I took it as Connor's unsatisfied spirit lingering in his bedroom and hearing his mother expressing her emotions and him crying after relaizing what his mother went through because of him. *And then I cried.*
Cynthia is probably the most underrated character in the entire musical. Almost all of the scenes she is in she is either almost crying or is and people don't see her as a major part in the musical and sees her struggle with Connor. She tried to do everything, she paid so much money for counselling and medicine to help Connor and she struggled with everything. In the musical, she sounds dependant on Evan's lie and says that it brings her closure knowing her son had a friend and that he was at least happy sometimes. But when Evan tells the Murphy family about the truth, she is denying that Evan wasn't Connors friend in the first verse of Words Fail. She is literally having a breakdown as the truth finally sinks in, but most people just focus on Evan throughout all this. In the scene before Evan tells everyone the truth, almost everyone in the Connor Project is attacking the Murphy family and blaming them for Connors suicide. Cynthia is the first to blame Larry for this because she doesn't want to believe that it was her fault after everything she tried to do for Connor. Cynthia should be recognised more for her struggle throughout the entire musical. Everyone recognises Heidi's struggle because she gets a couple scenes and a whole song to tell everyone about it. Cynthia gets none of that and only gets a couple lines in the entire musical that is only really used to help strengthen Evan's lie.
I'm not saying that everyone else doesn't deserve to have so many lines about heir struggles I'm just saying that Cynthia deserves more recognition for hers.
@@wassupbrorruitos3652 I'm soo late, but I agree with you. I think this animatic is very great because it also showed a look of regret pass Connor's face, he never hated his family (like Evan portrayed him), he hated hurting his family. It's clear he cares for them (as in the book he mentions how Larry cared about him just didn't show it, I believe the song 'Break in a Glove' demonstrates this perfectly). Connor got riled up over Evan mentioning his sister, "All my hopes are pinned on Zoe" and I believe this is an indication that he's very overprotective of her. Connor recognized that his family was trying to help him, but at the same time he felt bad for his family having to help him. Poor Cynthia tried all she could, but unfortunately Connor took this as being more of a burden. God, this musical is just so great.
heidi is so personal to me because as a kid who struggled with mental health and a poor mom, i can relate to evan and her’s relationship. she tries really hard to be there and evan understands, so he doesn’t demand from her, even when he needs her. that’s personal to me and my mom. cynthia and heidi are great examples of a mother’s love, i just relate to heidi so much more and that’s why i hold her close to my heart.
Omg the contrast in the meaning “anything to make you happy”! Did anyone else notice? When Evan’s mom says it, she means anything that will make Evan content or excited, like a present. But Connor’s mom meant, anything to make it easier for you to be happy. Any medication or technique that would make him less angry, and there fore more happy.
Well, they both weren't in the exact same situation. Evan's mom tried to really make him happy, give him a better life, full of smiles, as I think she herself was quite tired of it all. Conor's mom also wished in the beginning for her son's happiness just like Evan's mother, but when you see your boy like that... You can't just wish for his usual happiness. You wish for him to be relaxed. But in the end, both mothers wanted their sons to be happy, to smile more, to have more fun of life.
You see, Connor obviously hated himself. So fucking much. And because of that he was always trying to tell himself “I’m normal” but he also always knew he was messed up. Hence, his hatred for when people called him a freak, or why his mom wanted to give him medication or take him to the doctors. There wasn’t much that could have helped Connor other than a sturdy human connection. Which leads to the fact that maybe, maybe if Connor hadn’t acted on his uncontrollable hurt and anger, he would have become great friends with Evan. Maybe if his dad chose the softer way to take care of his son then things would have been different. But something in Connors mind didn’t click. It wasn’t just an issue, it was a disorder. Nothing could have changed the fact that Connor had depression. Connors anger issues could also be a serious mental problem. It’s so hard on someone’s mental health when they not only have depression, but can’t embrace it, so they hate it and hate themselves and push away any treatment. Therefore, Connors death is more than tragic, but what could have really been done to prevent his life to be so horrible? We can’t blame anyone, some were too hurt, some were naive, and some were trying there absolute best.
Nicole The Author well,,,,, I’m here. And many others in the comment section would genuinely care about you and your well being, despite the fact that we have never met, much less even know each others names. I think you are a good person,,,,, and I will listen.
Honestly, it wasn't the suicide and Cynthia remembering the good and bad times she had with Connor that made me cry, it was Heidi and how she tried to do everything to make Evan happy but as a single mother she had to work long nights to provide for him which made Evan distance himself from her like that just broke my heart, just that first "Anything to make you happy" from Heidi made me burst into tears because she was willing to sacrifice her relationship with her son if only he could have a better life than hers and that just hit way too close to home
I thought this said "in the bathroom down the hall", and when Heidi brought the box into Evan's room I thought she was packing stuff to go live in the bathroom
So there i was crying. And my mum asked me whats wrong. I told her i was listening to a song and watching an animatic and she said and i quote "stop being such a baby. It cant be that bad" so i showed her and she started crying. _my mum knows nothing about deh but this made her cry anyway. Thats how talented you are_
I tried showing my mom this and before I gave her the short description “it’s about 2 moms and one of the mom’s kid’s committed suicide-“ “yOu ShOulDn’T wATCh ThiNgs LikE tHat” and I just stared at her because she bought me the book...
3:38 through 4:07 is what breaks my heart so much. Just seeing Connor’s suicide along with the picture of the pill bottle rolling out his hand as they sing “but I find that it was not.”
WHY THE HECK WAS THIS SONG REMOVED?! Its so beautiful and it draws that parallel between Evan's mom and Connor's mom even further than before. It gives us more context behind the trouble Connor was faced with before he committed suicide.
Quiet Rage because the narrators didn’t think it was necessary. it may be a lovely song, but the show’s about evan, not connor. the song could be lifted and it would still make sense (obvi, as that happened) so it was unnecessary and needed to be cut.
Yeah I get it but to be honest I feel like this song would actually have added to the story, like drawing parallels between Connor and Evan is really important 'cause it shows like, the flipside to the family's situations. The song is also about Evan and like, it would have been nice to get a glimpse into the real connor and not Evan's Connor. I understand why they cut it but :( i just really love this song
Quiet Rage it was removed because, ironically, it would have developed cynthia too much. she, along with larry, are supposed to be the living embodiment of the school, of the supporters of the connor project, etc. this song would have taken away from that.
Dear everyone crying in the comments, have some tissues and a hug, you lovely people ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡ Edit : Yes this is a deleted song, it's sung by the moms of Connor and Evan. This song was removed from the cast recording and stage performance but the demo can be found on the DEH channel
Casual Pickles I have seen you before... Oh, I remember! You started the lyric chain in the comments of "Sincerely me" :') *W H Y W O U L D Y O U W R I T E T H A T*
I want to see that too! And it would show Connor's outburts at his family and walking away feeling guilty and show the true Connor instead of Evan's Connor.
4:46-4:48 looks like Conner became half of Evan. Evan is starting to argue with his mom Heidi in act two and he starts dressing like Conner too. By the way I love you're vids!!!😁
This made me cry, but for different reasons. My thoughts have been getting really dark lately and those thoughts have passed through my head for the past month or so. This song reminded me that my pain isn't worth causing those I love to suffer, even though they know nothing about how I'm feeling. It made me cry because I don't want them to go to my room and pack up everything that used to be me...to make them only have me as a memory...because I know they have supported me because they love me so much and did everything for me so I could have a good life...i love them so much...
Every human on earth have a reason to stay and to live for I think you finally found yours :’) it just takes a little while to find them but- I should probably shut up
I'm crying.... Not because this song is so incredibly beautiful,.... But because.... I fear being a mom.. I'm only 18 and I know people say... Oh relax! You have the rest of your life to live!.... I know I probably sound ridiculous but..... I really don't think id be a good mom. And even if I was....... I know I'd fuck it up. Yet.... Then again... One side of me really wants to be a mom..... But I don't think I'll have a baby.... I think.... If I ever get my life together... I'll adopt. I will go to a Foster home and find a beautiful little girl or boy. They may wonder why I choose them. And someday.... I'll tell them why..... Because I wanted to give a kid something. Something was missing in my life..... That something was you
Dear Evan hansen is a heartfelt musical, the story line is amazing... Some people may say that it's overrated but it shows things that people out there are dealing with. Anxiety, being without a father, fights, suicide, even though the last one pains me to say it, it still happens. And with Connor and Evan throughout the musical, when they're talking, Evan is imagining it, his subconscious is showing a side of Connor that Evan had created. Parents go through hard times, and that's what Cynthia and Hedi showed in this musical, but I think it's a beautiful musical, down to the story line to the actors, it's very well written.... And even this cut song shows the feeling of Heidi and Cynthia's pain to know Evan and Connor meant so much to them, that they were doing anything to help them.
I’m not ashamed to say I cried, especially when I saw Connor grab the bottle of pills and run away. WHY DOESN’T THIS HAVE MORE VIEWS ITS A PIECE OF ART
I have been suicidal most of my life. It's actually easier to remember when I wasn't, because it's such a short period of time. I've attempted three times, and so far I've made it through. It's been slow, getting into and liking Dear Evan Hansen, because it reminds me of those times, but it handles it pretty well. my point is this was beautiful
If you end up seeing this, I just want you to know that there are people who care. Every day you decide to continue living is an accomplishment and victory against the toxic suicidal feelings. I have felt hopeless, worthless, like no one cared, I could go on. I can confirm that I have and currently do struggle with suicidal thoughts. And maybe my problems may not be intense as yours, but the message I want to send is that you matter. Keep going. Don’t give in or give up.
My cousin succeeded. If we had of gotten to him sooner mabey it could have been stopped. PLEASE dont do it. No matter how badly you want to. I am just one of the billions of people who want you to stay as long as possible on this planet with us. I CARE! I AM HERE! and if you EVER need to talk i am always avaliable!!! Its a big think to admit publicly (i know from experience) and i am proud and utterly amazed at your courage. If u have tried and failed 3 times than you are ment to be here and it it not ur time yet! U are importent and fate still has use of u yet!! We love u !!
Everything you said was accurate for me too but i've attempted only twice. One was in 2018 and second in 2019. I was going to do it a second time in 2019 but I didn't
The entire time i was thinking 'SOMETHING BAD IS COMING, AND IM GONNA CRY' Then he killed him self and im just 'I KNEW IT, IM CRYING, MUMAAA, I LOVE YOU!'
I wish they had kept this in the final track. I loved the Murphy family, but this song makes it abundantly clear that the mother LOVED Connor and she truly, honestly did try to help him, he just slipped through the cracks. It makes the fact she couldn't save him even more devastating, but it also somehow is a relief to see that not everyone was indifferent to this kid. It also shows another side to Evan's mom, who is mostly portrayed as a loving but extremely busy and at times absent mother. This too shows that she's more than aware of her son's issues and she cares very much and wants to help = she just didn't have the answers.
I hope you'll see this, here goes... prepare for a tumble of emotions "Is there another truck coming to take Mommy away?" Tears just fell. I look at Evan's innocence as a child. And then I see the scene where young Zoe and young Connor played happily together. They were so carefree, so loving, so innocent. Then to the scene where Cynthia buried her face in Larry's shoulders, grieving for Connor. Zoe just looked away angrily. I like the way you potrayed the children slowly drifting away from their family. When Connor hit his mum, his expression spelled regret and sadness before he slammed the door and started crying. He didn't mean to cause so much grief. But he felt there was nothing he could do about it. Cynthia did, try EVERYTHING she could just to make older Connor happy.... so did Heidi, she bought stuff that Evan liked, just for him. She did everything, like Cynthia, to make Evan happy, even though the methods sometimes didn't work Your art style is beautiful and the different frames just flow along perfectly. I LOVE THIS I need tissues now, arghhh (SOMEONE TELL ME WHY WAS THIS SONG DELETED?) P.s if you've read all the way here comment "cookies" thanks
I’m not one of the people to cry or feel actual pain in my chest because of a musical, but this actually hurt me with emotion. My chest is in pain because I feel so sad and hurt. This is so beautiful. You’re a master. Thank you so much for putting your work into this.
deadass me too, I have also felt like a freak since about the time I started grade school, I wish my parents had done anything but try to reassure me that I was normal. because I'm not normal, no amount of telling me so will make me normal, and all they did was make me afraid that if they saw the real me they'd think he was a freak too.
This makes me cry more so because a couple of months ago, I was like the boy who overdosed.I was so close to taking my own life. I had to drop out of school, and they called my mum in and told her that I had told them I wanted to die. Seeing the pain on her face tore me to shreds. That’s why I’m determined to keep on living, to stay happy, to fight so hard. Because my mum is the person who does everything to make me happy, and I just didn’t realise how much my misery affected her. I know nothing about DEH but oh my god did this make me sob.
DreamerKitten It’s been a year and I hope you are doing better. Just remember that becoming happy and wanting to live life is something you have to do for yourself. You have to want to do it yourself, take care❤️
just keep going. I can tell by this comment how much you love your mom and anyone who can love like that deserves to receive immense love in return and live their life fully and free of that torment. God bless you.
I understand that To Break In A Glove was added to perceive Larry's section of the story, but come on, this song is absolutely amazing!!! It draws you closer to the Murphy's side of the story, as well as into a bit more of Heidi and Evan's. Honestly, it was completely unnessacery that this song wasn't put into the final production, if it were I'd be in the theatre literally sobbing. But To Break In A Glove... We didn't really need that. This is what we need. WE NEED EMOTION!!! Edit: I have come back 2 years later to say that I am hurt at the level of disrespect to "To Break in a Glove", it's a fantastic song that shares Larry's point of view. Yes, it may be slightly unnecessary, but without it, it would leave us lingering on what his true thoughts were. However, I do still agree that this song should have been incorporated into the show. Fingers crossed that it'll be in the movie.
Ok right and the thing throughout most of the actual play they don’t let you get a look at Connor as a normal person this song makes you realize he’s not just his mental health issues he’s a person
I honestly really like To Break In A Glove (it's still my least favorite song, but that doesn't mean I don't like it), but you're right, this is amazing. It's not like this is the longest song on the soundtrack, we could fit in a verse from Larry if they really wanted his perspective to be shared.
I'm in that teeny crowd that has to break in a glove on their top list 😅 I just love how it shows more character development for Larry (which I feel is kinda important, since dads have a rep for being closed off and it's always nice when we can see further into what drove his decisions)and when he goes "or you're just tryna do your best for a kid who's lost control" I lose it every time. I think it's ok that this song got cut out tho, since we already have so big so small for Heidi's POV, and Cynthia's is already obvious throughout the majority of the show. But this song is still so good
This is the most beautiful animatic I have seen for any fandom. I am literally in pain, like my heart aches for these mothers and for Connor and Evan. This was beautifully done, and the moments where you showed baby Connor and Evan and the way you mention 'So Big So Small' and and and and I could go on but my point is you deserve the world and this is my favourite thing
"I gave everything I could and I thought it was enough but I find that it was not" Holy shit that hit hard. I don't have a kid but this reminds me of my little brother. I'm the only one he talks to about his depression and I'm scared for the day when talking to me won't be enough
My broski, I know this is really late, but go give your brother the biggest hug EVER. Tell him that he is amazing and deserves love. Tell him he's worth it.
[CYNTHIA] You never liked this sweater You said it never really fit you right And it itched too much But I think I’ll keep it I should keep it Cause it still makes me think of you And that little boy I knew In the bedroom down the hall [HEIDI] In the bedroom down the hall I got you Ninja Turtle night-lights for protection You used to say they kept the bad guys far away Remember? In the bedroom down the hall I surprised you with that comic book collection Next Halloween I dressed you up like Wolverine Remember? With glow stars on the ceiling You could count instead of sheep I always knew which song to sing To get you right to sleep Anything to make you happy Anything at all Anything for my boy in the bedroom down the hall [CYNTHIA] In the bedroom down the hall We went to battle every evening after dinner I thought I knew some way that I’d get through to you Remember? In the bedroom down the hall We fought a war where no one walked away a winner 'Cause every day you pulled a little more away Remember? Saw the counselors and the clinics And the cures a mother tries Cause maybe they could take away that anger in your eyes [CYNTHIA & HEIDI] Anything to make you happy Anything at all Anything for my boy in the bedroom down the hall [CYNTHIA] Though you try [HEIDI] You try [CYNTHIA & HEIDI] To give your kid the world Give ‘em everything you’ve got [CYNTHIA] What if I Gave all I could And I thought it was enough But I find that It was not [HEIDI] What if I Gave all I could And I thought it was enough It was not [CYNTHIA] Did I let you down? [HEIDI] What else can I do? [CYNTHIA & HEIDI] Everything I ever did I did it all for you Anything to make you happy Anything at all Anything for my boy in the bedroom down the hall [CYNTHIA] In the bedroom down the hall I think I’ll wait another day to pack these boxes Cause once I’m through I’m left with just one thing to do Remember
I don't know if you'll see this, but I'll write it anyway This is one of the best DEH animatics out there in my opinion. First, your art style is beautiful and the characters look amazing. Second, the animation is great and only adds more to the animatic and gives it more life. Third, the way you portray emotions is astonishing. You can really feel Cynthia's grief, Heidi's pain and Evan and Connor's struggles. Also, i actually love how you portrayed Connor. You didn't make him an angel who did no wrong like some people try to make him seem, but you made it obvious that he wasn't just a horrible person either. You made a perfect balance to show he wasn't pure evil nor completely innocent, he was very troubled. And i love that. (And the fact that you showed him and Evan with nice childhoods makes me happy but sad that things changed so much) Thanks for killing me emotionally ♥ And by the way, YOU DESERVE WAY MORE SUBSCRIBERS
Aaaa thank you! This might be one of the nicest comments I’ve ever received,, And wow, you actually hit the nail on everything I wanted to portray in this, especially Connor, since he was a real struggle for me to interpret.
Chirimo No problem! And yeah, it must be a struggle to be able to properly portray someone so complicated and troubled, but you did it perfectly! I love it when people put so much effort into showing people's true motives, thoughts and feelings, and its one of my favorite things artists sometimes do, because i love analyzing stuff and people. I really look forward to seeing more stuff from you, already subscribed! You are an incredible artist, and i got that from watching only one of your videos, so that says a lot ^_^ (Oh and thanks for responding :D made my day)
"So the counselors and the clinics and the cures a mother tries 'Cause maybe they could take away that anger in your eyes" Damn, why do i feel like i'm Connor and Cynthia is my mother all the time????
"so the conselors and the clinics and the cures a mother tries Cause maybe they could take away that anger in your eyes" That part hit me a lot My mother have been trying medications after medications, between prescriptions and no-prescription meds, just to try and help me, to make me happy. But sadly, none works She has made me see a lot of social workers, therapists, psychoEducators, doctors, Pedopsychologist etc, just so we could try to help me. The number of times I had to go to the emergency because the school was fearing for my safety. I feel really bad for her.. I never wanted to make her go through that.
I wish I could say the same about my parents. They, however, don't believe in mental illness and think that I'm faking it. I've even been diagnosed with stuff right in front of them, yet they don't want me getting help. They think everything has to be natural. I need help! That's what I need, and they refuse to get it for me. They say that nothing is wrong and it's all in my mind. That's what mental illness is! Plus, I'm going through a particularly rough patch lately, and it's hurting me a lot. I just want this all to be over. I can't even speak to people anymore. I can't even feel like I belong anywhere anymore, I just feel like I'm isolated in my own stupid world. I was okay when I was getting treatment, then they cancelled my appointments and took me off of my meds. I wish my parents understood more, and actually acknowledged my mental health. Sorry, I saw your comment and accidentally wrote out a rant, which I tend to do often.
@@sleeplessshinso5103 Oh, Madelynn. I-I don't know what to say. Really... And please forgive me for that. 😢 But I can't just read this comment without acknowledging your efforts. I hope you are not going through this alone. Even if you're parents are like that, I wish you have friends to help you through it. If you don't, I'm willing to send all my vitual hugs to you. If you need a friend to chat to, I can be there to listen. 😊
I haven't told anyone about whatever it is I'm feeling. Depression? Probably. Anxiety? Probably. I also looked up and found out that I probably have Atichiphobia. Insomnia? Probably. Trust Issues? ..Most likely. I don't have any major issues in my life but I tend to keep things bottled up because whenever I cry people always question why it is I'm crying or just point out that I'm being a crybaby or weak so I've tended to not cry in front of others and well it just stacked up in me and I guess this happened. Tried telling someone and they didn't take it seriously. Told me I was overreacting and to get over it. It's been 4? 5 years? And no I still haven't gotten over it. I probably should get help or tell someone but I'm too scared. Guess I'm a coward And I hope you get better ^^
@@sleeplessshinso5103 That's an odd thought process they have, especially considering help *_is_* natural. What do you do if you can't get your car out of the gutter or mud? Ask for help 'cause nobody has the strength of the Hulk.
1:40 The way she says sleep makes me feel a certain way. A way I’ve never felt before. Warm, like I’m being hugged by something that is.... happy? calming? loving? I have an amazing family, but that voice... it’s just. Indescribable.
« TW » You know, everytime I listen to this song, I can’t help but start crying. I have been diagnosed with borderline some time ago. One year ago, I went through my first suicide attemp. I tried overdosing with pills, but was stopped before doing something else by my mum. She was crying when she took me to the hospital, and asked why I’d tried to do that. Even if at that time I was too disociated to pay attention, when rethinking about that moment was when I truly realized how much I’d hurt her if I killed myself. We usually take our mother’s (or father’s) love for granted. And this song just makes me remember how much my mum cares for me, and how hurt she would be if I had succeeded in my attempt. Remember to stay safe and healthy, and that we always have someone out there that is willing to help us if needed. 💖 (( btw, this animatic is beautiful. i love the way you draw facial expression, it’s so amazing. one of my favorite animations on DEH’s songs. 💕 ))
I feel like the only difference between Connor and Evan (in the musical, like family wise) is Evan DIDN’T die. Imagine if it was Evan instead of Connor. I feel the story might still be the same. Or maybe they both would have died. Like, they both would have killed themselves. IDK. Tell what you guys think would happen if it was Evan instead of Connor.
CrazyGamer_108 maybe connor would have lived? Because there was the added presure that evan liked zoe, so if you take away that note then connor would have died at a later date. Edit: i dont think this realted, idek but yeet
I don’t believe that. although they share depression there are some major differences. For one thing they dealt with their mental health differently, with Conor lashing out anytime anything went wrong whereas, with even, he did the opposite; he became more withdrawn. They both have a longing to be liked but I think the story would have changed drastically as Conor would find it much harder to make the connections Evan did in the musical due to his temper. There’s also the fact that Evan’s anxiety is what drove the plot along at first. Those lies wouldn’t have been told if Evan wasn’t anxious, something we don’t really see in Connor. Not to mention that Evan lacks family figures wich isn’t something Conor is lacking meaning they have very diffrent reasons for wanting connections. Honestly, they are very different people longing for different (although similar) things. They both serve their own role and it wouldn’t be the great story it is if you could just switch the leads. That’s what makes them unique.
I dont think it would be the same since the whole mess of lying started with the "Dear Evan Hansen" letter, but since if he died which was before school started, Connor never knew Evan existed along with the "Dear Evan Hansen" letter
I thought I could get through this without crying. And I almost did. Until the end there when Connor's ghost shows up after his mom closes the bedroom door. Just- that did it. That was the straw that broke the camel's back. The dam has busted open. This was so beautifully done too btw. Just- dang.
I wasn't even aware that Cynthia AND Heidi were singing-I thought it was just Cynthia at first. Anywho, this animatic was SO well-made, and the talent and creativity put into this is astounding. You could see how Connor regrets his actions and how he's not some horrible heathen other people viewed him as. Additionally, you used this b e a u t i f u l song that's kind of under appreciated, since it was cut out, so I'd rate this a true 11/10 :D
I'm just finding out about this now and MY HEART- this actually reminds me of how my family and i were trying to figure out what we wanted to keep of my dad and what we didn't after he died. I remember it being hard on both me and my mom to even look at stuff either he owned or gave to us after his deployments (he was in the military). MY HEART x2
This brought me back to the time the mom of my boyfriend, and I were packing his things from his apartment into this brown boxes and while we were carrying it to the truck waiting outside I hear this sudden clutter and when I looked back, she was slumped on the ground, the contents of the box she was carrying spilled all around her and she was just crying. It broke my heart seeing her like that. This video made me bawl out my eyes.
This is a really good animatic dude! Also, is Evan wearing Conner’s hoodie at the end, representing Evan pretending to be Conner? If so, damn that’s so well thought out skjsksks
I wish i had a mom who would love me and care about me without me doing something for her i wish she'd bring me up and help me rather than drag me down and hurt me i wish my mom would understand im human im gonna mess up thats apart of life i wish she'd listen
i don’t cry easily, and i genuinely sobbed my eyes out over this. holy heck. you captured cynthia’s pain so fucking well i cant even describe??? and heidi just trying to do the best christ and the boys when they were younger and the loss of innocence? and the mothers frustration with not knowing where their sons went? how did you do that. how am i actually genuinely crying. i cant believe This
Yeah I told myself I wouldn’t cry but then Hedi’s any thing to make you happy made me burst out into tears in a fancy ass restaurant. Bro now that I rewatch it Cynthia’s Line made me cry
This is the only "Broadway" song/animatic so far that has made me cry, and it's not even in the show. And i don't cry easy. I am a hardcore theater kid but I still don't cry at the final show
There. Are. Tears. The way you made this it was simply beautiful. The style, the way you portrayed the parents and young evan and connor. Its all just great. I really love the part that got me to tears. Those certain parts that got me crying was when connor got the pills and at the end with his ghost. This is the first animatic that has drove me to tears. Thank you for this. Edit: I'M WATCHING THIS AGAIN AND I'M SOBBING.
Oh mom, there's only so much you can do when your son feels like everyone his own age hates him. And generally, pressuring him out of social isolation doesn't make things any better.
1:35 I still have those glow stars on my ceiling from when I was little. I’ve been meaning to take them down for some time but I think I might keep em up for a bit longer :)
I didn't even mention how beautiful and poignant the ending is like all these happy memories and these silly kids and i'm just here like yeah just bury me why don't yoU BURY ME IN THE GOOD ART AND FEELINGS I"M FINE
is it only me who seems to cry more and more each time I watch it? (i think my mom is concerned) also the video is aMAZING the animating is super good and the drawing style is beautiful. very good addition to the songa and it makes it 10× more emotional ;-;
I don't think Connor has only depression and anxiety. I think he has BPD I mean it makes sense; He has emotional outbursts; Rocky relationship with family; Self-Harm/Self Injure; Doesn't like getting therapy; Feeling of emptiness It's kinda possible, to be honest. Edit: I can't believe this was one year ago...Welp, I'm gonna go and pretend this never existed and continue to lurk on tumblr. For the people who might see this in the near future, do not @ttack me or anyone, I was only suggesting and I was impulsive enough to write it the way I did so chill and ignore this and continue to cry. If these musicals have thought me anything is to be honest, think before doing anything and if you go out there and be an asshole who can't keep your mouth shut then there's a bigger fish just waiting to eat you whole. Have a good day, don't lock yourself in a room all day during hours and situations like this and wash your hands.
Well, that is a possibility but everyone experiences depression and anxiety differently. I also think they were trying to show the bad effects that suicide has on people. I don’t know if they really thought about the actual illness very much. That is a good theory though.
This reminds me of a friend I had, I would do anything for him to make him happy. But he stopped doing the things he used to love and distanced himself from us. I feel bad for not being able to stop it.
I can't believe this came out two years ago. I remember when I first saw it not long after it was uploaded and just cried and cried and cried. I was in a terrible place mentally and physically. Fighting with a toxic mom who tried to do her best but still hurt you. This made me wish to have a mom like that, but also helped me see the things mine had done for me even if she hurt me. It made me second guess killing myself and question if it was worth it. I'm no longer in that situation, living somewhere else, my mom trying for once now, but I come back to this video whenever things get rough. Whenever I question my life this makes me think, and now its not my mom I see but my sister, my friends, my lover. People who I wouldn't want to hurt because they've given me so much. I doubt this comment will be seen but if it is, to the creator: you have no clue how much this has help me, and many others, thank you. To anyone else reading you matter and someone cares for you, even if you don't think so.
*That moment when this is the first time you’ve ever heard the song and you start scrolling through the comments and have no idea what anyone is talking about*
i’ve attempted twice, thought of trying again. but then i thought of my mom. i’m not even 15, not close. i first attempted at 9, then in late October of 2023. i can’t tell my mom, this animatic.. everything about it. it would break her. she lost her mom to cancer. i never met her. my mom always fought with my grandma, i don’t want the same for me and my mom. she’s sometimes rude, so i’m rude back. and i feel bad cause of all she’s lost.. when i say this has been the only animatic to manage to make me cry, i was on the floor sobbing. i have to watch this in bits cause it’s too overwhelming to watch it all at once
my mom: “Sweetie, are you ok?“ Me crying and sobbing throwing my phone at the wall screaming: “ *EVAN AND CONNOR I SWEAR TO GOSH-* “ “Yeah im totally fine“ *Me also wanting to protect Evan And Connor more than anything:*
One how do you draw hands so good?Two, wow this was amazing and I was near tears especially when you showed how Connor pushed Cynthia (think I got her name right I always mess her name up) on impulse and holy, that hit home for me. And the "So you think I'm a freak too" yep said it to my mom. That one hurt. So this hit close to home and it's hard to get me to cry over a video. Well done. brava. Brava. (I believe you are female I apologize if you are actually male. If you are make bravo not brava.)
@@danielmia5953 From my understanding, Italian is a very gendered language. The spelling of words is almost entirely dependent on who you are talking to. (At least that's what I learned in my Social Studies class in HS, but I'm American, they could have taught us wrong)
@@danielmia5953 But it isn't English. In a lot of other languages many different words are gendered to who you are speaking to. I looked it up Brava/Bravo are congratulations, meaning you give them to someone, therefore they are gendered by who you are giving congratulations to. Bravo for a male performer, brava for a female performer, and bravi for an ensemble or gender-nuetral performer.
@@Hey-Its-Dingo Dude, I'm a spanish speaker I know what I'm talking about. Bravo is just an expression so it isn't gendered. If it was the adjective for angry it would be gendered but it's just an expression. Well at least that's how it works in spanish. Gender-neutral conjugations??? That's honestly unheard of.
What's even sadder is that Cynthia tried to get Connor help. Maybe, she didn't have consistency with resources but she was so damn determined to be there for her son. Connor's death probably hit her the hardest. It's so sad when a mother loses one of her children.
4:53 is like seeing my own mother, if I were to give up. It must be hard 😭 loving mothers don't deserve to be put in such pain. Thanks for making this vid, you're amazing!!
![[Waitress] She Used To Be Mine Animatic TW!](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/CgBwcGvI8k0/mqdefault.jpg)
**you hear sobbing in the bedroom down the hall**
O-O I live alone
@@jotid8930 Heya stranger. Would you like burnt eggs or ramen with those tissues? I live in the bedroom down the hall!
I took it as Connor's unsatisfied spirit lingering in his bedroom and hearing his mother expressing her emotions and him crying after relaizing what his mother went through because of him. *And then I cried.*
*Walks in, ready to cry with*
burnt eggs or ramen. thats great
Cynthia is probably the most underrated character in the entire musical. Almost all of the scenes she is in she is either almost crying or is and people don't see her as a major part in the musical and sees her struggle with Connor. She tried to do everything, she paid so much money for counselling and medicine to help Connor and she struggled with everything. In the musical, she sounds dependant on Evan's lie and says that it brings her closure knowing her son had a friend and that he was at least happy sometimes. But when Evan tells the Murphy family about the truth, she is denying that Evan wasn't Connors friend in the first verse of Words Fail. She is literally having a breakdown as the truth finally sinks in, but most people just focus on Evan throughout all this. In the scene before Evan tells everyone the truth, almost everyone in the Connor Project is attacking the Murphy family and blaming them for Connors suicide. Cynthia is the first to blame Larry for this because she doesn't want to believe that it was her fault after everything she tried to do for Connor. Cynthia should be recognised more for her struggle throughout the entire musical. Everyone recognises Heidi's struggle because she gets a couple scenes and a whole song to tell everyone about it. Cynthia gets none of that and only gets a couple lines in the entire musical that is only really used to help strengthen Evan's lie.
I'm not saying that everyone else doesn't deserve to have so many lines about heir struggles I'm just saying that Cynthia deserves more recognition for hers.
God dammit why do you have to make me cry even more with this ;-;
@@wassupbrorruitos3652 I'm soo late, but I agree with you. I think this animatic is very great because it also showed a look of regret pass Connor's face, he never hated his family (like Evan portrayed him), he hated hurting his family. It's clear he cares for them (as in the book he mentions how Larry cared about him just didn't show it, I believe the song 'Break in a Glove' demonstrates this perfectly). Connor got riled up over Evan mentioning his sister, "All my hopes are pinned on Zoe" and I believe this is an indication that he's very overprotective of her. Connor recognized that his family was trying to help him, but at the same time he felt bad for his family having to help him. Poor Cynthia tried all she could, but unfortunately Connor took this as being more of a burden. God, this musical is just so great.
Ikr she's so amazing and so strong but isn't given enough credit. I love her so much and she's my favorite character
heidi is so personal to me because as a kid who struggled with mental health and a poor mom, i can relate to evan and her’s relationship. she tries really hard to be there and evan understands, so he doesn’t demand from her, even when he needs her. that’s personal to me and my mom. cynthia and heidi are great examples of a mother’s love, i just relate to heidi so much more and that’s why i hold her close to my heart.
If anyone’s crying, here’s a funny story:
So, I was singing this for a talent show accidentally sang, “I fed you ninja turtle nightlights for dinner.”
Bookworm I wish I found this comment earlier now im laughing like a maniac
Thanks so much
I laughed through the tears. Thank you
@@Charlie_Ollie same here lol
This made me feel so much better
WHO
THOUGHT
IT
WOULD
BE
ALRIGHT
TO
DELETE
THIS
FROM
THE
FINAL
TRACK
?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Sadly, the writers had to make that decision. It hurt them to do it, and they tried for months to fit it in. No luck.
Then they could have maybe delete the song about a fucking glove?
Kawaii Potato LMAO
Kawaii Potato wElL lArRy NeEdS a SONg!!!!
Kawaii Potato wElL lArRy NeEdS a SONg!!!!
THESE MOTHERS MIGHT NOT DESERVE A MEDAL BUT THEY DESERVE THEIR CHILDREN AND THEY TRIED THEIR DAMNDEST
nah they deserve a medal
They absolutely deserve a medal.
all moms deserve a medal
(the non abusive ones at least)
Idk about Connors mom but evan’s definitely does
@@zebracorn9184 shes tried her best
Omg the contrast in the meaning “anything to make you happy”! Did anyone else notice? When Evan’s mom says it, she means anything that will make Evan content or excited, like a present.
But Connor’s mom meant, anything to make it easier for you to be happy. Any medication or technique that would make him less angry, and there fore more happy.
Oh my god.... I never realized that
Well, they both weren't in the exact same situation.
Evan's mom tried to really make him happy, give him a better life, full of smiles, as I think she herself was quite tired of it all.
Conor's mom also wished in the beginning for her son's happiness just like Evan's mother, but when you see your boy like that... You can't just wish for his usual happiness. You wish for him to be relaxed.
But in the end, both mothers wanted their sons to be happy, to smile more, to have more fun of life.
Fishfood4two I’m cry at 6:14 am on a school morning why u do this to me
Fishfood4two maybe Connor's mum was raised that way and was unintentionally doing that to em
You see, Connor obviously hated himself. So fucking much. And because of that he was always trying to tell himself “I’m normal” but he also always knew he was messed up. Hence, his hatred for when people called him a freak, or why his mom wanted to give him medication or take him to the doctors. There wasn’t much that could have helped Connor other than a sturdy human connection. Which leads to the fact that maybe, maybe if Connor hadn’t acted on his uncontrollable hurt and anger, he would have become great friends with Evan. Maybe if his dad chose the softer way to take care of his son then things would have been different. But something in Connors mind didn’t click. It wasn’t just an issue, it was a disorder. Nothing could have changed the fact that Connor had depression. Connors anger issues could also be a serious mental problem. It’s so hard on someone’s mental health when they not only have depression, but can’t embrace it, so they hate it and hate themselves and push away any treatment. Therefore, Connors death is more than tragic, but what could have really been done to prevent his life to be so horrible? We can’t blame anyone, some were too hurt, some were naive, and some were trying there absolute best.
I'm watching this on Mother's Day
*MISTAKES HAVE BEEN MADE*
Ah I see SAME PLEASE HELP
Oof
I lost my mom on Mother’s Day actually so like
Just
Oof 😂
@@charmforce3346 This Is really dark
CharmForce 33 Oof that’s horrible m8 ;-;
My mom barely talks to me and like do things for me like yeeeeee. Well, mistakes happens buster
**Slams fists onto a table**
I would die for baby Evan, and little Connor and Zoey
*punches the door* right there with you
*smashes window* me too
*breaks arm* same here
@@Val-po4qi Can I sign your cast?
@@democracy.r0ckz with honor
Who else wanted to HUG Connor.
DON’T EVER END IT ALL.
Talk to someone
Anyone
Sometimes people aren’t willing to listen though..
Nicole The Author some people will use you to vent to...but won’t listen.
[Dippy Draws] That was kinda my point..
Nicole The Author well,,,,, I’m here. And many others in the comment section would genuinely care about you and your well being, despite the fact that we have never met, much less even know each others names. I think you are a good person,,,,, and I will listen.
I've been there trying to die won't help anything or anyone talk to some because you never know if it will help until you try
Honestly, it wasn't the suicide and Cynthia remembering the good and bad times she had with Connor that made me cry, it was Heidi and how she tried to do everything to make Evan happy but as a single mother she had to work long nights to provide for him which made Evan distance himself from her like that just broke my heart, just that first "Anything to make you happy" from Heidi made me burst into tears because she was willing to sacrifice her relationship with her son if only he could have a better life than hers and that just hit way too close to home
:') I feel this too.
Yeah but Connors death was pretty fucking sad too, and Heidi. And Evan. And EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS FUCKING MUSICAL.
iXena ARGH IT WAS BOTHHHH
She tried so hard😭 she tried so hard to keep him
667 like😊
I thought this said "in the bathroom down the hall", and when Heidi brought the box into Evan's room I thought she was packing stuff to go live in the bathroom
Splatter Dots 😂
Heidi in the bathroom at the greatest party of the fall
Don't bring Michael into this he did nothing he just wants to smoke his slushy and drink his weed
Now I'm crying AND laughing
Now I'm just Heidi in the bathroom...
Heidi in the bathroom...
*At a party*
"Is there a truck coming to take mommy away too?"
me, looking dead inside: ….. Hey, mom? Where do we keep the spare glue? My heart broke again-
LET ME CRY MOM
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PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME IN A TRUCK TOO MOM-
Flex tape can’t fix me
holy shit this got so many likes skdjdj-
“Pffft. I won’t cry with this”.
Well, I was wrong. 100% wrong.
But it was beautiful.
So there i was crying. And my mum asked me whats wrong. I told her i was listening to a song and watching an animatic and she said and i quote "stop being such a baby. It cant be that bad" so i showed her and she started crying.
_my mum knows nothing about deh but this made her cry anyway. Thats how talented you are_
To be honest, I've never been a mother, but if I was and I saw this, even without knowing the musical, I would probably cry too.
I should probably know this but what musical is this from?
I would just tell her that is a story about a son who commited suicide. That would touch her as a mother with no doubt, and will change her mind ;)
My mom wouldnt she would yell at me saying my feelings are invalid
I tried showing my mom this and before I gave her the short description “it’s about 2 moms and one of the mom’s kid’s committed suicide-“
“yOu ShOulDn’T wATCh ThiNgs LikE tHat” and I just stared at her because she bought me the book...
3:38 through 4:07 is what breaks my heart so much. Just seeing Connor’s suicide along with the picture of the pill bottle rolling out his hand as they sing “but I find that it was not.”
WHY THE HECK WAS THIS SONG REMOVED?! Its so beautiful and it draws that parallel between Evan's mom and Connor's mom even further than before. It gives us more context behind the trouble Connor was faced with before he committed suicide.
Quiet Rage because the narrators didn’t think it was necessary. it may be a lovely song, but the show’s about evan, not connor. the song could be lifted and it would still make sense (obvi, as that happened) so it was unnecessary and needed to be cut.
the narrators? i mean the writers lol
Yeah I get it but to be honest I feel like this song would actually have added to the story, like drawing parallels between Connor and Evan is really important 'cause it shows like, the flipside to the family's situations. The song is also about Evan and like, it would have been nice to get a glimpse into the real connor and not Evan's Connor. I understand why they cut it but :( i just really love this song
Quiet Rage it was removed because, ironically, it would have developed cynthia too much. she, along with larry, are supposed to be the living embodiment of the school, of the supporters of the connor project, etc. this song would have taken away from that.
This is one of my favorites it always, ALWAYS makes me cry
Dear everyone crying in the comments, have some tissues and a hug, you lovely people ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡
Edit : Yes this is a deleted song, it's sung by the moms of Connor and Evan. This song was removed from the cast recording and stage performance but the demo can be found on the DEH channel
Chirimo tHANK YOU WE NEED THEM TO WIPE THESE TEARS
Chirimo thanks...
Thank you T--T
MHMHMHMhMhmhmHMHmH DATS SOME GOOD ANIMATION HERE and I cRIED MY EYES OUT THANK YOU FOR D tısssssuuuueeeee
Thanks angel~♡ 😢
_you monster, you added the plane-flying and the Spiderman_
I literally just found out that this song was removed from the musical.
*I’m dead inside*
...Okay who do I need to hurt?
I JUST found out this song even existed. How could they have taken it out??
I didn't even know that the is was in a musical I also don't know which it's from!
@@odr8843 It's form Dear Evan Hansen
You need to hurt the creators of the musical
Why you gotta do me like that it hurted me lol
*“ I think I’ll wait another day to pack these boxes, cause once I’m through, I’m left with just one thing to do; remember.”*
-i cried-
I WOULD DIE FOR BABY EVAN, BABY CONNOR, AND BABY ZOE!!!!
especially baby Connor
Same
Casual Pickles
I have seen you before...
Oh, I remember! You started the lyric chain in the comments of "Sincerely me" :')
*W H Y W O U L D Y O U W R I T E T H A T*
Ryleigh Palmer already have!!! ;D
Ah the feels....
Now I wanna see a musical dedicated to Connor's side of the story 😭
ye is a deleted song
I want to see that too! And it would show Connor's outburts at his family and walking away feeling guilty and show the true Connor instead of Evan's Connor.
poor baby ok Really?? Is that true? If so is it available to listen to?
Edit: sorry if this is late lol
Just read the book
I SHALL WRITE ONE-
4:46-4:48 looks like Conner became half of Evan. Evan is starting to argue with his mom Heidi in act two and he starts dressing like Conner too.
By the way I love you're vids!!!😁
THAT PERSPECTIVE
THAT ANATOMY
THAT SONG
THESE FEELINGS
THIS SCENARIO
I'M DYING
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
*Whispers* So were they
*_DID YOU JUST-_*
@@chiy_p :D
This made me cry, but for different reasons.
My thoughts have been getting really dark lately and those thoughts have passed through my head for the past month or so. This song reminded me that my pain isn't worth causing those I love to suffer, even though they know nothing about how I'm feeling.
It made me cry because I don't want them to go to my room and pack up everything that used to be me...to make them only have me as a memory...because I know they have supported me because they love me so much and did everything for me so I could have a good life...i love them so much...
Midnight Skye you honestly don't know how much this comment made me cry.
Every human on earth have a reason to stay and to live for I think you finally found yours :’) it just takes a little while to find them but- I should probably shut up
I'm crying.... Not because this song is so incredibly beautiful,.... But because.... I fear being a mom.. I'm only 18 and I know people say... Oh relax! You have the rest of your life to live!.... I know I probably sound ridiculous but..... I really don't think id be a good mom. And even if I was....... I know I'd fuck it up. Yet.... Then again... One side of me really wants to be a mom..... But I don't think I'll have a baby.... I think.... If I ever get my life together... I'll adopt. I will go to a Foster home and find a beautiful little girl or boy. They may wonder why I choose them. And someday.... I'll tell them why.....
Because I wanted to give a kid something. Something was missing in my life..... That something was you
I relate. I literally bawled out while watching this because of the same reason
Your comment made me burst into tears because you put it into words. I can't make my family go through that again.
Here’s the real question; does TW stand for trigger warning or tissue warning?
;-;
Both
both
Yes
Tears
Both
Connor in the bedroom. Conner in the bedroom at a party.
Sir Turtle Lord BMC AND DEH CROSS OVER YAASS
forget how long it’s been ;-;
He’s just Connor in the bedroom, Connor in the bedroom at a party
@Remy sanders I'm waiting it out, till it's time to leave
Wrong musical.
MICHAELLLL
Dear Evan hansen is a heartfelt musical, the story line is amazing...
Some people may say that it's overrated but it shows things that people out there are dealing with.
Anxiety, being without a father, fights, suicide, even though the last one pains me to say it, it still happens.
And with Connor and Evan throughout the musical, when they're talking,
Evan is imagining it, his subconscious is showing a side of Connor that Evan had created.
Parents go through hard times, and that's what Cynthia and Hedi showed in this musical, but I think it's a beautiful musical, down to the story line to the actors, it's very well written....
And even this cut song shows the feeling of Heidi and Cynthia's pain to know Evan and Connor meant so much to them, that they were doing anything to help them.
Connor seemed like such a happy child. Jesus why does my heart hurt so much.
IF EVANS SUICIDE ATTEMPT DIDNT FAIL THIS WOULD BE SO MUCH SADDER
Take my like and stop making me cry.
OH MY GOD
Dammit-
That may be the reason why this was cut from the musical.
I know this isn't what the comment is about, but what would have happend if Evan succeded? or what if Connor didn't even attempt?
I’m not ashamed to say I cried, especially when I saw Connor grab the bottle of pills and run away. WHY DOESN’T THIS HAVE MORE VIEWS ITS A PIECE OF ART
I saw the title and I was so confused I forgot musicals have deleted songs AND BOY WAS I NOT READY FOR THIS OML 😭
I have been suicidal most of my life. It's actually easier to remember when I wasn't, because it's such a short period of time. I've attempted three times, and so far I've made it through. It's been slow, getting into and liking Dear Evan Hansen, because it reminds me of those times, but it handles it pretty well. my point is this was beautiful
evilhopscotch I'm glad to hear that :)
If you end up seeing this, I just want you to know that there are people who care. Every day you decide to continue living is an accomplishment and victory against the toxic suicidal feelings. I have felt hopeless, worthless, like no one cared, I could go on. I can confirm that I have and currently do struggle with suicidal thoughts. And maybe my problems may not be intense as yours, but the message I want to send is that you matter. Keep going. Don’t give in or give up.
You are strong :)
My cousin succeeded. If we had of gotten to him sooner mabey it could have been stopped. PLEASE dont do it. No matter how badly you want to. I am just one of the billions of people who want you to stay as long as possible on this planet with us. I CARE! I AM HERE! and if you EVER need to talk i am always avaliable!!! Its a big think to admit publicly (i know from experience) and i am proud and utterly amazed at your courage. If u have tried and failed 3 times than you are ment to be here and it it not ur time yet! U are importent and fate still has use of u yet!! We love u !!
Everything you said was accurate for me too but i've attempted only twice. One was in 2018 and second in 2019. I was going to do it a second time in 2019 but I didn't
The entire time i was thinking 'SOMETHING BAD IS COMING, AND IM GONNA CRY'
Then he killed him self and im just 'I KNEW IT, IM CRYING, MUMAAA, I LOVE YOU!'
me too T - T
I wish they had kept this in the final track.
I loved the Murphy family, but this song makes it abundantly clear that the mother LOVED Connor and she truly, honestly did try to help him, he just slipped through the cracks. It makes the fact she couldn't save him even more devastating, but it also somehow is a relief to see that not everyone was indifferent to this kid.
It also shows another side to Evan's mom, who is mostly portrayed as a loving but extremely busy and at times absent mother. This too shows that she's more than aware of her son's issues and she cares very much and wants to help = she just didn't have the answers.
I hope you'll see this, here goes... prepare for a tumble of emotions
"Is there another truck coming to take Mommy away?"
Tears just fell.
I look at Evan's innocence as a child. And then I see the scene where young Zoe and young Connor played happily together. They were so carefree, so loving, so innocent.
Then to the scene where Cynthia buried her face in Larry's shoulders, grieving for Connor. Zoe just looked away angrily.
I like the way you potrayed the children slowly drifting away from their family. When Connor hit his mum, his expression spelled regret and sadness before he slammed the door and started crying. He didn't mean to cause so much grief. But he felt there was nothing he could do about it.
Cynthia did, try EVERYTHING she could just to make older Connor happy.... so did Heidi, she bought stuff that Evan liked, just for him. She did everything, like Cynthia, to make Evan happy, even though the methods sometimes didn't work
Your art style is beautiful and the different frames just flow along perfectly. I LOVE THIS
I need tissues now, arghhh
(SOMEONE TELL ME WHY WAS THIS SONG DELETED?)
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Cookies. You did a great job explaining some of the things they did in the animatic I didn’t catch. Thanks!
cookies. and also tissues I need em
I’m not one of the people to cry or feel actual pain in my chest because of a musical, but this actually hurt me with emotion. My chest is in pain because I feel so sad and hurt. This is so beautiful. You’re a master. Thank you so much for putting your work into this.
I didn’t think I’d cry watching this, but I just did. Thank you.
@@mehspacedorito If it makes you feel better... it's totally not the first song to do so.
I'm not crying, you are! okay but real talk, I lost it when he goes "So you think I'm a freak too?!"
deadass me too, I have also felt like a freak since about the time I started grade school, I wish my parents had done anything but try to reassure me that I was normal. because I'm not normal, no amount of telling me so will make me normal, and all they did was make me afraid that if they saw the real me they'd think he was a freak too.
2:46 is when I start sobbing
and 3:05 is where I start balling
4:54 is where my mom comes in and asks if im ok and I give her a hug
1:30 is when I start tearing up and then I just start sobbing and bawling the rest the video
This makes me cry more so because a couple of months ago, I was like the boy who overdosed.I was so close to taking my own life. I had to drop out of school, and they called my mum in and told her that I had told them I wanted to die. Seeing the pain on her face tore me to shreds. That’s why I’m determined to keep on living, to stay happy, to fight so hard. Because my mum is the person who does everything to make me happy, and I just didn’t realise how much my misery affected her. I know nothing about DEH but oh my god did this make me sob.
DreamerKitten
It’s been a year and I hope you are doing better. Just remember that becoming happy and wanting to live life is something you have to do for yourself. You have to want to do it yourself, take care❤️
you have no idea how much this comment made me cry. I hope you are doing better now
just keep going. I can tell by this comment how much you love your mom and anyone who can love like that deserves to receive immense love in return and live their life fully and free of that torment. God bless you.
Hi, it's been two years, but I hope you're doing well!
Same honestly i feel so bad abut what I put them through
I understand that To Break In A Glove was added to perceive Larry's section of the story, but come on, this song is absolutely amazing!!! It draws you closer to the Murphy's side of the story, as well as into a bit more of Heidi and Evan's. Honestly, it was completely unnessacery that this song wasn't put into the final production, if it were I'd be in the theatre literally sobbing. But To Break In A Glove... We didn't really need that. This is what we need. WE NEED EMOTION!!!
Edit: I have come back 2 years later to say that I am hurt at the level of disrespect to "To Break in a Glove", it's a fantastic song that shares Larry's point of view. Yes, it may be slightly unnecessary, but without it, it would leave us lingering on what his true thoughts were. However, I do still agree that this song should have been incorporated into the show. Fingers crossed that it'll be in the movie.
Ok right and the thing throughout most of the actual play they don’t let you get a look at Connor as a normal person this song makes you realize he’s not just his mental health issues he’s a person
I honestly really like To Break In A Glove (it's still my least favorite song, but that doesn't mean I don't like it), but you're right, this is amazing. It's not like this is the longest song on the soundtrack, we could fit in a verse from Larry if they really wanted his perspective to be shared.
I'm in that teeny crowd that has to break in a glove on their top list 😅 I just love how it shows more character development for Larry (which I feel is kinda important, since dads have a rep for being closed off and it's always nice when we can see further into what drove his decisions)and when he goes "or you're just tryna do your best for a kid who's lost control" I lose it every time. I think it's ok that this song got cut out tho, since we already have so big so small for Heidi's POV, and Cynthia's is already obvious throughout the majority of the show. But this song is still so good
@@viennacheng3912 I agree, I just really like this song.
@@Ray-hk1zm hey you would like the book a lot because it shows us connors side to and why he did the things he did
This is the most beautiful animatic I have seen for any fandom. I am literally in pain, like my heart aches for these mothers and for Connor and Evan. This was beautifully done, and the moments where you showed baby Connor and Evan and the way you mention 'So Big So Small' and and and and I could go on but my point is you deserve the world and this is my favourite thing
Was... was that Spiderman costume a reference to A Little Bit of Light? And the zoo, and the picnic?
*distant sobbing* I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine...
"I gave everything I could and I thought it was enough but I find that it was not" Holy shit that hit hard. I don't have a kid but this reminds me of my little brother. I'm the only one he talks to about his depression and I'm scared for the day when talking to me won't be enough
Hopefully it's all good...
My broski, I know this is really late, but go give your brother the biggest hug EVER. Tell him that he is amazing and deserves love. Tell him he's worth it.
4:12
“Everything I ever did, I did it all for you!”
That’s what got me.
[CYNTHIA]
You never liked this sweater
You said it never really fit you right
And it itched too much
But I think I’ll keep it
I should keep it
Cause it still makes me think of you
And that little boy I knew
In the bedroom down the hall
[HEIDI]
In the bedroom down the hall
I got you Ninja Turtle night-lights for protection
You used to say they kept the bad guys far away
Remember?
In the bedroom down the hall
I surprised you with that comic book collection
Next Halloween
I dressed you up like Wolverine
Remember?
With glow stars on the ceiling
You could count instead of sheep
I always knew which song to sing
To get you right to sleep
Anything to make you happy
Anything at all
Anything for my boy in the bedroom down the hall
[CYNTHIA]
In the bedroom down the hall
We went to battle every evening after dinner
I thought I knew some way that I’d get through to you
Remember?
In the bedroom down the hall
We fought a war where no one walked away a winner
'Cause every day you pulled a little more away
Remember?
Saw the counselors and the clinics
And the cures a mother tries
Cause maybe they could take away that anger in your eyes
[CYNTHIA & HEIDI]
Anything to make you happy
Anything at all
Anything for my boy in the bedroom down the hall
[CYNTHIA]
Though you try
[HEIDI]
You try
[CYNTHIA & HEIDI]
To give your kid the world
Give ‘em everything you’ve got
[CYNTHIA]
What if I
Gave all I could
And I thought it was enough
But I find that
It was not
[HEIDI]
What if I
Gave all I could
And I thought it was enough
It was not
[CYNTHIA]
Did I let you down?
[HEIDI]
What else can I do?
[CYNTHIA & HEIDI]
Everything I ever did
I did it all for you
Anything to make you happy
Anything at all
Anything for my boy in the bedroom down the hall
[CYNTHIA]
In the bedroom down the hall
I think I’ll wait another day to pack these boxes
Cause once I’m through
I’m left with just one thing to do
Remember
This makes it clearer to understand, thanks.☺
does cynthia sing the higher note?
grxce Heidi sings the higher note :)
or press 'c' like a functional human being would
you know, until they split notes I really thought it was just cynthia singing 🤣
I don't know if you'll see this, but I'll write it anyway
This is one of the best DEH animatics out there in my opinion. First, your art style is beautiful and the characters look amazing. Second, the animation is great and only adds more to the animatic and gives it more life. Third, the way you portray emotions is astonishing. You can really feel Cynthia's grief, Heidi's pain and Evan and Connor's struggles.
Also, i actually love how you portrayed Connor. You didn't make him an angel who did no wrong like some people try to make him seem, but you made it obvious that he wasn't just a horrible person either. You made a perfect balance to show he wasn't pure evil nor completely innocent, he was very troubled. And i love that. (And the fact that you showed him and Evan with nice childhoods makes me happy but sad that things changed so much)
Thanks for killing me emotionally ♥
And by the way, YOU DESERVE WAY MORE SUBSCRIBERS
Aaaa thank you! This might be one of the nicest comments I’ve ever received,,
And wow, you actually hit the nail on everything I wanted to portray in this, especially Connor, since he was a real struggle for me to interpret.
Chirimo No problem! And yeah, it must be a struggle to be able to properly portray someone so complicated and troubled, but you did it perfectly! I love it when people put so much effort into showing people's true motives, thoughts and feelings, and its one of my favorite things artists sometimes do, because i love analyzing stuff and people. I really look forward to seeing more stuff from you, already subscribed! You are an incredible artist, and i got that from watching only one of your videos, so that says a lot ^_^
(Oh and thanks for responding :D made my day)
*ugly sobbing in the conner down the hall*
Br >:v
I thought I read this wrong and it took me so long before I got the pun XD
"So the counselors and the clinics and the cures a mother tries
'Cause maybe they could take away that anger in your eyes" Damn, why do i feel like i'm Connor and Cynthia is my mother all the time????
I love how you conveyed Connor in this. Like on the other side of the door. Showing how sorry Connor felt. I just love how we see Connor in this!
I WAS WAITING FOR THIS ANIMATIC AND YOU!!! EXECUTED IT SO BEAUTIFULLY IM GOING TO CRI WHERE ARE YOUR SUBS IM STILL YELLING
"so the conselors and the clinics
and the cures a mother tries
Cause maybe they could take away
that anger in your eyes"
That part hit me a lot
My mother have been trying medications after medications, between prescriptions and no-prescription meds, just to try and help me, to make me happy.
But sadly, none works
She has made me see a lot of social workers, therapists, psychoEducators, doctors, Pedopsychologist etc, just so we could try to help me.
The number of times I had to go to the emergency because the school was fearing for my safety.
I feel really bad for her..
I never wanted to make her go through that.
It's our turn to do our part.
I wish I could say the same about my parents. They, however, don't believe in mental illness and think that I'm faking it. I've even been diagnosed with stuff right in front of them, yet they don't want me getting help. They think everything has to be natural. I need help! That's what I need, and they refuse to get it for me. They say that nothing is wrong and it's all in my mind. That's what mental illness is! Plus, I'm going through a particularly rough patch lately, and it's hurting me a lot. I just want this all to be over. I can't even speak to people anymore. I can't even feel like I belong anywhere anymore, I just feel like I'm isolated in my own stupid world. I was okay when I was getting treatment, then they cancelled my appointments and took me off of my meds. I wish my parents understood more, and actually acknowledged my mental health. Sorry, I saw your comment and accidentally wrote out a rant, which I tend to do often.
@@sleeplessshinso5103 Oh, Madelynn. I-I don't know what to say. Really... And please forgive me for that. 😢 But I can't just read this comment without acknowledging your efforts. I hope you are not going through this alone. Even if you're parents are like that, I wish you have friends to help you through it. If you don't, I'm willing to send all my vitual hugs to you. If you need a friend to chat to, I can be there to listen. 😊
I haven't told anyone about whatever it is I'm feeling. Depression? Probably. Anxiety? Probably. I also looked up and found out that I probably have Atichiphobia. Insomnia? Probably. Trust Issues? ..Most likely.
I don't have any major issues in my life but I tend to keep things bottled up because whenever I cry people always question why it is I'm crying or just point out that I'm being a crybaby or weak so I've tended to not cry in front of others and well it just stacked up in me and I guess this happened. Tried telling someone and they didn't take it seriously. Told me I was overreacting and to get over it.
It's been 4? 5 years?
And no I still haven't gotten over it.
I probably should get help or tell someone but I'm too scared.
Guess I'm a coward
And I hope you get better ^^
@@sleeplessshinso5103 That's an odd thought process they have, especially considering help *_is_* natural. What do you do if you can't get your car out of the gutter or mud? Ask for help 'cause nobody has the strength of the Hulk.
1:40 The way she says sleep makes me feel a certain way. A way I’ve never felt before. Warm, like I’m being hugged by something that is.... happy? calming? loving? I have an amazing family, but that voice... it’s just. Indescribable.
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You know, everytime I listen to this song, I can’t help but start crying.
I have been diagnosed with borderline some time ago. One year ago, I went through my first suicide attemp. I tried overdosing with pills, but was stopped before doing something else by my mum. She was crying when she took me to the hospital, and asked why I’d tried to do that. Even if at that time I was too disociated to pay attention, when rethinking about that moment was when I truly realized how much I’d hurt her if I killed myself.
We usually take our mother’s (or father’s) love for granted. And this song just makes me remember how much my mum cares for me, and how hurt she would be if I had succeeded in my attempt.
Remember to stay safe and healthy, and that we always have someone out there that is willing to help us if needed. 💖
(( btw, this animatic is beautiful. i love the way you draw facial expression, it’s so amazing. one of my favorite animations on DEH’s songs. 💕 ))
I'm glad you're still here. I hope you're on medication? Thanks for reminding everyone who reads this the important yet overlooked truth ❤️❤️
Just seeing them as happy kids, then seeing how troubled they become makes me cry inside.
I want to hug them but I can't 😫😭
I feel like the only difference between Connor and Evan (in the musical, like family wise) is Evan DIDN’T die. Imagine if it was Evan instead of Connor. I feel the story might still be the same. Or maybe they both would have died. Like, they both would have killed themselves. IDK. Tell what you guys think would happen if it was Evan instead of Connor.
CrazyGamer_108 maybe connor would have lived? Because there was the added presure that evan liked zoe, so if you take away that note then connor would have died at a later date.
Edit: i dont think this realted, idek but yeet
I don’t believe that. although they share depression there are some major differences. For one thing they dealt with their mental health differently, with Conor lashing out anytime anything went wrong whereas, with even, he did the opposite; he became more withdrawn. They both have a longing to be liked but I think the story would have changed drastically as Conor would find it much harder to make the connections Evan did in the musical due to his temper.
There’s also the fact that Evan’s anxiety is what drove the plot along at first. Those lies wouldn’t have been told if Evan wasn’t anxious, something we don’t really see in Connor.
Not to mention that Evan lacks family figures wich isn’t something Conor is lacking meaning they have very diffrent reasons for wanting connections.
Honestly, they are very different people longing for different (although similar) things. They both serve their own role and it wouldn’t be the great story it is if you could just switch the leads. That’s what makes them unique.
CrazyGamer_108 I hear a new AU arising
honey, theres a ton of AUs for the swapped roles of connor and evan, and though some are innaccurate in my opinion, they're all sad--
I dont think it would be the same since the whole mess of lying started with the "Dear Evan Hansen" letter, but since if he died which was before school started, Connor never knew Evan existed along with the "Dear Evan Hansen" letter
Just got home from the beach today and I think I still got some saltwater in my eyes that aRE *DEFINITELY* NOT TEARS
Five years later and your wonderful animatic STILL makes me tear up.
Me: I am so happy right now! Nothing can change that!
This song: .............
*_ARE YOU SURE ABOUT THAT_*
I wish I could hug Connor why was this cut from the soundtrack I'm HYSTERICALLY SOBBING
I thought I could get through this without crying. And I almost did. Until the end there when Connor's ghost shows up after his mom closes the bedroom door. Just- that did it. That was the straw that broke the camel's back. The dam has busted open. This was so beautifully done too btw. Just- dang.
I wasn't even aware that Cynthia AND Heidi were singing-I thought it was just Cynthia at first. Anywho, this animatic was SO well-made, and the talent and creativity put into this is astounding. You could see how Connor regrets his actions and how he's not some horrible heathen other people viewed him as. Additionally, you used this b e a u t i f u l song that's kind of under appreciated, since it was cut out, so I'd rate this a true 11/10 :D
I'm just finding out about this now and MY HEART- this actually reminds me of how my family and i were trying to figure out what we wanted to keep of my dad and what we didn't after he died. I remember it being hard on both me and my mom to even look at stuff either he owned or gave to us after his deployments (he was in the military).
MY HEART x2
This brought me back to the time the mom of my boyfriend, and I were packing his things from his apartment into this brown boxes and while we were carrying it to the truck waiting outside I hear this sudden clutter and when I looked back, she was slumped on the ground, the contents of the box she was carrying spilled all around her and she was just crying. It broke my heart seeing her like that.
This video made me bawl out my eyes.
This is a really good animatic dude! Also, is Evan wearing Conner’s hoodie at the end, representing Evan pretending to be Conner? If so, damn that’s so well thought out skjsksks
YES YES YES OH MY GOD FINALLY SOMEBODY HAS MADE ONE!!!
Update: iM CRYING ON THE BUS NYALL
*senpai posts a beautifull animatic*
IEJEBJD IM H E R E
3:43 It’s just Connor in the bathroom by himself...
all by himself..
Nothing bad will happen right...?
Well...I hope
I’m emo thanks dude
....
I WANT TO HUG F I C T I O N A L PEOPLE
BUT I CANT
THAT IS SO FRUSTRATING
i want to like but there is 69 likes aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
PREACH
Bro I feel the same I'll start twitching to, so to let out my hugs, I'll hug stuffed animals
This is such a fucking mood lmao
The problems that come with throwing yourself into a fandom...
"You might need a tissue"
Me: pff yeah right
*1 minute into video*
Me: crying
Personally I wished I had a mom that'd do anything for me
I think you need a hug
*sending virtual hug* owo
I know how you feel, praying for you 🙏🏻
I wish I had a mom who would do something besides treat me like her property instead of a human with feelings
I wish i had a mom who would love me and care about me without me doing something for her i wish she'd bring me up and help me rather than drag me down and hurt me i wish my mom would understand im human im gonna mess up thats apart of life i wish she'd listen
I relate to all of your comments, that’s the exact same way my mom is towards me, and it hurts, I wish I had a mother who I felt loved me...
i don’t cry easily, and i genuinely sobbed my eyes out over this. holy heck. you captured cynthia’s pain so fucking well i cant even describe??? and heidi just trying to do the best christ and the boys when they were younger and the loss of innocence? and the mothers frustration with not knowing where their sons went? how did you do that. how am i actually genuinely crying. i cant believe This
Yeah I told myself I wouldn’t cry but then Hedi’s any thing to make you happy made me burst out into tears in a fancy ass restaurant.
Bro now that I rewatch it Cynthia’s Line made me cry
You know, back then this video saved my life in one of the darkest moments I had. 4 years later, I'm still here. Thank you
This is the only "Broadway" song/animatic so far that has made me cry, and it's not even in the show. And i don't cry easy. I am a hardcore theater kid but I still don't cry at the final show
2:36 that moment of resignation. When you are like " What am I even pretending? I can't fix anything" I know that feeling so well.... This is sad T_T
There. Are. Tears. The way you made this it was simply beautiful. The style, the way you portrayed the parents and young evan and connor. Its all just great. I really love the part that got me to tears. Those certain parts that got me crying was when connor got the pills and at the end with his ghost. This is the first animatic that has drove me to tears. Thank you for this.
Edit: I'M WATCHING THIS AGAIN AND I'M SOBBING.
Oh mom, there's only so much you can do when your son feels like everyone his own age hates him. And generally, pressuring him out of social isolation doesn't make things any better.
*waves fly swatter in air
BACK FEELS, BACK I SAY
Love that XD
1:35 I still have those glow stars on my ceiling from when I was little.
I’ve been meaning to take them down for some time but I think I might keep em up for a bit longer :)
I love how the captions warn us we might need tissues. Yes. Yes we definitely will need them.
I'm WEAK the way you draw the kids is SO CUTE and your attention to all the backgrounds and room stuff ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh wonderful job
I didn't even mention how beautiful and poignant the ending is like all these happy memories and these silly kids and i'm just here like yeah just bury me why don't yoU BURY ME IN THE GOOD ART AND FEELINGS I"M FINE
is it only me who seems to cry more and more each time I watch it? (i think my mom is concerned)
also the video is aMAZING the animating is super good and the drawing style is beautiful. very good addition to the songa and it makes it 10× more emotional ;-;
Holy crap where have you been all my life?! This is so gorgeous and well animated and thought out, I’m in tears 💛
I don't think Connor has only depression and anxiety. I think he has BPD
I mean it makes sense; He has emotional outbursts; Rocky relationship with family; Self-Harm/Self Injure; Doesn't like getting therapy; Feeling of emptiness
It's kinda possible, to be honest.
Edit: I can't believe this was one year ago...Welp, I'm gonna go and pretend this never existed and continue to lurk on tumblr.
For the people who might see this in the near future, do not @ttack me or anyone, I was only suggesting and I was impulsive enough to write it the way I did so chill and ignore this and continue to cry.
If these musicals have thought me anything is to be honest, think before doing anything and if you go out there and be an asshole who can't keep your mouth shut then there's a bigger fish just waiting to eat you whole.
Have a good day, don't lock yourself in a room all day during hours and situations like this and wash your hands.
@be more heather kleinsen The BPD would (probably) also explain that, beacuse hostility is a possible symptom of this disorder.
...What's BPD?
@If You're Reading This, You're an Idiot ok thx
Well, that is a possibility but everyone experiences depression and anxiety differently. I also think they were trying to show the bad effects that suicide has on people. I don’t know if they really thought about the actual illness very much. That is a good theory though.
@@watermelonsugar8894 BPD is Borderline Personality Disorder.
This reminds me of a friend I had, I would do anything for him to make him happy. But he stopped doing the things he used to love and distanced himself from us. I feel bad for not being able to stop it.
Told myself I wouldn’t cry.
*yet here we are, sobbing*
This is so effing beautiful and I'm grossly sobbing -I hate you- I love you
THE_NATE_PROJECT your profile picture *oof*
why do yOU PEOPLE MAKE ME CRY WITH YOUR PERFECT ANIMATICS I HATE YOU(but i love you and keep up the work
"everything to make you happy" hits different
I can't believe this came out two years ago. I remember when I first saw it not long after it was uploaded and just cried and cried and cried. I was in a terrible place mentally and physically. Fighting with a toxic mom who tried to do her best but still hurt you. This made me wish to have a mom like that, but also helped me see the things mine had done for me even if she hurt me. It made me second guess killing myself and question if it was worth it. I'm no longer in that situation, living somewhere else, my mom trying for once now, but I come back to this video whenever things get rough. Whenever I question my life this makes me think, and now its not my mom I see but my sister, my friends, my lover. People who I wouldn't want to hurt because they've given me so much. I doubt this comment will be seen but if it is, to the creator: you have no clue how much this has help me, and many others, thank you. To anyone else reading you matter and someone cares for you, even if you don't think so.
*That moment when this is the first time you’ve ever heard the song and you start scrolling through the comments and have no idea what anyone is talking about*
I just realized that my room is the bedroom down the hall and I'm now grossly sobbing-
My brothers bedroom was down the hall. Since I moved out he’s been in my old bedroom but this song honestly made me have some weird dreams.
i’ve attempted twice, thought of trying again. but then i thought of my mom. i’m not even 15, not close. i first attempted at 9, then in late October of 2023. i can’t tell my mom, this animatic.. everything about it. it would break her. she lost her mom to cancer. i never met her. my mom always fought with my grandma, i don’t want the same for me and my mom. she’s sometimes rude, so i’m rude back. and i feel bad cause of all she’s lost.. when i say this has been the only animatic to manage to make me cry, i was on the floor sobbing. i have to watch this in bits cause it’s too overwhelming to watch it all at once
Damn dude i get you a lot. Started attempting since 9, I'm 15 now
my mom: “Sweetie, are you ok?“
Me crying and sobbing throwing my phone at the wall screaming: “ *EVAN AND CONNOR I SWEAR TO GOSH-* “
“Yeah im totally fine“
*Me also wanting to protect Evan And Connor more than anything:*
I though this was a different version of Micheal in the Bathroom
I am now crying regretting my decision
*ITS COOL- DIDNT NEEDMY HEART ANYWAY*
producers: removing this song
everyone:
*you have invented a new kind of stupid-*
One how do you draw hands so good?Two, wow this was amazing and I was near tears especially when you showed how Connor pushed Cynthia (think I got her name right I always mess her name up) on impulse and holy, that hit home for me. And the "So you think I'm a freak too" yep said it to my mom. That one hurt. So this hit close to home and it's hard to get me to cry over a video. Well done. brava. Brava. (I believe you are female I apologize if you are actually male. If you are make bravo not brava.)
Isn't Bravo the same for both? I mean Bravo is an expression in this sense, not the adjective for angry. It's Bravo anyways
@@danielmia5953 From my understanding, Italian is a very gendered language. The spelling of words is almost entirely dependent on who you are talking to. (At least that's what I learned in my Social Studies class in HS, but I'm American, they could have taught us wrong)
@@Hey-Its-Dingo
bravo it's simply an expression, is not gendered.
@@danielmia5953 But it isn't English. In a lot of other languages many different words are gendered to who you are speaking to. I looked it up Brava/Bravo are congratulations, meaning you give them to someone, therefore they are gendered by who you are giving congratulations to. Bravo for a male performer, brava for a female performer, and bravi for an ensemble or gender-nuetral performer.
@@Hey-Its-Dingo Dude, I'm a spanish speaker I know what I'm talking about. Bravo is just an expression so it isn't gendered. If it was the adjective for angry it would be gendered but it's just an expression. Well at least that's how it works in spanish.
Gender-neutral conjugations??? That's honestly unheard of.
What's even sadder is that Cynthia tried to get Connor help. Maybe, she didn't have consistency with resources but she was so damn determined to be there for her son. Connor's death probably hit her the hardest. It's so sad when a mother loses one of her children.
4:53 is like seeing my own mother, if I were to give up. It must be hard 😭 loving mothers don't deserve to be put in such pain.
Thanks for making this vid, you're amazing!!
I wish my mum was a loving mother...but she mentally abuses me.