PTSD Survivor interview-Scott
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- Опубликовано: 2 окт 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Scott, a PTSD survivor in Los Angeles.
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As a child abuse survivor, thank you for this. It means so much hearing what this man has to say.
V, I’m so sorry you’ve suffered so much.
@vjc25 Heart wrenching to hear that anybody gets abused, especially children. triggers me big time. I hope you have or are currently working on healing. It's a daily struggle for me, even with God. I know 2 things for certain, 1) without me knowing God, I'd be in prison or dead. 2) I know God can heal the worst of wounds that stem from very unspeakable horrific abuse. I will pray you experience this, if you already haven't. Thank you for your comment, it is very appreciated. God Bless You..
This I by far the best description of how my childhood went and how it affects me as an adult. The abuse details differentiate but the results are one in the same. Reclusive, fogged thoughts, short term relationships and jobs. Scott is much further in eloquently describing his experiences and his attempts to curb their affect in his life and I’m able to right now. I’ll be coming back to this interview like it’s a new album from a favorite artist I’m tuned Into or something. I damn near want to play this to everyone I’ve ever tried to explain myself and the affects of my experiences to and say this is it. Thanks Scott. Thanks bro. Thank you.
Bless you!
Same.
@@SharonBenson2674 Healing balm to the souls of many. Your two (2) words were heartfelt and powerful.
here as well
God bless and keep you. You deserve to be happy and healthy. Never, never stop striving until you reach that place, of healing.
This is just proof that generational trauma is so real and I’m proud of him for trying to break that cycle. Surviving such a horrific childhood and watching your cousin do that to his family and children is unimaginable. The fact that he’s doing so well is a miracle. I wish him continued healing 💛🙏🏽
There’s no cure for PTSD dummy
Inter Generational trauma has no science behind it whatsoever
@@Hartley_Hare yeah you dont call that generational trauma.
@@Hartley_Hare 😂
@@Hartley_Hare 🤣😂😅
Hands down, this Man is amazing. He is truly an inspiration who has found his purpose in life. Thank you Scott for sharing your story.
The more he heals, the more he'll have to give.😉👍❤️
Thanks Scott
thank you EVERYONE! Scott Bellar
Thank you for doing this. He hit every point in being a trauma survivor. I’ve been struggling a lot with my PTSD and it’s what I needed to hear, especially not being war related.
People always relate PTSD to combat vets. And it’s very prevalent in the military. But I was diagnosed with PTSD years after I lost a parent in a traumatic way when I was 8 years old. I never thought or knew what I was doing and experiencing was PTSD from that incident until a doctor told me. Still working through it everyday. The worst is the bursts of anger. I never physically lose it. Just get very angry, even when I’m alone around no one.
Yup I got PTSD anxiety and depression from watching my dad die in front of me, I knew right away something was wrong with me, I was afraid to go to sleep and had my boys come sleep in my room, they were little they thought it was a sleepover in moms room, the meds helped wonders and therapy also, but it never leaves you just learn to cope with it and feel your feeling and know that they will pass…💜
Yup I got PTSD anxiety and depression from watching my dad die in front of me, I knew right away something was wrong with me, I was afraid to go to sleep and had my boys come sleep in my room, they were little they thought it was a sleepover in moms room, the meds helped wonders and therapy also, but it never leaves you just learn to cope with it and feel your feeling and know that they will pass…💜
I was just diagnosed with PTSD about a month ago that I was in denial about for years. I'm not sure what to do about it. I just started seeing a psychiatrist a month ago and went full panic attack on the floor as a result of my conversation with him at the time I was diagnosed and now have canceled my second visit because I can't handle another episode like that and I didn't like the meds he gave me so I stopped taking them. I was hoping this video would help and I think it did. Idk. Good luck to you all. I wouldn't wish this hell on anyone and hope you all the best.
Sweet Jesus...😢 So eloquently spoken about sonething so horrific. This man is a credit. To himself. Thank you so much for sharing your story. 🙏🙏
Sweet Jesus indeed. He is the one that saved me from my traumas.
@Mark-xh6qc don't thank me, ALL glory goes to God! The Holy Spirit was speaking through me! Your comment is very appreciated! God Bless you!
@jrbird7571
AMEN!
@@ScottBellar that's beautiful Scott! Keep close to Jesus and the Holy Spirit
I would definitely go to church to hear this man speak words of truth.
I don’t attend church services but I would attend his meetings any day. Pure and honest. 😇
Yes I'm like whens his next sermon?!
Me too!
*If he'd relate his experiences and lessons learned without any references to magical thinking about mythical beings, I'd attend his meetings too.*
Hilight my reply yo!
Mark thank you for having Scott on. I am a 59 year old disabled grandmother and I have severe PTSD and this man grew up very similar to myself. My father was sexually, physically, and emotionally abusive to me even into adulthood. I have been in therapy for many years but my struggle is so severe and I also have physical illnesses that keep me trapped in my apartment day after day. I live alone with no family support. I do have a home health aid who comes 3 days a week. Mark I wish I could talk to you and share my story as well. Scott seems like a good guy just wanting to help people like him and that’s a beautiful thing.
We could be neighbors
I’d love to hear your story. Please hang in there. ❤️
@@marialiyubman I'm not sure if your comment was directed at me or not but thank you just the same for the hope! In the even it was, it's as I said very similiar to Robins and details would be best saves for an email, or a book I've been told.
I’m so tired of adults telling me stop talking about this. It affects us for a lifetime even after years of recovery process. God bless him. Men especially find this hard to talk about. So glad men can see this and hopefully others will follow and address their childhood trauma. God bless all of you.
@laraoneal7284 that is the worst when ppl say shut up about it. Google Troy Bellar. That's what happens when you keep it in, and trust me when I tell you this, nobody wants to even hear that story, much less how you process it. My life is too heavy for most ppl, that's why God came to Earth and died, so we could have somebody to help us and love us, when nobody else can, even if they wanted too. God Bless you for your comment. Very moving.
This man has such a beautiful, calm, humble soul. This is probably one of my favorite interviews.
thank you! Scott Bellar
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This man is going to heal way more people then hisself. I can listen to him all day
Scott's story resonates so much, being a recluse and self-isolating. I also had a major break from society between 31 and 32 (which is me now, I've only just began to try overcoming the trauma. My 20s were a mess, my childhood was chaotic and dramatic, im lucky to be alive. Thank you for sharing your story, it's been helpful to listen to and connect with. Wishing the best for you!
Hope you are continuing to heal and enjoy life. Peace and blessings.
His appearance didn't match his voice. I expected a total different story, but I am pleasantly surprised & inspired by this video. I needed to see & hear this as a reminder not to judge a book by it's cover.
What an inspiration ❤️❤️
Totally! I don't get the long beard in ties. If he shaved that all off he'd look so much better. It's funny what people find attractive. Different strokes.
I will pray for you!
@@OGMama75 Your not doing it right....
May this video be the beginning of realizing that you’re being lied to by the media and all the racial and physical stereotypes.
Most human beings aren’t evil or racist… many are stupid enough to fall for it, but most people aren’t initially evil, violent or racist.
Same, even trough Im not the one to judge people by haircut/style and such, for some reason I didnt expect such a beautiful, kind energy. Now I feel ashamed I formed any prejudice by looking at exterior cause I dont do that usually but I guess its human nature
what an amazing resilient man with a gentle soul and so much love...with so much wisdom to share.
thank you! Scott Bellar
Watched this on my lunch and I just couldn't stop it... I was late to work, but it's OK. I learned a lot from a man who's got a lot to teach to us.
@endcensorship874 I am just a man with a sinfiul heathen nature that was born spiritually dead, we all are, until The Holy Spirit saves us from ourselves. What you heard was the Holy Spirit talking through me, ALL glory goes to God and The Holy Spirit! Tune into it, never tune into any human being, often times it is the enemy's spirit and it wants nothing but your death and to kill all human beings! God Bless You!
@@ScottBellar yes. 🙌 I gave my life to Christ on may 18, 1984. 40 years ago! Not been a straight line, more of the tourist route. But I’m with you. I’m nothing with out Christ.
@@endcensorship874 AMEN!
I hardly ever post, however, this interview was GREAT! God bless this man.
The fire fighter always sees through the smoke and flames and tries to escape.
That's you my friend. You're the fire fighter. Stay strong. 🔥
"Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow."- T Real
Like a moth to a flame burned by the fire my love is blind can't you see my desire. - JJ
Dammmm....u wrote iron and steel in those passages. So true....so accurate
@@tankisaconquistadorthewayh8791 gave me chill bumps!
Going to listen to it now.
Thx
That’s exactly what my sister and I have tried to do.
@@KimbradleyMasterGardener Can I come over?
You're not only a survivor but you are a thriver! You have been through so much but your heart is still gold. Thank you for never giving up and for giving back the love everyone deserves. Keep up the good hard work!
thank you
Wow. I’m floored. What a strong guy. His story should be heard by everyone.
It’s amazing to recognize how many parallels and commonalities you have with someone just by listening to their story. You’ve never seen this person yet you know there’s a connection.
I love this. So true ❤️
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Part of me feels that not (thankfully!) having the abuse / torture he had to endure changes everything about how I can properly empathise.
The same energy the birthed you birthed him birthed me and will birth many more of us. We all come from the same thing, fuck a last name. Fuck separation. Fuck divisiveness. None of that stuff is the truth. Truth is, we all are born of the same cloth, built for the same purpose. Love. Without love life isn't there, meer existence isn't life. Life starts when we start with our own piece, our own love and we work our way outwards from there. Build on it and add to it and let it change and grow. I don't see ethnicities or family names etc . The higher power asked of it's servant, it said "what are you?" , To which the servant replied, "when I DONT know who I am, I serve you. When I KNOW who I am, I AM you." I only see myself looking at this man and anyone else no matter their story. If we were to each hold a mirror facing one another, we will see nothing but ourselves when looking at one another.
Wondering what is edited out..... from Mark an unbeliever
So amazing to see someone who has been through so much, love so unconditionally. Thank you, Mark!
I can relate to his story. Currently fighting depression. Please pray for me, I don't care what religion. Just lend me your strength.
Jeb, I'm praying for you. I know depression and trauma. Please remember that its always darkest before the dawn. And it's pretty dark right now and you are the Light. Much Love
I will pray for you Jeb. I wish you better days. ❤️
I wish you peace and strength
God bless Jeb
I have struggled with depression my whole life. If you can try to get outside and get some sunlight it really helps.
Scott is a good friend of many years, as was his cousin who killed his family and himself. I will say this about Scott. He has a kindness and caring nature that not one in ten people embodies. When we were young and finding our way in life, Scott always asked deep questions about what we, his friends, thought and felt about relationships. We would tease him because we were in nihilist mode and took the "don't give a fuck" pose. Well, Scott did care, still does care, about what other people think. His is a soul of warmth and even if he finds himself alone for a time or I haven't heard from him in ages, I know that one day I will answer the phone and find that warmth and care still intact. This interview really captures the genuine Scott bearing his soul. He is a seeker and student of life and we can all learn from him. Stay strong, brother! 252 forever.
I found your friend very inspirational. What an amazing testimony he has to really reach people who are going through a similar life. Does Scott do Facebook or Instagram? Just thought I'd reach out and have a deeper conversation with him.
Nc?
@cryogyro6330 I live in 910 near camp Lejeune it's right below that one
That is beautiful! Please tell him often how genuine and awesome he is.
What a lovely man❤❤❤❤
Scott, thank you for sharing your story. I respect you deeply for breaking your family’s cycle of abuse. You have helped to transform our world into a better place.
So self aware. I can relate to the fight to just survive with PTSD I’m a nurse 👩⚕️ also. I self meditate to ease the pain. This was very enlightening. Just remember some of the best light workers and healers have been through it mate!! I think you’re awesome. 🫂
I agree I miditate to deal with truama, I'm thankful I learned how at a young age. Otherwise I'd probably be dead from addition to something. Its not easy being strong...
Self aware?what?
@@gothboschincarnate3931 it’s self aware in knowing one’s shadow self. very powerful! How else can you heal? He’s gone deep down the rabbit hole of himself. In turn his higher self would be lit! He’s awesome
Thank you, Scott, for sharing your story. Very inspirational and my soul was captured by your honesty and warmness. And, thank you, Mark, for doing all these amazing interviews with people who deserve to be heard.
@earthcharm. AMEN and thank you! Mark is a modern day saint and a very very hard worker building the awareness of what is needed for broken and unloved people which is this..agape love, compassion, patience, and understanding.
I love his belief system. Would love to sit down and have a long talk about the universe and afterlife with him.
This man right here made my heart sooo full (and sad at the same time due to his pain). As a survivor of abuse myself, I understand him. I really hope he is doing better each day. Thank you Mark for interviewing him! Much peace & love ❤️
What a beautiful person he is! To be through soooo much and still sees the Love inside.
Thank you! Scott Bellar
This is one of the best stories of a person's life and so, so glad to hear that he is not doing drugs. His recovery with knowing the spirit of God in him is wonderful and it is truly like a warm hug as he says. Makes sense and i learned from him. Thank you for his interview.
Scott -a modern hero who pits himself against his inner demons. Scott gives an in-depth look at PTSD, the causes, the symptoms, and the struggle with it. Luckily, Scott not only had the strength to run, but to seek help. Scott touches my heart for he is a wanderer on the path to healing and forgiveness. I wish Scott a loved one who will bivouack with him in his loneliness and fill his heart with love.
He’s so in tune with hisself i can see him completely healed sooner then later and I find it funny in a good way that he wants to be a pastor. His testimony is amazing he’s relatable and clear most of all he’s extremely optimistic
I wish you nothing but the best Scott!💙
This guy is (imho) talking straight up truth. My truth too. I’m not a fundy Christian. I study lots of religions. But it’s all the same in the center. I’m so glad he’s healing so young. He has so many years to pour out his compassion. So grateful you posted this.
What a great interview! Complex trauma ( trauma after other traumas ) is rough…. I struggle with it. But he’s got the right idea on how to move through and past it: forgiveness, loving others, and much therapy. Blessings!
This mans dad and my father in law sound like the same person. I’m not sure how my wife and her sister turned out so wonderful. Also from eastern Kentucky. Must be a symptom of this part of the country. I have heard tons of stories just like this. My father in law was hooked to a plow and beaten and made to pull the plow like a mule as a child. Once he was old enough he joined the army and went to Vietnam. He came back a raging alcoholic and repeated the abuse onto his children and wife. TRAGIC
Sooo much respect for u
😞
This guys sounds like such a sweet man. God Bless you for getting out of that mess. Blessings to you.
thank you!
I’m a silent watcher. But I’m in awe about this video. He is very well spoken and I can tell he means well and speaks with honesty. These videos bless me everyday with compassion for others and allow me to live my life judge free. Mark your videos are truly remarkable. This video enlightened me a little more- Thank you Mark and Scott ❤️
The Power of the Holy Spirit !
Lol a year later he's been stalking some woman.
I think I found this when I needed it most, recently diagnosed with PTSD, and seriously struggling with it for years, hearing someone else with similar experiences in life is refreshing in a way. Makes me feel far less alone and terrified about what things I need to do to help myself and work this all out for the future.
@The-Night-Wolf
20 years ago, even the thought that I could help somebody else, was very foreign and scary to me. I still struggle with it. I've tried just about everything to heal these wounds that have turned me into a recluse in isolation. The only thing that has truly ever helped me heal, is a relationship with God. I'm glad you found this interview when you needed it most. Do not thank me tho, all glory goes to God. what you saw in this interview was the Holy Spirit speaking through me and you can clearly see the vast difference when I'm not letting God talk, in my 2nd interview. I can't even watch it and the comments are ruthless, so your comment found me when I needed it most. Thank you. I will say a prayer for you tonight that you let the greatest teacher of all time into your heart and learn to truly heal by God Almighty. Hang in there! My heart breaks for you!
Thank you so much for replying to my comment, I will also keep you in my prayers, seems like we both stumbled onto one another when we both needed it. Keep doing what you are doing though, this video really helped me make the next steps towards getting better and seeking out the therapy and help i need.@@ScottBellar
People who have been through shit are the ones with the most wisdom. This guy is a shining testimony to that. I hope he achieves what he wants to, and I have every faith he will. Likeable character. Someone you could talk to for hours and be interested all the way through.
My father was not a great father I'm 32 and it still is hurtful, not as much but there is still a sadness and pain. Being a good parent is a very important role
Damn Mark, another inspiring story from a true SURVIVOR. Your channel brings me so much inspiration to make myself a better person and as a recovering addict, I need that. You and your channel, AND Scott are doing Gods work, for rillz. God bless you all.
I'm speechless!! What a tremendously moving account of his life. I'm so glad I viewed this video because of his story of forgiveness and, of course, his mental healing. What an awesome lesson I'm taking away from this. God bless Scott forever. :-)
Man, so many parallels with this guy. Really appreciated hearing his perspective.
What a beautiful soul. I wish the system worked for everyone like this.
System may not work for everyone but God is always available 365, 24/7.❤️
@@marylougeorge9890 I'd never seen you talk about God before.
@@sallyann985 I defend people's right to believe in prayer and God all the time in here.
I'm a tongue talking holy roller. Scary, eh?
@@marylougeorge9890 Hallelujah, Mary Lou !
@@vickiegveg Amen to that, sister!!!👐👏👏👏✝️
Don't forget to forgive yourself, Scott. You are truly on your way to wellness. You have the perspective and God does the navigating some of the time. Taking care of self is not selfish. It's love. It does get better as time goes on. I learned the last time in an outpatient program that I was also important. We never think of ourselves other than our trauma, depression, anxiety- what have you. All we are about is survival. That's not happiness. You have expressed this all to me in this interview and I thank you, man. God Bless and take care.
Scott,
My Mom held a gun to me multiple times while intoxicated. I know how that feels and I'm so sorry that happened too you.
Nice to see someone from Tennessee representing 🙌
Keep your head up.
Sending you the best I got!
Nashville Tennessee
Good Morning Kim. Sry that happened to you.
I'm so sorry Kim I had a terrible mother also had told me on several occasions wished she'd never had me & physically abused me too . But only made me a BETTER mother to my children! GBY Kim 🙏🏼
@@myeyeswentdeaf6213 thanks Eyes!
Over 40yrs ago yet still hard to share. Believe or not she really loved me! And, honored me when sober. Worked hard and raised me with every opportunity as my older sister! She had a problem plus my Dad had passed. She had her own pain and didn't know how to handle it.
I chose not to have children.
Life moved forward and I moved to the USVI to escape. I believe her problems are the reason I, like Scott, had the courage to explore other parts of the country and beyond!
I WOULD change it if I could (the abuse) yet I can truly relate too younger people when they share and tell them how to heal!!!
I chose to volunteer with teenagers in trouble eventually teaching Childrens Gardening to troubled kids as well.
Today, young women (20-30s) seem to gravitate to me for no reason and I, like Scott, have an opportunity to "Be of service ". Btw, I am drug free since the 90s.
Eyes, you be cateful out in the Jungle today!
Xoxo 😘
@@gailgarcia8782 thx Gail! Life's lessons are tough, huh!
Sending you my Love from Nashville
I say that I just missed being one or another person interviewed on SWUB. This guy. He said too much that resonates with me right now. I've gotta thank him for coming.
About halfway through, what an incredible story, I'm really touched by this. He is going to help other people, plant a seed in their hearts, truly, what else is there!
I have found the only way, for me, too heal is "being of maximum service to others".
I live about 30 miles from Scott ( if he's back down South).
I Love to meet him and volunteer with/for him in his Ministry!
@@KimbradleyMasterGardener he definitely has a calling 💗🙏
thank you! Scott Bellar
I wish the best for this guy. Alot of relatable stuff, I hope he and the others of us make it.
I was raped as a 6'3" rugby player in my freshman year of college. I can relate so hard to the self destructive cycle Scott described especially the inability to focus in school. I had a 3.5 going into college, offers to bigger named schools, and stayed closer to my home. After my rape I almost failed out, accumulated over 100k in debt, and started treating women horribly. I've just now opened up about it in therapy as of yesterday, and If it wasn't for music, and my therapist, and learning to love and forgive myself I think I would be dead already. Thank you Scott, and Mark.
Good LUCK to you! I know the therapy will help!
When he spoke of intelligence and trauma I felt that so much. It can affect the smartest kid and make them come off totally different. My teachers thought I was dumb in school and I was put in some of the basic classes. Later I found I was in the top 0.1% for IQ. I have CPTSD and it took ahold of me big time. You truly never know what somebody is dealing with.
Thank you Scott and Mark, that was an amazing interview✌️✌️✌️
This guy is very smart, and intuitive! Good job♥️
So much Wisdom here..sorry he had to get that Wisdom from bad experiences.
He just helped me ..I can relate..makes alot of sense to me. Thnx Mark and Scott
for great interview..
If you know the life of Christ and the meaning of what He went through, it all makes sense.
Love the positive comments below about this gentleman. Glad to see a success story for all he's been through. He gives the credit where it belongs, right on God helping him.
this is probably one of the most uplifting (yet sad) interviews I've seen. I'm rooting for this man. I'll say a prayer for you.
Wow! I wished this interview kept on going. What a remarkable well spoken man.
Omg I have ptsd and I totally understand the job thing. Like it effects your whole life. The way people talk to you, treat you, tone of voice, it was hard to hold a job for a long time. School was difficult. Anything to do with people was difficult and still is. I just stay home now. No family, no friends. It's the worst but helpful at the same time.
Dude - I love your channel - Keep up the good work - Lots of your interviews help me - This helped me as having PTSD from the war - God bless this man!
I would love longer interviews if at all possible?
I revisit this a lot. He melted me to tears with his holy spirit idea
@Imsickofallyallseeingmyname Amen! The greatest teacher ever is The Holy Spirit! God Bless you!
Hey Scott, I relate to so much of what you went thru. You helped me realize a lot during this interview about myself and my own PTSD. I hope you’re doing well and are happy. Thanks for doing this interview open and honestly!
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I totally get where he's coming from. Through different stages in life from child birth to divorce, I'm realizing triggers of shit I didn't even think affected me anymore. I'm at that point where I now realize I need to talk to someone about it. I don't want it ruining my potential relationships in the future.
Yea. I’m 38 and have ran away and ignored issues since I was very young. I always said I can deal, I’m good. Nope. At 38 I about hit the wall from holding it all in for decades. Talk to someone. Get some help. Do you.
Wishing you the best from Nashville Tennessee USA 🇺🇸 ❤
Good for you for realising these things. Many people don't.
Or they don't go the extra distance to get help.
Myself included.
Also, if your nick is indicating anyhing about your personality you need that talk 😜
I wish you the best, love from Norway.
@2CCrew
Many people do the same, they keep pushing things down.
It works for some time.
Until it explodes like a mf in your face.
And it can take years before you can live like a normal person again.
It's some scary shit.
I hope you get back on your feet soon.
Love from Norway.
holy shit. I feel you, brother, I feel you. You should be SO proud of yourself. Solidarity. You are a light.
Omg my dad was a Vietnam veteran and alcoholic im so lucky my mom didn’t stay with him. I became a veteran myself.
Broke the cycle of distinction.
People can be so awful to one another especially those there supposed to take care of.
He's the strongest of anyone in his family. God bless scott
Scott,
"The Body Keeps the Score." By Bessel Van Der Kolk, M.D.
I'm currently reading it and it's something everyone that (has gone through/is going through) any type of trauma NEEDS to read it
Love, Light and Peace
Magdalena
I have this book but have yet to read it because I'm somewhat afraid of what sort of feelings it might stir up. (I have C-PTSD)
I've heard it's amazing, though. Reading this comment brought me one step closer to picking it up again.
It’s an incredible book! I’m just about done with it. It’s relatable, clear and healing.
I have that book, had to put it down. I have to have a therapist help me through it. Triggered all over the place, shook.😔
Just bought this book because I’ve finally realized I’ve been suffering with ptsd for over half my life. It was mind boggling that I never knew the symptoms until I started researching. hoping when I finish reading it I will be able to push myself to talk to my doctor…
@@bbsmama1861 Which symptoms shocked you the most and why?
Thanks for sharing your story 😊
Hearing his voice quiver breaks my heart. Nothing but peace and love to you sweet boy.
This man screams resilience
Scott, I hope you see this and I pray you know you are one of the most inspirational people I've encountered. You have suffered so much and come out if with love and and concern for others. You are a Pastor already. You are doing the work you've been called to do. Please don't give up. I know God has great plans for you.
Had ptsd after my Iraq deployment. Choked my wife on separate occasions, during a night terror, dreaming my platoon being overrun and went hand to hand. Harsh reality
I can so relate to this guy. I also come from an extremely abusive family and as a child I was sexually abused, kidnapped, witnessed brutal murder and I've even been shot 3 times and had to shoot someone. My Grandfather used to beat us with a bullwhip, shovel, sticks and whatever else he had near him whenever he exploded with rage. I watched him chuck a large rock full force at my 13 year old uncle's head once from about 10 feet away and busted his head open and almost killed him. Both of my Grandfather's were WWII Veterans and both were extremely dangerous men. My Dad was also a Veteran of both Korea and Vietnam and a member of the Hells Angels and my Mom was involved with a Los Angeles street gang known as The Avenues and she was so dangerous that they called her Crazy Louise. I've lost close to 100 friends over the years and I've almost died so many times I lost count. It's actually a miracle that I've survived and am still sane in my 54 years on this earth. And yes; it was through grace of God and His Son my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ that saved me.
Amen to that ! Amazing story and testimony!!
Fax
I have watched many of these but this one hit home for me. I have complex ptsd from a life time of abuse. I am glad he was able to get the help he needed.
Consider asking God for help. He can get you to where you need to be. He wants you healed.
Scott what a great guy, please do a follow up.. He's an inspiration to us all... I wish him all the best.. James.. England
Wow
It is great. Giving back gives you a reason to get up in the morning. Good man. ❤️🔥
I left because the exact same reason never went back I heard my father died in 07 and i don't know where my mother is, and won't look for no one and don't want anyone looking for me...
He is a beautiful human being. Trauma can send you in so many directions. He is blessed by God. I am so grateful to have heard your story. I love you.
Right on brother. Love one another like Jesus loves you. Kindness is the only thing that matters. People wont remember what you say or do but how you make them feel. 🙏🏻
God bless your work
Amen 🙏
What a good dude. You can tell he has truly gained wisdom and learned from the unfortunate life experiences that got thrown at him.
I want all these people tossing around the term PTSD to understand that THIS is what it looks like. You desensitize other people to it when you just adopt the term to describe your bad day or troubling event. You get PTSD from the real or perceived threat of death, usually ongoing or recurring threat. And when it happens to you before your whole personality is formed super early in childhood, you get C-PTSD, which is complex post traumatic stress disorder... which is so much harder to heal from because your personality was formed around traumatic events.
...and what say you of PLCPTSD?
Cptsd just isn't from early age trauma. The majority of grunts have what they call cptsd.
@@gburn9377 they get PTSD
@@Ponzotopia that's strange wonder why the VA diagnosed me with Cptsd from war? Considering I was 27 the day I stepped foot in Iraq. Hmm that's 2 years after the frontal lobe is fully developed. Lol since you want to pretend to know what ptsd is Hahaha, it was called nostalgia in the Roman times. It then was called shell shock in WWI/WWII. During the Vietnam War they called it PTSI, and now since Iraq they call it PTSD. In the next war they will call it something different as in the real world of trauma they already are dropping the D. It's ok superstar there is plenty of places you can seek remorse. What a loser.
THANK YOU! People self-diagnose way too much. I was diagnosed by a professional with C-PTSD at 33, after I had tried to hold the barrier back since age 6. It’s hard to have people going around saying they “got” PTSD from something random. Like they had caught a cold.
I love when he said "you don't know these streets, you don't know these people, but I do, I will lead you to where you need to go" absolutely love it.
Your family are the people who are supposed to be there for you, not harm you. It’s extremely difficult to cope throughout the rest of your life. Mine is psychological but I can certainly relate. People no longer just automatically deserve to have space in your life- those who don’t know loyalty, who will turn on you at the drop of a dime, can go. This man sounds like he’s learned a lot through life, he sounds very wise. Forgiveness to me doesn’t mean you still allow them near you.
I’ve found that typically people you end up forgiving, are the type of people you don’t want around you again. You’re right.
@@Jay-hp6pu Forgiving doesn't mean you ever have to have contact with them again...unless you're directed by the Holy Spirit, as Scott has been.
Preach. I've developed severe trust issues from being abused by the family.I feel a little weird talking about it, but this is my burner account, so yeah. I've burned bridges with really good friends because I felt they were gonna do something to me. No reason on their behalf, I just thought it was an inevitability that I'd be treated wrong. I can't be in a healthy relationship because I'm always paranoid about them eventually hurting me.N I'm currently stuck with the family due to my own stupid decisions.
@@peighnesshonourchign9164 I can totally relate to what ur saying, it's so freakin hard. Sending positivity and hope ur way , hang in there
@@peighnesshonourchign9164 Aww, honey, I'm sorry.💔
Job-hopping is a symptom of CPTSD. I have been doing it my whole life. And I couldn't get along with anyone. Thank God I found the answer : ACoA - Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional families. It's a twelve step programme that leads to recovery from the effects of growing up in an alcoholic or dysfunctional home.
He’s such a breath of fresh air, healing looks good on you! 💜 I’ll always admire someone that knows they’re a mess and is actively trying to get better!! You have to WANT to get better
I grew up with a childhood with a dad just like he’s, when you get older you realize why sometimes you behave a certain way, realizing you’re human and there’s people with fewer or more problems wakes up to the core.
What an amazing guy...total respect Brother...RESPECT!
Moral of the story is LOVE YOUR BABIES
So many of these stories on here could be prevented by love...giving it,being itand so on. Children are a blessing and should be treated as such!
I’m sorry to say that neither love or babies are the cure for mental illness or for addiction, just like they aren’t for a physical illness. These stories are not that simplistic, not one size fits all, and it’s not effective to shame those caught in the cycle. It’s first and foremost an issue of psychology; mental illness doesn’t recognize morality. Having a child is a huge, life changing emotional and financial responsibility that not everyone is stable enough to handle.
"That's all that really matters in this temporary world that we live in."
THAT is an absolute, eternal truth.
You're on your way my brother. God bless you and your future.
I’m not getting why his family hates him and didn’t want him at the funeral of his cousin and his cousin’s family? His cousin killed his his own family then himself. What’s the deal that they don’t like Scott? Did I miss something?
You are a nice man. You seem genuine and caring. I wish you the best. Take good care.
You can tell he's going to therapy and truly making an effort to better his life. It's so nice to listen to someone really trying to work through his past. People who have been through these horrific pasts are always going to battle that, but he knows it's up to him to make a change. I love how he turns to his faith to get him through life. God is always there for us, we need to reach out to him. God bless him, I pray he reaches his goals.
Yup it’s all in his speech. This man is a jewel 💎 and he knows it
Such a lovely guy. I feel so sad to hear he has been hurt like that. It's really hurtful what he went through. I hope he gets more peace in his mind as he grows older. He seems a really good guy. ⭐💫⭐
I have uncontrollably strong stirrings in my heart after hearing Scott’s testimony, and want to just say that the way has surrendered to God to guide his healing journey is an authentic way of truly changing that f-ed up way our brain chemistry has worked because of those f-ed up things that happened to us or that we’ve witnessed. My journey out of trauma and back to the person God made me to be is similar to Scott’s and he’s right in that it can be so isolating and so long, but the best thing we can ever do while alive on earth. I love you, my brother in the Holy Spirit.
That's awful. So sorry you had to deal with that kind of childhood. Please 🙏 keep telling your story and helping younger kids. You are correct about the vets. There are guys that start acting like they are in a gun battle w no gun just their hands. You're not supposed to try to snap them out of it just call authorities. My dad is a veteran so my heart ❤️ goes out to all and their families. It's awful. You are not alone.
PTSD by proxy is a real thing. My dad was not as bad as his dad but the stories we heard and the episodes we went through made it feel like we were there. I just can’t imagine what my dad actually went through because we only heard 5% of it.
Wow. This guy is a superhero. Great interview
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This was my grandpas car. His pride and joy. 🩵 he passed away and a few years ago and I find my self frequenting this video often just to hear his voice again. Thank you for posting this. ❤️
What an incredible interview and thank you for moving me like this. I needed that. I've felt like a prisoner to my ptsd the last 10 years. Im 25 and have a 3 year old. My relationship with the man I loved shattered when our boy was still an infant. The loneliness and shock from that has exasperated my childhood trauma and the flashbacks are daily. I do therapy on and off, usually always lose my job, isolate more than any 25 year old should, sleep and sit around more than I'd like to admit. For years I've been feeling constant shame/paranoia/rage/angst. This video was necessary to me to better see myself in God's eyes. Thank you for bringing in a light when it's been dark for awhile.
I truly hope you find the will to get the help you need. It may be the toughest thing you do for yourself but your peace is worth it.
Scott is a shining light in a world full of darkness. What an incredible human.
He has it so together… eloquent, intelligent man with a huge heart and because he turned away from their dysfunction his family calls him, “crazy”.
God Bless him, 🙏 Amen !