(DEH)In the Bedroom Down the Hall Animatic (TW!)

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  • Опубликовано: 22 авг 2024
  • TW FOR OVERDOSE/SUICIDE!
    i'll have you know this is the most productive i've ever been since my last finals
    and also this song is absolutely amazing, it ripped my heart out and threw it out the window---
    side note: Connor might be portrayed a bit weirdly? Like he gets angry way too much and way too easily, but keep in mind it's not always like that
    I like to think that his instability and anger issues weren't always there and that he was also a normal kid once.
    And also apparently, before committing suicide, people have a moment of irritability and then sudden calmness, so that's also kinda showed here.
    I don't own the song, this is fair use and listen to it here:
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Комментарии • 2,7 тыс.

  • @uhhhnah4564
    @uhhhnah4564 6 лет назад +4071

    **you hear sobbing in the bedroom down the hall**

    • @jotid8930
      @jotid8930 4 года назад +79

      O-O I live alone

    • @-kuonichinose-2300
      @-kuonichinose-2300 4 года назад +68

      @@jotid8930 Heya stranger. Would you like burnt eggs or ramen with those tissues? I live in the bedroom down the hall!

    • @naechan1779
      @naechan1779 4 года назад +72

      I took it as Connor's unsatisfied spirit lingering in his bedroom and hearing his mother expressing her emotions and him crying after relaizing what his mother went through because of him. *And then I cried.*

    • @rttroyalty7773
      @rttroyalty7773 4 года назад +21

      *Walks in, ready to cry with*

    • @caeliencollier20
      @caeliencollier20 4 года назад +10

      burnt eggs or ramen. thats great

  • @wassupbrorruitos3652
    @wassupbrorruitos3652 5 лет назад +2775

    Cynthia is probably the most underrated character in the entire musical. Almost all of the scenes she is in she is either almost crying or is and people don't see her as a major part in the musical and sees her struggle with Connor. She tried to do everything, she paid so much money for counselling and medicine to help Connor and she struggled with everything. In the musical, she sounds dependant on Evan's lie and says that it brings her closure knowing her son had a friend and that he was at least happy sometimes. But when Evan tells the Murphy family about the truth, she is denying that Evan wasn't Connors friend in the first verse of Words Fail. She is literally having a breakdown as the truth finally sinks in, but most people just focus on Evan throughout all this. In the scene before Evan tells everyone the truth, almost everyone in the Connor Project is attacking the Murphy family and blaming them for Connors suicide. Cynthia is the first to blame Larry for this because she doesn't want to believe that it was her fault after everything she tried to do for Connor. Cynthia should be recognised more for her struggle throughout the entire musical. Everyone recognises Heidi's struggle because she gets a couple scenes and a whole song to tell everyone about it. Cynthia gets none of that and only gets a couple lines in the entire musical that is only really used to help strengthen Evan's lie.

    • @wassupbrorruitos3652
      @wassupbrorruitos3652 5 лет назад +178

      I'm not saying that everyone else doesn't deserve to have so many lines about heir struggles I'm just saying that Cynthia deserves more recognition for hers.

    • @Wren796
      @Wren796 4 года назад +48

      God dammit why do you have to make me cry even more with this ;-;

    • @doodleproductions7552
      @doodleproductions7552 4 года назад +133

      @@wassupbrorruitos3652 I'm soo late, but I agree with you. I think this animatic is very great because it also showed a look of regret pass Connor's face, he never hated his family (like Evan portrayed him), he hated hurting his family. It's clear he cares for them (as in the book he mentions how Larry cared about him just didn't show it, I believe the song 'Break in a Glove' demonstrates this perfectly). Connor got riled up over Evan mentioning his sister, "All my hopes are pinned on Zoe" and I believe this is an indication that he's very overprotective of her. Connor recognized that his family was trying to help him, but at the same time he felt bad for his family having to help him. Poor Cynthia tried all she could, but unfortunately Connor took this as being more of a burden. God, this musical is just so great.

    • @lunarfoxx4523
      @lunarfoxx4523 4 года назад +23

      Ikr she's so amazing and so strong but isn't given enough credit. I love her so much and she's my favorite character

    • @user-eq2ds2hc6i
      @user-eq2ds2hc6i 2 года назад +12

      heidi is so personal to me because as a kid who struggled with mental health and a poor mom, i can relate to evan and her’s relationship. she tries really hard to be there and evan understands, so he doesn’t demand from her, even when he needs her. that’s personal to me and my mom. cynthia and heidi are great examples of a mother’s love, i just relate to heidi so much more and that’s why i hold her close to my heart.

  • @choccymilc7052
    @choccymilc7052 4 года назад +2355

    THESE MOTHERS MIGHT NOT DESERVE A MEDAL BUT THEY DESERVE THEIR CHILDREN AND THEY TRIED THEIR DAMNDEST

    • @sidlam1976
      @sidlam1976 4 года назад +127

      nah they deserve a medal

    • @AsdfAsdf-mi6ks
      @AsdfAsdf-mi6ks 3 года назад +68

      They absolutely deserve a medal.

    • @skyline1388
      @skyline1388 3 года назад +95

      all moms deserve a medal
      (the non abusive ones at least)

    • @zebracorn9184
      @zebracorn9184 3 года назад +29

      Idk about Connors mom but evan’s definitely does

    • @sirandrewaguecheek6512
      @sirandrewaguecheek6512 3 года назад +28

      @@zebracorn9184 shes tried her best

  • @elizaone1497
    @elizaone1497 6 лет назад +8409

    WHO
    THOUGHT
    IT
    WOULD
    BE
    ALRIGHT
    TO
    DELETE
    THIS
    FROM
    THE
    FINAL
    TRACK
    ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

    • @antimatterexplodes4014
      @antimatterexplodes4014 5 лет назад +567

      Sadly, the writers had to make that decision. It hurt them to do it, and they tried for months to fit it in. No luck.

    • @pointblank4937
      @pointblank4937 5 лет назад +973

      Then they could have maybe delete the song about a fucking glove?

    • @Cloud-ko9dh
      @Cloud-ko9dh 5 лет назад +96

      Kawaii Potato LMAO

    • @regrubmaH
      @regrubmaH 5 лет назад +272

      Kawaii Potato wElL lArRy NeEdS a SONg!!!!

    • @regrubmaH
      @regrubmaH 5 лет назад +64

      Kawaii Potato wElL lArRy NeEdS a SONg!!!!

  • @fishfood4two717
    @fishfood4two717 6 лет назад +5119

    Omg the contrast in the meaning “anything to make you happy”! Did anyone else notice? When Evan’s mom says it, she means anything that will make Evan content or excited, like a present.
    But Connor’s mom meant, anything to make it easier for you to be happy. Any medication or technique that would make him less angry, and there fore more happy.

    • @momosworld1489
      @momosworld1489 5 лет назад +54

      Oh my god.... I never realized that

    • @sharonefee1426
      @sharonefee1426 5 лет назад +291

      Well, they both weren't in the exact same situation.
      Evan's mom tried to really make him happy, give him a better life, full of smiles, as I think she herself was quite tired of it all.
      Conor's mom also wished in the beginning for her son's happiness just like Evan's mother, but when you see your boy like that... You can't just wish for his usual happiness. You wish for him to be relaxed.
      But in the end, both mothers wanted their sons to be happy, to smile more, to have more fun of life.

    • @kayladudley1761
      @kayladudley1761 5 лет назад +19

      Fishfood4two I’m cry at 6:14 am on a school morning why u do this to me

    • @crystalvitagliano6381
      @crystalvitagliano6381 5 лет назад +18

      Fishfood4two maybe Connor's mum was raised that way and was unintentionally doing that to em

    • @pointblank4937
      @pointblank4937 5 лет назад +104

      You see, Connor obviously hated himself. So fucking much. And because of that he was always trying to tell himself “I’m normal” but he also always knew he was messed up. Hence, his hatred for when people called him a freak, or why his mom wanted to give him medication or take him to the doctors. There wasn’t much that could have helped Connor other than a sturdy human connection. Which leads to the fact that maybe, maybe if Connor hadn’t acted on his uncontrollable hurt and anger, he would have become great friends with Evan. Maybe if his dad chose the softer way to take care of his son then things would have been different. But something in Connors mind didn’t click. It wasn’t just an issue, it was a disorder. Nothing could have changed the fact that Connor had depression. Connors anger issues could also be a serious mental problem. It’s so hard on someone’s mental health when they not only have depression, but can’t embrace it, so they hate it and hate themselves and push away any treatment. Therefore, Connors death is more than tragic, but what could have really been done to prevent his life to be so horrible? We can’t blame anyone, some were too hurt, some were naive, and some were trying there absolute best.

  • @bookworm516
    @bookworm516 6 лет назад +14164

    If anyone’s crying, here’s a funny story:
    So, I was singing this for a talent show accidentally sang, “I fed you ninja turtle nightlights for dinner.”

    • @TheBlacknoodles_
      @TheBlacknoodles_ 6 лет назад +1644

      Bookworm I wish I found this comment earlier now im laughing like a maniac

    • @muffin2895
      @muffin2895 6 лет назад +433

      Thanks so much

    • @Charlie_Ollie
      @Charlie_Ollie 6 лет назад +597

      I laughed through the tears. Thank you

    • @bugg.wh0
      @bugg.wh0 6 лет назад +106

      @@Charlie_Ollie same here lol

    • @musicalava4224
      @musicalava4224 6 лет назад +141

      This made me feel so much better

  • @MJ_71312
    @MJ_71312 5 лет назад +1113

    Who else wanted to HUG Connor.
    DON’T EVER END IT ALL.
    Talk to someone
    Anyone

    • @kaimikalaniYT
      @kaimikalaniYT 4 года назад +39

      Sometimes people aren’t willing to listen though..

    • @Dippy__Draws
      @Dippy__Draws 4 года назад +20

      Nicole The Author some people will use you to vent to...but won’t listen.

    • @kaimikalaniYT
      @kaimikalaniYT 4 года назад +5

      [Dippy Draws] That was kinda my point..

    • @Chimeranoko
      @Chimeranoko 4 года назад +15

      Nicole The Author well,,,,, I’m here. And many others in the comment section would genuinely care about you and your well being, despite the fact that we have never met, much less even know each others names. I think you are a good person,,,,, and I will listen.

    • @darklordoftheuniverse7803
      @darklordoftheuniverse7803 4 года назад +8

      I've been there trying to die won't help anything or anyone talk to some because you never know if it will help until you try

  • @ixena8983
    @ixena8983 6 лет назад +3964

    Honestly, it wasn't the suicide and Cynthia remembering the good and bad times she had with Connor that made me cry, it was Heidi and how she tried to do everything to make Evan happy but as a single mother she had to work long nights to provide for him which made Evan distance himself from her like that just broke my heart, just that first "Anything to make you happy" from Heidi made me burst into tears because she was willing to sacrifice her relationship with her son if only he could have a better life than hers and that just hit way too close to home

    • @HaiWorldz
      @HaiWorldz 5 лет назад +24

      :') I feel this too.

    • @pointblank4937
      @pointblank4937 5 лет назад +108

      Yeah but Connors death was pretty fucking sad too, and Heidi. And Evan. And EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS FUCKING MUSICAL.

    • @belledelphine9692
      @belledelphine9692 5 лет назад +11

      iXena ARGH IT WAS BOTHHHH

    • @teddy5261
      @teddy5261 5 лет назад +23

      She tried so hard😭 she tried so hard to keep him

    • @Meme-yp8um
      @Meme-yp8um 5 лет назад +1

      667 like😊

  • @sloosb
    @sloosb 6 лет назад +3827

    I'm watching this on Mother's Day
    *MISTAKES HAVE BEEN MADE*

    • @mexican_bacon4999
      @mexican_bacon4999 5 лет назад +21

      Ah I see SAME PLEASE HELP

    • @charmforce3346
      @charmforce3346 5 лет назад +40

      Oof
      I lost my mom on Mother’s Day actually so like
      Just
      Oof 😂

    • @LooneyLei
      @LooneyLei 5 лет назад +26

      @@charmforce3346 This Is really dark

    • @kittynoir361
      @kittynoir361 5 лет назад +14

      CharmForce 33 Oof that’s horrible m8 ;-;

    • @kusuriuri3395
      @kusuriuri3395 5 лет назад +5

      My mom barely talks to me and like do things for me like yeeeeee. Well, mistakes happens buster

  • @sirturtlelord4921
    @sirturtlelord4921 6 лет назад +3225

    Connor in the bedroom. Conner in the bedroom at a party.

    • @distantmushroom5949
      @distantmushroom5949 6 лет назад +106

      Sir Turtle Lord BMC AND DEH CROSS OVER YAASS

    • @wompwomp1457
      @wompwomp1457 5 лет назад +82

      forget how long it’s been ;-;

    • @alexanderhamilton5237
      @alexanderhamilton5237 5 лет назад +119

      He’s just Connor in the bedroom, Connor in the bedroom at a party

    • @oscarthemoon
      @oscarthemoon 5 лет назад +67

      @Remy sanders I'm waiting it out, till it's time to leave

    • @mack4392
      @mack4392 5 лет назад +55

      Wrong musical.
      MICHAELLLL

  • @flofaulkner8180
    @flofaulkner8180 6 лет назад +1674

    **Slams fists onto a table**
    I would die for baby Evan, and little Connor and Zoey

    • @viennacheng3912
      @viennacheng3912 4 года назад +60

      *punches the door* right there with you

    • @BlueJay_125
      @BlueJay_125 4 года назад +51

      *smashes window* me too

    • @Val-po4qi
      @Val-po4qi 4 года назад +50

      *breaks arm* same here

    • @democracy.r0ckz
      @democracy.r0ckz 4 года назад +43

      @@Val-po4qi Can I sign your cast?

    • @Val-po4qi
      @Val-po4qi 4 года назад +31

      @@democracy.r0ckz with honor

  • @Notminecraft47
    @Notminecraft47 4 года назад +620

    IF EVANS SUICIDE ATTEMPT DIDNT FAIL THIS WOULD BE SO MUCH SADDER

    • @AriOrSomething
      @AriOrSomething 4 года назад +52

      Take my like and stop making me cry.

    • @Star-ou5gq
      @Star-ou5gq 4 года назад +16

      OH MY GOD

    • @ae1103
      @ae1103 3 года назад +6

      Dammit-

    • @lorenzoguerrero7520
      @lorenzoguerrero7520 3 года назад +9

      That may be the reason why this was cut from the musical.

    • @skarlettsapphire4065
      @skarlettsapphire4065 3 года назад +6

      I know this isn't what the comment is about, but what would have happend if Evan succeded? or what if Connor didn't even attempt?

  • @splatterdots2436
    @splatterdots2436 6 лет назад +1174

    I thought this said "in the bathroom down the hall", and when Heidi brought the box into Evan's room I thought she was packing stuff to go live in the bathroom

    • @preciousjointer1413
      @preciousjointer1413 6 лет назад +10

      Splatter Dots 😂

    • @everettkutzler5010
      @everettkutzler5010 6 лет назад +114

      Heidi in the bathroom at the greatest party of the fall

    • @arospacecase
      @arospacecase 6 лет назад +96

      Don't bring Michael into this he did nothing he just wants to smoke his slushy and drink his weed

    • @capialandia6968
      @capialandia6968 5 лет назад +17

      Now I'm crying AND laughing

    • @francisissleepy5300
      @francisissleepy5300 5 лет назад +28

      Now I'm just Heidi in the bathroom...
      Heidi in the bathroom...
      *At a party*

  • @QuietRage
    @QuietRage 6 лет назад +3657

    WHY THE HECK WAS THIS SONG REMOVED?! Its so beautiful and it draws that parallel between Evan's mom and Connor's mom even further than before. It gives us more context behind the trouble Connor was faced with before he committed suicide.

    • @musicbyella3769
      @musicbyella3769 6 лет назад +215

      Quiet Rage because the narrators didn’t think it was necessary. it may be a lovely song, but the show’s about evan, not connor. the song could be lifted and it would still make sense (obvi, as that happened) so it was unnecessary and needed to be cut.

    • @musicbyella3769
      @musicbyella3769 6 лет назад +97

      the narrators? i mean the writers lol

    • @OliverNotTwist
      @OliverNotTwist 6 лет назад +240

      Yeah I get it but to be honest I feel like this song would actually have added to the story, like drawing parallels between Connor and Evan is really important 'cause it shows like, the flipside to the family's situations. The song is also about Evan and like, it would have been nice to get a glimpse into the real connor and not Evan's Connor. I understand why they cut it but :( i just really love this song

    • @thatoneannoyingsoprano8066
      @thatoneannoyingsoprano8066 6 лет назад +131

      Quiet Rage it was removed because, ironically, it would have developed cynthia too much. she, along with larry, are supposed to be the living embodiment of the school, of the supporters of the connor project, etc. this song would have taken away from that.

    • @Cryptidsquid66
      @Cryptidsquid66 6 лет назад +10

      This is one of my favorites it always, ALWAYS makes me cry

  • @libbyheard3743
    @libbyheard3743 5 лет назад +4410

    "Is there a truck coming to take mommy away too?"
    me, looking dead inside: ….. Hey, mom? Where do we keep the spare glue? My heart broke again-

  • @wolfiebun5842
    @wolfiebun5842 5 лет назад +6104

    So there i was crying. And my mum asked me whats wrong. I told her i was listening to a song and watching an animatic and she said and i quote "stop being such a baby. It cant be that bad" so i showed her and she started crying.
    _my mum knows nothing about deh but this made her cry anyway. Thats how talented you are_

    • @magiv4205
      @magiv4205 5 лет назад +241

      To be honest, I've never been a mother, but if I was and I saw this, even without knowing the musical, I would probably cry too.

    • @haneeya6185
      @haneeya6185 4 года назад +28

      I should probably know this but what musical is this from?

    • @Wizardry04
      @Wizardry04 4 года назад +45

      I would just tell her that is a story about a son who commited suicide. That would touch her as a mother with no doubt, and will change her mind ;)

    • @ahjaigirdar464
      @ahjaigirdar464 4 года назад +11

      My mom wouldnt she would yell at me saying my feelings are invalid

    • @ilovemydog3682
      @ilovemydog3682 4 года назад +44

      I tried showing my mom this and before I gave her the short description “it’s about 2 moms and one of the mom’s kid’s committed suicide-“
      “yOu ShOulDn’T wATCh ThiNgs LikE tHat” and I just stared at her because she bought me the book...

  • @user-zl4qo1tm6w
    @user-zl4qo1tm6w 6 лет назад +440

    “Pffft. I won’t cry with this”.
    Well, I was wrong. 100% wrong.
    But it was beautiful.

  • @ChirimoSpring
    @ChirimoSpring  6 лет назад +3390

    Dear everyone crying in the comments, have some tissues and a hug, you lovely people ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡
    Edit : Yes this is a deleted song, it's sung by the moms of Connor and Evan. This song was removed from the cast recording and stage performance but the demo can be found on the DEH channel

    • @SashyyKane
      @SashyyKane 6 лет назад +17

      Chirimo tHANK YOU WE NEED THEM TO WIPE THESE TEARS

    • @Sammy11611
      @Sammy11611 6 лет назад +1

      Chirimo thanks...

    • @Natalie-gk7if
      @Natalie-gk7if 6 лет назад +1

      Thank you T--T

    • @user-dv1qf6cv3h
      @user-dv1qf6cv3h 6 лет назад +2

      MHMHMHMhMhmhmHMHmH DATS SOME GOOD ANIMATION HERE and I cRIED MY EYES OUT THANK YOU FOR D tısssssuuuueeeee

    • @bexgarry4531
      @bexgarry4531 6 лет назад +1

      Thanks angel~♡ 😢

  • @kawaiipotato2505
    @kawaiipotato2505 5 лет назад +779

    I literally just found out that this song was removed from the musical.
    *I’m dead inside*
    ...Okay who do I need to hurt?

    • @morganharris6648
      @morganharris6648 4 года назад +32

      I JUST found out this song even existed. How could they have taken it out??

    • @odr8843
      @odr8843 4 года назад +9

      I didn't even know that the is was in a musical I also don't know which it's from!

    • @soniasanchez3580
      @soniasanchez3580 4 года назад +3

      @@odr8843 It's form Dear Evan Hansen

    • @sarahkey763
      @sarahkey763 4 года назад +5

      You need to hurt the creators of the musical

    • @betteroffdead3823
      @betteroffdead3823 4 года назад +2

      Why you gotta do me like that it hurted me lol

  • @achilles1399
    @achilles1399 5 лет назад +230

    3:38 through 4:07 is what breaks my heart so much. Just seeing Connor’s suicide along with the picture of the pill bottle rolling out his hand as they sing “but I find that it was not.”

  • @butterflytaster5553
    @butterflytaster5553 6 лет назад +339

    _you monster, you added the plane-flying and the Spiderman_

  • @swag4rce
    @swag4rce 6 лет назад +1152

    I WOULD DIE FOR BABY EVAN, BABY CONNOR, AND BABY ZOE!!!!

    • @rockymcgowan9551
      @rockymcgowan9551 6 лет назад +18

      especially baby Connor

    • @Tom-ip2bu
      @Tom-ip2bu 6 лет назад +4

      Same

    • @asanoyxki
      @asanoyxki 6 лет назад +13

      Casual Pickles
      I have seen you before...
      Oh, I remember! You started the lyric chain in the comments of "Sincerely me" :')
      *W H Y W O U L D Y O U W R I T E T H A T*

    • @swag4rce
      @swag4rce 5 лет назад

      Ryleigh Palmer already have!!! ;D

  • @MidnightSkyeNeko
    @MidnightSkyeNeko 6 лет назад +788

    This made me cry, but for different reasons.
    My thoughts have been getting really dark lately and those thoughts have passed through my head for the past month or so. This song reminded me that my pain isn't worth causing those I love to suffer, even though they know nothing about how I'm feeling.
    It made me cry because I don't want them to go to my room and pack up everything that used to be me...to make them only have me as a memory...because I know they have supported me because they love me so much and did everything for me so I could have a good life...i love them so much...

    • @froppy6537
      @froppy6537 5 лет назад +31

      Midnight Skye you honestly don't know how much this comment made me cry.

    • @danielalt7054
      @danielalt7054 5 лет назад +13

      Every human on earth have a reason to stay and to live for I think you finally found yours :’) it just takes a little while to find them but- I should probably shut up

    • @niamhmclarnon5870
      @niamhmclarnon5870 5 лет назад +14

      I'm crying.... Not because this song is so incredibly beautiful,.... But because.... I fear being a mom.. I'm only 18 and I know people say... Oh relax! You have the rest of your life to live!.... I know I probably sound ridiculous but..... I really don't think id be a good mom. And even if I was....... I know I'd fuck it up. Yet.... Then again... One side of me really wants to be a mom..... But I don't think I'll have a baby.... I think.... If I ever get my life together... I'll adopt. I will go to a Foster home and find a beautiful little girl or boy. They may wonder why I choose them. And someday.... I'll tell them why.....
      Because I wanted to give a kid something. Something was missing in my life..... That something was you

    • @eamkie8392
      @eamkie8392 4 года назад +4

      I relate. I literally bawled out while watching this because of the same reason

    • @octoberfren2931
      @octoberfren2931 4 года назад +7

      Your comment made me burst into tears because you put it into words. I can't make my family go through that again.

  • @xXxJason_ToddxXx
    @xXxJason_ToddxXx 5 лет назад +255

    I wish they had kept this in the final track.
    I loved the Murphy family, but this song makes it abundantly clear that the mother LOVED Connor and she truly, honestly did try to help him, he just slipped through the cracks. It makes the fact she couldn't save him even more devastating, but it also somehow is a relief to see that not everyone was indifferent to this kid.
    It also shows another side to Evan's mom, who is mostly portrayed as a loving but extremely busy and at times absent mother. This too shows that she's more than aware of her son's issues and she cares very much and wants to help = she just didn't have the answers.

  • @etona6147
    @etona6147 6 лет назад +289

    Ah the feels....
    Now I wanna see a musical dedicated to Connor's side of the story 😭

    • @cy-cy5292
      @cy-cy5292 6 лет назад +3

      ye is a deleted song

    • @nuhuhitsgreywater
      @nuhuhitsgreywater 6 лет назад +34

      I want to see that too! And it would show Connor's outburts at his family and walking away feeling guilty and show the true Connor instead of Evan's Connor.

    • @etona6147
      @etona6147 6 лет назад

      poor baby ok Really?? Is that true? If so is it available to listen to?
      Edit: sorry if this is late lol

    • @jaimeesummer5334
      @jaimeesummer5334 5 лет назад

      Just read the book

    • @sunnyskiessss1111
      @sunnyskiessss1111 5 лет назад

      I SHALL WRITE ONE-

  • @musicallaround7347
    @musicallaround7347 6 лет назад +685

    4:46-4:48 looks like Conner became half of Evan. Evan is starting to argue with his mom Heidi in act two and he starts dressing like Conner too.
    By the way I love you're vids!!!😁

  • @chiy_p
    @chiy_p 5 лет назад +393

    THAT PERSPECTIVE
    THAT ANATOMY
    THAT SONG
    THESE FEELINGS
    THIS SCENARIO
    I'M DYING
    AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

  • @mr_oreoman
    @mr_oreoman 6 лет назад +593

    I understand that To Break In A Glove was added to perceive Larry's section of the story, but come on, this song is absolutely amazing!!! It draws you closer to the Murphy's side of the story, as well as into a bit more of Heidi and Evan's. Honestly, it was completely unnessacery that this song wasn't put into the final production, if it were I'd be in the theatre literally sobbing. But To Break In A Glove... We didn't really need that. This is what we need. WE NEED EMOTION!!!
    Edit: I have come back 2 years later to say that I am hurt at the level of disrespect to "To Break in a Glove", it's a fantastic song that shares Larry's point of view. Yes, it may be slightly unnecessary, but without it, it would leave us lingering on what his true thoughts were. However, I do still agree that this song should have been incorporated into the show. Fingers crossed that it'll be in the movie.

    • @kelivysir1036
      @kelivysir1036 4 года назад +33

      Ok right and the thing throughout most of the actual play they don’t let you get a look at Connor as a normal person this song makes you realize he’s not just his mental health issues he’s a person

    • @Ray-hk1zm
      @Ray-hk1zm 4 года назад +29

      I honestly really like To Break In A Glove (it's still my least favorite song, but that doesn't mean I don't like it), but you're right, this is amazing. It's not like this is the longest song on the soundtrack, we could fit in a verse from Larry if they really wanted his perspective to be shared.

    • @viennacheng3912
      @viennacheng3912 4 года назад +30

      I'm in that teeny crowd that has to break in a glove on their top list 😅 I just love how it shows more character development for Larry (which I feel is kinda important, since dads have a rep for being closed off and it's always nice when we can see further into what drove his decisions)and when he goes "or you're just tryna do your best for a kid who's lost control" I lose it every time. I think it's ok that this song got cut out tho, since we already have so big so small for Heidi's POV, and Cynthia's is already obvious throughout the majority of the show. But this song is still so good

    • @Ray-hk1zm
      @Ray-hk1zm 4 года назад +1

      @@viennacheng3912 I agree, I just really like this song.

    • @ilovedrawingstuff2395
      @ilovedrawingstuff2395 4 года назад +4

      @@Ray-hk1zm hey you would like the book a lot because it shows us connors side to and why he did the things he did

  • @uhuhuhfyck
    @uhuhuhfyck 6 лет назад +3602

    Here’s the real question; does TW stand for trigger warning or tissue warning?
    ;-;

  • @jazparal
    @jazparal 6 лет назад +236

    Dear Evan hansen is a heartfelt musical, the story line is amazing...
    Some people may say that it's overrated but it shows things that people out there are dealing with.
    Anxiety, being without a father, fights, suicide, even though the last one pains me to say it, it still happens.
    And with Connor and Evan throughout the musical, when they're talking,
    Evan is imagining it, his subconscious is showing a side of Connor that Evan had created.
    Parents go through hard times, and that's what Cynthia and Hedi showed in this musical, but I think it's a beautiful musical, down to the story line to the actors, it's very well written....
    And even this cut song shows the feeling of Heidi and Cynthia's pain to know Evan and Connor meant so much to them, that they were doing anything to help them.

  • @sunshi4929
    @sunshi4929 5 лет назад +74

    *“ I think I’ll wait another day to pack these boxes, cause once I’m through, I’m left with just one thing to do; remember.”*
    -i cried-

  • @arkwing_7174
    @arkwing_7174 6 лет назад +87

    Connor seemed like such a happy child. Jesus why does my heart hurt so much.

  • @faitherpietem3643
    @faitherpietem3643 6 лет назад +697

    I hope you'll see this, here goes... prepare for a tumble of emotions
    "Is there another truck coming to take Mommy away?"
    Tears just fell.
    I look at Evan's innocence as a child. And then I see the scene where young Zoe and young Connor played happily together. They were so carefree, so loving, so innocent.
    Then to the scene where Cynthia buried her face in Larry's shoulders, grieving for Connor. Zoe just looked away angrily.
    I like the way you potrayed the children slowly drifting away from their family. When Connor hit his mum, his expression spelled regret and sadness before he slammed the door and started crying. He didn't mean to cause so much grief. But he felt there was nothing he could do about it.
    Cynthia did, try EVERYTHING she could just to make older Connor happy.... so did Heidi, she bought stuff that Evan liked, just for him. She did everything, like Cynthia, to make Evan happy, even though the methods sometimes didn't work
    Your art style is beautiful and the different frames just flow along perfectly. I LOVE THIS
    I need tissues now, arghhh
    (SOMEONE TELL ME WHY WAS THIS SONG DELETED?)
    P.s if you've read all the way here comment "cookies" thanks

    • @bennyboiart7781
      @bennyboiart7781 6 лет назад +2

      Faitherpie tEM cookies😁

    • @shaistazee
      @shaistazee 5 лет назад +3

      🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪

    • @kittynoir361
      @kittynoir361 5 лет назад +3

      COOKIES >:D 🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪

    • @huntersombra3821
      @huntersombra3821 5 лет назад +8

      Cookies. You did a great job explaining some of the things they did in the animatic I didn’t catch. Thanks!

    • @purplehc662
      @purplehc662 5 лет назад +3

      cookies. and also tissues I need em

  • @invisiblelocket4994
    @invisiblelocket4994 6 лет назад +118

    I’m not ashamed to say I cried, especially when I saw Connor grab the bottle of pills and run away. WHY DOESN’T THIS HAVE MORE VIEWS ITS A PIECE OF ART

  • @dreamerkitten6683
    @dreamerkitten6683 5 лет назад +349

    This makes me cry more so because a couple of months ago, I was like the boy who overdosed.I was so close to taking my own life. I had to drop out of school, and they called my mum in and told her that I had told them I wanted to die. Seeing the pain on her face tore me to shreds. That’s why I’m determined to keep on living, to stay happy, to fight so hard. Because my mum is the person who does everything to make me happy, and I just didn’t realise how much my misery affected her. I know nothing about DEH but oh my god did this make me sob.

    • @secretlysanesparrow1152
      @secretlysanesparrow1152 4 года назад +17

      DreamerKitten
      It’s been a year and I hope you are doing better. Just remember that becoming happy and wanting to live life is something you have to do for yourself. You have to want to do it yourself, take care❤️

    • @saanjalyvaishnav695
      @saanjalyvaishnav695 3 года назад +12

      you have no idea how much this comment made me cry. I hope you are doing better now

    • @heidiburke7046
      @heidiburke7046 3 года назад +8

      just keep going. I can tell by this comment how much you love your mom and anyone who can love like that deserves to receive immense love in return and live their life fully and free of that torment. God bless you.

    • @anna7434
      @anna7434 3 года назад +6

      Hi, it's been two years, but I hope you're doing well!

    • @ChewingGumIsCool
      @ChewingGumIsCool 2 года назад +1

      Same honestly i feel so bad abut what I put them through

  • @cleoartie7565
    @cleoartie7565 5 лет назад +109

    The entire time i was thinking 'SOMETHING BAD IS COMING, AND IM GONNA CRY'
    Then he killed him self and im just 'I KNEW IT, IM CRYING, MUMAAA, I LOVE YOU!'

  • @ClassicDepravities
    @ClassicDepravities 6 лет назад +455

    I have been suicidal most of my life. It's actually easier to remember when I wasn't, because it's such a short period of time. I've attempted three times, and so far I've made it through. It's been slow, getting into and liking Dear Evan Hansen, because it reminds me of those times, but it handles it pretty well. my point is this was beautiful

    • @nothingxx3632
      @nothingxx3632 6 лет назад +1

      evilhopscotch I'm glad to hear that :)

    • @okiguess2313
      @okiguess2313 5 лет назад +18

      If you end up seeing this, I just want you to know that there are people who care. Every day you decide to continue living is an accomplishment and victory against the toxic suicidal feelings. I have felt hopeless, worthless, like no one cared, I could go on. I can confirm that I have and currently do struggle with suicidal thoughts. And maybe my problems may not be intense as yours, but the message I want to send is that you matter. Keep going. Don’t give in or give up.

    • @scuffleswaffles2243
      @scuffleswaffles2243 5 лет назад +1

      You are strong :)

    • @katiestephens1842
      @katiestephens1842 5 лет назад +5

      My cousin succeeded. If we had of gotten to him sooner mabey it could have been stopped. PLEASE dont do it. No matter how badly you want to. I am just one of the billions of people who want you to stay as long as possible on this planet with us. I CARE! I AM HERE! and if you EVER need to talk i am always avaliable!!! Its a big think to admit publicly (i know from experience) and i am proud and utterly amazed at your courage. If u have tried and failed 3 times than you are ment to be here and it it not ur time yet! U are importent and fate still has use of u yet!! We love u !!

    • @offtopic6364
      @offtopic6364 5 лет назад +1

      Everything you said was accurate for me too but i've attempted only twice. One was in 2018 and second in 2019. I was going to do it a second time in 2019 but I didn't

  • @mehspacedorito
    @mehspacedorito 6 лет назад +327

    I’m not one of the people to cry or feel actual pain in my chest because of a musical, but this actually hurt me with emotion. My chest is in pain because I feel so sad and hurt. This is so beautiful. You’re a master. Thank you so much for putting your work into this.

    • @mehspacedorito
      @mehspacedorito 6 лет назад +4

      I didn’t think I’d cry watching this, but I just did. Thank you.

    • @sharonefee1426
      @sharonefee1426 5 лет назад

      @@mehspacedorito If it makes you feel better... it's totally not the first song to do so.

  • @angeIdusst
    @angeIdusst 5 лет назад +89

    "So the counselors and the clinics and the cures a mother tries
    'Cause maybe they could take away that anger in your eyes" Damn, why do i feel like i'm Connor and Cynthia is my mother all the time????

  • @hoshidraws8990
    @hoshidraws8990 5 лет назад +238

    "so the conselors and the clinics
    and the cures a mother tries
    Cause maybe they could take away
    that anger in your eyes"
    That part hit me a lot
    My mother have been trying medications after medications, between prescriptions and no-prescription meds, just to try and help me, to make me happy.
    But sadly, none works
    She has made me see a lot of social workers, therapists, psychoEducators, doctors, Pedopsychologist etc, just so we could try to help me.
    The number of times I had to go to the emergency because the school was fearing for my safety.
    I feel really bad for her..
    I never wanted to make her go through that.

    • @marinazuniga2418
      @marinazuniga2418 5 лет назад +5

      It's our turn to do our part.

    • @sleeplessshinso5103
      @sleeplessshinso5103 4 года назад +21

      I wish I could say the same about my parents. They, however, don't believe in mental illness and think that I'm faking it. I've even been diagnosed with stuff right in front of them, yet they don't want me getting help. They think everything has to be natural. I need help! That's what I need, and they refuse to get it for me. They say that nothing is wrong and it's all in my mind. That's what mental illness is! Plus, I'm going through a particularly rough patch lately, and it's hurting me a lot. I just want this all to be over. I can't even speak to people anymore. I can't even feel like I belong anywhere anymore, I just feel like I'm isolated in my own stupid world. I was okay when I was getting treatment, then they cancelled my appointments and took me off of my meds. I wish my parents understood more, and actually acknowledged my mental health. Sorry, I saw your comment and accidentally wrote out a rant, which I tend to do often.

    • @marinazuniga2418
      @marinazuniga2418 4 года назад +10

      @@sleeplessshinso5103 Oh, Madelynn. I-I don't know what to say. Really... And please forgive me for that. 😢 But I can't just read this comment without acknowledging your efforts. I hope you are not going through this alone. Even if you're parents are like that, I wish you have friends to help you through it. If you don't, I'm willing to send all my vitual hugs to you. If you need a friend to chat to, I can be there to listen. 😊

    • @ainimimin
      @ainimimin 4 года назад +7

      I haven't told anyone about whatever it is I'm feeling. Depression? Probably. Anxiety? Probably. I also looked up and found out that I probably have Atichiphobia. Insomnia? Probably. Trust Issues? ..Most likely.
      I don't have any major issues in my life but I tend to keep things bottled up because whenever I cry people always question why it is I'm crying or just point out that I'm being a crybaby or weak so I've tended to not cry in front of others and well it just stacked up in me and I guess this happened. Tried telling someone and they didn't take it seriously. Told me I was overreacting and to get over it.
      It's been 4? 5 years?
      And no I still haven't gotten over it.
      I probably should get help or tell someone but I'm too scared.
      Guess I'm a coward
      And I hope you get better ^^

    • @KyrstOak
      @KyrstOak 4 года назад +1

      @@sleeplessshinso5103 That's an odd thought process they have, especially considering help *_is_* natural. What do you do if you can't get your car out of the gutter or mud? Ask for help 'cause nobody has the strength of the Hulk.

  • @youre_totally_right_but_
    @youre_totally_right_but_ 6 лет назад +970

    [CYNTHIA]
    You never liked this sweater
    You said it never really fit you right
    And it itched too much
    But I think I’ll keep it
    I should keep it
    Cause it still makes me think of you
    And that little boy I knew
    In the bedroom down the hall
    [HEIDI]
    In the bedroom down the hall
    I got you Ninja Turtle night-lights for protection
    You used to say they kept the bad guys far away
    Remember?
    In the bedroom down the hall
    I surprised you with that comic book collection
    Next Halloween
    I dressed you up like Wolverine
    Remember?
    With glow stars on the ceiling
    You could count instead of sheep
    I always knew which song to sing
    To get you right to sleep
    Anything to make you happy
    Anything at all
    Anything for my boy in the bedroom down the hall
    [CYNTHIA]
    In the bedroom down the hall
    We went to battle every evening after dinner
    I thought I knew some way that I’d get through to you
    Remember?
    In the bedroom down the hall
    We fought a war where no one walked away a winner
    'Cause every day you pulled a little more away
    Remember?
    Saw the counselors and the clinics
    And the cures a mother tries
    Cause maybe they could take away that anger in your eyes
    [CYNTHIA & HEIDI]
    Anything to make you happy
    Anything at all
    Anything for my boy in the bedroom down the hall
    [CYNTHIA]
    Though you try
    [HEIDI]
    You try
    [CYNTHIA & HEIDI]
    To give your kid the world
    Give ‘em everything you’ve got
    [CYNTHIA]
    What if I
    Gave all I could
    And I thought it was enough
    But I find that
    It was not
    [HEIDI]
    What if I
    Gave all I could
    And I thought it was enough
    It was not
    [CYNTHIA]
    Did I let you down?
    [HEIDI]
    What else can I do?
    [CYNTHIA & HEIDI]
    Everything I ever did
    I did it all for you
    Anything to make you happy
    Anything at all
    Anything for my boy in the bedroom down the hall
    [CYNTHIA]
    In the bedroom down the hall
    I think I’ll wait another day to pack these boxes
    Cause once I’m through
    I’m left with just one thing to do
    Remember

    • @ohnames8289
      @ohnames8289 5 лет назад +13

      This makes it clearer to understand, thanks.☺

    • @grxce1128
      @grxce1128 5 лет назад +6

      does cynthia sing the higher note?

    • @mexican_bacon4999
      @mexican_bacon4999 5 лет назад +2

      grxce Heidi sings the higher note :)

    • @gwurbo
      @gwurbo 4 года назад +3

      or press 'c' like a functional human being would

    • @redcheckers
      @redcheckers 4 года назад +2

      you know, until they split notes I really thought it was just cynthia singing 🤣

  • @justadanette5017
    @justadanette5017 6 лет назад +102

    *ugly sobbing in the conner down the hall*

    • @MaluShuu
      @MaluShuu 5 лет назад +1

      Br >:v

    • @aaaaaaa-vm1oi
      @aaaaaaa-vm1oi 5 лет назад

      I thought I read this wrong and it took me so long before I got the pun XD

  • @sienamarina16
    @sienamarina16 6 лет назад +250

    2:46 is when I start sobbing
    and 3:05 is where I start balling
    4:54 is where my mom comes in and asks if im ok and I give her a hug

    • @ainimimin
      @ainimimin 4 года назад +9

      1:30 is when I start tearing up and then I just start sobbing and bawling the rest the video

  • @grace7699
    @grace7699 5 лет назад +1336

    I’m emo thanks dude
    ....
    I WANT TO HUG F I C T I O N A L PEOPLE
    BUT I CANT
    THAT IS SO FRUSTRATING

    • @ttoastpie
      @ttoastpie 5 лет назад +7

      i want to like but there is 69 likes aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

    • @crisislite2650
      @crisislite2650 5 лет назад +2

      PREACH

    • @bubblesoda6356
      @bubblesoda6356 5 лет назад +10

      Bro I feel the same I'll start twitching to, so to let out my hugs, I'll hug stuffed animals

    • @magiv4205
      @magiv4205 5 лет назад

      This is such a fucking mood lmao

    • @galacticbreadboi9796
      @galacticbreadboi9796 5 лет назад +10

      The problems that come with throwing yourself into a fandom...

  • @bluesish1350
    @bluesish1350 6 лет назад +194

    I saw the title and I was so confused I forgot musicals have deleted songs AND BOY WAS I NOT READY FOR THIS OML 😭

  • @anab3213
    @anab3213 6 лет назад +861

    I don't know if you'll see this, but I'll write it anyway
    This is one of the best DEH animatics out there in my opinion. First, your art style is beautiful and the characters look amazing. Second, the animation is great and only adds more to the animatic and gives it more life. Third, the way you portray emotions is astonishing. You can really feel Cynthia's grief, Heidi's pain and Evan and Connor's struggles.
    Also, i actually love how you portrayed Connor. You didn't make him an angel who did no wrong like some people try to make him seem, but you made it obvious that he wasn't just a horrible person either. You made a perfect balance to show he wasn't pure evil nor completely innocent, he was very troubled. And i love that. (And the fact that you showed him and Evan with nice childhoods makes me happy but sad that things changed so much)
    Thanks for killing me emotionally ♥
    And by the way, YOU DESERVE WAY MORE SUBSCRIBERS

    • @ChirimoSpring
      @ChirimoSpring  6 лет назад +19

      Aaaa thank you! This might be one of the nicest comments I’ve ever received,,
      And wow, you actually hit the nail on everything I wanted to portray in this, especially Connor, since he was a real struggle for me to interpret.

    • @anab3213
      @anab3213 6 лет назад +5

      Chirimo No problem! And yeah, it must be a struggle to be able to properly portray someone so complicated and troubled, but you did it perfectly! I love it when people put so much effort into showing people's true motives, thoughts and feelings, and its one of my favorite things artists sometimes do, because i love analyzing stuff and people. I really look forward to seeing more stuff from you, already subscribed! You are an incredible artist, and i got that from watching only one of your videos, so that says a lot ^_^
      (Oh and thanks for responding :D made my day)

  • @maddy495
    @maddy495 5 лет назад +90

    I'm not crying, you are! okay but real talk, I lost it when he goes "So you think I'm a freak too?!"

    • @redgoldcrown3990
      @redgoldcrown3990 4 года назад +8

      deadass me too, I have also felt like a freak since about the time I started grade school, I wish my parents had done anything but try to reassure me that I was normal. because I'm not normal, no amount of telling me so will make me normal, and all they did was make me afraid that if they saw the real me they'd think he was a freak too.

  • @cirius7019
    @cirius7019 5 лет назад +78

    "I gave everything I could and I thought it was enough but I find that it was not" Holy shit that hit hard. I don't have a kid but this reminds me of my little brother. I'm the only one he talks to about his depression and I'm scared for the day when talking to me won't be enough

    • @julietteduran1023
      @julietteduran1023 5 лет назад

      Hopefully it's all good...

    • @saaaraha
      @saaaraha 4 года назад +11

      My broski, I know this is really late, but go give your brother the biggest hug EVER. Tell him that he is amazing and deserves love. Tell him he's worth it.

  • @OliverNotTwist
    @OliverNotTwist 6 лет назад +290

    This is the most beautiful animatic I have seen for any fandom. I am literally in pain, like my heart aches for these mothers and for Connor and Evan. This was beautifully done, and the moments where you showed baby Connor and Evan and the way you mention 'So Big So Small' and and and and I could go on but my point is you deserve the world and this is my favourite thing

  • @silverhawking
    @silverhawking 6 лет назад +230

    Was... was that Spiderman costume a reference to A Little Bit of Light? And the zoo, and the picnic?
    *distant sobbing* I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine...

  • @lark2319
    @lark2319 5 лет назад +45

    4:12
    “Everything I ever did, I did it all for you!”
    That’s what got me.

  • @teciitooo
    @teciitooo 5 лет назад +80

    ‪« TW ‪»‬
    You know, everytime I listen to this song, I can’t help but start crying.
    I have been diagnosed with borderline some time ago. One year ago, I went through my first suicide attemp. I tried overdosing with pills, but was stopped before doing something else by my mum. She was crying when she took me to the hospital, and asked why I’d tried to do that. Even if at that time I was too disociated to pay attention, when rethinking about that moment was when I truly realized how much I’d hurt her if I killed myself.
    We usually take our mother’s (or father’s) love for granted. And this song just makes me remember how much my mum cares for me, and how hurt she would be if I had succeeded in my attempt.
    Remember to stay safe and healthy, and that we always have someone out there that is willing to help us if needed. 💖
    (( btw, this animatic is beautiful. i love the way you draw facial expression, it’s so amazing. one of my favorite animations on DEH’s songs. 💕 ))

    • @lulujay5866
      @lulujay5866 5 лет назад +4

      I'm glad you're still here. I hope you're on medication? Thanks for reminding everyone who reads this the important yet overlooked truth ❤️❤️

  • @multifriskyyy
    @multifriskyyy 6 лет назад +53

    3:43 It’s just Connor in the bathroom by himself...

    • @ocalimirosubso
      @ocalimirosubso 3 года назад +6

      all by himself..

    • @ducks_void
      @ducks_void 3 года назад

      Nothing bad will happen right...?
      Well...I hope

  • @crazygamer_1082
    @crazygamer_1082 6 лет назад +818

    I feel like the only difference between Connor and Evan (in the musical, like family wise) is Evan DIDN’T die. Imagine if it was Evan instead of Connor. I feel the story might still be the same. Or maybe they both would have died. Like, they both would have killed themselves. IDK. Tell what you guys think would happen if it was Evan instead of Connor.

    • @bellabennett1677
      @bellabennett1677 6 лет назад +56

      CrazyGamer_108 maybe connor would have lived? Because there was the added presure that evan liked zoe, so if you take away that note then connor would have died at a later date.
      Edit: i dont think this realted, idek but yeet

    • @audreyneal6168
      @audreyneal6168 6 лет назад +194

      I don’t believe that. although they share depression there are some major differences. For one thing they dealt with their mental health differently, with Conor lashing out anytime anything went wrong whereas, with even, he did the opposite; he became more withdrawn. They both have a longing to be liked but I think the story would have changed drastically as Conor would find it much harder to make the connections Evan did in the musical due to his temper.
      There’s also the fact that Evan’s anxiety is what drove the plot along at first. Those lies wouldn’t have been told if Evan wasn’t anxious, something we don’t really see in Connor.
      Not to mention that Evan lacks family figures wich isn’t something Conor is lacking meaning they have very diffrent reasons for wanting connections.
      Honestly, they are very different people longing for different (although similar) things. They both serve their own role and it wouldn’t be the great story it is if you could just switch the leads. That’s what makes them unique.

    • @girlyweirdo4658
      @girlyweirdo4658 6 лет назад +39

      CrazyGamer_108 I hear a new AU arising

    • @Puppee101
      @Puppee101 6 лет назад +44

      honey, theres a ton of AUs for the swapped roles of connor and evan, and though some are innaccurate in my opinion, they're all sad--

    • @rosariourielmariebelviz5502
      @rosariourielmariebelviz5502 6 лет назад +30

      I dont think it would be the same since the whole mess of lying started with the "Dear Evan Hansen" letter, but since if he died which was before school started, Connor never knew Evan existed along with the "Dear Evan Hansen" letter

  • @sunnysky3766
    @sunnysky3766 6 лет назад +342

    "You might need a tissue"
    Me: pff yeah right
    *1 minute into video*
    Me: crying
    Personally I wished I had a mom that'd do anything for me

    • @pappanalab
      @pappanalab 4 года назад +12

      I think you need a hug
      *sending virtual hug* owo

    • @hannahhamric7284
      @hannahhamric7284 4 года назад +3

      I know how you feel, praying for you 🙏🏻

    • @sarcasticsparkles
      @sarcasticsparkles 4 года назад +9

      I wish I had a mom who would do something besides treat me like her property instead of a human with feelings

    • @ahjaigirdar464
      @ahjaigirdar464 4 года назад +9

      I wish i had a mom who would love me and care about me without me doing something for her i wish she'd bring me up and help me rather than drag me down and hurt me i wish my mom would understand im human im gonna mess up thats apart of life i wish she'd listen

    • @bandobssesd6190
      @bandobssesd6190 4 года назад +4

      I relate to all of your comments, that’s the exact same way my mom is towards me, and it hurts, I wish I had a mother who I felt loved me...

  • @f0rsakenariss182
    @f0rsakenariss182 5 лет назад +204

    This is a really good animatic dude! Also, is Evan wearing Conner’s hoodie at the end, representing Evan pretending to be Conner? If so, damn that’s so well thought out skjsksks

  • @junipaca7275
    @junipaca7275 6 лет назад +800

    I WAS WAITING FOR THIS ANIMATIC AND YOU!!! EXECUTED IT SO BEAUTIFULLY IM GOING TO CRI WHERE ARE YOUR SUBS IM STILL YELLING

  • @somebody2772
    @somebody2772 5 лет назад +52

    I love how you conveyed Connor in this. Like on the other side of the door. Showing how sorry Connor felt. I just love how we see Connor in this!

  • @deemsekow
    @deemsekow 5 лет назад +41

    1:40 The way she says sleep makes me feel a certain way. A way I’ve never felt before. Warm, like I’m being hugged by something that is.... happy? calming? loving? I have an amazing family, but that voice... it’s just. Indescribable.

  • @zellaroonie
    @zellaroonie 6 лет назад +272

    YES YES YES OH MY GOD FINALLY SOMEBODY HAS MADE ONE!!!
    Update: iM CRYING ON THE BUS NYALL

  • @absolutenewb8879
    @absolutenewb8879 5 лет назад +34

    *waves fly swatter in air
    BACK FEELS, BACK I SAY

  • @hannahbananno2679
    @hannahbananno2679 3 года назад +11

    producers: removing this song
    everyone:
    *you have invented a new kind of stupid-*

  • @CJCruz-rf9vz
    @CJCruz-rf9vz 5 лет назад +420

    I don't think Connor has only depression and anxiety. I think he has BPD
    I mean it makes sense; He has emotional outbursts; Rocky relationship with family; Self-Harm/Self Injure; Doesn't like getting therapy; Feeling of emptiness
    It's kinda possible, to be honest.
    Edit: I can't believe this was one year ago...Welp, I'm gonna go and pretend this never existed and continue to lurk on tumblr.
    For the people who might see this in the near future, do not @ttack me or anyone, I was only suggesting and I was impulsive enough to write it the way I did so chill and ignore this and continue to cry.
    If these musicals have thought me anything is to be honest, think before doing anything and if you go out there and be an asshole who can't keep your mouth shut then there's a bigger fish just waiting to eat you whole.
    Have a good day, don't lock yourself in a room all day during hours and situations like this and wash your hands.

    • @naechan1779
      @naechan1779 4 года назад +33

      @be more heather kleinsen The BPD would (probably) also explain that, beacuse hostility is a possible symptom of this disorder.

    • @watermelonsugar8894
      @watermelonsugar8894 4 года назад +4

      ...What's BPD?

    • @watermelonsugar8894
      @watermelonsugar8894 4 года назад

      @If You're Reading This, You're an Idiot ok thx

    • @secretlysanesparrow1152
      @secretlysanesparrow1152 4 года назад +7

      Well, that is a possibility but everyone experiences depression and anxiety differently. I also think they were trying to show the bad effects that suicide has on people. I don’t know if they really thought about the actual illness very much. That is a good theory though.

    • @bloofaloof
      @bloofaloof 4 года назад +8

      @@watermelonsugar8894 BPD is Borderline Personality Disorder.

  • @reviilutionarie
    @reviilutionarie 6 лет назад +33

    I wasn't even aware that Cynthia AND Heidi were singing-I thought it was just Cynthia at first. Anywho, this animatic was SO well-made, and the talent and creativity put into this is astounding. You could see how Connor regrets his actions and how he's not some horrible heathen other people viewed him as. Additionally, you used this b e a u t i f u l song that's kind of under appreciated, since it was cut out, so I'd rate this a true 11/10 :D

  • @alexalson645
    @alexalson645 6 лет назад +40

    Just got home from the beach today and I think I still got some saltwater in my eyes that aRE *DEFINITELY* NOT TEARS

  • @Teacakes03
    @Teacakes03 4 года назад +11

    1:35 I still have those glow stars on my ceiling from when I was little.
    I’ve been meaning to take them down for some time but I think I might keep em up for a bit longer :)

  • @goobieboobie5847
    @goobieboobie5847 4 года назад +39

    Ok so I've been absolutely in love with this song and video ever since this was posted, but for some reason when I watched it again today it destroyed me.
    All the little things that evoke so much emotion and heartbreak are just. Ahhhhh.
    Like, can we talk about 4:46 ? It's Evan and Connor just standing there with their backs to us, looking like they do at the beginning of the show. And then when it changes, Evan is turned around to face us, and Connor _literally_ _becomes_ _the_ _letters_ . That killed me. It really shows how as the story goes, everything anybody thought about Connor is replaced by what Evan says. What the letters say. There's almost no Connor left. All that's left is the lies. And Evan finally turning around is him realizing what he's done, and the guilt he feels. And then Evan closes his eyes and the letters disappear. Connor disappears. While what Evan was doing was wrong, it was also the only thing that kept Connor's memory alive. Nobody would have remembered Connor had it not been for Evan. When Evan closes his eyes, when he finally tells the truth, Connor is put to rest.
    And somehow all of that was expressed in like 6 seconds of animation. That is why I love this animatic. So thanks for making me cry. Again.

  • @SakuraYuki112Jr
    @SakuraYuki112Jr 6 лет назад +39

    I thought I could get through this without crying. And I almost did. Until the end there when Connor's ghost shows up after his mom closes the bedroom door. Just- that did it. That was the straw that broke the camel's back. The dam has busted open. This was so beautifully done too btw. Just- dang.

  • @lilydoesstuff9610
    @lilydoesstuff9610 6 лет назад +124

    *senpai posts a beautifull animatic*
    IEJEBJD IM H E R E

  • @anxiety_disaster
    @anxiety_disaster 4 года назад +20

    Just seeing them as happy kids, then seeing how troubled they become makes me cry inside.
    I want to hug them but I can't 😫😭

  • @maryhirota540
    @maryhirota540 4 года назад +9

    I wish I could hug Connor why was this cut from the soundtrack I'm HYSTERICALLY SOBBING

  • @missylks1239
    @missylks1239 5 лет назад +20

    Oh mom, there's only so much you can do when your son feels like everyone his own age hates him. And generally, pressuring him out of social isolation doesn't make things any better.

  • @scaryhallway
    @scaryhallway 6 лет назад +14

    i don’t cry easily, and i genuinely sobbed my eyes out over this. holy heck. you captured cynthia’s pain so fucking well i cant even describe??? and heidi just trying to do the best christ and the boys when they were younger and the loss of innocence? and the mothers frustration with not knowing where their sons went? how did you do that. how am i actually genuinely crying. i cant believe This

  • @rueinred3153
    @rueinred3153 3 года назад +5

    "You never liked this sweater."
    *tear ducts activate*

  • @katelensworld
    @katelensworld 4 года назад +11

    This is the only "Broadway" song/animatic so far that has made me cry, and it's not even in the show. And i don't cry easy. I am a hardcore theater kid but I still don't cry at the final show

  • @mickeysquibbles6693
    @mickeysquibbles6693 6 лет назад +118

    *ITS COOL- DIDNT NEEDMY HEART ANYWAY*

  • @brendaeck4290
    @brendaeck4290 4 года назад +24

    my mom: “Sweetie, are you ok?“
    Me crying and sobbing throwing my phone at the wall screaming: “ *EVAN AND CONNOR I SWEAR TO GOSH-* “
    “Yeah im totally fine“
    *Me also wanting to protect Evan And Connor more than anything:*

  • @hee-tonin2218
    @hee-tonin2218 4 года назад +17

    This brought me back to the time the mom of my boyfriend, and I were packing his things from his apartment into this brown boxes and while we were carrying it to the truck waiting outside I hear this sudden clutter and when I looked back, she was slumped on the ground, the contents of the box she was carrying spilled all around her and she was just crying. It broke my heart seeing her like that.
    This video made me bawl out my eyes.

  • @Victoria-zu9yp
    @Victoria-zu9yp Год назад +5

    You know, back then this video saved my life in one of the darkest moments I had. 4 years later, I'm still here. Thank you

  • @user-pe8uk4mi8y
    @user-pe8uk4mi8y 6 лет назад +24

    There. Are. Tears. The way you made this it was simply beautiful. The style, the way you portrayed the parents and young evan and connor. Its all just great. I really love the part that got me to tears. Those certain parts that got me crying was when connor got the pills and at the end with his ghost. This is the first animatic that has drove me to tears. Thank you for this.
    Edit: I'M WATCHING THIS AGAIN AND I'M SOBBING.

  • @justenoughforacoffee
    @justenoughforacoffee 6 лет назад +153

    One how do you draw hands so good?Two, wow this was amazing and I was near tears especially when you showed how Connor pushed Cynthia (think I got her name right I always mess her name up) on impulse and holy, that hit home for me. And the "So you think I'm a freak too" yep said it to my mom. That one hurt. So this hit close to home and it's hard to get me to cry over a video. Well done. brava. Brava. (I believe you are female I apologize if you are actually male. If you are make bravo not brava.)

    • @danielmia5953
      @danielmia5953 5 лет назад +3

      Isn't Bravo the same for both? I mean Bravo is an expression in this sense, not the adjective for angry. It's Bravo anyways

    • @Hey-Its-Dingo
      @Hey-Its-Dingo 5 лет назад +4

      @@danielmia5953 From my understanding, Italian is a very gendered language. The spelling of words is almost entirely dependent on who you are talking to. (At least that's what I learned in my Social Studies class in HS, but I'm American, they could have taught us wrong)

    • @danielmia5953
      @danielmia5953 5 лет назад +2

      @@Hey-Its-Dingo
      bravo it's simply an expression, is not gendered.

    • @Hey-Its-Dingo
      @Hey-Its-Dingo 5 лет назад +3

      @@danielmia5953 But it isn't English. In a lot of other languages many different words are gendered to who you are speaking to. I looked it up Brava/Bravo are congratulations, meaning you give them to someone, therefore they are gendered by who you are giving congratulations to. Bravo for a male performer, brava for a female performer, and bravi for an ensemble or gender-nuetral performer.

    • @danielmia5953
      @danielmia5953 5 лет назад +1

      @@Hey-Its-Dingo Dude, I'm a spanish speaker I know what I'm talking about. Bravo is just an expression so it isn't gendered. If it was the adjective for angry it would be gendered but it's just an expression. Well at least that's how it works in spanish.
      Gender-neutral conjugations??? That's honestly unheard of.

  • @scaratron8926
    @scaratron8926 5 лет назад +20

    Yeah I told myself I wouldn’t cry but then Hedi’s any thing to make you happy made me burst out into tears in a fancy ass restaurant.
    Bro now that I rewatch it Cynthia’s Line made me cry

  • @kayiyu
    @kayiyu 3 года назад +7

    Theory time (the first theory in my life.)!
    In the book, if you read to the part, where he finds out that Con killed himself (page 58) he tells Con's parents, I quote ,,But I just saw him last night.'' even tho Connor was already dead, which means he was referring to the shadow he saw outside his window.
    I, personally, think it was Connor's spirit that, for some reason, wondered outside Evan's window after he... you know... even tho Con doesn't mention it in his parts.
    I also think, that Connor, after seeing Evan's letter for the first time, planned to keep it with him when he dies, hoping someone would think they were friends according to the line ,,Now we can both pretend we have friends'' and the fact that he signed Evan's cast for basically no reason. It's my theory that Con actually wanted his parents to think Evan was his friend. Maybe he didn't plan on Evan making things up tho.
    Also, have you noticed how Connor could ''make his exit'' (I hate that line so much, because it still hurts) only after Evan actually told everyone the truth? I think that Connor's spirit was trapped in this world, his soul not being able to rest, because Evan kept coming up with more and more lies.
    Another thing. In Connor's part VIII he tries talking to Evan. Succeding. Somehow, Evan was able to see him, or he just came to his mind at the same time Connor was talking to him and leaning to him, and gets out of the road.
    And then on page 315 repeats the word Connor was telling him. Own it.
    I don't know. Those are just things I noticed in the book that could have some deeper meaning to them and to the story, which I think the story has and that's why I'm digging so deep into it.
    But what do I know. Maybe I'm just looking for something that's not even there. For something that would ease my grieving soul.

    • @BulletZoid
      @BulletZoid 3 года назад +3

      👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

    • @kayiyu
      @kayiyu 3 года назад +2

      @@BulletZoid So, you like/agree with my theory?😃

  • @meidiocre
    @meidiocre 6 лет назад +30

    I'm WEAK the way you draw the kids is SO CUTE and your attention to all the backgrounds and room stuff ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh wonderful job

    • @meidiocre
      @meidiocre 6 лет назад +3

      I didn't even mention how beautiful and poignant the ending is like all these happy memories and these silly kids and i'm just here like yeah just bury me why don't yoU BURY ME IN THE GOOD ART AND FEELINGS I"M FINE

  • @ShadowDuelist15
    @ShadowDuelist15 4 года назад +25

    I'm just finding out about this now and MY HEART- this actually reminds me of how my family and i were trying to figure out what we wanted to keep of my dad and what we didn't after he died. I remember it being hard on both me and my mom to even look at stuff either he owned or gave to us after his deployments (he was in the military).
    MY HEART x2

  • @AudreyOke
    @AudreyOke 4 года назад +5

    I love how the captions warn us we might need tissues. Yes. Yes we definitely will need them.

  • @nico-vo4kd
    @nico-vo4kd 5 лет назад +28

    is it only me who seems to cry more and more each time I watch it? (i think my mom is concerned)
    also the video is aMAZING the animating is super good and the drawing style is beautiful. very good addition to the songa and it makes it 10× more emotional ;-;

  • @siennamutarelli
    @siennamutarelli 6 лет назад +44

    This hit me really hard, because I know I'm starting to do this to my mother, and I hate to see her in pain but I'm just so depressed, I keep everything from her. A mother and their daughter's (or son's or a-gender's) relationship should consist of love all around and I haven't given that to her. I have felt like suicide is the only option since I was 7 years old (I had told her I wanted to go into our kitchen, grab a knife and stab myself in the neck) when my mother and father were fighting all the time, but I haven't attempted suicide or self harmed because I think how much she would hurt having her me gone, even though I dont show her love.
    Anyway enough of me venting, this is a very well done animatic, I LOVE your beautiful design. Great job!

    • @armadilloalien854
      @armadilloalien854 6 лет назад +1

      Christiiine Canigula suicide is never a solution we only feel suicidal because we want to live happily. Suicide doesn’t do that, but I understand how you feel. Although I found out ways to make me happy like mediating and solutions like that. That helps.

    • @siennamutarelli
      @siennamutarelli 6 лет назад

      Korra Light Thank you, I'm looking for ways to cope, a therapist would be the best option, but I dont want to put my mom (who is already broke) to pay more money for me to be happy. I am starting to get into meditating, so I think that will help a lot. :)

    • @armadilloalien854
      @armadilloalien854 6 лет назад +1

      Christiiine Canigula Drinking tes is also good. Also making sure to eat something when you finish school. Also good for you!

    • @siennamutarelli
      @siennamutarelli 6 лет назад

      Korra Light Thank you I'll try that!

    • @bennyboiart7781
      @bennyboiart7781 6 лет назад

      Hold On, Chord Overstreet. It helped me not to.

  • @wyrmur727
    @wyrmur727 6 лет назад +122

    This is so effing beautiful and I'm grossly sobbing -I hate you- I love you

  • @Thefoxthatbecameawolf
    @Thefoxthatbecameawolf 5 лет назад +13

    2:36 that moment of resignation. When you are like " What am I even pretending? I can't fix anything" I know that feeling so well.... This is sad T_T

  • @Crispii1t
    @Crispii1t 4 года назад +12

    *That moment when this is the first time you’ve ever heard the song and you start scrolling through the comments and have no idea what anyone is talking about*

  • @emo3465
    @emo3465 4 года назад +11

    this is the saddest music in dear evan hansen
    and nothing more matters more than my opinion

  • @whispering_raine
    @whispering_raine 4 года назад +9

    I just realized that my room is the bedroom down the hall and I'm now grossly sobbing-

    • @jtc6200
      @jtc6200 3 года назад

      My brothers bedroom was down the hall. Since I moved out he’s been in my old bedroom but this song honestly made me have some weird dreams.

  • @youtubeaccount2904
    @youtubeaccount2904 5 лет назад +15

    I though this was a different version of Micheal in the Bathroom
    I am now crying regretting my decision

  • @aurycoo
    @aurycoo 5 лет назад +12

    4:53 is like seeing my own mother, if I were to give up. It must be hard 😭 loving mothers don't deserve to be put in such pain.
    Thanks for making this vid, you're amazing!!

    • @mysterysunfurled
      @mysterysunfurled 5 лет назад

      I wish my mum was a loving mother...but she mentally abuses me.

  • @rozugold
    @rozugold 6 лет назад +66

    Holy crap where have you been all my life?! This is so gorgeous and well animated and thought out, I’m in tears 💛

  • @dovefilms
    @dovefilms 6 лет назад +5

    me before watching: oh I'm not gonna cry lol
    me after: *actually crying*

  • @oliviarimpel7810
    @oliviarimpel7810 4 года назад +21

    Me: I'm not gonna cry
    Me: I'm not gonna cry
    Me: *ugly cries*
    My brother: hey oli- *sees me* nvm

  • @acethefox
    @acethefox 6 лет назад +5

    "Is there another truck coming to take mommy away?"
    *Oh god*
    *MY HEART*
    *And I'm not even in this fandom*

  • @Dorkyscornerr
    @Dorkyscornerr 6 лет назад +57

    Somebody please kick out the invisible ninja cutting onions! I’m dying!