Thank you, Sam. This is an excellent video. You are on point with the absence of conflict. Life lives you, not the other way around. How many people actually experience introspection during their life?
@carolmonroe6489 We have free will to have a relationship with the Holy Ghost. The idea we can live a more peaceful life if we choose to be guided is possible. Not controlled, though. The hard work Sam has done is impressive and monumental. To reach a level where there is an absence of conflict can be done with that goal in mind. Carol, I hope this makes sense. Take the best of care and stay safe.🫶🌺
It took me 65 years to get to a place of realizing my deep rooted fear. It happened when I was maybe 8 yrs old. Only God could bring me to that realization and I came to realize that He was with me then and throughout my whole life. I had to face that my mother who died when I was 10, wasn't the saint I made her out to be. I forgive her cos she was dealing with her own troubling life. All I know is God saved me then, when I called out to Him
"Spinning around in its own hall of mirrors, seeing everything it hates, everything it rejects, everything it's disgusted by, judgement, criticism, self hate, self blame, shame, trying to balance all of that, trying to remedy it. Before you actually show up. So who suffers? Self." So brilliant.
Thank you very much again Sam. I watch it again and again. And I hope that you can read all gratefulness and positive feedback that comes to you-without becoming attached to it. So that you do not loose your own gentle compassionate voice. I don’t know if I could do that but I hope you can.
@@barbarah6002 Whatever this process is, call it healing, call it transformation, it' is also a giving of self to others and to God. Nothing I do , I do alone. I can't claim anything other than being willing to explore and then share as truthfully as I can, that process. I am a passenger and any insight is not mine, its discovered. The lovely comments and support are inspiration but are always read by me with the knowledge of my own flaws and frailties. I am nothing without God.
Sam, I am so blessed to have found your channel. I appreciate how much work you have put into your own recovery . It’s been a gift knowing that survivorship is possible. My own journey has been desperately sad on many occasions, but your insights and depth have been a lifeline. For that I thank you. Wishing you great love and blessings.
Thank you. I'm glad these videos help. I think the videos are focused moments of soul searching and clarity but I do still have times of great difficulty, sadness and anxiety, thankfully, now these episodes pass more quickly. Gradual change is the nature of our path. Gentle . Love and blessings to you too.
Hi Sam, I agree with you on your interpretation on healing vs transformation. For over a year now I have made Polyvagal Theory and Attachment Theory, in tandem with Somatic Experiencing, from the kind Dr. Peter Levine, which is a more embodiment-based therapy, my main modalities for healing. In May I succeeded in actually feeling and finishing my core wounds, for which I am very grateful. However, I have found the healing does not stop, it is more a transformational process which gives me more capacity, container if you will, to live more wholesome and more from a sense of safety. You are a kind soul for sure and I will keep following your journey. Thank you for sharing!
Thats great ! I am happy for you, that you are finding your way back to inhabiting yourself. I wish you well as you continue along this path we call healing .
Thank you for such an intimate sharing of yourself. It helps remind us (all of us who share in all kinds of different brokeness and struggle) what is the truth of ourselves.
"God Grant me the Serenity to Accept the Things I CANNOT Change, the Courage to Change the Things I Can,and The Wisdom to KNOW the Difference " God Bless you Sam❣️Thank you for sharing Wonderful YOU!!!🫂🫂🙏
You have such a way of perfectly articulating your thoughts & translating your experiences...it truly is a lost art form in a sense.. You speak in a manner that is clearer than anyone else i know ha Thank you for blessing us with your wisdom 🥰 God is good! 🙌♥️
Such brilliant and tender words of innermost truth. Thank you for your revelations. Please continue with your teachings. Very profound. Thank you again and again.
Thank you for sharing your surroundings (so stunning) along with your thoughts (so moving), each time I watch you I find you more luminescent - there is a crack in everything, that's where the light gets in- You Glow- keep the good work, you are worth it - love from afar -Camille
hello sir! another incredibly profound and great video from you! it spoke to me and i'm really glad you made it ! thanks so much! 9:23 was IT for me! you perfectly said how I feel and how i do life, with that statement. You read my mail and nailed it. :)
I'm SO glad I attracted you & your videos into my life, Sam. Yes, it IS transformation. Thankyou for your beautifully comforting & gentle presence in the world.
Transformation is the right way to put it. Or like alchemy. I tattooed alchemy symbols on my forearms to have that oomph of transformation strength to be reminded of. It makes sense that the wound is still there. ❤ I feel it there.
Thanks for the comments on "healing" vs "transformation". I have often used the word "healing" in regards to the journey I've been on. But as I listened to this video, I realized the feeling of that word for me is passive, something that is done to wounds of the past. Transformation is more accurate. It has the feel of something that happens within me. The past doesn't change, but I'm changing how I view myself in relation to the past.
I love and appreciate you Sam. You are such a dear. I am determining to move forward as I listen to this generous, timely, transformative word. Cheers. Blessings.
The world is already healed as in (w)hole. We are alone as one in the ALL (as like Peas in a pot) . I hear what you are saying Sam, yet when we change the way we look at things... the things we look at change😊 It might not look like it in the first place, but EVERYTHING is here to help us. To grow, to transform, to find our TRUE SELF . Let us all accept the changing of seasons of life like those trees in your beautiful forrest🙏 Sending love❤ from the Netherlands 😊
Hello Sam , late again in posting . What beautiful scenery you are well blessed . I am having a dreadful week as all the horrendous chatter in my mind from the therapists i attented are in full force .. I have no identity anymore and feel totally lost . So glad you are healing it gives me some hope that after my 10 years of mental hell, i to will find some ease and comfert in self instead of fragmented self that is destroying me .
Love your wise and honest and deep-delving chats Sam. Healing implies a cure--when there can be no cure, there is as you say only transformation as we change. Liberation. Love the beauty of November in Scotland, looks similar here in the Pacific Northwest of the US, beautiful sunny fall days. Sending you love always!
Always love to hear your shares... And always resonate with them, and the journey of transformation . After another layer of the onion shedding recently, I'm on the other side of it and moving through the transformational aspect of it... Though theres often side salads going on alongside the main dish of the day... But I notice there is more acceptance...and it is a radical acceptance...you have to go all the way...theres no compromise... There is less conflict, though..Ive noticed that...and also that Im really starting to see who I really am...and theres a beautiful unfolding happening . Its a process , but somehow Im more accepting of the fluctuations of it all. Its ongoing, and I'll keep on going ...in less of a doing, and more of a passenger in what happens...trusting...and just being present ❤ Much love to you Sam Xx
I am not alone. I have God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit with me always. This world is not my home. I am just passing through. My home is with the Lord where none of this world can ever touch me again. "Oh, who will come and go with me? I am bound for the promised land."
Thank you very much. I am rebuilding my website and have included a " testimonials " page, just a few words from those who have reached out and feel I have helped them. I didn't think of including YT comments and don't think I will do any more but yours is very touching. Would you mind if I include this comment ? Thank you. I just looked at you Tumblr.... what a fascinating and beautiful and moving collection of images and words. In your quote , I'd like to include a link to your Tumblr acc.
@@Call-Me-Sam Hi Sam, You are welcome to use it! A lovely surprise. Thank you! 🤍 Yes, fine to include the link if you’d like. That Tumblr is a snapshot of a different me (not updated for years - the bio was written seven years ago, and I’d no longer choose to write pronouns for myself etc.), but I still enjoy looking through it from time to time. It was fun to create a scrapbook of things I loved and ideas I wanted to remember or ponder. The farther I scroll back the more I find ideas I no longer find useful, but since it is a scrapbook I keep as-is. :) I think I will change the bio to reflect that.
Thank you....I feel the same when I look back at older videos, a shorter time span though. I wonder where we'll be and what we'll be saying in another 7 years.
Letting go of control is so terrifying, its like falling into the abyss, its exhausting to try to control and even painful, not controlling is like rolling the dice in a way, just being fine with the way things go without trying to alter their trajectory... Thats scary
It is but whats the worst that could happen ? 😊 I think that one of the reasons we feel such fear is that if we make a mistake or do something " wrong " then that inner doubt, rooted in the feeling that in essence we are wrong in our being , will be confirmed and that is terrifying ! So we avoid the possibility of making " mistakes " by trying to maintain the illusion of control.
@@Call-Me-Sam i appreciate you replying to me Sam i see, although isn't it like we have an outcome we desire, and we have a mechanism in place to kinda make us try to get to it? While illusion of control is a punch in the stomach when proven wrong, when believed, it leads to attempts at control and that ultimately does lead to more control right? By letting go of control, it feels like you'd lose the control you could potentially have and basically not utilise the one you have. In a way you'd also need to give up on your desired outcome and be alright with not achieving it (leading to not trying which would lead to less chances of achieving) That would feel better for us tho It seems like a sacrifice is always needed Either you value the desired outcome at the cost of suffering and potential failure, or you value peace at the cost of the desired outcome/outcome... its weird, its like we would be more happy and content by trying less, at the same time devaluing the reason we try in the first place (the desired outcome) feels like not trying at all or not having a desired outcome, its like there's no need to walk because you don't have a destination in mind, and that is so alien and scary to even imagine... thank you for reading and lemme know if i misunderstood something or i got something wrong
Thank you for this , very good description. Essentially, a lighter approach toward control leads to a far less stressful life. Getting what we want should be more of a request ! Also, very often, getting what we think we want leads to dissatisfaction. Wanting and control are linked. Letting go of one, releases us from the other.
Thank you again for another profound video. Gaining Acceptance of all that is. We say we want to be “healed” but that is an admission that we are broken, not whole, flawed. It’s getting to the stage where all of our conditioning and stories play out on, I often think of it as the “gap”. The gap upon which identities exist, the gap that can gently hold the broken stories, the gap between words that can often be so limiting. It’s so hard to find the language easily to describe the limitless where all exists. Having said that though Sam, your descriptions are so eloquent and understandable 🙏🏻. The place where it’s ok to accept yourself, flaws and all with compassion, kindness and a lack of judgement. Even in the darkest of situations this place is accessible if we just let it be. Sometimes it is almost unbearable to sit in the stillness, but as you say that is where compassion can reside too. Words…..difficult to find, but I hope this makes sense. Thank you Sam for these videos and scenery, they are bringing me so much comfort at this time….❤xxxx
@@Call-Me-Sam it’s so ethereal, but I’ve certainly found once experienced however fleetingly, and you’ve sat quietly within the being, it becomes an inner knowing…..again difficult to find the right language…..
I could relate to every word of this. I 100% feel the same way, and going through the same shit. It's a nightmare that never ends! It's absolutely horrible man.
The beautiful thing about this expanding, it never ends. As the bandwidth increases it's capable of increasing more... there is no limits to growth... Self is infinite. Ps looking good Sam 😘
Indeed Sam, I've come to the conclusion too that we're never healed and we're always going to come across triggers from time to time. Its about how compassionate we are for ourselves and others. Thus, transforming us into a whole new person. The grief in that is painful because we wanted everything to turn out a very certain type of way but since God has a different plan for each and every one of us, its very painful to adapt or even accept our reality as it is. Thanks for the video Sam, you're in my prayers. 🙏❤️
The problem with concepts like “hope”and “healing” often lies in the SHORTSIGHTEDNESS of our individual human minds. Perhaps rather than concluding that such things are “not real” we would do better to accept that OUR UNDERSTANDING of them is just far too limited. Or maybe we have some emotional BAGGAGE attached to those ideas that skews our perspective. The advantage of a term like “transformation” is that it STRETCHES OUR VIEW of what is possible, at least a little bit. We need to give ourselves, and each other, the FREEDOM TO CHANGE any terminology that we might have a “hang-up” with in order to further our development.
I am scared, i am alone, i am coping, i am controlling, and i truly am scared. I cannot change the fears. I just have to detach, not disengage, and observe my self from my self. Why am i doing any of this? Why do i transtize myself? It's something to observe, not fix.
It's a long process of observation and gradual change. You have to be kind and patient and tolerant of yourself. We so easily fall into patterns , I still struggle with thoughts and feelings rooted in childhood trauma but as each week passes , it is easier to be kind to self. I wish you well in your own process.
Hi Sam It helps I feel when others can reflect what they see in you. And since I'm a lesbian who imprinted on daddy but lives her female body - you will find my perceptions at least entertaining. I watched this video last evening - oh what a pretty lesbian -oh she's a boy but still a pretty boy -Oh she's a trans -Oh she's a girl transitioned to a boy Then I watched another of your video Oh she's really a boy who trans herself to a girl Well done - your 😍 Anyway it's not about how beautiful you are It's about your heart And whatever your heart is this is u And as my partner who recently passed- she always said everyday to me - I love you I st the way you are I was blessed to have her in my life for 35 years We were both tommy boys but she had beautiful female body - that she cared for We both farmers who had to work hard for our parents - and who had us raped abused for being tom boys_ satanic family abuse. We Scottish - in Canada - and you look like my relatives from Scotland. So if this help - I don't know But I think u abused for Satan but from the family of Abraham - not with God's dust, we belong to Jesus. I want to start Gays for Jesus movement. Maybe I start channel too. Your very inspirational. Keep it up.
Thank you. Yes, there's a lot of observations and thoughts and perceptions here. I think detrans males do end up looking ambiguous , masculine women/feminine man ???? I'm so sorry for the abuse you experienced , thank God you survived and thrived and found love.
You owe a thank you to no one. I see it as your viewers owe a thank you to you. I do understand your point though as we all help each other even if in the smallest of ways.
I notice myself getting frustrated when I listen to you talk about other-centered life where one accepts everything and doesn’t really think of oneself. I have people pleasing tendencies, always minimizing myself and having immense shame about myself. And hearing that it’d be good to just focus on others, give up control… it doesn’t make sense for parts of me. Cause I’ve done that a lot in my life and it didn’t lead to great places. At the same time I think you don’t mean abandoning yourself and letting others just take advantage. Quite the opposite, probably. It’s hard.
There is a difference between people pleasing/minimising oneself as a means of hiding/surviving and finding nourishment in giving oneself away. Shame is a kind of survival mechanism too, causing us to withdraw to protect oneself from the possibility of further hostility and rejection. It is hard. These videos are snapshots, moments of introspection and searching for clarity but I still do have episodes of difficulty, thankfully they pass quickly now. The key is to witness our self, our troubled self, with patient compassion. Not criticism.
Islam, brother.. feast your soul with the answers finally... enough wishy-washying around. Go to the source and just read G0d's decree. Recall and retrieve your natural disposition. Allah says that it's indestructible. Read the Qvran with humility and a will to learn and return. Salam ❤
@@scoopup2349 And I checked your channel, and it has some snooty looking lady's picture, but that's it. I would have figured that somebody making a comment like you did, wouldn't have the same issue you are complaining about... But I was wrong.
You express word by word how I feel and have felt and it has taken me 64 years of inner hell to reach a point of surrender. Thank you Sam ❤
I'm happy to read that you are now finding peace.
Thank you for your stories and beautiful scenery you share. You are such an eloquent, elegant, deep and courageous person, Sam.
Thank you, Sam. This is an excellent video.
You are on point with the absence of conflict.
Life lives you, not the other way around. How many people actually experience introspection
during their life?
Thank you
@carolmonroe6489
We have free will to have a relationship with the Holy Ghost. The idea we can live
a more peaceful life if we choose to be guided is possible. Not controlled, though. The hard work Sam has done is impressive and monumental. To reach a level where there is an absence of conflict can be done with that goal in mind.
Carol, I hope this makes sense. Take the best of care
and stay safe.🫶🌺
It took me 65 years to get to a place of realizing my deep rooted fear. It happened when I was maybe 8 yrs old. Only God could bring me to that realization and I came to realize that He was with me then and throughout my whole life. I had to face that my mother who died when I was 10, wasn't the saint I made her out to be. I forgive her cos she was dealing with her own troubling life. All I know is God saved me then, when I called out to Him
Praise the LORD
Sending love to the 8-year-old child that you were, and to the broken mother who lost the opportunity to seek your forgiveness in life. ❤️🩹
"Spinning around in its own hall of mirrors, seeing everything it hates, everything it rejects, everything it's disgusted by, judgement, criticism, self hate, self blame, shame, trying to balance all of that, trying to remedy it. Before you actually show up. So who suffers? Self." So brilliant.
Thank you. Just working it out as I go. I am happy this video helped.
@Call-Me-Sam Thank you so much, Sam!! You really are helping us untangle our bonds!! 🙏❤️
Definitely a work in progress ! Thank you. I'm glad to be a part of your own process
Thank you, beautiful man for this 😊. Have you heard of the quote by Victor Hugo, "What makes night within us may cause stars"?
Oh Suz, thats a great quote ! Thank you for sharing .
Thank you very much again Sam. I watch it again and again.
And I hope that you can read all gratefulness and positive feedback that comes to you-without becoming attached to it. So that you do not loose your own gentle compassionate voice. I don’t know if I could do that but I hope you can.
@@barbarah6002 Whatever this process is, call it healing, call it transformation, it' is also a giving of self to others and to God.
Nothing I do , I do alone. I can't claim anything other than being willing to explore and then share as truthfully as I can, that process. I am a passenger and any insight is not mine, its discovered.
The lovely comments and support are inspiration but are always read by me with the knowledge of my own flaws and frailties.
I am nothing without God.
Sam, I am so blessed to have found your channel. I appreciate how much work you have put into your own recovery . It’s been a gift knowing that survivorship is possible. My own journey has been desperately sad on many occasions, but your insights and depth have been a lifeline. For that I thank you. Wishing you great love and blessings.
Thank you. I'm glad these videos help. I think the videos are focused moments of soul searching and clarity but I do still have times of great difficulty, sadness and anxiety, thankfully, now these episodes pass more quickly.
Gradual change is the nature of our path. Gentle .
Love and blessings to you too.
"In the depths of your own sorrow you will find the deepest compassion." ❤
@@Over60sowhat
Yes...that one hit me too...
Thank you so much. You are a light on my path.
Yes, yes, yes 💚 It is amazing to follow your journey. It is "double special" for me as a detransitioner . THANK YOU ! 🙏
Thank you Eine. I do love your avatar photo, your beautiful dog, innocently peaking at the camera.
Powerful. Helpful. Honest. True. Kind. Hopeful. Thank you Sam! ❤
Thank you
Hi Sam, I agree with you on your interpretation on healing vs transformation. For over a year now I have made Polyvagal Theory and Attachment Theory, in tandem with Somatic Experiencing, from the kind Dr. Peter Levine, which is a more embodiment-based therapy, my main modalities for healing. In May I succeeded in actually feeling and finishing my core wounds, for which I am very grateful. However, I have found the healing does not stop, it is more a transformational process which gives me more capacity, container if you will, to live more wholesome and more from a sense of safety. You are a kind soul for sure and I will keep following your journey. Thank you for sharing!
Thats great ! I am happy for you, that you are finding your way back to inhabiting yourself. I wish you well as you continue along this path we call healing .
So beautiful! Thanks for sharing!
Thank you for such an intimate sharing of yourself. It helps remind us (all of us who share in all kinds of different brokeness and struggle) what is the truth of ourselves.
Thank you Sam. Transformation feels more true to me than healing. ❤
You have so much courage.
Thank you
"God Grant me the Serenity to Accept the Things I CANNOT Change, the Courage to Change the Things I Can,and The Wisdom to KNOW the Difference " God Bless you Sam❣️Thank you for sharing Wonderful YOU!!!🫂🫂🙏
what a beautiful scenery, hi, Sam 🙃
Hello. Yes, Autumn is so beautiful here.
♥Sending love from America...
Thank you... and love to you too.
You have such a way of perfectly articulating your thoughts & translating your experiences...it truly is a lost art form in a sense.. You speak in a manner that is clearer than anyone else i know ha Thank you for blessing us with your wisdom 🥰 God is good! 🙌♥️
Such brilliant and tender words of innermost truth. Thank you for your revelations. Please continue with your teachings. Very profound. Thank you again and again.
Thank you. I'm working it out as I go and don't think I shall run out of things to talk about for a long while yet !
That was amazing. Thank You 🌳✨
Thank you for sharing your surroundings (so stunning) along with your thoughts (so moving), each time I watch you I find you more luminescent - there is a crack in everything, that's where the light gets in- You Glow- keep the good work, you are worth it - love from afar -Camille
Thank you
Thanks for your wisdom. You really make me look at things differently and i feel a sense of relieve from this video.
Thats good, relief is always a letting go.
Your words touch my soul and many others, thank you Sam for being you ❣️
Hey Sam hope you are doing ok thinking of you. Thanks for your videos. ❤
hello sir! another incredibly profound and great video from you! it spoke to me and i'm really glad you made it ! thanks so much! 9:23 was IT for me! you perfectly said how I feel and how i do life, with that statement. You read my mail and nailed it. :)
I'm glad this spoke to you ! As ever, you describe the process so beautifully.
Sam you are a beautiful person. You speak some wonderful deep truths. Today these words really made me feel deeply.
"You don't live life. Life lives you." That is how it has felt to me.
I'm SO glad I attracted you & your videos into my life, Sam.
Yes, it IS transformation.
Thankyou for your beautifully comforting & gentle presence in the world.
I needed your words so very much tonight. Thank you Sam
Glad to help . I wish you well.
Our circumstances are different. But your videos give me so much comfort when i'm struggling. Thank you for that. Don't go anywhere.
I'm happy these help... No, I'm not going anywhere !
Love how you articulated what I feel is truth. Thank you for sharing Sam. Much love
Thank you
As always, I am touched and inspired by the insights you so eloquently express.
Thank you, Sam.
Thanks Theresa
Transformation is the right way to put it. Or like alchemy. I tattooed alchemy symbols on my forearms to have that oomph of transformation strength to be reminded of. It makes sense that the wound is still there. ❤ I feel it there.
Thanks for the comments on "healing" vs "transformation". I have often used the word "healing" in regards to the journey I've been on. But as I listened to this video, I realized the feeling of that word for me is passive, something that is done to wounds of the past. Transformation is more accurate. It has the feel of something that happens within me. The past doesn't change, but I'm changing how I view myself in relation to the past.
I love and appreciate you Sam. You are such a dear. I am determining to move forward as I listen to this generous, timely, transformative word. Cheers. Blessings.
The world is already healed as in (w)hole. We are alone as one in the ALL (as like Peas in a pot) . I hear what you are saying Sam, yet when we change the way we look at things... the things we look at change😊 It might not look like it in the first place, but EVERYTHING is here to help us. To grow, to transform, to find our TRUE SELF . Let us all accept the changing of seasons of life like those trees in your beautiful forrest🙏 Sending love❤ from the Netherlands 😊
The world/reality is looking back at us !
Thank you for talking to us so honestly.
Watched twice now. Thank you, brother, for all you do. And thanking God for you daily. You know the rest.
Mark
Thank you. I finished your memoir. You should keep writing , its great.
Hello Sam , late again in posting . What beautiful scenery you are well blessed . I am having a dreadful week as all the horrendous chatter in my mind from the therapists i attented are in full force .. I have no identity anymore and feel totally lost . So glad you are healing it gives me some hope that after my 10 years of mental hell, i to will find some ease and comfert in self instead of fragmented self that is destroying me .
I'm sorry for what you are in the midst of. I shall keep you in my prayers Sunshine.
Love your wise and honest and deep-delving chats Sam. Healing implies a cure--when there can be no cure, there is as you say only transformation as we change. Liberation. Love the beauty of November in Scotland, looks similar here in the Pacific Northwest of the US, beautiful sunny fall days. Sending you love always!
Thank you Elizabeth
Always love to hear your shares...
And always resonate with them, and the journey of transformation .
After another layer of the onion shedding recently, I'm on the other side of it and moving through the transformational aspect of it...
Though theres often side salads going on alongside the main dish of the day...
But I notice there is more acceptance...and it is a radical acceptance...you have to go all the way...theres no compromise...
There is less conflict, though..Ive noticed that...and also that Im really starting to see who I really am...and theres a beautiful unfolding happening .
Its a process , but somehow Im more accepting of the fluctuations of it all.
Its ongoing, and I'll keep on going ...in less of a doing, and more of a passenger in what happens...trusting...and just being present ❤ Much love to you Sam Xx
As ever, you describe the process so beautifully. Thank you Jazz
The tree is barely clinging on, yet is holding all the other trees' shit together. Kind of like me, hmmm.....
I am not alone. I have God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit with me always. This world is not my home. I am just passing through. My home is with the Lord where none of this world can ever touch me again. "Oh, who will come and go with me? I am bound for the promised land."
Agreed but here, we're alone .
Thank you, Sam.
Thanks Nancy
You are a guide, but in the form of a friend on the path. That is rare and soothing to my soul. Thank you.
Thank you very much.
I am rebuilding my website and have included a " testimonials " page, just a few words from those who have reached out and feel I have helped them. I didn't think of including YT comments and don't think I will do any more but yours is very touching.
Would you mind if I include this comment ?
Thank you.
I just looked at you Tumblr.... what a fascinating and beautiful and moving collection of images and words. In your quote , I'd like to include a link to your Tumblr acc.
@@Call-Me-Sam Hi Sam,
You are welcome to use it! A lovely surprise.
Thank you! 🤍 Yes, fine to include the link if you’d like. That Tumblr is a snapshot of a different me (not updated for years - the bio was written seven years ago, and I’d no longer choose to write pronouns for myself etc.), but I still enjoy looking through it from time to time. It was fun to create a scrapbook of things I loved and ideas I wanted to remember or ponder. The farther I scroll back the more I find ideas I no longer find useful, but since it is a scrapbook I keep as-is. :) I think I will change the bio to reflect that.
Thank you....I feel the same when I look back at older videos, a shorter time span though. I wonder where we'll be and what we'll be saying in another 7 years.
Beautiful, thank you Sam.
Thank you
Letting go of control is so terrifying, its like falling into the abyss, its exhausting to try to control and even painful, not controlling is like rolling the dice in a way, just being fine with the way things go without trying to alter their trajectory...
Thats scary
It is but whats the worst that could happen ? 😊
I think that one of the reasons we feel such fear is that if we make a mistake or do something " wrong " then that inner doubt, rooted in the feeling that in essence we are wrong in our being , will be confirmed and that is terrifying !
So we avoid the possibility of making " mistakes " by trying to maintain the illusion of control.
@@Call-Me-Sam i appreciate you replying to me Sam
i see, although isn't it like we have an outcome we desire, and we have a mechanism in place to kinda make us try to get to it?
While illusion of control is a punch in the stomach when proven wrong, when believed, it leads to attempts at control and that ultimately does lead to more control right?
By letting go of control, it feels like you'd lose the control you could potentially have and basically not utilise the one you have.
In a way you'd also need to give up on your desired outcome and be alright with not achieving it (leading to not trying which would lead to less chances of achieving)
That would feel better for us tho
It seems like a sacrifice is always needed
Either you value the desired outcome at the cost of suffering and potential failure, or you value peace at the cost of the desired outcome/outcome...
its weird, its like we would be more happy and content by trying less, at the same time devaluing the reason we try in the first place (the desired outcome) feels like not trying at all or not having a desired outcome, its like there's no need to walk because you don't have a destination in mind, and that is so alien and scary to even imagine...
thank you for reading and lemme know if i misunderstood something or i got something wrong
Thank you for this , very good description.
Essentially, a lighter approach toward control leads to a far less stressful life. Getting what we want should be more of a request !
Also, very often, getting what we think we want leads to dissatisfaction.
Wanting and control are linked. Letting go of one, releases us from the other.
Thank you for this ❤
Beautiful Sam. Love you
Thank you 🙏
How are you Nicola.
I'm having more weeks that are good, but currently having a rough couple of days, holding on for it to pass. Thank you 🙏🏻
You are often in my thoughts. Its a long journey of gradual change, I'm glad you are more weeks that are good. Take care . X
Thank you again for another profound video. Gaining Acceptance of all that is. We say we want to be “healed” but that is an admission that we are broken, not whole, flawed. It’s getting to the stage where all of our conditioning and stories play out on, I often think of it as the “gap”. The gap upon which identities exist, the gap that can gently hold the broken stories, the gap between words that can often be so limiting. It’s so hard to find the language easily to describe the limitless where all exists. Having said that though Sam, your descriptions are so eloquent and understandable 🙏🏻. The place where it’s ok to accept yourself, flaws and all with compassion, kindness and a lack of judgement. Even in the darkest of situations this place is accessible if we just let it be. Sometimes it is almost unbearable to sit in the stillness, but as you say that is where compassion can reside too. Words…..difficult to find, but I hope this makes sense.
Thank you Sam for these videos and scenery, they are bringing me so much comfort at this time….❤xxxx
Thank you, a beautiful description ! it is challenging to capture the mysterious nature of being..
@@Call-Me-Sam it’s so ethereal, but I’ve certainly found once experienced however fleetingly, and you’ve sat quietly within the being, it becomes an inner knowing…..again difficult to find the right language…..
I could relate to every word of this. I 100% feel the same way, and going through the same shit. It's a nightmare that never ends! It's absolutely horrible man.
It'll ease over time. There really is no other way but surrender ... let go, stop resisting and the pain will ease.
@@Call-Me-Sam Thank you so much. That's good to know then at least. I suppose time heals all wounds and pain. It is a great healer.
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The beautiful thing about this expanding, it never ends. As the bandwidth increases it's capable of increasing more... there is no limits to growth... Self is infinite. Ps looking good Sam 😘
TES ! Thank you.
Indeed Sam, I've come to the conclusion too that we're never healed and we're always going to come across triggers from time to time. Its about how compassionate we are for ourselves and others. Thus, transforming us into a whole new person. The grief in that is painful because we wanted everything to turn out a very certain type of way but since God has a different plan for each and every one of us, its very painful to adapt or even accept our reality as it is.
Thanks for the video Sam, you're in my prayers. 🙏❤️
Thank you
The problem with concepts like “hope”and “healing” often lies in the SHORTSIGHTEDNESS of our individual human minds.
Perhaps rather than concluding that such things are “not real” we would do better to accept that OUR UNDERSTANDING of them is just far too limited.
Or maybe we have some emotional BAGGAGE attached to those ideas that skews our perspective.
The advantage of a term like “transformation” is that it STRETCHES OUR VIEW of what is possible, at least a little bit.
We need to give ourselves, and each other, the FREEDOM TO CHANGE any terminology that we might have a “hang-up” with in order to further our development.
Part of me wishes it didn't have to be that way, but it's my experience that it's true.
This is Scotland, right? It is gorgeous there. Don't take it for granted.
Yes it is.
Grateful. Prayers and love. Om
lovely
I am scared, i am alone, i am coping, i am controlling, and i truly am scared. I cannot change the fears. I just have to detach, not disengage, and observe my self from my self. Why am i doing any of this? Why do i transtize myself? It's something to observe, not fix.
It's a long process of observation and gradual change. You have to be kind and patient and tolerant of yourself. We so easily fall into patterns , I still struggle with thoughts and feelings rooted in childhood trauma but as each week passes , it is easier to be kind to self.
I wish you well in your own process.
Hi Sam!
Hello
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dear Sam, that is so true, life lives you..
You're a leaf scattered by an invisible wind. Don't you know something is moving you?
~ Rumi
Hi Sam
It helps I feel when others can reflect what they see in you. And since I'm a lesbian who imprinted on daddy but lives her female body - you will find my perceptions at least entertaining.
I watched this video last evening
- oh what a pretty lesbian
-oh she's a boy but still a pretty boy
-Oh she's a trans
-Oh she's a girl transitioned to a boy
Then I watched another of your video
Oh she's really a boy who trans herself to a girl
Well done - your 😍
Anyway it's not about how beautiful you are
It's about your heart
And whatever your heart is this is u
And as my partner who recently passed- she always said everyday to me - I love you I st the way you are
I was blessed to have her in my life for 35 years
We were both tommy boys but she had beautiful female body - that she cared for
We both farmers who had to work hard for our parents - and who had us raped abused for being tom boys_ satanic family abuse.
We Scottish - in Canada - and you look like my relatives from Scotland.
So if this help - I don't know
But I think u abused for Satan but from the family of Abraham - not with God's dust, we belong to Jesus. I want to start Gays for Jesus movement.
Maybe I start channel too. Your very inspirational.
Keep it up.
Thank you. Yes, there's a lot of observations and thoughts and perceptions here. I think detrans males do end up looking ambiguous , masculine women/feminine man ????
I'm so sorry for the abuse you experienced , thank God you survived and thrived and found love.
You owe a thank you to no one. I see it as your viewers owe a thank you to you. I do understand your point though as we all help each other even if in the smallest of ways.
Wow...that's beautiful... I notice you're not in swimming gear...😅 Brrrr
Hello, dear heart! ❤
Hello Ripley X
My heart smiles when I see u.
I notice myself getting frustrated when I listen to you talk about other-centered life where one accepts everything and doesn’t really think of oneself. I have people pleasing tendencies, always minimizing myself and having immense shame about myself. And hearing that it’d be good to just focus on others, give up control… it doesn’t make sense for parts of me. Cause I’ve done that a lot in my life and it didn’t lead to great places.
At the same time I think you don’t mean abandoning yourself and letting others just take advantage. Quite the opposite, probably. It’s hard.
There is a difference between people pleasing/minimising oneself as a means of hiding/surviving and finding nourishment in giving oneself away.
Shame is a kind of survival mechanism too, causing us to withdraw to protect oneself from the possibility of further hostility and rejection.
It is hard. These videos are snapshots, moments of introspection and searching for clarity but I still do have episodes of difficulty, thankfully they pass quickly now.
The key is to witness our self, our troubled self, with patient compassion.
Not criticism.
Sam, that compassion is Jesus. He loves you. He has always loved you.
I call it transmutation
Indeed it is.
Islam, brother.. feast your soul with the answers finally... enough wishy-washying around. Go to the source and just read G0d's decree. Recall and retrieve your natural disposition. Allah says that it's indestructible. Read the Qvran with humility and a will to learn and return. Salam ❤
This is hollow, meaningless, vague, and sounds like a bunch of Fortune Cookie fortunes put together.
Move along so... nothing here for you.
I clicked on your channel, it doesn't have any content, bit like your comment.....
@@scoopup2349 And I checked your channel, and it has some snooty looking lady's picture, but that's it.
I would have figured that somebody making a comment like you did, wouldn't have the same issue you are complaining about...
But I was wrong.