Nihilist interview-J
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- Опубликовано: 4 окт 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of J, a nihilist in Los Angeles.
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I deleted my comment. I agree and I apologize Mark. You do great work and I’m sorry.
@@dirtypatwalsh Thank you for getting it Pat. Imagine how difficult my job becomes when coming on my channel is basically target practice for anonymous gunmen. It’ll be the end of SWU. Then there’s the feelings of my interviewees. Are some of you that hate filled that you get off on sharing your misery with a person in a vulnerable position?
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly Mark I appreciate your work. Please people keep your negativity away from here!
I grow tired of freedom of speech being called self hatred, just because we give our opinion of what we’re witnessing. That’s life - the good & the bad. How boring it would be to just have comments of sunshine instead of how your subs are honestly seeing the people you interview- us not being allowed to speak freely. I can bet your interviewees have been exposed to far worse than what we talk about in the comment section.
After watching quite a few of these interviews, one thing became clear to me; people lie to themselves a lot to cope with their struggles.
And it can be unconscious. I think the brain is really good at finding ways to accommodate itself to its surroundings, for the better or worst.
I always find it fascinating when I see people that could be in the greatest despair (after a terrible accident for exemple) finding that tiny little light, that last little reason to have hope, again, unconsciously sometimes.
And on the other hand for some it's a way to cope with their bad choices and other failures.
An extreme version of self deception is narcissism narcissists mastered how to not get hurt because everything is projected outwards they can't see themselves as wrong and they can hurt and use whoever they need to and if they get hurt they have someone to blame and they'll make you pay for it
even you
Yeah, it is usually from their self-narrative not cohering with their actions or their circumstances.
I advise you to read « radical honesty »..it is a book all about the skill of telling ourselves the truth…why people chose lying and how all of that leads to a mid life identity crisis…where everything we built on lies falls down and it turns out we were fake all along…I’m beyond lucky that I read it in my early twenties..enjoy 🧘🏻♀️
Having lived decades feeling that I didn't belong, I realized that what I thought was happiness was someone else's creation, and that the most important thing I could teach myself and my kids was that everyone experiences happiness differently. It was then that I stopped looking for it, and started letting it happen.
But how do you DO that?
@@RShipwash usually you feel you don't belong because you measure by others' perspective/norm and it doesnt add up.. when you start taking responsibility for and making your own reality it's their perspective that has to match up to yours in order to be relevant. then things such as loneliness/exclusion doesn't become your problem as much, rather "their" loss. of course this doesn't mean it's easy and you have to remember to always stay humble and work hard!
@@MinyaBihness if it is your friends/family/coworkers just going "fuck it" probably wont get you far haha, but i see your point :p
Amazing comment!!! I love this!
@@RShipwash I can just tell you that I stopped expecting things or people to make me happy. When I did that I was more present and found the small, real things that brought me happiness. It doesn't happen often, but now I notice it when it's there.
“I’m so smart I drink cough syrup to dumb me down”. Give me a break, man…
Classic narcissist.
It takes a lot of courage to sit in that chair and talk about life choices and regrets; I couldn't do it. I applaud all of your guests, Mark.
You are so right, Count Techhula. We are not perfect humans and yet so many demand others to keep themselves at an unattainable measures, and if they fail, they are attacked viciously and without compassion. What makes it worse is many if not all are nowhere near where they demand others to be. I hope that makes sense. I guess that’s why there’s that saying about living in glass houses.
No matter, I am still going to wish one and all an amazing day and in hope others will share their smiles with one another.
Be well and stay smiling
For some it takes courage for others it is just to be heard, either way I applaud with you.
Unless its therapy or a police interogation.
It’s therapeutic, even if they don’t realize it.
Mark is living his true life purpose
@COUNT TECHULA You are absolutely correct.
When he said 'you cant complete a task that has no ending.' That really got my attention. Thats what addiction feels like, trying to complete a task everyday that has no ending because tomorrow you just have to do it all over again.
Exactly what I thought I too…NeverEnding chase🙁
Iam an addict with 16yrs sobriety, there is light at the end of the tunnel an you are strong enough to beat that gorillas ass on your back. Speak it into existence. People places things all need to change.
Kinda what it feels like to work too
Sissyphus...
Quitting the addiction is also a task with no end. You will never stop quitting if it is your task. If you agree with once and addict always and addict that is. I have experienced it myself.
People don't necessarily need to be sympathetic to be interesting. We can always learn about the human condition, regardless of our opinion on character.
well said
Yes👏
Exactly
The only good comment I’ve read here so far.
What value is a take on the human condition when the one producing it is blatantly lying the whole time? It gets very shallow very fast.
Mark, I have been following you since shortly after you started posting. I have been fascinated by your interviews and I can only speak for myself but listening to these interviews has expanded my compassion and acceptance and empathy for my fellow human being. I am so thankful to each and every person who has shared their life experience. I thank you and them for the lessons learned through their sharing. We are all just trying to find our way in this madness. The haters will hate and sadly there's nothing we can do if they don't get it. My depth of compassion and understanding have expanded because of these brave people and I thank you for that and thank the fascinating people who share their stories. Many blessings to all on their journey.
My sentiments, exactly.
Exactly! It´s a very compassionate position...Mark´s and potentially empathic...for the viewer.
I think we all know guys like this and I think he said it best himself. "I hate myself but I'm better than everyone". People who are massively naturally talented tend to have a hard time when talent alone doesn't cut it, and requires something else, be it hard work, determination, ambition, etc, so they get stuck as prisoners of their own inability to manifest a life they're happy in, and are always intimately aware of it. Really cool interview.
How about genetics?
@HellboundLight agree 100%
For all we know he's full of shit
Noo.. its a touch of adhd
well said
The space Mark holds for people is so special. I learn so much from these interviews and I’m sure it’s a beautiful thing to be able to tell your story completely.
We’ll there ain’t much to learn from the fucking worthless bum in this episode!! Lol The dude is the definition of someone being a waste of life. He’s so much worse to, because of the lies he makes up to make himself seem edgy and cool. I hope you didn’t believe a word he said cuz it was all absolute made up bullshit!! Those stories is how he sees himself in his head. In reality he’s just a loser without a job
@@rayraybowser235 I agree. He loves the sound of his own voice so much. He seems like a person that you could never have a conversation with. You wouldn’t get a word in edgewise. I don’t see why he thinks he’s so interesting. He sounds like a huge narcissist to me, and he turns everything back into a story about himself, like his (girl)friend getting murdered.
For those who may be wondering, the GI Joe FLAGG he referenced was the aircraft carrier. it was, essentially, the most expensive and ridiculously large toy an 80's kid could own.
Thanks for clearing that up!
they had one on the TV show comic book men - looks like it was too big to even fit in any kid's bedroom
"most expensive" not counting Cabbage Patch Dolls from scalpers on the aftermarket
I'm glad you posted this explanation - not being American, I assumed he was talking about a an actual flag!
@@larrydavid6852 don't worry, we played mega games of gi Joe growing up (hundreds of figurines between 4 or 5 kids) and I've never even heard of the ship before!
He's a legend.... in his own mind
Oompah blowhard..What a withered boring vapid prick. Mirror mirror on the wall, "no answer.
Exactly!
Yup... and a troll
A narcissist. I can honestly say that because I am a narcissist in therapy.
100th 👍
Narcissism not nihilism. Clear explanation at the beginning - he was praised as child only for the things he did, not for the person he was.
Sounds like good ole American school programming
Bingo
Agreed. He learned to get attention for being directionless and espousing mainstream society.
agree. he talks a lot about how he is 'special' in different ways and says things that oppose... for instance, he said he's not happy, he just laughs. then he said he is rarely down... also what he said is "I hated myself but felt I was better than other people" - isn't that like, definition of narcissist? i don't like the guy, quite honestly. even what he says about depression... you failed then you SHOULD be sad? it's not that simple. he acts like he's intelligent but seems shallow to me. also, how can you feel happy after you hurt someone? "I decided to be a bad guy because my idols were bad" - so he takes no responsibility over the hurt he's done.
THIS!!!
Love this guys story. "the more you try to fit in, the more it becomes apparent that you don't belong". I love that.
Yeah, that one hit me between the eyes.
My entire damn life, summed up by a man I dont even know.
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Whoa man so deep
Fakes are fakes. Best to be genuine
I've recently discovered this channel in the last 3 days and watched LOADS of the interviews. What an amazing, beautiful thing it is. I absolutely love individuals and our stories. I haven't 100% agreed with any one single interviewees way of thinking but I've taken something from every single one of them that resonates HARD with me. We're all truly just a mixing pot of nurture and environment and life experience. The interviewer Mark is absolutely incredible in his approach, not one interviewee i've seen seems in any way defensive, embarrassed or starting on the back foot from the off. Truly incredible channel!
Did you see "Frenchie"?
@@edwardjones2202 I can't recall, I'll have to look. I can imagine I'll take something from it!
True! Mark is great, and it seems many of these people have never had anyone truly ask the right questions or listen to them...
Divorce/broken homes/abuse is a running theme in 99% of these interviews.
I do find a lot of them start by saying “I came from a good home”. Then, they start digging deeper explaining things that happened as a child.
@@daynalynnxo Exactly. They all say that at the beginning and then a couple sentences later the parents either divorced like this guy or another one the parents were doing hardcore drugs right in front of their 5 year old child.....
@@daynalynnxo I noticed that too, then when they tell their story it’s often marked with terrible abuse, sad. I believe it could be because many of the people in SWU are surrounded by people with similar or worse stories, so their childhood can appear as « regular ». The other thing is, as a child a part of their life was pretty « normal » and structured, like going to school, no drugs or alcohol and hopes of a better life, etc and deteriorated afterwards to lead them where they now are, so viewing back they had a bit of security, maybe.
Wrong/bad/negatives whatever you want to call it just creates more the same. Broken people break people. It's very sad and sometimes generational. It just keeps perpetuating itself.
Think about that before you do someone wrong
Statistically speaking, one time in elementary school my 1st grade teacher asked us to raise our hands if our parents were divorced and 22 out of 24 students raised their hand. I went to a nice school in a nice neighborhood in a nice town.
Interesting to see so many commenters being enthralled by his “charm” and “honesty”. I’ve met enough people just like this guy--intelligent and knows what to say and says what you want to hear. Regaling you with their wild and colorful life stories that, while entertaining, is certainly far-fetched. He says things that are deeply relatable to keep you engaged. I wouldn’t really trust a word this guy says.
I don't trust him cause he is fat and a nihilist wouldn't be fat. Lol
@@MrVontar LMAO
Correct. Really just an average avocado that makes a narrative about himself. 99% are dudes too.
This guy doesn't sit right with me. I think he is full of it. Not genuine. Probably a narcissisti too. That's just the vibe I get. He also seem to
think a lot of himself. I'm Swedish, so that's a problem 😂
@@Michael-db1ce bruh ALWAYS dudes. But in the off chance it’s a chick, then she’s quirky lol
I believe J is more of a narcissist and pathological liar than he is a Nihilist. People have a tendency to stumble over their words and thoughts when they're trying to weave something that's completely fabricated more so than when it's something they genuinely believe and/or have experienced.
Still, an incredibly important and insightful interview that showcases a very smart individual with a lot of pain in him. I hope he can find genuine happiness one day.
Well said.
I dunno… wouldn’t a narcissist try to make themselves seem really awesome? Cause although he seems to need to feel very special, he also admits to being a horrible person… ?
@@mellyo7262 He did. He made himself out to be an over-achieving, especially intelligent, gifted person, and although he admitted to doing horrible things, he said he enjoyed it. But he also slipped up and admitted he's a liar, so. I think OP was spot-on.
Probably spoiled as a child
A narcissist would never admit to being horrible, doing bad things, or not fitting in. They don't believe in any of that. They don't believe it is possible for them to be wrong or not fit in! Lol They don't seek self awareness because they feel they are flawless. Back to the books Doctors.
He’s less of a nihilist and more of a complete narcissist.
I thought that too
I see that
It inevitably goes hand-and-hand (I suspect/think).
@@sawboss5794 nope
@@sawboss5794 Not necessarily, actually, if someone was a "true nihilist" they would kill themselves because at that point there is no reason to live. Of course most, if not all, people who commit suicide don't do it because of that reason so it's fair to say that true nihilists don't really exist. This man is just stuck in the mind of a pretentious teen pretending to be a Raskolnikov or whatnot...probably to compansate, dare I say it, for being so physically unattractive.
This guy is something. Reminds me of my sibling. No true self love, but sells to the world how fascinating he is. When he may not be. It’s okay not to be.
Reminds me of my sibling too...
Reminds me of when my step-sister got stuck under the table
This is one of my siblings too... He's the firstborn
I get that some people describe things a certain way that makes things seem more cut and dry then they are but it's interesting how many times in my life I've heard the narrative of my family was so normal white middle class mom was like June cleaver and then the next few sentences is then my parents got divorced and I didn't see one parent and then I started doing heroin or became a satanist or something
@@Voice_of_Saturn we all have our opinions
Would be awesome to see interviews with natives living on reservations. Great content.
I would love that!
He's got plenty of those.
Definitely
Definitely
@@sallyann985 really?! I haven't seen one yet.
This channel is just incredible. The way it's filmed and the stories that these people have to tell is just so watchable. I'm from England and I struggle with drinking problems that have ruined my personal life and friendships, and going to work every day is a struggle. I start a new job in a few days and I'm hoping this is a new chance. Addiction is something I've struggled with my whole life, I am OCD and suffer with anxiety and depression,but seeing these people makes me think that there are people out there who suffer from birth 🙏
I suffer from ADHD, anxiety and depression and it's a daily struggle to get through a full 24hrs without craving a drink. I've only been on the wagon for a week and a half, and it's been really hard. You're not alone in your struggles, there are many out there like us, stay strong and godspeed.
Blackjackmaestro Keep trying, even if it feels exhausting and sometimes even hopeless. One day at a time👍eventually you’ll get there👍👍
@@angrypandaification a week and a half is amazing! Well done! You should be proud! Small things lead to better things. XXX
@@piavaljakka1388 Thankyou so much, I'm struggling but I think this new job is a new way for me to respect myself. Hopefully 🙏👍
@@blackjackmaestro6505 same to you bucko.
If an intelligent person doesn't have a path in life, a job where they can utilize their intelligence, theyre going to find themselves holding a shovel and trying to communicate with people who only think things like "i like big trucks." Theyre going to feel completely isolated.. there's thousands of people like this guy.
Wow such a spot on observation! I can see my self in that
Glad you found yours
yep, and I'm thinking that number is closer to millions....
Spot on. That’s me. Very isolated.
Hey I like big trucks! Lol
I am so hooked on these interviews Mark. What an incredibly diverse subject matter you offer to your audience. So many different angles and situations I knew nothing about previously.... now I have at least a greater understanding. Can't wait to see how far this show goes... enriching material ..great job!
A legend in his own mind.
I agree. He's basically a nobody like the rest of us, but he is definitely the main character in his story, isn't he?
@Stephen Tyree Yeah, but I've learned in life w/o sounding like an insensitive SOB, that many folks who fail in life have pretty much the same attitude. Like Mark asked, we're aren't here to 'judge'..to chase off anyone... although by default we do. There's also lessons to be learned. The purpose of Mark's vids. To educate and bring attention to ppl who fall through cracks. I've learned lessons in life are raw, unapologetic, rude and uncomfortable.
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I think it's important to realize that we are ALL the main character in our own lonely theatre. It's just a matter of how lost in the production we are.
Real talk:
I’m so smart I have to dumb myself down lol
These people are fucking EXHAUSTING to talk to and this interview gives the same feeling. Definitely the "im the smartest person ive ever met" mentality, someone who doesnt think anyone can teach him anything
People who dont take advice tend to fail🤷♂️ Most of the time the person giving the advice was in their position at one point, someone helped them and now they’re applying it to everyone else, its only if they choose to accept it
I learned something powerful from a psychologist this week and I would like to share it with you. “There can be NO real intervention until the person feels heard.” In other words, the best advice will fall flat if the person is not confident you actually understand THEM.
This gentleman strikes me as someone whose intelligence and creativity has not yet found a positive and rewarding pathway to enter the world. Intelligence and creativity can feel like (and maybe are) a curse if they aren’t expressed.
@@allyourbase888 very true ,as someone who feels patronised and un heard myself .
He’s not that smart, he just thinks he is.
You take it that way because he thinks he's smarter than you and you think you are smarter than him
I get the sense his perceived intelligence and sense of superiority comes from surrounding himself with people in low places. He was a street level criminal outwitting other street level criminals. The jobs he states he can't stand are entry level jobs he had in his thirties. When he was a "pimp" he was basically a security guard. His story of being a tough guy in a fight was a non-fight with no action on his part. He has finished and accomplished almost nothing but claims to be talented. He takes advantage of desperate people and has convinced himself this makes him great.
Exactly..you hit the nail on the head!! You are so much better with words than I am!!
Exactly!!!!
I am curious as to why you think he isn't a narcissist.
My thoughts are he is not only a narcissist but also antisocial to add to the personality traits. That's my thoughts anyway.
@@northerntess I disagree strongly, if being extremely manipulative makes you narcissistic and antisocial then…..never mind you might have a point.
Oh shieeet 😬😂 u hit that on the nail!! Came for his wig and everything.
The thing with these types of personalities is that they eventually tell on themselves. All you have to do is pay attention. When talking about how he immediately knew when someone was a liar, he said "maybe we smell our own".
And that's really all you need to know.
Exactly. It's like he got too into what he was saying and accidentally said that; probably thought everyone would be too enamored with him to notice.
Spot on, I picked up on that too.
I believe that is known as self awareness
Exactly. I wonder how much of this is actually true. Haha
They did foretell similar great achievements for me in kindergarten at a very young age, one of the teachers proposed by my behaviour alone If I could possibly be the King of England
Reading Bukowski at 13 will have that effect. Bukowski s attitude, “anyone who strives for anything is a loser, except for me”, is poisonous and infectious. It is a serious social problem. However, if this guy is a “nihilist” what would you call the majority of the other interviewees? Their nihilism is often a cause and an effect of their addictions.
Nihilism is an absence of faith. Faith makes hope possible. Nihilism is hopelessness.
I dunno. I agree that Bukowski should ideally be read a little later in life with some experience under one's belt. it kinda helps to see through the churlishness and arrogance in his writing that you pointed out. I don't think it's a given that reading him at 13 will have that effect, though. I think people become nihilistic for reasons which are much deeper and more complex than that.
well Nihilist , in its simple form means extreme skepticism maintaining that nothing in the world has a real existence. This usually is something that derives from an abrupt tragedy impacting an individuals life, in my experience its in adolescent time period, that manifests later in life and the thought process changes rapidly. I wish this great county of ours would strive on the importance of mental health that it really requires.
I'm inclined to agree with you on Bukowski, however, there is always that constant undertone with him that you absolutely should not listen to what he said. Even he is someone to be rebelled against and disagreed with. He does, after all, remind his readers often of how laser-focused he was with his writing. He let it infatuate him at the expense of all else. He's telling his audience, albeit through rash paradox and a somewhat brazen nihilism, "just fucking do it". "What?" they ask. "It!"
@@Ma_rkw589 Look at this comment from Mark David. read it twice. then drink a cup of strong bitter coffee and read it one more time. Under stand that intelligence isnt so common. common sense seems to not so common, when someone bright explains it for the humans with alittle les synapses, we should listen. Never resent the fact that you have alittle less neurotransmissions, its the majority group, im just glad i can spot it. the human mind when dealing with absolute beliefs is always weighed by the settings of the emotional impact and exterior influence of that moment in time. what stay concrete is just concrete. "so dawn goes down today, nothing gold can stay. bravo Mark
This guy seems like an intelligent, depressed guy who uses humor to cope. Using medication to numb yourself is a thing you do when you're in pain. I love these interviews because they shine a spotlight on real humanity, the good and the bad.
You didn't notice that he said he enjoyed hurting people?
Thank you Mark, for exposing us to different people. Let’s not live in a bubble. There is always a take away for me, with every interview.
Stay Human ♥️
Stay Human, love that Tara
whatd you take away from this one?
Stay human is my new motto Tara. Thank you 🙏🏼 😘
Really?
Stay thirsty my friends
I relate so hard to what he said about never feeling like he belonged and struggling with depression/anxiety as a child. Not ever feeling like things are right and knowing that you should feel better but can’t despite having an objectively safe and loving environment at home. Being so sensitive that you dumb yourself down as an adult just to cope. Just knowing that someone else out there feels that way helps me maintain hope when I’m feeling my lowest. Thank you
Can I ask if your parents addressed behavior the way this guy's parents, did with a reward based system, or did they use a punishment system or a combination? I wonder if the man's personality type didn't work well with the reward system.
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He’s psychologically interesting. I bet he’d pass a lie detector test even if he was lying because there’s a lack of connection somewhere in there
I love the way you said "lack of connection" because deep down at the root of his consciousness he really is.
@@thirdeyeactivity1747 He really is what?
@@no_misaki Disconnected.
Psychopath
Right. Guy is completely full of shit. Those who do the things he claims, don't rattle them off. Not only to strangers, but they don't rattle it off to the internet either.
You can tell he makes this shit up as he goes along, because it's all vagueries, and he doesn't complete any of the "stories".
He's just an entitled, spoiled, brat, that never grew up, and now blames everyone else for his failures. Making up fantastical claims, to build up a strawman in order to hide an utterly failed, empty, non-productive, life.
This is the first time I've heard someone express so many feelings in words that I can directly relate to. Thankful for this!
Really? I felt the exact opposite!
Go challenge yourself to engage with people who are intelligent as well and see how humbled you become
J strikes me as a chap who has adopted an armor of quasi-nihilistic narcissism/emotional detachment to defend him from the traumas that he’s experienced in his life, and has as a result become so detached from his own feelings that he’s become detached from the feelings of others yet is simultaneously aware of this and so he wears his emotional callousness like a badge of honor. I once had a very close friend like J. He had what a lot of people would consider a great childhood but just went through a number of traumatic things that led to him adopting this “hardcore detached nihilist, nothing matters but what I want” attitude. I’ve known a lot of people like J and there is always a reason that they are the way they are. They are trying to believe this front more than anyone else. There is a self-imposed mental block of detachment and indifference because it's the only way they know how to process feelings. It's deeply saddening.
Interesting video as always, Mark.
Nice to see somebody think through what an individual presents.
Had a friend like this too. That's a perfect explanation
Totally agree we need to see an American Indian interview
Thought the same thing. He wears this mask just as much as those he accuses.
yeah, ive known a few heads just like him also. they are always entertaining but you eventually want to put them at a distance lol
I can fall right into the shoes of every person telling their story, on here. It's so very honest that it hits the human core.
So true!
J, I relate a lot to you. What is missing is relationships. It's nothing you can consume. When you treat people as objects to consume, you will never reach the realm of true relationships that is the real point of life. I spent my 20s consuming and robotripping. I finally discovered the real point. Relationships. It's so much harder and doesn't give that instant dopamine rush, but it gives you a real life. A purpose and a reason to actually be alive. Anywho.... I hope you find the truth you're looking for. I grew up in the Chicago burbs too. Just a little younger than you are. I really enjoyed your interview. Thanks so much for sharing!
Thank you for your insightful comment… I enjoyed reading it😊
Dam good perspective .. thanks D!
Lol robo is actually a great cure for nihilism I was gonna suggest he do it actually hahaha
@@willissudweeks1050 Not sure where the laughing matter is within your comment
@@xsct878 If you’d ever done DXM you would.
That idea of being able to outwit everyone and then not respecting them makes me think of 2 things. Firstly, lot of people who are smart are also trustworthy and so will not play one-upmanship games or be baited into harsh comebacks. Secondly, he never put himself in a place where he could be challenged adequately, because there are spaces where he would not be the smartest in the room by a long shot.
Yeah, that was what I picked out as well. Similar to the Dunning-Kruger affect. When you have a ton of smart people in a room, there is often a bipolar grouping of people: the people who think they are smart and will continue to try to prove it, and then the group who immediately recognizes they are in a group of their peers or seniors, and recognizes it as a opportunity to learn and better themselves
@@AnonymousOtters Yeah.. and the latter are the ones that are actually smart.
@@ringadingding4431 Thats not a matter of intelligence though, its a lacking in the ability to process the negative emotions that arise from having their central defining feature and source of self worth (intelligence) negated.
@@tinnitussoundtherapy Bingo. Thus, the anger and self-medicating.
He's not that bright ar all ....thats obvious
Mark, I just want you to know that this video was extremely important for me. This type of interviewee is not your main focus on your channel and I completely understand that. There are so many addictions, lifestyles and struggles that people are going through, it has to be near impossible to cover them all. Your work helps so many people, interviewees and viewers alike. I'm in my early 30's and I have never thought of Nihilism before in my life, or really even understood what it meant. I found myself connecting with things he was saying and it has brought things to life in my mind I didn't know or understand. I've never had a role model, or family support and as I grew I constructed my own view of reality. It caused a lot of pain and suffering for myself and for others. I could never afford counseling and really had no desire to seek help anyways. I was lucky enough to stumble upon your interviews, and they've become almost like therapy for me. They have unlocked something inside me. I just enrolled in counseling one day a week for the foreseeable future. It is expensive, and my insurance doesn't cover it, but I have to look past that. I had my first appointment, and the counselor let me talk and talk, and towards the end of the session, hit me with a few bombshells that really took me by surprise. Things I needed to hear. Now I have all these thoughts and emotions running through my mind that I've never really dealt with before. The counselor gave me work to do to get ready for the next session, and I'm working hard at it.
I guess what I really wanted to say to everyone who watches your interviews, watch as many as you can. Keep an open mind. These interviews are better than what any classroom or self help book you can read. These are real people with real lives, real struggles and real viewpoints. Mark asks the right questions and allows people to openly discuss what they're going through. As a viewer, you can pick up things here and there that directly relate to what you may be going through and give you insight that no one else has ever given you.
I wish all your interviewees the best. You really are helping Mark, I didn't know there was people like you out there.
🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Your words really resonated with my own feelings...
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Right on dude. Good therapy is the best. Best of luck to you. 🙏🏽
Seeing-Ghosts I wish you the best. I hope your therapy helps you. I like you came across Marks channel by chance …. It’s actually captivated me . I struggle with severe PTSD I’m not proud to say. You could never tell by my smile ….. I generally hide it well . However that’s not how I get better ( by hiding it ) I’ve been in therapy for about the last 24 years …. I’m still going … I’m still struggling….. I’m still smiling…. But is always a struggle. I try to just be Kind and Smile.
I'm so happy i have found this channel
Easily the best most profound thing on RUclips.
Thank you so much
this dude is anything but genuine.
I’m glad somebody said it
It's his act for the rest of the world - his way of trying to be perceived as special to others.
@@RetroClash95 He's a bullshitter and not a very good one.
Fr, why is he not genuine?
Disagree for the most part
Mark: "yeah but you were supposed to keep the money"
Lol Mark's pimp game is strong
Yeah I caught that too.
He's telling the game not selling the game. lol
Lol facts!
"If I've got everything I want, who cares who's got the money?" Literally no pimp ever thinks like that 😂
I'm struggling to understand all the negative comments. This is an honest interview and, if you have the ability to read between the lines, I think he's being much more vulnerable than some people are giving him credit for. As a child he was constantly rejected by his peers after continually trying to fit in, so he decided to reject the world first. It's very painful to be aware or intelligent enough to understand you don't fit in, but unable to understand how to no matter what you do. The dynamic he had as a sort of reverse-pimp shows that deep down, he just wants to be loved and accepted like everyone. Like most self-proclaimed villains (that aren't innate psychopaths), it's villainy, arrogance, pessimism, nihilism, etc. as defense mechanism. He as much as revealed that himself if not in so many words.
This
Definitely this.
Thank you!
true, but victim mentality leads to misery so he should man up
Amazing anwer, your are a nice person .... God bless you
What an absolutely fascinating person. Great interview. Rare for a person to be so gifted, flawed, intelligent and honest.
As an underachiever I can relate, our egos get flared up and we talk about our potential. Fluff, all padding for the ego. Potential is nothing.
All those who haven't achieved what they believe they should've considered themselves underachievers.
We’ve all met a guy like this. I love this interview because It gives me so much insight to that person.He’s just one of those know-It-all types who “doesn’t care” because he understands It all. I appreciate that he gave his version of an honest interview. Regardless of my opinions, this was another great interview.
The tortured “genius”
@emi エミ He's very good at critical thinking and analysis. Maybe not conventionally intelligent or studied, but potential and understanding. Probably on the spectrum or a narcissist.
Thanks for saying this. My primary abuser is this type of pseudo philosophical narcissist, man-splaining, "I'm too smart for this world" piece of shit so seeing so many people fall for this dude's fascade in the comments was infuriating so thanks for sharing what you fid
@@sarahsuntheimer7964 I mean, he definately comes off as full of himself. Especially in his nonchalant "I hurt people" with zero fucks given in his eyes about. He is either fabricating truth or inhuman emotionally. I hope your primary abuser is a person in your rearview.
@@sarahsuntheimer7964 "man-splaining" I can tell you deserved it.
This guy is like most self proclaimed unrecognized talents who feel they have everything figured out because they read some Bukowski and Vonnegut.
He's literally a lying edgy cringelord. You're not a genius because you can't handle authority, you're a lazy asshole. Nothing cool about this guy, absolute loser.
Right. Most likely an unaware narcissist.
Also known as me when i was 20z
...so it blows.
No.. he's really sad and depressed so he resorts to cruely or laughing while likely cryin inside
Definition of psychopath/narcissism/sloth.... THINKS they are the smartest person in the room.
"Those moments when you know that you can feel better than you do... And then it's gone."
That's my entire life. Damn this interview hit me to the core
Muscle memory exists.
Same with your brain. Maladapted brain patterns that have been formed can be rewired. Just believe in yourself, don't ever give up on yourself, seek help if need it. Counselor, therapist, hotline, group, yt videos, etc💓
Your interviews always seem to go so well. People seem to be relaxed and open, truthful. Thanks for what you do.
Wha????
@@davidhicks6509 another Hicks!!!! Dammit!!!! 😆
Bro. For. Real.
J sad to say but you sound exactly like my youngest son. He too doesn’t feel like he fits in anywhere and it makes me incredibly sad that he doesn’t find much joy in this life. As a mother of 5 it is my only desire that my children find joy, purpose and love in this life. I wish the same for you. 🙏🏽🥰
You All Need JESUS. Hope It Gets Better.
Keep an eye on him ❤️🙏🏼
Could be Aspergers....
I think my son is right there, my desire is my children find joy, purpose and love in this life, too
@@Annette64772 Yes you are 100% correct. It was tough getting him through his twenties but it seems he has emotionally matured enough now. Thanks 🙏🏽🥰
This man is a dark empath...
Definition is he can actually feel people suffering from the inside and enjoy watching it,even if someone is "holding in tears of sadness" he senses it out and ENJOYS it
Interesting perception... I think it's actually called ''sociopath''.🤔
a lot of people have the dark triad personality type... 'dark empaths' isn't a thing and if you're going to talk about something know what you're talking about otherwise don't speak on it because if you can't even get the term right you definitely don't have any knowledge on the subject. sociopaths, narcissists, psychopaths i mean the list goes and on and on and on. you obviously don't have any life experience but my advice to you is learn how to adapt to these people and accept them for what they are because whether you believe me or not it makes up the majority of humanity now. i was raised by a narcissist and i made the choice to try and understand everything i could about the mental disorder because i wanted to be peace with my parent and that's what i did. no one's perfect, i'm sure you're no saint either.
When I hit this link I misread the title as “Narcissist” instead of “Nihilist,” and I think it’s just as fitting. Fascinating interview and subject as usual.
"At least it's an ethos."
@@KarmaFlight just because he has a different point of view on life? different people different points of view about things
@@yourlord4096 I think that went right over your head. Have you never seen "The Big Lebowski"?
@teargas101 On the contrary, I read it as is, yet the longer the video went on I started to realise it probably should read "Narcissist". J reminds me of a friend I had at school, incredibly intelligent, incredibly manipulative, friendly yet hostile at all times, a part of the group yet distanced himself, showed no fear in all situations, didn't care who he upset or hurt, and was sure enough later diagnosed as having narcissism and bipolar.
He moved abroad and we lost touch, but I caught up with him for a few months when he found out we were living in the same city. We bonded again great, hilarious times to be fair, amazing conversations about literature, music, art and films, but in all honesty he was never warm, just jovial, like this man is. The kind of guy you always knew had a switch lying somewhere deep inside him you did not want to even pretend to approach.
Haven't seen him in nearly 10 years now, none of us have, though I heard he's married somewhere and doing just fine. I would love to catch up with him again one day, a truly fascinating person... In small doses.
Yall need to stop diagnosing people narsiatic personality disorder is a real mental illness
It amazes me how so many people can tell their life story that holds our attention. It's opened my eyes to how others struggle. It's very humbling. Thank you Mark. I do appreciate your work.
I was a janitor at a college, and id see unfinished math problems on the board - id just solve 'em...
😂
How you like them apples
@@Snoopy13forlife 🤣🤣You clearly don't get the reference
Laughed out loud reading this thanks mate 😅
@@Snoopy13forlife 👍🏿
“I don’t see myself in anything so I consume everything”
That’s hard to recognize and hard to admit. For one to know he isn’t a subject is a rare confrontation with a universal condition.
This guys thought process is so intriguing, really really makes me think in a way I never have. It’d be great to see him again
I’d love to see another one of his interviews too! It’s so intriguing to see a different state of mind
@@anakuznia you guys know he admitted that he was high during the interview, right?
These interviews are awesome. I love the way he just let them talk and don’t get in the way of their story.
As someone who bartended for almost a decade…. You meet A LOT of ppl like this . I’ll leave it at that lol
Sensitive, narcissistic, and always lying... it's sad to see a lot of people completely overlooking this and finding this guy charming!
@@henrysteller2901 And don't forget the prostitues and strippers who have beautiful souls and are so, so strong.
@@mwi87 Right? All these people talking shit but I never seem to meet the folks who are all "I"m sooo fucking dumb and everyone totally gets me!"
He shows signs of classic psycopathy: superficially charming, grandiose, gets a kick out of controlling/hurting people, drifting from project to project, 24 hour boredom due to inability to emphathise
Right? That's what I was saying. This is like 1 out of every 5 people I meet.
I have been called a pessimist my whole life. I am often cynical, and I consider myself a realist. I never get depressed. I totally get what he's saying in that regard. People are always surprised when I tell them that,, and I am not sure that I understand it myself, but hey...I'll take being an upbeat pessimist over being a depressed optimist any day of the week.
The post-modern world is entrenched in a cult of toxic positivity.
You can be both a pessimist and have clinical depression. It can also be termed existential dread. Philosophers like kierkegaard and cioran had both traits. Clinical depression and a pessimist view on life.
@@Jbclaimstobethebestwhenhefeels
100%. Many people that I hold dear have depression. I *feel* like I experienced it once as a teenager when someone I loved killed themself. But I am not sure, maybe the intensity of those feelings translate, but the duration and general underlying dread are things I can’t really relate to. I have become seasoned to people around me dying. But I absolutely have a few pessimistic friends who are clinically depressed. Seems an even bigger battle when those two things are combined...
okay there rust
This man reeks of self hatred and narcissism. He can see that he isn't special, so he fabricates himself to be special, and then talks down to others who feel the same. This reflects his inner feelings about himself. The only thing that can truely save this man from his own pain is to be truthful to himself, for once.
I was thinking the same. I don't know the man, I am way younger than he is and live in a part of the world he is never heard of. So I don't know his experiences but I think he was told from a very young age that he is special because of his intelligence and his talents so he started to believe in his own myth and as he started to become an adult he realised that there are people way smarter than him, way more talented than him and there are some way more lucky or fortunate to be at the right place and it was hard for him to digest because to get better at anything you first have to accept that you are not good at that thing and you are dumb but that is not acceptable to him so he portrays himself to be an outcast because then he is not like anyone he doesn't have to compare himself with anyone. So he spares himself the pain of not being special. Or I am totally wrong about this lol.
@@baba3093 pretty valid suggestion. Each viewer can make their own decision but that's a valid perspective
I am 56 years old and in his voice, I hear the voices of the people I knew in High School, who never made the effort to get out of the 5 mile radius where they grew up.
@@tomdonahue4224 I think accepting your cowardice is a painful thing, so a lot of people will look for excuses to justify their inertia.
@@baba3093 I can understand what you are saying but, is anyone of us special? And aren't we all unique?
There is only one of you in all of God's creation and perhaps that is what we should understand, no?
He started off saying he didn't come from a broken home but his parent split when he was 12. Maybe he doesn't understand what a broken home is. This obviously had a great impact on his life.
He was perhaps making up stories as he went on; therefore inconsistencies
My parents divorced when I was 22, it messed with my head at that age, I couldn't imagine what it does to children.
100%
@@Callie-uk7mo my parents almost divorced recently. I can think of few things more hopeless than divorce. Im 24, and their marriage getting saved against literally all odds, gives me a glimmer of light and hope that I almost lost.
@@CrazedTacoEater852 My folks got divorced when I was about 8 years old. They are both happily re-married now. It was hard, but the constant fighting was infinitely more damaging. I would only change that they split up before I started to develop memories. It would have been a happier life for everyone in that house, if they didn't try to 'stay together for the kids'. Every relationship is different, but in our case, divorce did not come soon enough.
This dude reminds me of so many people I've crossed paths with or partied with over the years. May he find his way one day. God bless.
Same
@YOLO MORGANNWG God is not well hung.
yeah, that is all they have. it is sad
literally seen him sing with green jello at the gathering of the juggalos last year i remembered watching this video before i went to the gathering,then seeing him sing live blew my wig back because i couldnt remember where i had seen him until it clicked recently finding this video in my watch again.
crazy
Do you know if there’s a video of it? Or do you remember the name he used when he performed so l can look for it myself?
@@amandaloveless4369 just look up green jello gathering of the juggalos 2022, he's up front most of the show.
@@amandaloveless4369I'll sing it right to you if you got space and trade....
Lmaoooo "blew my wig back" that's gold 😂
@@amandaloveless4369it was with Green Jellö... He goes by Nihilist.....haha....pretty sure.
"I can be who the person I'm talking to wants me to be." Felt that deep.
@Andrew sounds about right lmao
@Andrew fuckin A 😂😂💯
@Andrew 🤦♂️It’s so funny how people try to spin the narrative of the video and portray this dude as being interesting when in reality he is just a miserable asshole.He even admits to doing fucked up shit to people and liking it.
@Andrew lol wtf he gonna do if he comes around trying to collect or touch you up!?!. Certainly doesn't have a crew, morbidly obese and couldn't punch his way out of a wet paper bag... He not staunching anyone. Complete other way around!
@Andrew Daaaaaaaamn
Everyone has a story and they are all interesting! I drive a para transit bus and get to meet and talk with all kinds of people. Mark, you are documenting the people I drive to get groceries, go to the doctor and to work. I'm glad you are documenting their stories. We'll never learn to get along with each other until we stop and listen to their stories. Thanks for what you do!
Must be from Tacoma wa ?
Do u drive in Tacoma?
@@brendabrooks8925 yes I do! How do you know that? 😃
I don’t want to disrespect the struggles this man has actually gone through, but I get the impression he’s embellishing much of the story, if not outright lying.
He claims to have been a straight-A student, gang enforcer, drug smuggler, pimp, writer, feared abuser, womanizer, extremely intelligent, and a villain that has never suffered or even believes in depression.
I would be truly shocked if anyone from the streets, or drug game, or pimp game knows who he is and vouches for him.
He even made a comment about “other people” who are outcasts or misfits, that invent lies about themselves which even they begin to believe. That’s a confession, not an observation.
Again, I don’t intend any hate with this. However, most of his story, along with his self-descriptions are so lurid and edgy that they appear cartoonish. Claiming he can manipulate and hurt anybody “if I wanted to” is just such an obvious coping mechanism against feelings of powerlessness and inadequacy. If he was really that brilliant, he’d understand this all sounds like a comic book villain backstory. He’s not going to fool everyone.
Yea I get the impression he is hard coping.
17:32 "I watched the first one and immediately thought she was a liar.... cause maybe we smell our own a little bit."
Definitely a confession.
Wow you summed up my thoughts exactly. He sounds more like a grandiose narcissist than a nihilist to be fair.
@@MrRobKaos I agree 100% but as I look at him I think he stole his whole character from batman this guy is trying to be penguin.
@@jamescheff3160 your comment made me chuckle, thank you
It would be really interesting to hear more about J's parents - their lives and backgrounds, and also how he felt about their split. He says that he had a perfect childhood/family until 12 yrs old, but to have the type of emptiness/disconnect he describes feeling, there was either significant attachment issues or their separation was very traumatic for him. Really interesting interview - thanks for sharing your story.
I suspect he's one of the participation trophy kids..
Idk if I believe everything he says if I'm being totally honest, but that was a hell of an interview and I thoroughly enjoyed it.
I bet he killed his wife
He’s definitely telling the life story he wishes he had
Only part I believe is the spoiled childhood part. spoiled only child rich kids always thought they were better than everyone which made the “actual cool kids” think they were losers.
I don't believe most of it, I think he's mostly suffering from narcissism . I just want's to be perceived as a smart/genius guy. "i'm so bored." everyone else is so dumb and I'm so smart and creative . blah blah. To use his phrase, hes a failure. Pretty sad to be at least somewhat intelligent and have an attitude like that your whole adult life. He needs to get over himself.
Mark is a hell of a guy.
@@boyerindustries nailed it!!!!!
I start these videos with the intent of true empathy.. Unfortunately, as a student of psychology both in life, and in degree, I always just end up finding it fascinating how many different ways people lie to themselves to cope with life.
Fair comment ,but I wonder does empathy stop at liars , who may use lying as a survival technique in unusual circles , being a student of psychology can you explain where true empathy ends, I'm not educated as far as titles but surely empathy in my mind is an understanding of how a lack of genuine love or advice circumstance can make people do some bad things ,but is it okay to empathise with evil people to go to an extreme, because it isn't condoning to empathise it is to understand on a deeper level beyond moral values,but honestly I would like to get your opinion of this if you have time, I may not understand the true meaning and I will respect your answer,thankyou
You're lying to yourself as well.
@@alexstradoni8887 We're all lying to ourselves maaaan.
@@joshuadowdle9691 that's life
Neurotypicals are incapable of true empathy....and even less capable of clair-empathy. Some don't have mirrors to show them their true nature....some refuse to look.
When you said “ I think most us will go to our graves with something missing “ that really really hit home.
That something is Jesus, I no longer have that hole in my heart because He's filled the void.
You wouldn't feel like you've missed something deep, enriching, satisfying, fulfilling etc, if you'd just learn to appreciate what you already have.
@@donmiller2908 👎 boo.
@@donmiller2908 Too few people just sit down, close their eyes and think about what they have instead of constantly thinking what's missing.
@@samuellambertmurrayduncan1412 - I agree.
We all went to high school with this guy.
this guy is incredibly narcissistic, he is not a nihilist
I'm not a fan of armchair psychology, but narcissism and nihilism seem like two things that'd go together pretty well
@@azeliaspank they often can but also is often the complete opposite since nihilism is the belief in nothing or that nothing has any real value than it often makes people feel they have no value and don't matter
Nihilism is a way of thinking, Narcissism is a disorder, he could have/be both maybe
I thought the same thing.
They’re not mutually exclusive.
This is real version of the comic book guy from the Simpsons
Great interview, this guy is more honest than most people ,he admits who he is and blames only himself for his flaws which everyone has plenty of but are content to look outside themselves to blame .
Yea
Literally blamed his parents
I don't like how he talks about robotripping like it's some intellectual thing. It's literally overdosing on nyquil. And it makes you retarded.
he is as manipulative as it comes and takes pleasure in others pain... and clearly above the bar in intellect compared to his usual interviews... sick sick sick man, I would not trust this guy with anything, ever
His honesty is just an avenue for him to talk about himself, his obviously favorite activity. It’s an interview, so that’s the point, but he loves it. The “man child” comment was very telling.
What a great interview Mark. The Land of Misfit Toys... What an insightful description of himself. I'm sure more than not, many of us feel that way at
various stages of our lives if not often. That movie has been stuck in my head since the late 60's early 70's.
I grew up in the 80s, watching those island of misfits. I nearly got a tattoo of that little Dentist Elf. The only reason I don't have that tattoo, is the chaos that was my life when I decided to get it. I suppose if I had found someone with a tattoo gun, who was willing to do it for nearly free, I would probably have that Elf on my skin somewhere. Now that I'm thinking about it, maybe I'll get that tattoo.
You were going to be the captain of the football team? The valedictorian? But you weren't. Somebody said in a different comment that he's a legend in his own mind. That's spot on
I *struggle* with nihilism. I wish that I felt more connected to a grand purpose in this life, but it’s just so hard for my brain to do that. I promise you that if I could *choose* to feel different I would: I try to feel different. I did not feel as though I was loved as a child. I think this plays a big role in my nihilistic mindset. I’m aware of it and I’m trying to be better for myself and the world.
These videos are amazing and help me to accept myself. Thank you to all the interviewees and thank you to Mark for sharing yourselves with us.
Go talk to a therapist, sounds like you have CPTSD. It can stem from neglect. You sound like me. I wish i could feel like i care about these things. Or even if im here. Ive rationalized my sui so many times its disgusting. Try getting into philospheres like Epictetus and Marcus Aurlius. Thats really all thats helped me. The best you can hope for is being a sad wise man who knows the ins and outs of the world
@@JoeMama-mg5dk thanks man, I appreciate that advice! It’s funny you say that because I wrote this comment in the car literally right after my 3rd therapy appointment. I’ve been in therapy before, but this time is different because I’m more mature now and my counselor is a really great guy who I can really connect with. I’m hopeful that I’ll be able to develop a more optimistic outlook this time. I’ll definitely look into different philosophical perspectives more!
I would be like this if not for Christ.
@@firingallcylinders2949 I’m happy for you!
@@firingallcylinders2949 Jesus christ is the only answer and he is the purpose for life ❤️
well that is certainly enlightening. i am so excited for the day you have a good interview with a diagnosed narcissist. i love that this is branching out into different interview categories, i am a very curious person and i love the authenticity your channel brings.
I have just the person for that interview 🙄
@@Chelsaaaa14 Oh sweet, you should be happy... you're going to get interviewed by Mark!
honestly this one was different and so interesting please keep interviewing all these different people it’s so mind opening to hear how other people view life
I've known a few folks that are full of shit, but this dude takes the cake. He's even too lazy to come up with something original.
Thank you!
It is pretty pathetic to whine about hardship when he was raised in a home that had a roof and he got fed. I only had one a time, and it alternated
Yep, you got it!!
100% guarantee he masturbates furiously to anime femboys.
@@email4664 I don't know about the guy in this video, but I can tell you that being raised in a home with a roof and food doesn't mean that you don't suffer hardship. Not in the traditional financial sense- but people with those kinds of lives can be dealing with sexual abuse, or physical abuse, or mental abuse from within that life. In my personal life I have come to learn that not everything is as it seems.
I appreciate his honesty. It's hard for me to feel too much sympathy for him due to his selfishness, but on the same hand I feel like he is hurting inside and really struggles with connecting with other people.
You think that was honesty? Dude is depressed and bored with his life, and he wants you to think he's interesting. That was all lies.
The guy is farthest thing from honest.
@@DJ-du4tq Agreed. To me he comes across as caring a lot and he's damaged inside and this rebellious character is all an act. I wouldn't be surprised if he never spent a day in jail and lived with mom most of his life playing video games in the basement and watching movies. That's the vibe I get from him.
I agree. I think he really doesn't care about himself anymore and just exists.
It's sad. He has never really found any happiness in life.
I appreciate his dark humor to make light of a bad day or something hard to go through. I personally do the same thing to a certain degree.
I honestly can’t imagine finding or dealing with the suicide of significant other. Whether anyone believes everything he said was true or not he’s still only human & has feelings even if he tries to hide it.
Very well said.
The real tragedy of this character is how he's so self absorbed. Although he can't be blamed entirely. He's a product of his environment just like everyone else in your channel.
Can't believe Mark finally found a Redditor
lol
You win the internet today.
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I don't get it. What does that mean?
If I had to make an educated guess I'd say this individual is a compulsive liar and fantasist... im guessing the only truth he said was that he doesn't fit in...all rather odd BUT intelligent, actually a wasted talent
Well I'd say since he admitted he was a liar that's a pretty safe bet.
I’d noticed by the time he started talking about how he *used to be able to recite pi to ~30 digits that he’s probably a narcissist. He is very proud of his shortcomings even because he believes he is superior in effort and thought processes
You hit the nail on the head. Well said.
@Lance Gordon I didn’t notice that - I was getting self-deprecating humor, reasonable perspective on own life and humanity generally - seems that he simply owns who and where he is
@@Avalanche2 you fing narcissist
@Cold Blood Narcissists think they are above all and can barley feel empathy. No, we are not all narcissists.
@@Coco-bl8zg I have a lot of NPD traits but the lack of empathy isn't one of them so it's certainly a spectrum.
After listening this interview I have only 6 words. Thank you mom, thank you dad.
Thank you Mark for providing so much diversity and insight into different lifestyles on your channel, your channel is such a teaching tool and a gem!
Yes it is.
What did it teach you? To not touch children? Gangbang? Lie? Steal? Cheat? Wow that’s so deep
I have never met someone who has said they are smart and have actually turned out to be smart
I wake up every morning and watch your videos mark. They give so much insight! Thank you for the work that you do. You ARE making a difference.
I kinda like this guy. I think it's because he's who he is and honest about it. We aren't all the same. I just read Mark's pinned comment and I agree with Mark. You know how many people get caught up in narcissist friends and never realize it because they hide it so well? This guy is fully open and not hiding who he is. I could get along with someone like this. I don't get along with people who are extremely judgemental and don't look at those deep shadows within themselves even if they are kind people. It's the hidden stuff within all of us that this person is honest about. I actually admire that about someone. He's not going around molesting kids or creeping around society as a serial killer. I discovered this channel a week ago and binge watching these interviews. It's like therapy for myself. We all can relate to the human experience. It's so vast and complex we humans will never be cookie cutters of each other.
This guy reminds me of My Uncle. I didn't meet him until I was 16 because he got into an argument with my grandfather one thanksgiving about desert and didn't see my family after that until my grandfather started dying, (no joke). The Man knows it all and there isnt a soul on earth smarter than him, everyone is a Dumbass and nothing matters. Both are sad people and i wish that they both could have a turn of character.
Yup, my uncle as well
Such joy in other people's pain is terrifying.
I have a supervisor at work like that.
@@johnboy6594 Try to find another line of work if you can. These types need to be avoided at all costs.
That’s a disgusting person.
That's most "regulars".
@@LardGargantuus Totally Agreed
"I think most of us will go to our grave's not getting what we're missing" so true.
I've watched several of these videos. Untreated mental illness and addiction seem to be recurring issues. This country will need to remove barriers to healthcare, if it is going to prosper.
I don't think that's going to happen. Too much money would be involved. In this country, avarice has constantly prevailed over altruism. It's been that way since our nation's inception.
@@RUclips_gets_dumber_each_year ... Which is why this country is in decline. A humane revolution is in order. It's the only way the US can escape the Karma of it's violent, greedy and racist foundation. Other countries have modeled how it can work . Not perfectly, but much better than the systems here.
We have to realize first that in the long run, it will be more profitable to free up all this frozen capital in the form of human potential, than it is to create lifelong customers, selling them balms or pseudoscience.
What are these “barriers”, getting a job?
@@norwegroletsplay2250 Zzzzzzzzzzz
This man NEEDS a part 2!!! Crazy good interview, cheers to you Mark and Jay!!
He needs a radio gig too lol. What a voice.
Dude was a sugar daddy to 3 diff girls an called it pimpin 😂
@@playingwithkash2134 sounded like they were his sugar mamas
@@evelkneivel6879 he was financing their lives and paying their way , of course they gonna keep coming back. Sugar mamas are older women who do for younger attractive men. He was going out working every day and giving them money to live with him. He’s nothing more than a trick who needs multiple women to help boost his ego, dude wants to be needed lol
@@playingwithkash2134 o shit i didnt listen close enough
"The thing I want people to know about life, is that it's ending" -spoken like a true nihilist.
Love how everyone in the comments are expert psychologists.
I know right people need to shut up so annoying
Are people among us that are certainly on higher level of physiological analysis, they may not kno the literature or fancy words, but would in fact if taught proper academic skills be much more effective than alot of the so called professionals
Hes researched Topics; he very cool!!
@@hgraham1836 Boo hoo. Gtfo the internet if u can’t handle opinions that aren’t yours.
@@babylonhasfallenunderthede8761 Mkay
I really enjoyed this one. I am most certainly not a nihilist, but I can appreciate how his experiences led him to where he is.