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  • I had to drop out of my graduate program again. In this video, I share more about that and my experience with post secondary education and academia.
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Комментарии • 648

  • @LivingWellwithSchizophrenia
    @LivingWellwithSchizophrenia  4 месяца назад +26

    JOIN OUR ONLINE PEER SUPPORT COMMUNITY
    Schizophrenia Peer Support Community: www.schizophreniapeersupport.com

    • @lindagreene4385
      @lindagreene4385 4 месяца назад +3

      You have been successfully working on your RLEd degree (Doctor of Real Life Expertise).

    • @angelaelenbaas218
      @angelaelenbaas218 4 месяца назад

      Yes I agree! Pursuing something like occupational therapy or art therapy or play therapy can be therapeutic and healthy for the facilitator whereas teaching or social work can be so taxing.

    • @gen.arnavpoe4633
      @gen.arnavpoe4633 4 месяца назад

      Stay far away from fucked up people like this yall..

    • @SeerSeekingTruth
      @SeerSeekingTruth 4 месяца назад

      Why are you taking social work of all things and informing people to do what you do when you cannot even fox your own problems.
      You are wrong about everything that you say and your message os what is causing people to commit suicide.
      You are calling a spiritual battle “mental illness” and you have no business going into that field having these problems yourself and you cannot even fix it.
      I hope people can see what kind of people are going into these fields to “help” all of you.

    • @deborahrobertson2340
      @deborahrobertson2340 4 месяца назад

      You ARE educating. This is helping a lot of people. 9:07

  • @zoundstreetop
    @zoundstreetop 4 месяца назад +677

    You have little kids! Managing a serious disability! In a marriage! Keeping a beautiful home! Running a YT channel. Only the most fortunate of us can manage all that and also go to school. No shame in this…these are just normal limitations. Sucks to not have a body that cooperates; I’m there with you. Right now this isn’t a thing, in a few years you can revisit it-if you want to. You are doing great!

    • @mrsbobanna
      @mrsbobanna 4 месяца назад +39

      Many people couldn't go back to school with just kids and the RUclips channel. You're working really hard and teaching us all the time.

    • @maskichef
      @maskichef 4 месяца назад +22

      agree. on top of that you are exposing yourself to stressors and pressure you don't need and is negatively influencing your mental health. it's a blessing you dropped out. it is also working in favour of your mental health advocacy. there is no reason for shame and disappointment.

    • @aninhapmr
      @aninhapmr 4 месяца назад +9

      Btfl message. I agree 100% No shame at all. Lauren is already doing great!!!!

    • @Eeyesablous
      @Eeyesablous 4 месяца назад +8

      Not tot mention running the peer support group

    • @stoneyvowell1239
      @stoneyvowell1239 4 месяца назад +8

      I'm surprised she was even able to do the coaching for the kids soccer team. That would have totally sent me over the edge.

  • @TorgerVedeler
    @TorgerVedeler 4 месяца назад +674

    I have three masters degrees and a PhD, and I worked as a professor for more than a decade. I also don’t have schizophrenia. But I will tell you this: The world of academia is toxic. Not the learning, mind you (learning is always a good thing), or the students, who are inspiring, but the politics, the egos, the obsession with titles and serving on pointless committees, and on and on. As a professor, I was actually scolded for spending too much time meeting with students.
    Ultimately, all this led to my having a stroke, and then a seizure, which nearly killed me. Despite having tenure, I had to retire because I was no longer useful. So I speak with some experience when I say that after watching your videos, you are doing far more good here than you would likely ever be able to do as an academic. I know that you have taught me more than any classroom ever could.
    So keep it up. Thank you!

    • @ellelong1526
      @ellelong1526 4 месяца назад +36

      I agree with you, I’m just finishing up my PhD. Through my journey in this program, I learned that academia is not for me. I decided to keep on with the program tho, but it caused a lot of stress and struggles with my mental health. You are right. Academia is toxic; even more so for a woman of color. I am disappointed how people are treated in this system.

    • @hollowed47
      @hollowed47 4 месяца назад +10

      we really appreciate everything that you do (gen z), I want to get a masters' in social work, but don't think its possible for me due to circumstances. you and as well as many others do great with academia and we will be eternally grateful for people like you.

    • @FueltheChange
      @FueltheChange 4 месяца назад +32

      #Toxic is the perfect word. I spent 20 years working in Psychiatry in academia. I met some of the most ruthless and discompassionate people I've ever known. I wanted more than anything to be respected by the people I worked with, and in the end I lost respect for most of them.

    • @HH-gc4xq
      @HH-gc4xq 4 месяца назад +21

      I agree with you 100% but it is extremely hard to get people to understand how overrated most of academia is.

    • @dfms3485
      @dfms3485 4 месяца назад +3

      That is true

  • @gigahorse1475
    @gigahorse1475 4 месяца назад +41

    Lauren, you are basically a professor. I’m looking at the views on this video. You have a class of 22 thousand! That’s not usual for a professor! You’ve touched a lot more lives than the majority of professors.

  • @FueltheChange
    @FueltheChange 4 месяца назад +93

    Lauren, please remember, getting your Master's degree often feels like drowning without the additional stressors of trying to keep up with an important RUclips channel, have a healthy relationship, be a mom, and ALSO deal with your mental health issues as they ebb & flow. Dropping the semester is not a failure. It's a success in taking care of yourself. It's a choice that maybe 2-3 years ago you would not have been able to make for yourself. As proud as I am of you, I hope you are 1000x more proud of yourself! Great job and great example to your own family. ♥

  • @larissacampos9739
    @larissacampos9739 4 месяца назад +28

    My brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia 3 years ago and since then you have been a great source of information on the matter to help me deal with his diseases. As someone who is also career- and academic-driven, I understand your frustration, but I would like to let you know you have reached and helped thousand of people like me with your channel. That is more than enough! You are amazing, girl. Hope you know that!

  • @catherinel2020
    @catherinel2020 4 месяца назад +72

    Don't feel ashamed about your situation at all. I got my university masters degree and was never able to use it due to my schizoaffective disability. I just pursued other avenues to a life that was fulfilling. Being a wife and mother turned out to be very rewarding. You created this amazing RUclips channel! It's so wonderful for people like me to have a resource to turn to. Thank you for that!

  • @Powerpoet500
    @Powerpoet500 4 месяца назад +105

    Dear Lauren, I can't tell you how helpful this channel has really been and how much genuine (and necessary) self-insight and compassion has been inspired from your work.

  • @jeffstadler8606
    @jeffstadler8606 4 месяца назад +68

    You're reaching many more people with the RUclips channel than you ever would as a college lecturer! And like you said, you have up-to-the-minute, first-hand information! Much better than any printed textbook.

  • @Dfg697
    @Dfg697 4 месяца назад +50

    This is so true academia is a brutal system. I do not have any disability/diagnosis and I always struggled in post secondary. Felt like I was just repeating not learning. After I graduated I reread all my textbooks and that is when I was able to absorb all that learning because I wasn’t stressed out going to school full time, plus working part time, plus friends/family/partner when I wasn’t cooking or cleaning my house. It was exhausting! Hang in there everyone!

    • @RaniaIsAwesome
      @RaniaIsAwesome 4 месяца назад +6

      Academia in school incentivizes people into repeating and not learning. Everyone memorizes so they have to give more and more stuff to memorize, and the people who memorize the most get the best grades. To make it worse it's also a lot easier for the examiner to give marks for memorized material since it looks great on a superficial level and they don't have to fully consider and weigh everything, when they're marking often dozens or hundreds of exams.

  • @rcp2212
    @rcp2212 4 месяца назад +59

    Most academicians couldn’t have created a successful YT channel that has, for years, helped countless people all over the world. You made it happen from scratch with raw determination and a heart for helping others. What you and Rob have built is seriously impressive.

  • @thomasgyldenkrne8561
    @thomasgyldenkrne8561 4 месяца назад +104

    I'm glad I found your channel.
    My oldest son is 17 years old and paranoid schizophrenic. The last decade has not been how I imagined parenthood would play out. He is now almost as big as me, we live in Denmark so you know... Viking blood. He is very angry most of the time. Two tests years apart show he has a very high intelligence. My hope is that he will be able to live a life that don't hurt him to much.
    Maybe your videos can give us some hints.
    Have a merry Christmas. ❤

    • @cookiequeen5430
      @cookiequeen5430 4 месяца назад +13

      I'm sorry, that sounds really hard. Wishing you and your son all the best ❤️

    • @skitzo-productions79
      @skitzo-productions79 4 месяца назад +2

      Psychwards have soft friends.. helloser nations are hard 4:20

    • @thomasgyldenkrne8561
      @thomasgyldenkrne8561 4 месяца назад

      @@cookiequeen5430 Thank you.

    • @leslievalenciano-lopez8887
      @leslievalenciano-lopez8887 4 месяца назад +1

      Talk to your son's doctor about a Mood Stabilizer.

    • @maxaffe3195
      @maxaffe3195 4 месяца назад +2

      get a CSF analysis. last decade? the illness started with 10? that is atypical...

  • @lorieprice9479
    @lorieprice9479 4 месяца назад +26

    don't underestimate the value of what you do here. your videos, sharing your personal experiences are more helpful than any college profession could be. maybe you don't see it now but the people you reach are eternally grateful

  • @dominikszega4619
    @dominikszega4619 4 месяца назад +20

    You have the courage that most healthy people cannot afford 🍀

  • @SaRiLoKa
    @SaRiLoKa 4 месяца назад +20

    I’m also chronically mentally ill (not schizophrenia) but I can only barely manage to do my day to day life, I admire you so much for everything you achieve having a family, a RUclips channel, your health… it’s really astonishing and I hope someday I will be able to do and live as much as you do ✨✨✨

  • @geenafonbuena7618
    @geenafonbuena7618 4 месяца назад +20

    It took me five years, taking one class at a time to get through a program designed for 2 years for my msw. Everyone has their own journey. Thank you for letting us follow your journey

  • @jillians9847
    @jillians9847 4 месяца назад +8

    Our society tells us we're never good enough, never productive enough, that we have to keep proving ourselves.
    You might manage to get a master's degree eventually, you might even get a doctorate eventually, if it's what you want and you dedicate yourself to the goal it is possible for you to achieve it, even with your illness. But, and this is important, you are already enough, just the way you are. You are still worthy, even without a master's degree or doctorate.

  • @katiek.982
    @katiek.982 4 месяца назад +50

    I also dropped out of grad school because of my mental illness (in my case, severe anxiety). It's been several years and I'm in a different career (and am in a much better place, mental health-wise), but it's still painful for me to think about. I haven't figured out how to achieve my goals in a different way, but you've given me hope that I can still figure it out.
    Anyway, this is a really important video and I'm really grateful for it. Thank you for what you do.
    Oh and I really love that shirt!

    • @Megfo2000
      @Megfo2000 4 месяца назад +1

      Love this comment. I feel like we’re living parallel lives. And I also LOVE that shirt! Sending a hug to you.

  • @sabrinagranger5468
    @sabrinagranger5468 4 месяца назад +13

    It's been eight years since I had to drop out of my doctoral program and also being someone who had imagined an academic career for myself, I can fully relate to the feelings of failure, shame and disenchantment. But wow in those eight years, you saying that it's not that you failed, it's that the world wasn't built for you is the most helpful thing I've heard from anyone. You're right!!! That's such a helpful reframing. Thank you for sharing that.

  • @ChaiLatte13
    @ChaiLatte13 4 месяца назад +19

    I think this is true of the training for doctors as well... It's no wonder they cannot understand their patients because those who are neurodivergant or have health struggles have to drop out since the system isn't set up to accommodate them. You are doing good work here on this channel.

  • @rueriddle
    @rueriddle 4 месяца назад +19

    While listening to you talking about your goal to educate I thought...um..aren't you doing that right now? You are a remarkable person. Your ability to do as much as you do while managing your mental health is inspiring. We are all too hard on ourselves.

  • @naomiweaver1855
    @naomiweaver1855 4 месяца назад +12

    I have schizoaffective disorder, too, and I have just found your channel. You give me so much hope and solace. As another former academician (and you were an academic, a scholar), I can say that you are doing so much more for potentially millions of people. Being a teacher in a traditionally structured role is worthwhile, and I loved my job. But when my illness was triggered, there was no way I could continue teaching. For a number of years, I’ve found a mixture of success and inability, but it’s much easier (and more encouraged in our society) to see an inability as a shameful failure. “Traditional” people will shame each other - so you can imagine where we rank! Thank you so much for your honesty and integrity. It means so much to me and I know to so many others.

    • @monkeylove2620
      @monkeylove2620 4 месяца назад

      Exactly. We can heal people. But shhhh

  • @kazstarkey5924
    @kazstarkey5924 4 месяца назад +20

    Thank you so much. I also have schizoaffective disorder and had to drop out of my freshman year of my bachelor program. Ive dealt with a lot of shame due to it and this video really helped. You and your success despite having a similar experience with mental health has really given me hope that I can find my own way in this life, even if it's not the traditional sense. Thank you again for making me feel less alone

  • @rajohnsmith7311
    @rajohnsmith7311 4 месяца назад +2

    Lauren thanks for sharing, I also had to drop out of a graduate program due to mental health. You are not alone

  • @michaeldickson4073
    @michaeldickson4073 4 месяца назад +7

    Lauren, I am an academic (university professor) of some 30 years, who is also schizoaffective. I understand where you are coming from. Everything you say here is, in my opinion, 100% correct.

  • @alistaircaradec2180
    @alistaircaradec2180 4 месяца назад +7

    Back in 2015 (or thereabouts), I dropped out of my Master's degree in TV and radio scriptwriting, and moved back in with my parents. I was 25. I don't regret it, but at the time it absolutely felt like a "back to square one" type of failure. I was also terrified that my depression was flaring up again. I remembered days of sitting on the bathroom floor crying in panic, and I could feel that state inching its way back towards me. Dropping out was 100% the right decision. And hey, the money saved on not doing the second and third years of the course allowed me to plan a trip to meet my long distance partner in person for the first time. We are now happily married. You never know what amazing parts of your life might not have happened if you kept struggling on for the sake of appearances.

  • @Miguel-Del
    @Miguel-Del 4 месяца назад +4

    You’re doing great. I myself only have ADD, and I have no real excuses for not going back and finishing my bachelors, but I’m not going to. And that’s okay with me. I chose to optimized for being around my family and work in IT, where I can make career strides without a degree. In your case, you’ve already seemingly achieved your dream and your reach for educating others is far greater on this platform. Thanks for sharing this!

  • @jessicagatlin8397
    @jessicagatlin8397 4 месяца назад +7

    I’m working on my masters in clinical mental health, and I share your channel with classmates and professors every chance I get. You are doing a fantastic job teaching the next generation of counselors outside of the classroom.
    I also work in crisis intervention, and I have gained so much learning from you how to help someone experiencing symptoms of schizophrenia.
    I love your channel ❤

  • @user-sd1fp2gd3y
    @user-sd1fp2gd3y 4 месяца назад +9

    Sending hugs 🤗 Failure is kind of a hard judgement. Maybe it's a sign to go left or right 👍 Don't give up.

  • @HollySikora
    @HollySikora 4 месяца назад +5

    You ARE a teacher, a professor, an academic. Your chanel is a University like no other. You are awesome and I'm glad you have this chanel.

  • @mspsychgenius
    @mspsychgenius 4 месяца назад +3

    I like the word drowning. I feel you, when I started my masters it felt like being in a room where the folders had been thrown in the air and I just have ADHD x

  • @jeanie111
    @jeanie111 4 месяца назад +4

    Sometimes colleges will have a guest lecturer. You would be perfect for that.
    You are amazing Lauren. So impactful with great support from your hubby❤

  • @shaunisherwood3722
    @shaunisherwood3722 4 месяца назад +3

    Lauren, you've been very brave here. Don't berate yourself!
    I dropped out of a PhD in Mathematics with an MPhil, due to the pandemic, a lack of funds, and the onset of my schizophrenia. I took a year out, working easy jobs. These days, I'm studying for a PhD elsewhere. Things are going well. My symptoms are getting better and my university make allowances for my condition.
    Here's hoping it goes well!
    Anyway, thank you for sharing this valuable experience. I think it helped me see things differently.
    Best,
    Shaun.

  • @lauriem6352
    @lauriem6352 4 месяца назад +13

    Like many other comments you get I wanna add one more thanking you for the work you put into this channel. I dont have schizophrenia but I had a major depressive episode over this summer and your videos regarding just broader mental health and self care were so so very valuable during that time and moving forward from that trying to live well. You are an excellent advocate and educator already. While I understand the desire to fulfill a research role as well, just know that the work you put in has already been so helpful to millions of people struggling with their mental health or trying to provide support to loved ones. ❤

  • @brittanywilcox7377
    @brittanywilcox7377 4 месяца назад +56

    I barely finished an eighteen month technical school program back in 2015. I didn't know back then that i had DID. College is DESIGNED to crush your mental health. It's not designed to support the student. It's a business that's only interested in taking your money and then blaming you for any incompetence the school demonstrates. It just sounds like you've fallen for the lies that college advertises and internalized unnecessary shame. Nobody *has* to go to college. I'm certainly not interested at all in furthering my education. I'm in a fantastic career and I feel very fulfilled. I hope you can work through these negative feelings and realize you're doing more than enough without the higher education❤

    • @dfms3485
      @dfms3485 4 месяца назад +3

      EXACTLY, the only thing that the academia can help you is to make friends.

    • @ckelly7870
      @ckelly7870 4 месяца назад +2

      Well said!

    • @kaglet4963
      @kaglet4963 4 месяца назад +3

      Such a well put comment. I have an animosity towards colleges and universities for the same reasons. It's unfortunate it is that way but it is, crushing to the student and lecturers and academics are full of excuses to victim blame students and never once take responsibility or accountability. It's astonishing. I'm done with it. It is a brutalizing system that gets praise for the wrong things.

  • @beautifulbeast.
    @beautifulbeast. 4 месяца назад +2

    Before I started watching this video I started explaining to a friend watching w/me about you and your channel. You've taught me so much about Schizophrenia, institutions, mental health challages, and greatly you've given me vocabulary that I've never had before. Thank you so much for painfully sharing your life and teaching, please continue to teach us. 💪❤

  • @thebigerns
    @thebigerns 4 месяца назад +1

    For some of us, the cracks in the system are chasms. Thanks, always, for sharing :-)

  • @paulalawson-brown2509
    @paulalawson-brown2509 4 месяца назад +6

    You are amazing! I lost my career when mentally Ill but I began to realise the things around me were so amazing, relationships etc I still had a purpose even without my passing exams etc good luck x

  • @sylviedaigle24
    @sylviedaigle24 4 месяца назад +2

    💕💕💕💕💕💕💕You are an awesome warrior. Thank you for telling it like it is. You are not alone. Let us all love and totally embrace who we are right now.😊

  • @alienpilled
    @alienpilled 4 месяца назад +2

    I totally relate to this. For me, it was lupus and bipolar 2 showing up in my early 20s. It took a decade to realize it wasn't a personal flaw or failure, but I'm so much happier now that I've accepted myself and am planning goals accordingly.

  • @meganjoelyn2207
    @meganjoelyn2207 4 месяца назад +3

    I am so proud of you for coming to this point. When I was a teenager, my dad died, and I had what I call a freakout. I ended up dropping out of high school and spending the next decade trying to fix that mistake. I had always assumed that I would go to college and be successful (I didn't even know college was optional until I was in high school). I finally graduated from high school in 2020 and in my early 30s, found myself in college. That dropout now has an AA degree! I am still struggling to accept that my life is not what I had pictured and I too have held on to goals that no longer fit my life. I completely understand the feelings that you have expressed. It is as if we have to mourn the loss of those ideas we had for ourselves. It is hard, but we can still be awesome and in lives that make us happy. You are making even more of a difference this way than you would have solely in the academic world.
    (Also, your Christmas tree is beautiful)

  • @lucillebelzil9956
    @lucillebelzil9956 4 месяца назад +4

    You are brilliant. I watch you talk without notes. You are clear, well spoken and very organized in your presentation. That is no mean feat, even with practise. I say this as a very experienced senior high teacher in the language arts. You are doing what you were destined to do.

  • @ctrawick3
    @ctrawick3 4 месяца назад +3

    Lauren - That’s not failure; it’s growth. You don’t fail to keep up; you weren’t suppose to keep up. You have found your outlet of greatest help and influence. This video bears that point out better than I could ever speak it.

  • @carolineharrison9288
    @carolineharrison9288 3 месяца назад +2

    Haveing depression and anxiety, plus living with my 40 year old godson who has Schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, having no money to live anywhere next year after my mobile home burning down I get you! You sound like me, my own worst critic because I have no degree at all but approximately 150 CEUs out of only 46 required by the state my childhood dreams of a degree died. I lost both parents by age 23 as an only child so the dream died when my father did when I was 15. I’ve had some college ages ago. Now the dreams have come true up again though I see no way especially at 56!
    You’re absolutely correct. Much can still be achieved without a degree. Something may change for each of us in the future!❤️

  • @fredriktornelius
    @fredriktornelius 4 месяца назад +6

    I doped out of a course today! I mostly did it because it was a very interesting course, but I've had the same aspirations as you for a long time. I'll be writing my thesis for my bachelor's degree in spring, half-time. I don't know how far I'll be able to pursue my education, but I'm giving it the best I got. But yes, lot's of shame, lot's of impostor syndrome and struggling to make the education work for me.
    I love that you have redefined your own goals closer to what is meaningful for you. So much respect.

  • @Openmindallthetime143
    @Openmindallthetime143 4 месяца назад +2

    Blessings to everyone

  • @shalinastilley446
    @shalinastilley446 4 месяца назад +8

    You absolutely should be proud of yourself for what you are accomplishing. I am a professor and I watch your videos to learn more about your condition and because I find you to be very inspiring. So you are a de facto professor's professor. Thanks, professor!

  • @Smorphi
    @Smorphi 4 месяца назад +2

    I am quietly watching your videos for 2 years now. I have the utmost respect for you and the way you tackle your problems!
    God bless you and your family. You can do this, do not stop believing in yourself!
    Much love from Germany!

  • @photoman2004
    @photoman2004 4 месяца назад +3

    I used to have dreams about university, where i needed one more course to get my degree .. then i totally blew it for the year.. never studied, missed most classes, tried to cram the last 2 days ... over and over this same kind of dream😀

  • @lauramcclain8651
    @lauramcclain8651 4 месяца назад +1

    I had to drop out two years into my PhD in counseling psychology program . The stress of the program left me depressed , anorexic , suicidal , and self-harming . The professors simply did not care .Was only able to get a masters . Haunts me to this day . My mental illness won . That’s how it feels .

  • @suzycanfly
    @suzycanfly 4 месяца назад +3

    Thank you for posting this. I started crying towards the end... remembering how I cried so many tears trying to get back to academia. I had so much shame, my brother would call me useless, my dad would yell at me. Yes you can! And I pushed and pushed. And I failed. I ended up backeracted. I felt like a disappointment. I felt "useless" . But thanks to your insight I'm starting to see the light. I am starting to have compassion and courage in myself. And self-esteem. You don't know how much I needed to hear this. Thank you! ❤️ Sending you and your family a BIG hug!

  • @TheUptightTVFear
    @TheUptightTVFear 4 месяца назад +2

    Hi! have you heard of the story of Elyn Saks? She is a psychiatrist with schizophrenia, and she wrote a book called "the center cannot hold" about her experiences throughout university and her struggles. You might find it interesting!

  • @colleenschneider191
    @colleenschneider191 4 месяца назад +2

    YES!! Our lived experience IS the new education system. THANK YOU for your channel and advocacy. I have different diagnoses but I have gained so much from you. Bless you and thank you. Capacity is my word for the year and I got that from you. ❤

  • @jmk1962
    @jmk1962 4 месяца назад +4

    You are a wonderful teacher. I have learnt so much from watching your videos, far more than any textbook could have told me especially as you are living with SZD and are telling it from your own lived experience. That knowledge is priceless.

  • @LBkid90
    @LBkid90 4 месяца назад +1

    This is one of the best channels on RUclips your channel saved me I was also diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and it’s made my life much harder but with support and channels like this I now am seeing light at the end of the tunnel you are a very wise and articulate women thank you for all you do I hope you continue to share your experiences.

  • @cindyhalpern3187
    @cindyhalpern3187 4 месяца назад +1

    My late former sister- in- law was brilliant, she graduated college at 17. But she could never get the Master's Degree due to mental illness.
    She had a perfect cumulative at an undergraduate level. But it got too challenging for her to continue. She ended up in a psychiatric facility.
    Don't push yourself beyond what you can do right now.
    There is no shame here at all.

  • @jasonboyd782
    @jasonboyd782 4 месяца назад +2

    Sorry for the email, was well intended. Still watching the channel, and appreciating your service to others in making these videos.

  • @psrwhite
    @psrwhite 4 месяца назад +5

    Lauren, through your RUclips channel you are reaching the people who really need to learn from you. The skills and personal knowledge you have is so valuable to those people whom you reach directly. Being a professor teaching others in the university is a great thing; but even greater is the fact that you are reaching so many more people directly. I appreciate you so much.

  • @bobidderis3880
    @bobidderis3880 4 месяца назад +1

    I dropped from three universities because of my bipolar conditions. But life goes on. Now I'm already has permanent job in engineering field. I'm a hands on kinda guy. I don't like books and lectures. Stresses me out. But when given chances to learn using hands on methods I'm super happy and can focus my scatter brain.

  • @hispoiema
    @hispoiema 4 месяца назад +4

    You're putting your priorities in the Right Place and that says A LOT about your character! ❤

  • @Livingin2Die
    @Livingin2Die 4 месяца назад +1

    I had a cyber security job stripped from me because of schizophrenia and it hurts badly to the point I feel I will never be anything in life your videos give me hope and I’m in a dark spot. Thank you you touching a lot of lives I say this crying right now and I’m grateful for you sharing

  • @Megfo2000
    @Megfo2000 4 месяца назад +2

    As a neurodivergent Woman who has had a very similar experience with academia, I will argue until I’m blue in the face that you ARE affecting SO many more people in a phenomenally positive way with the work you do on this really wonderful channel than you would ever be able to accomplish as a professor. You have an INCREDIBLE GIFT to be able to communicate and teach about such an important aspect of real life that is too special to be hemmed in by the narrow culture of most university systems. ❤🙌

  • @amyjones8613
    @amyjones8613 4 месяца назад +2

    I have scitzoaffective disorder depression type and also notice traditional school is not for me. I dropped out as well. I felt horrible. You are doing so well with your youtube channel. Keep going with that and it helps yourself and others too.

  • @kimberlybaldridge5767
    @kimberlybaldridge5767 4 месяца назад +1

    Thank you for sharing this. I had a similar experience when I went to grad school. My bachelors program went great, but when i went back a few years later, my bipolar was starting to emerge (undiagnosed at that time, of course) and I could barely retain a paragraph i was reading. I didnt think about requesting accommodations because I had no idea what I needed. I also just kind of disappeared without ever withdrawing. I felt like a total failure. I still struggle with that. Its nice to know I am not alone in this

  • @Kristen-ek9rz
    @Kristen-ek9rz 4 месяца назад +1

    Thank you Lauren for this. It's so disappointing when our plans do not work out as we hoped for. Sixteen years ago, I was a high-functioning therapist and mother of two young children. I was in the process of doing the research for going into private practice when I got very physically ill (with depression too). I had to quit working and I became an ill stay-at-home mom. I always thought my plan was to reinstate my therapy license and return to work.......nope, I'm still not well enough to work regular employment. I just started writing children's books very part-time from home with the hopes of returning to outside employment next year. Surrendering to changes is so difficult, especially living in a society that conditions us to believe we are to function a certain way within dysfunctional systems. Be well, and thank you again.

  • @bethsangree397
    @bethsangree397 4 месяца назад +2

    So much wisdom and insight here! And self awareness and compassion! I am sharing this with my trauma survivors support group. Thank you. And yes I agree with the other people here who have said that the academic system is very toxic and limiting. You are doing much more meaningful work on here than you ever could in a classroom. I think that your channel should be required viewing for any psych program. Thanks for the work you are doing!

  • @adelledinsmore7969
    @adelledinsmore7969 4 месяца назад +15

    I feel this so hard. School is entirely unreachable for me and it hurts. But I CAN do other things. I have a new job that is very accommodating and that I'm excited about it.
    I just need you to know how much you've helped me. I got the official schizoaffective diagnosis this year after struggling for 20 years (I'm nearly 40) send your channel really helped me SEE myself and to accept myself. You helped me realize that I can have a good life even though I have limitations. Thank you for being here and for doing what you do.

  • @tylerelstrom
    @tylerelstrom 4 месяца назад

    You’re so wonderful. Thank you for how incredible you are

  • @juliej5917
    @juliej5917 4 месяца назад +1

    Having a very young child and two in elementary school pulls a mother in so many different directions. Caring for a home and a marriage, and I suppose most important of all is putting your health in the forefront. I am so proud of everything you do, and I am a stranger. Maybe when your tiny one is in school all day you can revisit your masters. There is no shame in knowing your limits at this time. You’re a superhero. I’ve learned so much from you! 🎉

  • @roz8244
    @roz8244 4 месяца назад +3

    I believe you have already and will continue to reach and support more people with your channel than you would have in academia. Your presence on this platform is so appreciated by so many. Also the current toxic politicized state of many academic institutions is not necessarily a great place to be.

  • @jp-nn6vr
    @jp-nn6vr 4 месяца назад

    Kudos for the attempt. You did not fail.

  • @1tennismama
    @1tennismama 4 месяца назад

    I so admire your analysis of your desire

  • @lorettadittrich3148
    @lorettadittrich3148 4 месяца назад +7

    You have been a godsend to me as I help my daughter navigate Schizophrenia. You help more than you know! Thank you Thank you for you do for us. Your honesty, wisdom, candor and sharing have helped the world at large have a clear and realistic picture of what Schizophrenia is and the challenges that come with this illness. Your body of work thus far has most definitely earned you an honorary Doctorate from Humanity. Thank you Lauren!!

  • @monkeylove2620
    @monkeylove2620 4 месяца назад

    You're doing great

  • @lexamdelac28
    @lexamdelac28 4 месяца назад +4

    I just decided against going back to school, partly because I hold myself back due to my mental condition (schizoaffective/bipolar/schizophrenia) at times and then a couple other different reasons. I could see going back to school as stressing me out too much with the full schedule and tests which I'm not the best test taker. I hope you get the career you want with or without going back to school. No shame to you - you are not a failure! Always worth a try. We do the best we can and things can get better. Thank you for being open and providing hope that we neurodivergent people have so many different avenues to go and I imagine more will be available with awareness of us!

  • @podaly
    @podaly 4 месяца назад +1

    You are already doing what your end goal was... teaching and research. I'm getting my masters online, one class at a time, with disability access...at 70. You have time. And you are doing so much good right now.

  • @paulsimpson3620
    @paulsimpson3620 4 месяца назад +3

    I think by any measure you have achieved at least the equivalent of a masters degree, if not more. You live, articulate and advocate so well.

  • @unjay1967
    @unjay1967 4 месяца назад

    Your channel fulfils your mission as an educator. It’s a fantastic resource for us.

  • @roxiesorrells4552
    @roxiesorrells4552 3 месяца назад

    You are truly a wonderful person and doing such great things with yourself, I am proud of you. And love your videos!

  • @janemoran9606
    @janemoran9606 4 месяца назад

    Thank you for your wonderful insight

  • @leslierick1109
    @leslierick1109 4 месяца назад

    You are a teacher! Your videos are so informative & such a help to so many people. You are so mature from all you have experienced & just sharing it is quite the gift of education.

  • @burymewithabook
    @burymewithabook 4 месяца назад +1

    I so relate to this!! ❤️

  • @madalamachini
    @madalamachini Месяц назад

    You’re so amazing!!! You’re changing lives!! Thanks for making me feel not alone ❤

  • @witchintherain
    @witchintherain 4 месяца назад

    I really needed to hear this today, tysm for sharing 💗

  • @rebeccahill5146
    @rebeccahill5146 4 месяца назад

    Thank you for sharing your life and struggles!

  • @chancebozeman5171
    @chancebozeman5171 4 месяца назад

    Thanks for sharing! You’re an inspiration! I’ve struggled with the school and work due to my mental illness as well. 100% relate to this struggle you’re describing.

  • @Hopeghostone
    @Hopeghostone 4 месяца назад

    Very relatable! Great vid Thank you 🩵

  • @manicantsettleonausername6789
    @manicantsettleonausername6789 4 месяца назад

    Thank you for talking about this so openly and honestly, it's really refreshing and lowers the barrier for being honest with oneself about similar things and struggles! Thanks for opening the conversation

  • @HildaBolivar
    @HildaBolivar 4 месяца назад

    Thanks for opening your channel and probably your future office.

  • @xylh5085
    @xylh5085 4 месяца назад +1

    I also had to drop out twice because of my illness. I know it feels bad. It feels like my potential is being choked out by my illness. I'm getting tired of my brain working much harder to break me than make me.

  • @dawnpallutch8295
    @dawnpallutch8295 4 месяца назад

    You’re amazing I couldn’t do what you do making these videos to help others. Thank you for all of us just trying to hang on.

  • @jmcgregor316
    @jmcgregor316 4 месяца назад

    This channel is SO valuable. You are so valuable doing this HERE. Thank you!

  • @dorismayorga1769
    @dorismayorga1769 4 месяца назад

    You are such an inspiration to all of us! Thank you and God bless you!💕💕💕🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

  • @laramauss1948
    @laramauss1948 4 месяца назад +1

    i am sorry to heat that. My sister couldn’t finish her masters degree because of acute illness too. She was an A student. 😢. But now she is a happy kindergarten worker. She is very good with kids and they don’t judge if you have an academic degree or not. She was able to take part in the 3-year training program for that, not always easy due to her schizophrenia, but possible in contrast to the masters degree.

  • @lacasadelasflores5651
    @lacasadelasflores5651 4 месяца назад

    Very well said. So true in every word you have said.

  • @slantos2668
    @slantos2668 4 месяца назад +1

    Getting "degrees" is only one way of being academic. I say this as someone who got a Master's by giving up everything else in life, and realizing I did not want to follow through with PhD, although I got into several programs. In both my personal and work life, I do a LOT of research and education without having those extra "degrees". I've done more to change my society than most academics. I feel you are on a similar path. There's a reason "honorary degrees" exist too. I don't regret not continuing through academia. I hope you won't either.

  • @BobbyTomMathew
    @BobbyTomMathew 4 месяца назад

    You are doing a great job. You're an inspiration to us all.

  • @JuanPabloCarrasco-yp3zd
    @JuanPabloCarrasco-yp3zd 4 месяца назад

    Thank you so so much for this video... You cant imagin how much do i appreciate it...

  • @samanthabv
    @samanthabv 4 месяца назад

    Thank you very much for sharing stories like these. I live with mental illness and I feel such shame when I fail at something. And I’ve always suffered in silence. Your videos help so much.

  • @tonybarnett4382
    @tonybarnett4382 4 месяца назад

    Youre doing great! Very self aware, helpful to viewers. Doing what you always wanted just not how you thought 🙂