kept on referring to it as mania and I thought I’d just flag that!
It is possible she was given the wrong information... Overall, it's a bit arbitrary
@@romybellalevinsohn8288 Although I'd say hypomania is a subcategory of mania. i.e. hypomania is a milder form of mania so it's not wrong to call it mania. (Also someone with bipolar 2)
naryainc from my understanding the difference between bp2 and bp1 is the type of mania
This is one of the only videos that perfectly explains the difference between type 1 and type 2 bipolar disorder
Thanks for this. I am also living with bipolar 2. So grateful when I got diagnosed.