RE: My Abuse Story by Matthew Santoro
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- Опубликовано: 17 янв 2016
- This is a video response to the video "My abuse story" by matthew santoro that appears on his vlogging channel. You can watch it
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In this video matthew santoro talks about what its like to survive abuse by the hands of someone you love, specifically by a woman who you trust and love. I wanted to thank matt for making the video and share my own story.
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The fact that you exist, Boogie, is a testament to the fact that while the impact of what is wrong and evil may remain, you can still be a light in the world. You, Boogie, are one of the brightest.
Holy Shit! It's Rob. and he is right. Boogie is a beautiful soul.
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I respect this..
Couldn't have said it better
+Rob Dyke You are simultaneously badass and caring.
I wish every one knew males get abused too....
People know males can be abused but because we're supposed to be the "alpha" gender, people think you're not a man if a woman can hurt you and control you
Copy Pod Most people do... at least in my community. Everyone here knows that things can go both ways.
Copy Pod the worst part is that statistically, women abuse men more than the other way around
Copy Pod I know everyone always says men don't get abused and if they get raped by a girl they always say oh you jsut of liked it like no
Linus667 had my ex abuse me until I was about to kill my self and was on the brink of insanity. I told someone and was told to get over it, man the fuck up, and stop being such a fucking wuss about everything
You are one of the strongest people I've ever witnessed. Arnold Schwarzenegger has got nothing on you. Forget about muscles - that's not real strength. Most of society cannot see how ripped your brain is. You. Are. Amazing!
CareyHolzman thats right
but his brain is broken, so you're just being a kiss arse.
how ripped his heart is you mean
100%
CareyHolzman so true
i'm 21 and grew up in a horribly abusive home. i moved out at 18 only to be abused by an ex boyfriend. i'm living with my parents once again because i had to get away from my boyfriend who terrorized me. no one helped me growing up. child protective services, teachers, counselors, therapists, police officers, other family, etc all told my parents to hit me more and thought i deserved it. now i'm 21 and still in the same situation with no job because i am disabled (w fibro which most ppl who have it were abused and i have multiple mental health issues now). everything i've gone through is really bad and it's still bad. everyone has hurt me tbh.
i don't understand how people just watched as you were being hurt and watched as i was too!
peach e I’m so sorry
Stay strong, we believe in you:)
This comment's nine months old.
How are you doing now?
wait for the police therapists child protective services all told your parents, to hit you more. something is not adding up
Weed, cookies, cereal, ice cream, pizza, more weed and 2000's Nickelodeon cartoons
this is why boogie is the realest guy you will ever see on a screen
i've never rooted for someone more than boogie
Are the others not real guys
idk in his life story he says his sister ran away and in this 1 he says she was taken away sooo....
true dat
people like this are the real people
Right you are!
After the way you handled the r/fatpeoplehate issue, I would be front and centre to argue against anyone who was going to call you weak. That demonstrated a remarkable strength of character. Stay safe, Boogie.
+Sargon of Akkad glad to see you on boogeys channel my man im a sub of yours also
+Sargon of Akkad You watch Boogie, Sargon?You have good taste in youtubers
Seeeerrrrgeeeeeerrrnnnnn, I loooovveee yooooouu!!!
I very much second that. Boogie's bravery and strength is an inspiration to all.
+Sargon of Akkad its true that some men get abused by women, but imo they r the weakest and most feminine, tis y they r targeted. u dont c confident aggressive men gettin abused or bullied. idk, bein abused by a women and crying about it 30 yrs later, literally crying mind u, seems pretty pathetic to me. but shit, everyone gots an opinion like assholes, so mines is as worthless as yours.
I was emotionally, physically mentally abused for 8 years. When I was 5 my mom developed a drug addiction and my dad became abusive.
We became so poor that we barely got food on the table every night. I developed severe depression, severe anxiety, and OCD at the age of 10. Only 10. Now I'm 13 and living with my grandparents, and I'm just getting help.
I am glad you are getting help now. I hope your grandparents are treating you well & caring for you. You can get over your horrible beginning & go on to lead a happy life.
Keep on kicking kid, dont let anyone get you down. ❤
Sorry to hear this good luck with the help you be getting best wishes to you and you will recover from this
oh waah waah
Just ignore that trolls comment. Your feelings and emotions are valid. The troll is just wanting attention.
There really should be something more than a like button, don't you think? That was the bravest thing I've seen in probably forever frankly.
My kid (13) is doing a school assignment - a talk - where in part he has to define Greatness. His definition was of one who not only achieved something for/in themself, but where that person also motivated and helped others to do the same. He needs to reference people and situations that example the definition, and discuss why.
One of the people I discussed with him ... was you, Boogie.
"Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them." - William Shakespeare
the executioner hell yeah hope that your kid gets a hundred
Got my bad
Their is but apparently only the person running the channel can use it
:(
After hearing these stories, I have now realized that i am blessed.
Same bro I feel so bad for everyone in the comments that have been hurt
+Jack Anthony true
💯
+Billionaire Black 🎺🎷
Haha sympathy and pity are crutches. Only the weak need apply.
Sad story bro, when does the sequel come out? Is what they need to hear.
It takes A big man with a big heart to cry on RUclips ❤❤❤
Remember when trolling was subtle? Now it's just laziness.
+RolandRED Seriously. Look I normally like to stay away from using harsh language and talking badly to another human even if they do it to someone else but fuck off. This man has had horrible trauma and had his family literally come close to killing him multiple times and your sitting here insulting him. Fuck. Off. I don't know how you manage to sleep at night knowing that you insult people who contemplate suicide. That's the type of thing that kills people. You may not hold the dagger but when you say things like this to people who go through or are currently going through this your the murderer nonetheless. I realize that things are better for Boogie now and that hes learned to brush off hate but think of if you had said this sort of thing to someone else who wasn't immune after they confessed something like this to you. You are simply just a horrible person.
+RolandRED Did someone shit in your cereals this morning?
+BnS iAlex He's in his 14 year old ruthless, thinks he's Kanye West phase. If he doesn't get replies he'll tucker himself out.
RolandRED ur married hahaha wtf
Boogie is a gentle minded kind hearted hero
One of my sister's friends got badly abused like you did and he got his siblings away while he was brought back to his abusive parents' home. And things got so bad he took his own life in late February of 2016. I am so happy you stayed strong Boogie and I am glad your suicide attempts never worked because you are an amazing RUclipsr!
This comment section is like a support group. Its really awesome. Maybe one of the best comment sections ive ever seen. My faith in humanity has been partially restored.
+Subliminality well...that comment made no sense
Chris Smith I was thinking that
No, humans are born with something called compassion, have you never seen compassion before? Because it looks like you just saw it! People not only categorize skin and ethnicity, they categorize people who follow a popular person, from RUclips or Instagram or just fans that are annoying!
+Noodle Glitch It's not usual to see nice comments on RUclips.
+billybob jenkins i dno its kind of gay tbh
It takes a lot of fucking guff to say this to 3 MILLION people. You're not weak my man, you've got balls of steel.
The only reason he does his videos in the same room is because he's unable to carry balls that big out the door.
+RA YLaenx You give RUclips comments a bad name. What the hell do you mean take the bong out of your face? It's obvious you were smoking when you wrote this.
yeesss 🙌🙌
+Kylo Maximus Don't care about him, he spoke the same shit on Matthew's video, he's just a useless troll.
***** true
Man I know this was posted years ago but this touched me and I just wanted to say your brave for coming out with this lot of love stay strong
I believe you
it's not males that are violent or females that are violent, it's people that are violent.
I don't think people exist anymore I think you meant animals
BryanTheKing No, i meant people, i think i have a different definition of people though.
+BryanTheKing That really speaks to me. Right on brother.
+SilverEagle XI stfu
+SilverEagle XI Humans are naturally evil...
This was gut-wrenching man. I relate, I grew up in one of those same small southern towns. I applaud your courage for posting this. It will definitely help others.
+NukeNorway hi
+NukeNorway #FuckNicoleArbour
Lol
today western society is sick if a woman is adused by a man everyone come to the rescue, when a man is abused by a woman it's who give a shit.
nuke !!!!!
Hey. Speaking as a person who has never been in your position, and cannot personally relate to your life or any of what it has involved, I just wanted to tell you that you are a sweet and kind person, and you never, *ever* deserved any of what you have endured.
You broke the cycle and chose kindness. That is huge. There will always be lasting effects, but you came out on top because you recognize what happened to you was wrong and you chose to be better than the world you knew growing up-you didn’t let your abuser destroy you. You won.
As someone who faced horrible childhood abuse (and still wears the deep scars of it) I was really touched by this Boogie. Thank you so much for opening yourself up like this. You really are the best. Stay strong and stay healthy.
I see you every where man!
+DreamcastGuy i've never seen someone try so hard for subs
+Northern Hoarder lol savage
+Northern Hoarder I know right. He just needs to stop :P
+Enjoy the Decline Damn... :(
Boogie, never be afraid to talk to your fans. We all support you. Sure we enjoy the content you make for us, but you're more important.
Yes
Yup
We love you boogie
agreed
your*
I know this video is old, but I can't keep myself from commenting... All that you said here makes me see how strong you are, I doubt that if something of that sort happened to me I would never be in the spot you are right now. You may have all the problems you have, but you are better then someone that hears your story could possibly think you would be. And thinking of all the children that are suffering from the same kind of abbuse right now, and nobody helping just makes me even more sad. You will probably never read this, because of my timing, but anyways, you are incredible.
(Sorry if I make any english mistakes, not really from an english speaking country)
I've never wanted to give someone a hug so much before in my entire life. Hearing about someone go through so many horrible things throughout their life at the hands of a person who was supposed to love & support them is so painful, and I cannot believe that it happens as often as it does. Boogie, you're an incredible person & going through that abuse doesn't make you any less of a man. If anything it makes you stronger, & I hope one day I can say that I grew to be as strong as you have.
*Can someone explain to me why or how this video has 739 dislikes? This dude just shared his most embarrassing life story to try and help other abuse victims out there.*
Tough Men and Feminists dislike this.
+HoomanTV because they're dicks
+Amusix "tough men" its tougher to do what boogie just did than it is to not do this
+Tyler Berman I agree, I can't imagine how hard sharing that was, I was in tears listening to it, Boogie is one of the most real you tubers there is.
I think we should look at the fact that 37k+ people support boogie2988 rather than the 700 trolls and/or idiots
it takes a real man to cry (show their real emotions) to millions of people
+RolandRED what?
+Ste97R roland needs to get his shit together
+RolandRED shut up ronald
+RolandRED man I just love accidents....
RolandRED Nice bait
I remember when I was 4 and I fell on the ground, I started crying over this bruse with gravel in it. Then my "stepfather" lifted me upp in my ears, threw me back at the floor and told me only girls cry. That whent on every day till a was 7-8 and it just became whors everyday.
Im writing this now cuz I remember this video and how it made me feel but my whole life its been hard to talk about it.
I can feel like these memories are on the outside of my skin and people can see them plain as day and night. But apparently thats not the case since ive been trying to be happy my whole life and joke away lifes strugles.
Just wrote this comment for myself and to thank you for this video since it made me feel as iff I can go on with life knowing Im not alone feeling like this
I’ve just rewatched this. I wish I knew you personally only so I could genuinely say I know how kind hearted and genuine YOU are. But watching this video and watching you pour your heart out...I think you let me and other people in and I think you allow us to get to know you in such an intimate and personal way and honestly you just can’t get more genuine than that. These videos are so important to see. And I thank you! And I’m happy for you that you’re where you are now. Stay strong ❤️
Boogie, just remember that 2,937,132 have your back if you ever decide to upload the video explaining your abuse.
*2,937,193
+Jack Corcoran 2,939,018*
+Jack Corcoran 2,941,199*
+chickoman355 Really 20 percent of them are trolls that want to make fun and put him down so don't say all 2 million got his back.
chickoman355 That's because 100% of his viewers don't watch his video's.
And this is why this man is the greatest of all time.
tru
Hi dynasty! :D
Literally.
+Dynasty Seriously, though.
i know right!
How did 2k people have that bad aim to miss the like button?
Its Intense One word TROLLS
Boogie I was never physically abused like you were. My heart goes out to you. I was psychologically abused for years and years. Pretty much abandoned. We can never be that person we were meant to be, but we can always move forward being the person we want to be. You are right; people who are abused are just never the same. Thanks for sharing.
I had to stop the video 8 minutes in cause I was tearing up. You just wanna hug him.
+Jack Macleod You'd need pretty long arms to manage that.
+klystron2010 Should a loser like you with a pony as their profile picture really be making fun of a man that has it all ?
I know, I know, just taking the piss.
+klystron2010 Nothing wrong with lightening the mood.
+AandM To be fair, what is and isn't funny is subjective. Freedom of choice. Don't get me wrong, I am not commenting on whether or not I find post to be funny...just pointing out that it is subjective.
i had an abusive mother too i lost contact with her in 2005 so i know how much that can mess you up i respect you alot boogie
+taltigolt hey taltigolt =D, you're awesome!
+Naiko i agree
We on utube luv u! #nohomo
I was abused but its part of growing up u deal with it on life goes on sometimes
George Wilson some are strong im not it messed me up
It takes a lot of strength and courage to talk about being abused. I've only ever been able to talk to one person about my own experiences. Seeing other men come forward and talk about this kind of thing reminds me I'm not alone and I shouldn't stay silent. There needs to be more support for people who struggle with any kind of abuse. Your video moved me and i felt like I need to show my support. Thank you for sharing your story. Stay strong and my good things come to you and those you love.
Thanks so much for sharing your story and I'm truly sorry for what you've gone through. This is really motivating (the fact that you shared it and as a result, it helps others including myself, feel less alone). You're very strong and awesome for sharing.
You're so strong boogie. You're much stronger than the average man, you have lived this nightmare and fought it day to day, even now, and you still have the strength to get on camera and fight it. You boogie, are not just a man, but a hero to many.
+GamingTutor Amen.
Damn straight
+Trust Me SHUT UP TRUMP
+Trust Me SHUT UP TRUMP
+Trust Me SHUT UP TRUMP.
You're one of the strongest mate.
fuck yeah mate
Fuckin great guy
+TheSkitzMACHINE Oii skitz :)
+TheSkitzMACHINE Sup Skitz
+TheSkitzMACHINE You're really pathetic you have no idea what you are talking about. People have come back from wars and you're saying he's the strong on, some mummy problems awww that's sad, just think to yourself, what about the people with no arms or legs, you really have no idea what you are talking about.
Best of luck to you boog. Love you man and I hope you live the happiest life than any man could ever live on this earth. Sorry you went through this... I could only imagine the pain that you went through. Just know that you have millions of people that love you , hear you , and have your back no matter what. You'd be surprised to know that you pretty much got family all over the world. So once again Boogie, you ARE amazing. And don't let ANYONE on this planet tell you other wise.
This is why I'm going to school to become a social worker. Because I really want to be the one to help people like you. So no one wants to ever have to go through that. Don't be ashamed of your past Boogie
It just breaks my heart that you're hurting.
That's a great idea, you can help so many people get over their terrible pasts.
Tori's Stories God bless you
Tori's Stories idk u and I love ya already you have that desire to help people and you will be grt don’t let anyone take ur dreams away we need more women like u and agreed ur past makes people the reason why people like boggie became so great like a wise person says your past doesn’t define who you are but can inspire your future that to me definitely describes him I suffer from depression and anxiety disorder never luckily wasn’t abused but definitely a victim of emotional bullying in highschool I thought nothing but ways that I could kill myself but held back due to religious standard and fear I definitely want to use depression as not only awareness but to help people even a stranger we literally lost too many great people to depression Chester Bennington robin willams and many more it has to END
I wanna be a police officer. I swear to god child abusers and other types of people like that aren’t gonna get off easy.
Real men show emotion. Real men can be sensitive. Real men can lose. Real men can cry. Real men are HUMAN.
+Jakob A Yes.
+Jakob A I agree.
+Jakob A Real men suck it up and push forward....we solve problems, we dont make them....we dont let ppl get the better of us...NUFF SAID.
+Alex Jones real men use "don't", and "people", not "dont" and "ppl"
Alex Jones You just got rekt by a REAL man.
To the people that hate on matthew's and this video i think they were born on highway's because that's where most accidents happen
This is just one of the best insults I've heard in my entire life
+Mike Ward man I love clever insults not just the lazy curse word no the best insults are the ones that take like 2 minutes to thoroughly explain and then watching the people who you are insulting realize several minutes later man it feels great
Sos Bad Man. Sick insult though, I must admit! 😄😄
You win the oscar for the most creative insult p.s That insult is also in a Jacksfilms video
I to my fedora my good sir will you like to join me for a cup of tea? Hmmmmm
No but seriously best come back evaaaaa!!
I feel so much less alone. My abusers (male and female) have had such a hold on me especially because of my disabilities. Disabled abuse victims are not taken seriously either. Our abusers are always given so many excuses. I can relate to so much of this. No one has ever helped me. I'm still trapped here.
I know this video is over a year old, but it is still relevant to any people who have suffered through abuse. I, myself, have not but I have/had friends that had gone through similar abuse or like yours and Matthew's. It breaks my heart to see anyone get treated like dog shit, especially in families and/or communities...whatever. You and Matt are brave. A true testament that people can survive through this and have a good life overall, no matter how terrible it was for them. Thank you for existing, Boogie. Thank you for being you. You are an incredible human being and your wife is hella lucky to have you around. Without you, this world would be quite boring, ya know? :)
Remember people, think before you judge someone. You have no idea what they might of gone through. Considering the amazing person Boogie is, I NEVER would of guessed it would have been this bad.
Natasel We don't know what kind of horror boogies Mom went through either, for all we know she could of had the same treatment from her parents or worse. Of course thats in no way a justification of her behaviour. The people who have turned out completely evil and vile are always the people that have given up on having inner peace.
Natasel read my comment carefully please.
Natasel yes of course. No one should treat their child that way.
+Natasel No matter what kind of horrors a person goes through, that will never justify them harming another human being. Not everyone can turn out like Boogie, and the fact that he suffered that kind of abuse and is still so kind just shows how amazing his character is.
***** No that's not what he or she is saying. She's saying the opposite.
Thank you for this video.
+MrRepzion aaaaayyyyy it's our 2nd favourite reptilian youtuber!
you gonna do a response repzion?
Screw you for blocking people who are able to refute your arguments in an educated manner. Fuck your pro-suicide white knight hypocrite attitude.
+tempf Real mature.
Sup, Daniel.
With cases like Johnny Depp this will always be relevant
Boogie, thank you so much for sharing your story with us. It was truly moving and nobody deserves that kind of pain and suffering. I myself had a great childhood and was never really abused, but my mom was a victim of severe abuse by her parents. I never fully understood or grasped the pain that she endured and the horrors that still haunt her, until I watched this video. So again, thank you for helping me understand
You have a good Heart :)
I saw you lick a moving train on the TV yesterday!! Epic channel!
And you have a good channel.
+Licking Guy Man u reply to literally every video on youtube.. The worst part is I always think you're KSI...
+Cm Punk ikr
holy shit it's Licking Guy
I love you man. I've dealt with abuse too, but I still have no excuse. if you could make it past 40; I can make it past 20
+Nathan Fondren You can do it.
+Nathan Fondren Improper use of the semicolon.
+Tinyjb0 freaking Grammer nazi
+Tinyjb0 Fuck off
+Nathan Fondren Be strong, you've got this.
When you said “the same teenage boy getting the living s*** beat out of” that honestly broke me because my ex girlfriend of 4 years did that to me every single day of my life until she moved away and still tormented me with verbal abuse and mental as well. When I feel low and my depression and memories get to, I still see myself as a 16 year old getting shoved, smacked, cut, punched in the face and even emasculated by other male students with her crude remarks. Even after it was just me and her after school. The constant put down, fighting and telling me I’m nothing without her. Makes me burst into tears while I’m rubbing my left arm since she almost broke it after I fell hard on the ground trying to get her off me.
4 years with her. Even after she moved to another continent. I was under her strings. Until I said enough was enough but the damage still followed. Even now I still feel I’m not good enough for anyone my own age. I’m 24 and I’m just slowly coming to peace especially coming out to tell my parents especially my dad who I was terrified to tell since he raised me to be stronger than any other woman and man since he was in the army not that he was also father of the year sometimes. He told me it’s okay and he still loved me which made me cry harder since I carried that fear of him seeing me less of a man as his only son for 8 years..
I have to say boogie you are a real hero to me. I can never feel the way you do. Or even understand the things you have gone through. To be honest I am still pretty early in my life and the only advice I can ever tell you if you ever see this comment on your old video is to stay strong and push away those bad memories but never forget. Because whenever it gets so tough you can't bear it, remember those memories and you look how far you have come. You have a fan base that loves you and will always stay behind you and support you. Never be afraid to express the way you feel.
I've never commented on any of your videos Boogie but damn I've been watching you for a long time now dating back to your WoW server rage videos. I want to say thank you for all the insightful videos you upload on a daily basis filling the RUclips community with passion, knowledge and a genuine personality. You are so damn highly respected and you're one of the strongest people I've come to know on RUclips. Keep doing you man and never stop and thanks for everything you've done for us so far.
Hey Cynical! Love Your Videos! And I'm With You And Boogie! 👍😁
Eyyyyy Jared!
awesome to see u here Cynical , I love your kingdom hearts videos :) , i hope you Don't get abused in anyway , love to you and Boogie _Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ ❤
I'm happy to see so many big youtubers commenting here
Cynical fancy see you here
Goddamn. Seeing a grown man cry hits me.
He may be a grown man but that doesn't mean that he doesn't have emotions
+untypicalluke yeah of course I realise that but as he said we grow up in a society where men are supposed to be manly. just gets me
owendudeson yeah, the feels are too much
+owendudeson Seeing a real man cry can make anyone feel bad, only man can talk like this
+owendudeson That is a bitch not a man
I came to this video in the feed from seeing the Do5 update - btw Cody and Emma are with their mother now - but I just want to give you a virtual hug. Boogie, you big lug, thanks for being so brave and opening up. It takes guts to talk about what we try to hide out of shame. You are a person who deserves love and considerate caring. I wish you well and all the best.
I know men who have been in abuse situations including family and loved ones. These are some of the most amazing men and the biggest hearts I ever had the honor of being loved by. I hope I treat them with the love and respect they deserve and I try to be the best person I can for them.
I truly am blessed for my family, and that I am loved, I feel deeply sorry for boogie and anyone who has been a victim of abuse my prayers will be with you tonight and always🙏
This is the 3rd video I've seen of yours, the first being your reaction to the Fine Bros announcement. One of the first thoughts I had of you after watching that had to do with how straight-minded and unbiased you were, and I try to keep a level head like that everyday. Seeing someone take apart a video that EVERYONE hated but show that there were good intentions behind it, you're the only one that I've seen do that so far. And now, hearing this, I'm even more amazed dude. I know it can be tough to go through life as a functional, normal person despite everything you've been through. But goddamn, you do so well at it. And I'm glad you found it in you to open up a bit on RUclips. 3 videos in, I can tell you're great at what you do online and offline. Keep it up man. You're inspiring.
This is the 2nd ive seen by boogie! And I totally agree
+Its Devildude2002 same!
+Varun Athilat I suscribed to his channel a few days ago, after watching his reaction to the Fine Bros. This guy is amazing, I agree with you.
Exactly what I did too.
Same here, subscribed as soon as I realised how great his videos are
You're tougher than most, being honest and open about your experiences. You're the fucking manliest man I've ever seen, and a big part of me making my channel
Hey camel...
Dad
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Damn. That was some stealth ass advertising man.
+Camelworks so u think its manily for a guy to get abused by a women, then cry about it 3 decades later? wer u raised by two women? becasue i dont think u know wat it means to b a man.
I'm actually blown away by how genuine and incredible this man is. Boogie you've been through so much and you still manage to bring joy to people with every single video you put up. Your a hero. I love you. ❤️❤️
Boogie, I'm a recent subscriber and have been leafing through your videos over the past week, and I have to say that you are a brave, inspirational, and wonderful man worthy of so much, who, of all people, should never have suffered the way you did. This video is an exceptional example of your strength and worth as a human being, and I offer you endless applause for being the person you are today when so much has gone wrong in your life. You're one of the best RUclipsrs on the platform, and I hope that you continue to find your way, and that I can be there watching you, though I may be blinking back the tears. Keep being excellent, Steven. The world needs it.
I don't get abused, but I feel you man. As men we are taught to grow up being tough and only part of that is true. Guys, if we express our guilt/regret more, we could come to forgive ourselves much easier.
There is a great book about this called the Kite Runner where this guy named Amir as a kid had a friend named Hassan and basically Amir allowed very bad things to happen to Hassan, but if Amir was in trouble, Hassan would help or take the blame. Throughout the remainder of the book he goes back to Afganistan (his home town) and tries to make it better again. Thing is, he has been forgiven by others for his entire life and his journey is to forgive himself for what he has done.
Boogie, I feel you man. I really appreciated the part where you said, none of what I did helped except talking to others.
+superQuizzie LET HEAVY EAT PROFILE PICTURE!
there was a movie with the same plot you just told but don't know if it has the same title,i like the movie very much though
There is another book by the same author called "A thousand suns" (at least I believe that's the title. It's about how a man marries to young girls and he physically and emotionally abuse both of them. It's a really great book.
Rosotee does it have a movie ?
muhd iqmal21 Not sure
I have been abused in ways I won't describe in full detail here. I don't feel sorry for myself one bit. Instead of being upset and feeling bad for myself or feeling like a victim of abuse I decided to make a change for those that I can. I am not a victim. I was locked in trunks, I was sexually abused, I was beaten, I was subjected to drug abuse, I was lied to about how I was conceived, I was subjected to extreme racism, I was pulled from my family, I was moved all over the country every few months never being in one town for a full year until I was locked away in one for over a year, I watched my mother slice her wrists and bleed out in front of me, I watched strange men come into my home and tell me to call them dad, I fought 2 to 3 times a week to defend myself from bullies, I was put on OYA and used as an example for kids that still had a chance, ect... I could go on for hours about the bullshit I have been through. Hell my mom committed suicide when I was only 15 and revealed to me in the suicide letter that I she lied about my dad and that I will most likely never meet him because he is a rapist and I am a product of that. I was told I am suicidal, manic depressive, a drug addict, an alcoholic, and a threat to my community. I was prescribed a ton of pills and locked away in a cell with heavy therapy. Not once did I buy into that bullshit. We all have bad things happen to us. Well at least most of us do. We have the power to choose how we react to those bad things. We can choose to accept being victimized or we can choose to not accept it. We can choose to let those memories effect our future in a negative way such as being depressed, unsociable, acting out, turning to drugs or alcohol, or even just having a chip on our shoulder because we technically have the right to have a chip on our shoulder since we have been subject to victimization. However I chose to do something different. After attending my mother's funeral in handcuffs, shackles and a belly chain in front of all my friends, family and close to 1,000 members of my local community I had a complete meltdown followed by pure clarity. Everything started to make sense to me. Life is literally the accumulation of choices and reactions. Emotions are controllable and reactions are a choice. As I began to understand that and to apply simple accountability ONLY to myself and no one else my life started to change. I realized what my faults were, what my strengths were and what mattered. Simply quit caring about the judgments from others and only care about meeting your full potential as human. Do good instead of bad. Do right instead of wrong. Take the hard road when everyone else takes the easy road. If it is easy then it isn't the right option. If someone has to lose for you to win, don't play the game. I know it all sounds stupid but I am truly a living example of this. While my following is nowhere near as large as yours is I can tell you right now that this simple logic has helped to change my life and hundreds if not thousands of others lives at this point. I literally had my eye opener at 15 years old and have been on a mission to help others every since. I know this will probably get hated on because nobody ever wants to take accountability for the negative or the bad in the world but as soon as I started to acknowledge my own thinking errors, my own tactics to avoid accountability and stopped even paying attention to others faults, my entire life changed. Fast forward 16 years and I am still just as passionate about it and still stand behind that belief as it has continued to prove true. I wish everyone that reads this the best and hope that all of you find your inner strength. The people that abused me will never have the satisfaction of feeling that they hurt me because they didn't. They empowered me to do better than they were ever able to for themselves. #humanity #onelove
Wow that's a touching story... hope you the best on your way
You said you wouldn't describe the abuse in full detail and then proceeded to do so. What the fuck, pal?
+Ryan Buchanan (RetroBacon) he may have gotten caught up.
Thanks for being honest to yourself.
+EXTREME SCALE PERFORMANCE RC my heart goes out to you, we need more people like you in this fucked up world.
Boogie has to be the most loved you tuber ever, amazing person
. RESPECT
No he is obese
Boogie, sorry that I don't know your name, but you are my favorite RUclips and person. It's bad to know that you had went through such torment and despair, but it's so good to know that you talk about it on youtube. I have been through abuse but not as bad as what you went through, and I thank God for that. Boogie you are a man, because you have the courage and heart to talk about this sort of thing, and that is what makes you one of the most respected youtubers on the whole internet, and I think what you do on this platform is something no man can do and so... Thank you, so much.
You are my favorite youtuber, and for what you have been through that is what makes you a man to talk about that, and going through on what has happened.
Anyone else want to give Boogie a hug after this video?
Me
+ace7410 boogie gives the best hugs because hes so soft, like the ultimate pillow
+stukakke woah bro..
+Thebossgamer291 Let's form an orderly queue.💖
+ace7410 Not really, no.
That small little snippet about your wife made me cry. Im just incredibly happy for you and hope that ill find something like that one day.
I can't totally relate to what you've been through. Ive been mentally abused by a gf. I did the same thing to her since i have suffered mental abuse from my father nearly every day since i was born and i hate having to gone through that. Since ive gone through some hardship in life i try to help people with theyre problems the ones that deserve it. Anyone that was physically abusive or mentally abusive i forgive that but if they keep it up i cut them out of my life without an apology and never look back. Ive recently had to cut someone out of my life for that very reason. Negativity runs through my head nearly every day. Your videos give me insight and inspiration to better myself as soon as possible. Thank you very much!
Whoever disliked this is fucking heartless.
You're brave, man. It takes guts, to make a video like this.
And he has plenty of gut
+Axemurder007 wow, just wow. Are you actually seriouse?
+Axemurder007 There's a time and a place man...
Takes guts to look like a pussy? Yeah, probably.
***** both are brave. Both have come out about their abuse.
I have just found this man and I need to say this man deserved a better life and I don't feel bad for him I am proud of him that he is still alive and he still alive with a wife.. He deserves so much more.
I have just found his channel ****
Wow- very glad you shared this. This goes to show that everyone EVERYONE can carry terrible events from their past that can truly affect them. Even those things society may not view as “valid”. Good for you for sharing this. I have to wonder (and I doubt he’ll ever do a video on this) but was his mother an addict / alcoholic? Did the whole family know of this? And also- his siblings, how were they effected? Did Mom ever apologize? These are things I think of when I watched this... So frustrating to even image that situation.
God bless you boogie. I'm glad you were able to get that off your chest bro.
Hi +boogie2988
Today I commented for the first time to another one of your recent videos.
I am 54 and i still try to cope with the outcome of being molested and being violently violated in my childhood.
Since a few years i started to open up about it. I do feel with you. Believe me. Every word you said, it resonated with me.
We are not alone in this. Today i realized that again. Thank You.
Greetings from Bremen, Germany,
Joe (Joachim )
(Sorry for my bad English, i am not a native speaker)
I am really glad you have gotten better with your experience. And don't worry about your english, most Americans can't fucking speak it anyway
+Plague Doctor Thank you. I managed to get better with professional help, but as ***** said a few times: It never leaves you. In recent years most of my days are pretty ok and i manage to cope with all that is inside of me and i live a pretty decent life. But then comes along some event, that triggers all the fear and brings back all the dark emotions and dark memories. Over the years of my childhood my mum broke about 30 of those long wooden cooking spoons, while beating me up with them. At least twice a month i got beaten with a leather belt by my dad. With a childhood like that you tend to get into abusive relationships, because that is what you know.
Joachim Rimer the worst I have suffered was some minor bullying, so I don't feel as if I will ever know what that kind of pain is like. This makes me relieved that people have the ability to find professional help to at least assist in coping with the trauma they recieve.
Plague Doctor I think pain is an individual thing for every human being. I would never tell to anyone that his or her pain is not as painful for her or him, as my pain was for me. At that moment when one has to go through pain, it becomes the focal point of ones perception.
Thank you for sharing with us Joe... I pray you are well today and have a blessed day
i think everyone here could just use a hug right now...
Hug me 😭
+Jodiiiieee *big hugs* ^-^
+OTA4L all 2/3 million subs should give him a hug
+Joshua Drinen he's big enough for all of us :D jking
Any of you fucking touch me and I'll slit your throat. >:(
I mean, yeah sure... uh... virtual not real physical contact hugs for everyone. Sure. Er... disregard that first part.
Hey Boogie, my english isn´t the very best, but I want you to say that you are such a lovely and sweetheart person!
I don´t know how I get here on your side, but I love your videos and I really like to see how you are doing now with your sugery.
I´m very excited about the next videos.
To see your pain in you makes me heartbroken, but I´m glad that you´re still here to let it all out.
And thank you for sharing your story to all of us in the World.
You´ve got a fan in me! Take care on you!
I´m sending the best wishes from germany! Rock on!!!
Boogie, you're such a sweet, caring, loving man ❤️ I have nothing but respect for you for being so transparent, even with such a painful past. I love that you're using your platform to spread kindness and understanding to your friends (and total strangers such as myself). Without going into too much detail, I want to say that I was also a victim of sexual, emotional and physical abuse at the hands of people I trusted as a teenager. Watching your videos makes me feel a strong connection to you; I'm 10,000% sure that I was meant to discover your channel. I'm SO glad you and your wife found each other, and that she loves you the way you deserve to be loved. ❤️ thank you for being a beacon of light in such a dark, unkind place.
U just gained a subcriber
Subscriber
same
+Jazmin delgado straight up, this popped up on my home page and I am so glad it did, I needed this
Yes! Same here
Me to
I'm a girl and I love when a guy doesn't have to be "macho." It shows he can be real. If he cries, I don't tease him or think he's a creep. I see him as being human. Guys, not all girls are bad or vice versa but always be yourselves, because girls like me are looking for you.
Demetrio Zannetti Then maybe you're pursuing the wrong types of girls.
WoW Guidery
you're not wrong but sometimes the wrong ones are very good at pretending they're the right ones
Woman like you are too rare.
Savage Grandpa Unfortunately. :( But not extinct.
neck beard bait
A year later and I still just want to give you a hug more than anything. Abuse is painful to talk about. I'm so grateful that you are here, Boogie. You are proof that good people exist.
My whole family had dealt with abuse and/or are abusers themselves. I think it takes strength to talk about it. It's really easy to just ignore it and "move on." I hope everybody who's dealing with it can eventually find a way out of that situation and be able to find someone they trust and talk about it and heal.
Goddamn Boogie, I felt that. I felt that SO deeply - wow... I wasn't ready... But then again, are we ever REALLY ready? If I may, I'd like to share. This will be a first for me, so my apologies in advance if I jump all over the place.
I too was abused as a child... And like you, my abuse came at the hands of someone who was supposed to LOVE and PROTECT me from the world... But, my father failed to do that. My father RUINED me. And now, at 33 years old, I am
still picking up the pieces. I made a promise to myself years and years ago that I would BREAK the cycle. I vowed to NEVER, EVER turn out like him - I will NOT let him have that kind of power over me... Those days are OVER. And, if I am someday blessed with a child of my own, they will never - NEVER - experience the things I experienced... the things that could have so easily been avoided, but weren't.
My abuse came at the hands of my father - a military man. He was like a real life Dr Jekyll& Mr Hyde... He had his public persona, and then there was the REAL him that we saw behind the scenes. Everyone that knew him LOVED him. As a high ranking officer of 33 years in the military, he was highly respected. He was also highly regarded at his civilian job. My peers knew him as my High School's Frosh/JV/Varsity tennis coach. I knew him for his TRUE self and saw him for what EXACTLY what he really was - a fucking MONSTER abused the ever loving SHIT out of his child simply because he could. As we walked around the grocery store, as we marched in the parade for my softball league, as we took communion at church, everyone came up to him and showered him with love and friendship... And there I was on the sidelines, staring in absolute DISGUST because I knew it would only be a matter of time before we were home and that "switch" was flipped. He "justified" his actions by saying, "My father raised me this way, so I will raise you this way too." To this day, that has easily been the most DISGUSTING and DISTURBING thing that I have EVER heard in my LIFE. My grandfather was a Drill Sergeant and a 3x Vietnam vet. I'm sure you can imagine what kind of "parent" he was and where my father got these fucked up ideas.
I wish I could say that, I no longer hold resentment towards my father, but that would be a lie. I also wish I could say that I have nothing but love in my heart for my mother, but that too would be a lie - I have never understood, and frankly, I've given up trying, how she could possibly allow my father to do the things he did. HOW?! WHY?! My mother would take my sister out for walks just so they wouldn't have to witness my father beating me with his pistol belt and so they wouldn't have to hear my cries for help. My mother knew EXACTLY what was going on and did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to stop it - not one goddamn thing. And, to me, something so DEPLORABLE is straight UNFORGIVABLE.
I "divorced" both of my parents several years ago and, while closing that chapter of my life was INCREDIBLY painful (afterall, they ARE myPARENTS. They ARE my family), it was the absolute BEST decision I've EVER made. Up until the very end, my father still tried to control me with his mindfuckery and evil, EVIL ways. As expected, my mother still turned a blind eye. But you know, while I will never understand it, I have fully accepted my past. To that, I also welcome the future with excitement and open arms. I alone am in charge of my destiny and I will NOT let my past - or my parents - have power over me ANY longer.
I can honestly say that I'm VERY proud of the woman that I have become. Whenever I am lost I need direction, all I need to do is think of my father and choose the exact OPPOSITE of what he would do or say, and things ALWAYS work out. I now know what LOVE is and have been lucky enough to experience it on a daily basis - turns out that I AM worthy of love afterall!
The road to healing is long, windy, and full of potholes, but that does not deter me. The work I have done, and will continue to do for the rest of my days, for/on myself has been very, VERY painful. Actually, "painful" doesn't even come close to describing it - I don't know that my experience and feelings can actually be captured in words. But, I keep going. I have to. I owe it to myself to be the very BEST version of me possible... and that's what I'll keep doin - with a smile in my face, and love in my heart, I WILL break the cycle. ❤
((THANK YOU everyone for allowing me to free myself this morning... I feel like I just offloaded 350lbs. LOVE and LIGHT to all reading this... Please, if you need someone to talk to, I am only an email away - I will gladly, and humbly, lend you an ear or shoulder to cry on. We all need SOMEONE, and I'd be HONORED to be your "someone" if you're in the market for one. 😊))
respect
+Angee Casiano *bowing down in respect*
+erol simon
+Eoin O'Kelly Thank you, friend!
+Vincent Sauer no "bowing down" friend ... hugs instead :) Thank you.
Boogie, there is no shame in being an abuse survivor. Much love to you. Keep healing.
+xNimble how is that funny
+tony manko exactly
+tony manko did you fucking watch the whole video moron? That wasn't all of his abuse. The major abuse was his mother, physically attacking him literally splitting his head open with a fucking hammer at one point.
Wow your prince fucking charming aren't you
Wow your prince fucking charming aren't you
Dear Boogie thank you for your inspiration and honesty. I am 57 years of age. I grew up in a most dysfunctional family and worse was to come because I married into a horribly abusive set of in laws for the last 30 years. Prison may have been easier. Trying to stand against family dysfunction in my children 's generation but it is knocking at my door very hard. Mental health totally messed up. Thanks a mil for giving me some hope that l can get over the line. Best wishes. M
when you have the strength to make this and put it out to tell people that makes you stronger then you'll ever be putting it back fresh in your mind you are the strongest person that could ever be there and I hope you know that if anyones not there for you just know that all your subscribers are some might say no I'm not well guess what I am im here for you and ik this is r years late but idc I'm always here for you if you know me or not I will always be here for you all tho I'm 14 idc you can talk to me about it just get it out of you if you don't have anyone else for you at that point of time
Holy shit man... I'm glad you're still around to help everyone who needs it. You sure as hell helped me a lot.
wassup
+Bashurverse Bashur. Fuck off. Thanks.
+Bashurverse As you can see, I'm steal dealing with my own shit. But you honestly help me deal with the assholes. You're inspiring Boogie. Thanks man.
+JackMike16 you guys do know that Bashurverse and boogie are friends right?
+Bashurverse #BashurForPresident2016
#"AtleastIGotToFuckHerInTheAss"
Hi, Boogie. I'm not the victim of abuse like you are, so I'm afraid I can't completely empathize with you. However I am a victim of bullying, and I know how scarring such an experience is. I was bullied for years when I was younger, and it caused me to completely change my life, mostly for the worse. But I want to assure you, even though you've probably heard it a lot: men don't have to be tough. We are just as human as girls are, and we are liable to the same kinds of pain - mental, physical, spiritual. I'm just glad you finally found a woman who can treat you like a man, and not a punching bag. Stay strong, because while the past might be hard, the future is bright and always full of hope.
(to any of my fans who might read this: please don't reply. This is Boogie's video, and I'm just here to support him.)
hey man great speech been with ur channel since 3 years, love u
Also a victim of bullying here, I eventually overcame it too, but it also changed me, made me more depressed, compound that with a crazy Jewish family (half-lol), and well...anyway, great apeech, you just got a subscriber! Keep up the good work!
Like ur Pokemon vids didnt knew you was here
bulling is still abuse
You are awesome skul you and boogie!
I had a similar experience as a kid, my childhood was rough during the ages 6-14 years of age. My mom was addicted to pills when she had my brother. I was berated, yelled at, beaten and made to feel guilty until she went to jail at age 14. I haven't had contact with any of my family after that and it still hurts me from within. Both my parents fought each other and witnessed domestic violence and it really fucked up my life. I'm glad I'm not the only one who went through the same stuff I went through.
You are an absolute inspiration for everyone. I am so sorry you had to deal with that as a child. I love you and your videos
How tf did a thousand people dislike this?!?!?!?
i was thinking exactly the same thing
i was thinking exactly the same thing
+TheEpicRedstone Nicole's idiot followers and her 800 accounts
Yash Agrawal Oh
yeah good point
***** he may be annoying for you... your opinion, the fucks we give is in negative values
I am a victim of 16 years of physical, mental, and sexual abuse. My aggressors never were punished and when I saw Nicole getting away with abusing Matthew it reopened a lot of wounds. I am tired of seeing men and women being assaulted and traumatized who are afraid to stand against it because people don't take them seriously or don't believe them. I am tired of seeing abusers and rapists going free. It hurts, not just from my own pain but knowing that others are hurting too.
boogie, you are not alone. I'm so sorry that this happened to you. You are an intelligent, kind man and you did not deserve that pain.
I can't even begin to imagine how horrible that must've been for you. I'm gonna say something cheesy, brace yourself. Stay strong.
you're never alone, I've been there, you'll always have a friend in me. I've had friends over come the abuse and I've had friends just be destroyed by it. You should never have to be ashamed by it. the abusers should be.
I fell in love with a women, and I was extremely romantic. I was going to propose to her, and I had it all planned out. We'd be in the forest (in april) the rays of sunlight would brake through the canopy like something out of a fantasy movie, then after a few mintues of bewilderment what merely looked to be dead leaves would burst into life; 60,000 monarch butterflies. As fate would have it the night before I'd been disillusioned; she'd been cheating on me with a married man. She tried to attack me, then she tried to get me jumped, then she called the cops on me and I was in jail. I didn't eat sleep or drink for 12 days (I know it sounds medically impossible, but I now know that it isn't). I certainly almost died. On the other hand my sister walked in on her friend being raped while she was passed out drunk, and the cops were dismissive. So it's not that simple. Now sadly her friend gave up after a local hospital said they don't do rape kits. It's a multifaceted problem, and a difficult crime to prove; especially without a rape kit. I think one major part is people don't want to believe it; but at the end of the day police vetting and training needs improved, and much more difficult society improved. What's needed most in these situations is level headed objectivity.
Bryn Bryn I will certainly look into it. I've only been taken advantage of once; she just happened to be really good at it. I think you've got me all wrong, though I'm willing to question my own notions (logic not pandering lol).
I’m so sorry to hear that you suffered abuse in your lifetime. As an adult now who also has suffered from abuse at the hands of a parent I understand where you are coming from and I hope this video was a cathartic experience for you and you can begin to heal from it. Send love and prayers your way.
The fact that you're still living and changing your life for the better proves that you're strong. It's crazy that society and people just do not intervene when they know something is happening. I'll never understand that. I was bullied in school, never physicly beaten by anyone thankfully, but i was always afraid, every single day at school. And still to this day i remember those people, and even though i've surpressed those memories a bit they still come crawling back every once in a while. Thank you for sharing this, i hope it made you feel better. I sat and cried with you. It's sad that the nicest and most heartwarming people always have the worst background. But maybe that's why they're the nicest. I always enjoy watching your videos and i hope for the best for you in the future! - Michael
You telling your story is a fact that your are brave, dude. I don't know what it's like, but I know people who have experienced that.
MrMetalMan well, guess god gave her the death penalty. Jesus Christ A HAMMER!?
Respect. You're not alone.
If you need to talk I'm here for you. Everything is going to okay. I promise. We're all in this together.
+Brigh Geal
"Everything is going to okay. I promise."
Don't lie to the man. He's going to die in the next year or two anyway.
Regardless of your somewhat insulting/rude comment, you do have a morbid point.
It seems as if though he is obese, and obviously this can impose some serious health risks such as heart disease. I'm also going to assume he spends the majority of his time in his chair, doing activities that does not involve moderate physical exertion.
And it would be a shame if he were to die so early considering his way of going about things in a sincere and pragmatic way. He is one of the few so called "real RUclipsrs" out there, at least from what I've gathered thus far.
+fill it fillit all he can move so little he is incapable of what most people would call exercise :(
Mostly as a result of his obesity, he has joint damage/pain, lymphedema (fucked up legs where they swell up and hurt), a permanently bad back, and of course bad cardiovascular health. He also says he has naturally very low testosterone and always has - this doesn't make much difference now, but if he were a healthy size it would mean it would be harder for him to put on muscle.
Regardless, he cannot exercise. If he goes grocery shopping or to conventions he has to use a mobility scooter because he physically can't walk for more than a couple of minutes.
He did swim for a bit (which is relatively low exertion if you go slow) but says its really hard pulling himself out the pool and impossible when his back is playing up.
Basically, his body is fucked up. Dieting is his only option. Don't let yourself get this big.
+Zoe Adams I suffer from most of the same problems, in addition to considerable damage from a couple of injuries. Yes, he (and I) can exercise, can diet, it just takes a great deal of pain and effort (just, what the hell am I saying?). Hard to do, but worth it. Water therapy is one good means. Hard to keep up though, the pain makes it a hard road to walk. I do admire his courage however.
Oh boy. It's true that mostly the funniest people are often the people with the saddest stories in life...
Keep going buddy, you deserve the good things that happens to you now.
Boogie, I've started to follow you recently and I've loved the videos where you talked about your life experience. I think you're not weak at all, you're a very, very strong person. It's not important if it was done by a man or a woman, the abuse you've suffered is real and horrible, and I'm so sorry that it happened to you. I've seen your latest videos and I'm so happy that you've taken your life in your hands. You're so brave! You're great! You only deserve the best in your life, and do not allow anyone to make you feel bad, because you're awesome. I felt your pain in this video and it made me cry.. You can't cancel the past, but you can live a beautiful future, that one still hasn' t been stolen from you!
I'm just sitting here with my jaw on the floor looking at those 995 dislike. WTF
Well with videos like these the dislikes can be really misinterpreted, they could be hate or they could be people how dislike abuse and situations like these so ya never know.
+John Doe Think about having this linked to your social media account.
"Insert name here" Likes Abuse
He's a pussy! If a woman abused me in beat her ass
+Mason Roberts you could go to fucking jail for that along side your female/male abuser, even more so for male
John Constantine idk anymore I'm not trying to be sexist, I think I'm trying to say, retaliating would not be the best decision for him, he should contact authorities or something
As a psychotherapist that has worked with a number of young men, I can assure you that this sort of abuse is a very real and far from uncommon issue and that there are a number of men suffering in silence. I do admire your courage in creating this video that is clearly doing much to increase awareness. If you do ever need support with anything, please feel free to let me know as for you there would be no charge.
+Deuterijum T lol
+Deuterijum T I know that 90% of people on the internet are fucking liars but seriously bro, you don't have to be a fucking duchebag about everything, at least TRY to belive in what this person is saying, to me, it seems pretty legit.
***** No I don't. He clearly wrote that he got moved by his video and by saying " I won't charge you" he also means that he likes him and wants to be nice.
Thank you for being strong enough to share this, it takes a lot of courage to talk about these things. I have been in relationships with a man that suffered such abuse from his mother and his children's mother. It breaks my heart that a woman with such a gift from God to be able to carry a child from the very beginning of conception could and would do such a thing to that very gift she was given. I find it even more outrageous that a mother could hurt a child, let alone get very own child! The man I speak of finally gave in to the pressures and took his own life about 7years ago. It killed me inside to see him struggle for so many years with the ptsd, mental anguish and illness. I'm thankful that I could be there for and with him many years and was able to help him see the love that he deserved. I was out of town when he took his life but he left me a letter to explain he couldn't handle his mind reminding him anymore and he feared that his own kids would suffer more with him around then without him. That is what his ex-wife and mother of his children told him as she too abused him in multiple ways. I'm so thankful that you haven't given up and I have faith that you will love a long happy life and that you will continue to help many more people suffering along the way. Thank you for overcoming the fear and sharing your story too! Much love Boogie!
We all love you boogie. I have been here since 20,000 subscribers or so while you were doing magic the gathering and I had always knew you were a beautiful human on the inside and out. Everybody is here for you to love and care for you. We all love you boodie❤️❤️