How Reading Saved My Life
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- Опубликовано: 10 фев 2025
- A year ago, I was struggling with depression, suicidal thoughts, and social anxiety. I lost myself completely-until I found books again. Reading became my escape, my lifeline, and ultimately, my turning point. But I also had to learn that escaping wasn’t the same as healing.
In this video, I take you through my journey-from being signed off work and starting antidepressants to rediscovering my love for literature, struggling with isolation, and finally finding my way back to myself. This is my story of how books saved me… and how I learned to save myself.
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I cried twice during this and I'm not ashamed to admit it! I felt I could relate on so many things and every time you tell me there's light at the end of the tunnel, it just gives me that little spark to keep going and recognise things will get better! Love to anyone watching who's having a tough time, we can get through it together! ❤
@@STANovels there is ALWAYS light at the end of the tunnel, please never doubt it. ❤️
Thank you for your honesty; who knows how many people you are helping!
8 am glad you have found a way out of the darkness. You are an inspiration!!❤
You are extremely brave, it’s not easy to be this vulnerable. You should be proud of yourself.
Spoke to a lot of similar feelings I’ve had myself. You’ve just gained a new subscriber.
@@GRColt thanks so much buddy. I just hope these videos will give others the strength to speak their own truths
Thank you for being honest and thank you for being…you.
I have dealt with depression and anxiety since I was 16 and 30 years on I still struggle with feeling like I am not enough, much due to the relationship I had with one of my parents growing up. From a very small age I was used as a battering ram, physically, emotionally and mentally and you don’t expect that one of the people that bring you in to this world to do that. Also to how my partner is towards me and turns the screws in my head and very much makes me feel like I am not worth the air I breathe as I am always last, always forgotten, always left behind. Can I walk away though, no as being on my own is a scary place. I have my son but I don’t want him being affected by anything.
I went through similar things like you did when I was 14 with a family friend and like you I just dealt with it, no charges were brought and I just got on with it. I have always been honest with my children and that if they ever need to talk to me about anything then they can and nothing will ever phase me. I’ve never found a medication that would work either and became medication intolerant.
Now with reading and also writing I deal with my issues. I am writing my own mindfuck series and I put everything down, who has pissed me off and why, how I’ve dealt with it and what I did. How I feel on the day to day basis. I don’t write in it every day but Christ when I get the urge to write it is a release. The books also help so much and with certain books I will annotate the shit out of them tearing apart characters apart if necessary.
I am so glad you found your breakthrough moment and I am so glad that you saw what a special person you are. Never apologise for tears as the tears show you are human and you feel and that is only a good thing. Thank you again for everything you bring to the book community whichever platform you take, you are valued as are your opinions and the world is definitely a better place with you in it
Hi Tyrone, well done for sharing. My grandfather always told me 'it takes a real man to cry and show emotions'. So thankful you survived and still here to tell your story.📖☕
@@carlstewart7094 thanks so much. Your grandad sounds like he was a great man
Certainly was mate, thanks 🙏
Hi Tyrone, I only found your channel last week but just wanted to say I’m so glad that you’re here. The things you are putting out into the world are so important. I have trauma from childhood too, and have lost too many amazing people to suicide. Please keep doing what you are doing. I love the realness of your videos, the books and the honesty, there’s not enough of it these days. Take care and thank you again the world is a better place for you being here.
Thank you for sharing, Ty! I'm so glad to see you say and recognise the positive difference you make in the world. It warms my heart because it's true, just have that on repeat on any day you doubt it, or come back to these comments, because you are helping so so many people, even if they don't write to you to tell you as much. Thank you!!!
@@SuboJvR thanks so much. I often struggle with my self worth and it's absolutely something I am working on every single day ❤️ I truly appreciate the support x
Thank you for this. Such an inspiring video. The world is a much better place with you init. You are a dear friend to many 🎉😊
@clairethackrayreads thankyou so much Claire. I truly appreciate that ❤️
Thank you for sharing. It takes unbelievable courage to relate your deepest, darkest and most profound feelings. You have inspired me to be a stronger and better person. In regard to books, you have also inspired me to delve into certain genres and authors I would never have normally considered. And I'll definitely be visiting the High Peak bookstore when i return to England next month. Take care and stay strong.🙂
That was powerful, I never comment on videos but Incan honestly say after watching that that the world is a better place with you in it. Stay strong.
@@61rimbo thankyou so much ❤️
I'm really, really glad you're still here, friend ♥
@@StephReadsStufff thanks so much Steph. Me too x
Tyrone sorry to hear what happened to you when you were younger I was also abused as a child not by an older cousin but someone the same age as me but he was bigger so he overpowered me.
I came across your channel a week or so a go and thought your videos are so different. Keep up the great work.
Well done for speaking out, you could be helping someone else out there by talking about your mental health issues. It takes a brave person in my eyes to speak up. I’m so pleased you found a way throu it too.
Take care of yourself and your family and thankq for speaking up and thankq for your honesty
@elaineray245 thankyou so much Elaine, that means more than you know ❤️
Hey dude. Thank you so much for making this video. I was also sexually abused on numerous occasions as a child. I’ve also got other traumas on top of that. I felt like that last year and can feel my mental health declining now. After watching your video I think my first stop will be with the doctor. Wish I had some outlet like the thousands of people you have online. It’s great you’ve built this support. Any way thanks again. Can’t wait to see more content
@@CraigAkhurst-rl5zr well done for saying that out loud buddy. The first step of healing is accepting it and learning how to move forward to a better and happier life ❤️
I think you are an inspiration to all. I think you should get in touch with The Talking Tradesman a podcast that raises awareness of mental health. I think your story could inspire a lot of men and women alike. As a sufferer myself it is nice to now you are not alone. Thank you 😊
@@ktcreid thankyou so much. I will definitely check out that podcast, thankyou ❤️
I hadn't been on your channel long enough to realize that you were a sexual abuse survivor like me. I'm a female and don't understand how men who have survived are expected to deal with this happening to them. I just know that I understand how it can cause mental health issues and coping mechanisms. I for one am glad you're here still and continuing your journey forward while; sharing your love of books. I appreciate your honesty and compassion for others and your reminder that we are not alone. Thank you Tyrone! Much love 🤟♥
@@coleenmorgan431 thankyou so much ❤️ you are always welcome. I just want to create a safe space online for all of us
14:08, Yep, It's okay not to be okay, it's not okay to hide it, that will eat at you so much. 15:44, I'm very much the same in that regard, will try to take the positives away no matter the outcome, that's just who I am. 18:38, Dealing with it and facing it head on is the best solution no matter how hard, otherwise it'll devour you.
I was writing this comment as I was watching along.
To anyone going through anything just know there is help out there, there is also light at the end of the tunnel and try take it one day at a time.
Also proud of you Tyrone, all the luv always 🖤
@chill4059 thanks so much for this comment ❤️ I know people look through the comments as a way to feel less alone and for guidance. Someone will read this comment and it will absolutely make a difference so thank you again
Thank you so much for sharing your story Tyrone
It really struck a chord with me
You really are an inspiration to me 😀
@@MarkyB7 you're more than welcome buddy. Thanks so much for your kind words 💖
Don’t be frustrated at not getting through without crying, I saw your tears as triumphant - it’s such a powerful moment to hear you acknowledge the world is better with you in it, because it is! All we can do is take it day by day, and it seems like your days are much brighter than they were so I am sooooo happy that you stuck around 🖤
@@eilidhmitchell9122 thankyou so so much ❤️ they absolutely were happy tears. I'm just an emotional dude 😎
This video just randomly popped up in on my suggested. I'm really glad it did.
@@HalJordan2814.1 thankyouuuu
So, I dont normally post more than once but I agree with you about being glad that my trauma and abuse happened to me because it meant it didn't happen to anyone else. On top of that, it's given me so much that I can teach my own children if I have them, to help them know it's okay to talk about how they're feeling and recognise signs of things that aren't okay or make them uncomfortable. My partner has suffered in very much the same ways you and I have and our motto has always been: The cycle ends with us. ♥
@@StephReadsStufff the cycle absolutely does end with us ❤️
Love your openness and authentic voice about this, it gives me a view into how my boyfriend may be feeling as he sometimes struggles with depression. Thank you
@@charmainekaldwell8481 you are more than welcome. I hope he gets all the help he needs ❤️
Good for you to seek your own cure & to share
@@MMjones6459 thanks a lot 🤗
I had a bad patch in the summer of 2003 - the cause of mine was losing my mum when I was 14 (and there had been other deaths in the family of people I were close to, like my grandmother, one of my uncles (my mum's older brother), and a great aunt and uncle over a five year period from 1991, the accumulation of that, and my mum was the worst.) I was able to focus a lot of my mind on school and college work, but had to give up the college stuff for financial reasons and in that summer it all came crashing in on me. I wasn't able to read for a few weeks, mainly due to not being able to concentrate on it and not being able to sleep but some how, I was able to start reading books again and I felt like I had to, to keep the unwanted thoughts out of my head - reading the books meant that my thoughts were focused on that and not on the things that were causing my depression. Of course, my border collie helped me too because I had to be around to continue to care for him. I've had other episodes of low mood since then, and lived through bad times, but none were as bad as that summer. I find doing creative things like art and crafting help as well. Dogs, books and art...
Big love to you 💞
@@articia337 thankyouuu ❤️
Just came across your channel and I can totally relate to so much you talk about mental health wise. I have recently been diagnosed as autistic as a mum in my 30s and I'm struggling alot. Reading has helped me alot too, just to have a break from my brain, the library is my favourite place. So glad I've found this channel. You're doing an amazing thing and very brave speaking out 😊
@@deirbhilemcnicholl7781 thanks so much. Just keep reminding yourself, you have managed over 30 years without knowing and have done fine. Now you know, you can learn what you need for yourself to make your life even better 💖
So powerful and thanks for sharing your journey and so glad you're a survivor. Also thanks for your recommendations on the book front. Keep reading Tyrone 📚
@@Alfred_51 you're very welcome Alfred. Hope you're keeping well buddy.
Thank you for sharing. The survivors path is not an easy one....keep trying everyday
@@laxwanna1976 ❤️❤️
Bravo. I’m so impressed by your honesty and openness.
You Rock On!!
@@MancFlowerDragon thanks so much ❤️
I've watched your channel on RUclips for a while. I have to comment today because this is an extraordinary statement, so honest and compelling. I am sure you have helped more people than you will ever know. Oh, and I also need to thank you for the recent M W Craven recommendation, which prompted me to read "The Puppet Show". I loved it.
@@RayBlake thanks so much buddy. Really happy you enjoyed the puppet show. I thought black summer which is book two was even better
Huge respect for how open you are with your audience. Glad you're in a better place. Love the content and look forward to every new video. We've had a brief chat in the comments a few times, so thought I'd share a little bit about myself... I'm a 29 year old from Derby with a 16 month old daughter. I can't relate to the mental health struggles but I appreciate you sharing your experience. Hopefully I can join a meet up at some point in the future!
@@macaullykearney6355 thanks so much buddy. Hope you're enjoying fatherhood. Nothing beats your first girl as a Dad. Love my lad to bits but your love for a girl will always be different. We will definitely do a local meet up once the weather picks up buddy. I'll arrange it at a brilliant bookstore
I'm a new subscriber of yours Tyrone. I'm really glad I stumbled across your channel. Thank you for being so refreshingly honest and open,you don't know how much this has helped me today . Keep going strong.
@@secretpanda1239 you are more than welcome 🤗 welcome to the madhouse 🤣❤️
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Great video mate!! 👍🏻
@@adamfield7582 thanks so much buddy
You should be so proud ty❤ truly 🫶🏽
@@luceekelss thankyou so much mate ❤️❤️
Hey Tyrone! Great to see you again 🤝🎉
@@bibliomania158 heyyyyy. A little more serious this week I'm afraid lol hope you don't mind ❤️
@ serious or not, you are true to yourself and others. You just keep being the amazing person you are and keep inspiring others to know that it’s ok to “not be ok” ❤️
We all have some kind of trauma, and for most of us, especially us men, it is hard to learn how to channel our emotions. You are an amazing person and you’re doing an amazing job 👏🎉🤝🤩
@bibliomania158 thanks so much ❤️
Thanks for being so vulnerable. So happy you are here ❤
A possibility to get you into a better place could be reading poetry. Try Robert Bly, who started the mythopoetic men's movement in America. Also, soul and natured-based poets: Mary Oliver, David Whyte, Rumi, Maria Ranier Rilke, Wendell Berry, et al. They can fill you up with beauty, authenticity, resilience, thoughtfulness, emotionality, empathy, individuation.
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@@alisonhaggart8584 heyyyy