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catrific well I mean school isn’t fun with work and some of the people lol but overall I’m pretty good😂😂💗💗hope you’re doing ok ❤️❤️
I’m doing alright. You’re one of the most relatable people on this platform. I know you’ll be okay. 💘
Remember your life isn’t as bad as it could be.
You could be in a loveless marriage with two kids.
FYI it’s not me.
Thirty never looked so good!
You will rebound!
Look for adventures outside! Film it, maybe.
You have the world before you. Low rent!
Opportunity could be around the corner.
Good luck!
Great to see and hear you!
going through that end of year stress with exams and deadlines etc but ha it’s getting there
Cat, I feel very much like you, at the moment. Not great, is it :-(
Love and respect!! I totally have been there before! Cheering you on!!!
lisbug omg THIS comment is EVERYTHING
This is so relatable. I’m 28 and I’m nowhere near where I thought I would be at this point in my life. We just can’t compare ourselves to others and what society tells us to be.
Girl you can do this! If it's any consolation, I was 36 when I got married. I had my first child a week before I turn 37. I had my second child two months before I turned 40. And now at the age of 54 I'm going back to college to get my teaching certificate. The only advice I can give you is to do what you love, whether that is work or being in a relationship or being a mother, you have to decide what that is. Keep going, I promise it will get better.
This is so inspiring, thank you for sharing!! Even though it was meant for catrific I'm sure your words will help a lot of us who are struggling
I needed this. Thank you.
I low key wish you’d come back to RUclips or start a podcast. I relate to you so much.
It took me a long time to let go of the societal ideas of “Go To School, Get A Job, Get Married, Have Kids, Retire” being the only path to take. My industry is going through a huge shift right now and I also had to move back to my home town to figure myself out. The only way I was able to get out of my stuck mindset was to surround myself with people who were caring and supportive, which it sounds like you’re already doing! Just forgiving yourself and learning to let go is the first step towards finding your bliss.
Also always remember you can find success at any age! Look at all the actors who didn’t get their starts until their 50’s, or musicians who weren’t in the spotlight until they were ready to retire, or even my own mother who quit her job to start painting at age 60. Pushing yourself for success at such a young age can cause an early burnout or loss of motivation, or all around added stress, and there’s no shame in taking your time and removing yourself from any situation making you unhappy.
RUclips is also a really great excuse to talk to “yourself” and figure things out instead of keeping it all in your head and adding to the stress. Making videos without the pressure of consistent content could probably be really beneficial in the long run and help you talk out your problems, ya know?
I think I can say with confidence that we all still love you, Cat, and I wish you luck in whatever you choose to do & in finding your passion!! (Sorry for rambling lol)
Never followed you when you were a regular on RUclips but I can relate to this soooo much. I am 31 and back to living with my parents after 4.5 years of living on my own. I went through a toxic work situation which really affected me and still dealing with PTSD from it. I’ve been unemployed mostly though I have been working part time-ish as a dog walker. It pays next to nothing but it gets me out of the house. It’s the same with me, shame talking about it with my friends who keep inquiring about my job search. They mean well but I do feel lonely, isolated, depressed, dreading the future. It is overwhelming and I finally started reaching out to therapists to talk about what I’ve been through.
So I relate to everything you are going through! So much fear, anxiety, loneliness etc. Same with my family, they are awesome and have been supportive throughout this process while I heal. Good luck with your transition! It sucks but we’ll make it through.
Hey, just wanted to say I strongly relate to your story and I think you're really brave for talking about it. Best of luck with figuring everything out
Rosalie Jansen thank you! I hope you are doing well on your journey as well. ❤️
Taylor sorry you are also going through this but it’s good to know I’m not alone. No kids or marriage for me either as of now. Life gets more confusing as you go along and there is no “right” way to live it in my experience. Good luck to you!
Same boat, I’m 29 and I’ve been a nurse for a few years and I haaaaaate it and I feel guilty bc it’s a career about helping people blah blah blah. Finally going back to school and my local community college for 3D animation and I’m 1000% happier. Everyone is confused and my parents friends like to act like I’m some spoiled trust fund kind or something bc I’m 29 and live at home but I go to school full time and work part time. I’m still not very social which is something I’d like to work on but I’m miles ahead of where I was last year. Definitely light years behind where I though I’d be when I was in high school but I’m trying to just let myself be human and remember that all of our journeys are valid and real. Anyway, it’s not necessarily nice that so many people feel as lost and weird as I do but it does help when I’m feeling alone to remember that I’m not the only one struggling.
Can heavily relate to your story. If you don't mind , can you give a life update as I'm exactly in the same boat right now as you were 2 years ago.
I can relate. I'm 25 and have achieved a lot. Even though I'm lost right now, my friends and family constantly remind me that it's okay to take time to figure life out. Sometimes I give up and don't leave the house for a week, but what's helped is knowing that it's not permanent and that I have to keep moving forward, no matter what the pace is.
I just finished college this year and my occupation plans didn’t turn out the way I imagined so I really needed this video right now 😭 thank you for sharing your experience and making me feel less alone!!
even though i'm 10 years younger, this really resonates with me. I turn 20 this week and have been experiencing some really intense depression for the last year or so. I don't know what I'm doing with my life, and this depression has left me without any motivation or passion to propel me forward. really just taking things one day at a time because otherwise, it seems far too daunting to face. I've had a lot of big personal changes (breakups, losing friends, deaths in the family, moving to the other side of the country all by myself) that I haven't allowed myself to process because I don't allow myself to be vulnerable.
Best of luck to you. you are not alone in the way that you're feeling. it will get better.
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i really understand what you're going through, im younger than you but im in the same situation
This is so relatable & I hate to use that word but I just get it. I turned 27 last week & since the start of this year I'm just...stuck. In a job, in a chronic illness, in life in general, & with no direction or desire in regards to a future in literally anything. It does help knowing the cliche 'I'm not alone' though. & it's good to see you here again. :) Take care
in these moments when we are our worst enemy, we gotta be our best friend❤️ as hard as it may seem, you can do it and just as you said, its just phase and you'll get through it!! lots of love❤️
I can definitely relate. I’ve also been feeling really depressed and lost in life lately. I’m 25 and I still haven’t gotten very far in life or figured out why I’m here/what I’m supposed to be doing. It sucks, but hopefully you’ll find your answers soon!
Oh man, been there/done that. Last year was probably my worst in regards to mental health... Sort of a similar situation: quit my job, felt uninspired, staring off into space with existential dread. If you’re able, antidepressants have helped me a lot. I’d always been scared of the stigma but it’s been good for me. And I think just remembering you don’t have to solve every world crisis problem all at once - which I know is SO hard to internalize (and I continue struggling with), but it’s so true. You CAN do things just because you enjoy them. That will help you rebuild confidence in yourself and make you feel marginally better one little bit at a time, which is so helpful. And talking to your friends/asking for their support. I hope things get better for you. 💛
21 and now 30 (this year) have also been my deep depression years. I'm in a space where I cry most days, more than once a day, and feel completely demotivated. Being honest with friends about it has been hard, but honestly to see them offer even simple support has made me feel so much better. It's also reminded me to do this for people in my life when I can. I have no tips as I'm really not doing well myself right now, but I'm thinking about you and you're not alone ❤️
I genuinely can't believe how much this resonates. I've realized my own personal shame (and how long it's been around..) in feeling a lack of pride in myself, and the intense isolation it pushes me towards. to hear someone else speaking on exactly this experience is so affirming, I genuinely forget that it's not just me. thank you so much for sharing this.
Hi Cat:) I get it. I’m going through something super similar right now. I graduated over the summer with my bachelors in Speech and Audiology. My life took a 360 when I didn’t get into my masters program and moved back home after 5 years of not living with my parents. After not getting in I decided I wanted to switch up my career and try something else because I realized I didn’t actually feel fulfilled with my degree. So I’ve been trying to figure out what I want to do but it’s the same existential dread feeling of “omg, what’s my purpose? Oh look, my friend just started a super prosperous job...”. It’s been hard trying to figure myself out while I feel “not good enough” but I’m trying to stay positive too. All we have is hope, right? Anyways, I hope I was able to make you feel less alone as this video made me feel a little better 💕
Yeah, it's so hard to do comparison to others!
Good to see a video! Everything eventually turns around! :) Liked as always!
I feel this. You’re not alone ❤️ I think there’s so much pressure to have it all figured out and life just isn’t easy that way! I think you need to find what makes you happy, not artificially or not what you think you should be doing just what makes you happy. It’s easy to advice but it’s damn hard to follow it and I know this but hang in there girl. X
I’m in such a similar boat and really related to what you were saying about the cycles of shame. I’m in a point of my life too where I don’t know what’s next but the fear of not being good enough is holding me back. I just moved to Australia from Seattle to be with my partner and I don’t have tons of friends.
What helps me sometimes is to think about vibrations, and how depression is such a low vibration, and to try and fight that low vibration by using movement (dancing at home, going to the gym, ect) and being outside, where my mind is naturally more open and curious and optimistic.
Thank you for being open and honest and making me feel like I’m not alone!!!💖
Thank you. I have been going through a depression episode in the past few weeks and just listening to your pep talk to yourself is encouraging.
Here is a note I keep on my phone:
Do you think you are going No Where in Life?
STOP!
Take a deep breath.
THINK!
New York is three hours ahead of California, but that does not make California slow.
Cameroon is six hours ahead of New York but it does not make New York slow.
Someone graduated from college at 22 but waited five years before securing a job.
Someone became a CEO at 25 but died at 50.
Someone became a CEO at 50 but lived to 90 years.
Someone is still single,
While another is married with children.
Absolutely, everyone in this world works based on their own time zone.
People around you might seem to be ahead of you.
That’s total fine. Some are behind you.
Everyone is running their own race in their own time zone.
Don’t envy or mock them.
They are in their own time zone and you are in yours.
Life is about waiting for the right moment to react.
So RELAX.
You’re not late
You’re not early
You’re very much on time, and in your time zone.
Everyone have a different exams paper meaning different questions.
Everyone have a different assignment meaning different purpose in life.
So focus on your own exam paper, your assignment and purpose.
Don’t copy and paste or steal answer else you will fail big time.
Your dreams and visions are all valid.Just take your time and do the best you can.
Be like the hummingbird. Even when mighty lions and tigers underestimated him, he continued to do what he could,where he was ,just as he was, with the little he had.
You're ok just the way you are. The little work you are doing today might seem insignificant but I bet someday you will see the big picture.
You're Not late ! You're Not early. You are exactly on time.
i really needed this, thank you ♥
im so proud of this character development nonetheless and the effort you are putting towards getting yourself to the mental state that you deserve !!
Cat its really heartwarming and nice to have you back...it brings back so many childhood memories. I can't believe its almost been 5 years since I started watching your youtube channel
You got this!! Thanks so much for posting this, don’t put pressure on yourself. You have loving family around you and it takes a long time to realize but that is the most important thing. Don’t regret anything, try and keep your head up and take it slow. 1% better at a time and we’re always here for you!
You got this Cat -- I've been there and am on the other side of it. It sucked, it was a loooooong phase and I still don't fully know what the hell I'm doing but I'm aiming my energy on things I know I want. I decided to go back to school... at 31! (I'll be the first person in my family to get a degree), I'm looking into becoming a meditation instructor and other goals I had no idea *less than a year ago* I would go for. Life is so freaking wild. It's like we live several lives in one lifetime.
I’m 26 an I feel this way I honestly have no clue what I wanna do with the rest of my life and it scares me so much but seeing that u relate makes me feel not so alone
This video makes complete sense to me and what I'm going through at the moment, I turn 31 in a couple of months and its so nice to find someone going through similar thoughts and feelings. Thanks so much for sharing, I think it's so important for others to see too. Hoping it's just a part of life and we both learn something from what will hopefully be a very small phase of our lives! (ps. I never comment on RUclips videos!!)
Whew this is all so very relatable, I haven't been in a mentally right place for a couple of months myself, to the point where I stopped fearing/dreading death. I'm sorry you're feeling like this and hope this time alone helps you work through some things. You are lucky to have a supportive community, reach out to them when you need to. I know that's easier said than done, but give it a chance. Thank you for this video, thank you for opening up
Literally me in a video. I’m 28’and I have no clue what I’m going to do with my life with and it feels like it’s not ok to feel like this
This video is always nice to come back to whenever I feel stressed (usually because of school haha). If you ever decide to come back to RUclips I’d love another one of these sit-down conversational videos, as I love how personal it feels. You’re amazing ! 💓
I feel like watching this and hearing someone else say it has stopped my brain from stirring temporarily. This hit home hard and felt like everything I've been experiencing for the better part of two or so years. Unsure and scared for the future. Feeling isolated and lonely without direction or purpose. It's a tricky place to be watching others do the things you so badly want to be doing but not being able to get to that point. I relate to this so much but it's helpful to know that at 28 I'm not the only one going through it. I can't really talk to the very very few people I have in my life about it so this helps more than you know.
I started watching your videos in university in 2009 and I loved watching you. You have always been so relatable and refreshing and you always made me feel like we were friends! Thanks for coming back and giving us an update 💜
I relate too much to you right now. I’m lost in what I’m doing with my life. Fortunately, I think I moving in the right direction. Just know that you’re not the only one going through it. There’s a lot of pressure to have everything figured out by the time you’re 30. But don’t rush the process. You’ll pull through :-)
This is relatable af! You’re not alone. Missed you too! 💕
I missed you too. Always happy to see you in my sub box.
You've already kicked ass at RUclips. So I think success comes naturally to you. I bet it won't be long till you're killing it at something else.
Have fun in London and with your family at home.
Super happy for you being able to do this whole reset thing. Always do what's best for you! I've felt similar things for sure and it feels pretty great to know that it's not just me. I'm 20 myself and seeing you say these things at 30 gives me a kind of hope for the future in that life will still be okay if I don't figure it all out and that there's no rush either. We grow up with all these unrealistic taught expectations of being married, having kids, a perfect career, etc. by some arbitrary age and that just doesn't happen for everybody(and not everyone wants those things, either).Things don't always have to be perfectly in place and I think just exploring life is a great journey that's worth it even when we're not sure where we're going. Wishing you all the best, Cat!
I love how real you are with what you talk about. I always felt that you were a RUclipsr that everyone could relate with. You are an amazing individual lady, someone that talks about what you're dealing with that your subscribers are dealing with, so you're not alone and neither are we. Much love to you and I hope you find what makes you the happiest! I am 30 myself and have those moments too where I'm not sure what I want to do and where I want to go. Make sure that you're happiness is key, like I said I always loved your videos and hearing about your life :)
I’m sorry you’re going through this. I also do deal with depression and anxiety. Stay strong girly and it’s never to late to start what you truly are passionate about in life🖤
You’re starting to look more and more like marnie from halloween town, love it
i'm in my 30's and going through huge life changes as well. you used the word paralyzing in this video, and wow, what a great adjective. it feels like you're superglued in place and had concrete dumped over your head. it's wild. honestly acknowledging it is the first step, and then you've got to accept it. i think for me the thing that's helped the most is learning to be compassionate to me. and once i practiced self compassion i was able to start meditating and work on self forgiveness. i am finally coming to a really tranquil space introspectively of this just que sera sera contentment, but it's been... a journey. getting here. i think we get so caught up in perusing happiness that we forget about seeking peace. search for contentment. find tranquility. do more of what quiets your mind and then just robe yourself in that.
it doesn't feel like it when you're right in the middle of it, but this season will pass. it is a slow process, but it's a forward moving one. it may look stagnant from where you're standing, but just below the surface of you concentrate hard enough, you'll feel the current. just ride it out. we got this ❤️
When someone puts into words, something you have been trying to for the last year and half. Thank you x
You randomly came into my mind - used to watch your videos a long time ago! I hope you are doing well x
I feel exactly what youre feeling , im 29 and when i was younger i was almost with my whole life planned , but when i was 19 20 i get heavily deppressed and went on an spiral of not doing what i was expecting or wanted , and now that im much better mentally at 29 i feel like ive learned so much and i really dont care about other people life, like kids, marriage or there dream job, im me, i needed a little more time to deal with my own demons, that i still carry, but for some reason it feels more easy, yeah is not what everyone expected or blablabla but is my journey . Even tho im still a little stuck but i think im getting there, dont need to pressure u, dont need to compare to others lifes, for some people life works in a differene way, pick peace by peace what inspires u and motivates u, just remember that your path is not the same as the others. Much love.
This is exactly where I've been mentally for the last few years and I am 30. This year I quit my job and went back to school for the 3rd time to follow another passion, and hope that this one pans out for me. Thanks for this, always nice to know we aren't alone! Although I never wish others to struggle!
This is such an important video to post and I’m so happy you’re asking for advice. Even if it is to your subscribers :’). It’s totally normal to compare ourselves to others lives, but with the rise of social media, it’s more accessible to look at all these highlight reels of peoples lives and sit there and compare the fact that we aren’t at that level or in the same setting in life as they are. It’s inspiring to some, but to those who are lost and in a bad headspace, seeing all these successes and happy moments feel so bleak and unattainable.
Something that’s helped me with my mental health has been so surround myself with people who truly genuinely care for me. It’s good that you’re around your family and friends bc it brings you back to your roots and reminds you of who you are and what your worth. I’ve also leaned a lot on logic and psychology to help me out in situations. For example, sometimes I compare myself to people when they post their weight loss journey before and after pictures. Bc I have such a bad body image issue / body dysmorphia I get jealous of those people for making it look so easy to lose weight when I feel like I’ve tried everything. But then I get realistic. I didn’t ever stick to any of my workout regimens and that is all on me. Sure other things like toxic relationships and friendships factored into my failures with losing weight, but I feel like now I could go to a gym regularly and maybe attempt to try again.
Another thing I try to remember is that no one, even those you see doing very well in life, even they don’t have it all figured out. We are all constantly growing and evolving within our own timelines that our stresses change overtime. Just bc we are adults doesn’t mean there should be a pressure on us to be in a certain point in our lives. We all have different walks of life and it’s totally ok. I’ve also stopped looking at social media which has helped me a lot. 💗 I hope this was helpful! You’ve always been my fav to watch 💗
I didn’t even realise how long it has been, remember it like it was yesterday when you were uploading often.
Really hope you‘ve been doing well, it’s good to see you again.
i really hope london will be better for you!❤ and it's great that you talked about this because as you see a lot of people your age in the comments are going trough the same struggles and now you know you're not alone in this :))
Love hearing from you! Glad you're doing well and taking time to visit London!
I’ve been feeling pretty similarly, I’m 27 and since finishing college a little over two years ago I’ve felt so aimless and I feel so down about it. I guess I just really thought I would have found a passion by now? I hope you start feeling inspired soon but in the meantime I’m glad you’re sharing so we can all feel less alone :)
Missed you and your videos so much cat. You're amazing and keep doing you.
I have never related to you more! I feel all the exact same things... I’m in shock at how on the head it was. Thank you 😊 I’m and definitely interested in your journey bc I too feel that deep depression (I.e. being up until 4:30am). Good luck to you my dear. You are not alone.
Randomly thought to check how you wee after years and I'm so surprised you quit. Thank you for providing great content. I hope you are doing better and life is treating you well!
This morning (and over the past few weeks) I was definitely feeling something similar to what you discussed in this video. And it’s also crazy because I was just going through all of your old videos the other day! But anyways, thank you for posting this and being so transparent when it comes to mental health and anything of the sort- I know it can’t be easy most of the time because of the shame and fear we all hold on to (understandably). I hope things start to look up for you soon! ❤️ love you!
Happy Birthday Catherine. I believe that everyone should have the best birthday that they can in this new year in a safe way and that includes you. So have an amazing birthday today.
Hey cat! This video resonates with me so much on all the layers. I also turned 30 a short time ago. After working from project to project as an audio engineer the last couple of years I’m now realizing that I need to find something new that excites me. But sometimes I feel stuck and like I’m not progressing. All that just to say that I get where you are coming from here and let’s never stop trying to find new motivation. Anyway, Nice seeing you again.
i love your hair omg
I love this video! Thank you for being so open about your mental health!
Sooo glad you're back! I am 37 and feel the same way.. with the why am I not further in life...everyone is doing x, y, and z but really you set your own path! Start a new adventure its always good to know you tried vs. "what if". It's nice that you have a place you love to reflect and push restart! We need more honesty and realism vs. all this drama and brand deals.. It's fun to watch yes but its not relate-able.. I love that you are!
Hey Cat! I've been watching your videos for a long time, probably since I was in my early 20's and I'm 30 now. I went to university straight out of high school and had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. 4 years later I graduated with a degree in biology. I was still living in my parents house and had no close friends because my school was so big and my high school friends had all moved on. At that point I was pretty low. I was working part time at a local drug store and I thought to myself, what is the highlight of my day at work and how could I find a career which allowed me to have that everyday. I loved helping people, it gave me so much happiness. So it was then that I decided to apply to nursing school. I've been nursing now for 4 years. Something I would have never thought I would be doing 10 years ago and I love it! I know you too will find your way. We are always here for you :)
Cat, I want to give you a big hug right now 🤗
Thank you for being so transparent and real. It helps all of us out there that are in the same situation not feel so alone. I just turned 28 and the way you described how you’re feeling is 100% what I’m currently going through. I feel so ashamed of where I’m at right now - but then I realize that I’m feeling ashamed because I’m comparing my life to everyone else’s. I think that is one of the root causes of our depression and anxiety. I’m slowly coming to terms with where I’m at right now, and I’m just taking it one day at a time. We will reach our destination and find our purpose. We’re just taking the longer route - and that is totally okay. 😊❤️
This is the most relatable video I’ve seen in a long time! With that being said; you also look the most at peace I’ve seen you in a long time!
I totally feel you on this.. I have a progressive neurodegenerative disease and I’ve been feeling that way for a long time. All of my friends are either getting married or having kids; and I’m over here, fighting for my life. It really freaking sucks. We should be friends haha, so we don’t feel so gosh darn isolated! I hope you feel better soon ♥️
I really enjoyed seeing this video both because I’ve missed watching your videos and because I can relate to it. Last year I went through a really hard time and have recently started feeling happier. I think what really helped me is giving myself something I had to do to get out of the house and talk to people even if I didn’t want to.
I related to this video soooo much 💯💯💯 I think everyone has moments like this in their life. Stay strong 💪 everything is going to work out. 💕
I've been watching your channel for a long time and I feel like you should make more videos like these! super real videos about your life and stuff/maybe some day in the life vlogs. A lot of us are going through similar stuff and its so nice to watch someone and relate to them!!
hi cat
ive been going through a really lonely phase in my life
but your video made my day better
loved hearing from you
Good to see you again Cat! I honestly don't know what I'm doing at 23 so it was nice to listen about what you've been going through.
I feel very similar even though I'm only 24. I have no idea what I'm doing and where I fit in the world. I feel like all my friends have gone on to studying, working, engaged and having babies. Meanwhile I'm unemployed (been on the job hunt for years unsuccessfully), single, live with my parents and don't drive (I get really anxious trying to drive). Trying to be positive and hoping that things change soon. I hope you still post the occasional video to check in. I use to watch you, Joey, Meghan and Ingrid a lot as a teenager and it's just so comforting to hear you have a genuine chat and catch up with us. Everything will turn out okay eventually xx
this was really what i needed right now!! i'm 23 and have just moved back to my parents home, all of my friends from school have 'traditional' lives and i'm kind of just the odd one out, it's reassuring to know there's so many more people out there in the same situation, we can do this! xx
(ps. cat you literally still look 21, drop a skincare routine girl! ❤️)
I’ve always admired your way with words 💗 Keep swimming and you will get through this!
We love you too Cat. So good to see you again on here. Number one rule, don’t ever give up. If the next thing falls through, move on to the next one and the one after that. Enjoy your time to refresh and restart in England and come back and start again. You can do it 👏🏻👍🏻 Have a fabulous day Cat 😃
Hi! I watched the whole thing and I definitely feel like I am in a very similar situation as you this past year. The thing that really helps me though is trying new things and finding communities that I connect with and feel safe in. I am an artist and I recently got into stand up comedy. Finding groups of people who do those things and going to shows has helped me so much. You can definitely find something new that you are excited about.
I just started up my youtube channel yesterday that I stopped 7 years ago because of bullying and then uni distracted me. After logging in I saw this video right away and its funny that we both shared a youtube cleanse. I feel with you because 8 years ago I drew a portrait of you as you were one of my favourite RUclipsrs, you responded to the video and the fact we both came back to this community shows the support you can find here. Keep soul searching.
I feel you. I just moved back with my mom at 29 and I'm really unsure what to do next. It's like living in limbo. I'm just trying to stay optimistic that something will work out and it will be better than anything I can imagine right now. ❤️
this is the most real and relatable video i have seen on youtube in a long time. its hard to be going through an uncertain time like this, but seeing a video from someone in a similar space makes it a bit more bearable. 2019 has been a roller coaster, but brighter days are on the horizon for all of us, i'm sure of it! hang in there Cat, and know that you're not alone.
Love you Cat! It's good to see you again.
It's so good to see you again, love. I'm so sorry that this last year and a half has been so hard for you, I truly am, and I empathize. I'm in a very similar place as you are. I have no idea what I want to do with my life and I constantly feel like I'm running out of time to figure it out. You're not alone whatsoever, and you're such a strong person. You're going to get through this and we're all rooting for you. You're loved, you're cherished and I wish you nothing but the best💖💖
Hi cat! I absolutely get u bc I’m going through the same thing and what I’ve found helps me is trying a lot of different things that I simply enjoy. I was so lost since I started uni and wanted to drop out the whole time, now I just graduated and I resent everything abt it so I just got a temp job and started traveling and what I’ve found is that sometimes life doesn’t necessarily need to have a direction... we should be here enjoying ourselves and doing whatever it takes to feel happy and fulfilled. I haven’t figured anything out and I probably never will but I know I’m building a better future simply bc I am for the first time enjoying what I do. And tbh it was probably the same for u too. U started RUclips just bc you liked it with no sense or need for direction and that lead you to a career so try to enjoy yourself go back to the basics, to the things that actually matter to you and I’m sure you’ll find your way. I’m sending you the best vibes and reminding u that being stuck or unhappy shouldn’t make u ashamed, we all go through that at some point and you’re super brave for taking the necessary steps to make yourself feel like yourself again!! Good luck
You can do it catt!! You’re a very strong girl just hang in there take care 💓
Girl yesssss. Living vulnerably means not always knowing and not always "working towards something" which is so so hard for me. I hope you start to feel yourself again soon :)
This definitely sounds relatable. I was in that place a few years ago. Unfortunately, I had to go through a tough time to get through it, so that part sounds very familiar.
However, everything got so much easier and better when I realized and accepted that I don’t want a conventional life. All of my friends are in relationships/married, and most have kids and a career plan. And honestly, I don’t see any of those as goals for me. I have people I love in my life, I’m exploring the world when I can, exploring different career paths etc. And I’m really happy. I get to be me. Not a “me” that pretends to want what society tells me I should want.
Best of luck with everything.
This just helped me realize how I feel about my life. Thank you!
This feelings you are talking about are so relatable, thanks for sharing. I hope you are more motivated now that some months have passed :) Step by step!
I totally get it. I graduated college a year ago with a degree in advertising and public relations, but have no passion or desire to do anything in that field. I wish I was honest with myself while I was in school and switched my major, but I was ashamed to admit I didn't know what I wanted to do and was scared to be a 5th/6th year senior. And now I'm even scared to go back to school because I'll be older than everyone. I took time off to figure my life out and now job searching. But the anxiety/this circle of thought is just so paralyzing all I do is procrastinate. Ughhhh. I really relate to your depression and just staring at the wall feeling regret and questioning the purpose of it all. I'm taking it step by step though and reminding myself that even a little progress is still progress. Like getting up earlier, not laying down for as long, reaching out to friends, etc. Thank you for sharing.
Years and years ago you taught me something huge about myself. You made a video talking about personality types, particularly extroverts and introverts. I can not tell you how much that has changed my life. It certainly affects every aspect of my life. I got a new deeper understanding of my own actions and also my surroundings thanks to you. I just want to thank you for opening that door for me at a time when I needed it. Cat, I really hope you find your new path. You certainly helped me find mine.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I appreciate you updating us on your life. I'm glad you acknowledge that you have people who love and care about you. I know you will get through this low, I believe in you! Keep fighting, Cat! ♡
100% me right now. Thank you for making this video, it really helped me in this moment to feel I’m really not alone in these types of thoughts and feelings.
You’re going to get through this!! Wishing you the best
Heyyy Cat! It's great to see you make a video again that's more just for you as opposed to you vlogging for views (not that that's a bad thing but it's nice to see you making something cuz you have a want to)
There's no shame in living with your parents again. That's what they're there for. Family is SO important when you're going through a tough time. I'm glad you're working on yourself. It's nice to see. Too often people stay in bad places because they can't see it getting better or they're afraid of it getting worse, and it's great to see that you took a step back from something that had become toxic to you.
And you have friends in London Cat. Friends who have posted that they're feeling similar to you. Friends that are also taking breaks from RUclips right now. Idk how much you talk to them these days, but you can talk to/hang out with your friends without having to make a video. Or do much of anything. (Idk if this is a thing you are already doing or if you've had a falling out with the people I'm hunting at, and it's none of anyone's business if either is the case, but I know that if you're feeling shame/lost that it can be easy to forget that they're are other people out there experiencing what you are and you can feel like you're burdening them with your problems. You're not. If they're your friends they WANT to hear about your problems and friends WANT to help their friends.)
Talk to a therapist, find a support group, take up some excersising-its hard to think when you're struggling to catch your breath, learn a highly repetitive skill (like crochet or something) that allows you to focus without having to think to much-its a great way to mediate (and make stuff). Mostly just go easy on yourself, you're going through a rough patch but you'll make it to the other side. And that can be hard to remember (that much I know intimately) but it's really important to remind yourself that this won't always be how you feel and that this reset is good and important and temporary. Honestly, get a dumb 9-5 desk job or customer service position for a few months, it'll get you out of the house and have you meeting new people. It won't be glamorous (or fun) but it might help you feel like you have some semblance of control over your life and give you a routine to rely on while you're figuring out what to do next. (Routine has been one of the most important aspects of my own recovery and to getting my life together)
You can do this Cat. Just take a deep breath and try to remember that you are strong enough to take whatever life throws at you, you wouldn't have survived 10+ years on the internet if that weren't the case. :)
so glad this came up in my feed... I RELATE TO EVEN THE SMALLEST DETAILS!! i graduated college, but came back to my parents’ after many failed jobs
I haven't been in a good place mentally since my grandma died. I'm really struggling to find out what I want to do with my life, I've compleyely lost my appetite, I feel lonely because my best friend has developed some damaging habits. I hate seeing her like this and we barely get along anymore. I feel guilty because maybe I'm just not good enough as a friend but at the same time I feel like she's becoming a bad influence in my life, making me feel low all the time. I'm glad you posted this video because it made me realise how important it is to be kind to yourself. I've always looked for a purpose, I've felt like my life isn't worth living if I don't have a purpose but I think there is no other goal to achieve than living your life to the fullest and being true to yourself. I hope you will feel better soon. You're amazing and it's okay to not have everything planned out. Have a nice day!!
Was so happy to see you uploaded. I hope London is wonderful for you. I completely understand how you feel about life right now. I’m in the middle of a deep depressive episode and losing friends and might lose my job and it’s very difficult to find a purpose. But we all have to hang in there because we do have a purpose and it will get better. I hope you find what you want to do that’ll make you happy and that you’ll feel brave enough to take that leap. I believe in you and it’s so good to see you and hear about how you’re doing. Keep fighting and you will get there. Love you! xx
Happy Birtheay Catherine. I hope that you have the most special and best birthday that you can have whilst indoors.
Cat!! I totally understood EVERYTHING you talked about, I hardly ever comment on any video but I can 100% relate to every single thing you said. Thank you for making this video, making me feel a little less weird, and thank you for putting into words the things I can’t express. I will send you a DM in instagram and hopefully you’ll see it but if not, please know at least one person can totally relate but I’m sure there’s so many more of us and thank you for being so open, and vulnerable ❤️
Man, the amount of times I’ve been in that same position you were. It took a lot of self-reflecting and perspective for me to get out of dark places. Never be afraid to reach out because people want to help you, even if it feels uncomfortable.
Yep, right there with you! I guess there was a reason i was compelled to watch your video. I do the same, hide, stay by myself , live in my head.
I hope you're doing alright cat, sending you lots of love ❤
Hey girl! It’s good to see ya again! Something that I find comfort in when I start feeling like that is knowing that the story is not written all the way through yet. And, while I may not know what the heck is coming, at least I’m charge of writing it still. Like it’s not all set in stone, ya know? I have a world of possibilities still and that’s pretty cool. So, then I focus on that thankful feeling and try to enjoy focusing on the moment . I don’t know if that makes sense but I think as hard as not knowing what our purpose is, it makes me sadder to think of an alternate life where I didn’t even get the chance to come up with one like my life is already done and chosen and written and I just gotta deal with it. Not sure if that made any sense at all but I hope it helped at least a little. Hang in there! You got this! 💖
I miss the old days of youtube,
I really Hope you are well Cat, sending lots of love 😘