“Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give but cannot. All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.” 💙
This song hits hard. I met someone online and we started talking all day every day for a couple months. We connected on a level I never had before. We had so much in common it was ridiculous. He made me so happy every day. Every single day, that is, until the day he suddenly passed away. I never got the chance to meet him in person. We were planning on finally meeting in person that month, but unfortunately, it was too late. I will never forget the way he made me feel and the happiness he gave me. I think that was the happiest I’ve ever been in my whole life. I really think I fell in love with him that quickly. He was amazing. He was perfect. I will never ever forget him as long as I live. RIP Chris ❤️
This song hurts. I am still recovering from my grandfather who died last 2020 then my 7 years old cousin who is like my little sister died 7 months ago and life is never the same since. This song described my feelings so well. Thanks for making this song.
@@bvnnyteeth I am so sorry for your loss my grandfather died at the age of 94 although he lived his life well and I believed he served his purpose, his death is still so hard to accept. I still think of him all the time.
my brother died on april 2021 , and my father on 2003 - this song brought tears to my eyes. im from germany - sorry for my english. dianne ,i know how you feel and im sorry for your loss
I lost my husband in December 2020 to cancer. This song speaks everything that is so hard to put into words. Over a year later and I still wish he'd walk through the door.
I lost mine on August 28, 2021. Unfortunately, cancer took him too. I miss him so much and he will always be the love of my life. Sending both of you a big hug!
I lost my love in a trucking accident! He died July 27 2018 and I still feel the pain like it was yesterday 💔 grief is something I could never put into words!! I'm sorry to you all for your loss!!
I lost my dad 10 years ago next month. Whoever says it gets easier truly does not know what they're talking about. My dad was everything he was my strength he was my inspiration to do better and to be better he was like my moral compass. And he was my rock I went through hard times. But there is one thing I know he's always here with me. We never truly lose the people we truly love and that has loved us we can't see many more everyday but they are there right beside you taking every step you take breathing Every Breath You breathe. But just because they're physically gone doesn't mean they stopped being with you they will always be with you wherever this life should take you that's because you keep them in your heart. And yes this song will move you to tears, it is such a beautiful song.
I lost my mum earlier this year, and I can already tell this is a wound time can heal, she was everything to me. I'm glad you can also still feel your dad with you, at least we have that 🤎🤎🤎
To those like us who find it hard to express our emotions comprehensively and accurately we come sit and listen to Nina, this song does its best to express the very marrows of our brokenness..
Feeling true grief, for the first time in my life, and I can confirm this song is 100% accurate. God bless everyone going through this. Believe that they are only in another dimension and your love will bring you to them when it's your turn to go. And, that every single tear drop can be felt by them, as it turns from your grief to an "I love you" to them.
Grief is love with no place to go! I know I will have my son again in heaven one day! I wish I was with him but my two remaining children only have one parent…me. My kids Dad died 5 years ago & then my oldest son died 10 months ago. I’m forever heartbroken missing my boy. His 7 year old son is here for me to love & I’m going to love him all the days of his life like I did Chris. 35 is too young. Fuck covid. You stopped my sons heart!!!!! And crushed mine!!
When Nina writes a sad song she knows what she’s doing, songs like this, Hold You or Make Me Fall are perfect examples, no one shows reflectiveness quite the same
I would agree, but also check out Gemma Hayes. She does melancholy and longing like no other. I think you might appreciate her, especially "Palomino", "Happy Sad", "Back Of My Hand" and "Ruin".
I broke up with my boyfriend a month and a half ago and it still hurts. He has already moved on, I feel depressed and alone. Your song comforts me at least a little. Thank you.
One Day he will be in your present position. Hang in there ❤️☀️☀️❤️, hold your head up high and face the Day with Gratitude wherever you can find it, and there is much. Work on You and a year from now you can look back and see what it all meant. Pocket that Knowledge, and fall in Love with Beautiful You!
I thought it'd only be a moment Like a night of summer rain But it's like a landslide of emotion Everyday I've been trying to recover I put you to the back of my brain Now I'm just to remember you In the best way I I go from feeling numb to feeling everything at once And don't know if I Wanna cry, one of the hardest things I've ever had to learn Is how to lose someone First, you don't have the words It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive Changes you forever in the blink of an eye And it's not something that just fades overnight It's something that stays for the rest of your life When you lose somebody you love When you lose somebody you love It comes and goes like it's a season But the clouds are always grey And late at night when I'm alone with my thoughts It feels like a Ferrari racing (on and on) I go from, feeling numb, to feeling everything at once And don't know if I Wanna cry, one of the hardest things I've ever had to learn Is how to lose someone First, you don't have the words It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive Changes you forever in the blink of an eye And it's not something that just fades overnight It's something that stays for the rest of your life When you lose somebody you love (lose somebody you love) When you lose somebody you love (goes on and on) when you lose somebody (When you lose somebody) when you lose somebody you love (When you lose somebody) when you lose somebody The hardest thing I've ever had to learn First, you don't have the words It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive Changes you forever in the blink of an eye And it's not something that just fades overnight It's something that stays for the rest of your life When you lose somebody you love When you lose somebody you love When you lose somebody you love The hardest thing I've ever had to learn
A beautiful song. So beautiful. I lost my mom and grandmother (last grandparent) in 2019, my dog of 10+ years in 2020 and my dad in 2021. This song, while sad, is also comforting. Grief is a hard journey that we will all go through at some point. And it is so hard to learn how to lose someone you love. How to start again and carry them with you. Eventually, you start to live again but it’s different. It’s like the way you see the world is broken and everything looks different. Hopefully, you learn how to feel their presence in a different way and realize they’re still with you and will always be a part of you. But it’s so hard. Much love to the many people on here going through grief. ❤️
That’s what makes art worthwhile. When artists like Nina are able to word out what it feels like and then other people know that they’re not alone. Love it!
this song has broken me and comforted me in equal measure, trying to adjust to life without the man who was possibly the true love of my life, she has given voice to my heart; a beautiful song to cry, heal and let go to.
This song got right to my heart and head. I lost my son almost 6 years ago. You said it all it never goes away and you try to not remember it but you never get over the pain of losing a child.
I lost my mum earlier this year and I feel the same, not trying to remember the memories that make the heart ache the most. The love never goes away, so I know the pain of not having them also stays. I wish you the most beautiful life possible 🤎
I lost my father 14 years ago and the pain is still as strong as the day I was told he was dead. It's so hard to heal from it and move on. I wish I could have seen him before he passes away but well... Life happens. Enjoy each moment with your parents. It's so precious.
*Whenever I listen to this song, I missed my Mom so much who passed away 4th of March this year and I have been struggling alot with my life lately. But this song give me some strength and blessed my heart so thank you Nina* ♥️
This song just gave me memories of my mum 💔😭😭. She passed away in Nov 2020 and things have changed since then. It's never the same without the ones we love. I miss her so much.🥺😭
You captured into words something for which there really are no words. You have captured this impossible emotion of grief into a single song and then set it free for the world to heal. Thankyou!
I just lost one of my best friends on Sunday and it’s been extremely hard for not only myself, but for so many people that loved him. My heart is so shattered for his wife and two little girls…. Music has always helped me cope with life. And when I came across this song, it spoke to me instantly. Thank you for writing and singing this song Nina. ❤️
I'd never heard of you and as I sit here unraveling and asking why this child I cared for so deeply as my own was taken from us so unnecessarily and I feel like he pushed me to hear this thank you for putting this pain into words
I lost my last surviving grandmother in July 2020, one of my uncles February 2021, and another uncle and my last surviving grandfather within a week of each other in October 2021. This song puts the grief I've felt for months into the words I never could. Thank you Nina 💕
I lost my dad a few days ago, I came home from work and there he was. I’ve been an absolute wreck and I can’t explain how I go from numb to feeling everything all at once. I see parts of him around the house, his phone still rings and I don’t hear his voice follow. Small things catch my eye and I remember him. This song popped up and broke my heart all over again
Same here, lost my Daddy to cancer last Dec 2021 and life has never been the same. I took care of him 26 years of my life including 10 years of my married life. I miss my Daddy so much.
I love the words of this song! Losing someone to passing or break up is hard. In my despair crying out to God why Lord why? I found myself searching listening and then I had the most real nightmare. Just when I thought I was at the end of life, I felt someone take my hand but saw no one there. But the feeling of love and safety was evident. I woke up and felt renewed. The guilt, disappointment, the why have all been replaced with this. I look for the good in everything. The loss of my loved ones, the end of a relationship, disappointment in family children friends. I look for the good. It is hard and sometimes difficult but then the good is worth it. Give your worries, your baggage of burdens to God and know he has this for you. Walk away and feel the goodness. There is POWER in PRAYER. GOD BLESS YOU ALL. WE are survivors not victims...
With every falling apart there is a coming back together, I hope everyone going through pain it shall pass by & you are not alone , I love you ❤️ Thank you for existing ✨
I lost the father of my kids in February 2024. We spent everyday together for almost 20 years. March would have been 20 years. I miss him deeply and I will always cherish every moment we spent together. 😢 I’m trying my best to cope and move forward with my life. It’s just so damn hard without him!
I’m so sorry I know how it feels to lose the person we love, I lost my wife and mom June 4th 2021 on a car wrecked, sometimes the pain is unbearable but we have to move on as life goes on, it’d be nice to hear from you , where are you from.?..
i left this comment on facebook but i wanted to leave it here too: this song gives breath to how i have been feeling since having my heart broken, grieving the loss of loved ones, and all the emotions i feel day and night. beautifully executed and grateful to have an artist who can express these difficult feelings in song. thank u for creating something that can help with mine and so many others healing process.
I first experienced grief a week after my dad died. I was 18 and sat in the workshop and opened the bag my mum had given me on my first day back, a week after he died. It contained a small home made apple pie. My dad used to get one every week and now it became my heirloom. Sounds a bit daft nearly 50 years later but I still get emotional every time I bake one. Today I was helped by our 6 year old granddaughter Eliza. It tasted good with a few tears on top, Iain
My dear friend lost her husband recently, and she shared this with me explaining that it explains so much of what she's feeling. Thank you for your talents, and for these devastatingly beautiful lyrics that speak to so many. I'm so glad it has brought her some sort of understanding during such an unthinkable situation. My heart! TEARS! Thank you.
It's been three years since my dad suddenly passed away. I remember the day like it was yesterday when I got the news. It was sunny. The snow and ice were melting. A lovely day in early February. It was so warm that I had to take my jacket off when I was shoveling the driveway. I was the last to know. A week later, it was his funeral. Before we left the funeral home, we each took a little red plastic heart from a glass jar as memorabilia of his passing. I have it somewhere but that little heart changed my life in ways that I didn't know it would. It was the last time I would ever see his face before they'd close his casket. The day was so cold, the coldest its been all that winter. It snowed that morning, heavy snow, the type of snow he loved. He always loved the snow but not the cold, just like me. My fingers were frozen while I clung to his coffin in front of a crowd of people. I wore a red coat, like the colour of the roses I made his wreath out of. It was the weekend before Valentine's Day and every flower shop was full of red roses, the symbol of love. It's gotten easier but it still hits me sometimes knowing that I should've treasured my time with him instead of trying to fix how we spent time together. And if I could just have 10 minutes with him, that's all I'll ever need. Miss him everyday. Shine on you crazy diamond 💎
I lost my husband July 18 2021 to Covid at 44 years old. I never saw it coming. I am recovering still and this song truly opens your eyes to the process. Beautiful song beautiful message.
Whatever you were facing, remember to not easily give up. Fight that negative feeling inside you. If you fall, stand back up and keep fighting. Never underestimated your inner power. Show to the world that you are one of the best and try to stay positive at all costs.
That’s true. It’s ok to hurt and crying is sooo relieving to the soul. Don’t hold it in when you have grief within your heart and soul. Everyone goes through the stages of grieving at their own pace. Go through it and the sun will surely shine for you yet again one day. Going through all stages of grieving doesn’t mean you won’t ever think about your special someone and cry at times and that’s perfectly fine to allow yourself to remember the pain, the good and bad times. But, I know that that someone is around you at all times everyday. As well as God will be holding you up whenever you cannot hold your own self up. Look around and you will see all the signs this person is still with you and is waiting to see you again when Our Heavenly Father calls you home. What a glorious reunion that will be. ❤️
Lyrics: I thought it'd only be a moment Like a night of summer rain But it's like a landslide of emotion Everyday I've been trying to recover I put you to the back of my brain Now I'm just to remember you In the best way I I go from feeling numb to feeling everything at once And don't know if I Wanna cry, one of the hardest things I've ever had to learn Is how to lose someone First, you don't have the words It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive Changes you forever in the blink of an eye And it's not something that just fades overnight It's something that stays for the rest of your life When you lose somebody you love When you lose somebody you love It comes and goes like it's a season But the clouds are always grey And late at night when I'm alone with my thoughts It feels like a Ferrari racing (on and on) I go from, feeling numb, to feeling everything at once And don't know if I Wanna cry, one of the hardest things I've ever had to learn Is how to lose someone First, you don't have the words It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive Changes you forever in the blink of an eye And it's not something that just fades overnight It's something that stays for the rest of your life When you lose somebody you love (lose somebody you love) When you lose somebody you love (goes on and on) when you lose somebody (When you lose somebody) when you lose somebody you love (When you lose somebody) when you lose somebody The hardest thing I've ever had to learn First, you don't have the words It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive Changes you forever in the blink of an eye And it's not something that just fades overnight It's something that stays for the rest of your life When you lose somebody you love When you lose somebody you love When you lose somebody you love The hardest thing I've ever had to learn
I heard this song several years ago when it first came out. I always thought it was so beautiful and heartbreaking. Now, it hits differently - I lost my dad suddenly exactly a week ago. Now the words have taken on such meaning that I hoped I wouldn't have to understand for a long time... but in a strange way, I'm glad I have this song.
This song explained so many things I can never put into words and to those who have lost someone close remember this every day. Remember: they loved you, you were there everything, one day you’ll see them again, it’s ok not to feel ok, it hard but just remember salt looks like sugar, I know the invisible but just remember you were the hardest thing that that person had to give up ☺️☺️😇
We had to say goodbye to our doggy yesterday. He got to live to 16,5 years and it was really his time, but he was the absolute sweetest dog in the world. My life was infinitally richer with him in it. I'm so grateful to have been able to spend so many beautiful years with him. But none of that makes losing him any easier. To anyone going through grief right now: it's okay, let yourself feel it. They will stay with you in your heart and one day the sun will shine again. Much love to all❤❤
She can do no wrong, she is such a great songwriter and singer. It´s been so cool following her since Peroxide and it´s been so amazing to see her evolve and become even better than she was before. One of the most underrated artists of our generation along with Tinashe, Tori Kelly and JoJo.
Nina, I don't know if you read the comments on your songs, but if you see this one, I just want to say thank you. Thank you for giving words to feelings that so many of us have and can't express. Grief is not a lesson any of us want to have to learn, because it's something that can only be learned by experience. I wrote an article about ambiguous loss right after this song first released and I referenced your song for the article... It's still one of my favourite things that I've published because I wanted to help others the way your song has helped me. Thank you. ❤
This song truly hurts...got me really emotional. I lost my best friend and my dad in 2021 just 2 months apart from each other. I am still recovering.. I don't think I ever will. Until I actually see them one day.😭😭
6 weeks ago, my husband and I had a talk for over two hours while our son slept between us. He had struggled for over 2 years with addiction, depression, anxiety and bipolar disorder. He had finally gotten a good amount of clean time, but was still refusing to go to a psychiatrist about the possibility of taking an SSRI, or a mood stabilizer or something. I could see that his depression was worsening, and I begged him so many times. But that night, we had a great talk, about moving forward, starting over, clean slate in a different state in a few months. We talked honestly about the way the 2 years had affected our relationship and our family, and how to rebuild after he had killed the trust that we had shared with his relapses. He told me that he felt real hope for the first time in over 2 years that we could rebuild our marriage and put it on even stronger foundations. Right before he went to sleep, he groaned and put his hand to his forehead. I asked if he had a headache. He said, "no, sometimes a thought from the past few years will bust in and send me right back to rock bottom." I asked if he wanted to talk, but he didn't. He said he just needed some sleep and would be better tomorrow. He woke up early, tried to call and text his mom several times, and when I woke up and walked to the kitchen to get some water, I saw my soulmate, my husband, the only man I have ever truly loved.....I saw him through the kitchen window that looked out on the back porch. He had hung himself there. Over one of the rafters. I tried hacking at the rope with a knife, then dug at it with my fingernails. He was 6'6" and I'm 5'1", so I got him loose and tried to gently lower him down. I climbed on his chest and started trying to get his heart to beat, find a heartbeat, tilted his head back and tried to blow my life from my lungs into his. He was gone. My beautiful, loving, funny, scarred, imperfect, devoted, far-from-perfect but loved infinitely just the same, husband was....gone. In the span of a moment. I've drug my feet through this past 6 weeks trying to figure out what life looks like without him in it. It doesn't help that every other aspect of my life took that opportunity after he passed away to go ahead and fall apart as well. This song feels like it's singing directly to the jagged hole inside of me that refuses to scab over even a tiny bit.
I’m so sorry I know how it feels to lose the person we love, I lost my wife and mom June 4th 2021 on a car wrecked, sometimes the pain is unbearable but we have to move on as life goes on, it’d be nice to hear from you , where are you from.?.
Thank you for writing this masterpiece of a story and putting it into a song this couldn't have come at a better time for me, Tomorrow is 14 years since my mum passed away so it'll be on repeat all day today, tomorrow and the rest of my life. I'm gonna use it as a tool for healing as well as for allowing myself to get out every emotion I have built up inside when I need to and listen to the lyrics. I have lost a lot of people in my life as of recent so the ballad does make me think of them too and having to learn to move on without them hurts more than a knife with the sharpest blade. The song also makes me think of all the families of every person that is losing those they love in Ukraine right now 😓🥺😭💔 my heart is with them all I feel so guilty cause all I can do is sit back & watch what is happening before all our eyes and I can't go there to help but I will do what I can do even if that's just putting in a donation to the fund at least it's something #IStandWithUkraine🇺🇦 🙏☮️🕊️🌹X X X x
If you are trying to cope with the loss of a loved one, it can be one of the most difficult things to endure on this Earth, but please understand there is real hope and comfort through Jesus Christ. I am sharing my best friend's story with the world in hopes that it will be a help to so many who are grieving. God bless you! Precious Memories-By Sonya Lakey Family Story Little did our family of six know that Friday evening, September 24th, 2021, would be the last night our family would be complete. We laughed together, played games, sang, and enjoyed listening as our 16-year-old son, Ethan, played the piano for us. I packed a lunch for Ethan for a church mountain hike he was going on the following day. My mother (who was visiting from out of state) and I woke early with Ethan on Saturday morning. He hugged me and smiled, never pulling away or rushing me. He got in the car, waved, said he'd see me later and he loved me. It was hard to watch my "new driver" heading out on his own that morning. As Ethan pulled out of the gate, I turned to my mother and said, "It's just so hard letting go." Little did I know how much "letting go" I was really doing. That was the last time I saw Ethan. He did not make it home that evening. That afternoon, a friend tried to contact my husband, leaving an urgent message to call him back. He tried several times to return the call to no avail. As we were preparing supper, an overwhelming feeling of deep concern for Ethan filled my heart. I quietly blinked back tears. I glanced out the window, half expecting to see a police officer pull up to the house, but no one arrived. However, within a few minutes, a patrol car DID pull into the driveway. In my heart, I feared the worst. My husband and I went out to meet the officer, who confirmed our fears. Hesitantly, he told us our son had fallen off of a bluff and had succumbed to his injuries. Our hearts were crushed; they still are. Yet, in all of our brokenness, deep, continual grief and loneliness, our family has such a blessed Hope and assurance that we will see our dear son and brother again. You see, when Ethan was a young boy, he was saved; he put his faith in Jesus alone to forgive his sins and to take him to Heaven when he died. He realized some very important truths from the Bible that he would want to share with you. His Story Everyone is a sinner. Sin is any violation of God’s Law. God is holy, just and righteous, and He cannot allow sin in His presence. Ethan realized that he - like all of us - had sinned; and his sin separated Him from God. “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; ” (Romans 3:23) “Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” (Romans 5:12) He understood that, because of his sin, he deserved to spend eternity in Hell. “For the wages of sin is death;” (Romans 6:23a) [Wages: price] “But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.” (Revelation 21:8) Ethan believed that Jesus, God’s Son, paid the price for all sin when He died on the cross - because His sinless sacrifice was the only thing that could satisfy the just demands of a righteous, holy God. Jesus was buried in a borrowed tomb, but He arose the third day, triumphant over sin, death, and Hell. Jesus is alive today! “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9) Ethan was sorry for his sin, repented (turned), and received by faith the free gift that God offered to him. “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23b) Because of this great salvation, Ethan lived his life serving Jesus. He worked hard to spread this Good News to the world. He is alive in Heaven with Jesus today; and because of this great HOPE in Christ, we know we will see him again soon - not because he was a great kid, but because of his faith in the great Saviour! “And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” (John 10:28) Your Story What about you? What if you had fallen to your death that day - What if you were to die today? Where will you spend eternity - Heaven or the Lake of Fire? There will not be any parties in the Lake of Fire. It is a place of eternal torment for those who reject God's Son. The Word of God is very clear that there is only One Way to Heaven. “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6) We did not know that Ethan would step into eternity that day; however, because he put his faith in Jesus alone for his salvation, Ethan was ready to go. Some day - perhaps today - you will take your last breath here on earth, and you will step into eternity. Where you spend eternity is determined by what you do with Jesus Christ. Will you accept Him or reject Him? You are not promised another day or another breath. Eternity begins soon - Are you ready? “...Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…” (Acts 16:31b) “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13) “(...behold, now is the day of salvation.)” (2 Corinthians 6:2c) ****************************** This testimony has been made into a tract form as well, so if you or your church are interested in having them to pass out, please go to libertyfaith.net and you will find the contact info there. God bless! Tribute to Ethan Lakey ruclips.net/video/EhobcQZ6Qb8/видео.html
My Father past away last year and damn this song struck my heart. Help us transform the pain into a brighter Future. The way you delievered this feelings *Goosebumbs* ❤❤❤
I really needed this today, my auntie died from suicide last year and i now have anxiety and maybe depression caused from that event, I had an panic attack this morning because I was thinking about her, but now I have come across this song and it really helped me understand what I am feeling. Also you have a beautiful voice. ❤
My foster brother committed suicide three years ago, i feel everything you're singing in this song. It's definitely going into his playlist. Thank you for making this song, it's beautiful
This song makes me remember of someone I will always love. Her name is similar to yours and you with your amazing songs make me remember of her everytime. Thanks Nina 😌
Perfect song for me today, I just lost my father who was 94, I miss his love so much already. 😢 He just passed 3/13 and the funeral is 3/16. I’m in so much pain. She has a great voice and the song means so much.
I stopped myself from hearing these. But I can't. As I lost my granny this week and next to that day was the day i lost my 1st and last best friend. And sadly my dog was also dead 2 weeks before. I feel overwhelming. And a sphere of grief ball is rolling inside my throat. I can't take any of these and some times I am pretending nothing happened when I know the reality. Failing in every attempt of fooling my mind. Kindly take care of your loved ones and show them that you love them and care for them❤️❤️. You ain't gonna get anything by keeping your love secret. Live the fullest in this life. My prayers to all the strangers reading this.
I lost my mom in 2016 and this song captures what I'm still feeling. Makes me cry every time I listen to it. Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. Thank you.
“I’d always assumed I was responsible for the way I felt. That it was my fault, somehow. Like some people are just born wrong. Built wrong. Raised wrong. I’ve learned that I have always been wrong in thinking that. There has never been anything wrong with me. I wasn’t born different. There was absolutely nothing extra or out of the ordinary about me. I was just born marred by someone else’s scars rather than my own. I will not apologize for how I learned to survive the scars I was born with. I won’t be ashamed of how I’ve learned to carry the pain I was burdened with. I won’t be made responsible for not being capable of stitching wounds I was inflicted with before I was even alive. I’ve been sinking my entire life. My eyes refused to close and the world… It’s never been more absolutely beautiful. The world is golden-brown from here, beautiful while dying, peaceful while fading, silent in the farewell. It’s the most beautiful color I have ever seen in my life. Light streamed through the waves of the ocean that rocked my body gently to the rhythm of a sound only it knew, sung in the voice of all those whose goodbyes my heart felt the absence of. The light created a single flash of golden rays that ignited the bottomless depths of the sea above me, before I was finally buried forever, held in between the arms that had never cradled me. That’s sort of how I felt, too, as I looked at the moving water above me - too close and yet so far away -, dancing elegantly with the tide, with a nostalgia invading me so strong I didn’t crave to fight my way to the surface, though there was a deeply ingrained sadness in the morose parting. I guess it’s time to end my part of the story. It’s time to finally let the dead things go… And let the words I’d never said finally drift to shore…” - Excerpt from a book I’ll probably never publish
Two weeks have gone by without my Pop. I heard this song a month ago, and I had this nibbling feeling that I should save it. Now here I am mourning the loss of my best friend, the man who raised me, the only Dad I had. I thought I knew pain. But these last two weeks have shown that I did not. There are no words for how heartbreaking grief is.
Many of us have lost someone in our lives...it takes a long, long time to recover from that. The memory, although it hurts, also helps to heal, for all those beautiful moments that we lived together, I love you and I miss you my brother ❤️
I love the song. The video takes it to another level. This is the type of song you can let your heart sing it for anyone you’ve loved. A parent, a spouse, a friend. It just hits the right words to describe these types of feelings. I LOVED IT!
I lost my grandfather almost a year ago, May 3, 2022. Still feels like it was a few months ago. He’s the first family member that I lost and could comprehend what was going on. I don’t think I’ve ever cried so much. Out of my 2 grandparents, he was the one I was closer to. Especially when it came to academics. We always talked about my schooling. I graduate from college this summer and I just wish he could be there.
I'm so sorry to read this about your daughter. My best friend died the same way recently. I'm proud to say Ive been heroin free for a little over two years now. I can't imagine losing a child, and my heart aches even just imagining it. Heroin addiction is one of the hardest and most painful things a person can go through. I know as a Heroin addict, that your daughter didn't want the problem she had and probably would have done anything to change it. Hang onto sweet memories....I have found that is what keeps the ones we loved so much alive. Please know that your comment hit me hard and that there is a stranger out there in the world who is thinking of your precious daughter today.
“Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give but cannot. All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.” 💙
Que bello todo lo que has escrito. Muchas gracias.
I love how you put this!
Well put. 💛
Such a beautiful way to make sense of grief & pain...
LOVE is the perfect answer...
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It's how you put it that made it feel better🌺
This song hits hard. I met someone online and we started talking all day every day for a couple months. We connected on a level I never had before. We had so much in common it was ridiculous. He made me so happy every day. Every single day, that is, until the day he suddenly passed away. I never got the chance to meet him in person. We were planning on finally meeting in person that month, but unfortunately, it was too late. I will never forget the way he made me feel and the happiness he gave me. I think that was the happiest I’ve ever been in my whole life. I really think I fell in love with him that quickly. He was amazing. He was perfect. I will never ever forget him as long as I live. RIP Chris ❤️
I am sorry for your loss🤍😔😔🤍
How are u feeling?
I'm definitely sure!! Shes happy for you💞
I hope you are okay. My father in law passed 5/3/2022 in a nursing home because his oldest son put him there. He died tired and miserable.
I can relate to your story,it's almost like we experienced the same thing
This song hurts. I am still recovering from my grandfather who died last 2020 then my 7 years old cousin who is like my little sister died 7 months ago and life is never the same since. This song described my feelings so well. Thanks for making this song.
I can relate my Grandad passed on 30 December 2020, so every new year is gonna feel weird
I am so so sorry for your loss! Nina her music is always with so much emotion ⭐️ love her music
I lost my grandfather my best friend the only person I ever considered a father a few weeks ago this is very relatable my heart aches
@@bvnnyteeth I am so sorry for your loss my grandfather died at the age of 94 although he lived his life well and I believed he served his purpose, his death is still so hard to accept. I still think of him all the time.
my brother died on april 2021 , and my father on 2003 - this song brought tears to my eyes. im from germany - sorry for my english. dianne ,i know how you feel and im sorry for your loss
It's so Sad when someone you Know becomes someone you knew.
I lost my husband in December 2020 to cancer. This song speaks everything that is so hard to put into words. Over a year later and I still wish he'd walk through the door.
I lost my husband suddenly to cancer in oct that yr and I feel the same. Sending prayers to you😭😢💔❤️
I lost mine on August 28, 2021. Unfortunately, cancer took him too. I miss him so much and he will always be the love of my life. Sending both of you a big hug!
sending a big hugs to all of you there
I lost my love in a trucking accident! He died July 27 2018 and I still feel the pain like it was yesterday 💔 grief is something I could never put into words!! I'm sorry to you all for your loss!!
Oooh it's heart wrenching ☹️
She's Beautiful
This song makes me feel so many things I can't even put into words
Put it into a playlist... That way you can guide your emotions in/out of dark/light
I lost my dad 10 years ago next month. Whoever says it gets easier truly does not know what they're talking about. My dad was everything he was my strength he was my inspiration to do better and to be better he was like my moral compass. And he was my rock I went through hard times. But there is one thing I know he's always here with me. We never truly lose the people we truly love and that has loved us we can't see many more everyday but they are there right beside you taking every step you take breathing Every Breath You breathe. But just because they're physically gone doesn't mean they stopped being with you they will always be with you wherever this life should take you that's because you keep them in your heart. And yes this song will move you to tears, it is such a beautiful song.
More power to you and peace to him ✨
My daddy was the same my best friend and true heart love of mine
I cannot replace him with any thing
Am counting 3yrs 😢
I lost my mum earlier this year, and I can already tell this is a wound time can heal, she was everything to me. I'm glad you can also still feel your dad with you, at least we have that 🤎🤎🤎
To those like us who find it hard to express our emotions comprehensively and accurately we come sit and listen to Nina, this song does its best to express the very marrows of our brokenness..
Feeling true grief, for the first time in my life, and I can confirm this song is 100% accurate. God bless everyone going through this. Believe that they are only in another dimension and your love will bring you to them when it's your turn to go. And, that every single tear drop can be felt by them, as it turns from your grief to an "I love you" to them.
I really needed your words of encouragement thank you so so much
Grief is love with no place to go! I know I will have my son again in heaven one day! I wish I was with him but my two remaining children only have one parent…me. My kids Dad died 5 years ago & then my oldest son died 10 months ago. I’m forever heartbroken missing my boy. His 7 year old son is here for me to love & I’m going to love him all the days of his life like I did Chris. 35 is too young. Fuck covid. You stopped my sons heart!!!!! And crushed mine!!
Awwww, so sorry about your losses Cyndi, my deep and sincere condolences, how have you been?
When Nina writes a sad song she knows what she’s doing, songs like this, Hold You or Make Me Fall are perfect examples, no one shows reflectiveness quite the same
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I would agree, but also check out Gemma Hayes. She does melancholy and longing like no other. I think you might appreciate her, especially "Palomino", "Happy Sad", "Back Of My Hand" and "Ruin".
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Exactly.
The line "it's the kind of flame you don't see 'til it burns" gets me every time😭😭😭 truly a lyric genius!!!
You meet that one person, it messes you up for the rest of your life.
I broke up with my boyfriend a month and a half ago and it still hurts. He has already moved on, I feel depressed and alone. Your song comforts me at least a little. Thank you.
Keep your head up queen🌸 take time to heal. It hurts but you will be okay🌱 Let it all out & always know you're not alone❤
You’ll be okay 💓
One Day he will be in your present position. Hang in there ❤️☀️☀️❤️, hold your head up high and face the Day with Gratitude wherever you can find it, and there is much. Work on You and a year from now you can look back and see what it all meant. Pocket that Knowledge, and fall in Love with Beautiful You!
You are not alone even if it feels like you are sometimes. 🤝
Same feelings right now sis 💔
gahhhhhhhhh this is so good!!!!!
right? 😭
omg hi madilyn😭
I thought it'd only be a moment
Like a night of summer rain
But it's like a landslide of emotion
Everyday
I've been trying to recover
I put you to the back of my brain
Now I'm just to remember you
In the best way
I
I go from feeling numb to feeling everything at once
And don't know if I
Wanna cry, one of the hardest things I've ever had to learn
Is how to lose someone
First, you don't have the words
It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns
Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive
Changes you forever in the blink of an eye
And it's not something that just fades overnight
It's something that stays for the rest of your life
When you lose somebody you love
When you lose somebody you love
It comes and goes like it's a season
But the clouds are always grey
And late at night when I'm alone with my thoughts
It feels like a Ferrari racing (on and on)
I go from, feeling numb, to feeling everything at once
And don't know if I
Wanna cry, one of the hardest things I've ever had to learn
Is how to lose someone
First, you don't have the words
It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns
Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive
Changes you forever in the blink of an eye
And it's not something that just fades overnight
It's something that stays for the rest of your life
When you lose somebody you love (lose somebody you love)
When you lose somebody you love (goes on and on)
when you lose somebody
(When you lose somebody) when you lose somebody you love
(When you lose somebody) when you lose somebody
The hardest thing I've ever had to learn
First, you don't have the words
It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns
Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive
Changes you forever in the blink of an eye
And it's not something that just fades overnight
It's something that stays for the rest of your life
When you lose somebody you love
When you lose somebody you love
When you lose somebody you love
The hardest thing I've ever had to learn
Please pin it on top
She never disappoints, her voice 😍
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Such a moving song. It hurts my heart and makes me miss my dad who passed away 36 years ago.
Beautiful Nina ….much love Ann xx ❤️🏴❤️🏴
A beautiful song. So beautiful. I lost my mom and grandmother (last grandparent) in 2019, my dog of 10+ years in 2020 and my dad in 2021. This song, while sad, is also comforting. Grief is a hard journey that we will all go through at some point. And it is so hard to learn how to lose someone you love. How to start again and carry them with you. Eventually, you start to live again but it’s different. It’s like the way you see the world is broken and everything looks different. Hopefully, you learn how to feel their presence in a different way and realize they’re still with you and will always be a part of you. But it’s so hard. Much love to the many people on here going through grief. ❤️
That’s what makes art worthwhile. When artists like Nina are able to word out what it feels like and then other people know that they’re not alone.
Love it!
this song has broken me and comforted me in equal measure, trying to adjust to life without the man who was possibly the true love of my life, she has given voice to my heart; a beautiful song to cry, heal and let go to.
This song got right to my heart and head. I lost my son almost 6 years ago. You said it all it never goes away and you try to not remember it but you never get over the pain of losing a child.
I lost my mum earlier this year and I feel the same, not trying to remember the memories that make the heart ache the most. The love never goes away, so I know the pain of not having them also stays. I wish you the most beautiful life possible 🤎
I lost my father 14 years ago and the pain is still as strong as the day I was told he was dead. It's so hard to heal from it and move on. I wish I could have seen him before he passes away but well... Life happens.
Enjoy each moment with your parents. It's so precious.
*Whenever I listen to this song, I missed my Mom so much who passed away 4th of March this year and I have been struggling alot with my life lately. But this song give me some strength and blessed my heart so thank you Nina* ♥️
So hard! I hope that with all the pain and despite of it you can have a beautiful life 🤎
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This song just gave me memories of my mum 💔😭😭. She passed away in Nov 2020 and things have changed since then. It's never the same without the ones we love. I miss her so much.🥺😭
You captured into words something for which there really are no words. You have captured this impossible emotion of grief into a single song and then set it free for the world to heal. Thankyou!
Simply beautiful the song, the sounds, the vibration and of course most important Nina, Love you Nina!
I just lost one of my best friends on Sunday and it’s been extremely hard for not only myself, but for so many people that loved him. My heart is so shattered for his wife and two little girls…. Music has always helped me cope with life. And when I came across this song, it spoke to me instantly. Thank you for writing and singing this song Nina. ❤️
I'd never heard of you and as I sit here unraveling and asking why this child I cared for so deeply as my own was taken from us so unnecessarily and I feel like he pushed me to hear this thank you for putting this pain into words
I lost my last surviving grandmother in July 2020, one of my uncles February 2021, and another uncle and my last surviving grandfather within a week of each other in October 2021. This song puts the grief I've felt for months into the words I never could. Thank you Nina 💕
Rest in peace, Dad 12/19/2010 💔 …I hope you’ve found your peace and paradise ❤️🩹
I lost my dad a few days ago, I came home from work and there he was. I’ve been an absolute wreck and I can’t explain how I go from numb to feeling everything all at once. I see parts of him around the house, his phone still rings and I don’t hear his voice follow. Small things catch my eye and I remember him. This song popped up and broke my heart all over again
Same here, lost my Daddy to cancer last Dec 2021 and life has never been the same. I took care of him 26 years of my life including 10 years of my married life. I miss my Daddy so much.
I'm so sorry about your loss. Stay strong, that's what he would like you to do. His memory and soul will stay with you.
@@theggirl93sorry for your loss. I really hate cancer. Lost a close relative to it aswell. Stay strong.
🤗🤗 it hurts but we are here for you if you need us. Take care of you ❤️
I'm sorry for your loss, it truly sucks! I lost my mum to cancer earlier this year and I sure know our lifes are more difficult now. 🤎🖤
I love the words of this song! Losing someone to passing or break up is hard. In my despair crying out to God why Lord why? I found myself searching listening and then I had the most real nightmare. Just when I thought I was at the end of life, I felt someone take my hand but saw no one there. But the feeling of love and safety was evident. I woke up and felt renewed. The guilt, disappointment, the why have all been replaced with this. I look for the good in everything. The loss of my loved ones, the end of a relationship, disappointment in family children friends. I look for the good. It is hard and sometimes difficult but then the good is worth it. Give your worries, your baggage of burdens to God and know he has this for you. Walk away and feel the goodness. There is POWER in PRAYER. GOD BLESS YOU ALL.
WE are survivors not victims...
With every falling apart there is a coming back together, I hope everyone going through pain it shall pass by & you are not alone , I love you ❤️ Thank you for existing ✨
First time I'm hearing of Nina Nesbitt but I gotta say I'm hooked already. This song is so relatable and daaaamn! Her voice😍
I lost the father of my kids in February 2024. We spent everyday together for almost 20 years. March would have been 20 years. I miss him deeply and I will always cherish every moment we spent together. 😢 I’m trying my best to cope and move forward with my life. It’s just so damn hard without him!
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I’m so sorry I know how it feels to lose the person we love, I lost my wife and mom June 4th 2021 on a car wrecked, sometimes the pain is unbearable but we have to move on as life goes on, it’d be nice to hear from you , where are you from.?..
i left this comment on facebook but i wanted to leave it here too: this song gives breath to how i have been feeling since having my heart broken, grieving the loss of loved ones, and all the emotions i feel day and night. beautifully executed and grateful to have an artist who can express these difficult feelings in song.
thank u for creating something that can help with mine and so many others healing process.
Nina is such a talented young artist. Always creates original and meaningful music. Powerful words projected by a beautiful voice. ❤️
I first experienced grief a week after my dad died. I was 18 and sat in the workshop and opened the bag my mum had given me on my first day back, a week after he died. It contained a small home made apple pie. My dad used to get one every week and now it became my heirloom. Sounds a bit daft nearly 50 years later but I still get emotional every time I bake one. Today I was helped by our 6 year old granddaughter Eliza. It tasted good with a few tears on top, Iain
When you lose someone who never exist in fact jyst in your heart and your head . It is More painfull than losing someone you reconize
My dear friend lost her husband recently, and she shared this with me explaining that it explains so much of what she's feeling. Thank you for your talents, and for these devastatingly beautiful lyrics that speak to so many. I'm so glad it has brought her some sort of understanding during such an unthinkable situation. My heart! TEARS! Thank you.
Such a powerful song that really captures the emotions of loosing a loved one
It's been three years since my dad suddenly passed away. I remember the day like it was yesterday when I got the news.
It was sunny.
The snow and ice were melting.
A lovely day in early February. It was so warm that I had to take my jacket off when I was shoveling the driveway.
I was the last to know.
A week later, it was his funeral. Before we left the funeral home, we each took a little red plastic heart from a glass jar as memorabilia of his passing. I have it somewhere but that little heart changed my life in ways that I didn't know it would. It was the last time I would ever see his face before they'd close his casket.
The day was so cold, the coldest its been all that winter. It snowed that morning, heavy snow, the type of snow he loved. He always loved the snow but not the cold, just like me.
My fingers were frozen while I clung to his coffin in front of a crowd of people. I wore a red coat, like the colour of the roses I made his wreath out of. It was the weekend before Valentine's Day and every flower shop was full of red roses, the symbol of love.
It's gotten easier but it still hits me sometimes knowing that I should've treasured my time with him instead of trying to fix how we spent time together. And if I could just have 10 minutes with him, that's all I'll ever need.
Miss him everyday. Shine on you crazy diamond 💎
I lost my husband July 18 2021 to Covid at 44 years old. I never saw it coming. I am recovering still and this song truly opens your eyes to the process. Beautiful song beautiful message.
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Many people killed in hospitals due to killer protocols.... u might think this is crazy but is the raw truth....😥
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Awwww, so sorry about your loss Jennifer, my deep and sincere condolences, how have you been?
Whatever you were facing, remember to not easily give up. Fight that negative feeling inside you. If you fall, stand back up and keep fighting. Never underestimated your inner power. Show to the world that you are one of the best and try to stay positive at all costs.
That’s true. It’s ok to hurt and crying is sooo relieving to the soul. Don’t hold it in when you have grief within your heart and soul. Everyone goes through the stages of grieving at their own pace. Go through it and the sun will surely shine for you yet again one day. Going through all stages of grieving doesn’t mean you won’t ever think about your special someone and cry at times and that’s perfectly fine to allow yourself to remember the pain, the good and bad times. But, I know that that someone is around you at all times everyday. As well as God will be holding you up whenever you cannot hold your own self up. Look around and you will see all the signs this person is still with you and is waiting to see you again when Our Heavenly Father calls you home. What a glorious reunion that will be. ❤️
Lyrics:
I thought it'd only be a moment
Like a night of summer rain
But it's like a landslide of emotion
Everyday
I've been trying to recover
I put you to the back of my brain
Now I'm just to remember you
In the best way
I
I go from feeling numb to feeling everything at once
And don't know if I
Wanna cry, one of the hardest things I've ever had to learn
Is how to lose someone
First, you don't have the words
It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns
Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive
Changes you forever in the blink of an eye
And it's not something that just fades overnight
It's something that stays for the rest of your life
When you lose somebody you love
When you lose somebody you love
It comes and goes like it's a season
But the clouds are always grey
And late at night when I'm alone with my thoughts
It feels like a Ferrari racing (on and on)
I go from, feeling numb, to feeling everything at once
And don't know if I
Wanna cry, one of the hardest things I've ever had to learn
Is how to lose someone
First, you don't have the words
It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns
Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive
Changes you forever in the blink of an eye
And it's not something that just fades overnight
It's something that stays for the rest of your life
When you lose somebody you love (lose somebody you love)
When you lose somebody you love (goes on and on)
when you lose somebody
(When you lose somebody) when you lose somebody you love
(When you lose somebody) when you lose somebody
The hardest thing I've ever had to learn
First, you don't have the words
It's the kinda flame you don't see 'til it burns
Then it hurts 'til it eats you alive
Changes you forever in the blink of an eye
And it's not something that just fades overnight
It's something that stays for the rest of your life
When you lose somebody you love
When you lose somebody you love
When you lose somebody you love
The hardest thing I've ever had to learn
Thank you so much for this 🙏🏽
I heard this song several years ago when it first came out. I always thought it was so beautiful and heartbreaking. Now, it hits differently - I lost my dad suddenly exactly a week ago. Now the words have taken on such meaning that I hoped I wouldn't have to understand for a long time... but in a strange way, I'm glad I have this song.
This song is sad but the amount of emotions she putted into this song made me smile💜
This song hits on so many levels. Simply amazing
Hurts so much
I lost my dog this week, he was my best friend for almost 12 years and this song is all what I feel right now 💔
i had to put my dog down yesterday, and i sought this song out too. i hope you're doing better now.
Sending love your way 💖 RIP cutie 🦮
i also lost my dog this year end of january and feel the same way 💔
I'm a self-confessed metalhead, but even I can appreciate how gorgeous this song is.
Beautiful lyrics too! ❤
This song explained so many things I can never put into words and to those who have lost someone close remember this every day. Remember: they loved you, you were there everything, one day you’ll see them again, it’s ok not to feel ok, it hard but just remember salt looks like sugar, I know the invisible but just remember you were the hardest thing that that person had to give up ☺️☺️😇
The absolute beauty of music.......it helps situations in our lives that are so powerful that we can't even come up with the right words to explain.
We had to say goodbye to our doggy yesterday. He got to live to 16,5 years and it was really his time, but he was the absolute sweetest dog in the world. My life was infinitally richer with him in it. I'm so grateful to have been able to spend so many beautiful years with him. But none of that makes losing him any easier. To anyone going through grief right now: it's okay, let yourself feel it. They will stay with you in your heart and one day the sun will shine again. Much love to all❤❤
She can do no wrong, she is such a great songwriter and singer. It´s been so cool following her since Peroxide and it´s been so amazing to see her evolve and become even better than she was before. One of the most underrated artists of our generation along with Tinashe, Tori Kelly and JoJo.
Bittersweet, heaven sent, & sublime 💝❤️💛💞💞💓💓💖❤️❤️💜💜💝❤️💖💓💞💓💖❤️❤️❤️❤️💖💛💛💛💖❤️💝❤️💕💓💚💖💝❤️💕💓💚💓💖❤️💝❤️💙💙💓💛💖❤️💝💜💜💜💝💖🧡🧡❤️💖💛💛❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️
Beautiful song. Thank you 🖤🖤🖤
Nina, I don't know if you read the comments on your songs, but if you see this one, I just want to say thank you. Thank you for giving words to feelings that so many of us have and can't express. Grief is not a lesson any of us want to have to learn, because it's something that can only be learned by experience. I wrote an article about ambiguous loss right after this song first released and I referenced your song for the article... It's still one of my favourite things that I've published because I wanted to help others the way your song has helped me. Thank you. ❤
This song truly hurts...got me really emotional. I lost my best friend and my dad in 2021 just 2 months apart from each other. I am still recovering.. I don't think I ever will. Until I actually see them one day.😭😭
6 weeks ago, my husband and I had a talk for over two hours while our son slept between us. He had struggled for over 2 years with addiction, depression, anxiety and bipolar disorder. He had finally gotten a good amount of clean time, but was still refusing to go to a psychiatrist about the possibility of taking an SSRI, or a mood stabilizer or something. I could see that his depression was worsening, and I begged him so many times. But that night, we had a great talk, about moving forward, starting over, clean slate in a different state in a few months. We talked honestly about the way the 2 years had affected our relationship and our family, and how to rebuild after he had killed the trust that we had shared with his relapses. He told me that he felt real hope for the first time in over 2 years that we could rebuild our marriage and put it on even stronger foundations.
Right before he went to sleep, he groaned and put his hand to his forehead. I asked if he had a headache. He said, "no, sometimes a thought from the past few years will bust in and send me right back to rock bottom." I asked if he wanted to talk, but he didn't. He said he just needed some sleep and would be better tomorrow.
He woke up early, tried to call and text his mom several times, and when I woke up and walked to the kitchen to get some water, I saw my soulmate, my husband, the only man I have ever truly loved.....I saw him through the kitchen window that looked out on the back porch. He had hung himself there. Over one of the rafters. I tried hacking at the rope with a knife, then dug at it with my fingernails. He was 6'6" and I'm 5'1", so I got him loose and tried to gently lower him down. I climbed on his chest and started trying to get his heart to beat, find a heartbeat, tilted his head back and tried to blow my life from my lungs into his.
He was gone.
My beautiful, loving, funny, scarred, imperfect, devoted, far-from-perfect but loved infinitely just the same, husband was....gone. In the span of a moment.
I've drug my feet through this past 6 weeks trying to figure out what life looks like without him in it. It doesn't help that every other aspect of my life took that opportunity after he passed away to go ahead and fall apart as well. This song feels like it's singing directly to the jagged hole inside of me that refuses to scab over even a tiny bit.
I’m so sorry I know how it feels to lose the person we love, I lost my wife and mom June 4th 2021 on a car wrecked, sometimes the pain is unbearable but we have to move on as life goes on, it’d be nice to hear from you , where are you from.?.
What a beautiful, poignant song Nina. Thank you for putting into words what so many have felt in recent times 💕💕
I miss you mom 💔
I lost my mom a few months ago and it broke me in a way I could ever put into words. A forever emptiness.
Thank you for writing this masterpiece of a story and putting it into a song this couldn't have come at a better time for me, Tomorrow is 14 years since my mum passed away so it'll be on repeat all day today, tomorrow and the rest of my life. I'm gonna use it as a tool for healing as well as for allowing myself to get out every emotion I have built up inside when I need to and listen to the lyrics. I have lost a lot of people in my life as of recent so the ballad does make me think of them too and having to learn to move on without them hurts more than a knife with the sharpest blade. The song also makes me think of all the families of every person that is losing those they love in Ukraine right now 😓🥺😭💔 my heart is with them all I feel so guilty cause all I can do is sit back & watch what is happening before all our eyes and I can't go there to help but I will do what I can do even if that's just putting in a donation to the fund at least it's something #IStandWithUkraine🇺🇦 🙏☮️🕊️🌹X X X x
Lost my mom 17 years ago and I feel the exact same way. It taps into that deep loss in such a beautiful way.
You're so incredibly strong and beautiful. Sending you love 💗
It’s been ten years since my dad died and this song captures the way your pain never goes away so well
Hugs 💜
If you are trying to cope with the loss of a loved one, it can be one of the most difficult things to endure on this Earth, but please understand there is real hope and comfort through Jesus Christ. I am sharing my best friend's story with the world in hopes that it will be a help to so many who are grieving. God bless you!
Precious Memories-By Sonya Lakey
Family Story
Little did our family of six know that Friday evening, September 24th, 2021, would be the last night our family would be complete. We laughed together, played games, sang, and enjoyed listening as our 16-year-old son, Ethan, played the piano for us. I packed a lunch for Ethan for a church mountain hike he was going on the following day.
My mother (who was visiting from out of state) and I woke early with Ethan on Saturday morning. He hugged me and smiled, never pulling away or rushing me. He got in the car, waved, said he'd see me later and he loved me. It was hard to watch my "new driver" heading out on his own that morning. As Ethan pulled out of the gate, I turned to my mother and said, "It's just so hard letting go." Little did I know how much "letting go" I was really doing. That was the last time I saw Ethan. He did not make it home that evening.
That afternoon, a friend tried to contact my husband, leaving an urgent message to call him back. He tried several times to return the call to no avail. As we were preparing supper, an overwhelming feeling of deep concern for Ethan filled my heart. I quietly blinked back tears. I glanced out the window, half expecting to see a police officer pull up to the house, but no one arrived. However, within a few minutes, a patrol car DID pull into the driveway. In my heart, I feared the worst. My husband and I went out to meet the officer, who confirmed our fears. Hesitantly, he told us our son had fallen off of
a bluff and had succumbed to his injuries. Our hearts were crushed; they still are.
Yet, in all of our brokenness, deep, continual grief and loneliness, our family has such a blessed Hope and assurance that we will see our dear son and brother again. You see, when Ethan was a young boy, he was saved; he put his faith in Jesus alone to forgive his sins and to take him to Heaven when he died. He realized some very important truths from the Bible that he would want to share with you.
His Story
Everyone is a sinner. Sin is any violation of God’s Law. God is holy, just and righteous, and He cannot allow sin in His presence. Ethan realized that he - like all of us - had sinned; and his sin separated Him from God.
“For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; ” (Romans 3:23)
“Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” (Romans 5:12)
He understood that, because of his sin, he deserved to spend eternity in Hell.
“For the wages of sin is death;” (Romans 6:23a) [Wages: price]
“But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.” (Revelation 21:8)
Ethan believed that Jesus, God’s Son, paid the price for all sin when He died on the cross - because His sinless sacrifice was the only thing that could satisfy the just demands of a righteous, holy God. Jesus was buried in a borrowed tomb, but He arose the third day, triumphant over sin, death, and Hell. Jesus is alive today!
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16)
“For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9)
Ethan was sorry for his sin, repented (turned), and received by faith the free gift that God offered to him.
“For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13)
“...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23b)
Because of this great salvation, Ethan lived his life serving Jesus. He worked hard to spread this Good News to the world. He is alive in Heaven with Jesus today; and because of this great HOPE in Christ, we know we will see him again soon - not because he was a great kid, but because of his faith in the great Saviour!
“And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” (John 10:28)
Your Story
What about you? What if you had fallen to your death that day - What if you were to die today? Where will you spend eternity - Heaven or the Lake of Fire? There will not be any parties in the Lake of Fire. It is a place of eternal torment for those who reject God's Son.
The Word of God is very clear that there is only One Way to Heaven.
“Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6)
We did not know that Ethan would step into eternity that day; however, because he put his faith in Jesus alone for his salvation, Ethan was ready to go. Some day - perhaps today - you will take your last breath here on earth, and you will step into eternity. Where you spend eternity is determined by what you do with Jesus Christ. Will you accept Him or reject Him? You are not promised another day or another breath. Eternity begins soon - Are you ready?
“...Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…” (Acts 16:31b)
“For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13)
“(...behold, now is the day of salvation.)” (2 Corinthians 6:2c)
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This testimony has been made into a tract form as well, so if you or your church are interested in having them to pass out, please go to libertyfaith.net and you will find the contact info there. God bless!
Tribute to Ethan Lakey
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''It broke our hearts to lose you, You did not go alone,
For part of us went with you the day God called you home''
I loved you enough to let you go
My Father past away last year and damn this song struck my heart. Help us transform the pain into a brighter Future. The way you delievered this feelings *Goosebumbs* ❤❤❤
Grief never goes away, you just learn to live with it ❤️✨
I really needed this today, my auntie died from suicide last year and i now have anxiety and maybe depression caused from that event, I had an panic attack this morning because I was thinking about her, but now I have come across this song and it really helped me understand what I am feeling. Also you have a beautiful voice. ❤
This is so true and completely and utterly breaking my heart.
I've been with here . Since somebody special I've watched her grow and mature her sound. .keep going higher. Much love ❤
I have been single for almost a year and a half and this song made me cry, and also smile. Beautiful song. Nina is so underrated.
Nina never releases bad music❤🙇♀️
I cried watching this music video. Nina expression here was so full of emotion that I could feel the lyric because of it.
My foster brother committed suicide three years ago, i feel everything you're singing in this song. It's definitely going into his playlist. Thank you for making this song, it's beautiful
Many condolences on your foster brother committing suicide! My father committed suicide in September last year 😢
@@LimeHidden23 oh, I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm sending all my love and hugs
Nina you are just an incredible writer and singer. Thank you for this.
This song makes me remember of someone I will always love. Her name is similar to yours and you with your amazing songs make me remember of her everytime. Thanks Nina 😌
The voice and the lyrics match each other so perfectly.. directly hits my heart
Perfect song for me today, I just lost my father who was 94, I miss his love so much already. 😢 He just passed 3/13 and the funeral is 3/16. I’m in so much pain. She has a great voice and the song means so much.
I stopped myself from hearing these. But I can't. As I lost my granny this week and next to that day was the day i lost my 1st and last best friend. And sadly my dog was also dead 2 weeks before. I feel overwhelming. And a sphere of grief ball is rolling inside my throat. I can't take any of these and some times I am pretending nothing happened when I know the reality. Failing in every attempt of fooling my mind. Kindly take care of your loved ones and show them that you love them and care for them❤️❤️. You ain't gonna get anything by keeping your love secret. Live the fullest in this life. My prayers to all the strangers reading this.
Such a beautiful song. My heart and prayers go out to those who lost someone.
I lost my bro to addiction 12/29/2019. We use to be so close. 🙏😢💔
I lost my mom in 2016 and this song captures what I'm still feeling. Makes me cry every time I listen to it. Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. Thank you.
Спасибо тебе Нина за твои композиции,они берут за сердце! Так держать! Привет,из Чехии.
Поддерживаю! Голос, чувство, исполнение, музыка трогают!
Присоединяюсь))
Grief, some love felt will never ever quite leave you. Losing someone..changes you forever
“I’d always assumed I was responsible for the way I felt.
That it was my fault, somehow.
Like some people are just born wrong. Built wrong. Raised wrong.
I’ve learned that I have always been wrong in thinking that. There has never been anything wrong with me. I wasn’t born different. There was absolutely nothing extra or out of the ordinary about me.
I was just born marred by someone else’s scars rather than my own.
I will not apologize for how I learned to survive the scars I was born with. I won’t be ashamed of how I’ve learned to carry the pain I was burdened with. I won’t be made responsible for not being capable of stitching wounds I was inflicted with before I was even alive.
I’ve been sinking my entire life.
My eyes refused to close and the world…
It’s never been more absolutely beautiful.
The world is golden-brown from here, beautiful while dying, peaceful while fading, silent in the farewell. It’s the most beautiful color I have ever seen in my life. Light streamed through the waves of the ocean that rocked my body gently to the rhythm of a sound only it knew, sung in the voice of all those whose goodbyes my heart felt the absence of. The light created a single flash of golden rays that ignited the bottomless depths of the sea above me, before I was finally buried forever, held in between the arms that had never cradled me. That’s sort of how I felt, too, as I looked at the moving water above me - too close and yet so far away -, dancing elegantly with the tide, with a nostalgia invading me so strong I didn’t crave to fight my way to the surface, though there was a deeply ingrained sadness in the morose parting.
I guess it’s time to end my part of the story.
It’s time to finally let the dead things go…
And let the words I’d never said finally drift to shore…”
- Excerpt from a book I’ll probably never publish
Loved this so much. God bless you ❤
@@DesmondBeamer-sq1rk thank you ♥️
Thank you for Sharing 🌏
One of the best ballads ive ever heard🤧😭
This song is therapy...
I really love her voice! Great song
Two weeks have gone by without my Pop. I heard this song a month ago, and I had this nibbling feeling that I should save it.
Now here I am mourning the loss of my best friend, the man who raised me, the only Dad I had.
I thought I knew pain. But these last two weeks have shown that I did not. There are no words for how heartbreaking grief is.
You never fail to release beautiful music, Nina. Love this song. Can't wait for your new album.
WOW her voice 😭so Angelic
Nina, we love you ♥️
Every word of this song resonates with the loss I still feel for a dog who saved me and was like both a daughter and best friend to me.
The hardest thing I ever had to learn 🥺
💯💔
Many of us have lost someone in our lives...it takes a long, long time to recover from that. The memory, although it hurts, also helps to heal, for all those beautiful moments that we lived together, I love you and I miss you my brother ❤️
I love the song. The video takes it to another level. This is the type of song you can let your heart sing it for anyone you’ve loved. A parent, a spouse, a friend. It just hits the right words to describe these types of feelings. I LOVED IT!
Ooooohhhhhh.... Beautiful.. 😍 😍 😍
What a powerful masterpiece. This song is so amazing 💞💖💖🙏🏾
I lost my grandfather almost a year ago, May 3, 2022. Still feels like it was a few months ago. He’s the first family member that I lost and could comprehend what was going on. I don’t think I’ve ever cried so much.
Out of my 2 grandparents, he was the one I was closer to. Especially when it came to academics. We always talked about my schooling. I graduate from college this summer and I just wish he could be there.
I lost my daughter may 5th 2020. To heroin. I needed this song. Thank you. So much.
I'm so sorry to read this about your daughter. My best friend died the same way recently. I'm proud to say Ive been heroin free for a little over two years now. I can't imagine losing a child, and my heart aches even just imagining it. Heroin addiction is one of the hardest and most painful things a person can go through. I know as a Heroin addict, that your daughter didn't want the problem she had and probably would have done anything to change it. Hang onto sweet memories....I have found that is what keeps the ones we loved so much alive. Please know that your comment hit me hard and that there is a stranger out there in the world who is thinking of your precious daughter today.
Sending you love. I lost my mother to addiction and depression. I've been sober for years, but the grief never dies.
Wow ..this is a beautiful song, fighting the tears back!